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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:02,833 (funky pop music) 2 00:00:42,191 --> 00:00:45,932 - [Train Announcer] Approaching the station square. 3 00:00:45,932 --> 00:00:48,765 (funky pop music) 4 00:01:31,875 --> 00:01:34,708 (unnerving music) 5 00:01:42,729 --> 00:01:46,194 - Hi, this is Lorri at the suicide crisis hotline. 6 00:01:46,194 --> 00:01:47,173 I'm here to help you, 7 00:01:47,173 --> 00:01:49,673 but first can I get your name? 8 00:01:51,134 --> 00:01:52,967 - Hi, my name is Troy. 9 00:01:58,427 --> 00:02:02,260 - Hi, Troy, this is Lorri we've talked before. 10 00:02:03,181 --> 00:02:05,181 So, how are you feeling? 11 00:02:07,441 --> 00:02:11,108 - Hi, Lorri, it's nice to talk to you again. 12 00:02:11,994 --> 00:02:14,911 - Hi, Troy, so how are you feeling? 13 00:02:19,886 --> 00:02:21,219 - You know just, 14 00:02:23,587 --> 00:02:27,754 you know, maybe I shouldn't have called this time, I only, 15 00:02:29,713 --> 00:02:32,630 I got home and everything seems so, 16 00:02:35,355 --> 00:02:37,963 I mean I missed my train, 17 00:02:37,963 --> 00:02:39,728 and I had to wait. 18 00:02:39,728 --> 00:02:41,311 There was this guy. 19 00:02:42,718 --> 00:02:46,218 - So, Troy, how are you feeling right now? 20 00:02:47,661 --> 00:02:49,494 - Desperate, hopeless, 21 00:02:51,047 --> 00:02:53,847 kind of like I'm never not gonna be broke, 22 00:02:53,847 --> 00:02:56,014 and lame, and just stupid. 23 00:02:57,776 --> 00:03:01,055 - Okay, Troy, first off you're not stupid. 24 00:03:01,055 --> 00:03:02,863 I can tell that just by hearing you speak 25 00:03:02,863 --> 00:03:05,363 whenever you call, okay, Troy? 26 00:03:07,157 --> 00:03:07,990 - Okay. 27 00:03:08,974 --> 00:03:10,253 - Good. 28 00:03:10,253 --> 00:03:11,976 Now I know that financial troubles 29 00:03:11,976 --> 00:03:14,083 can make you feel desperate, 30 00:03:14,083 --> 00:03:15,804 but you just have to look past all that 31 00:03:15,804 --> 00:03:18,129 to a future that's more hopeful 32 00:03:18,129 --> 00:03:20,778 and make a plan on how to get to that place. 33 00:03:20,778 --> 00:03:22,623 - Oh, okay. 34 00:03:22,623 --> 00:03:23,790 I mean thanks. 35 00:03:26,245 --> 00:03:29,495 It just sounds so easy coming from you. 36 00:03:30,567 --> 00:03:32,038 I don't know I just-- 37 00:03:32,038 --> 00:03:35,288 - Well, that's what I'm here for, Troy. 38 00:03:37,011 --> 00:03:38,011 - It's nice. 39 00:03:39,353 --> 00:03:42,936 I mean to have someone to call and talk to. 40 00:03:44,982 --> 00:03:46,732 There's not a lot of, 41 00:03:48,502 --> 00:03:50,419 see it's just kind of-- 42 00:03:52,245 --> 00:03:56,150 - It helps to have someone to talk to, doesn't it, Troy? 43 00:03:56,150 --> 00:03:57,487 - Uh-huh. 44 00:03:57,487 --> 00:04:01,487 - Good 'cause that's what I'm here for you know. 45 00:04:02,332 --> 00:04:03,165 - I know. 46 00:04:05,909 --> 00:04:06,742 - Troy, 47 00:04:08,971 --> 00:04:12,992 I'm gonna do something I'm really not supposed to do, 48 00:04:12,992 --> 00:04:15,934 but I feel that you and I have a good connection, 49 00:04:15,934 --> 00:04:20,127 and I want you to be able to reach me whenever you need me. 50 00:04:20,127 --> 00:04:23,638 So, I'm gonna give you my personal number. 51 00:04:23,638 --> 00:04:26,638 Do you have something to write with? 52 00:04:29,223 --> 00:04:30,056 - Yeah. 53 00:04:33,789 --> 00:04:34,622 - Okay. 54 00:04:39,026 --> 00:04:39,859 - Okay. 55 00:04:41,951 --> 00:04:42,784 I'll just, 56 00:04:45,692 --> 00:04:49,990 I'm gonna, I guess I'll go to bed I gotta get up early. 57 00:04:49,990 --> 00:04:51,644 - Are you okay, Troy? 58 00:04:51,644 --> 00:04:55,593 You're not gonna hurt yourself in any way are you? 59 00:04:55,593 --> 00:04:57,229 - Yeah. 60 00:04:57,229 --> 00:04:58,309 I mean no. 61 00:04:58,309 --> 00:04:59,976 Yeah, I'm all right. 62 00:05:00,821 --> 00:05:02,415 I'm not gonna hurt myself. 63 00:05:02,415 --> 00:05:06,141 - Because we can keep on talking if you want to. 64 00:05:06,141 --> 00:05:07,491 - No. 65 00:05:07,491 --> 00:05:08,639 I mean yeah. 66 00:05:08,639 --> 00:05:10,722 No, I'll be okay, thanks. 67 00:05:15,272 --> 00:05:17,189 - Alright sweet dreams. 68 00:05:19,574 --> 00:05:20,574 - Okay, bye. 69 00:05:31,990 --> 00:05:36,073 (dramatic acoustic guitar music) 70 00:08:04,188 --> 00:08:07,105 (upbeat pop music) 71 00:08:14,702 --> 00:08:15,829 - Hello. 72 00:08:15,829 --> 00:08:17,518 - [Troy] Is-- 73 00:08:17,518 --> 00:08:19,018 - Hello? - Is this, 74 00:08:20,186 --> 00:08:21,556 Lorri? 75 00:08:21,556 --> 00:08:23,556 - This is who's calling? 76 00:08:25,032 --> 00:08:28,282 - [Troy] This is Troy from the hotline. 77 00:08:30,958 --> 00:08:33,082 - Oh, hey, Troy. 78 00:08:33,082 --> 00:08:35,137 Well, it's been awhile. 79 00:08:35,137 --> 00:08:36,137 How are you? 80 00:08:37,121 --> 00:08:39,772 - [Troy] Yeah, I called the hotline, 81 00:08:39,772 --> 00:08:41,649 and someone else answered, 82 00:08:41,649 --> 00:08:43,815 and I asked for you, 83 00:08:43,815 --> 00:08:47,148 but they said they couldn't transfer me. 84 00:08:48,554 --> 00:08:49,872 I kind of got upset 85 00:08:49,872 --> 00:08:53,789 and they told me you didn't work there anymore, 86 00:08:55,605 --> 00:08:57,272 so I thought I mean, 87 00:08:58,354 --> 00:08:59,800 I mean if it's a bad time. 88 00:08:59,800 --> 00:09:01,035 - No, no it's fine. 89 00:09:01,035 --> 00:09:02,417 I just got out of the shower. 90 00:09:02,417 --> 00:09:04,429 - [Troy] I didn't wanna bother you. 91 00:09:04,429 --> 00:09:08,663 I'm sure you have things you're like doing. 92 00:09:08,663 --> 00:09:13,344 - No, I got nothing going on right here trust me. 93 00:09:13,344 --> 00:09:14,844 - [Troy] Oh, okay. 94 00:09:16,340 --> 00:09:18,533 So what happened? 95 00:09:18,533 --> 00:09:20,116 - What do you mean? 96 00:09:21,040 --> 00:09:24,264 - [Troy] Well, you're not at the hotline anymore. 97 00:09:24,264 --> 00:09:26,204 Did you get fired or did you quit? 98 00:09:26,204 --> 00:09:27,871 - I got fired, Troy. 99 00:09:29,535 --> 00:09:32,620 - Well, why would they do that? 100 00:09:32,620 --> 00:09:36,787 I mean you were really good at doing that, like, I mean-- 101 00:09:39,407 --> 00:09:40,986 - It's a little complicated, Troy, 102 00:09:40,986 --> 00:09:43,759 but you don't have to worry about it. 103 00:09:43,759 --> 00:09:45,715 Just keep on calling me on my cell 104 00:09:45,715 --> 00:09:46,913 like you're doing now. 105 00:09:46,913 --> 00:09:50,598 That's why I gave you my number remember? 106 00:09:50,598 --> 00:09:53,064 - [Troy] You're sure it's not a bad time? 107 00:09:53,064 --> 00:09:54,397 - Yes, I'm sure. 108 00:09:55,324 --> 00:09:56,991 - [Troy] Okay, good. 109 00:09:59,779 --> 00:10:02,398 (engines revving) 110 00:10:02,398 --> 00:10:04,535 - Where are you, Troy? 111 00:10:04,535 --> 00:10:06,785 - So what are you doing now 112 00:10:07,994 --> 00:10:10,407 that you're not at the hotline anymore? 113 00:10:10,407 --> 00:10:12,432 - [Lorri] I'm not doing anything right now, 114 00:10:12,432 --> 00:10:14,599 just taking some time off. 115 00:10:15,562 --> 00:10:17,369 Hey, Troy, I can hear traffic. 116 00:10:17,369 --> 00:10:19,606 Where did you say you were? 117 00:10:19,606 --> 00:10:20,856 - I don't know. 118 00:10:22,378 --> 00:10:24,563 It's high up though. 119 00:10:24,563 --> 00:10:28,053 - [Lorri] Did you say high up, Troy? 120 00:10:28,053 --> 00:10:30,386 Hey, Troy, what can you see? 121 00:10:32,508 --> 00:10:36,341 - I don't know traffic, a railing, a big drop. 122 00:10:37,761 --> 00:10:40,027 I don't know it's cold. 123 00:10:40,027 --> 00:10:43,415 - Okay, Troy, I want you to listen to me right now. 124 00:10:43,415 --> 00:10:44,543 Are you listening? 125 00:10:44,543 --> 00:10:46,408 - [Troy] Yeah. 126 00:10:46,408 --> 00:10:47,241 - You listening? 127 00:10:47,241 --> 00:10:48,074 - [Troy] Yes. 128 00:10:48,074 --> 00:10:49,000 - Good. 129 00:10:49,000 --> 00:10:51,363 Here's what I want you to do. 130 00:10:51,363 --> 00:10:53,631 I want you to cut this crap out. 131 00:10:53,631 --> 00:10:57,062 Get your ass off that bridge or whatever and go home. 132 00:10:57,062 --> 00:10:58,229 - [Troy] Okay. 133 00:10:59,256 --> 00:11:00,984 - [Lorri] I'm coming over. 134 00:11:00,984 --> 00:11:03,280 Where do you live? 135 00:11:03,280 --> 00:11:05,030 - You're coming over? 136 00:11:06,685 --> 00:11:08,031 - [Lorri] You and I are gonna talk about this shit 137 00:11:08,031 --> 00:11:11,380 until we get you straightened out tonight. 138 00:11:11,380 --> 00:11:12,790 - Wow. 139 00:11:12,790 --> 00:11:13,671 - [Lorri] What? 140 00:11:13,671 --> 00:11:17,522 - I don't know I guess I just never heard you swear before. 141 00:11:17,522 --> 00:11:19,507 - [Lorri] Well, get used to it. 142 00:11:19,507 --> 00:11:21,340 Now where do you live? 143 00:11:22,704 --> 00:11:26,287 - It's 25 Coskeoso Drive in the south side. 144 00:11:27,993 --> 00:11:30,551 I am gonna need a few minutes 145 00:11:30,551 --> 00:11:34,134 to straighten a few things up though first. 146 00:11:35,017 --> 00:11:35,850 - [Lorri] Don't worry about that. 147 00:11:35,850 --> 00:11:37,463 I'll be there in like 20 minutes. 148 00:11:37,463 --> 00:11:39,880 Just get your ass home, okay? 149 00:11:42,397 --> 00:11:45,147 (dramatic music) 150 00:11:51,718 --> 00:11:54,342 (knocking on door) 151 00:11:54,342 --> 00:11:57,175 (dramatic music) 152 00:12:04,537 --> 00:12:05,370 - Hi. 153 00:12:06,666 --> 00:12:09,039 - [Lorri] Not getting any warmer out here, Troy. 154 00:12:09,039 --> 00:12:10,456 - I'm sorry here. 155 00:12:15,375 --> 00:12:18,375 - So nice to finally meet you, Troy. 156 00:12:20,379 --> 00:12:21,212 - Yeah. 157 00:12:22,778 --> 00:12:24,127 Hi. 158 00:12:24,127 --> 00:12:26,044 Thanks for coming over. 159 00:12:27,796 --> 00:12:30,546 - Well, great place you got here. 160 00:12:32,628 --> 00:12:36,047 - I got it cheap and I was gonna fix it up, 161 00:12:36,047 --> 00:12:37,797 but a kind of didn't. 162 00:12:40,000 --> 00:12:41,583 - Yeah, it happens. 163 00:12:44,110 --> 00:12:46,527 My, my, my what have we here? 164 00:12:50,070 --> 00:12:50,903 Thin rope, 165 00:12:52,027 --> 00:12:53,027 clumsy knot, 166 00:12:54,675 --> 00:12:55,592 low ceiling 167 00:12:57,230 --> 00:13:00,263 not long enough of a fall to break your neck. 168 00:13:00,263 --> 00:13:02,640 You just hang there strangling 169 00:13:02,640 --> 00:13:04,640 pretty painful and ugly 170 00:13:07,417 --> 00:13:10,104 unless that's what you want. 171 00:13:10,104 --> 00:13:13,325 - You sound like you know a lot about it. 172 00:13:13,325 --> 00:13:15,877 Well, maybe it's not a coincidence 173 00:13:15,877 --> 00:13:18,932 that I worked at the hotline, Troy. 174 00:13:18,932 --> 00:13:21,349 - You're different in person. 175 00:13:23,674 --> 00:13:27,922 - Well, do you act exactly like yourself at work, 176 00:13:27,922 --> 00:13:30,318 or do you act the way you think the people there 177 00:13:30,318 --> 00:13:31,818 expect you to act? 178 00:13:35,756 --> 00:13:36,589 - Yeah. 179 00:13:38,471 --> 00:13:40,054 - So tell me, Troy 180 00:13:43,834 --> 00:13:45,751 why do you want to die? 181 00:13:47,402 --> 00:13:49,109 - I don't I just-- 182 00:13:49,109 --> 00:13:51,271 - Don't think about how want to answer me. 183 00:13:51,271 --> 00:13:54,021 Just say what comes to your mind. 184 00:13:55,752 --> 00:13:57,585 - I don't want to die. 185 00:13:59,293 --> 00:14:02,018 I just don't wanna be alive anymore. 186 00:14:02,018 --> 00:14:05,419 - You want the power to decide your own fate, 187 00:14:05,419 --> 00:14:09,588 a power you don't have in your daily life. 188 00:14:09,588 --> 00:14:10,421 - I don't. 189 00:14:12,564 --> 00:14:13,397 Maybe. 190 00:14:16,272 --> 00:14:18,689 My life is just so difficult 191 00:14:20,236 --> 00:14:22,403 and complicated and sucky. 192 00:14:26,688 --> 00:14:28,738 - Every one's life is, Troy. 193 00:14:28,738 --> 00:14:30,498 That's the secret. 194 00:14:30,498 --> 00:14:33,846 Every one feels exactly like you do sometimes. 195 00:14:33,846 --> 00:14:35,465 You're not different. 196 00:14:35,465 --> 00:14:37,138 You're normal. 197 00:14:37,138 --> 00:14:39,679 You don't see any point to life. 198 00:14:39,679 --> 00:14:42,723 You don't see any difference in the world with you in it 199 00:14:42,723 --> 00:14:44,815 and the world without you in it, 200 00:14:44,815 --> 00:14:47,933 and the truth is there isn't. 201 00:14:47,933 --> 00:14:49,642 We're all just a bunch of little creatures 202 00:14:49,642 --> 00:14:51,714 scurrying about doing routine acts 203 00:14:51,714 --> 00:14:54,447 that really don't effect anything. 204 00:14:54,447 --> 00:14:56,828 - So life is pointless? 205 00:14:56,828 --> 00:14:58,828 - That's the shit of it. 206 00:15:01,800 --> 00:15:02,633 What? 207 00:15:04,069 --> 00:15:08,236 - Nothing it's just this isn't normally how you talk. 208 00:15:09,683 --> 00:15:13,016 - Well, I'm off the clock now, aren't I? 209 00:15:14,524 --> 00:15:18,465 - I don't know what you want me to say. 210 00:15:18,465 --> 00:15:20,542 - So I guess my question is 211 00:15:20,542 --> 00:15:22,667 after how hopeless you feel 212 00:15:22,667 --> 00:15:27,074 why is it that you haven't killed yourself, Troy? 213 00:15:27,074 --> 00:15:28,074 - Wait what? 214 00:15:29,841 --> 00:15:32,076 - Well, you've been calling the hotline for what 215 00:15:32,076 --> 00:15:33,316 a year now. 216 00:15:33,316 --> 00:15:34,765 How many times have you needed someone 217 00:15:34,765 --> 00:15:37,553 to intervene in your little existential crisis? 218 00:15:37,553 --> 00:15:38,386 Five? 219 00:15:39,985 --> 00:15:41,152 - Why are you? 220 00:15:44,334 --> 00:15:46,875 - Before we get any further into this Troy, 221 00:15:46,875 --> 00:15:50,958 I want to know why all this desire and no action? 222 00:15:55,918 --> 00:15:57,739 - What are you doing? 223 00:15:57,739 --> 00:16:00,572 (unnerving music) 224 00:16:02,599 --> 00:16:04,832 - How's it feel, Troy? 225 00:16:04,832 --> 00:16:06,726 How's it feel to be so close to our own death 226 00:16:06,726 --> 00:16:08,749 you can almost taste it? 227 00:16:08,749 --> 00:16:09,582 - Stop. 228 00:16:10,456 --> 00:16:11,646 - What? 229 00:16:11,646 --> 00:16:14,479 This is what you wanted, isn't it? 230 00:16:15,924 --> 00:16:16,757 - Yes. 231 00:16:18,255 --> 00:16:20,221 - You don't look like you want it. 232 00:16:20,221 --> 00:16:23,721 You look so scared you could almost faint. 233 00:16:24,927 --> 00:16:27,337 Does the rope feel right against your neck? 234 00:16:27,337 --> 00:16:29,545 Is that why you picked it, 235 00:16:29,545 --> 00:16:31,395 or couldn't you afford a gun? 236 00:16:31,395 --> 00:16:34,228 (unnerving music) 237 00:16:38,043 --> 00:16:39,915 (Lorri sighing) 238 00:16:39,915 --> 00:16:41,687 Please tell me this isn't some long 239 00:16:41,687 --> 00:16:44,104 drawn out call for attention. 240 00:16:45,078 --> 00:16:48,328 Please tell me you're not one of those. 241 00:16:49,744 --> 00:16:50,905 (Troy mumbling) 242 00:16:50,905 --> 00:16:52,572 What, what was that? 243 00:16:53,841 --> 00:16:54,674 - I'm not. 244 00:16:55,895 --> 00:16:56,812 - Not what? 245 00:16:57,995 --> 00:16:59,245 - One of those. 246 00:17:00,672 --> 00:17:02,817 - Then what are you, Troy? 247 00:17:02,817 --> 00:17:05,950 Why you're still alive after all this time? 248 00:17:05,950 --> 00:17:08,597 Why is it that you haven't died yet? 249 00:17:08,597 --> 00:17:11,847 Could it be that you really wanna live? 250 00:17:13,105 --> 00:17:14,438 - No, I want to. 251 00:17:15,746 --> 00:17:17,632 - Want to what? 252 00:17:17,632 --> 00:17:19,801 What do you want do, Troy? 253 00:17:19,801 --> 00:17:22,134 Tell me what you want to do. 254 00:17:23,101 --> 00:17:24,434 - I want to die. 255 00:17:25,309 --> 00:17:26,142 - But? 256 00:17:28,082 --> 00:17:28,915 - But, 257 00:17:31,195 --> 00:17:32,395 but-- 258 00:17:32,395 --> 00:17:33,312 - But what? 259 00:17:37,680 --> 00:17:41,751 But you can't take that final step can you, Troy? 260 00:17:41,751 --> 00:17:43,820 There's some small defensive part of you 261 00:17:43,820 --> 00:17:45,996 that doesn't wanna let go, 262 00:17:45,996 --> 00:17:48,908 that doesn't wanna end this world of misery 263 00:17:48,908 --> 00:17:50,408 and pain and shit. 264 00:17:53,861 --> 00:17:56,433 Pretty sad if you think about, huh? 265 00:17:56,433 --> 00:17:59,049 Just one more thing you can't accomplish. 266 00:17:59,049 --> 00:18:01,882 (unnerving music) 267 00:18:07,013 --> 00:18:10,346 (dramatic choral music) 268 00:18:14,453 --> 00:18:16,703 Troy, you alright in there? 269 00:18:21,851 --> 00:18:23,492 You know, 270 00:18:23,492 --> 00:18:27,575 you and I have a real advantage over most people. 271 00:18:28,586 --> 00:18:29,879 - Really? 272 00:18:29,879 --> 00:18:31,395 - Really. 273 00:18:31,395 --> 00:18:32,630 I doubt you realize this 274 00:18:32,630 --> 00:18:35,224 but most people go through life totally unaware 275 00:18:35,224 --> 00:18:38,530 as to whether or not they're happy or sad. 276 00:18:38,530 --> 00:18:41,947 Like zombies they get up, eat, go to work 277 00:18:43,971 --> 00:18:45,967 take the kids to soccer, 278 00:18:45,967 --> 00:18:48,050 eat, watch TV, go to bed 279 00:18:49,268 --> 00:18:51,976 and the next day they do the same thing 280 00:18:51,976 --> 00:18:55,809 over and over not really living just existing, 281 00:18:58,573 --> 00:19:02,656 filling in the days, having no unrealistic goals, 282 00:19:04,079 --> 00:19:06,807 just waiting to pay off those kid's student loans 283 00:19:06,807 --> 00:19:10,274 so they can finally talk that Caribbean cruise. 284 00:19:10,274 --> 00:19:11,107 Whatever. 285 00:19:12,294 --> 00:19:14,008 And the whole time they have no fucking clue 286 00:19:14,008 --> 00:19:16,722 if they're miserable or not. 287 00:19:16,722 --> 00:19:19,803 - That doesn't sound so bad to me. 288 00:19:19,803 --> 00:19:21,371 - Of course it doesn't. 289 00:19:21,371 --> 00:19:25,057 Did kind of get the ass out of the mood spectrum didn't you? 290 00:19:25,057 --> 00:19:29,255 But consider yourself privileged to be one the few 291 00:19:29,255 --> 00:19:31,367 who can step outside of life 292 00:19:31,367 --> 00:19:34,385 and see it for what it really is, 293 00:19:34,385 --> 00:19:37,903 time spent wanting things you can't have. 294 00:19:37,903 --> 00:19:41,320 - Is talking like this why you got fired? 295 00:19:43,397 --> 00:19:44,314 - Probably. 296 00:19:45,379 --> 00:19:48,794 But the constant drinking on the job probably didn't help. 297 00:19:48,794 --> 00:19:53,503 - Before when we talked on the phone you sounded-- 298 00:19:53,503 --> 00:19:54,980 - Different? 299 00:19:54,980 --> 00:19:55,889 - Yes. 300 00:19:55,889 --> 00:19:58,368 - Helpful and hopeful? 301 00:19:58,368 --> 00:19:59,600 - Yes. 302 00:19:59,600 --> 00:20:01,059 - Full of benign wisdom for all you 303 00:20:01,059 --> 00:20:05,226 woe begotten misfits with your shit wired backwards? 304 00:20:06,548 --> 00:20:07,381 - Yes. 305 00:20:07,381 --> 00:20:10,342 - Yeah, well practice makes perfect. 306 00:20:10,342 --> 00:20:11,629 Spent two years of my life 307 00:20:11,629 --> 00:20:14,147 chatting up chemically imbalanced misfortunates 308 00:20:14,147 --> 00:20:17,550 with mommy issues, and misfiring synapses 309 00:20:17,550 --> 00:20:21,041 that never seem to realize the awful truth 310 00:20:21,041 --> 00:20:22,541 that no one cares, 311 00:20:23,728 --> 00:20:27,895 not about you, not about the big issues no one cares. 312 00:20:29,624 --> 00:20:31,207 People volunteer to make themselves 313 00:20:31,207 --> 00:20:34,916 feel better about their own empty lives 314 00:20:34,916 --> 00:20:36,999 or distract themselves from whatever issues 315 00:20:36,999 --> 00:20:39,540 they may have themselves. 316 00:20:39,540 --> 00:20:40,623 No one cares. 317 00:20:44,049 --> 00:20:46,716 - Does that mean you don't care? 318 00:20:48,027 --> 00:20:49,616 - That's right, Troy. 319 00:20:49,616 --> 00:20:50,699 I don't care. 320 00:20:52,443 --> 00:20:56,610 Now get out of there and dry off before you catch a cold. 321 00:21:02,429 --> 00:21:05,346 So you're not going to speak to me? 322 00:21:06,950 --> 00:21:08,898 - Why should I? 323 00:21:08,898 --> 00:21:12,648 All that comes out of your mouth is ugliness. 324 00:21:14,405 --> 00:21:15,405 - Very good. 325 00:21:16,365 --> 00:21:20,532 Did you rehearse that to yourself on the way downstairs? 326 00:21:22,632 --> 00:21:26,103 For what it's worth, Troy, I'm sorry. 327 00:21:26,103 --> 00:21:28,931 I said some pretty harsh things before, 328 00:21:28,931 --> 00:21:32,538 and if I hurt you in any way apologize. 329 00:21:32,538 --> 00:21:36,082 I wasn't trying to be mean honestly. 330 00:21:36,082 --> 00:21:37,704 I was just trying to help you see through 331 00:21:37,704 --> 00:21:40,371 all the lies the world tells us. 332 00:21:41,956 --> 00:21:43,318 I was just trying to tell you the truth 333 00:21:43,318 --> 00:21:47,485 that no one else has the balls to admit so you decide. 334 00:21:51,108 --> 00:21:52,275 - Decide what? 335 00:21:53,274 --> 00:21:56,274 - Decide if you want me to help you. 336 00:21:57,685 --> 00:21:59,275 - Help me how? 337 00:21:59,275 --> 00:22:01,275 - Help you to die, Troy. 338 00:22:06,470 --> 00:22:07,303 - Wait. 339 00:22:09,703 --> 00:22:12,453 You wanna help me to kill myself? 340 00:22:14,513 --> 00:22:16,763 - I believe you want me to. 341 00:22:22,884 --> 00:22:25,152 - I don't understand, you're suppose to-- 342 00:22:25,152 --> 00:22:27,402 - Be talking you out of it? 343 00:22:28,297 --> 00:22:29,380 - Well, yeah. 344 00:22:32,620 --> 00:22:35,228 - I mean that's what I should be doing, right? 345 00:22:35,228 --> 00:22:37,634 That's the right thing to do. 346 00:22:37,634 --> 00:22:41,011 But put yourself in my place for a second. 347 00:22:41,011 --> 00:22:44,105 What if after listening to you for all this time, 348 00:22:44,105 --> 00:22:46,936 I decide you do have nothing to live for. 349 00:22:46,936 --> 00:22:49,581 What if I just respect your right to end your life 350 00:22:49,581 --> 00:22:53,901 when and how you want to, is that so unimaginable? 351 00:22:53,901 --> 00:22:55,984 Isn't that what you want? 352 00:22:58,726 --> 00:22:59,559 - No. 353 00:23:00,438 --> 00:23:01,924 Yes, I don't know. 354 00:23:01,924 --> 00:23:03,491 Yes. 355 00:23:03,491 --> 00:23:05,408 - Then let me help you. 356 00:23:06,322 --> 00:23:08,431 - Help me kill myself? 357 00:23:08,431 --> 00:23:09,264 - Yes. 358 00:23:11,027 --> 00:23:11,944 - When now? 359 00:23:13,301 --> 00:23:15,301 - No, not now, but soon. 360 00:23:17,071 --> 00:23:20,212 There's some things you have to take care of first. 361 00:23:20,212 --> 00:23:22,245 - What like what write a note? 362 00:23:22,245 --> 00:23:23,934 - We'll get to that, 363 00:23:23,934 --> 00:23:26,161 but first I want you to make a list 364 00:23:26,161 --> 00:23:29,675 of five things that make you happy. 365 00:23:29,675 --> 00:23:33,108 Eating ice cream, walk in the park, 366 00:23:33,108 --> 00:23:35,812 watching The Wizard of Oz, whatever, 367 00:23:35,812 --> 00:23:39,914 and you and I are gonna do all those things before you go. 368 00:23:39,914 --> 00:23:43,997 (dramatic acoustic guitar music) 369 00:23:51,697 --> 00:23:52,530 - So, 370 00:23:54,380 --> 00:23:55,982 what happened to you? 371 00:23:55,982 --> 00:23:57,565 - What do you mean? 372 00:23:59,013 --> 00:24:01,596 - You have changed from before. 373 00:24:02,991 --> 00:24:04,596 - I haven't changed. 374 00:24:04,596 --> 00:24:05,513 This is me. 375 00:24:07,568 --> 00:24:10,032 - And the person on the phone? 376 00:24:10,032 --> 00:24:12,281 - Was who they wanted me to be. 377 00:24:12,281 --> 00:24:14,281 Fuckers can kiss my ass. 378 00:24:20,024 --> 00:24:23,607 - So that's why you're helping me to do it, 379 00:24:25,458 --> 00:24:27,234 to show them? 380 00:24:27,234 --> 00:24:30,991 - Is that why you think I'm helping you, Troy? 381 00:24:30,991 --> 00:24:33,408 - You said people don't care. 382 00:24:36,090 --> 00:24:37,497 They only do good things 383 00:24:37,497 --> 00:24:39,996 to make themselves feel good 384 00:24:39,996 --> 00:24:42,579 or cover up their own problems. 385 00:24:44,145 --> 00:24:44,978 - I did. 386 00:24:45,876 --> 00:24:49,293 What is it you're trying to ask me, Troy? 387 00:24:50,584 --> 00:24:53,494 - What is it about yourself 388 00:24:53,494 --> 00:24:57,077 that you're trying to forget by helping me? 389 00:24:58,291 --> 00:24:59,791 - Good, very good. 390 00:25:02,135 --> 00:25:05,263 See you're not stupid, Troy. 391 00:25:05,263 --> 00:25:08,864 You're actually a very astute judge of character. 392 00:25:08,864 --> 00:25:10,669 I do have my own selfish reasons 393 00:25:10,669 --> 00:25:12,669 for wanting to help you. 394 00:25:14,465 --> 00:25:15,298 - What? 395 00:25:16,481 --> 00:25:20,648 - I'll tell you when the time is right I promise, 396 00:25:21,772 --> 00:25:25,217 and then you can decide if you wanna go through with it. 397 00:25:25,217 --> 00:25:28,986 I'm not gonna force you into anything. 398 00:25:28,986 --> 00:25:29,819 - I know. 399 00:25:43,110 --> 00:25:44,360 - [Lorri] Troy. 400 00:25:47,614 --> 00:25:51,317 - That's where I was when I called you last night. 401 00:25:51,317 --> 00:25:53,876 - Why did you need to call me? 402 00:25:53,876 --> 00:25:57,548 You could've talked to anyone else at the hotline. 403 00:25:57,548 --> 00:25:58,798 - I don't know. 404 00:25:59,913 --> 00:26:03,413 The others just seemed so cold and remote, 405 00:26:06,266 --> 00:26:08,852 like they're saying something 406 00:26:08,852 --> 00:26:12,036 that's printed on a card or something. 407 00:26:12,036 --> 00:26:14,369 - They are printed on cards. 408 00:26:20,716 --> 00:26:23,470 - Last night I just thought-- 409 00:26:23,470 --> 00:26:24,637 - You thought? 410 00:26:26,378 --> 00:26:30,381 - I guess I just thought you'd understand. 411 00:26:30,381 --> 00:26:31,214 - I do. 412 00:26:33,682 --> 00:26:35,341 I think it'd be best if you stay with me 413 00:26:35,341 --> 00:26:38,516 while you were getting ready. 414 00:26:38,516 --> 00:26:40,434 - [Troy] What about my place? 415 00:26:40,434 --> 00:26:41,927 - [Lorri] What do you care? 416 00:26:41,927 --> 00:26:42,760 - True. 417 00:26:58,500 --> 00:27:00,750 I have to go get my jacket. 418 00:27:07,428 --> 00:27:10,011 (funky music) 419 00:27:17,374 --> 00:27:19,128 - Troy's house. 420 00:27:19,128 --> 00:27:21,648 - [Ms. Chapman] Hello, is Troy available? 421 00:27:21,648 --> 00:27:23,372 - No, Troy's busy. 422 00:27:23,372 --> 00:27:25,783 - [Ms. Chapman] Well, this is Ms. Chapman his supervisor 423 00:27:25,783 --> 00:27:27,846 at CI International Logistics. 424 00:27:27,846 --> 00:27:29,346 Troy hasn't shown up for work this week, 425 00:27:29,346 --> 00:27:31,507 and we're calling to find out why. 426 00:27:31,507 --> 00:27:34,507 - Oh hi, Ms. Chapman, yeah, he quit. 427 00:27:36,136 --> 00:27:37,527 - [Ms. Chapman] Really because this is the first 428 00:27:37,527 --> 00:27:39,238 I've heard of that. 429 00:27:39,238 --> 00:27:40,603 To my knowledge he didn't give notice 430 00:27:40,603 --> 00:27:44,020 or file a 74-W form with human resources. 431 00:27:45,110 --> 00:27:47,255 - Yeah, well, I remember him saying something about 432 00:27:47,255 --> 00:27:50,755 how your 7R-W form was a load of bullshit. 433 00:27:52,110 --> 00:27:54,605 - [Ms. Chapman] And to whom am I speaking if I may ask? 434 00:27:54,605 --> 00:27:56,522 - Oh, this is his wife. 435 00:27:57,381 --> 00:27:59,775 - [Ms. Chapman] I see, I didn't know Troy was married. 436 00:27:59,775 --> 00:28:02,169 - Yeah, we just eloped. 437 00:28:02,169 --> 00:28:05,903 Anyway from what Troy told me about you, Ms. Chapman 438 00:28:05,903 --> 00:28:09,512 you wouldn't know your ass from your right tit in the dark. 439 00:28:09,512 --> 00:28:11,851 - [Ms. Chapman] Mrs. Cavanaugh. 440 00:28:11,851 --> 00:28:13,783 - Oh, I kept my maiden name. 441 00:28:13,783 --> 00:28:15,283 It's, Ms. Glasser. 442 00:28:16,476 --> 00:28:18,291 - [Ms. Chapman] Very well Ms. Glasser. 443 00:28:18,291 --> 00:28:19,635 I'm required to list a reason 444 00:28:19,635 --> 00:28:21,615 for Troy's resignation in his file. 445 00:28:21,615 --> 00:28:22,890 Shall I simply list that he was 446 00:28:22,890 --> 00:28:25,152 dissatisfied with our company's policies? 447 00:28:25,152 --> 00:28:28,246 - List whatever you want you dried up old cunt. 448 00:28:28,246 --> 00:28:29,913 I don't give a fuck. 449 00:28:33,103 --> 00:28:35,173 - Who was that? 450 00:28:35,173 --> 00:28:36,609 - Telemarketers. 451 00:28:36,609 --> 00:28:37,609 You ready? 452 00:28:38,551 --> 00:28:39,384 - Yeah. 453 00:28:41,205 --> 00:28:44,382 - So you gonna miss this old dump? 454 00:28:44,382 --> 00:28:48,889 - Yeah, I never really felt at home here anyway 455 00:28:48,889 --> 00:28:52,056 or anywhere for that matter, 456 00:28:52,056 --> 00:28:53,473 so now I'm ready. 457 00:29:30,347 --> 00:29:31,502 - Just make yourself comfy. 458 00:29:31,502 --> 00:29:33,074 I'll be up in a minute. 459 00:29:33,074 --> 00:29:35,074 Just gonna change first. 460 00:30:07,266 --> 00:30:10,009 - This is a nice place. 461 00:30:10,009 --> 00:30:11,948 - Yeah, it's pretty nice. 462 00:30:11,948 --> 00:30:13,365 It was my aunt's. 463 00:30:16,466 --> 00:30:17,633 - Did she die? 464 00:30:19,627 --> 00:30:21,917 - Yeah, when I was 20. 465 00:30:21,917 --> 00:30:26,084 Throat cancer real bitch of a way to go, takes years. 466 00:30:28,635 --> 00:30:30,135 - Wow, that sucks. 467 00:30:33,384 --> 00:30:34,634 Were you close? 468 00:30:37,112 --> 00:30:40,320 - No, I never really knew her. 469 00:30:40,320 --> 00:30:42,320 She was my mom's sister. 470 00:30:43,331 --> 00:30:45,150 Think she felt bad about never being there 471 00:30:45,150 --> 00:30:49,505 when I was running around causing all sorts of trouble. 472 00:30:49,505 --> 00:30:51,071 I think she thought if I had a nice place 473 00:30:51,071 --> 00:30:55,238 to lay my head down I'd stop acting like such a hellion. 474 00:30:58,657 --> 00:30:59,824 - Did it work? 475 00:31:01,323 --> 00:31:02,156 - Hell no. 476 00:31:03,144 --> 00:31:06,135 You should've seen some of the parties we threw here. 477 00:31:06,135 --> 00:31:09,218 It would've have been Caligula blush. 478 00:31:13,956 --> 00:31:14,789 - So, 479 00:31:17,342 --> 00:31:18,842 it's just you now? 480 00:31:20,600 --> 00:31:21,850 - Just me what? 481 00:31:28,712 --> 00:31:31,828 - You don't have a boyfriend? 482 00:31:31,828 --> 00:31:33,411 - No, why should I? 483 00:31:36,761 --> 00:31:38,261 - Well, no I just, 484 00:31:39,476 --> 00:31:40,726 you're just so, 485 00:31:42,923 --> 00:31:45,090 I just assumed you naturally-- 486 00:31:45,090 --> 00:31:48,857 - Yeah, well, maybe my problem gets in the way of 487 00:31:48,857 --> 00:31:52,940 having a boyfriend did you ever think about that? 488 00:31:54,644 --> 00:31:58,477 - Your problem won't let you have a boyfriend? 489 00:31:59,838 --> 00:32:02,176 - I shouldn't drink. 490 00:32:02,176 --> 00:32:04,093 - What is your problem? 491 00:32:07,553 --> 00:32:10,803 - I had a boyfriend once when I was 11. 492 00:32:12,875 --> 00:32:14,978 There was this boy Jason Rivasky 493 00:32:14,978 --> 00:32:18,811 who I was totally and completely in love with. 494 00:32:22,610 --> 00:32:25,610 - So what happened did he move away? 495 00:32:28,424 --> 00:32:29,257 - No. 496 00:32:30,610 --> 00:32:33,324 He ran in front of the school one day 497 00:32:33,324 --> 00:32:35,074 and got hit by a bus. 498 00:32:36,819 --> 00:32:38,986 He was running to try to catch up with me 499 00:32:38,986 --> 00:32:41,569 so we could walk home together. 500 00:32:44,398 --> 00:32:48,315 He flew for 25 feet before landing on his head. 501 00:32:51,348 --> 00:32:53,979 He lived for five days after, 502 00:32:53,979 --> 00:32:55,729 but he never woke up. 503 00:33:03,107 --> 00:33:06,178 I didn't wanna go to the funeral 504 00:33:06,178 --> 00:33:08,095 but my parents made me. 505 00:33:09,611 --> 00:33:11,332 I didn't wanna walk up to the casket 506 00:33:11,332 --> 00:33:14,201 and see what was left of the boy 507 00:33:14,201 --> 00:33:17,652 who I was so completely in love with 508 00:33:17,652 --> 00:33:19,069 but they made me. 509 00:33:21,178 --> 00:33:24,178 So I walked up to the casket alone, 510 00:33:26,305 --> 00:33:28,831 and when I looked in, 511 00:33:28,831 --> 00:33:32,581 I saw him and he was so still and so perfect, 512 00:33:35,515 --> 00:33:37,323 and I felt something 513 00:33:37,323 --> 00:33:40,823 that I can't describe even 15 years later. 514 00:33:44,023 --> 00:33:48,190 I wanted to be in there next to him in the casket. 515 00:33:49,540 --> 00:33:53,540 I wanted to feel how his skin felt against mine. 516 00:33:55,576 --> 00:33:57,262 I wanted to listen to the silence 517 00:33:57,262 --> 00:33:59,845 where his heartbeat should be, 518 00:34:01,184 --> 00:34:03,368 and I knew he would never be as perfect 519 00:34:03,368 --> 00:34:05,451 as he was at that moment, 520 00:34:06,988 --> 00:34:10,321 and I knew that I wanted to be with him. 521 00:34:11,843 --> 00:34:13,402 You understand what I mean, Troy 522 00:34:13,402 --> 00:34:15,319 when I say be with him? 523 00:34:19,045 --> 00:34:20,628 - Yeah, I think so. 524 00:34:24,243 --> 00:34:26,614 - It took years and years of my parents 525 00:34:26,614 --> 00:34:29,043 sending me to therapy, 526 00:34:29,043 --> 00:34:31,746 half ass suicide attempts, 527 00:34:31,746 --> 00:34:34,788 dozens of bad relationships, 528 00:34:34,788 --> 00:34:38,371 experimenting with drugs, drinking, girls, 529 00:34:41,631 --> 00:34:45,464 and nothing could fill this hole inside of me 530 00:34:46,949 --> 00:34:49,532 until I realized the one thing 531 00:34:51,597 --> 00:34:55,764 that could fill this void that I had in me for so long. 532 00:34:57,511 --> 00:35:02,069 So you see, Troy, I do want something from you. 533 00:35:02,069 --> 00:35:05,025 I'll help you kill yourself, 534 00:35:05,025 --> 00:35:07,775 and after you're dead I want you. 535 00:35:14,305 --> 00:35:16,840 This isn't the way I wanted it to come out. 536 00:35:16,840 --> 00:35:17,673 I'm sorry. 537 00:35:18,887 --> 00:35:22,114 Let's talk about this more tomorrow when we're sober, okay. 538 00:35:22,114 --> 00:35:23,031 Good night. 539 00:35:29,448 --> 00:35:32,448 (eerie tense music) 540 00:36:13,464 --> 00:36:15,131 So about last night. 541 00:36:16,335 --> 00:36:17,573 - [Troy] Okay. 542 00:36:17,573 --> 00:36:20,211 - [Lorri] What I said I mean. 543 00:36:20,211 --> 00:36:21,381 - [Troy] Okay. 544 00:36:21,381 --> 00:36:22,631 - [Lorri] Okay? 545 00:36:23,625 --> 00:36:24,774 - [Troy] Yeah, 546 00:36:24,774 --> 00:36:26,715 - [Lorri] You're not weirded out or anything? 547 00:36:26,715 --> 00:36:29,798 I mean it's a pretty strange request. 548 00:36:30,682 --> 00:36:32,085 - [Troy] You thought I'd say no? 549 00:36:32,085 --> 00:36:34,085 - Actually, yeah, I did. 550 00:36:35,399 --> 00:36:38,200 That's why I wanted to wait a bit longer. 551 00:36:38,200 --> 00:36:39,478 I would've waited even longer 552 00:36:39,478 --> 00:36:43,440 if it wouldn't have been for the vino last night. 553 00:36:43,440 --> 00:36:44,961 I wanted you to get to know me first, 554 00:36:44,961 --> 00:36:47,467 just so you can find out that I'm not a-- 555 00:36:47,467 --> 00:36:48,300 - A what? 556 00:36:49,367 --> 00:36:50,367 - A monster. 557 00:36:51,753 --> 00:36:54,172 - I don't think you're a monster. 558 00:36:54,172 --> 00:36:55,005 - Thanks. 559 00:37:11,153 --> 00:37:12,320 - How does it, 560 00:37:13,744 --> 00:37:15,897 how does it work? 561 00:37:15,897 --> 00:37:17,960 - How does what work? 562 00:37:17,960 --> 00:37:21,710 - Well, I imagine you thought about it a lot. 563 00:37:22,718 --> 00:37:25,551 You know when we, well when you... 564 00:37:29,558 --> 00:37:32,389 Things have to be a certain way. 565 00:37:32,389 --> 00:37:33,543 If I'm not-- 566 00:37:33,543 --> 00:37:35,106 - Hard? 567 00:37:35,106 --> 00:37:35,939 - Yeah. 568 00:37:36,940 --> 00:37:40,141 - Actually there are lots of ways, Troy. 569 00:37:40,141 --> 00:37:42,846 Some of more invasive than others. 570 00:37:42,846 --> 00:37:45,511 But I'm not sure I wanna describe 571 00:37:45,511 --> 00:37:46,948 all the grim details to you, 572 00:37:46,948 --> 00:37:50,948 and I wonder if you even wanna really hear them. 573 00:37:52,361 --> 00:37:54,028 - Yeah, I guess not. 574 00:37:55,276 --> 00:37:57,433 - Because when any of this goes down 575 00:37:57,433 --> 00:38:01,834 - Yeah, I know I won't really be around to know. 576 00:38:01,834 --> 00:38:03,334 - And you're okay? 577 00:38:08,038 --> 00:38:09,413 Good. 578 00:38:09,413 --> 00:38:11,742 Now that this is out in the open. 579 00:38:11,742 --> 00:38:15,201 No more secrets between us, okay. 580 00:38:15,201 --> 00:38:16,034 - Okay. 581 00:38:20,053 --> 00:38:23,470 (funky electronic music) 582 00:41:05,646 --> 00:41:08,371 You think I should make out a will? 583 00:41:08,371 --> 00:41:12,222 - Do you have anything to give to anybody? 584 00:41:12,222 --> 00:41:13,864 - No, not really. 585 00:41:13,864 --> 00:41:17,281 - Do you have anyone to give anything to? 586 00:41:18,351 --> 00:41:19,518 - I guess not. 587 00:41:20,719 --> 00:41:23,136 - My answer would be no then. 588 00:41:25,162 --> 00:41:27,891 - I think I should go visit 589 00:41:27,891 --> 00:41:30,641 my parent's graves one more time. 590 00:41:31,478 --> 00:41:33,728 - Yeah, I guess you should. 591 00:41:35,058 --> 00:41:37,641 We can go tomorrow if you want. 592 00:41:39,221 --> 00:41:40,054 - Yeah. 593 00:41:43,982 --> 00:41:45,482 So, I was thinking 594 00:41:47,107 --> 00:41:48,924 - [Lorri] About what? 595 00:41:48,924 --> 00:41:52,174 - About how I'm gonna, you know, do it. 596 00:41:54,274 --> 00:41:58,241 - [Lorri] That is something to think about isn't it? 597 00:41:58,241 --> 00:42:00,381 - What do you think? 598 00:42:00,381 --> 00:42:03,470 - Me, I think if there's any decision 599 00:42:03,470 --> 00:42:07,605 anyone has to make for themselves it's that one. 600 00:42:07,605 --> 00:42:09,355 What do you wanna do? 601 00:42:10,450 --> 00:42:14,097 - I don't know, not hanging though. 602 00:42:14,097 --> 00:42:15,180 - [Lorri] No. 603 00:42:16,561 --> 00:42:17,752 - I was reading something 604 00:42:17,752 --> 00:42:21,169 and it said you, you know, crap yourself. 605 00:42:23,310 --> 00:42:26,237 - Among other bodily functions 606 00:42:26,237 --> 00:42:28,731 bodily functions I'd liked to save for myself 607 00:42:28,731 --> 00:42:30,731 if I could be so greedy. 608 00:42:35,974 --> 00:42:39,795 - You have a different way of looking at things, don't you? 609 00:42:39,795 --> 00:42:41,128 - So I've heard. 610 00:42:42,047 --> 00:42:46,680 - This doesn't bother you, talking about this? 611 00:42:46,680 --> 00:42:48,179 - I think we're well passed the point 612 00:42:48,179 --> 00:42:50,474 of worrying about that, don't you? 613 00:42:50,474 --> 00:42:52,279 - Yeah, I guess. 614 00:42:52,279 --> 00:42:54,141 - And I don't see why this should be 615 00:42:54,141 --> 00:42:57,274 something painful for you, do you? 616 00:42:57,274 --> 00:43:01,657 - No, I think I'd actually prefer that it wasn't. 617 00:43:01,657 --> 00:43:05,824 - Plus I want you intact for afterwards so nothing violent. 618 00:43:07,244 --> 00:43:11,164 I don't wanna be humping a guy without a face, no offense. 619 00:43:11,164 --> 00:43:12,465 I know I'm fucked up, 620 00:43:12,465 --> 00:43:14,715 but I'm not that fucked up. 621 00:43:15,841 --> 00:43:16,674 - No, no. 622 00:43:20,550 --> 00:43:21,941 I'm not much of a gun guy anyway, 623 00:43:21,941 --> 00:43:25,024 so it just wouldn't seem appropriate. 624 00:43:27,980 --> 00:43:28,813 - I know. 625 00:43:30,390 --> 00:43:32,520 How about you just take something then 626 00:43:32,520 --> 00:43:34,603 and peacefully drift off. 627 00:43:37,357 --> 00:43:40,162 - Like aspirin that seems kind of-- 628 00:43:40,162 --> 00:43:41,412 - Kind of what? 629 00:43:42,377 --> 00:43:45,920 - That seems kind of mundane doesn't it? 630 00:43:45,920 --> 00:43:47,382 - You think. 631 00:43:47,382 --> 00:43:49,507 Well, you could always stick your hand 632 00:43:49,507 --> 00:43:53,221 into a basket with a poison snake if you're a classicist, 633 00:43:53,221 --> 00:43:56,510 but I think this way will be a lot faster. 634 00:43:56,510 --> 00:43:57,906 Plus you don't have to worry about waking up 635 00:43:57,906 --> 00:44:02,073 deformed or paralyzed or retarded the next morning. 636 00:44:04,356 --> 00:44:06,797 - You have something there. 637 00:44:06,797 --> 00:44:07,714 - So pills? 638 00:44:11,696 --> 00:44:13,580 - Yeah, okay pills. 639 00:44:13,580 --> 00:44:14,413 What kind? 640 00:44:15,407 --> 00:44:19,240 - My mom had a shit load of Phenobarbital. 641 00:44:19,240 --> 00:44:23,246 She was so goofy with it that she didn't keep track. 642 00:44:23,246 --> 00:44:27,453 I'm sure we have enough to get the job done right. 643 00:44:27,453 --> 00:44:28,286 - Okay. 644 00:44:30,386 --> 00:44:31,219 - So, 645 00:44:32,273 --> 00:44:34,218 when are you gonna do it? 646 00:44:34,218 --> 00:44:36,551 - I don't know soon I guess. 647 00:44:37,467 --> 00:44:40,467 - Let's just talk about it tomorrow. 648 00:44:54,439 --> 00:44:57,272 (Lorri screaming) 649 00:44:59,907 --> 00:45:00,872 - Lorri, Lorri - Go away. 650 00:45:00,872 --> 00:45:02,180 - Hey, hey. 651 00:45:02,180 --> 00:45:03,532 - Get off of me. 652 00:45:03,532 --> 00:45:06,606 - Lorri, Lorri, it's Troy you're all right. 653 00:45:06,606 --> 00:45:08,356 You're just dreaming. 654 00:45:09,592 --> 00:45:10,842 Lorri, wake up. 655 00:45:12,113 --> 00:45:13,405 It's okay. 656 00:45:13,405 --> 00:45:14,820 - I'm all right. - You were just dreaming. 657 00:45:14,820 --> 00:45:16,463 It was just a dream. 658 00:45:16,463 --> 00:45:19,296 - Alright, I'm alright now thanks. 659 00:45:21,819 --> 00:45:23,549 - It's okay. 660 00:45:23,549 --> 00:45:24,716 - I know that. 661 00:45:25,866 --> 00:45:27,858 Could you get up please? 662 00:45:27,858 --> 00:45:30,275 I have to go to the bathroom. 663 00:45:42,725 --> 00:45:44,999 - Do you wanna talk? 664 00:45:44,999 --> 00:45:48,316 - No, Troy, it's the middle of the night. 665 00:45:48,316 --> 00:45:51,183 You should go back to bed. 666 00:45:51,183 --> 00:45:53,016 I'll see you tomorrow. 667 00:45:57,826 --> 00:45:58,659 - Okay. 668 00:46:00,063 --> 00:46:02,813 Let me know if you need anything. 669 00:46:13,843 --> 00:46:16,510 (Lorri sobbing) 670 00:46:50,076 --> 00:46:51,164 Hey. 671 00:46:51,164 --> 00:46:51,997 - Hey. 672 00:46:53,904 --> 00:46:54,737 - Are you, 673 00:46:56,828 --> 00:46:57,992 doing okay today? 674 00:46:57,992 --> 00:46:59,075 - Yeah, fine. 675 00:47:01,932 --> 00:47:04,765 - That was pretty wild last night. 676 00:47:06,480 --> 00:47:10,062 Do you have nightmares like that a lot? 677 00:47:10,062 --> 00:47:11,062 - Yep, I do. 678 00:47:14,594 --> 00:47:16,618 - You don't really wanna talk about this do you? 679 00:47:16,618 --> 00:47:17,785 - No, I don't. 680 00:47:21,136 --> 00:47:21,969 - Okay. 681 00:47:25,524 --> 00:47:27,274 So I guess I'm gonna, 682 00:47:28,479 --> 00:47:30,165 go to the cemetery now. 683 00:47:30,165 --> 00:47:32,680 - Want me to come with? 684 00:47:32,680 --> 00:47:33,513 - No. 685 00:47:35,471 --> 00:47:38,548 No, I think I should go do this by myself. 686 00:47:38,548 --> 00:47:40,548 - Alright see you later. 687 00:47:42,924 --> 00:47:43,757 - See you. 688 00:47:53,105 --> 00:47:57,188 (dramatic acoustic guitar music) 689 00:49:07,757 --> 00:49:11,090 Trying to remember last time I was here. 690 00:49:16,420 --> 00:49:18,587 It's been a while I guess. 691 00:49:24,493 --> 00:49:28,312 I thought you were lower down on the hill. 692 00:49:28,312 --> 00:49:30,420 I was worried I thought maybe something happened 693 00:49:30,420 --> 00:49:32,587 and they had to move you, 694 00:49:34,073 --> 00:49:35,573 but that's stupid. 695 00:49:40,905 --> 00:49:43,405 Coming here visiting you guys 696 00:49:47,918 --> 00:49:51,668 makes me realize I don't know what I believe. 697 00:49:55,279 --> 00:49:56,590 I don't know if I, 698 00:49:56,590 --> 00:50:00,757 think you can actually hear what I'm saying or not. 699 00:50:05,491 --> 00:50:06,741 I hope you can. 700 00:50:08,807 --> 00:50:09,640 I hope. 701 00:50:13,530 --> 00:50:15,363 I hope you understand, 702 00:50:16,739 --> 00:50:19,656 why I'm gonna do what I'm gonna do. 703 00:50:24,624 --> 00:50:26,957 And I hope you're not angry. 704 00:50:30,384 --> 00:50:34,551 It'd kind of suck to get to Heaven and be grounded. 705 00:50:39,177 --> 00:50:40,010 Sorry. 706 00:50:43,378 --> 00:50:44,711 I miss you guys. 707 00:50:47,213 --> 00:50:48,796 I'm all alone here. 708 00:50:54,867 --> 00:50:57,117 It's not a very nice place. 709 00:51:02,639 --> 00:51:05,977 I just wanna be somewhere else, 710 00:51:05,977 --> 00:51:08,310 where all the hurting stops. 711 00:51:12,727 --> 00:51:15,894 My only hope is that wherever that is, 712 00:51:18,824 --> 00:51:20,824 you guys are there too, 713 00:51:22,582 --> 00:51:25,332 and we can all be together again. 714 00:51:30,092 --> 00:51:31,009 That's all. 715 00:51:33,006 --> 00:51:37,089 (dramatic acoustic guitar music) 716 00:51:42,884 --> 00:51:44,319 Hey, I'm back. 717 00:51:44,319 --> 00:51:45,319 - Down here. 718 00:51:48,684 --> 00:51:50,012 (knocking on door) 719 00:51:50,012 --> 00:51:51,083 - [Troy] You decent? 720 00:51:51,083 --> 00:51:52,333 - Almost never. 721 00:51:53,946 --> 00:51:55,279 Take a load off. 722 00:51:58,082 --> 00:51:59,652 You're in a good mood, 723 00:51:59,652 --> 00:52:00,902 so how'd it go? 724 00:52:03,409 --> 00:52:05,274 - Good I guess. 725 00:52:05,274 --> 00:52:08,096 - Good, so is there any-- 726 00:52:08,096 --> 00:52:10,346 - How about tomorrow night? 727 00:52:11,729 --> 00:52:15,562 - Tomorrow night, you mean for the big finale? 728 00:52:16,470 --> 00:52:18,050 - Yeah. 729 00:52:18,050 --> 00:52:19,828 Signing off. 730 00:52:19,828 --> 00:52:21,078 - Are you sure? 731 00:52:24,617 --> 00:52:26,034 - Yeah, I'm sure. 732 00:52:28,471 --> 00:52:29,388 It's right. 733 00:52:30,494 --> 00:52:33,661 - Alright tomorrow night, sounds good. 734 00:52:34,794 --> 00:52:37,520 So you know what that means 735 00:52:37,520 --> 00:52:39,770 we're doing tonight, right? 736 00:52:41,861 --> 00:52:42,923 - No. 737 00:52:42,923 --> 00:52:44,287 - Means we're ordering take out 738 00:52:44,287 --> 00:52:46,537 and getting drunk, come on. 739 00:52:49,571 --> 00:52:53,370 - I'm really not that much of a drinker. 740 00:52:53,370 --> 00:52:56,402 - So how was your last meal? 741 00:52:56,402 --> 00:52:58,022 - It was good. 742 00:52:58,022 --> 00:52:59,272 Spicy but good. 743 00:53:00,748 --> 00:53:03,248 - How's the wine treating you? 744 00:53:04,714 --> 00:53:06,047 - Okay, I guess. 745 00:53:07,048 --> 00:53:07,965 - You know, 746 00:53:09,102 --> 00:53:12,839 I've been on more medications than you can count 747 00:53:12,839 --> 00:53:15,576 and nothing takes away from the horror that is this world 748 00:53:15,576 --> 00:53:17,909 like the fruit of the grape. 749 00:53:22,788 --> 00:53:26,745 Wine is the absolute spirit of enjoyment. 750 00:53:26,745 --> 00:53:28,245 It warms the soul. 751 00:53:36,421 --> 00:53:37,421 What's that? 752 00:53:38,956 --> 00:53:40,003 - What's what? 753 00:53:40,003 --> 00:53:42,086 - That neck thing you do? 754 00:53:44,773 --> 00:53:46,047 - Just a habit. 755 00:53:46,047 --> 00:53:48,086 I guess my neck gets stiff. 756 00:53:48,086 --> 00:53:50,753 - Oh, well here let me help you. 757 00:53:54,621 --> 00:53:56,121 So, how's it feel? 758 00:53:58,030 --> 00:53:59,863 - Good, kind of hurts. 759 00:54:02,856 --> 00:54:06,856 - It will at first you're hella tense back here. 760 00:54:07,784 --> 00:54:11,951 Jesus when was the last time anyone ever did this for you? 761 00:54:13,784 --> 00:54:14,814 - Never. 762 00:54:14,814 --> 00:54:16,823 - Are you fucking kidding me? 763 00:54:16,823 --> 00:54:20,990 First time anyone ever gave you a back rub, no shit. 764 00:54:22,354 --> 00:54:24,937 Gosh, a life without back rubs. 765 00:54:25,829 --> 00:54:28,235 It's like a guy's secret weapon 766 00:54:28,235 --> 00:54:30,781 for getting into girl's pants. 767 00:54:30,781 --> 00:54:33,933 How'd you ever get laid in high school? 768 00:54:33,933 --> 00:54:35,350 - Well, I didn't. 769 00:54:36,862 --> 00:54:38,612 - Late bloomer I see. 770 00:54:40,707 --> 00:54:42,124 - Not especially. 771 00:54:43,587 --> 00:54:44,587 - So, never? 772 00:54:48,004 --> 00:54:51,114 - Well, I almost did once with this girl 773 00:54:51,114 --> 00:54:52,715 after an office Christmas party, 774 00:54:52,715 --> 00:54:55,400 but she was kind of drunk 775 00:54:55,400 --> 00:55:00,285 and things didn't go the way they were supposed to. 776 00:55:00,285 --> 00:55:03,295 - Nothing doesn't work the way it's supposed to, Troy. 777 00:55:03,295 --> 00:55:07,316 Don't think for a second it's just you. 778 00:55:07,316 --> 00:55:08,868 - Well, it's a little late 779 00:55:08,868 --> 00:55:11,079 to start worrying about stuff like that now. 780 00:55:11,079 --> 00:55:12,912 - Yeah, I guess it is. 781 00:55:18,419 --> 00:55:19,252 Sorry. 782 00:55:25,069 --> 00:55:26,486 No, hang on wait. 783 00:55:28,027 --> 00:55:28,860 Wait shit. 784 00:55:29,826 --> 00:55:31,209 - What I'm sorry. 785 00:55:31,209 --> 00:55:34,292 - Just don't talk for a second, Troy. 786 00:55:37,513 --> 00:55:41,033 Fucking wine gets me in every time. 787 00:55:41,033 --> 00:55:41,866 Shit. 788 00:55:43,381 --> 00:55:44,214 Shit. 789 00:55:49,014 --> 00:55:49,847 Okay. 790 00:55:51,053 --> 00:55:54,045 I'm sorry that was mistake. 791 00:55:54,045 --> 00:55:57,285 Really, really Troy that was mistake. 792 00:55:57,285 --> 00:56:00,177 I shouldn't have done that. 793 00:56:00,177 --> 00:56:01,385 I don't wanna give you any ideas 794 00:56:01,385 --> 00:56:03,830 about something that is not going to happen. 795 00:56:03,830 --> 00:56:05,013 - It's not? 796 00:56:05,013 --> 00:56:07,680 - No, it is most definitely not. 797 00:56:10,198 --> 00:56:11,462 It's not you. 798 00:56:11,462 --> 00:56:14,629 - Yeah, that's what all the girls say. 799 00:56:18,415 --> 00:56:20,615 - I know they do, 800 00:56:20,615 --> 00:56:22,532 and you deserve better. 801 00:56:23,657 --> 00:56:26,990 But you know my deal we've discussed it. 802 00:56:31,405 --> 00:56:34,238 I need things to be a certain way. 803 00:56:35,244 --> 00:56:37,159 - Yeah, I know you don't wanna have sex with me 804 00:56:37,159 --> 00:56:38,810 unless I'm dead. 805 00:56:38,810 --> 00:56:40,852 - When you say it like that you make is sound personal. 806 00:56:40,852 --> 00:56:42,126 It's not. 807 00:56:42,126 --> 00:56:43,970 - So any old corpse will do. 808 00:56:43,970 --> 00:56:46,389 I just happen to be the most convenient, 809 00:56:46,389 --> 00:56:48,472 or I will be by tomorrow. 810 00:56:50,282 --> 00:56:53,984 - Okay, you're angry and I'm drunk, 811 00:56:53,984 --> 00:56:57,161 so let's just talk about this. 812 00:56:57,161 --> 00:56:59,874 - Yeah, tomorrow yeah I know. 813 00:56:59,874 --> 00:57:02,874 - Okay, try to get some sleep, okay? 814 00:57:13,537 --> 00:57:14,370 Sorry. 815 00:57:22,856 --> 00:57:26,939 (dramatic acoustic guitar music) 816 00:57:43,939 --> 00:57:46,356 Alright, Troy, big day today. 817 00:57:47,495 --> 00:57:51,578 (dramatic acoustic guitar music) 818 00:58:06,404 --> 00:58:07,445 Troy? 819 00:58:07,445 --> 00:58:11,528 (dramatic acoustic guitar music) 820 00:59:32,204 --> 00:59:33,037 Crap. 821 01:00:01,429 --> 01:00:03,096 - How'd you find me? 822 01:00:04,422 --> 01:00:07,326 - I could see you from the bridge. 823 01:00:07,326 --> 01:00:09,409 Is this about last night? 824 01:00:11,094 --> 01:00:14,257 - No, it's not about last night. 825 01:00:14,257 --> 01:00:15,257 Maybe it is. 826 01:00:16,168 --> 01:00:17,168 - What then? 827 01:00:21,505 --> 01:00:24,151 - I don't know what went wrong with me, 828 01:00:24,151 --> 01:00:26,984 and I don't know when it happened. 829 01:00:28,733 --> 01:00:32,052 People aren't supposed to wanna die. 830 01:00:32,052 --> 01:00:34,255 - I know. - Stop talking. 831 01:00:34,255 --> 01:00:35,888 You talk and you talk 832 01:00:35,888 --> 01:00:36,953 and you make me want things 833 01:00:36,953 --> 01:00:38,332 that I don't know if I really want 834 01:00:38,332 --> 01:00:41,297 or if I just want them 'cause you're telling me I do. 835 01:00:41,297 --> 01:00:42,357 - Troy. 836 01:00:42,357 --> 01:00:44,613 - Stop saying my name like that. 837 01:00:44,613 --> 01:00:45,446 Like I'm a child. 838 01:00:45,446 --> 01:00:47,089 I'm not a child. 839 01:00:47,089 --> 01:00:48,646 You can't just play games with my mind 840 01:00:48,646 --> 01:00:52,136 and get whatever you want from me. 841 01:00:52,136 --> 01:00:53,553 Gotta be so easy. 842 01:00:55,277 --> 01:00:58,143 - Do you think I like being the way I am, Troy? 843 01:00:58,143 --> 01:01:00,060 Do you think it's easy? 844 01:01:01,154 --> 01:01:03,393 People are who they are. 845 01:01:03,393 --> 01:01:06,580 We have to learn how to accept that. 846 01:01:06,580 --> 01:01:09,015 - I want you to be happy. 847 01:01:09,015 --> 01:01:10,932 - And I want you to be. 848 01:01:11,827 --> 01:01:15,356 - It was easier before when I was alone. 849 01:01:15,356 --> 01:01:16,189 Now, 850 01:01:19,973 --> 01:01:22,607 I don't think I wanna stop being around you. 851 01:01:22,607 --> 01:01:24,457 It's getting harder for me. 852 01:01:24,457 --> 01:01:26,874 - I know it's hard for me to. 853 01:01:28,133 --> 01:01:30,216 Do you wanna call it off? 854 01:01:31,655 --> 01:01:33,488 - I don't think I can. 855 01:01:34,448 --> 01:01:35,865 I'm too far away. 856 01:01:41,711 --> 01:01:43,544 I want you to help me. 857 01:01:45,598 --> 01:01:47,765 I want you to help me die. 858 01:02:06,296 --> 01:02:08,129 - So I was thinking. 859 01:02:10,433 --> 01:02:14,600 I think I want you to be with me once before you go. 860 01:02:16,918 --> 01:02:20,501 I mean the least I can do is give you that. 861 01:02:23,469 --> 01:02:25,517 - You don't have to. 862 01:02:25,517 --> 01:02:27,157 I understand. 863 01:02:27,157 --> 01:02:30,357 - No, it's me who finally understands. 864 01:02:30,357 --> 01:02:31,400 This whole time I have been 865 01:02:31,400 --> 01:02:34,692 thinking of you a means to an end. 866 01:02:34,692 --> 01:02:37,043 I've been so selfish. 867 01:02:37,043 --> 01:02:40,126 What I'm asking you to do is so huge. 868 01:02:41,961 --> 01:02:43,711 You're being so kind. 869 01:02:52,008 --> 01:02:52,841 So, 870 01:02:55,205 --> 01:02:57,832 I'll make us some dinner. 871 01:02:57,832 --> 01:02:59,185 We'll have a few drinks, 872 01:02:59,185 --> 01:03:01,852 and well we'll see what happens. 873 01:03:30,735 --> 01:03:33,318 Okay, I hope this is all right. 874 01:03:34,530 --> 01:03:36,441 I'll warn you. 875 01:03:36,441 --> 01:03:38,108 I'm a suck ass cook. 876 01:03:42,954 --> 01:03:44,621 - No, it looks good. 877 01:03:49,950 --> 01:03:50,783 Okay. 878 01:03:52,534 --> 01:03:55,531 No, that's good, thanks, thanks. 879 01:03:55,531 --> 01:03:58,448 - Yeah, my mom never really cooked. 880 01:03:59,874 --> 01:04:03,753 I grew up on microwave dinners and fast food. 881 01:04:03,753 --> 01:04:05,912 - Well, you'd never tell. 882 01:04:05,912 --> 01:04:06,745 - Thanks. 883 01:04:07,840 --> 01:04:09,689 To you, Troy. 884 01:04:09,689 --> 01:04:12,983 To the fulfillment of both our desires. 885 01:04:12,983 --> 01:04:13,816 - Cheers. 886 01:04:22,176 --> 01:04:25,463 So you never talk about your family much. 887 01:04:25,463 --> 01:04:28,046 - Yeah, not really much to say. 888 01:04:28,885 --> 01:04:31,494 Dad and mom had trouble right from the very start 889 01:04:31,494 --> 01:04:32,585 which was made all too clear 890 01:04:32,585 --> 01:04:35,534 when he left her for their marriage counselor. 891 01:04:35,534 --> 01:04:36,706 - Ouch. 892 01:04:36,706 --> 01:04:38,334 - Yeah, I was seven. 893 01:04:38,334 --> 01:04:40,966 After that the doctor's upped mom's prescription 894 01:04:40,966 --> 01:04:44,724 and she was kind of in and out through the years. 895 01:04:44,724 --> 01:04:46,125 - That's rough. 896 01:04:46,125 --> 01:04:49,603 - Not really I mean I was always pretty independent 897 01:04:49,603 --> 01:04:51,026 between having a zombie for a mom 898 01:04:51,026 --> 01:04:52,756 and the monthly pay checks from dad 899 01:04:52,756 --> 01:04:55,568 I could do pretty much whatever I wanted. 900 01:04:55,568 --> 01:04:58,401 Go where I want, indulge my whims. 901 01:04:59,779 --> 01:05:01,196 How's your penne? 902 01:05:02,274 --> 01:05:03,107 - My what? 903 01:05:04,238 --> 01:05:05,405 - The noodles. 904 01:05:07,730 --> 01:05:08,563 - Good. 905 01:05:11,057 --> 01:05:15,224 - So have you thought about how you're going to do it? 906 01:05:17,475 --> 01:05:18,510 - I thought we decided that 907 01:05:18,510 --> 01:05:20,781 the other night on the patio. 908 01:05:20,781 --> 01:05:21,698 - Not that. 909 01:05:22,598 --> 01:05:24,681 The other thing, tonight. 910 01:05:29,903 --> 01:05:31,320 - The normal way. 911 01:05:32,536 --> 01:05:35,652 - Jesus no wonder you never got laid. 912 01:05:35,652 --> 01:05:39,235 I mean how are you planning on seducing me? 913 01:05:43,224 --> 01:05:44,724 - Well, I thought, 914 01:05:46,234 --> 01:05:47,413 I mean you said-- 915 01:05:47,413 --> 01:05:49,271 - Well, what did you expect, Troy, 916 01:05:49,271 --> 01:05:50,291 that I'd just bend over 917 01:05:50,291 --> 01:05:53,779 and let you have a go after dessert? 918 01:05:53,779 --> 01:05:55,612 - I don't, no I mean-- 919 01:05:57,052 --> 01:06:00,802 - You do realize that I'm a girl right, Troy? 920 01:06:02,495 --> 01:06:03,328 - Yes. 921 01:06:05,911 --> 01:06:06,936 - Great. 922 01:06:06,936 --> 01:06:09,561 Here's a little secret, Troy. 923 01:06:09,561 --> 01:06:13,728 What girls really want is for the moment to have some magic. 924 01:06:14,811 --> 01:06:17,712 They don't care if their guy is tall or rich 925 01:06:17,712 --> 01:06:20,795 or even smart long as he's confident, 926 01:06:22,526 --> 01:06:26,693 as long as he let's it flow into one sweet inevitable point. 927 01:06:33,599 --> 01:06:34,521 - I never knew that. 928 01:06:34,521 --> 01:06:37,178 - Troy, what did I say? 929 01:06:37,178 --> 01:06:40,420 Confident, none of this stammering bullshit. 930 01:06:40,420 --> 01:06:44,391 Think of what you're gonna say and say it. 931 01:06:44,391 --> 01:06:45,654 - Okay. 932 01:06:45,654 --> 01:06:49,737 - And think about what you're gonna do and do it. 933 01:06:52,596 --> 01:06:53,429 - Okay. 934 01:06:57,378 --> 01:06:59,698 - What are you doing? (tense music) 935 01:06:59,698 --> 01:07:01,198 - Being confident. 936 01:07:12,297 --> 01:07:13,130 - Stop. 937 01:07:13,130 --> 01:07:13,963 Wait. 938 01:07:18,442 --> 01:07:19,275 Stop. 939 01:07:23,335 --> 01:07:24,168 Stop. 940 01:07:30,235 --> 01:07:33,069 (coughing) 941 01:07:33,069 --> 01:07:33,902 No, stop. 942 01:07:35,528 --> 01:07:36,861 I don't want to. 943 01:07:40,834 --> 01:07:43,001 - It's okay. - Troy, Troy, 944 01:07:44,541 --> 01:07:45,582 Troy, 945 01:07:45,582 --> 01:07:48,415 (unnerving music) 946 01:07:51,764 --> 01:07:53,505 please get off me. 947 01:07:53,505 --> 01:07:56,338 (unnerving music) 948 01:08:10,165 --> 01:08:13,998 (dramatic instrumental music) 949 01:08:23,093 --> 01:08:24,728 Okay. 950 01:08:24,728 --> 01:08:26,403 The lesson we learned here 951 01:08:26,403 --> 01:08:30,070 is exactly how not to seduce a woman, right? 952 01:08:32,476 --> 01:08:35,194 - You said you wanted me to be forceful. 953 01:08:35,194 --> 01:08:38,628 - Being forceful is not the same as fucking raping the girl, 954 01:08:38,628 --> 01:08:39,661 but you don't have any idea what 955 01:08:39,661 --> 01:08:42,411 the goddamn difference is do you? 956 01:08:44,359 --> 01:08:46,609 Hand me the fucking bottle. 957 01:08:47,524 --> 01:08:51,357 (dramatic instrumental music) 958 01:08:59,957 --> 01:09:02,540 Okay, look no harm done, right? 959 01:09:04,035 --> 01:09:05,684 I mean I should've been more careful 960 01:09:05,684 --> 01:09:06,870 about what I was saying. 961 01:09:06,870 --> 01:09:11,037 You have all these years and years of pent up frustration. 962 01:09:12,089 --> 01:09:16,006 Of course it's gonna make you a bit aggressive. 963 01:09:20,444 --> 01:09:21,777 - Yeah, I guess. 964 01:09:24,245 --> 01:09:25,662 Lorri, I'm sorry. 965 01:09:27,052 --> 01:09:28,969 I would never hurt you. 966 01:09:30,423 --> 01:09:31,256 I really-- 967 01:09:33,899 --> 01:09:34,732 - What? 968 01:09:37,646 --> 01:09:38,479 - Nothing. 969 01:09:48,997 --> 01:09:51,633 - You should swear more. 970 01:09:51,633 --> 01:09:53,310 - You don't think it's a little late 971 01:09:53,310 --> 01:09:56,939 for me to start changing my habits. 972 01:09:56,939 --> 01:09:58,531 Besides I do swear. 973 01:09:58,531 --> 01:10:00,475 - Bullshit you do. 974 01:10:00,475 --> 01:10:02,308 - Bullshit, yes, I do. 975 01:10:03,748 --> 01:10:05,248 - See what I mean. 976 01:10:08,771 --> 01:10:10,502 - Fuck off. 977 01:10:10,502 --> 01:10:11,335 - Better. 978 01:10:14,859 --> 01:10:17,625 Hey, did I ever tell you 979 01:10:17,625 --> 01:10:20,708 I tried to kill myself when I was 13. 980 01:10:22,382 --> 01:10:23,799 - No. 981 01:10:23,799 --> 01:10:25,546 - Yeah, I took a bunch of pills 982 01:10:25,546 --> 01:10:28,240 from my mom's medicine cabinet. 983 01:10:28,240 --> 01:10:29,664 I stayed up all night 984 01:10:29,664 --> 01:10:32,497 just waiting for my heart to stop. 985 01:10:34,930 --> 01:10:36,340 - Did it? 986 01:10:36,340 --> 01:10:39,980 - No, but at like one in the morning 987 01:10:39,980 --> 01:10:42,936 I started to feel really nauseous, 988 01:10:42,936 --> 01:10:46,228 and I ended up throwing up the rest of the night. 989 01:10:46,228 --> 01:10:48,379 It turns out I took an overdose 990 01:10:48,379 --> 01:10:52,856 of my mom's prescription for morning sickness. 991 01:10:52,856 --> 01:10:54,512 Such a idiot. 992 01:10:54,512 --> 01:10:58,337 (dramatic instrumental music) 993 01:10:58,337 --> 01:11:00,148 Alright, Troy, 994 01:11:00,148 --> 01:11:03,231 you should probably just fuck me now. 995 01:11:04,333 --> 01:11:05,574 Well? 996 01:11:05,574 --> 01:11:09,324 (dramatic instrumental music 997 01:12:31,329 --> 01:12:33,579 Troy, you alright in there? 998 01:12:35,182 --> 01:12:39,099 (somber acoustic guitar music) 999 01:12:54,484 --> 01:12:55,317 Elegant. 1000 01:12:56,816 --> 01:13:00,566 Saving this for a special occasion, were you? 1001 01:13:03,516 --> 01:13:04,766 Nice and sharp. 1002 01:13:05,883 --> 01:13:06,716 No pain. 1003 01:13:07,644 --> 01:13:08,477 Good. 1004 01:13:13,856 --> 01:13:17,106 I hope it was everything you hoped for. 1005 01:13:18,563 --> 01:13:21,813 I hope now you can finally be at peace. 1006 01:13:25,472 --> 01:13:27,972 Well, you got what you wanted. 1007 01:13:30,850 --> 01:13:33,589 Now I guess it's my turn, huh? 1008 01:13:33,589 --> 01:13:36,422 (unnerving music) 1009 01:14:35,549 --> 01:14:38,049 (eerie music) 1010 01:15:46,066 --> 01:15:47,866 (bed squeaking) 1011 01:15:47,866 --> 01:15:50,699 (unnerving music) 1012 01:16:04,839 --> 01:16:09,006 (heavy breathing) (unnerving music) 1013 01:17:37,272 --> 01:17:41,355 (dramatic acoustic guitar music) 1014 01:18:33,299 --> 01:18:35,382 (crying) 1015 01:18:36,965 --> 01:18:41,048 (dramatic acoustic guitar music) 1016 01:19:54,108 --> 01:19:57,108 (telephone ringing) 1017 01:20:07,377 --> 01:20:09,594 Hi, this is Lorri at the crisis hotline. 1018 01:20:09,594 --> 01:20:11,455 Can I get your name please? 1019 01:20:11,455 --> 01:20:13,288 - [Dave] This is Dave. 1020 01:20:14,459 --> 01:20:18,126 - Oh hey, Dave, nice to hear from you again. 1021 01:20:19,849 --> 01:20:23,536 - [Dave] I called last week and you weren't there. 1022 01:20:23,536 --> 01:20:24,961 - Yeah, sorry about that. 1023 01:20:24,961 --> 01:20:27,515 I was on a little sabbatical, 1024 01:20:27,515 --> 01:20:29,932 but don't worry I'm back now. 1025 01:20:34,890 --> 01:20:39,665 Dave, I'm gonna do something that I'm not supposed to do. 1026 01:20:39,665 --> 01:20:42,582 (hard rock music) 1027 01:20:53,348 --> 01:20:56,676 ♪ I'm planning on a time to die ♪ 1028 01:20:56,676 --> 01:21:00,843 ♪ Time can kill and I'm going to die ♪ 1029 01:22:10,804 --> 01:22:14,221 (electronic dance music) 66000

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