All language subtitles for The Last Patrol_track3_eng

( intro music playing )

( grasshoppers singing )

Sebastian Junger:
Do you miss combat at all?
Brendan O'Byrne: Yeah.

Do you?
I do.

Even if I don't want
to have that,

I'm still like
this invincible kid

that wants to go back
and shoot at more people

and have them shoot at me.

( chuckles )
It's a crazy game.

It's crazy.

In Afghanistan,
I remember one time

we were called down
to a mission

to go do something.

You know,
someone's getting overran

or someone's
in some serious trouble.

I remember
the feeling of that.

Yeah.

The sense of urgency,
the excitement for,

like, what are we going
to be put into?

What if it's just
like an all-out battle?
Yeah.

And that was exciting
to think about.

Like, it's complete madness.

But when we were in it,

that's the only way
we could have thought.

Guillermo Cervera:
The worst I found,
it was in Libya.

We were walking in the desert
on a straight road.

And there was these bands
of guys shooting mortars,

not far, like 20, 25 meters...
Wow.

...50.
We were going to run,

and then we saw
the machine guns

shooting from the other...
( making machine gun sound )

...and the fire
was coming closer

like "pshh pshh pshh."
Jesus.

You couldn't even move.

And that was, like,
for two minutes.

Two minutes is a lot.

Yeah. It's a long time.
It's a long time.

You feel, like, scared,
but you feel excited too.

Yeah.

I read this quote
from George Washington.

He was in
his first fire fight.

They ambushed
some French soldiers

who were scouting the frontier,
and they lost a bunch of guys,

but they beat the French.

He wrote a letter afterwards
and he said,

"I heard the bullets
whistle by me

and I have to admit,
it was a charming sound."

The father of the nation.

He had his first fire fight
and he fell in love.

George Washington.
Yeah.

( voice of Junger )

voice of Tim Hetherington:
Just me and Sebastian
checking out the next story.

( voice of Hetherington )

( conductor speaking )
Junger: Absolutely.

Hetherington:
We're gonna find this footage
sometime in the future

after the world has changed.

( conductor's voice fading )

Junger:
By the time I'd found
this footage,

the world had changed.

Tim was dead.

We were both reporters
and he was killed in Libya

while covering the civil war.

I still made the trip
we'd planned,

but I went with Guillermo,
a photographer

who had actually
been holding Tim's hand
when he died,

and with Brendan and Dave,

two soldiers Tim and I
had known in Afghanistan.

The four of us would set out
from Washington D.C.

and walk north in a kind
of high speed vagrancy

right up the East Coast.

We'd all seen a lot of combat,

we'd all lost close friends,

and we were all trying
to come home.

I thought a 300-mile walk
might help.

( whistle toots )

Junger:
Did you guys sleep okay?

Dave Roels:
No.

Did you wake up every time
a train came through?

( chuckles ) Oh, yeah.
I was probably up
for most of them.

Junger: Yeah. I didn't know
you could go to New York
from D.C.

on an Acela at 2:00 AM.
That's news to me.

Roels:
Yeah, and Brendan
was, like, standing over me

staring at me
and that made me pass out.

O'Byrne:
What happens with me

is like I have to think
things through before I sleep.

And it took all night
for me to think it through.

It normally happens that way.

Junger:
What were you thinking through?

My alcoholism.

( camera clicking )

It's a funny place to wake up
at age 50, right here.

Normally if you were 50
and you woke up here,

it'd be a really bad sad story.
( chuckling )

It'd be-- it feels...
Yeah.

Start panhandling somewhere...
( guns popping )

Support fire from, uh,
the base right down the road.

Man:
When I shoot from down there--

Roels:
Do you know what the clearance
on those trains are,

on the track?
And if you could lay

between the two rails...

Junger:
You might get peeled
off your back by the winds

and just slammed
into the bot-- under carriage.

Uh-huh.

What's that?
Man: Trying to get
on the house down there?

The white house
with the green shutters?

Yeah. Probably hell fire.
Yeah?

It gets better than that.

Man: That's what it's
gonna feel like tonight.
Ken and Tino go behind

and then we're gonna wake up
at 2:00 in the morning.

( firing )

( man shouting )
( laughing )

Junger:
None of us were going back
to war again,

or so I thought.

The idea was to take a series
of trips

throughout the course
of a year,

walking through every season,

starting in Washington D.C.
and just heading north.

We would bring my dog, Daisy,
for company and protection,

and a cameraman
to record our experiences.

And while we were
moving through America,

we would have a 300-mile
conversation about war;

about what it does to you,

about how it changes you
and about why you miss it.

Why it's so hard to come back
from war and re-enter society.

We wanted to walk
along the railroad lines
whenever possible.

Rail lines go straight
through everything.

They go right through
the ghetto,

right through the suburbs,

through the farms
and the forests.

You see the backs
of the houses,

the backs of the factories.

And walking on Amtrak property
is completely illegal,

so we would have to move fast
and stay out of sight.

That might feel a little
like we were on a military
operation, I thought.

That might feel like we were
back behind enemy lines.

Roels:
Good eyes, dude.

Jeez, see anybody
up there anymore?

Nobody's fucking up there.

Oh, it should be to the left
of that first building.

I saw him walk up that way.

Yeah, he might have left
the platforms.

Oh, yeah, I think we have
an Amtrak cop in here.

Yup,
we're gonna take care of it.

Officer:
You can't walk
on the railroad tracks.

You can't be anywhere
close to these tracks.

You're trespassing...
( Daisy barking )

Okay.
Yeah.

Junger:
Can we pop off
and walk along the road?

Like could we...?
You have to be off
of Amtrak property.

Yeah, right, right.

Yeah, but the way you are
right there, yeah that--

Yeah, okay.

We got-- we got people
killed all the time, so...
Really?

Yeah, they go by
at 120, 150 miles an hour.

That's why...
Thanks for being nice about it.

Okay.

Junger:
We have to get past the Amtrak
service yard right there.

There's a little culvert,
like a trench line or something.

I think we can just
walk in that.

Junger:
You having a good time?

Everything hurts.
Everything.

I'm 43, you know.

Do you--
are you hungry, thirsty?

Everything.
Hungry, thirsty,

hurt, sad, everything.

Where would you rather be
right now?

( laughs )
In a beach in Indonesia.

( laughs )
But, oh well.

Something like that.
( laughs )

Cervera:
When I started doing
"The Last Patrol,"

I was kind of close
to myself.

When Tim was killed,

when I saw him dying,

I was really traumatized
with that.

I didn't want to be part
of a group.

I was just trying to hide.

But I thought,
it's a great opportunity

to take pictures
around in America which,
for me, is good.

( camera clicking )

So I wanted to do a story
about America.

And I just start to realize
that it was a story

about our inside.

I think we are related

in some trauma
that make us go to war.

Because I think
it was like an addiction.

Walking in "The Last Patrol,"

I realized I had a problem.

And the result was that
I ended up

with three guys with
the same problem I had.

We may never get across this.

Man: Hi.
O'Byrne: Hi, how are you?

Woman: Good. How you doing?
Swell.

We saw your bikini and...
( laughing )

Just happen to have the red,
white and blue on today, right?

This guy-- this guy is a vet
and so is he.

Thank you. I work at
the old soldiers' home in D.C.

Junger: Do you really?
What a wonderful place.

Oh, wow.
You know I see these veterans,

92-year-old men,

and their whole mindset
is completely different.

When I'm in that world,
it's different than
out of this world.

It's a unity,
it's a bonding,

it's "let's take care
of each other."

And then I come back
out here and...

( train whistle blows )
...it's not out here.

No.

But what's your journey about?
Tell me about that.

Well, my colleague and I
were gonna do this walk

along the Amtrak line,
along the rail corridor,

just to meet America.
And he was British.

And then he got killed
in Libya.

And so I thought
I would do that same trip.

And we're doing it
along the rail corridor

because railroad lines
go through everything.
You meet everybody.

Yup.
Just goes straight through.

And that's it,
right back there.

While we--
And that's the train

that Barack came in
when he went to D.C.,

the same train
that Lincoln followed.

Really?
Yeah, we were all out here.

Yeah?
You could tell he was coming.

There was cops
all over the bridge.

Really?
So... hell yeah!
( chuckles )

You knew his train
was coming through, and it did.
It was pretty cool.

Well, I wish you all
the best of luck, really.

Thank you.
Got a wonderful day today.

Thank you.
Don't get too hot.

Yeah.
Stay drinking.

Roels:
Train, guys. Train, train.

Junger:
What was the last time
you were in combat?

When was the last time
someone shot at you?

I think at the beginning of--
in '10.

Do you miss that?
No, not-- not so much.

Um, what I liked
about Afghanistan--

what I would miss
is the troops, the bullshit.

The, uh, you know, the--
O'Byrne: The this.

Huh?
The this.

This.
I mean, this is, you know,

you just sit here and,
you know, there's stars.

Guillermo, have you covered war
since I've--

since Tim got killed?
Were you-- have you covered
any combat?

No.
No?

It was-- it was really
a shock for me,

seeing Tim die on my legs,
you know?

And when that happened,

I'd been already, like,
three years non-stop in the war.

Junger:
Yeah, after Tim died,
immediately, like, that day,

I just decided I was gonna stop
covering war.

Yeah.

I mean, I'm glad
other journalists do it

because I think these things
need to be covered,

but it just--
it just depresses me.

Roels:
Another thing too
that's kinda interesting,

but like, we wouldn't
be here right now if Tim
wouldn't have been killed.

Yeah, that's right.
Safe to say. I mean--

Well, you know,
I-- I wouldn't--

You probably wouldn't be here.
Cervera: Yeah, I know.

You'd probably in...
Yeah, wherever.

So, when are you getting
out of the service?

April.

Oh, wow, in less than a year.
Oh, yeah.

Junger:
That's gonna be weird.

Yeah. I've never
looked for a job.

You've never looked for a job?
Ever.

And then buying clothes...
Yeah.

...I think will be
a little weird,

because really other than
going to church on Sunday,

I pretty much just wear
the same thing every day.

Yeah.
But I-- I would say

that I won't miss, like,
the army...

Yeah.
...in a big-- It's been good.

They've given me
every single thing I have,

but I won't miss it,
that-- the institution.

Roels:
I don't know.
I guess I look at America,

that I live, uh, you know,

I live in a bubble.

And, uh,
and it's a pretty happy bubble.

Junger:
You joined up before 9/11.

Roels:
1993.

Why did you join the army?
Why?

Yeah.
For college money.

Straight up.

Two years I joined,
and then I liked it
so I stayed in.

It was a peace-time army,
basically-- a peace time...

Yeah. But we deployed
right away after 9/11.

Did you think, "Oh, my God,
now I'm in a war time army"?

No, I think everyone
was a bit excited.

You know, at that time
I had been in eight years.

You know, it's like
practicing for the dance

and now all of a sudden
you see a billboard

that says "Dance tonight."
You want to get in it.

( shouting )

Man singing:
♪ I'm gonna go there ♪

♪ I'm gonna climb ♪

♪ Now I don't know
about no law ♪

♪ I don't see no crime ♪

♪ Well,
there ain't no reason... ♪

Engineer:
There's one thing
I just wanted to tell you.

When the trains go by,

they report people
on the railroad now.

All right.
So more than likely

they'll be sending
the Amtrak police out
to find out who's out here.

I-- I--
'Cause ever since all that mess

that caused you guys
to go over there,

they've been
stepping up security.

Anybody-- they've been
putting up gates up everywhere

and the ranger's supposed
to run everybody off.

Yeah.

♪ Is it by the weight
of the woman ♪

♪ The weight of the gun ♪

♪ I can't stand it ♪

♪ I can't stand it ♪

♪ I can't wait to see
them walls falling down ♪

♪ I can't stand it ♪

♪ I can't stand it ♪

♪ I can't wait to see
them walls falling down ♪

Junger:
Daisy, come here.

You wanna take a swim?
You're hot.

That's fine.

Come on! Come on.

That's a good girl.

( camera clicking )
I think we just wade it.

O'Byrne:
My dad passed away
three years ago.

And for most of our life,
I hated him.

My dad was an alcoholic.

And I was a bad kid.

Me and my father fought

and fought and fought
and fought and fought.

( clicking )

And it ended up escalating,

so one night
where we were fighting so bad

that he shot me twice.

And then I lied to the police,
saying that he had no choice.

And I went
to juvenile detention
for a year because of it.

I never got a thank you,
never got a pat on the back,

never "Thank you
for doing what you did."

That sounded weird.

But when I came out of lock-up,

I was a better person.

I believe the day he shot me

might have been
the turning point in my life,

maybe the thing
that saved me.

( thunder rumbling )

Junger:
Daisy was my pillow
all night long.

Check it out.
She doesn't care. She likes it.

It's a heated pillow.
It's a furry pillow.

If you could
buy that at Wal-Mart,
people would buy it.

Roels:
It's a dog-ass pillow.

( all laughing )

"As seen on TV."

"The dog-ass pillow
changed my life."

( laughing )
"Thanks, dog-ass pillow."

( all laughing )

( train passing )

Junger:
Last night sucked a lot.

O'Byrne: Actually, dude,
this is what I want to do
for the rest of my fucking life.

This is it, right?
You found it?

This is it.

( chuckles )
You-- you got it now?

Yup.

Problems in my life
have been solved.

Just one night
out in the wilderness,

you see--
I'm gonna put in--

install a sprinklers
inside my house.

( laughs )
Just leave them on.

And put a tarp up--
A tarp over your bed?

Yeah.
Guillermo?

You know,
if you were with a woman,
you wouldn't be here.

( Cervera talking )

Would you rather be fighting
in a hotel room

with a girlfriend or out here
with us in the rain?

Here.
You'd rather be here?

Yeah, better.
( Junger talking )

They want to piss us off.

( men laughing )

All the time.

( Cervera talking )

( Junger talking )

And we don't
always want closeness.

Yeah.

Do you know what I mean?
Yeah.

Sometimes you just want to sleep
in the rain under a tarp.

Yeah.
O'Byrne: Sometimes?

All the time.

( thunder rumbling )

So are we gonna cook breakfast
in this shit

or are we gonna
just start walking?

I say we start walking.
I want some-- I want some,
um, coffee.

I say we do make some coffee,
though, right?

Junger:
It's like milking
a huge camouflage cow.

What's the most scared
you've ever been, Guillermo?

( stammering )

I think the most scary thing

is when someone
takes control of yourself.

Like someone takes you
and puts you in a place

and you are just controlled
by them, you know?

And you don't know
what is going to happen.

More than bullets
and-- I don't know.

That's-- you can run away
or whatever.

Did you make peace with the fact
that you were going to die?

No.
But you had time
to think about it.

Did you get yourself--
Peace? ( chuckles ) No.

I had that once
in Sierra Leone.

We were stopped
at a rebel checkpoint.

And they-- they just
cocked their guns,

started screaming.
And they were arguing
with themselves

about whether to kill us.

And that went on
for about 15 minutes.

And, uh, I really thought,
"This is it."

Like, 50/50 they were going
to shoot all of us.

Yeah.
And, uh, I just went numb.

You ever think
you were gonna die?

No, I don't-- no.

No, you've never been
in a situation...

Where it's just like hopeless
or you just feel it?

That day, uh, when the war
broke up in front of me,

it was my scariest moment.

Because I knew it was bad
when we got off the hill.

We were walking on that road
and there was nothing,

there was nothing
to hide behind.

I hit the ground...

You know, all this--
that first processing happened

and then I bounced back up
and I started shooting again

because I was pissed.

And, uh, that was--
it was all over like that.

And then-- and then Steiner
got shot in the head.

And then I went crazy,
like, in my head.

Like something snapped.

'Cause, uh,
it was my-- my soldier.

And someone said,
"He got shot in the head."

And, uh, Mac ran past me
and he was laughing.

I'm like, "What the fuck
are you laughing about?"

He's like, "Steiner is okay."

And it didn't-- it didn't
make me feel any better.

It was only the second time
I cried in Afghanistan.

Junger:
In the-- in the fire fight?

No, that n-- that night.

And what were you
crying about specifically?

No-- no control.

I told those guys
that they would be okay.

And-- and it really--
it doesn't--

You have no control in combat.

After that, I stopped listening
to my lieutenant.

That's when I stopped
listening to orders

that were gonna
get my men killed.

Well, what would happen
if five people

would think that way
inside of a platoon?

I-- I'm not-- I'm not--

No, I'm just wondering.
It's interesting.

I'm talking about--
I'm talking about leaders.

Leaders?
I'm talking about leaders.

I'm talking about
leaders being leaders

and saying,
"This is good for my men
and this is bad for my men."

I got some experience
in knowing how to--
when and where to walk.

And I know that
down that road, my friends
have been killed before.

I know Doc Canning
was killed down there.

I know a bunch of guys
that were shot down there.

Yeah, but now if you look
in the big picture,

if everybody did,
now you've got anarchy,
chaos and, uh...

Well, I-- I think you're
misconstruing what I did.

I-- I stopped listening
to orders

that were gonna
get my men killed.

That's-- that's what--
But when you--
when you look at it--

Let me just talk.
Let me just-- let me
finish my sentence.

And after that,
after I--

I stopped listening
to the orders

that were gonna get
my men killed, I felt better.

And that's when
I took my power back

and that's when
I became less fearful.

But can you know
which ones will get them killed
and which ones won't?

Walking on a road
in the middle of day

is gonna get my men killed.

We can argue it all day long.

Ultimately, we-- we take orders.
Junger: Yeah.

It blows,
but that's exactly what we do.

I certainly am one to voice
my opinion,

but at the end of the day...

Man singing:
♪ When I came back
from Luang Prabang ♪

♪ I didn't have a thing
where my balls used to hang ♪

♪ But I got a wood medal
and a fine harangue ♪

♪ Now I'm a fucking hero ♪

♪ Mourn your dead,
land of the free ♪

♪ If you want to be a hero,
follow me ♪

♪ Mourn your dead,
land of the free ♪

♪ You want to be a hero,
follow me ♪

♪ And now the boys
all envy me ♪

♪ I fought
for Christian democracy ♪

♪ With nothing but air
where my balls used to be ♪

♪ Now I'm a fucking hero ♪

♪ In Luang Prabang
there is a spot ♪

♪ Where the corpses
of your brothers rot ♪

♪ And every corpse
is a patriot ♪

♪ Every corpse is a hero ♪

♪ Mourn your dead,
land of the free ♪

♪ If you want to be a hero,
follow me ♪

♪ Mourn your dead,
land of the free ♪

♪ You want to be a hero,
follow me. ♪

( birds cawing )

Junger:
I first went to war
when I was 30.

I went to Bosnia.

And I went partly
'cause I was searching
for a career

and war reporter
seemed kind of interesting

and exciting
and romantic.

But really I went
because I felt like
I wasn't a man yet.

I felt like I'd never
been tested in any real way

and that if I went to war,
it would change me

and make me strong
and mature me in a way

that I wanted to have happen.

And that worked eventually

over the course
of 18 years or so.

I feel like my experiences
in war helped turn me

into the person I wanted to be.

That's what I understand
about war,

is that it has
the power to do that

while it has the power
to also destroy you.

Hey, how you doin'?
Man: Hey, guys, how are you?

How far
is downtown Baltimore?

Where you going?

Harbor Place?
We're going just downtown.

Go straight
on this road here.

You're gonna have to go back
over to Russell Street
and cross over.

Okay.
So what do you think?

Four or five miles?
Something like that?

No, old man like me
used to walk about
20 minutes from here.

Oh, okay, thanks.
Sure.

( camera clicks )

( chattering )

( men talking )

Where's your car?
Where are the cars?

Yeah.
No, we're walking.

Two of these guys
are combat vets

and they're coming home
to this country.

I was with them out
in Afghanistan as a journalist.

And they were--
You're the man.

--trying to get to know
our country again.

Thanks for
serving our country, man.

How do you think the country
is doing right now?

To me, not that well,
for the small man, anyway.

It ain't never been that great
for the small man,

but like now
it seem to be even worse.

I think right now,
a lot of crime is up
with people hungry.

Yeah.
You know, you get hungry,
you gonna take stuff.

It's that simple.
It ain't hard to figure out.

( chuckles )
You know, you bring
the jobs back.

I mean, come on,
you know everybody getting fed,
why take it? I got it.

You know, if you don't have it,
people gonna cover means.

Gotta provide for the families,
themselves, and you know.

It's just gonna be that way.

Man:
Mr. Dave, we gotta go!

Gotta go to church, Mr. Dave!
( church bells ringing )

I haven't been to church
since, Jesus, since...

My babysitter took me
to church when I was about six.

Six years old?
Something like that.

That's incredible.

( drums beating )
( people singing )

♪ He's goin' to find out,
He's goin' to find out ♪

♪ He's goin' to find out ♪

♪ Can't you see? ♪

All:
♪ Can't you see? ♪

♪ It's about time ♪

♪ It's about time ♪

♪ For He is the Lord! ♪

♪ Yeah! ♪
( all cheering )

Woman:
Hallelujah!

Pastor:
God has a blessing...
All: Amen.

...with her name on.

She ate, he ate,
the child ate.

God was blessing her.
All: Yes.

But after awhile,
while they were being blessed,

her son, he dies.

And the young lady
tries to figure out

what just happened.

Man: Yeah.
"Did you set me up?

You mean that you would send
a prophet to bless me,

to feed me, to take care
of me and my son,

only to allow my son to die?!

What trick do you have?
What is this?"

Many of you
are looking and saying,

"We shouldn't question God."
Man: No, sir.

When you're hurting,
you ain't thinking about
nothing like that.

( all calling out )

That's not-- though holy,
pious all you might,

that you never question God.

But you started saying,
"Why did you do this to me?"

As a pastor, I've had
death interrupt my family...

Yeah.
...and I don't want
to question Him

but I try to deal with,
"Mmm, God, I don't understand.

I don't understand it.

I don't understand!"

Yeah, I'm a pastor,
but I don't understand!

And God says,
"It's not for you to understand.

Can you just trust me?"
( applause and cheers )

( piano playing )

( men arguing )

♪ There's a dirt floor ♪

♪ Underneath here ♪

♪ To receive us ♪

♪ When changes fail ♪

♪ May this shovel ♪

♪ Lose your trouble ♪

♪ Let them ♪
( camera clicks )

♪ Fall away ♪

♪ Well, the mist shall ♪

♪ Be your blanket ♪

♪ While the moss shall ♪

♪ Ease your head ♪

♪ As the future ♪

♪ Is soon forgotten ♪

♪ As the dirt shall ♪

♪ Be your bed ♪

( train whistle blowing )

( crickets chirping )

What did you see?
I slept through it.
What did you see last night?

Roels:
I saw a helicopter
flying above us.

I saw it go up the track
with the light

and, uh, then I heard
a bunch of sirens.

And they get louder
and louder and louder.

And then, uh,

the-- the helicopter came back
along the tracks.

I was like, "We're fucked."

Well,
it's not that reassuring

that we slipped through
their safety net.

I mean, it missed us
by probably 100 meters,

that light.

( train horn blaring )

Well, you guys
wanna do a group hug...
Cameraman: No.

...this morning?
I'll tape it.

Come on. Come on.
No, I'm good.

Come on, dude.
Nah, come here.

We'll do one
of those Arab...

No, no, no.
We're doing this.

( Daisy whining )

( men laughing )

Cervera:
I think I kept on going
to work

with an obsession
because I had some trauma

from my childhood
with my father, you know.

( camera clicks )

My father deals with war.

He sells arms
in a legal way,

but he sells war.

And since I was a kid,
I was against that.

I remember I used to tell him,
like,

"What are you doing?"
But he thought I was stupid.

After we started
"The Last Patrol",

I told my father
maybe I go to Syria

because my addiction made me,
um-- I said, "Go," you know?

And he told me, "Stop doing
that bullshit job you have,

taking pictures of war."

And I say, "If I choose
to do that,

you should respect me
because what you do,

it's bullshit too,
because you are selling guns."

But I realize
that to go to war,

it's like a way of trying
to show my father

that I can do something good
in life, you know.

This looks grim.

That's too far to swim.

There's boats
all the way down there.

It's just--
it's private property
to get on them.

That house
with eight pick-up trucks
in front of it...

Yeah.
...that might be a good one
for you two guys.

Just play the vet card.
( knocking on door )

We're just trying
to get across the bay

and, uh, we were wondering
if you knew how-- how to...

Man: You ain't getting
across there.
No? Why is that?

There's no way
to get across.

Uh, you-- uh, boat wise?

Like if someone
would take us over?

I don't have a boat
in the water right now.

( train whistle blowing )

Maybe they have an idea
of someone

that could give us a ride?
Man: Okay, go on up.

I'm smart.
Junger: You are smart.

Hey, is she okay,
Sebastian?

As long as you don't have mud.
You don't have mud, do you?

Junger:
So, you're in
the bee business.

How does that work?
Very carefully.

( all laughing )
Very carefully!

Every time
you pick up a magazine

or a book or something,
hear a television,

they're saying that the bees
are dying, right?

Which they are.

They just now found out
the reason why they're dying.

We're gonna be the next species
that dies behind them.

Do you know why?
Tell me.

Pesticides.

What made you guys
decide to do this?

We just-- we just wanted to see
what would happen, you know.

I mean,
what's the purpose of it?

Just to get to know
America again

and to decompress
a little bit from the war.

What do you think
about America?

Are we in a good place
right now or not?

We're headed for trouble.

Yeah?
Big trouble.

You can see it coming,
you know.

We're all in big trouble.
Why is that?

We gotta get that president
outta there, you know.

We definitely do.

I think if it keeps on going,

there's going to be
a civil war, you know.

I really do. Somebody--

something-- something has got
to give somewhere, you know.

Junger:
We should probably keep on
with our march.

We're hoping to try
to get some kind person

to take us across
that estuary in a boat.

You think
that's at all possible?

Um...

Not really.
If you know somebody, you know.

O'Byrne:
Yo!

Cervera: Oh.
Hey! Let's go hurry up!

Junger: Yup!

Hey, grab my bag!

Hey, we gotta rush
if we're gonna get this.

He's gotta go to work.

( man talking )

O'Byrne:
I appreciate it. Thank you.

If you didn't say military, man,
I wouldn't be doing this.

Really.

Junger:
The country seems
pretty divided right now.

I hope it heals itself
'cause that's not--

It is very divided.
Right?

Yeah. It's almost--

it's different
as women and men are.

Two sides in America. It is.
Yeah, yup.

I have a feeling
that we lost our way,
that what made us great...

What made us great?

Everybody wanting to work,

making-- all the money they get,
they made through hard work,

not sitting there
expecting the government
to take care of them.

Yeah.

And I think there's a lot
of that going on right now.

It'll get back there again.

What's the work you do?

I know you have to
get to work today so--

It's construction,
waterproof.

Waterproof foundations.
Yeah.

Just go out there
and spray asphalt.

Junger:
Brendan, what's the thing
you like most about women?

Um, they keep me in line,
you know.

My wife keeps me in line.

See, you know, without a wife,

without-- without Liz,
shit,

I'd be out here every day.
( laughs )

I would be a bum.

( Junger laughing )

You know, it just--
it kind of completes a person
in a way.

Um, guys tend to wander.

And sometimes, uh,
you shouldn't wander.

And I say
that's what my wife does--

kind of like
my compass, man.

So kind of the same
with Brendan a little bit,
you know.

Junger:
Guillermo, what's the thing
you like most about women?

( exhales )

Everything.
( laughing )

Of course, everything.

What-- everything?
Yeah, everything.

But they're a little bit--
a little bit crazy.

That's the only thing
makes me--

but, yeah, they--
I like everything.

Have women gotten upset
with you in your life at all?

Yeah, many times.
( men laughing )

If I was an upset woman--

if I was really upset,
what would you be doing
right now?

I'd say-- I would say,
like,

"Come on.
Don't think about it. Relax."
( chuckles )

Junger:
What do you think, Dave?
How's it going today?

We've moved good.
Yeah.

Um, no complaints today.

It's nice. I'm ready for night.
I know.

Maybe move
under dark a little.

Possibly.
We'll see how guys feel.

Roels:
Coming home for some soldiers
is difficult

because when we're deployed,
you know,

you're living next
to your closest buddies.

You wake up in the morning
and you brush your teeth

in the sink next to 'em
and then you go eat breakfast

and then you go patrol.

There's a lot of
unspoken communication
amongst those groups.

There's a lot
of understanding.

And then all of a sudden,
boom, you're by yourself.

It's comforting to live
in a group.

And when that's gone,

it can be a very difficult
adjustment to make.

And they're expecting,
when they get home,

everything is going
to be great.

Everybody's gonna,
you know,

love to see them.
And that's partially true,

but if you had problems
before,

all the war is going to do
is put those problems off.

Most soldiers you see
that have problems
when they return

also had problems
before they deployed.

( chattering )

Watch out, there's a dog
in the road!
Oh, God!

( car striking )
Whoa, whoa,
whoa, whoa, whoa!

Oh, damn it!
Shit!

( dog howling )

Oh, God.
O'Byrne: I can't do that, man.

Oh, God.
I gotta go, man.

( dog howling )
Oh, fuck. Fuck.

( dogs howling )

Oh, man.
Junger: You all right?

Fuck. I don't deal
with death well, man.

I don't deal with that.

Like, that's not a good thing
for me to see ever, like, ever.

I don't want to see it.
And I-- and I don't know.

I don't know.

Fuck, man.
I just...

Yeah, that was
a harsh thing to see.

My brain doesn't work well...
Yeah.

...to see those things coming.

( men chattering )

Junger:
Well, I don't think
the dog saw it, you know.

It was-- I mean,
imagine how knocked out it was

when it got hit by the car.

It didn't sound like that.

Well, I mean,
it was in shock.

There was howling
and it died in a minute,
you know.

Fuck! What are you--
I mean like--

Well, you did the right thing.
You got out of there.

Yeah.
You know.

Like a fucking girl,
just took off running.

Yeah, that was good.
That was good.

I just chased you to make sure
you were all right.

You don't know,
you don't care.

You just-- it's amazing.
You just want your stick.

Completely oblivious.
Aren't you?

You think if anybody
should be really upset,

it should be you.

Roels:
What lingers is
the major question for tonight.

What?
What's more messed up?

If it didn't bother you
seeing the dog get hit
or if it did?

Yeah.

Cervera:
I think America
is a really amazing country

in the way that
you have a lot of freedom

for growing yourself,

for making business
or do a family or whatever.

But it's a lot of sadness
also in America.

It's a lot of problems.

And we-- in this trip,
we have seen that.

We have seen a lot of people
with problems

which are all over the world,
but in America,

I think the people
is so individual.

In other countries,

you just see people
helping each other.

So people--

when they have a problem,
they feel better

because the neighbor
is helping.

In America, I'm sure
that happens, but less.

And you can tell that
in the faces of the people.

Something there
that you can tell

is making them suffer.

Man:
What you guys doing?

Junger:
Just walking around the country
to see what it looks like.

No kidding.

Yeah, we're walking--
we've walked from D.C.

Holy moly.

Yeah, we're sleeping outside
and just meeting people
like you.

Get outta here.
Yeah.

Man, that's great.
That's great.

We're trying to figure out

what the best thing
about America is.
What do you think?

What do you think
is the best thing
about this country?

That you're free.
Freedom of speech.

Freedom of speech, man.
Freedom of religion.

Yeah, it's free-- free country.
( laughs )

Best thing about America?
Yeah.

Mm, I gotta Google it first,
see.

( chuckles )

Um, best thing
about America is...

No?
You tell me.

What's the best thing
about America?

I don't know. I'm still--
that's why we're walking.

We're trying to figure it out.

Ain't nothing good
around here.

I don't know why
y'all walking through here.

We heard Chester
is a pretty tough town,

but people
have been really friendly.

Yeah, they are nice.

You can find a couple
of nice people if you look.

We found nothing
but nice people so far.

It's only what you make it.
That's all.

Yeah.
It's only what you make it.

Man:
Being that I am an American,
I'm a Vietnam veteran,

I think the best thing
about America

is that you do have a freedom
of choice.

You have a choice.
You understand what I'm saying?

Whether you agree
with all the things
that America stands for

or whether you don't,

which I don't agree with
everything America stands for.

And-- but I don't disagree
with everything that America
represents.

But I think the best thing
about America

is that you do have a choice.

Junger:
What do you think
of our president now?

I love Barack Obama.

I wish he was
more forceful in trying
to get his message across.

I wish he was more forceful

in trying to deal
with the Republicans.

I wish he was more forceful,
and I wish he would
get mad sometimes.

I wish he would get angry.

I wish he would
get angry sometimes.

Why do you think he doesn't?

I don't know.

Can I be frank?
Yeah, please be.

I'm talking real frank.

Yeah, go for it, man.
Nigga, fuck it.

You know what I'm talking about.
It's going to Fucktown
right here, man.

This Ballroom Avenue
used to be a million-dollar
fucking business

till the fucking niggers
starts coming around here--

excuse me when I say it,
I don't give a fuck.

You gonna keep it real?
Keep it the fuck real.

Smoking that shit,
you know what I'm talking about?

You know what i mean,
fucking the whole joint up.

Out of everything
in this neighborhood,

never been touched--
this garden.

It has never been touched.

Ain't no young boys
coming here vandalizing.
None of this.

You know why?
Because we respect our block.

If any outsider come in
this motherfucking neighborhood

with that dumb-ass shit, nigga,
trust me, it's your ass.

Junger:
Oh, shit. ( grunts )

Hey, Guillermo.
What?

Time to get up.

You won't believe how awesome
it is out here.

I would bring a piece
of plastic, you know?

This is not-- very bad.

Are all the army products
like this?

Like bad.

Junger:
I think I'm gonna brush my teeth
today just for church.

That's a good idea.

I haven't brushed my teeth
since Wilmington.

Since Vietnam.

Since Vietnam.
I haven't brushed my teeth
since Vietnam.

( man laughing )

Junger:
Oh, I have a fucking blister.

Oh, did you?

I had no idea
that that could happen--
blisters like that.

You know, we were talking--
me and Brendan

how, like, really, truly fragile
an infantryman is,

like a compass.
If you broke it,
you could be done.

A hemorrhoid.
Prickly heat.
Yeah.

And prickly heat is...
Monkey butt?

Monkey butt.
Monkey butt.

I mean you could really
be made ineffective.

Yeah.
Uh-huh. It-- it--

you might be there,
but your mind's not
gonna be in it.

No.
You'll be hurting.
I mean, you'll just be like...

Female pastor:
Who are we really?

Are our souls shaped,

our face
written in full by God

before we even draw
our first breath?

Do we make ourselves

by the choices
we ourselves make?

Or are we clay

that is merely molded

and pushed into shape?

A shape that are betters--
pupose for us.

The question will require us
to reason our way

throughout the thicket
of ideas.

Free will and determinism,

fate and destiny,

choice and election.

Who are we really?

Woman #2:
I want to talk today
about Psalm 1:39.

It's a poem in the Bible,
and it tells us

that God knows us

even before we are born,
right?

And even before
our first picture, right?

So God knows you
very well right now

and loves you and knows
how many hairs are on your head

and knows what you're thinking,
right?

And what you're going to do...

Junger:
What's the best thing
about America, in your opinion?

I think I have to say what,

you know, what I would
have said in my childhood

and I've always believed--
opportunity.

O'Byrne: Yes, yup.
Airborne infantry.

Pardon me?
Airborne infantries.

Okay.
So I jumped out of planes
and stuff like that.

Yeah, it was--
but it was good.
It was good.

I-- I-- I miss it.

Well, I would think that it
would be very hard

to come back,
for a lot of guys,
to this country

where some people

don't even know
there's a war going on.

Cervera:
Difficult task.

Fall behind.

Junger: Are you good?
Yeah.

So we have about four miles.

Nice easy day.
Nice easy beginning.

( dog barking )

I wish Dave was with us.
Cervera: Yeah, man.

It feels like, uh,
almost like a mission without--

a company without
their first sergeant, you know?

Yeah, I miss his weird wisdom
about things.

Yeah, yeah.
You know?

Like he had a really good way

of figuring out
what we should do.

Yeah.
You know?
He really was smart in his way.

He was very smart
about things.

Roels:
I left "The Last Patrol"
and went back to Afghanistan

because I missed it.

I missed soldiers

and little things

like the planning
of an operation,

watching a squad leader
maneuver his men.

Not being able to finish
"The Last Patrol"

was quite hard.

You don't want to be the guy
that takes a day off
of a patrol

just in case something
would happen that day.

But there's still plenty
of fighting,

there's still plenty
of bad guys.

And this is what
I do to pay bills.

I have to chose one
or the other,

and I gotta do priority one,
family.

I think I'll always
say I'm not going back,

but I don't think
it's a reality.

We'll all go back
at some point, I think.

Junger:
There's a car up there
along the tracks.

I'm just gonna make sure
it's not a cop.

There's no lights
on the-- on the roof anyway.

It's nice being
on the wrong side
of the law again.

( chuckles )
You know?

Yeah.
Just slightly.

Yeah, it's a good feeling.

Why is it that getting away
with something feels better

than not trying to get away
with something?

Why-- why is that?

'Cause we need something
in our lives to make us--

our blood go a little bit.

Man, I-- I was--
I was camping at West Virginia,

I was up on this ridge,
and down below

at the bend in this river
was a little campground.

There was no one there
but some park rangers,

like, driving around
in their trucks.

I was way-- I was maybe
1,000 feet up.

And, uh-- and I was looking
at them with binoculars.

I was above them,
and they didn't know
I was there.

What is it about that
that makes you want
to attack them?

( laughing )
Cervera: You what?

You know what I mean?
I just wanted to attack them.

It's a very primal thing, man.
Totally primal.

It's like other men
you don't know below you

and they don't
know you're there.

"Kill."

O'Byrne: And they--
they could be a threat.

They could not be a threat.

But they definitely
won't be a threat
if you kill them.

Yeah.
( laughing )

O'Byrne:
It's nice to come out
here again.

It's like easy--
you know, sort of like combat.

It's, like, sort of a--
a bare essential existence.

And I-- I like that that sort
of style of life.

You know,
where you could just worry

about the very small things.

You know, I'm not worrying
about drinking out here.

I'm not worrying about
what my wife and I

are going to do
with the rest of our lives.

I'm not worried
about anything like that.

I'm just worried
about just getting from here
to Lancaster

and maybe to Harrisburg,

and after that,
who knows, you know?

That's the only thing
I'm caring about--

caring about right now.

So that's really,
uh, peaceful in my head

when I get to do that.

Junger: I met Brendan
when I was in Afghanistan

with American soldiers.

We ran a remote outpost
called Restrepo.

And out there
I knew him

as an incredibly
effective soldier.

He was a team leader,
incredibly focused.

And then he comes home
to the United States

and he's a mess.

Drank way too much,
very self-destructive.

But when we started doing
"The Last Patrol,"

all of a sudden
I would see the old Brendan

that I remembered
from Afghanistan.

There's a lot
of small miserable tasks to do

when you're living outside--

pumping water out of a creek,
building a fire,

putting up the tarps.
And after walking all day,

you don't want
to do those things.

Brendan was always the guy
who would jump up

and do what needed
to be done.

Sometimes it was running
up a hill

to see if there was
a good place to sleep
at the top of a hill.

Was there water up ahead?

Just so that not everyone
would have to walk
that distance,

he would run it
and then come back.

And that's the Brendan that
I remembered from Afghanistan

and that's what
came out during the patrol.

He clearly, also himself,
felt that he was at his best

when he was out here.

I remember one time we ended
the trip a little early,

and he was incredibly upset
about it

because he just
didn't want to go home.

( gunshot )

( gunshot )
( Daisy moaning )

Lay these down.
He's fucking right there.

( Daisy barking )
Hey, there!

( Daisy barking )
( man talking )

Huh?
( Daisy barking )

Junger:
We heard-- we heard
someone shooting. Was that you?

Yeah, yeah.

Yeah, just doing
a little trapping.

What-- can I ask
what that pole--

how that pole works?

Yeah. This is, uh--

if you get one in the trap,
like--
An opossum.

--catch a cat--
Oh.

--a cat or anything
like that,

then, uh--
Oh, wow, look at that.

you just noose it up.
That way you can let them go.

I already let two cats go.

We've been asking people
what's the best thing
about America.

Well, I ain't got too much faith
in the government,

but-- there's too many taxes.

But other than that,
it's nice.

It really is. It's free.
I mean, you're free so...

If you take this trail...
Junger: Yeah.

...across there,
you'll see a trail that cuts
down to the railroad.

Yeah.
Don't take that.

I got three traps
sitting there

and I don't want the dog
getting caught in it.
Oh.

And this water--
we've been drinking this water.

Is it all right?
The best.

( Daisy barking )
It's the best?

Yeah.
You can drink it straight
out of the creek, right?

You ain't, uh--
you ain't got sick yet,
did you?

Nope.
( man laughing )

Junger: I ain't got sick.
O'Byrne: That's good stuff.

You guys picked a bad time
of the year, though, didn't you?

We're supposed
to get snow tonight.

Are we getting snow?
Yeah.

Oh, my God. Mmm.

Daisy.

O'Byrne:
She's been licking
my eyeball.

Oh, Daisy.

Do you see the snow?

Do-- do I see--
do I see the snow?
Yeah.

Oh, Daisy, stop it! No!

( chuckles )
What's with the stupid jacket?

( laughing )
Who put that stupid jacket
on you?

Oh.

You look like
it's after the apocalypse.

"In a world without gasoline..."
( laughing )

"...without flowers

and without women,

four men and a dog
journey northwards

or was it westwards."

It makes her look
sort of bow-legged.

( laughing )
You know what I mean?
She looks like an old man.

Yeah. ( laughing )

O'Byrne:
Look how badass she looks
when she's running back over.

Right.
( laughing )

Look at her.
( laughing )

( camera clicking )

Junger:
My father was a physicist.

Cervera: A what?
He's a physicist.

Your father?

He figured out
how the world worked.

My father taught me
that the world is understandable

in physical terms.
It's not a big mystery.

It's understandable.

Some of it is a mystery,
but they're working on it.

Didn't he tell you that
the world is a piece of shit?

( chuckles )
No, that's the human part
of it.

The physical world is...

doing fine.

He said if you
can measure things
and you can think critically,

you can understand the world.

So that's what
I started doing.

And he was an atheist
because he couldn't measure it--

he couldn't measure God

and he couldn't think critically
about it,

so he didn't believe in God.

Junger:
My father died right before
"The Last Patrol" started,

a few weeks before we set out
on our first walk.

I was holding his hand
when he died.

He grew up in Europe

and he was very,
very smart.

He lived completely
in his head,

completely disconnected
from his body.

And his body punished him
by not doing very well.

I saw my father debilitated
by arthritis and asthma

and all these
physical ailments.

He had absolutely
no capacity to take care
of himself physically.

As a kid,
I completely disavowed

any kind of dependency
like that.

The answer
that I came up with

was to make my life physically
as hard as I possibly could.

My whole life was an attempt
to show

that I could endure anything.

I could sleep outside
in a blanket on a winter night

and not freeze to death.

I became
a long-distance runner.

I could run all day
and all night if I had to.

I didn't need food,
I didn't need water.

I was completely invulnerable.

My ideal
was that I would be able

to walk off into the woods
with a knife in my back pocket

and survive in the woods
without any help

for an indefinite amount
of time

and then come back
and I'd be okay.

And somehow if I was able
to do that,

then I would feel safe
and happy in my life.

Cervera:
Sebastian, for me,
is the lost of the group.

He's lost.
Trying to find himself.

Trying to follow directions
from Dave because you're lost.

We'll string the tarp up
right here, slope that way.

Trying to follow directions
from me in a way

when talking about woman
because you're lost.

Like the lost kid
of the group.

...from here to here...

The lost kid who is
the oldest in the family,

who try to take care
of the other kids.

For me, lost people--

I like lost people
because I've been lost
all my life.

Uh, uh, throwing TVs around,

like, full-blown
panic attack

that I couldn't find my car...

Cervera:
I quit drinking 17 years ago.

Junger:
Do you think you'd be alive
right now if you hadn't stopped?

No, no, no.

Probably I'd be dead
15 years ago.

I was very close to death.
I was sleeping on the streets.

The police would wake me up,
you know.

Sometimes stealing,
sometimes selling drugs.

I'd probably be dead.
For sure.

Yeah.

Yeah, I even tried
to kill myself a couple
of times, you know,

when I was having
those problems.

You're crazy.
I mean, it's a mental disease.

But you know what I've been
asking people recently

just out of curiosity...

( engine rumbling )
O'Byrne: ATV.

What I've been asking people is

what's it mean to be a man.

What's that mean when people
say, "Come on, be a man."

What-- what are they
talking about?

What's that mean?

I think-- I think what--
what that's saying

is basically, to me, is--
is face your problems

and don't run from them,
whether it sucks or not.

Yeah.
What about you?

I think it would mean,
uh, being less concerned

about what happens to you

and more concerned
about what happens to people
you care about.

You know
in Aurora, Colorado?

There's a cinema, right?

This kid walked in there
with a shotgun and a rifle,

killed 16 people,
something like that.

And three young men died

'cause they stepped in front
of their girlfriends

to protect them,
and they got-- they got shot.

So you could say
that's being a man.

Like that guy is thinking,
"I'm less concerned

about what happens to me
than what happens to her
so I'm gonna stand there."

But if you say that,
right-- right?

What about that woman
in the school in Sandy Hook

who was found
covering those children.

Yeah.
Is that a man?

Well, you know
what I think happens,

I think men protect women
and women protect children.

Like in the theater,
not one woman stepped
in front of a man,

'cause that's not their job.
But I bet there are women

who saved children
in that theater.

You know what I'm saying?

I asked a friend of mine,
a woman,

I said if you--
if there was a shooting

like in Aurora,
anything dangerous,

anything, and you were
with your boyfriend

and he stepped
and got behind you,

what would happen
in the relationship?

And she said,
"I would break up with him
immediately. Done."

O'Byrne:
Some men can't go to combat.

Yeah.

So combat
can't make you a man.

Cervera:
I think what is really brave,

what is really tough
in this world,

is to get the car every day
at 7:00 in the morning,

go to the same work,

do what you have to do
to feed your children...

Yeah.
...go back home,
deal with that,

deal with your wife,
make them happy...

Yeah.
...and try
to be yourself happy.

That's for me...
Yeah.

...the toughest thing to do
for anyone, you know?

Everything's fucking tough.
Life is tough, you know?

No matter if you're--
if you're getting shot at

or-- or getting in an argument
with your wife every day,
you know?

Getting shot at,
getting yelled at.
Yeah.

Which is harder?

Learning that role that
you have to provide society--

Cervera: Now, now.
Listen, listen, listen, listen.

Listen, listen, listen.

A man is knowing the sense
of what your role in society is

and then fucking doing it.

O'Byrne:
When I got out
of the military,

my dad lived in an apartment
above me.

And I was really lost
and I didn't know what to do.

I was depressed,
I couldn't get a job,

I wasn't showering,
I wasn't eating.

I was really a terrible mess.

Every night I would go up
and talk to him.

And he never gave opinions,
he never gave advice.

He never said, "Hey,
this is what you should think."

As drunk as I was,
he just let me tell my story.

He just let me
get this terribleness
out of my heart.

And my dad,

whatever may happened
when I was a kid,

he saved my life
when I was 24,

just letting me
get it out.

He saved my life
and then he died.

A lot of people ask me,
"How could you still
love your father

after him shooting you?"

But he was just doing
the best he could.

He sucked.
He sucked at being a father.

But it doesn't take away
from him as a human being.

My dad really fucked me over
in life.

I'm an alcoholic.

I'm, uh, I'm all
these different things
because of that.

Come on, Daisy.
But I'm also alive.

All right, here it goes.

Junger: What are we doing?
Top of the hill.

You fuck--
you got a fucking
head start on me!

Ah!
I'm carrying more than you,
motherfucker!

( laughs )
Oh, you're carrying more?

I'm carrying more, asshole.
Fuck you.

I'm twice your age.

Junger:
You guys up
for a good walk today?

You guys up for walking twice
what we did yesterday?

Like, when we walk a lot,
we walked like 20,

20-something, right?
Yeah.

I'm having
another granola bar.

I really wish
I had a pack of cigarettes.

I'm just gonna confess that.

O'Byrne:
I wish I had a drink.

Junger:
I can't promise
in the next town

I'm not getting
a pack of cigarettes.

I can promise you
I'm not gonna drink.

Not drinking the booze there.

Want some? Want some?

I got you.

I got you.
Wait, wait, wait, wait.

Okay.

Junger:
Do you think this long walk
that we've been doing--

do you think it's helped
at all make the transition

from combat reporter to whatever
you would call yourself now?

I'm here because
I know you because of Tim.

( weapons firing )
Man: Going down 50 meters!

And I think about it.

I think, you know,
why I'm here and this happen,

and what can I do?

You know, like,
you know it's in your--

it's in your mind.
You know, it's--

otherwise, you will go--

keep on going and don't remind,
just being back.

Here, it makes you face
your problem,

for me, at least, yeah.

( train horn blaring )

( train horn blaring )

Cervera:
I've seen a lot of changes
of each of us

doing this trip.
And I think it's great.

I'm feeling a little weak
this time.

Junger:
Do you want me
to take your pack for awhile?

It has been a great opportunity
for me

to organize my brain,
which was kind of messed up.

Well, listen, let me
take your pack for a bit

and then you'll feel better
and we'll--

Yeah, but it's heavy
to carry two.

I've done it before.

I'll just give you a break
for an hour.

Okay.
All right.
And drink some water.

( burps )
Kill it.

I did, this Christmas,
I told with my father,

I just made him
sit in front of me

and just tell him what I feel,
you know, in a good way.

Not angry, just expressing
my feelings.

Now I feel better with him.

And that happened
from "The Last Patrol."

And I stopped going to work.

I thought go to work
was the only way

to get high as a photographer

with this kind of an ego thing,
you know.

It's an addiction to yourself.

Now I realize
there are a lot of ways
to tell stories

with your camera
in an amazing way,
not in a war.

So I decide
to cover other things
and I'm very happy.

( chuckles )

Man:
Look at that.

O'Byrne:
That's cool, man.

( camera clicks )

( clicking )

Junger:
When I was young,

war seemed like
the answer to a question
I didn't dare ask.

I spent 20 years covering wars.

I was almost killed
a few times

and I know any number of people
who are shot and wounded

and a couple who were killed.

And I finally stopped
going to war.

And I realize
my biggest challenge now

is to feel like
a worthy person

without that steroid injection
of good feeling

that comes from doing something
dangerous

and somewhat exceptional.

Maybe that really
is peacefulness.

Maybe that really is maturity.

Maybe that really
is living a deep life.

Cervera:
Nice to be here this early
in the morning.

What's that?
It's nice to be here.

Yeah.

Junger:
Yeah, this wasn't
a bad camp site after all.

Yeah, not bad.

You know, there's
a whole cookbook for recipes

you could cook in tin foil
in your engine

while you're driving.
Get the fuck out.

No, I'm serious.
What?

Yeah, you could wrap shit
in tin foil,

put it in your engine,
it'll cook it.

That's so awesome.
( laughing )

There's a whole--
there's a cookbook for it.

Are you serious?
Yeah.

And you found this?
Cooking for your car--

cooking with your car engine.
I'm serious.

So if you're stuck somewhere
you don't have a stove,

you just turn on the engine
for awhile.

You can bake bread,
you can cook eggs.

That's fucking hilarious.

Bacon right over the, uh,
engine block.

Just sizzle it
right on the engine block.

That's so stupid.
( laughing )

Jesus Christ.

Think of the guy
who thought that up.

What--
America!

Yeah.
What was that guy's life like?

I can tell you.

I can tell you
a lot about him.

We met a few of them
along the way here.

You think his wife
was tired of his fucking ideas
by the end?

( chuckles )
Yeah.

All right,
should we get packed up?

No, no.

As much as I hate to leave
our little place in paradise.

( laughing )
Yeah.

Cervera:
We just passed by paradise.

We just-- we--
that's right.

Man: What are you doing?
I was just-- fuck off.

I was just getting changed.
I'm sorry.

Quit holding your breath.

This is it, America.
Sexy as it gets.

Just balding, hairy,

overweight, carpel tunnel,

alcoholism, PTSD.

( Daisy barking )
America, do you want me or not?

( laughing )
Cervera: I want you. I want you.

( laughing )

That's all we got.

That's all I got to give.

That's it. That's it.

So, gentlemen, we're at the end
of another trip.

We did almost 50 miles.

And we'll be back here
in a couple of months.

Yeah.
It'll be hot.

The trees
will be full of leaves.
It'll be real easy to hide.

We've got a couple hours
walking

and then we're in Lewiston
and then we're done.

All right.

( calling out )

Junger:
Never thought you'd finish
a trip in Lewiston, did you?

O'Byrne:
I never suspected in my life
that I was gonna be walking...

Junger:
We made one final trip.

I decided to finish
at Jumonville Glen
in Pennsylvania

where George Washington
had his first taste of combat,

where he first heard bullets
whistle passed his head.

But we set out during a July
heat wave

and within a few days,
our little group started
to fall apart.

It was 100° in the shade

and we were walking along
an abandoned freight line

under the full force
of the summer sun.

First, Daisy collapsed
and then Guillermo gave up

and finally Rudy,
our loyal cameraman,

got heat stroke
and had to stop.

On our last day,
it was just Brendan and me.

Dusk found us
in Connellsville on the banks
of the Youghiogheny River,

and I told Brendan
my feet were too blistered
to go any farther.

He offered to take some weight
out of my pack,

but I shook my head
and said the trip was over.

Jumonville didn't matter,
I realized.

Like most battlefields,

it was just another spot
on the map,

just another piece of ground
where blood had been spilled

and not much else had changed.

The thing about combat
is that you finally understand,

you truly get,
how insignificant you are,

how random everything is.

But you also get something
incredibly valuable in return.

You get to understand
how deeply good it is
to be alive.

( guitar strumming )

♪ Whoo! ♪

♪ Whoo! ♪

♪ Well, if I get to heaven
before you do ♪

♪ I will meet you at the station
when the train comes along ♪

♪ I'll be watching and waiting,
Mother dear, for you ♪

♪ I will meet you at the station
when the train comes along ♪

♪ Father, when the train,
Father, when the train ♪

♪ I will meet you at the station
when the train comes along ♪

♪ Mother, when the train,
Mother, when the train
comes along ♪

♪ I will meet you at the station
when the train comes along ♪

♪ If my eyes see the glory
before yours do ♪

♪ I will meet you at the station
when the train comes along ♪

♪ I'll be there watching,
Father, for you ♪

♪ I will meet you at the station
when the train comes along ♪

♪ Father, when the train,
Father, when the train ♪

♪ I will meet you at the station
when the train comes along ♪

♪ Father, when the train,
Father, when the train
comes along ♪

♪ I will meet you at the station
when the train comes along ♪

♪ When the train,
oh, when the train ♪

♪ I will meet you at the station
when the train comes along... ♪

Man:
Guillermo, can I hear
your American accent again?

( croaking accent )
Warm and dry.
( laughing )

( American accent )
♪ In a cavern, in a canyon ♪

♪ Excavating for a mine ♪

♪ Dwelt a miner '49er ♪

♪ And his daughter,
Clementine. ♪

( laughing )

♪ When my train,
when my train ♪

♪ Meet me at the station
when my train comes along ♪

♪ When my train, sister,
when my train comes along ♪

♪ Will you meet me
at the station when my train
comes along? ♪

♪ When the train,
when the train ♪

♪ Meet me at the station
when my train comes along ♪

♪ When the train,
when the train comes along ♪

♪ I'll meet you at the station
when the train comes along ♪

♪ I'll meet you at the station
when the train comes along ♪

♪ I'll meet you at the station
when the train ♪

♪ Comes along. ♪