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So is that what attracted you to her?
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The fact that she{\i1} needed{\i0} you?
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The fact that I could be me...with her.
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I know this hurts.
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But the only truth I knew...
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...was when I was with her.
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I need you tho hear that. I need....
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...you to know...
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...and understand where I'm coming from.
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If....
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...There's any hope of saving our marriage....
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Routine.
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That was what my life had become.
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A giant assembly line.
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Just a series of same actions repeated day in, and day out, for years.
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[alarm rings]
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[alarm rings]
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Hey, you better get up. You're gonna be late for work.
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I never questioned what I was doing or where I was going.
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I just moved blindly through life from point A to point B.
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A slave to monotony and predictability.
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I knew that life didn't have to be that way.
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I knew it wasn't some giant inevitability that marriage equated to boredom and complacency...
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...because I saw how vibrant, authentic, honest, and happy...
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...other married people seem to be.
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Really curious about double-penetration with Roy...
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Vickie had been my friend and coworker for 6 years...
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...she was as free as they come.
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...refreshingly unapologetic...
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...in who she was...and blissfully married to the love of her life...
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Excuse me, everyone!
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But I'd like to say a few words before I lose everyone to the effects of booze...
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...weed or whatever other drugs you might've struggled in here.
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17 years ago....
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...I met Vickie McDaniels...
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...one of the most incredibly beautiful...
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...and insanely honest...and emotionally crazy women I've ever met in my life.
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3 weeks later...we were married.
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Everyone said we...were too young...
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...that we'd be divorced within a year...
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My mother even suggested we have the marriage annulled.
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But I knew better.
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I knew she was the girl for me.
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I think you for 17 of the best years of my life...
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You love me...love me for who I am...
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...accepting me for who I'm not without any judgment or criticism.
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I love you sweetheart.
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It's the 17 years of proving everyone they're wrong...
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Ahhh! Congratulations!
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I don't know why he thinks the relationship is so much better than everyone else's just because....
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...they knew each other for 3 weeks before they got married.
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That was exactly his point.
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Oh, look at us. We only dated for 3 weeks and we're still together 17 years later.
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We're better...
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Why do you...
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Because that is so phony, Drew.
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They're trying to show how happy they are together.
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If you're happy together, you don't have to prove it to anyone.
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They are kind of like us.
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They are happy.
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You know them better than I do.
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Thank you so much for coming tonight. It means so much to both of us to have you here.
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We wouldn't have missed it for the world!
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Congratulations! You two look so happy together.
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We are happy.
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I'm gonna have another cigarette, outside.
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I thought you were trying to quit?
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Well...
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Hey, can I bum a cigarette?
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Yeah. Cool. Thanks.
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Yeah.
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3 weeks can turn into 17 years real quick.
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Yeah, it's quite the story brook romance.
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I think it's just incredible, they're just...
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...defying all the odds and proving the naysayers wrong...
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It's very Romeo and Juliet without all that...
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...mutual suicide!
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How do you know them?
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I think he's my aunt actually.
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Really? Yeah, yeah.
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I've actually worked with her for 6 years. She's a great lady. She's really great.
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Love her.
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Wait! Are you the uhh...
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Are you the niece who does amazing photography?
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Oh, my god! Did she say amazing? She's really exaggerating.
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But yeah, I'm her niece.
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I've seen it. It's really amazing stuff? Wow, thank you.
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I've been going to school now for a couple of years trying to perfect my technique...
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...It's getting there.
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Mmmm. Yeah.
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Did you get any interesting shots in there? Yeah, I did.
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Got a lot.
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Take a look at this one.
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Why do you say that?
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There's just so much more going on with you than you're projecting in that moment.
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A lot in your lines right there.
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I was just zoning out.
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No the camera doesn't lie.
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I've been photographing people for years now.
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What are you, like 20?
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You haven't been doing anything for years yet.
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No, I've been shooting since I was 15. So that's 10 years now.
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I'm, uh, I'm Mimi by the way.
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Drew.
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[sighs]
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See you around. Yeah.
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I feel horrible about the party.
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Stop beating yourself up about it.
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I know you're not a fan of Vickie and her husband but uh....
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...I don't need you to like them. It's OK.
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No. I don't feel horrible about hating Vickie and Roy...
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I feel horrible about...I've been right all along about their relationship.
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What are you talking about?
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I saw them...with another woman...in their bathroom.
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You what?!
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Yes. A three way!
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Right in front of me! It was like a circus act or something.
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During the party? Yes, at the party!
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I was in the master bathroom peeing, waiting for you to finish your cigarette....
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And all of the sudden I hear a noise. So I went to peak out...
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And I saw Roy with another woman...
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...which I thought, he was having an affair....
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...which would be hilarious, given the fact that he's so...
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...in love with Vickie.
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They're touching each other and groping.
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...Kissing.
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Fuck ....
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And then they start heading toward the bathroom that I'm in...
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So I freaked out! Jumped in the shower and shut the curtain....
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...and just hoped they wouldn't hear me.
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Vickie walked in.
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And I'm thinking that she's going to yell at Roy for cheating on her.
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But she joined in!
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This was clearly a threesome they had planned!
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Happy Anniversary, baby!
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Love you. Love you, amazing guy!
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Oh.
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That's hilarious.
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No! It was horrifying!
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Now do you see what I mean when I say phony?
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They're sexual deviants, Drew.
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Sexual deviants can be happily married.
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Let us hope they sanitize the bathroom.
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I mean they had people at their house.
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Couldn't he have waited until everyone left?
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It's called "passion" Christine.
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Spontaneity....
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I tell you what...after 17 years of marriage...
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...that's pretty impressive.
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Well, I think it's barbaric.
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[laughing]
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God! Is she okay? No. She's completely scarred.
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She should have just said something.
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I think she's too afraid.
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What? That we were going to ask her to join in?
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I mean....it wouldn't have been completely out of the question.
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It might loosen her up a bit.
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There's no loosening Christine up.
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Well, as long as she's happy being that way.
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The truth was...
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...I didn't know if Christine was happy being that way.
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For as long as I had known her...
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...she had been straight and narrow in every aspect of her life.
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And no amount of loosening her up...
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...will seem to work.
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I bought her new lingerie.
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I hate that color.
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Sex toys.
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Are you kidding me?
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Even attempted spontaneous foreplay.
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Whoa!
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No! Come on! No!
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No, Drew!
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I began to wonder if the root of our problems had more to do with my...
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...inability to vocalize...those problems than they did her inability to unwind.
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Why couldn't I just tell her how I felt?
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So there I was.
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Going through the motions of life like a zombie.
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Craving change.
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Unsure where to find it.
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Waiting for it to ... somehow find me.
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And then it did.
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Hi! Hi!!!
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How are you? Good. How are you?
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I just brought these from your uncle Roy. What do you think?
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Huh! I mean they're fun.
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They say, "hard at work!"
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Yeah.
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That's not something I need to see.
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Oh, do you like those better?
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No, I don't.
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[laughs] Crazy.
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Hi. I actually came by to ask you a favor.
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Hey, umm, ... I got a project from my art class.
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...And they want us to...
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Have a subject portrayed as a....
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...whole set of emotions like anger....
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You know, kind of exposed that a little bit...
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...but if you would feel comfortable doing that...?
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Would you want to come over to my studio and let me shoot you?
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Sit down and talk...
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....
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... Sure...
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Do that... Is that cool?
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Maybe we'll just talk a little bit...and...
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Well thanks...I mean, I like that picture that I took of you....
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...so I mean...
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I just like the way you photograph. I can work with that.
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[laughs]....
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So...umm....
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Cool... That's exciting.
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Thank you, I'll give you a call.
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Bye. Bye.
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You okay?
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Wow! This is...
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This is the real deal, huh?
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It is....!
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All this equipment...you own...?
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Wow, this is a pretty big adjustment.
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Being a photographer...
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Can you just sit up?
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Yes, you had asked me earlier what I wanted to be...
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...when I was younger....
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Actually I had huge aspirations for being a pilot. Wanted to fly planes, yeah.
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My dad would take out these planes. We would fly...
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...Inside the cockpit it was very interesting.
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We've been standing out there for like 6 hours!
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And like we're almost naked. I got a pacifier in my mouth...
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...and wearing this weird diaper and stuff...
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And it dawned on me...I do not want to be in a fraternity.
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The techniques she used to achieve a variety of emotional shots...
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...involved me sharing stories about my life.
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Everything from my wildest dreams...
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...to my biggest fears...
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From my greatest accomplishments to my worst regrets.
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I don't know what it was about Mimi, but...
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...I never felt more comfortable in my own skin than I did when I was with her.
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Nowadays nobody wants to step in and do anything. Everybody's afraid.
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It was really despicable what these guys did to that...
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You know and...the broken ribs....
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...the night in jail....well worth it.
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So I come home one day and on my apartment door...is this big handwritten letter.
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...and it says, "please close your windows while having sex!"
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Exclamation point.
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I mean we just started dating...
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And making love all the time...
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...This is so embarrassing!
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But you know I felt good. Cause...
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...you know you're having really good sex when your neighbors are begging you to close your windows.
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I guess that's a good sign!
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You lose a piece of yourself when your parents die.
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My parents were the one constant thing I had in my life.
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When my mom passed away...
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...I realized there was nothing, absolutely nothing in life...
264
00:31:11,270 --> 00:31:14,830
...that's permanent.
265
00:31:24,780 --> 00:31:27,500
Thank you again for letting me shoot you again today.
266
00:31:27,500 --> 00:31:31,070
Thank you for...letting me be a part of your project.
267
00:31:31,070 --> 00:31:33,070
It was a pleasure.
268
00:31:33,510 --> 00:31:37,850
You know I haven't been this open...my entire life.
269
00:31:38,480 --> 00:31:39,850
I'm really glad you were.
270
00:31:39,850 --> 00:31:41,850
We got great shots today, so...
271
00:31:41,850 --> 00:31:43,850
...I'll bring some by when they're done.
272
00:31:43,850 --> 00:31:45,850
Oh, yeah, I'd like that.
273
00:31:46,340 --> 00:31:52,520
Thanks. You know...
274
00:31:52,520 --> 00:31:56,330
...I was thinking...inside there...
275
00:31:56,330 --> 00:32:00,480
...I've been married 15 years to my wife...
276
00:32:00,480 --> 00:32:05,700
...and I don't think she knows any of the stories I told you today.
277
00:32:39,560 --> 00:32:43,120
Hey. Those ankle weights I ordered ever come in the mail?
278
00:32:44,670 --> 00:32:46,800
I don't think so.
279
00:32:46,800 --> 00:32:51,560
God! I hate ordering stuff off the internet! Remind me to never do that again.
280
00:32:55,740 --> 00:33:00,320
Christine had always been fiercely independent. Had always done her own thing.
281
00:33:00,320 --> 00:33:02,320
It was what drew me to her initially.
282
00:33:02,320 --> 00:33:04,060
Her independence.
283
00:33:04,060 --> 00:33:08,380
She wasn't needy or demanding like my previous girlfriends had been.
284
00:33:08,380 --> 00:33:11,880
She did her own thing. Held her own ground.
285
00:33:11,880 --> 00:33:17,260
Got a ten-mile run today. Probably grab dinner with the team, so you're on your own.
286
00:33:19,760 --> 00:33:20,760
Okey dokey.
287
00:33:20,760 --> 00:33:22,760
But over time I realized....
288
00:33:22,760 --> 00:33:24,760
...I wanted to be leaned on.
289
00:33:24,760 --> 00:33:26,760
I wanted to be needed.
290
00:33:26,760 --> 00:33:31,270
And Christine didn't really need...anyone.
291
00:33:36,390 --> 00:33:39,520
Guess who called me during marathon training today?
292
00:33:41,650 --> 00:33:44,840
Who? Vickie.
293
00:33:46,780 --> 00:33:48,070
What did she have to say?
294
00:33:48,070 --> 00:33:52,920
Oh, she thought it was important for me to know you were seducing her niece today!
295
00:33:53,530 --> 00:33:56,290
She's 25 years old, Drew!
296
00:33:56,290 --> 00:33:58,290
Did you know that?!
297
00:33:58,290 --> 00:34:01,100
You could be her father!
298
00:34:02,370 --> 00:34:05,870
You're despicable!
299
00:34:17,780 --> 00:34:21,850
The next week I was consumed with guilt over what I had done.
300
00:34:21,850 --> 00:34:26,139
I kept replaying the kiss in my mind over and over again.
301
00:34:26,139 --> 00:34:28,840
I wrong it was. How right it felt.
302
00:34:28,840 --> 00:34:31,460
How reckless I had been.
303
00:34:31,460 --> 00:34:33,460
Did Vickie know?
304
00:34:37,330 --> 00:34:38,790
It was overwhelming!
305
00:34:38,790 --> 00:34:43,800
Thinking that I had somehow failed my wife. That I had wronged our marriage.
306
00:34:43,800 --> 00:34:45,800
So I did what I had to do.
307
00:34:45,800 --> 00:34:47,800
To try and right the wrong.
308
00:34:47,800 --> 00:34:54,870
To try and convince myself that what we had wasn't worth losing ... for anything.
309
00:35:03,250 --> 00:35:04,520
What are you doing?
310
00:35:04,520 --> 00:35:06,520
What do you think I'm doing?
311
00:35:06,520 --> 00:35:10,070
I'm trying to please and excite my wife.
312
00:35:10,070 --> 00:35:14,510
Oh, come on, Drew! You know I have an 18 mile run tomorrow.
313
00:35:15,040 --> 00:35:16,510
Christine.
314
00:35:17,330 --> 00:35:19,090
Drew!
315
00:35:20,050 --> 00:35:21,090
Please.
316
00:35:23,300 --> 00:35:25,040
Please.
317
00:36:16,990 --> 00:36:20,400
So soft in my mouth.
318
00:36:38,260 --> 00:36:40,900
Oh, Drew.
319
00:36:40,900 --> 00:36:41,780
Oh, thank you.
320
00:51:50,180 --> 00:51:53,050
But my feelings for Mimi lingered.
321
00:51:53,100 --> 00:51:58,540
For whatever reason, I just couldn't shake her.
322
00:52:03,850 --> 00:52:09,040
So...I have a question. And I can't give you all the details, but I need brutal honesty.
323
00:52:09,040 --> 00:52:11,060
Oh, yeah. Yeah.
324
00:52:11,060 --> 00:52:13,340
Why can't you give me all the details?
325
00:52:13,340 --> 00:52:16,040
I just can't. I can't.
326
00:52:16,040 --> 00:52:20,740
Well, how am I supposed to give you advice if I don't know what the hell you're talking about?
327
00:52:20,740 --> 00:52:24,180
Because we've been friends forever, and you know the person I am.
328
00:52:24,180 --> 00:52:27,840
You know what I would do. So just base it off of that.
329
00:52:27,840 --> 00:52:31,290
OK. I'll try the best I can.
330
00:52:31,290 --> 00:52:35,650
OK. So if you know something is really wrong...
331
00:52:35,650 --> 00:52:38,620
...unequivocally wrong...
332
00:52:38,620 --> 00:52:43,320
...but your gut is telling you to do it. Which one do you listen to?
333
00:52:44,520 --> 00:52:47,950
Well, if you know it's innately wrong...
334
00:52:47,950 --> 00:52:51,900
...then your gut wouldn't be telling you to do it in the first place?
335
00:52:51,900 --> 00:53:03,630
336
00:53:04,270 --> 00:53:05,890
What is that!
337
00:53:06,690 --> 00:53:07,890
It's a dildo.
338
00:53:07,890 --> 00:53:10,470
Yeah, I recognized that!
339
00:53:10,470 --> 00:53:12,910
You're not going to use that on yourself are you?
340
00:53:12,910 --> 00:53:16,160
No, I'm going to stick it up my husband's ass.
341
00:53:17,710 --> 00:53:20,500
Yes, I'm going to use it on myself! Why wouldn't I?
342
00:53:20,500 --> 00:53:21,740
I don't know.
343
00:53:21,740 --> 00:53:23,460
Doesn't that intimidate Roy?
344
00:53:23,460 --> 00:53:25,460
Roy's the one who ordered it for me!
345
00:53:25,860 --> 00:53:29,110
Why does that not surprise me
346
00:53:29,110 --> 00:53:33,670
We're trying double penetration this weekend. I figured I'd start with the dildo...
347
00:53:33,670 --> 00:53:36,580
...and then work my way into the real penis.
348
00:53:36,580 --> 00:53:39,400
OK. You're weekend's blocked out. I get it.
349
00:53:39,400 --> 00:53:42,080
[phone rings]
350
00:53:43,310 --> 00:53:45,800
Vickie McDaniels.
351
00:53:45,800 --> 00:53:47,800
Hi!
352
00:53:49,220 --> 00:53:50,980
Oh yeah?
353
00:53:50,980 --> 00:53:53,950
Vickie was so direct. So open.
354
00:53:53,950 --> 00:53:57,630
So free with every single thing she did or thought...
355
00:53:57,630 --> 00:53:59,630
I really wanted to know what that felt like.
356
00:53:59,630 --> 00:54:01,630
To really say what I felt.
357
00:54:01,630 --> 00:54:02,890
To do what I felt.
358
00:54:02,890 --> 00:54:06,080
Not censor myself for fear of being judged.
359
00:54:06,080 --> 00:54:09,250
The only time I had ever felt that way....
360
00:54:09,250 --> 00:54:11,250
...was with Mimi.
361
00:54:14,140 --> 00:54:15,350
Hi Drew.
362
00:54:15,350 --> 00:54:17,310
Oh, Mimi, Vickie's gone for the day.
363
00:54:17,310 --> 00:54:21,320
Oh, so sorry to come uninvited. I'm actually here to see you.
364
00:54:21,690 --> 00:54:24,120
There are copies of the pictures we shot.
365
00:54:24,270 --> 00:54:25,960
Oh. Yeah.
366
00:54:25,960 --> 00:54:28,320
Thank you. They came out really good.
367
00:54:28,320 --> 00:54:31,710
So I think you'll be proud.
368
00:54:32,140 --> 00:54:34,660
Can I look at them. Please do. OK.
369
00:54:37,910 --> 00:54:39,750
Wow.
370
00:54:39,750 --> 00:54:41,470
Yeah.
371
00:54:41,470 --> 00:54:45,990
[laughs] I remember that.
372
00:54:47,940 --> 00:54:50,150
I couldn't stop thinking about you!
373
00:54:53,460 --> 00:54:55,260
What are you doing?
374
00:55:00,720 --> 00:55:03,750
Like any affair, things started off intensely.
375
00:55:11,830 --> 00:55:14,740
Having sex wherever and whenever possible.
376
00:55:20,120 --> 00:55:24,740
And for whatever reason, the guilt I had felt before was suddenly gone.
377
00:55:24,740 --> 00:55:29,750
Looking back it seemed odd that I felt less guilty the more things progressed.
378
00:55:29,750 --> 00:55:33,950
Maybe I just wanted this too badly to let the guilt ruin it.
379
00:55:33,950 --> 00:55:37,630
Every prevailing thought was about my relationship with Mimi.
380
00:55:37,630 --> 00:55:42,270
And the next moment I would get to spend with her.
381
00:55:43,420 --> 00:55:46,360
I finally had something to look forward to.
382
00:55:46,360 --> 00:55:47,960
[alarm clock sounds]
383
00:55:51,720 --> 00:55:52,810
You're up early.
384
00:55:52,810 --> 00:55:57,370
Yeah....
385
00:55:58,460 --> 00:56:02,830
And for the first time in, it felt like forever, I was actually living.
386
00:56:02,830 --> 00:56:04,830
Not just getting by.
387
00:56:14,940 --> 00:56:17,990
You're happy today.
388
00:56:17,990 --> 00:56:19,990
How do you know I'm happy?
389
00:56:20,670 --> 00:56:22,900
It's permeating through the air.
390
00:56:22,900 --> 00:56:27,300
That's nice.
391
00:56:28,060 --> 00:56:32,070
Embrace it! It suits you.
392
00:56:32,070 --> 00:56:34,070
How could I not be happy?
393
00:56:34,400 --> 00:56:40,460
For the first time in my life, I had a relationship that was both emotionally and physically fulfilling.
394
00:56:40,460 --> 00:56:42,460
I was totally unguarded.
395
00:56:42,460 --> 00:56:47,660
I could share absolutely anything with Mimi without fear of being criticized or judged...
396
00:56:47,660 --> 00:56:49,660
Aside from Vickie....
397
00:56:49,660 --> 00:56:51,660
...she was the most open person I knew.
398
00:56:51,660 --> 00:56:53,660
Wise beyond her years.
399
00:56:53,660 --> 00:56:57,540
A friend to me. Not just a lover.
400
00:56:58,110 --> 00:56:59,540
We laughed often.
401
00:56:59,540 --> 00:57:02,390
Encouraged one another's hopes and dreams.
402
00:57:02,390 --> 00:57:05,950
Enjoyed a sense of freedom I'd never known with Christine.
403
00:57:20,820 --> 00:57:23,030
But as with every affair...
404
00:57:23,030 --> 00:57:26,020
Reality rears its ugly head at one point or another...
405
00:57:26,770 --> 00:57:28,760
You know I'll figure out a way to make that happen.
406
00:57:28,760 --> 00:57:32,750
I know. I just...really want to know what it's like to wake up next to you.
407
00:57:32,750 --> 00:57:33,950
I hate that I can't.
408
00:57:33,950 --> 00:57:37,060
Does your roommate mind? Does ... know about us?
409
00:57:38,090 --> 00:57:41,220
Yeah, he knows and he thinks it's wrong.
410
00:57:41,220 --> 00:57:42,510
He just doesn't get it.
411
00:57:42,510 --> 00:57:45,920
I just don't think I want to subject ourselves to that sort of negativity right now.
412
00:57:46,430 --> 00:57:51,820
Yeah. I will get ourselves a hotel room in the next week or so.
413
00:57:51,820 --> 00:57:53,820
You'd really do that?
414
00:57:53,820 --> 00:57:54,950
Of course.
415
00:57:54,950 --> 00:57:58,240
I'm a bit frustrated myself, so....
416
00:57:58,240 --> 00:58:02,230
Listen, I got to go. So I'll call you in the morning.
417
00:58:02,700 --> 00:58:04,660
OK. Sweet dreams.
418
00:58:04,660 --> 00:58:06,660
Bye.
419
00:58:16,550 --> 00:58:19,250
Who were you talking to just now?
420
00:58:19,250 --> 00:58:20,560
What?
421
00:58:20,560 --> 00:58:23,570
It's almost midnight. Who were you talking to?
422
00:58:23,570 --> 00:58:24,430
Vickie.
423
00:58:24,430 --> 00:58:27,190
I didn't want to keep you up taking the call in here.
424
00:58:27,390 --> 00:58:30,300
Why were you talking to Vickie about getting a hotel room?
425
00:58:30,300 --> 00:58:32,100
Because we're taking a business trip.
426
00:58:32,100 --> 00:58:35,860
And she's talking about saving the company money, staying with her sister, and...
427
00:58:35,860 --> 00:58:38,320
...We'll just get a hotel.
428
00:58:38,320 --> 00:58:40,320
Hmm. When is the trip?
429
00:58:41,120 --> 00:58:43,570
Not for a few weeks if we take the trip at all.
430
00:58:47,810 --> 00:58:51,120
And suddenly, all the guilt I thought I was immune to...
431
00:58:51,120 --> 00:58:53,120
...had returned full force.
432
00:58:53,330 --> 00:58:55,620
Blind to Christine felt wrong.
433
00:58:55,620 --> 00:58:58,690
I was sick about it. But I was terrified to...
434
00:58:58,690 --> 00:59:00,690
...to come clean.
435
00:59:00,690 --> 00:59:05,120
Terrified to admit that a relationship that I had spent nearly 20 years of my life in...
436
00:59:05,120 --> 00:59:07,120
...had somehow failed.
437
00:59:14,340 --> 00:59:19,830
Living more honestly had ironically propelled me into the affair to begin with.
438
00:59:19,830 --> 00:59:21,830
Now here I was. Lying again.
439
00:59:22,140 --> 00:59:23,830
Deleting text messages.
440
00:59:23,830 --> 00:59:26,290
Voicemails...emails...
441
00:59:26,290 --> 00:59:28,290
Afraid to admit what I really needed...
442
00:59:28,290 --> 00:59:32,040
...in an effort to protect what I no longer wanted.
443
00:59:32,840 --> 00:59:35,150
How could you do something so selfish?
444
00:59:35,150 --> 00:59:39,390
I know, I know that it's wrong. But I can't help how I feel.
445
00:59:39,390 --> 00:59:42,020
Don't get mad at me for saying this....but....
446
00:59:42,020 --> 00:59:45,240
...married men never leave their wives, Mimi.
447
00:59:49,140 --> 00:59:51,230
You actually think that he's in love with you don't you?
448
00:59:51,230 --> 00:59:52,910
Yeah, I do.
449
00:59:52,910 --> 00:59:54,500
Mimi? Seriously?
450
00:59:54,500 --> 01:00:00,230
I know I sound like every other stupid girl that falls in love with a married man, but this is different.
451
01:00:01,460 --> 01:00:05,260
Every woman that falls in love with a married man thinks that she's somehow different.
452
01:00:05,260 --> 01:00:08,130
But you're not any different. You're a walking cliché.
453
01:00:08,130 --> 01:00:10,130
You're half his age for chrissake!
454
01:00:10,620 --> 01:00:11,630
It's not what you think.
455
01:00:11,630 --> 01:00:13,370
It's never what anyone thinks.
456
01:00:13,370 --> 01:00:18,210
Just don't get too wrapped up in thinking that you have some future with him, cause...
457
01:00:18,210 --> 01:00:20,210
...you don't. He's never gonna leave his wife.
458
01:00:20,210 --> 01:00:22,210
Trust me.
459
01:00:23,820 --> 01:00:25,910
Mimi shared her concerns with me.
460
01:00:25,910 --> 01:00:30,290
Her fear was that I wasn't in this for the long haul.
461
01:00:30,610 --> 01:00:35,150
And as much as I tried to convince her that my intentions were sincere...
462
01:00:35,150 --> 01:00:38,020
...my actions began to fall short.
463
01:00:38,020 --> 01:00:41,540
I'm so sorry Mimi, I'm gonna have to take a rain check for tonight.
464
01:00:41,540 --> 01:00:42,540
What happened?
465
01:00:42,540 --> 01:00:46,590
Christine's car battery is dead and AAA hasn't shown up.
466
01:00:46,590 --> 01:00:48,590
Oh...
467
01:00:48,590 --> 01:00:50,890
OK, don't worry about it.
468
01:00:50,890 --> 01:00:55,140
It's your birthday. Oh god, I feel so terrible about this.
469
01:00:55,140 --> 01:00:57,660
Don't worry about it. We can celebrate next week.
470
01:00:57,660 --> 01:01:01,530
I promise. I'm going to make this up to you ten-fold.
471
01:01:01,530 --> 01:01:03,530
I know you will.
472
01:01:25,070 --> 01:01:26,550
The problem is...
473
01:01:26,550 --> 01:01:31,840
...you can't sustain two independent relationships without one of them getting the brunt of the sacrifice.
474
01:01:31,840 --> 01:01:34,140
I couldn't be in two places at once.
475
01:01:34,140 --> 01:01:36,730
And no matter how badly I wanted to be with her...
476
01:01:36,730 --> 01:01:39,860
...I still had an obligation to Christine and our marriage.
477
01:01:40,380 --> 01:01:45,160
Missing Mimi's birthday was the first of many events I couldn't meet.
478
01:01:45,550 --> 01:01:48,580
But none more important than her gallery opening.
479
01:01:51,920 --> 01:01:53,730
None of my teachers are coming.
480
01:01:53,730 --> 01:02:00,060
Maybe one photography teacher and a journalism teacher....and a couple of friends...
481
01:02:00,060 --> 01:02:02,470
But you'll be there, right?
482
01:02:02,470 --> 01:02:05,950
Absolutely! I promise I'll be there. Wouldn't miss it for the world.
483
01:02:05,950 --> 01:02:10,740
Good, cause I know we can't hold hands or be affectionate...but...
484
01:02:10,740 --> 01:02:14,440
...it would mean so much to me if you were there...
485
01:02:14,440 --> 01:02:15,770
For my first big show.
486
01:02:15,760 --> 01:02:16,650
I will be there.
487
01:02:18,860 --> 01:02:20,750
And I'll be there after...
488
01:02:20,800 --> 01:02:22,960
...for our celebration.
489
01:02:23,800 --> 01:02:26,680
Sushi....? Sushi.
490
01:02:26,680 --> 01:02:30,980
Oh, you tiny girl...
491
01:02:45,580 --> 01:02:46,840
What's wrong?
492
01:02:49,200 --> 01:02:50,900
Dad had a heart attack!
493
01:02:50,900 --> 01:02:52,900
He's in the hospital.
494
01:02:56,620 --> 01:02:58,350
Is he going to be okay?
495
01:02:58,350 --> 01:03:00,160
Yeah, they think he's gonna be fine.
496
01:03:01,450 --> 01:03:03,720
But I think I might head up there this weekend.
497
01:03:03,720 --> 01:03:05,720
Yeah, of course, of course!
498
01:03:05,950 --> 01:03:09,410
Drew, I'd really like it if you'd come with me.
499
01:03:09,700 --> 01:03:12,980
I'm afraid I might fall apart on this one if I do it alone.
500
01:03:12,980 --> 01:03:15,310
It was the first time...
501
01:03:15,310 --> 01:03:16,630
...in a long time.
502
01:03:16,630 --> 01:03:19,450
Christine had admitted to needing me emotionally.
503
01:03:20,110 --> 01:03:22,540
And even though the timing couldn't have been worse...
504
01:03:22,850 --> 01:03:24,420
How could I say "no"?
505
01:03:30,720 --> 01:03:32,940
Hey. Hey.
506
01:03:36,190 --> 01:03:38,550
I was just hanging this on that.
507
01:03:38,550 --> 01:03:40,550
Right in the middle.
508
01:03:40,550 --> 01:03:43,110
It's my favorite one of you.
509
01:03:43,110 --> 01:03:45,110
What's wrong?
510
01:03:45,620 --> 01:03:47,110
You okay?
511
01:03:51,300 --> 01:03:54,870
Christine's father had a heart attack.
512
01:03:55,680 --> 01:03:57,690
Oh my god.
513
01:03:58,000 --> 01:03:59,900
I'm sorry is he okay? Is he alive?
514
01:03:59,900 --> 01:04:01,320
Yeah. Yeah.
515
01:04:01,530 --> 01:04:02,800
He's OK.
516
01:04:02,800 --> 01:04:05,320
We're gonna drive up there tomorrow afternoon.
517
01:04:06,600 --> 01:04:09,450
Which means...
518
01:04:11,560 --> 01:04:14,810
Yeah. I understand.
519
01:04:17,130 --> 01:04:20,250
You know...if I could be here to support you...
520
01:04:20,250 --> 01:04:22,250
...your big night...I would be.
521
01:04:23,760 --> 01:04:25,600
[Sighs]
522
01:04:26,050 --> 01:04:27,600
I know you would.
523
01:04:31,370 --> 01:04:33,810
It's really amazing work though.
524
01:04:33,810 --> 01:04:36,520
I think everybody's gonna be so impressed with you.
525
01:04:40,980 --> 01:04:42,780
You know it's funny...
526
01:04:42,780 --> 01:04:47,240
...is this entire year, I've never once asked you about your wife.
527
01:04:47,630 --> 01:04:50,250
I thought that...I could be your escape.
528
01:04:50,250 --> 01:04:54,460
That if I pretended that she didn't exist then I could pretend that I wasn't just your mistress.
529
01:04:55,860 --> 01:04:58,050
You're not just my mistress...
530
01:04:58,050 --> 01:05:02,120
By anyone else's definition that is exactly what I am!
531
01:05:02,120 --> 01:05:04,690
My dad cheated on my mom.
532
01:05:06,250 --> 01:05:10,100
I never told you that because it devastated her.
533
01:05:10,740 --> 01:05:12,810
I saw what that did to somebody!
534
01:05:12,810 --> 01:05:16,750
I saw how much that hurt, and I swore I would never do that to somebody!
535
01:05:17,190 --> 01:05:18,750
But...
536
01:05:18,750 --> 01:05:21,350
...you know look at me...I'm just a hypocrite.
537
01:05:22,230 --> 01:05:24,160
This is different Mimi.
538
01:05:25,050 --> 01:05:26,440
How is it different?
539
01:05:26,440 --> 01:05:28,440
I mean really!
540
01:05:28,440 --> 01:05:30,440
Because I'm in love with you.
541
01:05:30,440 --> 01:05:32,990
And I know deep down in my gut...
542
01:05:33,400 --> 01:05:35,760
...that I can't feel for anyone...
543
01:05:35,760 --> 01:05:37,760
...the way that I feel for you.
544
01:05:38,330 --> 01:05:40,980
If you understood his direction for life...it got too boring.
545
01:05:40,980 --> 01:05:42,980
That's not true.
546
01:05:42,980 --> 01:05:44,980
But it is.
547
01:05:45,630 --> 01:05:48,240
If you were truly unhappy with her...
548
01:05:48,240 --> 01:05:51,670
...and what we really had meant something then why would you stay married?
549
01:05:51,670 --> 01:05:54,340
I was married to Christine for close to 20 years!
550
01:05:54,340 --> 01:05:56,340
That's almost as long as you've been alive!
551
01:05:56,340 --> 01:05:59,700
That's a huge amount to walk away from.
552
01:06:00,330 --> 01:06:03,490
It's also a helluva lot to compete with.
553
01:06:05,110 --> 01:06:08,170
I'm not asking you to compete.
554
01:06:09,570 --> 01:06:10,800
I can't.
555
01:06:10,800 --> 01:06:12,800
I can't do this anymore.
556
01:06:12,800 --> 01:06:13,780
What?!
557
01:06:13,780 --> 01:06:16,770
I can't be your fallback relationship.
558
01:06:16,770 --> 01:06:20,880
I can't be the person who's waiting around for your marriage to fall apart.
559
01:06:21,640 --> 01:06:25,830
I don't want to be with you if it means sneaking around.
560
01:06:25,830 --> 01:06:27,830
Borrowed time.
561
01:06:27,830 --> 01:06:31,960
Spending birthdays and holidays and monumental events in my life...
562
01:06:31,960 --> 01:06:33,400
...without you!
563
01:06:33,400 --> 01:06:36,050
Because you should be at home with your wife.
564
01:06:36,050 --> 01:06:39,760
I know that anybody listening to me right now would think that I'm...
565
01:06:39,760 --> 01:06:43,010
...selfish brat and just trying to ruin a marriage.
566
01:06:43,010 --> 01:06:46,040
But it was never my intention.
567
01:06:49,510 --> 01:06:54,190
I didn't mean to fall in love with a married man, but I did.
568
01:06:54,190 --> 01:06:56,190
And I love him.
569
01:06:58,130 --> 01:07:01,360
With all of my heart and my soul.
570
01:07:02,590 --> 01:07:05,580
But I can't...I can't do this anymore.
571
01:07:08,520 --> 01:07:10,920
What are you saying?
572
01:07:14,310 --> 01:07:16,790
I'm saying that I can't share you.
573
01:07:20,340 --> 01:07:22,010
I'm sorry.
574
01:07:36,780 --> 01:07:38,610
And just like that...
575
01:07:38,610 --> 01:07:40,610
...it was over.
576
01:08:01,520 --> 01:08:04,270
jesus...you're home late!
577
01:08:04,270 --> 01:08:06,270
Where were you?
578
01:08:06,270 --> 01:08:07,920
Out.
579
01:08:10,100 --> 01:08:11,910
Are you okay?
580
01:08:13,720 --> 01:08:15,890
No....
581
01:08:17,180 --> 01:08:21,939
And I know that you're just gonna wanna say, "I told you so". But don't, please.
582
01:08:21,939 --> 01:08:25,040
Even though it's over, it wasn't what you think it was.
583
01:08:25,040 --> 01:08:28,700
It was...it was...real.
584
01:08:28,700 --> 01:08:30,580
He's really incredible.
585
01:08:30,580 --> 01:08:34,720
I'm upset.
586
01:08:37,660 --> 01:08:40,790
I would never say, "I told you so".
587
01:08:40,790 --> 01:08:43,620
I just wish it didn't have to hurt so bad.
588
01:08:44,370 --> 01:08:47,510
That I could just wake up tomorrow and...
589
01:08:47,510 --> 01:08:49,510
...forget him and...
590
01:08:51,109 --> 01:08:54,109
...forget the life we'll never have together.
591
01:08:57,569 --> 01:08:58,840
What are you doing?
592
01:09:00,939 --> 01:09:03,149
Helping you forget.
593
01:21:36,190 --> 01:21:38,440
You can sleep in my room tonight if you want.
594
01:21:41,060 --> 01:21:43,250
No I can't.
595
01:21:43,250 --> 01:21:46,870
I can't sleep with you tonight.
596
01:21:46,870 --> 01:21:49,900
I just...I don't even know...
597
01:21:49,900 --> 01:21:50,780
...where my head is.
598
01:21:50,780 --> 01:21:52,780
I don't know if I should be...
599
01:21:53,460 --> 01:21:57,170
...angry or devastated or sad.
600
01:21:58,370 --> 01:22:02,000
It's just a lot to take in. So I just...
601
01:22:02,000 --> 01:22:07,130
...I need to sleep in my room.
602
01:22:28,290 --> 01:22:32,260
Wanna talk about it?
603
01:22:33,070 --> 01:22:35,050
About what?
604
01:22:35,050 --> 01:22:37,050
What's troubling you.
605
01:22:39,380 --> 01:22:40,990
No
606
01:22:43,410 --> 01:22:46,590
Is it Mimi?
607
01:22:50,900 --> 01:22:53,290
I know Drew.
608
01:22:53,290 --> 01:22:54,290
I've known.
609
01:22:54,290 --> 01:22:56,290
You know about what?
610
01:22:56,680 --> 01:22:59,080
Everything. Since the beginning.
611
01:22:59,660 --> 01:23:01,550
And I'm not judging you.
612
01:23:01,550 --> 01:23:02,680
Don't worry.
613
01:23:02,680 --> 01:23:04,680
Why didn't you say anything then?
614
01:23:04,680 --> 01:23:08,350
Because she asked me not to, and my loyalty is to her!
615
01:23:12,320 --> 01:23:14,400
How is she?
616
01:23:14,400 --> 01:23:15,920
I wanna know how you are?
617
01:23:15,920 --> 01:23:18,560
[sighs] Torn up.
618
01:23:19,010 --> 01:23:21,310
Conflicted. Confused.
619
01:23:21,310 --> 01:23:23,310
Unhappy. Brokenhearted.
620
01:23:23,310 --> 01:23:24,510
You want me to go on?
621
01:23:24,510 --> 01:23:26,510
If you'd like.
622
01:23:26,510 --> 01:23:28,180
I never intended to fall in love with her.
623
01:23:28,180 --> 01:23:31,890
I'm not the stereotypical guy that cheats on his wife with a younger woman.
624
01:23:32,580 --> 01:23:34,460
So what are going to do?
625
01:23:38,560 --> 01:23:41,090
I've spent most of my adult life with Christine.
626
01:23:41,090 --> 01:23:43,090
If I walk away...
627
01:23:43,090 --> 01:23:45,090
...I throw all that time away.
628
01:23:45,520 --> 01:23:47,090
Like it's meaningless.
629
01:23:47,810 --> 01:23:51,010
Spending time with someone is never meaningless.
630
01:23:51,010 --> 01:23:53,010
Yeah, I know.
631
01:23:53,010 --> 01:23:54,350
But you need to ask yourself...
632
01:23:54,350 --> 01:23:56,130
...do you want to spend the rest of your life...
633
01:23:56,130 --> 01:23:58,130
...in a marriage with someone who isn't your ideal companion?
634
01:23:58,670 --> 01:24:01,020
In hopes that one day she'll change?
635
01:24:01,810 --> 01:24:03,020
I just...
636
01:24:03,310 --> 01:24:06,430
I just...think Christine deserves a chance.
637
01:24:07,000 --> 01:24:08,430
Then work it out with her.
638
01:24:09,180 --> 01:24:10,430
But be honest.
639
01:24:11,540 --> 01:24:12,590
Be honest...
640
01:24:12,590 --> 01:24:14,590
..about everything. What...
641
01:24:15,790 --> 01:24:16,850
...you did...
642
01:24:16,850 --> 01:24:19,330
...what you want...what was missing.
643
01:24:19,870 --> 01:24:22,880
The worst thing you could ever do is lie to yourself.
644
01:24:24,950 --> 01:24:28,880
Better to spend 15 years in a bad marriage than 30, Drew.
645
01:24:32,800 --> 01:24:35,450
I didn't know where to begin with Christine...
646
01:24:35,450 --> 01:24:37,450
...but I decided to start with the truth.
647
01:25:28,760 --> 01:25:31,400
At first she was disgusted by me.
648
01:25:31,400 --> 01:25:33,400
How could you?!
649
01:25:33,400 --> 01:25:35,400
How could you do this?!
650
01:25:37,030 --> 01:25:43,200
And when the anger subsided, she fell into a deep depression that I couldn't pull her out of for weeks.
651
01:25:47,110 --> 01:25:54,900
But eventually she came around and decided it was time for us to talk.
652
01:25:56,850 --> 01:26:00,170
Why did you do it?
653
01:26:06,530 --> 01:26:09,510
Because I felt trapped.
654
01:26:10,720 --> 01:26:13,200
Trapped?
655
01:26:13,200 --> 01:26:14,970
I never held you back!
656
01:26:14,970 --> 01:26:19,280
I never put any demands on you! I know and I didn't mean it that way.
657
01:26:19,280 --> 01:26:21,280
I just didn't feel free.
658
01:26:21,280 --> 01:26:24,990
Marriage isn't about freedom, Drew. It's about commitment!
659
01:26:24,990 --> 01:26:26,990
I'm not talking about free to go sleep with people!
660
01:26:26,990 --> 01:26:29,520
It's exactly what you did.
661
01:26:29,520 --> 01:26:33,300
Christine we spent 15 years tiptoeing around our marriage!
662
01:26:33,300 --> 01:26:35,970
We never opened up. We never shared anything!
663
01:26:35,970 --> 01:26:37,690
We just functioned.
664
01:26:37,690 --> 01:26:39,690
We functioned like two autonomous creatures.
665
01:26:39,690 --> 01:26:42,890
We never had any real connection with each other.
666
01:26:42,890 --> 01:26:44,890
If that's how you felt then why did you marry me in the first place!
667
01:26:44,890 --> 01:26:47,960
Because that's what I loved about you in the first place!
668
01:26:47,960 --> 01:26:49,250
I loved your strength!
669
01:26:49,250 --> 01:26:51,250
I loved your independence!
670
01:26:51,250 --> 01:26:52,630
...and emotional hardness.
671
01:26:52,630 --> 01:26:55,850
I loved the fact that I didn't need to be the grounding force.
672
01:26:55,850 --> 01:26:57,420
In your life...all the time.
673
01:26:57,420 --> 01:26:58,780
And what changed?
674
01:26:59,150 --> 01:27:00,270
I got tired.
675
01:27:00,270 --> 01:27:02,760
I got tired of living on the surface.
676
01:27:02,760 --> 01:27:04,760
Never sharing how I felt...
677
01:27:04,760 --> 01:27:06,760
...never honoring who I was!
678
01:27:06,760 --> 01:27:08,760
I saw how strong you were.
679
01:27:08,760 --> 01:27:10,380
I saw that you didn't need me.
680
01:27:10,380 --> 01:27:12,760
And that scared me...to need you!
681
01:27:12,760 --> 01:27:16,660
To...try to feel comfortable sharing something with you.
682
01:27:19,210 --> 01:27:21,670
So is that what attracted you to her?
683
01:27:22,560 --> 01:27:24,610
The fact that she needed you?
684
01:27:25,780 --> 01:27:28,360
The fact that I could me ... with her.
685
01:27:30,810 --> 01:27:32,350
I know this hurts.
686
01:27:34,090 --> 01:27:36,360
The only truth I knew...
687
01:27:36,360 --> 01:27:38,360
...is when I was with her.
688
01:27:39,390 --> 01:27:41,430
I need you to hear that....I need...
689
01:27:41,430 --> 01:27:42,750
...you to know...
690
01:27:42,750 --> 01:27:44,750
...and understand where I'm coming from.
691
01:27:44,750 --> 01:27:49,270
If....If there's any hope of saving our marriage.
692
01:27:58,120 --> 01:27:59,870
Christine and I spent the next year...
693
01:27:59,870 --> 01:28:01,870
...trying to recover from my affair.
694
01:28:26,250 --> 01:28:29,090
But ... no matter how much work we put into things...
695
01:28:29,590 --> 01:28:32,660
...it always fell short to the way I felt when with Mimi.
696
01:29:18,280 --> 01:29:21,160
Are you still in love with her?
697
01:29:27,570 --> 01:29:30,660
Desperately.
698
01:29:51,210 --> 01:29:53,680
Hey.
699
01:29:54,720 --> 01:29:57,740
Hi.
700
01:29:58,080 --> 01:30:01,260
I see your shooting daisies now.
701
01:30:01,720 --> 01:30:03,260
Uh, yeah.
702
01:30:04,300 --> 01:30:06,220
They've always been my favorite.
703
01:30:06,220 --> 01:30:08,220
Yeah, I remember.
704
01:30:10,710 --> 01:30:12,660
What are you doing here?
705
01:30:16,120 --> 01:30:18,980
What do you mean?
706
01:30:19,950 --> 01:30:22,570
I just came to tell you...
707
01:30:22,570 --> 01:30:27,120
I'm really sorry about the way things went down between you and I.
708
01:30:28,680 --> 01:30:30,750
Me too.
709
01:30:32,760 --> 01:30:34,830
You know...
710
01:30:34,830 --> 01:30:36,830
...sometimes it feels like...
711
01:30:36,830 --> 01:30:40,590
...one has to go down this...convoluted...
712
01:30:40,590 --> 01:30:42,590
...fucked up road...
713
01:30:42,590 --> 01:30:45,460
...to get to where they need to be.
714
01:30:47,120 --> 01:30:50,000
Well as long as you end up there eventually, right?
715
01:30:50,970 --> 01:30:53,040
Yeah. Yeah.
716
01:30:53,550 --> 01:30:55,040
Well I have.
717
01:30:56,290 --> 01:30:58,150
Where is that?
718
01:30:58,150 --> 01:31:01,590
Right here....with you.
719
01:31:02,760 --> 01:31:05,780
I don't know if you're in a relationship...or...
720
01:31:05,780 --> 01:31:08,480
...what your situation is, but ...uh...
721
01:31:08,480 --> 01:31:10,480
...I'm single now.
722
01:31:11,330 --> 01:31:14,540
And...if you're single too....
723
01:31:14,540 --> 01:31:16,170
...I'd like another shot.
724
01:31:16,170 --> 01:31:20,580
Another chance to start things over with you...the right way.
725
01:31:21,220 --> 01:31:22,170
Fully committed.
726
01:31:22,190 --> 01:31:26,730
Fully...ready to give this relationship what it deserves.
727
01:31:30,050 --> 01:31:33,320
I know what our situation must look like to the outside world.
728
01:31:33,320 --> 01:31:35,320
Fuck the outside world!
729
01:31:35,320 --> 01:31:38,020
OK. I cheated. You were the woman I cheated with.
730
01:31:38,020 --> 01:31:40,390
And I did everything all the wrong way.
731
01:31:40,390 --> 01:31:42,390
But I'll be damned if I'll be vilified!
732
01:31:42,390 --> 01:31:45,210
From the outside world for falling in love with you.
733
01:31:45,210 --> 01:31:47,210
Mimi, we're not the cliché!
734
01:31:47,840 --> 01:31:49,210
What we have is real.
735
01:31:50,670 --> 01:31:55,020
All the naysayers can say our relationship was doomed from the beginning, but...
736
01:31:55,530 --> 01:31:58,510
...I'm ready to prove them wrong.
737
01:32:01,150 --> 01:32:04,190
I'm...
738
01:32:04,560 --> 01:32:06,190
I'm not seeing anyone.
739
01:47:20,730 --> 01:47:24,230
The best things in life don't always fall into place perfectly.
740
01:47:24,230 --> 01:47:26,230
But if their meant to be...
741
01:47:26,230 --> 01:47:28,230
...they'll fall into place somehow.
742
01:47:30,770 --> 01:47:35,150
There are a lot of people who will tell you that betrayal is the worst thing in the world.
743
01:47:35,150 --> 01:47:39,900
That it can never amount to anything but pain and suffering and hurt.
744
01:47:40,180 --> 01:47:44,620
And most of the time these people are right!2
745
01:47:46,740 --> 01:47:49,880
But in my situation...the betrayal saved me.
746
01:47:49,880 --> 01:47:51,880
And it saved Christine.
747
01:47:51,880 --> 01:47:54,230
It taught us to live more honestly.
748
01:47:54,230 --> 01:47:57,110
To not deny who we were and what we needed.
749
01:47:57,110 --> 01:47:59,300
And for the first time in our lives...
750
01:47:59,300 --> 01:48:02,880
...it gave us the chance to know true and lasting freedom.
751
01:48:02,880 --> 01:48:06,050
...within the routine of life.
752
01:48:20,370 --> 01:48:41,490
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