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♪ ♪
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- Holy *bleep*. Look at this.
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That's a chunk of dock.
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The universe has handed
a carpenter
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a bunch of boards and nails.
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Old dock door
and old moss house.
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- Oh, my God.
- I got one.
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Every frustrating day
something exciting happens.
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I got a squirrel!
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There's more to do, it seems.
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Hodgepodge will get done
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when Hodgepodge
is supposed to get done.
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It's within reach.
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- We got a squirrel, finally.
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I couldn't do this
if it was just for me.
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I want to do it
for the people
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that I love at home.
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And it's time for me
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to stop trying
to be a good doctor.
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I need to try
to be a better son.
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- The thing right now is just
to finish the damn shelter.
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Whoa! *bleep*.
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♪ ♪
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- Oh, my goodness.
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- You could put yourself
in some serious risk.
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I'm gonna have to extract you
for medical reasons.
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So soon.
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♪ ♪
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- I can't wait to have
this place try and break me.
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For the first time
on "Alone,"
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ten participants fight
to survive
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in the hunting ground
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of the world's
largest land predator.
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- Oh, my God. Where'd he go?
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Those are bear.
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- I heard a big animal.
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- Hey, bear.
- Oh, no. *bleep*.
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- Sometimes you eat the bear.
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Sometimes the bear eats you.
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Battling
merciless conditions...
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- This is some
hard-core bushwhacking.
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- Why does it have to be
such a struggle every night?
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- I hit it. I hit it.
I hit it.
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- I feel more alive
every day I'm out here.
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- Ahh.
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- Here comes the rain again.
- I have an oar.
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- You're not gonna make
it easy for us, are you?
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In complete isolation...
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- The most dangerous thing
out here is myself.
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- Look at that!
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- The cold ground
is just pulling
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all the warmth from me.
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- How many days can this go on?
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- Very, very hungry.
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- I feel like I'm
hitting a wall.
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Last one standing wins.
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- It's only gonna get harder
the longer you stay out here.
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♪ ♪
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- Wow, black teeth.
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♪ ♪
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♪ ♪
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I have a cast-iron pot.
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And when I cook the berries,
the stringency in the berries
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strips out all the seasoning.
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So now I'm absorbing all that
iron into my fruit leather,
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and my teeth
are turning black.
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♪ ♪
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So I'm gonna try and see
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if I can get some tooth powder
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out of this dead horsetail.
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It may work, it may not,
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but I'm gonna try
and powder it.
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And, I mean,
it's worth a shot, right?
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I'm super freaking out.
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Like, "Oh, my God.
I'm gonna look horrible on TV."
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But look at this.
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I'm trying to solve the problem
with what I've got.
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Look at that...
toothpaste powder.
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♪ ♪
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I think they're
turning white again.
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Oh, my God.
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Oh, this is so awesome.
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So awesome. Oh, my God.
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That's the best thing
I've done.
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All right.
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Let's go down
and do some muskrat hunting.
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At this time of year,
the fishing dies off.
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But while I'm fishing,
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I've seen muskrats
going back and forth.
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And the more I was
not getting fish,
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the more I was
thinking to myself,
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"How can I get a muskrat
with a bow and arrow
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"without losing my arrow?
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"He's gonna swim away,
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and I'll lose the muskrat
and the arrow."
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♪ ♪
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So I'm thinking
that if I take my arrow
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and get the bow ready
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and tether the end
of the arrow
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with my floating line,
which is attached to a reel,
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then I could possibly
shoot him
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and then be able to retrieve
the arrow and a muskrat.
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I just don't want another day
to go by without a meal.
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♪ ♪
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It means a lot,
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if I win
half a million dollars.
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I just closed on some land,
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and I'm wanting to build
a wilderness school there.
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And so this money
would help me
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to start living my dreams
of what I really want
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to be doing
for the rest of my life.
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♪ ♪
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He's right there.
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*bleep*.
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He dove before
I could even get set.
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♪ ♪
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I was just sitting here
thinking about...
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you know, if I wanted to call
in on an ancestor
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right now to help me out,
who would I call?
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And I thought,
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my
great-great-great-grandfather
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was a scout
on the Oregon Trail.
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So I come from a long lineage
of a pioneering family.
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All of our ancestors
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had to hunt and gather
their food,
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and just reflecting
on how they figured things out
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and the mistakes they made
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and...
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The harshness.
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And that was just
the way of life, you know?
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They didn't go
to the grocery store.
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So, yeah, I'm just...
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♪ ♪
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Really realizing this
right now.
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Huh.
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I'm not giving up
on the muskrats.
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♪ ♪
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- Oh, man.
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♪ ♪
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Day 42 was a rough one, y'all.
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I really buggered up my back.
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Whoa! *bleep*.
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*bleep*.
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That did not feel great.
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And last night was a very long
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and frustrating night
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with very, very,
very little sleep.
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♪ ♪
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My body is ground down.
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If I fall again
and mess something up,
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with this back
being the way it is,
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that's just gonna be it.
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I'm throwing a Hail Mary
at the beaver.
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If I can go down there,
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if I can hobble
my busted ass down there
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and shoot that beaver,
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then I can hold up in this...
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little house
for a couple of days...
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and eat beaver and lay down
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and rest my back.
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We're gonna,
as they say in South Africa,
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hold thumbs for that.
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It's the South African
version of cross your fingers.
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And just...
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I think it's way better
because, you know,
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it's like, when you really
want something to happen,
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you're like, "Oh, come on."
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So I'm gonna heat this tea up
from last night
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and get my stuff ready.
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This challenge...
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it's not the traps
or the hunting.
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It's not the skills
or the fire building.
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It's about you.
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I'm really scared
of falling again now.
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♪ ♪
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♪ ♪
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♪ ♪
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It's about facing the demons
in the dark corners
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and the soft spots
in you as a person
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that get poked
by all the briars
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when you're out here.
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♪ ♪
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I hobbled all the way out here
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to shoot at a beaver
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and never saw one.
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♪ ♪
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I know this injury isn't just
gonna fix itself overnight.
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Something is gonna
have to change for me.
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I'm trying to stay positive.
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♪ ♪
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Oof.
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♪ ♪
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And I'm trying to continue
to push.
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♪ ♪
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I'm just...
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finished my third boil
of my Icelandic moss.
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The water came out clear,
just like it's supposed to.
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The lichens and bunchberries
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are all I've eaten
for three days.
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I had a couple of days
with no protein.
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If we don't get
some real food in,
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we're in trouble.
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The doc will come
and haul me away.
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Do it again tomorrow.
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It's all we can do, man.
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It doesn't seem to do any good
to sit still, so...
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I got to get a bunch of clay.
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I just need to seal up
these little gaps
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so the sparks come this way
out of the vents that I made.
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*bleep*.
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♪ ♪
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*bleep*. Oh, God.
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♪ ♪
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That one was the back
and the knee.
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♪ ♪
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Let's see how bad this is.
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♪ ♪
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Oh, yeah, it's swelling.
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It's definitely swelling.
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Whiskey jack laughing at me.
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Laugh it up, buddy.
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You got away.
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♪ ♪
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If I had any food at all...
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♪ ♪
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I'd try to stick it out.
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♪ ♪
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Probably won't even be able
to get my firewood up tonight.
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I don't even know how the hell
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they're gonna get me
off this hill.
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♪ ♪
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Not the way
I wanted it to go.
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It's so funny that
that whiskey jack's here.
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Hey, there. This is Tom.
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I buggered my knee
up pretty good,
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and I think that
that's gonna have
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to be it for me, unfortunately.
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I'm officially tapping out.
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♪ ♪
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This whole place
has been amazing.
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♪ ♪
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God, it has fed me.
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It has fed my body.
It fed my soul.
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♪ ♪
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It nurtured parts of me
and touched pieces of me
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that I had no idea
were even in there.
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♪ ♪
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God, I would just kill
for another week...
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another day here.
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I'm gonna miss it.
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♪ ♪
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You know...
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I'm not done here,
and I'm not done here.
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I'm just done here.
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It's a tough, tough man
that never gives up,
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but it's a fool
who doesn't know
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when he's beaten, you know?
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And I want to get up
269
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and enjoy a place like this
another day,
270
00:15:46,746 --> 00:15:48,548
so it's time.
271
00:15:51,717 --> 00:15:53,352
♪ ♪
272
00:15:53,486 --> 00:15:55,454
It's hard not
to be disappointed
273
00:15:55,588 --> 00:15:57,390
that the ride's over.
274
00:15:57,523 --> 00:15:58,825
♪ ♪
275
00:15:58,958 --> 00:16:01,727
You know, it's like saying
goodbye to a person.
276
00:16:01,861 --> 00:16:03,229
♪ ♪
277
00:16:03,362 --> 00:16:06,199
Never part ways
with ill words.
278
00:16:06,332 --> 00:16:08,201
♪ ♪
279
00:16:08,334 --> 00:16:10,603
I want to be thanking
this space,
280
00:16:10,736 --> 00:16:12,905
loving everything
it gave me.
281
00:16:13,039 --> 00:16:14,874
♪ ♪
282
00:16:15,007 --> 00:16:19,045
Out here,
you're racing your weaknesses.
283
00:16:19,178 --> 00:16:20,246
♪ ♪
284
00:16:20,379 --> 00:16:22,849
It's you against yourself.
285
00:16:22,982 --> 00:16:25,484
I hope to take the lessons
that I learned
286
00:16:25,618 --> 00:16:26,986
and bring them home
287
00:16:27,119 --> 00:16:30,556
to make more of my dreams
a reality.
288
00:16:30,690 --> 00:16:33,726
I wish that my father was
still alive to see me do this.
289
00:16:33,860 --> 00:16:36,195
♪ ♪
290
00:16:36,329 --> 00:16:38,464
He taught me a lot.
291
00:16:38,598 --> 00:16:40,800
He was a huge inspiration.
292
00:16:40,933 --> 00:16:44,170
But I know my father
is so proud of me
293
00:16:44,303 --> 00:16:45,805
for making it this far.
294
00:16:45,938 --> 00:16:47,039
♪ ♪
295
00:16:47,173 --> 00:16:49,575
Despite being
physically broken,
296
00:16:49,709 --> 00:16:52,778
I feel made whole
by this experience.
297
00:16:52,912 --> 00:16:53,980
♪ ♪
298
00:16:54,113 --> 00:16:55,481
I feel stronger.
299
00:16:55,615 --> 00:16:57,550
I feel more resilient.
300
00:16:57,717 --> 00:16:59,552
I feel wiser from it.
301
00:16:59,685 --> 00:17:00,920
♪ ♪
302
00:17:01,053 --> 00:17:03,422
I believe that things
happen for reasons.
303
00:17:03,556 --> 00:17:04,857
My life took me here.
304
00:17:04,991 --> 00:17:06,826
And now I'm going home.
305
00:17:06,959 --> 00:17:08,694
No, I didn't win, but, like,
306
00:17:08,828 --> 00:17:11,163
hell, man, 43 days...
307
00:17:11,297 --> 00:17:12,732
I'm good with it.
308
00:17:12,865 --> 00:17:19,839
♪ ♪
309
00:17:31,250 --> 00:17:34,053
- I've been working on a song.
310
00:17:34,186 --> 00:17:36,622
I'm not sure if I'm ready
to share it.
311
00:17:36,756 --> 00:17:39,025
I'm really close.
312
00:17:39,158 --> 00:17:41,694
I mean, I could try.
313
00:17:41,827 --> 00:17:44,864
♪ This forest is my medicine ♪
314
00:17:44,997 --> 00:17:48,734
♪ Big River is my home ♪
315
00:17:48,868 --> 00:17:52,271
♪ I fill my lungs
with the trees so green ♪
316
00:17:52,405 --> 00:17:54,674
♪ Flowing creek
is my bloodstream ♪
317
00:17:54,807 --> 00:17:57,543
♪ I drink
of the fresh spring water ♪
318
00:17:57,677 --> 00:17:59,946
♪ I eat the growing greens ♪
319
00:18:00,079 --> 00:18:02,648
♪ I sing along
with sweet birdsong ♪
320
00:18:02,782 --> 00:18:06,152
♪ Like a circle,
it goes on and on and on ♪
321
00:18:06,285 --> 00:18:08,454
♪ ♪
322
00:18:08,588 --> 00:18:12,124
And I'm getting hungry,
and I have no food.
323
00:18:12,258 --> 00:18:15,194
Yesterday I missed
a possible opportunity
324
00:18:15,328 --> 00:18:18,598
to get a muskrat
with my bow and arrow.
325
00:18:18,731 --> 00:18:22,034
It's gonna happen this time,
I promise.
326
00:18:22,168 --> 00:18:23,836
I really do well
when I'm focused.
327
00:18:23,970 --> 00:18:25,004
♪ ♪
328
00:18:25,137 --> 00:18:27,773
I don't know how much meat
is on a muskrat,
329
00:18:27,907 --> 00:18:31,210
but it might be a day, maybe
two days' worth of food.
330
00:18:31,344 --> 00:18:34,580
And that would be such
a game changer, for sure.
331
00:18:34,714 --> 00:18:37,450
So let's get down to the river.
332
00:18:37,583 --> 00:18:43,622
♪ ♪
333
00:18:45,157 --> 00:18:48,494
First of all,
I got to get into position.
334
00:18:48,628 --> 00:18:53,199
♪ ♪
335
00:19:01,841 --> 00:19:03,809
I can see little bubbles.
336
00:19:05,678 --> 00:19:06,979
♪ ♪
337
00:19:07,113 --> 00:19:08,547
There's a little muskrat.
338
00:19:08,681 --> 00:19:09,715
♪ ♪
339
00:19:09,849 --> 00:19:12,618
See all that mud
coming out of the bank
340
00:19:12,752 --> 00:19:14,020
under the water?
341
00:19:14,153 --> 00:19:21,027
♪ ♪
342
00:19:23,362 --> 00:19:24,597
*bleep*.
343
00:19:27,066 --> 00:19:33,105
♪ ♪
344
00:19:37,043 --> 00:19:38,077
*bleep*.
345
00:19:38,210 --> 00:19:41,547
♪ ♪
346
00:19:41,680 --> 00:19:42,748
*bleep*.
347
00:19:42,882 --> 00:19:45,518
♪ ♪
348
00:19:45,651 --> 00:19:46,786
*bleep*.
349
00:19:46,919 --> 00:19:48,354
Ahh. *bleep*.
350
00:19:48,487 --> 00:19:51,023
♪ ♪
351
00:19:58,130 --> 00:20:01,467
♪ ♪
352
00:20:05,371 --> 00:20:12,044
♪ ♪
353
00:20:12,178 --> 00:20:13,345
Holy crap.
354
00:20:15,147 --> 00:20:17,316
Holy *bleep*.
That was a battle.
355
00:20:29,428 --> 00:20:31,964
I got a muskrat.
356
00:20:32,098 --> 00:20:33,466
♪ ♪
357
00:20:33,599 --> 00:20:36,469
I got dinner,
and I hope it tastes good.
358
00:20:38,070 --> 00:20:39,305
♪ ♪
359
00:20:39,438 --> 00:20:40,506
Oh, my God.
360
00:20:40,639 --> 00:20:41,874
Thank you, thank you,
thank you.
361
00:20:42,007 --> 00:20:43,476
Wow.
362
00:20:43,609 --> 00:20:45,077
Beautiful.
363
00:20:45,211 --> 00:20:46,679
Soft fur, too.
364
00:20:46,812 --> 00:20:48,647
Thank you.
Thank you for your life.
365
00:20:48,781 --> 00:20:49,782
Oh, my God.
366
00:20:49,915 --> 00:20:51,150
Thank you.
367
00:20:53,652 --> 00:21:00,392
♪ ♪
368
00:21:00,526 --> 00:21:01,894
Check it out.
369
00:21:02,027 --> 00:21:08,701
♪ ♪
370
00:21:08,834 --> 00:21:13,139
We got roasted muskrat leg.
371
00:21:22,548 --> 00:21:23,949
Oh, my God.
372
00:21:27,953 --> 00:21:29,588
That is incredible.
373
00:21:33,092 --> 00:21:34,827
That's not musky at all.
374
00:21:37,563 --> 00:21:38,664
Mmm.
375
00:21:40,099 --> 00:21:42,101
In fact, it tastes
a lot like beaver.
376
00:21:44,303 --> 00:21:46,172
My gosh, it's snowing.
377
00:21:46,305 --> 00:21:47,773
♪ ♪
378
00:21:47,907 --> 00:21:50,209
What a crazy day.
It's snowing.
379
00:21:51,710 --> 00:21:53,012
I'm eating muskrat.
380
00:21:53,145 --> 00:21:55,114
♪ ♪
381
00:21:55,247 --> 00:21:59,084
I've been thinking about how
hard I worked to get here.
382
00:21:59,218 --> 00:22:02,054
It's a lifetime
of preparing.
383
00:22:02,188 --> 00:22:04,323
It's just another step
in the evolution
384
00:22:04,456 --> 00:22:05,958
of making it all happen,
385
00:22:06,091 --> 00:22:09,028
and it would take a lot
to get me to leave.
386
00:22:09,161 --> 00:22:11,363
I'm here
till I can't be here anymore.
387
00:22:11,497 --> 00:22:12,698
♪ ♪
388
00:22:12,832 --> 00:22:14,900
This is so freaking fantastic.
389
00:22:16,769 --> 00:22:20,573
♪ ♪
390
00:22:31,383 --> 00:22:38,390
♪ ♪
391
00:22:40,059 --> 00:22:43,262
- So tomorrow it's Halloween.
392
00:22:43,395 --> 00:22:45,464
I'm gonna get my costume ready.
393
00:22:45,598 --> 00:22:46,732
♪ ♪
394
00:22:46,866 --> 00:22:49,468
I think it's such
a fun holiday,
395
00:22:49,602 --> 00:22:52,471
and I love making
my own costumes.
396
00:22:53,939 --> 00:22:56,575
I wish I was getting ready
to go trick or treating.
397
00:22:57,910 --> 00:22:59,144
There we go.
398
00:23:01,313 --> 00:23:06,252
In honor of the holiday
and just like Woniya,
399
00:23:06,385 --> 00:23:10,589
who decided
to be what she was eating,
400
00:23:10,723 --> 00:23:15,427
I decided to go as a grouse.
401
00:23:17,196 --> 00:23:18,797
Ta-da!
402
00:23:23,969 --> 00:23:25,304
What do you think?
403
00:23:25,437 --> 00:23:27,439
♪ ♪
404
00:23:30,542 --> 00:23:31,744
Yes...
405
00:23:31,877 --> 00:23:36,048
I have a piece
of tarp cone
406
00:23:36,181 --> 00:23:40,486
covered in charcoal soot
as a beak.
407
00:23:40,619 --> 00:23:44,023
But it's ten items, people.
408
00:23:44,156 --> 00:23:46,091
You got to get creative.
409
00:23:48,160 --> 00:23:49,561
I think it looks great.
410
00:23:57,002 --> 00:23:58,871
Winter is coming.
411
00:23:59,004 --> 00:24:02,007
That is where
the champion rounds begin,
412
00:24:02,141 --> 00:24:04,410
where "Alone" is won or lost.
413
00:24:04,543 --> 00:24:09,748
So I can make insulated
shutters for the window.
414
00:24:09,882 --> 00:24:13,252
This one's got a bunch
of little nails in it.
415
00:24:13,385 --> 00:24:16,755
I'm going for something
solid and dependable...
416
00:24:16,889 --> 00:24:18,490
There we go.
417
00:24:18,624 --> 00:24:20,626
That's gonna fit snug
enough to keep almost all
418
00:24:20,759 --> 00:24:23,729
of the prevailing wind
out of my shelter
419
00:24:23,862 --> 00:24:25,731
and to keep most
of my heat in.
420
00:24:30,202 --> 00:24:33,906
So the window's framed out.
421
00:24:34,039 --> 00:24:36,241
Now...
422
00:24:36,375 --> 00:24:41,046
we just need to connect
these two lovely boards...
423
00:24:45,818 --> 00:24:48,020
And we've got a shutter.
424
00:24:48,153 --> 00:24:50,422
And we can slide in
and out at night.
425
00:24:54,426 --> 00:24:56,428
Pretty cool, huh?
426
00:24:58,530 --> 00:25:01,900
And that is going
to help massively...
427
00:25:02,000 --> 00:25:03,369
keeping this place warm,
428
00:25:03,502 --> 00:25:05,704
'cause it was starting
to get a little chilly
429
00:25:05,838 --> 00:25:07,506
the last couple of nights.
430
00:25:12,745 --> 00:25:19,451
♪ ♪
431
00:25:21,820 --> 00:25:28,827
♪ ♪
432
00:25:57,256 --> 00:25:59,291
My stomach doesn't feel good.
433
00:25:59,425 --> 00:26:01,660
♪ ♪
434
00:26:01,794 --> 00:26:04,563
It's just felt queasy
for the last few days.
435
00:26:04,696 --> 00:26:06,965
♪ ♪
436
00:26:07,099 --> 00:26:09,501
But today I want to go up
437
00:26:09,635 --> 00:26:13,539
and check the rabbit snares
I set up yesterday.
438
00:26:13,672 --> 00:26:16,475
Wouldn't mind
finishing up the walls today,
439
00:26:16,608 --> 00:26:19,545
which means just grabbing
a little bit more moss.
440
00:26:19,678 --> 00:26:20,846
♪ ♪
441
00:26:20,979 --> 00:26:22,481
Boil water.
442
00:26:22,614 --> 00:26:23,782
The usual, I guess.
443
00:26:23,916 --> 00:26:25,551
♪ ♪
444
00:26:27,519 --> 00:26:28,720
♪ ♪
445
00:26:28,854 --> 00:26:30,589
I don't usually belch
like this.
446
00:26:30,722 --> 00:26:32,257
And I've just been belching
a lot,
447
00:26:32,391 --> 00:26:33,492
which is really strange.
448
00:26:33,625 --> 00:26:35,060
I don't understand it.
449
00:26:35,194 --> 00:26:36,428
I'm just not sure why I have
450
00:26:36,562 --> 00:26:39,798
so much gassy-like burps
coming up.
451
00:26:39,932 --> 00:26:41,767
I'm okay.
452
00:26:41,900 --> 00:26:43,402
I'm okay.
453
00:26:46,705 --> 00:26:47,706
♪ ♪
454
00:26:47,840 --> 00:26:50,375
Amazing what a lot
of moss will do.
455
00:26:50,509 --> 00:26:52,611
Kind of like caulking
in your house.
456
00:26:54,947 --> 00:26:57,749
Not that that's
the recommended method, but...
457
00:26:57,883 --> 00:26:59,885
♪ ♪
458
00:27:00,018 --> 00:27:01,386
It does work.
459
00:27:01,520 --> 00:27:03,522
♪ ♪
460
00:27:09,394 --> 00:27:11,630
I give you Hodgepodge Lodge.
461
00:27:11,763 --> 00:27:13,665
Ta-da.
462
00:27:13,799 --> 00:27:17,169
I probably spent a solid three
weeks working on it, huh?
463
00:27:19,004 --> 00:27:20,739
I don't know
about full eight-hour days,
464
00:27:20,873 --> 00:27:22,508
three weeks, but...
465
00:27:25,611 --> 00:27:27,146
I've definitely put in
a lot of time
466
00:27:27,279 --> 00:27:28,447
working on Hodgepodge...
467
00:27:30,449 --> 00:27:33,418
A lot more than I probably
should have.
468
00:27:33,552 --> 00:27:35,888
But she's a cool shelter.
469
00:27:36,021 --> 00:27:40,292
My only priority really now
is getting food.
470
00:27:41,894 --> 00:27:45,497
Yeah, see, now I'm back
to just feeling nauseous.
471
00:27:45,631 --> 00:27:46,765
♪ ♪
472
00:27:46,899 --> 00:27:48,934
I'm gonna go check
my snares.
473
00:27:49,034 --> 00:27:51,570
♪ ♪
474
00:27:51,703 --> 00:27:52,838
At first, I was like,
"Oh, God.
475
00:27:52,971 --> 00:27:54,706
"Did I do something stupid
476
00:27:54,840 --> 00:27:56,808
and end up with giardia
or something?"
477
00:27:58,143 --> 00:28:00,345
♪ ♪
478
00:28:00,479 --> 00:28:01,747
But I'm like,
"No, I don't have
479
00:28:01,880 --> 00:28:04,182
any of the other symptoms
of giardia."
480
00:28:04,316 --> 00:28:07,486
I'm just belching a lot.
None of it's sulfur.
481
00:28:07,619 --> 00:28:09,721
And my stomach's upset,
but I don't have the diarrhea.
482
00:28:09,855 --> 00:28:11,557
I don't have, you know,
lots of flatulence.
483
00:28:11,690 --> 00:28:12,858
I don't have any
of that going on.
484
00:28:12,991 --> 00:28:14,226
So I'm like,
"No, I don't think
485
00:28:14,359 --> 00:28:15,727
"it's some kind
of bacteria I got.
486
00:28:15,861 --> 00:28:18,397
I think it's starvation."
487
00:28:18,530 --> 00:28:22,968
All three snares,
still in place here.
488
00:28:23,101 --> 00:28:24,202
Damn it.
489
00:28:40,218 --> 00:28:42,254
♪ ♪
490
00:28:42,387 --> 00:28:44,790
What I understand happens
491
00:28:44,923 --> 00:28:46,425
if you don't eat
for a long time
492
00:28:46,558 --> 00:28:49,428
is the body stops producing
acid or bile
493
00:28:49,561 --> 00:28:51,163
because there's nothing
to digest.
494
00:28:51,296 --> 00:28:53,098
And if it produces bile
with nothing there
495
00:28:53,232 --> 00:28:54,433
for it to break down,
496
00:28:54,566 --> 00:28:55,934
it starts breaking down
the stomach lining.
497
00:28:56,034 --> 00:28:57,069
♪ ♪
498
00:28:57,202 --> 00:28:59,671
Nothing in the snares today.
499
00:28:59,805 --> 00:29:02,674
And I really, really
don't want that to happen.
500
00:29:02,808 --> 00:29:06,745
♪ ♪
501
00:29:08,580 --> 00:29:11,817
I'm getting some
stomach cramping right now.
502
00:29:11,950 --> 00:29:14,820
♪ ♪
503
00:29:14,953 --> 00:29:16,555
It just sucks.
504
00:29:16,688 --> 00:29:23,695
♪ ♪
505
00:29:30,869 --> 00:29:34,206
♪ ♪
506
00:29:40,646 --> 00:29:42,614
- Got it...
507
00:29:42,748 --> 00:29:44,650
in the neck,
508
00:29:44,783 --> 00:29:46,485
through the shoulder.
509
00:29:46,618 --> 00:29:48,720
This bashed it.
510
00:29:48,854 --> 00:29:52,057
This is rungu's second kill.
511
00:29:52,190 --> 00:29:55,260
So I got one squirrel today.
512
00:29:56,695 --> 00:29:58,096
We're gonna keep on going.
513
00:30:00,899 --> 00:30:04,936
I'm really focusing
on land animals right now.
514
00:30:05,070 --> 00:30:07,572
The animals out here
are very active.
515
00:30:07,706 --> 00:30:10,108
There is a lot of life
that I hear around here,
516
00:30:10,242 --> 00:30:12,711
and the forest
and the land's providing.
517
00:30:12,844 --> 00:30:15,614
I feel so blessed to be here.
518
00:30:18,483 --> 00:30:19,751
Frickin' grouse.
519
00:30:23,488 --> 00:30:25,457
Heard it.
520
00:30:25,590 --> 00:30:27,459
Catch it.
521
00:30:27,592 --> 00:30:30,662
♪ ♪
522
00:30:30,796 --> 00:30:34,566
It's funny how some days
you just feel...
523
00:30:34,700 --> 00:30:36,601
different.
524
00:30:36,735 --> 00:30:39,071
Maybe it's just seeing
the sun.
525
00:30:39,204 --> 00:30:40,939
♪ ♪
526
00:30:41,073 --> 00:30:42,841
Maybe it's something else.
527
00:30:42,974 --> 00:30:44,910
But knowing what I know...
528
00:30:45,043 --> 00:30:46,178
♪ ♪
529
00:30:46,311 --> 00:30:47,979
Oh, there it is.
530
00:30:48,113 --> 00:30:51,450
Someone's looking out for me.
531
00:30:51,583 --> 00:30:53,118
I can feel it.
532
00:30:54,453 --> 00:30:56,321
♪ ♪
533
00:30:56,455 --> 00:30:58,623
Got it. Got it.
534
00:30:58,757 --> 00:31:05,630
♪ ♪
535
00:31:05,764 --> 00:31:07,432
Frickin' got it.
536
00:31:07,566 --> 00:31:09,101
♪ ♪
537
00:31:09,234 --> 00:31:11,103
The trick for these guys...
538
00:31:11,236 --> 00:31:13,605
Is as soon as you
approach them,
539
00:31:13,739 --> 00:31:16,074
they kind of get
a little jumpy.
540
00:31:16,208 --> 00:31:17,909
So you have to...
541
00:31:18,043 --> 00:31:21,446
kind of look
at a 45 away from them
542
00:31:21,580 --> 00:31:22,948
as you're going.
543
00:31:23,081 --> 00:31:26,218
And then when you're ready,
you have, like, a clear shot,
544
00:31:26,351 --> 00:31:28,754
you take it
and anchor and everything
545
00:31:28,887 --> 00:31:31,256
and then aim and then release.
546
00:31:32,924 --> 00:31:35,160
'Cause they're
kind of seeing that your face
547
00:31:35,293 --> 00:31:37,796
is, like, over there,
so they think they're safe.
548
00:31:37,929 --> 00:31:39,798
Then you take it.
549
00:31:39,931 --> 00:31:41,633
I'm, like, running
on a high right now.
550
00:31:41,767 --> 00:31:43,201
It's crazy.
551
00:31:46,238 --> 00:31:47,639
Yes!
552
00:31:50,776 --> 00:31:57,783
♪ ♪
553
00:32:00,085 --> 00:32:03,789
I'm trying a new look today.
554
00:32:03,922 --> 00:32:07,793
I'm just trying out my cap
because...
555
00:32:07,926 --> 00:32:10,529
it's been chilly.
556
00:32:10,662 --> 00:32:13,732
It didn't frost today, but...
557
00:32:16,368 --> 00:32:19,204
But the ground looks chilly.
558
00:32:19,337 --> 00:32:23,575
I think it might start getting
consistently cold soon.
559
00:32:23,708 --> 00:32:25,243
Maybe once there's some snow,
560
00:32:25,377 --> 00:32:28,914
I can see
if there's some rabbit runs.
561
00:32:29,047 --> 00:32:32,784
But I guess I need to focus
on fishing for now.
562
00:32:32,918 --> 00:32:35,854
There are some ripples forming.
563
00:32:35,987 --> 00:32:37,589
Those are fish biting.
564
00:32:37,722 --> 00:32:39,624
But, unfortunately,
565
00:32:39,758 --> 00:32:42,894
there's no way for me
to cast that far.
566
00:32:43,028 --> 00:32:43,962
♪ ♪
567
00:32:44,095 --> 00:32:46,031
Probably should extend
the pier.
568
00:32:46,164 --> 00:32:50,202
The thing is, how much effort
do I put into it?
569
00:32:50,335 --> 00:32:53,071
Decisions, decisions.
570
00:32:55,140 --> 00:32:57,042
*bleep* it.
Let's do it.
571
00:32:57,175 --> 00:32:58,944
You only live once, eh?
572
00:32:59,077 --> 00:33:02,214
♪ ♪
573
00:33:02,347 --> 00:33:04,482
I really hope
I don't regret this.
574
00:33:04,616 --> 00:33:08,086
♪ ♪
575
00:33:08,220 --> 00:33:11,823
My pier is basically
two tripods
576
00:33:11,957 --> 00:33:14,092
latched together at the base.
577
00:33:14,226 --> 00:33:18,363
At the top, there's this log
across to join the tripod,
578
00:33:18,496 --> 00:33:21,766
and it's not very solid,
but it really is a tripod
579
00:33:21,900 --> 00:33:23,635
that provides
the structural integrity.
580
00:33:23,768 --> 00:33:27,405
And then I'm lashing
that pole to launch it.
581
00:33:27,539 --> 00:33:29,975
All right, this is it.
582
00:33:30,108 --> 00:33:31,843
Ready for launch.
583
00:33:31,977 --> 00:33:33,612
♪ ♪
584
00:33:33,745 --> 00:33:36,815
I'm okay with putting
my life on the line...
585
00:33:36,948 --> 00:33:41,386
♪ ♪
586
00:33:41,520 --> 00:33:44,189
Because I need to win "Alone."
587
00:33:44,322 --> 00:33:45,891
All right, let's try it.
588
00:33:46,024 --> 00:33:46,892
♪ ♪
589
00:33:47,025 --> 00:33:48,426
As a Latino,
590
00:33:48,560 --> 00:33:51,162
I don't want to be
just that person
591
00:33:51,296 --> 00:33:54,132
that you just add
for diversity.
592
00:33:54,266 --> 00:33:56,234
I don't want to be
a decoration.
593
00:33:56,368 --> 00:33:59,337
I want to be the first
non-white that wins.
594
00:33:59,471 --> 00:34:06,478
♪ ♪
595
00:34:08,413 --> 00:34:09,614
Nice.
596
00:34:09,748 --> 00:34:12,417
Not very big,
but it's a good one.
597
00:34:12,550 --> 00:34:14,386
And I want
to make people think
598
00:34:14,519 --> 00:34:16,254
it's not where you come from,
599
00:34:16,388 --> 00:34:18,423
that if you are
passionate enough,
600
00:34:18,556 --> 00:34:21,593
you can be better
than anyone else.
601
00:34:21,726 --> 00:34:22,827
♪ ♪
602
00:34:22,961 --> 00:34:24,663
One more.
603
00:34:24,796 --> 00:34:26,631
To me, it would be amazing...
604
00:34:26,765 --> 00:34:27,866
Nice.
605
00:34:27,999 --> 00:34:29,534
To break those mental barriers
606
00:34:29,668 --> 00:34:31,970
and rock the boat
a little bit.
607
00:34:32,103 --> 00:34:37,242
♪ ♪
608
00:34:37,375 --> 00:34:38,677
Score.
609
00:34:42,914 --> 00:34:44,249
Thank you, fish.
610
00:34:44,382 --> 00:34:51,423
♪ ♪
611
00:35:05,670 --> 00:35:08,039
That's my meal.
612
00:35:08,173 --> 00:35:11,743
Funnily enough,
I don't feel like eating,
613
00:35:11,876 --> 00:35:14,212
so I'm just gonna
eat what I can.
614
00:35:14,346 --> 00:35:15,647
♪ ♪
615
00:35:15,780 --> 00:35:17,048
But...
616
00:35:17,182 --> 00:35:19,117
♪ ♪
617
00:35:19,250 --> 00:35:22,520
My stomach right now
is just feeling like, pfft.
618
00:35:22,654 --> 00:35:24,255
It doesn't want food.
619
00:35:24,389 --> 00:35:29,094
♪ ♪
620
00:35:29,227 --> 00:35:32,430
This is such an unexpected
challenge for me...
621
00:35:32,564 --> 00:35:33,665
♪ ♪
622
00:35:33,798 --> 00:35:35,200
Not wanting to eat.
623
00:35:35,333 --> 00:35:36,434
♪ ♪
624
00:35:36,568 --> 00:35:37,736
Crazy.
625
00:35:37,869 --> 00:35:42,140
♪ ♪
626
00:35:42,273 --> 00:35:43,475
Crazy, crazy.
627
00:35:43,608 --> 00:35:44,809
♪ ♪
628
00:35:44,943 --> 00:35:49,581
And I know it's weird
and I should force myself.
629
00:35:49,714 --> 00:35:51,282
But at the same time,
630
00:35:51,416 --> 00:35:55,453
if I force myself
and I puke, then...
631
00:35:55,587 --> 00:35:56,654
♪ ♪
632
00:35:59,457 --> 00:36:03,628
All that effort for nothing...
633
00:36:03,762 --> 00:36:05,830
wasted.
634
00:36:07,766 --> 00:36:09,100
So I don't want to do that.
635
00:36:09,234 --> 00:36:10,568
♪ ♪
636
00:36:10,702 --> 00:36:13,638
The fact that my body
just doesn't want to eat,
637
00:36:13,772 --> 00:36:15,707
that is a problem.
638
00:36:15,840 --> 00:36:17,909
I do not want to get sick.
639
00:36:18,043 --> 00:36:20,211
I don't want to get
to that point where I puke,
640
00:36:20,345 --> 00:36:24,049
because that can be
extremely harsh on your body
641
00:36:24,182 --> 00:36:26,084
and can bring you down.
642
00:36:26,217 --> 00:36:27,986
♪ ♪
643
00:36:28,119 --> 00:36:29,721
Ay, ay, ay.
644
00:36:29,854 --> 00:36:32,891
What the heck is going on?
645
00:36:40,732 --> 00:36:44,035
♪ ♪
646
00:36:55,880 --> 00:36:58,616
- A knock at the door?
Out here?
647
00:36:58,750 --> 00:37:00,185
Who could that be?
648
00:37:06,224 --> 00:37:08,393
Trick or treat.
649
00:37:08,526 --> 00:37:09,594
Oh, a trick-or-treater.
650
00:37:09,728 --> 00:37:13,131
Wow, you look so cute.
651
00:37:13,264 --> 00:37:15,333
What are you,
a little ptarmigan?
652
00:37:15,467 --> 00:37:16,968
I'm a grouse.
653
00:37:17,102 --> 00:37:18,870
Oh, a grouse.
654
00:37:19,003 --> 00:37:22,774
I can never tell
the two apart.
655
00:37:22,907 --> 00:37:25,910
Man, I don't have any candy.
656
00:37:26,044 --> 00:37:27,879
How about some berries?
657
00:37:28,012 --> 00:37:29,948
Berries?
658
00:37:30,081 --> 00:37:34,219
You know how far
I had to walk to get here?
659
00:37:34,352 --> 00:37:37,122
All the last guy had
was bear meat.
660
00:37:37,255 --> 00:37:39,124
Someone's got bear meat?
661
00:37:39,257 --> 00:37:40,125
Damn it.
662
00:37:40,258 --> 00:37:42,293
Man, I'll tell you what.
663
00:37:42,427 --> 00:37:44,596
You're gonna be getting egged
tonight,
664
00:37:44,729 --> 00:37:47,065
that's for sure.
665
00:37:47,198 --> 00:37:48,233
You got eggs?
666
00:37:48,366 --> 00:37:50,068
Wait. You got eggs?
667
00:37:50,201 --> 00:37:52,370
No, no, no, no, no.
Come on in, buddy.
668
00:37:52,504 --> 00:37:53,838
Oh, man.
669
00:37:53,972 --> 00:37:56,307
I haven't had eggs
in a month and a half.
670
00:38:00,011 --> 00:38:03,381
Does this whole thing...
671
00:38:03,515 --> 00:38:06,351
make me seem totally insane?
672
00:38:06,484 --> 00:38:08,586
♪ ♪
673
00:38:08,720 --> 00:38:10,021
Probably, eh?
674
00:38:10,155 --> 00:38:11,089
♪ ♪
675
00:38:11,222 --> 00:38:14,159
And stitch all that
together for me,
676
00:38:14,292 --> 00:38:16,094
you got yourself an Emmy.
677
00:38:16,227 --> 00:38:17,395
♪ ♪
678
00:38:17,529 --> 00:38:19,831
Happy Halloween, y'all.
679
00:38:19,964 --> 00:38:26,804
♪ ♪
680
00:38:26,938 --> 00:38:29,374
- Happy Halloween!
681
00:38:29,507 --> 00:38:32,210
Yes, I'm Muskrat Suzie.
682
00:38:32,343 --> 00:38:33,912
♪ ♪
683
00:38:34,045 --> 00:38:35,947
I'm going
to celebrate Halloween
684
00:38:36,080 --> 00:38:37,916
by honoring the animal
685
00:38:38,049 --> 00:38:40,351
that I just fell in love with
686
00:38:40,485 --> 00:38:42,654
and just recently ate
687
00:38:42,787 --> 00:38:45,023
and just have
some fun with it.
688
00:38:45,156 --> 00:38:46,691
Oh, yeah.
689
00:38:46,824 --> 00:38:47,926
Oh.
690
00:38:57,969 --> 00:38:59,037
Oh.
691
00:39:04,008 --> 00:39:05,009
Oh!
692
00:39:06,411 --> 00:39:07,445
That was painful.
693
00:39:07,579 --> 00:39:09,781
Happy Halloween!
694
00:39:09,914 --> 00:39:11,182
Oh, my glasses are crooked.
695
00:39:11,316 --> 00:39:12,217
There.
696
00:39:12,383 --> 00:39:13,518
There we go.
697
00:39:23,394 --> 00:39:26,831
♪ ♪
698
00:39:26,965 --> 00:39:30,368
- This is definitely
a Halloween to remember.
699
00:39:30,501 --> 00:39:33,771
Today is also Samhain,
700
00:39:33,905 --> 00:39:37,175
and that's when the lines
701
00:39:37,308 --> 00:39:40,211
between the living and the dead
702
00:39:40,345 --> 00:39:42,013
get a little thinner.
703
00:39:42,146 --> 00:39:44,916
And it'd be a good time
704
00:39:45,049 --> 00:39:48,019
to reach out to...
705
00:39:48,152 --> 00:39:51,956
people beyond the grave,
loved ones, ancestors.
706
00:39:52,090 --> 00:39:56,160
Upon our launch,
we were given this.
707
00:39:57,362 --> 00:40:01,266
It's kind of like
a ceremonial fungus thing
708
00:40:01,399 --> 00:40:04,569
that traditionally
is used to smudge.
709
00:40:04,702 --> 00:40:07,071
I wanted to save this
for Samhain
710
00:40:07,205 --> 00:40:09,974
so I can say thank you
to the ancestors,
711
00:40:10,108 --> 00:40:11,676
to the spirits of the forest,
712
00:40:11,809 --> 00:40:14,078
and my grandfather.
713
00:40:14,212 --> 00:40:15,280
All right.
714
00:40:15,413 --> 00:40:17,482
Just gonna put this
on this flat rock...
715
00:40:17,615 --> 00:40:19,617
♪ ♪
716
00:40:19,751 --> 00:40:21,552
And let it fill the room.
717
00:40:21,686 --> 00:40:24,255
♪ ♪
718
00:40:24,389 --> 00:40:25,256
Mmm.
719
00:40:25,390 --> 00:40:27,125
That's pleasant.
720
00:40:27,258 --> 00:40:28,660
♪ ♪
721
00:40:28,793 --> 00:40:32,163
Ancestors, guardians...
722
00:40:32,297 --> 00:40:34,999
loved ones from beyond...
723
00:40:35,133 --> 00:40:38,002
♪ ♪
724
00:40:38,136 --> 00:40:39,637
This is for you.
725
00:40:39,771 --> 00:40:44,742
♪ ♪
726
00:40:46,210 --> 00:40:47,912
Before my mom had me,
727
00:40:48,046 --> 00:40:51,316
she was in a previous marriage
728
00:40:51,449 --> 00:40:55,186
with a man who...
729
00:40:55,320 --> 00:40:57,121
I have his last name.
730
00:40:57,255 --> 00:41:00,625
And his father, my grandfather,
731
00:41:00,758 --> 00:41:02,460
they both live in Singapore.
732
00:41:02,593 --> 00:41:04,796
I can't visit often,
733
00:41:04,929 --> 00:41:08,633
especially
when I was in medical school.
734
00:41:08,766 --> 00:41:13,504
My grandfather, he fell
forward from a seat,
735
00:41:13,638 --> 00:41:17,308
and it's kind of like
a whiplash type of a deal.
736
00:41:17,442 --> 00:41:22,146
And there's little
blood vessels in your head,
737
00:41:22,280 --> 00:41:24,716
and those rip,
and those bleed,
738
00:41:24,849 --> 00:41:26,818
and that causes
more pressure in the brain,
739
00:41:26,951 --> 00:41:28,653
and you lose consciousness,
740
00:41:28,786 --> 00:41:32,657
and you can slowly
or quickly pass away.
741
00:41:32,790 --> 00:41:34,192
♪ ♪
742
00:41:34,325 --> 00:41:36,494
And that's what happened.
743
00:41:36,627 --> 00:41:39,163
But in his lucid state,
744
00:41:39,297 --> 00:41:41,599
he still knew me.
745
00:41:41,733 --> 00:41:44,902
That's how important
I was to him,
746
00:41:45,036 --> 00:41:48,573
even though I wasn't present
for most of my life
747
00:41:48,706 --> 00:41:51,075
because I was so far away.
748
00:41:51,209 --> 00:41:54,545
And I just wanted
to reach out to him...
749
00:41:54,679 --> 00:41:57,248
to let him know
that I'm grateful,
750
00:41:57,382 --> 00:41:59,283
that I love him very much...
751
00:41:59,417 --> 00:42:06,290
♪ ♪
752
00:42:06,424 --> 00:42:09,627
That I feel his strength
and his presence
753
00:42:09,761 --> 00:42:11,629
in all the good things
that I do.
754
00:42:11,763 --> 00:42:13,664
♪ ♪
755
00:42:13,798 --> 00:42:15,299
And I'm trying my best
756
00:42:15,433 --> 00:42:17,935
to be an instrument
of good in the world.
757
00:42:18,069 --> 00:42:20,204
♪ ♪
758
00:42:20,338 --> 00:42:22,607
So I thank you for...
759
00:42:22,740 --> 00:42:24,108
♪ ♪
760
00:42:24,242 --> 00:42:26,110
Considering me family...
761
00:42:26,244 --> 00:42:28,212
♪ ♪
762
00:42:28,346 --> 00:42:30,448
Considering me your grandson.
763
00:42:30,581 --> 00:42:36,320
♪ ♪
764
00:42:36,454 --> 00:42:38,156
That's why I keep the name.
765
00:42:38,289 --> 00:42:41,225
♪ ♪
766
00:42:45,430 --> 00:42:52,403
♪ ♪
767
00:43:00,511 --> 00:43:05,883
♪ ♪
768
00:43:08,753 --> 00:43:11,589
I never make
a good sick person.
769
00:43:15,293 --> 00:43:17,595
I hate being sick.
770
00:43:21,399 --> 00:43:24,402
Want some cheese
to go with that whine?
771
00:43:27,071 --> 00:43:29,640
Want your milk and cookies?
772
00:43:29,774 --> 00:43:31,242
Yes, please.
773
00:43:35,346 --> 00:43:38,816
No milk, though...
I'm lactose intolerant...
774
00:43:38,950 --> 00:43:41,919
unless it's coconut milk
or almond milk.
775
00:43:42,053 --> 00:43:44,555
Oat milk...
I really like oat milk.
776
00:44:04,542 --> 00:44:07,245
I don't feel like I want
to throw up the water,
777
00:44:07,378 --> 00:44:08,746
but...
778
00:44:08,880 --> 00:44:12,250
I definitely still feel
nauseous.
779
00:44:12,383 --> 00:44:15,920
I definitely have no interest
in drinking more water.
780
00:44:49,387 --> 00:44:51,756
♪ ♪
781
00:44:51,889 --> 00:44:52,924
Yeah.
782
00:44:53,057 --> 00:44:54,926
♪ ♪
783
00:44:55,059 --> 00:44:56,727
That's not good.
784
00:45:04,101 --> 00:45:06,103
♪ ♪
785
00:45:13,911 --> 00:45:16,581
♪ ♪
786
00:45:19,717 --> 00:45:21,485
I don't throw up much.
787
00:45:21,619 --> 00:45:23,287
I rarely have thrown up
in my life,
788
00:45:23,421 --> 00:45:25,323
so this is
really disconcerting
789
00:45:25,456 --> 00:45:27,758
and alarming to me right now.
790
00:45:27,892 --> 00:45:30,661
I guess somewhere along
the line, I made a mistake.
791
00:45:30,795 --> 00:45:34,432
♪ ♪
792
00:45:34,565 --> 00:45:36,434
I've been drinking water
I shouldn't,
793
00:45:36,567 --> 00:45:38,970
or just have a lot of acid
in my system
794
00:45:39,103 --> 00:45:40,805
because I'm not eating.
795
00:45:40,938 --> 00:45:47,945
♪ ♪
796
00:45:50,147 --> 00:45:54,685
This time, maybe eat
some charcoal beforehand.
797
00:45:54,819 --> 00:45:57,688
I'll use a little bit
to make a slurry,
798
00:45:57,822 --> 00:45:59,290
see if it'll help absorb
799
00:45:59,423 --> 00:46:01,826
whatever's going on
in my stomach.
800
00:46:01,959 --> 00:46:04,128
Drink that first
801
00:46:04,262 --> 00:46:07,465
and then try drinking
the water.
802
00:46:09,266 --> 00:46:11,268
♪ ♪
803
00:46:11,402 --> 00:46:13,270
Eating a gritty mud.
804
00:46:13,404 --> 00:46:20,411
♪ ♪
805
00:46:31,122 --> 00:46:34,325
Hopefully my body was able
to absorb some of that.
806
00:46:34,458 --> 00:46:36,694
♪ ♪
807
00:46:36,827 --> 00:46:38,329
I feel better...
808
00:46:38,462 --> 00:46:39,830
♪ ♪
809
00:46:39,964 --> 00:46:42,667
Not fantastic,
but I feel better.
810
00:46:42,800 --> 00:46:45,336
♪ ♪
811
00:46:45,469 --> 00:46:50,174
I need to have faith,
and I need to...
812
00:46:50,308 --> 00:46:55,146
remember that even when
the odds seem impossible,
813
00:46:55,279 --> 00:46:57,715
♪ ♪
814
00:46:57,848 --> 00:46:59,784
I just need to have
faith that...
815
00:46:59,917 --> 00:47:01,552
♪ ♪
816
00:47:01,686 --> 00:47:03,120
It'll get better.
817
00:47:03,254 --> 00:47:04,955
♪ ♪
818
00:47:05,089 --> 00:47:09,160
I come from a line of women
that have just been so strong
819
00:47:09,293 --> 00:47:11,295
and have been through so much.
820
00:47:11,429 --> 00:47:12,963
I need to use that.
821
00:47:13,097 --> 00:47:16,667
I just got to push
through the suffering,
822
00:47:16,801 --> 00:47:19,537
and eventually it'll be okay.
823
00:47:19,670 --> 00:47:21,739
I'm not out of the game yet.
824
00:47:23,307 --> 00:47:30,314
♪ ♪
825
00:47:41,292 --> 00:47:46,030
- I have been feeling
extremely homesick.
826
00:47:46,163 --> 00:47:48,332
♪ ♪
827
00:47:48,466 --> 00:47:51,769
I've never felt anything
like this before.
828
00:47:55,272 --> 00:47:57,475
It's, like, gripped me.
829
00:47:58,776 --> 00:48:02,847
It's a cruel thing doing this
through the holidays.
830
00:48:07,651 --> 00:48:09,587
I miss all my people.
831
00:48:09,720 --> 00:48:12,356
♪ ♪
832
00:48:12,490 --> 00:48:16,360
Staying busy... that's
the strategy going forward.
833
00:48:16,494 --> 00:48:19,196
So we're gonna head out
as far inland as we can
834
00:48:19,330 --> 00:48:21,832
in the next couple of hours,
see what we find.
835
00:48:21,966 --> 00:48:24,769
♪ ♪
836
00:48:24,902 --> 00:48:26,837
This morning
was the first time
837
00:48:26,971 --> 00:48:28,773
I felt like tapping out,
838
00:48:28,906 --> 00:48:30,241
because the simple fact
of the matter
839
00:48:30,374 --> 00:48:32,977
is that I can go home
whenever I want to,
840
00:48:33,110 --> 00:48:37,314
but that's an evil little worm
in my subconscious.
841
00:48:37,448 --> 00:48:41,552
And that worm
doesn't belong there.
842
00:48:41,685 --> 00:48:46,557
♪ ♪
843
00:48:46,690 --> 00:48:49,226
Well, I'll be damned.
844
00:48:52,530 --> 00:48:54,498
This is a new river.
845
00:48:54,632 --> 00:48:57,001
This is a whole other stream...
846
00:49:02,440 --> 00:49:05,376
Rife with possibilities.
847
00:49:05,509 --> 00:49:06,977
There's beaver in the area.
848
00:49:07,111 --> 00:49:09,413
The fish could be biting here.
849
00:49:09,547 --> 00:49:12,650
Oh, I wish I'd found this
sooner.
850
00:49:12,783 --> 00:49:13,851
Oh, man.
851
00:49:15,986 --> 00:49:18,622
We have it now.
852
00:49:18,756 --> 00:49:20,858
Cool.
Let's keep going.
853
00:49:20,991 --> 00:49:22,693
♪ ♪
854
00:49:22,827 --> 00:49:26,130
I need to really discipline
my mind against despondency
855
00:49:26,263 --> 00:49:27,431
or loneliness.
856
00:49:27,565 --> 00:49:34,138
♪ ♪
857
00:49:35,339 --> 00:49:37,908
This is the way
that people have lived
858
00:49:38,042 --> 00:49:40,644
for hundreds of thousands
of years,
859
00:49:40,778 --> 00:49:42,046
and...
860
00:49:42,179 --> 00:49:44,482
Got to
stay strong mentally.
861
00:49:47,284 --> 00:49:49,220
Oh, *bleep*.
862
00:49:49,353 --> 00:49:51,689
That's the first hare
I've seen.
863
00:49:53,824 --> 00:49:57,228
Be "vewy, vewy" quiet.
864
00:49:57,361 --> 00:50:00,264
We're hunting "wabbits."
865
00:50:00,397 --> 00:50:07,371
♪ ♪
866
00:50:23,687 --> 00:50:27,024
♪ ♪
867
00:50:31,495 --> 00:50:32,863
Oh, *bleep*.
868
00:50:32,997 --> 00:50:34,765
That's the first
hare I've seen.
869
00:50:34,899 --> 00:50:37,735
♪ ♪
870
00:50:40,037 --> 00:50:41,538
Hell, yeah, brother.
871
00:50:48,078 --> 00:50:50,915
Look at the size of this guy.
872
00:50:51,048 --> 00:50:54,351
That is a huge hare.
873
00:50:54,485 --> 00:50:58,088
And he was maybe 20 yards out,
and I took a shot,
874
00:50:58,222 --> 00:51:00,024
and it was the perfect hit.
875
00:51:01,692 --> 00:51:04,128
That's a lot of meat.
876
00:51:04,261 --> 00:51:05,863
That's a lot of meat.
877
00:51:08,766 --> 00:51:10,401
Rabbit stew.
878
00:51:10,534 --> 00:51:12,870
I didn't know I was gonna
be getting that here.
879
00:51:13,003 --> 00:51:20,010
♪ ♪
880
00:51:29,720 --> 00:51:32,723
Piece of backstrap in there...
881
00:51:36,727 --> 00:51:39,063
And one these thighs.
882
00:51:41,231 --> 00:51:43,934
I miss my family a lot,
883
00:51:44,034 --> 00:51:46,971
and that's not
a healthy mindset
884
00:51:47,104 --> 00:51:49,073
for an experience like this.
885
00:51:49,206 --> 00:51:51,408
♪ ♪
886
00:51:51,542 --> 00:51:53,911
Piece of squirrel head.
887
00:51:54,044 --> 00:51:56,180
That's why I try
and practice gratitude
888
00:51:56,313 --> 00:51:59,516
for every single day
that I'm here, you know?
889
00:51:59,650 --> 00:52:01,218
I want something
to remind myself
890
00:52:01,352 --> 00:52:03,554
of the opportunity
I have to be here.
891
00:52:03,687 --> 00:52:07,324
♪ ♪
892
00:52:07,458 --> 00:52:10,260
How do we win this sucker?
893
00:52:10,394 --> 00:52:12,896
In a tightrope walk, you know?
894
00:52:13,030 --> 00:52:14,231
♪ ♪
895
00:52:14,365 --> 00:52:16,734
Every day is a balancing act.
896
00:52:16,867 --> 00:52:19,703
Some days will come out
negative.
897
00:52:19,837 --> 00:52:21,705
Some days will come out
positive.
898
00:52:21,839 --> 00:52:23,707
♪ ♪
899
00:52:23,841 --> 00:52:26,710
Just got to have a couple more
positives than negatives.
900
00:52:26,844 --> 00:52:29,680
♪ ♪
901
00:52:29,813 --> 00:52:33,017
Now we're getting into
some real "Alone" *bleep*.
902
00:52:37,654 --> 00:52:39,156
Mmm.
903
00:52:42,359 --> 00:52:45,229
This is
my first-ever wild hare.
904
00:52:53,604 --> 00:52:56,473
It tastes amazing.
905
00:52:58,142 --> 00:53:00,310
And this is...
906
00:53:01,645 --> 00:53:03,514
Mmm.
907
00:53:03,647 --> 00:53:05,649
All organ meat.
908
00:53:11,522 --> 00:53:14,725
And that's a chunk of liver.
909
00:53:14,858 --> 00:53:17,728
Today was a caloric gamble
910
00:53:17,861 --> 00:53:21,398
that really paid off.
911
00:53:21,532 --> 00:53:26,203
It's a long way to get back
into that backstretch,
912
00:53:26,336 --> 00:53:29,706
but this has been one
of the most eventful days
913
00:53:29,840 --> 00:53:31,809
I've had out here.
914
00:53:31,942 --> 00:53:35,479
If there's other animals there,
bigger animals,
915
00:53:35,612 --> 00:53:38,515
animals that I can really...
916
00:53:40,050 --> 00:53:42,086
You know...
917
00:53:42,219 --> 00:53:45,722
shoot once and be good
for a couple of days,
918
00:53:45,856 --> 00:53:47,724
that is...
919
00:53:50,060 --> 00:53:52,362
Potentially massive.
920
00:53:52,496 --> 00:53:55,232
I'm gonna to be spoiled
by this.
921
00:53:57,134 --> 00:53:59,002
Spoiled.
922
00:53:59,136 --> 00:54:00,804
I want another one.
923
00:54:02,339 --> 00:54:09,346
♪ ♪
924
00:54:18,689 --> 00:54:20,991
- My stomach's
pretty upset again.
925
00:54:21,125 --> 00:54:22,126
I think it's just...
926
00:54:22,259 --> 00:54:24,094
I think it's actually
just acid reflux.
927
00:54:24,228 --> 00:54:27,631
It's just my stomach
producing a lot of acid,
928
00:54:27,764 --> 00:54:31,101
and there's nothing in there
for it to digest.
929
00:54:31,235 --> 00:54:33,504
It's not a fun feeling,
for sure.
930
00:54:35,839 --> 00:54:39,543
So I picked out some charcoal
before I started the fire...
931
00:54:39,676 --> 00:54:41,478
from last night,
932
00:54:41,612 --> 00:54:45,048
and I'll eat some of that
this evening.
933
00:54:45,182 --> 00:54:48,418
♪ ♪
934
00:54:48,552 --> 00:54:51,755
All right,
here's the ground charcoal.
935
00:54:51,889 --> 00:54:53,423
♪ ♪
936
00:54:53,557 --> 00:54:55,559
Out here
you can't just run down
937
00:54:55,692 --> 00:54:57,928
to your local pharmacy
or something
938
00:54:58,061 --> 00:55:00,197
and grab
whatever it is you need.
939
00:55:00,330 --> 00:55:02,466
And I'm not an herbalist.
940
00:55:02,599 --> 00:55:04,701
The only things I know
for stomach issues
941
00:55:04,835 --> 00:55:06,436
are things like charcoal.
942
00:55:06,570 --> 00:55:08,472
Oh, just come on.
943
00:55:10,140 --> 00:55:12,142
I got to get this down.
944
00:55:17,247 --> 00:55:24,288
♪ ♪
945
00:55:31,195 --> 00:55:34,398
♪ ♪
946
00:55:37,501 --> 00:55:42,372
♪ ♪
947
00:55:45,509 --> 00:55:50,714
♪ ♪
948
00:55:57,387 --> 00:56:00,958
♪ ♪
949
00:56:11,768 --> 00:56:14,438
I'm gonna go to bed.
950
00:56:17,474 --> 00:56:18,609
Hoo.
951
00:56:18,742 --> 00:56:25,148
♪ ♪
952
00:56:25,282 --> 00:56:27,551
So I just woke up and...
953
00:56:27,684 --> 00:56:30,220
♪ ♪
954
00:56:30,354 --> 00:56:32,723
Vomited
for the third time tonight.
955
00:56:36,026 --> 00:56:38,061
Throat's feeling pretty raw.
956
00:56:38,195 --> 00:56:41,465
♪ ♪
957
00:56:41,598 --> 00:56:44,334
This last time
it was water again.
958
00:56:44,468 --> 00:56:47,938
I'm getting
a pretty good headache,
959
00:56:48,071 --> 00:56:49,706
I'm sure, from dehydration.
960
00:56:49,840 --> 00:56:51,008
♪ ♪
961
00:56:51,141 --> 00:56:53,543
I don't know.
We'll see how much...
962
00:56:53,677 --> 00:56:55,312
♪ ♪
963
00:56:55,445 --> 00:56:57,147
how much water I'm able
to keep down,
964
00:56:57,281 --> 00:56:59,149
if I can stay hydrated enough.
965
00:56:59,283 --> 00:57:02,853
♪ ♪
966
00:57:02,986 --> 00:57:06,189
I'm still hoping I'll reach
a point where this will pass.
967
00:57:06,323 --> 00:57:09,459
♪ ♪
968
00:57:09,593 --> 00:57:10,794
I've got to get down water.
969
00:57:10,928 --> 00:57:12,629
If I don't keep down water
at this point
970
00:57:12,763 --> 00:57:14,564
and start getting
really badly dehydrated,
971
00:57:14,698 --> 00:57:16,366
there's no way I can stay out.
972
00:57:16,500 --> 00:57:17,834
♪ ♪
973
00:57:17,968 --> 00:57:19,670
They're gonna
medically pull me.
974
00:57:19,803 --> 00:57:21,838
I will not hit the button.
975
00:57:21,972 --> 00:57:25,442
♪ ♪
976
00:57:25,575 --> 00:57:27,844
I will not...
977
00:57:27,978 --> 00:57:30,847
hit the button, ever.
978
00:57:33,984 --> 00:57:36,353
How many days can this go on?
979
00:57:44,061 --> 00:57:47,397
♪ ♪
980
00:58:19,930 --> 00:58:23,834
♪ ♪
981
00:58:23,967 --> 00:58:25,469
Jessie?
982
00:58:25,602 --> 00:58:32,609
♪ ♪
983
00:58:36,313 --> 00:58:37,647
- I'm okay.
984
00:58:37,781 --> 00:58:40,250
But if I get up
and do anything,
985
00:58:40,384 --> 00:58:43,954
then the odds of me throwing up
are way high.
986
00:58:44,087 --> 00:58:45,155
- Okay.
987
00:58:48,492 --> 00:58:50,994
And how many times
have you thrown up?
988
00:58:54,431 --> 00:58:55,799
- Nine or ten.
989
00:58:55,932 --> 00:58:59,770
- And are you able to drink
any water at this point?
990
00:58:59,903 --> 00:59:01,905
- I drink it.
991
00:59:04,007 --> 00:59:06,276
It just usually
doesn't stay down.
992
00:59:06,410 --> 00:59:11,782
♪ ♪
993
00:59:11,915 --> 00:59:13,283
I'm bad right now.
994
00:59:13,417 --> 00:59:14,684
It makes me want to vomit
995
00:59:14,818 --> 00:59:16,553
every time I try to even take
a sip of water,
996
00:59:16,686 --> 00:59:17,954
and it just keeps
getting worse.
997
00:59:18,088 --> 00:59:19,990
So it's probably a pipe dream
998
00:59:20,123 --> 00:59:22,492
that I'm gonna be able
to make it better out here.
999
00:59:22,626 --> 00:59:25,062
But I didn't come out here
to just quit.
1000
00:59:25,195 --> 00:59:26,596
It's not why I came.
1001
00:59:26,730 --> 00:59:28,131
I've watched people
quit at something,
1002
00:59:28,265 --> 00:59:31,001
and they regret it
for the rest of their life.
1003
00:59:31,134 --> 00:59:33,303
And not only that,
but then it makes it easier
1004
00:59:33,437 --> 00:59:34,805
to quit at the next thing.
1005
00:59:34,938 --> 00:59:38,074
♪ ♪
1006
00:59:38,208 --> 00:59:40,444
I never want to go
down that road.
1007
00:59:40,577 --> 00:59:43,146
I want to be able to look
at myself and who I am
1008
00:59:43,280 --> 00:59:47,884
and say I did my absolute best
at whatever I'm doing.
1009
00:59:48,018 --> 00:59:49,986
♪ ♪
1010
00:59:50,120 --> 00:59:52,689
So I am not leaving unless
they pull me out of here.
1011
00:59:52,823 --> 00:59:55,959
♪ ♪
1012
00:59:56,092 --> 00:59:58,295
- Hey, Jessie.
1013
00:59:58,428 --> 01:00:00,797
Our concerns right now
are that you have
1014
01:00:00,931 --> 01:00:03,967
a pretty severe inflammation
of your stomach lining,
1015
01:00:04,067 --> 01:00:06,102
which, if that's left
untreated,
1016
01:00:06,236 --> 01:00:09,439
could lead to bleeding
or a hole in your stomach,
1017
01:00:09,573 --> 01:00:11,808
both of which can be
life-threatening.
1018
01:00:11,942 --> 01:00:14,945
It doesn't feel like you are
able to take care of yourself
1019
01:00:15,078 --> 01:00:16,213
at this point.
1020
01:00:16,346 --> 01:00:18,348
It's not safe
for you to remain.
1021
01:00:18,482 --> 01:00:20,617
I have
to medically extract you.
1022
01:00:36,967 --> 01:00:40,303
- Definitely not
how I envisioned this ending.
1023
01:00:40,437 --> 01:00:47,444
♪ ♪
1024
01:00:48,778 --> 01:00:52,048
To end like this, this wasn't
what I anticipated.
1025
01:00:52,182 --> 01:00:54,150
This isn't
how I saw it going down.
1026
01:00:54,284 --> 01:00:56,119
♪ ♪
1027
01:00:56,253 --> 01:00:58,722
I got so enmeshed
in Hodgepodge,
1028
01:00:58,855 --> 01:01:02,425
and this showed that, that
I was still in that ego place
1029
01:01:02,559 --> 01:01:04,661
where I can work,
I can be strong,
1030
01:01:04,794 --> 01:01:06,830
and just going with the nose
to the grindstone,
1031
01:01:06,963 --> 01:01:08,565
I can make it through.
1032
01:01:08,698 --> 01:01:11,835
But I believe if I'd taken
the other path,
1033
01:01:11,968 --> 01:01:14,437
if I had connected more
with the moment
1034
01:01:14,571 --> 01:01:16,273
while I was out there,
1035
01:01:16,406 --> 01:01:19,109
my sense is, I actually
would have done a lot better.
1036
01:01:19,242 --> 01:01:20,610
♪ ♪
1037
01:01:20,744 --> 01:01:22,946
I want to connect
with spirit,
1038
01:01:23,079 --> 01:01:25,782
and I want to be able
to smile and laugh
1039
01:01:25,916 --> 01:01:29,152
and authentically just be me.
1040
01:01:29,286 --> 01:01:32,289
And that can't happen
if I've...
1041
01:01:32,422 --> 01:01:33,924
got the nose
to the grindstone
1042
01:01:34,057 --> 01:01:36,660
and I'm just buckling down and
trying to get the job done.
1043
01:01:36,793 --> 01:01:38,762
♪ ♪
1044
01:01:38,895 --> 01:01:41,665
So I need to step back...
1045
01:01:41,798 --> 01:01:44,634
spend more time
on my own spiritual growth
1046
01:01:44,768 --> 01:01:46,336
and not working quite so hard.
1047
01:01:46,469 --> 01:01:48,972
♪ ♪
1048
01:01:49,105 --> 01:01:52,642
I mean, what's the point of
life if we're not enjoying it?
1049
01:01:52,776 --> 01:01:55,111
♪ ♪
1050
01:01:55,245 --> 01:01:58,014
- Oh, *bleep*,
*bleep*, *bleep*.
1051
01:01:58,148 --> 01:01:59,649
I'm so tired
of bushwhacking.
1052
01:01:59,783 --> 01:02:03,153
There is some ankle-breaking
*bleep* in this forest.
1053
01:02:05,555 --> 01:02:06,790
*bleep*.
1054
01:02:06,923 --> 01:02:09,726
- My fishing pole is gonna
become a walking stick.
1055
01:02:09,859 --> 01:02:13,330
The river is frozen over.
I think fishing's out.
1056
01:02:13,463 --> 01:02:15,465
- See how thick that ice is.
1057
01:02:15,599 --> 01:02:17,234
♪ ♪
1058
01:02:17,367 --> 01:02:20,437
- If you're in it to really
test your boundaries,
1059
01:02:20,570 --> 01:02:21,771
you might not come
back the same.
1060
01:02:21,905 --> 01:02:25,275
Your life as you know it
is changed forever.
1061
01:02:25,408 --> 01:02:29,512
♪ ♪
1062
01:02:29,879 --> 01:02:32,782
]
1063
01:02:32,882 --> 01:02:38,555
@
♪ ♪
1064
01:02:38,655 --> 01:02:41,891
- *bleep*.
1065
01:02:41,992 --> 01:02:45,795
*bleep*. Oh, God.
1066
01:02:45,895 --> 01:02:49,899
♪ ♪
1067
01:02:50,000 --> 01:02:52,802
- Tom, what happened?
1068
01:02:52,902 --> 01:02:56,573
I took a spill.
1069
01:02:56,673 --> 01:02:59,175
And then when I went
to go get up, the knee...
1070
01:02:59,276 --> 01:03:00,577
the knee was buggered.
1071
01:03:00,677 --> 01:03:05,181
So I think I probably knocked
the kneecap on the log
1072
01:03:05,282 --> 01:03:09,552
with the full weight of
my body underneath it.
1073
01:03:09,653 --> 01:03:10,887
Like, I... you know,
without being
1074
01:03:10,987 --> 01:03:12,922
able to get firewood
or food,
1075
01:03:13,023 --> 01:03:15,592
like, I can't hobble
around like this.
1076
01:03:15,692 --> 01:03:17,961
I thought about like trying to
rest up for a couple of days,
1077
01:03:18,061 --> 01:03:20,830
but I'm so low already.
1078
01:03:20,930 --> 01:03:23,800
I just... I was worried that
I was going to hurt myself
1079
01:03:23,900 --> 01:03:26,703
out here,
and I've got a beautiful life
1080
01:03:26,803 --> 01:03:28,972
where I do this sort
of stuff all the time.
1081
01:03:29,072 --> 01:03:31,274
♪ ♪
1082
01:03:31,374 --> 01:03:33,043
I thought about all
the spring gobbler seasons
1083
01:03:33,143 --> 01:03:35,612
and all the fall bow
seasons in Virginia
1084
01:03:35,712 --> 01:03:37,414
and all the trout
fishing and everything.
1085
01:03:37,514 --> 01:03:42,552
And I just didn't want to
risk all that for another week
1086
01:03:42,652 --> 01:03:43,853
out here.
1087
01:03:43,953 --> 01:03:46,523
And I do have so much
respect for this place.
1088
01:03:46,623 --> 01:03:48,892
It's so wild and so gorgeous.
1089
01:03:48,992 --> 01:03:52,095
I don't want to cuss
my way out of this place.
1090
01:03:52,195 --> 01:03:53,330
I want to...
1091
01:03:53,430 --> 01:03:59,369
I want to leave here
feeling good about it.
1092
01:03:59,469 --> 01:04:03,506
- Well, we have a nice
little treat for you.
1093
01:04:03,606 --> 01:04:05,008
- What is that?
- This is...
1094
01:04:05,108 --> 01:04:06,609
- Bourbon?
- First aid.
1095
01:04:08,178 --> 01:04:11,414
First thing you get to taste,
and it's healthier for you
1096
01:04:11,514 --> 01:04:13,817
than bourbon.
1097
01:04:13,950 --> 01:04:15,618
♪ ♪
1098
01:04:15,719 --> 01:04:17,153
- That's soup.
1099
01:04:17,253 --> 01:04:20,023
♪ ♪
1100
01:04:20,123 --> 01:04:21,991
I could chug this
right now, but I am not.
1101
01:04:22,092 --> 01:04:24,160
I just need to...
1102
01:04:24,260 --> 01:04:26,262
I am thrilled, over the moon.
1103
01:04:26,362 --> 01:04:29,599
Thank you all so much.
1104
01:04:32,669 --> 01:04:34,270
♪ ♪
1105
01:04:34,370 --> 01:04:35,705
- You know, this is something
1106
01:04:35,805 --> 01:04:38,007
that I've been conscious
of since day one,
1107
01:04:38,108 --> 01:04:43,880
how you're one false step away
from ending it all out here.
1108
01:04:43,980 --> 01:04:46,349
It really just stings,
because I'm not done yet.
1109
01:04:46,449 --> 01:04:50,720
I've still got a ton of
things I want to do and see,
1110
01:04:50,820 --> 01:04:53,656
but I'm proud of my 43 days.
1111
01:04:53,757 --> 01:04:54,858
I swung for the fences.
1112
01:04:54,958 --> 01:04:56,025
I was creative.
1113
01:04:56,126 --> 01:04:58,261
I wasn't scared
to try new things,
1114
01:04:58,361 --> 01:05:00,130
and I hope that
people understand
1115
01:05:00,230 --> 01:05:02,565
what this really is.
1116
01:05:02,665 --> 01:05:05,335
At the core of it
all is this journey
1117
01:05:05,435 --> 01:05:08,104
and this transformation.
1118
01:05:08,204 --> 01:05:10,473
My mind is so at peace
with this freedom
1119
01:05:10,573 --> 01:05:12,175
and this simple lifestyle.
1120
01:05:12,275 --> 01:05:15,645
This just took that to another
level that I didn't know
1121
01:05:15,745 --> 01:05:17,013
was possible.
1122
01:05:17,113 --> 01:05:18,681
♪ ♪
1123
01:05:18,782 --> 01:05:21,151
My ancestors sailed
with Erik the Red.
1124
01:05:21,251 --> 01:05:24,621
Like, to be on this land
and wonder if, you know,
1125
01:05:24,721 --> 01:05:26,422
I'm standing in the
footsteps of somebody that
1126
01:05:26,523 --> 01:05:28,691
came before me in
my own bloodline
1127
01:05:28,792 --> 01:05:30,460
but also in this
sacred place that
1128
01:05:30,560 --> 01:05:32,729
belongs to these other
people that let me come
1129
01:05:32,829 --> 01:05:34,631
and do this, I mean, wow, man.
1130
01:05:34,731 --> 01:05:38,568
It's just been incredible.
1131
01:05:38,668 --> 01:05:40,203
♪ ♪
1132
01:05:40,303 --> 01:05:43,473
You know I didn't win, but,
like, I've made peace with it.
1133
01:05:43,573 --> 01:05:47,110
And now I'm going home,
and I feel
1134
01:05:47,210 --> 01:05:48,945
made whole by this experience.
1135
01:05:49,045 --> 01:05:52,448
♪ ♪
1136
01:05:56,452 --> 01:05:59,055
- Now my stomach's
pretty upset again.
1137
01:05:59,155 --> 01:06:00,723
I think it's just acid reflux,
1138
01:06:00,824 --> 01:06:03,626
and there's nothing in there
for it to digest.
1139
01:06:03,726 --> 01:06:05,728
It's not a fun feeling
for sure.
1140
01:06:05,829 --> 01:06:09,699
♪ ♪
1141
01:06:09,799 --> 01:06:11,100
I've got to get down water.
1142
01:06:11,201 --> 01:06:12,635
If I don't keep down water
at this point
1143
01:06:12,735 --> 01:06:14,838
and start getting
really badly dehydrated,
1144
01:06:14,938 --> 01:06:16,406
there's no way I can stay out.
1145
01:06:16,506 --> 01:06:19,342
Like, they're gonna
medically pull me.
1146
01:06:19,442 --> 01:06:20,343
♪ ♪
1147
01:06:20,443 --> 01:06:22,312
Ooh.
1148
01:06:22,412 --> 01:06:23,546
♪ ♪
1149
01:06:23,646 --> 01:06:25,582
How many days can this go on?
1150
01:06:25,682 --> 01:06:32,722
♪ ♪
1151
01:06:35,959 --> 01:06:37,360
- We haven't heard
from Jessie,
1152
01:06:37,460 --> 01:06:38,494
so we're gonna head out
1153
01:06:38,595 --> 01:06:39,796
and check on her
with the medic.
1154
01:06:39,896 --> 01:06:41,030
Hey, there.
1155
01:06:41,130 --> 01:06:42,398
We reached out
and didn't hear from you,
1156
01:06:42,498 --> 01:06:44,000
so we got concerned.
1157
01:06:52,609 --> 01:06:54,577
- Have you been having
any dizziness or weakness?
1158
01:06:57,680 --> 01:06:59,516
- And when was the last time
you threw up approximately?
1159
01:07:05,655 --> 01:07:06,923
3:00 or 4:00 this morning?
1160
01:07:07,023 --> 01:07:08,558
Did you eat anything?
1161
01:07:08,658 --> 01:07:09,826
- Not a thing?
1162
01:07:11,661 --> 01:07:13,162
- Okay.
1163
01:07:13,263 --> 01:07:15,698
Give us a couple minutes.
We'll step outside.
1164
01:07:15,798 --> 01:07:18,568
Her BP is pretty low.
It's around 90.
1165
01:07:18,668 --> 01:07:21,037
She's in bad shape, yeah, yeah.
1166
01:07:21,137 --> 01:07:22,505
She hasn't eaten in ten days,
1167
01:07:22,605 --> 01:07:24,908
and she's barely consumed
any water whatsoever.
1168
01:07:25,008 --> 01:07:26,409
- And what happens
if she stays in?
1169
01:07:26,509 --> 01:07:27,844
- If she stays in here now,
she's just gonna
1170
01:07:27,944 --> 01:07:29,579
completely dehydrate herself
to the point
1171
01:07:29,679 --> 01:07:31,681
of danger,
or she's gonna start to bleed
1172
01:07:31,781 --> 01:07:32,815
from her stomach...
- Mm-hmm.
1173
01:07:32,916 --> 01:07:34,250
- And start vomiting blood,
1174
01:07:34,350 --> 01:07:35,485
and she will probably
eventually die
1175
01:07:35,585 --> 01:07:37,053
in that shelter.
- Mm.
1176
01:07:37,153 --> 01:07:41,190
♪ ♪
1177
01:07:41,291 --> 01:07:44,861
Hey, Jessie, it doesn't feel
like you are able
1178
01:07:44,961 --> 01:07:46,896
to take care of yourself
at this point.
1179
01:07:46,996 --> 01:07:49,065
It's not safe
for you to remain.
1180
01:07:49,165 --> 01:07:50,800
I have to
medically extract you.
1181
01:07:50,900 --> 01:07:55,805
♪ ♪
1182
01:07:55,905 --> 01:07:57,140
Your stomach is in bad shape,
1183
01:07:57,240 --> 01:07:58,608
and we need to take you
to a hospital
1184
01:07:58,708 --> 01:08:00,176
if we can't treat you out here.
1185
01:08:01,844 --> 01:08:03,613
Our goal is to make sure
that you're safe,
1186
01:08:03,713 --> 01:08:05,081
and right now,
we don't feel you are.
1187
01:08:08,952 --> 01:08:10,420
♪ ♪
1188
01:08:10,520 --> 01:08:11,487
- Careful.
1189
01:08:11,588 --> 01:08:14,490
♪ ♪
1190
01:08:14,590 --> 01:08:16,659
- I think I've learned more
that it's very easy
1191
01:08:16,759 --> 01:08:19,462
for me to still just
kind of shut down the emotion
1192
01:08:19,562 --> 01:08:20,964
and just go.
1193
01:08:21,064 --> 01:08:23,666
That nose to the grindstone
work mentality,
1194
01:08:23,766 --> 01:08:25,034
but that's not where
I want to be.
1195
01:08:25,134 --> 01:08:26,336
That's not who I want to be.
1196
01:08:26,436 --> 01:08:29,072
That's not where
I want to live anymore.
1197
01:08:43,019 --> 01:08:44,253
♪ ♪
1198
01:08:50,360 --> 01:08:56,699
♪ ♪
1199
01:08:59,135 --> 01:09:00,870
♪ ♪
1200
01:09:00,970 --> 01:09:03,006
- I want to be able
to smile and laugh
1201
01:09:03,106 --> 01:09:06,242
and authentically just be me,
1202
01:09:06,342 --> 01:09:08,911
and if that's how I'm feeling,
I need to step back
1203
01:09:09,012 --> 01:09:13,850
and relax and refresh
and recharge basically
1204
01:09:13,950 --> 01:09:15,918
and just enjoy life more
1205
01:09:16,019 --> 01:09:18,054
and not working quite so hard.
1206
01:09:18,154 --> 01:09:19,989
That really
has come to the forefront
1207
01:09:20,089 --> 01:09:23,192
during this experience,
and what's the point of life
1208
01:09:23,292 --> 01:09:24,694
if we're not enjoying it?
1209
01:09:24,794 --> 01:09:26,796
♪ ♪
1209
01:09:27,305 --> 01:10:27,179
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