All language subtitles for Planet.Sex.With.Cara.Delevingne.S01E02.1080p.WEBRip.x265-RARBG

My name is Cara.
Do I have to say my whole name?

No. Be ridiculous.

Model, check. Activist/actor, check.

Privileged western white woman,
check, check, check.

That's a lot of labels.

But sexual identity...
well, like loads of us,

I'm still working all that out.

I date men, but, oh, do I love women
and everyone in between.

I was born female,
but often feel like a guy.

-Wow.
-Wow.

My sex life, my gender...

I'm just living off
this queer energy.

...my relationships.

A pussy sandwich.

All a bit of a hot mess.

This is the first time I've spoken
like this ever in my life.

So sexy queer-tastic people
of the world...

-My vagina.
-That's your vagina!

...I'm coming to get ya.

-And I want answers.
-Very quickly.

Like, how many sexual identities
are there?

Yay!

Is monogamy dead?

He's definitely not faithful.
Look at that guy.

What makes us hot... or not?

Stunning!

And how can we pleasure seekers
get our hands on more orgasms?

Start masturbating now.

The most important thing about life
is connections with other humans.

Is that not the point
of being alive?

A land of clits.

We don't talk enough
about how we can help each other.

Most people won't have ever had
these conversations.

So let's talk about it.

Oh, hello!

Yes, just casually judging
a queer twerking competition.

In the absolute
effing hottest place on Earth

and having a jolly good time,
thank you very much.

Nice crowd.
Loving the crowd's vibe today!

Why am I here?

Well, there's so much
to know about the world of sex,

but I want to start
with sexual orientation.

We love lesbians!

Where does it come from?
Is it fixed or fluid?

I want to meet people
who live openly and authentically,

to unlearn the shame
I've struggled with for years

and accept my identity.

Hold on, it's going to be
a bumpy queer ride folks.

We're just gonna talk
about being gay.

Go gay. Queers here.

-Cara Dele-queer.
-Yes.

Serious.

How would I define
my sexual identity?

I'm a Q for sure, I don't know.

I always have kind of believed
in the no labels thing,

but have spent
a lot of time then saying,

"I'm bisexual. I'm pansexual."

I am queer.

I'm a hundred percent can tell you
that I'm queer.

I just don't know
what else I can say other than that.

What do you think you'll discover

in this amazing journey we are on
about your sexualities?

Even though I've been queer,

I haven't really been able
to live a queer life.

You know, the internalised shame
or the kind of homophobia

is slightly there still.

When you are in this job
or when you are famous,

or something,
it stunts a lot of things,

and, like, I didn't really develop
my queerness.

So I think
I'm just coming to it all very late.

Does that make sense? Cool.

I don't know where I expected
this journey to begin,

but it wasn't slap bang
in the middle of the desert.

What do I know about Palm Springs?

It's hot. It's a desert.

This is a place
where old people go to die.

Joking. That's a joke.

It's hot. It's so hot.
Why do people come here?

It's so hot!

Well, apparently, if you're LGBTQ+,
this is the place for us.

Once a desert hangout
for the 1960's Hollywood Rat Pack,

Palm Springs is now one
of the queerest towns in America

and was the first
to have an all LGBTQ+ council.

So it's a good place
to dip my toe in the water,

at the mother
of all queer women events.

-I'm checking in, please.
-Yeah, of course.

Delevingne. D-E-L-E... V-I-N-G-N-E.

It's hard to spell.

Yes, it's true.

I've still never been
to Pride or anything like that,

so this will be
my very first proper queer day out.

Sheesh.

So, do you come here often?

So scared. Scared.

-Where are you going?
-Where am I going?

-Am I meant to go this way?
-I'm a Cancer.

-I like long walks on the beach.
-So do I.

Okay, deep breath.

You guys are,
like, the least subtle posse ever.

Like this is not it. Yeah.

I don't really know what to expect.

Go round. A board.

But how intense could it be?

Are we gonna go in, though?

This is the Dinah Shore Weekend,

the biggest lesbian pool party
in the world.

15,000 women,
trans and non-binary folk

out here in the desert.

You're coming in and you just see

an ocean of women and titties
and glitter and pasties.

A lot of dancing, a lot of twerking,

a lot of making out,
a lot of happy times.

Different body types.
Different ethnicities. I love it.

It's like Disneyland for lesbians.

It's clear I won't survive
unless I find friends ASAP.

Luckily, I got me some neighbours,
Kimber and Lilly, to hold my hand.

-All right, Dinah on three.
-One, two, three! Dinah!

Oh, my God.

That was the gayest thing
I've ever done.

Really? I don't believe you.

-Let's go!
-Welcome to Dinah Shore.

Soak it in.

And then a twerking contest.

Yeah!

Nice crowd.
Loving the crowd's vibe today!

Look, the whole thing
was face-meltingly loud,

so you'll have to read the next bit.

-This makes me emotional so much.
-Why?

I have never been
to anything like this.

Just here's, like, hot
and amazing and fun.

And, like, just like...

There's nothing hotter
than people living their best life.

But being here with this gorgeous,

colourful smorgasbord
of queer people

has been intense.

What just happened?
What didn't happen?

I don't know, I think...
I guess... I.. I don't know.

I'm out and I'm proud,
you know, to a certain extent.

But in my own life,
I didn't really find a community.

I didn't really speak, like,
experience these sort of things.

I did it in the public eye,
which again allowed myself to be...

pointed fingers at,

or feel more of the hate
than I guess the love.

So it's a lot.
It's just a beautiful place.

Obviously, when you look
at the footage,

it's arses and everyone dancing
and having the best time,

but for me it feels
so much more than that,

'cause it's just so much love
and that, you know.

Oh, God, this is the journey.

This is the discovery of...
I don't know, yeah.

Like, I feel... This is...
Like, I'm feeling things.

I don't usually do that.

I didn't realise until now
how reassuring it is

to be with people
who share the same feelings as me.

I've been living in my own world,

when there's this whole big
LGBTQ+ wonderland out there.

In today's queer kaleidoscope,

there are a lot of ways
to define yourself.

Bears have a flag. I love that.

And dozens of different types
of sexual orientation.

So chic, darling.

Don't know the difference
between your As and bis and pans?

Don't worry, I'll call a doctor.

Dr Ronx is an ER medic,
queer activist and educator.

They'll help me
straighten it all out.

Well, not straight-straighten.
Look, you know what I mean.

I love your trainers, babe.

Just to be clear,
gender is how you feel inside.

Sexual orientation,
that's who you fancy... or not.

Okay, let's go!

"Lesbian."

A lesbian is a woman
who is attracted to another woman.

-"Gay."
-A term men use

to say that they are attracted
to other men.

It's also an umbrella term

for anybody
that is not heterosexual.

-"Bisexual."
-Bisexual people

-fancy men and women.
-"Pansexual."

People who are attracted
to other people,

regardless of their gender identity.

-"Asexual."
-People

who are not sexually attracted

-to other individuals.
-"Queer."

Everybody under the LGBTQI umbrella,

but not everybody
identifies as queer.

We've evolved and so has our flag,

from a simple rainbow
to a cornucopia of colours.

Now called the Progress Flag.

It symbolises where as a society
we aim to progress to,

encompassing the whole spectrum
of sexual and gender identities.

I love that there's
so many more types of sexuality

being recognised than ever before,

and more openly queer people
on the planet.

36% of Gen Z say they feel
some level of same sex attraction,

twice as many
as their grandparents' generation.

What's driving this big queer leap?

I think it's because
so many more of us

are unlearning the shame
and standing up to be counted.

Here's what I love about Tokyo.

A busy modern city
and yet bang in the middle of it,

ancient traditional scenes
like this.

And this the ceremony hall.

Kodo Nishimura is the master
of this Buddhist temple.

-It's like a wedding ceremony.
-I know, look.

I feel like we could be married.

We have shared beliefs.

He grew up
right here in this temple.

But even as a child, Kodo
felt different from the other kids.

I noticed that I shouldn't talk
about my interest in boys publicly,

and I felt like a perverted person.

I was constantly feeling

like there was a huge black cloud
above my head.

Back then, gay people
couldn't live as openly in Japan.

Kodo needed to find a place
that accepted who he was.

Moving to the US
was such a liberation for me.

I was learning about the history
of LGBTQ community,

how people in the past
have vote for our rights.

So if I can bring that to Japan,
I felt that would be cool.

Kodo returned to Tokyo in 2013
to champion gay rights,

and discovered to his surprise
the old family business of Buddhism

had been ready
to welcome him in all along.

What I later found out,
Buddhism is very embracing.

It says the mercy of Buddha
is just like the moonlight.

Anybody who looks up to the moon
can appreciate the beauty.

We can prioritise our uniquenesses
and shine in our own colour.

-Here you go.
-Oh, my gosh!

-Wonderful style of shirts.
-Do you want to open these too?

Oh, my gosh,
she loves the jewellery!

I think the courage to speak up

is actually cooler
than pretending to be perfect.

-Yes, I completely agree with you.
-So... Yeah.

-So...
-High five to that.

So, now I'm gonna transform and...

Transform away. I will leave you.
I will love you and leave you.

Okay, cool.

Today Kodo is a celebrity
in his homeland

and not just as a Buddhist monk,

but something totally extra.

For his powers of glam
as a makeup artist.

I can approach people's hearts
with Buddhist teachings,

and I can also approach
their outer attributes using makeup.

They both help people
to gain confidence or balance.

Yes, gorgina.

-Oh, my God, you look amazing.
-Thank you.

One foot in fashion
and one foot in ancient tradition.

And, for Kodo, it works.

What would you like for the future
and for the future of Japan?

If I can inspire
leaders of the world,

also religious leaders,
to lift laws against LGBTQ people,

that would be wonderful,
because we have to be safe to be us.

And we're not going anywhere.

Society grows naturally like a tree.

So if you just keep watering,
it's gonna grow, and I have hope

that all communities
can learn diversity

and celebrate its beauty.

What an incredibly strong
but also wise person he is.

No matter how much
the traditional side

has probably stopped him
from wanting to be the certain way,

his heart and his light
shone through.

And I really...
I've just learnt a lot from him.

It made me very emotional.
It made me just so proud.

Being happy in yourself
within yourself

gives you the resources
to be able to help other people,

and that's what is most important
in the world.

There are just little glimpses
into people

who are really brilliant
and radical and rebels,

and it's a beautiful thing.

Radicals and rebels
made same sex relationships legal

in my home country 50 years ago.

But growing up, the messaging
from the people around me

could still be heard loud and clear.

I couldn't talk to anyone about it,
and I definitely had

a lot of, like, internalised
homophobia and shame.

I thought that I was, like, abnormal
and I... that I wasn't right.

Everyone else
was right and I was wrong,

'cause I wasn't like everyone else.

I thought about ending my life.
Like, I had, like, multiple times.

And, like, I'm so glad I didn't

because if I can help any other kid,
that means the world to me,

that means the world
to that little queer kid

that I was or am.

The thing is, I've always wondered

why I feel so much shame
about my sexuality.

Because, honestly, people,
this stuff is not new.

Since humans have walked the Earth,
there have been queer folk.

From famous gays like Ancient Greek
Alexander the Great

to Aztec god
of homosexuality, Xōchipilli.

Through plenty of British kings,
who are apparently queens.

Two Williams, two Richards,
an Edward, a James,

and, of course, Queen Anne.

Same sex attraction has been around

for a long time
and in a lot of places.

So what shapes
our sexual orientation?

Is it nature or is it nurture?

Is it something that happened to me
growing up, or was I born this way?

Well, there are
plenty of ideas flying around,

but one person who studies this area
is Dr Gerulf Rieger.

He believes
answers lie in our biology.

Think about it like this.
The majority of us are straight.

We need our sexual orientation

to create babies
and continue to thrive as a species.

So the idea
that the social environment

has such profound influences
on something so important to us

just doesn't make any sense.

Everything from overbearing mothers,
boarding schools,

being in the Navy
and having older sisters

has been blamed
for turning people gay.

But if society really makes you gay,
wouldn't there be a load more of us?

Gerulf thinks our sexual orientation
is set much earlier,

before we're even born, in fact.

-Hello. How's everybody doing today?
-Good, thank you.

Let's get one thing straight.

There's no one factor
that makes us gay,

just a big biological
cocktail of bits

that shape whether you swing
this way, that way, or another way.

First up, there are
numerous genes involved.

Recently we've had complex work done
on the human genome

that suggests
that there are several genes

that could influence
a homosexual orientation.

There's not just one.

Hormones matter too.

Our number one educated guess is,

it's the level of testosterone
that we're exposed to or react to

as an unborn child.

Let's say a baby girl
that was exposed

to unusually high levels
of testosterone

is more likely to become homosexual.

Okay, and do you want
to know the baby's gender?

-Yes, please.
-Okay.

-Well, it's definitely a girl.
-Perfect.

Then it gets even weirder.

Another theory
is mothers produce antibodies

in response to male babies.

Maybe we should call them
"mantibodies."

When the mother is pregnant
for the first time with a son,

she actually gets exposed
to male typical proteins,

which is something
that her own body isn't used to.

These antibodies
stay in the mother's system.

Then they can affect
the development of the second son

and could therefore disrupt

the regular development
of his sexual orientation.

This suggests the greater number
of older brothers you have,

the more likely you are to be gay,

only by a few percent,

but it's still a vital clue
in this big queer puzzle.

So what does this all add up to?

Well, with so many factors
involved in our sexual orientation,

it's no wonder
there's so much diversity

and so many shades of gay.

When it comes to the question
of how innate

is somebody's sexual orientation,

my educated guess
is probably a hundred percent.

It's something that really comes
from within the person.

What exactly are the ingredients,
that's the million dollar question.

You're born this way.
I'm born this way.

So you can pack that judginess away,
thank you very much.

It's not a choice,
which is a relief, to be honest.

And it's nothing me,
other queer folk

or our parents did wrong.

All right, okay, but next question.

Is our sexuality fixed from birth,

or is it something that evolves
and changes throughout life?

I still am of the belief

that sexuality
is definitely a spectrum,

and I feel like mine wavers.

But also I'm probably definitely
more on the side of women.

But I like having sex with men.
I just don't date them.

I might, though. You never know.

But, again, I think it's a beautiful

unwavering wavering beautiful boo.

But if biologically speaking
there are so many shades of gay,

how do I know for sure
which one I am?

And what about
my fluctuating sexual fluidity?

Is it my mind choosing
who I want to have sex with

or who my body reacts to?

Sexologist Dr Marieke Dewitte

is an expert
on what turns us on. Meow.

-Are you Flemish? I'm Flemish.
-I'm Flemish.

-Fellow Flem.
-Yeah.

So I signed up to her sex lab
to watch a lot of porn,

all in the name of science.

Who wouldn't be excited by watching
a whole lot of porn today?

Come in and welcome to our sex lab.

As you can see, we try to create
kind of a living room effect,

a little bit more cosy.

So, we are going to present
several video clips.

You know what I thought about?
My parents watching this.

Well, maybe you should have thought
about that before.

Try to ignore it. The main thing

is actually what you need to do,
is just sit, relax

and try not to touch yourself
and sit still.

Try not to? I can contain myself.

Try not to touch yourself
and just watch the screen, yeah?

-Okay, perfect.
-Have fun, Cara.

-I will. I will try. Fuck.
-Yeah, definitely.

I'm sorry, this is what?
And it goes where?

When you get sexually aroused,

more blood is being pumped
into your vagina,

and, therefore, the colour
of your vagina wall changes.

And this device

measures the amount of blood
in your vagina cavity.

-Can I ask a question?
-Sure.

Can you read my mind
through my vagina?

-No.
-It's going in now.

Right. Jesus!

-Can you guys see that it's in?
-I can see your signal.

Oh, my God! My signal?
What the fuck is happening?

I can see your vagina pulse, yes.

Great. I love that for us.

Okay, try not to think
about my parents

or about the camera
12 inches from my face.

My frankly ridiculous task
is to watch different kinds of porn,

while Marieke's vag monitor
records how aroused I am down below,

and I yank a lever

to rate how turned on I feel
up above in my mind.

Okay, fire it up.
First, two guys shagging each other.

Like, I can feel my breath
shortening or whatever crap.

We can see
there's something happening.

Then lesbian sex.

Yeah, okay.

My body feels
that shivering feeling again.

Great. Weird. This is strange.

Just had a real big influx
of horniness

and then a real big influx of shame.

How bad is that still? Why?

Straight sex.

He's not very good at this.

There's men masturbating.

I'm less horny than I thought I was.

Oh, Lord.

Women masturbating.

That just seems uncomfortable.
So fake nails, bro.

You're gonna say something
different, aren't you, vagina?

Then a surprise little bonus clip
of some hairy monkey sex.

Okay, this is properly weird now.

Oh, my God, what's it doing?

It's called oral sex.

This is wild. Literally.

An hour later, thank God,
that's it, I'm done.

I don't even know
how to feel anymore.

-So there she is. How was it?
-Do I look traumatised?

Not at all.
Did you find it traumatising?

No. Maybe.

But what the F does this all mean
when it comes to sexual orientation?

What did you see?

We could clearly see that your body

automatically reacted
to a sexual stimulus.

So the moment
there was something sexual,

you had this automatic
genital arousal response,

because your body, your brain,
recognises this as sexual,

you've learned this is sexual,
so you react.

So it sounds like my genitals

find everything,
human and animal, sexy.

But is this to be expected?

Your response actually matched

with what we saw
in previous research,

that the genital arousal response
of women

is rather non specific.

It kind of shows that for women
it's sexual activity that matters.

It says nothing about
your sexual orientation or identity.

'Cause matters of the genitals
are not matters of the heart.

So sometimes women
who don't identify as being lesbian,

they get turned on by the women,

and it's like,
"Oh, my God, is this...?"

They get confused.

But it's just this diversity of...

Yeah, women get aroused
by different stimuli.

Phew, so this isn't
some secret lust for monkeys.

It's a primal bodily response
to sexual stuff,

one shared by females.

But what was my mind saying
about all of this?

Your reactive sexual arousal
clearly differed

depending on the type of porn
you were watching.

And what we saw in your pattern,

it seems that, especially
the lesbian porn in specific,

really turned you on
in terms of reactive arousal.

Does it match
your sexual orientation?

-For sure.
-Do you feel attracted to women?

So generally I think women
are my preferred gender, I suppose.

How you feel, the mental component,

we see that in women,
it's more specific,

that what really turns you on

is kind of a little bit more tied
to what you also prefer.

My mind is much more in sync
with my own sexual orientation.

For males, though,
it's a different story.

Their bodies react only to the stuff
that turns on their minds.

Men actually only respond to stimuli
that match their sexual orientation,

but in women
there's much more fluidity

and erotic plasticity,
as we call it.

Women's sexuality
can change throughout life,

and they're much more diverse.

So both our bodies and minds

feed into this thing
we call sexual orientation.

And women are
more fluid and varied than men.

But, crucially,
none of it is a choice.

I think it's also asking yourself,
or thinking,

"However you're feeling
is not natural."

But it is natural
because it's happening.

That's always what I would think,
growing up with a lot of shame,

is thinking, "This isn't normal.
this isn't human."

-But it's, like, it is.
-Yeah. I mean...

Yeah, that's the sticky bit,
the shame.

The pressure from society
and the world around me growing up

doesn't have the slightest impact
on our innate sexual orientation,

but it sure does affect how you feel
about your sexual identity.

I wrestled with that today.

It did bring up little
silly feelings of self-identifying

and, like, guilt or shame,
and that kind of stuff.

And it kind of also made me
silence myself in that way

because I'm, like, so bored
of that kind of self-projection

and, like, self... battery.

The more I tried to deny the fact
that I was in any way homosexual,

the more I hated myself.

What you also try to deny

then kind of rears its head
even more.

The thing is, you could say
my sexuality is natural.

I can say,
"I'm born this way. Accept it."

But the truth is I can still feel
the stigma and the shame.

And I know there are
many people out there

who have grown up in far more
difficult circumstances than me.

I want to meet people who have lived

through societal shame
and rejection, and fought back

so I can understand
how to be more self-accepting.

Sound check.

My name is The Darvish,

and I am a Syrian
performance artist,

an event organiser,

community changer
and an LGBTQIA+ rights advocate.

And I consider myself
a force of nature.

-Hello.
-Hello, my love.

-My man, indeed.
-Hi, my love. Oh, my goodness.

-How are you, my man?
-Pleasure meeting you.

We're now entering the club.

We need to create some magic.

The Darvish is from Syria,

where same sex relationships
are still illegal.

-Whoo, honey.
-Honey.

We need a little bit of techno,
and that's it basically.

It's literally all you need.

I realised when I'm queer
probably in the age of 14.

Up and straight and you drop it.
One and two.

And then the journey started
of me immediately realising

that this is a taboo in the country
that I am in right now,

and that it is dangerous
for me to, you know, own it.

So, yeah, started living, um...

more carefully and cautiously,
but gracefully.

And, yella, yeah.
Use the hands, okay.

She's getting it. Okay.

When ISIS overtook parts of Syria,
The Darvish had to make a choice.

The war got really serious.

Persecutions and executions
and stuff like that.

That's where it really hit us
we cannot be visible at all.

The decision over me leaving Syria,
that was the hardest thing.

Choosing my life.

And...

Yeah.

One second.

I focused on imagining
how my life would be.

You don't have
to live a double life.

You don't have to pretend anymore.
You don't have to act.

You can be you. Free.

The Darvish has now been safe
in Berlin for six years.

Your mum, she understood,
though, you leaving, or not?

Well, she didn't want to.
She didn't want to understand.

It was very hard
for her, for me to leave,

but I think
I made my point very clear

that if I stay,
there is no future for me, you know?

-It got too dark.
-Yeah.

Right? I don't like it.

Oh, no. I thought you meant life.

I said, "Yes."

I disagree, honey.

I actually have
a little something for you.

This is for you.
This is a little dervish.

-Yeah, whirling dervish!
-Yes.

So, this is to say
that you mean a lot to the community

and we really appreciate you,

and thank you so much
for being with us tonight.

-Thank you so much.
-Thank you.

I am a whirling dervish.

-Perfect, I'm happy you like it.
-Oh, that's so cute!

Tonight The Darvish
will be performing

with their collective
called Queens Against Borders,

working for the Trans and Queer
Refugee Community.

Hello!

Okay. Thank you so much everyone

for being here with us
at this fundraiser.

We're very glad that you're here.

Welcome to the stage,
Dornika and her bad bitch Tram.

Yes.

Whoo!

I think finding and building
a community anywhere in the world,

whatever community it is,
is super vital.

The community that I have built

brought to me everything
that I could ever imagine,

which is me being me.

Yeah!

Please, put your hands together

for the gorgeous,
the stunning, the beautiful,

the one and only, The Darvish!

I never really had
any interest of politics,

but being the person I am
is a political statement by itself.

I am a walking... politician,
let's say.

I choose my dance and my passion
and my performances

to say something.

I am trying my best
to have the visibility here

in order later to mobilise it
there, in Syria.

I'm beginning to understand
what I've been missing

by not being more active
like The Darvish.

They've unlearned the shame
and surrounded themselves with love.

It's given me so much
to think about.

I don't really go to gay bars.
I don't really know...

I mean, I'm a shit gay person.

Also because I think
that comes from a deep line

of like not really wanting
to be gay that much.

But like I do, it's just
with every story there's been...

It's been plagued with some sort of,
some element of heartbreak,

but then some massive amount of joy,
you know.

And that's the magic
of queer people.

I mean, it's an amazing gift
and a curse in so many ways.

It's a double edged sword.

But that's
what I always leave feeling, is joy,

which is... that's the rainbow,
that's the community.

Today, across the world,

there are trailblazing countries
where marginalised LGBTQ+ folk

can find that community
and that joy.

And South Africa is a known haven
for queer refugees.

One of the first countries
to legalise same sex marriages,

and the only one in Africa.

There are LGBTQ+ church groups...

To find an LGBT ministry
within South Africa,

it just makes everything better.

...and queer festivals...

I actually love it because I can be
whoever that I feel like.

Well, I'm a homosexual, very gay,
over the top, extremely flamboyant.

Spaces like this
are definitely important

because I don't know,
I just feel so much more need.

We wanna get married
and just settle down

and just live a beautiful life.

And have furry babies,
'cause I don't want actual ones.

I mean, come on,
why wouldn't you want

to be a part
of this big old queer family

when it looks like so much fun?

Yet, it's no wonder
so many of us LGBTQ+ folks

still feel shamed,

given that even
in so-called liberal countries,

there are laws being tabled
against queer people.

Don't say "gay," right?

Which is why we need
events like Dinah Shore,

not just to party, but as a refuge.

I'm back with my new friends,
Kimber and Lilly.

I wish I could go back to myself,
back when I was younger,

and just kind of figuring out
my sexuality,

and I wish I could show myself
what my life is today.

I grew up in Tennessee,

in a very conservative family,
very religious,

and being gay was just,
like, absolutely not acceptable.

Here I am all these years later,

and I have an unbelievable
queer community around me.

It's just so important
to not feel alone,

and I feel like a lot
of queer people feel alone.

And you're not gonna feel
alone here.

Where we live,
there's not very many places...

-It's better now.
-They're starting to accept it,

but you still get a little bit
of a look here and there.

Like, do you walk down the street
holding hands?

Probably not.

It's amazing for me,

especially, like, I didn't come out
until later in life.

-So...
-I'm an old lesbian.

So, yeah, for me, like, it's, um...

It just feels like very less,
I don't know, stressful.

Like, I don't feel
like I need to hold back.

I'm just...
I'm pretty much me everywhere,

but here it's just a little extra.

-Like, just total.
-It's emotional.

Yeah.

Yeah.

She's having a good time.
That's all that matters. Sorry.

It's incredible to be free
just for a few hours.

It feels like a weight
has been lifted.

-Hey, Cara!
-Yes?

Welcome to Palm Springs!

Thank you!

Yeah!

We love lesbians!

I now have gay friends.

-What have you learnt?
-So, wait, I'm confused.

Okay, pass me back that.
I need it.

Okay, so what have I learnt
about myself?

I love being queer.

You know,
this, like, internalised homophobia

or this repressed,
you know, whatever, um...

Yeah, I don't know why I said that.
Being here, I don't know why.

It's something that I put on myself,
not generally to other people.

It's about myself.

But then this experience
has really...

I've felt like I've made friends
with that in myself.

I think that's what I've learnt,

which is a whole roundabout way
of saying, um...

I shouldn't be shameful, I suppose.

So I guess
that's my story over, right?

My own journey of self-acceptance
done and dusted

thanks to the amazing
queer people I've met

and the wet and wild world
of Dinah Shore.

Well, not quite.

The thing is LGBTQ+ festivals

are kind of a closed world,
a cosy safe refuge.

It's time to stop hiding

and do what I said at the start
that I've never done.

It's time to go out there
and be visible in a city I love.

Yes, at last, I'm gonna go
to fricking Pride!

I want that outfit.
You look amazing.

Look at those models' faces.

The fame.

Do you mind if I interview you?

I'd love to interview you as well.

-I can do that.
-Okay, good.

I've never been to Pride before,
so this is my first Pride.

I've been out for a while, but yeah.

-Happy Pride.
-Happy Pride!

Tell me a bit about your experience
as drag queens.

How old you were when...?

-But we're still only 15.
-Yeah, exactly.

-Me too.
-I'm 12.

-I'm 12.
-No, you aren't.

When did you come out?

26, 27. Don't ask me how old I am.

I wouldn't ask a lady that.
Yeah, I know.

-The last ten years, changing a lot.
-It's changing a lot.

But now marriage, family, kids.
It's wonderful.

Yeah. It's possible.

It's always that one month of Pride
or Pride Week or Pride,

but I think we need
to be proud every day.

-But thank you so much.
-And thanks for spreading the word.

It's a really big deal.

It's a duty, I feel.
I haven't done it until now.

-Happy Pride!
-Happy Pride!

It's emotional for me a little bit,

'cause I think when you're queer

and you spend so much time
being quiet and being silenced,

Pride allows a space for people
to come and feel safe.

The rainbow's a perfect example
of showing their true colours,

showing who they really are,
being able to be loud.

Oh, my God!

Pride has now been running
for more than 50 years.

Since the first one
in New York in 1970,

there are dozens of Pride events
around the world every year.

Here, the weather might be gloomy,
but there are rainbows galore,

and I've just seen a familiar face.

-Hello, again!
-Hi! Oh, my gosh!

-Sorry. How are you?
-Hi.

This is amazing, yeah.

Yesterday I saw
two men holding hands

for the first time
in my life, and...

Anybody who sees them
will be like, "Oh, this is..."

-This is normal. Not weird.
-Yeah.

What Pride has taught me is,
in so many places in the world,

you can find LGBTQ+ community.

Many of us have been
on similar journeys.

Some individuals
can make a difference.

I've met them,
and they've inspired me

to say goodbye to that shame
once and for all.

I feel so much more comfortable,
and I feel very proud.

I mean,
not just because it was Pride.

It's not like it's changed me.

It's not like I've discovered
new elements of myself.

It's just me being able
to be myself in these situations.

It's just been a real revelation.

I just want to keep being
in this Planet Sex mode.

Meeting people
from around the world,

connecting,
listening to people's stories,

trying to imagine their situation,
trying to understand,

and through that,
understand more about myself,

and hopefully ignite
or inspire others

to have similar conversations.

I've just never done
anything so personal.

It makes me realise what's important

and how much more active
I want to be

in terms of trying to make
some sort of small difference.

Any difference
is still better than nothing.

Okay. No, I'm sad. Is it over?

It's never over. Pride's never over.
Here's to coming out.

It's a really beautiful experience,
and I'm so thankful for it.

Don't, I'll get fucking emotional.
I hate emotions.

What do you want? Just say can't.

Yes.

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