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IT IS NOT THE HOMOSEXUAL WHO IS PERVERSE,
BUT THE SOCIETY IN WHICH HE LIVES
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A film by Rosa von Praunheim
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Are you from Berlin?
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No, it's my first time in Berlin.
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Do you like it here?
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It's too early to say.
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Do you already have a room?
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- I'm staying at a hotel.
- Hotels aren't comfortable in the long run.
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When I travel, I prefer
to stay with friends.
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And when they come to Berlin,
they stay at my place.
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I have a small apartment,
not far from here.
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Is it hard to find
an apartment around here?
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I guess it's always hard
if you don't know your way around.
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But I was lucky...
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Not like with other things.
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The truth is, I'm very lonely.
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I could walk forever,
just talking to you.
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Being on your feet all day,
you must be pretty tired by now.
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I don't live far from here.
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We could have a cup of coffee.
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You have such beautiful hands...
such soft skin...
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At first I didn't have
the courage to talk to you.
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But when you looked
deep into my eyes,
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so gently and tenderly,
you encouraged me.
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I'm so glad you came along.
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It's so nice to hold you in my arms.
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I'm often alone and lonely.
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You can't imagine how much
I long for a true friend.
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But it's hard to find someone... sincere.
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I like you, my boy.
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I'm so glad we've met.
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You seem so natural and honest.
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That's rare.
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Most guys are callous and phony.
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Speaking of love while already
thinking about the next guy.
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I've been let down many times,
believe me...
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But I never stopped looking
for a true friend.
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Gays don't want to be gay.
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They don't want to be different.
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They want to live as kitschy
and bourgeois as the average citizen.
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They long for a home
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where they can live
with an honest and faithful friend
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in a cohabiting relationship.
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The ideal partner has to be clean,
honest, and natural.
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A pure, lively boy.
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Kind and playful... like a German shepard.
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Gays demand each other to be aesthetes,
to care about their appearance.
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It makes them proud
and distinguishes them from the rest.
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Condemned as sick and inferior
by the bourgeoisie,
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they try to be
even more like them,
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in order to wear away
their feeling of guilt
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with an excessive amount
of middle-class virtues.
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They're politically passive
and conservative,
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in gratitude for not being
beaten to death.
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It's not the homosexual who is perverse,
but the situation in which he lives.
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Gays are ashamed of their nature.
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For centuries, christian upbringing
has taught them they're nothing but pigs.
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Hence, they escape this dreadful reality
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into a romantic world of kitsch and ideals.
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They have glossy dreams
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about someone who'll help them
escape their daily hardships
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into a world of love and romance.
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A homosexual relationship,
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as much as both partners want it,
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is doomed to fail.
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They hide like criminals,
forced to start their relationships
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by having sex without foreplay.
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Pure sex ignores the partner's
individual needs.
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It merely serves as an object
of one's own lust.
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With a bit of luck,
this condition is mutual.
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But it's not enough to establish a satisfying
relationship between two people.
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Clemens desires Daniel
and his boyish body,
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which, in Clemens' eyes,
pleasantly differs through it's firmness
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from the soft curves of a woman.
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As long as he can remember,
he's always been attracted to men.
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He loves Daniel's boyish, shy behavior
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and his unspoilt nature.
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Daniel struggles with a feeling of sin,
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which, caused by his strict upbringing,
lies heavily upon him.
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He won't dare to look at Clemens...
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because he likes him a lot...
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which confuses him...
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and he doesn't even know why.
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Clemens's love for Daniel,
and the satisfaction of his touch,
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give him a feeling of purity...
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the beauty and purity
of a man-on-man relationship.
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To prove it, he'd love
to throw open the windows
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and show the whole world
how beautiful
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love between two men can be.
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I'm so happy, Daniel.
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Me too.
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I don't want to let you go.
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Do you think we'll stay together?
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All of this is new,
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and I didn't know
it would mean that much to me
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to sleep with a man.
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Is this really your first time?
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No, it's not, but until now
I couldn't admit to myself
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that I was really interested.
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For the first time I'm truly happy.
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Are you sure?
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Tomorrow you might change your mind.
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With Daniel, a new life began.
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He was the only one who ever
really felt something for me.
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I'll always love him for that.
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Our love was all we cared about.
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Whatever happened around us
lost it's meaning.
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I finally realized
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how dreary and gray
my life had been.
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I never really knew what love was.
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I kept on living without a purpose.
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The power of his love
tied me stronger to him.
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I didn't want to be without him.
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Every hour spent alone
seemed like some kind of punishment.
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I was tormented by feverish desire.
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Our embraces afterwards felt intoxicating.
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We spent most of our evenings at home,
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watching TV to further our education.
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Both of us did the housekeeping,
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and time just flew by.
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On weekends, I spent hours
in the Cafe where Daniel used to work.
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On our days off,
when the weather was nice,
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we went to the countryside,
dreaming the day away.
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Or we just drove aimlessly
through the city.
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When it rained,
we wrote letters, or read.
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"Dear Mother,
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"this is my 4th month in Berlin.
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"Time just flew by.
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"Working at the Cafe is fun.
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"I've rented a room
at a friend's apartment.
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"We get along just fine.
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"He has shown me around the city.
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"Especially the surrounding areas
with their many lakes
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"and forests amaze me."
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Gays attempt to simulate
a middle-class marriage.
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Instead of hating those
responsible for their misfortune,
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they wish for a lifelong relationship
granted by church and state.
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A middle-class marriage is based
on the upbringing of children
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and the oppression of the wife.
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Gay marriage can't be anything
but a ridiculous imitation,
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as the lack of mutual duties
is being replaced
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by a romantic and unrealistic love.
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That romantic and idolizing love
is nothing but self-love.
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Most gays don't realize
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that the love they feel
is in fact self-love.
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The partner is seen as an idol
of one's own hopes and longings.
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They're neither trying to understand
nor pay attention to them.
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They even burden their partner
with their own problems.
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Gay marriage fails due to the rivalry
of two conceited men,
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who were raised not to follow
their interests together,
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but as competitors.
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The lack of mutual duties,
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and the inability to get along,
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due to being self-centered,
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will soon lead to the tragic end
of a romantic friendship.
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What remains is loneliness
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and a vast void,
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that will soon be cluttered
with new imaginary and vain dreams.
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Four months have passed
since I came to Berlin.
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I've decided to leave Clemens.
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I know it's a big mistake,
as I still love him like on the first day.
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We often act contrary to our feelings,
despite regretting it deeply afterwards.
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In the small Cafe
where Daniel used to work,
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he was approached by a wealthy man,
whom he soon trusted.
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He was fascinated by his
knowledge and sophistication.
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The spruceness and neatness
for which he'd learned to cherish Clemens
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and which he, without admitting it,
found stifling,
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laid the foundation for an unforeseen
world of art and culture.
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Overwhelmed by a feeling
of something big and important,
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he agreed to join his benefactor
on a longer trip,
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and afterwards moved into his villa.
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The so-called "Pedagogical Eros",
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with which older gays justify
sleeping with young men,
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simply means an authoritative
relationship of dependancy
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between a smart ass
and a helpless, silly boy.
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Education and art,
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once dead serious
leisure activities of the rich,
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are being gratefully received by gays
as a getaway from their problems.
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The popular belief that gays
are artistically more gifted than others
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is, in fact, an old wives' tale.
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They only engage so much in art,
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because they believe it makes
their life more endurable.
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To them, art is shallow and ineffective,
just like when Heydrich played the piano.
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As long as education and art
are means of the rich and powerful
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to belie human and economical issues,
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they must be radically rejected.
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And as long as gays
think they're special,
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while they imitate the rich,
they must be rejected as well.
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Upholding the oppression of homosexuals
is especially crucial to rich gays.
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They welcome the helplesness
of the oppressed,
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because it makes it easier
to lure them into their beds.
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Do you know, do you know
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where the lemon blossom grows
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In dark foliage
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the golden orange glows
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A gentle breeze
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blows from the azure sky
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Still stands the myrtle
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and the laurel, high?
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A gentle breeze
blows from the azure sky
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Still stands the myrtle,
and the laurel, high?
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Do you know, do you know
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Do you know it well?
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Do you know it well?
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There, there
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Would I go with you,
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oh my beloved
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There, there would I go with you
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There,
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there...
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For gays, culture is a way
to get to know each other.
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In a sultry atmosphere
of overemphasized formalities,
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they soon drop all pretense.
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Being let down their whole life,
many have become cold and cruel.
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All they see in their partner
is a sex object.
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Homosexuals have a more
ambitious urge for independence
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and success than others.
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They know that at an old age,
they won't be loved for who they are.
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The most important thing for gays
is the overemphasis
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of youth and physicality.
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Buying a young man
also means regaining a part
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of their own lost youth.
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On his fatherly lover's
first music night,
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he got to meet his acquaintances:
renowned actors and business men.
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He feels left alone and desperate.
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His friend seems to only have eyes
for that young, exotic singer.
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Once again, he's at the mercy
of the old men's comforting attempts.
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They flatter him, stroke his hair,
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and close a tight circle around him -
everybody wants him for themselves.
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He suddenly feels nauseous
like he needs to throw up.
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He knows he can't stay there,
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where his faith in all that's good
and beautiful has been betrayed.
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He leaves in disgust.
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Daniel has found a new job.
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He now works at an afternoon
meeting place for homosexuals.
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He's rented a cheap room
from a colleague,
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and, through work, makes friends
with people his own age.
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The other gays like him,
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because he knows how to adapt
to their customs.
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He becomes more secure and independent,
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and does not invest
all his feelings in flings.
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Everything's new, and he's happy
to be able to live almost freely
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among a group of like-minded people.
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Interesting conversations about film,
fashion, and grooming
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give inspiration for his leisure time,
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which he spends almost only with gays.
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Most homosexuals are business men
or have service jobs.
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They're afraid
of getting their nails dirty,
249
00:17:32,107 --> 00:17:34,687
and they also fear
their colleagues' aggressiveness.
250
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Gays have it twice as hard at work.
251
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On top of the usual shitty job
252
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comes the unnerving act of self-denial.
253
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They become "leisure-queers"
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who gladly escape the hypocrisy
at work into the gay world,
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where they may not be accepted
as human beings, but as gays.
256
00:17:59,739 --> 00:18:02,725
They meet for coffee and cake,
257
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listen to songs by Zarah Leander
and Marlene Dietrich,
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00:18:07,006 --> 00:18:13,131
and make trips to places
like Sylt and Torremolinos.
259
00:18:13,980 --> 00:18:20,502
The less they're capable of having
human relationships among their own,
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the more they're in need
of a substitute.
261
00:18:24,260 --> 00:18:27,031
Their longing for luck and fulfillment
262
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is being exploited by the industry
and deflected into material things.
263
00:18:33,513 --> 00:18:39,256
For the bourgeoisie, it's all about
home interior, TV sets, and cars.
264
00:18:39,721 --> 00:18:41,905
For gays, it's all about fashion.
265
00:18:42,025 --> 00:18:48,674
Just like a product's packaging
distracts from it's actual content,
266
00:18:48,942 --> 00:18:55,455
gays use fashion to draw attention
to their outer appearance.
267
00:18:55,716 --> 00:18:59,241
The lust to adorn one's body
268
00:18:59,438 --> 00:19:03,385
fits the enourmous vanity of gays,
269
00:19:03,595 --> 00:19:09,654
who will soon be unable
to love anyone but themselves.
270
00:19:10,023 --> 00:19:14,375
The light blue sweater
gays used to wear years ago,
271
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which distinctively differed
from dull men's fashion,
272
00:19:18,817 --> 00:19:23,309
has turned into exhibitionism
and fetishism.
273
00:19:23,741 --> 00:19:27,105
Fashion has to be like a second skin,
274
00:19:27,336 --> 00:19:30,855
indicating the size of the penis.
275
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Soon, gays won't be capable
of anything but...
276
00:19:36,196 --> 00:19:39,919
waiting like a high-class hooker
277
00:19:40,190 --> 00:19:45,525
for a rich man to take them away
into a world
278
00:19:45,883 --> 00:19:50,237
of sheer pleasure... and lust.
279
00:19:52,830 --> 00:19:56,942
Homosexuals have nothing in common
280
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but the strong wish
to sleep with a man.
281
00:20:04,637 --> 00:20:09,180
The increasing desire
for the naked male body
282
00:20:09,535 --> 00:20:12,795
makes them leave their families
and go to places
283
00:20:13,344 --> 00:20:15,645
where they can meet gays.
284
00:20:15,765 --> 00:20:20,078
In the company of other gays,
they can forget for a while
285
00:20:20,280 --> 00:20:24,102
that they're lepers
and outcasts of society.
286
00:20:24,888 --> 00:20:28,246
Nevertheless, they hate each other.
287
00:20:29,061 --> 00:20:33,566
The others are seen as a reflection
of one's own misfortune.
288
00:20:33,993 --> 00:20:35,411
Fear of sexuality,
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00:20:35,654 --> 00:20:39,080
feelings of guilt,
foisted upon them by society,
290
00:20:39,200 --> 00:20:41,721
and a strong feeling of competition
291
00:20:41,946 --> 00:20:46,364
make them secret enemies
among their own.
292
00:20:47,149 --> 00:20:51,422
In order to be able to communicate,
293
00:20:51,713 --> 00:20:54,873
they make up certain commonalities,
294
00:20:54,993 --> 00:20:57,358
which can only be phony.
295
00:20:57,798 --> 00:21:02,288
They develop superficial
rituals and shapes.
296
00:21:02,615 --> 00:21:08,527
Just like the bourgeoisie, they judge
each other by their appearance.
297
00:21:09,322 --> 00:21:14,683
In order to be accepted
by the gay community,
298
00:21:15,055 --> 00:21:18,276
young homosexuals
will soon have to trade
299
00:21:18,531 --> 00:21:22,913
their more personal interests
300
00:21:23,271 --> 00:21:28,376
for so-called
gay interests and ideals.
301
00:21:28,875 --> 00:21:33,857
Meeting points for homosexuals
are vanity fairs.
302
00:21:34,106 --> 00:21:40,440
They show themselves off,
hoping to be wooed by everyone else.
303
00:21:40,979 --> 00:21:45,976
Daniel, who lay dreaming on the
sun terrace at the Wannsee lake,
304
00:21:46,887 --> 00:21:48,648
noticed him right away.
305
00:21:49,571 --> 00:21:54,446
He admired his strong body...
and his butch appearance.
306
00:21:55,421 --> 00:21:59,396
But he wouldn't dare
to show his admiration.
307
00:22:00,590 --> 00:22:02,752
He slightly turned his head,
308
00:22:02,968 --> 00:22:06,975
as if to protect it
from the blinding sunbeams.
309
00:22:08,533 --> 00:22:13,622
Through his half-closed eyes
he gazed at those strong hands,
310
00:22:14,347 --> 00:22:18,798
that were slowly stripping down
a pair of tight fitting jeans...
311
00:22:19,321 --> 00:22:22,190
exposing a bulging pair of trunks.
312
00:22:23,068 --> 00:22:24,203
He desired him...
313
00:22:24,854 --> 00:22:30,230
and he wanted nothing more
than to satisfy his desire,
314
00:22:30,562 --> 00:22:33,702
but his pride prevented him
from making the first step.
315
00:22:34,530 --> 00:22:37,256
Until now, he was the one
that others would woo,
316
00:22:37,526 --> 00:22:41,159
and he could always pick those
317
00:22:41,457 --> 00:22:43,581
he wanted to give his affection to.
318
00:22:44,261 --> 00:22:48,616
He knew his effect on others,
and he was partly to blame for it.
319
00:22:49,737 --> 00:22:55,523
He enjoyed being the focus
of a pair of lustful eyes,
320
00:22:56,009 --> 00:22:58,482
but he was too shy to spare someone,
321
00:22:59,072 --> 00:23:01,226
who he might have been able to love,
322
00:23:01,892 --> 00:23:03,839
a longer glance.
323
00:23:05,459 --> 00:23:07,621
Wolfgang shared his views.
324
00:23:08,121 --> 00:23:11,201
It was the only time that a fling
325
00:23:11,749 --> 00:23:14,687
had become a tender relationship.
326
00:23:14,807 --> 00:23:16,486
They spent a lot of time together.
327
00:23:16,702 --> 00:23:21,272
They told each other about their
amorous escapades and discussed them.
328
00:23:21,625 --> 00:23:23,646
Wolfgang always offered good advice.
329
00:23:24,039 --> 00:23:25,781
He came from a good family,
330
00:23:25,901 --> 00:23:29,491
and Daniel adopted much
of his sophisticated lifestyle.
331
00:23:29,722 --> 00:23:32,283
He seemed to know what life was about.
332
00:23:32,551 --> 00:23:36,999
They often felt
like they were... truly happy.
333
00:23:38,973 --> 00:23:42,070
A gentle breeze
made the hot day more bearable.
334
00:23:42,912 --> 00:23:44,969
His skin hurt a little,
335
00:23:45,566 --> 00:23:48,774
but he knew that before summer ended,
336
00:23:49,197 --> 00:23:54,412
his troubles would be rewarded
with an even tan.
337
00:24:03,583 --> 00:24:07,373
Daniel, who's been living in Berlin
for more than two years now,
338
00:24:07,589 --> 00:24:13,566
is no longer content with meeting men
in classy cafes, boutiques, and lidos.
339
00:24:14,129 --> 00:24:18,230
He's fascinated
by the exotic world of gay bars.
340
00:24:18,851 --> 00:24:21,606
He gets excited every time
341
00:24:21,726 --> 00:24:24,864
he enters one of those bars
with their huge mirrors,
342
00:24:24,984 --> 00:24:28,670
the pink/red lighting,
and those sensuous rythms.
343
00:24:29,257 --> 00:24:32,482
He loves shoving himself
through a crowd of young men
344
00:24:32,712 --> 00:24:35,148
who gaze at him
in passive admiration.
345
00:24:35,887 --> 00:24:38,062
He needs this kind of self-affirmation
346
00:24:38,182 --> 00:24:40,183
to get over his loneliness,
347
00:24:40,468 --> 00:24:44,216
which, after many numbing nights,
starts growing inside of him.
348
00:24:44,467 --> 00:24:48,594
He's slowly granted access to a world
of unforeseen possibilities.
349
00:24:49,085 --> 00:24:52,532
He gets to meet people of all kinds
of nationalities and occupations.
350
00:24:52,783 --> 00:24:58,031
More often, he drifts into the night,
always astonished anew.
351
00:24:58,676 --> 00:25:03,304
He now has not just one,
but many favorite bars.
352
00:25:03,829 --> 00:25:08,123
An uneasiness is growing inside of him.
He becomes addicted...
353
00:25:08,353 --> 00:25:13,339
to the tantalizing adventures
of which no one knows...
354
00:25:14,039 --> 00:25:15,494
how they might end.
355
00:25:20,213 --> 00:25:25,795
Gays rarely have difficulties
connecting in big cities.
356
00:25:26,846 --> 00:25:30,771
It's easy for them to find men
they can sleep with,
357
00:25:31,452 --> 00:25:35,973
because they offer themselves
on every street corner like whores.
358
00:25:36,713 --> 00:25:39,517
Out of fear of old age,
359
00:25:39,874 --> 00:25:45,791
they believe they must live
their youth to the fullest.
360
00:25:46,724 --> 00:25:52,473
They become moody,
hectic, and more compulsive.
361
00:25:53,444 --> 00:25:56,724
Gays are rarely happy.
362
00:25:58,382 --> 00:26:03,404
They've taken all sexual freedoms
363
00:26:03,935 --> 00:26:06,976
of which the bourgeoisie can only dream.
364
00:26:07,901 --> 00:26:10,359
But they're incapable
365
00:26:10,919 --> 00:26:16,418
of truly enjoying those freedoms.
366
00:26:17,303 --> 00:26:20,870
Like any other kid,
367
00:26:21,383 --> 00:26:26,142
gays were brought up
to live by rules and regulations.
368
00:26:26,657 --> 00:26:33,624
Those rules and duties will also apply
in a marriage between man and woman.
369
00:26:35,032 --> 00:26:39,031
Gays, however, could take
advantage of their freedom,
370
00:26:39,317 --> 00:26:43,099
on their own responsibility.
371
00:26:43,368 --> 00:26:47,920
They could live with someone
for as long
372
00:26:48,242 --> 00:26:50,282
as they can enjoy it.
373
00:26:50,644 --> 00:26:53,925
For gays, freedom isn't about
374
00:26:54,497 --> 00:26:59,101
taking responsibility, but about chaos.
375
00:27:00,164 --> 00:27:04,017
They get stuck at an infantile level.
376
00:27:04,745 --> 00:27:06,395
They're constantly horny,
377
00:27:06,815 --> 00:27:10,303
choosing a cheap fling
378
00:27:10,641 --> 00:27:14,613
over a perhaps
more valuable relationship.
379
00:27:15,406 --> 00:27:17,943
Gays have trouble
380
00:27:18,552 --> 00:27:21,064
engaging in a long-term relationship.
381
00:27:21,702 --> 00:27:24,779
Full of vanity and remorse
382
00:27:25,173 --> 00:27:29,813
they exchange glances,
always looking for true happiness.
383
00:27:30,679 --> 00:27:35,229
They have an ideal image of a man
384
00:27:35,926 --> 00:27:37,378
who doesn't exist.
385
00:27:38,232 --> 00:27:43,600
Two thousand sexual partners
in the life of a gay man
386
00:27:43,829 --> 00:27:46,523
are often just surrogates
for the one...
387
00:27:47,105 --> 00:27:51,784
they long for, deep in their hearts.
388
00:27:52,354 --> 00:27:55,971
Each time they are being
dissappointed anew,
389
00:27:56,244 --> 00:28:01,604
and often all that remains
is a feeling of disgust.
390
00:28:02,213 --> 00:28:08,213
Most gays resemble the type
of 'nice guy from a good family',
391
00:28:08,510 --> 00:28:12,540
who places great value
on a masculine appearance.
392
00:28:13,183 --> 00:28:15,700
They lead a double life,
393
00:28:15,949 --> 00:28:19,625
afraid of being outed as homosexuals.
394
00:28:20,013 --> 00:28:23,382
Their greatest enemy
is the flamboyant "fairy".
395
00:28:23,618 --> 00:28:26,481
Fairies are effeminate homosexuals
396
00:28:26,601 --> 00:28:31,037
who attempt to act
like hysterical women.
397
00:28:31,389 --> 00:28:33,938
They wear make-up
and are the worst nightmare
398
00:28:34,058 --> 00:28:37,046
of the bourgeoisie
and of closeted gays
399
00:28:37,166 --> 00:28:39,633
who could be exposed by them.
400
00:28:40,000 --> 00:28:43,730
Fairies are not as phony
as bourgeois gays.
401
00:28:44,164 --> 00:28:47,694
Gays are often conceited,
moody, and jealous.
402
00:28:48,018 --> 00:28:52,833
Fairies overdo their gay attributes
and ridicule them.
403
00:28:53,253 --> 00:29:00,521
They question society's standards
and show what it means to be gay.
404
00:29:42,924 --> 00:29:46,145
Being gay is all Daniel cares about now.
405
00:29:46,531 --> 00:29:48,740
It has become an addiction.
406
00:29:48,860 --> 00:29:53,518
He's looking for greater thrills
that can satisfy him much faster.
407
00:36:57,056 --> 00:37:00,509
The strangest among gays are,
408
00:37:00,745 --> 00:37:04,669
besides transvestites,
who dress like women
409
00:37:04,900 --> 00:37:10,823
and long for female genitals,
the leather men.
410
00:37:11,378 --> 00:37:16,543
Their masculinity is damaged the most.
411
00:37:17,116 --> 00:37:20,403
In order to compensate
for the loss of their manliness,
412
00:37:20,639 --> 00:37:24,507
they adorn themselves
with symbols of masculinity.
413
00:37:24,843 --> 00:37:32,530
Like closeted gays among Nazis,
in Western films, or in the army,
414
00:37:33,074 --> 00:37:35,705
leather men, too, are longing
415
00:37:36,004 --> 00:37:40,966
for a world of violence
conveyed through those symbols...
416
00:37:41,279 --> 00:37:45,577
...when, in fact, they're as innocent
as kids playing war games.
417
00:37:45,827 --> 00:37:49,749
Lust that can't be
experienced directly
418
00:37:49,966 --> 00:37:51,716
turns into perversion.
419
00:37:52,186 --> 00:37:58,119
Leather men only get satisfaction
through the use of auxiliary means.
420
00:37:58,371 --> 00:38:03,186
Leather is often being associated
with sadism and masochism...
421
00:38:03,553 --> 00:38:07,873
The need to punish and to be punished.
422
00:38:08,393 --> 00:38:11,153
Leather men expect to be punished,
423
00:38:11,564 --> 00:38:17,652
because they feel to have failed
both themselves and society.
424
00:38:18,199 --> 00:38:22,352
They're nice, polite people
who suffer from their weakness.
425
00:38:23,657 --> 00:38:26,758
Looking for new sexual adventures,
426
00:38:27,111 --> 00:38:30,193
Daniel dares to visit
the municipal park,
427
00:38:30,741 --> 00:38:33,998
where he's hoping to find
satisfaction more easily.
428
00:38:35,156 --> 00:38:38,952
The nightly ritual of cruising
in bars has made him tired.
429
00:38:39,298 --> 00:38:43,902
He found it too much of a hassle
to talk to someone
430
00:38:44,260 --> 00:38:47,624
and maybe even spend the night
with them just to have sex.
431
00:38:48,363 --> 00:38:51,876
The park's oppressive atmosphere
was even more captivating
432
00:38:52,305 --> 00:38:56,551
than the thought of having
new sexual experiences.
433
00:38:57,605 --> 00:39:02,551
Afraid of being interrupted,
434
00:39:03,210 --> 00:39:06,214
and with the unfulfilled
expectation of a touch,
435
00:39:07,279 --> 00:39:10,116
he passed the fascinating
choreography of men,
436
00:39:10,776 --> 00:39:13,003
who were timidly walking around
437
00:39:13,621 --> 00:39:16,557
without saying a single word.
438
00:39:18,022 --> 00:39:19,911
Then he leaves the park...
439
00:39:20,233 --> 00:39:24,863
disappointed to not have found
the dominating aggressiveness
440
00:39:25,133 --> 00:39:26,962
he was hoping for.
441
00:39:27,414 --> 00:39:31,543
He reckons it takes the knowledge
of secret signals and rituals
442
00:39:32,037 --> 00:39:36,276
which could open the door
to "perversion".
443
00:39:37,381 --> 00:39:40,869
Daniel knows there's no way back.
444
00:39:41,228 --> 00:39:43,660
He wants a man - tonight!
445
00:39:44,434 --> 00:39:47,317
He often went home, telling himself
446
00:39:47,543 --> 00:39:50,585
he could've had a lot of guys
if he'd wanted to.
447
00:39:50,878 --> 00:39:55,476
That feeling was more important
than if he'd actually slept with them.
448
00:39:55,836 --> 00:40:00,369
But now he won't
control himself any longer.
449
00:40:00,636 --> 00:40:05,591
He doesn't know what else to do.
Nothing matters anymore. It's as if...
450
00:40:06,186 --> 00:40:07,976
he were intoxicated.
451
00:40:08,382 --> 00:40:11,707
Public toilets are the most popular
meeting points for homosexuals.
452
00:40:11,979 --> 00:40:15,276
Gays who have trouble connecting,
453
00:40:15,645 --> 00:40:20,273
are forced to have their first
homosexual experience in a public toilet.
454
00:40:20,772 --> 00:40:24,792
Being punished
for their homosexuality by society,
455
00:40:25,020 --> 00:40:28,837
and left with a guilty conscience,
456
00:40:29,111 --> 00:40:34,789
many have reduced their homosexuality
strictly to sex.
457
00:40:35,316 --> 00:40:40,518
They stand side by side,
in constant fear of discovery,
458
00:40:40,805 --> 00:40:45,852
and if they finally pick someone up,
459
00:40:46,340 --> 00:40:49,454
they have to get off within seconds.
460
00:40:49,574 --> 00:40:53,406
A relationship directed only
towards a man's penis
461
00:40:53,684 --> 00:40:59,383
is for many gays the only kind
of love-making they know.
462
00:40:59,752 --> 00:41:05,501
They go from toilet to toilet,
constantly seeking satisfaction,
463
00:41:05,811 --> 00:41:09,654
which, if they're lucky,
can only be found compromised.
464
00:41:09,774 --> 00:41:14,092
Gays hold public toilets
in low esteem.
465
00:41:14,318 --> 00:41:18,243
They claim to despise "toilet queers",
466
00:41:18,363 --> 00:41:23,421
but secretly go there themselves
467
00:41:23,799 --> 00:41:28,162
if they didn't score
in one of their fancy bars.
468
00:41:28,612 --> 00:41:33,661
Here they appreciate the often
'masculine laborer' kind of guys
469
00:41:33,935 --> 00:41:37,108
who are not interested
in hiding their lust
470
00:41:37,430 --> 00:41:41,056
underneath fashion
and good manners.
471
00:41:41,613 --> 00:41:44,740
In our society, being a hustler
is much more convenient
472
00:41:45,017 --> 00:41:48,186
than working a dull, impersonal job.
473
00:41:48,481 --> 00:41:51,803
We don't make as much
as hookers, though.
474
00:41:52,499 --> 00:41:54,910
Most hustlers are runaways
from foster homes,
475
00:41:55,030 --> 00:41:57,042
who refuse a middle-class life
476
00:41:57,162 --> 00:41:59,938
with it's limited possibilities
in the first place.
477
00:42:00,185 --> 00:42:05,109
Like many rockers, who suppress
their homosexuality with brutality,
478
00:42:05,313 --> 00:42:07,584
most hustlers aren't gay at all.
479
00:42:08,057 --> 00:42:10,440
With gays, they can let off
480
00:42:10,788 --> 00:42:13,173
their rage against the authorities,
481
00:42:13,540 --> 00:42:15,810
which they hold responsible
for their fate.
482
00:42:16,394 --> 00:42:17,785
They hate gays,
483
00:42:17,905 --> 00:42:22,294
because in the eyes of our society,
gays are still worse than decent criminals.
484
00:42:22,603 --> 00:42:26,605
Extortion, mugging, and murder of gays
were daily fare
485
00:42:26,725 --> 00:42:32,023
when, thanks to "� 175", older gays
had to gratefully put up with all that.
486
00:42:32,143 --> 00:42:33,746
The law has been abolished,
487
00:42:33,929 --> 00:42:37,808
but not people's attitude
towards certain homosexuals
488
00:42:37,928 --> 00:42:40,890
who still live in constant fear
of being exposed.
489
00:42:41,166 --> 00:42:46,735
In line with society's
hatred of old age,
490
00:42:46,904 --> 00:42:51,499
growing old is the worst
that can happen to gays.
491
00:42:51,929 --> 00:42:56,103
Gays often die young,
492
00:42:56,693 --> 00:43:01,342
because all they do is worship
the young male body,
493
00:43:01,691 --> 00:43:04,947
while ignoring all human qualities.
494
00:43:05,302 --> 00:43:09,799
Quite often, they start aging
at around 30.
495
00:43:10,300 --> 00:43:13,485
Older gays who aren't wealthy
496
00:43:13,711 --> 00:43:20,415
are either forced to exploit young gays
in a cold and aggressive manner,
497
00:43:20,968 --> 00:43:25,691
or to get involved in dangerous
adventures with hustlers.
498
00:43:26,468 --> 00:43:32,587
Sex is more important to older gays
than to married men
499
00:43:33,098 --> 00:43:36,704
who, due to always sleeping
with the same woman,
500
00:43:36,930 --> 00:43:38,591
will soon become impotent.
501
00:43:38,711 --> 00:43:43,201
The sight of young men
arouses older gays each time anew.
502
00:43:43,653 --> 00:43:48,910
Their mostly unsuccessful attempts
to cruise for sex
503
00:43:49,286 --> 00:43:54,337
in dark lit toilets and parks,
since they're not welcome in bars,
504
00:43:54,612 --> 00:43:58,488
are taking up most of their energy.
505
00:43:58,930 --> 00:44:03,950
Many are in denial about their age
out of sheer vanity.
506
00:44:04,262 --> 00:44:07,534
They're trying to artificially
keep themselves young,
507
00:44:08,089 --> 00:44:11,054
but it just makes them
look ridiculous.
508
00:44:11,293 --> 00:44:16,592
The life of older gays
is no bed of roses.
509
00:44:17,062 --> 00:44:21,232
They're often exposed
to inhumane isolation
510
00:44:21,507 --> 00:44:24,630
which, just like a growing ulcer,
deprives them
511
00:44:24,952 --> 00:44:30,105
of every last bit of joy in life.
512
00:45:08,303 --> 00:45:14,881
No! No! No! Those shoes look terrible!
Combined with that shirt and scarf...
513
00:45:15,272 --> 00:45:21,077
I once saw him wear
bright red shoes... Disgusting!
514
00:45:21,197 --> 00:45:23,725
She only gets lucky
when she's cottaging!
515
00:45:23,845 --> 00:45:27,845
I even saw her at the station,
dressed in bright colors...
516
00:45:28,096 --> 00:45:30,171
from dusk till dawn...
517
00:45:30,321 --> 00:45:35,186
And by day she looks like a parrot!
Look at that... Terrible!
518
00:45:40,417 --> 00:45:44,471
Dirty, gay pigs! They're not human,
they belong in a concentration camp!
519
00:45:44,699 --> 00:45:48,306
It's one of the filthiest practices!
They're scum! It's a crime!
520
00:45:48,426 --> 00:45:51,836
If my son were gay, I'd beat him to death!
I'd rip his head off!
521
00:45:51,956 --> 00:45:55,798
Why raise a kid with love and devotion
if it ends up being perverted?
522
00:45:55,918 --> 00:46:00,429
I feel sorry for them.
They're sick, unfortunate people.
523
00:46:00,549 --> 00:46:04,994
Maybe psychoanalysis
could cure them. Who knows?
524
00:46:05,279 --> 00:46:07,264
Nobody wants to have
anything to do with them.
525
00:46:07,657 --> 00:46:09,822
I'd struggle with it, too.
526
00:46:10,052 --> 00:46:14,131
They need to be gassed and castrated!
All you can do is beat them up!
527
00:46:14,251 --> 00:46:17,671
If one of them
would dare touch me,
528
00:46:17,963 --> 00:46:22,595
I'd beat the crap out of him
and make him forget he was ever gay.
529
00:46:22,812 --> 00:46:24,402
They need a good thrashing!
530
00:46:24,522 --> 00:46:29,443
They're so oversexed,
they don't know what else to do.
531
00:46:54,201 --> 00:46:58,877
I'm the dazzling dame you know
from the cabaret show
532
00:46:59,141 --> 00:47:02,933
Look around the fair and you'll see
there's no one else like me
533
00:47:03,053 --> 00:47:06,196
All the guys turn around
and look at me,
534
00:47:06,769 --> 00:47:10,379
and I know exactly
what they want to see
535
00:47:10,599 --> 00:47:14,341
I'm the dazzling dame you know
from the cabaret show
536
00:47:14,461 --> 00:47:17,918
Look around the fair and you'll see
there's no one else like me
537
00:47:18,038 --> 00:47:20,797
All the guys look me in the eye
538
00:47:21,879 --> 00:47:25,091
but the one I fancy
just passes me by...
539
00:47:25,479 --> 00:47:29,177
but the one I fancy
just passes me by
540
00:50:46,263 --> 00:50:49,124
Daniel is desperate and lonely.
541
00:50:49,836 --> 00:50:55,840
He tries to numb himself with alcohol
and cigarettes in his new favorite bar.
542
00:50:56,351 --> 00:51:02,559
Here he can recover from his surreal
escapades in parks and public toilets,
543
00:51:02,786 --> 00:51:04,999
just to go there again.
544
00:51:05,119 --> 00:51:09,664
He needs distraction
from the unnerving silence of his room
545
00:51:09,784 --> 00:51:12,780
and the ongoing problems at work.
546
00:51:13,349 --> 00:51:16,354
It's a fantastic theater of dwarfs,
547
00:51:16,754 --> 00:51:17,901
cripples,
548
00:51:18,431 --> 00:51:20,359
and ordinary tranvestites.
549
00:51:20,685 --> 00:51:25,965
They rarely come out of hiding,
but here they are welcome.
550
00:51:26,284 --> 00:51:28,300
Workers and older gays,
551
00:51:28,420 --> 00:51:31,361
who aren't welcome in fancy gay bars,
552
00:51:31,684 --> 00:51:33,257
can feel at home...
553
00:51:33,553 --> 00:51:37,467
and sit together like one big family,
hectically enjoying themselves
554
00:51:38,040 --> 00:51:40,974
to forget their loneliness.
555
00:52:45,492 --> 00:52:49,088
A rose blooms in Colorado
556
00:52:49,339 --> 00:52:52,827
A rose, beautiful and red
557
00:52:53,202 --> 00:52:56,774
Up in the Colorado mountains,
558
00:52:57,031 --> 00:53:00,727
that's where I'll meet my rose again
559
00:53:00,995 --> 00:53:04,933
She has two cerulean eyes
560
00:53:05,185 --> 00:53:08,832
And her heart belongs only to me
561
00:53:09,182 --> 00:53:12,929
A rose blooms in Colorado
562
00:53:13,142 --> 00:53:17,031
And in the morning I will ride to her
563
00:53:23,095 --> 00:53:26,101
- Hello, Paul. How are you?
- Fine, thanks.
564
00:53:26,357 --> 00:53:28,618
- And you?
- I get by.
565
00:53:28,853 --> 00:53:30,903
Are you still living with that guy?
566
00:53:31,189 --> 00:53:32,531
I hardly see you anymore.
567
00:53:32,651 --> 00:53:34,685
Yes, it's fun.
568
00:53:35,330 --> 00:53:36,820
It's better than living alone.
569
00:53:36,940 --> 00:53:40,108
At first it was hard,
because we only cared about ourselves.
570
00:53:40,228 --> 00:53:42,566
But once you learn
to repect each other,
571
00:53:42,686 --> 00:53:45,082
it's much better than living alone.
572
00:53:45,331 --> 00:53:50,190
- Can I visit you sometime?
- Sure, do you have any plans now?
573
00:53:50,772 --> 00:53:53,596
If you're interested,
you can check out how we're living.
574
00:53:53,716 --> 00:53:58,907
I'd love to! Hanging around in bars
gets exhausting with time.
575
00:54:01,602 --> 00:54:03,361
I don't know why that is.
576
00:54:03,581 --> 00:54:06,935
Maybe I've been let down
too many times.
577
00:54:07,280 --> 00:54:09,388
You're afraid to show your feelings.
578
00:54:09,508 --> 00:54:12,237
So you're waiting for guys
to fancy you.
579
00:54:12,558 --> 00:54:14,808
But when they fall in love,
you break up with them.
580
00:54:14,928 --> 00:54:18,470
I'm afraid to fall in love.
Time makes one cautious.
581
00:54:18,750 --> 00:54:21,066
I'm pretty lonely, actually.
582
00:54:21,329 --> 00:54:24,659
I always hang around in bars,
but nothing new happens.
583
00:54:24,951 --> 00:54:27,173
I've slept with most of the guys.
584
00:54:27,431 --> 00:54:29,822
My longest relationship
was with Clemens.
585
00:54:29,942 --> 00:54:31,448
You still like him?
586
00:54:31,912 --> 00:54:33,690
I'll never forget him.
587
00:54:34,718 --> 00:54:36,256
I won't lose hope.
588
00:54:36,376 --> 00:54:38,929
I want to make the most of my time
while I'm still young,
589
00:54:39,049 --> 00:54:40,832
and experience as much as possible.
590
00:54:40,952 --> 00:54:42,797
I've experienced a lot.
591
00:54:43,031 --> 00:54:46,972
If I'd stayed in my small town,
I would've never known what's out there.
592
00:54:47,226 --> 00:54:51,285
I've been to parties in fancy houses,
I've slept with celebrities,
593
00:54:51,678 --> 00:54:53,942
ironers, coal carriers...
594
00:54:54,062 --> 00:54:56,141
I'm glad I didn't become a bourgeois
595
00:54:56,379 --> 00:54:59,910
with a wife and kids.
The same routine, day by day...
596
00:55:00,331 --> 00:55:03,388
You've told us how it all started,
597
00:55:03,698 --> 00:55:08,320
and that everything was fantastic,
because it was new and adventurous,
598
00:55:08,582 --> 00:55:12,562
but when you came here,
you were sick and tired of being gay.
599
00:55:12,796 --> 00:55:15,183
You've become a "career queer".
600
00:55:15,548 --> 00:55:20,043
All you're interested in
is sex and how to get it.
601
00:55:21,598 --> 00:55:24,801
But you're too weak
to break free on your own.
602
00:55:25,424 --> 00:55:28,372
It's hard for you,
because you have no other interests
603
00:55:28,658 --> 00:55:31,366
besides being gay.
604
00:55:31,775 --> 00:55:36,018
You'll wreck your nerves
and become more addicted and unhappy.
605
00:55:36,422 --> 00:55:39,704
You've become a whore
who's not getting paid.
606
00:55:43,231 --> 00:55:46,350
You've become incapable
of having a human relationship.
607
00:55:46,601 --> 00:55:50,561
Everything is cold,
calculating, and uptight.
608
00:55:50,791 --> 00:55:53,316
I think what you've done
was pretty stupid.
609
00:55:53,436 --> 00:55:56,030
You live like a million other gays.
610
00:55:56,265 --> 00:55:59,249
You're just as uptight,
dependent, and unhappy as them.
611
00:55:59,369 --> 00:56:03,067
In a time where everyone
feared to be put in prison,
612
00:56:03,358 --> 00:56:04,577
it would've been comprehensible.
613
00:56:04,697 --> 00:56:08,053
But now is the time
to help ourselves.
614
00:56:08,461 --> 00:56:11,464
We've all been intimidated
by our families,
615
00:56:11,733 --> 00:56:14,294
and now all we consist of
is weakness.
616
00:56:14,414 --> 00:56:17,935
Because we'll never be able
to forget the restrictions
617
00:56:18,174 --> 00:56:20,211
imposed on us in our childhood.
618
00:56:20,331 --> 00:56:24,320
It's crucial that we change
our fucked up situation.
619
00:56:24,440 --> 00:56:26,218
We can't always blame others.
620
00:56:26,576 --> 00:56:30,882
- We must overcome our fucking weakness.
- We need to start thinking about
621
00:56:31,164 --> 00:56:33,327
what we do wrong.
622
00:56:38,367 --> 00:56:41,849
That's easy for you to say.
How am I supposed to do that?
623
00:56:42,739 --> 00:56:45,560
It's crucial for all gays
624
00:56:46,011 --> 00:56:49,190
to come out of the closet.
625
00:56:49,457 --> 00:56:53,012
We must have the courage
to tell everyone that we're gay.
626
00:56:53,321 --> 00:56:55,853
It's hard, but it's the only way.
627
00:56:56,089 --> 00:56:58,884
We feel dependent and guilty,
628
00:56:59,118 --> 00:57:02,224
and as a result, we'll become
moody and unreliable.
629
00:57:02,805 --> 00:57:07,389
We can't even be honest
to those we love.
630
00:57:07,810 --> 00:57:11,497
We mustn't be afraid
of our parents and employers anymore.
631
00:57:11,741 --> 00:57:13,749
We need to organize...
632
00:57:13,869 --> 00:57:17,935
...against those fucking employers
who want to fire us for being gay.
633
00:57:18,180 --> 00:57:21,774
We must publish the names
of homophobes in our magazines.
634
00:57:21,894 --> 00:57:25,142
Maybe they're afraid, because
they're closeted gays themselves.
635
00:57:25,382 --> 00:57:27,402
We need to end this situation,
636
00:57:27,522 --> 00:57:31,344
that makes us show our cocks
in public toilets,
637
00:57:31,645 --> 00:57:36,565
and stand there for hours,
till we leave... alone and disgusted,
638
00:57:36,685 --> 00:57:38,649
with a bad conscience
on top of it all.
639
00:57:39,005 --> 00:57:40,415
Nevertheless, we'll return
the next day,
640
00:57:40,674 --> 00:57:43,621
because many of us are afraid
to look someone in the eye
641
00:57:43,741 --> 00:57:45,708
and start a conversation,
642
00:57:45,828 --> 00:57:48,431
just to see they're a human being,
643
00:57:48,551 --> 00:57:52,522
and not just someone with a cock
to use and dispose of.
644
00:57:55,360 --> 00:57:57,032
It may seem moralistic and bourgeois
645
00:57:57,283 --> 00:57:59,263
to oppose public toilets and parks,
646
00:57:59,501 --> 00:58:01,240
but it's necessary.
647
00:58:01,360 --> 00:58:04,305
We risk becoming so insensitive
648
00:58:04,784 --> 00:58:07,184
that we'll judge people only
by their body,
649
00:58:07,671 --> 00:58:10,221
and in the end we'll suffer too,
650
00:58:10,531 --> 00:58:13,036
because we're lonely
and out of love.
651
00:58:16,034 --> 00:58:19,814
Gays have a kitschy image
of eternal love...
652
00:58:20,295 --> 00:58:24,293
like you find it in fairytales,
on TV, in movies, or magazines.
653
00:58:24,593 --> 00:58:26,753
Eternal love is bullshit.
654
00:58:26,971 --> 00:58:30,415
People should stay together
for as long as it's fun,
655
00:58:30,670 --> 00:58:33,287
instead of swearing each other
eternal and true love,
656
00:58:33,583 --> 00:58:37,096
which will always lead
to disappointment.
657
00:58:37,553 --> 00:58:40,044
In America,
they now have churches for gays.
658
00:58:40,164 --> 00:58:43,342
A gay priest has started
a cult where gays
659
00:58:43,462 --> 00:58:46,033
can satisfy their repressed
feeling for religion,
660
00:58:46,382 --> 00:58:48,418
and even get the chance to marry.
661
00:58:50,213 --> 00:58:53,207
It's the same old shit
as with man and woman.
662
00:58:53,484 --> 00:58:55,462
We don't want to stay together
out of compulsion,
663
00:58:55,846 --> 00:58:57,248
but of our own free will.
664
00:58:57,730 --> 00:58:59,958
It may be more difficult,
but at least it's honest.
665
00:59:00,250 --> 00:59:02,915
Two guys who isolate themselves
from everyone else,
666
00:59:03,171 --> 00:59:04,764
only to live for themselves,
667
00:59:04,884 --> 00:59:08,212
are being egotistical
and cruel towards others.
668
00:59:10,780 --> 00:59:12,758
We need to live together
669
00:59:13,075 --> 00:59:17,422
and not against each other
like in a marriage.
670
00:59:20,107 --> 00:59:22,234
Gays should be aware
671
00:59:22,477 --> 00:59:24,846
that most guys, considering
today's possibilities,
672
00:59:25,085 --> 00:59:28,174
rarely stay together
for more than two or three years.
673
00:59:28,453 --> 00:59:30,572
After that, it's mostly getting dull.
674
00:59:30,822 --> 00:59:33,569
We should try to make the most
of this opportunity,
675
00:59:33,785 --> 00:59:36,430
and at least engage
in longer relationships
676
00:59:36,891 --> 00:59:39,425
instead of sleeping
with another guy every day.
677
00:59:39,753 --> 00:59:42,707
We have to be disciplined enough
678
00:59:43,162 --> 00:59:47,392
not to risk losing a dear friend
over a cheap adventure.
679
00:59:54,666 --> 00:59:57,902
Gays being together
creates a tense atmosphere.
680
00:59:58,621 --> 01:00:02,303
The others are seen as a reflection
of one's own problems.
681
01:00:08,755 --> 01:00:11,771
We're always cruising,
that's why we dress up.
682
01:00:12,051 --> 01:00:15,338
Refuse the fashion terror!
Condemn high-class hustlers!
683
01:00:15,826 --> 01:00:17,526
Don't wait for rich Johns,
684
01:00:17,646 --> 01:00:21,063
because they'll only exploit
and dump you!
685
01:00:35,162 --> 01:00:37,643
Pretending we're real men is bullshit...
686
01:00:37,866 --> 01:00:41,043
- ...because most of us aren't.
- Let's become more gay!
687
01:00:41,519 --> 01:00:45,651
Closeted gays must have the guts
to come out.
688
01:00:45,934 --> 01:00:49,188
Fairies and leather men
should end their feud
689
01:00:49,445 --> 01:00:52,313
and fight for their freedom
side by side.
690
01:00:52,433 --> 01:00:54,277
Meeting points like cafes,
691
01:00:54,511 --> 01:00:58,374
bars, boutiques, or lidos
are intolerable,
692
01:00:58,568 --> 01:01:01,809
because they're all about self-display.
Especially bars...
693
01:01:02,036 --> 01:01:04,636
with their hostile atmosphere.
694
01:01:05,414 --> 01:01:07,894
Everyone's standing around,
conceited and uptight...
695
01:01:08,014 --> 01:01:09,971
It's impossible
to start a conversation
696
01:01:10,209 --> 01:01:13,217
without feeling obligated
to have sex.
697
01:01:13,337 --> 01:01:14,644
Boycott those bars!
698
01:01:14,764 --> 01:01:19,354
- Push for new bars...
- ...where gays can feel free,
699
01:01:19,474 --> 01:01:23,870
knowing it's not only their money
others are interested in.
700
01:01:23,990 --> 01:01:26,594
Trash those fucking gay bars
701
01:01:26,714 --> 01:01:29,167
if they're nothing but brothels.
702
01:01:29,287 --> 01:01:31,931
Gays need to stop hating each other.
703
01:01:32,051 --> 01:01:34,989
We must love each other
and not be competitors.
704
01:01:35,382 --> 01:01:40,339
The oppression of gays
has made sex and flings vital to them,
705
01:01:40,647 --> 01:01:42,917
and for many, they've become
their main activities.
706
01:01:43,284 --> 01:01:46,282
Try to be more personal,
more independent!
707
01:01:46,549 --> 01:01:49,161
Out of fear of old age, most gays
708
01:01:49,469 --> 01:01:51,339
frantically chase after sex.
709
01:01:51,923 --> 01:01:53,749
Older gays become aggressive,
710
01:01:54,051 --> 01:01:55,633
because they're being despised
by the young ones.
711
01:01:55,921 --> 01:01:59,776
If the time comes when gays not only
care about physical appearances,
712
01:01:59,976 --> 01:02:02,918
old age will not be
such an issue anymore.
713
01:02:03,156 --> 01:02:06,040
Boycott parks and toilets!
Come out of hiding!
714
01:02:06,160 --> 01:02:08,371
Take to the streets!
Rally for your rights!
715
01:02:08,572 --> 01:02:10,012
Help those stupid fashion-fags,
716
01:02:10,132 --> 01:02:12,394
those arrogant pretty boys,
and those bar-queers!
717
01:02:12,627 --> 01:02:17,075
Help those who fuck in toilets and parks
out of their fucked up situation!
718
01:02:17,274 --> 01:02:20,923
Sex shouldn't be a competition
or a way to boost your ego.
719
01:02:21,330 --> 01:02:23,263
It should contribute
to understanding
720
01:02:23,383 --> 01:02:25,887
and not, as is often
the case with gays,
721
01:02:26,123 --> 01:02:29,591
make them strangers
after a one-night stand.
722
01:02:29,711 --> 01:02:31,889
We must try to fuck freely...
723
01:02:32,164 --> 01:02:35,473
and respect the other
instead of seeing him as an object.
724
01:02:35,720 --> 01:02:37,306
The bourgeoisie call us "fruity",
725
01:02:37,426 --> 01:02:39,286
but most of us are cold and uptight.
726
01:02:39,406 --> 01:02:42,782
We must become erotically free
and socially responsible.
727
01:02:43,212 --> 01:02:46,409
Let's unite with the Black Panthers
and the Women's Lib,
728
01:02:46,767 --> 01:02:48,628
and fight the oppression
of minorities!
729
01:02:48,748 --> 01:02:52,481
Take care of each other's
problems at work!
730
01:02:52,790 --> 01:02:56,609
Show your solidarity
if a colleague gets into a conflict,
731
01:02:56,834 --> 01:02:59,676
and you can count
on their help in return.
732
01:02:59,899 --> 01:03:01,724
Engage in politics!
733
01:03:01,999 --> 01:03:03,911
Being gay is not a movie!
734
01:03:04,031 --> 01:03:08,687
We gay pigs want to become humans
and to be treated as such!
735
01:03:08,807 --> 01:03:10,620
We have to fight for it!
736
01:03:10,740 --> 01:03:14,187
We want to be accepted,
and not just tolerated.
737
01:03:14,414 --> 01:03:17,813
But it's not just about
being accepted by the people,
738
01:03:18,068 --> 01:03:22,702
but also about how we treat each other.
We don't want any anonymous groups!
739
01:03:22,963 --> 01:03:25,050
We want a joint action,
740
01:03:25,383 --> 01:03:29,865
so we can get to know each other
while fighting our problems...
741
01:03:30,466 --> 01:03:31,983
and learn to love each other!
742
01:03:32,103 --> 01:03:34,103
We need to organize!
743
01:03:34,481 --> 01:03:39,764
We need better bars, good doctors,
and a safe working environment!
744
01:03:40,179 --> 01:03:43,150
Become proud of your homosexuality!
745
01:03:43,584 --> 01:03:46,112
Get out of the toilets!
Take to the streets!
746
01:03:46,797 --> 01:03:49,333
Freedom for gays!
62296
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