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I just wish it wasn't so loud.
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It seems to work.
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Check, check.
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Clip-on mic works,
recording device and the room
mic too.
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Good.
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I finally re-organized my
workshop
into a makeshift lab.
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Just a couple of shots of the
room
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so you can have a better
understanding
of the spatial situation.
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The room is located
in my place of residence in
Apopka,
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Central Florida
at the house that I rent.
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I've set up several tripods
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and fixed a self-made camera
mount
over my desk.
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This should make
recording the experiments
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that I have been conducting
over the next several days
easier.
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I intend to better understand
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and cure my hearing impairment.
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That horrible sound
that's pestering me.
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It obliterated my personal life,
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it stopped me from finishing my
PhD,
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it forced me to do a bullshit IT
job
just to make ends meet.
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I even had to give away Clippy,
my cat.
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I miss that old rascal.
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Enough.
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Let this be a record of my
experiments
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as I search for a cure.
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After all this time,
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I've concluded that no one else
is going to help me.
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I have to find answers myself.
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The miserable have no medicine
but hope.
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The first occurrence
of the sound three years ago
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on September 16th, 2016
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was accompanied by a visual
component.
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I briefly saw something
out of the ordinary,
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an effect that never returned.
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However, during a recent visit
to the FamiLAB hackerspace
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over in Longwood,
I borrowed a $20 clip-on macro
lens
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for smartphones from Doug
Cranach.
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I realized that optical
magnification
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is the perfect way to detect
and,
hopefully,
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document visual occurrences,
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but Cranach's clip-on
is just not good enough,
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so I got a Canon MP-E
65-millimeter lens
off Craigslist
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and bought
a Laowa 24 millimeter probe lens
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over at Best Buy in Altamonte
Springs.
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We'll mount them
onto my Blackmagic camera.
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It's a very powerful combo
for my specific needs.
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Once this reference video
is edited
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and additional voiceover
commentary
is added,
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I'll release it on YouTube in
high-def
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along with other details of my
research.
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This is crucial.
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What is the real difference
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between near fumbling in the
dark
and true progress?
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Evidence.
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Every alchemist discovers for
himself
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that drinking mercury is bad,
that it causes paralysis,
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even the sensation of bugs
crawling under your skin,
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but scientists have to discover
the effects only once
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because they share their
findings,
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thus making them testable,
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falsifiable.
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Starting documentation
with a simple hypothesis,
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different objects alter the
sound I hear,
but how and why?
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This cotton shirt is of the same
material
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as the shirt I'm wearing right
now,
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which is also the shirt I wore
when the effect first occurred.
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I can detect no changes in the
sound.
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For the next stage,
a different material.
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This one is a polyester blend.
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Yes, yes,
the sound has changed.
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It's subtle with the pitch
lowered.
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The sound also changed
when I set the cloth down.
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Let me see.
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Yes, when I touch the cloth,
there is a shift.
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Am I disrupting the source in
some way?
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When the sound first occurred,
it used to be a dull hum,
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so quiet I could pretend it
wasn't there.
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I very rarely hear it like that
anymore.
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I've come to think of it
as my personal base level,
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the sound of silence.
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To be clear,
I know there is no such thing as
silence.
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There can never be an empty
space
or an empty time.
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There's always something
around that interferes.
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As John Cage says,
try as we may to make a silence,
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we cannot.
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Even if you completely seal
yourself
off from noise.
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For example,
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in an anechoic chamber
that completely absorbs
reflections,
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you always hear two sounds.
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One high and one low.
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The high one
is your nervous system in
operation.
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The low,
your blood in circulation.
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I don't really care
about hypothetical extremes,
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not at all.
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My problem is far from
philosophical.
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Continuing.
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My sound of silence,
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which seems to include the
textiles
I'm wearing,
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dominates again when I'm going
to the other side of the room.
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Does that mean the sound
emanates
from the object itself
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or is my presence a factor?
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If only I could record
the sound in isolation.
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No one else has been able to
hear it.
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I've suffered from tinnitus
for three years now
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and I have yet to find a person
who believes me.
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My doctors are,
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to present the results
of my root cause analysis,
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idiots.
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My first otologist was quick to
confirm
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that I have tinnitus,
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but he rejected
the quality of my tinnitus.
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All the other doctors after him
did as well.
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I know the mechanisms
of subjective tinnitus are
obscure,
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but the professional ineptitude
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I had to endure is breathtaking.
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Basically,
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tinnitus is the hearing of a
sound
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that has no external source.
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Trauma to the inner ear can
cause it,
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which was not the case for me.
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My assumption
is that increased neural
activity
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in my brainstem caused mine,
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resulting in overexcited nerve
cells.
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Half of my private library
is medical journals and books.
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Michael J. Epstein's
and Christian Rainer Heller's
2017 paper,
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Retrocochlear Damage,
Auditory Brainstem Responses,
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and Oral Processing Disorders,
was very encouraging.
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Not to forget
J. C. Roach's brilliant analysis
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of binaural isochronic
audio and synchronicity.
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I learned all that one
can about my condition.
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It's better than whining
in a self-help group
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at the goddamn community center.
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Tinnitus has no cure,
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and most people get used to it
over time.
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A 1987 study of the MRC
Institute
of Hearing Research
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in Nottingham found that 10% of
adults
have had tinnitus
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for longer than five minutes,
but only 0.5% of adults
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have tinnitus that affects their
ability
to lead a normal life.
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I'm part of this group.
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And my tinnitus is unusual.
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It's complex.
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I've seen countless doctors
since it began
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here in the Orlando area
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and up in Burlington,
Vermont at UVM.
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I spent my entire inheritance,
all the money from grandpa,
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on medical bills.
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No help, nada, zilch.
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I got lucky,
despite my misfortune,
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I didn't have to go into debt
paying for nothing.
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It's not directly related to my
case,
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but the AJM published a study
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that 42.4% of all cancer
patients in the US
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deplete their life savings
by the second year of treatment.
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Our medical system is broken,
and not only financially.
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Just recently,
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a guy in New York found out
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that he had been misdiagnosed
for 15 years.
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What the doctors had identified
as a beer belly
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was actually a 30-pound tumor
growing in his stomach.
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I won't allow these quacks
to victimize me.
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They gave up and sent me
to behavioral therapy.
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Bullshit.
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Many people die at 25
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and aren't even buried until
they're 75.
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I want a chance at a normal
life.
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My mother called.
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Awkward experience as always.
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She had more moronic health
advice
for me.
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"Quit smoking and gluten.
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Use essential oils and ginkgo.
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Ginkgo this, ginkgo that.
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Worse, her new boyfriend
does Chinese acupuncture
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and wants to meet me.
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He's a relapsing alcoholic.
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Why the fuck
do they let him work with
needles?
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It feels necessary to make a
statement
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just to frame my quest and to
separate me
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from the gazillion wackos out
there.
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I believe,
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the methods of natural science
and science alone
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describe the world as it is,
independent of perspective.
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Superstition, religion,
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and irrationalism should be
countered,
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criticized, uncovered.
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For those who believe in God,
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most big questions are already
answered.
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For those of us who don't,
the answers are more
challenging.
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We have to discover the true
mystery,
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not flee into mythopoeic
speculation.
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Just look what religion brought
us.
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Suffering,
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suffering,
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suffering,
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suffering, and more suffering.
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Humans are long beyond the stage
of needing fairy tales
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to explain the world.
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Anybody who wants to tell me
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they know the secret of the
universe
is a liar or a fool,
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and certainly not worth
listening to.
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It's necessary to eliminate
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the psychological and spiritual
dimensions of experience.
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Only this leads to salvation,
and in my case,
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I sincerely hope it results
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in concrete and secular
salvation.
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The return of silence.
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Silence is nonexistent for me.
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Even when I sleep,
the sound disturbs me.
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It slowly drowns my thoughts,
my--
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for lack of a better term -soul.
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I used to be so open.
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I was always an introvert,
yes,
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but I was doing so many cool
projects
with friends.
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After coming out,
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I was active
in the gay community on campus.
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That was around the time
the horrible mass shooting
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at the Pulse Gay Club happened.
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50 people died.
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A third were shot in the head,
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turning their brains into
atomized mist.
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Folks I knew.
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Friends.
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The founder of the club, John,
died in 1991 from AIDS.
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The club was named
for his pulse to live on.
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Changed my opinion on guns
completely.
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Yet, not even this tragedy
stopped me from being hopeful,
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from engaging, from fighting,
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from celebrating our lives,
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my life.
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Now I'm a recluse,
and my libido is nil.
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Sound spreads through
my being monstrously
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like the growth
of a festering malignancy.
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In this room, it's erratic,
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a quiet hum with intermittent
discordant buzzing.
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In other environments, it's
different.
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Usually, people either
experience
monotone tinnitus
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or narrowband noise tinnitus.
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My doctors already measured
loudness,
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mixing-point, masking threshold.
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In most cases,
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the tinnitus loudness
is equivalent to a sound
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that is 5 to 15 decibels above
threshold,
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and the tinnitus pitch
or frequency range
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is between 5 kilohertz
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and 10 kilohertz.
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Not in my case.
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My tinnitus changes.
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Adapts.
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The doctors don't believe me
though.
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The last one told me that we
suffer more
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in imagination than in reality.
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That's what I pay for.
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Sometimes a GIF says
more than a 1,000 words.
253
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The equipment I need for my
experiments,
254
00:15:53,039 --> 00:15:55,606
my laptop, my camera gear, et
cetera,
255
00:15:56,129 --> 00:15:57,608
it doesn't change the sound.
256
00:15:59,306 --> 00:16:01,134
It was my first hypothesis
that machinery might be a
factor,
257
00:16:01,177 --> 00:16:03,223
considering the assumed origins
of my condition
258
00:16:03,266 --> 00:16:06,356
at the university,
but that proved fruitless.
259
00:16:06,835 --> 00:16:08,532
Inorganic matter does not affect
it.
260
00:16:09,490 --> 00:16:11,971
Processed organic matter, like
paper,
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00:16:13,320 --> 00:16:14,234
a table,
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00:16:15,061 --> 00:16:16,192
pencils,
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00:16:17,063 --> 00:16:18,368
shaving cream,
264
00:16:19,021 --> 00:16:20,022
cigarettes,
265
00:16:20,588 --> 00:16:21,763
aspirin,
266
00:16:22,198 --> 00:16:23,460
and naproxen
267
00:16:24,461 --> 00:16:25,854
seem to be neutral too.
268
00:16:25,897 --> 00:16:28,422
Although, fabrics and certain
foods
269
00:16:28,726 --> 00:16:31,468
like candy corn are an
exception.
270
00:16:33,166 --> 00:16:34,950
Candy corn sounds clattery
271
00:16:36,386 --> 00:16:41,739
and yogurt sounds strangely
fractalized.
272
00:16:42,827 --> 00:16:45,221
Maybe there is a connection
to Andy Zmolek's research.
273
00:16:48,529 --> 00:16:49,182
Oh.
274
00:16:59,453 --> 00:17:02,108
Bharat, one of my sysadmin
colleagues
at the company,
275
00:17:02,151 --> 00:17:04,110
came to visit,
brought me some beer.
276
00:17:04,849 --> 00:17:06,416
What a hipster.
277
00:17:07,374 --> 00:17:09,245
Piña Colada Gose.
278
00:17:11,073 --> 00:17:12,205
It's a disturbance
279
00:17:12,248 --> 00:17:15,295
and I will certainly not consume
neurotoxins,
280
00:17:15,338 --> 00:17:17,210
but still nice of him.
281
00:17:18,341 --> 00:17:20,039
Most of my coworkers are
probably happy
282
00:17:20,082 --> 00:17:21,301
I took a few days off.
283
00:17:22,258 --> 00:17:25,087
All of them think
I'm a hypochondriac weirdo.
284
00:17:28,656 --> 00:17:30,179
Whenever I'm around people,
285
00:17:30,788 --> 00:17:33,226
the sound intensifies
286
00:17:33,269 --> 00:17:35,402
until I feel
as though my head might explode.
287
00:17:39,667 --> 00:17:42,017
I used to play fun games with my
friends.
288
00:17:44,976 --> 00:17:46,500
This one always made me laugh.
289
00:17:46,543 --> 00:17:47,849
It's so sick.
290
00:17:49,851 --> 00:17:52,332
I used to have an annual pass
for Disney World.
291
00:17:54,812 --> 00:17:56,640
Oh god, I love it so much.
292
00:17:56,901 --> 00:18:00,079
Music, smiling faces.
293
00:18:02,298 --> 00:18:03,647
It feels like another life.
294
00:18:05,823 --> 00:18:09,175
The more people,
the worse the sound becomes.
295
00:18:10,480 --> 00:18:12,917
At work,
my emergency reaction is to flee
296
00:18:12,961 --> 00:18:15,442
to the basement server rooms,
where nobody is,
297
00:18:16,007 --> 00:18:20,142
pretending to trace cables
to ESXi boxes or other baloney,
298
00:18:21,491 --> 00:18:23,102
but that's not going to work
forever.
299
00:18:24,973 --> 00:18:27,584
Listening to music became
impossible.
300
00:18:28,629 --> 00:18:33,982
It's hard to describe,
but music feels distant,
301
00:18:36,637 --> 00:18:37,986
hollow,
302
00:18:40,771 --> 00:18:41,946
burnt.
303
00:18:45,036 --> 00:18:47,387
If I can prove my condition,
or better yet,
304
00:18:48,170 --> 00:18:51,956
understand its nature,
then people must believe me.
305
00:18:52,870 --> 00:18:57,397
Each human body is made of
100 trillion cellular robots.
306
00:18:57,440 --> 00:18:58,789
That's all there is.
307
00:18:59,399 --> 00:19:01,923
There is a positivistic level
to my problem.
308
00:19:02,706 --> 00:19:06,623
My goal is to prove
this is not my imagination.
309
00:19:11,672 --> 00:19:15,893
I've introduced more objects,
some sound-neutral, some not,
310
00:19:16,633 --> 00:19:18,418
measuring and grouping them.
311
00:19:18,461 --> 00:19:20,071
I want to see if I can detect a
pattern.
312
00:19:21,160 --> 00:19:23,814
Size and weight doesn't seem
to be a key factor,
313
00:19:24,206 --> 00:19:26,991
but the sound changes depending
on where I am
314
00:19:27,035 --> 00:19:28,515
and what I'm doing.
315
00:19:28,645 --> 00:19:32,127
That, I'm convinced,
is the key to solving this
mystery.
316
00:19:33,215 --> 00:19:35,783
My assumption is that everything
in the room with me
317
00:19:35,826 --> 00:19:37,176
contributes to the sound.
318
00:19:38,786 --> 00:19:41,702
The sound of silence gives me
a baseline from which to work.
319
00:19:42,355 --> 00:19:44,748
Every time I bring a new object
into the room,
320
00:19:44,792 --> 00:19:46,446
the sound changes.
321
00:19:46,489 --> 00:19:50,667
Whenever I remove one,
the sound it introduced
vanishes.
322
00:19:51,277 --> 00:19:54,628
By introducing and removing
objects
in a controlled fashion,
323
00:19:55,063 --> 00:19:57,674
I found the proof
to support my speculation.
324
00:19:59,285 --> 00:20:01,548
I've ordered the objects
into several categories
325
00:20:01,591 --> 00:20:03,376
based on the patterns I've
detected.
326
00:20:04,028 --> 00:20:07,423
Inorganic non-aqueous solvents,
like ammonium chloride,
327
00:20:07,467 --> 00:20:09,208
do not alter the sound.
328
00:20:15,997 --> 00:20:17,216
Endothermic.
329
00:20:18,826 --> 00:20:21,524
Organic liquids cause
a particular change in the
sound,
330
00:20:21,568 --> 00:20:24,179
all similar in pitch,
but not identical.
331
00:20:25,963 --> 00:20:30,098
Decided to drink only hot water,
decaf black tea,
332
00:20:30,620 --> 00:20:33,493
and oat milk as they appear
to be sound-neutral.
333
00:20:36,235 --> 00:20:39,281
- As for C5H4N4
- O3,
334
00:20:40,021 --> 00:20:43,242
I urinated into a glass
and I could hear a difference.
335
00:20:45,244 --> 00:20:48,247
Boiling organic liquids,
for example, my pee,
336
00:20:49,335 --> 00:20:50,945
creates no changes.
337
00:20:52,076 --> 00:20:53,774
I'm no chemist.
338
00:20:53,817 --> 00:20:56,298
I studied physics,
so it's hard for me to find
distinctions.
339
00:20:56,603 --> 00:20:57,995
I need to read up on it.
340
00:20:59,083 --> 00:21:00,476
First,
I need to get rid of all this.
341
00:21:03,174 --> 00:21:06,177
Tradition is just peer pressure
from dead people.
342
00:21:07,570 --> 00:21:09,398
Looking at things from a new
perspective,
343
00:21:09,746 --> 00:21:11,661
seeing them in an unconventional
way
344
00:21:12,009 --> 00:21:13,707
was always one of my virtues.
345
00:21:14,403 --> 00:21:16,275
Like the simple observation,
346
00:21:16,318 --> 00:21:19,365
the bottled water companies
don't produce water,
347
00:21:20,017 --> 00:21:22,019
they produce plastic bottles.
348
00:21:23,151 --> 00:21:25,588
My goal must be to use
unconventional
349
00:21:25,632 --> 00:21:27,503
yet solid approaches in my
search.
350
00:21:32,378 --> 00:21:33,770
That was Brianna.
351
00:21:34,031 --> 00:21:35,076
She's in HR.
352
00:21:36,469 --> 00:21:38,819
Seems I stayed away a day
longer than requested,
353
00:21:39,559 --> 00:21:42,039
but she called afterward.
354
00:21:43,345 --> 00:21:45,347
Says a lot about my importance
to the company.
355
00:21:46,217 --> 00:21:48,481
I'll request a few more days,
my boss doesn't care.
356
00:21:49,438 --> 00:21:50,352
Too friendly.
357
00:21:51,527 --> 00:21:53,834
Leadership skills of a squirrel.
358
00:21:56,750 --> 00:21:58,186
I'm feeling dizzy all day.
359
00:21:59,143 --> 00:22:01,058
Dealing with these sound
patterns
drains me.
360
00:22:04,410 --> 00:22:06,760
I took a long hot shower this
morning.
361
00:22:07,587 --> 00:22:10,459
Remembered an old Irish legend
that my grandpa told me
362
00:22:10,503 --> 00:22:12,505
one Christmas morning when I was
nine.
363
00:22:14,028 --> 00:22:15,377
The Ulster King,
364
00:22:15,421 --> 00:22:18,598
Conchobar was hit
with a slingshot in battle.
365
00:22:19,250 --> 00:22:22,123
the projectile was a ball
made of the brain
366
00:22:22,166 --> 00:22:25,822
of Leinster king Mesgegra,
hardened with lime.
367
00:22:27,868 --> 00:22:30,871
The brain ball got stuck
so deep in Conchobar's brain
368
00:22:31,219 --> 00:22:33,352
that his physicians
were unable to remove it.
369
00:22:34,527 --> 00:22:36,006
They patched up the wound,
370
00:22:36,050 --> 00:22:38,313
stitched a golden hair net to
his scalp,
371
00:22:39,096 --> 00:22:42,578
and told the king he would
survive
so long as he did not over-exert
himself.
372
00:22:43,405 --> 00:22:46,016
Seven reasonably peaceful years
later,
373
00:22:46,321 --> 00:22:48,671
Conchobar was told of the death
of Christ
374
00:22:49,150 --> 00:22:52,327
and becomes so angry
that the brain ball bursts
375
00:22:52,371 --> 00:22:54,590
from his skull and he dies.
376
00:22:55,722 --> 00:22:59,203
The moral of the story was,
as I proudly proclaimed,
377
00:22:59,595 --> 00:23:02,990
that you could live happy
even with some other guy's brain
378
00:23:03,033 --> 00:23:06,428
stuck in your head
as long as you ignore Jesus.
379
00:23:07,908 --> 00:23:10,476
Grandpa gave me
a good old Irish Catholic slap
380
00:23:10,519 --> 00:23:13,000
in the face and ordered me
to go to my room
381
00:23:13,043 --> 00:23:14,697
and sort all my Lego bricks by
color.
382
00:23:17,744 --> 00:23:20,660
The patterns are becoming
familiar
as I study them.
383
00:23:21,704 --> 00:23:24,141
I'm not sure visual changes
actually occur,
384
00:23:24,403 --> 00:23:26,448
but it helps me anticipate the
sound.
385
00:23:27,710 --> 00:23:30,147
Like mosquitoes buzzing in a
room.
386
00:23:31,148 --> 00:23:33,499
Once you hear it,
it forces you to pay attention.
387
00:23:34,456 --> 00:23:35,631
You can't unhear it.
388
00:23:37,285 --> 00:23:39,896
I started processing some of my
data
with automated scripts.
389
00:23:40,723 --> 00:23:42,072
No matter what I'm doing,
390
00:23:42,116 --> 00:23:45,467
I start questioning it
searching for a pattern,
391
00:23:46,512 --> 00:23:47,556
waiting,
392
00:23:48,818 --> 00:23:49,863
listening.
393
00:23:53,562 --> 00:23:58,480
My thought was always that
darkness
is to space what silence is to
sound.
394
00:24:00,961 --> 00:24:02,179
Maybe I'm mistaken.
395
00:24:05,356 --> 00:24:07,533
My therapists were always
worried
about me,
396
00:24:08,359 --> 00:24:10,797
they implied I might hurt
myself.
397
00:24:11,624 --> 00:24:12,581
Of course not.
398
00:24:13,887 --> 00:24:16,106
That's just an extravagant act
of self-pity.
399
00:24:16,803 --> 00:24:17,586
Not me.
400
00:24:17,847 --> 00:24:19,283
I can conquer this,
401
00:24:21,808 --> 00:24:23,418
but how can I convince them?
402
00:24:26,029 --> 00:24:27,640
Pondering about observer effect.
403
00:24:29,163 --> 00:24:31,470
The mere observation of a
phenomenon
404
00:24:31,905 --> 00:24:34,385
inevitably changes the
phenomenon.
405
00:24:35,561 --> 00:24:38,346
This is highly challenging
because,
obviously,
406
00:24:38,564 --> 00:24:42,002
I am the only observer
and I am changing it
407
00:24:42,350 --> 00:24:44,352
by the mere fact of existing.
408
00:24:47,050 --> 00:24:50,706
How do I stop myself from
unconsciously
changing my behavior
409
00:24:50,750 --> 00:24:52,229
to support my assumptions?
410
00:24:53,274 --> 00:24:57,800
My research will not end up
as epistemological roadkill.
411
00:24:58,192 --> 00:24:59,062
Maybe I could
412
00:24:59,106 --> 00:25:00,629
What?
413
00:25:04,111 --> 00:25:05,721
Blessing in disguise.
414
00:25:06,592 --> 00:25:08,724
Got a visit from my new
neighbor, Dana.
415
00:25:14,034 --> 00:25:15,557
This is the place I rent,
416
00:25:21,607 --> 00:25:24,479
and she lives here
on the other side of the street.
417
00:25:24,523 --> 00:25:25,524
I see her now and then.
418
00:25:26,481 --> 00:25:28,048
She wanted to borrow coffee.
419
00:25:28,701 --> 00:25:30,398
Endured small talk,
420
00:25:30,746 --> 00:25:34,968
then asked her to wrap random
objects
from around my place
421
00:25:35,011 --> 00:25:38,101
in opaque shopping bags
while I was waiting outside.
422
00:25:39,538 --> 00:25:40,930
Sounds socially awkward,
423
00:25:42,845 --> 00:25:44,499
but she complied.
424
00:25:46,457 --> 00:25:53,377
Now I have 10 random objects
in opaque shopping bags.
425
00:25:56,163 --> 00:25:58,426
This creates an opportunity
to execute a blind experiment.
426
00:26:01,734 --> 00:26:03,605
Trying to sense auditory
patterns
427
00:26:03,649 --> 00:26:05,825
without knowing what object
I'm dealing with.
428
00:26:10,699 --> 00:26:11,613
Okay,
429
00:26:15,095 --> 00:26:16,444
Okay, interesting.
430
00:26:20,056 --> 00:26:22,798
The rustling sound
of the bags is distressing,
431
00:26:22,842 --> 00:26:23,930
but yes,
432
00:26:24,670 --> 00:26:26,497
I hear the sound of the objects.
433
00:26:26,541 --> 00:26:28,064
I can perceive them.
434
00:26:29,109 --> 00:26:31,851
It'll give my research
additional validity in peer
review.
435
00:26:36,595 --> 00:26:38,509
The last few days
have been disheartening.
436
00:26:39,336 --> 00:26:40,337
In pain.
437
00:26:41,034 --> 00:26:42,470
Naproxen intake.
438
00:26:44,341 --> 00:26:47,388
I wrote out my research
and submitted it to Hagendorfer,
439
00:26:47,431 --> 00:26:48,563
my current otologist,
440
00:26:49,999 --> 00:26:51,653
and two researchers at Cornell
who study resonance
441
00:26:52,001 --> 00:26:53,437
and vibration patterns.
442
00:26:54,438 --> 00:26:55,614
With this set of data,
443
00:26:57,267 --> 00:26:59,618
they will beg me to do
a proper clinical study with
them.
444
00:27:01,837 --> 00:27:05,885
I can picture their faces,
writing their grant
applications.
445
00:27:10,454 --> 00:27:13,719
People are irritating yet
fascinating.
446
00:27:15,068 --> 00:27:19,768
When I'm with another person,
the sound is mysterious.
447
00:27:20,639 --> 00:27:22,684
It doesn't fit the patterns
I've seen so far.
448
00:27:24,555 --> 00:27:26,296
What causes the changes?
449
00:27:27,820 --> 00:27:31,911
Does the human body have a
sound,
or does it vary by person?
450
00:27:32,999 --> 00:27:36,176
Does hair produce
a change different from eyes?
451
00:27:36,742 --> 00:27:40,484
Hell, do all 79 organs,
if we include the mesentery,
452
00:27:40,789 --> 00:27:42,138
have a unique sound?
453
00:27:43,574 --> 00:27:45,272
I began this project because
454
00:27:45,315 --> 00:27:47,927
I wanted to secure peace of
mind,
455
00:27:47,970 --> 00:27:54,063
but now I see this could be
important
to humanity as a whole.
456
00:27:54,760 --> 00:27:58,328
It is my moral duty to succeed,
457
00:27:59,286 --> 00:28:00,287
for me,
458
00:28:00,809 --> 00:28:01,680
for you,
459
00:28:02,506 --> 00:28:03,769
for us.
460
00:28:05,771 --> 00:28:06,772
Mother called again.
461
00:28:07,468 --> 00:28:09,688
More motivational slogans.
462
00:28:10,819 --> 00:28:13,735
More ginkgo.
463
00:28:19,262 --> 00:28:23,702
Mind doesn't understand,
it worships or fears.
464
00:28:25,704 --> 00:28:27,880
The Ancient Greeks believed
their gods
465
00:28:27,923 --> 00:28:32,885
lived on top of a climbable
hill,
and no one ever checked.
466
00:28:35,017 --> 00:28:36,105
Got an answer.
467
00:28:37,411 --> 00:28:39,543
Hagendorfer referred me
to another therapist.
468
00:28:40,022 --> 00:28:42,155
Some psychiatrist over in
Casselberry.
469
00:28:42,633 --> 00:28:43,722
Called him.
470
00:28:44,244 --> 00:28:47,334
Blabbered something about
misophonia,
471
00:28:50,076 --> 00:28:51,904
and he wants me to take benzos.
472
00:28:52,818 --> 00:28:53,819
Really?
473
00:28:54,297 --> 00:28:55,429
Tranquilizers?
474
00:28:55,472 --> 00:28:56,822
Absolutely not.
475
00:28:57,518 --> 00:28:59,650
Benzodiazepine use
for subjective tinnitus
476
00:28:59,694 --> 00:29:01,478
does not have a robust evidence
base.
477
00:29:01,870 --> 00:29:04,351
Jufas and Wood,
Journal of Laryngology &
Otology,
478
00:29:04,394 --> 00:29:05,744
July 2015.
479
00:29:06,005 --> 00:29:07,746
The Cornell researchers just
sent me
480
00:29:07,789 --> 00:29:09,399
some dumb standard reply.
481
00:29:09,922 --> 00:29:11,662
Not even sure they finished
reading it.
482
00:29:12,359 --> 00:29:14,970
They're being offered
the chance of a lifetime.
483
00:29:15,405 --> 00:29:18,713
A truly significant discovery!
We could publish!
484
00:29:21,194 --> 00:29:22,848
Do they think I lost my mind?
485
00:29:24,806 --> 00:29:28,157
The problem is that I can't lose
my mind.
486
00:29:28,897 --> 00:29:30,551
It's inescapable.
487
00:29:31,291 --> 00:29:34,947
It is a testament to my will
that I don't give in,
488
00:29:34,990 --> 00:29:38,820
that I don't medicate in some
meth motel,
my teeth in ruins,
489
00:29:38,864 --> 00:29:43,651
my skin like moldy bark,
my hollow eyes like a mollusk.
490
00:29:45,522 --> 00:29:46,872
I'm alone.
491
00:29:47,524 --> 00:29:52,616
My debilitation cost me
my first serious relationship
492
00:29:52,965 --> 00:29:56,185
because my partner couldn't
handle
my emotional distress.
493
00:29:56,925 --> 00:29:58,709
He blamed it on my psyche too.
494
00:29:59,275 --> 00:30:01,582
He chose not to believe me.
495
00:30:02,626 --> 00:30:06,108
That fuckin coward broke my
heart.
496
00:30:10,199 --> 00:30:13,812
I know that no amount of belief
makes something a fact.
497
00:30:14,377 --> 00:30:20,775
If I'm going to convince the
world,
I need undeniable proof.
498
00:30:23,909 --> 00:30:26,172
I've decided
to switch to a different
experiment.
499
00:30:28,217 --> 00:30:30,350
It is time to replicate the
conditions
500
00:30:30,393 --> 00:30:32,700
of September 16th, 2016.
501
00:30:34,484 --> 00:30:37,313
I've changed the setup to mirror
the lab desk at UCF physics
502
00:30:37,357 --> 00:30:40,534
I was working on
that fateful day three years
ago.
503
00:30:41,448 --> 00:30:43,711
I even called Al-Wathiq,
my old professor,
504
00:30:43,754 --> 00:30:45,191
to ask him to recreate the
setting.
505
00:30:45,756 --> 00:30:48,934
He was reluctant,
but some friendly fellows at
FamiLAB
506
00:30:48,977 --> 00:30:50,892
in Longwood helped me borrow
equipment.
507
00:30:53,852 --> 00:30:56,550
All that remains
is to repeat the experiment.
508
00:31:00,902 --> 00:31:02,512
I'm a nerd through and through.
509
00:31:03,731 --> 00:31:06,777
Not necessarily in the way
that I enjoy discussions,
510
00:31:06,821 --> 00:31:09,650
whether it's canon that Klingons
have two dicks or not,
511
00:31:09,693 --> 00:31:14,046
it's about a mindset,
a positive obsessiveness.
512
00:31:15,134 --> 00:31:17,005
I always took meticulous notes
in college
513
00:31:17,049 --> 00:31:18,354
and saved everything.
514
00:31:19,181 --> 00:31:20,966
Some are here up on the
cupboard,
515
00:31:21,009 --> 00:31:23,229
but most of it is in my mother's
attic.
516
00:31:25,013 --> 00:31:27,363
This past weekend,
I took a car trip there,
517
00:31:29,626 --> 00:31:32,368
and noise grating on me the
entire time,
518
00:31:32,412 --> 00:31:34,457
becoming less tolerable by the
minute.
519
00:31:36,590 --> 00:31:39,593
Mother forced gingko on me,
520
00:31:40,072 --> 00:31:42,422
but her acupuncturist boyfriend
wasn't there.
521
00:31:43,031 --> 00:31:43,945
Small mercies.
522
00:31:44,859 --> 00:31:46,165
It turns out, by the way,
523
00:31:46,600 --> 00:31:48,950
his main job is dishwashing
at an Olive Garden.
524
00:31:50,473 --> 00:31:52,519
I guess he'll poke me
with unlimited breadsticks.
525
00:31:55,435 --> 00:31:58,525
Anyways,
I retrieved my notes from the
attic,
526
00:31:59,004 --> 00:32:02,659
so I know exactly
which frequencies I tried.
527
00:32:06,011 --> 00:32:08,361
Here's the Voltcraft frequency
generator,
528
00:32:09,710 --> 00:32:12,887
and the test setup using
an old speaker and salt
crystals.
529
00:32:15,542 --> 00:32:19,067
Now, performing the steps
exactly
as I did three years ago,
530
00:32:20,286 --> 00:32:22,375
starting with 155 hertz.
531
00:32:33,125 --> 00:32:34,648
Nothing has changed.
532
00:32:36,911 --> 00:32:40,132
Back then,
when I hit the fifth frequency
cycle,
533
00:32:40,610 --> 00:32:43,962
I observed a visual distortion
of my surroundings,
534
00:32:44,527 --> 00:32:47,487
like the world was dipped
in a bad Instagram filter.
535
00:32:48,749 --> 00:32:53,623
High contrast, red echoes,
dark particles, jittery halos.
536
00:32:54,233 --> 00:32:56,017
I noticed it on the fabric of my
shirt,
537
00:32:56,496 --> 00:32:59,107
but it lasted
for only two or three seconds.
538
00:33:00,543 --> 00:33:05,026
Then a hum started up in my ears
like someone plugged me
539
00:33:05,070 --> 00:33:06,549
into a faulty audio channel,
540
00:33:06,897 --> 00:33:10,727
and this hum persisted
even when I turn the equipment
off.
541
00:33:12,599 --> 00:33:15,558
Today, however, nothing
happened.
542
00:33:17,256 --> 00:33:18,605
It's frustrating.
543
00:33:22,043 --> 00:33:23,827
Did I set something in motion?
544
00:33:25,394 --> 00:33:27,918
Did the incident alter my
physiognomy?
545
00:33:30,138 --> 00:33:31,444
If that's the case then,
546
00:33:33,054 --> 00:33:34,664
I need someone else
who might respond in the same
way.
547
00:33:36,797 --> 00:33:39,843
Although I hate to inflict
this misery upon another person.
548
00:33:41,323 --> 00:33:43,064
It's the only way we can find
answers.
549
00:33:44,152 --> 00:33:45,719
I need to give it to someone.
550
00:33:52,204 --> 00:33:54,119
Dana will be joining me today.
551
00:33:54,945 --> 00:33:56,730
I met her when putting trash
outside.
552
00:33:58,340 --> 00:34:02,692
She keeps talking to me
and seems to be interested.
553
00:34:04,129 --> 00:34:06,218
I don't reciprocate, of course,
554
00:34:06,827 --> 00:34:11,919
but I took advantage
to make her sit through the
experiment.
555
00:34:14,269 --> 00:34:15,314
You hear that?
556
00:34:16,228 --> 00:34:18,708
- Besides the metal plate
vibrating, no.
557
00:34:19,492 --> 00:34:20,797
You're not hearing any humming?
558
00:34:20,841 --> 00:34:22,190
It's all around us.
559
00:34:23,583 --> 00:34:25,672
- No.
I don't hear it.
560
00:34:25,715 --> 00:34:26,673
- No,
but there's no way.
561
00:34:26,716 --> 00:34:28,153
You have to be hearing it.
562
00:34:31,634 --> 00:34:32,853
- Nothing?
- No.
563
00:34:36,378 --> 00:34:37,771
Failure on all levels.
564
00:34:41,644 --> 00:34:45,387
I realized I might have been
a factor of disruption.
565
00:34:46,258 --> 00:34:49,130
Dana needs to be in the lab
alone.
566
00:34:50,175 --> 00:34:54,701
I'll have to play out my charm
to convince her to return.
567
00:34:56,268 --> 00:34:59,053
Good.
568
00:34:59,445 --> 00:35:03,623
Dana thinks that she failed,
so she is highly motivated.
569
00:35:05,233 --> 00:35:06,713
This time,
570
00:35:06,756 --> 00:35:08,889
I walked her through the
experiment steps
multiple times
571
00:35:08,932 --> 00:35:10,325
so she can conduct it alone.
572
00:35:10,369 --> 00:35:12,153
I'm recording everything though.
573
00:35:20,292 --> 00:35:22,511
- Dana,
how did you do this time?
574
00:35:22,555 --> 00:35:23,643
Well,
575
00:35:25,035 --> 00:35:26,167
Did you hear it?
576
00:35:26,602 --> 00:35:27,516
No.
577
00:35:27,560 --> 00:35:29,039
Did you follow all the steps
578
00:35:29,083 --> 00:35:30,432
I laid out the way I told you to
do it?
579
00:35:30,693 --> 00:35:31,825
Dude, there was nothing.
580
00:35:31,868 --> 00:35:33,522
How about visual effects?
581
00:35:33,566 --> 00:35:35,916
Like red particles, halos,
anything
582
00:35:35,959 --> 00:35:38,092
You ...noticing ...on your shirt
anything at all?
583
00:35:38,136 --> 00:35:39,137
No.
584
00:35:39,441 --> 00:35:41,269
What are you trying to--
585
00:35:42,314 --> 00:35:43,271
Leave now.
586
00:35:43,315 --> 00:35:43,837
Okay.
587
00:35:43,880 --> 00:35:44,794
You're done.
588
00:35:44,838 --> 00:35:46,622
There's no need to scream.
589
00:35:50,626 --> 00:35:52,498
I was certain it would work.
590
00:35:55,153 --> 00:35:58,852
Well, if life gives you
lemonade,
591
00:35:58,895 --> 00:36:01,376
inspect it closely, it might be
piss.
592
00:36:04,292 --> 00:36:06,076
I'm so tired.
593
00:36:07,252 --> 00:36:09,254
Took a deliberate overdose
594
00:36:09,297 --> 00:36:12,518
of 100 milligrams of
melatonin.
595
00:36:15,303 --> 00:36:18,915
Dreamt a dinosaur squished me
and used me as lube.
596
00:36:21,570 --> 00:36:23,790
My brain chemistry
has a sick kind of humor.
597
00:36:27,533 --> 00:36:29,317
After I thought everything over,
598
00:36:29,622 --> 00:36:31,754
I realize the experiment's
flawed.
599
00:36:32,015 --> 00:36:33,103
It's a dead end.
600
00:36:33,974 --> 00:36:35,236
There is no way for me
601
00:36:35,280 --> 00:36:38,021
to really reproduce all the
variables.
602
00:36:39,849 --> 00:36:43,810
Was it pure chance that my
problems
started during the experiment?
603
00:36:44,985 --> 00:36:47,553
An uncountable number of
students
have had to perform
604
00:36:47,596 --> 00:36:48,989
that same experiment over the
years.
605
00:36:49,032 --> 00:36:50,295
It's standard.
606
00:36:52,210 --> 00:36:55,691
I didn't put my head
in a particle accelerator,
dammit.
607
00:36:58,085 --> 00:36:59,260
What am I missing?
608
00:37:02,655 --> 00:37:04,222
Done with delivery pizza.
609
00:37:04,439 --> 00:37:06,789
Need to minimize human
interaction.
610
00:37:07,790 --> 00:37:10,228
Switching
to Soylent meal-replacement
powder.
611
00:37:10,750 --> 00:37:12,578
One delivery per month.
612
00:37:16,321 --> 00:37:18,061
My dad was an odd bird.
613
00:37:19,149 --> 00:37:22,718
Once,
I asked him to tell me a scary
story,
614
00:37:23,850 --> 00:37:27,288
and he looked at me and said,
with his deep voice,
615
00:37:29,377 --> 00:37:34,295
"Son, today I took a dump,
and as I looked down at my poop,
616
00:37:36,254 --> 00:37:37,603
Is that corn?
617
00:37:38,430 --> 00:37:42,434
Spooky thing is,
I haven't eaten corn in years."
618
00:37:44,305 --> 00:37:45,611
Curtain falls.
619
00:37:45,654 --> 00:37:47,047
Applause.
620
00:37:47,090 --> 00:37:48,527
My dad.
621
00:37:51,530 --> 00:37:55,098
Turned out he had Schistosoma,
parasitic flatworms.
622
00:37:57,753 --> 00:37:59,189
Two months later, he was dead,
623
00:38:00,582 --> 00:38:02,236
but not from the parasites,
624
00:38:03,585 --> 00:38:04,804
just cancer.
625
00:38:08,111 --> 00:38:10,549
Part of the problem
is I struggle to describe
626
00:38:10,592 --> 00:38:11,854
what I'm hearing.
627
00:38:11,898 --> 00:38:13,508
Words can only do so much,
628
00:38:14,335 --> 00:38:17,773
so I used software
to replicate the sounds.
629
00:38:19,688 --> 00:38:20,689
Listen.
630
00:38:25,215 --> 00:38:27,783
Yes, this is fairly close to the
one
631
00:38:27,827 --> 00:38:30,220
I call the sound of silence.
632
00:38:32,266 --> 00:38:34,486
Now, I want you to hear what it
sounds
633
00:38:34,529 --> 00:38:36,575
when I walk around in my house
634
00:38:42,407 --> 00:38:44,060
and onto the street.
635
00:38:54,288 --> 00:38:55,463
This is my world.
636
00:38:56,203 --> 00:38:57,987
I am sharing this recording
online.
637
00:39:01,991 --> 00:39:05,430
Setting up cheese and bread
for future studies.
638
00:39:06,213 --> 00:39:09,390
Sprinkling water over them
and sealing them in Tupperware.
639
00:39:10,435 --> 00:39:11,958
I need them ripe.
640
00:39:16,832 --> 00:39:19,182
My audio upload's gotten
a lot of comments.
641
00:39:19,226 --> 00:39:20,096
Read them all.
642
00:39:20,880 --> 00:39:22,272
Weak shit.
643
00:39:27,234 --> 00:39:28,757
Mother sent a message.
644
00:39:29,715 --> 00:39:33,327
She glued crystals
to her car's steering wheel
645
00:39:33,893 --> 00:39:35,329
for positive energy.
646
00:39:37,070 --> 00:39:38,941
Nothing says positive energy
647
00:39:38,985 --> 00:39:41,509
like adding shrapnel to your
airbag.
648
00:39:42,597 --> 00:39:44,294
I can't deal with her shit
anymore.
649
00:39:45,252 --> 00:39:46,645
Blocking her.
650
00:39:52,825 --> 00:39:54,696
I needed to buy a new
toothbrush,
651
00:39:54,740 --> 00:39:56,481
decided to drive to Winn-Dixie.
652
00:39:58,787 --> 00:40:00,006
Disturbing experience.
653
00:40:00,702 --> 00:40:01,921
It's crowded.
654
00:40:03,357 --> 00:40:04,532
I aborted halfway.
655
00:40:06,229 --> 00:40:08,014
Dental hygiene is a secondary
concern
in my life right now.
656
00:40:08,057 --> 00:40:10,669
If necessary,
I'll shop via Amazon.
657
00:40:13,106 --> 00:40:14,890
Did you know that the founder of
Amazon
658
00:40:14,934 --> 00:40:17,676
originally wanted
to call his company Cadabra,
659
00:40:17,719 --> 00:40:19,417
as in abracadabra?
660
00:40:20,853 --> 00:40:24,378
He scrapped the idea
after someone misheard it as
Cadaver.
661
00:40:27,294 --> 00:40:29,992
How does life itself influence
the sound?
662
00:40:31,211 --> 00:40:34,432
Let's start as basic as it gets,
cyanobacteria.
663
00:40:34,997 --> 00:40:36,390
Blue-green algae.
664
00:40:37,652 --> 00:40:39,175
Fascinating.
665
00:40:40,394 --> 00:40:43,179
It's got arthrospira,
the main organism in Spirulina.
666
00:40:44,093 --> 00:40:46,444
Asked Dana to buy me
a bottle at Whole Foods.
667
00:40:48,489 --> 00:40:50,665
My mother would be so proud.
668
00:40:52,667 --> 00:40:56,236
Being in a crowd makes the sound
almost unbearable.
669
00:40:58,107 --> 00:41:01,589
Idea, how much no algae do I
need
670
00:41:01,633 --> 00:41:04,070
before I can mimic that and find
out
671
00:41:04,113 --> 00:41:05,767
if it's just amplification or,
672
00:41:08,553 --> 00:41:10,685
My boss is calling.
673
00:41:15,734 --> 00:41:18,171
He was friendly
but more tense than usual,
674
00:41:19,651 --> 00:41:21,217
but I can't go back now.
675
00:41:21,261 --> 00:41:22,392
Impossible.
676
00:41:24,743 --> 00:41:25,613
Where was I?
677
00:41:26,440 --> 00:41:27,789
Oh yes, the algae.
678
00:41:30,923 --> 00:41:33,099
There is a hum that reminds me
679
00:41:33,142 --> 00:41:34,622
of when I'm around other people.
680
00:41:36,537 --> 00:41:38,191
Is it the sound of life?
681
00:41:39,497 --> 00:41:41,542
No,
but algae are such basic
organisms.
682
00:41:41,890 --> 00:41:44,937
I'm surrounded by myriads
of one-celled organisms.
683
00:41:46,982 --> 00:41:49,202
The first self-replicating
molecule
684
00:41:49,245 --> 00:41:52,771
that emerged from chemical soup
four billion years ago
685
00:41:53,380 --> 00:41:56,035
set us on a course of copying
that led to us.
686
00:41:57,384 --> 00:41:59,952
We are that which copies.
687
00:42:00,692 --> 00:42:02,911
Without it, we would be gone.
688
00:42:03,782 --> 00:42:05,348
Copying is the thing
689
00:42:05,392 --> 00:42:08,221
that distinguishes dumb matter
from life.
690
00:42:09,570 --> 00:42:12,573
Evolution is often portrayed
as a ladder of progress,
691
00:42:12,834 --> 00:42:17,099
leading toward bigger, faster,
and smarter organisms,
692
00:42:17,143 --> 00:42:20,189
the assumption being that
evolution
drives organisms
693
00:42:20,233 --> 00:42:24,542
to gain complexity and
ultimately
become more like humans.
694
00:42:26,152 --> 00:42:27,370
I'm not sure about that.
695
00:42:28,981 --> 00:42:32,071
I think evolution
is driven toward
diversification.
696
00:42:33,202 --> 00:42:36,466
Life is constrained
to a simple starting point,
bacteria.
697
00:42:36,989 --> 00:42:39,600
Any diversity resulting
from this simple start
698
00:42:40,079 --> 00:42:43,430
has a skewed distribution
and moves in the direction
699
00:42:43,473 --> 00:42:44,562
of higher complexity.
700
00:42:45,258 --> 00:42:47,956
99% of living beings on this
planet
701
00:42:48,000 --> 00:42:49,784
are single-celled organisms.
702
00:42:50,480 --> 00:42:53,396
Multicellular life
is a statistical anomaly.
703
00:42:56,530 --> 00:42:58,880
It's a small world after all.
704
00:43:01,970 --> 00:43:05,495
Do I hear all of them?
705
00:43:09,499 --> 00:43:11,023
All the single cells around me?
706
00:43:12,372 --> 00:43:15,027
What about small but complex
organisms?
707
00:43:17,159 --> 00:43:21,468
I read that dozens of mites
live on every hair on my face,
708
00:43:21,903 --> 00:43:24,993
quietly gorging themselves
on my natural oils.
709
00:43:26,691 --> 00:43:30,564
Not even mentioning all the
critters
that live inside me.
710
00:43:32,740 --> 00:43:34,263
My dad used to say,
711
00:43:35,003 --> 00:43:38,224
life isn't a battle between good
and bad,
712
00:43:38,790 --> 00:43:41,575
but between bad and worse.
713
00:43:44,491 --> 00:43:46,145
I started growing algae in my
bathtub.
714
00:43:47,102 --> 00:43:49,670
Aiming at 165 pounds.
715
00:43:51,759 --> 00:43:53,195
Not the best smell,
716
00:43:53,239 --> 00:43:56,111
but it's the closest I've found
to mirror the changes
717
00:43:56,155 --> 00:43:57,896
when I'm with one person.
718
00:44:00,942 --> 00:44:02,378
Heavily constipated.
719
00:44:02,770 --> 00:44:04,554
Possible side-effect of Soylent.
720
00:44:06,121 --> 00:44:08,254
Bristol stool chart type 1.
721
00:44:12,301 --> 00:44:16,654
I've introduced plant life,
lush specimen from outside.
722
00:44:17,785 --> 00:44:19,744
The upside of pretty much
living in a swamp.
723
00:44:21,833 --> 00:44:23,443
At a population level,
724
00:44:23,486 --> 00:44:25,532
species seek to maximize their
numbers
725
00:44:25,575 --> 00:44:30,102
by exploiting and bending
to their will the
vulnerabilities
726
00:44:30,145 --> 00:44:31,973
of other organisms in the niche.
727
00:44:33,018 --> 00:44:35,673
Professor Al-Wathiq told us
in his biophysics class
728
00:44:36,064 --> 00:44:39,807
that we could say that plants
are actually farming us
729
00:44:40,808 --> 00:44:42,897
by giving us oxygen daily
730
00:44:42,941 --> 00:44:45,247
until we all eventually
decompose
731
00:44:46,640 --> 00:44:48,424
so that they can consume us.
732
00:44:49,817 --> 00:44:52,907
Plants have the hum I've come
to associate with living things,
733
00:44:54,387 --> 00:44:56,432
but it's not the same as the
algae.
734
00:44:59,044 --> 00:45:00,436
Trying to focus and listen.
735
00:45:03,483 --> 00:45:06,791
I'll be able to tell if any
plants
are in a room
736
00:45:07,269 --> 00:45:10,098
merely by how the sound changes.
737
00:45:11,665 --> 00:45:13,058
When I began these experiments,
738
00:45:13,362 --> 00:45:14,668
multiple objects in a room
739
00:45:14,712 --> 00:45:16,888
caused an indistinguishable
blending.
740
00:45:17,715 --> 00:45:19,891
Now, I can hear the differences
741
00:45:19,934 --> 00:45:22,371
and pick out the sounds of each
item.
742
00:45:25,374 --> 00:45:27,420
Every sound alarms.
743
00:45:29,552 --> 00:45:32,468
I'm exhausted but very
optimistic.
744
00:45:33,948 --> 00:45:36,211
Here,
a bamboo plant I got at IKEA.
745
00:45:36,472 --> 00:45:38,692
it's been sitting in my living
room
for some time.
746
00:45:41,869 --> 00:45:45,786
A dead plant has distinct
differences
from a living plant.
747
00:45:48,136 --> 00:45:49,834
It's another unsettling sound.
748
00:45:50,748 --> 00:45:52,837
The sound lacks the element
749
00:45:52,880 --> 00:45:54,839
that has in common with algae
and people.
750
00:45:55,840 --> 00:45:57,842
That is indeed the sound of
life.
751
00:45:58,799 --> 00:46:00,322
When does it change?
752
00:46:02,281 --> 00:46:03,891
It's time for the next step.
753
00:46:08,156 --> 00:46:10,332
Yes, yes, there's a change.
754
00:46:12,204 --> 00:46:14,859
Plants don't necessarily die
when we chop them up,
755
00:46:14,902 --> 00:46:17,296
but there is a change.
756
00:46:18,384 --> 00:46:21,561
I read that the smell of
fresh-cut grass
I like so much
757
00:46:21,604 --> 00:46:23,781
is a chemical distress signal.
758
00:46:24,390 --> 00:46:26,958
It's the smell of terror and
death.
759
00:46:28,046 --> 00:46:30,657
It must be comparable
to what I'm hearing now.
760
00:46:32,920 --> 00:46:34,530
The onset of death.
761
00:46:38,578 --> 00:46:40,188
Constipation persists.
762
00:46:50,242 --> 00:46:51,809
Try to drain the bathtub.
763
00:46:52,810 --> 00:46:54,202
The algae clogged it.
764
00:46:57,118 --> 00:46:58,772
That hair from the drain?
765
00:47:01,557 --> 00:47:03,821
Guess it's sponge baths in the
kitchen
for now.
766
00:47:08,521 --> 00:47:09,739
Switching to fungi.
767
00:47:10,915 --> 00:47:13,221
Getting back to the cheese and
bread
I set up
768
00:47:13,265 --> 00:47:15,658
for maximum fungal grow.
769
00:47:17,922 --> 00:47:19,488
Fungi always intrigued me.
770
00:47:20,402 --> 00:47:23,014
The largest known living
organism
is a mushroom.
771
00:47:24,276 --> 00:47:29,150
It's 2400-years-old
and covers over 2000 acres.
772
00:47:30,108 --> 00:47:35,200
mold on the International Space
Station
survives 200 times
773
00:47:35,243 --> 00:47:36,897
the radiation that would kill a
human.
774
00:47:40,118 --> 00:47:42,511
Fungi are separate
from plants and animals.
775
00:47:43,077 --> 00:47:45,863
I can hear the difference
clearly.
776
00:47:47,212 --> 00:47:49,475
The fungus has a sound of its
own.
777
00:47:52,478 --> 00:47:55,220
How long will it take
before I can detect differences
778
00:47:55,263 --> 00:47:57,483
between individuals species?
779
00:47:58,963 --> 00:48:02,531
Meanwhile, my online ventures
remain less fruitful
780
00:48:02,575 --> 00:48:03,619
than I hoped.
781
00:48:05,273 --> 00:48:09,016
Some trolls have even started
to bombard me with bad memes.
782
00:48:09,625 --> 00:48:12,672
Condescending Willy Wonka my
hairy ass.
783
00:48:13,194 --> 00:48:14,717
Urgh.
784
00:48:17,068 --> 00:48:18,286
They can keep laughing at me.
785
00:48:18,939 --> 00:48:22,725
It reflects their bigotry,
their ignorance.
786
00:48:27,208 --> 00:48:29,297
People like to tell the funny
story
787
00:48:29,558 --> 00:48:33,345
that NASA invested millions
into creating a ballpoint pen
788
00:48:33,388 --> 00:48:35,173
that could write in zero
gravity.
789
00:48:35,564 --> 00:48:38,089
The Soviets, the story goes,
790
00:48:41,701 --> 00:48:43,268
just used a pencil.
791
00:48:44,312 --> 00:48:46,619
Boom. Shh. Rimshot.
792
00:48:50,710 --> 00:48:54,453
The fact is NASA never invested
money
in a pen.
793
00:49:01,808 --> 00:49:04,593
After a fire broke out in the
Apollo 1
794
00:49:05,159 --> 00:49:07,727
incinerating the three
astronauts,
795
00:49:08,423 --> 00:49:11,296
burning plastic sticking to
their skin,
796
00:49:11,339 --> 00:49:12,950
eating away their flesh,
797
00:49:13,733 --> 00:49:17,345
turning them into toxic ash
and blackened bones,
798
00:49:18,564 --> 00:49:20,653
neither Americans nor Russians
799
00:49:20,696 --> 00:49:23,656
wanted flammable material
aboard a spacecraft
800
00:49:24,483 --> 00:49:27,225
and certainly nothing
that contained graphite.
801
00:49:29,967 --> 00:49:32,012
The last laugh is on the
knowing.
802
00:49:33,492 --> 00:49:34,972
No exception.
803
00:49:39,063 --> 00:49:42,544
Introducing lichen has opened up
a new avenue of thought.
804
00:49:43,328 --> 00:49:45,504
I've been fascinated
by lichen all my life.
805
00:49:46,505 --> 00:49:49,290
Lichen is the perfect answer
to harsh environments.
806
00:49:49,682 --> 00:49:51,466
Pure efficiency.
807
00:49:51,858 --> 00:49:55,688
It's a symbiosis of two
organisms,
algae, and fungus.
808
00:49:57,907 --> 00:50:01,259
I expected the lichen
to have a mix of sounds,
809
00:50:01,868 --> 00:50:03,826
but the lichen has a unique
sound.
810
00:50:05,654 --> 00:50:08,309
Can the relationship
between the organisms affect the
sound?
811
00:50:12,792 --> 00:50:15,403
The pitch changes
are close to each other.
812
00:50:17,710 --> 00:50:20,539
It's as if they know
they could become lichen.
813
00:50:21,888 --> 00:50:26,197
Do algae and fungi recognize
each other?
814
00:50:30,114 --> 00:50:32,333
I'm on the brink of a major
discovery.
815
00:50:33,117 --> 00:50:36,816
Not just about my condition,
but about life itself.
816
00:50:38,035 --> 00:50:40,559
My research opens up
a new world of possibilities
817
00:50:40,602 --> 00:50:41,995
I hadn't even considered.
818
00:50:47,653 --> 00:50:48,610
Dana got a new dog.
819
00:50:49,220 --> 00:50:50,699
Yaps like hell.
820
00:50:54,790 --> 00:50:56,488
I can't focus.
821
00:50:57,184 --> 00:51:00,796
It took humans only 10,000 years
to turn a wolf into,
822
00:51:01,188 --> 00:51:02,624
essentially, a rat.
823
00:51:04,148 --> 00:51:06,672
I've begun researching
how to soundproof my walls.
824
00:51:09,196 --> 00:51:11,590
I even visited an online
soundproofing community
825
00:51:11,633 --> 00:51:13,374
and explained my situation.
826
00:51:14,419 --> 00:51:16,160
Ignoramuses.
827
00:51:16,725 --> 00:51:19,250
Seems the only way to get
the right answer on the internet
828
00:51:19,293 --> 00:51:21,121
is to post the wrong answer.
829
00:51:22,122 --> 00:51:23,036
I hate it,
830
00:51:24,559 --> 00:51:28,085
but I need to visit the infernal
chaos
of Home Depot.
831
00:51:40,532 --> 00:51:41,968
Reality denied...
832
00:51:42,621 --> 00:51:43,709
comes back...
833
00:51:45,058 --> 00:51:46,407
to haunt.
834
00:51:48,975 --> 00:51:52,370
That was a painful process,
but at last,
835
00:51:52,935 --> 00:51:55,547
I managed to block out the
outside world.
836
00:51:56,939 --> 00:51:59,464
I put my mattress for my
labyrinth
so I can sleep here now.
837
00:52:00,291 --> 00:52:02,902
Did you know the Simpsons
has been on so long,
838
00:52:02,945 --> 00:52:05,122
Bart should now be Homer's age?
839
00:52:07,254 --> 00:52:10,039
Will try my masturbation
to rebalance my cortisol levels.
840
00:52:10,779 --> 00:52:12,825
We'll take notes in an Excel
spreadsheet.
841
00:52:16,263 --> 00:52:18,309
The sound seems sharper now.
842
00:52:19,397 --> 00:52:21,834
I feel like I could understand
it
if I concentrated enough.
843
00:52:24,141 --> 00:52:26,273
Stranger,
that's made it harder to fall
asleep.
844
00:52:28,057 --> 00:52:31,104
The sound is always present
but my isolation makes it
845
00:52:31,148 --> 00:52:32,410
even more noticeable.
846
00:52:33,976 --> 00:52:37,850
At night it's just me the sound
and its countless changes
847
00:52:37,893 --> 00:52:39,373
pulling me from my rest.
848
00:52:40,853 --> 00:52:42,333
I feel the need to adjust
myself,
849
00:52:42,376 --> 00:52:44,857
to harden myself against the
barrage.
850
00:52:47,947 --> 00:52:48,948
It helps.
851
00:52:50,167 --> 00:52:51,733
I can make out the subtlest
changes now.
852
00:52:51,777 --> 00:52:57,261
It's almost like a conversation.
853
00:52:58,305 --> 00:52:59,480
Oh my God,
854
00:53:01,743 --> 00:53:03,528
I know it sounds crazy.
855
00:53:03,571 --> 00:53:06,444
Why would cells need to speak
to one another
856
00:53:06,487 --> 00:53:08,794
beyond the chemical exchange
defined by genetics?
857
00:53:09,186 --> 00:53:12,232
Yet, with the silence around me
I can feel it.
858
00:53:12,798 --> 00:53:14,539
It's clearer all the time.
859
00:53:15,453 --> 00:53:18,195
The sound changes on its own.
860
00:53:20,022 --> 00:53:21,372
Leave, now.
861
00:53:22,982 --> 00:53:25,811
- My dad have a violent temper
and his tour in Iraq
862
00:53:26,115 --> 00:53:27,247
made it worse.
863
00:53:28,944 --> 00:53:31,382
With both of his legs and
two-thirds
of his penis missing,
864
00:53:31,773 --> 00:53:33,688
the only upside was he couldn't
catch me.
865
00:53:34,907 --> 00:53:38,476
He became a marksman at throwing
things,
and it shows.
866
00:53:41,827 --> 00:53:46,135
I hid a lot, in books, in tree
houses,
in our basement.
867
00:53:47,963 --> 00:53:49,226
More or less successful,
868
00:53:50,270 --> 00:53:52,490
but I think I can finally
embrace it.
869
00:53:54,883 --> 00:53:58,583
I exist in agreement
with all the weird turmoil
870
00:53:58,626 --> 00:54:01,325
and destruction
that is part of being alive.
871
00:54:03,631 --> 00:54:04,850
I'm home.
872
00:54:06,982 --> 00:54:08,941
Home isn't where you're born.
873
00:54:09,594 --> 00:54:13,250
It's where all your attempts
to escape cease.
874
00:54:17,863 --> 00:54:20,257
Need to move on to a higher life
form.
875
00:54:21,301 --> 00:54:25,523
Pogonomyrmex barbatus.
Florida harvester ants.
876
00:54:26,350 --> 00:54:28,395
Found a bunch on my porch
near the kitchen.
877
00:54:29,744 --> 00:54:31,311
Feisty creatures.
878
00:54:32,356 --> 00:54:35,837
Building a little jail for them.
879
00:54:37,578 --> 00:54:40,320
Ants communicate with each other
on a chemical level.
880
00:54:40,799 --> 00:54:43,323
They belong to a hive mind
and perform tasks
881
00:54:43,367 --> 00:54:44,542
in accordance with it.
882
00:54:44,585 --> 00:54:46,457
That must be reflected in the
sound.
883
00:54:48,720 --> 00:54:51,375
The hum of life is there,
but different.
884
00:54:53,594 --> 00:54:56,728
As the ants move, the sound
changes.
885
00:54:57,903 --> 00:55:02,429
A tiny hum here,
a soft alteration of pitch
there,
886
00:55:05,171 --> 00:55:06,825
yet I can't see any connections
887
00:55:06,868 --> 00:55:08,348
with what the ants are doing.
888
00:55:11,177 --> 00:55:13,397
They're obviously in distress,
889
00:55:13,788 --> 00:55:15,486
fighting against the sticky
tape,
890
00:55:16,487 --> 00:55:18,358
yet they're struggling alone,
891
00:55:18,402 --> 00:55:20,317
no way to inform the hive mind.
892
00:55:21,535 --> 00:55:23,232
Could I see a pattern if I
understood
893
00:55:23,276 --> 00:55:24,625
the will of the hive mind?
894
00:55:27,585 --> 00:55:29,195
Observing them up close is
difficult.
895
00:55:30,022 --> 00:55:31,415
They keep moving.
896
00:55:31,458 --> 00:55:32,851
Why can't they stay still?
897
00:55:34,983 --> 00:55:36,594
I'm too tired for this.
898
00:55:36,942 --> 00:55:39,118
Sleep is a little slice of
death,
899
00:55:39,336 --> 00:55:40,989
but I can't help craving it.
900
00:55:42,034 --> 00:55:45,516
I've observed these jittery,
feculent insects long enough.
901
00:56:00,966 --> 00:56:03,751
I'm so happy
that that horrible screech
faded,
902
00:56:05,449 --> 00:56:06,798
that it isn't permanent.
903
00:56:07,886 --> 00:56:09,888
For a moment, I thought I might
go insane.
904
00:56:13,326 --> 00:56:14,806
Something isn't right.
905
00:56:15,328 --> 00:56:17,243
The sound has changed.
906
00:56:18,679 --> 00:56:20,377
It makes my hair stand on end.
907
00:56:21,465 --> 00:56:23,554
I feel very uncomfortable, on
edge,
908
00:56:24,816 --> 00:56:26,208
but I need to keep going.
909
00:56:28,036 --> 00:56:29,298
I need more ants.
910
00:56:30,909 --> 00:56:33,128
I turned off the air
conditioning
and started leaving food
911
00:56:33,172 --> 00:56:35,304
on the kitchen floor and in
here.
912
00:56:36,001 --> 00:56:39,396
94 Fahrenheit,
34.4 Celsius outside.
913
00:56:39,439 --> 00:56:40,266
Perfect.
914
00:56:40,919 --> 00:56:42,268
It should attract them.
915
00:56:44,531 --> 00:56:46,315
Good, fresh specimens.
916
00:56:47,491 --> 00:56:49,101
Trying to analyze what was going
on.
917
00:56:50,363 --> 00:56:51,190
First,
918
00:56:52,321 --> 00:56:53,453
I could hear the same change as
I did
919
00:56:53,497 --> 00:56:54,846
when I cut up the plant.
920
00:56:55,499 --> 00:56:58,719
The hum of life transitions
into the sound of death.
921
00:56:59,938 --> 00:57:02,462
What was that screeching sound?
922
00:57:04,029 --> 00:57:09,208
My hypothesis is that the other
ants
reacted systemically.
923
00:57:09,251 --> 00:57:10,862
When I killed the ant in front
of them
924
00:57:10,905 --> 00:57:13,386
their sounds changed
in response to its death.
925
00:57:14,779 --> 00:57:16,215
Nothing like that happened
with the plants,
926
00:57:16,258 --> 00:57:19,697
but plants aren't aware
in the same way insects are.
927
00:57:22,439 --> 00:57:24,571
It also explains the change in
the ants.
928
00:57:25,572 --> 00:57:27,444
Those that witnessed the death,
929
00:57:28,749 --> 00:57:31,535
did they recognize me
as the other ants killer?
930
00:57:32,492 --> 00:57:33,798
That can't be.
931
00:57:34,755 --> 00:57:37,715
I must be like a God to them
and there is no way
932
00:57:37,758 --> 00:57:39,499
they can recognize me.
933
00:57:41,414 --> 00:57:45,766
It's like the ants didn't know
but the sound did.
934
00:57:46,593 --> 00:57:50,597
Whatever it is,
it is not tinnitus.
935
00:57:51,598 --> 00:57:52,947
This is a triumph.
936
00:57:54,427 --> 00:57:55,733
I'm making a note here.
937
00:57:55,776 --> 00:57:57,430
Huge success.
938
00:57:57,822 --> 00:57:59,084
Reading my next report.
939
00:57:59,127 --> 00:58:00,825
The scientists have to realize,
940
00:58:00,868 --> 00:58:03,218
I couldn't imagine something
on this scale.
941
00:58:03,262 --> 00:58:05,351
How could I dream this up?
942
00:58:06,961 --> 00:58:09,181
I'm down to two hours of sleep a
day.
943
00:58:10,399 --> 00:58:13,881
A horrible screech in my skull
944
00:58:15,448 --> 00:58:21,541
keeps me in between worlds.
945
00:58:23,151 --> 00:58:23,935
Again?
946
00:58:24,892 --> 00:58:26,894
What do they want this time?
947
00:58:27,329 --> 00:58:28,722
I told my neighbors not to
bother me.
948
00:58:28,766 --> 00:58:30,681
Why did they keep disturbing me?
949
00:58:31,986 --> 00:58:33,640
It can't smell that bad.
950
00:58:37,818 --> 00:58:39,211
It took me some effort,
951
00:58:40,821 --> 00:58:43,607
but I managed to digitally
recreate
that horrible screech.
952
00:58:46,218 --> 00:58:48,176
The sound builds up.
953
00:58:50,309 --> 00:58:51,310
That's it.
954
00:58:51,789 --> 00:58:53,530
That's the sound that haunts me.
955
00:59:01,842 --> 00:59:04,497
The sound
as the ants witnessed the
killing.
956
00:59:05,498 --> 00:59:06,760
I'll share this online.
957
00:59:07,500 --> 00:59:10,068
Invisible things are the only
reality.
958
00:59:12,592 --> 00:59:14,072
Tried to catch geckos outside.
959
00:59:14,333 --> 00:59:15,334
Too fast.
960
00:59:16,117 --> 00:59:17,249
Slugs are easier.
961
00:59:18,859 --> 00:59:20,687
We'll attract them
with Bharat's hipster beer
overnight.
962
00:59:24,822 --> 00:59:26,214
Success.
963
00:59:27,172 --> 00:59:29,435
Florida has only a few species
that are native,
964
00:59:29,478 --> 00:59:32,525
but give me an invasive slug
from Europe any old day.
965
00:59:33,961 --> 00:59:36,311
Come on, Christopher Columbus.
966
00:59:38,575 --> 00:59:39,924
Why is there no relationship
967
00:59:39,967 --> 00:59:41,969
between the slug's actions and
the sound?
968
00:59:44,319 --> 00:59:46,278
Still, some patterns exist.
969
00:59:47,540 --> 00:59:49,760
The shifting from life to death
is the most obvious,
970
00:59:49,803 --> 00:59:51,805
but I've noticed more
971
00:59:52,676 --> 00:59:56,201
more than one creature together
also causes a change
972
00:59:56,767 --> 00:59:58,725
and the combination matters.
973
00:59:59,596 --> 01:00:02,642
Two slugs together sound
different
than a slug and an ant.
974
01:00:03,077 --> 01:00:06,167
Witnesses to a death suffer
a permanent change.
975
01:00:07,560 --> 01:00:09,214
Forget my earlier panic,
976
01:00:09,257 --> 01:00:12,173
the sound responded to the act
itself.
977
01:00:14,088 --> 01:00:17,439
This isn't something to fear,
but the proof I need.
978
01:00:19,528 --> 01:00:22,270
Suppose scientists
take a group of organisms
979
01:00:22,314 --> 01:00:24,751
into an isolated room
and kill one of them.
980
01:00:25,317 --> 01:00:27,232
Then, they bring me two groups,
981
01:00:27,275 --> 01:00:30,104
one that was present for the
slaughter
and one that was not.
982
01:00:30,931 --> 01:00:32,933
When I tell them definitively,
983
01:00:32,977 --> 01:00:34,674
which ones witnessed the death,
984
01:00:34,718 --> 01:00:36,633
they'll know I'm not making this
up.
985
01:00:37,764 --> 01:00:38,983
It won't end there either.
986
01:00:39,026 --> 01:00:41,115
This could be revolutionary
for the world.
987
01:00:41,638 --> 01:00:43,857
Imagine how crime investigations
might change
988
01:00:43,901 --> 01:00:46,512
once you can tell if someone
has witnessed death or not.
989
01:00:47,861 --> 01:00:49,820
Will I be able to help sick
people?
990
01:00:50,211 --> 01:00:52,431
Will I be able to really
accomplish
991
01:00:52,474 --> 01:00:56,174
what all new-age charlatans
out there claim they can?
992
01:00:56,957 --> 01:00:58,785
I might be getting ahead of
myself.
993
01:00:58,829 --> 01:01:01,135
I don't fully understand how
this works.
994
01:01:05,226 --> 01:01:07,664
These slugs are a variety of
ages.
995
01:01:09,622 --> 01:01:11,972
Is it the sound of death
building up
996
01:01:12,016 --> 01:01:14,366
in the slug's body as it ages?
997
01:01:16,368 --> 01:01:18,283
As it age itself?
998
01:01:21,286 --> 01:01:23,767
Amid all the snarky replies,
999
01:01:23,810 --> 01:01:27,292
someone online finally wants to
help.
1000
01:01:28,510 --> 01:01:31,775
His YouTube name is Lance,
Lance Liebenfels.
1001
01:01:34,299 --> 01:01:35,996
He replied to my latest video
and says
1002
01:01:36,040 --> 01:01:38,085
he thinks he knows what's going
on.
1003
01:01:38,825 --> 01:01:40,566
He wants more samples to
compare.
1004
01:01:43,351 --> 01:01:45,702
Have I finally found
someone else like me?
1005
01:01:49,749 --> 01:01:53,840
Just one thing I need to do,
for the sake of knowledge.
1006
01:01:54,798 --> 01:01:56,277
I don't have a choice.
1007
01:01:59,803 --> 01:02:01,456
The change in the ants,
1008
01:02:02,370 --> 01:02:04,024
I only tested it with them.
1009
01:02:10,770 --> 01:02:12,903
I need the slug to die slow
1010
01:02:14,643 --> 01:02:16,645
so it gives me time to observe.
1011
01:02:25,393 --> 01:02:26,873
The slug suffers,
1012
01:02:30,268 --> 01:02:31,356
definitely.
1013
01:02:36,840 --> 01:02:37,841
More salt
1014
01:02:39,930 --> 01:02:41,888
.
1015
01:02:46,066 --> 01:02:47,720
Yes, the same sound.
1016
01:02:48,590 --> 01:02:53,073
It's the same eldritch sound
.
1017
01:03:01,342 --> 01:03:03,170
My previous experiment confirmed
it.
1018
01:03:03,214 --> 01:03:05,738
The sound was the same
as when I killed the ant.
1019
01:03:06,913 --> 01:03:09,481
We will keep a slug alive in the
cup
just to be safe
1020
01:03:11,570 --> 01:03:13,485
and I'll put the rest in the
freezer.
1021
01:03:19,578 --> 01:03:22,015
Not now,
I can't have any distractions
now.
1022
01:03:24,017 --> 01:03:25,627
At least,
I've taken the first step.
1023
01:03:26,803 --> 01:03:30,981
Death has a detectable,
repeatable sound.
1024
01:03:32,809 --> 01:03:34,593
Although there seems to be a
difference
1025
01:03:34,636 --> 01:03:36,160
in the quality of death.
1026
01:03:41,600 --> 01:03:43,907
One thing that keeps me going
is Liebenfels,
1027
01:03:44,342 --> 01:03:45,996
my online ally.
1028
01:03:47,519 --> 01:03:49,826
He's a weird fellow,
but he makes me laugh.
1029
01:03:51,479 --> 01:03:52,785
I connect with him.
1030
01:03:54,526 --> 01:03:56,789
He doesn't call me "Florida
Man".
1031
01:03:59,923 --> 01:04:01,925
The first time
I was confronted with death
1032
01:04:01,968 --> 01:04:04,536
was when I was 11 or 12.
1033
01:04:05,624 --> 01:04:08,061
I visited my grandparents
in North Carolina.
1034
01:04:08,975 --> 01:04:10,759
They were some true,
1035
01:04:10,803 --> 01:04:14,241
boiled goober peas-eating
Southern farmers.
1036
01:04:15,852 --> 01:04:19,072
Grandpa took me to the barn
and caught one of his chickens.
1037
01:04:19,812 --> 01:04:22,162
He held it and told me to kill
it.
1038
01:04:22,641 --> 01:04:24,599
Some weird rite of passage.
1039
01:04:25,949 --> 01:04:28,995
I think he wanted me to break
its neck
with my hands.
1040
01:04:30,083 --> 01:04:31,650
Instead,
1041
01:04:31,693 --> 01:04:34,522
I took the little plastic water
pistol
I had in my pocket
1042
01:04:34,566 --> 01:04:36,220
and began to hit its head with
it.
1043
01:04:37,961 --> 01:04:39,658
The chicken stared at me.
1044
01:04:41,094 --> 01:04:43,096
Although it knew the end was
near,
1045
01:04:43,140 --> 01:04:46,926
its eyes were full of absolute
disdain and pity.
1046
01:04:48,667 --> 01:04:52,410
I have never ever seen a being
look at me that way.
1047
01:04:54,455 --> 01:04:57,458
"What the hell are you doing?
1048
01:04:57,502 --> 01:05:00,070
You are a complete idiot."
1049
01:05:02,159 --> 01:05:04,422
Grandpa ended it quickly with a
snap.
1050
01:05:08,948 --> 01:05:11,995
This bird can help me
further select the changes.
1051
01:05:13,213 --> 01:05:14,649
Little by little,
1052
01:05:14,693 --> 01:05:16,303
the patterns emerge.
1053
01:05:28,098 --> 01:05:29,273
Back to the pet store.
1054
01:05:29,534 --> 01:05:30,404
Stressful.
1055
01:05:33,668 --> 01:05:34,887
New bird.
1056
01:05:36,236 --> 01:05:40,284
I poisoned this one with Draino,
slowly every one hour.
1057
01:05:42,025 --> 01:05:46,725
I predicted the time of death,
I heard the end approaching.
1058
01:05:54,559 --> 01:05:56,996
This is enough,
birds are expensive.
1059
01:06:03,046 --> 01:06:05,135
Turning the remains
of the bird into charcoal,
1060
01:06:05,483 --> 01:06:06,658
filtering it.
1061
01:06:08,703 --> 01:06:10,923
I can hear patterns.
1062
01:06:12,142 --> 01:06:13,926
I can see patterns.
1063
01:06:15,449 --> 01:06:18,757
I can hear the essence
of the bird's demise.
1064
01:06:22,108 --> 01:06:24,763
I've compiled my notes
and evidence into a new file.
1065
01:06:25,416 --> 01:06:28,593
This time with an offer
to demonstrate my skills
1066
01:06:28,636 --> 01:06:31,117
and any way the experts deem
necessary.
1067
01:06:31,596 --> 01:06:34,164
Whether it's judging age,
predicting illness,
1068
01:06:34,207 --> 01:06:36,862
or identifying which organisms
have witness to death.
1069
01:06:40,039 --> 01:06:44,565
The real question is,
do I still want to cure?
1070
01:06:46,915 --> 01:06:49,005
Or would it be better
to see this as a gift?
1071
01:06:50,571 --> 01:06:53,009
This could revolutionize
criminal investigations,
1072
01:06:53,052 --> 01:06:54,227
the medical world.
1073
01:06:55,054 --> 01:06:56,664
The possibilities are endless.
1074
01:06:58,449 --> 01:06:59,232
I did it.
1075
01:07:00,538 --> 01:07:02,105
I really did it.
1076
01:07:04,281 --> 01:07:09,764
Persistence, it's part of my
DNA,
part of being human.
1077
01:07:10,678 --> 01:07:13,594
Ancestrally,
we are persistence hunters.
1078
01:07:14,465 --> 01:07:16,162
We're almost entirely hairless,
1079
01:07:16,206 --> 01:07:17,990
which means better heat
dissipation.
1080
01:07:18,034 --> 01:07:19,905
We have a lot of sweat glands.
1081
01:07:19,948 --> 01:07:22,125
The way we walk on our two legs
1082
01:07:22,168 --> 01:07:24,562
is just a succession of
controlled falls.
1083
01:07:24,953 --> 01:07:27,304
Gravity does half the work,
and as a result,
1084
01:07:27,347 --> 01:07:29,001
we use up fewer calories.
1085
01:07:32,178 --> 01:07:34,180
Imagine being an antelope.
1086
01:07:35,355 --> 01:07:38,141
Picture yourself 100 millennia
ago,
1087
01:07:38,880 --> 01:07:40,665
somewhere in the African steppe.
1088
01:07:41,666 --> 01:07:43,102
Sun burns down.
1089
01:07:44,234 --> 01:07:47,150
You're just hanging around
in the shade of a bush
1090
01:07:47,193 --> 01:07:51,110
doing your grazing thing,
when you see in the distance,
1091
01:07:52,633 --> 01:07:54,635
strange-looking predator.
1092
01:07:57,116 --> 01:08:00,076
He's walking on two legs, so
he's slow.
1093
01:08:00,946 --> 01:08:04,254
As he gets closer,
you run off, and you assume you
escaped.
1094
01:08:05,211 --> 01:08:07,561
Most predators give up
after a short while,
1095
01:08:07,605 --> 01:08:09,911
but this predator is different.
1096
01:08:11,435 --> 01:08:13,698
Here he is again, so you flee,
1097
01:08:14,525 --> 01:08:16,831
and after some time
you see him approach again.
1098
01:08:18,137 --> 01:08:21,488
He returns, and returns, and
returns,
1099
01:08:22,185 --> 01:08:25,188
and you run, and run, and run.
1100
01:08:26,189 --> 01:08:28,843
You're getting hot, so you need
to stop,
1101
01:08:28,887 --> 01:08:30,149
but he just keeps coming.
1102
01:08:30,845 --> 01:08:33,326
You're tired, exhausted.
1103
01:08:34,197 --> 01:08:36,503
You're a fast creature
but not for very long.
1104
01:08:36,547 --> 01:08:38,897
After a while you reach your
limits.
1105
01:08:38,940 --> 01:08:41,856
Eventually,
you just lay there out of
energy,
1106
01:08:42,161 --> 01:08:44,598
overheated, panting.
1107
01:08:44,642 --> 01:08:50,213
This ridiculous hairless ape
with his crazy staring eyes
1108
01:08:50,256 --> 01:08:53,520
gets closer and closer,
eventually just jogging over to
you.
1109
01:08:54,739 --> 01:08:58,264
Something bites in your
skin, opening it.
1110
01:08:58,308 --> 01:09:01,746
Your awareness melts away
with each drop of blood.
1111
01:09:02,094 --> 01:09:06,142
He diminishes,
he gorges on your precious
proteins,
1112
01:09:06,490 --> 01:09:08,796
wallowing in your organs.
1113
01:09:12,974 --> 01:09:14,411
It's part of us.
1114
01:09:14,889 --> 01:09:15,847
We do not stop.
1115
01:09:16,456 --> 01:09:17,805
We do not give up.
1116
01:09:19,677 --> 01:09:20,895
I do not give up.
1117
01:09:23,028 --> 01:09:25,204
Civilization is a thin layer of
ice
1118
01:09:25,248 --> 01:09:27,554
over a deep ocean of chaos.
1119
01:10:01,153 --> 01:10:05,636
It's 84 Fahrenheit,
28 Celsius inside my house.
1120
01:10:07,072 --> 01:10:09,205
As obtaining more ants is
unnecessary,
1121
01:10:09,248 --> 01:10:11,076
I tried to restart the air
conditioning.
1122
01:10:11,119 --> 01:10:12,947
There's a technical malfunction.
1123
01:10:14,340 --> 01:10:16,647
Temperatures above 26 Celsius
1124
01:10:16,690 --> 01:10:19,127
usually trigger an avoidance
response
in humans,
1125
01:10:20,303 --> 01:10:22,305
strangely, not in my case.
1126
01:10:23,436 --> 01:10:27,919
I'm sweating heavily
but feel no excessive discomfort
1127
01:10:27,962 --> 01:10:29,921
besides skin irritation.
1128
01:10:30,965 --> 01:10:32,880
Harvesting biomatter.
1129
01:10:38,146 --> 01:10:39,670
Maybe some more.
1130
01:10:46,503 --> 01:10:48,461
In the US Southwest,
1131
01:10:48,809 --> 01:10:52,291
there's a gas station chain
with a green dinosaur as a
mascot.
1132
01:10:54,598 --> 01:10:57,209
I always found this remarkably
honest.
1133
01:10:58,166 --> 01:11:00,778
Look at our whole
industrial civilization,
1134
01:11:00,821 --> 01:11:03,346
look at last century's
rapid population growth.
1135
01:11:04,260 --> 01:11:07,001
All our cheap and abundant
fossil fuels,
1136
01:11:07,045 --> 01:11:11,005
all our fertilizers, all our
medicine,
and plastic,
1137
01:11:11,049 --> 01:11:12,964
it is made out of beings
1138
01:11:13,007 --> 01:11:15,358
that lived millions of years
ago.
1139
01:11:16,533 --> 01:11:20,537
Our entire way of life
is based on harvesting
1140
01:11:20,580 --> 01:11:22,887
an unimaginable amount of death.
1141
01:11:25,281 --> 01:11:26,238
Death...
1142
01:11:26,847 --> 01:11:28,240
energy...
1143
01:11:29,372 --> 01:11:32,070
might be the key
to understanding my ability.
1144
01:11:36,422 --> 01:11:38,294
A new reply
from Liebenfels has arrived.
1145
01:11:39,643 --> 01:11:41,122
Let's see what he has to say.
1146
01:11:42,428 --> 01:11:44,648
"After looking over everything
you've told me
1147
01:11:44,691 --> 01:11:46,345
and comparing it to my notes,
1148
01:11:46,954 --> 01:11:49,914
I've reached the conclusion that
this is,
without a doubt,
1149
01:11:54,048 --> 01:11:56,312
the work of the Queer Lizard
People."
1150
01:11:58,009 --> 01:11:58,966
What?
1151
01:12:00,359 --> 01:12:02,361
This is what he comes back with?
1152
01:12:03,754 --> 01:12:05,190
Is he trolling me?
1153
01:12:06,931 --> 01:12:09,934
I will report you as abusive!
1154
01:12:11,152 --> 01:12:12,415
Asshole!
1155
01:12:14,808 --> 01:12:16,332
Dozed off for five minutes.
1156
01:12:16,549 --> 01:12:18,072
I had a very vivid dream.
1157
01:12:19,465 --> 01:12:22,816
It consisted largely of plunges
through abysmal realms
1158
01:12:22,860 --> 01:12:25,558
of inexplicably colored twilight
1159
01:12:25,602 --> 01:12:27,995
and jarringly symphonic
cacophonies.
1160
01:12:29,214 --> 01:12:32,086
All of a sudden,
I was home in our living room.
1161
01:12:32,783 --> 01:12:34,741
My dad was there in his
wheelchair.
1162
01:12:34,785 --> 01:12:38,441
He's friendly,
talking about his coming
grandchild.
1163
01:12:39,877 --> 01:12:41,618
I realized that I was pregnant.
1164
01:12:43,489 --> 01:12:44,969
It was a good feeling.
1165
01:12:47,885 --> 01:12:50,017
I couldn't wait any longer
to be a mother,
1166
01:12:53,194 --> 01:12:56,067
so I grabbed a knife
to rip the baby from my stomach.
1167
01:12:59,026 --> 01:13:01,289
I have to get back
to the very core of this.
1168
01:13:02,160 --> 01:13:03,901
I need to trust my perception.
1169
01:13:05,468 --> 01:13:07,165
Oh, look.
1170
01:13:08,993 --> 01:13:11,474
Gromphadorhina portentosa.
1171
01:13:12,649 --> 01:13:13,563
Extraordinary.
1172
01:13:13,998 --> 01:13:15,434
Good to hear.
1173
01:13:19,830 --> 01:13:21,222
In general,
1174
01:13:22,354 --> 01:13:24,704
it seems the sound
is getting more and more dense.
1175
01:13:26,489 --> 01:13:29,056
Each subtle change has a meaning
to me,
1176
01:13:29,927 --> 01:13:31,798
but do they interact with each
other?
1177
01:13:33,321 --> 01:13:34,584
So many sounds have meanings.
1178
01:13:35,454 --> 01:13:37,282
So many patterns I can detect.
1179
01:13:39,023 --> 01:13:41,460
Sometimes it seems as though
it's a language of its own.
1180
01:13:44,115 --> 01:13:45,333
Can I learn it?
1181
01:13:48,859 --> 01:13:50,426
Haven't slept at all.
1182
01:13:52,210 --> 01:13:55,909
Imagine trying to sleep
while people chatter near you.
1183
01:13:56,780 --> 01:13:58,651
Their voices are just quiet
enough
1184
01:13:58,695 --> 01:14:00,000
that you can't understand.
1185
01:14:01,567 --> 01:14:04,918
As you find yourself
concentrating,
trying to hear...
1186
01:14:06,529 --> 01:14:07,791
It would be less disturbing
1187
01:14:07,834 --> 01:14:09,096
if you knew what they were
saying.
1188
01:14:10,663 --> 01:14:12,491
It is a language.
1189
01:14:12,796 --> 01:14:15,276
The more I work,
the clearer it becomes.
1190
01:14:15,712 --> 01:14:17,540
Still garbled, but not as bad,
1191
01:14:17,583 --> 01:14:19,585
like a radio frequency that's
off.
1192
01:14:21,457 --> 01:14:23,502
I need to masturbate
at more regular intervals.
1193
01:14:23,546 --> 01:14:26,070
The side effects
include vertigo and vomiting.
1194
01:14:28,594 --> 01:14:29,465
What's that?
1195
01:14:48,179 --> 01:14:49,223
Oh, my boss.
1196
01:14:49,702 --> 01:14:51,182
I won't answer it.
1197
01:14:51,748 --> 01:14:53,140
Answers bring me peace.
1198
01:14:54,185 --> 01:14:56,579
Objects brought together
cause variations.
1199
01:14:56,840 --> 01:15:01,235
Organisms cause greater
variations,
but it isn't conscious.
1200
01:15:03,890 --> 01:15:05,109
Happened to objects...
1201
01:15:05,675 --> 01:15:07,590
...not conscious.
1202
01:15:09,069 --> 01:15:10,288
Of course,
1203
01:15:11,768 --> 01:15:14,379
the organisms aren't talking,
1204
01:15:15,685 --> 01:15:17,991
their cells are.
1205
01:15:27,914 --> 01:15:29,916
Every cell in the universe
engaged
1206
01:15:29,960 --> 01:15:32,136
in communication with every
other cell.
1207
01:15:32,179 --> 01:15:35,356
This is bigger than anything
I ever imagined before.
1208
01:15:35,400 --> 01:15:37,576
No wonder it's difficult
to be around people
1209
01:15:37,620 --> 01:15:39,491
with all those cells talking
1210
01:15:39,535 --> 01:15:41,449
to one another at the same time.
1211
01:15:48,239 --> 01:15:49,545
Email from HR.
1212
01:15:51,285 --> 01:15:52,330
Fired.
1213
01:15:55,246 --> 01:15:56,552
A relief.
1214
01:16:09,826 --> 01:16:12,611
We are not alone.
1215
01:16:13,481 --> 01:16:15,440
The universe is talking.
1216
01:16:16,920 --> 01:16:19,313
Something is out there in the
emptiness,
1217
01:16:19,357 --> 01:16:21,751
in every void we think we see.
1218
01:16:23,491 --> 01:16:25,493
Why was humanity excluded?
1219
01:16:27,626 --> 01:16:30,194
Should we be happy that we were?
1220
01:16:32,718 --> 01:16:34,590
The cells know the language.
1221
01:16:35,547 --> 01:16:40,204
The cells react to the
conversation.
1222
01:16:41,248 --> 01:16:42,685
How beautiful.
1223
01:16:44,338 --> 01:16:45,862
My hair's part of it?
1224
01:16:46,297 --> 01:16:47,994
Listen to the sound change.
1225
01:16:48,908 --> 01:16:50,214
Oh, never mind.
1226
01:16:50,257 --> 01:16:51,389
You can't hear.
1227
01:16:53,043 --> 01:16:54,958
I should have realized this long
ago,
1228
01:16:56,307 --> 01:16:59,310
my body is a part of the sound.
1229
01:17:00,050 --> 01:17:03,009
The sound of silence, I called
it.
1230
01:17:03,662 --> 01:17:05,272
It's not silence.
1231
01:17:05,316 --> 01:17:06,709
Not at all.
1232
01:17:07,535 --> 01:17:10,060
My cells talk to one another.
1233
01:17:10,103 --> 01:17:12,497
That is the sound of silence!
1234
01:17:13,977 --> 01:17:15,195
What are they saying?
1235
01:17:15,761 --> 01:17:17,502
Why can't we understand them?
1236
01:17:19,243 --> 01:17:20,723
Are they planning something?
1237
01:17:26,380 --> 01:17:28,687
My blood does it too.
1238
01:17:29,775 --> 01:17:31,211
All blood must do it.
1239
01:17:32,735 --> 01:17:36,652
My blood talks to the cells
around it constantly.
1240
01:17:38,871 --> 01:17:40,612
What is it saying right now?
1241
01:17:42,875 --> 01:17:44,834
Do they know I've learned the
secret?
1242
01:17:46,139 --> 01:17:48,315
What if they want it kept a
secret?
1243
01:17:54,365 --> 01:17:56,454
What is the matter with my
soundproofing?
1244
01:18:01,981 --> 01:18:03,548
Fascinating.
1245
01:18:06,943 --> 01:18:08,161
Don't worry.
1246
01:18:09,815 --> 01:18:11,991
Maybe our exclusion is not
intentional.
1247
01:18:12,731 --> 01:18:14,298
Maybe it's for the best.
1248
01:18:14,864 --> 01:18:17,170
I'm a perfect example.
1249
01:18:18,694 --> 01:18:20,696
Look how the sound has affected
me,
1250
01:18:21,609 --> 01:18:23,742
tormented me from the first day.
1251
01:18:23,786 --> 01:18:25,526
The more I came to understand
it,
1252
01:18:25,570 --> 01:18:27,615
the more it preyed on my mind.
1253
01:18:29,356 --> 01:18:30,967
The universe is not harmonious.
1254
01:18:31,010 --> 01:18:32,751
You know that by looking out the
window.
1255
01:18:39,323 --> 01:18:41,107
Maybe I'm looking at it the
wrong way.
1256
01:18:42,805 --> 01:18:45,677
Maybe perceiving is the problem.
1257
01:18:48,854 --> 01:18:51,770
Our nervous systems filter
our sensory input.
1258
01:18:52,858 --> 01:18:55,339
Animal consciousness,
and that includes human
consciousness,
1259
01:18:56,166 --> 01:18:57,558
can only take so much.
1260
01:18:58,777 --> 01:19:01,040
It was trained over eons,
1261
01:19:01,780 --> 01:19:05,218
mutation by mutation to accept
only what it can handle.
1262
01:19:05,915 --> 01:19:08,656
This creates a bearable universe
for us
1263
01:19:09,353 --> 01:19:11,747
in which we can live like fruit
flies.
1264
01:19:13,139 --> 01:19:17,796
We are born, grow,
maybe procreate, and die.
1265
01:19:18,841 --> 01:19:21,191
Our brain helps us fulfill these
tasks.
1266
01:19:21,626 --> 01:19:24,411
Makes it possible for us
to live in this universe
1267
01:19:24,455 --> 01:19:26,805
that is so much more than what
we know
1268
01:19:27,414 --> 01:19:30,548
by filtering out
the unknown depths and horrors.
1269
01:19:30,940 --> 01:19:34,682
Keeping us safe in a reality
where we can live oblivious
1270
01:19:34,726 --> 01:19:36,772
to what is in and around us.
1271
01:19:38,861 --> 01:19:43,561
But I tapped into it like a worm
crawling onto a highway.
1272
01:19:49,436 --> 01:19:50,916
Lack of sleep is getting to me,
1273
01:19:51,699 --> 01:19:54,528
giving me thoughts
that can't possibly be true.
1274
01:19:55,965 --> 01:19:57,401
If only I could shut out the
sound.
1275
01:19:57,444 --> 01:19:59,664
If only I could stop listening.
1276
01:20:02,754 --> 01:20:04,712
A Vice article cited my
research.
1277
01:20:05,583 --> 01:20:09,805
Top 10 Weirdest
Nutjob Conspiracy Theories.
1278
01:20:10,762 --> 01:20:14,635
Who is conspiring against whom?
1279
01:20:15,462 --> 01:20:18,944
This is an entire new cosmology,
for fuck sake.
1280
01:20:18,988 --> 01:20:20,250
Don't they get it?
1281
01:20:22,252 --> 01:20:23,035
I hate Vice.
1282
01:20:23,079 --> 01:20:24,645
It's journalistic cancer.
1283
01:20:24,689 --> 01:20:25,951
No, no.
1284
01:20:25,995 --> 01:20:26,996
It's not even journalism,
it's just cancer.
1285
01:20:28,040 --> 01:20:29,389
Decision.
1286
01:20:29,433 --> 01:20:30,782
No sleeping.
1287
01:20:36,570 --> 01:20:38,485
Intolerable disturbance.
1288
01:20:38,964 --> 01:20:42,533
We're made of starstuff,
but so is dogshit.
1289
01:20:46,754 --> 01:20:48,539
Will they ever talk to me?
1290
01:20:50,280 --> 01:20:51,237
Yes.
1291
01:20:52,456 --> 01:20:53,892
Maybe they will tell me
everything's okay,
1292
01:20:55,763 --> 01:20:57,548
perhaps they will tell me how to
stop it.
1293
01:21:13,520 --> 01:21:15,740
What is so special about dying?
1294
01:21:18,264 --> 01:21:19,918
The total depletion of ATP,
1295
01:21:20,223 --> 01:21:22,399
the chemical that provides
energy
to the cells.
1296
01:21:23,487 --> 01:21:26,142
No, someone's here again.
1297
01:21:26,185 --> 01:21:27,883
Hello, are you home?
1298
01:21:27,926 --> 01:21:29,232
I need to concentrate.
1299
01:21:30,624 --> 01:21:31,451
Hello?
1300
01:21:33,627 --> 01:21:36,804
- Once I understand,
everything will be all right.
1301
01:21:36,848 --> 01:21:37,980
- Hey,
the front door was unlocked.
1302
01:21:38,023 --> 01:21:39,329
I brought you some dinner.
1303
01:21:40,808 --> 01:21:41,940
Pebbles?
1304
01:21:41,984 --> 01:21:43,811
Dedication is the glue of life.
1305
01:21:43,855 --> 01:21:44,638
Oh, my God!
1306
01:21:44,682 --> 01:21:45,813
Oh my God!
1307
01:22:02,004 --> 01:22:07,357
- Shh,
I can help you hold back your
tears.
1308
01:22:20,022 --> 01:22:21,545
Where are the trash bags?
1309
01:22:31,033 --> 01:22:34,036
I need absolute concentration
to listen to her essence.
1310
01:22:35,298 --> 01:22:36,516
Remember it.
1311
01:22:39,563 --> 01:22:41,478
She brought me
a homemade burrito.
1312
01:22:43,001 --> 01:22:45,830
Gender role still force women
to emphasize that stuff.
1313
01:22:45,873 --> 01:22:47,005
How sad.
1314
01:22:48,528 --> 01:22:51,314
We all need to explore new
spheres
1315
01:22:51,357 --> 01:22:52,880
of possibility.
1316
01:22:54,534 --> 01:22:56,406
They help us understand.
1317
01:23:01,672 --> 01:23:03,500
Nothing makes it stop.
1318
01:23:09,158 --> 01:23:11,508
How can I work
when they're always talking?
1319
01:23:12,422 --> 01:23:13,510
It's too much.
1320
01:23:13,553 --> 01:23:14,859
It's just too much.
1321
01:23:16,078 --> 01:23:17,340
Wish I didn't know.
1322
01:23:18,602 --> 01:23:21,083
There's a reason we aren't aware
of this conversation.
1323
01:23:22,780 --> 01:23:24,216
Conversation.
1324
01:23:25,913 --> 01:23:27,176
Conversation?
1325
01:23:32,268 --> 01:23:35,445
Maybe I was too optimistic, too
naiïve.
1326
01:23:36,837 --> 01:23:38,317
This is no conversation.
1327
01:23:39,144 --> 01:23:41,799
No cosmic chitchat hippie
bullshit.
1328
01:23:42,147 --> 01:23:44,584
It must be something deeper.
1329
01:23:45,629 --> 01:23:47,326
Maybe what I can hear,
1330
01:23:47,979 --> 01:23:49,720
what I called a conversation
1331
01:23:50,242 --> 01:23:53,289
is an immune response to
something.
1332
01:23:54,333 --> 01:23:57,162
It's my body's response
to some form of intrusion,
1333
01:23:57,206 --> 01:24:00,513
subdual, one that started three
years ago.
1334
01:24:02,167 --> 01:24:04,822
Hey? Are you home?
1335
01:24:09,000 --> 01:24:11,046
- It is nice of my mother to drop
by.
1336
01:24:12,743 --> 01:24:14,136
Just between us,
1337
01:24:14,179 --> 01:24:15,050
well,
1338
01:24:16,138 --> 01:24:17,704
she could have given me a heads
up.
1339
01:24:17,748 --> 01:24:20,098
Ah, the conversation.
1340
01:24:21,447 --> 01:24:22,970
Yes, yes, it's something else.
1341
01:24:23,797 --> 01:24:27,192
I can hear a form of cellular
distress.
1342
01:24:31,153 --> 01:24:33,111
Be quiet mother.
1343
01:24:36,941 --> 01:24:40,379
Something is out there...
...in there... all around.
1344
01:24:41,772 --> 01:24:43,295
I can feel it.
1345
01:24:43,730 --> 01:24:45,993
This being lurking,
1346
01:24:46,037 --> 01:24:47,299
just beyond my comprehension.
1347
01:24:48,387 --> 01:24:49,693
The cells are hurting.
1348
01:24:49,736 --> 01:24:51,564
They respond to an outside
force.
1349
01:24:51,608 --> 01:24:53,000
And the force...
1350
01:24:54,741 --> 01:24:58,180
something vast and powerful,
1351
01:24:58,223 --> 01:25:01,183
far from our own realm, lurking
out
1352
01:25:01,226 --> 01:25:04,664
in that indescribable void
among the dimensions.
1353
01:25:05,622 --> 01:25:07,102
Does it feast on me?
1354
01:25:08,059 --> 01:25:09,408
Feast on all of us?
1355
01:25:10,714 --> 01:25:11,715
Yes.
1356
01:25:12,498 --> 01:25:15,066
I'm not even a worm compared to
it.
1357
01:25:16,676 --> 01:25:19,026
It is like a giant sea creature
1358
01:25:19,070 --> 01:25:22,160
and I'm merely a bacterium
that got in his path.
1359
01:25:23,118 --> 01:25:24,380
It's all around me.
1360
01:25:24,989 --> 01:25:27,122
Absorbing me, changing me.
1361
01:25:29,211 --> 01:25:30,603
I can hear it all.
1362
01:25:34,651 --> 01:25:37,088
Am I as delusional as Liebenfels
1363
01:25:37,132 --> 01:25:38,655
and all the other trolls out
there?
1364
01:25:40,657 --> 01:25:45,009
I am without knowledge or luster
or name.
1365
01:25:47,272 --> 01:25:49,492
All I can focus on is this
sound.
1366
01:25:51,276 --> 01:25:53,757
This hideous sound it's
emanating.
1367
01:25:59,241 --> 01:26:01,025
Amazon delivery guy.
1368
01:26:06,073 --> 01:26:07,814
You remind me of my dad.
1369
01:26:10,991 --> 01:26:16,171
It might be preposterous of me,
but maybe I was chosen.
1370
01:26:17,737 --> 01:26:18,738
Yes!
1371
01:26:19,304 --> 01:26:21,132
That explains everything.
1372
01:26:22,307 --> 01:26:26,746
Chosen by a being older
than space and time.
1373
01:26:28,444 --> 01:26:30,794
Are my experiments
a kind of sacrifice to it?
1374
01:26:31,969 --> 01:26:35,015
Is that why I needed to go so
far
to understand?
1375
01:26:36,452 --> 01:26:38,584
Does it enjoy me killing?
1376
01:26:39,629 --> 01:26:41,326
Am I pleasing it?
1377
01:26:42,893 --> 01:26:46,853
Did it make me, slowly over the
years,
become what I am?
1378
01:26:48,290 --> 01:26:52,294
From that very first moment in
the lab,
did I summon it?
1379
01:26:53,512 --> 01:26:56,559
Did it know this day, today,
would eventually come?
1380
01:26:58,300 --> 01:27:00,911
I need to upload my remaining
findings
for all to understand.
1381
01:27:04,175 --> 01:27:09,224
I need to come to terms with my
place
in the universe.
1382
01:27:10,312 --> 01:27:14,446
A place that it gave me
and the sacrifice it demands.
1383
01:27:16,666 --> 01:27:17,797
Is it God?
1384
01:27:18,624 --> 01:27:20,017
I don't know...
1385
01:27:22,062 --> 01:27:23,629
but it is my god.
1386
01:27:24,804 --> 01:27:25,892
What does it want?
1387
01:27:25,936 --> 01:27:27,416
What is it asking me to do?
1388
01:27:28,765 --> 01:27:31,246
Leap of courage?
Leap of faith?
1389
01:27:31,681 --> 01:27:35,511
What offering
will make this imbalance end?
1390
01:27:36,338 --> 01:27:38,688
How can I empty space and time?
1391
01:27:42,866 --> 01:27:44,563
I finally understand.
1392
01:27:46,826 --> 01:27:50,047
That last and final moment is
yours.
1393
01:27:51,004 --> 01:27:53,485
That agony is your triumph.
1394
01:27:59,404 --> 01:28:03,234
I just wish it wasn't so loud.
1395
01:29:37,937 --> 01:29:40,026
Geez, what's with the AC?
1396
01:29:40,331 --> 01:29:41,419
They're working on it.
1397
01:29:41,463 --> 01:29:43,073
We should get hazard pay.
1398
01:29:45,162 --> 01:29:46,946
What do you think
about this reference file case?
1399
01:29:47,817 --> 01:29:48,992
Reference what?
1400
01:29:49,035 --> 01:29:50,385
Reference file case.
1401
01:29:50,428 --> 01:29:52,125
It's high priority for the
chief.
1402
01:29:52,169 --> 01:29:53,126
Huh?
1403
01:29:54,519 --> 01:29:56,347
- Yes, the 1087 two days ago
on West 8th Street.
1404
01:29:56,391 --> 01:29:57,696
Yes.
1405
01:29:58,088 --> 01:30:00,351
A block over
from Lighthouse of Deliverance.
1406
01:30:00,699 --> 01:30:02,788
From what the neighbors said,
it sounds pretty cut and dry.
1407
01:30:03,049 --> 01:30:04,442
It gave me the creeps.
1408
01:30:06,096 --> 01:30:07,445
- Why have they been calling it
the reference file case anyway?
1409
01:30:07,880 --> 01:30:08,968
Because of the video files.
1410
01:30:09,012 --> 01:30:10,448
That's what the guy named it.
1411
01:30:12,711 --> 01:30:14,191
I'm getting coffee.
1412
01:30:14,234 --> 01:30:15,061
You want any?
1413
01:30:15,627 --> 01:30:16,715
Oh, sure.
1414
01:30:18,064 --> 01:30:19,196
While you're at it,
get me some Boston creams?
1415
01:30:19,457 --> 01:30:20,415
Yes, sure.
1416
01:30:35,821 --> 01:30:36,822
Oh, wow.
1417
01:30:36,866 --> 01:30:38,084
You're going to watch it?
1418
01:30:38,607 --> 01:30:41,348
No spoilers,
start from the beginning.
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