All language subtitles for The Eyes of Tammy Faye (2000) Lions Gate - Documentary

Tammy Faye: I THINK THE EYES
ARE SO IMPORTANT.

I BELIEVE THEY ARE
THE EYES OF THE SOUL.
I TRULY DO.

AND I THINK YOU CAN
LOOK IN SOMEONE'S EYES

AND REALLY TELL
WHAT KIND OF A PERSON
AND WHAT THEIR HEART IS.

AND SO WHEN MY PRECIOUS
FRIENDS DIE,

I ALWAYS ASK IF I COULD
PLEASE HAVE THEIR GLASSES.

WHEN MY MOM DIED,

I GOT MY MAMA'S GLASSES,

AND THEY'RE VERY,
VERY PRECIOUS TO ME.

I LIKE TO PUT THEM ON
SOMETIMES AND THINK,

"YOU KNOW, MAMA
LOOKED THROUGH THESE.

RuPaul: TAMMY FAYE
IS THE FIRST LADY OF
RELIGIOUS BROADCASTING.

TOGETHER, WITH HER
HUSBAND JIM BAKKER,

SHE PIONEERED
THE ELECTRIC CHURCH.

FROM THE SIXTIES
THROUGH THE MID-EIGHTIES,

THEY BUILT NOT ONE,
BUT 3 RELIGIOUS NETWORKS,

GROWING THE MEDIUM
FROM A MOTLEY GROUP
OF LOCAL STATIONS

INTO A GLOBAL CONCERN.

AT THEIR PEAK, THEY
PRESIDED OVER THE LARGEST

AND MOST SUCCESSFUL
CHRISTIAN TELEVISION
MINISTRY OF ITS DAY.

THEIR CHRISTIAN RETREAT,
HERITAGE U.S.A.,

WAS, AFTER DISNEY WORLD
AND DISNEYLAND,

AMERICA'S MOST POPULAR
THEME PARK.

THEN, IN THE MID-EIGHTIES,

THEIR WORLD CAME
CRASHING DOWN.

Reporter: TROUBLES
FOR JIM BAKKER BEGAN

WITH THE REVELATION
OF HIS SEXUAL ENCOUNTER
WITH JESSICA HAHN.

Second reporter:
TAMMY BAKKER CAME
OUT OF THE CLOSET

TO REVEAL HERSELF
AS A DRUG ADDICT.

WE DID NOT ASK
JERRY FALWELL

TO TAKE OVER
OUR MINISTRY.

Third reporter:
THE MINISTRY IS NOW STRUGGLING
WITH A $16-MILLION DEBT.

THE U.S. BANKRUPTCY
COURT IS NOW...

Fourth reporter:
THE GOVERNMENT SAID BAKKER
WAS A SLICK CON MAN,

CHEATING HIS FOLLOWERS
OF MILLIONS OF DOLLARS.

RuPaul: WHATEVER HAPPENED
TO TAMMY FAYE?

12 LONG YEARS AFTER
HER FALL FROM GRACE,

TAMMY LIVES
IN VIRTUAL EXILE

IN A GATED COMMUNITY
IN PALM DESERT, CALIFORNIA.

Tammy: OK, I'M GOING
TO READ YOU MY POEM.

ARE YOU READY?

"LONELINESS CLINGS TO ME
LIKE A SECOND SKIN,

"THREATENING
TO SMOTHER ME
FROM WITHIN.

"WHY GET READY
FOR THE DAY?

"WHAT DOES IT MATTER
TO MYSELF, I SAY?

"MY BODY ACHES ALL NIGHT,
ALL DAY,

"AND I'M TOO TIRED
TO EVEN PRAY.

"MUNDANE HOUSEHOLD
CHORES I DO,

"VACUUM FLOORS
AND PICK UP POO.

"I TRY NOT TO THINK
OF DAYS GONE BY,

"TO DO SO ONLY
MAKES ME CRY.

WHY ME, GOD, I SAY,
WHY?"

IT'S A LITTLE
DRAMATIC, I GUESS,

BUT IT'S HOW I FELT
AT THE TIME.

I'VE OFTEN THOUGHT
I SHOULD PROBABLY
BE ON BROADWAY--

[LAUGHS]
WITH ALL MY DRAMA.

Both:...

WHEN SHE WAS BORN,
SHE HAD PERFECTLY
MANICURED FINGERNAILS.

RuPaul: THE ELDEST
OF 8 CHILDREN,

TAMMY FAYE LaVALLEY
GREW UP IN INTERNATIONAL
FALLS, MINNESOTA.

Virginia Fairchild:
THEIR HOUSE WAS BIG
ENOUGH FOR ALL OF THEM,

BUT NOT A NICE ONE.

IN THOSE DAYS,
YOU DIDN'T SPEND MONEY

FOR ANYTHING
BUT FOOD AND CLOTHES,

BECAUSE YOU JUST DIDN'T
HAVE IT, YOU KNOW?

I DON'T THINK SHE HAD
A VERY HAPPY...

GROWING-UP YEARS,
YOU KNOW?

I MEAN, WHAT DID
SHE REALLY HAVE TO BE
OVERLY OVERJOYED ABOUT?

I MEAN, HELPING
TAKE CARE OF KIDS, YEAH,

BECAUSE SHE HAD TO.

RuPaul: BUT EVEN
IN HER TEENS,

TAMMY HAD HER FAITH
TO TURN TO.

SHE HAD A LITTLE WART
ON ONE FINGER.

SHE ASKED GOD,

AND THE MESSAGE
THAT SHE GOT WAS,

"PUT THAT FINGER
IN THE COMMUNION CUP
BEFORE YOU DRINK."

AND SHE BROUGHT IT OUT,

PARTOOK OF THE BREAD
AND THE JUICE,

AND THE WART WAS GONE.

WE HAD BEEN RAISED IN
THE ASSEMBLIES OF GOD.

AND WE ALWAYS
SORT OF FELT

THE ASSEMBLIES OF GOD
PREACHED THAT

GOD WAS LOOKING DOWN
AT YOU FROM HEAVEN

WITH A BIG HUGE
HAMMER IN HIS HAND

AND THAT IF YOU DID
ANYTHING WRONG,

HE WAS GOING TO HIT YOU
OVER THE HEAD WITH
THIS HAMMER

AND SEND YOU
STRAIGHT TO HELL.

Johnny Grover:
SHE WAS ALMOST SCARED
INTO STAYING CLOSE TO GOD.

I STILL SAY ADA DEHREN
IS HER SAVIOR,

BECAUSE SHE WAS THE ONE
THAT BOUGHT THE MAKE-UP
AT THE RUMMAGE SALE.

[LAUGHS] THEY WERE
THE FIRST ONES TO TRY MAKE-UP.

SEE ALL THIS STUFF?
LOOK AT ALL THIS STUFF.

THAT'S MY BLUSH.
IT'S ALMOST GONE.

I GOT TO GO
TO THE SWAP MEET
AND GET SOME MORE.

I BUY IT AT
THE SWAP MEET.

MY POWDER THAT
KIND OF--

WHEN I CRY,
IT TAKES AWAY THE TEARS.

THIS IS MY
EYEBROW STUFF,

ALTHOUGH I DON'T
REALLY NEED TO PUT ON
EYEBROW STUFF,

BECAUSE ME EYEBROWS
ARE PERMANENT.

THIS TURNS PINK
WHEN YOU PUT IT ON.

SEE? BUT IT'S WHITE
TO START WITH.

EYELASH GLUE.

OH, HERE'S--
I DON'T KNOW
WHAT THAT IS.

OH, HERE'S MY MASCARA
THAT I'M SO FAMOUS FOR.

AS YOU SEE, IT IS
L'OREAL WATERPROOF
LASH OUT MAKE-UP.

AND, UM, AS YOU CAN SEE,
IT'S MUCH USED.

MUCH LOVED.

THEY ARE PUT ON SINGLY,

AND, UH, WITH LOTS
OF MASCARA.

THEY DON'T COME OFF,
I MEAN, THEY'RE...

THEY HAVE TO,
LITERALLY,
KIND OF WEAR OFF.

AND SO, ONCE IN A WHILE,
ONE WILL DROP OFF,

AND WHEN IT DOES,
I PUT ANOTHER ONE IN.

WITHOUT MY EYELASHES,
I WOULDN'T BE TAMMY FAYE.

I DON'T KNOW WHO I'D BE,
BUT I WOULDN'T BE ME.

RuPaul: IN 1960, AGED 17,
TAMMY WENT TO BIBLE COLLEGE

WHERE SHE MET
AND FELL IN LOVE

WITH A YOUNG, CHARISMATIC
PREACHER NAMED JIM BAKKER.

THE NEXT YEAR,
ON APRIL FOOL'S DAY,
JIM AND TAMMY WERE MARRIED.

THE YOUNG NEWLYWEDS
LIVED ON THE ROAD,

STRUGGLING TO MAKE A LIVING
AS ITINERANT PREACHERS,

JOINING A TRADITION OF
TRAVELING EVANGELISM

PIONEERED BY MINISTERS
LIKE ORAL ROBERTS.

EVERYTHING THAT'S
EVERY BEEN DONE
THAT'S WORTHWHILE

HAS BEEN DONE BY MEN,

BY WOMEN WHO SAID,
"I DON'T CARE WHAT
THE COST IS,

I'M GOING TO DO THIS
FOR THE GLORY OF GOD."

RuPaul: A BLEND
OF CHRISTIANITY
AND SHOWMANSHIP,

IT WAS A GROWING TREND
THAT WOULD CULMINATE

IN THE CREATION
OF TELEVANGELISM...

THE ELECTRIC CHURCH.

TODAY, IT BOASTS OVER
2,500 RADIO AND TV STATIONS,

REACHING AN
ESTIMATED AUDIENCE
OF 20 MILLION PEOPLE.

SATELLITES CIRCLE THE GLOBE,

BEAMING OUT THOUSANDS
OF PROGRAMS

24 HOURS A DAY,
7 DAYS A WEEK,

AND GENERATING MILLIONS
OF DOLLARS IN REVENUE.

Announcer: THE CHRISTIAN
SHOPPING NETWORK.

THE ONLY NETWORK WHERE
YOU SOW THE KINGDOM OF GOD,

WHILE YOU PURCHASE
YOUR FAVORITE PRODUCTS
AT LOWER THAN RETAIL PRICE...

RuPaul: BUT IT ALL
STARTED OUT WITH PUPPETS,

JIM AND TAMMY'S PUPPETS.

OH, YEAH, WE PRACTICALLY
STARTED THE ELECTRIC CHURCH.

WE HAD BOUGHT SILKY
BUBBLE BATH, OF ALL THINGS,

AND WE SAW THESE LITTLE
HEADS ON THE BUBBLE BATH,

AND I--I STARTED
TALKING FOR THEM.

YOU KNOW, MAKING
LITTLE VOICES.

[IN A SILLY VOICE]
"HELLO, THERE."

THOSE KINDS OF
LITTLE VOICES.

AND JIM SAID, "TAMMY,
WE COULD MAKE PUPPETS
OUT OF THESE THINGS,

AND WE COULD USE THEM
IN CHURCH FOR THE KIDS."

WE TOOK THE SILKY
BUBBLE BATH, IT WAS PORKY PIG,

WE MELTED THE EARS DOWN
AND MADE A LITTLE GIRL PIGGY.

SHE HAD TO HAVE A FRIEND,

SO WE MADE AN ALLIGATOR
THAT TALKED LIKE THIS,

[LOW-PITCHED VOICE]
"HELLO.
I'M ALLIE THE ALLIGATOR.

[HIGH-PITCHED VOICE]
"AND I'M SUSIE MUPPET."

I WORKED THEM WITH
MY HANDS, LIKE THIS.

THIS WAS THEIR LITTLE HANDS,
AND THIS WAS THEIR HEAD.

♪ JESUS TAKES A FROWN ♪

♪ AND HE TURNS IT
UPSIDE DOWN ♪

♪ AND OOPS! ♪

♪ HERE COMES
A SMILE... ♪

RuPaul: SUSIE MUPPET
AND ALLIE THE ALLIGATOR

ATTRACTED THE ATTENTION OF
TV MINISTER PAT ROBERTSON.

HE RAN A SMALL LOCAL STATION

AND DREAMT OF
BUILDING A CHRISTIAN
BROADCASTING NETWORK.

Jim Bakker:
WE GOT A CALL
FROM PAT ROBERTSON.

HE WANTED
TO MEET WITH US.
AND HE SAID,

"WOULD YOU CONSIDER
JOINING THE NETWORK?"

WELL, THE NETWORK
WAS ONE STATION,

A ONE-KILOWATT
TELEVISION STATION.

IT HARDLY WENT DOWN
THE BLOCK AT TIMES.

Announcer:
IT'S TIME FOR THE NATIONS
BIGGEST YARD PARTY,

THE JIM & TAMMY SHOW.

HI, EVERYBODY!

All: HI,
JIM AND TAMMY!

Jim Bakker: WE DID NOT
HAVE A SCRIPT,

SO EVERYTHING WAS
REALLY AD-LIBBED.

I THINK JIM, ACTUALLY,
WAS A LITTLE NERVOUS
AROUND THE PUPPETS,

BECAUSE HE NEVER REALLY KNEW
WHAT THEY WERE GOING TO SAY.

JIM, YOU JUST ATE
MY SHRIMP UP.

[GASPS] OH, I WAS
JUST STANDING HERE--

SHUT UP!

Jim: SUSIE WAS
THE BAD TAMMY FAYE,

AND ALLIE WAS ALWAYS
SOMEHOW--

SHE HAD A SPLIT
PERSONALITY,

'CAUSE ALLIE WAS
ALWAYS NICE TO ME,

BUT SUSIE MUPPET WAS
ALWAYS ARGUING WITH ME.

AND I MEAN, IF THOSE
PEOPLE AT HOME,

I DON'T KNOW
IF THEY KNEW...

WE WERE HAVING
LEGITIMATE FIGHTS,

ONLY WE WERE DOING IT
THROUGH THESE PUPPETS.

BUT FOR SOME REASON,

THE SHOW BECAME
THE NUMBER ONE PROGRAM
ON C.B.N.

♪ I'M GOING
TO LOVE MY ENEMIES ♪

♪ DO GOOD TO THOSE
WHO ARE BAD TO ME ♪

♪ GOING TO LOVE... ♪

I MEAN,
WHAT DID JIM HENSON HAVE

BUT JIM AND TAMMY
GONE BERSERK.

♪ SO GOOD AND FREE ♪

♪ SO GOOD AND FREE ♪

RuPaul: JIM AND TAMMY
HAD AGREED TO WORK
FOR PAT ROBERTSON

ON CONDITION THAT
THEY COULD ALSO START
A LATE-NIGHT TALK SHOW.

HE SAID, "I'LL MAKE
A DEAL WITH YOU.

"IF YOU GET THE KID SHOW
UP AND RUNNING,

THEN YOU CAN DO THIS
LATE-NIGHT SHOW."

AND SO PAT HONORED
HIS WORD ON THAT,

AND JIM STARTED
WHAT WAS CALLED THE 700 CLUB,

THE FIRST CHRISTIAN
TALK SHOW IN HISTORY.

Announcer: SO HERE'S
YOUR HOST ON...

HELLO, AND WELCOME
TO THE 700 CLUB TODAY.

I'M SO VERY,
VERY HAPPY THAT
YOU COULD JOIN US

FOR THIS PROGRAM
OF PRAYER AND PRAISE.

RuPaul: THE INSTANT
SUCCESS OF THE 700 CLUB
AND THE JIM AND TAMMY SHOW,

HELPED TURN THE CHRISTIAN
BROADCAST NETWORK

FROM A LOCAL STATION
INTO A FULL-FLEDGED NETWORK.

BUT THINGS BEGAN TO SOUR.

Tammy: PAT BEGAN TO WANT
TO TAKE OVER SOME OF
THE 700 CLUB,

WHICH WAS FINE,
BECAUSE IT WAS HIS STATION
AND WE HONORED HIM FOR THAT.

AND SO, WE JUST SAID, "PAT,

"YOU'RE ABLE TO DO IT
BY YOURSELF NOW.
YOU DON'T NEED US."

AND SO WE DECIDED TO MOVE ON
AND DO OUR OWN THING.

THE 700 CLUB TODAY
IS PROBABLY

THE MOST POWERFUL
OF THE RELIGIOUS
BROADCASTS.

Announcer: THIS IS...

Reverend White:
AND JIM WAS THE FIRST
HOST ON THE 700 CLUB,

BEFORE
PAT ROBERTSON WAS.

RuPaul: TAMMY WROTE
TO PAT ROBERTSON

ASKING HIM TO BE INTERVIEWED
FOR THIS DOCUMENTARY.

HE DECLINED.

JIM AND TAMMY THEN MOVED
WEST TO CALIFORNIA,

AND IN THE KITCHEN
OF THEIR RENTED HOME

WITH THEIR FRIENDS
JAN AND PAUL CROUCH,

THEY LAUNCHED
A NEW VENTURE:

THE TRINITY BROADCAST
NETWORK.

Tammy: JIM WAS THE HOST,
AND I WAS THE CO-HOST,

AND JAN AND PAUL WERE
IN THE BACKGROUND.

RuPaul: BUT NOT FOR LONG.

JIM AND TAMMY
WERE FORCED OUT

IN A BOARD-ROOM COUP
BY JAN AND PAUL CROUCH.

Announcer: THIS IS THE TRINITY
BROADCASTING NETWORK,

CELEBRATING OUR
25th ANNIVERSARY.

RuPaul: TODAY,
THE CROUCHS STILL PRESIDE

OVER THE MINISTRY JIM
AND TAMMY STARTED WITH THEM,

WHICH HAS SINCE
BECOME ONE OF THE WORLD'S
LARGEST TV MINISTRIES.

JIM AND TAMMY STARTED
ALMOST EVERYTHING

THAT IS NOW POWERFUL IN
RELIGIOUS TELECASTING.

BUT AS SOON AS
THEY GOT IT BUILT,
LIKE AT TBN,

AS SOON AS THEY GOT
PEOPLE WATCHING,

AS SOON AS THEY GOT
THE AUDIENCE CAPTIVATED,

AS SOON AS THEY BEGAN
TO GET POWER,

THEY WERE,
KIND OF, LET GO.

RuPaul: TAMMY WROTE
TO THE CROUCHS

ASKING THEM
TO BE INTERVIEWED
FOR THIS DOCUMENTARY.

THEY DECLINED.

Choir: ♪ GLORIA ♪

RuPaul: IN 1974,

JIM AND TAMMY
MOVED TO CHARLOTTE,
NORTH CAROLINA.

Announcer: STAND BY.
5 SECONDS TO PTL.

RuPaul: THERE, THEY LAUNCHED
A THIRD TELEVISION NETWORK

CALLED P.T.L...

PRAISE THE LORD.

[APPLAUSE]
Choir: ♪ PRAISE THE LORD ♪

♪ NOW'S THE TIME
TO LIFT OUR VOICES ♪

THIS WAS THE FIRST TIME

THAT THEY WERE
COMPLETELY IN CHARGE

AND FREE TO CREATE
THEIR OWN NETWORK
IN THEIR OWN IMAGE.

♪ WELL, I FOUND
A NEW JOY ♪

COME ON, JIM!

Tammy: WE BELIEVED THAT
CHRISTIANITY SHOULD BE FUN.

WE BELIEVED
IT SHOULD BE JOYFUL.

AND I THINK WE WERE
ONE OF THE FIRST PEOPLE

TO PUT FUN AND LAUGHTER
IN CHRISTIANITY.

IT'S NOT A DRAG
TO BE SAVED.

IT'S NOT A BORING THING.
THAT'S RELIGION.

YOU SEE, YOU'VE
GOTTEN IT MIXED UP.

RELIGION IS BORING
AND DULL...

MOST OF THE TIME,

BUT JESUS IS LIFE.

♪ ...GLORIOUS,
WONDERFUL DAY ♪

♪ YES, IT'S A MARVELOUS,
GLORIOUS, WONDERFUL DAY ♪

♪ TO SERVE THE LORD ♪

♪ HALLELUJAH ♪

PRAISE THE LORD.

HALLELUJAH.
WHOO!

RuPaul: JIM AND TAMMY'S
GOSPEL OF FUN WAS FOR
ONE AND ALL.

Tammy: WE WERE
INTER-DENOMINATIONAL,

FOR EVERYONE
OF EVERY DENOMINATION.

THE LUTHERANS,
THE BAPTISTS, CATHOLICS,

ALL DENOMINATIONS WERE
A PART OF PTL.

AND REMEMBER,
GOD LOVES YOU.

HE REALLY DOES.

GOD LOVES YOU.

HE LOVES YOU.

GOD LOVES YOU!
HE REALLY DOES!

GOD LOVES YOU.

HE REALLY DOES.
BYE-BYE FOR TODAY.

RuPaul:
PTL EMBRACED THOSE

THAT OTHER CHRISTIAN
FUNDAMENTALISTS

AND TELEVANGELISTS
REJECTED.

STEVE IS A PATIENT
OF AIDS,

AND HE SO GENEROUSLY
ALLOWED US TO TALK
TO HIM TODAY.

WAS IT JUST
A WORD TO YOU?

IS IT SOMETHING
THAT JUST HAPPENS

TO OTHER PEOPLE
AND NOT TO STEVE?

I KNEW THAT IT WAS
A GROWING PROBLEM
IN THE GAY COMMUNITY,

BUT I, AS MANY OTHER PEOPLE
DID BACK IN 1981 AND '82,

DENIED THAT
IT COULD TOUCH ME.

I MEAN,
WE DIDN'T SEE HOW--

I MEAN,
WHY WOULD IT HURT ME?

I WAS A GOOD
CHRISTIAN PASTOR.

DO YOU KNOW HOW
EARLY THAT WAS

FOR ANYBODY IN
THE CHRISTIAN WORLD

TO BE REACHING OUT
AND TO BE EMBRACING
A GAY PERSON,

LET ALONE
A PERSON WITH AIDS?

TAMMY BAKKER DID IT

WHEN NO ONE ELSE
WOULD DO IT.

HOW SAD THAT
WE AS CHRISTIANS,

WHO ARE TO BE
THE SALT OF THE EARTH,

AND WE ARE--WE,
WHO ARE SUPPOSED TO BE
ABLE TO LOVE EVERYONE,

ARE AFRAID SO BADLY
OF AN AIDS PATIENT

THAT WE WILL NOT
GO UP AND PUT OUR
ARM AROUND THEM

AND TELL THEM
THAT WE CARE?

RuPaul: WHETHER
IT WAS AIDS, DRUG ABUSE,
OR MARRIAGE COUNSELING,

PTL, AND IN PARTICULAR
TAMMY,

RUSHED IN WHERE OTHER
CHRISTIAN BROADCASTERS
FEARED TO TREAD.

THE PENILE IMPLANT
OF THE INFLATABLE TYPE,

AND THAT'S THE ONE THAT
WE'RE LOOKING AT--

IT'S THE NEWEST ONE, RIGHT?
THIS IS THE NEWEST ONE
OUT THERE.

WHEN HE WANTS
TO BECOME ERECT,
HE REACHES DOWN,

HE SQUEEZES THAT
SEVERAL TIMES,

AND THE MAN
BECOMES FIRM.

I THINK THAT'S FANTASTIC.

NOW GO AHEAD, AUDIENCE,
GO AHEAD.

I'VE BEEN IN HOLLYWOOD,
AND IN NEW YORK,

AND I'D SEEN
THE NETWORKS PRODUCE,

BUT THERE WERE
NO PRODUCERS LIKE TAMMY.

♪ OH, WELL, NOW ♪

♪ WHO'S THAT BOUNCING AROUND
LIKE A PING-PONG BALL? ♪

♪ WHO'S THAT,
BIGGER THAN LIFE ♪

♪ EVEN THOUGH
SHE'S SMALL... ♪

Reverend White:
THE FIRST DAY I SAW HER,

I WATCHED HER DO
3 DIFFERENT SHOWS,

HOUR-LONG SHOWS
IN A ROW,

WITHOUT A TELEPROMPTER,

WITHOUT NOTES,

JUST KEEPING IT GOING.

♪ IT'S TAMMY ♪

♪ A DOUBLE-WHAMMY ♪

♪ OF TURNED-ON
CHRISTIAN LOVE ♪

RuPaul: WHEN NOT
IN FRONT OF A CAMERA,

TAMMY WAS BEHIND
A MICROPHONE

RECORDING OVER 40 ALBUMS.

Announcer:
TAMMY FAYE...

WARM...

GENTLE...

RADIANT...

BLESSED.

A GLOWING EXAMPLE.

FOR YOUR COPY OF HER
MOST RECENT ALBUM,

SEND $25 TODAY
TO JIM BAKKER...

RuPaul: AND IN BETWEEN
RECORDING ALBUMS,

SHE RAISED A FAMILY...
ALSO ON TELEVISION.

I WANT YOU TO MEET MY BOY--

JAMIE CHARLES BAKKER.

[APPLAUSE]
Tammy: WE IDENTIFIED WITH
THE AMERICAN FAMILY,

AND THEY IDENTIFIED
WITH US.

I PRACTICALLY HAD BOTH
MY CHILDREN ON TV.

BEFORE I WAS BORN,
I WAS ON TELEVISION.

IN MY MOTHER'S STOMACH,

I WAS ON TELEVISION.

SO MY WHOLE LIFE HAS
BEEN IN FRONT OF PEOPLE.

[APPLAUSE]

Jamie: SO MANY PEOPLE NOW,
EVEN TO THIS DAY,

COME UP,
AND THEY'RE LIKE,

"I REMEMBER YOU FROM WHEN
YOU WERE A LITTLE KID.

I GREW UP WITH YOU.
I FEEL LIKE I'M A PART OF YOU."

AND IT'S BECAUSE
THEY GREW UP IN OUR HOUSE,

I MEAN, IN OUR LIVES.

MY LANDS!

Jamie Bakker: IT WAS
VERY NORMAL TO HAVE CAMERAS

AROUND THE HOUSE
DURING CHRISTMAS.

THIS WAS LIFE TO ME.

Tammy: WE WERE PART
OF THEIR FAMILIES.

WE LOVED THEM, AND THEY
LOVED US AS FAMILY PEOPLE.

AND I THINK THAT'S WHY
IT WAS SO POWERFUL.

RuPaul: THE PRAISE THE LORD
NETWORK TOOK OFF.

FROM THIS MOMENT ON,

THE PTL
TELEVISION NETWORK
PLANS TO BROADCAST...

24 HOURS A DAY...

UNTIL THE SECOND
COMING OF JESUS CHRIST.

♪ JESUS KEEPS ON TAKING ME
HIGHER AND HIGHER ♪

♪ HIGHER AND HIGHER ♪

♪ HIGHER AND HIGHER ♪

♪ JESUS KEEPS... ♪

WE KEPT ADDING STATION
AFTER STATION AFTER STATION,

AND IT WAS AN AWESOME
THING THAT HAPPENED.

Jim: ALL OVER THE WORLD,
WE WERE DOING TELEVISION.

WE WERE ONE OF THE FIRST
4 SATELLITE NETWORKS
IN THE WORLD.

Announcer:
YOU'RE WATCHING...

THAT'S WHY LATER ON,

THE PLUM THAT SO MANY
PEOPLE WANTED

WAS THAT SATELLITE.

RuPaul: BUT JIM WASN'T
SATISFIED WITH JUST
A TELEVISION NETWORK.

Tammy:
JIM FELT THAT IF THE PEOPLE
WERE THERE ON THE GROUNDS

AND COULD COME AND STAY
WHERE PTL WAS AND SEE,

AND GET IN ON THE VISION...

THAT'S WHAT HE WANTED.

HE WANTED ALL THE PEOPLE
TO BE ABLE TO ACTUALLY BE THERE.

RuPaul:
TO REALIZE THIS VISION,

JIM BAKKER CONTACTED HIS
CHURCH BUILDER ROE MESSNER.

Roe: I GOT ON A PLANE
AND WENT DOWN
TO CHARLOTTE,

MET WITH JIM,

AND HE LAID OUT THIS
GRANDIOSE PLAN

THAT HE HAD FOR
2,500 ACRES

AND WANTED TO KNOW
IF I WOULD, UH,

DESIGN HIS BUILDINGS
AND BE HIS CONTRACTOR.

RuPaul:
WHAT JIM ENVISIONED

WAS NOTHING LESS THAN
A CHRISTIAN DISNEYLAND,

A MULTI-MILLION DOLLAR
RESORT

THAT WOULD EVENTUALLY
INCLUDE A 500-ROOM HOTEL,

A STATE-OF-THE-ART
BROADCAST FACILITY,

AND A WATER PARK.

♪ PRAISE THE LORD ♪

♪ EVERYBODY
LIFT OUR VOICES... ♪

WELL, PART OF THE EXCITEMENT
OF HERITAGE U.S.A., I BELIEVE,

WAS PEOPLE WATCHING
THE BUILDINGS GOING UP.

AND I DON'T THINK MAYBE
I UNDERSTOOD THAT AS WELL
AS I WISH I WOULD HAVE.

I GOT TO WHERE
I COULDN'T STAND TO HEAR
THE NAME ROE MESSNER.

BECAUSE I--FOR ONE THING,

I KNEW THAT BUILDINGS MEANT
RAISING LOTS AND LOTS OF MONEY.

RuPaul: JIM BAKKER
REACHED OUT TO HIS FOLLOWERS

TO PAY FOR HIS DREAM CITY

WITH AN ENDLESS ROUND
OF TELETHONS.

♪ PRAISE THE LORD ♪

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH...

RuPaul: BUT ENOUGH
WAS NEVER ENOUGH.

AND I KNOW SOME
OF YOU HAVE GOTTEN
BUSY SIGNALS,

SO START DIALING
RIGHT NOW, AND YOU
CAN GET THROUGH.

RENEW YOUR PLEDGE,
MAKE YOUR PLEDGE.

WE APOLOGIZE FOR
THE BUSY SIGNALS.

NOW PARTNERS
ARE SAYING, "JIM,

WE WANT JIM AND TAMMY
IN OUR HOMES."

Tammy: I BEGAN
TO FEEL LIKE PTL
HAD GROWN SO FAR PAST ME,

AND I DIDN'T FEEL LIKE
I WAS EVEN SOPHISTICATED ENOUGH

TO BE IN SUCH
A HIGH POSITION.

WE BEGAN TO LEAD
SEPARATE LIVES.

JIM WAS SO BUSY RAISING MONEY
TO BUILD BUILDINGS,

AND HE FORGOT HIS FAMILY.

AND, UM...

WE WERE LEFT
IN THE DUST SOMEWHERE.

♪ THIS IS YOUR HERITAGE ♪

♪ HERITAGE U.S.A. ♪

RuPaul:
BY THE MID-EIGHTIES,

HERITAGE PARK
WAS ON ITS WAY

TO BECOMING THE THIRD MOST
POPULAR RESORT DESTINATION
IN THE U.S.,

BUT THE PRICE OF PTL's
SUCCESS KEPT CLIMBING.

TODAY, WE ARE
AROUND $2 MILLION
IN PAST-DUE BILLS

THAT MUST BE PAID
IF WE'RE GOING TO SAVE
THE ENTIRE NETWORK.

SOON, I FIND MYSELF
WITH A BUDGET

OF A MILLION DOLLARS
EVERY 2 DAYS.

AND THE TAIL BEGAN
TO WAG THE DOG.

YOU KNOW, REALLY,
IF EVERYONE WOULD DOUBLE
THEIR PLEDGE ONE MONTH...

IF EVERY PERSON THAT
WATCHED THIS TELECAST
COULD GIVE $10 A MONTH...

IF YOU HAVEN'T PLEDGED
THAT $15 A MONTH...

CALL RIGHT NOW.
I WANT TO SEND YOU...

THIS BEAUTIFUL LITTLE
RICE-PADDY BABY

FOR YOUR GIFT OF $100.

RuPaul: PTL's
CRISIS RIDDEN FINANCES

ATTRACTED THE ATTENTION
OF A YOUNG REPORTER
AT THE LOCAL PAPER,

THE CHARLOTTE OBSERVER.

I HAD BEEN REPORTING ON PTL
FOR SEVERAL YEARS.

AND THERE WAS A HISTORY
OF MISMANAGEMENT,

AND OF QUESTIONABLE
SPENDING OF MONEY.

TAMMY AND I
ARE UNDERGOING
THE MOST VICIOUS ATTACKS

IN THE HISTORY
OF THIS MINISTRY.

BY NOW, PERHAPS,
YOU THINK

THAT WE SHOULD BE
USED TO THESE ATTACKS.

BUT IT'S BEEN GOING ON
FOR A LONG TIME, TAMMY.

YES, JIM.
IT'S BEEN GOING ON
FOR ALMOST 10 YEARS.

USA TODAY CARRIED
THIS BLURB:

"PTL PRESIDENT JIM BAKKER

USED DONATIONS
TO HIS TELEVISION MINISTRY

TO BUY PERSONAL ITEMS,
LIKE A MINK COAT,

A SPORTS CAR,
AND A HOUSE BOAT,

THE CHARLOTTE OBSERVER
REPORTED SUNDAY."

I HAVE ALL
THE CANCELLED CHECKS.

I'LL HAVE TO PICK 'EM
ALL BACK UP AGAIN.

I THINK THE FACT IS BAKKER
LATCHED ONTO AN IDEA

THAT WAS GONNA HELP
PROPEL HIS MINISTRY FORWARD,

AND IT THEN BECAME
A VERY CONVENIENT WAY

TO DO A LOT
OF OTHER THINGS,

AND HE MADE
SOME STATEMENTS

ABOUT WHAT HE WAS
GONNA DO WITH THIS MONEY,

THAT HE THEN
DID NOT FOLLOW.

Announcer: HERE ARE
JIM AND TAMMY BAKKER!

RuPaul: DESPITE THE ATTACKS,
THE BAKKERS CONTINUED TO SHINE

AS CHRISTIAN TELEVISION'S
BRIGHTEST STARS.

BY SPECIAL REQUEST,

HERE'S TAMMY FAYE
TO SING WE'RE BLESSED!

♪ WE'RE BLESSED,
WE'RE BLESSED,
WE'RE BLESSED ♪

♪ WE ARE BLESSED ♪

♪ OH, WE GIVE SHELTER,
CLOTHING, AND STRENGTH ♪

♪ WE ARE BLESSED ♪

♪ WE'RE BLESSED,
WE'RE BLESSED,
WE'RE BLESSED ♪

OFF SCREEN, THEIR MARRIAGE
WAS FALLING APART.

JIM HAD A SECRET.

JIM BAKKER,
MEET JESSICA HAHN.

Charles: IN 1980, ONE OF HIS
RELIGIOUS ASSOCIATES

HAD ARRANGED
AN ENCOUNTER IN A HOTEL ROOM

WITH A WOMAN
NAMED JESSICA HAHN,

A YOUNG WOMAN,
I THINK, IN HER EARLY 20s.

AND THAT LED TO
A SEXUAL ENCOUNTER
OF SOME KIND OR ANOTHER.

THERE'S A DISPUTE
OVER WHAT EXACTLY
HAPPENED IN THAT ROOM.

THAT DAY ALL MY DREAMS
WERE SHATTERED

AND MY LIFE WOULD NEVER
BE THE SAME.

Charles: IN EARLY 1985...

PTL AGREED TO SETTLE

A THREATENED LAWSUIT
BY JESSICA HAHN

BY PAYING HER
A SUM OF MONEY.

RuPaul: ONCE AGAIN,
THE PTL NETWORK
TURNED TO ROE MESSNER,

APPARENTLY WITHOUT
JIM'S KNOWLEDGE.

Roe: THEY CAME TO ME AND
SAID WE GOT A PROBLEM.

WE'VE MADE AN AGREEMENT
WITH THIS LADY

THAT IF WE
PAY HER $265,000,

SHE'LL GO AWAY.

AND I SAID THAT'S
NOT THE WAY TO DO THAT.

I SAID YOU
SHOULDN'T DO THAT.

I SAID, "I'LL LOAN
YOU THE MONEY,

BUT," I SAYS,
"IT'S A LOAN.

I WANT THE MONEY
PAID BACK."

RuPaul: UNAWARE
OF JIM'S SECRET,

TAMMY FAYE WAS STRUGGLING
WITH HER OWN.

JOIN THE PTL CLUB,

AND TAMMY WANTS TO
SEND YOU A COPY OF HER BOOK

HOW TO OVERCOME FEAR.

Tammy: I BECAME
VERY NERVOUS,

SO I WENT
TO THE DOCTOR

WITH A
HYPERVENTILATION
PROBLEM,

AND THEY KNEW
IT WAS A CASE OF
NERVOUS FRUSTRATION.

AND SO THEY
GAVE ME A LITTLE
PILL CALLED ADAVAN.

AND ADAVAN...

WAS A WONDERFUL DRUG
FOR ME AT THE TIME.

I DIDN'T TAKE
MY MEDICINE TODAY

BECAUSE I WANTED
TO BE BRIGHT.

YESTERDAY,
I ALMOST FELL OFF
MY HIGH HEELS.

I WAS ON MEDICINE,
TAKING MY MEDICINE,
SO I'M NOT SAYING--

THIS WAS HER WAY OF
DEALING WITH THE STRESS

THAT SHE WAS UNDER
IN THE RELATIONSHIP.

AND SHE WOULD
LITERALLY LOSE TRACK

OF THE NUMBER OF ADAVAN
THAT SHE WOULD TAKE.

TAMMY, I THINK YOU OUGHT
TO SING A SONG FOR US.

I'M BACK HERE LOOKING
AT THE BOAT, JIM.

ISN'T THIS
A MAGNIFICENT THING?

YES.

RIGHT HERE
ON OUR BEACH.

IT LOOKS BRAND NEW.
I BET--

I'M GONNA TAKE
MY SHOES OFF AND
WADE IN THE WATER.

I DON'T THINK THAT
BOAT'S EVER SEEN WATER.

[GIGGLING]

I FINALLY GOT
TO THE POINT

WHERE I HAD
TO HAVE ADAVAN
WITH ME AT ALL TIMES.

RuPaul:
THEN TAMMY OVERDOSED.

Tammy: WE HAD JUST
BROKEN GROUND

FOR ONE OF THE BUILDINGS
THAT WE WERE GETTING
READY TO BUILD.

IT WAS GOING TO BE
A FOOTBALL FIELD LONG.

AND WE HAD
BROKEN GROUND.

THE DAY WAS
VERY, VERY COLD,

AND NONE OF US HAD
WORN PROPER CLOTHING.

AND I GOT PNEUMONIA
AS A RESULT OF THAT.

THEY SAID THAT I HAD
ENOUGH ADAVAN IN ME

THAT WOULD'VE KILLED
A HUGE TRUCK DRIVER.

RuPaul: TAMMY WAS RUSHED
ON A FRIEND'S PRIVATE JET

TO EISENHOWER MEDICAL CENTER
IN PALM SPRINGS, CALIFORNIA.

ON THE AIRPLANE I WENT
INTO HALLUCINATIONS.

IT-IT'S PLEASANT.

IT IS PLEASANT
WHEN YOU'RE IN A
DRUG-INDUCED STATE OF MIND.

I MEAN, YOU CAN SIT
AND WATCH WONDERFUL THINGS,

AND I SAW CARTOONS.

BUT THEN
THERE ARE TIMES

WHEN YOU SEE REALLY
HORRIBLE THINGS, TOO.

I SAW THESE MEN WITH
THESE BLACK CAPES ON.

I SAW THEM COMING
AT ME IN DROVES.

RuPaul: ONCE ON THE PLANE,

TAMMY TRIED TO DISEMBARK
AT 30,000 FEET.

Tammy: THEY TOOK ME
FROM THE HOSPITAL

DIRECTLY TO
THE BETTY FORD CENTER.

I THOUGHT I WAS BEING
PUNISHED FOR SOMETHING,

AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT
I WAS BEING PUNISHED FOR.

IT STILL HURTS ME...

THAT THEY DID NOT
TELL ME THEY WERE
GONNA DO THAT TO ME.

SHE SPENT ONE NIGHT
THERE AND THEN LEFT.

ALL I NEEDED
WAS TO BE EDUCATED,

BECAUSE I'M
AN INTELLIGENT PERSON,
AND THAT'S ALL I NEEDED.

ONCE I WAS EDUCATED
AND REALIZED WHAT I WAS DOING,

I STOPPED IT
AND I HAVE NEVER, EVER

HAVE HAD TO--HAVE--HAVE,
UH...BEEN ADDICTED
TO ANYTHING AGAIN.

JUST DIET COKE.

BUT THE PRESIDENT
LIKES IT, TOO,

SO I'M
IN GOOD COMPANY.

[BLEEP]

Both: HEE HEE HEE HEE.

I WENT AWAY
FOR A WHILE,

AND I HAVE LEARNED
THE BEST LESSON
IN MY WHOLE LIFE.

I LEARNED HOW MUCH
I LOVED MY HUSBAND,

HOW MUCH I CARED
FOR MY HUSBAND.

AND I LEARNED
A LESSON OF LONELINESS

SUCH AS I'VE NEVER
FELT IN MY LIFE.

WHEN I HAD TO
GO OUT ALL OF A SUDDEN

AND GO BY MYSELF
AND DO MY WASHING

TO A PLACE WHERE
I DIDN'T EVEN--

WAS NOT FAMILIAR WITH,

WHEN I HAD TO CARRY OUT MY
OWN GARBAGE,

WHEN I HAD TO DO
ALL THE THINGS

THAT I DID WITH
SOMEONE I LOVED BEFORE,

WHEN I HAD TO
DO IT ALL BY MYSELF,

ALL OF A SUDDEN,
I REALIZED

THAT THERE WAS
A LOT MORE TO MARRIAGE
THAN JUST THE SPARKLES.

RuPaul: JIM AND TAMMY
DECIDED TO STAY IN THEIR
HOME IN PALM SPRINGS

AND PUT THEIR MARRIAGE
BACK TOGETHER,

BUT THINGS
TURNED OUT DIFFERENTLY.

THE THING I REMEMBER
MOST ABOUT THIS HOUSE,

I BELIEVE,
IS THE WIND.

WE USED TO GO UP
ON TOP OF THE ROOF
OF THE GARAGE

AND LISTEN TO
THE WIND BLOWING THROUGH
THE PALM TREES AT NIGHT.

AND THE MOON WOULD BE OUT.
IT WOULD BE SO BEAUTIFUL
HERE IN THE DESERT.

THIS IS THE HOUSE
WHERE OUR WHOLE LIVES

CAME TUMBLING DOWN ON US.

I WAS STILL VERY WEAK
AND VERY SICK

WHEN I FINISHED
THE BETTY FORD PROGRAM.

AND JIM WAS
REALLY BURNED OUT,

HAVING TO RAISE
$1 MILLION A WEEK

TO KEEP PTL ON THE AIR,
AND TO KEEP ALL
THE BILLS PAID.

Jim: IT WAS BEGINNING
TO CRUSH ME.

AT THE END OF THE DAY,

I WOULD LITERALLY
HAVE TO THINK TO WALK.

I DON'T KNOW IF YOU
CAN UNDERSTAND THAT,
BUT I'D HAVE TO--

I WAS SO EXHAUSTED,
I'D HAVE TO, YOU KNOW--

USUALLY YOUR BODY WILL
JUST WALK BY ITSELF,

BUT I'M HAVING
TO PICK UP MY FEET
ON PURPOSE TO WALK.

AND SO JERRY FALWELL
KNEW JUST WHEN TO HIT.

RuPaul: ALTHOUGH JIM AND
TAMMY WERE THE MOST POPULAR
EVANGELISTS OF THEIR TIME,

SOUTHERN BAPTIST MINISTER
JERRY FALWELL WAS
THE MOST POWERFUL.

HE WAS THE FOUNDER
OF THE MORAL MAJORITY

AND PLAYED A KEY ROLE
IN REAGAN'S ELECTION.

HE PREACHED A RETURN
TO FAMILY VALUES

AND SINGLED OUT
THE PRO-ABORTION AND
GAY MOVEMENTS FOR ATTACK.

FALWELL'S EMPIRE
INCLUDED A SUCCESSFUL
TELEVISION MINISTRY

AND A UNIVERSITY,

BUT IT DID NOT
INCLUDE A SATELLITE.

HE CALLS JIM UP
AND HE SAYS,

"JIM, I HAVE FOUND
SOMETHING OUT THAT
I AM GOING TO--

"THAT IS GOING TO BE
LEAKED TO THE NEWSPAPERS

"IF YOU DON'T
ALLOW ME TO HELP YOU."

HE SAYS, "LET ME FLY OUT
TO CALIFORNIA,

AND I WANT TO HELP YOU
AND TAMMY THROUGH THIS."

AND THEN HE BROUGHT UP
THE NAME JESSICA HAHN.

THIS IS WHERE
I HEARD JIM TELL ME

THAT HE HAD HAD
A ONE-NIGHT STAND

WITH A YOUNG LADY
BY THE NAME OF JESSICA HAHN.

EVEN THOUGH IT HAD
HAPPENED 9 YEARS BEFORE,

TO ME, IT WAS LIKE
IT HAD HAPPENED YESTERDAY.

I LAID ON THE FLOOR
AND I CRIED FOR 3 DAYS.

I COULDN'T BELIEVE WHAT
HAD HAPPENED TO MY LIFE.

AND I DIDN'T KNOW
HOW TO SOLVE IT.

RuPaul: TAMMY WROTE
TO JESSICA HAHN,

ASKING TO MEET WITH HER.
SHE DECLINED.

SHE DID, HOWEVER,
TELL HER SIDE OF THE STORY

IN A 1993 PLAYBOY VIDEO.

I WOULD REALLY
LIKE PEOPLE TO KNOW

THERE ARE SIDES
OF MY PERSONALITY
THAT NO ONE HAS SEEN.

I WOULD JUST LIKE PEOPLE
TO KNOW THE REAL ME.

Tammy: JERRY FALWELL
FLEW HIS PRIVATE JET OUT.

HE SAID--HE PUT
HIS ARMS AROUND ME--
"I WANT TO HELP YOU."

AND WITH THAT, HE SAID,
"IF YOU WILL GIVE PTL
TO ME FOR 6 WEEKS,"

HE SAID, "WHILE
THIS STORY BREAKS,
WHICH IS BOUND TO BREAK,"

HE SAID,
"WE WILL BE THE CATALYST,

"AND IN 6 WEEKS,
YOU WILL HAVE
YOUR MINISTRY BACK,

AND IT WILL BE LIKE
NOTHING EVER HAPPENED."

AN ATTACK ON
ONE DENOMINATION
IS AN ATTACK ON ALL.

WE MUST SHARE
THE BREAD OF ADVERSITY

AND THE WATER
OF AFFLICTION.

JIM SWALLOWED IT
HOOK, LINE, AND SINKER.

BUT I KNEW THERE WAS
SOMETHING WRONG SOMEWHERE,

AND I BEGGED HIM--
I BEGGED HIM

NOT TO GIVE UP HIS PLACE
ON THE BOARD OF DIRECTORS.

I TOLD HIM,
"GO BACK AND TALK TO
THE BOARD OF DIRECTORS.

"GO BACK AND
TALK TO YOUR PEOPLE

BEFORE YOU DO
SOMETHING LIKE THIS."

AND JIM SAID, "NO.

"DADDY FALWELL'S HERE.

HE'LL TAKE CARE
OF EVERYTHING."

BY EARLY 1987,
I HAD COLLECTED
THE INFORMATION

I NEEDED TO PUBLISH
A STORY ABOUT JESSICA HAHN
AND ABOUT THAT PAYOFF.

ON MARCH 19, 1987,

IN AN INTERVIEW
WITH US ABOUT THE STORY,

INSTEAD OF AN INTERVIEW,
WE HEARD A RESIGNATION
SPEECH OVER THE TELEPHONE.

JIM WAS IN CALIFORNIA.
HE READ THIS RESIGNATION.

HE GOT OFF THE PHONE
AND IMMEDIATELY

A MAN NAMED
JERRY FALWELL COMES ON,

WHICH IS A SHOCK TO ALL
OF US AT THE NEWSPAPER.

AND FALWELL HAS
BEEN GIVEN BY JIM
THE MANTLE OF RUNNING PTL.

HOW CAN WE SAY THANK YOU
FOR YOU GENTLEMEN

WHO HAVE STOOD
BY JIM AND TAMMY'S SIDE,
AND ALL OF OUR SIDE?

IF OUR ARMS
WERE BIG ENOUGH,

WE'D JUST WRAP THEM
ALL AROUND ALL OF YOU.

WE REALLY WOULD.

Charles: THAT STORY
EXPLODED.

IT WAS THE STORY
FOR NEWSPAPERS

AND TELEVISION
AROUND THE COUNTRY.

ARE YOU PLANNING
ON COMING BACK?

I REMEMBER
GOING TO PTL

AND GOING INTO
THIS NEWS CONFERENCE

THAT FALWELL HELD
AT THE HOTEL,

AND I HAVE TO SAY,
FEELING SOME BLUSH OF PRIDE

AT WHAT MY GOOD REPORTING
HAD CREATED HERE.

Tammy: O.J. SIMPSON
WAS NOTHING

COMPARED TO WHAT
WE HAD AROUND US.

IT WAS UNBELIEVABLE.

WE JUST WANTED
TO SAY HELLO,

AND THANK ALL
YOU CAMERAMEN

AND ALL YOU
PRESS PEOPLE.

I HATE IT
YOU HAD TO STAND OUT

IN THIS HOT SUN
IN THIS DESERT.

THEY WERE 4,
5 DEEP FOR THE WHOLE BLOCK,

DOWN ALL AROUND OUR HOUSE.

THERE WAS NO PLACE
FOR US TO HIDE AT ALL.

REMEMBER, I WAS
11 YEARS OLD WHEN
THIS WAS HAPPENING,

BUT I COULD TELL
SOMETHING WAS GOING WRONG.

SHARE WITH US.
HOW'S JAMIE CHARLES
AND TAMMY SUE DOING?

WE'RE CONCERNED.

I WISH YOU'D
STARTED SOMEWHERE ELSE.

[CRYING]

ONE OF THE LAST THING
JAMIE CHARLES SAID IS,

"WILL I GET A CHANCE
TO GO HOME AND GET MY TOYS?"

Man: AW, BLESS HIM.

AND SUSIE'S DOING WELL.

I RAN AWAY
FROM HOME.

WHAT WOULD
ANY TEENAGER DO?

RUN AWAY.
THAT'S THE ANSWER.

YOU KNOW.
AND THAT'S WHAT I DID.

RuPaul: ON JUNE 11, 1987,

JIM AND TAMMY
WENT ON THE AIR

TO ADDRESS THE PTL AUDIENCE
FOR WHAT WOULD BE
THE LAST TIME.

TAMMY AND I ARE
SO VERY GLAD

THAT WE'VE
BEEN GRANTED
THIS OPPORTUNITY

TO TALK
WITH YOU TODAY.

AND SAY HELLO.

YES. HELLO, EVERYONE.

AND WE WANT
TO SAY TO YOU

THAT WE ARE SO
VERY, VERY SORRY.

I BELIEVE, TAMMY,

'CAUSE THE GOD I
SERVE IS STILL GOD,

I BELIEVE THE SUN
WILL SHINE AGAIN.

OH, I DO, TOO, JIM.

YOU WANT TO SING IT?

I'LL DO IT.
CAN YOU DO IT?

ALL RIGHT,
TAMMY FAYE IS GONNA
SING A SONG FOR YOU

JUST BEFORE
WE LEAVE OUR HOUSE.

MAYBE YOU'RE HURTING
AND YOU NEED THIS
SONG TODAY, TOO,

SO, I'LL SING IT
FOR BOTH OF US, OK?

♪ OH, THE SUN
WILL SHINE AGAIN ♪

♪ THE SUN
WILL SHINE AGAIN ♪

♪ OH, THE SUN
WILL SHINE AGAIN ♪

WE CAME IN HERE FIRST

BECAUSE WE FELT
JIM BAKKER WANTED US HERE.

♪ A NEW DAY
WILL BREAK ♪

WE NOW FEEL
A HIGHER CALLING.

WE FEEL THAT GOD
WANTS US HERE,

AT LEAST FOR
THE TIME BEING.

JERRY FALWELL CAME IN
TO RESCUE THE NETWORK,

BUT, IN FACT, TOOK IT.

RESCUE, TAKE,
THEY'RE OPPOSITES.

I FEEL LIKE GOD HAS
FORGIVEN ME OF SO MUCH,

THAT I WILL
FORGIVE EVERYONE
WHO HAS HURT US.

AND SO WE JUST
WANT EVERYONE

TO BEGIN TO
LOVE ONE ANOTHER,

AND THAT THE CHURCH WORLD
WILL LOVE ONE ANOTHER,

THAT THE PEOPLE OF GOD
WILL NOT FIGHT.

OH, I BELIEVE YOUR
MIDNIGHT'S ALMOST OVER.

AND THANK GOD,
THE SUN IS GOING
TO SHINE AGAIN.

PRAISE THE LORD.

[APPLAUSE]

Man: HALLELUJAH!
PRAISE THE LORD!

Roe: JERRY FALWELL
CALLED ME UP,

AND HE SAID, "ROE,
I WANT YOU TO GO OUT

AND SEE
JIM AND TAMMY FOR ME."

HE SAID, "I WANT YOU
TO GO OUT THERE

"AND TELL THEM
I'M GOING TO GIVE THEM

"300,000 SALARY
THIS YEAR.

"I'M GOING TO TAKE CARE OF
THEIR HEALTH INSURANCE,

"PAY THE PHONE BILL,

"I'M GOING TO GIVE THEM
ONE SECURITY GUARD,

A MAID," HE SAID,

AND YOU KNOW, JUST HAVE
THEM WRITE IT DOWN
ON A PIECE OF PAPER."

ROE, THINKING
THAT FALWELL WAS
AN HONORABLE MAN,

CAME OUT TO OUR
HOUSE AND TOLD US THIS.

AND SO HE SAID,
"TAMMY, YOU NEED TO
JUST GET A PIECE OF PAPER

"AND YOU NEED TO WRITE
DOWN THE LIST OF BENEFITS

"THAT THE BOARD OF DIRECTORS
VOTED FOR YOU TO HAVE,

AND MR. FALWELL WANTS
TO CONTINUE THOSE FOR A YEAR."

AND I GAVE JERRY,

I GAVE HIM THIS--
THIS THING

WITH TAMMY'S
PINK STATIONARY.

HE GOES TO THE CAMERA
RIGHT THEN.

WE WERE IN OUR HOME
AND CNN WAS ON,

AND, OF COURSE,
WE WERE WATCHING IT.

JIM AND TAMMY GAVE ME
THIS LIST OF THINGS
THEY'D LIKE TO RECEIVE.

JIM'S SALARY,
FOR A LIFETIME,

AT $300,000 PER YEAR.

TAMMY'S SALARY,
FOR A LIFETIME,
$100,000.

SECRETARY FOR ONE YEAR...
PHONE BILL..2 CARS...

HOUSE ON THE LAKE...
SECURITY...

AND THE FURNITURE.
THEY WANT A MAID.

I DON'T SEE
ANY REPENTANCE THERE.

I SEE THE GREED.

I SEE
THE SELF-CENTEREDNESS.

I SEE THE AVARICE
THAT BROUGHT THEM DOWN.

AND FROM
THAT DAY ON,

HE STARTED--
HE STARTED HIS
ATTACK ON JIM.

THE HOMOSEXUALITY STUFF,

THE DARK HOLE WHERE
ALL THE MONEY'S GONE,

AND ALL THAT BALONEY
THAT HE CAME UP WITH.

I HAVE SAT ACROSS
THE TABLE FROM MEN

WHO HAVE TOLD ME OF THEIR--
OF YOUR HOMOSEXUAL ADVANCES.

AND SINCE THEN, OF COURSE,
I HAVE LEARNED OF THE
FISCAL IRREGULARITIES.

AND JIM, I MUST TELL YOU

THAT I WOULD BE DOING
A DISSERVICE TO GOD,

AS MUCH AS I LOVE
YOU AND CARE FOR YOU,

AND WILL PRAY FOR YOU,

I WOULD BE DOING
A DISSERVICE TO GOD

AND TO THE CHURCH AT LARGE

TO ALLOW YOU TO COME BACK
HERE NOW OR EVER.

JIM, A LOOK
OF PURE HORROR,

PURE TORTURE
PASSED OVER HIS FACE.

AND HE SAID,
"TAM, IT'S ALL OVER.

I'VE BEEN HAD."

Charles: MY SENSE OF
FALWELL AND OF HIS PEOPLE

AND HOW THEY OPERATED WAS
THEY HAD VERY SHARP KNIVES.

AND THE BAKKERS PROBABLY
WERE A LITTLE NAIVE.

I DON'T KNOW THAT THEY
HAD EVER RUN INTO ANYONE
WHO WAS QUITE SO CUNNING.

THEY WERE MANIPULATIVE,
AND SCHEMING,

BUT HE WAS CUNNING,

AND I THINK CUNNING
TRUMPED SCHEMING THERE.

RuPaul: LESS THAN 3 MONTHS
AFTER FALWELL TOOK OVER,

PTL FILED FOR BANKRUPTCY.

THOUSANDS OF
PTL PARTNERS, DONORS,

AND CREDITORS
LOST MILLIONS OF DOLLARS.

Roe: THEY SOLD IT
FOR 25 CENTS
ON THE DOLLAR,

AND THERE JUST
WASN'T ANY MONEY
FOR THE CREDITORS.

I THINK MR. FALWELL

WANTED TO
DESTROY PTL,
IS WHAT I THINK.

I WOULD LOVE TO SIT
AND LOOK JERRY FALWELL
IN THE EYES

AND SAY, "JERRY,
WHY DON'T YOU JUST

GET IT RIGHT WITH GOD
AND SAY YOU'RE SORRY?"

HE DOESN'T HAVE TO
MAKE IT RIGHT WITH ME,

BECAUSE I'M NOT IN CHARGE
OF WHETHER JERRY FALWELL'S
GOING TO HEAVEN OR HELL.

THAT'S NOT--I'M NOT
IN CHARGE OF THAT.

BUT I SAY HE HAD BETTER
MAKE IT RIGHT WITH GOD.

I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING
TO FACE JERRY,

BUT HE WON'T FACE ME.
I KNOW HE WON'T.

RuPaul: FALWELL NEVER
REPLIED TO TAMMY'S LETTER.

HE HAS, HOWEVER,
GONE ON RECORD

CALLING TAMMY A LOONY
WHOSE ELEVATOR NEVER
WENT TO THE TOP FLOOR.

FALWELL ALSO NEVER RESPONDED
TO THE PRODUCER'S REQUEST

FOR AN INTERVIEW.

ELSEWHERE, HOWEVER,

HE HAS DENIED THAT THE LIST
ON TAMMY'S LETTERHEAD

WAS CREATED
AT HIS SUGGESTION.

HE ALSO MAINTAINS
THAT BAKKER ASKED HIM

TO TAKE OVER THE PTL MINISTRY

AND WAS NEVER PROMISED
HE COULD RETURN.

RuPaul: IN 1989, JIM BAKKER
WENT ON TRIAL FOR FRAUD.

Reporter:
THE GOVERNMENT SAID BAKKER

DELIBERATELY SOLD
MORE THAN TWICE AS MANY
PARTNERSHIPS FOR LODGING

AS THERE
WERE ACCOMMODATIONS,

AND POCKETED
NEARLY $4 MILLION

TO KEEP HIM IN
EXPENSIVE HOMES AND CARS.

James Albert: THIS
WAS A FEDERAL TRIAL.

THERE WERE
NO CAMERAS ALLOWED
IN THE COURTROOM.

WE HAD TO RELY ON
THOSE PRINT JOURNALISTS,

AND PARTICULARLY
THE CHARLOTTE OBSERVER
REPORTERS.

THEN, OF COURSE,
REMEMBER, THE
CHARLOTTE OBSERVER

WON THE PULITZER PRIZE
FOR PUBLIC SERVICE
FOR TOPPLING JIM BAKKER

AND EXPOSING HIM
ONE FULL YEAR

BEFORE THIS JURY
EVER GOT A CHANCE
TO CONSIDER

ANY OF THIS EVIDENCE.

RuPaul: JAMES ALBERT
SPENT 5 YEARS STUDYING
THE PTL TRIAL,

AND WROTE A BOOK
THAT RAISED QUESTIONS

ABOUT HOW THE TRIAL
MIGHT HAVE BEEN

A MISCARRIAGE OF JUSTICE.

WHEN THE DEFENSE
PLAYED A PTL VIDEO

FOR THE JURY TO SEE,

JUDGE POTTER ACTUALLY
STUCK HIS INDEX FINGERS
IN HIS EARS

AND TURNED AWAY.

HE HAS SAID IN
THE COURT MANY TIMES,

"I MAY NOT BE
RULING THIS CORRECTLY,

BUT YOU CAN TAKE IT UP
ON YOUR APPEAL."

AND I FEEL THAT
ANY JUDGE WHO THINKS

THAT WE'RE GONNA
HAVE TO APPEAL

HAS ALREADY
MADE UP HIS MIND
THAT WE'RE GUILTY.

THE JUDGE REFUSED
TO ALLOW THE JURORS

TO BOARD A BUS AND TRAVEL
15 MINUTES TO HERITAGE U.S.A.,

TO SEE WHAT
JIM BAKKER HAD BUILT

WITH ALL THE MONEY
THAT HE RAISED.

IT WAS A TRIAL
NOT ABOUT FRAUD

OR CRIMINAL CONDUCT.

IT WAS A TRIAL
ABOUT LIFESTYLE AND WEALTH.

Reporter: PTL's
NEW MANAGEMENT

ACT CONTINUALLY AMAZED
AT THE OPULENCE

UNDER WHICH JIM
AND TAMMY BAKKER LIVED.

IN FACT, A TRIP THROUGH
THE PRESIDENTIAL SUITE

AT THE HERITAGE
GRAND HOTEL

SHOWS THE BAKKERS LIVED,
ONE COULD EASILY DEDUCE,
QUITE LUXURIOUSLY.

THEY LIVED WELL,

BUT THEY LIVED
NO BETTER THAN
PAT ROBERTSON,

NO BETTER THAN
JERRY FALWELL,

NO BETTER THAN
JIM DOBSON,

'CAUSE I'VE BEEN
IN THEIR HOMES, TOO.

BUT LOOK,
I THINK THE FACT IS

THE BAKKERS HAD BEEN,

FROM PRETTY MUCH
EVERYBODY'S POINT OF VIEW,

PRETTY GREEDY.

IT'S LUDICROUS TO ARGUE

THAT JIM BAKKER
RAISED $158 MILLION

FROM HIS
TELEVISION VIEWERS

TO KEEP $3 MILLION
FOR HIMSELF.

RuPaul: AFTER A 6-WEEK TRIAL,

JIM BAKKER WAS SENTENCED TO
45 YEARS IN FEDERAL PRISON.

I CAN'T IMAGINE HIM
BEING TAKEN INTO CUSTODY,

BUT THAT'S VERY MUCH
IN THE JUDGE'S DISCRETION,

AND THE JUDGE
HAS PROVEN HIMSELF
HARD TO PREDICT.

WITH TODAY'S VERDICT,
REALITY HAS FINALLY
DAWNED FOR JIM BAKKER.

TODAY WAS CERTAINLY AN EXAMPLE
OF GOD'S AMAZING GRACE.

THEY DID HIM LIKE
THEY DONE JESUS,

WITH LEADING HIM
LIKE HE'S A BIG
DRUG PUSHER,

A BIG ROBBER
OR SOMETHING.

THEY HAD
HANDCUFFS ON HIM,

LEADING HIM,
AND HE IS
THE MAN OF GOD.

I HAVE A SONG FOR YOU.

♪ ON CHRIST,
THE SOLID ROCK, I STAND ♪

♪ ALL OTHER GROUND
IS SINKING SAND ♪

♪ ALL OTHER GROUND
IS SINKING SAND ♪

IT'S NOT OVER
TILL IT'S OVER.

RuPaul: THIS
IS THE LAST TIME

TAMMY FAYE WOULD SING
IN PUBLIC FOR QUITE SOME TIME.

MEANWHILE CHARLES SHEPARD
WROTE A BOOK CALLED FORGIVEN,

A SEARING ACCOUNT
OF THE SCANDAL.

[TYPING]

SHEPARD WAS ASKED IF HE
WOULD MET WITH TAMMY FAYE.

HE AGREED.

SO 12 YEARS
AFTER THE VERDICT,

TAMMY CONFRONTED CHARLES
FOR THE FIRST TIME.

I WAS THEIR, CHARLIE.

I KNOW HOW IT HAPPENED.

I KNOW JIM BAKKER
IS NOT A CROOK.

I KNOW THAT AFTER
25 YEARS IN FRONT OF
THE TELEVISION CAMERAS,

WE DID NOT STEAL MONEY
AND YOU AND I--

I WANT TO HEAR YOU SAY,
"YOU STOLE MONEY."

I DON'T FEEL I WROTE THINGS
THAT WERE UNTRUE.
HMM.

CERTAINLY NOT KNOWING
THEY WERE,

AND EVEN NOW, I DON'T KNOW
OF ANYTHING I WROTE
THAT WAS UNTRUE.
MM-HMM.

DID YOU WRITE THAT
MILLIONS WERE MISSING?

I DON'T EVER REMEMBER
WRITING THAT.

YOU SAID--WHAT YOU SAID
WAS A BIG, DEEP HOLE...

MILLIONS MISSING.

W-WHY?

ALL I WANT TO KNOW
IS JUST WHY?

WHICH QUESTION
SHOULD I ANSWER FIRST?

ON ALL OF THEM!

I CAN'T UNDERSTAND,
WHAT DID WE DO?

FIRST OF ALL, I DON'T--
I'M NOT HERE TO SAY--
A JUDGE AND JURY.

BECAUSE, LISTEN.

I COULD TURN AROUND
AND--AND--AND--AND
PUT PTL DOWN

IF I WANT TO,
JUST LIKE THE NEWS DID,

BUT I WAS THERE
AND I LIVED IT

AND ONE THING I KNOW
ABOUT JIM BAKKER--

HE WAS AN HONEST MAN.

AND ONE THING I KNOW
ABOUT THE PTL ORGANIZATION,

IT WAS AN HONEST,
TRUTHFUL ORGANIZATION.

RuPaul: TAMMY
WANTED AN APOLOGY.

CHARLES WANTED AN AUTOGRAPH.

OH, YEAH. I--I--I...

I BROUGHT SOME COPIES
OF MY BOOK.

HEY, GREAT.

I WANTED TO GIVE YOU,
BUT I WANTED TO GET YOU
TO AUTOGRAPH SOME...

I WILL.

MY SCHOOL HAS GOT
AN AUCTION

FOR THE GRADUATE WOMEN
IN BUSINESS GROUP.
OH, SURE.

I THOUGHT
IT WOULD BE A KICK

IF I GIVE THEM THAT
TO AUCTION OFF.

OK. ALL RIGHT.

DIDN'T KNOW YOU WERE
GOING TO A SIGNING,
DID YOU, TAMMY?

NO, I DIDN'T.

Man: TAMMY, WHAT
DID YOU WRITE?

HA HA HA!

BUT, HEY, CHARLES,
YOU'RE FORGIVEN.

HA HA HA!

♪ I'M GOING
TO LOVE MY ENEMIES ♪

♪ DO GOOD TO THOSE
WHO ARE BAD TO ME ♪

♪ GOING TO LOVE... ♪

WELL, IF YOU CAME
TO SEE ME CRY,

WELL, YOU GOT YOUR WISH.

Woman: WOULD YOU LIKE
TO MAKE A STATEMENT
IN FRONT OF THE CAMERAS?

WELL, I WANT TO SAY
I LOVE MY HUSBAND,

MY FAITH IS STILL
STRONG IN THE LORD.

I STILL FEEL THERE'S
NOTHING TOO HARD FOR GOD,

AND I'M STANDING ON CHRIST,
A SOLID ROCK.

RuPaul: WITH A HUSBAND
IN PRISON,

A RUNAWAY DAUGHTER,
AND A TROUBLED SON,

TAMMY STRUGGLED
TO MAKE IT ON HER OWN.

BUT IN 1992, JIM AND TAMMY'S
DREAM ENDED...IN DIVORCE.

I WAS TOTALLY ALONE
AND HAD NOTHING, NO ONE.

EVERYONE HAD TURNED
THEIR BACK AGAINST ME
ONE MORE TIME,

AND I FELT LIKE
A WOMAN WITHOUT A COUNTRY.

IT'S SO OFTEN TRUE
THAT CHRISTIANS ARE

ONE ARMY THAT KILLS
THEIR WOUNDED.

HA HA. WE DON'T--

WE DON'T TRY TO NURSE THEM
BACK TO HEALTH.

AND I DON'T KNOW
OF ANY WOMAN IN OUR TIME

WHO HAS BEEN SO RIDICULED,
PUT DOWN, MALIGNED.

REALLY, I EQUATE HER

WITH HILLARY CLINTON...

BECAUSE THESE 2 WOMEN
HAVE BOTH SUFFERED
TREMENDOUSLY

BY THE THINGS THAT
THEIR HUSBANDS MAY HAVE DONE.

HA. AND YET SHE JUST
KEEPS GOING.

Choir:
♪ I'LL KEEP CLIMBING ♪

♪ I'LL KEEP CLIMBING ♪

♪ UP THE MOUNTAIN ♪

♪ UP THAT MOUNTAIN ♪

♪ AND I'LL MAKE IT ♪

♪ I'M GOING TO MAKE IT ♪

RuPaul: 18 MONTHS
AFTER HER DIVORCE,

TAMMY SCANDALIZED
THE CHURCH AND THE MEDIA

WHEN SHE REMARRIED.

HER NEW HUSBAND WAS THE MAN
WHO PAID OFF JESSICA HAHN,

THE MAN WHO BUILT
HERITAGE U.S.A.,

AND THE MAN WHO JIM BAKKER
CALLED HIS BEST FRIEND...

ROE MESSNER.

Roe: EVERYBODY
LIKES TO SAY THAT
WAS PLANNED, YOU KNOW,

AND THAT ROE AND TAMMY
HAD THIS BIG DEAL GOING

WHILE HE WAS IN
CHARLOTTE BUILDING PTL.

NONE OF THAT'S TRUE.

ALL OF A SUDDEN, I...

LIKED TAMMY, YOU KNOW?

AND WE STARTED
TALKING TOGETHER
A LITTLE BIT.

UM...

AND IT JUST
SORT OF HAPPENED
LIKE THAT, REALLY.

RuPaul:
DIVORCED AND REMARRIED,

TAMMY WAS REJECTED
BY CHRISTIAN BROADCASTING,

SO SHE TURNED
TO SECULAR TELEVISION,

COURTING EVEN MORE
CONTROVERSY

BY HOSTING A TALK SHOW
WITH AN OPENLY GAY COHOST.

Both: ♪ WE'RE NOT
WHAT YOU'D EXPECT ♪

♪ WE'RE A CRAZY,
KOOKY DUET ♪

♪ WE'RE A RECIPE
YOU COULDN'T BAKE UP ♪

♪ 3 TIMES THE LAUGHS ♪

♪ AND 10 TIMES
THE MAKEUP ♪

I THINK GAY PEOPLE
LIKE TAMMY BECAUSE

TAMMY LIKES GAY PEOPLE.

AND SHE'S ONE
OF THE ONLY CHRISTIANS

IN THE WORLD
WHO SEEMS TO THESE DAYS.

Singers: ♪ WAY ♪

♪ ON JIM J. AND TAMMY FAYE ♪

OH, HI, EVERYONE!

THAT'S YOUR MAKE-UP KIT?

THAT'S MY MAKE-UP.

CHOCOLATE? OF COURSE,
SHE'S GOT CHOCOLATE,

POTATO CHIPS, A--
MY BRA?!

WHAT ARE YOU DOING
WITH MY BRA?

I NEVER EVEN THOUGHT
OF HIM AS--AS--AS GAY.

I JUST THOUGHT OF HIM
AS ANOTHER HUMAN BEING

THAT I LOVED.

IT WAS AS SIMPLE AS THAT.

OH, MY GOD!

HONEY, HOW ARE YOU?!

I MISSED YOU SO MUCH.

I MISSED YOU, TOO!

Jim J.: SHE HAS BEEN JUDGED
BY OTHER PEOPLE

AND SHE KNOWS
WHAT THAT'S LIKE.

SO ALTHOUGH TAMMY'S BELIEFS
ARE NOT IN FAVOR,
I DON'T THINK,

OF HOMOSEXUALITY,

SHE ALLOWED ME THE FREEDOM
TO BE WHO I AM

AND DIDN'T LET THAT
GET IN THE WAY
OF A FRIENDSHIP.

OH, YOU DECORATE
SO AWESOME.

AREN'T THESE FABULOUS?
THESE ARE AWESOME.

I'M GLAD YOU GOT
TO SAVE SOMETHING.

YOU WANT A DIET COKE?

HOW DID YOU KNOW?

RuPaul:
TAMMY HASN'T SEEN JIM J.

SINCE HE LOST HIS
LOVER TO AIDS

AND WAS HIMSELF
DIAGNOSED WITH HIV.

HOW ARE YOU DOING
WITHOUT JOHN?

ARE YOU DOING OK?

IT'S BEEN A LONG,
HARD ROAD, YOU KNOW, BUT--

I KNOW.
IT MUST BE VERY LONELY.

- I'M COMING AROUND.
- ARE YOU ALL RIGHT?

- YEAH.
- GOOD.

I'M A SURVIVOR LIKE YOU.
I LOVED JOHN. YOU KNOW,
I LOVED HIM SO MUCH.

I DON'T LABEL PEOPLE.

I REFUSE TO LABEL PEOPLE.

WE'RE ALL JUST PEOPLE
MADE OUT OF THE SAME OLD DIRT.

AND GOD DIDN'T MAKE
ANY JUNK.

RuPaul: BUT IN SPITE OF THEIR
ON-SCREEN CHEMISTRY,

THE SHOW WAS CANCELED.

AND BEFORE SHE COULD
RECOVER FROM THIS BLOW,

SHE WAS DEALT ANOTHER.

Tammy: I HAD BEEN
BLEEDING FOR A YEAR.

THE BLEEDING BECAME
MUCH WORSE.

AND SO MY GYNECOLOGIST SAID,
"TAMMY, I THINK YOU NEED
TO GO SEE A PROCTOLOGIST."

AND BY THAT TIME, OF COURSE,
IT WAS TOO LATE

AND THE CANCER HAD ALREADY
TAKEN PLACE IN MY BODY.

BEING WITH HER...

DURING...

UM, HER CANCER...

IN THE HOSPITAL,
SLEEPING ON THE BED
NEXT TO HER,

IN THE HOSPITAL...

THAT WAS...

I THINK THE CLOSEST--
CLOSEST...

I'VE EVER BEEN
TO MY MOTHER.

AND I WOULDN'T
TRADE IT FOR ANYTHING.

AND IT WAS WORTH
EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD
TO GO THROUGH CANCER

TO GET CLOSE TO MY
PRECIOUS DAUGHTER

AND TO BECOME HER FRIEND,
NOT JUST HER MOM.

RuPaul: BOUNCING BACK
ONE MORE TIME,

TAMMY MADE A DRAMATIC
RECOVERY.

John J.: THE ONE THING
YOU CAN SAY ABOUT TAMMY IS

SHE IS A SURVIVOR.

I MEAN, AFTER THE HOLOCAUST,
THERE WILL BE, LIKE,

ROACHES, TAMMY FAYE AND CHER.

RuPaul: INSPIRED
BY HER SUCCESSFUL
BATTLE WITH CANCER,

TAMMY RECORDED A SELF-HELP
VIDEOTAPE GUIDE

TO SURVIVING LIFE.

IF LIFE HANDS YOU A LEMON...

START MAKING LEMONADE.

BUT BEFORE THE TAPE
COULD BE RELEASED,

THE COMPANY WENT BANKRUPT.

THEN LIFE HANDED TAMMY
YET ANOTHER LEMON.

IN 1996, HER HUSBAND ROE
WAS SENTENCED

TO 2 YEARS IN PRISON
FOR BANKRUPTCY FRAUD.

WE'RE GOING TO A PLACE
CALLED BORON.

BORON IS ACTUALLY WHERE
THEY USED TO MAKE BORAX.

IT'S ABOUT 2 HOURS
AND 15 MINUTES FROM MY HOUSE,

GOING 75, 80 MILES AN HOUR.

WHOO! HA HA HA!

I LIKE TO GO FAST ENOUGH
AND SO YOU LOSE YOUR TUMMY
ON THESE BUMPS.

IF I HADN'T MARRIED TAMMY,
I WOULDN'T BE IN JAIL.
THAT'S TRUE.

THERE WAS MORE SAID
IN MY TRIAL ABOUT MR. BAKKER

THAN THERE WAS ABOUT ME.

YOU KNOW, ANYONE
CAN BE PUT IN PRISON.
IF THE GOVERNMENT DECIDES

THAT THEY DON'T LIKE YOU,
THEY CAN COME UP
WITH ANY REASON

TO PUT YOU IN PRISON
AND YOU CAN'T STOP IT.

Roe:
TAMMY HAS GONE THROUGH

A LOT OF HEARTACHE
IN HER LIFETIME.

AND PRISON IS HARDER
ON THE WIFE THAN IT IS
ON THE PRISONER.

I USED TO TELL MY MOTHER
MANY TIMES, "BUT, MOM,
THAT'S NOT FAIR,

THAT'S NOT FAIR,"
AND MY MOTHER TRAINED ME

WHEN I WAS A LITTLE GIRL
AND SHE SAID, "TAMMY, WHO
EVER SAID LIFE WAS FAIR?"

Roe: I PERSONALLY
DON'T LIKE VISITS,

BECAUSE VISITS
FOR ME ARE HARD.

IT'S HARD TO SAY
GOOD-BYE.

SO I'D RATHER NOT
HAVE A VISIT.

RuPaul: INSTEAD OF LANGUISHING
IN THE DESERT,

TAMMY DECIDED TO GET BACK
IN FRONT OF THE CAMERAS,

STARTING WITH AN APPEARANCE
ON THE ROSEANNE SHOW.

I WOULD MUCH RATHER PREFER
TO WORK IN SECULAR TELEVISION.

I THINK CHRISTIAN TELEVISION
IS VERY LIMITED IN WHAT
YOU CAN DO.

Man: SO I WANT TO DO
A QUICK RUN-THROUGH
ON THIS,

JUST SO YOU'RE
COMFORTABLE.

I'M COMFORTABLE.
YOU ARE?

TODAY ON THE ROSEANNE SHOW,

INFAMOUS TELEVANGELIST
TAMMY FAYE, OUTSPOKEN
ACTIVIST CHASTITY BONO,

AND ONE OF THE HOTTEST BANDS
AROUND--BLUES TRAVELERS--
IS HERE.

AND NOW HERE'S ROSEANNE!

THAT'S GREAT.

IT'S GOING TO BE
PANDEMONIUM OUT THERE,
BUT...

OK.

YOU'LL RESPOND TO THAT.

I'LL RESPOND TO THAT.
OK.

I THINK WHAT
THE SECULAR WORLD
DOES NOT REALIZE

IS THAT I AM
A VERY SECULAR PERSON.

UH, CHRIST IS JUST
A PART OF ME. UH...

IT'S NOT SOMETHING THAT
I HAVE TO CONSTANTLY
TALK ABOUT.

IT'S SOMETHING INSIDE ME,

AND IT JUST MAKES ME
WHO I AM.

[AUDIENCE APPLAUDING]

Tammy:
TODAY ON THE ROSEANNE SHOW,

TELEVANGELIST TAMMY FAYE,

OUTSPOKEN ACTIVIST
CHASTITY BONO,

AND ONE OF THE HOTTEST
BANDS AROUND--

BLUES TRAVELERS--IS HERE.

AND NOW HERE'S ROSEANNE!

NOW, YOU'RE MAKEUP
IS EXTREME.

YOU THINK IT IS?
IT'S VERY EXTREME.

I DON'T MEAN
TO DISRESPECT YOU.

I JUST WANT
TO KNOW YOU.

I THINK I FEEL UGLY
WITHOUT IT.

WELL, IF YOU THINK
YOU LOOK UGLY WITHOUT IT--

I DO.

WELL, THAT'S SOMETHING--
THAT'S NOT A RIGHT WAY
TO THINK.

I KNOW, ROSEANNE.

BUT, OK, SO DON'T.

BUT THAT'S THE WAY I FEEL,
YOU KNOW.

BUT THAT'S
THE WRONG WAY TO FEEL.

HI, GREG.
IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU.

YOU'RE TALLER THAN I THOUGHT.
HA HA HA!

YOU'RE SHORTER
THAN I THOUGHT.

RuPaul: DECIDING IT WAS
TIME FOR NEW HEADSHOTS,

TAMMY TURNED TO PHOTOGRAPHER
GREG GORMAN.

HERE.

WHAT I THOUGHT
WE COULD DO

IS START, MAYBE,
SINCE YOU'RE
PROBABLY

NOT AS FAMILIAR WITH
MYSELF AS I AM WITH
YOU,

IS SIT DOWN, LET ME
SHOW YOU SOME OF
MY WORK,

AND LET'S TALK
ABOUT WHAT WE'RE
GOING TO TRY TO DO.

SOUNDS GOOD.

OH, YES!
MY FAVORITE LADY
IN THE WHOLE WORLD.

SARAH, THE DUCHESS OF YORK.

I WANTED TO SHOW YOU
HOW WE'VE KIND OF

TAKEN HER OUT OF
THE REALM OF HOW
PEOPLE HAD SEEN HER

AND GIVEN HER
KIND OF A NEW LOOK.

MM-HMM.
WHAT WE DID IS BASICALLY...

MADE HER SOFT,
SOFTENED HER.

SOFTEN, SOFTENED HER.

SHE'S BEAUTIFUL.

SO YOU'VE NEVER DONE PICTURES
WITHOUT THOSE EYELASHES?

NO, AND I NEVER WILL
BECAUSE THAT'S
MY TRADEMARK.
RIGHT.

AND IF I TAKE
MY TRADEMARK AWAY,

THEN IT'S NOT ME.

AND SO I HOLD
ONTO THAT, I THINK--

EVEN IF WE SOFTEN THEM
AND KEPT THEM--

NO, NO. THEY STAY
JUST WHERE THEY ARE.
OK.

YOU CAN DO ANYTHING ELSE,

BUT MY EYELASHES WILL
STAY WHERE THEY ARE.

YOU GOT IT.

Choir: ♪ HALLELU ♪

♪ HALLELU ♪

♪ HALLELU ♪

♪ HALLELU ♪

♪ HALLELUJAH ♪

NORMALLY A PERSON
WOULD COME TO A PHOTO SHOOT,

ESPECIALLY WITH, YOU KNOW,
A MAJOR TEAM OF PLAYERS

LIKE THE PHOTOGRAPHER
AND THE HAIRDRESSER
AND THE STYLIST,

THEY COME BLANK.
THEY COME WITH NO MAKEUP ON,
WITHOUT THEIR HAIR DONE.

TAMMY FAYE CAME
ALL MADE UP,

SO WE TOOK IT ALL OFF,
STARTED OVER.

OK. SO I'M GOING TO START
BY TAKING SOME OFF.

OK.

I'M GOING TO TAKE
YOUR FOUNDATION OFF.

OK.

AND NORMALLY START AGAIN.

OK.

CAN YOU TAKE YOUR LIPS OFF?

YOU WANT A LITTLE REMOVER?

THAT'S IT.

THEY'RE
PERMANENTLY LINED.

OH.

AND MY EYES ARE
PERMANENTLY LINED.

MY EYEBROWS ARE
PERMANENTLY LINED.

SO THERE'S NOT
A WHOLE LOT YOU
CAN DO WITH THAT.

MY GOODNESS.
I DIDN'T KNOW.

YOU KNOW,
I WOULD FEEL BETTER

IF WE DO A BEFORE
AND AFTER WITH THE CAMERA

AND NOT DO SO MUCH
OF THIS, PLEASE.

I THINK WE'RE
GONNA START WITH

MAYBE THIS LONG
LEATHER JACKET, CK.

KIND OF TOUGH
BUT FITTED,

AND GIVE A SEXY LOOK,
BUT IT'S A POWER LOOK,
ALSO--

"I'M IN CHARGE."

NO. I DON'T
FEEL GOOD IN THIS.

THIS IS NOT ME.
UH-UH.

FEEL TOO...

I'M TOO--IT'S JUST
NOT ME AT ALL.

OK.

SHE BROUGHT A FEW THINGS
OF HER OWN

THAT WE MIGHT NOT
GET TO TODAY.

I GET SO SICK OF THIS
HOLLYWOOD CRAP.

THAT'S WHAT IT IS.

I LIKE REAL.

I AGREE.

I'M AN OLD FARM GIRL
AND I LIKE REAL.

SO THAT'S WHY I'M WEARING
ALL THESE WIGS!

♪ GLORIA, GLORIA ♪

♪ GLORIA, GLORIA ♪

Tammy: I WAS
A LITTLE DISCONCERTED.

THEY LOOK AT YOUR FACE
AND FIGURE OUT THAT

YOU'VE GOT TO COCK IT
THIS WAY TO LOOK GOOD.

THIS WAY?

Greg: YEAH.
THAT'S PERFECT.

I DID HAVE TO TAKE
A LOT OF THE MASCARA OFF,

WHICH WAS OK WITH ME
BECAUSE IT ENDED UP
BEING WHAT I THOUGHT

A VERY GOOD LOOK FOR ME.

♪ GLORIA ♪

[SINGING IN LATIN]

I WANTED TO LEAVE
THE PHOTO SESSION

AND GO DIRECTLY
TO THE PLASTIC SURGEON.

COULD I HAVE AFFORDED IT,
I WOULD HAVE,

BUT UNFORTUNATELY
I'M STILL HERE.

RuPaul: THE NEXT DAY
TAMMY WENT TO USA NETWORKS

TO PITCH HER IDEAS
FOR TV SHOWS

TO NETWORK EXECUTIVE
STEVEN CHOW,

CREATOR OF COPS AND STUDS.

HELLO.
WELL, HI, STEVEN!

HOW ARE YOU?
NICE TO MEET YOU.
I'M TAMMY.

NICE TO MEET YOU.
HI. HAVE A SEAT.

OK. THANK YOU.

SO YOU HERE
TO PITCH SOMETHING.

WELL, YOU'RE HERE TO PITCH,
SO START, RIGHT?

OK. WELL, NO, I--

I'VE GOT 3 IDEAS, STEVEN,

AND THEN I WOULD LIKE
TO KNOW WHAT YOU
SEE ME AS DOING.

BUT ONE OF MY IDEAS
IS A CHILDREN'S SHOW,

WHERE WE TALK TO PUPPETS
AND WE TALK TO THE KIDS,

AND THEN KIDS
TALKING TO PUPPETS
ABOUT THEIR PROBLEMS

AND THEIR CONCERNS
AND THINGS WHICH BOTHER THEM.

IT WOULD BE A FUN SHOW
WITH SOME SERIOUS PARTS
ONCE IN A WHILE, YOU KNOW.

IT'S A WAY TO GO.
I'M NOT SURE IT'S--

BUT WHAT ABOUT PUPPETS AND...
EVERYBODY LOVES PUPPETS.
EVEN ADULTS...

SURE.

LOVE PUPPETS.

UH-HUH.

I HAVE ANOTHER ONE.

TEENAGERS NEED SOMETHING
REALLY SPECIAL.

THEY NEED A FORMAT
FOR A LOT OF THINGS.

AND THEY HAVE NO WAY--
THE BIGGEST THING
THEY ALWAYS SAY,

"WELL, HOW DO WE GET
ANYONE TO LISTEN TO US?"

AND I WOULD JUST LOVE
TO GIVE THEM THAT CHANCE.

AND GO WHERE THEY GO.

I WOULD LIKE TO GO
TO THE PIERCING PARLORS
WITH THEM.

I'D LIKE TO GO TO
THE TATTOO PLACES WITH THEM.

JUST DO EVERYTHING
THAT TEENAGERS DO.

AND--AND YOU WOULD
CALL THIS SHOW WHAT?

TAMMY'S TERRIFIC TEENS

WOULD BE A FUN TITLE.

AND, UM...

ALL RIGHT.
NO, I'M JUST CURIOUS.

YEAH, YEAH, WE'D
PROBABLY HAVE TO COME UP
WITH SOMETHING FUN.

AND THEN I'VE GOT ONE MORE.
HA HA HA.

OK. NO, NO, NO. I MEAN,
WE'LL CIRCLE BACK.

OK. MEDICINE TODAY
WITH TAMMY FAYE.

PEOPLE NEED TO KNOW
WHAT IS AVAILABLE, YOU KNOW,

IN THE MARKET THAT'S
COMING UP NEW

AND WHAT IS AVAILABLE--
THE OLD THINGS THAT WORK
IN MEDICINE.

UM...

I MEAN, I'D LIKE TO GO
SIT WITH ALZHEIMER'S PATIENTS

AND EXPLAIN ALL--
HAVE THE DOCTORS
EXPLAIN ALZHEIMER'S.

AY YI YI.

I DON'T KNOW.
I'M JUST THROWING THESE OUT.

IT'S JUST IDEAS
THAT I'VE HAD FROM BEING ON--

YOU KNOW, JUST IDEAS THAT
HAVE BEEN SWIMMING AROUND
IN MY HEAD.

WHAT DO YOU SEE ME DOING,
STEVE?

YOU'RE THE--
I DON'T KNOW.

YOU'RE THE...
I MEAN, I DON'T...

EXPERT.
I MEAN, I THINK--
I SUSPECT, AND I'M

MAKING A STATEMENT
THAT MAY OR MAY NOT
BE TRUE,

BUT I THINK THAT
YOU WANT TO BE
ON THE AIR.

YOU REALLY LIKE BEING
IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA.

WELL, I LOVE THE CAM--
I DO LOVE THE CAMERA.

BECAUSE I THINK--
WHY?

BECAUSE IT'S A PERSON.

I'VE NEVER BEEN
IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA

SO I'M NOT SURE THAT
I UNDERSTAND THE APPEAL.

BECAUSE IT'S PEOPLE.
IT'S NOT A CAMERA.

IT'S PEOPLE.
IT'S SOMEONE TO TALK TO.

I--I DON'T KNOW,
YOU KNOW.

YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN.
I CAN'T HELP--

I CAN'T--I MEAN,
I HAVE NO PLACE
FOR A TALK SHOW.

I UNDERSTAND THAT, STEVEN.

I SHOULD WALK YOU
DOWNSTAIRS TO LIFETIME

WHICH ABOUT 15 FLOORS
BELOW US RIGHT NOW.

WELL, MAYBE YOU COULD
PUT MY NAME IN AT LIFETIME,

SEE MAYBE SOMEONE
WOULD BE INTERESTED THERE.

I WOULD REALLY
APPRECIATE THAT, STEVEN.

[TELEPHONE RINGING]

Woman: GOOD AFTERNOON,
LIFETIME.

IS DAWN THERE?
IT'S STEVEN CHOW.

RuPaul: THE CALL TO LIFETIME

WENT UNRETURNED, AND TAMMY
FOUND OTHER NETWORKS

UNWILLING TO MEET
AND DISCUSS HER
TELEVISION COMEBACK.

SO SHE RETURNED
TO THE DESERT...

Tammy: COME ON, MUFFIN.

[WHISTLING]

MUFFIN?

RuPaul: ALONE,
WITH HER DOLLS,

HER DOGS...

YOU STAY, RIGHT THERE.

AND HER FAITH.

♪ HALLELUJAH ♪

♪ HALLELUJAH ♪

♪ HALLELUJAH ♪

Man: MY WIFE AND I
RAN INTO TAMMY FAYE,

AND WE'D MET HER PRIOR
AND I SAID,

"WELL, TAMMY FAYE,
WHY DON'T YOU COME
TO CHURCH?"

AND SHE SAID,
"OH, I COULDN'T
COME TO CHURCH

BECAUSE I'VE BEEN
DIVORCED."

WHEN WE DO KIND
OF MISS THE MARK,

WHAT GOD HAS TO SAY IS
COME BACK.

Tammy: GOING BACK TO CHURCH
WAS VERY FRIGHTENING FOR ME.

BUT AS I WALKED
IN OUR CHURCH,

PASTOR JEFF CAME AND PUT THOSE
GREAT BIG OL' ARMS
AROUND ME,

AND HE SAID, "TAMMY FAYE,
WE WANT YOU HERE."

AND ALL OF A SUDDEN,

I BELONGED
AT PASTOR JEFF'S CHURCH.

RuPaul: TODAY TAMMY
LEADS THE CHOIR

AND PLAYS
FRANK SINATRA'S ORGAN,

A BEQUEST TO THE CHURCH.

Tammy: YOU CANNOT GO FORWARD
LOOKING IN THE REARVIEW
MIRROR OF YOUR LIFE.

JUST DROP IT ALL
AND MOVE ON

AND IT'S THE ONLY WAY IN LIFE

THAT YOU WILL EVER FIND
PEACE, JOY AND VICTORY.

[GRRR]

RuPaul: FINALLY TAMMY
HAD THE CONFIDENCE

TO SING AGAIN.

SHE ACCEPTED AN INVITATION
TO SING AT ORAL ROBERTS
UNIVERSITY

IN THE HEART
OF BIBLE COUNTRY.

Tammy: I DREADED GOING BACK

BECAUSE THE CHRISTIAN
COMMUNITY HAD BEEN
SO UNKIND TO US,

AND I FELT WE HAD
BEEN JUDGED SO UNFAIRLY

BY OUR BROTHERS AND SISTERS
IN THE LORD.

TO MAKE THE TRIP, TAMMY
ALSO HAD TO OVERCOME
HER FEAR OF FLYING.

I USED TO BE HORRIBLY
NERVOUS ON AIRPLANES.

I'M ONLY SLIGHTLY NERVOUS
ON AN AIRPLANE NOW,

AND IT'S GETTING BETTER
ALL THE TIME.

[THUNDER]

RuPaul: BAD WEATHER GROUNDED
THE PLANE IN DALLAS.

Man: LADIES AND GENTLEMEN,
THIS IS THE CAPTAIN SPEAKING.

THE GUST FRONT
HAS JUST HIT,

SO WE ARE GOING
TO BE SITTING HERE
FOR A LITTLE WHILE.

I DON'T LIKE THIS AT ALL.

I'M SCARED.

I THINK WE'RE SAFE
IN HERE WITH LIGHTNING

BECAUSE IT'S GOT
TIRES ON IT, RIGHT?

IF THIS PLANE
DIDN'T HAVE TIRES ON IT,

WOULD WE ALL BE FRIED?

I DON'T KNOW.

♪ WHOO HOO ♪

NOW, HERE ARE THE OPTIONS.
WE'RE ALL HUNGRY.

Woman: WE'RE PROBABLY
GOING TO BE SITTING HERE
FOR A LITTLE WHILE LONGER.

HELLO, TAMMY.
[SILLY VOICE]
WELL, HELLO THERE.

[REGULAR VOICE]
ARE YOU ANXIOUS
TO GET TO TULSA?

[SILLY VOICE]
SURE AS HECK AM.

WELL, I THINK
WE SHOULD DRIVE.

[REGULAR VOICE]
ME, TOO, TAM.

Man: SHE'S A FABULOUS SINGER.

UH, SHE REALLY CONNECTS
WELL WITH THE PEOPLE.

THIS WAS HER FIRST CONCERT
IN OVER A DECADE.

♪ YOU GAVE ME ♪

♪ THE CHANCE I NEEDED ♪

♪ TO START AGAIN ♪

Tammy: I WAS VERY,
VERY NERVOUS

BECAUSE I DID NOT KNOW
HOW I WOULD BE TREATED

AFTER SO MANY YEARS.

♪ AND-- ♪

THERE'S TOO MUCH BASS
IN THIS DOWN HERE

IS WHAT THE PROBLEM IS.

ALL I'M HEARING IS
BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM.

David: THERE'S AN ELDERLY LADY
IN MY DAD'S CHURCH,

AND WHEN SHE FOUND OUT
THAT TAMMY FAYE

WAS GOING TO BE PREACHING
AT BROTHER DAVID'S CHURCH,

SHE SAID, "WHY IS SHE
COMING HERE?"

SHE JUST HAPPENED TO BE
STANDING IN THE RIGHT PLACE

WHILE TAMMY FAYE WAS
COMING OUT OF HER ROOM

GETTING READY
TO GO ON STAGE AND SING,

AND I DIDN'T SAY A WORD.

Tammy: HI,
HOW ARE YOU TODAY?

I'M FINE.
HOW ARE YOU, DARLIN'?

GOD BLESS YOU.
BLESS YOUR HEART.

BLESS YOUR HEART.

David: THE NEXT DAY
THIS LADY WAS SITTING
ON THE SECOND ROW,

JUST WITH THIS BIG OL'--
I THINK THEY'RE HER OWN
TEETH, BY THE WAY, TOO--

THIS BIG OL' SET OF TEETH
AND JUST SMILING

AND JUST ROOTING TAMMY ON
AND RUBBING HER ON THE BACK
AND PATTING HER.

SO TALKING ABOUT
RESERVATIONS,

WHY DO CHRISTIANS
HAVE RESERVATIONS?

BECAUSE THEY DON'T KNOW HER.

Announcer:
LADIES AND GENTLEMEN,

TONIGHT'S SPECIAL GUEST:
TAMMY FAYE.

Tammy Faye: WHEN I WALKED IN

AND WAS RECEIVED
WITH SO MUCH LOVE

AND GENUINELY, THEY SEEMED
HAPPY TO SEE ME,

WHICH I WAS GENUINELY
HAPPY TO BE BACK

WHERE I ONCE BELONGED.

GOSH.

I NEED A KLEENEX.
HA HA.

♪ GLORY, GLORY, HALLELUJAH ♪

♪ GLORY, GLORY, HALLELUJAH ♪

♪ GLORY, GLORY HALLELUJAH ♪

♪ HIS TRUTH IS MARCHING ON ♪

♪ HIS TRUTH IS MARCHING ON ♪

THANK YOU, LORD,

FOR THE UNITED STATES
OF AMERICA!

WE PRAY FOR OUR PRESIDENT,
O FATHER.

WE THANK YOU, LORD,
THAT WE LIVE IN THIS
WONDERFUL COUNTRY.

GOD BLESS AMERICA!

HALLELUJAH.

OH, YES.

Tammy Faye: IN
ANCIENT CIVILIZATION,

IF YOU MURDERED SOMEBODY,
THEY DIDN'T PUT YOU IN JAIL.

THEY DID SOMETHING FAR WORSE.

THEY TOOK THE PERSON
THAT YOU MURDERED

AND STUCK HIM ON YOUR BACK.

CAN YOU IMAGINE
WHAT THAT WOULD BE LIKE

TO HAVE A DEAD PERSON
STRAPPED TO YOUR BACK?

WELL, THE FIRST THING
THAT STARTS HAPPENING,

THEY START DECAYING.

OH, GOSH, AND THEY START
SMELLING BAD

AND THEN BUGS GET ON THEM.

YOU KNOW, WHAT DO THEY CALL
THOSE THINGS THAT EAT THEM?

MAGGOTS! OOH!
MAGGOTS! MAGGOTS!

I HAD JERRY FALWELL STRAPPED
ON MY BACK FOR A LONG TIME.

HE WAS ON MY BACK
STRAPPED SO TIGHTLY TO ME

I COULDN'T--
I COULDN'T BREATHE.

I COULD HARDLY EAT.

I HAD A HARD TIME SLEEPING.

I WAS MISERABLE.
HE WAS DESTROYING MY LIFE.

JERRY FALWELL WAS KILLING ME

ALL BECAUSE I WAS SO ANGRY
AT SOMEONE I COULDN'T FORGET.

NOW, WAS IT HURTING
JERRY FALWELL THAT
I WAS ANGRY?

HA HA HA HA. HE'S DEAD.

THE ONLY ONE IT WAS KILLING
WAS TAMMY FAYE,

AND ONE DAY, I GAVE
JERRY FALWELL TO THE LORD.

AND I SAID, "LORD, THERE'S
NOT A THING I CAN DO ABOUT
WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY.

"IT'S GONE. I CAN'T DO A THING
ABOUT WHAT JERRY FALWELL DID

"TO HERITAGE U.S.A. AND PTL.

"THAT'S ALL OVER,

"BUT I CAN DO SOMETHING
ABOUT MYSELF

AND THE WAY I FEEL."

RuPaul: THANKSGIVING, 1998.

WITH JUST A FEW MONTHS TO GO
TILL ROE'S RELEASE,

TAMMY RETURNS
TO HERITAGE U.S.A.

FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE
SHE AND JIM LOST THEIR
PTL MINISTRY IN 1987.

SINCE BANKRUPTCY,
THE 2,200 ACRE COMPLEX

HAS LAIN EMPTY
AND ABANDONED.

♪ ON THE PAGES OF MY MIND ♪

♪ LORD, I OFTEN FIND ♪

♪ MEMORIES ♪

♪ OF THE TEARS I'VE CRIED ♪

♪ OF THE DAYS GONE BY ♪

♪ OF THE PAIN I'VE SEEN ♪

♪ OH, I TRIED TO UNDERSTAND
WITH A FRIEND'S HELPING HAND ♪

♪ IT SEEMED FUTILITY... ♪

Tammy Faye: JIM WOULD HAVE
NEVER ALLOWED...

A CHAIR LIKE THIS...

TO SIT.

AT HERITAGE U.S.A.
IT WOULD HAVE BEEN PAINTED.

HE NEVER ALLOWED
A LIGHT BULB TO BE OUT,

HE NEVER ALLOWED
A DIRTY REST ROOM,

HE NEVER ALLOWED
GRASS TO GROW UNCUT,

AND HE WOULD HAVE NEVER
ALLOWED THIS.

WHEN I LOOK AT THIS CHAIR
RUSTED AWAY,

THAT'S SORT OF WHAT'S
HAPPENED TO HERITAGE U.S.A.,

AND HOW I WOULD LOVE
TO PUT A FRESH COAT
OF PAINT ON IT...

AND MAKE IT LIVE AGAIN...

[SOBS]

BUT UNFORTUNATELY,
I CAN'T DO THAT.

THIS MORNING, WHEN I
WAS NEEDING SOME COMFORT,

I TURNED TO MY FAVORITE
SCRIPTURE, PSALMS 91.

"HE THAT DWELLETH IN THE
SECRET PLACE OF THE MOST HIGH

SHALL ABIDE UNDER THE SHADOW
OF THE ALMIGHTY."

THIS IS THE PART I LIKE.

[REPRESSING TEARS]

"HE SHALL COVER THEE
WITH HIS FEATHERS

AND UNDER HIS WINGS
SHALT THOU TRUST."

"BECAUSE HE HAS SET
HIS LOVE UPON ME,

"THEREFORE
WILL I DELIVER HIM.

"I WILL SET HIM ON HIGH
BECAUSE HE HATH KNOWN MY NAME.

"HE SHALL CALL UPON ME
AND I WILL ANSWER HIM.

"I WILL
BE WITH HIM IN TROUBLE.

"I WILL DELIVER HIM
AND HONOR HIM,

"AND WITH LONG LIFE,
I WILL SATISFY HIM

AND SHOW HIM MY SALVATION."

I WILL HUG ROE TODAY
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 2 YEARS

WITHOUT HAVING PEOPLE
STANDING THERE WATCHING ME.

Roe: I'M STILL NUMB,
REALLY.

YOU KNOW, BEING AWAY
FROM YOUR WIFE
AND FAMILY

IS REALLY HARD.

IT'S JUST...YOU KNOW,
I JUST DON'T KNOW
HOW TO SAY IT

OTHER THAN THAT.

WELL, WE GOTTA GO
GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER AGAIN.

GOOD-BYE.

Tammy Faye: I'M JUST
A SMALL TOWN GIRL AT HEART

AND I WANT TO GO BACK
TO THE TREES AND THE GRASS

AND THE FLOWERS AND MY KIDS
AND MY GRANDKIDS.

BECAUSE WHEN YOU GET DOWN TO IT,
THAT'S REALLY ALL THERE IS.

THAT'S WHAT COUNTS IN LIFE,
AND I'VE LEARNED THAT.

IT'S NOT WHAT YOU HAVE

AND--AND--AND STUFF.

IT'S PEOPLE THAT COUNT.

♪ DON'T GIVE UP
ON THE BRINK OF A MIRACLE ♪

♪ DON'T GIVE IN WHILE
HE'S STILL ON THE THRONE ♪

♪ DON'T GIVE UP
ON THE BRINK OF A MIRACLE ♪

♪ DON'T GIVE UP ♪

♪ REMEMBER YOU'RE NOT ALONE ♪

♪ WELL, THE DEVIL IS A THIEF ♪

♪ AND HE SENDS ALL THOSE
TROUBLES TO CONFOUND YOU ♪

♪ AND HE LIES AND SAYS
THIS TIME ♪

♪ THERE'S NO WAY YOU
CAN FIND TO MAKE IT THROUGH ♪

♪ GOD'S WORD IS TRUE ♪

♪ THE DEVIL IS THE LORD'S ♪

♪ DON'T GIVE IN TO FEAR ♪

♪ THINK ON THINGS
THAT ARE PURE ♪

♪ AND PRAISE THE LORD ♪

♪ YOUR MIRACLE IS HERE ♪

♪ DON'T GIVE UP
ON THE BRINK OF A MIRACLE ♪

♪ DON'T YOU GIVE IN ♪

♪ GOD IS STILL ON HIS THRONE ♪

♪ DON'T GIVE UP ♪

♪ YOU'RE ON THE BRINK
OF YOUR MIRACLE ♪

♪ DON'T GIVE UP ♪

♪ REMEMBER YOU'RE NOT ALONE ♪

♪ NOW, DON'T GIVE UP ♪

♪ ON THE BRINK
OF A MIRACLE ♪

♪ DON'T GIVE IN ♪

♪ REMEMBER YOU'RE NOT ALONE ♪

♪ OH, DON'T GIVE IN ♪

♪ REMEMBER YOU'RE NOT ALONE ♪

♪ YOU'RE NOT ALONE! ♪

COME ON, PEOPLE,
DON'T YOU DARE GIVE UP!