All language subtitles for Its okay its love E15

Although this drama is primarily based on neuropsychiatry, all of the patients' cases and unique diagnosis are fiction.

Don't call out for me...
when I walk out of the room.

That's the only way
that I can come back and see you again.

Hye Soo.

Hye Soo.

Hye Soo.

Hye Soo.

Hye Soo has been reported to
face the disciplinary board

for having gone to visit Jae Yeol
the other night.

Some doctors are
arguing that Hye Soo

interfered with a patient's
treatment program

because she let her emotional feelings
get in the way of her judgment.

She's not allowed to
see any patients until

the board decides on
what to do with her

so she's only permitted to
guide and instruct her residents.

Let's allow Jae Yeol's family
to come visit him.

Just like a bird finding its freedom
by jumping off of a cliff

it's better for him
to face them head on

since he can't always
keep avoiding them.

How are Jang Jae Bum and the mom?
Are they doing okay?

It's been a week since he's been out,
but I really haven't heard anything.

I guess it means that
they're doing okay.

Didn't I already tell you?

Jae Bum is just like
a child who's acting

out from lack of affection
from his mother.

Okay, in that case, let's have Jae Yeol
see his brother first.

It's for my own self-defense.

Satisfied?

Take him to a private room,
and do a full body search on him.

- Yes, Doctor.
- Wow... you're really pretty.

By any chance...

are you an angel?

Come with me.

You might hear some loud noises
coming from the room later.

Even if does get kind of loud in there

just leave them be,
and don't go in the

room unless you see
them getting physical.

Have some security guards on stand by.

I hear that mom's the real culprit?

So what is it that you're thinking?

In lieu of the 14
years that I've

unfairly spent rotting
away in prison...

you want me to take your money
and just get lost, is that it?

Jae Bum.

I'm so...

very, very sorry.

Hey.

What is it that you're sorry about?

Tell me what you're sorry about.

What is it that you're sorry about?
Huh?

Tell me, you bastard.

Tell me what you're sorry about.

Are you sorry that
you didn't tell the

judge that it was our
mom who killed him

instead of having told him that it was
your older brother who killed him?

Huh?
Tell me what you're sorry about!

What is it that you're sorry about?
Huh?

Hey, what is it that
you're sorry about?

What are you doing!

- Guard!
- What is it that you're sorry about?

Guard!

What is it that you're sorry about?

Since I was already a
loser bastard, you

thought that if I knew
mom had killed him

that I would've told the prosecutor
and the judge that she had killed him?

Huh? That I would've
told them to arrest mom?

That she lost her mind after years of
getting beaten by her husband

and that's why she killed him. You
thought that's what I would've said?

Is that what you think I would've done?

Hey... you crazy asshole.

Do you think that
you're the only child mom has?

I'm... mom's child, too.

Go clean up his blood.

Just leave me alone for a minute.

Just leave me alone.

Leave the room.

Mr. Jang Jae Yeol.

I'll be right outside the room, okay?

And I'm going to send in a nurse
in ten minutes.

You're not real.

You don't exist.

He was lucky that he
wasn't seriously hurt.

How is Jae Yeol's emotional
and mental state?

It's just as we had thought.

Maybe it's because he
finally got the beating

that he's been wanting
from his brother

but for some unknown reason,
Jae Yeol looked much more at peace.

I think Jae Jang Yeol
is a very strong person.

He was falling asleep
when I left his room.

I think it was good that
we allowed his brother to visit.

That's such a relief to hear.
We just jumped over a huge hurdle.

Okay, I'll talk to you soon.

He's eating really well.

He's been like this ever since
he came back from visiting Jae Yeol.

Maybe Jae Bum's over
his anger at Jae Yeol.

He even asked me yesterday
when Jae Yeol is getting discharged.

Really?

He must be out for an evening stroll.

He's looking better.

My boyfriend is so handsome.

Hye Soo.

You can't be doing this.

If the disciplinary boards
finds out about this

then you may get suspended completely
from all your responsibilities.

What are you thinking?

Okay.

Okay, I'm sorry.
I'll go.

My son is looking so much better.

Has Jae Bum said anything to you?

No, nothing.

But he's been eating much better ever
since he came back from visiting you

and I'm not sure what it is,
but he looks so much more at peace.

Mom.

I don't see Kang Woo anymore.

Yes, I heard.
Doctor Lee called me and told me.

I think...
Kang Woo really must not be real.

I've been really good about
taking my medication

and I haven't seen him once
for an entire week now.

He also told me that you've been good
about taking your medication.

You're such a good boy.

I want to be discharged
from the hospital.

No, you can't do that.

When Hye Soo found out
that I was coming to see you today

she texted me to ask me
specifically not to allow this.

She told me that you can't be
discharged from the hospital yet.

I'll come and stay with you.

You can monitor me 24 hours a day.

Isn't that enough?

If you keep saying things like that,
then I'm just going to leave.

Mom.

I think that Hye Soo...

got herself into trouble
with the hospital because of me.

Hye Soo's a doctor...

but she's not allowed to see
any patients because of me.

Mom.

It's only once in a while...

but Hye Soo comes by to look in on me
outside my hospital room at night.

Then she cries and leaves.

I pretend to be asleep...

but I know.

It's hard pretending not to notice.

I'll tell Hye Soo not to
come by your room anymore.

No.

I find myself waiting for her
when she doesn't come.

So that won't work.

She...

comes from a poor family.

Her father is ill,
and her family is in a lot of debt.

It's her dream to become
a teaching doctor.

Mom.

My illness...

isn't very curable.

They say that it can
come back at any time...

and I'll have to be on medication
for the rest of my life.

Yes, I know.

But just like having diabetes
and high blood pressure

as long as you stay
on your medication...

Mom, don't expect the
unexpected to happen.

A person shouldn't be so greedy.

I'm going to do this on my own.

I mean...

I'm going to do it with you.

I want to leave Hye Soo here.

Mom.

I don't want to humiliate
myself any further

in front of the
person that I love.

So please... take me with you.

Okay?

And put your faith in me.

Just as I've always done...

I'm going to get back
on my feet on my own.

I'll be good about
taking my medication.

I'm serious.
I'll take all my medication on time.

If I start seeing Kang Woo again...
then

you can take me to
another hospital

Let's get out of here, Mom.

Ma'am.

Jang Jae Yeol still believes that
Kang Woo is real and that he exists.

Until he realizes on his own
that Kang Woo actually doesn't exist

his treatment isn't complete.

- So just trust us...
- The medication...

I'll make sure that he takes
all his medications on time.

His medication alone isn't enough.

The reason why we want to
keep Jae Yeol here...

is so that we can help him lower his
dependency on the medication

and help him find his way back to
his writing in a healthy manner.

For the first time ever...

the three of us have a chance to
live together as a family.

We'll bond together as family...
and get through this together.

Thank you for everything you've done.

Ma'am.

Don't go.

No matter what you say...

I'm still going to leave.

Why are you being so cruel?

When Hae Jin fell in the water...

just remember how much
Yoon Chul was hurting then.

I can't allow you to stay with me...
and become like that, too.

Jang Jae Yeol,
you just need some treatment.

- If you truly love me...
- To you, love means...

it's okay for me to become a pathetic
shell of the man that I once was.

That it's okay for me
to stop pretending that

I'm okay and to become
dependent on you.

But that's not what it means to me.

When I used to get
beat alongside my mom

by my stepfather
when I was little...

I made a vow to myself then.

That no matter who the person may be...

I'd never allow myself
to become that pathetic ever again.

Even if you think that
I'm being a jerk,

there's nothing we
can do about it.

That's how I've always lived...

and that's what I'm comfortable with.

If it's better for you to think that
I don't love you as much...

then please, think that way.

That means...

I'm going to do this my way.

What can I do to get you to stay?

With enough practice at
saying goodbyes...

things do get better down the road.

Believe in that, Hye Soo.

Jang Jae Yeol.

Jang Jae Yeol!

You have to put your faith in me.

Kang Woo is a hallucination,
and I'm real.

The only person who can
figure that out...

aren't the doctors, but it's you.

What are you, Kang Woo?

How did the disciplinary hearing go?

One month of strictly
outpatient care only?

Two months of strictly
outpatient care only.

Here are the files.

Go through them and get them organized.

- How do you feel after the hearing?
- I'm okay.

Why are you okay instead
of getting angry?

Because that's not
my main concern right now.

Then what is it that you're
most concerned about right now?

How it is that I can
bring Jang Jae Yeol

back to the world of
reality where I live

instead of having him live in an
illusion where Kang Woo exists.

That's the only thing
that I care about.

Hello?

Really?
Okay, I'll relay the message.

That was Tae Yong, and he says that
your books are flying off the shelves.

I guess it's fun for them to read
something that a crazy bastard wrote.

I noticed that Hye Soo
hasn't called at all?

Jae Bum, I'm going out for a walk.

You have the GPS installed
on your cellphone, right?

It's so disgustingly hot in here.

Want me to wash your back for you?

[Young Jin told me that you've been
good about taking your medication.]

[Other than missing you like crazy,
I'm doing pretty good.]

Oh my gosh!

How have you been?

Have you been well?

It's okay, I'm fine.

Ugh, that's enough.

- Be gentle, that hurts!
- Just hang on, I'm almost done.

Ugh, seriously!

Do you think I'm that dirty?
Why do you keep scrubbing?

You wash the rags and clean all day.

Do you think that
the whole world is filthy and dirty?

Do you think you're the only
clean person around here?

This is how I've been
ever since Jae Yeol

and I fell in the
outhouse sewage together.

I don't know if it screwed
me up in the head

but everything feels dirty,
and smelly to me.

And I can't sleep in a
closed room either.

You and Jae Yeol
fell in the outhouse sewage?

Why would you have fallen in there?

I'm not quite sure when it happened.

But the man we were living with started
beating me early in the morning...

and I ran all over the neighborhood
trying to escape from him.

The place I ended
up hiding in was a

public outhouse at the
bottom of a hill.

I must've spent the whole day
hiding away in there.

I thought I was going to die in there.

So I was just about to leave...

Come back here!

when I heard that man's voice again.

That's when Jae Yeol
rushed into the outhouse.

The look in Jae Yeol's eyes
when he saw me down in that hole...

So Jae Yeol and I went to the creek
to get cleaned up afterwards.

I just wanted to cry,
but then Jae Yeol said...

'Mom, isn't this funny?'

'You and I just fell in raw sewage!'

Then he just started laughing.

So I just joined in on his laughter.

So we decided to have fun instead,
and just started playing.

I think that's when it started.

Jae Yeol can only sleep in a bathroom,
and I can't sleep in a closed room.

That memory keeps
popping up in my head a lot lately.

And it makes me wonder...

if we should've clung onto each other
and have cried instead.

It makes me wonder...

if Jae Yeol's illness
is related to that

traumatic event
from his childhood.

Keep washing.

Oh my goodness, Jae Bum.

- You're getting black hair!
- Just get back to washing my back.

Hey, you're growing black hair!

Oh my goodness!
This is so amazing!

Jae Bum, you're getting black hair!

Hold still.
Hang on, hold still.

- That's cold!
- Isn't that so refreshing?

Doesn't it feel good
to have mom wash your back?

Wow, that's so refreshing!
So refreshing!

Cute little rascal.

Are you eating well?

Yes, and I'm sleeping well, too.

Hye Soo's been restricted to
outpatient care only.

The woman you broke up with because of
your cold and impulsive personality...

I'm sure you don't really care to know
how she may be doing lately...

but she got into trouble
at the hospital

for having visited
you in your room.

She went against
her oath as a doctor for love.

I'd be lying if I told you
that she was doing fine.

She's not fine.

Soo Kwang tells me

that your wife is coming back
from the States.

Seeing the love between you and Hye Soo
made me want to be in love again.

If my wife hadn't agreed to come back,
I may have ended up cheating on her.

So we've agreed to go back and forth
and see each other more often.

Because I'm like a grown up adolescent
who still craves to be loved.

And that's what you're like, too.

Stop pretending to be cool,
and let Hye Soo comfort you.

Receive treatment from the hospital
and get back together with Hye Soo.

I know that you still see Kang Woo.

Because if you didn't,
then there would be

no reason for you to
avoid seeing Hye Soo.

Be careful heading back home, Dong Min.

We'll come visit you again.

Soo Kwang, let's go.

Thanks for promoting me
to a manager at the cafe.

Have you been kissing
So Nyeo so much

that kissing has become
a habit for you?

Bingo.

Bye.

Jae Yeol.

Hye Soo, Dong Min and I are real...

and Kang Woo isn't.

We're all waiting for you
to come back to us.

If you don't come back to us, then I
take back calling you my brother.

Bye.

Why is mom selling the restaurant
when it's doing so well?

Mom said she'll give you the money
from selling the restaurant

so that you can pay back
Doctor Jo's money...

You can take the rest
of the money to go

away on a vacation
or go study abroad.

I just want you to leave here.

I can't go study abroad
or go away on a vacation.

I have to help Doctor
Lee with her thesis.

That's a joke.

Listen, you wench!

Did you become a doctor
just so that you

can write someone
else's thesis for them?

You can't even see any
of your patients right now.

I'm selling either the shop or
the house, so go study abroad.

Hello?

It's me, Hye Soo.

[Ji Hye Soo]

What is it?

It's been over a week
since you left me.

How are you doing
after having abandoned me?

Are you feeling at peace with it?

Because I'm not feeling
at peace at all.

[Ji Hye Soo]

Hye Soo.

Why are you doing this?

The day that your stepfather died...

Dong Min understands and says that
you had no other choice...

but that's not true.

You made a very big mistake that day.

Not telling your brother, who trusted
you, or your attorney, was a mistake.

As just like that time... you're
making a very big mistake right now.

Abandoning me and leaving me
was a huge mistake.

Refusing my help was a huge mistake.

Once I end this call...

I'm never going to call you again
even if my life depended on it.

When I say I'm going to do something,
then I do it, just like you.

As long as you keep insisting
that Kang Woo is real...

we can't be together.

Jang Jae Yeol.

Listen very carefully
to what I'm about to say.

Once I end this call...

you're probably going to
see Kang Woo again.

When you see Kang Woo,
look at him straight in his eyes.

And see it.

See that he's just your illusion
and hallucination.

That's the only way
for us to be together again.

Kang Woo exists.

Whenever you see Kang Woo...

think of all the moments when
you and I shared our love.

The moments when I touched you,
and the moments when you touched me...

The moments when I laughed
and cried in your arms...

Think of those moments.

Those moments were very real.

Kang Woo exists...

so I don't know why everyone's
telling me that he doesn't.

Just what's an illusion
and a hallucination...

I just can't seem to find it.

You'll find it.
I know you can find it.

The Kang Woo that you see...
take a very close look at him.

From the top of his head
to the tips of his toes.

Take your time and look
at him very closely.

Stop your breathing

and look at him very closely.

In every hallucination, there are
always some sort of an inconsistency.

If you take a close look, you should
be able to find the inconsistency.

All my other patients
have found theirs,

so I know that you
can find it, too.

Once you find the illusion
and the inconsistency...

then come back to me.

Because I'll be waiting.

I love you so very much.

You're not real.

Hye Soo's right.

You really think that?

Then just like Doctor Jo says...
I'm just a younger version of yourself?

I'm me.

How can I be you?

I can't be you.

We don't even look anything alike.

Those people are lying to you.

Just like how...

everyone just ignored it
when you used to get beat up.

People don't care about a kid like me.

They all just ignore
me when they see me.

When I hang up this call...

You're probably going
to see Kang Woo again.

When you see Kang Woo,
stare at him straight in his eyes.

From the top of his head,
to the tips of his toes.

Take your time and look
at him very closely.

Stop your breathing, and take
your time to really look at him.

In every hallucination, there's
always some sort of an inconsistency.

If you look closely enough, you'll
be able to find the inconsistency.

Author Jang... please don't ignore me.

How many...

years has it been
since you and I met, Kang Woo?

It's been three years.

What...

grade are you in, Kang Woo?

Second year in high school.

Who...

are you?

I'm your fan, Han Kang Woo.

I'm in my second year of high school.

What's wrong?

Author Jang.

Author Jang!

Author Jang...
Author Jang!

Author Jang!

Author Jang.

Tae Yong, track down Jae Yeol's GPS,
and follow him.

I need you to go to him right now.

Whenever you see Kang Woo...

think of all the moments when
you and I shared our love.

The moments when I touched you,
and the moments when you touched me.

The moments when I laughed,
or cried in your arms...

Think back to those moments.

Those moments were very real.

No!

[Tae Yong]

Behind me...

Kang Woo is...

Hye Soo.

Kang Woo...

isn't real.

I don't know...

how Kang Woo can be me.

But...

he is me.

Hye Soo.

Please help me.

Hye Soo, please...

Please help me.

You did great.
You did so great.

You're going to be okay, Jang Jae Yeol.

You're going to be okay.

While I was in prison,
I saved some of my precious rice...

to make you these.

Don't cry just because
I gave you those.

Doctor Jo said Jae Yeol
can be cured for good

if he goes back to the
hospital this time.

So don't cry.

Make a fist.

Smile, Jang Jae Yeol.

Aren't you going to
call me your brother?

I'm going to brag to
everyone about having

taken a picture with
a famous author.

Hye Soo.

He's not calling me
his brother anymore.

Rude little jerk. Do
you want a beating?

Beat me, and I'll pay you back twofold.

Both of you, stop your yapping.

Okay, grab his arm.

Time for a shot!

You're going to start to feel sleepy,
so get some sleep.

Soo Kwang.

- Let's leave.
- No, I'm sleeping here.

A beating you is the only way
to get you to listen.

- Knock it off, I'm already taken.
- Get ready, Jang Jae Yeol.

Dong Min, I don't want to beat him.

Sorry to tell you this,
but I like Soo Kwang better than you.

You're the best!

Jae Yeol and I are going to battle it
out with you two one of these days.

When we do, I'm going to
beat you both down to the ground!

You didn't have to hit me three times.

You two...

don't wake up in the middle of the
night to do anything stupid, got it?

I'm going to listen in, if you do.

- Seriously!
- Give me that!

Come on, Soo Kwang.
Let's go.

Get some sleep.
Don't wake him up.

Okay, let's get some sleep.

Okay, let's sleep.

You see Kang Woo, don't you?

Like you just said...

Kang Woo is over there.

You're doing great.

You're doing really great.

Let's get some sleep.

Pack up your things and move back home.

Don't make mother and your sister
come down here and make a scene.

I stopped drinking,
which I know you hated.

Please realize that your family
is trying hard for you.

Hye Soo.

Stay strong.

What got into you?
That was a very caring thing to say.

Because I don't want you to leave me.

I'm going to listen very well to you,
so don't leave me.

Okay?

Welcome!

I think it's time for you to
leave Kang Woo behind.

Don't you think?

Yes.

Only when you come to understand

that you had no choice
but to accuse your

brother of the crime
when you were sixteen...

can you really leave Kang Woo behind.

If you can't come to understand

how you had no other
choice but to do what

you did when you
were 16 years old...

then Kang Woo will
inevitably show up again.

I'll try.

Come on.

[Jae Yeol, this is Hye Soo's mother.]

[I'm begging you.
Please don't hold onto my Hye Soo.]

[Even though I know that
you're ill, I'd like

to believe that you
aren't that selfish.]

Even though I'd like to
come with you to the hospital

you know that I have to
go separately, right?

Yeah.

And you also know that even
if we see each other in the hospital

we're going to have to
ignore each other, right?

You're already in enough
trouble as is. I'm

not going to get you
fired on top of it.

You always have such a smart mouth.

What... you don't like me then?

No, I like you tons.

If you see Kang Woo today, I want
you to give him a message for me.

For having been there
for my man through

all the years of
his loneliness...

tell him...

that I'm ever so grateful
to him for that.

And also...

tell him that you have
me by your side now.

So it's okay for him to leave in peace.

Okay.

I have a gift for Kang Woo in the car.

Make sure to get it to him, okay?

Go on.

Okay.

Okay, it's time to turn in.

Please return to your own rooms.
Thank you.

Kang Woo.

Let's wash your feet.

My girlfriend...

chose a really perfect gift.

Author Jang.

Do you not...

want me to come back anymore?

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