All language subtitles for Its okay its love E13

I'm here.

Whats going on?

Why do you both look like that?

Huh?

Sit down.

What is it?

- Do you want something to drink?
- Sure, anything cold.

Here.
I just poured this.

What is it?

Did I do something wrong?

Jae Yeol is very sick.

What?

What do you mean?

From what we've been able to see...

we think he's schizophrenic.

What are his active symptoms?

Do you know about Kang Woo? Has Jae
Yeol ever mentioned him to you?

Yes, he talks about him often.

Kang Woo is Jae Yeol's hallucination.

Kang Woo doesn't exist.

I've really looked into it.

His school, home, or anything else...
Kang Woo just doesn't exist.

I asked Jae Yeol earlier today

where he kept the novels
that Kang Woo wrote.

He told me they were in the drawer
of his desk at Dong Min's house

so I went and searched
through his whole desk...

but nothing was there.

- Hello?
- Did the phone ring?

You didn't hear it?
Hey, Kang Woo.

When my brother stabbed me
with a fork three years ago

I saw him crying over me with the
rest of my fans in the room.

Kang Woo...
He's been in an accident.

[I'm fifty one percent there.]

That alone doesn't tell us anything.

Look at the computer on the desk.

[Jang Jae Yeol]

Hey, its me.

Hey, Ji Hye Soo. What
does this text even mean?

What text?

If you're only fifty-one percent there,
then isn't that being back to square one?

Being back to square one
would mean zero percent.

Okay, I lose.

Fine, then lets start over.

Where are you now?

I'm in a meeting.

I was wondering why you
sounded so reserved.

Be careful heading home,
and don't call me later.

I don't want you to get sick of hearing
me say I love you, so I'll hang up.

What kind of an episode is this?

A couple months ago...

Jae Yeol told me that he got into
a fight with Kang Woo's dad.

That footage was captured
by a CCTV camera nearby.

Some kid I know got
beat up by his father.

His name is Kang Woo, and I
really care about this kid.

I couldn't stop myself when I saw
him getting beat up by his father.

Why did you get yourself involved
in another family's issues?

That's what everyone said when I or
my mom was beat up by my stepfather.

Since it wasn't their own problem,
no one ever got involved.

So in the end, my family made a big
fuss for all the world to see.

I think his mother was the real culprit
of the crime that happened 14 years ago.

Their house caught on fire after his
stepfather was stabbed with the knife.

The mother was suffering from
dissociation when she started the fire

and even to this day...

she still can't remember
exactly what happened.

Jae Yeol accused his brother of being the
culprit in order to protect his mom.

I think his current condition is the result
of his inability to handle the guilt he felt.

I think Kang Woo is an incarnation
of Jae Yeol's own younger self.

But...

more than his hallucination of Kang
Woo, we have a bigger problem at hand.

The thing that we're most worried about

is the fact that he's not even aware
of the harm he's doing to himself

because of the guilt he feels
for what he did to his brother.

I think this needs some
further examination.

We need to get him an MRI,
a complete physical scan

and we also need to examine
his functioning levels...

You think this is a brain abnormality
rather than a psychiatric illness?

We can't rule out that possibility.

Then how do you explain the fact that
this has been going on for three years?

I think that we should get
him admitted immediately.

What are your thoughts on that?

I'll tell you that once I
do some further testing.

Have you noticed him showing any
other self-harming behavior?

Hold on tight.
Let's go!

If he's showing aggressive signs,
then we can't delay it any longer.

I haven't noticed anything.

I'll go talk to Jae Yeol, and get
him to seek further examination.

She's lying.

She's being too sympathetic.

We can't include Hye Soo in his treatments,
and we can't allow her to be near him either.

It's for both their sakes.

Dong Min.

What if I told Jae Yeol
that Kang Woo doesn't exist

and that he needs to snap out of it?

Being too rash about your
approach can be more dangerous.

You should go and stay with Jae Yeol.

Suicide is the ultimate result for most
self-harming cases like Jae Yeol's.

Tae Yong asked you
as a favor for him?

Yes, he says he needs it, so
I'll just find it for him.

Ugh, that scoundrel.

Where exactly did you
put Kang Woo's novels?

To explain to you where they are...

You actually came to my
room when I last had them.

- Listen... I need to talk to you.
- Come in.

What is your intention
for writing this book?

Is this the reason why you've been
following me around all these years?

There's not even a
shred of imagination

and you just rewrote all the past
articles that have been written on me.

The only thing that's different is that you
changed the culprit from my brother to me?

Don't ever call me again. You completely
took advantage of my kindness!

Then you left my room, and I picked
up his book off the floor...

and that's right! I put it in the top drawer
in the file cabinet to the right of my desk.

Hye Soo, is his book in there?

No, it's not in there.

- Maybe you forgot where you put it.
- That can't be.

I'm tired, Jae Yeol.

Okay, get some sleep, Hye Soo.

Hye Soo, you need to
back off from his case.

If guilt really is the underlying problem

then the happier he is with you, the
higher the risk of causing self-harm.

I'm aware of that myself.
You're the one who trained me.

- What you need to do...
- You think you two are the only doctors?

I've never once thought that he
lacked any basic functioning skills

when I think back to his behavior
in a purely diagnostic perspective.

Why are you excluding the possibility of
it just being a minor neurological issue?

Why are you determining
that he's schizophrenic?

Schizophrenic?

You should go home.

Schizophrenia is a
psychiatric illness, right?

When I went through my
treatment awhile back...

Sorry.

The words just pop out of my mouth before
I can even think about what I'm saying.

Do you hate me?

No, I don't hate you.
Go home.

Okay.

Hey.

Don't say anything to your mom yet.

You haven't won anything yet, so
let's not risk disappointing her.

Dong Min, we need to talk.

Just like having diabetes,
and high blood pressure

Schizophrenia can be controlled with the
correct dosage of proper medication.

With the proper medication, over 70 percent
of patients can lead a normal life.

That's the same thing you told
countless other patients.

Do you remember saying that?

I'm staying out tonight.

Tae Yong, I'm heading over to
Jang Jae Yeol's house right now.

What are you doing here?

I suddenly didn't want to be
home, and I missed seeing you.

What?

Why do you look so surprised? It's not
like I just said I loved Hye Soo.

By the way...

So Nyeo's been acting kind of clingy lately.
Isn't that annoying?

Stop bragging.

What are you doing!

This is my way of repaying the coolest man
I know for the kindness he's shown me.

This is the first time I've ever
hugged another man like this.

- Sit down and join me for a drink.
- Are you seriously sleeping over tonight?

There's no use in kicking me out
because I'll just let myself back in.

If you're going to stay here, then
don't even make a breathing sound.

If his underlying guilt is the issue

then the happier he is with you, the
greater the risk of self-harm.

My stomach... it's bleeding.

Sorry for having slept in when I'm
in charge of the cooking today.

Give me a minute, and I'll
make you some fried eggs.

We also have some hard boiled eggs
that Soo Kwang made yesterday.

Hey, Hye Soo! Take some
with you for breakfast!

Hye Soo!

That scoundrel... he told me
that these were hard boiled.

Patient's name is Oh Sang Min, and
he's a 33-year-old schizophrenic.

He started showing active
symptoms three days ago

and we're going to get him started
on drug treatment today.

10ml of Haloperidol, 300ml of
Chlorpromazine, and lispromazine...

Increase the dosage of his medication.

The patient was really struggling
with it, so Doctor Ji told me to...

That patient has had three
relapses in the past five years.

What do you think is more important? His
physical safety or his emotional moods?

Yes, I understand.

Please, Doctor Ji.

How many times do I have to tell you?
I already told you, no!

Please prescribe me the medication.
My child is really out of control!

The testing results shows that
your child is perfectly normal!

Why are you raising your voice at me, lady?

I just told you that your child is normal,
and you're angry at that statement?

Did you just talk down to me?

Who told you that taking ADHD medication will
help improve your child's concentration?

My next door neighbor told me.

Even though ADHD medication is helpful for
someone with the actual condition

if a normal child takes it, do you
know how much harm that could cause?

You don't even know what you're saying,
so stop talking such nonsense.

If you won't give it to me, then
I'll just go to another hospital.

- How ridiculous.
- Ma'am.

Where's the hospital that would prescribe
medication to a perfectly normal child?

Tell me, so that I can sue them.

- Okay?
- What the heck is this now?

All children are rowdy when they're young.
Just be patient and give him some time.

Okay?

Then I'll see you there.
Yes, thank you.

Yes.

- Leave your patients to Doctor Kim...
- I already did that.

- Then let's go out and get some coffee.
- I'm going out to meet with Jae Yeol's mom.

Take Jo Dong Min with you.
You're not rational right now.

- What are you basing that comment on?
- You haven't asked Dong Min or me for help.

When you turn to us for help...

that's when I'll know that
you're being rational.
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Hey, Dong Min.
Where are you right now?

Come on, let's eat.

Stop acting like you don't hear me.

Hey...

Hey!

- What do you think you're doing?
- I'm such an asshole, aren't I?

You didn't even sleep an hour last night.

I checked what time you
went into the bathroom.

Do you have a death wish or something?

Come and eat.

Want me to teach you a trick on
how to handle a rascal like me?

- What else is there besides beating you up?
- Just give in.

You're not looking at me like I'm
the neighborhood's stray mutt

rather than Ji Hye Soo's
trained house dog, are you?

Here.

What the hell are you doing?

You need a good beating!

You're laughing at me?

Don't tell Hye Soo.

My stomach is just sensitive right
now from the stress of working.

I just got a text from So Nyeo.

Hye Soo.

Jang Jae Yeol got less than
an hour of sleep last night

and he's not even able to eat
because he's throwing up.

Okay, that's 40 points!

Score.

33 points!

Game.

I won.

Can you please just get lost now?

Not sleeping and not eating is going
to make you sick, you know that?

I let you win at basketball.

You should ask Hye Soo to help you.

I can take care of myself.

Have you always lived this way?

Always taking care of
everything on your own?

Yeah.

What's this for?

I had it made to give to Hye Soo when I
heard that you two slept together.

But since you two are practically
the same person now...

let me make this very clear.

We are individuals who like being
together, but we are not always as one.

What are you doing?

This is what ignorant people
think of my mental condition.

Also... Hye Jin's schizophrenic
mental condition.

A tangled up, giant mess of a brain.

They think that we can't even recognize
who our own parents or siblings are...

nor are we able to recognize
the person we love.

Even after cursing someone out...

there's no sense of guilt afterward.

But that's not what we're really like.

We're mostly normal... and only
a small part of us is ill.

- Do you agree?
- Yeah, I do.

This is what I'm like.

I'm only pulled apart for a few seconds,
or a few minutes out of the whole year.

And in a schizophrenic's
case like Hye Jin's...

it's about this much.

Either from an abnormality in the
neurotransmitter or a deep emotional scar.

Little pieces of their own world
is torn away from them like this.

- Into reality and fantasy?
- Something like that.

Can you ever completely put the
pieces back together like this?

As long as the patient has the will...

and receives help from their doctor.

That's fascinating.

I'm going.

Don't ever come back again.

I'll probably be back.

Why are you making those flowers?

I'm giving them to my mom.

She'll be sad once Jae Yeol is gone.

So I'm giving her some flowers
to help make her feel better.

Don't move, Jae Bum.

If you go back to jail this time,
you'll never get to leave again.

We'll pay for everything, so
please don't call the police.

No, I can't think about that.

His mother was suffering from a case of
dissociation when she started the fire.

She still can't remember exactly
what happened that day.

But Jae Yeol knew that at the time

and he accused his brother of the
crime in order to protect his mom.

So his current condition is the result of the
immense guilt he feels over his brother.

You have such a lovely home.

Jae Yeol has never once
invited me into his home.

Ms. Hye Soo...

I finally get to see his home,
all thanks to you, Hye Soo.

I even bought some new clothes
because Jae Bum's getting out soon.

I feel so happy.

But what did you want to see me about?

Mrs. Jang, the thing is...

- Mrs. Jang, you're here.
- Oh my, Doctor Jo!

Tae Yong...
Tae Yong?

Tae Yong, what's wrong?
Tae Yong?

- Hye Soo.
- What's wrong with you?

Give us some space.

Mrs. Jang.

This is hard for me to say...

but Jae Yeol is ill.

What?

- You're going to be a doctor?
- That's right.

If Hye Soo can manage to fix Jang Jae Yeol

then I'm going to become a
psychiatrist just like Hye Soo.

Aren't you proud of me
for having thought this?

What a joke. Do you think
just anyone can be a doctor?

Get back to work.

You're just like everyone else, aren't you?

You think that I'm just a dumb
delinquent without any dreams of my own.

- That's enough.
- Hey!

You really need to learn some tact!

Can't you see how worried both Hye
Soo and I are over Jang Jae Yeol?

I, the man you like...

am really struggling right now.

I was just trying to make you feel better
because I can see that you're struggling.

That's why I'm just trying to
engage you in a conversation.

Would you rather have me go around
looking like someone just died

like you and Hye Soo are doing right now?

Is that the right thing to do?

She's finally maturing.

Oh So Nyeo.

I love you.

- Welcome.
- A frappe, please.

Okay, an order of one frappe.

Then... I'll take it as you giving us the
permission to have Jae Yeol admitted.

I didn't tell her all the details and I
just told her that it was stress related.

She's only aware of his physical symptoms.

Mrs. Jang.

Jae Yeol's illness isn't terminal.

It can be cured.

Doctor Jo...

already explained it to me.

It must've been quite a shock to you.

If he's sick...

then we'll just get him treated.

We can get him treated.

I'll get going.

You don't need to see me out.

Mrs. Jang, are you okay?

What can I even do about it...
if I'm not okay?

I have to be okay.

After my husband died

I had to witness my own son spend
the last 14 years in prison.

I've already had to go through all that.

Doctor Jo told me that it's
not a terminal illness.

He told me that he'll be okay after
some treatment and medication.

I see that there are two candles.

Is one for Jae Yeol?

- I'm going to go see Jang Jae Yeol.
- Talk to me.

What are you going to say
to him when you see him?

What is it that you're going to say...
when you see Jae Yeol?

I don't know either.

What am I going to do?

I feel like such an idiot.

For goodness sake, I'm a doctor.

A sixteen year old boy went through
such a traumatic event like that...

and I foolishly believed that he was fine
and unaffected by what happened.

What else?

I say that I love him...

but I was never truly empathetic,
nor showed any sympathy

towards the deep emotional scars that
Jang Jae Yeol was suffering from.

Whenever Jae Yeol opened
himself up to me...

and talked to me about his
brother and his painful past...

did I ever really show him any
sympathy without judgment?

Even though I've told him that I
understood how difficult it must've been...

on the inside...

I told myself that I could understand
his brother since I'm a doctor myself.

What do you think? I think I just
thought too highly of myself.

Even when I witnessed Jae Yeol having
those nightmares when he slept with me...

I still told him that he'll get over it
since he's strong and free spirited.

Maybe a part of me just ignored it
since it wasn't my own personal issue.

Don't blame yourself.

That wasn't feigning ignorance...

but rather, it was your faith in him.

As a doctor...

and as his girlfriend, I
score a big fat zero.

All my life, I've always
been such a selfish bitch.

I'd like to avoid forcing him to
be admitted into the hospital.

Do you think that's even possible.

I'll be back.

Fighting, Ji Hye Soo.

How's Jae Yeol's functioning?

You feel lonely?

I'm sorry that you feel lonely, but
I have more writing to get done.

Stop writing for now, and come spend
the night with your mom at home.

I can't.

Hi.

I came by because I really missed you.

Is it bad since it's not Friday?
Should I leave?

I said, I can't.

It's my mom.

I'll leave you to talk to her.

Mom, what's gotten into you?

You make plenty of money,
so why don't you start taking it easy?

You don't have to continue
to take care of me!

I won't even be able to spend all
the money you've given me.

Don't keep writing because of
me, and just come home to me.

Mom.

Is something wrong? You've
never talked like this before.

Kang Woo keeps coughing, and
he has a tremor in his hand.

What illness could he
be suffering from?

No, I'm fine. My throat
is just a little dry.

Mom.

Hye Soo just got here.

Okay.

Mom, eat some of this. You
haven't even had dinner.

Just go check on Jae Yeol.

I'll go once I see you eat this.

You need to stay strong right now. Jae
Bum will be here on Saturday, too!

Please eat something.

That way, I can stop worrying about
you, and go check on Jae Yeol!

[I'm fifty-one percent there.]

I want your hands and your feet, too.

Okay, fine. In exchange...
you have to shave.

I don't like to shave when I'm writing.

I guess you don't want any
pictures of my hands or my feet.

When I see him, he reminds
me of my younger self.

Something about him makes
me want to protect him.

I think Kang Woo is a hallucination
he created of his younger self.

The thing I'm most worried about...

is that in his attempt
to protect Kang Woo

he'll just end up harming himself out
of the guilt he feels over his brother

and the fact that he's
not even aware of that.

Do you know Lou Gehrig, the number
four hitter for the Yankees?

Yes, I know who he is.

Lou Gehrig's Disease, was named after him.

How do you know who he is?
Do you like baseball?

I learned about who he was when
I was in medical school.

- How do you know who he is?
- Maybe from a book.

I'm not really sure.

Hye Soo's hands, the hands that I'd like to
feel caressing my forehead at all times.

Hye Soo's feet, the feet that I'd never
want to get in the way of its walking path.

What a good boy to hold so still.

That's because you already hold
possession of everything I am.

What a sweet boyfriend, you are.

But...

If you were to get sick and had
to be admitted into a hospital

what do you think you'll
be worried about the most?

Why are you asking me a question like that?

Because... everyone gets sick at
least once in their lifetime.

Not being able to write?

Even if you stopped writing...

I'd still like you.

Just when are you ever going
to tell me that you love me?

Anyways, Jang Jae Yeol is no longer
Jang Jae Yeol, if he can't write.

- What about Kang Woo?
- I haven't heard from him.

He's not answering his calls either.

You sound really worried about him.

I feel like he's going to
end up dead or something.

He failed the novel writing competition,
and he's not physically well either.

I thought you told me that
he was feeling better.

He was lying to me.

I think he has Lou Gehrig's disease.

Kang Woo was in front of the
pharmacy when he called me

and he didn't have a good look on his face.

Did you go with him to the hospital?

No, I didn't.

Because I was with you at the time.

Then... how do you know that Kang Woo
had a bad expression on his face

while standing in front of the pharmacy?

You're describing it like a
scene out of a book or a movie.

That's a good point. How did I know...
that Kang Woo was alone?

Look at how handsome you are again.
So handsome.

You look tired. You
should take a nice bath.

You said you had to leave soon since
you're on call at the hospital.

So can't I just look at
you for a bit longer?

[Tae Yong]

What is it?

Tae Yong says he's outside my house.

I know that he's my friend, but I
really don't like him right now.

I'll see you tomorrow.
It's Friday tomorrow.

You can't just leave me like that.

I'm going to smell like shaving cream.
You should take a shower.

I love you.

Even though I know it makes you feel
uncomfortable to hear me say that.

But I love you like crazy.

Tae Yong, where are you right now?
We need to meet.

There you are!

What a relief. I've
been worried about you.

Kang Woo.

Don't ever think that you're alone.

Remember that I'm always by your side.

You know that, right?

From start to finish...

it's pretty much the same story as
the novel he wrote in the past.

There are almost no signs
of any new material.

He did the same thing for a couple of months
with the last novel he wrote.

Now that I think about it

Jae Yeol really hasn't been the same since
the night Jae Bum stabbed him with a fork.

It normally takes him about eight
months to finish writing a novel

but he's been working on this
one for over two years already.

Even though it's only a few parts,
he even plagiarized his own work.

But I don't think he's
aware of that himself.

Don't ever leave Jae Yeol's side, okay?

Hye Soo.

Hye Soo.

There is nothing left for me to verify
from the psychological medical standpoint.

Not being able to sleep, or eat, and
not being able to write as a writer...

They're definitely signs of his
inability to function normally.

On top of that...

Even though it's just absurd that it's
taken me this long to notice...

there have been several different occasions
where he's posed danger to himself.

He has hidden his wounds from me, and
he's put himself in dangerous situations.

I can also easily see how his current
situation can turn into a suicidal one.

Suicide?

Writing is everything to Kang Woo, and
he's been diagnosed with Lou Gehrig's

and he even failed his attempt at
winning the writing competition.

Which makes me believe that he's
going to do something drastic.

It's obvious.

How did you come to the understanding
that Jang Jae Yeol is going to leave

the one he loves behind to fall victim to
his own mental illness and commit suicide?

I'm sure it wasn't an
easy concept to accept.

Leaving me, the one he loves
behind, to choose death instead...

There is no rational reasoning for it.

Because it's a mental illness.

Jang Jae Yeol is ill.

That's my conclusion as a medical doctor.

In Jae Yeol's current condition, where
he can't even recognize that he's ill

it won't be feasible to get
him to agree to being admitted.

- We're going to have to force him.
- I know that.

Just get him admitted first.

We'll need to medicate him to alleviate
some of his active symptoms.

I'll call you when I can.

I'll call for an ambulance, and
I'll also call his guardian.

We'll notify Doctor Kim of what's going on.

Doctor Kim, where are you right now?
I need to see you.

Tae Yong.
It's me, Ji Hye Soo.

I met with the PD... and
told her what's going on.

I told her...

that Author Jang is ill, and he won't
be able to do the show anymore.

Instead of using metal bars on the
windows, we use tempered glass windows.

Other hospitals should follow
suit and do the same thing.

It doesn't open any further than that.
It's for safety reasons.

Even if he were to escape out the window

his room is on the second floor,
so he won't really get hurt.

No one will be able to break through glass
that's more than 30 centimeters thick.

- But... where's the bathroom?
- It's a shared bathroom.

Because it needs to be
monitored for safety reasons.

My son can only sleep in a bathroom.

We'll give him some sedatives so that
he can sleep peacefully in his own bed.

How long will he be in the hospital for?

He's not going to be in here
for months or years, is he?

I only ask because that's what I
always see in books or on TV.

That could be the case with some of
the nursing homes in the mountains

since those facilities are geared towards
patients who have frequent relapses.

But in a case like Jang Jae
Yeol's, it could be anywhere

from a month to about two months
that he'll be here in the hospital.

Two months sounds durable.

It is an honor to be able to work with such
highly respected doctors and colleagues.

I predict that the treatment
process for Jang Jae Yeol

will prove to be more difficult than
anything else we've ever encountered.

The reason being...

What unbelievable timing. I
just got out of the shower.

Stop!

Why?

Just stay right where you are.

Why? Do you not like
having me next to you?

No, I just want to take a good look at you.

Why are you so good looking?
It's unnerving.

How long do I have to keep standing here for?
I want to sit down.

Hye Soo, it's me.

The ambulance is ready and waiting.

When do you want it to come?

I'll call you back later.

I love you.

Let's stay just like this for a while.

Okay.

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- We're in your bed right now.
- I'm too tired to get up.

- Is it okay to come now?
- I love you so much.

Jang Jae Yeol isn't
crazy, he's just ill!

Can you now understand why we forced
you to be admitted in the hospital?

I'm not myself in here.

- Please let me leave.
- You've made me so happy.

No!