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Their industry is in crisis,

its survival uncertain...

So, Julie,
welcome to Sunderland.

It's great that you want
to make a film in the town.

Um, maybe you could tell us
a little bit about it, please.

Yes, it's about
a 16-year-old boy called Tony,

and he's very insecure and he's shy,

and he's lived in Sunderland
his whole life,

and he has this overwhelming
affection and love for his mother.

He absolutely adores her,

he almost has an obsession with her,

and has a constant dream of her dying.

This fear inside him,

he just can't bear
the idea of losing her,

and, of course, in the end, she dies.

Are you?

Hey, hey, hey, hey, there's
no need for that, Frankie.

There's no need for that, all right?
I was going, I was...

- Sorry.
- Hello, sausage.

- Hi.
- Here she is.

- Hey.
- Hi.

Oh, this is Anthony. He's my lodger.

- Hello.
- Ray.

Hi.

...gets up and walks out
the room with another fella,

in front of all my mates,
everyone sees it.

What's that about? That's not nice, is it?

I don't know where
you're getting that from.

...steady income,
and I've known him for a while. Um...

He's often away, uh, in the provinces,

um, so that's why we felt
this would work out,

because I'm often away,

- and between us we could...
- Just split it.

...share that room and split the cost.

- Okay.
- Yeah.

Well, as long as he's all right with it.

He's fine with it,
and he's very keen to meet you.

- I've told him all about you.
- What have you said?

- I've said you're a wild...
- Because you can be very cheeky.

...exotic, social creature.

He has this fear of losing her.

- Hmm.
- And this overwhelming...

he has this overwhelming attachment

to her always being with him
and always being present,

and I found that really interesting,

because I kind of linked that
with his mother city of Sunderland,

um, being, you know, dying
and decaying and rotting,

and then at the end of the film,

there would ultimately be
the death of his mother,

and I found that really...

Yeah, really interesting for me,
that metaphor.

- And you've been up there?
- Yes. Yes, I have.

I was taking pictures of, um,
some installations by some artists I know,

um, which I found
really, really interesting.

- Um, yeah.
- Then you got fascinated in the rot?

Yes, yes. In the streets.

- She's got the dosh, so why not?
- Exactly, exactly.

I think if you can get hold of a camera
like that, fair enough. Do your thing...

I think you're doing
all right, aren't you?

Yeah, she's having a go,
ain't she? Just like the rest of us, so...

Yeah, she's having a go,
but there's other people having a go

who can't get that camera,
you know what I mean, so...

Yeah, but, listen, you can't...

I think you should probably, um...

You gotta play
to your advantages.

Yeah, absolutely, fair play.

Mate, if you was in the same
position, you'd do the same thing.

Don't get me wrong,
fair play to her,

but you gotta-- when you're in, you know,
a position of privilege, dare I say,

then you've gotta accept it.

If you was successful
and you had your kids, yeah, all right,

you want 'em to make the most
out of every situation.

Exactly, but I'd want 'em
to be aware of it. Be aware of it.

Good girl. Come on. Come on.

Can I take something?

I'm all right.

- I'm laden.
- Hello!

- Oh, my Lord.
- Rosie! Rosie!

Daddy was going to put this in the hunt
jumble, and I thought, you know,

you never have enough lights in here,
and I thought this might be quite good.

What do you think?

Where do you think this could go?

- It's a little too tall.
- Could go down...

Well, I don't... what, there?

Or what do you think about over here?

Yeah, it could go on my desk.

Are you all right?

- Are you all right?
- Yeah. Shopping headache.

Don't you think they'd be nice?

- Yeah.
- You could hang them up and around.

Hang them on the-- hang them on those,
up there. Would look Christmassy.

What do you think, Dora?

Just come and...

- Stay.
- Stay.

But I'd need to get a real job.

- Don't want to do that.
- You don't need to.

- I do. Need to pay rent.
- You kind of do, actually, yeah.

To you. You'd be a terrible landlord.

I am a terrible landlord.

'Cause he's so lovely, Frankie,
but he's... he smokes a lot.

- Does his girlfriend pay rent?
- No. No.

She hasn't even, like, suggested it.

- Doesn't put anything towards it?
- I'm not gonna ask him. No.

- No, you have to.
- 'Cause it's not like she's here...

You're too nice. You need
to properly sit them down

and be, like, "There's three people
living in this flat. Pay me rent."

Get aggressive, get a baseball bat.

- Morning.
- Morning, Frank.

- All right?
- Did you sleep well?

Yeah, it was all right.

- Nothing for you, sorry.
- No?

Are you expecting anything important?

- No.
- No?

- Do you want a cup of tea?
- Yeah, please. Thank you.

- All right.
- No sugar, please.

All right, mate.

Can you make me
a cup of tea in a minute?

So lazy.

We don't know what the inner
machinations of their mind are,

or their heart. We don't know.

But that's what we want to know
when we go and see a film.

We don't wanna just see
life played out as is.

We wanna see life as it is experienced,

within this soft machine, within this...

But the life of Tony and his mother,
they're the lives of real people.

I'm not-- I'm not making that up.

- Why are they more real than me?
- They're not more real than you.

Am I more real than you?

No.

I think we're all equal in that.
I think we're all as real as each other.

There's no competition.

It doesn't matter that they're
not real people.

I mean, I'm not trying
to make a documentary.

- I'm making a feature film.
- Now, are you sure?

Yes, I am.

I'm making a feature film.

You're not trying to document

some received idea of... life up there,

on the docks, the daily grind...

huddled listening to the wireless?

Well, I am, but I'm creating
something new with it.

Well, good.

So the material is real,
those people exist,

but I am designing new ones...

to fit what I want to make.

Well, good. That sounds great.

- I'm a big fan of Powell and Pressburger.
- Hmm.

I think they--

I think they're very truthful

without necessarily being real.

So what do you do?

I work for the Foreign Office.

- Is it very boring?
- Incredibly.

The many misadventures.

- What'll be the name?
- Yeah, the name.

- The word on the street.
- The word on the street.

What'll be my name? What'll be my name?
Let me think of something special.

- Wear one of these.
- Roger.

- Roger?
- Yeah.

Roger? No, Roger sounds too rugged.

- All right, you got it?
- You're not gonna get it.

- Oh, that was a terrible shot.
- That was always gonna happen.

Get raided.

- You sure you want another one?
- Take one of us. Come here.

Yeah, I can drive.
Haven't got a license, though.

Stop.

That ruined it.

- Would you like another one?
- No.

- No? You sure?
- Yeah, I'm sure, thank you.

- Would you like another one?
- I've just had one.

Bloody hell.

- Do you like her?
- I love her.

She's just received
word from her lover,

and she's carving his initial
into the tree.

She looks sad.

I think she looks determined.

Mm-hmm.

- And very much in love.
- Very much in love.

- Do you like horses?
- Yes. But not to ride.

Ah. Well, Ray's rather fond of them,

and Janet said we could take her
to my parents for the weekend.

- Mm-hmm. Yeah, I'd love that.
- Good.

Made it. Ray.

- Hi.
- Hi, hello. I'm Barbara.

- Hello, Barbara. I'm Ray.
- Ray.

- Hello, Ray. I'm James.
- Hello, James.

- Hello, darling.
- Hello.

- Julie.
- Julie.

- Hello, Julie. I'm Barbara.
- Lovely to meet you.

- You're welcome. Welcome.
- Hi. I'm Julie.

Lovely to meet you.
If you'd like to follow me...

- Come on in.
- Thank you.

What are you working on
at the moment?

I, um... uh, my next project
is a feature film,

uh, set in Sunderland.

- Oh.
- Great part of the world.

Mm.

Um, Barbara comes from Newcastle,
so she's got some family up that way.

Might be able to put you up,
maybe, if you were up there.

Mm. Thank you.

Um... Oh, great subject matter.

Are you involved-- wanting to film
in the shipyards, or...

- Mm. Yeah.
- Wonderful.

They really need somebody
to do a documentary on them,

because they're under threat
at the moment.

Uh, I worked in a shipyard when I was
a boy, before I went off to art school.

- Hmm.
- And, uh...

not in that part of the world,
but, uh... um...

It's been my subject matter
and inspiration, really,

you know, the beautiful shapes
of the boats and...

Did I hear Frankie say something

about staying with his girlfriend
for a few days?

Yeah, he's always with her.

Beginning of next week or...

Yeah. I'm not sure,
I'd have to check, but...

I was wondering
if I could stay a few days.

Why?

It's to do with my work.
It's rather complicated to explain.

In fact... I can't really
explain it at all.

I completely understand
if there's an issue with that.

- I can always find somewhere else.
- No, it's okay.

- Are you sure?
- Hmm.

- That's very kind.
- It's all right.

You're very special, Julie.

I don't think I am.

Oh, no, you don't think you are.

- Very normal, really.
- Yeah, normal.

You're not normal at all.
You're a freak.

Thank you.

- How am I a freak?
- Your fragility.

- Is that a good thing?
- I think you know.

I think I'm quite average.

You're not average.

You're lost.

And you'll always be lost.

- Are you hungry?
- Famished.

- How did you get on?
- Really well, thank you.

- Good old Harrods?
- Yeah.

- A nice bit of fillet steak.
- Hmm.

- I've had a very nice time here.
- Good.

- Very relaxing.
- Good.

Checked in on Janet.
Everything's fine there.

Good.

I mean, I dare say they've had
the odd person, uh...

watching over, but I don't think
there's been any disturbance.

Hmm. I'm glad.

That's partly why I wanted to get Ray
out of there for the weekend.

There were fears
that the Russians might try to come in

and slew the submarine off the rocks,

and those fears were reinforced

when a second foreign submarine
was detected earlier this morning.

Today, the government revealed that
they're considering a charge of espionage.

The case is seen as very similar
to that of Gary Powers,

the American pilot of a U-2 spy plane
shot down over Russia in 1960.

The Russians tried him as a spy.

"You've got to see Venice,"
he began.

"You've got to see a city
of slender towers and white domes,"

sleeping in the water
like a mass of water lilies.

You've got to see dark waterways,

mysterious threads of shadow,

"binding all these flowers
of stone together."

I like this.

And where was this taken?

- Afghanistan. '73.
- Oh.

I'm going to wash the lettuce.

"I don't feel that I fully
understand the qualities of entertainment,"

but I realize the importance
of entertaining people

to get a message across.

"I hope to learn to entertain
as well as communicate."

- That's good.
- Yeah.

That's the bit I like, at the end.

What's all that about therapy?

Well, it's my version of therapy, really.

- Okay.
- My self-expression.

Through art, through film,
you know, that's my--

Do you think
that makes you special?

Well, it's not, you know,
it's not about me being special.

It's about, you know, them, you know...

it's just, I want them to know that--

I want them to kind of know
that about me, you know?

- Okay. Okay.
- Is that--

- Do you think it's too--
- No.

I'm not sure, uh,
sincerity is always enough.

But go on.
Let's hear the next bit.

Okay. You mean-- you mean you don't think
I should be this honest?

Um, well, no, I just think it's,
um, you know...

People use that word
as if it's an end in itself,

and, uh, I mean, you know,
we can all be sincere,

we can all be authentic,

but, um, what's it all for?

I mean, it just slightly reads

like you've been sort of backed
into a corner by life,

and it's like, "Oh, well, I'd better be
a film director."

As opposed to, "I want to be
a film director."

Is that what it sounds like?

What happened last night

is every time you rolled over
and then rolled back again...

you came closer to me
and took up more of the bed.

And you're already, I would say,
further over than I am.

That's not true.

- It is true.
- No, it's not.

- I haven't got that much...
- You have bed dysmorphia.

And you-- then you accuse me of--

I wasn't trying to cross
any sort of threshold.

I have not got that much room.

- You've got a foot on that side.
- That's not a foot.

And I literally am on a ledge.

I've got nowhere left to go.

Well, where's the--
where's the halfway line?

Well, I think it's where your arm is,
but, like, under your arm.

No, I think it's there.

No, I think it's, like, there.

No. That doesn't give me enough room.

- There.
- All right, there.

But I can barely lie flat like that.

We're saying there, okay.

I'm going to do
a Claudette Colbert-Clark Gable

wall of Jericho with your friends here.

I haven't got much room.

You've got a foot!

You've got a foot. I have nothing.

I've nothing. There's nothing here.

I'm going to be in Paris for a while.

Okay.

See you soon.

"My dear Julie."

Just a letter of thanks.

You see, I've almost forgotten
what happened in December.

I may have been born in 1980,

and that was the year
I first fell in love.

And I have wondered
if that were possible.

I have gained so much
to thank you for.

Inexpressible, though,
this thing of delight and trust.

Most importantly and at the center

is that I am mainly thanking you
for my love for you.

Ergo sum.

"A grateful and loving Anthony."

Is this my book?

- Oh, yeah. Sorry.
- You... you keep it.

All right. Cheers.

- All right.
- Do you want a hand?

Yeah, I'd better get downstairs.
Jack's got the van, ain't he?

I might torch this.

- You give my love to Tracy.
- Yeah, I will.

Yeah.

- Love you, Frank.
- All right, mate. Love you, too.

- Have fun.
- I will.

See you on the flip side.

- Ta-ta.
- Bye.

The, uh... the thing that struck me about
the main character, Tony, in my story,

is that he is being forced to rate,
to be raised, and to come to terms

with the incredible struggles that
his family is going through at that time,

and all his peers at school as well.

And this very cruel,

very raw, you know... um...

Sorry, I'm not expressing
myself very well. Um...

You know, being forced to come to terms

with something so harsh
for someone that's so young.

- Very vulnerable.
- Right.

And yet, you're wanting to make a film

about an experience
that's very different from yours.

I mean, you could argue that really
it would be much better for you

to work from your own experience,
particularly at an early stage.

I mean, what makes you want to leave
your own experience so radically

and enter into this very different world?

I mean, it's suggested
that you almost have

a kind of moral, sort of political aim?

- I mean, can you just...
- Very moral, to me.

...talk about that, perhaps, for a moment?

Yes, uh...

I feel as though I want
to not live my whole life

in this very privileged part of the world
I come from,

uh, part of the country.

And I want to be really aware
about what's going on around me,

with people, and community,
and politically as well.

Um, I don't want to be
in that bubble my entire life.

- Where's the wall?
- The wall is--

The wall was. It is no more.

- We dismantled it.
- Ah.

There was a whole ceremony.
You missed it.

- I'm sorry I missed that.
- We all felt very snubbed.

- Is this for me?
- Mm-hmm.

- Thank you.
- From Paris.

Put it on.

You're a dark horse, Julie.

I love pale skin.

Why? Why?

'Cause everyone's getting a tan nowadays.

- But I burn.
- Good.

We'll keep you out the sun.

I like freckles.

- Did you hurt yourself?
- No, I don't know what that is.

- It looks really sore.
- It is a bit sore.

- Okay.
- What do you think I should do?

I think you should...

just leave it...

and let it go away.

- I'm going out.
- Okay.

I'll be back later.

- See you later.
- What?

See you later.

Can you lend me a couple of quid?

- Yeah, sure.
- Thank you.

- How much?
- Uh...

Six.

Have you got ten?
Give me ten.

Won't need ten, but, uh, just in case.

- Bye.
- Bye.

I thought we'd put Anthony down the end.
Be more comfortable.

It's not that kind
of relationship anyway, is it?

He's got his own bathroom, and...

he'd be quite comfy there.

Yes. That feels good.

Rosie.

Mummy, can I borrow
some money, please?

- More money? Oh.
- Yes.

It's just--
it's for college, you know.

- It's for cameras and--
- It's not long since the last.

- I know.
- Hmm.

And I know I haven't
paid that back yet.

- How much this time?
- Two hundred pounds.

Oh, another one.

- All right.
- It's just for equipment.

- For film school, you know.
- Ah. Ah.

- Are you keeping a tally?
- Yeah, of course.

All right. All right, well, yeah.

- I will pay you back.
- All right. All right.

Rosie! Rose!

Well, we didn't really mix
with King's much, but...

I think all the colleges
kept themselves to themselves.

In my day. They probably don't...

- Didn't when you were there.
- Yeah, no, no. Absolutely, yes.

I studied history of art
and then continued at the Courtauld.

It was a funny time then,
'cause it was just

- after the war, so...
- Uh-huh.

I suppose it was
rather different in your day.

Hmm... well, I don't know.

I think we're off.
I think we're off.

We're ready for lunch.
Come on through.

- Hmm. Jolly good.
- Do come through.

Julie, darling, can you just

- come and help me?
- Yes.

Starting on the wine,
I suppose.

Hopefully. Yep, I think we've
got a nice bottle of something there.

- Through here?
- No, straight on. Straight ahead.

Got to get over the barrier, though.

It's a rather curious tradition
we have in this house.

It's meant to keep the dogs out,
but actually it keeps people out.

I think a lot of them are young men

who were dragged from their beds
at the crack of dawn,

with little or no hard evidence
to say that they were...

what we would consider criminals.

I don't think granting these men
political status is such a big deal.

We don't know that
they're necessarily affiliated

with the exact same organization
who put bombs under cars

and shoot prison wardens while they're
going about their everyday lives.

It's terribly complicated.

Complicated? But we've got
to protect society, haven't we?

But they're just as much part
of society as anybody else,

that's what they would say.

And, uh, do you...

Well, I haven't set
any bombs recently. Have you?

No, but you haven't
necessarily felt the need to,

'cause you've felt that
you have a political voice.

Mm-hmm.

Or-or am I wrong about that?

I think you're wrong, really,
if you don't mind my saying so.

I think-- I'm amazed to hear
you say this, but, um...

- It's refreshing to hear this.
- I'm quite sure

they're not all guilty as charged.

But I'm sure the majority of them are.

Some of them are proven guilty,
some are not. Um...

But can we risk having bombs,
pipe bombs,

all sorts of foul things that are going on
all over Northern Ireland?

Can we allow that?

- I'm not an apologist.
- Darling.

And if we lock up a few
innocents in the process,

well, that's part of it.

- I'm not an apologist...
- No, thank you, darling.

...for violence on either side.

And it is on both.

And what, is that a foreign
office view, or is that your view?

Probably not, no.
That's my view.

That looks rather
like my cap you're wearing.

- It is your cap.
- I thought it was.

It looks better on me, I think.

- Yeah. I want that back.
- You might lose that.

Dogs all right.

Rosie! Come!

- Dora!
- Dora!

Rosie! Come on!

- My godfather gave it to me.
- Little swallow.

- Yeah.
- It's charming.

Thank you. I never-- I never wear it.

But it's time for it to--
its first flight.

- Yeah, it looks good there.
- Hmm? Okay.

It's the ultimate form,
because it's maximum cinema.

It's movement, music, energy, color.

Everything that film should be.

And there's never been a good
musical made in Britain, I don't think.

I mean, there's been some Cliff Richard.

- Mm-hmm.
- You know,

"Knees Up Mother Brown,"
whatever, but, you know,

for a country that has The Stones,
The Kinks, Small Faces,

for there not to be
a good musical here is just--

- It's almost impressive.
- Mm. I'd say.

Julie met a load of
your old Raynham lot the other day.

- Mm?
- Mm.

Sounded rather
a humorless bunch.

I don't know if you'd have
known any of them.

Do you remember their names?

No, I can't, I'm afraid.
I was so nervous.

Well, it's only confidence
because the whole thing is a con.

Hmm.

And they're the biggest con artists
out there who are in film school.

I just used it as a kind
of supply center, really.

Are you glad you went at all?

It's the cheapest
camera-hire place in the world.

I mean, they don't lock
the store cupboard.

You go in there, get the camera,

and, you know, I made two features

while I was there for, I mean, no money.

They don't check the stock, really.

Couple of trims. I mean, it's great.

You have to listen to a lot of people
who think they know about film

telling you how to make a film.

It's like telling someone
how to breathe or how to think or...

- Yeah.
- It's ridiculous.

And there are no rules.

I mean, you know
the Tolstoy definition of art?

Mm.

Well, you just have a feeling,

and by means of external signs
you communicate it to someone else.

That's it.

So, no reason
to feel intimidated.

I mean, unless you don't have feelings,
which doesn't seem to be the case.

I don't see why
you would be intimidated.

Well, people can feel intimidated.
I don't think that's...

Yeah, I mean, they can, but...

- Perfectly normal.
- ...not of people who teach.

This has got rather warm.
I'm gonna switch it round.

"Those who can't."

Can you swap the warm wine's
heat into this?

- Shush.
- Thank you.

Thank you for your advice.
It's really...

- it's really helpful.
- Mm.

- You don't seem druggie to me.
- No, I'm not. No, I'm not.

- Interesting.
- Mm.

So, I'm trying to work out...

where you two tessellate here.

- I'm not good with euphemism, so...
- Sorry, I don't understand.

Okay, so habitual heroin user,

trainee Rotarian...

Which is a good look.
I mean it nicely.

How? What? Why? When?

Sorry, I don't...

- You don't even dabble?
- No.

Okay. I mean, I don't.

I feel it's very mainstream behavior.
I've said to him...

It's mainstream.

I actually think, you know...

I mean, it was fine in the '40s, but...

- All okay?
- Great.

We are having a charming time.

- Good.
- I say.

If only you could top up these olives,

I think we might be able to
get through the rest of the meal.

This is a scene-- a rehearsal scene.

This is the first rehearsal he had
with this bunch of young musicians

that he was going to create
a new band with.

And there he is. He's quite old.

You can see that they look a bit nervous,
a bit like you, I think.

Listening to the master
tell them the facts of life.

And also saying...

how much it mattered to him,
playing this music.

So it's very parallel, in my mind, to what
you are beginning to go through now.

Their son's getting married,

and they can't decide whether
they like the girl or not.

Mm.

- And he's a doctor.
- Mm-hmm.

'Cause he's got good hands.

And she's a schoolteacher.

Does she have secrets?

- Of course she does.
- Of course.

Does he?

No.

Oh.

How would you feel
about going to Venice?

- Venice?
- Mm-hmm.

I'd love to go.

- I would love that.
- Good.

- Thank you.
- Thank you.

Have you been before?

Yes. Three times.

- Three times?
- Once in summer.

- Twice in winter.
- Mm-hmm.

Why did you go?
Did you go by yourself?

Uh, no, I went with, uh, Desiree.

She went mad with jealousy
and jumped in a canal.

Never saw her again.

At least, that was
what her suicide note implied.

I think she ran off with a gondolier.

No wonder.

So, three girlfriends.

- Yes, all called Desiree.
- Mm-hmm.

Strange, that.

What were their names?

Miriam.

Caroline.

And Angela.

- Angela.
- Mm.

- Angela sang jazz.
- They sound unbearable.

I suppose they were frightfully beautiful,
and lots of fun and rode horses.

If you don't want to know...

- I do want to know. I do want to know.
- ...then don't ask.

Did Miriam play the cello?

No.

- The violin.
- No, she wasn't at all musical.

She wasn't even pretty, actually.

That's not true.

Well, she had other qualities.

Like what?

Darling, I can't tell you in here.

Thank you. Excuse me?

I'm just playing, Julie.

Stop torturing yourself.

- I'm not tort--
- Stop inviting me to torture you.

Ugh!

- Ugh!
- Ugh!

That's exactly how you make me feel
when you're being like this.

Thank you.

That is so beautiful.

I'm not trying that.

No, it's way too-- it's too adventurous.

Are you packed?

'Course.

Liver? I'm not eating-- I'm not--

No, I'm not interested.

No. No, no.
I'm gonna stick with pasta.

Nice, normal pasta.

Mm, 'course.

Okay, well, um...

Yeah, I'll see you later.

I... yeah, I can't wait.

Hitchcock knew this.
I mean, he would change tack.

I mean, if Psycho, you know,
the scene in-in Psycho, the shower scene,

- is very much fragments...
- Yeah.

...very much withholding. But then
elsewhere, he's quite conventional.

So he knows when
to make those adjustments.

Uh, because it is
a process, a growth,

a building of our sensibilities
and our perceptions,

and we've got to realize
that sometimes

we have to change our approach
as the journey unfolds.

This scene could be related
to that scene in-in Psycho.

So you don't see the stab wounds.
So you don't see the pain.

- Mm.
- You just hear it.

You know, you hear
the scream of the woman.

- Yeah.
- You hear the conflict.

- Yeah.
- So it's-- could be quite like that.

Yes, of course. And, of course,
as, I think, you know, the books tell us,

- we never do see anything...
- Mm.

- ...in that shower scene.
- No, you don't see.

Although we have all the--

what appear to be all the bits and pieces
that we need for the murder,

but then nothing ever happens,
all we see is the knife.

- You just see the knife.
- The knife and the shower head.

And in this case, possibly, the conflict,
the noise of the argument, is the weapon.

- Yes.
- You see the end result,

which could be, in Psycho,
her dead body,

and then, in this case,
the two broken siblings at the end.

They've taken everything.

I'm gonna call the police.

Argh! God.

Fuck!

I shouldn't have fucking done that.

- Thank you.
- You're welcome.

Thank you.

Please tell me
what I've done.

Please, because...

This is punishing...

seeing you like this
and then not knowing why.

I can't go into all this.
It was an emergency.

- What fucking emergency?
- If I hadn't done that on that day,

I wouldn't be here now. I--

- That's all I can tell you.
- What's that supposed to mean?

You can't say stuff like that
and then not--

I appreciate that there are
some things you can't tell me.

Well, you know, I appreciate
there's things about me

that you find unacceptable.

There's things about you
I find unacceptable.

There's things about this conversation
I find unacceptable.

- The fact that you're a thief.
- We're gonna have to meet somewhere.

Anthony, you stole my stuff.
You stole my things.

Do you understand?
Do you understand that?

Do you understand
how that would make me feel?

I didn't think you'd--

You wouldn't think I--
you didn't think I would mind?

- Is that what you're saying?
- No. No.

I knew you'd mind.
That's why I didn't tell you.

I do what I do so that you can have
the life you're having

and sleep safe at night,

and there's not a fucking
car bomb on King's Road.

Let's laugh about it. Why not?

I can't-- I can't believe you.

Well, if you can't believe me,

why don't you take some time
to get your head around it?

Because I've got nothing more to tell you,
I've got nothing more to explain,

and I've got nothing more
to offer to this.

I'm sorry. I...

I understand. I get why you didn't...

There are some things

you need to-- you need to not tell me,
and I understand that.

- Thank you.
- So I'm sorry.

I don't wanna give you a hard time.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

At the siege
of the Libyan People's Bureau

in the West End of London,

hundreds of armed police have
been on the alert all night,

with marksmen surrounding the building
in St James's Square.

Other police officers
have installed equipment

to monitor movements inside the bureau

and contact has been
established with those inside.

The whole area around the square
has been sealed off.

From here they looked
like plans of the layout

of the embassy building.

In this, the dreaded
first hour of the siege,

the talks are going on to try to end it.

And on the rooftops
of the buildings above me,

police marksmen are trained
on the embassy.

I understand one option
open to them though

is to offer the Libyans
safe passage to Heathrow...

- This is for work?
- This is for the work, yes.

Have you read the notice that I put up
yesterday about the musicians' union,

the agreement we've just reached?

- No, no, I haven't.
- No. You should read it.

- Mm-hmm.
- It's important.

I mean, it's good for us
to reach an agreement.

They're a tricky bunch.
But, you know, here we are,

- twenty-five pounds per musician...
- Mm-hmm.

...for a three-hour session.

If you're using an orchestra,

you're gonna run through your budget
very quickly indeed.

We'll need to talk about the budget.

We need to think about budgets
at this school.

We're not just loaning equipment out

- on the willy-nilly. Um...
- Mm-hmm.

It's quite irregular, really, to be coming
and talking about a project and equipment

when you haven't even
thought about the budget,

but then I don't suppose
you really have to think

about budget
in Knightsbridge, do you?

How are you getting on?

I'm going out
for an hour or two.

- Can you lend me a tenner?
- Yeah.

- You staying here?
- Mm-hmm.

See you later.

Does all this make sense?

Mm-hmm. Yeah.

- Nothing looks unclear?
- Don't think so.

I think get her to do that for real.

I mean, tangle her up if necessary.

Okay.

- You don't want it to look stagey...
- Mm-hmm.

...because the whole thing is,

you know, stagey in intention.

- Did you score today?
- No. Don't ask me that.

No.

'Cause I feel like
you're on something right now.

Well...

I'm not.

- Well, I think you are.
- Well, I'm not.

Because you're not yourself.

What?

- Well, I mean...
- Don't--

don't lie, Anthony.
I know that you're--

I know you have a received version of who
I am supposed to be at any one time.

- I don't-- that's not--
- But nobody has--

you know? I have...

You more than anyone should understand

that people go through different emotions
at different times of the day,

and feel different things
and behave in different ways.

I know that, but I know you,

and I know this is not
what you're like sometimes.

I think you're nervous, and I think you're
trying to distract yourself

from your fear of the task ahead,

and I think you just need to relax
and make sure you're prepared...

I am prepared. I am.
This is-- this is preparing.

Julie, what am I doing with this?

Um, just kind of...

do a little, um...

- You okay?
- Yep, yep. Um...

Well, I mean,
it's not in shot.

Why's she doing anything with it?

- We're filming the hair.
- Oh, yeah, okay. Um...

Yeah, let's just put it on the table
so you don't have to hold it.

True.

Okay, let's bring
this round a bit

so it's a bit more profile-y. Sorry?

- Can't pull it any further round.
- No, no, the other way.

To the left. Lamp left.

I've just put
these clips in, just to hold.

Perfect. Perfect, yep, yep.

Hopefully when we're ready to go here,
I can hopefully...

- Mm-hmm. Yeah.
- And have a tighter curl.

- Okay.
- Hold on.

This is sort of all right.

No, it's great.

- Ooh, sorry.
- For fuck's sake.

Sorry, sorry.

Just be careful.

It's okay for a few more takes.

Yeah, yeah, we only need another,
I mean, another one or two takes.

Do you think? How many takes
do you think we'll do?

Well,
how long is a piece of string?

- We shoot till we've got it, right?
- Okay, yeah.

But we will need to reset
if that's the case.

Yeah, okay, we'll make sure
that it's-- it will stay.

- Yeah.
- You know.

Are you all right?

No, I just, I just, um...

I'm just longing to be home.

Mm.

Do you want me to come back?

Okay. Well, I'll see you later.

Okay, bye-bye.

My dear Julie.

The vile beast knows itself,
and miserable he is with it.

It is you who has power over the beast.

To cheer, to encourage,
to reprimand, to forgive.

He loves you so, and you are
invested with great power.

Use it wisely, and with mercy.

Your words means much to him, and that
shall gradually become clear to you.

He has never laid open himself before,
and he could love you for that alone.

Trust in yourself
and try and see clearly,

and a small passing cloud
will not appear to another's lie.

There wasn't really anything
that I didn't do.

Um, I ended up in a coma,

I had seizures, I had overdoses.

I'm an only child, and my parents,

what that was like for them...

and yet they never
gave up on me, you know.

Um, in fact,
my father blackmailed me.

He said to me one time, he said,

"I'll give you this Physeptone
if you just call this number."

And that was the helpline.

And, of course, I made the call.

And I came to meetings,
went out again, as I said...

Until finally, I'd just had it,

I'd just absolutely had it.

My body wouldn't take it anymore.

And I've ended up in police stations,

in cells, in mental hospitals,

straitjacketed,
screaming, psychosis.

None of it good, you know,
all for that feeling of the drug,

which sometimes, even in recovery,
you know, I get feelings and things,

and I think, "Oh, Jesus,
I just need a hit."

Uh... but not today. Just for today.

Police spent the night

carrying out a painstaking search
of the scene of the explosion,

fearing there could be other devices.

This morning,
the area is still sealed off.

Ten to 15 pounds of explosives had been
planted in a car outside the store.

Okay,
I'm just gonna check the frame.

Yeah, of course.

Mate.

Are you all right? Do you want a--
do you want a jacket?

I'm okay. Thank you.

- What's going on?
- I don't know. I think I've got flu.

- Are you hungover?
- Oh.

- No.
- You look it.

You look like you've been,
like, out smashing it.

I don't know what-- what's going on.

- But I'm fine. I'm okay.
- No, you're not.

I was literally watching you
through that whole take.

You looked like
you were about to pass out.

No, I'm okay. I'm fine. I'm just...
I'm just doing that.

Don't be polite about it. If you're
unwell, just go home.

- Do you know what I mean?
- I'm-- I'm fine. I'm okay.

Anthony?

- Hello?
- Hello?

- I'm sorry, love.
- Who are you?

- You must be Anthony's...
- Sorry, you need to leave.

Sorry, you need to leave. Please go.

No, please...

No, I'm not gonna hurt you.
Just Anthony's...

Please, please leave.
No, no, you need to go.

- You need to leave right now.
- I'm sorry, yeah?

No. You need to leave.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

- Okay.
- It's okay. I'm sorry.

Forgot my coat.

Hello?

Sorry.

How do I know when I--

When I get the money,
I'll pay you back.

But I...

Well, you know, I wouldn't ask
unless I really needed it, you know.

No, I'm not being extravagant.
I'm using...

you know, I need
this equipment for school.

It's cameras and film and...

Hmm.

I will pay you back.

I mean, definitely you can catch
infections from other people.

Um, when people breathe, they can transmit
particles of an infection,

uh, but sometimes, you can also get
infections from other means,

by, for example,
um, personal contacts.

Anything you wanna tell me
that you haven't told me

about what's happening so far?

Um...

No, I think-- I think I'm--

I think I feel
better now I've seen you.

- Okay, nice to see you again.
- Thank you. Nice to see you.

Okay, I'd better run. And, um, I hope
you get better soon.

- Okay. Bye-bye.
- Thank you.

Hello?

Hi, Barbara. How are you?

I'm fine, thank you.
Are you all right?

No, no, it's fine. Thank you
for phoning. I, um...

Why-why was he arrested?

Please go away.

I guess I just haven't found,
like, a specific voice.

Do you know what I mean?
I don't know how to...

- Hmm.
- I don't know how to articulate

what I'm -- what I want
to create yet, I think.

- Can I ask you a question?
- Mm-hmm.

Okay, it's a bit of a weird one.

But this past six months and a bit,

like, I haven't seen you
around in school very much.

Um... can I ask why?

I...

I was in a really difficult
relationship with somebody...

- Mm-hmm.
- And I found it difficult

to juggle that and film school.

And it just didn't...

it didn't leave me much time
for myself and my interests,

so I just didn't really...

- Okay.
- ...have time. But...

I'm-I'm-- I'm better now, so...

- Yeah?
- A big yeah.

I mean,
you've changed quite a lot

since you came, haven't you,
in your intentions?

- Mm. Mm.
- And, uh, that's okay.

I mean, people are supposed
to grow in this process.

But how is that working out for you?

It's very, very...

complicated and, um,

difficult sometimes, but it's...

you know, it has its ups and downs.

- But it's working?
- Mm, yeah.

- It is?
- Mm-hmm. Mm.

Good, because, I mean, the big--

I think I said this when
you arrived at some point,

and I'm sure other people have said
the same kind of thing,

that, uh, the most important thing,

uh, about learning in this situation

is that you somehow make a connection
between your experience

and the experience you're trying to film.

This is not real cashmere.

Come on, Jules. I got it from Harrods.
What are you talking about?

- It's nice, but it's not cashmere.
- He got it from Harold.

Harrods.

Sells them down the market.

- The green shop, yeah?
- Yeah.

Where the classy

and people
with decorum and class go.

Looks good on you, lad,
but you need to shut up about it.

Listen, bro, listen.

Haters are gonna hate.
Do you know what I mean?

People don't wanna see me win.
It's all right.

- This is nice.
- It's fine, it's fine, you know.

I get a bit of dough,
move up in the world

and everyone's dissing
my clothes and my clobber.

You know, that's all right.

That's all right.

...and I wondered
if you've seen Anthony at all?

No, I haven't seen him for a while.

We've been so worried about him.

- Well, I'm so sorry.
- Oh, I'm sorry to disturb you...

No, no, it's fine.
You have to call-- you call me any time.

...but we have no other way
of knowing where he is.

You're the only person we can call.

If you see him,
would you let us know?

Yeah, of course.

And you have to call me if--
when you see him, okay?

Of course. Thanks...

Thank you for-- thank you
for calling, Barbara.

I'm so sorry I can't help.

Lots of love...

- Night, night.
- Night, night.

Does he like the groom?

Yes.

- Maybe he introduced them.
- Hmm.

Talking to them about money.

About planning ahead.

- Mm. Investments.
- Yes.

And frugality.

I always use the wrong fork
on purpose... for salad.

Both of mine are the same size.

Mm.

Do you still love me?

Yes.

- Yes?
- Yes.

What makes you think I don't?

I'm not very nice to you sometimes.

- I'm a beast to you.
- You're not a beast. I'm the beast.

- No, I'm the beast.
- I'm the beast.

- We'll share the beast.
- That would be nice, actually.

There was a lot going on before this.

The Libyan hostages.

Still going on now.

Did you have to deal
with that at work?

- Yeah.
- I didn't realize.

Days fading into nights,
fading into day.

Day and night creeping together
to a gray nothingness, and no thought.

Only each minute's fear of the next.

So tired after six days
without a moment's rest.

And so restless,
through the slow hours of night.

I lost any consciousness of will,
and then nothing at all.

A gray nothingness.

I didn't even have a second
to measure pain by,

there being now no time without pain,
thus pain ceased to exist.

There was nothing at all, and I was
walking in the ways of the dead.

But then the autumn bled,
like my cufflinks,

a searing pain,

and I could see like second sight,

and I am born again.

Janet's to die in the next 12 hours.

Both of us couldn't
keep going, I suppose.

One of them's got out.

Probably Mr. Staffasack.

- Mister who?
- Staffasack.

Keeps escaping from the Brendan ward.

It's highly patrolled.

Dangerous to themselves
and other people.

They found him the other day with an axe.

I'm joking.

But then, some people started to get
very competitive about it.

A couple of stair races
ended quite badly,

so they had to level it off.

She said she had three images.

A large empty pair of big boots,

a hummingbird and storm clouds
over a seascape.

You can listen to it all if you want.

I'm fine.

Good. I am as well.

I don't want to keep feeling
I need to, um...

illustrate that I'm fine.

You don't have to.

You don't have to put up
a front or anything, ever, with me.

Good, 'cause I am fine.

I might not look fine, but I am fine.

- Are you worried about me now?
- No.

No, I'm not, for once.

Thank you very much.

Sounded rather
as though someone had died.

- Go on, go on, go on.
- Go on, keep going.

- Hooray!
- Hooray. Well done. Happy birthday.

I think we're allowed to clink
glasses on your birthday.

- Twenty-five.
- Mm.

- Amazing.
- Twenty-five.

- Halfway to 50.
- Am I allowed a fork?

Halfway to 50. What a thought.
I'm so sorry.

That's so enormous.

- No, you keep that for you.
- That's like half the cake.

- Keep that for you.
- That'll be your bit.

It's ridiculous.
That'll be mine.

I want to ask
your advice about something.

Um, and you're not to tease me about this.

You're going to pretend you
don't know anything about it.

- I never tease you.
- Um...

Anyway, I'm thinking of doing
some sort of practical degree course

in some fine art, maybe ceramics,

and I wondered if, uh,
with your Courtauld connections,

you might either know a course
that would be an interesting thing

or somebody who might be able
to put me in the right direction.

I don't, but I know
people you could talk to.

- Well, that's wonderful...
- There's a chap called Bruce

who's practically made out of clay.

That's exactly
what I'd hoped you'd say.

I'll connect you two up and, um...

- Would you?
- Back to my eggs, then.

Well, you're gonna have to do
a catering course, clearly.

I know. We'll have
two members of the family

both at college at the same time.

- What are you going to do?
- I may as well go back to university.

Maybe.

What, and just give up farming altogether?

Get an education.

- What would you study?
- Well, how long-- what would I study?

- Mm.
- Yes, what would you study?

- Very good question.
- What, now?

Well, I did land management,

so I suppose now I would do
something rather more interesting.

- I think I would do, uh...
- I'd read history.

- Mm.
- Yeah.

But, um, anyhow, it isn't about me.

It's about these budding
students that we've got.

Well, we're talking, as you say,
about pipe dreams and...

I think that's very exciting.

Please, please, please,
darling, let the poor man go to sleep.

And go to sleep yourself. Mm?

These dull wits, they need
a little bit of shut-eye.

These dull wits?

- How dare you?
- Dull wits.

- Go on.
- No.

- Go on.
- No. I need to...

- Listen to Anthony.
- ...finish this.

Thank you very much
for that lovely dinner.

- Good night.
- Sleep tight.

Don't be worthy. Be arrogant.
It's much more sexy.

- Do you like arrogance?
- I think it'll get you further.

- Because you are arrogant.
- I know I'm arrogant.

- Do you find yourself sexy?
- Yes, all the time.

It's hard for me to get
through the day without...

- I bet.
- ...taking a couple of moments out and...

I'm trying
to concentrate on this.

Don't distract me with your arrogance

and sexiness and...

I'll give it three minutes.

...talking about your... God knows what.

- You know what I'm saying.
- I totally...

You've got some preconceived idea

about some Oxbridge version
of a film director

and it's all bollocks.

You just need to get out there
and start filming. It's like Patrick said.

Well...

I know he's a cunt,
but he's got a point.

- I liked him.
- No, you didn't.

I didn't, actually. No, I didn't.

- Um, I liked his wife.
- Did you?

- Mm. Very much.
- Mm.

Um...

I feel like I haven't got
this enough, so I need to...

I need to stay up and do this,
but you need to go to sleep.

I'm waiting for two minutes
for your mother to go to sleep

and then I'm going to go down.

Do you think she suspects
that you creep down to my bed?

No.

- Do you think she does?
- I don't know.

If she does, that was
an amazing performance.

I don't think she has any idea.

I don't know.

I think she's asleep.

I'm gonna take my shoes off,
so I don't wake her.

Here.

- Please come to bed.
- Go to bed.

- Please come to bed.
- No. No, I need to do this.

Are you gonna drink all that brandy?

Well, I'm not gonna
just leave it there. Probably.

Come to bed.

Then, Isabel,

live chaste,

and, brother, die.

More than our brother
is our chastity.

I'll tell him yet
of Angelo's request,

and fit his mind to death,
for his soul's rest.

Wonderful.

- No, I totally fucked that up.
- No, you-- no, you didn't.

- No, I did.
- No, you really didn't.

You really didn't.

Do you wanna go from...

Where's easiest?

"That he had 20 heads
to tender down..."

- No, wait.
- Mm-hmm.

From there, 'cause it's a full stop.

"Though he hath fallen
by prompture..."

I'm gonna go from...

And you were completely right.

Of course you were.

Uh, we're having a break,
but I should get back.

But I just wanted to call to just say
that I shouldn't have worried so much.

Okay.

Okay, I'll see you later.

Bye-bye.

It does stink.

Yeah. It does, though, it does.

It's gonna stink
even more soon.

- Mm. Yeah.
- Yeah.

- He's here.
- Yay!

Hey, Pedro.

- Come on.
- Take your time.

- Yeah, just take your time.
- There's no rush.

No rush at all.

Right. Merci.

After the fucking
Nouvelle Vague and everything,

we kind of actually now realize
that we can use all the techniques

and the new look of, you know,
pure contemporary type of image.

That's the thing. It's just
look. It's a style over substance.

No, no, I disagree totally with that,

because it has this very
formal kind of structure

and it's very, very, contemporary,

and it opens-- I think it opens doors

and it touches people
in a much more deep way

than just choosing like, you know,
chitchat in a cafe,

like in Godard's film or something.

It's much more--
somehow it's more sensual.

I don't know,
but it feels like they just transposed

the commercial aesthetic over to cinema,
and that's not cinema.

That's, that's, so...
like a critic is saying that.

It's so stupid because it's
all about using these tools

and what the people
in commercial actually created

and use it
in a very powerful art form.

Think about
what Rivette did in '74, '75,

compared to what Besson's doing now.
That says it all.

There is some meaning
to be gathered.

I want it to become, like, beautiful,

all this blood and all this dirt
and all this shit--

Mate, it's gonna be beautiful
if you let me shoot it, like,

that way, I'm telling you.

- It's gonna look amazing.
- Yeah, if you think about this,

I got black and white, that's Diva.

- You haven't seen that?
- Who's it by?

It's a great film.
It's Jean-Jacques Beineix.

- I don't know him.
- He's an amazing director.

- One of my favorites, I think.
- Is it his new one?

No, it was, like,
four years ago or something.

I thought
you loved French films.

Yeah,
but not this new stuff.

Like, I saw that one,
uh, Subway, by Besson.

I love that bit.

I think we should go to bed.

Don't you?

I think so.

Come on.

Come on.

Come on.
Put your pajamas on at least.

Where are you off to?

I'm putting a note downstairs for Anthony.

- What, in the street?
- No, just on the front door.

Oh, well, darling,
I'll come with you, then.

No. I'll be one minute.
I'll be one minute.

- Well, down and straight up.
- I will.

Leave the door.

Right, now, bedtime.

Snuggle in.

There we go.

Sausage and Croc and Piggy.

- Shall I close your blinds?
- No, I like them open.

- Really?
- Yeah.

Now, then.

Mm, very sleepy.

Good night, my darling.

- I'm really happy you're here.
- Mm, I'm very happy I'm here, too.

- Thank you.
- Well done for today.

So proud of you.

See you in the morning.
Sleep well. Sleep tight.

She's here.

Are you all right?

Barbara, don't think about it.
Don't think about it.

We'll talk soon.
Thank you so much for ringing.

Bye-bye.

The worst.

Anthony had been found in the lavatories
of the Wallace Collection

where he had, uh, taken an overdose.

And, uh, an ambulance was called,

um, and there was an attempt
to resuscitate him there.

And he was then taken to the Middlesex
Hospital in Mortimer Street...

where he died.

And, um...

Yeah.

When I am dead, my darling,

sing no sad songs for me.

Plant thou no roses at my head,

nor shady cypress tree.

Be the grass green above me

with showers and dewdrops wet.

And if thou wilt, remember,

and if thou wilt, forget.

Action!