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JAHSEH ONFROY:
Okay, guys, so here is my first vlog.
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Today, I am basically going
to tell you guys about myself
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because I've never really let you in much,
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and I feel like that's
the best thing to do right now
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to ideally strengthen the bond.
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So, here's my room.
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Uh, here's Stitch.
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This is my favorite
Disney character, ever.
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He's very relatable.
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So...
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today I am basically going
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to be telling you guys about myself.
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Uh, currently, I'm in
a huge state of paranoia,
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um, just due to m-my past
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and just the things and the people
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I've associated myself with previously.
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I've tried to put myself in a position
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to ideally be able
to motivate others to--
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I mean, for myself to suffice,
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when it comes to this negative shit
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'cause, like, bro, this shit--
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It's, like, trying to consume me.
It's almost like it's...
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like it's trying to get inside
of my mind, you know?
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I apologize for being so distant.
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I've been paranoid.
I've been needing help,
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and I haven't been getting the ideal help,
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uh, I really want.
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[crowd cheering]
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[crowd booing]
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Los Angeles, make some
motherfuckin' noise!
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[crowd cheering]
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[indiscernible] jump off
that shit so bad, bro.
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- I know.
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MAN: ...but trust me,
they like that here.
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MAN 2: Come on, man.
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SOLOMON SOBANDE:
He was moving like he was on a mission.
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[indiscernible conversation]
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I remember being at these shows
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and watching how much
he controlled the stage.
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Watched how commanding
his voice, actions were.
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Like, he was a natural leader.
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- I'm gon' count down to three.
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When I say, y'all motherfuckers jump.
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One. Two. Three.
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♪ I've been doing her ass, ayy ♪
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♪ Can't keep my dick in my pants, ayy ♪
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♪ My bitch don't love me no mo', ayy ♪
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♪ She kick me out, I'm like, "Vro" ♪
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JOHN CUNNINGHAM: I always felt
like people use the term rapper
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to describe him
mostly because he was Black.
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But he never-- He was not a real rapper.
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He could rap, but I don't think
that means you're a rapper.
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♪ Okay, she keep callin',
she keep callin' ♪
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♪ Every single night ♪
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♪ Day and night, on my mind ♪
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♪ Please don't kill the vibe ♪
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SOLOMON:
He was doing so many different things
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with rock and R&B and hip-hop.
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And I'm like, "Yo, how did the kid
that made that made this?"
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♪ Don't give up, don't give a fuck ♪
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♪ Don't give up, don't give a fuck ♪
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CLEOPATRA BERNARD:
He figured out a way to create X.
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And he found ways
to get attention to himself,
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and even though it was
negative things, it worked.
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SOLOMON:
For him to do all the things
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that he's done in two years,
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it was incredible.
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You know, that's the main reason
why we're all so hurt.
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Everybody was so excited
to see this next step
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in the transformation
that we never got to see.
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NEWS ANCHOR:
The rapper XXXTentacion
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has been shot, apparently--
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NEWS ANCHOR 2:
XXXTentacion,
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a rising star here in South Florida--
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NEWS ANCHOR 3:
Police say the artist,
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whose real name is Jahseh Onfroy,
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was leaving a Broward County
motorcycle shop yesterday
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when he was shot by two men
who ran up to his car.
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He was rushed to the hospital...
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MARC HOGAN: The deep connection
that his fans have with his music,
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that's a fact, that's a real thing.
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His music obviously means
so much to so many.
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- X's music saved my life.
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- For three years, he's helped--
This dude helped me get through
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depression and a bunch of stuff, man.
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CROWD [chanting]:
Long live X! Long live X!
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Long live X!
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MARC:
But the thing about his fame
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and commercial success,
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it started with
this horrific alleged crime.
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MAN: Fifteen-year-olds
will in some ways idolize him,
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and he was an incredible talent.
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He should not be anyone's idol.
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- Show some respect and leave it alone.
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You know, not make a mockery
of the man's life and death.
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MAN: The internet is a place
for this big conversation.
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He was the topic of the conversation
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any time he did anything.
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- You know, there's been
a lot of fucking pressure
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in the media and shit
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to, to not fuck with this dude.
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And I also just want to say, fuck anybody
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who has disrespected him
after his death...
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CROWD MEMBER: Fuck you!
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GENEVA AYALA:
I do think he was changing.
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It's just that he left behind the things
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that hurt others and himself.
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- SKI MASK THE SLUMP GOD:
We just knew violence sells,
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and it's the, it's a type of energy
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that we were tapping into to sell shit.
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You know what I mean?
And that's basically what we used it as.
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[hip- hop music playing]
[crowd cheering]
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♪ Fucked up, fucked up, fucked up ♪
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♪ Fucked up, fucked up, fucked up ♪
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♪ Fucked up, fucked up ♪
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♪ You done fucked up ♪
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♪ You done fucked up ♪
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♪ You done fucked up ♪
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CROWD [sings]:
♪ You done fucked up ♪
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♪ Fucked up, fucked up, fucked up ♪
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♪ Fucked up, fucked up, fucked up ♪
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♪ Fucked up, fucked up, fucked up ♪
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♪ Fucked up, yeah ♪
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♪ You done fucked up, yeah ♪
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♪ You done fucked up, yeah ♪
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♪ You done fucked up ♪
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♪ Fucked up ♪
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♪ Fucked up, fucked up, fucked up ♪
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- Y'all niggas, now that I'm successful,
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suck my dick!
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♪ You done fucked up ♪
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♪ Bitch, you done fucked up ♪
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♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪
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♪ You done fucked up ♪
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Fire.
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MAN: You ready?
JAHSEH: Yeah.
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You got me nice lighting,
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so I can look pretty.
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Oh.
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WOMAN: Yeah, but actually...
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- In my situation,
they definitely should pay attention
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to what I am as a person
rather than a character.
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But it is hard to mend
these two things together
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if everything that I portray as an artist
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is purely art.
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So, it's hard to tell if, as a person,
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that anything that is controversial
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or spoken on about me
is remotely even true.
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You never know who you're fucking with
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unless you fully delve
into them as a person.
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So, I definitely think
it is very, very important
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to understand who are--
you are fucking with
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and who you're listening to.
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Yes, I do.
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- I decided to make this documentary
because I felt like
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my son's story needed to be told.
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["So Jah S'eh" by Bob Marley playing]
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♪ ♪
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I was in labor for 24 hours.
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He came out super light-skinned,
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gray eyes, and I was like,
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"Oh my god, where did you come from?"
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And he was my little Tweety Bird.
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He was small and cute and yellow.
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He was just a calm, beautiful baby.
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Very serious kid.
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It was as if he was an old soul.
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♪ Shall sit in the sidewalk ♪
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♪ So Jah seh ♪
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♪ Yeah ♪
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CLEOPATRA:
Jahseh's dad would come sometimes,
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pick him up on the weekends,
we would share him
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during holidays or summers and whatnot.
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He just didn't help us financially.
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I was 17 when I had him.
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In my case, I didn't have any support,
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so it's just me paying rent,
paying all the bills,
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and having to work.
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And so, Jahseh was always
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with a babysitter or at daycare.
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I would make sure that he had
the best of everything,
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for sure.
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I would say he was extremely spoiled.
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But I think he always felt alone.
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His father loved him, and he was present
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until he couldn't be.
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He got arrested after Jahseh turned 10,
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and he got 10 years in prison.
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He hasn't physically saw him in person,
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um, since then.
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JAHSEH: When I was growing up,
my mom tried to give me love
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by financially taking care of me
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because she's seen that
as the most important thing.
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As long as I ate,
and as long as I had clothes,
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and as long as I had a place to stay,
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that was the most important thing to her.
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She was never able
to emotionally nurture me.
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So, that left some sort
of self-hate for myself
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because I felt like I wasn't enough,
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you know, for a certain amount of time.
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- There was, like,
a shift in his behavior,
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shift in his personality.
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At the age of 10,
he just started wildin' out.
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- He would, like, act up in school.
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You know, class disruption, fights a lot.
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I stayed on him 24/7,
and we would bump heads
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and we did not get along.
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When he was 13, we got him evaluated,
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and they told me that he was bipolar.
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They wanted me to put him
on medication, and I refused
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because where I'm from,
we don't label kids,
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and I don't really believe in, you know,
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dosing kids up with drugs
or anything like that.
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I would prefer going through counseling
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and trying to get
to the root of the problem.
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And we did that.
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It just got really, really bad.
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He was able to get kicked out
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of every school in our district,
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which is why he ended up
living with my mom.
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[sucks air through teeth]
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WOMAN: Go and take the picture,
what I tell you to take.
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Jahseh!
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Play so much, man.
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CLEOPATRA:
My mom, she lives, like,
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right across the street from the hood,
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and he just made his way over there
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and he enjoyed it.
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[hip-hop music playing]
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[indiscernible shouting]
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CLEOPATRA:
He started skipping school.
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At the time, he would always say,
"I wanna be a rapper."
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And so, as an incentive, I offered to,
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"You don't have to get straight A's.
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Just stay in school.
Don't get into any problems."
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And I would have him go
to the studio on the weekends.
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♪ He's showing signs of corruption ♪
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♪ That went from something to nothing ♪
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♪ Put his hands on his mother ♪
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♪ And now he's fucking his cousin ♪
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- I remember him making
his, like, first song
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at, like, 14, and we were like, "Yo."
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Like, we didn't expect that at all.
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It was, it was, like, almost, like,
he was telling a whole story.
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That was, like, the first time
we heard him, like, curse, too.
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CLEOPATRA:
It was very inappropriate.
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But I was like,
"All right, you got something."
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♪ All my life I dream these things ♪
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♪ Seems so real, that I see these things ♪
252
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♪ Until I D-I-E,
all you niggas just P-I-E ♪
253
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♪ That nigga can't sleep on me ♪
254
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♪ Ah, ah ♪
255
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- I kept up my end of the bargain
until it didn't work anymore.
256
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He was caught up in a few home invasions.
257
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He was caught selling drugs,
he was caught with a gun.
258
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He had all types of charges.
259
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- It rolling?
MAN: Yeah, I'm just gonna roll.
260
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- All right. Hi, my name is XXX.
261
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- My name is Ski Mask the Slump...
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- God. I have, I have a skinny dick.
263
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- I don't know what he talkin' 'bout.
264
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♪ Pussy nigga know he done fucked up ♪
265
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♪ Lame nigga better know his luck up ♪
266
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♪ Pussy nigga know he fucked up ♪
267
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SKI: Honestly,
268
00:13:07,913 --> 00:13:10,332
I didn't know what to make
of Jahseh at first.
269
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I met him in juvenile jail.
270
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I was at least 16.
271
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I think he was younger
than me at the time.
272
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And he told me his charges,
and I was like,
273
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"This nigga is in here for armed robbery?"
274
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[laughs] "Uh, for, for home invasions?"
275
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I'm like, "Okay."
276
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What really connected us was
we would be beatbox, like, making beats
277
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on the table, on the chairs and shit.
278
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And we would just be freestyling.
279
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♪ Belittling vanity, watch
that nigga when we cast it ♪
280
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♪ Half-wet, I leave him
half-alive in the basket ♪
281
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♪ And if you not a savage,
succumb to the madness ♪
282
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We would just, like,
feed off of each other.
283
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We both were the big brother
and little brother
284
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at the same time to each other.
285
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We didn't even know what
we wanted to do at the time.
286
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We just know we wanted
to make a stand for who we are
287
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and just be ourselves, say fuck it,
288
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like no matter the consequences.
289
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At that point, we were like,
"We don't really want a job.
290
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"And if we need a job
291
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"and the job doesn't want us
because we have face tats,
292
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"then that's not the job
we would really want
293
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for ourselves or some shit."
Like, fuck it.
294
00:14:01,133 --> 00:14:02,176
This is what we're doing.
295
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MAN: Real piece of shit.
296
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- Dirty piece of shit.
297
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SKI:
Back then, we were stealing shit.
298
00:14:10,601 --> 00:14:12,853
Well, I was... [clears throat]
299
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I was stealing cough syrup and selling it.
300
00:14:14,563 --> 00:14:16,982
We were just had a lot
of drugs really back then,
301
00:14:16,982 --> 00:14:19,151
and we found a lot of ways to make money,
302
00:14:19,151 --> 00:14:21,612
but because our parents wasn't
helping us with nothing really
303
00:14:21,612 --> 00:14:24,656
because they just thought we were
fucking horrible kids at the time.
304
00:14:25,282 --> 00:14:28,160
I remember Cleo's mom picking
me and Jahseh up one day,
305
00:14:28,160 --> 00:14:30,287
and this is the first time
I meet the lady,
306
00:14:30,287 --> 00:14:32,581
and she says, "Why're you
hanging out with him?
307
00:14:32,581 --> 00:14:34,708
He's a bad kid." [laughs]
308
00:14:34,708 --> 00:14:36,585
This is what she tells me,
"He's a bad kid.
309
00:14:36,585 --> 00:14:38,712
Why are you,
why are you chilling with this boy?"
310
00:14:42,883 --> 00:14:45,219
I feel like a lot of times
Jahseh did feel like
311
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even his family didn't really
like him at that point.
312
00:14:48,764 --> 00:14:51,141
He didn't understand
how his family treated him,
313
00:14:51,141 --> 00:14:52,601
like he was just this bad child.
314
00:14:52,601 --> 00:14:54,728
But if you think in Jah's mind back then,
315
00:14:54,728 --> 00:14:55,896
Jah didn't think that he was just
316
00:14:55,896 --> 00:14:58,065
this bad child trying to rebel.
317
00:14:58,065 --> 00:15:00,609
Jah thinks he's just being Jah.
You know what I mean?
318
00:15:00,609 --> 00:15:02,778
Like, I'm just being me
and niggas hate me,
319
00:15:02,778 --> 00:15:04,780
and I hate myself 'cause niggas hate me,
320
00:15:04,780 --> 00:15:06,782
and I need to change myself, basically.
321
00:15:09,201 --> 00:15:10,786
I've seen him literally choose
322
00:15:10,786 --> 00:15:13,664
to sleep on the streets
more times than go home.
323
00:15:13,664 --> 00:15:15,499
He didn't explain it to me all the time,
324
00:15:15,499 --> 00:15:17,709
but I just knew he even felt better
325
00:15:17,709 --> 00:15:19,294
sleeping with me in the car.
326
00:15:22,381 --> 00:15:24,091
- When he left home,
327
00:15:24,091 --> 00:15:26,260
he left home, nobody kicked him out.
328
00:15:26,260 --> 00:15:28,804
And it was as a result of him
not wanting to follow the rules,
329
00:15:28,804 --> 00:15:30,848
or not follow curfew,
330
00:15:30,848 --> 00:15:34,184
or just doing whatever he wanted to do.
331
00:15:34,184 --> 00:15:35,894
- And then he just
stopped going to school.
332
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He just was like, "Yo, good."
333
00:15:45,153 --> 00:15:47,489
[indiscernible chatter]
334
00:15:47,489 --> 00:15:49,199
SKI: I don't even know why
we wanted a group at that time,
335
00:15:49,199 --> 00:15:51,118
but I was like, "Nah, we gotta
make a group of some kind,"
336
00:15:51,118 --> 00:15:52,452
and I was, like, very ready.
337
00:15:52,452 --> 00:15:54,830
And me and Jah rode that shit out
338
00:15:54,830 --> 00:15:56,832
'til the wheels fell off, and then, um,
339
00:15:56,832 --> 00:15:59,042
out of nowhere, Jah wanted
to make his own group, too.
340
00:15:59,042 --> 00:16:00,377
And that was Members Only.
341
00:16:00,377 --> 00:16:01,670
[indiscernible shouting]
342
00:16:01,670 --> 00:16:03,672
[horn honking]
343
00:16:04,631 --> 00:16:09,303
[indiscernible shouting]
344
00:16:09,303 --> 00:16:11,847
FLYBOY TARANTINO: Jah used to always
be like, "I'm 'bout to start this shit
345
00:16:11,847 --> 00:16:13,599
called Members Only, bro."
346
00:16:13,599 --> 00:16:15,726
There was really
no, like, planned creation.
347
00:16:15,726 --> 00:16:17,686
It was, kind of, just like a manifestation
348
00:16:17,686 --> 00:16:19,271
type of thing for him, you know?
349
00:16:19,271 --> 00:16:20,939
And it was, kind of, like a brotherhood.
350
00:16:21,732 --> 00:16:23,358
KILO JUNIOR: Mostly everybody
would come to my house
351
00:16:23,358 --> 00:16:25,444
'cause I had a backyard,
and we would just, like,
352
00:16:25,444 --> 00:16:27,404
sit back there and smoke,
and write lyrics,
353
00:16:27,404 --> 00:16:28,739
and listen to mad instrumental--
- SlapBox.
354
00:16:28,739 --> 00:16:29,865
- SlapBox.
355
00:16:30,908 --> 00:16:33,827
SKI:
Jah ordered a snowball microphone,
356
00:16:33,827 --> 00:16:35,495
like one of the cheapest
microphones you could get,
357
00:16:35,495 --> 00:16:37,706
and we just started recording on it.
358
00:16:38,123 --> 00:16:40,292
We were recording in bedrooms,
359
00:16:40,292 --> 00:16:42,961
my friend's bedroom, friend's closet.
360
00:16:42,961 --> 00:16:44,546
It doesn't matter what it was,
361
00:16:44,546 --> 00:16:47,049
he would pull that little thing
out with the three prongs
362
00:16:47,049 --> 00:16:49,009
and we would just record that shit.
363
00:16:49,801 --> 00:16:52,346
And that's why our music
came with distortion
364
00:16:52,346 --> 00:16:53,931
because the type of mic
that we were using,
365
00:16:53,931 --> 00:16:55,766
but we would use it
to our advantage, really.
366
00:16:56,600 --> 00:16:59,061
COOLIECUT: It was, like,
the SoundCloud era of rap.
367
00:16:59,061 --> 00:17:00,646
We didn't know what we were doing.
368
00:17:01,188 --> 00:17:03,357
- People loved the first song
that Jah dropped on his SoundCloud.
369
00:17:03,357 --> 00:17:04,650
It was "Vice City."
370
00:17:05,651 --> 00:17:06,902
♪ I seem depressed ♪
371
00:17:06,902 --> 00:17:08,820
♪ Always being bothered, never less ♪
372
00:17:08,820 --> 00:17:11,406
♪ Keeping me out of prison
and putting me to the test ♪
373
00:17:11,406 --> 00:17:13,116
♪ They ask me what is happiness ♪
374
00:17:13,116 --> 00:17:14,409
♪ You write it on a check ♪
375
00:17:14,409 --> 00:17:15,702
♪ Or you feel it on the sweat ♪
376
00:17:15,702 --> 00:17:17,538
♪ When your dick is in the breast, huh ♪
377
00:17:18,413 --> 00:17:21,083
[indiscernible shouting]
378
00:17:23,919 --> 00:17:25,546
- Members Only in this bitch!
379
00:17:27,548 --> 00:17:29,550
FLYBOY:
What really had us noticed,
380
00:17:29,550 --> 00:17:32,761
what really, like, rang bells
where we're from
381
00:17:32,761 --> 00:17:34,096
was the shows.
382
00:17:34,513 --> 00:17:35,722
- Members Only in this bitch!
383
00:17:36,598 --> 00:17:37,766
Members Only in this bitch!
384
00:17:38,475 --> 00:17:41,770
♪ Fuck that house,
I hit that fucking lick ♪
385
00:17:41,770 --> 00:17:43,772
♪ Fuck the state and fuck all of them ♪
386
00:17:43,772 --> 00:17:45,691
♪ Feds tip toeing with my bitch ♪
387
00:17:45,691 --> 00:17:48,235
♪ I been going hard with Forgiatos ♪
388
00:17:48,235 --> 00:17:49,736
♪ In the fucking whip ♪
389
00:17:49,736 --> 00:17:52,030
♪ I'm gon' fuck your friends,
get on your knees ♪
390
00:17:52,030 --> 00:17:53,824
♪ And suck my fucking dick ♪
391
00:17:53,824 --> 00:17:56,034
♪ They be like, "X you not workin' hard ♪
392
00:17:56,034 --> 00:17:57,828
♪ You not droppin' shit" ♪
393
00:17:57,828 --> 00:17:59,788
♪ I been shopping on my homies ♪
394
00:17:59,788 --> 00:18:01,748
♪ Dropping off them checks and shit ♪
395
00:18:04,626 --> 00:18:06,545
MAN:
Jah always had this aura about him
396
00:18:06,545 --> 00:18:09,423
that he was not gonna
let us not be accepted.
397
00:18:15,179 --> 00:18:17,598
FLYBOY: We would pull up
six to seven deep,
398
00:18:17,598 --> 00:18:20,601
and we're gonna grab
everybody else off the walls.
399
00:18:20,601 --> 00:18:23,270
BASS SANTANA: So, he always
had a huge crowd of people around him
400
00:18:23,270 --> 00:18:25,147
and then, everybody looking at it like,
401
00:18:25,147 --> 00:18:26,857
"What the fuck is this? Or who is he?"
402
00:18:26,857 --> 00:18:28,025
- Yo, real shit.
403
00:18:28,025 --> 00:18:29,735
I appreciate all y'all
for coming out here.
404
00:18:30,194 --> 00:18:32,279
Even if you didn't come
out here for me, man,
405
00:18:32,279 --> 00:18:33,572
I appreciate all y'all, man.
406
00:18:36,742 --> 00:18:39,369
BASS: He had a way
of making people feel wanted,
407
00:18:39,369 --> 00:18:41,205
needed, important,
408
00:18:41,205 --> 00:18:44,082
and that's what would
gravitate them towards him.
409
00:18:44,917 --> 00:18:48,795
- He was so comfortable
showing his vulnerability.
- Yeah.
410
00:18:48,795 --> 00:18:51,173
FLYBOY:
It kinda made kids relate to him.
411
00:18:52,007 --> 00:18:54,551
[keyboard clacking]
412
00:18:56,470 --> 00:18:57,930
FLYBOY:
They reach out to him and say,
413
00:18:57,930 --> 00:19:00,182
"Bro, you saved my life."
414
00:19:03,936 --> 00:19:09,358
♪ I can't seem to find
someone's shoulder ♪
415
00:19:11,527 --> 00:19:16,907
♪ Who will I rely on when it's over ♪
416
00:19:17,324 --> 00:19:19,868
JAHSEH: The more I got
into that creative process
417
00:19:19,868 --> 00:19:22,579
and really being imaginative,
and really thoroughly, like,
418
00:19:22,579 --> 00:19:24,915
studying the dictionary and the thesaurus,
419
00:19:24,915 --> 00:19:26,750
and then I really started
liking making music,
420
00:19:26,750 --> 00:19:29,294
and then, I started using it
to, kind of, cope
421
00:19:29,294 --> 00:19:30,879
and as an antidepressant.
422
00:19:31,338 --> 00:19:33,841
I found a new comfortability within myself
423
00:19:33,841 --> 00:19:35,092
when I recorded music.
424
00:19:35,092 --> 00:19:38,387
♪ I dug my nails into my arms ♪
425
00:19:38,387 --> 00:19:42,432
♪ She turned and laughed at all my scars ♪
426
00:19:42,432 --> 00:19:44,101
♪ What is my worth ♪
427
00:19:46,228 --> 00:19:47,813
♪ What is my worth ♪
428
00:20:05,289 --> 00:20:07,291
- Let's see, let's see if this shit work.
429
00:20:08,375 --> 00:20:09,835
I think this connection bad.
430
00:20:09,835 --> 00:20:11,086
All right, it is working, I guess.
431
00:20:12,421 --> 00:20:13,964
How are you guys?
432
00:20:13,964 --> 00:20:15,257
Let's wait 'til we get more people.
433
00:20:15,257 --> 00:20:16,466
Damn. Damn, bros.
434
00:20:16,466 --> 00:20:18,177
Already a hundred. Jesus Christ.
435
00:20:18,760 --> 00:20:21,054
Already 200? Jesus Christ.
436
00:20:21,638 --> 00:20:24,183
All right, I fuck with y'all.
Y'all out here going hard.
437
00:20:25,267 --> 00:20:26,768
I left my DMs open up.
438
00:20:26,768 --> 00:20:28,562
That's what nobody realizes.
My DMs are open,
439
00:20:28,562 --> 00:20:29,980
so people can talk to me
440
00:20:29,980 --> 00:20:31,982
because I really like
to, like, talk to my friends.
441
00:20:31,982 --> 00:20:33,817
I don't like to just be
an ignorant asshole
442
00:20:33,817 --> 00:20:35,903
and act like nobody's there, you know?
443
00:20:36,987 --> 00:20:39,031
That's why, I, like--
when I, when I get depressed,
444
00:20:39,031 --> 00:20:40,574
I realize that I have you guys
445
00:20:40,574 --> 00:20:43,410
and it just, it motivates me
to be a different person.
446
00:20:43,410 --> 00:20:46,413
It motivates me to not be
so fucking down, you know?
447
00:20:46,413 --> 00:20:48,707
Like, look at this, there's--
We have over,
448
00:20:48,707 --> 00:20:51,043
we've had over a thousand people in here
449
00:20:51,043 --> 00:20:52,794
and, like, I'm just one person, you know?
450
00:20:52,794 --> 00:20:55,297
So, to show-- to have
that many people supporting me,
451
00:20:55,297 --> 00:20:57,049
you, you not know how awesome that feels.
452
00:20:57,049 --> 00:20:58,175
That's fucking awesome.
453
00:21:07,309 --> 00:21:08,727
[sighs]
454
00:21:08,727 --> 00:21:11,104
BRUNO DICKEMZ: A lot of people
know me as Bruno Dickemz.
455
00:21:11,104 --> 00:21:15,067
I've been a porn star for about 12 years.
456
00:21:15,067 --> 00:21:17,319
I created my own website.
457
00:21:17,319 --> 00:21:19,446
You got to show us
some skin, baby. Skin to win.
458
00:21:19,446 --> 00:21:21,323
We shot reality-type porn.
459
00:21:21,323 --> 00:21:24,284
I followed around artists
in the underground scene.
460
00:21:24,910 --> 00:21:26,662
Me meeting a lot of artists,
461
00:21:26,662 --> 00:21:28,205
you know, I decided that I wanted
462
00:21:28,205 --> 00:21:30,624
to manage some of these artists
because I saw a lot of potential.
463
00:21:30,624 --> 00:21:32,835
But, you know, I was going
to a lot of the shows,
464
00:21:32,835 --> 00:21:34,503
and there was one guy that was starting
465
00:21:34,503 --> 00:21:35,629
to make a little noise in South Florida.
466
00:21:35,629 --> 00:21:36,672
I didn't know who he was.
467
00:21:36,672 --> 00:21:38,090
And everybody around me's
like, he's the kid
468
00:21:38,090 --> 00:21:39,466
we were telling you about, X.
469
00:21:39,466 --> 00:21:41,260
You know, he's, like,
coming up in the scene.
470
00:21:41,260 --> 00:21:43,595
- We weren't on the level that he was on.
471
00:21:43,595 --> 00:21:45,556
It was him and Ski on a particular level,
472
00:21:45,556 --> 00:21:49,351
and it was our job to help
that grow and formulate.
473
00:21:49,351 --> 00:21:52,563
He started off by networking with artists
474
00:21:52,563 --> 00:21:54,857
that was already running the
South Florida underground scene.
475
00:21:54,857 --> 00:21:57,818
WiFi was one of those people
that already was up there.
476
00:21:58,360 --> 00:22:00,696
Robb was another one.
He was already up there.
477
00:22:01,154 --> 00:22:02,614
Denzel.
478
00:22:04,324 --> 00:22:07,703
- I just saw his energy.
Like, it's hard to explain.
479
00:22:07,703 --> 00:22:09,872
Like, just his presence.
Like, he could make noise
480
00:22:09,872 --> 00:22:11,123
in the room and not even speak.
481
00:22:12,082 --> 00:22:15,335
These kids, man, they looked like
they were ready to die for Jah.
482
00:22:16,044 --> 00:22:17,921
He was already XXXTentacion.
483
00:22:17,921 --> 00:22:19,840
The way he got that name he came up with,
484
00:22:19,840 --> 00:22:22,968
that name was his, uh, you know,
infatuation with porn.
485
00:22:22,968 --> 00:22:26,096
So, once he heard,
oh, there's this porn star
486
00:22:26,096 --> 00:22:27,890
that shoots porn with underground artists,
487
00:22:27,890 --> 00:22:29,892
he's like, "Oh, this is
the guy I got to meet."
488
00:22:30,893 --> 00:22:32,519
I think he was living with his grandma.
489
00:22:32,519 --> 00:22:34,897
He started coming over more
than he was supposed to.
490
00:22:35,939 --> 00:22:38,358
So, I was like, "You coming here a lot."
491
00:22:38,358 --> 00:22:40,110
I wake up in the morning,
he's sleeping on the couch.
492
00:22:40,110 --> 00:22:41,820
I'm like, "Hey, man,
y-you don't live here."
493
00:22:41,820 --> 00:22:43,113
He's like, "Bro,
494
00:22:43,113 --> 00:22:45,657
where I'm at, man, I'm going crazy."
495
00:22:45,657 --> 00:22:47,951
Like, "I need to,
I need to be somewhere else.
496
00:22:47,951 --> 00:22:49,661
Like, please let me move in."
497
00:22:49,661 --> 00:22:51,955
I was like, "All right,
I'll officially be your manager.
498
00:22:51,955 --> 00:22:53,165
You can move in."
499
00:22:53,165 --> 00:22:54,750
And I started managing Ski, too.
500
00:22:55,584 --> 00:22:58,170
[indiscernible]
501
00:22:58,879 --> 00:23:01,715
[hip-hop music playing]
502
00:23:01,715 --> 00:23:03,467
SKI:
When he was able to stay at Bruno's,
503
00:23:03,467 --> 00:23:06,386
I think he was able to hone in
on his artistry,
504
00:23:06,386 --> 00:23:09,097
like the screamo-type distorted beat.
505
00:23:09,097 --> 00:23:11,892
No one was delivering like him,
you feel me?
506
00:23:12,768 --> 00:23:14,978
♪ Fucked up, fucked up, fucked up ♪
507
00:23:14,978 --> 00:23:16,271
This is, like, one of the first times
508
00:23:16,271 --> 00:23:18,440
we've seen Jah yell at the mic.
509
00:23:18,440 --> 00:23:20,859
The porn girls in their house
was goin' in here like,
510
00:23:20,859 --> 00:23:23,111
"What the fuck is wrong
with this nigga, dawg?"
511
00:23:23,654 --> 00:23:25,280
We were literally living in a porn house.
512
00:23:25,280 --> 00:23:27,032
We'd see crazy shit every day.
513
00:23:27,032 --> 00:23:29,076
And then the rages at the concerts,
514
00:23:29,076 --> 00:23:30,869
like all the energy just mashed,
515
00:23:30,869 --> 00:23:32,162
we were living it.
516
00:23:34,623 --> 00:23:36,792
- I think that's when things
started picking up for him
517
00:23:36,792 --> 00:23:38,210
because he started making better songs
518
00:23:38,210 --> 00:23:40,295
'cause he was able to jump
into that character,
519
00:23:40,295 --> 00:23:41,463
if you know what I mean?
520
00:23:41,463 --> 00:23:42,798
And on top of that, he was doing
521
00:23:42,798 --> 00:23:44,216
a lot of shit,
like he was beating niggas up
522
00:23:44,216 --> 00:23:45,133
on camera and shit.
523
00:23:46,134 --> 00:23:47,553
- Hey, Periscope.
524
00:23:47,553 --> 00:23:50,180
So, we got a very, very, very, very
525
00:23:50,180 --> 00:23:52,432
extra interesting story today.
526
00:23:52,432 --> 00:23:55,727
So, basically, this nigga
that owes us some cash
527
00:23:55,727 --> 00:23:58,146
pulled up to the crib,
and he thinks, like,
528
00:23:58,146 --> 00:23:59,565
he thinks we're cool with him.
529
00:23:59,565 --> 00:24:01,900
So, my manager was
letting him kick it in there.
530
00:24:01,900 --> 00:24:04,319
But basically, I'm about
to just beat this nigga's ass,
531
00:24:04,319 --> 00:24:06,113
and you guys get to watch it firsthand.
532
00:24:06,864 --> 00:24:09,074
BRUNO:
If anybody fucked with X's friends,
533
00:24:09,074 --> 00:24:10,742
X is going to deal with it.
534
00:24:11,368 --> 00:24:14,037
The kid he beats up in the bathroom
was somebody that owed me money.
535
00:24:14,037 --> 00:24:16,665
And I told the kid, man,
if you can't pay me the $500,
536
00:24:16,665 --> 00:24:18,083
we're going to have to fight this out.
537
00:24:18,083 --> 00:24:20,752
We're going to have
to record this for my website.
538
00:24:20,752 --> 00:24:22,713
Are you cool with it? He agreed with it.
539
00:24:23,797 --> 00:24:25,799
X pulls up. He's like, "Where's he at?"
540
00:24:25,799 --> 00:24:26,925
We need to shoot the scene.
541
00:24:26,925 --> 00:24:28,177
I was like, "He's in the house,
542
00:24:28,177 --> 00:24:29,428
"but we're doing the scene tomorrow,
543
00:24:29,428 --> 00:24:30,804
so please, can we just wait?"
544
00:24:30,804 --> 00:24:32,639
Because I know if you go
and try to fight him now,
545
00:24:32,639 --> 00:24:35,350
this thing's not going
to happen, you know?
546
00:24:35,976 --> 00:24:37,436
Yeah, and he didn't listen.
547
00:24:37,436 --> 00:24:39,313
[knocking on door]
MAN: Yeah.
548
00:24:39,313 --> 00:24:40,355
JAHSEH: Come here, bro.
549
00:24:41,231 --> 00:24:42,232
Come here.
550
00:24:46,403 --> 00:24:47,404
Fuck you...
551
00:24:47,404 --> 00:24:50,073
[grunting]
552
00:24:53,493 --> 00:24:54,995
SKI: Honestly, there'd
be times where I'd be like,
553
00:24:54,995 --> 00:24:56,371
"What the fuck is wrong with this guy?
554
00:24:56,371 --> 00:24:57,998
Is something not right with this guy?"
555
00:24:58,415 --> 00:25:00,959
That's when people didn't
really want to be around Jah.
556
00:25:00,959 --> 00:25:03,003
To be completely honest, a lot of people
557
00:25:03,003 --> 00:25:05,130
that was around Jah
didn't want to be around Jah
558
00:25:05,130 --> 00:25:06,840
before Jah got onto shit.
559
00:25:06,840 --> 00:25:09,092
People hated Jah, to be completely real.
560
00:25:10,677 --> 00:25:11,845
JAHSEH: Fuck.
561
00:25:13,096 --> 00:25:15,098
- Come on. Come on, brother?
562
00:25:17,434 --> 00:25:18,810
- Fucking play with me, bro.
563
00:25:19,978 --> 00:25:22,147
[indiscernible shouting]
564
00:25:22,147 --> 00:25:23,941
SKI:
He was a small dude, but he had
565
00:25:23,941 --> 00:25:26,068
a very loud Napoleon complex to him.
566
00:25:26,652 --> 00:25:28,570
I was always the person
that people would be coming to
567
00:25:28,570 --> 00:25:29,947
to calm Jahseh down.
568
00:25:29,947 --> 00:25:31,698
I basically was always the one
569
00:25:31,698 --> 00:25:33,242
that looked, looked him in the face.
570
00:25:33,242 --> 00:25:35,160
I'm just like, "I'm here, bro,
571
00:25:35,160 --> 00:25:36,537
and I'm going to be here for you."
572
00:25:36,537 --> 00:25:38,330
And I think I was one of the first people
573
00:25:38,330 --> 00:25:39,915
to really do that for him
574
00:25:39,915 --> 00:25:42,334
and show him that I'm going
to love you either way.
575
00:25:42,334 --> 00:25:44,419
That's why he really
loved me and felt like
576
00:25:44,419 --> 00:25:46,171
I was one of his true,
really true best friends.
577
00:25:46,171 --> 00:25:47,840
Because no matter what crazy shit Jah did,
578
00:25:47,840 --> 00:25:49,299
I had to look him in the eye and hug him
579
00:25:49,299 --> 00:25:51,677
and tell him I loved him
for him to understand
580
00:25:51,677 --> 00:25:53,136
that you're going to get better.
581
00:25:53,136 --> 00:25:54,805
Jah hated himself
582
00:25:54,805 --> 00:25:57,766
at one point, and a lot of points.
583
00:26:04,106 --> 00:26:05,732
- Uh, emotions.
584
00:26:05,732 --> 00:26:07,067
He probably-- I felt like he hated
585
00:26:07,067 --> 00:26:08,819
his own anger, you know what I mean?
586
00:26:08,819 --> 00:26:11,780
And he was trying to learn
how to control that.
587
00:26:11,780 --> 00:26:13,115
His emotions, basically.
588
00:26:13,532 --> 00:26:14,950
And not let them to get the best of him.
589
00:26:15,492 --> 00:26:17,452
That was really just his biggest battle,
590
00:26:17,452 --> 00:26:19,288
himself really, yeah.
591
00:26:22,374 --> 00:26:25,627
It took a series of things
for Jah to get the way he was.
592
00:26:25,627 --> 00:26:27,087
I mean, Jah used to tell me he used to see
593
00:26:27,087 --> 00:26:29,089
his mom get beat up when he was younger
594
00:26:29,089 --> 00:26:30,382
or some shit like that, Cleo.
595
00:26:34,595 --> 00:26:36,638
CLEOPATRA: His dad tried
to put his hands on me a few times.
596
00:26:37,139 --> 00:26:38,849
It didn't work out well.
597
00:26:38,849 --> 00:26:40,100
I didn't call the cops on him
598
00:26:40,100 --> 00:26:42,144
because where I'm from, that's also taboo.
599
00:26:42,144 --> 00:26:43,770
But I hauled ass real quick.
600
00:26:43,770 --> 00:26:45,689
I wasn't about to be nobody's, um--
601
00:26:46,648 --> 00:26:49,276
You know, my story don't go like that.
602
00:26:51,445 --> 00:26:54,198
You know, we're Jamaican,
so we're used to ass whoopings.
603
00:26:54,198 --> 00:26:57,075
Like, we get our ass beat,
like, with hoses
604
00:26:57,075 --> 00:26:59,912
and two-by-fours and you name it.
605
00:26:59,912 --> 00:27:02,039
And so it's passed on
from generation to generation.
606
00:27:03,457 --> 00:27:05,626
I don't know if his dad beaten
him with anything crazy,
607
00:27:05,626 --> 00:27:07,169
but he would, he would snuff him
608
00:27:07,169 --> 00:27:09,254
and he would, like, beat him
609
00:27:09,254 --> 00:27:11,673
if he would tell him
to study his timetables,
610
00:27:11,673 --> 00:27:13,425
if he would get something wrong,
611
00:27:13,425 --> 00:27:15,719
so whenever he would get
in problems at school,
612
00:27:15,719 --> 00:27:17,095
Dad would come give him a whooping.
613
00:27:17,095 --> 00:27:18,388
A good one.
614
00:27:18,388 --> 00:27:19,640
Um, but he wasn't abusive.
615
00:27:19,640 --> 00:27:21,767
I wouldn't say he was abusive
or anything like that.
616
00:27:26,605 --> 00:27:29,399
- We was born into a world
that taught us that men have to fight,
617
00:27:29,399 --> 00:27:31,235
and this has been going on
for thousands of years
618
00:27:31,235 --> 00:27:32,694
before we even came here.
619
00:27:32,694 --> 00:27:34,947
So, this is the way the world works.
620
00:27:35,322 --> 00:27:37,157
Our parents, big brothers, big cousins
621
00:27:37,157 --> 00:27:38,659
don't want us to be at a disadvantage.
622
00:27:38,659 --> 00:27:41,662
So, when my big cousins used to be beating
my ass as a kid,
623
00:27:41,662 --> 00:27:44,790
they was training me to not get
my ass beat as an adult.
624
00:27:44,790 --> 00:27:47,793
- Same on this end.
- So, at the same time, it's, like,
625
00:27:47,793 --> 00:27:51,964
it might affect us negatively, personally,
626
00:27:51,964 --> 00:27:55,342
but generally, generally, you feel me?
627
00:27:55,342 --> 00:27:57,636
Generally, it, it protects us.
628
00:27:58,178 --> 00:28:00,180
It's, it's, your weapon can also be
629
00:28:00,180 --> 00:28:01,849
the same thing that kills you.
630
00:28:03,851 --> 00:28:06,228
JAHSEH: If you got a fear,
you can, it's hard to be angry.
631
00:28:06,228 --> 00:28:08,313
If you got someone that
you're scared of in your life,
632
00:28:08,313 --> 00:28:09,439
it's real hard to be angry.
633
00:28:10,649 --> 00:28:12,609
Dad got locked up when I was, like, 10.
634
00:28:12,609 --> 00:28:14,444
Who was I to fear, my mom?
635
00:28:14,444 --> 00:28:15,821
Who was I to fear, some stranger?
636
00:28:16,697 --> 00:28:18,240
I feared nobody.
637
00:28:18,240 --> 00:28:20,367
So, my anger took control.
638
00:28:20,367 --> 00:28:22,327
And whenever anybody
would do anything to me,
639
00:28:22,327 --> 00:28:23,412
I would act out on.
640
00:28:24,705 --> 00:28:26,832
Fear left, so anger replaced it.
641
00:28:32,004 --> 00:28:33,547
MAN: Ohh!
642
00:28:36,675 --> 00:28:38,969
MAN: Like everything
that he did, when it came
643
00:28:38,969 --> 00:28:41,597
to beefin', fightin', and poppin' off,
644
00:28:41,597 --> 00:28:44,016
even though it was
mental instability there,
645
00:28:44,016 --> 00:28:45,893
he would still go on live and he recorded
646
00:28:45,893 --> 00:28:48,437
knowing goddamn well
this is good for my career.
647
00:28:49,396 --> 00:28:51,398
- I guess he just knew
what they wanted to see,
648
00:28:51,398 --> 00:28:52,941
and he just took advantage of it,
649
00:28:52,941 --> 00:28:54,401
just like anybody else would.
650
00:28:54,401 --> 00:28:56,236
♪ Ayy, yo ♪
651
00:28:56,236 --> 00:28:58,906
♪ Ayy, ayy, yo ♪
652
00:28:58,906 --> 00:29:02,743
♪ Try me, might fight
fist fuck, on sight ♪
653
00:29:02,743 --> 00:29:06,455
♪ Wrist heavy, fat dyke
pop Molly, Mike Ike ♪
654
00:29:06,455 --> 00:29:10,375
♪ I got glacial white ice
and my bitch rack nice ♪
655
00:29:10,375 --> 00:29:13,921
♪ And I do fight dykes
ride my dick like a bike ♪
656
00:29:15,047 --> 00:29:16,757
JAHSEH: I would do
little things that I knew
657
00:29:16,757 --> 00:29:18,342
would get people's attention.
658
00:29:18,342 --> 00:29:19,885
This is what people want to see.
659
00:29:19,885 --> 00:29:21,220
I said, I know what you wanted.
660
00:29:21,220 --> 00:29:23,180
And then I just started marketing bullshit
661
00:29:23,180 --> 00:29:25,849
that I knew the kids would like
to get them to go on my page
662
00:29:25,849 --> 00:29:27,643
because obviously, I would
post this shit on my page.
663
00:29:27,643 --> 00:29:29,478
And then they would be like,
oh, this nigga makes music.
664
00:29:29,478 --> 00:29:31,939
Let me try. Let me listen
to this and see what it's like.
665
00:29:31,939 --> 00:29:34,066
And then I would catch you.
That's how I would catch you.
666
00:29:34,858 --> 00:29:37,778
BASS: Jahseh would make us
make multiple Twitter accounts.
667
00:29:37,778 --> 00:29:39,738
Twenty-five people in the chat,
and each of those people have
668
00:29:39,738 --> 00:29:41,406
at least five different Twitter accounts,
669
00:29:41,406 --> 00:29:42,866
and we all retweeting this stuff.
670
00:29:42,866 --> 00:29:44,034
FLYBOY: Mm-hm.
671
00:29:44,034 --> 00:29:45,911
- And we all gonna sit there on Twitter
672
00:29:45,911 --> 00:29:48,789
and talk shit to anybody
that come in there talking shit
673
00:29:48,789 --> 00:29:51,333
and just fuck up
the algorithms in our favor
674
00:29:51,333 --> 00:29:53,126
- to just like...
- Draw attention.
675
00:29:53,126 --> 00:29:55,963
It was all planned out and very strategic.
676
00:29:55,963 --> 00:29:58,590
[crowd shouting]
677
00:29:58,590 --> 00:29:59,967
MAN: Fuck y'all, nigga!
678
00:30:02,219 --> 00:30:04,179
MAN 2: Let him stand up.
Let him stand up.
679
00:30:04,179 --> 00:30:08,350
[indiscernible shouting]
680
00:30:09,935 --> 00:30:12,271
- All these people want to see
is us destroy each other.
681
00:30:12,855 --> 00:30:14,439
That's what, that's what they pay for.
682
00:30:14,439 --> 00:30:16,400
- All controversy.
- Mm-hm.
683
00:30:16,400 --> 00:30:19,069
- So, if you're telling us,
if you're paying us
684
00:30:19,069 --> 00:30:21,989
to destroy each other,
then we will become gladiators.
685
00:30:22,489 --> 00:30:24,616
What'd you expect us to do?
686
00:30:24,616 --> 00:30:27,452
[hip-hop music playing]
687
00:30:31,456 --> 00:30:32,958
- Oh, see if they fuck
with that soft shit.
688
00:30:34,209 --> 00:30:36,211
I dropped, like, some soft shit,
so tell me if y'all fuck with it.
689
00:30:36,837 --> 00:30:38,380
KILO: He came to my house
and he was like,
690
00:30:38,380 --> 00:30:40,090
"Bro, I got something really different.
691
00:30:40,090 --> 00:30:42,217
Like, really different.
Like, I'm singing, like."
692
00:30:42,217 --> 00:30:44,469
I'm like, "You ain't singing, bro.
693
00:30:45,679 --> 00:30:48,432
You just yellin' and screamin'
on tracks and being angry."
694
00:30:48,974 --> 00:30:50,434
And he played "I Don't Wanna
Do This Anymore."
695
00:30:50,434 --> 00:30:51,393
I'm like...
696
00:30:52,102 --> 00:30:53,770
He's looking at me,
and I'm looking at him,
697
00:30:53,770 --> 00:30:55,439
and I'm like, "Bruh."
698
00:30:56,440 --> 00:30:57,816
♪ Been up all night ♪
699
00:30:57,816 --> 00:31:00,068
♪ So, you don't wanna wait on me ♪
700
00:31:00,068 --> 00:31:02,029
♪ I'm about to catch my flight ♪
701
00:31:02,029 --> 00:31:04,239
♪ So, you don't gotta wait on me ♪
702
00:31:04,239 --> 00:31:06,491
♪ No more, you don't wanna,
you don't wanna ♪
703
00:31:06,491 --> 00:31:11,288
- He just went from doing this
hype rock rap shit to R&B.
704
00:31:11,288 --> 00:31:14,041
How did-- And after that,
I knew he was gonna be great.
705
00:31:14,041 --> 00:31:16,293
Once he made that song,
I was like, he could do it all now.
706
00:31:16,877 --> 00:31:19,004
♪ I don't wanna love myself ♪
707
00:31:19,004 --> 00:31:20,839
♪ I'm praying that they all love me ♪
708
00:31:21,673 --> 00:31:23,926
JAHSEH:
There is no definition to my rap.
709
00:31:23,926 --> 00:31:25,844
I'm versatile.
If you give me the tools
710
00:31:25,844 --> 00:31:27,054
to make what the fuck I want...
711
00:31:27,054 --> 00:31:28,555
- Proper studio shit?
- Proper studio,
712
00:31:28,555 --> 00:31:30,390
proper engineering, even the people
713
00:31:30,390 --> 00:31:32,518
that will sit there and take
their work very seriously
714
00:31:32,518 --> 00:31:33,977
and, like, as far as the production,
715
00:31:33,977 --> 00:31:36,021
I'll be the greatest artist
there possibly is.
716
00:31:36,021 --> 00:31:37,105
- Really?
- Literally.
717
00:31:39,274 --> 00:31:41,276
CLEOPATRA: The first time
I went to one of his shows,
718
00:31:41,276 --> 00:31:42,694
I was amazed.
719
00:31:42,694 --> 00:31:44,738
There was kids lined up
on the side of the stage
720
00:31:44,738 --> 00:31:46,573
with their sneakers to get autographs,
721
00:31:46,573 --> 00:31:48,283
and I was like, "What is this?"
722
00:31:48,867 --> 00:31:52,371
"Is this my child," you know?
And it was like a proud moment.
723
00:31:52,371 --> 00:31:53,705
♪ No, no, no ♪
724
00:31:54,331 --> 00:31:55,666
♪ No, no, no ♪
725
00:31:58,418 --> 00:32:01,046
- I started noticing that X, you know,
726
00:32:01,046 --> 00:32:03,507
was getting in his feelings,
he was feeling a little lonely.
727
00:32:03,507 --> 00:32:05,092
And him being a hopeless romantic,
728
00:32:05,092 --> 00:32:07,678
he's like, I need a girlfriend,
it's going to help me focus.
729
00:32:07,678 --> 00:32:09,513
It's going to help me be creative
730
00:32:09,513 --> 00:32:11,515
because some of the music
he was making was,
731
00:32:11,515 --> 00:32:13,475
you know, a lot
of that R&B love stuff.
732
00:32:13,475 --> 00:32:16,687
So, I guess he needed something
to actually make it real,
733
00:32:16,687 --> 00:32:17,813
make it sound real.
734
00:32:22,276 --> 00:32:24,611
- I met Jahseh 2014.
735
00:32:25,237 --> 00:32:26,321
I was in high school.
736
00:32:27,030 --> 00:32:28,657
I met him, like, online.
737
00:32:28,657 --> 00:32:29,783
Look at this fucking hair.
738
00:32:29,783 --> 00:32:31,076
I was supposed to be a mystical-ass lion,
739
00:32:31,076 --> 00:32:32,828
and I ended up being a fuck-ass human.
740
00:32:32,828 --> 00:32:33,829
What the fuck?
741
00:32:33,829 --> 00:32:35,789
[hip-hop music playing]
742
00:32:35,789 --> 00:32:38,542
GENEVA:
At 17, I was basically homeless
743
00:32:38,542 --> 00:32:39,751
or home hopping.
744
00:32:41,295 --> 00:32:43,297
I was always getting, like, bullied.
745
00:32:43,297 --> 00:32:45,090
I was just always on the laptop basically
746
00:32:45,090 --> 00:32:47,467
and trying to, like, make friends online.
747
00:32:47,467 --> 00:32:50,387
I'd go on chatrooms
and live through there.
748
00:32:51,138 --> 00:32:53,724
Look at what we have here.
749
00:32:54,141 --> 00:32:56,518
I would just try to keep myself happy
through friends.
750
00:32:58,770 --> 00:33:00,814
When Jahseh and I first met,
751
00:33:00,814 --> 00:33:03,525
I had cuts on my thigh, like five lines,
752
00:33:03,525 --> 00:33:06,278
and under that I had
a word that said "Alone."
753
00:33:06,278 --> 00:33:08,447
And when he noticed it, he was like,
754
00:33:08,447 --> 00:33:09,531
why'd you do that?
755
00:33:09,531 --> 00:33:11,366
And I was like, because I felt alone.
756
00:33:11,366 --> 00:33:13,202
He was like, "Oh, me too."
757
00:33:13,202 --> 00:33:15,662
Like, I feel like
we're the same in that aspect.
758
00:33:17,581 --> 00:33:20,792
JAHSEH: I just felt like
I found my significant other.
759
00:33:20,792 --> 00:33:22,336
I felt like I found my soul mate.
760
00:33:23,170 --> 00:33:25,297
I said, "I want you
to cut 'Alone' into my arm,
761
00:33:25,297 --> 00:33:27,257
"so every time you feel
as if you're alone,
762
00:33:27,257 --> 00:33:28,759
"you think of me and you understand
763
00:33:28,759 --> 00:33:30,719
you have someone
that feels exactly the same."
764
00:33:31,803 --> 00:33:33,722
♪ Depression ♪
765
00:33:34,097 --> 00:33:37,142
♪ And obsession don't mix well ♪
766
00:33:39,311 --> 00:33:41,271
GENEVA:
I was living in a motel.
767
00:33:41,271 --> 00:33:42,439
I didn't even have, like, a pillow.
768
00:33:42,439 --> 00:33:45,359
I was just sleeping on a air mattress
with my uncle.
769
00:33:45,359 --> 00:33:47,277
So, he gave me a pillow at his house
770
00:33:47,277 --> 00:33:49,321
and gave me a jacket.
771
00:33:49,321 --> 00:33:51,573
It's like, he didn't want me to feel
772
00:33:51,573 --> 00:33:53,158
like I didn't have anything
773
00:33:53,158 --> 00:33:55,410
even if he had to, like,
sacrifice his own thing.
774
00:33:57,246 --> 00:34:00,165
- I was like, "Yo,
do you like sleeping alone?"
775
00:34:00,165 --> 00:34:01,917
She said, "No."
I said, "Neither do I."
776
00:34:02,459 --> 00:34:04,336
I said, "I know that you stay in a motel.
777
00:34:05,087 --> 00:34:06,880
"So, I want to go back
to the motel with you
778
00:34:06,880 --> 00:34:08,382
and I'll sleep in the lobby."
779
00:34:09,341 --> 00:34:11,260
She said, "Are you serious?
Would you do that for me?"
780
00:34:11,260 --> 00:34:12,928
I said, "Yeah."
781
00:34:17,099 --> 00:34:19,726
♪ Hollywood motels ♪
782
00:34:19,726 --> 00:34:25,607
♪ Hell, I think
I'm just obsessed with you ♪
783
00:34:26,441 --> 00:34:29,111
That was the only person
I had around for a while
784
00:34:29,111 --> 00:34:30,571
that I felt relevant to
785
00:34:30,571 --> 00:34:32,823
despite, like, besides my mom.
786
00:34:33,699 --> 00:34:35,701
- I realized that he had a girlfriend,
787
00:34:35,701 --> 00:34:38,203
so I basically fell back
788
00:34:38,203 --> 00:34:41,039
and after those three days,
we didn't hang out.
789
00:34:41,039 --> 00:34:42,666
We really didn't have contact either.
790
00:34:44,001 --> 00:34:46,587
JAHSEH: I didn't hear from her
for two to three years.
791
00:34:54,094 --> 00:34:56,972
GENEVA:
When we met up again, I was 19.
792
00:34:57,598 --> 00:35:01,101
My best friend at the time,
she invited me to his show.
793
00:35:01,602 --> 00:35:03,937
We're outside waiting
to get into the venue
794
00:35:03,937 --> 00:35:05,439
and I see him.
795
00:35:06,023 --> 00:35:07,733
He had, like, no shirt on.
796
00:35:07,733 --> 00:35:09,610
You know, it was, like, dark and steamy.
797
00:35:09,610 --> 00:35:12,446
And he locked eyes with me
from across the room,
798
00:35:12,446 --> 00:35:14,615
and then he, like,
started walking up to me.
799
00:35:16,158 --> 00:35:17,534
He just, like, grabs me by the neck
800
00:35:17,534 --> 00:35:19,286
and looks at me, like, deep in my eyes.
801
00:35:19,286 --> 00:35:20,621
I'm like, "Oh."
802
00:35:21,622 --> 00:35:23,415
♪ Spotlight, uh, moonlight, uh ♪
803
00:35:23,415 --> 00:35:25,250
♪ Nigga, why you trippin',
get your mood right, uh ♪
804
00:35:25,250 --> 00:35:27,127
♪ Shawty look good in the moonlight ♪
805
00:35:27,127 --> 00:35:28,962
♪ All these pussy niggas so bad mind ♪
806
00:35:28,962 --> 00:35:30,839
♪ Spotlight, moonlight ♪
807
00:35:30,839 --> 00:35:32,174
- And he just walks away after that.
808
00:35:32,174 --> 00:35:33,926
And then I just look at my friend.
809
00:35:33,926 --> 00:35:35,928
I'm like, "Yeah, I don't know
what that was,
810
00:35:35,928 --> 00:35:37,846
but it was sexy."
811
00:35:39,097 --> 00:35:41,433
We started dating after that day,
812
00:35:41,433 --> 00:35:42,768
and I moved in with him.
813
00:35:43,977 --> 00:35:45,979
[chattering]
814
00:35:46,772 --> 00:35:48,524
He would post me on his Snapchats,
815
00:35:48,524 --> 00:35:50,484
and all my friends were
hitting me up like,
816
00:35:50,484 --> 00:35:52,069
"You date X?"
817
00:35:52,069 --> 00:35:54,071
And then he started to, like,
bringing me around places
818
00:35:54,071 --> 00:35:55,322
and people would notice him
819
00:35:55,322 --> 00:35:57,533
and, like, they'd just go crazy for him.
820
00:35:57,533 --> 00:36:00,035
I just didn't realize it. I didn't know.
821
00:36:00,035 --> 00:36:01,954
- Go ahead.
- No, no.
822
00:36:01,954 --> 00:36:04,164
- Go ahead. Let me see how weird you is.
823
00:36:05,832 --> 00:36:08,377
GENEVA: It was kind of
a romantic feel in the beginning.
824
00:36:08,377 --> 00:36:11,171
It was a mesh between, like,
always taking care of each other
825
00:36:11,171 --> 00:36:13,382
and trying to better ourselves.
826
00:36:14,174 --> 00:36:17,010
- You saw put her fucking finger
in my mouth... [indiscernible]
827
00:36:17,010 --> 00:36:18,595
- Ow, stop it.
828
00:36:18,595 --> 00:36:20,806
- Why do that shit, you fuck-ass nigga?
829
00:36:20,806 --> 00:36:22,182
Say sorry.
- I'm sorry.
830
00:36:22,182 --> 00:36:24,476
- Hmm.
- I'm sorry as fuck, sorry as fuck.
831
00:36:24,476 --> 00:36:26,436
- They stayed in this room
most of the time.
832
00:36:26,436 --> 00:36:28,188
I barely saw them.
833
00:36:28,981 --> 00:36:30,482
But I just saw...
834
00:36:32,526 --> 00:36:37,072
how the obsession wasn't healthy.
835
00:36:38,031 --> 00:36:39,616
GENEVA:
When I moved in with Jahseh,
836
00:36:39,616 --> 00:36:41,159
I was working at an animal hospital.
837
00:36:41,159 --> 00:36:43,161
I was getting paid $10 an hour.
838
00:36:44,413 --> 00:36:46,707
That was my first good-paying job.
839
00:36:48,041 --> 00:36:49,585
Like, a week later, he was like,
840
00:36:49,585 --> 00:36:51,336
we're not going to drive you
back and forth
841
00:36:51,336 --> 00:36:54,548
from Fort Lauderdale
to North Miami every day,
842
00:36:54,548 --> 00:36:55,841
so you're going to have to quit.
843
00:36:55,841 --> 00:36:57,634
You're fine anyway.
And, like, I got you.
844
00:36:58,302 --> 00:37:00,262
And then I quit.
845
00:37:01,555 --> 00:37:04,600
I understood, like, off the bat
that when he cared about something,
846
00:37:04,600 --> 00:37:07,603
it was impossible for you to, like,
deter him from that.
847
00:37:08,645 --> 00:37:12,983
There was also a lot of miscommunication
and jealousy, I'd say.
848
00:37:15,903 --> 00:37:17,029
JAHSEH: Say sorry.
849
00:37:19,239 --> 00:37:20,240
GENEVA: I'm sorry.
850
00:37:22,784 --> 00:37:24,745
You know, I was depressed somewhat
851
00:37:24,745 --> 00:37:27,206
when I was with him because I felt like
852
00:37:27,206 --> 00:37:29,708
he was like the only person
that would give me love
853
00:37:29,708 --> 00:37:31,543
and, like, I wouldn't
find that anywhere else.
854
00:37:32,044 --> 00:37:34,796
So, that's why, like,
I continuously stayed.
855
00:37:35,547 --> 00:37:37,049
It had its good moments and bad moments,
856
00:37:37,049 --> 00:37:39,801
but mostly, like, I was lost.
857
00:37:39,801 --> 00:37:42,054
I didn't really know, like,
what to do about it.
858
00:37:45,474 --> 00:37:49,645
[crowd shouting]
859
00:37:51,688 --> 00:37:54,191
- Woo. I'm already tired...
860
00:37:54,816 --> 00:37:59,112
[indiscernible]
861
00:37:59,112 --> 00:38:00,531
[crowd cheers]
862
00:38:04,076 --> 00:38:05,494
COOLIECUT:
He was kind of buzzing at that point.
863
00:38:05,494 --> 00:38:07,913
He was making, like, underground hits,
you know what I mean?
864
00:38:08,622 --> 00:38:09,998
And then people start peepin' like,
865
00:38:09,998 --> 00:38:12,125
"Oh, he might be the next
one up," you feelin' me?
866
00:38:12,960 --> 00:38:14,711
- Okay, I'm tired. I'm tired.
867
00:38:14,711 --> 00:38:16,672
Tired. [laughs]
868
00:38:17,422 --> 00:38:18,757
COOLIECUT:
But I'm not gonna lie.
869
00:38:18,757 --> 00:38:22,177
I think his mind state
was very bad at that point.
870
00:38:24,596 --> 00:38:27,349
The thing about Jah is,
if you weren't that close to him,
871
00:38:27,349 --> 00:38:28,642
he didn't really want you to see,
872
00:38:28,642 --> 00:38:30,602
like, his true personality sometimes.
873
00:38:30,602 --> 00:38:33,146
So, he always, you feel me,
throwing a little mask
874
00:38:33,146 --> 00:38:35,524
or something to try to hide
how he's feeling in the moment.
875
00:38:35,524 --> 00:38:37,651
So, that's how he was
treating me at that time.
876
00:38:37,651 --> 00:38:39,570
He was trying to be very calm.
You feel me?
877
00:38:39,570 --> 00:38:41,154
"Yo, what's good? How you doing?"
878
00:38:41,154 --> 00:38:42,781
But he was in a bad mental state though,
879
00:38:42,781 --> 00:38:44,825
I could tell.
Yeah.
880
00:38:50,998 --> 00:38:53,292
- This is the first time
I'm letting them see my hair.
881
00:38:54,209 --> 00:38:56,170
My hair is just a reminder of telling me
882
00:38:56,170 --> 00:38:58,088
to, to fucking relax, basically.
883
00:38:58,088 --> 00:39:00,674
It's a, it's a reminder
of me telling myself that,
884
00:39:00,674 --> 00:39:03,302
"Yo, you are human
and that you are not a god.
885
00:39:03,302 --> 00:39:05,179
"You are still on the planet Earth.
886
00:39:05,179 --> 00:39:07,764
"And that you need to remind yourself
that karma is a real thing.
887
00:39:07,764 --> 00:39:09,892
And whatever you give out,
you will get back."
888
00:39:11,101 --> 00:39:13,437
CLEOPATRA:
I knew that something was off.
889
00:39:14,188 --> 00:39:15,981
The voices in the head came.
890
00:39:15,981 --> 00:39:18,525
He would tell me, like,
he would not sleep at night.
891
00:39:18,525 --> 00:39:21,195
And he would tell me he hears voices.
892
00:39:22,029 --> 00:39:23,947
SKI:
Literally, he'd be like, "Oh, I took LSD,
893
00:39:23,947 --> 00:39:25,949
"and I've talked to a spirit
that's a demon
894
00:39:25,949 --> 00:39:28,368
"and told me information about myself,
895
00:39:28,368 --> 00:39:30,037
"about how long I'm gonna live,
896
00:39:30,037 --> 00:39:32,372
that they're going to come
get him at some point."
897
00:39:32,372 --> 00:39:34,291
I really didn't like
that shit at that point.
898
00:39:36,126 --> 00:39:37,711
- Yeah, it was a very dark time.
899
00:39:40,088 --> 00:39:41,965
- And if I end up getting shot and killed
900
00:39:41,965 --> 00:39:43,550
for what the fuck I'm doing
901
00:39:43,550 --> 00:39:46,136
or if I end up getting my ass
beat at some point in time
902
00:39:46,136 --> 00:39:47,679
or nigga, if shit get hard on me,
903
00:39:47,679 --> 00:39:48,847
it's because I deserve it.
904
00:39:48,847 --> 00:39:50,140
That's point blank, period.
905
00:39:50,140 --> 00:39:52,142
Everybody will get a death--
906
00:39:52,142 --> 00:39:54,102
Everybody will get a death
that is deserving.
907
00:39:54,102 --> 00:39:55,646
Everybody will get a life
that is deserving.
908
00:39:55,646 --> 00:39:58,065
Everybody-- You will get
what the fuck you deserve.
909
00:39:58,065 --> 00:39:59,024
Karma.
910
00:40:05,822 --> 00:40:08,700
TALYSSA LEE:
I was 23 in the summer of 2016
911
00:40:08,700 --> 00:40:10,160
when I met Jahseh.
912
00:40:10,160 --> 00:40:12,746
I was at the time dating Khaed Moulton,
913
00:40:12,746 --> 00:40:14,414
which was his producer.
914
00:40:14,414 --> 00:40:16,917
Jahseh was about 18 at the time.
915
00:40:16,917 --> 00:40:18,544
Jahseh was not a monster.
916
00:40:18,544 --> 00:40:20,254
Like, when I met him,
he was very charming,
917
00:40:20,254 --> 00:40:21,630
very intelligent,
918
00:40:21,630 --> 00:40:23,090
empathetic, in a sense.
919
00:40:23,090 --> 00:40:25,259
Like, damn near surprised me.
920
00:40:27,845 --> 00:40:30,430
The first day I saw Geneva
when she came out,
921
00:40:30,430 --> 00:40:32,140
she was wearing a hoodie.
922
00:40:32,140 --> 00:40:34,268
She just wasn't making
eye contact with anybody.
923
00:40:34,268 --> 00:40:36,436
She'd look up and just,
like, go back down.
924
00:40:36,436 --> 00:40:38,772
She was literally just
a shell of a person.
925
00:40:38,772 --> 00:40:41,024
Like, there was just no expression.
926
00:40:41,024 --> 00:40:42,067
There was nothing.
927
00:40:42,609 --> 00:40:45,153
I felt like her soul
was empty at the time.
928
00:40:45,153 --> 00:40:46,154
You know?
929
00:40:50,075 --> 00:40:53,078
One day, Khaed cracked a joke in the car.
930
00:40:53,078 --> 00:40:54,329
She kind of giggled and laughed.
931
00:40:55,289 --> 00:40:58,333
And Jahseh, like, cut his eyes
to her and was like,
932
00:40:58,333 --> 00:41:00,127
when we get to the house, go in the room.
933
00:41:00,711 --> 00:41:02,921
And I was kind of like, "What the fuck?"
934
00:41:02,921 --> 00:41:05,757
It kind of became clear
that he was not happy
935
00:41:05,757 --> 00:41:07,384
with her laughing at his joke.
936
00:41:08,927 --> 00:41:11,180
They went in the room,
and I could hear them fighting.
937
00:41:11,680 --> 00:41:13,515
Eventually, you just hear somebody
938
00:41:13,515 --> 00:41:15,225
who's getting hit.
939
00:41:15,225 --> 00:41:17,686
Jahseh had a bathroom in that,
a private bathroom in the room.
940
00:41:18,312 --> 00:41:20,689
So, you could hear water running
and I'm thinking,
941
00:41:20,689 --> 00:41:22,691
"Okay, maybe they're going
to take a shower or whatever."
942
00:41:22,691 --> 00:41:24,276
But no.
943
00:41:25,444 --> 00:41:27,529
He was literally drowning her in the tub,
944
00:41:27,529 --> 00:41:29,698
like putting her under,
and you could hear her screams
945
00:41:29,698 --> 00:41:31,783
being muffled by the water
and being put up
946
00:41:31,783 --> 00:41:33,535
and then being put back under the water.
947
00:41:33,535 --> 00:41:36,371
And I was banging on the door,
begging Khaed like,
948
00:41:36,371 --> 00:41:38,415
"Bro, I'm calling the cops,"
and he's begging me,
949
00:41:38,415 --> 00:41:39,750
"Don't call the cops, bro."
950
00:41:39,750 --> 00:41:41,460
Like, you know
I got a situation in Georgia,
951
00:41:41,460 --> 00:41:42,669
which he did.
952
00:41:42,669 --> 00:41:44,796
So, I didn't. Big regret.
953
00:41:45,881 --> 00:41:48,383
Later that night,
she finally came out again
954
00:41:48,383 --> 00:41:49,968
and she, like, picked up her hoodie
955
00:41:49,968 --> 00:41:51,762
and she was marked up with bruises
956
00:41:51,762 --> 00:41:54,389
like a Dalmatian,
like a bruise behind her ear,
957
00:41:54,890 --> 00:41:56,934
behind her neck, literally everywhere.
958
00:41:56,934 --> 00:42:00,062
And it was very clear that
he was avoiding hitting her face
959
00:42:00,062 --> 00:42:02,606
so that she wouldn't have
any, like, clear injuries
960
00:42:02,606 --> 00:42:04,066
when you were talking to her.
961
00:42:04,066 --> 00:42:06,151
I've never seen somebody
bruised up so bad.
962
00:42:08,862 --> 00:42:11,114
It was just very clear like
she didn't have nobody.
963
00:42:11,114 --> 00:42:12,533
Like, she didn't have any money,
964
00:42:12,533 --> 00:42:14,451
she didn't have any family support.
965
00:42:14,451 --> 00:42:16,995
So, in a situation like that,
when people are like,
966
00:42:16,995 --> 00:42:18,830
"Why don't you leave,
why don't you leave?"
967
00:42:18,830 --> 00:42:21,208
And you really don't,
you think that that person
968
00:42:21,208 --> 00:42:24,127
is literally your foundation
and your network to life.
969
00:43:07,462 --> 00:43:09,173
TALYSSA:
They all knew what was going on,
970
00:43:09,173 --> 00:43:11,967
and they were so caught up in his clout
971
00:43:11,967 --> 00:43:14,052
and having his respect,
972
00:43:14,052 --> 00:43:15,929
they would never go against
what he was saying.
973
00:43:16,471 --> 00:43:18,765
It was like the weight of that person,
974
00:43:18,765 --> 00:43:21,393
it was zero compared to their potential
975
00:43:21,393 --> 00:43:23,020
to make it with Jahseh.
976
00:43:23,020 --> 00:43:25,814
So, there was just
no incentive to step in.
977
00:43:28,734 --> 00:43:30,319
COOLIECUT: You know how
you got that little voice in your head
978
00:43:30,319 --> 00:43:31,695
and it'd be like, "Yo, don't do that."
979
00:43:32,237 --> 00:43:33,655
I don't think he had that
980
00:43:33,655 --> 00:43:35,616
in certain moments,
if you get what I'm saying.
981
00:43:35,616 --> 00:43:37,242
So, he used to just be like,
"Bro, niggas tryin' me.
982
00:43:37,242 --> 00:43:39,161
All right, let's go." You feel me?
983
00:43:39,161 --> 00:43:41,288
That-- So, if you don't have
that in your head,
984
00:43:41,288 --> 00:43:43,290
you kind of got to have
somebody around you
985
00:43:43,290 --> 00:43:45,584
to be like, "Yo, bro, we good, bro.
986
00:43:45,584 --> 00:43:48,337
It's not that big of a deal."
You feel me? Let's just vibe."
987
00:43:48,337 --> 00:43:50,005
And I don't think, that was the thing,
988
00:43:50,005 --> 00:43:52,299
I don't really think
he had that in Orlando.
989
00:44:02,601 --> 00:44:05,938
- He was in jail and I was
with a group of his friends.
990
00:44:05,938 --> 00:44:07,981
You know, they were, like,
taking care of me and stuff
991
00:44:07,981 --> 00:44:09,733
while, until he got back.
992
00:44:11,151 --> 00:44:14,613
And I ended up cheating
on Jahseh with his homeboy.
993
00:44:18,825 --> 00:44:20,452
Once it came out, like,
994
00:44:21,119 --> 00:44:23,247
Jahseh at first said
that he would deal with it
995
00:44:23,247 --> 00:44:24,623
and he would get over it.
996
00:44:24,623 --> 00:44:28,544
But he couldn't get over it, it seemed.
997
00:44:34,883 --> 00:44:36,802
BRUNO:
He did come to me and was like,
998
00:44:36,802 --> 00:44:38,679
"Hey, Geneva's pregnant, what do I do?"
999
00:44:39,263 --> 00:44:41,765
And I couldn't really answer
that question.
1000
00:44:43,100 --> 00:44:44,476
I don't know, I was like, "Oh.
1001
00:44:45,686 --> 00:44:47,437
Just be there for her, that's it."
1002
00:44:48,146 --> 00:44:50,357
You know? But it can't be here.
1003
00:44:51,191 --> 00:44:52,568
Especially now that she's pregnant.
1004
00:45:04,746 --> 00:45:07,124
TALYSSA: If I was there, I don't think
it would have went that far.
1005
00:45:08,125 --> 00:45:10,085
I don't think I would have
left Geneva alone
1006
00:45:10,085 --> 00:45:11,378
for a second with him,
1007
00:45:11,378 --> 00:45:13,005
and that's what happened
when she was attacked,
1008
00:45:13,005 --> 00:45:14,173
she was left alone.
1009
00:45:21,638 --> 00:45:23,098
From what I understand, like,
1010
00:45:23,098 --> 00:45:25,058
they held her there
for, like, three or four days
1011
00:45:25,058 --> 00:45:26,810
and wouldn't let her see the hospital.
1012
00:45:27,895 --> 00:45:29,730
I remember when she said how she escaped,
1013
00:45:29,730 --> 00:45:31,899
'cause I was like, "How the fuck
did you get out of that shit?"
1014
00:45:34,026 --> 00:45:36,778
He was playing PlayStation
or Xbox or something,
1015
00:45:36,778 --> 00:45:38,530
and she opened up the fridge
1016
00:45:38,530 --> 00:45:40,699
and kind of let that be a distraction,
1017
00:45:40,699 --> 00:45:42,492
like she was looking in the fridge,
1018
00:45:42,492 --> 00:45:44,745
and she says she got on her, her fours
1019
00:45:44,745 --> 00:45:47,539
and crawled out of the house
while the fridge was still open
1020
00:45:47,539 --> 00:45:48,624
and ran out.
1021
00:45:53,962 --> 00:45:55,881
GENEVA:
I had nowhere to run.
1022
00:45:55,881 --> 00:45:59,301
I don't have any brothers,
I don't have a father figure.
1023
00:45:59,301 --> 00:46:00,677
Nobody was going to come save me.
1024
00:46:00,677 --> 00:46:02,804
I had to leave.
1025
00:46:02,804 --> 00:46:04,723
I felt like it was going to get worse.
1026
00:46:05,557 --> 00:46:10,062
The first person I called
when I ran away from the house
1027
00:46:10,062 --> 00:46:12,814
was my ex-boyfriend because
literally besides my mom,
1028
00:46:12,814 --> 00:46:15,025
that was like the only
phone number I knew by heart.
1029
00:46:15,025 --> 00:46:16,902
And he seen my face and he's like,
1030
00:46:16,902 --> 00:46:19,112
"Okay, this is crazy.
I have to call my mom."
1031
00:46:19,821 --> 00:46:22,157
His mother was like,
"She can't be with you
1032
00:46:22,157 --> 00:46:23,992
because they're going
to think you did that."
1033
00:46:24,952 --> 00:46:27,287
She literally drove me to the station.
1034
00:46:27,287 --> 00:46:29,998
She was like, "Go, 'cause you're
not staying with us like that."
1035
00:46:31,750 --> 00:46:33,377
I didn't want nobody to go to jail,
1036
00:46:33,377 --> 00:46:35,379
but I didn't know what to do.
1037
00:46:36,380 --> 00:46:38,632
I wasn't aware that that would
all, like, crumble down
1038
00:46:38,632 --> 00:46:39,842
onto him like that.
1039
00:46:46,473 --> 00:46:48,350
DEANDRA:
You got to be fucking kidding me.
1040
00:46:48,350 --> 00:46:49,601
Like, that's the first thing
I thought, like,
1041
00:46:49,601 --> 00:46:51,395
"You got to be fucking kidding me."
1042
00:46:51,395 --> 00:46:54,356
Like, how... how... [stammers]
1043
00:46:54,356 --> 00:46:55,691
Like, you just gotta
be fucking kidding me.
1044
00:46:55,691 --> 00:46:57,651
Like, there was no other way
to think about it.
1045
00:46:58,902 --> 00:47:01,572
- You know, I knew he was a lot of things
and get into a lot of shit,
1046
00:47:01,572 --> 00:47:03,240
but that, that was new to me.
1047
00:47:04,074 --> 00:47:05,659
That part was foreign to me.
1048
00:47:07,703 --> 00:47:10,289
I was shocked at how bad it was.
1049
00:47:27,973 --> 00:47:30,976
He was already out on bond
when that incident happened.
1050
00:47:31,727 --> 00:47:33,353
He had racked up so many points that,
1051
00:47:33,353 --> 00:47:36,023
you know, he was going to jail
for a very long time.
1052
00:47:38,358 --> 00:47:39,860
DEANDRA:
Cleo, in her mind was like,
1053
00:47:39,860 --> 00:47:41,236
I'm going to have to take care
of him his whole life
1054
00:47:41,236 --> 00:47:43,864
because he has a record,
tattoos on his face.
1055
00:47:43,864 --> 00:47:46,200
Like, it was exhausting. just running,
1056
00:47:46,200 --> 00:47:48,785
like, not knowing what
the next option was for him.
1057
00:47:56,084 --> 00:47:57,836
- When he called me, I was really nervous.
1058
00:47:57,836 --> 00:48:00,088
I was like, "Okay,
this is a jail phone call."
1059
00:48:00,672 --> 00:48:01,798
I answer it.
1060
00:48:16,063 --> 00:48:17,981
GENEVA: He was telling me
that I would go to jail,
1061
00:48:17,981 --> 00:48:19,316
and I was scared of that.
1062
00:48:19,316 --> 00:48:21,818
But then he would tell me that he loved me
1063
00:48:22,444 --> 00:48:24,821
and that he cared about me,
he didn't want anything to happen to me.
1064
00:48:24,821 --> 00:48:26,573
So, there was still, like,
a little bit of manipulation
1065
00:48:26,573 --> 00:48:28,450
and I was just, like, so confused.
1066
00:48:45,259 --> 00:48:46,969
GENEVA: The fact that he got
in the amount of trouble
1067
00:48:46,969 --> 00:48:49,805
that he did get into,
it was not my intention.
1068
00:48:50,347 --> 00:48:51,890
I just needed to get away from it.
1069
00:48:52,850 --> 00:48:54,685
BASS:
Of course, we believe him.
1070
00:48:54,685 --> 00:48:55,894
- We're family.
1071
00:48:55,894 --> 00:48:57,396
We hate to see one of our own
1072
00:48:57,396 --> 00:48:59,439
be incarcerated, you know,
1073
00:48:59,439 --> 00:49:01,191
especially for an allegation.
1074
00:49:01,191 --> 00:49:04,570
You know? And he's literally
sitting rotting in jail
1075
00:49:04,570 --> 00:49:06,488
- for an allegation--
KILO: Almost a year.
1076
00:49:06,488 --> 00:49:07,739
- That shit felt forever.
1077
00:49:07,739 --> 00:49:09,575
- Everybody was like,
1078
00:49:09,575 --> 00:49:11,910
"He was arrested
because of his girlfriend."
1079
00:49:11,910 --> 00:49:13,662
And I'm like, "Well, this is why."
1080
00:49:15,664 --> 00:49:18,876
When I told my piece about the situation,
1081
00:49:18,876 --> 00:49:20,669
fans are not very understanding
1082
00:49:20,669 --> 00:49:22,921
because obviously the person
that they look up to
1083
00:49:22,921 --> 00:49:25,841
is saying one thing, and then I was saying
the complete opposite.
1084
00:49:25,841 --> 00:49:27,885
Obviously, they're not going
to believe me.
1085
00:49:32,306 --> 00:49:34,933
FLYBOY: The fans are toxic,
so if they get an ear of things,
1086
00:49:34,933 --> 00:49:36,560
they're going to start
1087
00:49:36,560 --> 00:49:38,103
making up their own narratives
1088
00:49:38,103 --> 00:49:40,355
and start twisting things
and contorting it.
1089
00:49:40,355 --> 00:49:43,150
And so now, it's this on social media.
1090
00:49:44,151 --> 00:49:47,654
Whether he did it or not,
for people to make it public,
1091
00:49:47,654 --> 00:49:50,199
all that shit brings
attention towards him.
1092
00:49:51,950 --> 00:49:54,536
- I want to say it was,
we were on Instagram
1093
00:49:54,536 --> 00:49:56,580
and A$AP Rocky was like,
1094
00:49:56,580 --> 00:49:58,248
"Yo, free X,
1095
00:49:58,248 --> 00:49:59,958
that's the hottest nigga out
of Florida right now," right?
1096
00:49:59,958 --> 00:50:02,044
- Free my nigga XXX.
1097
00:50:02,044 --> 00:50:03,378
I can't wait 'til you come home.
1098
00:50:03,378 --> 00:50:04,713
Fuck is you talking 'bout?
1099
00:50:04,713 --> 00:50:06,590
He the hardest nigga in Florida.
1100
00:50:06,590 --> 00:50:07,841
I said it. So what--
1101
00:50:07,841 --> 00:50:09,843
- It would literally
become like a hashtag,
1102
00:50:09,843 --> 00:50:12,846
like his mug shot went viral.
1103
00:50:12,846 --> 00:50:15,557
- The first image I ever saw
of Jahseh was his mug shot,
1104
00:50:15,557 --> 00:50:19,228
and it was probably the most
polarizing image of an artist
1105
00:50:19,228 --> 00:50:21,230
that I've ever seen in my life.
1106
00:50:21,230 --> 00:50:24,816
He had tattoos on his face.
Half blond, half black hair.
1107
00:50:24,816 --> 00:50:26,818
He had the stare in his eyes.
1108
00:50:26,818 --> 00:50:28,612
His eyes almost looked black.
1109
00:50:28,612 --> 00:50:31,698
His image, it was exciting,
it was polarizing.
1110
00:50:31,698 --> 00:50:33,659
I knew that people wouldn't forget him
1111
00:50:33,659 --> 00:50:35,953
because he was the first of his kind.
1112
00:50:36,662 --> 00:50:38,372
♪ I'm like, "Bitch,
who is your mans?" Ayy ♪
1113
00:50:38,372 --> 00:50:40,249
♪ Can't keep my dick in my pants, ayy ♪
1114
00:50:40,249 --> 00:50:41,792
♪ My bitch don't love me no mo', ayy ♪
1115
00:50:41,792 --> 00:50:43,168
♪ She kick me out, I'm like, "Vro" ♪
1116
00:50:43,627 --> 00:50:45,379
CLEOPATRA:
Unfortunately, we're living in a world
1117
00:50:45,379 --> 00:50:49,216
where drama and bullshit sells.
1118
00:50:49,216 --> 00:50:51,093
And so as bad as that was,
1119
00:50:51,093 --> 00:50:52,970
it helped to catapult him
to the next level
1120
00:50:52,970 --> 00:50:54,555
because his name was everywhere.
1121
00:50:54,555 --> 00:50:57,432
And then the Drake beef added to it.
1122
00:50:58,475 --> 00:51:00,394
MAN: It was the fans
who started saying something
1123
00:51:00,394 --> 00:51:01,687
about Drake stealing his flow.
1124
00:51:01,687 --> 00:51:03,230
- That's how we found out
'cause of the fans.
1125
00:51:03,230 --> 00:51:05,524
- Yeah the fans, the fans
were speaking out before us.
1126
00:51:05,524 --> 00:51:07,109
We don't even listen to Drake.
1127
00:51:07,109 --> 00:51:09,403
♪ Demon just got out the can, yeah ♪
1128
00:51:09,403 --> 00:51:11,321
♪ I gave my bro an advance, yeah ♪
1129
00:51:11,321 --> 00:51:12,906
♪ Love is just not in my plans ♪
1130
00:51:13,323 --> 00:51:15,367
♪ I'm like, "Bitch,
who is your mans?" ayy ♪
1131
00:51:15,367 --> 00:51:17,619
♪ Can't keep my dick in my pants, ayy ♪
1132
00:51:17,619 --> 00:51:18,829
KILO:
Once the fans started speaking,
1133
00:51:18,829 --> 00:51:20,163
it all started speaking for itself.
1134
00:51:21,832 --> 00:51:23,417
SOLOMON:
People were fighting about the music,
1135
00:51:23,417 --> 00:51:24,626
falling in love with the music.
1136
00:51:24,626 --> 00:51:26,420
People were fighting about the charges,
1137
00:51:26,420 --> 00:51:27,629
hating him for the charges.
1138
00:51:27,629 --> 00:51:30,757
But, like, he was only getting
more famous by the day.
1139
00:51:30,757 --> 00:51:32,801
Whether you loved it
or whether you hated it,
1140
00:51:32,801 --> 00:51:34,261
you just had to acknowledge it.
1141
00:51:35,053 --> 00:51:36,597
♪ Look at me, fuck on me ♪
1142
00:51:36,597 --> 00:51:38,515
♪ Look at me, fuck on me ♪
1143
00:51:38,515 --> 00:51:40,309
♪ Look at me, fuck on me ♪
1144
00:51:40,309 --> 00:51:41,602
♪ Look at me, yah ♪
1145
00:51:41,602 --> 00:51:43,729
♪ Look at me, fuck on me ♪
1146
00:51:43,729 --> 00:51:45,230
♪ Look at me, fuck on me ♪
1147
00:51:45,230 --> 00:51:47,232
♪ Look at me, fuck on me ♪
1148
00:51:47,232 --> 00:51:48,942
♪ Look at me, yah ♪
1149
00:51:48,942 --> 00:51:50,444
♪ Yah, yah ♪
1150
00:51:52,404 --> 00:51:54,656
CLEOPATRA: I had labels
started reaching out to me
1151
00:51:54,656 --> 00:51:55,824
because he was locked up.
1152
00:51:55,824 --> 00:51:58,577
Regardless of whether me and him
fought like cats and dogs,
1153
00:51:58,577 --> 00:52:01,121
he knew that I always had
his best interests at heart.
1154
00:52:01,121 --> 00:52:03,624
Who was he going to trust,
you know what I mean?
1155
00:52:03,624 --> 00:52:06,668
I'm his mama.
So, he gave me power of attorney.
1156
00:52:06,668 --> 00:52:09,630
You know, I was kind of like,
"Oh, we should sign, we should sign."
1157
00:52:09,630 --> 00:52:12,508
He was like, "No, Mom, if we can
hold on and stay independent,
1158
00:52:12,508 --> 00:52:14,551
that's where the real bag is."
1159
00:52:14,551 --> 00:52:16,637
Seeing all the people
being screwed in the industry,
1160
00:52:16,637 --> 00:52:19,139
he knew very well and from early
1161
00:52:19,139 --> 00:52:22,726
that he wanted to own all his masters.
1162
00:52:23,185 --> 00:52:25,604
He knew what the end game
and the end goal was.
1163
00:52:26,772 --> 00:52:28,690
Solomon found us, actually.
1164
00:52:28,690 --> 00:52:30,442
I was intrigued by that.
1165
00:52:30,442 --> 00:52:32,945
- You know, I saw pictures
of him, of course.
1166
00:52:32,945 --> 00:52:34,780
But, like, I don't know, in my mind, like,
1167
00:52:34,780 --> 00:52:36,406
I was expecting him to be, like,
1168
00:52:36,406 --> 00:52:38,408
like a giant almost when I saw him.
1169
00:52:38,408 --> 00:52:41,370
And then when I saw him behind the glass,
1170
00:52:41,370 --> 00:52:44,414
it was just kind of crazy
because he was a kid.
1171
00:52:44,998 --> 00:52:48,126
All this craziness,
and then he's just a kid.
1172
00:52:48,126 --> 00:52:50,128
Like, he had all the hope in the world
1173
00:52:50,128 --> 00:52:52,005
and you could see he was vulnerable.
1174
00:52:52,005 --> 00:52:53,924
So, at that point, I'm just like,
"Yo, no matter what,
1175
00:52:53,924 --> 00:52:55,425
yo, I got this kid, I got him."
1176
00:52:55,425 --> 00:52:57,594
- We got our first deal
while he was locked up.
1177
00:52:58,512 --> 00:53:01,807
SOLOMON: We got the 100 grand
to license "Look at Me" to Empire,
1178
00:53:01,807 --> 00:53:03,517
and it was off to the races from there.
1179
00:53:12,359 --> 00:53:14,903
- No, I really didn't give
a fuck, to be honest.
1180
00:53:14,903 --> 00:53:16,655
That wasn't a concern to me.
1181
00:53:16,655 --> 00:53:19,533
Uh, I just knew that
the record was special.
1182
00:53:19,533 --> 00:53:21,076
It was moving,
1183
00:53:21,076 --> 00:53:24,162
and I just started chasing it.
1184
00:53:24,162 --> 00:53:26,623
I think my first contact with him was,
1185
00:53:26,623 --> 00:53:30,169
uh, Bob called me on three-way
with him in prison,
1186
00:53:30,878 --> 00:53:33,130
and we talked for a couple minutes
1187
00:53:33,130 --> 00:53:34,882
and he told me had a couple other deals
1188
00:53:34,882 --> 00:53:36,633
that he was looking at,
so on and so forth.
1189
00:53:36,633 --> 00:53:40,262
And he called me back
with Bob on the phone,
1190
00:53:40,262 --> 00:53:41,930
and he said, "I'm gonna do your deal."
1191
00:53:41,930 --> 00:53:44,474
And I said, "I don't understand.
1192
00:53:44,474 --> 00:53:47,060
Why would you do our deal
versus the other deal?"
1193
00:53:47,060 --> 00:53:49,646
Um, and mind you, the other deal was
1194
00:53:49,646 --> 00:53:54,359
like a traditional
multi-album deal, large advance.
1195
00:53:54,359 --> 00:53:57,154
I think the advance was like
1.5 million, he told me.
1196
00:53:57,154 --> 00:53:59,698
My offer was like a 100k
for, like, two singles.
1197
00:54:00,616 --> 00:54:03,243
Um, and I asked him, I said,
1198
00:54:03,243 --> 00:54:05,996
"Why would you do my deal
over the other deal?
1199
00:54:07,539 --> 00:54:10,125
You're only like 18, bro.
That's a lot of money."
1200
00:54:10,125 --> 00:54:11,752
He said, "'Cause your deal
makes me a partner
1201
00:54:11,752 --> 00:54:13,128
and their deal makes me a slave."
1202
00:54:37,945 --> 00:54:39,154
JAHSEH: Howdy there.
1203
00:54:39,154 --> 00:54:41,490
WOMAN: Woo! [laughs]
1204
00:54:44,618 --> 00:54:46,787
[indiscernible chatter]
1205
00:54:46,787 --> 00:54:49,373
JAHSEH:
I-I still feel like I'm dreaming.
1206
00:54:49,373 --> 00:54:51,542
I feel like I just broke up
out of this bitch.
1207
00:54:53,710 --> 00:54:56,129
Yeah. Don't go to jail in Broward County.
1208
00:54:56,129 --> 00:54:57,714
MAN: Don't go to jail in Broward County.
1209
00:54:57,714 --> 00:54:59,049
- They not finna let you out.
1210
00:54:59,049 --> 00:55:02,886
[beeping]
1211
00:55:03,720 --> 00:55:06,640
- Oh, that boy... [laughing, screaming]
1212
00:55:07,057 --> 00:55:08,684
[screaming]
1213
00:55:08,684 --> 00:55:11,270
- You look fresher...
- Yo! My nigga!
1214
00:55:11,270 --> 00:55:12,688
Oh my goodness.
1215
00:55:13,564 --> 00:55:16,400
- I'm out this shit, dawg.
I'm out this shit, dawg.
1216
00:55:16,400 --> 00:55:17,818
- I'm so fucking proud of you.
1217
00:55:17,818 --> 00:55:19,152
- This shit 'bout to be crazy.
1218
00:55:19,778 --> 00:55:21,905
- This is all you, bro.
- This shit 'bout to be crazy.
1219
00:55:22,364 --> 00:55:23,532
- Oh my goodness.
1220
00:55:24,116 --> 00:55:25,200
JAHSEH: I'm gonna call my mom.
1221
00:55:25,200 --> 00:55:27,494
[line ringing]
1222
00:55:34,710 --> 00:55:36,003
- Look, FaceTime.
1223
00:55:37,421 --> 00:55:38,380
- FaceTime.
1224
00:55:39,965 --> 00:55:40,841
- Do it.
1225
00:55:42,885 --> 00:55:44,219
Hi, princess.
1226
00:55:44,219 --> 00:55:46,180
You look beautiful.
What are you talking about?
1227
00:55:48,056 --> 00:55:49,641
- You look like sex!
1228
00:55:52,603 --> 00:55:54,980
- I feel like crying.
I'm about to get on my knees.
1229
00:55:54,980 --> 00:55:57,399
Yeah. I'm dead-ass serious.
1230
00:55:57,399 --> 00:55:58,442
So, I don't come back to this shit.
1231
00:56:02,988 --> 00:56:04,198
- Yo, I look like a Jack.
1232
00:56:05,407 --> 00:56:06,408
I love you.
1233
00:56:08,160 --> 00:56:09,119
- I'm gonna call you.
1234
00:56:14,833 --> 00:56:15,918
Oh man.
1235
00:56:17,044 --> 00:56:19,838
Yo, my fucking name comes up, my nigga.
1236
00:56:20,839 --> 00:56:22,132
"Jahseh D. Onfroy,
1237
00:56:22,132 --> 00:56:24,551
"better known by his
stage name XXXTentacion
1238
00:56:24,551 --> 00:56:27,513
is an American hip-hop recording artist
from Plantation, Florida."
1239
00:56:28,472 --> 00:56:30,390
Jesus fucking Christ.
1240
00:56:32,935 --> 00:56:35,270
Oh, that's a lot of fucking followers.
1241
00:56:35,896 --> 00:56:37,189
Holy shit.
1242
00:56:37,773 --> 00:56:38,982
Holy shit.
1243
00:56:39,650 --> 00:56:41,235
["Look at Me" playing over speakers]
1244
00:56:41,527 --> 00:56:43,153
- What the fuck?!
1245
00:56:45,113 --> 00:56:47,157
Ohh, fuck.
1246
00:56:47,157 --> 00:56:51,036
[screaming]
1247
00:56:51,036 --> 00:56:52,663
♪ I gave her dick, she amen, ayy ♪
1248
00:56:52,663 --> 00:56:54,414
♪ She put her tongue on my dick, ayy ♪
1249
00:56:54,414 --> 00:56:55,999
♪ Look at my wrist, about ten ♪
1250
00:56:55,999 --> 00:56:57,084
Fuck!
1251
00:56:57,084 --> 00:56:58,752
♪ Look at me, fuck on me, yah ♪
1252
00:56:59,378 --> 00:57:01,129
I'll take over the fucking world!
1253
00:57:01,129 --> 00:57:02,589
♪ Look at me, yah ♪
1254
00:57:03,215 --> 00:57:04,758
[crying]
1255
00:57:04,758 --> 00:57:06,009
- So stupid.
1256
00:57:06,426 --> 00:57:07,678
Put me down, boy,
1257
00:57:09,638 --> 00:57:11,306
- Mmm.
- Hi, baby.
1258
00:57:11,807 --> 00:57:14,476
- You smell like--
- Cigarettes.
1259
00:57:14,476 --> 00:57:16,103
- Yes, I do.
1260
00:57:16,103 --> 00:57:17,855
- Yes, I had cigarettes.
- Wait, are you getting short?
1261
00:57:17,855 --> 00:57:19,815
- No.
- Oh. Oh yeah.
1262
00:57:19,815 --> 00:57:21,567
Okay. [chuckles]
1263
00:57:21,567 --> 00:57:23,861
Oh, I guess you like
this jacket better, huh?
1264
00:57:23,861 --> 00:57:25,821
[indiscernible]
1265
00:57:25,821 --> 00:57:27,030
- If you could.
1266
00:57:29,867 --> 00:57:30,826
Baba.
1267
00:57:31,910 --> 00:57:32,786
Baba.
1268
00:57:39,293 --> 00:57:42,546
- [Cleo, indistinct]
- No, I'm gonna let him sleep.
1269
00:57:42,546 --> 00:57:44,131
CLEOPATRA:
Yeah, he's not going to wake up.
1270
00:57:46,258 --> 00:57:47,968
[laughs]
1271
00:57:47,968 --> 00:57:49,803
- Yo, this is hilarious.
1272
00:57:49,803 --> 00:57:51,180
SOLOMON:
Bro, you about to have
1273
00:57:51,180 --> 00:57:52,973
a number one-record,
so do you understand that?
1274
00:57:52,973 --> 00:57:54,600
You gonna have a number-one record.
1275
00:57:54,600 --> 00:57:56,810
You about to have
the biggest song in the country
1276
00:57:56,810 --> 00:57:57,895
very soon.
1277
00:57:57,895 --> 00:57:59,271
WOMAN: For real.
- Very soon.
1278
00:57:59,271 --> 00:58:00,731
- Viral.
- So, just leave
1279
00:58:00,731 --> 00:58:02,691
all the BS alone, bro.
1280
00:58:03,734 --> 00:58:06,528
The really important thing is to ignore--
1281
00:58:06,528 --> 00:58:08,488
JAHSEH:
Ignore her. I know that, yeah.
1282
00:58:08,488 --> 00:58:09,990
- Keep away from all that bullshit
1283
00:58:09,990 --> 00:58:11,825
because it's not worth it. You feel me?
1284
00:58:11,825 --> 00:58:13,660
Look what you already
went through over that.
1285
00:58:13,660 --> 00:58:14,912
- Understood.
1286
00:58:14,912 --> 00:58:15,996
CLEOPATRA:
And look where you're going.
1287
00:58:15,996 --> 00:58:17,206
- Facts.
WOMAN: For real.
1288
00:58:17,206 --> 00:58:19,291
Look what he have right now, like...
1289
00:58:19,291 --> 00:58:21,335
SOLOMON:
Now is about your family
1290
00:58:21,335 --> 00:58:23,420
and about your life, about your career,
1291
00:58:23,420 --> 00:58:25,839
about you accomplishing
everything you ever wanted.
1292
00:58:25,839 --> 00:58:27,841
That's the only thing that matters, man.
1293
00:58:27,841 --> 00:58:29,968
Leave everything else in the past, bro.
1294
00:58:29,968 --> 00:58:31,220
And just make the most out of it.
1295
00:58:31,220 --> 00:58:32,554
Make your little brother proud.
1296
00:58:32,554 --> 00:58:33,555
Make your mother proud.
1297
00:58:33,555 --> 00:58:34,973
Make your family proud, bruh.
1298
00:58:34,973 --> 00:58:36,558
Every, all everybody wants
1299
00:58:36,558 --> 00:58:39,061
is just to be proud of you.
You know what I mean?
1300
00:58:39,061 --> 00:58:41,647
For you to change the lineage
of the Onfroys
1301
00:58:41,647 --> 00:58:43,273
for the rest of eternity.
1302
00:58:44,775 --> 00:58:47,778
CLEOPATRA:
And you are the example right now.
1303
00:58:47,778 --> 00:58:50,489
I mean, I'm not saying
you are a role model like that,
1304
00:58:50,489 --> 00:58:54,535
but people are looking at you,
and you now have
1305
00:58:54,535 --> 00:58:57,871
a lot of responsibilities as a grown man.
1306
00:58:58,372 --> 00:59:00,415
- You hear that?
You got a lot of responsibility.
1307
00:59:00,415 --> 00:59:03,168
[laughter]
1308
00:59:03,168 --> 00:59:04,586
I'm handing this to you.
1309
00:59:05,462 --> 00:59:07,464
- As a grown man.
1310
00:59:08,382 --> 00:59:09,842
- Yeah?
WOMAN: So cute.
1311
00:59:11,218 --> 00:59:13,136
- All right, I understand.
1312
00:59:13,679 --> 00:59:15,013
- You're going to be just fine.
1313
00:59:15,013 --> 00:59:16,557
- I'mma just take it one step at a time.
1314
00:59:16,557 --> 00:59:18,851
- That's all you can do, man,
just take it one step at a time
1315
00:59:18,851 --> 00:59:20,602
and just try to do the right thing.
1316
00:59:20,602 --> 00:59:22,437
- Yeah.
- That's all that counts, man.
1317
00:59:27,109 --> 00:59:28,902
JAHSEH: This is the story,
this is the full story,
1318
00:59:28,902 --> 00:59:30,320
and this is the last time I'll tell it.
1319
00:59:32,155 --> 00:59:34,783
She was already bruised on her face
1320
00:59:36,076 --> 00:59:38,120
all while she was staying with me.
1321
00:59:38,662 --> 00:59:41,623
She was already bruised on her face.
1322
00:59:41,623 --> 00:59:44,793
Now with the, the severe bruising,
1323
00:59:44,793 --> 00:59:47,963
I don't know how the fucking
severe bruising came about.
1324
00:59:47,963 --> 00:59:51,300
But she had, like, bruises
on the left side of her face
1325
00:59:51,300 --> 00:59:52,593
while she was at Bruno's.
1326
00:59:53,260 --> 00:59:54,761
I think she got jumped.
1327
00:59:54,761 --> 00:59:56,263
That's what I,
that's what I told everybody.
1328
00:59:56,263 --> 00:59:58,390
Like, yo, she got jumped because I'm...
1329
00:59:58,390 --> 00:59:59,892
because the way she was fucked up,
1330
00:59:59,892 --> 01:00:01,268
I think she got jumped.
1331
01:00:01,268 --> 01:00:02,352
They're not going to admit to it.
1332
01:00:02,352 --> 01:00:03,645
I don't, I don't give a fuck.
1333
01:00:03,645 --> 01:00:04,855
That's not my part of the story.
1334
01:00:05,647 --> 01:00:08,901
That... that bitch got whooped. Bad.
1335
01:00:10,027 --> 01:00:12,154
Whooped. So...
1336
01:00:12,154 --> 01:00:14,072
I didn't beat her, nor do I give a fuck
1337
01:00:14,072 --> 01:00:15,199
about who beat her at this time,
1338
01:00:15,199 --> 01:00:16,617
because now I know she's an evil bitch.
1339
01:00:17,326 --> 01:00:18,493
There's the story.
1340
01:00:26,043 --> 01:00:28,295
- Jahseh was like,
no, Mom, it's not true.
1341
01:00:30,214 --> 01:00:32,758
And, um, a part of me, you know,
1342
01:00:33,550 --> 01:00:34,760
took that and ran with it.
1343
01:00:44,394 --> 01:00:47,272
[indiscernible conversations]
1344
01:00:47,272 --> 01:00:48,690
CLEOPATRA:
I mean, that's my son.
1345
01:00:48,690 --> 01:00:51,527
Even if he's Hitler, that's my son.
1346
01:00:51,527 --> 01:00:54,071
If he's the devil, that's my son.
I birthed him.
1347
01:00:54,071 --> 01:00:56,573
Wrong, right, or indifferent,
I'm going to have his back no matter what,
1348
01:00:56,573 --> 01:00:58,659
and I'm going to have
his best interests at heart.
1349
01:00:58,659 --> 01:01:01,870
So, naturally, for me,
I want to save my child.
1350
01:01:01,870 --> 01:01:04,581
Any mother would have done the same thing,
1351
01:01:04,581 --> 01:01:05,541
I would think.
1352
01:01:06,750 --> 01:01:10,295
[indiscernible chatter]
1353
01:01:10,295 --> 01:01:11,922
JAHSEH:
I could never repay my mom
1354
01:01:12,714 --> 01:01:14,091
for the amount of pain
1355
01:01:14,091 --> 01:01:16,260
that she's been through,
and I gave her more.
1356
01:01:16,260 --> 01:01:19,054
And she still stood there
hanging on with broken hands.
1357
01:01:21,306 --> 01:01:22,599
I could never repay her for that.
1358
01:01:22,599 --> 01:01:24,268
I am forever in her debt,
and I do everything
1359
01:01:24,268 --> 01:01:27,437
that I still do now
for my fans and for my mother.
1360
01:01:27,437 --> 01:01:30,023
[fans cheering]
1361
01:01:30,023 --> 01:01:33,110
[shouting]
1362
01:01:35,571 --> 01:01:37,406
JAHSEH:
There's most definitely a difference
1363
01:01:37,406 --> 01:01:40,534
between Jahseh Onfroy and XXXTentacion.
1364
01:01:40,534 --> 01:01:43,370
[fans cheering]
1365
01:01:45,789 --> 01:01:47,749
Nobody cared about Jahseh Onfroy.
1366
01:01:48,417 --> 01:01:49,501
MAN: Do that. Do that.
1367
01:01:49,501 --> 01:01:51,170
[shouting]
MAN 2: Bro, chill out.
1368
01:01:51,170 --> 01:01:53,297
- Jahseh Onfroy was very meek.
1369
01:01:54,381 --> 01:01:55,883
Jahseh Onfroy was weak.
1370
01:01:55,883 --> 01:01:58,343
- You're leaving now.
OFFICER: Now. Everybody go.
1371
01:01:58,343 --> 01:02:00,888
- You take everybody out the door now.
1372
01:02:00,888 --> 01:02:03,891
JAHSEH: Nobody gave a fuck
about me as an individual.
1373
01:02:03,891 --> 01:02:06,101
Nobody gave a fuck about how I felt.
1374
01:02:08,520 --> 01:02:10,397
Now, my opinion is respected,
1375
01:02:10,898 --> 01:02:13,275
and every move I make
is recorded and calculated.
1376
01:02:14,359 --> 01:02:15,986
Nobody cared about Jahseh Onfroy
1377
01:02:15,986 --> 01:02:18,447
until he took on the persona as XXX.
1378
01:02:18,447 --> 01:02:21,533
[fans shouting]
1379
01:02:28,874 --> 01:02:30,125
BASS: Darkness sells.
1380
01:02:31,043 --> 01:02:32,461
Bad things sells.
1381
01:02:32,461 --> 01:02:34,880
The shit that your parents
tell you not to do sells.
1382
01:02:34,880 --> 01:02:36,590
You pick up on that shit
quick in this industry.
1383
01:02:36,590 --> 01:02:38,300
So, when you're trying to go ahead,
1384
01:02:38,300 --> 01:02:39,551
that's usually the formula.
1385
01:02:41,678 --> 01:02:43,472
JAHSEH:
I'm gonna make the world hate me.
I'm gonna make the world hate me.
1386
01:02:43,472 --> 01:02:45,557
I'm gonna be like,
I'm gonna be the super villain.
1387
01:02:45,557 --> 01:02:47,142
I'm gonna make this whole thing crumble.
1388
01:02:47,142 --> 01:02:48,101
WOMAN: People like the villains.
1389
01:02:48,101 --> 01:02:50,479
- Yeah, they do. [laughs]
1390
01:02:50,479 --> 01:02:52,231
Yeah, I definitely agree.
They definitely...
1391
01:02:52,231 --> 01:02:54,525
I'm gonna, I'm gonna ruin
everything for everybody.
1392
01:02:56,610 --> 01:02:59,112
MAN: When I really knew
that we were really doing
1393
01:02:59,112 --> 01:03:01,448
something crazy was Revenge tour.
1394
01:03:02,533 --> 01:03:03,784
COOLIECUT:
The shows were huge.
1395
01:03:03,784 --> 01:03:05,369
I ain't even expect that.
1396
01:03:05,369 --> 01:03:06,912
I don't even think he expected it.
1397
01:03:06,912 --> 01:03:09,414
SKI: It was so relieving
to see Jah's efforts
1398
01:03:09,414 --> 01:03:11,542
of always doing some outlandish shit
1399
01:03:12,292 --> 01:03:14,378
actually make sense.
1400
01:03:14,378 --> 01:03:15,963
Like, there was a method to the madness,
1401
01:03:15,963 --> 01:03:18,298
and it worked hella good.
1402
01:03:18,298 --> 01:03:20,384
♪ And boy, I'm sippin' tea in yo' hood ♪
1403
01:03:20,384 --> 01:03:22,386
♪ What the fuck is up, you buttercup ♪
1404
01:03:22,386 --> 01:03:23,637
♪ Purrp in that blunt ♪
1405
01:03:23,637 --> 01:03:25,347
♪ Smoking suicide, bloody blunts ♪
1406
01:03:25,347 --> 01:03:27,641
♪ Pussy boy,
you talkin' shit for Twitter ♪
1407
01:03:27,641 --> 01:03:28,767
♪ It ain't addin' up ♪
1408
01:03:28,767 --> 01:03:30,018
♪ How these pussy niggas ♪
1409
01:03:30,018 --> 01:03:31,645
Jah was a real showman.
1410
01:03:31,645 --> 01:03:34,106
Every single night, he's trying
to outdo the last night.
1411
01:03:34,106 --> 01:03:36,233
You know, what could I do
that's more memorable
1412
01:03:36,233 --> 01:03:37,234
than the last night?
1413
01:03:37,234 --> 01:03:38,193
♪ I love it when they run ♪
1414
01:03:38,777 --> 01:03:40,362
♪ Fuck all that talkin' shit ♪
1415
01:03:40,362 --> 01:03:41,989
♪ Do that shit for fun, uh ♪
1416
01:03:42,364 --> 01:03:44,700
- And when I say go, you rush me
1417
01:03:44,700 --> 01:03:46,118
and you fuck me up.
1418
01:03:46,118 --> 01:03:47,160
You hear me?
1419
01:03:47,160 --> 01:03:49,246
CROWD [shouting]: Yeah!
1420
01:03:49,246 --> 01:03:51,206
♪ Bitch, I'm sippin' tea in yo' hood ♪
1421
01:03:51,206 --> 01:03:52,457
♪ What the fuck is up ♪
1422
01:03:52,457 --> 01:03:54,418
♪ Bitch, I'm sippin' tea in yo' hood ♪
1423
01:03:54,418 --> 01:03:55,794
♪ What the fuck is up ♪
1424
01:03:55,794 --> 01:03:57,379
JAHSEH:
We're going to play this shit,
1425
01:03:57,379 --> 01:03:58,922
and I'm going to try and commit suicide.
1426
01:03:58,922 --> 01:04:00,966
Okay. You ready?
1427
01:04:14,813 --> 01:04:16,356
MAN:
I remember being at these shows
1428
01:04:16,356 --> 01:04:19,151
and watching these kids soak in every word
1429
01:04:19,151 --> 01:04:21,069
that Jah said.
1430
01:04:21,069 --> 01:04:24,615
The way he would speak to them at mass,
1431
01:04:24,615 --> 01:04:26,074
would kind of be like a mass.
1432
01:04:26,074 --> 01:04:27,826
It would be like church for them.
1433
01:04:31,622 --> 01:04:34,958
It was like a cult,
and he would be like their God.
1434
01:04:52,726 --> 01:04:55,020
CROWD: Yeah.
JAHSEH: Now, now...
1435
01:04:55,020 --> 01:04:57,898
if you want to find your purpose
and you reach for the stars,
1436
01:04:57,898 --> 01:05:00,526
people will often tell you
that it's not possible.
1437
01:05:00,526 --> 01:05:03,403
Let me ask you something:
do you think
1438
01:05:03,403 --> 01:05:06,532
you can be right here
and right where the fuck you want to be?
1439
01:05:06,532 --> 01:05:08,492
[crowd shouts]
1440
01:05:08,492 --> 01:05:09,576
Let me hear it!
1441
01:05:09,576 --> 01:05:11,036
[crowd shouts]
1442
01:05:12,621 --> 01:05:14,164
SOLOMON: I remember him
always telling me, like,
1443
01:05:14,164 --> 01:05:16,416
I'm making music for the broken people,
1444
01:05:16,416 --> 01:05:19,002
for the people that feel how I feel.
1445
01:05:19,002 --> 01:05:21,004
[singing]
1446
01:06:05,132 --> 01:06:07,843
[indistinct]
1447
01:06:13,265 --> 01:06:17,269
♪
1448
01:06:33,452 --> 01:06:36,121
- Why the fuck are y'all
reporting me, bruh?
1449
01:06:36,121 --> 01:06:37,998
I am @instagram.
1450
01:06:37,998 --> 01:06:40,542
I'm not fucking posting nothing, bruh.
1451
01:06:40,542 --> 01:06:42,461
This is not fair.
1452
01:06:42,461 --> 01:06:44,713
That's the third account
I've lost to Instagram
1453
01:06:44,713 --> 01:06:47,174
because of fucking hatin'-ass X fans.
1454
01:06:47,174 --> 01:06:48,425
And I fucking hate y'all.
1455
01:06:48,425 --> 01:06:50,219
And I wish I could just take my soul
1456
01:06:50,219 --> 01:06:52,804
and put it in another
fucking body or something
1457
01:06:52,804 --> 01:06:55,224
because I fucking hate myself
because of y'all.
1458
01:06:55,974 --> 01:06:58,393
I'm not crying because
Instagram is my life, bro.
1459
01:06:58,393 --> 01:07:00,729
I'm crying because y'all are
my income, bro.
1460
01:07:00,729 --> 01:07:01,855
Like, I...
1461
01:07:03,565 --> 01:07:07,611
I couldn't get a job
because the situation was so popular
1462
01:07:07,611 --> 01:07:09,905
that people would come
into the place I work
1463
01:07:09,905 --> 01:07:11,907
and they'll just, like, ask me questions.
1464
01:07:11,907 --> 01:07:13,659
And like, the situation's fresh.
1465
01:07:13,659 --> 01:07:15,285
I would start crying to the point
1466
01:07:15,285 --> 01:07:17,120
where the managers were like,
"Why are you always crying?
1467
01:07:17,120 --> 01:07:18,413
Like, we don't need this."
1468
01:07:19,122 --> 01:07:21,625
And everybody was like,
"You're ruining his career."
1469
01:07:21,625 --> 01:07:23,168
But at the same time,
1470
01:07:23,168 --> 01:07:24,503
I felt like my whole life was ruined
1471
01:07:24,503 --> 01:07:27,256
because nobody even cared.
1472
01:07:27,256 --> 01:07:28,841
Like, after that, I was homeless, like...
1473
01:07:29,800 --> 01:07:32,177
I lived in a hotel for, like,
almost a year after that
1474
01:07:32,177 --> 01:07:35,889
and the whole time, I'm like,
"Everybody hates me
1475
01:07:35,889 --> 01:07:38,809
when I was just trying
to say what happened."
1476
01:07:40,394 --> 01:07:42,312
And on top of that, they were
asking me what happened.
1477
01:07:42,312 --> 01:07:44,356
Like, everybody was like
asking me what happened,
1478
01:07:44,356 --> 01:07:45,858
and I'm trying to tell it.
1479
01:07:45,858 --> 01:07:48,151
If you're going to think
that I'm a liar, I'm a liar.
1480
01:07:48,944 --> 01:07:50,195
Because how am I supposed to fight that?
1481
01:07:50,195 --> 01:07:51,613
I'm only one person.
1482
01:07:56,326 --> 01:07:58,161
It was really a dark moment for me.
1483
01:07:58,161 --> 01:08:01,874
And there was no way
that I could just stop it.
1484
01:08:01,874 --> 01:08:03,250
He had the power to do all that.
1485
01:08:05,169 --> 01:08:06,420
♪ Look at me, what ♪
1486
01:08:06,420 --> 01:08:08,547
♪ Ayy, look at me, fuck on me ♪
1487
01:08:08,547 --> 01:08:10,215
♪ Look at me, fuck on me ♪
1488
01:08:10,215 --> 01:08:12,009
♪ Look at me, fuck on me ♪
1489
01:08:12,009 --> 01:08:13,218
♪ Look at me, yah ♪
1490
01:08:19,183 --> 01:08:23,145
[crowd cheering]
1491
01:08:23,145 --> 01:08:25,147
EMCEE:
Rolling Loud make some noise
1492
01:08:25,147 --> 01:08:27,482
one time for XXX!
1493
01:08:27,482 --> 01:08:28,942
Ayy!
1494
01:08:28,942 --> 01:08:31,153
- I love you. I love you all. Goodnight.
1495
01:08:34,781 --> 01:08:35,866
I could pay your mama house payment.
1496
01:08:37,993 --> 01:08:39,661
I could pay your mortgage, baby.
1497
01:08:41,455 --> 01:08:43,790
MAN:
Woo. I said, "When can I drive it?"
1498
01:08:46,168 --> 01:08:48,754
JAHSEH: Can't forget.
[plastic rustling]
1499
01:08:50,923 --> 01:08:52,299
You see this fucking mug shot
1500
01:08:52,883 --> 01:08:54,092
on the platinum plaque?
1501
01:08:54,635 --> 01:08:56,220
Yeah, bitch. [chuckles]
1502
01:08:56,845 --> 01:08:57,721
Viral.
1503
01:08:59,014 --> 01:09:02,184
JOHN:
I met Jahseh in early August.
1504
01:09:02,184 --> 01:09:05,437
He was coming to L.A.
to finish his album 17.
1505
01:09:05,437 --> 01:09:07,481
I was waiting for them in the studio
1506
01:09:07,481 --> 01:09:09,858
and, um, while I was waiting
for him to show up,
1507
01:09:09,858 --> 01:09:12,152
I just was kind of playing
the guitar hanging out.
1508
01:09:12,653 --> 01:09:15,656
And he walked in the studio
and introduced himself
1509
01:09:15,656 --> 01:09:16,823
and was like, "You play guitar?"
1510
01:09:16,823 --> 01:09:18,075
And I'm like, "Yeah."
1511
01:09:18,075 --> 01:09:20,452
And then he just started
singing something.
1512
01:09:20,452 --> 01:09:22,412
That night was a long night.
1513
01:09:22,412 --> 01:09:24,039
I remember he goes into the booth,
1514
01:09:24,039 --> 01:09:26,834
and he was trying to kind of
figure out a certain melody,
1515
01:09:26,834 --> 01:09:30,087
and the engineer wasn't
getting the sound right.
1516
01:09:30,087 --> 01:09:32,256
I kind of figured out
what he wanted in his head
1517
01:09:32,256 --> 01:09:34,132
and was able to translate
that a little bit.
1518
01:09:35,008 --> 01:09:36,885
♪ Dead inside ♪
1519
01:09:36,885 --> 01:09:40,597
♪ Spend a lot of time stuck
in this head of mine ♪
1520
01:09:41,098 --> 01:09:44,643
♪ Under the assumption
love is dead, already ♪
1521
01:09:45,644 --> 01:09:47,271
JOHN:
He was one of those people
1522
01:09:47,271 --> 01:09:48,981
that had everything in his head,
1523
01:09:48,981 --> 01:09:50,816
he just didn't know
physically how to, like,
1524
01:09:50,816 --> 01:09:52,276
translate that into a record.
1525
01:09:52,276 --> 01:09:54,194
Like, the process of production.
1526
01:09:54,695 --> 01:09:57,030
And so I kind of just started
fitting in there.
1527
01:09:58,323 --> 01:10:00,284
♪ Dead inside ♪
1528
01:10:00,868 --> 01:10:04,955
♪ Spend a lot of time stuck
in this head of mine ♪
1529
01:10:05,330 --> 01:10:07,457
SOLOMON: I know a lot of fans,
a lot of people thought
1530
01:10:07,457 --> 01:10:09,543
he was going to make an album
full of "Look at Me's,"
1531
01:10:09,543 --> 01:10:13,130
but instead, he made this vulnerable
1532
01:10:13,130 --> 01:10:15,799
emotional masterpiece, really.
1533
01:10:16,842 --> 01:10:21,305
I remember when 17 came out,
I was worried at the time
1534
01:10:21,305 --> 01:10:24,057
because as amazing as I thought
the project was, I was like,
1535
01:10:24,057 --> 01:10:25,642
"Yo, people are either going to love this
1536
01:10:25,642 --> 01:10:26,894
or they're going to hate this."
1537
01:10:26,894 --> 01:10:28,187
I didn't really think
there was going to be
1538
01:10:28,187 --> 01:10:29,396
an in between.
1539
01:10:29,396 --> 01:10:31,899
So... people love it.
1540
01:10:31,899 --> 01:10:33,483
♪ Tired of feelin' like I'm
trapped in my damn mind ♪
1541
01:10:33,483 --> 01:10:35,360
♪ Tired of feelin' like I'm
wrapped in a damn lie ♪
1542
01:10:35,360 --> 01:10:37,237
♪ Tired of feelin' like
my life is a damn game ♪
1543
01:10:37,237 --> 01:10:39,114
♪ Nigga really wanna die
in the nighttime ♪
1544
01:10:39,114 --> 01:10:41,033
♪ Only time I feel pain,
when I'm feelin' love ♪
1545
01:10:41,033 --> 01:10:43,911
SOLOMON: I remember
Kendrick Lamar giving it praise.
1546
01:10:43,911 --> 01:10:46,955
So many people really,
really, really surprised
1547
01:10:46,955 --> 01:10:49,541
at how Jah just left
his soul on that project.
1548
01:10:49,541 --> 01:10:53,003
He just gave it to you.
It was raw. It was honest.
1549
01:10:53,003 --> 01:10:54,213
It was everything.
1550
01:10:54,671 --> 01:10:57,257
And also nothing like
we've ever heard before.
1551
01:11:03,931 --> 01:11:05,682
MARC:
My first article about XXXTentacion
1552
01:11:05,682 --> 01:11:07,226
was in February of 2017,
1553
01:11:07,226 --> 01:11:08,519
and he was already blowing up.
1554
01:11:09,144 --> 01:11:11,230
Around the time that X was
blowing up was the moment
1555
01:11:11,230 --> 01:11:13,565
when people were becoming more conscious
1556
01:11:13,565 --> 01:11:15,359
of what kind of values
they wanted to support.
1557
01:11:15,359 --> 01:11:18,487
It was a strange moment
for somebody to be coming up
1558
01:11:18,487 --> 01:11:21,907
who also had these terrible
allegations attached to him.
1559
01:11:34,127 --> 01:11:36,380
So, at this point, people are
listening to his music,
1560
01:11:36,380 --> 01:11:37,965
people that we respect and admire
1561
01:11:37,965 --> 01:11:40,050
are recommending his music.
1562
01:11:40,050 --> 01:11:41,385
There's more to the story.
1563
01:11:41,385 --> 01:11:43,637
Here's what this young woman
said under oath
1564
01:11:43,637 --> 01:11:44,638
he did to her.
1565
01:12:02,030 --> 01:12:03,824
JAHSEH:
Y'all niggas mad I'm successful?
1566
01:12:03,824 --> 01:12:05,701
[bleep] my [bleep]!
1567
01:12:05,701 --> 01:12:07,494
No, but on some real shit,
1568
01:12:08,787 --> 01:12:10,038
if you don't like me,
1569
01:12:11,248 --> 01:12:13,750
refer me to your auntie, so that I,
1570
01:12:13,750 --> 01:12:15,419
I put my [bleep] in her [bleep]
1571
01:12:15,419 --> 01:12:17,379
'cause if y'all really think
I ever gave a fuck
1572
01:12:17,379 --> 01:12:19,047
about anything y'all be saying,
1573
01:12:19,047 --> 01:12:20,716
all right, y'all going
to make me miserable.
1574
01:12:20,716 --> 01:12:23,218
[bleep] y'all little sisters.
They [bleep].
1575
01:12:23,218 --> 01:12:25,512
I swear to god. I swear to god.
1576
01:12:25,512 --> 01:12:29,224
Everybody that called me
a domestic abuser,
1577
01:12:29,224 --> 01:12:32,144
I'm finna domestically abuse
your little sister [bleep]
1578
01:12:32,144 --> 01:12:33,395
from the back...
1579
01:12:34,021 --> 01:12:35,522
[cackles]
1580
01:12:35,856 --> 01:12:37,191
Is this making you mad yet?
1581
01:12:38,066 --> 01:12:39,776
If you hate me, are you mad yet?
1582
01:12:40,360 --> 01:12:41,945
Are you going to go on Reddit and post
1583
01:12:41,945 --> 01:12:43,572
really bad things about me?
1584
01:12:44,198 --> 01:12:46,783
Hashtag insensitive.
1585
01:12:47,659 --> 01:12:49,453
GHAZI SHAMI:
He had gone on social media,
1586
01:12:49,453 --> 01:12:51,914
and I think it was on his story
1587
01:12:52,497 --> 01:12:54,374
and he had a girl next to him
1588
01:12:54,374 --> 01:12:55,792
and they were laughing and giggling
1589
01:12:55,792 --> 01:12:57,127
and he made a pretty...
1590
01:12:58,337 --> 01:13:00,589
aggressive remark towards women.
1591
01:13:00,589 --> 01:13:03,592
And, um, it was pretty bad.
1592
01:13:03,592 --> 01:13:05,928
I mean, it was bad enough
that women in my office
1593
01:13:05,928 --> 01:13:07,095
were talking about it.
1594
01:13:07,095 --> 01:13:08,388
And so...
1595
01:13:09,223 --> 01:13:11,600
we all decided to jump
on the phone with him.
1596
01:13:11,600 --> 01:13:14,394
It was me, his mom...
1597
01:13:15,771 --> 01:13:18,440
Solomon,
the criminal attorney,
1598
01:13:19,191 --> 01:13:20,734
and the entertainment attorney.
1599
01:13:21,985 --> 01:13:23,654
I don't think anybody else
was on the call.
1600
01:13:23,654 --> 01:13:25,155
It was a group call.
1601
01:13:25,155 --> 01:13:28,158
And they kind of wanted to address
some of his actions.
1602
01:13:28,158 --> 01:13:30,994
And he wasn't fucking with it.
1603
01:13:32,120 --> 01:13:33,330
He was really upset.
1604
01:13:33,956 --> 01:13:35,207
Started yelling at us.
1605
01:13:35,207 --> 01:13:36,917
He was always adamant that he wanted
1606
01:13:36,917 --> 01:13:38,919
to express whatever it was
he wanted to express,
1607
01:13:38,919 --> 01:13:41,380
and he didn't give a fuck what anybody had
to think about it.
1608
01:13:42,381 --> 01:13:43,507
And so...
1609
01:13:45,008 --> 01:13:47,010
I remember we hung up the phone,
1610
01:13:47,010 --> 01:13:48,637
but I called him
1611
01:13:48,637 --> 01:13:51,348
and I was like,
"Bro, let me holler at you."
1612
01:13:51,890 --> 01:13:53,058
And he was like, "What's up?"
1613
01:13:53,976 --> 01:13:55,060
And I said to him.
1614
01:13:57,187 --> 01:13:59,439
"You know, you've spent...
1615
01:14:00,607 --> 01:14:03,777
"all this time building this relationship
1616
01:14:03,777 --> 01:14:05,821
"to your audience on social media.
1617
01:14:06,780 --> 01:14:09,700
"And I know you really love
1618
01:14:09,700 --> 01:14:11,535
"and cherish this role of the villain
1619
01:14:12,703 --> 01:14:14,663
"and the villain
has gotten you pretty far,
1620
01:14:15,622 --> 01:14:17,708
"but I don't think you need
to be the villain anymore.
1621
01:14:17,708 --> 01:14:20,169
You're already poppin'.
Just be who you are."
1622
01:14:20,711 --> 01:14:24,423
And I don't know, for whatever reason,
1623
01:14:24,423 --> 01:14:26,466
I don't know if it was that conversation,
1624
01:14:26,466 --> 01:14:28,760
I don't know if he had
other conversations with his mom
1625
01:14:28,760 --> 01:14:31,513
or his other friends
around him or whatever.
1626
01:14:31,513 --> 01:14:33,432
But I want to say that, like,
1627
01:14:33,432 --> 01:14:36,393
something definitely changed
after that incident.
1628
01:14:36,393 --> 01:14:37,978
Things started to change with him.
1629
01:14:37,978 --> 01:14:39,188
[sniffs]
1630
01:14:40,022 --> 01:14:43,150
- Um, I apologize to anyone I've offended
1631
01:14:43,150 --> 01:14:44,693
within the last couple hours.
1632
01:14:44,693 --> 01:14:46,528
Obviously, you guys know
I'm going through a lot
1633
01:14:46,528 --> 01:14:48,405
just, uh, due to this case.
1634
01:14:48,405 --> 01:14:50,365
If I want to assert myself
1635
01:14:50,365 --> 01:14:52,534
in my career or have my views respected,
1636
01:14:52,534 --> 01:14:55,287
I realize that I have
to treat everything with care
1637
01:14:55,287 --> 01:14:57,372
and take time
and have patience with people.
1638
01:14:57,372 --> 01:14:59,541
I just want people to know
that I'm not trying to lead
1639
01:14:59,541 --> 01:15:02,503
their children down a dark, dark path,
1640
01:15:02,503 --> 01:15:04,588
and that I really want something
good for the human race.
1641
01:15:04,588 --> 01:15:07,299
So, with that being said,
I hope everyone has a good...
1642
01:15:07,299 --> 01:15:09,635
BASS: There's some issues
where people need to be scrutinized
1643
01:15:09,635 --> 01:15:11,094
and some issues where people just need
1644
01:15:11,094 --> 01:15:12,930
to be put away. You feel me?
1645
01:15:12,930 --> 01:15:15,057
But there are some issues
where people need help,
1646
01:15:15,057 --> 01:15:16,517
especially kids.
1647
01:15:17,017 --> 01:15:18,435
He was mature.
1648
01:15:18,435 --> 01:15:20,604
Streetwise, he was mature.
1649
01:15:20,604 --> 01:15:23,899
He was music business savvy.
You know I mean?
1650
01:15:23,899 --> 01:15:25,150
He had a lot of--
1651
01:15:25,150 --> 01:15:27,236
So, he had to have
some type of, like, hustle
1652
01:15:27,236 --> 01:15:29,446
in his family background,
you could tell that.
1653
01:15:29,446 --> 01:15:32,032
But at the end of the day,
like emotionally,
1654
01:15:32,032 --> 01:15:33,867
he wasn't, he wasn't there yet.
1655
01:15:40,499 --> 01:15:42,918
- It made me, I mean,
it made me sad, you know.
1656
01:15:42,918 --> 01:15:45,420
He allegedly did to her
what she, what he allegedly did.
1657
01:15:45,420 --> 01:15:47,923
But that doesn't mean
that he didn't suffer as well.
1658
01:15:47,923 --> 01:15:50,092
That doesn't make him just
a two-dimensional person, either.
1659
01:16:22,916 --> 01:16:24,960
SOLOMON:
I saw him battle with his demons
1660
01:16:24,960 --> 01:16:26,461
from the very beginning.
1661
01:16:26,461 --> 01:16:28,088
I wish I could have helped more.
1662
01:16:28,088 --> 01:16:29,965
I didn't know how to help.
I didn't know what to do.
1663
01:16:30,424 --> 01:16:33,135
- It's one of those days where you realize
nothing fucking matters.
1664
01:16:35,804 --> 01:16:38,015
One of those days where you feel
like driving off a bridge.
1665
01:16:40,642 --> 01:16:42,269
Am I really quitting? Yes, I'm quitting.
1666
01:16:43,061 --> 01:16:44,396
I don't know for how long.
1667
01:16:44,396 --> 01:16:46,440
But I'm just not going
to make music right now.
1668
01:16:47,691 --> 01:16:51,028
I mean, it's just been
that my mind's been fucked up.
1669
01:16:51,028 --> 01:16:52,863
My mind has been somewhere else.
1670
01:16:53,280 --> 01:16:57,868
SOLOMON: He saw a doctor
and was diagnosed as bipolar.
1671
01:16:58,619 --> 01:17:00,579
They were giving him medicine to take.
1672
01:17:00,579 --> 01:17:02,748
You know, he hated
the medicine, of course.
1673
01:17:02,748 --> 01:17:07,002
The medicine made him dull, uncreative.
1674
01:17:07,002 --> 01:17:09,755
It was hard for him to be himself.
1675
01:17:09,755 --> 01:17:11,381
- What are they going to say now?
1676
01:17:12,841 --> 01:17:14,468
Isn't it clear I don't give a fuck?
1677
01:17:15,427 --> 01:17:17,638
CLEOPATRA:
He made himself ugly at one point
1678
01:17:17,638 --> 01:17:19,890
by shaving off his eyebrows,
that's what he called it,
1679
01:17:19,890 --> 01:17:21,850
shedding who he was.
1680
01:17:21,850 --> 01:17:24,394
JAHSEH: If you feel
as if your physical identity
1681
01:17:24,394 --> 01:17:26,813
has to be the same as everyone else's
1682
01:17:26,813 --> 01:17:29,066
to be socially acceptable, you're stupid.
1683
01:17:29,858 --> 01:17:31,360
Be yourself.
1684
01:17:31,360 --> 01:17:33,028
COOLIECUT:
He wanted to trip acid.
1685
01:17:33,779 --> 01:17:35,405
I think he was kind of trying
to free his mind
1686
01:17:35,405 --> 01:17:37,032
from everything that was going on.
1687
01:17:37,616 --> 01:17:40,035
But it was kind of
to dig deeper into yourself
1688
01:17:40,035 --> 01:17:42,079
to understand like,
"Why you think like this?
1689
01:17:42,079 --> 01:17:43,664
Why do you act like that?"
1690
01:17:43,664 --> 01:17:46,333
He wanted to shed his skin.
He kept saying it to me.
1691
01:17:46,333 --> 01:17:48,168
He was like,
"Bro, I feel like I don't like this.
1692
01:17:48,168 --> 01:17:49,920
You feel me? The skin I'm in."
1693
01:17:49,920 --> 01:17:51,421
He just meant like he wanted to become
1694
01:17:51,421 --> 01:17:53,006
a better person, you know what I mean?
1695
01:17:53,006 --> 01:17:54,550
He just kept saying that over and over.
1696
01:17:54,550 --> 01:17:55,926
I was like, "Yeah, I feel you, bro.
1697
01:17:55,926 --> 01:17:57,177
"We're going to get through this.
1698
01:17:57,177 --> 01:17:58,929
"You're going to become
a better person, bro. Don't worry."
1699
01:17:59,429 --> 01:18:02,349
♪ The way I feel now ♪
1700
01:18:04,518 --> 01:18:07,354
♪ Just can't compare ♪
1701
01:18:09,314 --> 01:18:12,067
JOHN: He was going through a lot
and we would be making songs
1702
01:18:12,067 --> 01:18:14,069
and sometimes in between the process,
1703
01:18:14,069 --> 01:18:16,864
I would kind of leave my phone
on just forgetting about it,
1704
01:18:16,864 --> 01:18:19,283
and then we would start
talking about something.
1705
01:18:20,200 --> 01:18:21,493
This is one.
1706
01:19:41,657 --> 01:19:43,283
- ♪ Hello ♪
- ♪ Hello ♪
1707
01:19:43,283 --> 01:19:45,327
♪ From the dark side in ♪
1708
01:19:45,327 --> 01:19:49,248
♪ Does anybody ever want to be my friend ♪
1709
01:19:49,248 --> 01:19:50,165
♪ My friend ♪
1710
01:19:50,165 --> 01:19:52,292
♪ Want it all to end ♪
1711
01:19:52,292 --> 01:19:56,255
♪ Tell me when the fuck
is it all gon' end ♪
1712
01:19:56,880 --> 01:19:59,007
♪ Voices in my head ♪
1713
01:19:59,007 --> 01:20:03,136
♪ Telling me I'm gonna end up dead ♪
1714
01:20:08,642 --> 01:20:10,853
♪ So save me ♪
1715
01:20:10,853 --> 01:20:12,563
♪ Save me ♪
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01:20:13,772 --> 01:20:16,775
♪ Before I fall ♪
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01:20:22,239 --> 01:20:23,699
- Okay, guys, so basically,
1718
01:20:23,699 --> 01:20:25,909
this is what I wanted to explain today,
1719
01:20:25,909 --> 01:20:27,995
um, just based off of what I've learned.
1720
01:20:28,412 --> 01:20:31,665
You have to take a second to sit down
to thoroughly observe your patterns.
1721
01:20:31,665 --> 01:20:33,709
Do you move when you don't want to move?
1722
01:20:33,709 --> 01:20:36,253
Do you get angry
when you don't want to get angry?
1723
01:20:36,253 --> 01:20:37,796
You have to fix
these things about yourself.
1724
01:20:37,796 --> 01:20:39,673
You have to give a fuck about yourself.
1725
01:20:39,673 --> 01:20:41,592
And that makes life so much better.
1726
01:20:41,592 --> 01:20:43,302
Like, I'm learning to do it now.
1727
01:20:43,302 --> 01:20:45,762
And it makes life 10 times better.
1728
01:20:45,762 --> 01:20:46,889
It makes you feel better.
1729
01:20:47,264 --> 01:20:49,016
I want you to start a journal.
1730
01:20:49,892 --> 01:20:52,352
COOLIECUT: That's when
the internal change was happening.
1731
01:20:52,352 --> 01:20:54,104
He was actually changing internally,
1732
01:20:54,104 --> 01:20:55,814
trying to preach a positive message
1733
01:20:55,814 --> 01:20:58,650
because he kind of had a negative impact.
1734
01:20:58,650 --> 01:20:59,943
And he wanted to balance that out.
1735
01:20:59,943 --> 01:21:02,070
JAHSEH: I'm going to stop
calling you guys fans.
1736
01:21:02,070 --> 01:21:04,615
I'm going to start calling you
members of my cult.
1737
01:21:05,032 --> 01:21:07,242
This is a cult. Not a fan base.
1738
01:21:07,242 --> 01:21:10,579
While we have this big family
of a fan base
1739
01:21:10,579 --> 01:21:12,164
and there's a lot of us
that are depressed,
1740
01:21:12,164 --> 01:21:14,499
myself, including myself.
1741
01:21:14,499 --> 01:21:15,626
There's a lot of us that are depressed,
1742
01:21:15,626 --> 01:21:17,586
so just hashtag my name
1743
01:21:17,586 --> 01:21:20,214
and find another person
that listens to my music
1744
01:21:20,214 --> 01:21:21,673
and help them through their problems.
1745
01:21:21,673 --> 01:21:23,967
So, here's what we'll do,
we'll start a hashtag today.
1746
01:21:23,967 --> 01:21:25,928
Um, I want you to get this trending.
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01:21:25,928 --> 01:21:29,264
Hashtag #Youtellmeyourproblems
andI'lltellyoumine,
1748
01:21:29,264 --> 01:21:31,642
and we will use this hashtag
to communicate
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01:21:31,642 --> 01:21:33,977
with other fr-- uh, fans and friends,
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01:21:33,977 --> 01:21:36,480
uh, and that listen to my music,
that need help.
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01:21:36,897 --> 01:21:40,317
- He did not want that image
to follow him around
1752
01:21:40,317 --> 01:21:41,485
for the rest of his life.
1753
01:21:42,361 --> 01:21:44,488
But when it comes
to his relationship with Geneva,
1754
01:21:45,280 --> 01:21:46,990
I do sincerely think that he wanted
1755
01:21:46,990 --> 01:21:49,451
to fix his relationship
with her privately.
1756
01:21:49,451 --> 01:21:53,163
But between the law,
the case, and then the public,
1757
01:21:53,830 --> 01:21:56,041
it, that was like an impossible task.
1758
01:21:56,500 --> 01:21:58,502
- He had what's called
1759
01:21:58,502 --> 01:22:00,879
a no contest order of protection
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01:22:00,879 --> 01:22:02,881
against, uh, Geneva.
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01:22:03,966 --> 01:22:07,344
- ♪ Under the assumption
love is dead, already ♪
1762
01:22:08,679 --> 01:22:10,597
♪ Just let me be here ♪
1763
01:22:12,266 --> 01:22:15,561
One of the girls that he was living with,
she hit me up on Instagram,
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01:22:15,561 --> 01:22:17,271
she told me that Jahseh wanted
to speak to me.
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01:22:18,146 --> 01:22:20,649
And I was like, "What?"
1766
01:22:22,067 --> 01:22:24,236
And I was speaking to him,
I was on FaceTime with him,
1767
01:22:24,236 --> 01:22:26,738
and he was telling me
that he wanted to meet up
1768
01:22:26,738 --> 01:22:28,490
and apologize to me.
1769
01:22:28,490 --> 01:22:29,992
And I was really scared
because I didn't know
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01:22:29,992 --> 01:22:31,243
if it was a setup.
1771
01:22:31,243 --> 01:22:32,995
I was, like, still very afraid of him.
1772
01:22:33,453 --> 01:22:34,580
So, I was scared.
1773
01:22:35,622 --> 01:22:38,417
But I just had to, like, overcome that.
1774
01:22:38,417 --> 01:22:42,087
I felt like I had to face my problems.
1775
01:22:43,130 --> 01:22:46,717
- Reporting live from Florida,
with the alleged hurricane...
1776
01:22:46,717 --> 01:22:48,343
GENEVA:
We'd, like, hang out here and there.
1777
01:22:48,343 --> 01:22:50,762
I spent a whole weekend with him
1778
01:22:50,762 --> 01:22:53,807
during a hurricane
and like, nobody even knew.
1779
01:22:53,807 --> 01:22:56,185
People online would be like,
they hate each other.
1780
01:22:56,602 --> 01:22:58,353
But in reality, like, we were talking.
1781
01:22:59,771 --> 01:23:03,817
For me, like, I found sympathy
and empathy in the situation,
1782
01:23:03,817 --> 01:23:06,904
and I was able to literally
just, like, forgive him
1783
01:23:06,904 --> 01:23:08,697
because I feel like...
1784
01:23:08,697 --> 01:23:10,574
I basically compared it to my mother.
1785
01:23:10,574 --> 01:23:12,576
Like, my mother has abused me.
1786
01:23:12,576 --> 01:23:15,037
And you don't see people
1787
01:23:15,037 --> 01:23:16,788
disowning their mother because of that--
1788
01:23:16,788 --> 01:23:20,417
Well, you do, but not
necessarily in every instance.
1789
01:23:26,423 --> 01:23:28,842
JOHN: They both had an opinion
on what should happen.
1790
01:23:28,842 --> 01:23:32,054
But at some point, the state
of Florida wanted otherwise.
1791
01:23:34,723 --> 01:23:37,768
SOLOMON:
When Geneva sends in her affidavit
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01:23:37,768 --> 01:23:40,812
to say she no longer wanted
1793
01:23:40,812 --> 01:23:43,232
to pursue criminal charges,
1794
01:23:43,232 --> 01:23:47,277
I think that prompted them
to go through the jail calls.
1795
01:23:47,277 --> 01:23:49,613
You know, there was
so much stuff on there,
1796
01:23:49,613 --> 01:23:51,657
they easily charged Jahseh
1797
01:23:51,657 --> 01:23:54,743
with a bunch of new counts
of witness tampering.
1798
01:23:56,203 --> 01:23:59,373
- Okay, guys, so I was
just given seven more charges,
1799
01:23:59,373 --> 01:24:01,333
uh, by the state attorney's office,
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01:24:01,333 --> 01:24:03,877
uh, and I have a court date on the 15th.
1801
01:24:04,294 --> 01:24:07,631
So, I would ask that everyone
come to support me.
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01:24:08,090 --> 01:24:11,927
I ask that the people that do come
come bearing positive energy.
1803
01:24:12,386 --> 01:24:14,388
JOHN:
He had this court date in December.
1804
01:24:14,888 --> 01:24:16,682
The day before, I was asking him, like,
1805
01:24:16,682 --> 01:24:19,351
"What's the worst thing
that can happen tomorrow?"
1806
01:24:19,351 --> 01:24:21,812
He answered that he'd be
taken in for a couple hours
1807
01:24:21,812 --> 01:24:24,398
and they'd be able to get him out
that same day.
1808
01:24:24,398 --> 01:24:27,651
- The fans took over
the, the whole courthouse.
1809
01:24:27,651 --> 01:24:29,444
They were calling the judge,
1810
01:24:29,444 --> 01:24:31,488
like doing all kinds of crazy stuff.
1811
01:24:31,488 --> 01:24:32,781
Soon as you walk into the room,
1812
01:24:32,781 --> 01:24:35,325
you could feel the energy from the judge.
1813
01:24:35,325 --> 01:24:37,953
He didn't even get a chance to say a word.
1814
01:24:37,953 --> 01:24:39,788
She just started going in.
1815
01:24:50,215 --> 01:24:51,675
DEANDRA: It seemed like
she just knew in her mind
1816
01:24:51,675 --> 01:24:54,052
she was going to take him that day
to make an example of,
1817
01:24:54,052 --> 01:24:55,721
you don't have more power than we do.
1818
01:24:57,055 --> 01:24:59,183
SOLOMON: They ended up
taking him in for a week.
1819
01:25:00,559 --> 01:25:02,394
CLEOPATRA:
All those charges added up.
1820
01:25:02,394 --> 01:25:04,938
So, I believe he was looking at 20 years.
1821
01:25:04,938 --> 01:25:06,607
Now because of his status,
1822
01:25:06,607 --> 01:25:10,110
it requires him to be
segregated in solitary.
1823
01:25:10,694 --> 01:25:12,696
Not being in general population,
1824
01:25:12,696 --> 01:25:14,114
he doesn't have access
1825
01:25:14,114 --> 01:25:15,782
to sitting and talking to people
1826
01:25:15,782 --> 01:25:17,993
or anything that can stimulate him.
1827
01:25:17,993 --> 01:25:20,954
And he already struggled
with hearing voices in his head
1828
01:25:20,954 --> 01:25:22,539
and being alone.
1829
01:25:22,539 --> 01:25:26,210
Any time in, you know,
locked up in solitary
1830
01:25:26,752 --> 01:25:28,462
would be a problem for him.
1831
01:25:28,462 --> 01:25:29,505
And we knew that.
1832
01:25:39,473 --> 01:25:41,642
DEANDRA: It doesn't matter
how many times he spoke
1833
01:25:41,642 --> 01:25:43,977
about, like, helping each other
or something like that,
1834
01:25:43,977 --> 01:25:46,021
it was always, okay, but he beat Geneva.
1835
01:25:47,898 --> 01:25:51,068
Like, he can never have a conversation
1836
01:25:51,068 --> 01:25:52,694
without that being,
1837
01:25:53,195 --> 01:25:54,655
going back to being the topic.
1838
01:25:58,075 --> 01:25:59,409
- Why is it wrong?
1839
01:25:59,409 --> 01:26:00,869
- How do you fully redeem yourself
1840
01:26:00,869 --> 01:26:03,163
if every time on every corner
1841
01:26:03,664 --> 01:26:05,249
it just keeps popping up?
1842
01:26:12,047 --> 01:26:15,300
- He acknowledged that he was,
that there was a situation,
1843
01:26:15,300 --> 01:26:18,011
you know, but self-acknowledgment
and accountability,
1844
01:26:18,011 --> 01:26:20,556
do I have to hold myself accountable
1845
01:26:20,556 --> 01:26:22,391
and admit it to the world
1846
01:26:22,391 --> 01:26:24,142
just for you guys to judge me anyways?
1847
01:26:25,602 --> 01:26:27,729
They were going to judge him
no matter what.
1848
01:26:27,729 --> 01:26:29,648
You know, without knowing the full story.
1849
01:26:29,648 --> 01:26:31,817
It didn't matter if he spoke
that full story,
1850
01:26:31,817 --> 01:26:34,027
they were going to judge him
no matter what.
1851
01:26:34,027 --> 01:26:35,904
And that's all he had,
that's all he was going through,
1852
01:26:35,904 --> 01:26:37,197
was being judged.
1853
01:26:37,197 --> 01:26:38,574
He could release a number one album.
1854
01:26:38,574 --> 01:26:39,825
You could love his song.
1855
01:26:39,825 --> 01:26:41,285
But then they were still judging him
1856
01:26:41,910 --> 01:26:43,120
based on that situation.
1857
01:26:43,120 --> 01:26:45,205
It wasn't something he was able to escape,
1858
01:26:45,205 --> 01:26:46,957
even though he was
holding himself accountable.
1859
01:26:51,044 --> 01:26:53,255
- I think it also might have
resulted in them taking
1860
01:26:53,255 --> 01:26:55,048
- his whole life away.
CLEOPATRA: Yeah.
1861
01:26:55,048 --> 01:26:57,176
- I think, I think it makes sense that
1862
01:26:57,176 --> 01:26:59,261
that's an apology that needs to be
1863
01:26:59,261 --> 01:27:01,680
kind of more, um, planned out
1864
01:27:01,680 --> 01:27:05,142
in a way that, like, has
an actual beneficial result
1865
01:27:05,142 --> 01:27:06,852
and not one that, you know,
1866
01:27:06,852 --> 01:27:09,354
results in somebody getting
their entire freedom
1867
01:27:09,354 --> 01:27:10,647
and life taken away.
1868
01:27:11,982 --> 01:27:14,443
- But I do think he would have
gotten to a place where he would have
1869
01:27:15,527 --> 01:27:18,530
gotten there, it just,
he just never had a chance to.
1870
01:27:41,887 --> 01:27:44,681
GUY WHEELER: I got a call
from a well-known psychologist
1871
01:27:44,681 --> 01:27:47,267
by the name of Dr. Michael Brannon.
1872
01:27:47,267 --> 01:27:50,854
The judge decided that
I was going to work with him.
1873
01:27:50,854 --> 01:27:52,272
The judge pointed at me, he says,
1874
01:27:52,272 --> 01:27:54,149
"Everywhere he go,
he's got to go, you got to go.
1875
01:27:54,149 --> 01:27:56,318
He can't go anywhere without you."
1876
01:27:56,777 --> 01:28:00,656
Well, the first day, it was,
it was people here galore.
1877
01:28:01,031 --> 01:28:02,658
I didn't want to go right then and there
1878
01:28:02,658 --> 01:28:04,409
in a sit-down face-to-face,
1879
01:28:04,409 --> 01:28:06,870
because from a cultural
kind of background,
1880
01:28:06,870 --> 01:28:08,830
the connotations of therapy
1881
01:28:08,830 --> 01:28:11,583
and counseling perception is
what goes along with that.
1882
01:28:11,583 --> 01:28:13,460
"I'm crazy, I'm loco and I ain't crazy."
1883
01:28:13,460 --> 01:28:15,128
As a matter of fact,
he mentioned that, you know,
1884
01:28:15,128 --> 01:28:16,547
"Ain't nothing wrong with me.
I ain't crazy."
1885
01:28:16,547 --> 01:28:18,841
I said, "Man, let's walk,
let's just walk."
1886
01:28:18,841 --> 01:28:20,843
"Man, I got problems like anybody else."
1887
01:28:21,260 --> 01:28:22,719
I said, "Look, I'm here, man,
1888
01:28:23,470 --> 01:28:25,389
"you know, to treat you
like a human being.
1889
01:28:25,389 --> 01:28:27,933
"It's about your life, man.
That's a bigger picture to me.
1890
01:28:27,933 --> 01:28:29,434
I'm concerned about you."
1891
01:28:29,434 --> 01:28:30,853
And he looked like that,
1892
01:28:31,854 --> 01:28:33,522
pointed at me, he's like, "Straight."
1893
01:28:33,522 --> 01:28:34,898
- I do not at all want--
1894
01:28:34,898 --> 01:28:36,316
SOLOMON:
Guy was rule-based.
1895
01:28:36,316 --> 01:28:38,318
He was like, "Yo, you got
to clean this shit up.
1896
01:28:38,318 --> 01:28:40,529
"Way too many people in
and out of your house, bro.
1897
01:28:40,529 --> 01:28:43,532
"You not, you can't control
what these people are going to do.
1898
01:28:43,532 --> 01:28:45,450
"Something bad is going to happen.
Yo, you know what?
1899
01:28:45,450 --> 01:28:46,952
"You can't have
all these women in your house.
1900
01:28:46,952 --> 01:28:48,203
"That's going to lead to something.
1901
01:28:48,203 --> 01:28:50,122
You just pick one and call it a day."
1902
01:28:50,831 --> 01:28:52,165
You know, he picked Jen.
1903
01:28:54,918 --> 01:28:56,336
JENESIS SANCHEZ:
Before me and Jah ever dated,
1904
01:28:56,336 --> 01:28:57,588
we were not two people
1905
01:28:57,588 --> 01:28:59,673
that were looking for anything at all.
1906
01:28:59,673 --> 01:29:01,466
He actually wanted me to be his assistant.
1907
01:29:02,050 --> 01:29:03,552
Jah always saw me
1908
01:29:03,552 --> 01:29:06,471
as this very nurturing, caring person,
1909
01:29:07,014 --> 01:29:09,516
and he felt very safe when he was with me
1910
01:29:09,516 --> 01:29:11,018
and I did, too.
1911
01:29:11,018 --> 01:29:13,562
So, he just kind of said, like,
1912
01:29:13,562 --> 01:29:15,272
"You're my girlfriend now,
1913
01:29:15,272 --> 01:29:17,566
"and if you don't want to be here,
1914
01:29:17,566 --> 01:29:20,319
"you don't have to be, but if you want to,
1915
01:29:20,319 --> 01:29:21,778
I would love for you to be."
1916
01:29:21,778 --> 01:29:24,114
I'm like... "Okay."
1917
01:29:24,114 --> 01:29:26,158
I could be your rock, you could be mine.
1918
01:29:28,035 --> 01:29:30,704
I will say, there were
some days I felt like
1919
01:29:30,704 --> 01:29:33,916
I was definitely walking
on shards of glass,
1920
01:29:33,916 --> 01:29:36,502
because you didn't know
what you were going to get.
1921
01:29:37,669 --> 01:29:40,631
GUY: We would have sessions,
we would just sit down and talk and laugh.
1922
01:29:40,631 --> 01:29:42,925
Whatever his pain or whatever
he was going through,
1923
01:29:42,925 --> 01:29:44,384
whatever he wanted to talk to me about,
1924
01:29:44,384 --> 01:29:46,053
personal, family kind of stuff.
1925
01:29:46,053 --> 01:29:48,138
And I recognized then that this was
1926
01:29:48,138 --> 01:29:50,766
a traumatized human being
unable to grieve.
1927
01:29:51,350 --> 01:29:53,143
And he had to play out the macho.
1928
01:29:53,143 --> 01:29:55,270
He's five-foot-two,
he's going to play out this macho,
1929
01:29:55,270 --> 01:29:57,856
the rap and hip-hop
and all of that.
1930
01:29:57,856 --> 01:30:00,025
And he's dealing with
an enormous amount of emotion
1931
01:30:00,025 --> 01:30:01,109
and a lot of stuff.
1932
01:30:01,109 --> 01:30:02,778
I never can be his biological father,
1933
01:30:02,778 --> 01:30:04,154
and that was not my role.
1934
01:30:04,154 --> 01:30:06,365
But if anything, that I can be there
1935
01:30:06,365 --> 01:30:08,492
and that I didn't want money from him,
1936
01:30:08,492 --> 01:30:10,202
it was about him
1937
01:30:10,202 --> 01:30:13,455
just as a human being
1938
01:30:13,455 --> 01:30:16,208
that deserved the dignity and respect.
1939
01:30:16,208 --> 01:30:19,211
[indiscernible singing]
1940
01:30:32,683 --> 01:30:34,142
JOHN:
And I know this from what Cleo
1941
01:30:34,142 --> 01:30:35,477
and Solomon and everyone told me.
1942
01:30:35,477 --> 01:30:37,729
It's like when I was around
making music with him,
1943
01:30:37,729 --> 01:30:39,356
that's when he was happy.
1944
01:30:39,356 --> 01:30:42,359
I realized that, like,
the process of making music
1945
01:30:42,359 --> 01:30:43,986
and being able to put
his mind on something
1946
01:30:43,986 --> 01:30:45,737
was what allowed him to free his mind
1947
01:30:45,737 --> 01:30:48,156
off of all the other places
that it was going.
1948
01:30:49,533 --> 01:30:55,497
[indiscernible singing]
1949
01:30:57,124 --> 01:30:58,917
MAN: That's scary, bro.
1950
01:30:58,917 --> 01:31:00,377
Bro, once you learn how to use
your vocal range,
1951
01:31:00,377 --> 01:31:01,503
you could do some crazy shit.
1952
01:31:02,504 --> 01:31:05,507
SOLOMON: He was putting down
big records, big records,
1953
01:31:05,507 --> 01:31:06,717
and it was exciting to watch.
1954
01:31:06,717 --> 01:31:08,886
♪ ...take this damage ♪
1955
01:31:08,886 --> 01:31:11,805
♪ And the way I feel, can't manage ♪
1956
01:31:13,891 --> 01:31:17,269
♪ And the way I feel, can't manage ♪
1957
01:31:17,269 --> 01:31:18,437
[vocalizing]
1958
01:31:21,565 --> 01:31:23,066
CLEOPATRA:
He was on house arrest,
1959
01:31:23,066 --> 01:31:25,611
and going to the studio
and having to be home
1960
01:31:25,611 --> 01:31:27,404
at a certain time became an issue.
1961
01:31:27,404 --> 01:31:29,615
And so we decided to knock out the closets
1962
01:31:29,615 --> 01:31:31,783
and build a studio in home for him.
1963
01:31:31,783 --> 01:31:34,536
Whenever he gets into the mood,
it's right there.
1964
01:31:34,536 --> 01:31:36,330
JAHSEH: It was the X.
1965
01:31:36,330 --> 01:31:37,748
JOHN:
I remember, like, there was a day
1966
01:31:37,748 --> 01:31:39,541
in early January that
1967
01:31:39,541 --> 01:31:41,418
he was asking me if I had any beats.
1968
01:31:41,418 --> 01:31:43,378
And I said,
"Yeah, I have beats from this person
1969
01:31:43,378 --> 01:31:45,923
"and that person and this producer
1970
01:31:45,923 --> 01:31:48,050
and that producer,"
and he said, "No, you."
1971
01:31:48,050 --> 01:31:50,260
And so I reached over and kind of logged
1972
01:31:50,260 --> 01:31:52,804
into my box account on his computer.
1973
01:31:52,804 --> 01:31:55,015
And before I could click on anything,
1974
01:31:55,015 --> 01:31:56,266
because I was so nervous
1975
01:31:56,266 --> 01:31:58,060
I was trying to figure out
what to play him,
1976
01:31:58,060 --> 01:32:00,354
he clicked on something
called "Sad Banjo,"
1977
01:32:00,354 --> 01:32:02,564
um, which turned out to be
the beat for "SAD!"
1978
01:32:04,024 --> 01:32:05,859
[indiscernible chatter]
1979
01:32:05,859 --> 01:32:07,152
JAHSEH: I like it.
JOHN: Okay.
1980
01:32:08,487 --> 01:32:10,697
And in maybe, like, five or 10 minutes,
1981
01:32:10,697 --> 01:32:12,241
he wrote that whole song.
1982
01:32:12,241 --> 01:32:14,576
- ♪ Someone that's afraid to let go, uh ♪
1983
01:32:15,577 --> 01:32:17,579
JOHN:
Oh, that's nice. That's dope. Yeah.
1984
01:32:17,579 --> 01:32:19,206
- ♪ You decide ♪
JOHN: ♪ Who am I ♪ Yeah.
1985
01:32:19,206 --> 01:32:20,624
- ♪ Who am I ♪
1986
01:32:20,624 --> 01:32:22,626
BOTH:
♪ Someone that's afraid to let go, uh ♪
1987
01:32:22,626 --> 01:32:23,919
- ♪ You decide ♪
JOHN: Pfft.
1988
01:32:25,170 --> 01:32:27,172
- Mm- hm. Yeah.
- That's fire.
1989
01:32:29,383 --> 01:32:32,344
JOHN: Like, the day we got
the mix of "SAD!" back,
1990
01:32:32,344 --> 01:32:34,555
I remember us kind of looking
at each other and being like,
1991
01:32:34,555 --> 01:32:36,014
"This is different."
1992
01:32:36,014 --> 01:32:38,392
There was always this desire
to have something
1993
01:32:38,392 --> 01:32:40,435
that just would kind of set him apart
1994
01:32:40,435 --> 01:32:42,938
from everyone else that he was
being compared to at the time.
1995
01:32:42,938 --> 01:32:45,941
And this would have been a song
where there's zero rapping on it.
1996
01:32:46,358 --> 01:32:48,944
And the idea of this song coming out,
1997
01:32:48,944 --> 01:32:51,655
especially at the same time
as a song called "Changes,"
1998
01:32:51,655 --> 01:32:53,866
that excited me and it excited him.
1999
01:32:53,866 --> 01:32:55,826
And then when those two songs came out...
2000
01:32:57,369 --> 01:32:59,830
I felt like the entire world changed.
2001
01:33:01,123 --> 01:33:04,376
♪ Who am I, someone
that's afraid to let go, uh ♪
2002
01:33:04,376 --> 01:33:07,671
♪ You decide if you're ever
gonna let me know, yeah ♪
2003
01:33:07,671 --> 01:33:10,757
♪ Suicide if you ever try to let go, uh ♪
2004
01:33:10,757 --> 01:33:13,969
♪ I'm sad, I know, yeah,
I'm sad, I know, yeah ♪
2005
01:33:13,969 --> 01:33:17,055
♪ Who am I, someone
that's afraid to let go, uh ♪
2006
01:33:17,055 --> 01:33:18,557
♪ You decide ♪
2007
01:33:18,557 --> 01:33:20,350
CROWD:
♪ If you're ever gonna let me know, yeah ♪
2008
01:33:20,350 --> 01:33:21,560
JAHSEH: ♪ Suicide ♪
2009
01:33:21,560 --> 01:33:23,061
CROWD:
♪ If you ever try to let go ♪
2010
01:33:23,812 --> 01:33:26,690
- ♪ I'm sad, I know, yeah,
I'm sad, I know, yeah ♪
2011
01:33:28,901 --> 01:33:31,403
JOHN: And, you know,
in the "Sad!" music video,
2012
01:33:31,403 --> 01:33:32,821
he kills his former self,
2013
01:33:32,821 --> 01:33:37,242
and he was really deliberate
about not attaching
2014
01:33:37,242 --> 01:33:39,369
who he was in 2018
2015
01:33:39,369 --> 01:33:41,079
to the person that he was in the past.
2016
01:33:42,748 --> 01:33:45,959
♪ Who am I, someone
that's afraid to let go, uh ♪
2017
01:33:45,959 --> 01:33:48,962
♪ You decide if you're ever
gonna let me know, yeah ♪
2018
01:33:48,962 --> 01:33:52,508
♪ Suicide if you ever try to let go, uh ♪
2019
01:33:52,508 --> 01:33:55,552
♪ I'm sad, I know, yeah,
I'm sad, I know, yeah ♪
2020
01:33:56,553 --> 01:34:00,557
CLEOPATRA: Transitioning into
the blue hair was indigo child
2021
01:34:00,557 --> 01:34:02,267
coming into himself
2022
01:34:02,267 --> 01:34:04,144
and realizing his responsibility
2023
01:34:04,144 --> 01:34:06,063
to this generation.
2024
01:34:06,063 --> 01:34:07,523
You know, him and I had a conversation
2025
01:34:07,523 --> 01:34:09,441
about what are you going to be?
2026
01:34:09,441 --> 01:34:11,777
What do you want these kids
to walk away with?
2027
01:34:11,777 --> 01:34:13,403
You know what I'm saying,
what's your message?
2028
01:34:14,238 --> 01:34:16,323
And he realized he had an obligation
2029
01:34:16,323 --> 01:34:17,908
that was bigger than himself.
2030
01:34:17,908 --> 01:34:21,245
And so he chose to take that path.
2031
01:34:25,082 --> 01:34:28,001
- Um, okay, so my current focus
2032
01:34:28,544 --> 01:34:30,045
is creation and evolution.
2033
01:34:30,462 --> 01:34:34,383
It's better to be respected
through love rather than fear
2034
01:34:34,383 --> 01:34:37,219
simply because, like, all right,
I was respected through fear
2035
01:34:37,219 --> 01:34:38,512
and it's not real love.
2036
01:34:38,512 --> 01:34:41,056
It's not real love,
and it drives people away.
2037
01:34:41,056 --> 01:34:42,432
It makes people treat you differently.
2038
01:34:42,432 --> 01:34:44,518
It makes people really, like--
2039
01:34:45,269 --> 01:34:46,562
It's just not genuine.
2040
01:34:46,562 --> 01:34:48,522
It's not what you really would want.
2041
01:34:49,439 --> 01:34:51,900
It's better not to be
a crazy motherfucker.
2042
01:34:51,900 --> 01:34:53,861
It's better not. 'Cause I've, I've--
2043
01:34:53,861 --> 01:34:56,154
I've been-- I've went through that.
I've decided I want--
2044
01:34:56,154 --> 01:34:57,865
There was a point where
I wanted to be the villain,
2045
01:34:57,865 --> 01:34:59,867
and it's not fun, bro. It's not fun.
2046
01:34:59,867 --> 01:35:02,369
People t--
Like, it doesn't attract anything
2047
01:35:02,369 --> 01:35:03,662
that you truly want.
2048
01:35:03,662 --> 01:35:05,789
I've started to look at myself
very differently
2049
01:35:05,789 --> 01:35:07,457
and beat myself up.
2050
01:35:07,457 --> 01:35:09,918
And you guys are the only thing
that gives me hope.
2051
01:35:09,918 --> 01:35:11,712
You guys are the only things that,
2052
01:35:11,712 --> 01:35:13,255
that thing that motivates me
2053
01:35:13,255 --> 01:35:15,841
to ideally like, yo, be strong.
2054
01:35:15,841 --> 01:35:20,512
You have over eight million kids or adults
2055
01:35:20,512 --> 01:35:22,556
and teenagers watching you
2056
01:35:23,348 --> 01:35:24,725
relying on you for this hope.
2057
01:35:26,852 --> 01:35:28,854
DEANDRA:
Jahseh was becoming more patient.
2058
01:35:28,854 --> 01:35:32,566
He was more positive versus
being so angry all the time.
2059
01:35:32,566 --> 01:35:34,943
You can reason with him
2060
01:35:34,943 --> 01:35:37,487
because he was able
to reason with himself.
2061
01:35:37,487 --> 01:35:40,490
- When the nigga would just
usually freak out and trip out,
2062
01:35:40,490 --> 01:35:41,909
you would see him go into a corner
2063
01:35:41,909 --> 01:35:43,827
and do breathing exercises, you feel me?
2064
01:35:43,827 --> 01:35:45,287
Keep his eyes closed, meditate,
2065
01:35:45,287 --> 01:35:47,206
even if it's for, like,
a little 10 minutes,
2066
01:35:47,206 --> 01:35:49,291
then come back and address the situation.
2067
01:35:56,673 --> 01:35:58,967
JENESIS:
One day I get home, and I'm like,
2068
01:35:58,967 --> 01:36:01,595
something, something doesn't feel right.
2069
01:36:01,595 --> 01:36:04,056
The next day, I took a pregnancy test
2070
01:36:04,056 --> 01:36:06,600
and sure enough,
I find out that I'm pregnant.
2071
01:36:07,309 --> 01:36:10,395
Jah had, like, 30 phones,
it was so ridiculous.
2072
01:36:10,395 --> 01:36:12,940
So, I'm, like, sending
the picture to all these phones
2073
01:36:12,940 --> 01:36:14,316
because I couldn't get ahold of him.
2074
01:36:14,316 --> 01:36:16,026
Turns out he was at the gym training.
2075
01:36:16,026 --> 01:36:17,861
Finally, when I got ahold of Jah,
2076
01:36:17,861 --> 01:36:19,071
he was super excited.
2077
01:36:19,071 --> 01:36:21,114
Like, he was like, "No way."
2078
01:36:21,532 --> 01:36:23,742
- Family and success.
2079
01:36:24,117 --> 01:36:26,787
[all cheering]
WOMAN: Cheers.
2080
01:36:29,748 --> 01:36:32,042
- I almost felt like he knew
how to relate to kids
2081
01:36:32,042 --> 01:36:34,461
more than he did other people.
2082
01:36:37,548 --> 01:36:41,969
And he saw this emotional
phenomenon in children
2083
01:36:41,969 --> 01:36:45,097
that they were pure and unable to judge
2084
01:36:45,097 --> 01:36:47,891
and unable to have hatred in their heart.
2085
01:36:47,891 --> 01:36:49,518
And he loved that so much
2086
01:36:49,518 --> 01:36:52,187
that the idea of having a kid of his own
2087
01:36:52,187 --> 01:36:55,816
and being able to instill
this sense of acceptance
2088
01:36:55,816 --> 01:36:59,194
and lovingness and positivity
within this kid
2089
01:37:00,487 --> 01:37:02,114
would have been his proudest moment.
2090
01:37:07,494 --> 01:37:10,873
GHAZI: I know one incident,
I had took him to Nobu.
2091
01:37:10,873 --> 01:37:13,333
It was his first time
eating at a fancy restaurant.
2092
01:37:13,834 --> 01:37:15,002
And they pulled up
2093
01:37:15,961 --> 01:37:17,379
and we were sitting down eating,
2094
01:37:17,379 --> 01:37:19,423
and he was fucking around
with the chopsticks
2095
01:37:19,423 --> 01:37:21,008
and we were just sitting there
2096
01:37:21,008 --> 01:37:22,885
and we started talking about kids.
2097
01:37:22,885 --> 01:37:25,762
He was like, "You're going
to be a great dad."
2098
01:37:25,762 --> 01:37:28,223
I said, "You're going to be
a great dad too someday, bro."
2099
01:37:28,223 --> 01:37:30,851
He said, "No, I'm not."
I said, "What do you mean?"
2100
01:37:31,435 --> 01:37:33,312
And he just looked me dead
in the eye and he was like,
2101
01:37:33,312 --> 01:37:34,688
"I'm not gonna make it past 21."
2102
01:37:34,688 --> 01:37:36,815
And then just went right back
to fuckin' with the chopsticks,
2103
01:37:37,399 --> 01:37:38,859
like he hadn't said a thing.
2104
01:37:43,280 --> 01:37:44,656
CLEOPATRA:
He always spoke about death
2105
01:37:44,656 --> 01:37:45,741
and was fascinated with it,
2106
01:37:45,741 --> 01:37:48,535
I think, since he was about 15.
2107
01:37:49,077 --> 01:37:51,747
It's almost as if he was preparing me
2108
01:37:51,747 --> 01:37:53,207
that he wasn't going to be here.
2109
01:37:55,959 --> 01:37:58,962
His lawyers called and told me that, um,
2110
01:37:59,546 --> 01:38:02,382
they were coming to pick Jah up Tuesday.
2111
01:38:11,975 --> 01:38:15,395
I had the worst anxiety ever.
2112
01:38:15,896 --> 01:38:18,899
[loud hip-hop music playing]
2113
01:38:24,196 --> 01:38:27,741
I went to the studio
and he was working on his first beat.
2114
01:38:29,368 --> 01:38:30,744
And he was so proud.
2115
01:38:31,912 --> 01:38:33,163
[sniffles]
2116
01:38:33,163 --> 01:38:34,456
[exhales]
2117
01:38:34,456 --> 01:38:35,999
And I was so proud because I was like,
2118
01:38:35,999 --> 01:38:37,459
"Yo, where did you come from?
2119
01:38:37,459 --> 01:38:39,920
How did you even learn
to do these things, you know?"
2120
01:38:42,381 --> 01:38:44,716
He spoke about possibly running.
2121
01:38:45,509 --> 01:38:47,052
And I was like,
"Jah, where are you going to go?
2122
01:38:47,845 --> 01:38:50,597
"You have blue hair with tats
all over your face.
2123
01:38:51,098 --> 01:38:54,601
You're not exactly going
to blend in with the crowd."
2124
01:38:54,601 --> 01:38:56,645
And, um, he was like,
2125
01:38:56,645 --> 01:39:00,399
"I can't, I don't understand
what's happening or why."
2126
01:39:00,399 --> 01:39:02,734
And I said, "Kid, you're powerful."
2127
01:39:03,402 --> 01:39:07,781
I said, "I've watched you
control your crowd and your audience."
2128
01:39:07,781 --> 01:39:10,325
I said, "That's, that's dangerous
2129
01:39:11,118 --> 01:39:12,244
to the status quo."
2130
01:39:12,244 --> 01:39:14,997
He got up from around the table
and he said, um,
2131
01:39:16,748 --> 01:39:18,917
"To whom much is given, much is required."
2132
01:39:20,294 --> 01:39:22,880
And then he said, "You know,
I'm going to go buy a bike."
2133
01:39:22,880 --> 01:39:24,464
And I was like, "What? Why?"
2134
01:39:25,174 --> 01:39:27,593
Because at the time, he had
about three bikes in the garage
2135
01:39:27,593 --> 01:39:29,928
and then some other ones
at his other house
2136
01:39:29,928 --> 01:39:31,930
that he doesn't even ride them.
2137
01:39:31,930 --> 01:39:34,558
But I knew my son. I knew it was
because he was so worried.
2138
01:39:34,558 --> 01:39:35,809
He was so scared.
2139
01:39:35,809 --> 01:39:36,977
Typically, I'd be, like,
2140
01:39:37,603 --> 01:39:40,689
arguing with him
about those type of things,
2141
01:39:40,689 --> 01:39:43,942
if it doesn't make sense,
but I knew what that was.
2142
01:39:43,942 --> 01:39:46,945
And so I was like, "Okay, let me
get security together for you."
2143
01:39:46,945 --> 01:39:49,740
And he was like, "Nah,
they're going to take too long."
2144
01:39:49,740 --> 01:39:52,951
I called Jazz's brother,
which is Aiden's dad.
2145
01:39:52,951 --> 01:39:55,787
I called him and I was like, "Hey, um,
2146
01:39:55,787 --> 01:39:57,664
"Jah wants to go pick up this bike.
2147
01:39:57,664 --> 01:39:59,333
"I'm gonna need you to drive his car back
2148
01:39:59,333 --> 01:40:02,544
in the event that he,
he does, um, get the bike."
2149
01:40:02,961 --> 01:40:06,590
And I said, "No matter what he says,
don't leave his side."
2150
01:40:15,307 --> 01:40:17,726
♪ I remember I had walked home that day ♪
2151
01:40:17,726 --> 01:40:20,062
♪ Content with all my misery
told myself it'd get better ♪
2152
01:40:20,062 --> 01:40:21,355
♪ No clue what there was next for me ♪
2153
01:40:21,355 --> 01:40:22,564
♪ Remember there was people ♪
2154
01:40:22,564 --> 01:40:23,774
♪ Walkin', talkin' in the distance ♪
2155
01:40:23,774 --> 01:40:25,025
♪ I was dressed for winter weather ♪
2156
01:40:25,025 --> 01:40:26,235
♪ But the summer rays were kissing me ♪
2157
01:40:26,235 --> 01:40:28,237
♪ I, I was lost ♪
2158
01:40:31,448 --> 01:40:33,450
♪ So I took a different path ♪
2159
01:40:33,450 --> 01:40:34,910
♪ In the distance he awaited me ♪
2160
01:40:34,910 --> 01:40:36,161
♪ Had no weapon, I'm guessin' ♪
2161
01:40:36,161 --> 01:40:37,538
♪ His hands were just enough for me ♪
2162
01:40:37,538 --> 01:40:38,914
♪ Was no question,
I'm guessin' he laughed ♪
2163
01:40:38,914 --> 01:40:40,123
♪ Just at the sight of me ♪
2164
01:40:40,624 --> 01:40:43,335
♪ And there he was,
his presence was alarming ♪
2165
01:40:43,335 --> 01:40:44,586
♪ As he approached, was casual ♪
2166
01:40:44,586 --> 01:40:45,921
♪ We talked 'bout self- harming ♪
2167
01:40:45,921 --> 01:40:46,964
♪ He told me, "Kid, you shouldn't be ♪
2168
01:40:46,964 --> 01:40:48,298
♪ Walkin' on your own" ♪
2169
01:40:48,298 --> 01:40:49,675
♪ He smiled and laughed, and pat my back ♪
2170
01:40:49,675 --> 01:40:50,759
♪ He asked, "How far are you from home" ♪
2171
01:40:50,759 --> 01:40:53,220
♪ I said, "Maybe 30 minutes" ♪
2172
01:40:53,220 --> 01:40:54,388
♪ His frequency distorted quick ♪
2173
01:40:54,388 --> 01:40:55,764
♪ I seen it in his image ♪
2174
01:40:55,764 --> 01:40:57,391
♪ I should've run
right fucking there, a-- ♪
2175
01:41:00,018 --> 01:41:02,104
♪ You ever woke up on a train track ♪
2176
01:41:02,104 --> 01:41:03,647
♪ With no motherfuckin' clothes on ♪
2177
01:41:03,647 --> 01:41:04,898
♪ Death before your eyes,
you prayin' to God ♪
2178
01:41:04,898 --> 01:41:06,233
♪ But ain't no response ♪
2179
01:41:06,233 --> 01:41:07,317
♪ Tryna scream for hope, just a shoulder ♪
2180
01:41:07,317 --> 01:41:08,402
♪ That you can lean on ♪
2181
01:41:08,402 --> 01:41:09,611
♪ But ain't nobody comin' ♪
2182
01:41:09,611 --> 01:41:10,904
♪ So you scream on and scream on ♪
2183
01:41:10,904 --> 01:41:12,155
♪ And scream on ♪
2184
01:41:12,155 --> 01:41:13,574
♪ While this evil fuck laugh at you ♪
2185
01:41:13,574 --> 01:41:14,950
♪ Train getting closer,
you still surprised ♪
2186
01:41:14,950 --> 01:41:16,159
♪ That he battered you ♪
2187
01:41:16,159 --> 01:41:17,202
♪ Tears falling harder and harder ♪
2188
01:41:17,202 --> 01:41:18,412
♪ Minutes get minuscule ♪
2189
01:41:18,412 --> 01:41:19,580
♪ Could've had a son or a daughter ♪
2190
01:41:19,580 --> 01:41:20,581
♪ Now what you finna do ♪
2191
01:41:20,581 --> 01:41:21,665
[gunshot]
2192
01:41:24,751 --> 01:41:27,421
[siren wailing]
2193
01:41:35,429 --> 01:41:36,597
CLEOPATRA:
When I got the call...
2194
01:41:37,806 --> 01:41:38,765
yeah, I just...
2195
01:41:39,391 --> 01:41:41,143
I just collapsed to the floor.
2196
01:41:44,813 --> 01:41:47,149
- Bro, I think X got shot, bro.
2197
01:41:47,149 --> 01:41:49,943
- Hey!
- I think X got shot, bro.
2198
01:41:51,069 --> 01:41:53,322
I think X got shot, bro!
2199
01:41:54,573 --> 01:41:56,450
I think X got shot!
2200
01:41:57,367 --> 01:41:58,702
- I'm like, "They did what?
2201
01:41:59,328 --> 01:42:00,787
Wait, what do you mean they shot Jahseh?"
2202
01:42:01,288 --> 01:42:03,123
- I remember not having any gas,
2203
01:42:03,624 --> 01:42:05,000
not wanting to stop.
2204
01:42:06,376 --> 01:42:09,171
I'm trying to get to where he was,
2205
01:42:09,171 --> 01:42:12,049
and, um, it's all a blur.
2206
01:42:12,049 --> 01:42:13,800
- And I just remember, like, calling Cleo.
2207
01:42:13,800 --> 01:42:15,761
Like, "Cleo, where are you?"
She's like, "I'm lost."
2208
01:42:15,761 --> 01:42:17,804
She, like, literally didn't know
where she was.
2209
01:42:17,804 --> 01:42:20,140
I'm like, "Bro, you got
to get to the hospital."
2210
01:42:20,140 --> 01:42:21,975
She's like, "I'm trying
to get there, but I-- "
2211
01:42:21,975 --> 01:42:23,435
She's like, "I don't know where I'm at."
2212
01:42:23,435 --> 01:42:24,436
[sniffles]
2213
01:42:26,021 --> 01:42:27,940
- I was like disoriented.
2214
01:42:27,940 --> 01:42:30,317
I got there, there was
a few people there already,
2215
01:42:30,317 --> 01:42:31,944
I'm not sure how they found out.
2216
01:42:31,944 --> 01:42:34,071
And I was just in there from then on,
2217
01:42:34,071 --> 01:42:35,781
pacing back and forth.
2218
01:42:35,781 --> 01:42:38,116
I wasn't able to go back there,
2219
01:42:38,116 --> 01:42:39,493
and they gave me some bullshit story
2220
01:42:39,493 --> 01:42:41,828
about them not wanting me
to see him like that
2221
01:42:41,828 --> 01:42:43,789
because it would traumatize me.
2222
01:42:43,789 --> 01:42:46,583
But I think that I should have
made that decision
2223
01:42:46,583 --> 01:42:48,377
of seeing my son.
2224
01:42:49,086 --> 01:42:51,380
- And then it's like that calm.
2225
01:42:51,380 --> 01:42:53,131
Just, there was like a calm that set in,
2226
01:42:53,131 --> 01:42:54,216
because it's like, "All right.
2227
01:42:54,842 --> 01:42:57,052
"It's Jahseh, like, he's a fighter.
2228
01:42:59,346 --> 01:43:01,098
"He's a fighter.
Jahseh is going to make it through.
2229
01:43:01,098 --> 01:43:02,766
If anybody was going to make it through,
it was going to be him."
2230
01:43:04,142 --> 01:43:07,521
- The cops came out,
and they pulled me in a room
2231
01:43:07,521 --> 01:43:09,857
and I remember
2232
01:43:09,857 --> 01:43:12,568
the officer was just so callous
2233
01:43:12,568 --> 01:43:14,236
when he delivered.
2234
01:43:14,236 --> 01:43:16,989
He was just like,
"Oh, Jahseh expired today
2235
01:43:16,989 --> 01:43:18,365
at such and such time."
2236
01:43:19,867 --> 01:43:23,412
- I still don't understand,
what do you mean by expired?
2237
01:43:30,544 --> 01:43:32,254
- That shit just seem like
2238
01:43:32,963 --> 01:43:36,091
watching a movie or something.
2239
01:43:36,091 --> 01:43:39,469
It's, I-I don't know, I never get,
2240
01:43:40,470 --> 01:43:42,806
come to terms with it.
2241
01:43:45,517 --> 01:43:47,728
- It went from that to just...
2242
01:43:50,647 --> 01:43:51,940
planning a funeral.
2243
01:43:52,733 --> 01:43:54,151
I remember Cleo walking
in the room and saying,
2244
01:43:54,151 --> 01:43:56,111
"How do we plan a funeral?
2245
01:44:00,157 --> 01:44:02,284
How do I plan a funeral for my son?"
2246
01:44:10,417 --> 01:44:13,629
♪
2247
01:44:21,094 --> 01:44:23,764
♪ Before I lay me down to sleep ♪
2248
01:44:24,139 --> 01:44:26,808
♪ I pray the Lord my soul to keep ♪
2249
01:44:27,184 --> 01:44:30,437
♪ I hope it's not too late for me, Whoa ♪
2250
01:44:33,273 --> 01:44:35,901
♪ Before I lay me down to sleep ♪
2251
01:44:36,276 --> 01:44:39,196
♪ I pray the Lord my soul to keep ♪
2252
01:44:39,196 --> 01:44:42,366
♪ I hope it's not too late for me, Whoa ♪
2253
01:44:45,410 --> 01:44:46,578
♪ Difference ♪
2254
01:44:46,578 --> 01:44:49,790
♪ Changing in the distance ♪
2255
01:44:49,790 --> 01:44:53,001
♪ Time consumes the image ♪
2256
01:44:53,961 --> 01:44:54,962
♪ Whoa ♪
2257
01:44:57,297 --> 01:45:00,551
♪ Before I lay me down to sleep ♪
2258
01:45:00,551 --> 01:45:03,220
♪ I pray the Lord my soul to keep ♪
2259
01:45:03,595 --> 01:45:06,849
♪ I hope it's not too late for me, whoa ♪
2260
01:45:37,629 --> 01:45:40,716
- Oh no. This is, that's not a toy.
2261
01:45:41,717 --> 01:45:42,843
That's not a toy.
2262
01:45:45,095 --> 01:45:47,806
CLEOPATRA: His son isn't old enough
to carry on his legacy.
2263
01:45:48,307 --> 01:45:50,142
There's nobody that can do it.
2264
01:45:50,142 --> 01:45:53,645
So I have to not only be here
2265
01:45:53,645 --> 01:45:55,772
for my other son,
2266
01:45:55,772 --> 01:45:58,317
I have to be here to maintain his legacy
2267
01:45:58,317 --> 01:46:01,028
as well as look after my grandson.
2268
01:46:04,406 --> 01:46:06,700
Jah was my practice baby.
2269
01:46:07,284 --> 01:46:08,660
I was 17 years old.
2270
01:46:08,660 --> 01:46:11,288
There was nobody teaching me
how to take care of a child.
2271
01:46:11,288 --> 01:46:13,457
I just had to kind of figure it out.
2272
01:46:14,875 --> 01:46:18,337
Jah kind of changed
my mindset from hammering,
2273
01:46:18,337 --> 01:46:19,880
"You're going to do this,
you're going to do that,"
2274
01:46:19,880 --> 01:46:22,216
because you lose your child doing that.
2275
01:46:23,091 --> 01:46:25,219
You have to allow them to be themselves.
2276
01:46:29,056 --> 01:46:31,099
- How are you?
- Good.
2277
01:46:34,353 --> 01:46:36,063
GENEVA:
After Jahseh died,
2278
01:46:36,063 --> 01:46:39,024
Cleo reached out to me,
like, a year later.
2279
01:46:40,025 --> 01:46:41,568
So, she calls me,
2280
01:46:41,568 --> 01:46:44,029
and before I answer the phone,
I'm like, "Oh my god."
2281
01:46:44,029 --> 01:46:45,906
Like, "I don't know if this
is gonna be bad or good."
2282
01:46:45,906 --> 01:46:48,867
I was, like, alleviated
but really nervous.
2283
01:46:49,493 --> 01:46:52,412
CLEOPATRA: You know, this is,
my son's no longer here,
2284
01:46:52,412 --> 01:46:55,457
and I feel like it's up to me now
2285
01:46:55,457 --> 01:46:58,585
to make amends for any mistakes
that he's done
2286
01:46:58,585 --> 01:47:01,547
and try to right his wrongs
as much as I can.
2287
01:47:01,547 --> 01:47:03,882
I would actually like
to hear you tell your story
2288
01:47:03,882 --> 01:47:05,425
because like I said, my son died
2289
01:47:05,425 --> 01:47:08,220
and I, he's never admitted it to me.
2290
01:47:08,220 --> 01:47:10,514
I don't think he would want me
to see him in that light
2291
01:47:10,514 --> 01:47:14,226
or know those things, that side of him.
2292
01:47:14,852 --> 01:47:16,436
You know, Jahseh...
2293
01:47:20,357 --> 01:47:23,068
was wrong for what he did.
2294
01:47:24,486 --> 01:47:28,282
You know, um, there's no excuse
for that, period.
2295
01:47:28,991 --> 01:47:30,701
You know? But, um...
2296
01:47:32,578 --> 01:47:34,872
I just want the world to know that
2297
01:47:36,081 --> 01:47:38,208
he wasn't that same person anymore
2298
01:47:38,208 --> 01:47:41,837
and that whether it's the past,
it's still a part of his story.
2299
01:47:46,133 --> 01:47:48,552
GENEVA:
Now, Cleo and I are cool.
2300
01:47:49,094 --> 01:47:52,139
It makes me feel like
a weight is lifted basically.
2301
01:47:53,140 --> 01:47:55,934
Because I felt like I wasn't accepted
2302
01:47:55,934 --> 01:47:57,769
by the whole family the whole time.
2303
01:47:59,521 --> 01:48:00,647
[sniffles]
2304
01:48:04,484 --> 01:48:07,237
CLEOPATRA: I'm not going to hate her
and my son's not here,
2305
01:48:07,237 --> 01:48:09,865
and I don't think she should
be mistreated in any way.
2306
01:48:09,865 --> 01:48:12,951
This is about his legacy,
and she is the love of his life,
2307
01:48:12,951 --> 01:48:15,120
and she was a part of that legacy.
2308
01:48:19,708 --> 01:48:21,585
GENEVA:
People have, like, asked me for advice,
2309
01:48:21,585 --> 01:48:24,087
and I just feel bad sometimes
'cause, like,
2310
01:48:24,087 --> 01:48:28,133
I don't know how I feel
about telling other people
2311
01:48:28,133 --> 01:48:30,010
what to do or, like,
how to feel about that
2312
01:48:30,010 --> 01:48:31,595
because I feel like it's just different
2313
01:48:31,595 --> 01:48:32,971
with every person.
2314
01:48:35,807 --> 01:48:37,768
SKI:
It's crazy to think that really and truly
2315
01:48:37,768 --> 01:48:39,811
that the end of the story
to Jahseh's legacy
2316
01:48:39,811 --> 01:48:42,439
is going to really help
so many fucking lives.
2317
01:48:45,275 --> 01:48:48,237
So hard to explain, but this
dude turned everything around
2318
01:48:48,237 --> 01:48:49,738
for the better.
2319
01:48:52,157 --> 01:48:54,785
GUY: He set out a parachute
with his name on it.
2320
01:48:55,494 --> 01:48:58,080
I think he wanted to talk about suicide
2321
01:48:58,080 --> 01:49:00,874
and those types of things
to help somebody.
2322
01:49:01,750 --> 01:49:03,252
Really, he wanted to save somebody.
2323
01:49:11,426 --> 01:49:13,095
SKI:
It could go a lot of ways for me,
2324
01:49:13,095 --> 01:49:15,681
but I just know that I have
to make Jahseh proud,
2325
01:49:15,681 --> 01:49:16,890
I have to.
2326
01:49:16,890 --> 01:49:18,308
Because I know I'm going to see him again
2327
01:49:18,308 --> 01:49:20,102
in some cosmic plan.
2328
01:49:20,102 --> 01:49:21,770
Some cosmic plan, I'm gonna see Jah again,
2329
01:49:21,770 --> 01:49:23,856
and that's what I live
my life based off of.
2330
01:49:23,856 --> 01:49:27,317
WOMAN: To Jah!
ALL: To Jah!
2331
01:49:30,737 --> 01:49:34,700
♪
2332
01:49:34,700 --> 01:49:37,035
- But thank you so much for coming, y'all.
2333
01:49:37,035 --> 01:49:38,537
[crowd cheering]
2334
01:49:38,537 --> 01:49:41,415
♪ True love ♪
2335
01:49:41,415 --> 01:49:44,626
♪ Shouldn't be this complicated ♪
2336
01:49:45,002 --> 01:49:47,546
♪ Thought I'd die in your arms ♪
2337
01:49:47,546 --> 01:49:49,965
♪ I thought I'd die in your ♪
2338
01:49:49,965 --> 01:49:51,592
♪ True love ♪
2339
01:49:52,676 --> 01:49:56,305
♪ Shouldn't be this complicated ♪
2340
01:49:56,305 --> 01:49:58,891
♪ Thought I'd die in your arms ♪
2341
01:49:58,891 --> 01:50:01,476
♪ I thought I'd die in your ♪
2342
01:50:01,476 --> 01:50:03,395
♪ No hard feelings
but these feelings harder ♪
2343
01:50:03,395 --> 01:50:05,939
♪ When I think about it,
my eyes fill up with water ♪
2344
01:50:05,939 --> 01:50:09,026
♪ Don't have our daughters
butterfly while they larvae ♪
2345
01:50:09,026 --> 01:50:11,695
♪ Wait, when you see the kids?
I'll see y'all tomorrow ♪
2346
01:50:11,695 --> 01:50:14,489
♪ Wait, when the sunset?
I see y'all tomorrow ♪
2347
01:50:14,489 --> 01:50:17,534
♪ Wait, when I pick 'em up,
I feel like they borrowed ♪
2348
01:50:17,534 --> 01:50:20,621
♪ When I gotta return them,
scan 'em like a bar code ♪
2349
01:50:20,621 --> 01:50:23,207
♪ Wait, no hard feelings,
but these feelings hard though ♪
2350
01:50:23,207 --> 01:50:26,084
♪ Wait, who got our kids in some,
"What are those?" ♪
2351
01:50:26,084 --> 01:50:28,837
♪ Wait, why they can't wear Yeezys
with the cargos? ♪
2352
01:50:28,837 --> 01:50:31,840
♪ Y'all know Nike don't like me,
y'all take it too far though
2353
01:50:31,840 --> 01:50:34,593
♪ At least have 'em in some Mike's,
he played for Chicago ♪
2354
01:50:34,593 --> 01:50:37,346
♪ I only see three kids,
who watchin' Chicago? ♪
2355
01:50:37,346 --> 01:50:40,390
♪ And you know all the nannies said,
"Daddy in Nebraska" ♪
2356
01:50:40,390 --> 01:50:43,060
♪ Let the kids dig a tunnel
to my house like Chapo ♪
2357
01:50:43,060 --> 01:50:45,854
♪ Only neighbor in the hood
with a door they can knock on ♪
2358
01:50:45,854 --> 01:50:47,773
♪ I leave the light on ♪
2359
01:50:50,526 --> 01:50:51,985
- When I first found out about X,
2360
01:50:51,985 --> 01:50:55,364
I was going through
a very rough patch in my life.
2361
01:50:55,364 --> 01:50:58,033
His music was able to just help me realize
2362
01:50:58,033 --> 01:51:00,077
that no matter what I'm going through,
2363
01:51:00,077 --> 01:51:01,495
there's always somebody out there
2364
01:51:01,495 --> 01:51:03,247
who feels the same way
and has the same emotions
2365
01:51:03,247 --> 01:51:04,206
that I'm feeling.
2366
01:51:06,416 --> 01:51:07,918
- I looked at him as a mentor.
2367
01:51:07,918 --> 01:51:10,963
I would hit him up for advice
in high school.
2368
01:51:10,963 --> 01:51:14,091
Like, I would hit him up for advice
2369
01:51:14,091 --> 01:51:15,634
if I was going through something,
2370
01:51:15,634 --> 01:51:18,303
and it, he was always there.
2371
01:51:18,303 --> 01:51:20,013
Literally, he was always there.
2372
01:51:22,349 --> 01:51:23,851
- Everybody wants to be
acknowledged, you know.
2373
01:51:23,851 --> 01:51:26,270
And, you know, you get
the occasional thank you
2374
01:51:26,270 --> 01:51:27,896
for the deal and nice whatever, whatever.
2375
01:51:27,896 --> 01:51:30,190
But, you know, our first deal
2376
01:51:30,190 --> 01:51:33,193
which was a seven-figure deal,
he called me up and said,
2377
01:51:33,193 --> 01:51:35,237
"Thank you, you're the reason
my life has changed."
2378
01:51:35,237 --> 01:51:38,824
I'm like, "Okay, that's kind of cool.
2379
01:51:38,824 --> 01:51:40,200
No one's ever said that before."
2380
01:51:45,205 --> 01:51:47,708
- My favorite memory of Jahseh...
2381
01:51:49,501 --> 01:51:52,087
was when it was me,
2382
01:51:52,880 --> 01:51:57,050
my homie VINNY CHANGO$, Ski, and Jah,
2383
01:51:57,050 --> 01:52:00,053
and, like, we played
his music on the radio
2384
01:52:00,053 --> 01:52:01,972
and, like, he, like...
2385
01:52:02,848 --> 01:52:04,850
stood up in the middle of a car,
2386
01:52:04,850 --> 01:52:07,102
like, put his, like, ear mad close
2387
01:52:07,102 --> 01:52:08,395
to, like, to the speaker and was like,
2388
01:52:08,395 --> 01:52:09,897
"Yo, is this me?"
2389
01:52:10,397 --> 01:52:12,024
Like, "Is this me right now?"
2390
01:52:12,024 --> 01:52:13,775
And I'm like, "Bro, this is you."
2391
01:52:13,775 --> 01:52:15,736
And then for, like,
literally the rest of the night,
2392
01:52:15,736 --> 01:52:17,237
I kid you not,
2393
01:52:17,237 --> 01:52:19,990
he just screamed, "This is me!
2394
01:52:19,990 --> 01:52:21,450
"This is me!
2395
01:52:21,450 --> 01:52:22,826
This is me!" For the whole night.
2396
01:52:25,037 --> 01:52:28,207
- So, he's in the studio
doing his thing, I hit record.
2397
01:52:29,708 --> 01:52:31,668
He didn't know I hit record.
2398
01:52:31,668 --> 01:52:34,213
So, I hit record and he's doing
his little thing,
2399
01:52:34,213 --> 01:52:35,756
doing his little thing.
2400
01:52:35,756 --> 01:52:37,549
So, he's like, "All right, I'm ready now."
2401
01:52:37,549 --> 01:52:39,426
So, I just start playing back
what he just did.
2402
01:52:39,426 --> 01:52:41,720
He was like,
"What, what, what, you was recording?"
2403
01:52:41,720 --> 01:52:43,514
I'm like, "Yeah." He was like, "Shit.
2404
01:52:43,514 --> 01:52:45,557
I like this shit. Keep playing it."
2405
01:52:45,557 --> 01:52:46,642
I was like, "All right."
2406
01:52:49,186 --> 01:52:51,730
- He never turned this into a song,
but it was always one of those moments
2407
01:52:51,730 --> 01:52:53,440
that kind of stuck with me.
2408
01:52:57,694 --> 01:53:00,864
- ♪ I just wanna show the world ♪
2409
01:53:00,864 --> 01:53:04,284
♪ That I can
amount to something better ♪
2410
01:53:07,412 --> 01:53:10,791
[continues singing]
2411
01:53:14,211 --> 01:53:15,671
♪ Yeah, yeah ♪
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