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Our genes, which we
inherit from our parents,
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determine who we are
biologically.
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Just a heads-up...
The owner of the cabin
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has a very strict
no-phones policy,
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except in emergencies.
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I wouldn't want
to upset the owner.
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- No, you wouldn't.
- Right?
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Wow.
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It's more amazing
than you described.
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Well, the porch railing's
a little loose,
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and, you know, bears.
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But they're not inside,
so...
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Okay. Hmm.
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Our blueprint.
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Sorry, it's just
one last e-mail to Amelia
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about the FDA.
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And then you'll be done
changing the world?
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Yes.
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Done.
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- Ready?
- Yeah.
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Let's go.
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Paging Dr. Hamilton
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to the Grey Center.
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Dr. Hamilton
to the Grey Center.
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Everything from
our eye color to our height.
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Even our laugh.
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But, also, our diseases.
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Did I miss
the party invite?
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A very expensive
experiment succeeded,
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which means more money,
more people.
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More toys.
Is this a new 3D b...
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- Don't.
- I know. Don't touch it.
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Did you see
Meredith's notes?
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She said we could
finish the report.
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Asthma, diabetes, cancers.
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And be done with all this?
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But who you are at your core
goes way beyond genes.
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98, 99, 100!
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Ready or not, here I come.
So, the sun is actually white?
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Yeah. Weird, huh?
Yeah.
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- And it's not even the biggest star.
- Is that true, Aunt Maggie?
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Huh?
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I'm so sorry.
What was it?
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What... Ask me again.
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Well, I think you should
go lay down.
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No. No.
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I took the flu medication.
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I'm gonna rally,
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and I'm gonna help
with the kids.
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Well, you know I used to be
a camp counselor, right?
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I know CPR, and I've seen
every Marvel movie.
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And, you know,
the whole surgeon thing.
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It's just it requires
a different kind of training.
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I'll be fine.
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Let's just get you
upstairs and...
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I can't find Ellis.
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Oh, God.
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Yeah, okay.
Here we go.
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Here we go.
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You're rewriting your report
in your head, aren't you?
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I am still stuck on the part
where we explained
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why we chose to break up
the injection into four parts.
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Mm.
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When you work
on something like that,
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it invades your thoughts.
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It i-invades your dreams,
everything.
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It's weird.
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Two weeks ago,
I wrote out
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a cellular calculation
on Zola's homework.
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Well, think how smart
she looked.
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- It was a history assignment.
- Oh.
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About 15 years ago,
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I got involved in a study
on liver transplants
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with HIV-positive donors
and recipients,
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and it was a lot
of ups and downs
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and flying
all over the country.
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And I wanted to be able
to turn my brain off
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every once in a while,
so... cabin.
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It was the first big purchase
I made just for me.
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Did it work,
to shut your brain off?
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The first few times
I came up here,
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I got a little stir crazy.
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Because there were no lives to save.
Not a single one.
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So, I had to settle
into the calm.
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Oh. What's that like?
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Takes some getting used to.
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You're not very good at this, are you?
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No.
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Come here.
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I think we need to re-work
the way we tackle
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David's bowel obstruction.
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It reads like he was
intentionally trying to hide it.
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- Didn't he?
- Maybe,
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but he's already been
accused of pay-to-play.
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Putting entire
responsibility on him
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would further discredit him,
just as he's looking to widen the project.
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So we should
take the blame?
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I didn't say that, either.
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Hamilton's
primary care physician
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had examined
and cleared him,
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and he reported feeling fine
that morning.
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Patients with Parkinson's are
at risk for other health conditions.
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Maybe we could have done more
on our end.
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Hamilton almost cost us
that entire surgery.
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- Why would we lie?
- We're not.
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But the goal is to further
Parkinson's research.
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Do you have to do that?
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- Walk?
- Pace.
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Fine, okay...
An argument could be made
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that due to the extreme
motivation of patients
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who are seeking
this experimental surgery,
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it requires more in-depth
history and physical pre-op.
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Right, okay.
Let's frame it like that.
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Thorough history-taking
and rigorous testing
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should be considered
before performing the surgery
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- moving forward.
- Yeah, it doesn't point fingers,
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and it focuses on outcomes.
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And it provides value
to future surgeries.
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Mm-hmm.
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Pacing works.
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So, are we ready
to submit this?
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I think we are.
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Okay, we are...
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done.
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We are.
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My flight doesn't leave
until tomorrow morning.
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Or I could change it...
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to today.
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Or you could stay.
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You wanna come to a show?
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- What the...
- Uncle Nick!
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Charlotte! What...
What are you doing here?
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Clearly,
we had the same idea.
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Can you give me a minute?
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Just a minute.
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Sorry.
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Ellis!
Ellis?
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Where is that girl?
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Well, she's not
in the bathroom.
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Ugh, God.
Are you okay?
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My sinuses have just turned
into a vise around my brain.
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Hey, doesn't she love
to hide in her closet?
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- I checked. She's not there.
- Ellis!
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How am I gonna tell Meredith
I lost one of her kids?
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We didn't lose her...
We just don't know where she is.
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Ellis!
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I can just hear
Meredith now.
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"I always knew
it was gonna be you."
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- I found her!
- Oop.
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Mm. Mm.
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Here I come.
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Are you okay?
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Did I win?
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Yeah, you sure did.
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Let's play again.
No, let's not.
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Why don't you two go get
a juice box, all right?
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And I'll be right there
in a second.
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Ugh...
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- Hey, let me handle it.
- Mm.
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All right? You rest.
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Look how level-headed I was
during all that.
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What is this?
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Oh, this looks like
some of Ellis' old stuff.
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I thought Meredith had all
of this stuff put in storage.
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Can I keep this?
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I don't see why not.
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I mean,
we can ask your mom.
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Wow.
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Wow.
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Is this for you,
Aunt Maggie?
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*GREY'S ANATOMY*
Season 18 Episode 12
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Episode Title: "The Makings of You"
Aired on: March 17, 2022.
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Subtitles
Synchronized by srjanapala
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- Hi.
- Hey.
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Okay, let's try this again.
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Uh, Meredith,
this is my niece, Charlotte.
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Charlotte, this is Dr. Meredith Grey.
Hi, Charlotte.
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It's really nice
to meet you.
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He talks about you
all the time.
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Aww.
Wait, Dr. Grey?
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As in the... the surgeon
that saved your kidney?
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Life.
But, yes, same one.
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You forgot to mention
that she's your girlfriend.
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Well, I wanted to properly
introduce you two.
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Well, that was definitely
an introduction.
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And, um, are you supposed
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to be dating your patients?
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He's not my patient anymore,
so it's fine.
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Who's this?
Oh, uh, this is Silver.
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Silver? Okay.
Nice to meet you.
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You guys, uh, friends,
or...
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- More like soul mates.
- "Soul mates"?
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It's like we've known
each other lifetimes.
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Eras.
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Long time.
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Pretty far away from school.
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You know, mid-terms.
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I'm starving.
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I saw steak.
I can eat.
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- Let's eat.
- Let's eat.
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Are you gonna open it?
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Well, it could be
for another Margaret.
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You know,
after my mom died...
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there was a fire
in my grandmother's house,
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and it burned up
a good part of it,
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including the bedroom
where my brother and I kept
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a lot of our stuff
in storage.
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I lost a lot
of pictures and books,
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and I lost
the last birthday card
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my mom had given me.
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I was devastated.
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And to this day,
I still dream about...
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seeing her handwriting again.
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You don't even
have to read it,
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but it's nice
that you have it.
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♪ When I think of you,
I don't know what to do ♪
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Do you want a soda?
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A water?
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I would love
a ginger ale.
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Can I get a ginger ale
and Coke, please?
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I spent a lot of time
in places like this
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when I was younger.
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- What was that Amelia like?
- Lucky to have survived.
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High most of the time.
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Doing things she could not
remember the next day.
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Probably still brilliant.
They call it high-functioning.
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Well, this Amelia
just helped a million patients
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get one step closer to a cure
for their horrible disease.
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- ♪ Shoot a hole into the sun
- To the one who drilled the holes.
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To us.
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- Are you okay?
- Yeah.
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Not exactly the night
I had planned,
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but I'm still gonna make you
the perfect steak.
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If Silver doesn't
eat it first.
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Yes, that is true.
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A little more cheese
would go a long way.
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- So, Silver.
- Hmm?
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- Cool name.
- Yeah.
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- Real cool.
- It feels like who I am
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in this moment, you know?
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Bright, but overlooked.
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When I first met Silver,
his name was actually Oak,
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but he's much more
of a Silver now.
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I'm sorry...
Silver's not your real name?
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Oh, it is... for now.
Yeah.
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Uh, we're always
evolving, you know?
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So, I change my name
each time I feel
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- like a different person.
- Huh.
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- Is that often?
- No more than the next person.
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Mmm.
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Mmm, that's good.
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A little salty.
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Where did you two meet?
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In the woods.
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Charlotte participated in one
of my micro-dosing experiences.
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- Drugs?
- Psilocybin.
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- So, 'shrooms?
- Calm down.
258
00:10:55,698 --> 00:10:57,185
Real low doses.
You don't even feel it.
259
00:10:57,269 --> 00:10:58,763
As I understand it,
micro-dosing therapy
260
00:10:58,847 --> 00:11:00,200
is for people
with, uh, anxiety,
261
00:11:00,284 --> 00:11:01,841
depression,
substance abuse issues.
262
00:11:01,925 --> 00:11:04,023
Does that describe you,
Charlotte?
263
00:11:05,183 --> 00:11:07,380
We use it to get in touch
with our shadow selves...
264
00:11:07,464 --> 00:11:10,177
The parts of us that
we're ashamed and scared of.
265
00:11:10,261 --> 00:11:11,353
Not what it's for.
Meredith?
266
00:11:11,437 --> 00:11:14,413
Yeah?
Uh, micro-dosing therapy...
267
00:11:14,523 --> 00:11:16,429
- Know anything about it?
- I...
268
00:11:16,521 --> 00:11:19,267
- have read some of the science, sure.
- Mm-hmm.
269
00:11:19,351 --> 00:11:23,546
I'm not sure I'm as educated
on it as Silver is.
270
00:11:24,442 --> 00:11:26,230
So, are you guys in some
of the same classes, or...?
271
00:11:26,314 --> 00:11:27,600
Nope.
Uh, are we ready to eat?
272
00:11:27,684 --> 00:11:29,082
I'm not really
a college type of guy.
273
00:11:29,166 --> 00:11:30,716
I'm more of a student of life.
274
00:11:30,800 --> 00:11:32,675
So, as a student of life,
what do you do?
275
00:11:32,759 --> 00:11:34,419
We can learn a lot more
from traveling the world
276
00:11:34,503 --> 00:11:36,335
than sitting in a classroom.
277
00:11:36,716 --> 00:11:39,311
Okay, we're definitely
ready to eat.
278
00:11:39,395 --> 00:11:40,879
Mm.
279
00:11:40,963 --> 00:11:42,432
We plan to really
study everything around us
280
00:11:42,516 --> 00:11:43,660
in Costa Rica.
281
00:11:44,507 --> 00:11:45,945
I'm sorry. "Costa Rica"?
282
00:11:46,029 --> 00:11:48,296
Are you guys planning a trip
after the semester's over?
283
00:11:48,380 --> 00:11:50,548
In two weeks.
Is this some sort of study abroad?
284
00:11:50,632 --> 00:11:53,957
Why pay tuition when you can
just go for a few months?
285
00:11:54,108 --> 00:11:56,593
I was gonna tell you.
Tell me what?
286
00:11:57,476 --> 00:11:59,921
I'm leaving school.
287
00:12:27,799 --> 00:12:29,500
I have to admit
that letter writing
288
00:12:29,584 --> 00:12:32,722
is my preferred form
of communication.
289
00:12:32,806 --> 00:12:34,687
You're able to say
what you need to say
290
00:12:34,771 --> 00:12:38,302
without rude interruption
or interference.
291
00:12:38,386 --> 00:12:41,369
"There are things I should
probably say to you, Margaret,
292
00:12:41,453 --> 00:12:44,107
and there's no time
like the present.
293
00:12:44,191 --> 00:12:46,725
My recent diagnosis
has forced me
294
00:12:46,809 --> 00:12:49,254
to think about
my own mortality.
295
00:12:49,338 --> 00:12:50,657
The past."
296
00:12:51,727 --> 00:12:53,578
"And mistakes."
297
00:12:58,137 --> 00:13:00,419
"You know, I think I got
my desire to take care of people
298
00:13:00,503 --> 00:13:02,443
from my mother."
I can't believe it's you.
299
00:13:02,527 --> 00:13:04,507
"She was the quintessential
housewife."
300
00:13:05,218 --> 00:13:06,919
"And everything,
down to the pleats
301
00:13:07,003 --> 00:13:10,529
in my A-line skirt,
had to be perfect.
302
00:13:10,613 --> 00:13:12,185
But that wasn't
enough for my father.
303
00:13:12,269 --> 00:13:14,255
He slept with all
of his secretaries.
304
00:13:14,339 --> 00:13:15,577
Even the married ones.
305
00:13:15,661 --> 00:13:18,362
My mother hated it, but clearly
not enough to say a word.
306
00:13:18,446 --> 00:13:21,496
But I swore I'd never become
someone's doormat."
307
00:13:21,580 --> 00:13:24,238
I would never have taken you
as the doormat type.
308
00:13:24,322 --> 00:13:26,066
I wasn't.
309
00:13:26,150 --> 00:13:27,466
Who are you?
310
00:13:27,550 --> 00:13:28,590
This letter
is for my daughter.
311
00:13:28,674 --> 00:13:30,710
It's... It's...
I'm... I'm... I'm Maggie.
312
00:13:30,894 --> 00:13:32,435
Margaret.
Your daughter.
313
00:13:32,519 --> 00:13:34,563
I-I am
one of your daughters.
314
00:13:35,555 --> 00:13:37,437
Hmm.
315
00:13:38,024 --> 00:13:39,390
Where was I?
316
00:13:41,121 --> 00:13:44,564
"I swore I'd never follow
my mother's example.
317
00:13:44,648 --> 00:13:46,021
Well, that was short-lived.
318
00:13:46,105 --> 00:13:48,060
I ended up as
Richard Webber's doormat.
319
00:13:48,144 --> 00:13:49,341
Oh, how I loved that man.
320
00:13:49,425 --> 00:13:51,365
Even the part of him
that was married,
321
00:13:51,449 --> 00:13:54,747
because that meant I could
never end up like my mother..."
322
00:13:54,831 --> 00:13:56,400
Don't hover over me!
323
00:13:56,484 --> 00:13:57,810
Y-You're distracting me.
324
00:13:57,894 --> 00:13:59,309
I'm sorry, I...
325
00:13:59,393 --> 00:14:00,669
I'm s... Please.
326
00:14:00,753 --> 00:14:02,107
Don't go.
327
00:14:02,191 --> 00:14:03,813
Please, just keep reading.
328
00:14:09,061 --> 00:14:10,818
- Hey. Hey, you two. Hey.
- Give it back!
329
00:14:10,902 --> 00:14:11,763
Why don't you come sit down...
330
00:14:11,847 --> 00:14:13,175
- ...so that we can play "Connect Four"?
- Give me the bear!
331
00:14:13,259 --> 00:14:14,774
- No! - Give me the bear!
- And we can be real quiet
332
00:14:14,858 --> 00:14:16,786
so that your Aunt Maggie can get
some sleep, okay? - No, he's mine!
333
00:14:16,870 --> 00:14:18,708
Give me it! - I'll teach you my game
strategy if you come sit down.
334
00:14:18,792 --> 00:14:20,098
- Always choose yellow...
- Give it back!
335
00:14:20,182 --> 00:14:21,278
...if you want to win.
336
00:14:21,362 --> 00:14:23,029
Aren't you tired yet?
337
00:14:24,071 --> 00:14:25,163
Whew.
338
00:14:25,247 --> 00:14:28,912
Were you scared
when your mom died?
339
00:14:29,996 --> 00:14:31,489
Um...
340
00:14:31,573 --> 00:14:34,278
Yeah, I'm... I-I was.
341
00:14:34,440 --> 00:14:36,778
I was... I-I was
a lot of things.
342
00:14:36,862 --> 00:14:40,083
I was scared when I thought
my mom was dying.
343
00:14:40,167 --> 00:14:41,663
Yeah, I was, too.
344
00:14:41,747 --> 00:14:43,766
But thankfully,
she's here now.
345
00:14:43,878 --> 00:14:44,910
She's okay.
346
00:14:44,994 --> 00:14:46,625
Yeah, but I'm...
347
00:14:46,709 --> 00:14:48,496
still scared.
348
00:14:48,580 --> 00:14:51,044
Yeah, I understand that.
But you know what?
349
00:14:51,128 --> 00:14:53,066
I think all we can do...
350
00:14:53,150 --> 00:14:56,424
is try to take advantage
of the time we have now
351
00:14:56,508 --> 00:14:57,875
- with the people we love.
- It's mine! It's mine!
352
00:14:57,959 --> 00:14:59,457
- Give me it!
- It's mine! Stop!
353
00:14:59,541 --> 00:15:01,348
Ow!
354
00:15:01,432 --> 00:15:02,977
- Oh. Uh-oh, okay.
- Oh, God.
355
00:15:03,061 --> 00:15:04,294
What happened?
What, what, what, what, what?
356
00:15:04,378 --> 00:15:05,325
What happened? What happened?
357
00:15:05,409 --> 00:15:06,841
Oh.
Oh, are you okay?
358
00:15:06,925 --> 00:15:07,994
Ooh, okay.
359
00:15:08,078 --> 00:15:10,520
Ow.
360
00:15:10,604 --> 00:15:11,740
I swear,
361
00:15:11,824 --> 00:15:12,785
I was gonna tell you.
362
00:15:12,869 --> 00:15:13,699
- When?
- Soon?
363
00:15:13,783 --> 00:15:14,726
I knew you
were gonna do this.
364
00:15:14,810 --> 00:15:16,176
I knew you were gonna be you
and freak out.
365
00:15:16,260 --> 00:15:18,269
I'm sorry. How am I supposed
to react to the news
366
00:15:18,353 --> 00:15:19,762
you're dropping out
of college?
367
00:15:19,846 --> 00:15:20,982
I'm taking time off.
368
00:15:21,066 --> 00:15:22,402
Charlotte, you have
two years left.
369
00:15:22,486 --> 00:15:24,058
I want to travel now.
370
00:15:24,142 --> 00:15:25,605
You finish,
then you travel the world.
371
00:15:25,689 --> 00:15:27,925
- That's how it works.
- The world really is the best classroom.
372
00:15:28,009 --> 00:15:29,275
Dude. Please?
373
00:15:29,359 --> 00:15:30,582
He's not entirely wrong.
374
00:15:30,666 --> 00:15:32,652
Are you serious?
Will you just listen?
375
00:15:32,736 --> 00:15:34,873
Silver and I want
to elevate ourselves,
376
00:15:34,957 --> 00:15:37,105
and Costa Rica's
all about wellness...
377
00:15:37,189 --> 00:15:38,898
I'm planning some sweet
meditation workshops.
378
00:15:38,982 --> 00:15:40,199
Man, you've got
to stop talking.
379
00:15:40,283 --> 00:15:42,866
We're gonna stay in an eco-lodge
and be surrounded by nature.
380
00:15:42,950 --> 00:15:44,869
Are you hearing yourself,
or am I the only one that thinks
381
00:15:44,953 --> 00:15:46,089
this sounds ridiculous?
382
00:15:46,173 --> 00:15:47,970
Please, help me out here.
383
00:15:48,802 --> 00:15:50,884
- Wow, thank you.
- You know what?
384
00:15:50,968 --> 00:15:53,018
- It's not your decision to make.
- How you gonna pay for it?
385
00:15:53,102 --> 00:15:55,238
I have money saved,
and we're gonna make some more
386
00:15:55,322 --> 00:15:57,144
with Silver's... workshops.
387
00:15:57,228 --> 00:15:59,688
They're pay-what-you-can.
That sounds about right.
388
00:15:59,772 --> 00:16:01,285
So, what happens
when you change your mind
389
00:16:01,369 --> 00:16:03,245
about the eco-lodge
and your soul mate?
390
00:16:03,329 --> 00:16:05,277
You know, when Silver here
turns to Bronze.
391
00:16:05,361 --> 00:16:06,957
You're gonna be stuck
in Costa Rica with no money.
392
00:16:07,041 --> 00:16:08,647
Who you gonna call
then, huh?
393
00:16:08,917 --> 00:16:10,053
Not you.
394
00:16:10,137 --> 00:16:12,358
I'm the only one
you can call!
395
00:16:16,986 --> 00:16:19,176
I think this steak's Wagyu.
396
00:16:21,047 --> 00:16:23,750
- An afterlife? Really?
- You seem surprised.
397
00:16:23,834 --> 00:16:25,027
'Cause you're
a neuroscientist.
398
00:16:25,111 --> 00:16:26,812
Who doesn't believe
this is all there is.
399
00:16:26,896 --> 00:16:30,369
I think that this life
is part of one long journey.
400
00:16:30,453 --> 00:16:32,707
I don't think I want
to keep living life after life.
401
00:16:32,791 --> 00:16:34,090
It sounds exhausting.
402
00:16:34,174 --> 00:16:36,267
Well, I'd like to think
we do better each time.
403
00:16:36,351 --> 00:16:39,619
So, the next one
will be decent?
404
00:16:39,703 --> 00:16:40,932
Exactly.
405
00:16:41,016 --> 00:16:44,787
So, to temper
your expectations...
406
00:16:44,871 --> 00:16:46,822
the band is okay.
407
00:16:46,906 --> 00:16:48,113
The vibe is good.
408
00:16:48,197 --> 00:16:50,459
I would listen
to bad karaoke right now.
409
00:16:50,688 --> 00:16:52,850
- Can you watch my Coke?
- Mm-hmm.
410
00:16:53,478 --> 00:16:56,058
Drum solo plays...
411
00:16:57,383 --> 00:16:58,746
All right, guys.
412
00:17:02,340 --> 00:17:04,010
"Trouble" plays...
413
00:17:05,759 --> 00:17:09,780
♪ You been causing me trouble
and keeping me up ♪
414
00:17:11,651 --> 00:17:14,058
♪ Throw your rock at my window
415
00:17:14,142 --> 00:17:16,444
♪ I'm calling your bluff
416
00:17:18,083 --> 00:17:21,019
♪ An eye for an eye
doesn't seem too unfair ♪
417
00:17:21,103 --> 00:17:24,153
♪ If you stare long enough
418
00:17:24,237 --> 00:17:27,398
♪ Keep your hands off my phone
and I'll leave you alone ♪
419
00:17:27,482 --> 00:17:30,196
♪ Do you miss me or what?
420
00:17:35,359 --> 00:17:40,421
♪ And when the night comes,
I hope I'm causin' you trouble ♪
421
00:17:40,893 --> 00:17:45,820
♪ And when the night comes,
I hope I'm keepin' you up ♪
422
00:17:47,432 --> 00:17:53,037
♪ And when the night comes,
I hope I'm causin' you trouble ♪
423
00:17:53,121 --> 00:17:56,944
♪ And keepin' you,
and keepin' you up ♪
424
00:19:02,774 --> 00:19:05,147
I used to be Charlotte.
425
00:19:05,231 --> 00:19:09,339
I had pink hair,
traveled all over Europe.
426
00:19:09,780 --> 00:19:11,929
I had soul mates
that were fun.
427
00:19:15,525 --> 00:19:17,487
- That supposed to make me feel better?
- Maybe.
428
00:19:17,571 --> 00:19:19,598
I'm just saying,
things worked out okay for me.
429
00:19:19,682 --> 00:19:21,048
When I thought I was dying,
what did I ask you
430
00:19:21,132 --> 00:19:21,908
to do for Charlotte?
431
00:19:21,992 --> 00:19:23,675
To make sure
she got an education.
432
00:19:23,759 --> 00:19:25,051
That's right.
433
00:19:25,338 --> 00:19:27,332
Then you should know this isn't
really up for discussion.
434
00:19:27,416 --> 00:19:29,269
- Because of your sister?
- I'm not gonna talk about
435
00:19:29,353 --> 00:19:30,777
my sister right now.
436
00:19:31,166 --> 00:19:34,444
If you keep trying
to control her, you...
437
00:19:34,528 --> 00:19:36,660
you will lose her.
438
00:19:36,882 --> 00:19:40,033
You have to find a way
to let her be who she is.
439
00:19:40,117 --> 00:19:43,212
That's the one thing I do know
about being a 20-year-old woman.
440
00:19:43,296 --> 00:19:44,455
It's hard. I get it.
441
00:19:44,539 --> 00:19:46,439
No, you do not get it.
442
00:19:46,523 --> 00:19:48,485
You had a mother
who was a surgical genius.
443
00:19:48,569 --> 00:19:49,879
She had a woman
who couldn't recognize her
444
00:19:49,963 --> 00:19:51,621
9 times out of 10.
445
00:19:51,848 --> 00:19:54,158
She's genetically programmed
to make huge mistakes,
446
00:19:54,242 --> 00:19:55,404
and I've spent
the last 10 years trying
447
00:19:55,488 --> 00:19:56,752
to make sure that
that does not happen.
448
00:19:56,836 --> 00:19:59,223
So, no, you do not get it.
449
00:20:12,438 --> 00:20:14,166
She pushed me
into the fireplace.
450
00:20:14,250 --> 00:20:16,338
Ellis!
He pushed me first!
451
00:20:16,422 --> 00:20:18,750
- He's my bear.
- No, it's mine!
452
00:20:18,834 --> 00:20:20,650
- No, give me it! Stop!
- Give me! Ah!
453
00:20:20,734 --> 00:20:22,130
Hey, we want Aunt Maggie
to stay asleep
454
00:20:22,214 --> 00:20:23,877
so she doesn't see the blood
on the carpet, okay?
455
00:20:23,961 --> 00:20:26,228
How much blood is there?
Barely any.
456
00:20:26,312 --> 00:20:28,034
And I told you
not to run in the house.
457
00:20:28,118 --> 00:20:29,790
You always run
in the house.
458
00:20:29,874 --> 00:20:31,481
You know what?
459
00:20:31,741 --> 00:20:34,012
We are gonna play
emergency room.
460
00:20:34,096 --> 00:20:35,796
Is that a game?
Yeah.
461
00:20:35,880 --> 00:20:37,102
It's an exciting one, too.
462
00:20:37,186 --> 00:20:39,080
- Can I play?
- You're our patient.
463
00:20:39,164 --> 00:20:40,952
And, Zola,
you're my resident,
464
00:20:41,036 --> 00:20:42,825
so you will assist me
with the surgery.
465
00:20:42,909 --> 00:20:44,667
- Will you prepare the antiseptic?
- Mm-hmm.
466
00:20:44,751 --> 00:20:46,384
Surgery?
It's like a play surgery.
467
00:20:46,468 --> 00:20:48,082
You know, like, pretend.
It's make-believe.
468
00:20:48,166 --> 00:20:49,737
- It'll be fun.
- Here you go.
469
00:20:49,821 --> 00:20:51,305
Thank you,
Dr. Grey-Shepherd.
470
00:20:51,389 --> 00:20:52,720
You're welcome,
Dr. Ndugu.
471
00:20:52,804 --> 00:20:54,119
We're going to
clean the cut first,
472
00:20:54,203 --> 00:20:55,783
and then
we're going to apply gauze
473
00:20:55,867 --> 00:20:57,879
to protect the skin
and help with healing.
474
00:21:00,592 --> 00:21:02,393
Humming
"Hush, Little Baby"...
475
00:21:07,667 --> 00:21:10,954
♪ Hush, little baby, don't say a word ♪
476
00:21:11,038 --> 00:21:13,728
♪ Papa's gonna buy you
a mockingbird ♪
477
00:21:13,812 --> 00:21:16,645
- Did you ever think about me?
- ♪ And if that mockingbird don't sing ♪
478
00:21:16,729 --> 00:21:18,483
- Or did you ever try to contact me...
- ♪ Papa's gonna buy you
479
00:21:18,567 --> 00:21:20,449
- ...or want to contact me?
- ♪ A diamond ring
480
00:21:20,533 --> 00:21:23,470
- ♪ And if that diamond ring
- Stop singing, please.
481
00:21:23,554 --> 00:21:24,908
"I used to be
so unsure of myself.
482
00:21:24,992 --> 00:21:26,787
I constantly listened
to everyone else...
483
00:21:26,871 --> 00:21:28,833
Advisors, attendings,
even other residents...
484
00:21:28,917 --> 00:21:30,877
But I never listened
to the voice inside.
485
00:21:30,961 --> 00:21:33,143
- To what I wanted."
- Is that why you gave me up?
486
00:21:33,227 --> 00:21:35,421
"I didn't even want to go
into general surgery initially.
487
00:21:35,505 --> 00:21:38,315
I wanted to do cardio,
but I talked myself out of it.
488
00:21:38,399 --> 00:21:39,878
I forced myself out of it."
489
00:21:39,962 --> 00:21:41,470
You wanted to go
into cardio?
490
00:21:41,554 --> 00:21:42,732
"I would have been
extraordinary."
491
00:21:42,816 --> 00:21:44,283
I am extraordinary!
492
00:21:44,367 --> 00:21:45,846
I went into cardio.
493
00:21:45,930 --> 00:21:47,027
Ellis, is that
because of you?
494
00:21:47,111 --> 00:21:48,588
How should I know?
495
00:21:48,672 --> 00:21:50,461
Because...
496
00:21:50,545 --> 00:21:52,307
I a-am your daughter.
497
00:21:52,391 --> 00:21:53,536
I...
498
00:21:54,377 --> 00:21:55,789
Please, look at me!
Please!
499
00:21:55,873 --> 00:21:57,921
Please! See me! Please!
500
00:21:58,005 --> 00:21:59,112
"Regrets are useless,
though.
501
00:21:59,196 --> 00:22:00,272
They make you weak.
502
00:22:00,356 --> 00:22:02,166
Always pining for something
out of your control.
503
00:22:02,250 --> 00:22:04,018
That's why I became
a remarkable surgeon...
504
00:22:04,102 --> 00:22:06,300
Because I never let
the inconsequential
505
00:22:06,384 --> 00:22:07,379
get in my way."
506
00:22:08,755 --> 00:22:09,977
I was inconsequential?
507
00:22:10,061 --> 00:22:12,340
Margaret, would you stop
interrupting?
508
00:22:14,631 --> 00:22:16,215
Humming
"Hush, Little Baby"...
509
00:22:34,592 --> 00:22:37,556
- Y- our sister's kids are cute.
- Yeah, they're adorable.
510
00:22:37,640 --> 00:22:38,982
PB&J?
511
00:22:39,066 --> 00:22:40,806
Yeah!
512
00:22:42,441 --> 00:22:46,303
Did you ever feel
the kid and marriage pressure?
513
00:22:46,387 --> 00:22:49,226
Mm, my grandmother guilts me
every Thanksgiving.
514
00:22:49,310 --> 00:22:50,757
She's not getting
any younger.
515
00:22:50,841 --> 00:22:51,889
Mm.
516
00:22:51,973 --> 00:22:53,826
So, plants?
517
00:22:53,910 --> 00:22:55,096
Yeah, mm-hmm.
518
00:22:55,180 --> 00:22:57,767
This is Ringo.
519
00:22:58,021 --> 00:22:59,222
Makes sense.
520
00:22:59,306 --> 00:23:01,542
And this is Janis.
521
00:23:01,678 --> 00:23:03,749
- Mm-hmm.
- Mm-hmm.
522
00:23:03,833 --> 00:23:05,721
And that is Tina.
523
00:23:07,438 --> 00:23:09,631
I actually love kids.
524
00:23:09,884 --> 00:23:11,478
So much that
I don't want any.
525
00:23:14,560 --> 00:23:17,610
Being a parent is hard,
as you know.
526
00:23:17,694 --> 00:23:18,611
Don't touch.
527
00:23:18,695 --> 00:23:19,873
You are responsible
528
00:23:19,957 --> 00:23:21,266
for another person's
everything.
529
00:23:21,350 --> 00:23:23,268
Shaping their perspective
and worldview.
530
00:23:23,352 --> 00:23:24,573
Trying to keep them alive
531
00:23:24,657 --> 00:23:26,662
and help them be
a decent human being.
532
00:23:26,746 --> 00:23:28,843
All the while,
figuring out your own stuff.
533
00:23:29,618 --> 00:23:31,622
Well, yeah.
534
00:23:31,706 --> 00:23:33,334
But there's a lot of love
535
00:23:33,418 --> 00:23:35,758
that kind of comes in
to balance all of that.
536
00:23:35,842 --> 00:23:37,456
I love.
537
00:23:37,540 --> 00:23:40,242
I love my plants.
538
00:23:52,619 --> 00:23:53,798
- Oh, hi.
- Oh, sorry.
539
00:23:53,882 --> 00:23:54,951
I thought Silver
was in here.
540
00:23:55,035 --> 00:23:56,708
No, he went outside,
I think.
541
00:23:56,792 --> 00:23:58,914
He said something
about needing a "pipe."
542
00:23:59,649 --> 00:24:02,552
Um, look,
I know we just met,
543
00:24:02,636 --> 00:24:05,091
but, uh, would you mind
talking to my uncle for me?
544
00:24:05,175 --> 00:24:07,137
Since you've probably got
some sway with him right now.
545
00:24:07,221 --> 00:24:10,843
Charlotte, you remind me
so much of myself.
546
00:24:11,665 --> 00:24:14,312
Except you're a lot braver
than I was.
547
00:24:15,664 --> 00:24:18,232
I thought I was rebelling
against my mother.
548
00:24:18,316 --> 00:24:19,539
In actuality,
I was doing
549
00:24:19,623 --> 00:24:21,687
exactly
what she wanted me to do.
550
00:24:22,047 --> 00:24:23,714
I'm not rebelling.
551
00:24:25,231 --> 00:24:26,669
Are you sure?
Yes.
552
00:24:26,753 --> 00:24:28,118
Yeah, I'm sure.
553
00:24:28,242 --> 00:24:29,638
I just...
I don't know.
554
00:24:29,722 --> 00:24:32,843
I want something new,
different.
555
00:24:33,509 --> 00:24:34,513
Change.
556
00:24:34,597 --> 00:24:35,724
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
557
00:24:35,808 --> 00:24:37,951
The last two years
were not what I expected,
558
00:24:38,035 --> 00:24:39,866
and I've been thinking
about, you know,
559
00:24:39,950 --> 00:24:41,084
the way
I want to live my life,
560
00:24:41,168 --> 00:24:43,826
and maybe it's not
like other people
561
00:24:43,910 --> 00:24:46,286
or like how my uncle
wants me to.
562
00:24:46,370 --> 00:24:47,941
You know he means well.
563
00:24:48,025 --> 00:24:50,162
He is so worried
about me becoming my mother
564
00:24:50,246 --> 00:24:53,744
that he doesn't see, you know,
who I'm actually becoming.
565
00:24:56,444 --> 00:24:58,646
Very hard to live outside
the shadow of your parents.
566
00:24:58,730 --> 00:25:00,310
Yeah, well,
he's making it harder.
567
00:25:00,394 --> 00:25:02,734
It's always been his way
or no way.
568
00:25:03,104 --> 00:25:05,338
You'll see that...
Eventually.
569
00:25:07,456 --> 00:25:08,734
Will you talk to him?
570
00:25:12,225 --> 00:25:13,587
You can.
571
00:25:13,967 --> 00:25:15,420
You can.
572
00:25:23,254 --> 00:25:26,745
"I stopped doing what was
expected of me after Richard.
573
00:25:26,829 --> 00:25:30,663
I started doing what was best
for me, and only me."
574
00:25:30,747 --> 00:25:32,927
Now, I'm not judging you
for giving me up.
575
00:25:33,011 --> 00:25:34,693
I just feel like
you're ashamed of me.
576
00:25:34,777 --> 00:25:36,154
I'm the child of an affair
577
00:25:36,238 --> 00:25:39,203
with a married man
who didn't choose you.
578
00:25:40,234 --> 00:25:41,587
Tell me I'm wrong.
579
00:25:41,671 --> 00:25:43,155
"The first time
I met Bill and Diane,
580
00:25:43,239 --> 00:25:45,202
I was so nervous
that they would judge me.
581
00:25:45,286 --> 00:25:46,465
But it was
nothing like that.
582
00:25:46,549 --> 00:25:49,283
They we really kind,
loving, hardworking people
583
00:25:49,367 --> 00:25:51,590
who really wanted a child."
584
00:25:51,674 --> 00:25:53,265
You chose my parents?
585
00:25:53,518 --> 00:25:55,898
"I knew you were going to be
in good hands.
586
00:25:55,991 --> 00:25:57,411
They were my first choice.
587
00:25:57,495 --> 00:25:59,206
I just knew."
588
00:26:00,339 --> 00:26:02,607
"They asked if I wanted
the occasional update
589
00:26:02,691 --> 00:26:04,037
about how you were doing."
590
00:26:04,121 --> 00:26:05,953
They did?
"Of course, I declined."
591
00:26:06,037 --> 00:26:07,796
- You declined?
- Hmm.
592
00:26:07,898 --> 00:26:10,752
I'm not a dinner invitation, Ellis.
593
00:26:13,659 --> 00:26:14,841
You declined?
594
00:26:14,925 --> 00:26:17,505
You weren't the least bit
curious about me?
595
00:26:17,589 --> 00:26:19,170
You're the one who thinks
that everything you touch
596
00:26:19,254 --> 00:26:20,302
is extraordinary.
597
00:26:20,386 --> 00:26:22,011
Didn't want to see
if I fit the bill?
598
00:26:22,095 --> 00:26:24,274
No, no, no.
Look at me, Ellis.
599
00:26:24,358 --> 00:26:26,280
You don't get to
avoid me now.
600
00:26:26,364 --> 00:26:28,278
- Look at me!
- What do you want me to say?!
601
00:26:28,362 --> 00:26:29,403
That I wish
it was different?
602
00:26:29,487 --> 00:26:32,294
That I wish that you
and Meredith and me and Richard
603
00:26:32,378 --> 00:26:34,471
could have been
one big, happy family?
604
00:26:34,555 --> 00:26:35,857
Well, that was
a childish fantasy.
605
00:26:35,941 --> 00:26:37,244
It was never gonna happen!
606
00:26:37,328 --> 00:26:38,699
I... I'm here.
607
00:26:38,783 --> 00:26:42,008
Living every day in the shadow
of the great Ellis Grey.
608
00:26:42,092 --> 00:26:44,098
Her living and breathing
and walking and talking mistake,
609
00:26:44,182 --> 00:26:46,144
the one who wasn't
good enough to be approved.
610
00:26:46,228 --> 00:26:47,930
You don't know
how hard it was for me.
611
00:26:48,014 --> 00:26:50,458
But I picked up the pieces,
and I moved on.
612
00:26:50,542 --> 00:26:52,477
And I did it... on my own.
613
00:26:52,561 --> 00:26:54,552
And I spent every day
614
00:26:54,636 --> 00:26:55,911
wondering why
I wasn't worthy.
615
00:26:55,995 --> 00:26:58,027
Didn't you ever think about
how I might feel?
616
00:26:58,111 --> 00:27:00,005
I made a decision,
and I stood by it.
617
00:27:00,089 --> 00:27:02,791
That decision not to see you
I do not regret one bit.
618
00:27:02,875 --> 00:27:05,503
That decision
I am proud of!
619
00:27:18,761 --> 00:27:20,347
Baby, hey.
620
00:27:20,431 --> 00:27:21,777
What happened?
What's going on?
621
00:27:21,861 --> 00:27:22,855
Are you okay?
622
00:27:22,939 --> 00:27:24,459
That woman...
623
00:27:25,148 --> 00:27:27,732
She's awful. She...
624
00:27:27,859 --> 00:27:29,343
She was exactly
625
00:27:29,427 --> 00:27:31,476
how Meredith
described her.
626
00:27:31,560 --> 00:27:33,402
I don't think I'm gonna
finish the letter.
627
00:27:34,882 --> 00:27:36,288
Then don't.
628
00:27:37,316 --> 00:27:39,209
And know that...
629
00:27:39,902 --> 00:27:42,387
whatever it says
does not change
630
00:27:42,471 --> 00:27:44,662
the amazing person
that you are.
631
00:27:47,042 --> 00:27:49,142
I know.
632
00:27:49,226 --> 00:27:50,545
Okay.
633
00:27:51,245 --> 00:27:53,681
I just wish I didn't
need her to know that.
634
00:27:56,176 --> 00:27:58,021
Come here.
635
00:28:02,877 --> 00:28:05,293
Finishing school is gonna
give you more options.
636
00:28:05,377 --> 00:28:06,965
It's something
most people do not have.
637
00:28:07,049 --> 00:28:08,903
- Most people... You're talking about Mom?
- Yes.
638
00:28:08,987 --> 00:28:11,395
Your mom could have had options,
but she threw them all away.
639
00:28:11,479 --> 00:28:14,270
She made the same mistake
over and over and over again.
640
00:28:14,354 --> 00:28:16,481
- I know. I was there.
- Then act like it!
641
00:28:16,565 --> 00:28:17,473
I'm not her!
642
00:28:17,557 --> 00:28:18,611
Oh, my... Wait, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
Please, stop.
643
00:28:18,695 --> 00:28:19,525
Stop, stop, stop,
stop, stop.
No, no.
644
00:28:19,609 --> 00:28:22,441
Stop, stop, stop.
I-I-I...
645
00:28:22,525 --> 00:28:25,196
Look, I just want
what's best for you, okay?
646
00:28:25,315 --> 00:28:27,676
Based on what you want,
not what I want.
647
00:28:27,760 --> 00:28:29,116
No, based on a lot
of life experience.
648
00:28:29,200 --> 00:28:30,691
You know, most people
aren't like you.
649
00:28:30,775 --> 00:28:33,199
Not everyone wakes up one day
and immediately knows
650
00:28:33,283 --> 00:28:34,861
what they want to do.
651
00:28:34,945 --> 00:28:38,318
I need to figure
some stuff out by myself.
652
00:28:39,025 --> 00:28:41,349
Why can't that be okay?
653
00:28:42,179 --> 00:28:44,006
I just...
654
00:28:46,127 --> 00:28:48,520
I don't want you
to have to struggle.
655
00:28:48,604 --> 00:28:50,567
Will you give yourself
some more credit?
656
00:28:50,651 --> 00:28:52,835
Have you ever had
to bail me out of jail?
657
00:28:52,919 --> 00:28:55,272
Or, like, pick me up
off the side of the road?
658
00:28:55,356 --> 00:28:58,145
Or... I don't know,
take pills out of my hand?
659
00:28:58,229 --> 00:29:00,685
No.
Because you did your job.
660
00:29:01,536 --> 00:29:04,151
I'm okay,
and it's because of you
661
00:29:04,235 --> 00:29:07,724
that I can even think
about traveling the world.
662
00:29:09,612 --> 00:29:13,842
I will go back to school.
I promise.
663
00:29:14,549 --> 00:29:16,513
I'll make sure
that I have options.
664
00:29:16,612 --> 00:29:17,809
But in order
for me to do that,
665
00:29:17,893 --> 00:29:21,638
you have to stop trying
to dictate my every move.
666
00:29:21,905 --> 00:29:24,040
You have to let me mess up
667
00:29:24,124 --> 00:29:26,959
and, like, change my mind
a few times.
668
00:29:28,677 --> 00:29:30,895
- And if I do drugs...
- Charlotte.
669
00:29:30,979 --> 00:29:34,421
...they will be
plant-based, okay?
670
00:29:34,505 --> 00:29:36,175
So calm down.
671
00:30:11,278 --> 00:30:12,905
"I do have one regret."
672
00:30:14,190 --> 00:30:15,439
Please, go.
673
00:30:15,523 --> 00:30:18,020
"I do wish that you
and Meredith could have met.
674
00:30:18,104 --> 00:30:20,588
She could have used a sister.
675
00:30:20,682 --> 00:30:22,051
She's so much like me.
676
00:30:22,135 --> 00:30:24,274
Stubborn, singular-focused.
677
00:30:24,358 --> 00:30:27,318
I have a feeling you would have
been a good influence on her."
678
00:30:28,541 --> 00:30:30,294
True sisters.
679
00:30:32,727 --> 00:30:34,308
We are.
680
00:30:35,848 --> 00:30:38,693
I wasn't the best mother
to Meredith.
681
00:30:38,862 --> 00:30:40,473
I had high expectations
682
00:30:40,557 --> 00:30:42,474
which she couldn't
always reach.
683
00:30:45,150 --> 00:30:48,381
But I did my best
with you,
684
00:30:48,627 --> 00:30:50,575
by giving you away.
685
00:30:50,994 --> 00:30:54,027
I knew you would be better off
with Bill and Diane.
686
00:30:55,362 --> 00:30:56,709
I was.
687
00:31:16,715 --> 00:31:19,691
Hey, my baby.
688
00:31:21,241 --> 00:31:22,955
Mom!
689
00:31:27,051 --> 00:31:28,373
Okay.
690
00:31:51,477 --> 00:31:53,905
When did you get
into music?
691
00:31:53,989 --> 00:31:55,629
A few years ago.
Really?
692
00:31:55,713 --> 00:31:57,922
You looked like you'd been
playing since you were a kid.
693
00:31:58,767 --> 00:32:00,598
It started
as a dare, actually.
694
00:32:00,682 --> 00:32:02,614
My friend took me
to an Open Mic Night,
695
00:32:02,698 --> 00:32:05,301
certain it would cure
my hatred of public speaking.
696
00:32:05,385 --> 00:32:06,420
Didn't work.
697
00:32:06,504 --> 00:32:07,725
Clearly.
698
00:32:07,809 --> 00:32:11,059
No, still hate it,
but performing is different.
699
00:32:11,143 --> 00:32:13,442
It's like this deep
part of myself
700
00:32:13,526 --> 00:32:16,313
that doesn't get
to come out often...
701
00:32:16,479 --> 00:32:18,911
gets to be a rock star.
702
00:32:18,995 --> 00:32:20,825
You're real carefree
on stage.
703
00:32:20,909 --> 00:32:22,610
I am.
704
00:32:22,694 --> 00:32:24,321
And self-assured.
705
00:32:26,126 --> 00:32:28,964
Just when I feel like
I'm figuring my stuff out...
706
00:32:29,048 --> 00:32:31,314
...life lifes.
707
00:32:31,398 --> 00:32:34,060
Why do you pretend like
you're not a rock star yourself?
708
00:32:36,186 --> 00:32:38,639
Thank you
for flattering me.
709
00:32:38,799 --> 00:32:40,490
No, I-I'm wondering.
710
00:32:40,580 --> 00:32:42,412
Why do you self-deprecate?
711
00:32:42,496 --> 00:32:43,992
You're more than that.
712
00:32:52,338 --> 00:32:53,996
I don't know.
713
00:32:54,080 --> 00:32:55,693
I guess...
714
00:32:56,248 --> 00:32:59,192
it's kind of become
my shield of armor.
715
00:32:59,276 --> 00:33:00,605
Protection.
716
00:33:00,689 --> 00:33:02,400
From what?
717
00:33:03,620 --> 00:33:06,279
From fully loving
every part of me.
718
00:33:07,471 --> 00:33:10,404
'Cause if I do, then...
719
00:33:11,308 --> 00:33:13,668
I deserve a love
that does the same.
720
00:33:13,752 --> 00:33:16,598
It took me a long time
to embrace all of who I am.
721
00:33:16,682 --> 00:33:20,482
So, outside love
is like icing.
722
00:33:23,407 --> 00:33:26,935
I don't even think
I know all of who I am.
723
00:33:27,237 --> 00:33:31,279
Well, I'm excited to get to know
all of who you are.
724
00:33:35,632 --> 00:33:37,413
Me, too.
725
00:33:41,448 --> 00:33:42,973
You sure you two
don't wanna come?
726
00:33:43,057 --> 00:33:44,832
Should be a sick
full moon ceremony.
727
00:33:44,916 --> 00:33:46,348
Meredith?
Sick full moon?
728
00:33:46,432 --> 00:33:47,676
I'm good.
We'll pass.
729
00:33:47,760 --> 00:33:48,965
It was nice meeting you.
730
00:33:49,049 --> 00:33:50,754
I'm glad my uncle has
someone else to worry about.
731
00:33:50,838 --> 00:33:52,590
Have a great time
in Costa Rica.
732
00:33:52,674 --> 00:33:53,818
We will.
733
00:33:54,698 --> 00:33:56,981
- So, next weekend, yes?
- Yes, yes, yes.
734
00:33:57,065 --> 00:33:59,043
I will come, and I'll give you
all the deets about our trip.
735
00:33:59,127 --> 00:34:01,225
You know, coordinates, flights,
the trees I'll be touching.
736
00:34:01,309 --> 00:34:02,976
Okay. Goodbye.
737
00:34:13,283 --> 00:34:16,647
I'm sorry our weekend
got ruined.
738
00:34:16,731 --> 00:34:19,293
No, these are our lives.
739
00:34:19,377 --> 00:34:21,670
There's no need
to apologize for them.
740
00:34:28,333 --> 00:34:30,218
I'm not used to help.
741
00:34:30,909 --> 00:34:32,254
Someone else's opinion.
742
00:34:32,338 --> 00:34:34,012
Well, if you know
anything about me,
743
00:34:34,096 --> 00:34:35,134
you'll have to
get used to it.
744
00:34:35,218 --> 00:34:36,624
Well, yeah,
that's not easy for me.
745
00:34:36,708 --> 00:34:38,137
I mean, how would you feel
if I was trying
746
00:34:38,221 --> 00:34:39,574
to give you help
when it comes to your sisters?
747
00:34:39,658 --> 00:34:40,704
I wouldn't like it,
748
00:34:40,788 --> 00:34:42,489
and I would tell you
you were wrong.
749
00:34:42,573 --> 00:34:45,381
Well, then, we're gonna
have to get used to it.
750
00:34:49,571 --> 00:34:51,937
Charlotte's a great girl.
751
00:34:52,104 --> 00:34:53,282
You did a really good job.
752
00:34:53,366 --> 00:34:54,588
The weird thing is,
753
00:34:54,672 --> 00:34:57,426
is I don't want her
to end up like me, either.
754
00:34:57,510 --> 00:34:59,288
So rigid one day,
she wakes up
755
00:34:59,372 --> 00:35:01,199
and wants to rethink
everything.
756
00:35:01,283 --> 00:35:02,386
Is that what you're doing?
757
00:35:02,470 --> 00:35:05,418
I chose a career where saving
one life means losing another,
758
00:35:05,502 --> 00:35:08,925
and every case feels harder
than the last.
759
00:35:09,009 --> 00:35:10,598
Are you thinking
about quitting?
760
00:35:10,682 --> 00:35:11,488
No.
761
00:35:13,232 --> 00:35:14,464
I don't know.
762
00:35:15,399 --> 00:35:17,763
I don't... I don't know.
763
00:35:20,958 --> 00:35:23,918
You know, Hamilton thinks that
I took the Parkinson's project
764
00:35:24,002 --> 00:35:26,359
because I'm really trying
to cure Alzheimer's.
765
00:35:26,443 --> 00:35:28,491
Is that true?
I don't know.
766
00:35:28,575 --> 00:35:30,232
But I also don't know
if I can just go back
767
00:35:30,316 --> 00:35:32,857
to Grey-Sloan and be
Chief of General anymore.
768
00:35:41,175 --> 00:35:44,492
You know, I think today,
you saw that I'm not the, um...
769
00:35:44,639 --> 00:35:46,745
I'm not the most, uh...
770
00:35:48,678 --> 00:35:50,028
Patient?
771
00:35:50,112 --> 00:35:52,043
Yeah, that's it.
772
00:35:52,127 --> 00:35:55,277
Who is patient when it comes
to their family?
773
00:35:55,361 --> 00:35:57,685
♪ Think I got a new philosophy
774
00:35:57,769 --> 00:35:59,265
Not me.
775
00:35:59,378 --> 00:36:02,994
♪ I wanna dive right in
776
00:36:03,078 --> 00:36:04,700
I also have a temper.
777
00:36:04,784 --> 00:36:05,919
- You have a temper?
- Yeah.
778
00:36:06,003 --> 00:36:08,320
Well, I don't believe it.
779
00:36:10,163 --> 00:36:11,763
♪ But I don't think
780
00:36:11,847 --> 00:36:15,466
- I know how to swim ♪
- I threw a retractor once. Yeah.
781
00:36:15,550 --> 00:36:17,906
About eight years ago,
after losing a patient, I...
782
00:36:17,990 --> 00:36:19,605
♪ And when I'm standing
on the precipice ♪
783
00:36:19,689 --> 00:36:22,537
I didn't hit anymore,
but I-I think about it
784
00:36:22,621 --> 00:36:24,397
about once a day.
785
00:36:24,481 --> 00:36:27,662
I also have a very hard time
trusting people.
786
00:36:27,746 --> 00:36:29,939
And if you sell insurance
or you don't like dogs,
787
00:36:30,105 --> 00:36:31,283
you're dead to me.
788
00:36:31,367 --> 00:36:33,503
Well, agreed on that.
789
00:36:33,587 --> 00:36:35,766
♪ Some days I wonder
why I'm doing this ♪
790
00:36:35,850 --> 00:36:38,753
♪ So much easier
to love regret ♪I just...
791
00:36:38,837 --> 00:36:41,422
When I'm falling in love,
I-I-I...
792
00:36:41,682 --> 00:36:43,121
I mean, it scares me
793
00:36:43,205 --> 00:36:44,963
because I've done it
very rarely in my life.
794
00:36:45,047 --> 00:36:48,008
♪ My love, if I jumped in
795
00:36:48,092 --> 00:36:50,520
- ♪ Would you save me from drowning? ♪
- I just don't love the feeling of losing control.
796
00:36:50,604 --> 00:36:52,347
When you're falling
in love?
797
00:36:52,431 --> 00:36:53,827
♪ Is it too much to ask,
dear? ♪
798
00:36:53,911 --> 00:36:55,960
- ♪ I need to know Yeah, when
- I'm falling in love.
799
00:36:56,044 --> 00:36:57,657
♪ I need to know
you'll be here ♪
800
00:36:57,741 --> 00:37:00,530
♪ My love, if I jumped in
801
00:37:00,614 --> 00:37:04,055
♪ Would you save me
from drowning? ♪
802
00:37:04,139 --> 00:37:06,840
♪ Is it too much to ask, dear?
803
00:37:06,924 --> 00:37:08,045
♪ I need to know
804
00:37:08,129 --> 00:37:11,802
♪ I need to know
you'll be here ♪
805
00:37:11,949 --> 00:37:15,388
♪ Stuck on the poolside
806
00:37:15,472 --> 00:37:18,263
♪ Trying just to get by
807
00:37:18,347 --> 00:37:23,485
♪ Been waiting a long time
just to know ♪
808
00:37:24,585 --> 00:37:29,477
♪ But the poolside's
all I know ♪
809
00:37:30,513 --> 00:37:32,241
- There you go!
- Thank you.
810
00:37:32,325 --> 00:37:33,788
Is Aunt Maggie okay?
811
00:37:33,872 --> 00:37:35,306
Yeah.
812
00:37:35,596 --> 00:37:37,368
She's all right.
813
00:37:39,909 --> 00:37:41,548
Are you okay?
814
00:37:42,417 --> 00:37:46,102
Do you think my birth mother
thinks about me?
815
00:37:47,804 --> 00:37:49,071
Do you think about her?
816
00:37:49,155 --> 00:37:53,044
I wonder about her,
but I feel bad about it.
817
00:37:53,287 --> 00:37:55,108
I don't want to make
my mom sad.
818
00:37:55,192 --> 00:37:57,397
I think it's normal
to wonder where we came from
819
00:37:57,481 --> 00:37:58,944
and why we are
the way we are.
820
00:37:59,028 --> 00:38:00,459
And we can...
821
00:38:00,543 --> 00:38:02,712
We can have
different feelings about it.
822
00:38:04,075 --> 00:38:05,828
Growing up, I didn't like
being around my dad
823
00:38:05,912 --> 00:38:08,032
because of some
of the decisions he made.
824
00:38:08,505 --> 00:38:10,282
But my mom...
825
00:38:11,122 --> 00:38:12,962
She was my hero.
826
00:38:14,515 --> 00:38:16,063
So's mine.
827
00:38:16,184 --> 00:38:20,173
♪ Your eyes look bored,
your brow's mean ♪
828
00:38:23,610 --> 00:38:28,212
♪ Looking upon
your lit up screen ♪
829
00:38:29,733 --> 00:38:33,430
- ♪ And the story that plays out... ♪
- You know, you could stay.
830
00:38:33,514 --> 00:38:35,072
♪ ...is not clean
831
00:38:35,156 --> 00:38:36,892
- I can't.
- Why not?
832
00:38:36,976 --> 00:38:38,878
Because I'm a mom.
833
00:38:38,962 --> 00:38:42,738
- ♪ You can't un-see what you've seen ♪
- And when I'm here in Minnesota...
834
00:38:45,326 --> 00:38:48,154
♪ I go walking out, - ...I miss
my son with every cell of my body.
835
00:38:48,238 --> 00:38:50,640
- ♪ The storms upon me
- And I hope that part of me
836
00:38:50,724 --> 00:38:51,659
doesn't scare you away,
837
00:38:51,743 --> 00:38:54,493
- ♪ And I'm wandering
- because it is a part of me that I truly,
838
00:38:54,577 --> 00:38:56,210
- ♪ About
- deeply love.
839
00:38:56,294 --> 00:38:58,356
♪ Upon the stone
840
00:39:00,168 --> 00:39:05,621
♪ And the evening sky
is storming, too ♪
841
00:39:07,587 --> 00:39:11,051
♪ Was I better off
842
00:39:11,135 --> 00:39:13,371
♪ The less I knew?
843
00:39:19,013 --> 00:39:20,263
Who you really are
844
00:39:20,347 --> 00:39:22,687
is the result
of many, many things.
845
00:39:22,771 --> 00:39:25,340
♪ We're coming up in odd days
846
00:39:25,424 --> 00:39:27,241
How you deal with fear.
847
00:39:27,325 --> 00:39:31,654
♪ And one person's easy path's
another's maze ♪
848
00:39:31,738 --> 00:39:33,639
Who you surround yourself with.
849
00:39:33,723 --> 00:39:36,333
♪ And yet we go on unfazed
850
00:39:36,417 --> 00:39:38,656
I can't believe
she wrote this.
851
00:39:39,574 --> 00:39:41,834
It doesn't even
seem like her.
852
00:39:43,777 --> 00:39:45,314
It's not like
she mailed it.
853
00:39:46,693 --> 00:39:48,569
She could have forgotten
she wrote it.
854
00:39:48,653 --> 00:39:51,177
- ♪ ..Trees swaying
- Are you glad you read it?
855
00:39:51,261 --> 00:39:52,737
♪ Above the ground
856
00:39:52,821 --> 00:39:54,260
I don't know.
857
00:39:54,344 --> 00:39:56,226
- I just...
- ♪ And the cold
858
00:39:56,310 --> 00:39:58,490
- ...felt like I should.
- ♪ Upon your skin
859
00:39:58,574 --> 00:40:00,599
♪ It feels so true
860
00:40:00,683 --> 00:40:03,029
I used to... feel like
there was something missing,
861
00:40:03,113 --> 00:40:05,958
- ♪ Were you better off
- and I just figured it was her.
862
00:40:06,095 --> 00:40:07,983
♪ The less you knew?
863
00:40:10,717 --> 00:40:12,243
I don't feel that way
anymore.
864
00:40:12,327 --> 00:40:13,853
- ♪ And all I see
- Mm-hmm.
865
00:40:13,937 --> 00:40:15,825
♪ Is greys and greens
866
00:40:17,427 --> 00:40:22,117
♪ With all the other colors
in between ♪
867
00:40:26,080 --> 00:40:27,924
And how you show up
when it matters.
868
00:40:32,434 --> 00:40:36,292
♪ The less we know, oh-oh
869
00:40:36,376 --> 00:40:38,522
♪ The less we know
870
00:40:40,135 --> 00:40:43,379
♪ Are we better off, ♪
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871
00:40:43,463 --> 00:40:45,685
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