All language subtitles for Shadows.of.the.Evening.2015

THERE ARE MANY WAYS TO EXECUTE
A SENTENCE AS ALTERNATIVE TO IMPRISONMENT.

ONLY A YEAR AGO,
THE LEADING ACTORS OF THIS FILM,

WERE ADMITTED INTO "ALTERNATIVE
MEASURES" AFTER MANY YEARS IN PRISON.

FINALLY BACK HOME, THEY RECOUNTED TO
THEIR FAMILIES THEIR EXPERIENCES IN THE PRISON THEATRE,

THAT GAVE THEM THE OPPORTUNITY TO EXPRESS
THEIR FEELINGS AND VOICE THE HURT THEY FELT

THIS FILM HAS TAKEN ITS INSPIRATION FROM THE
REAL LIVES OF THESE MEN AND THEIR FAMILIES,

LIVES SUSPENDED BETWEEN THE SHADOWS OF
THE PAST AND THEIR PRESENT NEED FOR DIALOGUE.

Here honey, this is called Evening Shadow...
Do you know why?

Because it's really really long,
just like the shadows at sunset...

It's a religious statue, it was made
as a donation to God,

To thank Him for something.

It's for the dead.

Mommy prayed a lot for an angel
to come, and then it came.

Open!

You have to live me money at home.

What if something happens...
I need money, you can't...

You have to leave some money at home.

If you fall down at home
what good is the money?

What if I want to but a perfume or something,
you've got to leave me money.

Why don't I buy the perfume?

Cut it out, I want go alone,
am I stuck to you?

I've had enough of you,
you're always onto me...

It's time you give me some space.

- And you know I'm sick!
- Oh so you're sick now!

- Of course, what, you don't know?
- Whatever.

You want me to die because
you wanna get rid of me right?

- No, it's not that, exactly.
- Yeah well I'm dying in here.

- I do what I want.
- Don't you dare in my house... cut it out.

So now it's your house?

- Were you like this even in jail?
- Yes in there too.

- Imagine those poor bastards.
- At least they could stand me.

- Yeah sure!
- You're the only one who doesn't.

I can't stand you because it's been
40 years now, that's enough.

You know what? Next time
cook your own meal.

- You think I'm not able to? I taught you how to.
- No you didn't.

I do everything in here. I buy the food
I wash the dishes and clothes.

- What a liar. I'm the one who does everything.
- What do you do?

I serve you like a prince, I clean up, I cook.

You treat me like a slave
and you don't even pay me.

- Why did you give me this plate?
- Sofia come on, shut it.

Get out of here, come on
both of you on your bed.

- Here's the bowl full of pasta.
- About time.

- So where were you at last night?
- Around Rome.

Around Rome, where?

Around Rome, you know I like
to walk around Rome at night.

You didn't go the usual spot,

Where you play 3 card Monte
by any chance?

What 3 card Monte? I Haven't played
for years, cut it out.

Do you know the magistrate
doesn't want you to see these people?

- The magistrate has broken my balls.
- And wander at night...

Or cross the ring road,
or he'll send you back inside.

The magistrate wants to send me in?
I'm already in jail.

-Okay sure but in your own home.
- So wath?

- So you shouldn't see these people.
- Who sees them?

You do, and it's time you stopped.

We've been together for 40 years,
30 years of jail,

It's time you stopped because
I can't take it any more.

I can't stand you and I'll leave you,
that's it.

- You can't, you just can't.
- Sure I can.

- You know the convict's rule?
- I'll leave you anyway, I don't care.

You can leave me before
or after I'm in.

When I'm doing time you can't leave me.

So I'll leave you now because
I just can't stand you.

- I'll go eat in the kitchen like a slave.
- Finally the ball busting is over...

See you honey.

What the fuck the magistrate wants...

I can't cross the ring road,
I can't go out at night...

I'm almost 80 and he wants to bust me,
I'm right here, come on, see if I care.

Man this is good.

Why you didn't warn me in advance,
I left the girls home alone.

They signed the permits at the last minute,
just in time to call you.

Hurry up....let's go.

If I knew how to get the bus
I could come on my own...

Why you didn't bring them with you?

Here, no way, you know I don't want
them to know where you are.

- But they have come to visit me.
- 6 years ago...Dad.

Let's go, they are waiting for you.

- Hallo?
- Grandpa Grandpa!

Oh my God, you're so beautiful,
look how yov've grown.

- Come and see the house.
- I'm coming, don't pull.

This is the living room, see the couch?

- Wasn't the kitchen here before.
- No, this was never the kitchen.

- And are all these balloons for grandpa?
- Yes, but come see the kitchen.

Yeah but don't pull, don't run,
grandpa's old, carefully!

- Take it easy!
- See?

Oh yeah? Won't you show me your room?

But no running!

- Remember grandpa's old.
- This is our room.

- Beautiful.
- We made room for you, you sleep there.

- And all these teddybears?
- Look at the ones with big eyes, cute right?

- Did you draw all these?
- Yes we drew them.

Mum, Dad, uncle, aunt... Grandpa...
This is Grandpa?

Quick Grandpa, come see the balcony, come.

I'm coming... everything looks different.

So Sandro, let's fill in your file.

So Verzili, let's put your surname's initial,

You were born in 1968,

And the year you checked in is 2014.

So let's make a notebook.

Let me explain what I mean by notebook.

It's like a journal you can write
into at the end of the day,

You can write anything you want,
thoughts, feelings,

Good and bad things.

So Sandro,

Would you like to talk about
your crimes, why were in jail?

I'll take out the aditional cigarettes
and give them back at the end of the day.

Same goes for your cell phone,
could you hand it over.

I'll let you know how and
when you get that back too.

Ok, thanks a lot.

And about coffee, you have two of those a day,
I've already inserted your name.

Naturally I won't be with you the whole time.

Regarding substances,
what drugs did you use?

The use of drugs is obviously not accepted.

Within this centre
we will do surprise drug tests.

Now I'll quickly list the various rules
and later we'll go over them.

Any form of verbal or phyisical abuse
will not be tolerated.

Same goes for any form of alienation,
or exclusive or sentimental relationships.

You can smoke 10 cigarettes at most,
each one smokes his own.

You can't manage the cigarettes as you please.

The operators schedule the various
activities throughout the day.

You are required to take part in all activities.

Both work and therapeutic.

In case of termination reinstatement
will be allowed by the operators only.

Look, this is the love card,
of the lover.

There's a young man in the center.

And these are the two roads
he could take, like two lives.

His feet are pointing towards both roads.

He doesn't know what to do honey,
it won't depend only on him.

The choice he makes will also
depend on the other cards.

And why are some upside down?

Because sometimes cards
come out upside down.

Because things can go well
or they can go badly.

Yo yo yo, hear the sound of the coast.

- It's our stuff.
- It's our stuff.

I'll stay here waiting for vengeance,
but it can wait, I'm not in a hurry.

I have an ice sheet on my heart,
now I use music before I used the needle.

It's May in Livorno and it's already scorching hot.

I bulleyed your target without taking a shot.

Every rhyme pushes away the time.

After this I won't never be the same.

Matteo we're going out.

Sara! Let's go to the party,
they're waiting for us love.

Your friends are there!
Where are you?

You're always down here sweetie...

Come out.

The little girl is 10 and
still plays hide and seek?

She's not playing hide and seek,
she's playing prison.

Let's go sweetie, come on.

Elena, who's that girl?

She's Gabriele's wife, they married
last year, I told you already.

I know, but when in jail the memory
goes off...

Yeah, I knew it...

- So how long's your leave?
- Three days.

Only three days?

I'm going back in tomorrow.

- Are you at Pamela's?
- Yes.

Come visit us then.

I only have 2 hours, I can't.

I've got time to get some stuff then
I've got to go back, it's risky if I don't.

- So how'd you make it here today?
- Only for today...

...they gave me a couple hours more.

Thing is grandpa isn't well yet,
he can't stay out all day.

Grandpa's been in hospital for 30 years?

Eat up.

- Do they think I'm still in hospital?
- Eva does, don't know about Chiara.

But doing what in the hospital?

- The psych hospital.
- Psych hospital? Like for crazy people?

Yeah, real crazy.

Aren't you writing?

Here's the cake!

WELCOME HOME LALLO.

Welcome Lallo!

Raise your glasses.

Pass the plates.

Let's drink to those who hate us, up theirs.

- But is the castle still there?
- It's still there.

- Aunt Gavina's castle.
- That one, right.

- Where we used to go get water with zinc buckets.
- Remember?

Do you know where grandpa lived?

He lived in two sheds made of wood...

They were the only two sheds
that were made of brick on the inside...

There wasn't even a bathroom,
and if you had to go...

You needed a candle...

- You're better off holding it in then!
- How're you supposed to do that?

And if you have to go, you hold it in?

- Eva for example, how do you go to school?
- On skates.

Skates? We used to go barefoot!

Like indians god damnit!

- It was great!
- Great!

There were the colonies,
the beach was beautiful, big!

Right, and grandma sent us with Nerone.

- Watching over us, remember?
- Of course I remember...

- Who was Nerone?
- Nerone was grandma's dog.

We went to the beach when we were your age...
The dog brought us... Grandma's dog.

- He followed you?
- Yeah, he did.

- Watched over us.
- No no no he watched over...

- He went in the water.
- Grandma sent us with the dog...

She didn't come, we were a bunch of kids.

She said "Nerone, watch over the kids!"
And off we went...

On this beach, the dog sat down,
we went in the water to play.

- You know the water makes a step.
- The shallows.

No when you go in it dips...

When he saw you go beyond the dip,
he came after you and growled.

He got you by the trunks
and brought you back...

- It was like "you don't go beyond this point."
- Like a man.

- He was amazing!
- But we were happy... good times.

- Is it where now the seaplane landing is?
- I don't know.

It's where the harbour is now,
there's nothing left.

- Nothing left.
- Some time has passed.

Yes, quite a bit of time.

- So, did you get the water?
- Yeah, here.

So you have to add some water, carefully...

You've got to color this slowly Sandro.

I'm giving this to my girl,
if it comes out good.

- Sandro, how is it?
- Pretty.

I put in a dancer because she dances,
she likes to dance...

She wants to be a dancer when she grows up.

That's the stuff she likes...

if it comes out good I'll give it to her,
if it comes bad, I'll try again.

- Gimme the G. I'll put a G here.
- The small one?

Yeah, the small one, G for Giulia. Perfect!

Looks good, do you have other flowers?

Damn check it out man!

- What the hell does decoupage mean?
- Decoupage means...

to cover.

Yeah, sounds right!

I don't know what to do now with my hands.

What are you making, herbal tea?

- Why not?
- Grab a mug.

- The girls asleep?
- Yes, they were real tired.

- Nice day today huh?
- Yes, real nice.

And Fabio's house? It's nice isn't it?

Yeah, uncle Fabio's worked all his life

- How's the store doing?
- Alright. Sometims good, sometimes bad.

And Franco? How's it going with him?

Fine... He's always working.

Why aren't you married?

We were going to
when I was expecting Chiara.

Then I wanted to wait for you.

And we never got married.

- You could do it now.
- No, it's too late Dad.

Why?

So many bad things have happened: problems,
money... It's better not to, it's too late.

- But you didn't tell me anything.
- And if I told you? What could you do in there?

What can I do in there? But...
I gotta know these things.

Why? Why do you have to?

- When are you leaving tomorrow?
- Early, don't get up.

- Did you say goodbye to the girls?
- Yeah, I did.

If you leave without saying goodbye
they'll get upset.

I said goodbye.. In my own way.

In your own way...

Your own way.

Going out tonight again?

- Mind your own business.
- Where are you going?

- It's my own business, get it?
- You've got to tell me where you are going.

It's my own business, get it?

You're going back to the doctor.

- So what?
- You promised me you'd stop it?

- I can't....ok?
- Romolo, you have to stop...

I told you I can't.

Sooner or later he will report you.

- Report me? He doesn't have the guts...
- It's not like Stefania will come back.

And if he reports me I'll shoot him....
And if I get arrested...

- You can't change the past!

He's got to tell me what the fuck
he did there that day...

He couldn't have saved her anyway,
you get it?

You want to torture him?

It's just happened,
and there is no going back.

Why to our daughter?

You've got to stop it...
Do you want to die in jail?

I died that day.

So boss, how are we doing tonight? Same old?
The night shift sucks huh? Anything can happen.

I always liked Rome at night.

Here we go again.

- Will you let me pay one day?
- No way.

Last time I took some money
I was arrested.

Don't worry, we all pay sooner or later...

When are we meeting, at 4?

Right, at 4.

A famous financier said that
when two people have a secret,

It is no longer a secret.

My unspeakable secret is this,
and it isn't the only one.

Society tends to oversimplify
when talking about drugs.

Dividing the world between addicts
and non addicts.

His distinct division ignores a multitude
of intermediate possibilities, such as my own.

I've been using heroine once a week
for the last 24 years,

Only on Wednesday morning,
and only at 10am sharp.

I've never, and I mean never broken this rule.

I cannot define myself as an addict,

But neither can I consider myself
distant from having drug problems.

But wait, if the guy used once a year? Why...

He didn't use once a year,
he used every Wednesday.

But what if he would use once a year?

At ten, he was an addict with a schedule,
don't you get it.

But guys, what about the feeling of loneliness?

I think he was a bit depressed too.

But the feeling of loneliness was
what he wanted... at least once a week...

Listen to me, he couldn't wait for Wednesday...

He lived all week just to get to Wednesday,

He was delusional... but it's a character issue.

Fact is drugs are all different.

We're all different,
some are weak and give in.

- This guy's tougher, but he's still an addict.
- Can it be that if he's tough with drugs.

- He's tougher than you!
- It's not about more or less.

it's about who can take it, who has it there
right in front of him and can hold back...

- That's how you see what a guy is made of.
- But what is a guy who washes his blood made of.

It's not about me!
We're talking about other.

We're on a path, I'm fine
and I don't need it.

Why was that guy using?
This was the previous question.

'Cos he wanted his own space in his own,
something only his.

Sandro you're seeing this
as if it were a great admiration right?

- The truth is, first he gave me that feeling...
- I pity him.

In prison it's worse than outside,
inside you find everything.

I said no so many times,
you don't know how many times...

What can you do...here and there...
I said no, much better that way...

- Would have lost my head outside...
- Inside was hell, pills and everything.

- The worst thing is you don't get to join a comunity.
- It depends on the jail.

To get out of my cell I came up
with all sorts of shit.

- School, computer courses, anything to get out.
- Maybe there was somethin there,

But there are jails where you
don't even have a place to sleep.

They give you nothing,
no rehab scheme.

You get in desperate, your time,
you spend it all under water.

You're in and you can't study,
to learn a new job, to do something.

When you get out you're just the same,
no you're worse

'Cos your loaded with meds,
everything's in slow motion in there,

The outside is strange, it's a parallel world,
an underwater world.

Outside is life, inside it's an underwater life.

And when you get out
you're right where you started.

You wasted years and didn't learn nothin',
it's worse than before.

The world spins around you, you're nothin',
what can you do, you start with crime again.

There's no rehab, nothin'.

I don't see how they try to rehabilitate you.

You know, we try to go down a path,
make sacrifices.

If you get lucky they give you
somethin' to do.

You bust your ass to try to get
your life and family back,

Then one day you relapse.
They take you back.

I don't know what to do if
I don't see my daughter again...

To go through everything again,
all the people, family, my mother and father.

Find everything again... How can
I look at my daughter in the eye?

If somethin' like that goes down,
I'll disappear, I'll kill myself.

I don't waht I could do, I don't...

What would you do? Why? And you? Huh?

Look at all those fish!

Look at this!

Look at that fish in the hole.

Look how he needs the dark, do you see it?

He wants to be inside.

And those too Sara, look.

Look at the rockfish look at how ugly it is.

His eyes are cold, he looks dead.

Let's go look at something else Sara,
look, look!

Here's where they busted me,
the shit I did was unbelievable.

Managed all the gambling dens.

I liked gambling, I made a living of it.
I had debts right and left.

Once we played for 3 days and 3 nights.
I was losing 11 milion lire.

The den boss comes to me and says:
"Step outside 'cos your wife's screamin' like a bitch."

The poor girl, she came to get me
because she knew what I was doing.

- How's your wife now?
- Shut up.

See you tomorrow.

Hello, hey man, guess who.

Yeah I got it, I'm on leave.

And what's up is I'm on my own,
my daughters are at work.

My nieces are at school, I'm a bit bored.

Why don't you come visit me?

You can't because you have got take
your wife to your mother in law's.

Are you out of your mind...
Keep away...

I only got 2 hours if I'm late
it's jailbreak. They'll lock me up!

That's the last thing I need.

Good to speak to you.

Sure no problem, bye, bye.

There was a courtyard,

Some cells with bars and
a sentry box with two cops inside.

And then there were the cons
who walked up and down all day, everywhere.

There were no divisions,

The only real divisions were the gangs:

M32, Latin King and Nieta.

There's no food there, no rations,
no place to sleep.

If you don't join them you don't eat.

If you don't join you walk alone.

When the bands mess up the swats arrive.

And when they arrive
there's no fucking about.

I saw a seventeen year old kid,

Cut himself with a bread knife.

Because if you cut yourself,
blood flows,

They don't touch you.

They don't use the nightstick,
they use the hydrant,

That slams you against the wall.

They're the ones who let everything in,
boos, drugs and whores.

Everything has a price,
if you want a prostitute,

You want her to stay the night,
you pay the director and she stays.

At Christmas they let you stay
in the courtyard until 8:30,

Even if it's dark.

And we dance salsa.

What beats dancing the salsa while
they shoot rubber bullets at your ass.

Fuck the bands, we all dance together.

We shake our asses all together.

This is Prison Break, a weekly
penitentiary counter information,

And music show from the underground
and this salsa is for you.

Matteo.

Matteo.

Ele... Ele.

I don't know what to do with Sara,

I can't hug her, touch her.

Sometimes I can' even look at her.

She's grown so much...

I don' t know what to do with her.

Spend time with her.

Watch it, it's hot.

- What am I supposed to eat?
- That one, what do you eat?

- That?
- Yeah.

- Right, I'll show you what I eat.
- Look... he can cook!

A delicacy, I'll make a sauce
you can't believe.

- Where the hell did you get that?
- In the fridge.

- But I never put that in the fridge.
- But I found it there.

- I really want to know who put it there.
- Well don't ask me.

You'll see when they taste this sauce
grandpa made, they won't believe it.

That sauce is too spicy for the kids.

- What are you doing Sa'?
- A "caponata", with all these vegetables.

Your veggie soup kicks ass.

Everything I do kicks ass,
I can peel veggies no problem,

Because my dad had a fruit store.

That's why they called him 'Carrots'.

- I made a milion vegetable soups.
- Look, this is all plastic.

You know what we did in jail? A tuna can,

We pressed it and used it
to cut meat or fruit...

Same with tomato cans.

And fruit salads, you know how I made it?

With the gas tank!

We cut it and made a blade,
it was better than a knife.

Once I was peeling fruit and the guards caught me:

"What's this? You know you can
butcher a man with this?"

I said come on, we're making fruit salad,
who am I gonna slay?

When you get real hungry
you sure learn how to cook!

You know what to ask a man who cooks well?

"How many years have you been in jail?"

I'm going out!

- How do I get to Monti?
- You need to take the metro.

- I don't know how to get the metro.
- Alright so you'd better take bus 8.

- Where do I get the 8?
- Straight ahead.

Hello, hello can you hear me?

You there? Fuckin' shitty phones!

My two hours are almost done...
You gotta come get me...

I'm lost... I don't know!
I just told you I'm lost...where?

The fuck do I know...
You gotta come get me...

What do you mean don't shout,
of course I shout... they'll bust me!

The two fuckin' hours are almost over...

C'mon you gotta come get me...
I'll wait here under the overpass.

Don't know... On the bypass...
The fuck do I know...

Hello fuckin' hell... Hello... Hey...

I've always been super reckless,
since I was a kid.

But also now...
My driving was always fast.

And customers always asked me to slow down.

So I'd get a yellow rag
to clean the dashboard,

And I'd put it in front of the odometer
so they couldn't see the speed.

They always asked me to slow down.

If we go any slower we'll stop i'd say.

Let me stop and show you.

I'll show you the rag boss...

Check out the discs my wife put in the car.

She's crazy about classical music.

When we met, we went to dinner.

When I took her home she said:
"There's a music store, can I buy a disc?"

I said, whatever, get it...
Beethoven, Chopin...

She made me fish out 35,000 lire.

When we were done I said:
"let's go listen to them at home."

So she said "no I'm busy, I have to go."

And the bitch just left me there!

Where's the rag...

There's Stefania with the kid.

A yellow rag covers everything...

Are you scared Doc?

You want to race? There's nobody
in Rome tonight anyway...

Let's let loose...

You want to see what it's like?

You want to see how fast
my daughter was driving that night?

Four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten.

- Let's go check the kitchen...
- I don't think he's there...

- No he's not...
- One, two, three... c'mon...

Found you! Yeah!

- I'm invisible.
- Not true... open your eyes.

You didn't find me... It's not me!

Loser!

What is it? My head's spinning...

My stomach hurt! Now I'll make you get
a stomach ache!

Where you going? I'm coming!

Small cute and soft...

Where are you at... I'll get you...

Here you are, got you!

- Tender and soft.
- Tender and soft.

I know who you are...
Where are you?

Here you are... I think it's Chiara!

Oh you got me!

You killed me.

The beard...

- His beard tickles.
- Finished!

- It would be good to go back.
- Yeah, I wish...

Oh come on.... At 46
you can still do whatever.

Yes well, maybe I should open
a bricolage shop...what's it called?

Decoupage!

Let's take some sun.

Try, try, try left left...

You have to try to position yourself
well with your legs...

You see, if you are solid...

When you feel you got the right
position with your hips... Look.

- Come on you try!
- Man you kick ass...

Don't wanna mess with you!

We would never.

What does that mean?

It's a spiral.
It's the symbol of chaos.

Here are geometric figures...

To balance out order and chaos.

And this?

This is the symbol of the free man.

In Africa the shaman gives it
to who removes the curse.

Because if you have it
the curse can't return.

Here?

These are 3 monkeys holding their tails.

But if you look closely
they have my profile...

Do they look like me a bit?

Yes.

And this is me?

Yes... That's you.

On Sundays when we spend those
two hours together it's beautiful.

It's two beautiful hours,
we laugh and play,

We play catch,

We walk, we go to the movies...

We do great, just as if it were normal...

Then when it's time to say goodbye,

She always says goodbye the same way...

She comes near...
She looks at me with her big eyes,

She hugs me...
She kisses my cheek and says:

"Bye daddy, see you tomorrow."

Know what I mean...
See you tomorrow she says...

When she really knows
we won't meet tomorrow.

She knows perfectly that we have
to wait a week to meet again...

Yes, I want to talk to her
I wanna say... I try to talk.

But she changes subject...

She blushes...

I want to know what she thinks,
what's in that head...

What she thinks of where I am...

Why she can only see me
two hours a week...

What does she think...

I should explain...

I should tell her, I should explain...
But what can I say?

What should I explain?
Should I say...

That everything's OK,
that daddy will be back soon.

That she has to wait a bit more...

That's what I should say...

Only once she told me something...

We were in the park...

Taking a walk.

Eating ice-cream...

Suddenly she stops,

She looks at me and says:

"Daddy, but in that place where you live...
Is there any sunlight?"

Thats was the only time I left Rome.

I was only done with house arrest...

Suddenly the phone rings,
it was my daughter, the youngest.

"Run daddy run..." What happened? I said.
Stefania was in an accident...

OK but where are you....
Avezzano she says...

I jumped in the car and headed out...

It took an hour and a half to get there.
I don't know how I made it.

They had taken Stefania
to Aquila by helicopter.

When I got there to see her...

After two hours she was dead.

There was nothing I could do.

You were there
but you couldn't do anything?

After ten days I came to Rome,
we had a funeral...

I lost it and messed up...

I went around with a pistol,
cocaine in my pocket...

Whatever you know...

Whatever happened, happened...

Stefania was taking her kid
to her grandparents' by the sea,

the poor kid had never seen the sea,

He didn't know the sea.

Grandapa.

Honey... you're awake?

What are you doing up at this time.
It's early, go back to bed.

Where are you going?

- To the hospital...
- I want to come with you.

No sweetie you can't come with grandpa...

It's really early, go to bed...
You're up too?

- Can I come with you?
- No sweetie you can't come with me.

- Why?
- Because...

- Why?
- Because you can't come with me...

Grandpa come, I have to give you
something before you go.

Look, here are all the sweets
and junk food me and Eva buy.

But please don't tell anyone.

Thank you.

But please don't tell anyone,
mom doesn't want us to...

You must never tell.

It's our secret.

Come on back to bed
or mom will get mad, go to bed.

I've seen you with that suitcase
since I was a kid...

Every time you left,
when they came to get you...

When you were where you were...

We didn't know where were you going.

Or when you'd come back...

I was scared...

Scared each time I heard you speak
on the phone with someone I didn't know...

When you left the house, all the times
you were supposed to come back.

But you didn't...
I'm scared now too dad...

Now that you come and go from my house...

I don't know what's going through your mind...

If you really want to stay,

Or if I have to say goodbye...

Once again.

I don't know anything dad,

All I know is that that was your life...

So how are you going to live
this other life now?

Dad do you know that the sea tortoise
is one of the most ancient creatures on earth?

See the shell? It's really strong,

It lives long because it has
a strong house it can always hide in...

It can live on land or in water...

When it migrates it can move
two-thousand kilometers, but slowly..

Do you get it daddy?
Slowly, slowly..

We shouldn't go too fast.

THC negative.

- Cocaine?
- Cocaine negative.

Heroine positive.

It's the second relapse.

Means program termination.

Here we go.

How long will this go on for?
How many more nights?

Thanks.

Now the huts are gone...

Now there's the harbour,

Before there was a big beach...

Our hut was on the sand...

Sand, a cactus here and there...

Grandma Pasqua...

She had a gift...

When we were kids and
we wanted to swim...

And she had to work and couldn't take us...

She would kiss our foreheads
and call Nerone...

She talked to him, she told him
to look after us,

That we shouldn't go far...

Nerone would sit on the water's edge.

And wouldn't let us out of his sight...

When one of us got distracted by our playing...

And went towards deeper water...

Nerone barked and got in the water.

He grabbed our trunks and
delicately dragged us back...

Oh Nerone... Nerone.

If only you had been
watching my ass all the time...

Maybe life would have been different.