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1471
01:22:53,695 --> 01:22:57,945
♪ I don't need you to sell me
on reasons to want you ♪
1472
01:23:00,529 --> 01:23:04,613
♪ I don't need you to search
for the proof that I should ♪
1473
01:23:07,363 --> 01:23:10,946
♪ You don't
have to convince me ♪
1474
01:23:11,071 --> 01:23:14,863
♪ You don't have to be scared
you're not enough ♪
1475
01:23:14,988 --> 01:23:17,863
♪ 'Cause what we've got going ♪
1476
01:23:17,988 --> 01:23:20,196
♪ Is good ♪
1477
01:23:21,197 --> 01:23:25,531
♪ I don't need more reminders
of all that's been broken ♪
1478
01:23:27,947 --> 01:23:32,697
♪ I don't need you to fix
what I'd rather forget ♪
1479
01:23:34,406 --> 01:23:38,115
♪ Clear the slate
and start over ♪
1480
01:23:38,240 --> 01:23:42,698
♪ Try to quiet
the noises in your head ♪
1481
01:23:42,823 --> 01:23:45,907
♪ We can't compete
with all that ♪
1482
01:23:48,490 --> 01:23:50,573
♪ So what if it's us? ♪
1483
01:23:50,698 --> 01:23:55,408
♪ What if it's us and only us ♪
1484
01:23:55,533 --> 01:24:00,449
♪ And what came before won't
count anymore or matter? ♪
1485
01:24:00,574 --> 01:24:02,699
♪ Can we try that? ♪
1486
01:24:02,824 --> 01:24:06,074
♪ What if it's you,
what if it's me ♪
1487
01:24:06,199 --> 01:24:10,034
♪ And what if that's all
that we need it to be ♪
1488
01:24:10,159 --> 01:24:13,492
♪ And the rest of the world
falls away? ♪
1489
01:24:14,659 --> 01:24:15,825
♪ What do you say? ♪
1490
01:24:15,950 --> 01:24:17,617
♪ I never thought there'd be ♪
1491
01:24:17,742 --> 01:24:20,534
♪ Someone like you
who would want me ♪
1492
01:24:20,659 --> 01:24:21,867
Well...
1493
01:24:21,992 --> 01:24:25,118
♪ So I give you 10,000 reasons ♪
1494
01:24:25,243 --> 01:24:27,285
♪ To not let me go ♪
1495
01:24:29,660 --> 01:24:33,701
♪ But if you really see me ♪
1496
01:24:33,826 --> 01:24:38,035
♪ If you like me for me
and nothing else ♪
1497
01:24:38,160 --> 01:24:39,868
♪ Well, that's all
that I've wanted ♪
1498
01:24:39,993 --> 01:24:44,119
♪ For longer than
you could possibly know ♪
1499
01:24:44,244 --> 01:24:46,119
♪ So it can be us ♪
1500
01:24:46,244 --> 01:24:51,119
♪ It can be us and only us ♪
1501
01:24:51,244 --> 01:24:56,245
♪ And what came before
won't count anymore or matter ♪
1502
01:24:56,370 --> 01:24:58,203
♪ We can try that ♪
1503
01:24:58,328 --> 01:25:01,953
♪ It's not so impossible ♪
1504
01:25:02,078 --> 01:25:04,787
♪ Nobody else
but the two of us here ♪
1505
01:25:04,912 --> 01:25:08,745
♪ 'Cause you're saying
it's possible ♪
1506
01:25:08,870 --> 01:25:12,120
♪ We can just watch
the whole world disappear ♪
1507
01:25:12,246 --> 01:25:17,496
♪ Till you're the only one ♪
1508
01:25:17,621 --> 01:25:24,288
♪ I still know how to see ♪
1509
01:25:27,704 --> 01:25:29,330
♪ It's just you and me ♪
1510
01:25:29,455 --> 01:25:31,747
♪ It'll be us ♪
1511
01:25:31,872 --> 01:25:36,747
♪ It'll be us and only us ♪
1512
01:25:36,872 --> 01:25:41,455
♪ And what came before
won't count anymore ♪
1513
01:25:41,580 --> 01:25:44,080
♪ We can try that ♪
1514
01:25:44,206 --> 01:25:47,706
♪ You and me ♪
1515
01:25:47,831 --> 01:25:50,998
♪ That's all that
we need it to be ♪
1516
01:25:51,123 --> 01:25:54,540
♪ And the rest of the world
falls away ♪
1517
01:25:54,665 --> 01:26:00,666
♪ And the rest
of the world falls away ♪
1518
01:26:02,666 --> 01:26:05,332
♪ The world falls away ♪
1519
01:26:06,499 --> 01:26:09,499
♪ The world falls away ♪
1520
01:26:15,541 --> 01:26:17,583
♪ The world falls away ♪
1521
01:26:18,917 --> 01:26:21,667
♪ The world falls away ♪
1522
01:26:22,667 --> 01:26:25,417
♪ The world falls away ♪
1523
01:26:26,542 --> 01:26:29,458
♪ The world falls away ♪
1524
01:26:37,168 --> 01:26:38,584
♪ The world falls away ♪
1525
01:26:38,709 --> 01:26:40,709
All right,
let's just start without him.
1526
01:26:40,834 --> 01:26:44,418
♪ The world falls away ♪
1527
01:26:44,543 --> 01:26:50,419
♪ And it's only us. ♪
1528
01:27:06,628 --> 01:27:07,503
No.
1529
01:27:07,628 --> 01:27:08,878
I'm famous for doing that.
1530
01:27:09,003 --> 01:27:10,003
I've been told that many times.
1531
01:27:11,128 --> 01:27:12,003
Hi, honey.
1532
01:27:12,128 --> 01:27:13,461
Come join us.
1533
01:27:13,586 --> 01:27:15,878
- I just put dinner in the oven.
- Hi.
1534
01:27:18,295 --> 01:27:19,586
She made me swear
to keep it a surprise.
1535
01:27:19,711 --> 01:27:20,962
I'm surprised.
1536
01:27:21,087 --> 01:27:22,254
Hi.
1537
01:27:22,379 --> 01:27:23,879
It's so nice
to finally meet you.
1538
01:27:24,004 --> 01:27:25,462
- Hi.
- Hi.
1539
01:27:25,587 --> 01:27:27,129
Yeah, great.
1540
01:27:27,254 --> 01:27:29,129
It's great.
1541
01:27:29,254 --> 01:27:30,796
Come on, Evan. Sit.
1542
01:27:32,754 --> 01:27:34,712
I-I thought that you were
working tonight.
1543
01:27:34,837 --> 01:27:36,922
Cynthia called
and invited me for dinner,
1544
01:27:37,047 --> 01:27:38,797
so, you know, I'm playing hooky.
1545
01:27:38,922 --> 01:27:41,047
We were just discussing
how sneaky you and Connor were.
1546
01:27:41,172 --> 01:27:43,672
I had no idea that he
and Connor were even friends.
1547
01:27:43,797 --> 01:27:45,172
We were the same.
1548
01:27:45,297 --> 01:27:46,713
You know,
boys love their secrets.
1549
01:27:46,838 --> 01:27:48,713
Something smells good.
What's for dinner?
1550
01:27:48,838 --> 01:27:50,547
It's chicken Milanese,
your favorite.
1551
01:27:50,672 --> 01:27:52,506
Actually his favorite is
1552
01:27:52,631 --> 01:27:53,881
my great-grandmother's
black beans.
1553
01:27:54,006 --> 01:27:55,089
Really?
1554
01:27:55,214 --> 01:27:56,423
Well, he's the only one
1555
01:27:56,548 --> 01:27:57,714
that appreciates
my cooking, so...
1556
01:27:57,839 --> 01:27:59,256
- That's not true.
- Another drop?
1557
01:27:59,381 --> 01:28:01,381
No, no. I'm-I'm fine.
Thank you.
1558
01:28:01,506 --> 01:28:03,839
Um, fascinating story
about the wine.
1559
01:28:03,964 --> 01:28:06,548
It's from a vineyard in Napa,
1560
01:28:06,673 --> 01:28:09,632
and the entire growing process
from start to finish,
1561
01:28:09,757 --> 01:28:11,549
100% sustainable.
1562
01:28:11,674 --> 01:28:13,007
Is that right?
1563
01:28:13,132 --> 01:28:15,465
Not to mention,
it tastes good, too.
1564
01:28:15,590 --> 01:28:16,715
It does.
1565
01:28:16,840 --> 01:28:19,090
You know,
I-I didn't realize...
1566
01:28:19,215 --> 01:28:20,465
Cynthia and Larry
were telling me
1567
01:28:20,590 --> 01:28:22,132
that you spend
so much time here.
1568
01:28:22,257 --> 01:28:23,924
Yeah, I... you've been
working a lot, so...
1569
01:28:24,050 --> 01:28:26,008
Why did I think
you were at Jared's?
1570
01:28:26,133 --> 01:28:27,508
I-I don't know.
1571
01:28:27,633 --> 01:28:28,966
Evan was showing me
1572
01:28:29,091 --> 01:28:32,216
all of those scholarship
contests that you found.
1573
01:28:32,341 --> 01:28:33,383
It's really impressive.
1574
01:28:33,508 --> 01:28:36,175
Well, Evan is a great writer.
1575
01:28:36,300 --> 01:28:37,800
Well, that does not
1576
01:28:37,925 --> 01:28:39,341
surprise me at all.
1577
01:28:40,301 --> 01:28:42,717
His English teacher last year
told me that he wrote
1578
01:28:42,842 --> 01:28:45,176
one of the best papers
she'd ever read on Sulu.
1579
01:28:45,301 --> 01:28:46,259
Is that right?
1580
01:28:46,384 --> 01:28:48,676
- It's Sula.
- What?
1581
01:28:48,801 --> 01:28:50,176
You said "Sulu." It's Sula.
1582
01:28:50,301 --> 01:28:52,259
Yeah, I believe Sulu's
1583
01:28:52,384 --> 01:28:54,176
a character on Star Trek.
1584
01:28:57,802 --> 01:28:59,177
My mistake.
1585
01:29:00,885 --> 01:29:04,093
So, speaking of scholarships...
1586
01:29:05,052 --> 01:29:06,427
Right...
1587
01:29:06,552 --> 01:29:08,718
Yeah, well, I guess...
1588
01:29:08,843 --> 01:29:12,094
now's as good a time as any.
1589
01:29:14,428 --> 01:29:16,636
Cynthia, do you want to...?
1590
01:29:17,761 --> 01:29:19,719
Well, um...
1591
01:29:19,844 --> 01:29:23,344
Zoe happened to mention that
Evan was having some difficulty
1592
01:29:23,469 --> 01:29:27,136
in terms of the
financial burden of college.
1593
01:29:27,261 --> 01:29:30,554
And Larry and I
started thinking,
1594
01:29:30,679 --> 01:29:32,387
and we've been fortunate enough
1595
01:29:32,512 --> 01:29:34,720
to set some money aside
for Connor.
1596
01:29:38,304 --> 01:29:39,929
Um, I'm good.
1597
01:29:40,054 --> 01:29:41,720
- I'm okay.
- Yeah.
1598
01:29:41,845 --> 01:29:44,180
Heidi, with your blessing,
we would like to give Evan
1599
01:29:44,305 --> 01:29:45,930
the money that we set aside
for our son
1600
01:29:46,055 --> 01:29:49,971
so he can fulfill his dreams.
1601
01:29:55,638 --> 01:29:58,055
Thank you so much...
1602
01:29:58,180 --> 01:29:59,805
but we're gonna be fine.
1603
01:29:59,930 --> 01:30:02,222
I don't have a lot of money,
but I-I do have some.
1604
01:30:03,972 --> 01:30:05,556
No, no, no, no, no.
I didn't mean to intimate...
1605
01:30:05,681 --> 01:30:08,056
No, no, I understand,
but, um, we do have money,
1606
01:30:08,181 --> 01:30:11,639
so I'm sorry you were under
the impression that we didn't.
1607
01:30:11,764 --> 01:30:13,889
And whatever money
we don't have,
1608
01:30:14,014 --> 01:30:16,890
Evan will either
make up for with a job
1609
01:30:17,015 --> 01:30:18,557
or he'll get a scholarship.
1610
01:30:18,682 --> 01:30:21,473
I don't want my son
to get the idea that it's okay
1611
01:30:21,598 --> 01:30:23,015
to rely on other people
for favors.
1612
01:30:23,140 --> 01:30:24,932
- Well, it's not a favor.
- No.
1613
01:30:25,057 --> 01:30:27,223
But as his mother,
I need to set that example.
1614
01:30:27,348 --> 01:30:29,265
You can't expect things
from strangers.
1615
01:30:29,390 --> 01:30:31,223
We're not strangers.
1616
01:30:31,348 --> 01:30:33,599
No, of course not.
1617
01:30:34,599 --> 01:30:36,474
But you're not family either.
1618
01:30:44,058 --> 01:30:45,558
Mom, just hold on.
1619
01:30:45,724 --> 01:30:47,433
No, I think
I better get to work,
1620
01:30:47,558 --> 01:30:49,225
see if I can grab a shift
now that I know
1621
01:30:49,350 --> 01:30:51,309
how concerned you are
about our finances.
1622
01:30:51,434 --> 01:30:52,725
Mom, will you please
come back inside?
1623
01:30:52,850 --> 01:30:54,767
My God. Are you kidding me?
1624
01:30:54,892 --> 01:30:57,017
Will you just
come back inside, please?
1625
01:30:57,142 --> 01:30:59,059
They think you're their son,
these people.
1626
01:31:00,100 --> 01:31:01,100
They're not "these people."
1627
01:31:01,225 --> 01:31:02,559
They don't really know you.
1628
01:31:02,684 --> 01:31:04,601
Well, they like me.
They like me.
1629
01:31:04,726 --> 01:31:06,226
I know that that's very hard
for you to believe,
1630
01:31:06,351 --> 01:31:07,726
that they don't think I'm...
1631
01:31:07,851 --> 01:31:09,185
you know, that there's
something wrong with me,
1632
01:31:09,310 --> 01:31:10,643
that I need to be,
like, fixed, like you do.
1633
01:31:10,768 --> 01:31:12,560
- When have I ever said that?
- My God.
1634
01:31:12,685 --> 01:31:13,893
Mom, I-I have to go
to therapy, right?
1635
01:31:14,018 --> 01:31:15,268
I have to take drugs.
I have to...
1636
01:31:15,393 --> 01:31:16,935
There's-there's nothing
wrong with that.
1637
01:31:17,060 --> 01:31:18,226
There-There's nothing wrong
with needing help, honey.
1638
01:31:18,351 --> 01:31:19,310
Just stop.
I know that there is,
1639
01:31:19,435 --> 01:31:20,894
and I know that I'm a burden,
1640
01:31:21,019 --> 01:31:22,394
that I'm the worst thing
that ever happened to you,
1641
01:31:22,519 --> 01:31:23,436
and I just... well, I just
ruined your life, okay?!
1642
01:31:23,561 --> 01:31:26,477
No. You are the best thing.
1643
01:31:26,602 --> 01:31:28,811
You're the best thing
that's ever happened to me.
1644
01:31:30,311 --> 01:31:32,269
I'm sorry I can't give you
anything more than that.
1645
01:31:33,727 --> 01:31:35,853
It's not my fault
if other people can.
1646
01:31:43,187 --> 01:31:44,103
I'll see you at home.
1647
01:31:55,646 --> 01:31:57,188
Hi.
1648
01:31:57,313 --> 01:31:59,021
I'm so sorry.
I meant to be there yesterday.
1649
01:31:59,146 --> 01:32:02,313
Okay, well, we have two days
left, and we're $25,000 short.
1650
01:32:02,438 --> 01:32:04,313
Yeah, I just... Everything...
1651
01:32:04,438 --> 01:32:05,938
You're right. I know. I'm sorry.
1652
01:32:06,063 --> 01:32:07,646
Things have been
really busy, so...
1653
01:32:09,980 --> 01:32:11,439
I've been wondering something.
1654
01:32:14,314 --> 01:32:16,064
Were you ever actually
friends with him?
1655
01:32:17,855 --> 01:32:19,397
What are you talking about?
1656
01:32:19,522 --> 01:32:22,022
Well, the thing about
the emails, it's just that,
1657
01:32:22,147 --> 01:32:23,981
like, you and Connor
keep talking about
1658
01:32:24,106 --> 01:32:25,690
climbing this tree together
in June.
1659
01:32:26,898 --> 01:32:29,106
We were in school in June.
1660
01:32:30,106 --> 01:32:32,273
You didn't have a cast
until September.
1661
01:32:32,398 --> 01:32:34,065
Well, you know what?
1662
01:32:34,190 --> 01:32:35,940
We probably just wrote down
the wrong date or something.
1663
01:32:36,065 --> 01:32:39,481
It's not just the emails, Evan.
1664
01:32:39,606 --> 01:32:41,941
You've missed, like,
three meetings in a row.
1665
01:32:42,066 --> 01:32:43,857
If I were his best friend,
1666
01:32:43,982 --> 01:32:45,649
I would be doing
everything I could to make sure
1667
01:32:45,774 --> 01:32:47,274
his dream of rebuilding
the orchard came true.
1668
01:32:47,399 --> 01:32:49,024
Okay.
1669
01:32:49,149 --> 01:32:50,774
Look, it's terrible
that people aren't giving
1670
01:32:50,899 --> 01:32:52,524
as much money
as we hoped they would.
1671
01:32:52,649 --> 01:32:54,941
It is, but-but it's not like
it's him.
1672
01:32:55,066 --> 01:32:56,317
You know what I mean?
1673
01:32:56,442 --> 01:32:58,358
It's-it's just...
it's an orchard, Alana.
1674
01:32:58,483 --> 01:33:01,108
♪ ♪
1675
01:33:02,400 --> 01:33:05,400
We have people watching us,
1676
01:33:05,525 --> 01:33:07,733
hoping...
1677
01:33:07,858 --> 01:33:10,858
praying that we can
prove Connor wrong.
1678
01:33:10,983 --> 01:33:14,151
And if the orchard is
just an empty promise,
1679
01:33:14,276 --> 01:33:17,318
all of those people will know
that Connor was right.
1680
01:33:18,984 --> 01:33:20,443
That no one cares.
1681
01:33:23,484 --> 01:33:25,484
Did you lie to me?
1682
01:33:29,777 --> 01:33:31,860
Did I lie to all these people?
1683
01:33:38,527 --> 01:33:40,360
Just go to your email.
1684
01:33:40,485 --> 01:33:41,735
Another email?
1685
01:33:41,860 --> 01:33:43,820
It's not...
1686
01:33:43,945 --> 01:33:45,986
it's not another email.
1687
01:33:53,903 --> 01:33:56,028
"Dear Evan Hansen..."
1688
01:33:57,986 --> 01:34:00,029
If we weren't friends,
then he wouldn't...
1689
01:34:02,029 --> 01:34:04,487
...he wouldn't have written
his note to me.
1690
01:34:07,529 --> 01:34:10,279
Look, only his family
have seen this, okay?
1691
01:34:10,404 --> 01:34:14,029
You can't, you can't show it
to anybody else, okay?
1692
01:34:14,154 --> 01:34:15,988
Alana.
1693
01:34:16,113 --> 01:34:17,447
Okay.
1694
01:34:27,113 --> 01:34:28,780
He wasn't right.
1695
01:34:30,155 --> 01:34:31,906
You know that, don't you?
1696
01:34:52,032 --> 01:34:54,574
♪ The parts we can't tell,
we carry them well ♪
1697
01:34:54,699 --> 01:34:57,282
♪ But that doesn't mean
they're not heavy ♪
1698
01:34:57,407 --> 01:35:00,115
♪ The parts we can't tell,
we carry them well ♪
1699
01:35:00,240 --> 01:35:02,574
♪ But that doesn't mean
they're not heavy ♪
1700
01:35:02,699 --> 01:35:05,408
♪ The anonymous one ♪
1701
01:35:05,533 --> 01:35:07,783
♪ Noticed by none ♪
1702
01:35:07,908 --> 01:35:10,325
♪ The parts we can't tell,
we carry them well ♪
1703
01:35:10,450 --> 01:35:13,616
♪ But that doesn't mean
they're not heavy ♪
1704
01:35:14,575 --> 01:35:17,033
♪ ♪
1705
01:35:17,158 --> 01:35:19,867
♪ The parts we can't tell ♪
1706
01:35:19,992 --> 01:35:22,409
♪ We carry them well ♪
1707
01:35:22,534 --> 01:35:26,992
♪ But that doesn't mean
they're not heavy ♪
1708
01:35:27,117 --> 01:35:29,409
♪ The parts we can't tell ♪
1709
01:35:29,534 --> 01:35:31,617
♪ We carry them well ♪
1710
01:35:31,742 --> 01:35:38,327
♪ But that doesn't mean
they're not heavy ♪
1711
01:35:41,993 --> 01:35:44,035
♪ ♪
1712
01:35:49,035 --> 01:35:51,994
♪ The anonymous ones ♪
1713
01:35:52,119 --> 01:35:56,119
♪ Who might just need
this moment to remind them ♪
1714
01:35:58,119 --> 01:36:01,786
♪ That there are
more anonymous ones ♪
1715
01:36:01,911 --> 01:36:06,244
♪ They're out there if you take
the time to find them ♪
1716
01:36:14,037 --> 01:36:19,537
♪ Just to know
we're somehow not alone ♪
1717
01:36:19,662 --> 01:36:26,121
♪ Isn't that all we're ever
really looking for? ♪
1718
01:36:30,746 --> 01:36:32,246
♪ ♪
1719
01:36:48,789 --> 01:36:51,539
♪ Maybe we ♪
1720
01:36:51,664 --> 01:36:54,206
♪ We don't have to be ♪
1721
01:36:57,915 --> 01:37:00,082
♪ Anonymous anymore. ♪
1722
01:37:05,707 --> 01:37:07,123
♪ ♪
1723
01:37:28,917 --> 01:37:31,709
♪ ♪
1724
01:37:36,000 --> 01:37:37,542
Can you imagine?
1725
01:37:55,460 --> 01:37:57,251
Wh-What's wrong?
1726
01:37:57,376 --> 01:37:59,001
♪ ♪
1727
01:38:02,919 --> 01:38:04,794
Yep.
1728
01:38:17,920 --> 01:38:20,087
♪ ♪
1729
01:38:38,296 --> 01:38:39,588
Hi.
1730
01:38:39,713 --> 01:38:41,379
Alana, you have to
take it down, okay?
1731
01:38:41,504 --> 01:38:43,046
They've been through enough.
1732
01:38:43,171 --> 01:38:44,838
I took it down already, Evan,
but it-it doesn't matter
1733
01:38:44,963 --> 01:38:46,213
because it's everywhere.
1734
01:38:51,505 --> 01:38:54,255
♪ ♪
1735
01:38:54,380 --> 01:38:55,422
Zoe, it's me.
1736
01:38:55,547 --> 01:38:56,672
Please call me back, okay?
1737
01:38:56,797 --> 01:38:58,422
I'm worried about you.
1738
01:38:58,547 --> 01:39:00,172
They have pictures of us now.
1739
01:39:00,297 --> 01:39:01,589
Just put it away.
1740
01:39:01,714 --> 01:39:03,590
"His parents act like
they are bereft,
1741
01:39:03,715 --> 01:39:06,298
but where were they when
their son was actually alive?"
1742
01:39:06,423 --> 01:39:08,465
Please stop reading them.
1743
01:39:10,923 --> 01:39:13,131
- Hey. Is Zoe here?
- She went home.
1744
01:39:15,298 --> 01:39:18,048
♪ ♪
1745
01:39:29,382 --> 01:39:30,549
Things really aren't good here.
1746
01:39:30,674 --> 01:39:33,007
I know. I just... I had to come.
1747
01:39:34,174 --> 01:39:36,008
Where did they even...
How did they get Connor's note?
1748
01:39:36,133 --> 01:39:37,508
I don't know.
1749
01:39:37,633 --> 01:39:39,258
Like, did they hack
our computers?
1750
01:39:39,383 --> 01:39:40,967
They hacked our emails?
Did... These people are adults.
1751
01:39:41,092 --> 01:39:42,550
Did you see their pictures?
1752
01:39:42,675 --> 01:39:43,800
These people are adults.
1753
01:39:43,925 --> 01:39:45,425
Look, maybe let it ring.
1754
01:39:45,550 --> 01:39:47,717
I'm sick of hiding. Hello?
1755
01:39:47,842 --> 01:39:49,258
Yeah, have-have fun
with your miserable life.
1756
01:39:49,383 --> 01:39:51,050
What did they say?
What's the number?
1757
01:39:51,175 --> 01:39:52,384
It's blocked.
1758
01:39:52,509 --> 01:39:53,926
It doesn't...
No, it doesn't matter.
1759
01:39:54,051 --> 01:39:55,676
That's it.
I'm calling the police.
1760
01:39:55,801 --> 01:39:56,718
No, look, right now,
maybe the best thing to do
1761
01:39:56,843 --> 01:39:58,593
is to just stay calm, all right?
1762
01:39:58,718 --> 01:40:00,384
- And sit...
- That's always your solution, isn't it?
1763
01:40:00,509 --> 01:40:01,801
Wait and see. Let's just
wait and see, right, Larry?
1764
01:40:01,926 --> 01:40:02,968
What are the police going to do?
1765
01:40:03,093 --> 01:40:04,301
It's the Internet. Wh...
1766
01:40:04,426 --> 01:40:05,926
Are they gonna
arrest the Internet?
1767
01:40:06,051 --> 01:40:07,051
I had to beg you,
every step of the way,
1768
01:40:07,176 --> 01:40:08,177
for-for therapy, for-for rehab.
1769
01:40:08,302 --> 01:40:09,927
What? N-No, no.
1770
01:40:10,052 --> 01:40:11,719
You went lurching from
one miracle cure to the next...
1771
01:40:11,844 --> 01:40:13,427
You're... Really?
1772
01:40:13,552 --> 01:40:15,385
...because all he needed
was another $20,000
1773
01:40:15,510 --> 01:40:16,469
weekend yoga retreat.
1774
01:40:16,594 --> 01:40:17,969
What was your alternative,
1775
01:40:18,094 --> 01:40:19,427
other than picking apart
everything that I did?
1776
01:40:19,552 --> 01:40:21,469
How about putting him on
1777
01:40:21,594 --> 01:40:23,219
one program and sticking to it?
1778
01:40:23,345 --> 01:40:25,136
Remember what he said
1779
01:40:25,261 --> 01:40:27,220
the first time that Connor
tried to kill himself?
1780
01:40:27,345 --> 01:40:28,803
- That he's just looking for attention.
- For Christ's sake.
1781
01:40:28,928 --> 01:40:30,428
He just wants attention!
1782
01:40:30,553 --> 01:40:32,136
I'm not gonna sit here
and defend myself!
1783
01:40:32,261 --> 01:40:33,595
You couldn't understand him.
1784
01:40:33,720 --> 01:40:36,678
You never understood him
because he wasn't yours!
1785
01:40:36,803 --> 01:40:38,845
Mom, what the hell?
1786
01:40:38,970 --> 01:40:40,679
I raised him from the time
he was three years old.
1787
01:40:40,804 --> 01:40:42,304
He was getting better, and you
refused to see it. Ask Evan.
1788
01:40:42,429 --> 01:40:44,262
Tell them, Evan.
1789
01:40:44,387 --> 01:40:46,054
Evan did everything
that he could.
1790
01:40:46,179 --> 01:40:48,971
Evan? Evan was in denial
of what was happening.
1791
01:40:49,096 --> 01:40:50,762
Do not bring him into this.
1792
01:40:50,887 --> 01:40:51,971
Read the note, Larry.
1793
01:40:52,096 --> 01:40:53,596
Read what he said.
1794
01:40:53,721 --> 01:40:55,638
"I just wish that everything
was different."
1795
01:40:55,763 --> 01:40:57,555
I tried.
1796
01:40:57,680 --> 01:40:59,097
- But he was my son!
- He wanted to be better! - ZOE: Please.
1797
01:40:59,222 --> 01:41:00,347
I-I tried everything!
1798
01:41:00,472 --> 01:41:02,013
Stop it! Just please stop!
1799
01:41:02,138 --> 01:41:04,430
- Please stop fighting!
- He was trying to be better!
1800
01:41:04,555 --> 01:41:05,430
He was trying!
1801
01:41:05,555 --> 01:41:07,013
And he was failing.
1802
01:41:07,138 --> 01:41:09,263
We failed him.
1803
01:41:10,305 --> 01:41:11,723
No, you didn't. No, you didn't.
1804
01:41:11,848 --> 01:41:12,973
You didn't fail him.
1805
01:41:15,181 --> 01:41:16,431
Read the note.
1806
01:41:18,306 --> 01:41:19,973
He didn't write it.
1807
01:41:25,764 --> 01:41:27,056
I wrote it.
1808
01:41:27,181 --> 01:41:30,557
You didn't write
Connor's suicide note.
1809
01:41:31,515 --> 01:41:35,265
Um, it was an assignment
from my therapist.
1810
01:41:35,390 --> 01:41:37,307
Write a letter to yourself,
um, a pep talk.
1811
01:41:37,432 --> 01:41:39,349
"Evan Hansen, Dear Evan Hansen,
today's gonna be a good day.
1812
01:41:39,474 --> 01:41:41,057
- Here's why."
- I-I don't, I don't think that...
1813
01:41:41,182 --> 01:41:42,849
I was supposed to bring it
to my appointment with me,
1814
01:41:42,974 --> 01:41:45,058
but Connor took it, and then
I guess he must have had it
1815
01:41:45,183 --> 01:41:47,058
with him, um...
1816
01:41:49,225 --> 01:41:51,600
...when you found him, so...
1817
01:41:56,391 --> 01:41:57,850
What are you saying?
1818
01:41:59,601 --> 01:42:01,142
We weren't friends.
1819
01:42:01,267 --> 01:42:02,642
No.
1820
01:42:02,767 --> 01:42:04,142
No, no, no, no.
1821
01:42:04,267 --> 01:42:06,601
♪ I never meant
to make it such a mess ♪
1822
01:42:08,642 --> 01:42:11,392
♪ I never thought
that it would go this far ♪
1823
01:42:11,517 --> 01:42:13,892
There were emails.
You showed us emails.
1824
01:42:14,017 --> 01:42:18,185
♪ So I just stand here sorry ♪
1825
01:42:18,310 --> 01:42:20,810
♪ Searching for
something to say ♪
1826
01:42:22,143 --> 01:42:23,518
♪ Something to say ♪
1827
01:42:23,643 --> 01:42:25,935
Y-Y-You knew about the orchard.
1828
01:42:26,060 --> 01:42:28,185
He-he took you to the orchard.
1829
01:42:28,310 --> 01:42:29,977
That's where you broke your arm.
1830
01:42:30,102 --> 01:42:33,644
I broke my arm in Ellison Park,
um, by myself.
1831
01:42:33,769 --> 01:42:36,144
But that day at the orchard...
1832
01:42:37,894 --> 01:42:39,811
You and Connor at the orchard.
1833
01:42:39,936 --> 01:42:41,978
♪ ♪
1834
01:42:44,103 --> 01:42:46,144
♪ Words fail ♪
1835
01:42:47,229 --> 01:42:49,270
♪ Words fail ♪
1836
01:42:50,729 --> 01:42:53,395
♪ There's nothing I can say ♪
1837
01:42:53,520 --> 01:42:54,979
God.
1838
01:42:56,937 --> 01:42:59,354
But you said that you guys
would talk about me.
1839
01:42:59,479 --> 01:43:01,354
He would...
1840
01:43:01,479 --> 01:43:02,937
How could you do this?
1841
01:43:03,062 --> 01:43:05,605
♪ I guess I thought
I could be part of this ♪
1842
01:43:07,021 --> 01:43:09,938
♪ I never had
this kind of thing before ♪
1843
01:43:11,355 --> 01:43:14,438
♪ I never had
that perfect girl ♪
1844
01:43:14,563 --> 01:43:19,689
♪ Who somehow could see
the good part of me ♪
1845
01:43:21,189 --> 01:43:23,647
♪ I never had the dad
who stuck it out ♪
1846
01:43:25,147 --> 01:43:28,939
♪ No corny jokes
or baseball gloves ♪
1847
01:43:29,064 --> 01:43:31,439
♪ No mom who just was there ♪
1848
01:43:31,564 --> 01:43:36,940
♪ 'Cause mom was all
that she had to be ♪
1849
01:43:37,065 --> 01:43:40,940
♪ That's not
a worthy explanation ♪
1850
01:43:41,065 --> 01:43:43,898
♪ I know there is none ♪
1851
01:43:45,940 --> 01:43:51,441
♪ Nothing can make sense
of all these things I've done ♪
1852
01:43:53,399 --> 01:43:58,108
♪ Words fail, words fail ♪
1853
01:43:58,233 --> 01:44:01,691
♪ There's nothing I can say ♪
1854
01:44:01,816 --> 01:44:05,274
♪ Except sometimes you see
everything you wanted ♪
1855
01:44:05,399 --> 01:44:07,484
♪ And sometimes ♪
1856
01:44:07,609 --> 01:44:09,942
♪ You see
everything you wish you had ♪
1857
01:44:10,067 --> 01:44:15,025
♪ And it's right there,
right there, right there ♪
1858
01:44:15,150 --> 01:44:17,359
♪ In front of you ♪
1859
01:44:22,234 --> 01:44:25,360
♪ And you want to believe
it's true ♪
1860
01:44:31,401 --> 01:44:34,360
♪ So you make it true ♪
1861
01:44:38,068 --> 01:44:41,736
♪ And you think maybe ♪
1862
01:44:41,861 --> 01:44:47,319
♪ Everybody wants it ♪
1863
01:44:49,986 --> 01:44:51,652
♪ And needs it ♪
1864
01:44:53,569 --> 01:44:57,070
♪ A little bit, too. ♪
1865
01:45:13,654 --> 01:45:14,904
Zoe.
1866
01:45:17,613 --> 01:45:19,196
♪ ♪
1867
01:45:24,154 --> 01:45:26,988
I think it's time for you to go.
1868
01:45:45,531 --> 01:45:47,573
♪ ♪
1869
01:45:59,157 --> 01:46:00,324
Go away, Evan.
1870
01:46:00,449 --> 01:46:01,866
It isn't fair, okay?
1871
01:46:01,991 --> 01:46:03,282
You can't, you can't let people
1872
01:46:03,407 --> 01:46:05,449
just blame you and your parents.
1873
01:46:05,574 --> 01:46:06,782
They need to know
it was me, okay?
1874
01:46:06,907 --> 01:46:08,116
I'm the one people should hate.
1875
01:46:08,241 --> 01:46:10,699
Yeah, well,
we're not telling anyone.
1876
01:46:10,824 --> 01:46:12,282
Well, that's... I...
1877
01:46:12,407 --> 01:46:15,283
You can't... You have to.
1878
01:46:15,408 --> 01:46:17,450
It's not my decision.
1879
01:46:17,575 --> 01:46:19,158
It's my mom's.
1880
01:46:19,283 --> 01:46:20,742
She doesn't want
to ruin your life.
1881
01:46:20,867 --> 01:46:23,242
She's afraid
you'll do something stupid.
1882
01:46:23,367 --> 01:46:25,325
Like hurt yourself.
1883
01:46:29,408 --> 01:46:31,993
She said
they already lost one son.
1884
01:46:36,409 --> 01:46:38,868
Can you just...
1885
01:46:38,993 --> 01:46:41,368
leave my family alone, okay?
1886
01:46:41,493 --> 01:46:43,534
♪ ♪
1887
01:47:03,203 --> 01:47:05,245
♪ ♪
1888
01:47:08,953 --> 01:47:13,120
♪ This was just
a sad invention ♪
1889
01:47:14,495 --> 01:47:17,245
♪ It wasn't real, I know ♪
1890
01:47:19,037 --> 01:47:20,912
♪ But we were happy ♪
1891
01:47:22,621 --> 01:47:26,037
♪ I guess
I couldn't let that go ♪
1892
01:47:28,079 --> 01:47:30,829
♪ I guess
I couldn't give that up ♪
1893
01:47:32,412 --> 01:47:35,080
♪ I guess I wanted to believe ♪
1894
01:47:35,205 --> 01:47:37,747
♪ 'Cause if I just believe ♪
1895
01:47:37,872 --> 01:47:40,622
♪ Then I don't have to see ♪
1896
01:47:40,747 --> 01:47:42,997
♪ What's really there ♪
1897
01:47:44,872 --> 01:47:46,747
♪ No, I'd rather pretend ♪
1898
01:47:46,872 --> 01:47:49,913
♪ I'm something better
than these broken parts ♪
1899
01:47:50,038 --> 01:47:52,831
♪ Pretend I'm something
other than ♪
1900
01:47:52,956 --> 01:47:54,873
♪ This mess that I am ♪
1901
01:47:54,998 --> 01:47:57,789
♪ 'Cause then I don't
have to look at it ♪
1902
01:47:57,914 --> 01:48:00,164
♪ And no one gets
to look at it ♪
1903
01:48:00,289 --> 01:48:05,123
♪ No, no one can really see ♪
1904
01:48:05,248 --> 01:48:09,332
♪ 'Cause I've learned
to slam on the brake ♪
1905
01:48:09,457 --> 01:48:13,915
♪ Before I even turn the key ♪
1906
01:48:14,040 --> 01:48:18,290
♪ Before I make the mistake ♪
1907
01:48:18,415 --> 01:48:22,165
♪ Before I lead with
the worst of me ♪
1908
01:48:22,290 --> 01:48:24,375
♪ I never let them see ♪
1909
01:48:24,500 --> 01:48:33,000
♪ The worst of me ♪
1910
01:48:38,166 --> 01:48:40,667
♪ ♪
1911
01:48:42,667 --> 01:48:44,334
♪ 'Cause what if everyone saw? ♪
1912
01:48:48,584 --> 01:48:51,084
♪ What if everyone knew? ♪
1913
01:48:53,209 --> 01:48:55,585
♪ Would they like
what they saw? ♪
1914
01:48:57,752 --> 01:49:00,752
♪ Or would they hate it, too? ♪
1915
01:49:11,961 --> 01:49:16,253
♪ Will I just keep on
running away ♪
1916
01:49:16,378 --> 01:49:20,419
♪ From what's true? ♪
1917
01:49:23,461 --> 01:49:28,962
♪ All I ever do is run ♪
1918
01:49:32,295 --> 01:49:36,754
♪ So how do I step in ♪
1919
01:49:41,420 --> 01:49:49,505
♪ Step into the sun? ♪
1920
01:49:51,130 --> 01:49:57,713
♪ Step into the sun. ♪
1921
01:49:57,838 --> 01:49:59,839
♪ ♪
1922
01:50:32,341 --> 01:50:33,591
Evan?
1923
01:50:34,549 --> 01:50:36,174
Evan?
1924
01:50:44,841 --> 01:50:46,091
Evan?
1925
01:51:02,801 --> 01:51:04,260
Honey.
1926
01:51:10,093 --> 01:51:11,968
"Dear Evan Hansen..."
1927
01:51:14,093 --> 01:51:16,343
You wrote this? Connor's note?
1928
01:51:20,011 --> 01:51:21,469
I didn't know.
1929
01:51:21,594 --> 01:51:23,177
No one did.
1930
01:51:23,302 --> 01:51:25,177
No, honey, that's...
1931
01:51:26,594 --> 01:51:28,636
...that's not what I meant.
1932
01:51:30,511 --> 01:51:32,552
I didn't know that you were...
1933
01:51:33,719 --> 01:51:35,928
...that you were hurting
like that.
1934
01:51:36,053 --> 01:51:38,303
That you felt...
1935
01:51:38,428 --> 01:51:40,095
I didn't know.
1936
01:51:42,595 --> 01:51:44,262
I lied.
1937
01:51:48,220 --> 01:51:50,512
I lied about so many things.
1938
01:51:53,179 --> 01:51:55,221
Not just Connor. Um...
1939
01:52:00,013 --> 01:52:02,263
So, last summer, um...
1940
01:52:05,054 --> 01:52:06,513
...I just...
1941
01:52:09,055 --> 01:52:11,639
...I just felt so alone. Um...
1942
01:52:14,722 --> 01:52:16,180
You can tell me.
1943
01:52:19,347 --> 01:52:21,014
The tree.
1944
01:52:24,056 --> 01:52:26,056
I didn't fall.
1945
01:52:29,140 --> 01:52:30,390
I let go.
1946
01:52:34,598 --> 01:52:36,848
- Evan.
- Do you hate me now?
1947
01:52:39,224 --> 01:52:42,724
You should. You should.
1948
01:52:42,849 --> 01:52:47,224
If you knew who I am,
just how just broken I am.
1949
01:52:48,224 --> 01:52:50,099
I already know you.
1950
01:52:51,599 --> 01:52:52,849
And I love you.
1951
01:52:58,892 --> 01:53:00,975
I can promise you that...
1952
01:53:03,392 --> 01:53:04,850
...someday...
1953
01:53:06,017 --> 01:53:09,392
...all of this is gonna feel
like a very long time ago.
1954
01:53:16,851 --> 01:53:18,893
Your dad, um...
1955
01:53:21,893 --> 01:53:24,226
Do you remember when
he drove by to get his things?
1956
01:53:24,393 --> 01:53:26,434
♪ ♪
1957
01:53:29,810 --> 01:53:32,477
It was a few weeks
after he moved out.
1958
01:53:34,185 --> 01:53:36,227
Temporarily, we said.
1959
01:53:37,602 --> 01:53:40,144
♪ It was a February day ♪
1960
01:53:41,852 --> 01:53:46,853
♪ When your dad came by
before going away ♪
1961
01:53:48,228 --> 01:53:51,561
♪ A U-Haul truck
in the driveway ♪
1962
01:53:53,228 --> 01:53:58,103
♪ The day it was suddenly real ♪
1963
01:53:59,562 --> 01:54:02,479
♪ I told you
not to come outside ♪
1964
01:54:03,604 --> 01:54:09,146
♪ But you saw that truck,
and you smiled so wide ♪
1965
01:54:10,854 --> 01:54:15,313
♪ A real live truck
in your driveway ♪
1966
01:54:16,313 --> 01:54:20,355
♪ We let you sit
behind the wheel ♪
1967
01:54:23,063 --> 01:54:27,772
♪ Goodbye, goodbye ♪
1968
01:54:28,772 --> 01:54:32,398
♪ Now it's just me ♪
1969
01:54:32,523 --> 01:54:35,481
♪ And my little guy ♪
1970
01:54:37,814 --> 01:54:42,273
♪ And the house felt so big ♪
1971
01:54:44,273 --> 01:54:49,190
♪ And I felt so small ♪
1972
01:54:50,482 --> 01:54:54,982
♪ The house felt so big ♪
1973
01:54:56,482 --> 01:55:01,065
♪ And I felt so small ♪
1974
01:55:03,150 --> 01:55:05,983
♪ That night,
I tucked you into bed ♪
1975
01:55:07,358 --> 01:55:12,816
♪ I will never forget
how you sat up and said ♪
1976
01:55:12,941 --> 01:55:17,025
♪ "Is there another truck
coming to our driveway? ♪
1977
01:55:18,316 --> 01:55:23,859
♪ A truck that will
take Mommy away?" ♪
1978
01:55:25,692 --> 01:55:30,942
♪ And the house felt so big ♪
1979
01:55:31,942 --> 01:55:37,443
♪ And I felt so small ♪
1980
01:55:38,485 --> 01:55:43,485
♪ The house felt so big ♪
1981
01:55:43,610 --> 01:55:46,568
♪ And I ♪
1982
01:55:46,693 --> 01:55:50,443
♪ And I knew there would be ♪
1983
01:55:50,569 --> 01:55:53,403
♪ Moments that I'd miss ♪
1984
01:55:53,528 --> 01:55:56,736
♪ And I knew there would be ♪
1985
01:55:56,861 --> 01:55:59,278
♪ Space I couldn't fill ♪
1986
01:55:59,403 --> 01:56:02,778
♪ And I knew I'd come up short ♪
1987
01:56:02,903 --> 01:56:07,279
♪ A million different ways ♪
1988
01:56:07,404 --> 01:56:09,904
♪ And I did ♪
1989
01:56:11,779 --> 01:56:15,529
♪ And I do ♪
1990
01:56:17,070 --> 01:56:19,570
♪ And I will ♪
1991
01:56:21,779 --> 01:56:24,446
♪ But like that February day ♪
1992
01:56:26,071 --> 01:56:28,155
♪ I will take your hand ♪
1993
01:56:28,280 --> 01:56:31,821
♪ Squeeze it tightly and say ♪
1994
01:56:31,946 --> 01:56:35,446
♪ "There's not another truck
in the driveway ♪
1995
01:56:36,946 --> 01:56:39,447
♪ "Your mom
isn't going anywhere ♪
1996
01:56:39,572 --> 01:56:42,364
♪ "Your mom is
staying right here ♪
1997
01:56:42,489 --> 01:56:45,114
♪ "Your mom
isn't going anywhere ♪
1998
01:56:45,239 --> 01:56:48,489
♪ Your mom is
staying right here" ♪
1999
01:56:49,447 --> 01:56:51,531
♪ No matter what ♪
2000
01:56:53,864 --> 01:56:58,282
♪ I'll be here ♪
2001
01:56:59,282 --> 01:57:04,323
♪ When it all feels so big ♪
2002
01:57:05,573 --> 01:57:10,533
♪ Till it all feels so small ♪
2003
01:57:11,533 --> 01:57:16,158
♪ When it all feels so big ♪
2004
01:57:17,491 --> 01:57:20,574
♪ Till it all feels ♪
2005
01:57:20,699 --> 01:57:26,950
♪ So small ♪
2006
01:57:29,367 --> 01:57:35,909
♪ Till it all feels so small. ♪
2007
01:57:44,368 --> 01:57:46,910
It's gonna get better,
I promise.
2008
01:58:01,494 --> 01:58:03,744
I was never friends
with Connor Murphy.
2009
01:58:05,202 --> 01:58:07,494
I lied,
2010
01:58:07,619 --> 01:58:09,244
repeatedly,
2011
01:58:09,369 --> 01:58:12,161
to his family,
2012
01:58:12,286 --> 01:58:14,745
to Alana,
2013
01:58:14,870 --> 01:58:16,745
to all of you.
2014
01:58:18,370 --> 01:58:19,912
I'm not asking
for your forgiveness.
2015
01:58:20,037 --> 01:58:21,037
I don't deserve it.
2016
01:58:21,162 --> 01:58:23,703
But, um, please...
2017
01:58:25,328 --> 01:58:27,787
Connor's family
doesn't deserve your hatred.
2018
01:58:29,453 --> 01:58:30,913
I do.
2019
01:58:33,246 --> 01:58:34,704
I'm sorry.
2020
01:59:39,458 --> 01:59:41,500
♪ ♪
2021
01:59:47,375 --> 01:59:49,958
♪ Spent so many seasons ♪
2022
01:59:50,083 --> 01:59:53,293
♪ Lost inside my mind ♪
2023
01:59:53,418 --> 01:59:57,751
{\an8}♪ Lost inside my mind ♪
2024
01:59:59,418 --> 02:00:01,668
{\an8}♪ Like a message in a bottle ♪
2025
02:00:01,793 --> 02:00:04,626
♪ I thought nobody would find ♪
2026
02:00:04,751 --> 02:00:08,960
♪ That nobody would find ♪
2027
02:00:10,710 --> 02:00:13,877
♪ I've been drifting,
I've been dreaming ♪
2028
02:00:14,002 --> 02:00:16,794
♪ I would land upon the shore ♪
2029
02:00:16,919 --> 02:00:20,210
♪ To a haven, to a harbor ♪
2030
02:00:20,335 --> 02:00:24,753
♪ That felt so far before ♪
2031
02:00:26,128 --> 02:00:28,961
♪ Well, today ♪
2032
02:00:29,086 --> 02:00:32,003
♪ Today ♪
2033
02:00:32,128 --> 02:00:34,545
♪ What felt so far away ♪
2034
02:00:34,670 --> 02:00:38,045
♪ Feels a little closer ♪
2035
02:00:38,170 --> 02:00:44,337
♪ For today, today ♪
2036
02:00:44,462 --> 02:00:46,629
♪ Today ♪
2037
02:00:48,754 --> 02:00:53,504
♪ It feels a little closer ♪
2038
02:00:56,672 --> 02:00:58,922
♪ How long
these days of darkness ♪
2039
02:00:59,047 --> 02:01:02,338
♪ At the bottom of a well ♪
2040
02:01:02,463 --> 02:01:06,838
♪ That old, familiar well ♪
2041
02:01:08,713 --> 02:01:12,173
♪ Sitting heavy
with these secrets ♪
2042
02:01:12,298 --> 02:01:14,631
♪ With nobody to tell ♪
2043
02:01:14,756 --> 02:01:18,589
♪ Nobody to tell ♪
2044
02:01:19,589 --> 02:01:21,631
- Okay, your turn. Come on.
- ♪ High above ♪
2045
02:01:21,756 --> 02:01:23,298
♪ A streak of sunlight ♪
2046
02:01:23,423 --> 02:01:26,089
♪ And a wall too tall to climb ♪
2047
02:01:26,215 --> 02:01:29,965
♪ All the reaching,
all the wanting ♪
2048
02:01:30,090 --> 02:01:33,465
♪ Just to tumble every time ♪
2049
02:01:33,590 --> 02:01:34,674
I think we got it.
2050
02:01:34,799 --> 02:01:36,382
All right.
2051
02:01:36,549 --> 02:01:39,465
♪ But today ♪
2052
02:01:39,590 --> 02:01:42,090
♪ Today ♪
2053
02:01:42,216 --> 02:01:44,466
♪ What felt so far away ♪
2054
02:01:44,591 --> 02:01:48,008
♪ Feels a little closer ♪
2055
02:01:48,133 --> 02:01:54,466
♪ For today, today ♪
2056
02:01:54,591 --> 02:01:56,925
♪ Today ♪
2057
02:01:59,759 --> 02:02:02,759
♪ It feels a little closer ♪
2058
02:02:03,717 --> 02:02:05,759
♪ ♪
2059
02:02:12,092 --> 02:02:18,468
♪ And the days carry on ♪
2060
02:02:18,593 --> 02:02:20,427
♪ The clouds come rolling in ♪
2061
02:02:20,552 --> 02:02:23,927
♪ And then they're gone ♪
2062
02:02:24,052 --> 02:02:30,928
♪ As the days keep coming on ♪
2063
02:02:31,053 --> 02:02:35,303
♪ The midnight sky
turns to dawn ♪
2064
02:02:45,469 --> 02:02:51,470
♪ Today, today ♪
2065
02:02:51,595 --> 02:02:54,054
♪ What felt so far away ♪
2066
02:02:54,179 --> 02:02:57,887
♪ Feels a little closer ♪
2067
02:02:58,012 --> 02:03:04,138
♪ Today, today ♪
2068
02:03:04,263 --> 02:03:06,513
♪ What felt so far away ♪
2069
02:03:06,638 --> 02:03:10,971
♪ Feels a little closer ♪
2070
02:03:11,096 --> 02:03:16,763
♪ For today, today ♪
2071
02:03:16,888 --> 02:03:19,764
♪ Today ♪
2072
02:03:22,389 --> 02:03:25,472
♪ It feels a little closer ♪
2073
02:03:25,597 --> 02:03:28,139
♪ A little closer ♪
2074
02:03:28,264 --> 02:03:31,722
♪ It feels a little closer ♪
2075
02:03:31,847 --> 02:03:34,973
♪ A little closer ♪
2076
02:03:37,682 --> 02:03:41,890
♪ It feels a little closer. ♪
2077
02:04:23,685 --> 02:04:26,518
You must start school
pretty soon.
2078
02:04:26,643 --> 02:04:28,518
Two more weeks.
2079
02:04:30,518 --> 02:04:32,893
When do you leave for college?
2080
02:04:33,018 --> 02:04:37,518
Um, actually I decided
to take a year off, so...
2081
02:04:37,643 --> 02:04:39,352
Just try to save some money.
2082
02:04:39,477 --> 02:04:41,061
Get a job.
2083
02:04:41,186 --> 02:04:44,727
Take some time.
2084
02:04:44,852 --> 02:04:47,186
So, I'm taking classes
at the community college.
2085
02:04:47,311 --> 02:04:50,186
I'll have credits to transfer
in the fall, so...
2086
02:04:51,269 --> 02:04:52,352
That's smart.
2087
02:04:52,477 --> 02:04:54,353
Yeah. We'll see.
2088
02:04:58,103 --> 02:05:00,270
I always picture
you and Connor here.
2089
02:05:01,645 --> 02:05:03,312
Even though...
2090
02:05:05,145 --> 02:05:07,020
This is my first time.
2091
02:05:08,520 --> 02:05:10,188
It's nice.
2092
02:05:11,521 --> 02:05:13,146
Peaceful.
2093
02:05:14,396 --> 02:05:17,354
My parents come here
all the time.
2094
02:05:17,479 --> 02:05:20,688
We do picnics, like,
every weekend.
2095
02:05:20,813 --> 02:05:23,688
Lots of gluten-free sandwiches.
2096
02:05:27,522 --> 02:05:29,564
It's helped them a lot,
actually.
2097
02:05:30,980 --> 02:05:32,230
Having this.
2098
02:05:38,272 --> 02:05:39,939
What I did...
2099
02:05:41,814 --> 02:05:43,523
...I can't even...
2100
02:05:47,690 --> 02:05:50,856
It's the worst thing
anyone can do.
2101
02:05:58,191 --> 02:06:00,232
I wish we could have met now.
2102
02:06:01,982 --> 02:06:04,066
Today.
2103
02:06:04,191 --> 02:06:05,899
For the first time.
2104
02:06:06,857 --> 02:06:09,232
Me, too.
2105
02:06:13,607 --> 02:06:14,692
I should probably...
2106
02:06:14,817 --> 02:06:16,192
Yeah. Yeah, of course.
2107
02:06:16,317 --> 02:06:18,192
Of course.
2108
02:06:20,650 --> 02:06:22,317
Hey, can I just...
2109
02:06:23,358 --> 02:06:25,400
Can I just ask you...
2110
02:06:27,275 --> 02:06:28,942
Why did you want to meet here?
2111
02:06:35,234 --> 02:06:37,693
I wanted to be sure
that you saw this.
2112
02:06:42,193 --> 02:06:44,651
He really loved it here.
2113
02:06:56,569 --> 02:06:58,610
♪ ♪
2114
02:07:00,610 --> 02:07:02,820
Dear Evan Hansen...
2115
02:07:04,195 --> 02:07:07,528
...today is gonna be
a good day, and here's why.
2116
02:07:08,778 --> 02:07:12,570
Because today,
no matter what else,
2117
02:07:12,695 --> 02:07:15,153
today at least you're you.
2118
02:07:15,278 --> 02:07:16,736
No hiding, no lying.
2119
02:07:16,861 --> 02:07:18,821
And that's...
2120
02:07:18,946 --> 02:07:20,404
that's enough.
2121
02:07:20,529 --> 02:07:23,446
So no matter how hard it gets,
2122
02:07:23,571 --> 02:07:27,487
even if it feels... impossible,
2123
02:07:27,612 --> 02:07:29,487
this time you'll know.
2124
02:07:30,654 --> 02:07:32,862
Don't let go.
2125
02:07:32,987 --> 02:07:36,447
Just hold on and keep going.
2126
02:07:38,238 --> 02:07:39,738
Just keep going.
2127
02:07:39,863 --> 02:07:41,905
♪ ♪
2128
02:07:44,405 --> 02:07:53,406
♪ Today, today ♪
2129
02:07:53,531 --> 02:07:54,989
♪ Today ♪
2130
02:07:58,906 --> 02:08:05,614
♪ It feels a little closer. ♪
2131
02:08:08,574 --> 02:08:10,615
♪ ♪
2132
02:08:52,992 --> 02:08:57,202
♪ Have you ever felt like
nobody was there? ♪
2133
02:08:59,077 --> 02:09:04,952
♪ Have you ever felt forgotten
in the middle of nowhere? ♪
2134
02:09:05,077 --> 02:09:09,577
♪ Have you ever felt like
you could disappear? ♪
2135
02:09:10,744 --> 02:09:13,411
♪ Like you could fall ♪
2136
02:09:13,536 --> 02:09:15,911
♪ And no one would hear? ♪
2137
02:09:17,286 --> 02:09:21,411
♪ Well, let that lonely feeling
wash away ♪
2138
02:09:23,661 --> 02:09:29,204
♪ Maybe there's a reason
to believe you'll be okay ♪
2139
02:09:29,329 --> 02:09:33,870
♪ 'Cause when you don't feel
strong enough to stand ♪
2140
02:09:35,245 --> 02:09:37,412
♪ You can reach ♪
2141
02:09:37,537 --> 02:09:40,954
♪ Reach out your hand ♪
2142
02:09:41,079 --> 02:09:46,913
♪ And,
someone will come running ♪
2143
02:09:47,038 --> 02:09:54,163
♪ And I know
they'll take you home ♪
2144
02:09:54,288 --> 02:09:57,163
♪ Even when the dark
comes crashing through ♪
2145
02:09:57,288 --> 02:10:00,331
♪ When you need a friend
to carry you ♪
2146
02:10:00,456 --> 02:10:03,789
♪ And when you're broken
on the ground ♪
2147
02:10:03,914 --> 02:10:06,372
♪ You will be found ♪
2148
02:10:06,497 --> 02:10:09,081
♪ So let the sun
come streaming in ♪
2149
02:10:09,206 --> 02:10:12,539
♪ 'Cause you'll reach up
and you'll rise again ♪
2150
02:10:12,664 --> 02:10:15,748
♪ Lift your head
and look around ♪
2151
02:10:15,873 --> 02:10:20,998
♪ You will be found ♪
2152
02:10:21,957 --> 02:10:26,832
♪ You will be found ♪
2153
02:10:29,165 --> 02:10:33,958
♪ There's a place where
we don't have to feel unknown ♪
2154
02:10:35,708 --> 02:10:38,166
♪ And every time you call out ♪
2155
02:10:38,291 --> 02:10:41,666
♪ You're a little less alone ♪
2156
02:10:41,791 --> 02:10:46,334
♪ If you only say the word ♪
2157
02:10:46,459 --> 02:10:50,584
♪ From across the silence ♪
2158
02:10:50,709 --> 02:10:55,667
♪ Your voice is heard ♪
2159
02:10:55,792 --> 02:10:58,709
♪ Even when the dark
comes crashing through ♪
2160
02:10:58,834 --> 02:11:01,918
♪ When you need a friend
to carry you ♪
2161
02:11:02,043 --> 02:11:05,376
♪ And when you're broken
on the ground ♪
2162
02:11:05,501 --> 02:11:07,918
♪ You will be found ♪
2163
02:11:08,043 --> 02:11:10,460
♪ So let the sun
come streaming in ♪
2164
02:11:10,585 --> 02:11:14,085
♪ 'Cause you'll reach up
and you'll rise again ♪
2165
02:11:14,210 --> 02:11:17,460
♪ Lift your head
and look around ♪
2166
02:11:17,586 --> 02:11:20,502
♪ You will be found ♪
2167
02:11:20,627 --> 02:11:29,419
♪ You will be found,
you will be found ♪
2168
02:11:29,544 --> 02:11:32,502
♪ You will be found ♪
2169
02:11:32,627 --> 02:11:40,087
♪ You will be found,
you will be found ♪
2170
02:11:43,087 --> 02:11:45,670
♪ Out of the shadows ♪
2171
02:11:45,795 --> 02:11:48,337
♪ The morning is breaking ♪
2172
02:11:48,462 --> 02:11:54,921
♪ And all is new
and all is new ♪
2173
02:11:55,046 --> 02:11:57,879
♪ It's filling up the empty ♪
2174
02:11:58,004 --> 02:12:00,254
♪ And suddenly I see ♪
2175
02:12:00,379 --> 02:12:03,588
♪ That all is new ♪
2176
02:12:03,713 --> 02:12:07,839
♪ All is new ♪
2177
02:12:07,964 --> 02:12:11,089
♪ Even when the dark
comes crashing through ♪
2178
02:12:11,214 --> 02:12:14,297
♪ When you need a friend
to carry you ♪
2179
02:12:14,422 --> 02:12:17,922
♪ And when you're broken
on the ground ♪
2180
02:12:18,047 --> 02:12:20,589
♪ You will be found ♪
2181
02:12:20,714 --> 02:12:23,506
♪ So let the sun
come streaming in ♪
2182
02:12:23,631 --> 02:12:27,090
♪ 'Cause you'll reach up
and you'll rise again ♪
2183
02:12:27,215 --> 02:12:30,631
♪ Lift your head
and look around ♪
2184
02:12:30,756 --> 02:12:35,840
♪ You will be found. ♪
2185
02:12:53,007 --> 02:12:55,008
♪ Ever look at all the people ♪
2186
02:12:55,133 --> 02:12:58,217
♪ Seem to know
exactly how to be? ♪
2187
02:12:58,342 --> 02:13:01,758
♪ How to be,
how to be now, how to be ♪
2188
02:13:01,883 --> 02:13:05,592
♪ You think, they don't need
piles of prescriptions ♪
2189
02:13:05,717 --> 02:13:08,175
♪ To function naturally ♪
2190
02:13:08,300 --> 02:13:12,051
♪ Functioning natural ♪
2191
02:13:12,176 --> 02:13:15,384
♪ Take a look
and you might just catch it ♪
2192
02:13:15,509 --> 02:13:17,551
♪ Stay a minute more ♪
2193
02:13:17,676 --> 02:13:20,801
♪ Minute more, minute more now,
minute more ♪
2194
02:13:20,926 --> 02:13:24,884
♪ There's a little moment
after the sunny smile ♪
2195
02:13:25,009 --> 02:13:27,094
♪ Their eyes fall to the floor ♪
2196
02:13:27,219 --> 02:13:30,219
♪ To the floor, to the
floor now, to the floor ♪
2197
02:13:30,344 --> 02:13:33,677
♪ The truth starts
peeking through ♪
2198
02:13:33,802 --> 02:13:35,010
♪ Peeking through ♪
2199
02:13:35,135 --> 02:13:39,677
♪ They're a lot
like me and you ♪
2200
02:13:39,802 --> 02:13:44,761
♪ They can fake a smile, too ♪
2201
02:13:47,511 --> 02:13:49,970
♪ The anonymous ones ♪
2202
02:13:50,095 --> 02:13:53,386
♪ Never let you see
the ache they carry ♪
2203
02:13:53,511 --> 02:13:56,678
♪ They carry, they carry,
they carry ♪
2204
02:13:56,803 --> 02:13:59,762
♪ All those anonymous ones ♪
2205
02:13:59,887 --> 02:14:03,137
♪ Never name the quiet pain
they bury ♪
2206
02:14:03,262 --> 02:14:07,096
♪ They bury, they bury,
they bury ♪
2207
02:14:07,221 --> 02:14:11,221
♪ Keep on keeping secrets that
they think they have to hide ♪
2208
02:14:11,346 --> 02:14:16,013
♪ What if everybody's secret is
they have that secret side? ♪
2209
02:14:16,138 --> 02:14:20,222
♪ And to know,
to know we're not alone ♪
2210
02:14:20,347 --> 02:14:22,847
♪ Is all we're hoping for ♪
2211
02:14:24,055 --> 02:14:26,263
♪ I don't wanna be anonymous ♪
2212
02:14:26,388 --> 02:14:28,763
♪ Why you gotta be anonymous? ♪
2213
02:14:28,888 --> 02:14:32,139
♪ I don't wanna be anonymous
anymore ♪
2214
02:14:39,848 --> 02:14:43,264
♪ Anymore ♪
2215
02:14:50,474 --> 02:14:52,765
♪ Spot the girl
who stays in motion ♪
2216
02:14:52,890 --> 02:14:56,224
♪ Spins so fast
so she won't fall ♪
2217
02:14:56,349 --> 02:15:00,057
♪ World spins so fast,
spins so fast ♪
2218
02:15:00,182 --> 02:15:02,350
♪ She's built a wall
of her achievements ♪
2219
02:15:02,475 --> 02:15:04,141
♪ Keep out the question ♪
2220
02:15:04,266 --> 02:15:08,850
♪ Without it, is she worth
anything at all? ♪
2221
02:15:08,975 --> 02:15:13,391
♪ And truth starts
peeking through ♪
2222
02:15:13,516 --> 02:15:18,226
♪ They're a lot
like me and you ♪
2223
02:15:18,351 --> 02:15:23,309
♪ They can fake a smile, too ♪
2224
02:15:26,184 --> 02:15:28,559
♪ The anonymous ones ♪
2225
02:15:28,684 --> 02:15:31,892
♪ Never let you see
the ache they carry ♪
2226
02:15:32,017 --> 02:15:35,102
♪ They carry, they carry,
they carry ♪
2227
02:15:35,227 --> 02:15:38,268
♪ All those anonymous ones ♪
2228
02:15:38,393 --> 02:15:41,477
♪ Never name the quiet pain
they bury ♪
2229
02:15:41,602 --> 02:15:45,477
♪ They bury, they bury,
they bury ♪
2230
02:15:45,602 --> 02:15:47,893
♪ I don't wanna be anonymous ♪
2231
02:15:48,018 --> 02:15:50,436
♪ Why you gotta be anonymous? ♪
2232
02:15:50,561 --> 02:15:52,519
♪ I don't wanna be anonymous
anymore ♪
2233
02:15:52,644 --> 02:15:54,894
♪ The parts we can't tell,
we carry them well ♪
2234
02:15:55,019 --> 02:15:57,269
♪ But that doesn't mean
they're not heavy ♪
2235
02:15:57,394 --> 02:15:59,728
♪ The parts we can't tell,
we carry them well ♪
2236
02:15:59,853 --> 02:16:02,061
♪ But that doesn't mean
they're not heavy ♪
2237
02:16:02,186 --> 02:16:04,436
♪ The parts we can't tell,
we carry them well ♪
2238
02:16:04,561 --> 02:16:09,229
♪ But that doesn't mean
they're not heavy ♪
2239
02:16:09,354 --> 02:16:11,687
♪ Heavy ♪
2240
02:16:11,812 --> 02:16:14,270
♪ The anonymous ones ♪
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02:16:14,395 --> 02:16:17,645
♪ Never let you see
the ache they carry ♪
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02:16:17,770 --> 02:16:20,854
♪ They carry, they carry,
they carry ♪
2243
02:16:20,979 --> 02:16:23,938
♪ All the anonymous ones ♪
2244
02:16:24,063 --> 02:16:29,105
♪ Never name the quiet pain
they bury ♪
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02:16:31,271 --> 02:16:35,521
♪ Keep on keeping secrets that
they think they have to hide ♪
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02:16:35,646 --> 02:16:40,147
♪ What if everybody's secret is
they have that secret side? ♪
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02:16:40,272 --> 02:16:44,147
♪ And to know,
to know we're not alone ♪
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02:16:44,272 --> 02:16:47,939
♪ Is all we're hoping for ♪
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02:16:48,064 --> 02:16:50,314
♪ I don't wanna be anonymous ♪
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02:16:50,439 --> 02:16:52,856
♪ Why you gotta be anonymous? ♪
2251
02:16:52,981 --> 02:16:56,773
♪ I don't wanna be anonymous
anymore. ♪
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