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Good evening, everyone.
I'm Oprah Winfrey.
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Welcome to a spectacular
night here at
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the Griffith Observatory
in Los Angeles.
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Tonight you have
a front-row seat
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to a very special one-night-
only concert with Adele.
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She's singing all the songs
I know you want to hear,
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and new songs we've all
been waiting six years for.
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And throughout the night,
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you'll see my conversation
with Adele was so much fun.
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She's as real, as down to earth
as we all believe she is.
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But right now it is
my great delight to introduce
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the 15-time
Grammy-winning icon, Adele!
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♪
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♪ Hello ♪
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♪ It's me ♪
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♪ I was wondering if after
all these years ♪
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♪ You'd like to meet ♪
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♪ To go over ♪
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♪ Everything ♪
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♪ They say that
time's supposed to heal ya ♪
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♪ But I ain't done
much healing ♪
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♪ Hello ♪
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♪ Can you hear me? ♪
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♪ I'm in California dreaming ♪
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♪ About who we used to be ♪
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♪ When we were younger ♪
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♪ And free ♪
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♪ I've forgotten how it felt ♪
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♪ Before the world fell
at our feet ♪
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♪ There's such a difference ♪
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♪ Between us ♪
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♪ And a million miles ♪
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♪ Hello from the other side ♪
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♪ I must've called
a thousand times ♪
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♪ To tell you I'm sorry ♪
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♪ For everything
that I've done ♪
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♪ But when I call ♪
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♪ You never seem to be home ♪
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♪ Hello from the outside ♪
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♪ At least I can say
that I've tried ♪
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♪ To tell you I'm sorry ♪
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♪ For breaking your heart ♪
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♪ But it don't matter ♪
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♪ It clearly doesn't
tear you apart ♪
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♪ Anymore ♪
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♪ Hello ♪
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♪ How are you? ♪
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♪ It's so typical of me to
talk about myself, I'm sorry ♪
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♪ I hope ♪
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♪ That you're well ♪
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♪ Did you ever make it
out of that town ♪
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♪ Where nothing ever happened? ♪
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♪ It's no secret ♪
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♪ That the both of us ♪
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♪ Are running out of time ♪
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♪ So hello from the other side ♪
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♪ I must've called
a thousand times ♪
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♪ A thousand times ♪
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♪ To tell you I'm sorry ♪
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♪ For everything
that I've done ♪
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♪ But when I call ♪
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♪ You never seem to be home ♪
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♪ Hello from the outside ♪
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♪ At least I can say
that I've tried ♪
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♪ To tell you I'm sorry ♪
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♪ For breaking your heart ♪
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♪ But it don't matter ♪
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♪ It clearly doesn't
tear you apart anymore ♪
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♪ Highs, highs, highs, highs ♪
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♪ Lows, lows, lows, lows ♪
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♪ Anymore ♪
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♪ Highs, highs, highs, highs ♪
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♪ Lows, lows, lows, lows ♪
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♪ Anymore ♪
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♪ Highs, highs, highs, highs ♪
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♪ Lows, lows, lows, lows ♪
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♪ Anymore ♪
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♪ Highs, highs, highs, highs ♪
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- ♪ Anymore ♪
- ♪ Lows, lows, lows, lows ♪
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♪ Hello from the other side ♪
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♪ I must've called
a thousand times ♪
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♪ To tell you I'm sorry ♪
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♪ For everything
that I've done ♪
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♪ But when I call ♪
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♪ You never seem to be home ♪
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♪ Hello from the outside ♪
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♪ At least I can say
that I've tried ♪
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♪ To tell you I'm sorry ♪
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♪ For breaking your heart ♪
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♪ But it don't matter ♪
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♪ It clearly doesn't
tear you apart ♪
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♪ Anymore. ♪
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- Hello. Okay.
- Hello. Okay. Hi.
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- This is so good.
- Oh. Yes.
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- Hello.
- Hi.
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No. Hi. We can't even
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- say hello anymore.
- Hi. Yeah. Yeah.
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I don't really say hello
anymore. That's why.
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- You don't?
- Not really.
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'Cause it's like a joke.
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Okay, well, hi, Adele.
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- Hiya.
- Hiya.
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Welcome to my rose garden.
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It's lovely, it's beautiful.
- Well,
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thank you
for coming to join me here.
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It feels very British.
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- Does it?
- Yes.
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Well, actually because yes,
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-and because my tea house is here.
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Everybody, we just met.
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- Mm-hmm.
- And the concert tonight is a celebration
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of your biggest hits
and the debut of the new songs
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- from 30.
- Yes.
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- And you start with "Hello."
- Yes. Well, I think
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I'm always going to have
to start with "Hello."
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I think it'd be weird if it was,
like, halfway through a set.
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- You know? So yeah,
I'm starting with it.
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Okay, so that music video
has been viewed nearly
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- 3 billion times.
- 3 billion?
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- 3 billion times!
- Oh, I didn't know that.
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- Billion, that's insane.
- Yeah.
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♪ Hello from the outside ♪
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That song means so much to
people all around the world.
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It does, yeah.
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So, what does it represent
to you?
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Well, the show is the
first time that I'll, you know,
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that I'm singing it
from where I am now.
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- Yes.
- Which I think is great.
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Um, the song to me
was the beginning of me
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trying to find myself
and I haven't figured out yet
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what it was that I had
to do for that.
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But when I wrote it,
it was a real ode to, like,
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little me, older me.
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Like, all of these things,
like, you know, so,
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it's just a song about, like,
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I'm still here.
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You know, sort of like, "Hi,
I'm still here. I still exist",
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like, you know,
in every aspect of my life."
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Well, it feels like that on 30,
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you have literally opened up
your soul in a way that
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even though we have
heard your pain before,
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it feels like pain was almost
like a muse for you for this.
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I read something you said...
You said,
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"I was singing things
I didn't even realize
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- "I was feeling or thinking."
- Mm-hmm.
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So, is that how
the music comes to you?
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- Is that a part of your process?
- Yeah.
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Is the music as catharsis?
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Yeah, it definitely
channels from somewhere else.
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You know, when I'm singing
and when I'm writing, like...
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And I was kind of aware
of that on the other albums,
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but this one, you know,
a lot more
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I-I felt it because everything
was happening in real time.
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I was writing my album,
you know, while I was
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- going through everything.
- Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.
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But I don't think as a person
I have what my singing has.
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- What do you mean?
- I just think there's-there's
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something I'm pulling from
somewhere else.
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I don't, I don't have some...
You know, something else
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from underneath.
I don't know what it is.
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It's coming up through me
but it's not...
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I don't know how I access it.
It's wild 'cause
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I don't think I'm that deep
in real life.
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- So it's...
- But then you listen to the music
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- and you think deep, right?
- Yeah. Yeah,
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you know, or I'll just be like,
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"I am making progress,"
or like, just...
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It's-it's a revelation
to me, the songs.
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Well, I read something
that you said...
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You said, "I'm not shy
or embarrassed"
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to be falling apart."
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That's one of the reasons why
you feel people are so connected
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to your music and I wondered,
what gives you...
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the-the freedom actually
and the courage to be able to
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fall apart and expose yourself
in a world and a culture now
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- that is a "gotcha" culture...
- Yeah, absolutely.
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That if you make the wrong
move, you say the wrong thing...
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- Yeah. -...somebody's got some,
you know, wisecrack about it.
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I think the reason
I'm so brave to do it, you know,
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in my career so far was because,
again, music helped me
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in any situations
and I would like to do,
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you know, the same for people
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that feel so alone when
they're feeling something.
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Mm-hmm.
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To be reminded that
they're not alone.
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And in terms of now,
you know, there were moments
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when I was writing the record or
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I would listen back to something
and be like,
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"That might be a bit
too private.
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"That might be a bit too,
you know,
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too about myself and stuff
to put out,"
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but nothing is as scary as what
I've been through
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over the last two, three years
behind closed doors.
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So I'm not frightened about...
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about what people may or
might not do now, you know.
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Hi, guys.
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How posh is this?
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Also, get you, Lizzo.
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You think you can
outshine me, babes?
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I love that,
I love that poncho coat.
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Oh, yeah. Nice.
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Um, hi, everyone.
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Thank you so much
for coming tonight.
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Welcome to "One Night Only"
with me.
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Although most of you I know,
and you have
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too many nights with me, really.
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Um, but I wanted to feel safe
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in my first little
comeback thing.
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Hang on, I got dry mouth.
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So I wanted to do a mixture
of people that I know and love.
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People that I've met
a few times,
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and some of you I don't know
at all. But hi.
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And I'm gonna do some
old ones for you.
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I'm gonna do some
new ones for you.
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So I haven't sung this.
This is a new song.
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I haven't sung this song yet
for anyone.
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Um, not in real life.
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I'm myself.
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Not gonna lie.
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Um, so I could use your help
if any of you know it.
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This is "Easy on Me."
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♪
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♪ There ain't no gold ♪
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♪ In this river ♪
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♪ That I've been washing
my hands in forever ♪
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♪ I know there is hope ♪
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♪ In these waters ♪
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♪ But I can't bring myself ♪
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♪ To swim when I am
drowning in ♪
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♪ This silence, baby,
let me in ♪
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♪ Go easy ♪
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♪ On me, baby ♪
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♪ I was still a child ♪
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♪ Didn't get the chance to ♪
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♪ Feel ♪
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♪ The world around me ♪
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♪ I had no time to choose ♪
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♪ What I chose to do ♪
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♪ So go easy ♪
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♪ On me ♪
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♪
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♪ There ain't no room ♪
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♪ For our things to change ♪
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♪ When we are both so deeply
stuck in our ways ♪
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♪ You can't deny ♪
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♪ How hard I've tried ♪
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♪ I changed who I was ♪
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♪ To put you both first ♪
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♪ But now I give up ♪
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♪ Go easy ♪
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♪ On me, baby ♪
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♪ I was still a child ♪
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♪ Didn't get the chance to ♪
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♪ Feel ♪
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♪ The world around me ♪
256
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♪ I had no time to choose ♪
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♪ What I chose to do ♪
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♪ So go easy ♪
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♪ On me ♪
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♪ I had good intentions ♪
261
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♪ And the highest hopes ♪
262
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♪ But I know right now ♪
263
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♪ It probably doesn't
even show ♪
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♪ Go easy ♪
265
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♪ On me, baby ♪
266
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♪ I was still a child ♪
267
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♪ I didn't get the chance to ♪
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♪ Feel ♪
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♪ The world around me ♪
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♪ I had no time to choose ♪
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♪ What I chose to do ♪
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♪ So go easy ♪
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♪ On me. ♪
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♪
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Thank you.
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♪
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♪ This is the end ♪
278
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♪ Hold your breath
and count to ten ♪
279
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♪ Feel the earth move and then ♪
280
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♪ Hear my heart burst ♪
281
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♪ Again ♪
282
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♪ For this is the end ♪
283
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♪ I've drowned and dreamt
this moment ♪
284
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♪ So overdue, I owe them ♪
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♪ Swept away, I'm stolen ♪
286
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♪ Let the sky fall ♪
287
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♪ When it crumbles ♪
288
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♪ We will stand tall ♪
289
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♪ Face it all together ♪
290
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♪ Let the sky fall ♪
291
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♪ When it crumbles ♪
292
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♪ We will stand tall ♪
293
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♪ Face it all together ♪
294
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♪ At skyfall ♪
295
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♪ At skyfall ♪
296
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♪ Skyfall is where we start ♪
297
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♪ A thousand miles
and poles apart ♪
298
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♪ Where worlds collide
and days are dark ♪
299
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♪ You may have my number,
you can take my name ♪
300
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♪ But you'll never have
my heart ♪
301
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- ♪ Let the sky fall ♪
- ♪ Let the sky fall ♪
302
00:17:24,913 --> 00:17:27,872
- ♪ When it crumbles ♪
- ♪ When it crumbles ♪
303
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- ♪ We will stand tall ♪
- ♪ We will stand tall ♪
304
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♪ Face it all together ♪
305
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- ♪ Let the sky fall ♪
- ♪ Let the sky fall ♪
306
00:17:37,926 --> 00:17:41,060
- ♪ When it crumbles ♪
- ♪ When it crumbles ♪
307
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- ♪ We will stand tall ♪
- ♪ We will stand tall ♪
308
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♪ Face it all together ♪
309
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♪ At skyfall ♪
310
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♪ Let the sky fall ♪
311
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- ♪ When it crumbles ♪
- ♪ At skyfall ♪
312
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♪ We will stand tall ♪
313
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♪ Where you go, I go ♪
314
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♪ What you see, I see ♪
315
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♪ I know I'd never be me ♪
316
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♪ Without the security ♪
317
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♪ Of your loving arms ♪
318
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♪ Keeping me from harm ♪
319
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♪ Put your hand in my hand ♪
320
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♪ And we'll stand ♪
321
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- ♪ Let the sky fall ♪
- ♪ Let the sky fall ♪
322
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- ♪ When it crumbles ♪
- ♪ When it crumbles ♪
323
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- ♪ We will stand tall ♪
- ♪ We will stand tall ♪
324
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♪ Face it all together ♪
325
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♪ Let the sky fall ♪
326
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- ♪ Let the sky fall ♪
- ♪ When it crumbles ♪
327
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♪ When it crumbles ♪
328
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♪ We will stand tall ♪
329
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- ♪ We will stand tall ♪
- ♪ Face it all ♪
330
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♪ Together, at skyfall ♪
331
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♪ Let the sky fall ♪
332
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♪ We will stand tall ♪
333
00:19:01,836 --> 00:19:06,754
♪ At skyfall ♪
334
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♪ Ooh. ♪
335
00:19:32,649 --> 00:19:34,434
You lost a hundred pounds
in two years.
336
00:19:34,477 --> 00:19:36,958
And then you said it wasn't
even really about the weight.
337
00:19:37,001 --> 00:19:38,121
- No.
- So what was it about?
338
00:19:42,790 --> 00:19:44,357
So here's the thing.
339
00:19:44,400 --> 00:19:46,402
You write about it in
song after song.
340
00:19:46,446 --> 00:19:47,838
You start with, you know,
341
00:19:47,882 --> 00:19:49,405
"Easy on Me"
that-that's been released.
342
00:19:49,449 --> 00:19:53,757
Can you just give us
an idea of what happened
343
00:19:53,801 --> 00:19:55,542
with this all-consuming...
344
00:19:55,585 --> 00:19:58,197
It feels like
an all-consuming pain
345
00:19:58,240 --> 00:20:01,417
and I'm like,
"What the hell happened?"
346
00:20:01,461 --> 00:20:03,090
I've been obsessed with
the nuclear family
347
00:20:03,114 --> 00:20:05,247
my whole life because
I never came from one.
348
00:20:05,291 --> 00:20:07,728
You know, it's in all these
movies and all these books,
349
00:20:07,771 --> 00:20:11,122
like, you know, and you grow up
reading them like that's what
350
00:20:11,166 --> 00:20:12,491
- it should be, like, you know.
- Right.
351
00:20:12,515 --> 00:20:15,431
And... I just
from a very young age,
352
00:20:15,475 --> 00:20:19,000
just, you know, promised myself
that when I had kids
353
00:20:19,043 --> 00:20:22,264
that we'd stay together,
we would be that united family
354
00:20:22,308 --> 00:20:23,570
- and...
- Ah...
355
00:20:23,613 --> 00:20:25,746
And I tried for a really,
really long time
356
00:20:25,789 --> 00:20:27,443
and then, um,
357
00:20:27,487 --> 00:20:29,663
I was just so disappointed
for my son.
358
00:20:29,706 --> 00:20:31,534
I was so disappointed
for myself.
359
00:20:31,578 --> 00:20:33,667
And I was just,
I thought I was going to
360
00:20:33,710 --> 00:20:35,625
be the one that, you know,
361
00:20:35,669 --> 00:20:38,280
stopped doing those bloody
patterns all the time.
362
00:20:38,324 --> 00:20:42,806
So, do you call this...
Is this the divorce album?
363
00:20:42,850 --> 00:20:44,243
I think I'm divorcing myself
on it.
364
00:20:44,286 --> 00:20:45,287
- Yeah?
- Yeah.
365
00:20:45,331 --> 00:20:46,984
How does one do that?
366
00:20:47,028 --> 00:20:49,291
So, it's lonely, you know.
367
00:20:49,335 --> 00:20:51,598
I spent a lot of time on my own,
368
00:20:51,641 --> 00:20:53,922
really sitting in my feelings
and not keeping myself busy.
369
00:20:53,948 --> 00:20:55,447
I used to always...
If a feeling came up,
370
00:20:55,471 --> 00:20:56,796
I'd distract myself
or I'd call a friend,
371
00:20:56,820 --> 00:20:58,058
and be like,
"Do you wanna go out?
372
00:20:58,082 --> 00:20:59,693
- "What do you wanna do?"
- Yeah.
373
00:20:59,736 --> 00:21:01,366
Put a movie on or whatever.
I would just sit with it.
374
00:21:01,390 --> 00:21:03,455
- I would just eat it myself.
- Yeah, no, absolutely,
375
00:21:03,479 --> 00:21:05,133
but I would just, I would just
376
00:21:05,176 --> 00:21:07,309
whenever I noticed
how I was feeling, I would
377
00:21:07,353 --> 00:21:08,417
sit down and I would sit in it.
378
00:21:08,441 --> 00:21:10,399
Um, I stopped drinking.
379
00:21:10,443 --> 00:21:14,142
That's one great way of,
um, of really sort of getting
380
00:21:14,185 --> 00:21:16,927
to know yourself is being,
you know,
381
00:21:16,971 --> 00:21:19,016
just drinking water
and being sober as anything.
382
00:21:19,060 --> 00:21:22,193
But you've had a fascinating
relationship with alcohol.
383
00:21:22,237 --> 00:21:23,345
- Mm-hmm. Yeah.
- I read where you said that
384
00:21:23,369 --> 00:21:24,674
alcohol really fascinated you.
385
00:21:24,718 --> 00:21:26,067
Yeah. Yeah, very much.
386
00:21:26,110 --> 00:21:28,069
Yeah, 'cause it took
my dad from me.
387
00:21:28,112 --> 00:21:30,767
- Yeah.
- Yeah, and then you stopped.
388
00:21:30,811 --> 00:21:32,615
Well, when I was going through
everything a couple years ago
389
00:21:32,639 --> 00:21:34,380
when I was going through
my divorce, yes.
390
00:21:34,423 --> 00:21:37,121
Um, not at the beginning.
At first I... whew, no.
391
00:21:37,165 --> 00:21:39,689
I think I probably kept
the alcohol industry alive.
392
00:21:39,733 --> 00:21:41,691
But you know, after...
Once I realized that I had
393
00:21:41,735 --> 00:21:43,345
a lot of work to do on myself,
394
00:21:43,389 --> 00:21:44,825
yeah, I stopped drinking and I
395
00:21:44,868 --> 00:21:46,237
started working out lots
and stuff like that
396
00:21:46,261 --> 00:21:48,219
to keep me sort of centered.
397
00:21:48,263 --> 00:21:50,352
Was there a moment
when you knew?
398
00:21:50,396 --> 00:21:52,876
Or was it a series of things
that you said,
399
00:21:52,920 --> 00:21:55,966
"Can't do this anymore"?
400
00:21:56,010 --> 00:21:58,012
With my-my journey or in...?
401
00:21:58,055 --> 00:22:00,231
With the divorce from Simon.
Like,
402
00:22:00,275 --> 00:22:02,059
because I-I, you know,
403
00:22:02,103 --> 00:22:04,801
over the years I've interviewed
so many people who stayed,
404
00:22:04,845 --> 00:22:06,977
were miserable, were miserable,
405
00:22:07,021 --> 00:22:10,807
and years before they
actually made the move...
406
00:22:10,851 --> 00:22:12,461
- Yeah. -...had started
thinking about it,
407
00:22:12,505 --> 00:22:15,986
so I'm wondering, was there
a single moment or was...
408
00:22:17,423 --> 00:22:19,338
I do remember one of my friends,
409
00:22:19,381 --> 00:22:21,775
we were all... we were
answering these questions
410
00:22:21,818 --> 00:22:24,386
- in this very bougie magazine.
- Mm-hmm.
411
00:22:24,430 --> 00:22:26,388
And it was,
412
00:22:26,432 --> 00:22:29,565
it was something like,
"What's something that
413
00:22:29,609 --> 00:22:31,393
no one would ever know
about you?"
414
00:22:31,437 --> 00:22:33,153
And I just said it in front of
three of my friends.
415
00:22:33,177 --> 00:22:35,092
I was like,
"I'm really not happy.
416
00:22:35,136 --> 00:22:36,442
"I'm not, I'm not living.
417
00:22:36,485 --> 00:22:38,531
I'm just plodding along."
418
00:22:38,574 --> 00:22:40,010
And I remember there was a lyric
419
00:22:40,054 --> 00:22:42,186
that I wrote that
I put on a song on-on 25,
420
00:22:42,230 --> 00:22:44,711
which was, "I want to live
and not just survive."
421
00:22:44,754 --> 00:22:46,147
- Mm-hmm.
- And, um,
422
00:22:46,190 --> 00:22:48,192
you know, I've definitely
felt like that,
423
00:22:48,236 --> 00:22:50,412
but it was when I, when
I admitted to my own friends,
424
00:22:50,456 --> 00:22:52,196
who thought I was really happy,
425
00:22:52,240 --> 00:22:54,547
that actually I'm really
unhappy, and they all gasped.
426
00:22:54,590 --> 00:22:56,592
Like, you know, I feel like it
427
00:22:56,636 --> 00:22:57,961
was sort of from there
that I was like,
428
00:22:57,985 --> 00:23:00,248
"What am I doing?
What am I doing it for?"
429
00:23:00,291 --> 00:23:03,207
You know?
But I think it was just,
430
00:23:03,251 --> 00:23:04,968
by us getting married,
us having our wedding,
431
00:23:04,992 --> 00:23:07,168
and I... you know, I take
marriage very seriously.
432
00:23:07,211 --> 00:23:09,320
- Like, it obviously seems like...
- Yeah, 'cause you have
433
00:23:09,344 --> 00:23:11,235
-all that stuff from the past.
- Yeah, and it seems like I don't,
434
00:23:11,259 --> 00:23:13,498
you know, now... like, you know,
almost like I disrespected it
435
00:23:13,522 --> 00:23:16,003
by-by getting married,
and then, you know,
436
00:23:16,046 --> 00:23:17,657
divorced so quickly
and stuff like that.
437
00:23:17,700 --> 00:23:19,876
But I think...
438
00:23:19,920 --> 00:23:22,183
Are embarrassed because it
was so quickly?
439
00:23:22,226 --> 00:23:23,682
I'm just embarrassed that
I didn't make my marriage work.
440
00:23:23,706 --> 00:23:24,968
- Okay.
- You know?
441
00:23:25,012 --> 00:23:26,709
So now that you have perspective
442
00:23:26,753 --> 00:23:28,276
and you've opened up your soul
443
00:23:28,319 --> 00:23:30,974
and shared it with the world
here on 30,
444
00:23:31,018 --> 00:23:32,976
why do you think
445
00:23:33,020 --> 00:23:35,892
is the real reason Simon came
into your life?
446
00:23:35,936 --> 00:23:38,001
I think Simon probably saved
my life, to be honest with you.
447
00:23:38,025 --> 00:23:39,809
He came at such a moment,
448
00:23:39,853 --> 00:23:44,814
where the stability that
him and Angelo have given me,
449
00:23:44,858 --> 00:23:46,816
no one else would ever have
been able to give me,
450
00:23:46,860 --> 00:23:49,776
like, especially at that time
in my life... I was so young
451
00:23:49,819 --> 00:23:52,779
and I just, I think I would have
got a bit lost in all of it.
452
00:23:52,822 --> 00:23:54,955
Like, you know,
and I think I probably,
453
00:23:54,998 --> 00:23:57,000
I could have easily gone down
some dodgy paths,
454
00:23:57,044 --> 00:23:58,349
like, you know?
455
00:23:58,393 --> 00:24:00,177
And sort of self-destructed
from-from
456
00:24:00,221 --> 00:24:03,920
sort of like being so
overwhelmed by all of it.
457
00:24:03,964 --> 00:24:07,489
And he-he came in
and was stable.
458
00:24:07,533 --> 00:24:09,491
The most stable person I've ever
459
00:24:09,535 --> 00:24:11,275
had in my life up
until that point.
460
00:24:11,319 --> 00:24:13,364
Even... you know, even now
I trust him with my life.
461
00:24:13,408 --> 00:24:15,454
- Really?
- Oh, my gosh, like beyond.
462
00:24:15,497 --> 00:24:18,152
Like, yeah, I feel like...
463
00:24:18,195 --> 00:24:20,371
Yeah, him and Angelo,
like, they were
464
00:24:20,415 --> 00:24:23,374
angels sent to me,
that's how I feel.
465
00:24:23,418 --> 00:24:25,202
- So, came into your life...
- Mm-hmm.
466
00:24:25,246 --> 00:24:27,291
At the right season
and for the right reasons.
467
00:24:27,335 --> 00:24:28,902
- To save you.
- Yes, absolutely, yeah.
468
00:24:28,945 --> 00:24:32,166
And in that moment when
Angelo said to you,
469
00:24:32,209 --> 00:24:35,212
"Why don't
you love Daddy anymore?"
470
00:24:35,256 --> 00:24:37,103
Yeah, that was really hard
as well, and trying to explain
471
00:24:37,127 --> 00:24:40,217
to, like, a six-year-old
at the time, obviously,
472
00:24:40,261 --> 00:24:43,394
um, that I do love him,
I'm just not in love with him.
473
00:24:43,438 --> 00:24:45,484
Makes absolutely no sense
to a six-year-old.
474
00:24:45,527 --> 00:24:46,833
Like, you know?
475
00:24:46,876 --> 00:24:48,704
So there were so many answers
I just
476
00:24:48,748 --> 00:24:51,228
couldn't give him
'cause there aren't any really.
477
00:24:51,272 --> 00:24:53,535
Like, you know,
that he would understand,
478
00:24:53,579 --> 00:24:55,755
but he sees
that I still love his dad.
479
00:24:55,798 --> 00:24:57,602
- Like, you know... -'Cause you live
across the street from each other.
480
00:24:57,626 --> 00:24:59,561
We live across the street from
each other. Like, we, like,
481
00:24:59,585 --> 00:25:03,066
we're away together sometimes,
like, you know, and, um, and...
482
00:25:03,110 --> 00:25:05,634
Yeah, like, me and Simon also
chat away without Angelo.
483
00:25:05,678 --> 00:25:07,680
Like, Angelo, you know,
could be at school and...
484
00:25:07,723 --> 00:25:08,811
So you're still friends?
485
00:25:08,855 --> 00:25:10,334
- Oh, yes.
- It's all...
486
00:25:10,378 --> 00:25:11,684
- 100%. Yeah, yeah.
- 100%.
487
00:25:11,727 --> 00:25:14,208
I respect him more than anyone.
488
00:25:14,251 --> 00:25:16,384
How does he feel about...
489
00:25:16,427 --> 00:25:19,996
this album and the story
of the two of you
490
00:25:20,040 --> 00:25:22,042
- coming through your music?
- Yeah.
491
00:25:22,085 --> 00:25:23,870
I mean, we don't sit around
and talk about it
492
00:25:23,913 --> 00:25:25,741
like, "How you feeling?"
Like, you know,
493
00:25:25,785 --> 00:25:27,502
"Easy on Me" is at 40 million
streams, how are you feeling?
494
00:25:27,526 --> 00:25:30,050
Like... we don't talk about it.
495
00:25:30,093 --> 00:25:32,182
But, um, he knows I'm,
you know, he knows
496
00:25:32,226 --> 00:25:33,749
what kind of artist I am, like,
497
00:25:33,793 --> 00:25:35,185
and, you know, that I got to...
498
00:25:35,229 --> 00:25:37,579
I have to dig deep
and tell my stories.
499
00:25:41,061 --> 00:25:44,586
♪
500
00:25:44,630 --> 00:25:47,763
♪ How can one become
so bounded by choices ♪
501
00:25:47,807 --> 00:25:52,289
♪ That somebody else makes? ♪
502
00:25:52,333 --> 00:25:55,379
♪ How can we both become
a version of a person ♪
503
00:25:55,423 --> 00:25:59,383
♪ We don't even like? ♪
504
00:26:00,733 --> 00:26:03,257
♪ We're in love with the world ♪
505
00:26:03,300 --> 00:26:07,609
♪ But the world just
wants to bring us down ♪
506
00:26:08,915 --> 00:26:11,613
♪ By putting ideas
in our heads ♪
507
00:26:11,657 --> 00:26:15,965
♪ That corrupt
our hearts somehow ♪
508
00:26:17,924 --> 00:26:20,056
♪ When I was a child ♪
509
00:26:20,100 --> 00:26:25,409
♪ Every single thing could
blow my mind ♪
510
00:26:25,453 --> 00:26:28,064
♪ Soaking it all up for fun ♪
511
00:26:28,108 --> 00:26:31,372
♪ But now I only soak up wine ♪
512
00:26:34,462 --> 00:26:36,638
♪ They say to play hard,
you work hard ♪
513
00:26:36,682 --> 00:26:41,295
♪ Find balance
in the sacrifice ♪
514
00:26:41,338 --> 00:26:44,907
♪ Yet I don't know anybody ♪
515
00:26:44,951 --> 00:26:48,824
♪ Who's truly satisfied ♪
516
00:26:50,217 --> 00:26:53,655
♪ You better believe
I'm trying ♪
517
00:26:53,699 --> 00:26:58,486
- ♪ Trying ♪
- ♪ To keep climbing ♪
518
00:26:58,529 --> 00:27:01,097
- ♪ Climbing ♪
- ♪ But the higher we climb ♪
519
00:27:01,141 --> 00:27:04,840
♪ Feels like we're both
none the wiser ♪
520
00:27:06,712 --> 00:27:09,366
♪ So I hope I learn ♪
521
00:27:09,410 --> 00:27:14,197
♪ To get over myself ♪
522
00:27:14,241 --> 00:27:17,505
♪ Stop trying to be ♪
523
00:27:17,548 --> 00:27:22,728
♪ Somebody else ♪
524
00:27:22,771 --> 00:27:29,735
♪ So we can love each other
for free ♪
525
00:27:31,214 --> 00:27:34,565
♪ Everybody wants something ♪
526
00:27:34,609 --> 00:27:39,266
♪ You just want me ♪
527
00:27:40,746 --> 00:27:42,965
♪ Why am I obsessing about ♪
528
00:27:43,009 --> 00:27:46,621
♪ The things I can't control? ♪
529
00:27:48,231 --> 00:27:50,930
♪ Why am I seeking approval ♪
530
00:27:50,973 --> 00:27:55,282
♪ From people
I don't even know? ♪
531
00:27:56,718 --> 00:27:59,547
♪ In these crazy times
I hope to find ♪
532
00:27:59,590 --> 00:28:04,683
♪ Something I can cling on to ♪
533
00:28:04,726 --> 00:28:07,555
♪ 'Cause I need some substance
in my life ♪
534
00:28:07,598 --> 00:28:10,819
♪ Something real,
something that feels true ♪
535
00:28:12,908 --> 00:28:17,217
♪ You better believe for you
I've cried ♪
536
00:28:17,260 --> 00:28:21,917
♪ High tides ♪
537
00:28:21,961 --> 00:28:24,093
♪ I want you so bad ♪
538
00:28:24,137 --> 00:28:26,574
♪ But you can't fight
fire with fire ♪
539
00:28:29,185 --> 00:28:36,105
♪ Oh, I hope I learn to
get over myself ♪
540
00:28:37,411 --> 00:28:41,154
♪ Stop trying to be ♪
541
00:28:41,197 --> 00:28:45,462
♪ Somebody else ♪
542
00:28:45,506 --> 00:28:48,639
♪ Oh, I just want to love you ♪
543
00:28:48,683 --> 00:28:52,687
♪ Love you for free ♪
544
00:28:53,862 --> 00:28:57,474
♪ 'Cause everybody
wants something from me ♪
545
00:28:57,518 --> 00:29:01,740
♪ You just want me ♪
546
00:29:03,480 --> 00:29:06,222
♪ Listen, I know
how low I can go ♪
547
00:29:06,266 --> 00:29:11,793
♪ I give as good as I get ♪
548
00:29:11,837 --> 00:29:14,622
♪ You get the brunt of it all ♪
549
00:29:14,665 --> 00:29:16,580
♪ 'Cause you're all I've got ♪
550
00:29:16,624 --> 00:29:19,627
♪ Left ♪
551
00:29:19,670 --> 00:29:22,325
♪ Oh, I hope in time ♪
552
00:29:22,369 --> 00:29:27,417
♪ We both will find
peace of mind ♪
553
00:29:27,461 --> 00:29:30,203
♪ Sometimes the road
less traveled ♪
554
00:29:30,246 --> 00:29:33,554
♪ Is a road best left behind ♪
555
00:29:34,773 --> 00:29:38,124
♪ Oh, I hope I learn ♪
556
00:29:38,167 --> 00:29:42,519
♪ To get over myself ♪
557
00:29:43,607 --> 00:29:47,176
♪ Stop trying to be ♪
558
00:29:47,220 --> 00:29:51,659
♪ Somebody else ♪
559
00:29:51,702 --> 00:29:55,358
♪ So I just want to love you ♪
560
00:29:55,402 --> 00:29:59,493
♪ Love you for free, yeah ♪
561
00:29:59,536 --> 00:30:02,975
♪ 'Cause everybody wants
something from me ♪
562
00:30:03,018 --> 00:30:08,154
♪ You just want me ♪
563
00:30:08,197 --> 00:30:12,549
♪ You better believe
I'm trying ♪
564
00:30:12,593 --> 00:30:14,160
♪ Trying ♪
565
00:30:14,203 --> 00:30:16,858
♪ To keep climbing ♪
566
00:30:16,902 --> 00:30:19,730
- ♪ Climbing ♪
- ♪ But the higher we climb ♪
567
00:30:19,774 --> 00:30:26,085
♪ Feels like we're both
none the wiser. ♪
568
00:30:44,930 --> 00:30:49,151
This next one is
a golden oldie, I would say.
569
00:30:49,195 --> 00:30:51,719
And, um, yeah,
it's the first time
570
00:30:51,762 --> 00:30:54,026
I've sung it
in public since, um,
571
00:30:54,069 --> 00:30:55,897
since everything went down.
All right.
572
00:30:55,941 --> 00:30:58,813
You ready? Ready, Eric?
573
00:31:13,262 --> 00:31:16,831
♪ I heard ♪
574
00:31:16,875 --> 00:31:20,574
♪ That you're settled down ♪
575
00:31:20,617 --> 00:31:24,186
♪ That you found a girl ♪
576
00:31:24,230 --> 00:31:29,365
♪ And you're married now ♪
577
00:31:29,409 --> 00:31:34,936
♪ I heard that your dreams
came true ♪
578
00:31:34,980 --> 00:31:38,940
♪ Guess she gave you things ♪
579
00:31:38,984 --> 00:31:42,813
♪ I didn't give to you ♪
580
00:31:42,857 --> 00:31:49,733
♪ Old friend,
why are you so shy? ♪
581
00:31:49,777 --> 00:31:53,607
♪ Ain't like you to hold back ♪
582
00:31:53,650 --> 00:31:57,437
♪ Or hide from the light ♪
583
00:31:57,480 --> 00:32:00,962
♪ I hate to turn up
out of the blue uninvited ♪
584
00:32:01,006 --> 00:32:05,184
♪ But I couldn't stay away,
I couldn't fight it ♪
585
00:32:05,227 --> 00:32:07,012
♪ I had hoped you'd
see my face ♪
586
00:32:07,055 --> 00:32:09,797
♪ And that you'd be reminded
that for me ♪
587
00:32:09,840 --> 00:32:14,193
♪ It isn't over ♪
588
00:32:14,236 --> 00:32:20,590
♪ Never mind,
I'll find someone like you ♪
589
00:32:20,634 --> 00:32:27,815
♪ I wish nothing but the best
for you, too ♪
590
00:32:27,858 --> 00:32:31,558
♪ Don't forget me, I beg ♪
591
00:32:31,601 --> 00:32:36,998
♪ I remember you said
sometimes it lasts in love ♪
592
00:32:37,042 --> 00:32:42,177
♪ But sometimes
it hurts instead ♪
593
00:32:42,221 --> 00:32:45,006
♪ Sometimes it lasts in love ♪
594
00:32:45,050 --> 00:32:48,749
♪ But sometimes
it hurts instead ♪
595
00:32:48,792 --> 00:32:50,664
♪ Yeah ♪
596
00:32:53,232 --> 00:32:58,672
♪ You know how the time flies ♪
597
00:32:58,715 --> 00:33:06,114
♪ Only yesterday it was
the time of our lives ♪
598
00:33:06,158 --> 00:33:13,339
♪ We were born and raised
in a summer haze ♪
599
00:33:13,382 --> 00:33:16,995
♪ Bound by the surprise ♪
600
00:33:17,038 --> 00:33:21,434
♪ Of our glory days ♪
601
00:33:21,477 --> 00:33:24,785
♪ I hate to turn up
out of the blue, uninvited ♪
602
00:33:24,828 --> 00:33:27,396
♪ But I couldn't stay away ♪
603
00:33:27,440 --> 00:33:29,050
♪ I couldn't fight it ♪
604
00:33:29,094 --> 00:33:30,573
♪ I had hoped
you'd see my face ♪
605
00:33:30,617 --> 00:33:32,227
♪ And that you'd be reminded ♪
606
00:33:32,271 --> 00:33:38,277
♪ That for me,
it isn't over yet ♪
607
00:33:39,887 --> 00:33:45,849
♪ Never mind, I'll find
someone like you ♪
608
00:33:45,893 --> 00:33:53,509
♪ I wish nothing but the best
for you, too ♪
609
00:33:53,553 --> 00:33:56,860
♪ Don't forget me, I beg ♪
610
00:33:56,904 --> 00:34:00,516
♪ I remember you said ♪
611
00:34:00,560 --> 00:34:03,171
♪ Sometimes it lasts in love ♪
612
00:34:03,215 --> 00:34:06,740
♪ But sometimes it hurts
instead ♪
613
00:34:06,783 --> 00:34:08,872
♪ Yeah ♪
614
00:34:08,916 --> 00:34:12,398
♪ Nothing compares,
no worries or cares ♪
615
00:34:12,441 --> 00:34:16,097
♪ Regrets and mistakes,
they're memories made ♪
616
00:34:16,141 --> 00:34:21,189
♪ Who would have known
how bittersweet ♪
617
00:34:21,233 --> 00:34:24,845
♪ This would taste? ♪
618
00:34:27,239 --> 00:34:33,462
♪ Never mind, I'll find
someone like you ♪
619
00:34:33,506 --> 00:34:40,513
♪ I wish nothing but the best
for you, too ♪
620
00:34:40,556 --> 00:34:44,299
♪ Don't forget me, I beg ♪
621
00:34:44,343 --> 00:34:47,781
♪ I remember you said ♪
622
00:34:47,824 --> 00:34:50,305
♪ Sometimes it lasts in love ♪
623
00:34:50,349 --> 00:34:54,875
♪ But sometimes
it hurts instead ♪
624
00:34:56,442 --> 00:35:02,143
♪ Never mind,
I'll find someone like you ♪
625
00:35:02,187 --> 00:35:06,147
♪ I wish nothing but the best ♪
626
00:35:06,191 --> 00:35:09,281
♪ For you, too ♪
627
00:35:09,324 --> 00:35:13,285
♪ Don't forget me, I beg ♪
628
00:35:13,328 --> 00:35:16,723
♪ I remember you said ♪
629
00:35:16,766 --> 00:35:19,160
♪ Sometimes it lasts in love ♪
630
00:35:19,204 --> 00:35:23,991
♪ But sometimes it hurts
instead ♪
631
00:35:24,034 --> 00:35:26,820
♪ Sometimes it lasts in love ♪
632
00:35:26,863 --> 00:35:30,737
♪ But sometimes
it hurts instead ♪
633
00:35:30,780 --> 00:35:34,088
♪ Yeah. ♪
634
00:35:49,582 --> 00:35:53,368
Coming up, Adele
organizes a special surprise.
635
00:35:53,412 --> 00:35:55,501
I need every single person
to be really bloody quiet.
636
00:35:55,544 --> 00:35:57,459
All right?
637
00:36:10,385 --> 00:36:13,606
♪
638
00:36:19,089 --> 00:36:23,268
♪ Everybody loves
the things you do ♪
639
00:36:23,311 --> 00:36:26,880
♪ From the way you talk ♪
640
00:36:26,923 --> 00:36:31,363
♪ To the way you move ♪
641
00:36:31,406 --> 00:36:36,716
♪ Everybody here
is watching you ♪
642
00:36:36,759 --> 00:36:40,154
♪ 'Cause you feel like home ♪
643
00:36:40,198 --> 00:36:43,462
♪ You're like a dream
come true ♪
644
00:36:45,159 --> 00:36:49,990
♪ But if by chance
you're here alone ♪
645
00:36:50,033 --> 00:36:53,559
♪ Can I have a moment ♪
646
00:36:53,602 --> 00:36:58,694
♪ Before I go? ♪
647
00:36:58,738 --> 00:37:01,001
♪ 'Cause I've been by myself ♪
648
00:37:01,044 --> 00:37:03,308
♪ All night long ♪
649
00:37:03,351 --> 00:37:07,225
♪ Hoping you're someone ♪
650
00:37:07,268 --> 00:37:10,750
♪ I used to know ♪
651
00:37:10,793 --> 00:37:13,231
♪ You look like a movie ♪
652
00:37:13,274 --> 00:37:16,582
♪ You sound like a song ♪
653
00:37:16,625 --> 00:37:19,933
♪ My God, this reminds me ♪
654
00:37:19,976 --> 00:37:24,372
♪ Of when we were young ♪
655
00:37:24,416 --> 00:37:27,593
♪ Let me photograph you
in this light ♪
656
00:37:27,636 --> 00:37:32,119
♪ In case it is the last time
that we might ♪
657
00:37:32,162 --> 00:37:35,078
♪ Be exactly like we were ♪
658
00:37:35,122 --> 00:37:37,167
♪ Before we realized ♪
659
00:37:37,211 --> 00:37:40,214
♪ We were sad of getting old ♪
660
00:37:40,258 --> 00:37:42,912
♪ It made us restless ♪
661
00:37:42,956 --> 00:37:46,394
♪ It was just like a movie ♪
662
00:37:46,438 --> 00:37:49,789
♪ Just like a song ♪
663
00:37:51,486 --> 00:37:56,665
♪ I was so scared
to face my fears ♪
664
00:37:56,709 --> 00:38:03,237
♪ Nobody told me
that you'd be here ♪
665
00:38:05,370 --> 00:38:09,722
♪ And I swear
you'd moved overseas ♪
666
00:38:09,765 --> 00:38:13,726
♪ 'Cause that's what you said ♪
667
00:38:13,769 --> 00:38:16,424
♪ When you left me ♪
668
00:38:16,468 --> 00:38:19,558
♪ You still look like a movie ♪
669
00:38:19,601 --> 00:38:23,910
♪ You still sound like a song ♪
670
00:38:23,953 --> 00:38:26,478
♪ My God, this reminds me ♪
671
00:38:26,521 --> 00:38:30,438
♪ Of when we were young ♪
672
00:38:30,482 --> 00:38:34,268
♪ Let me photograph you
in this light ♪
673
00:38:34,312 --> 00:38:39,186
♪ In case it is the last time
that we might ♪
674
00:38:39,229 --> 00:38:41,754
♪ Be exactly like we were ♪
675
00:38:41,797 --> 00:38:43,756
♪ Before we realized ♪
676
00:38:43,799 --> 00:38:46,976
♪ We were sad of getting old ♪
677
00:38:47,020 --> 00:38:49,762
♪ It made us restless ♪
678
00:38:49,805 --> 00:38:53,156
♪ It was just like a movie ♪
679
00:38:53,200 --> 00:38:56,769
♪ It was just like a song ♪
680
00:38:56,812 --> 00:38:59,902
♪ When we were young ♪
681
00:38:59,946 --> 00:39:04,211
♪ When we were young ♪
682
00:39:04,254 --> 00:39:06,648
♪ When we were young ♪
683
00:39:06,692 --> 00:39:10,217
♪ When we were young ♪
684
00:39:10,260 --> 00:39:14,395
♪ It's hard to admit that ♪
685
00:39:14,439 --> 00:39:17,050
♪ Everything just
takes me back ♪
686
00:39:17,093 --> 00:39:20,053
♪ To when you were there ♪
687
00:39:20,096 --> 00:39:23,143
♪ To when you were there ♪
688
00:39:24,492 --> 00:39:27,365
♪ And a part of me keeps
holding on ♪
689
00:39:27,408 --> 00:39:31,064
♪ Just in case it hasn't gone ♪
690
00:39:31,107 --> 00:39:33,414
♪ I guess I still care ♪
691
00:39:33,458 --> 00:39:36,939
♪ Do you still care? ♪
692
00:39:36,983 --> 00:39:40,334
♪ It was just like a movie ♪
693
00:39:40,378 --> 00:39:43,424
♪ It was just like a song ♪
694
00:39:43,468 --> 00:39:46,645
♪ My God, this reminds me ♪
695
00:39:46,688 --> 00:39:51,563
♪ Of when we were young ♪
696
00:39:51,606 --> 00:39:54,740
♪ When we were young ♪
697
00:39:54,783 --> 00:39:57,264
♪ When we were young ♪
698
00:39:57,307 --> 00:40:00,485
♪ When we were young ♪
699
00:40:00,528 --> 00:40:03,009
♪ When we were young ♪
700
00:40:04,837 --> 00:40:08,057
♪ Let me photograph you
in this light ♪
701
00:40:08,101 --> 00:40:10,756
♪ In case it is the last time ♪
702
00:40:10,799 --> 00:40:14,107
♪ That we might be exactly
like we were ♪
703
00:40:14,150 --> 00:40:16,892
♪ Before we realized ♪
704
00:40:16,936 --> 00:40:19,765
♪ We were sad of getting old ♪
705
00:40:19,808 --> 00:40:22,420
♪ It made us restless ♪
706
00:40:22,463 --> 00:40:26,293
♪ Oh, I'm so mad
I'm getting old ♪
707
00:40:26,336 --> 00:40:28,948
♪ It makes me reckless ♪
708
00:40:28,991 --> 00:40:32,473
♪ It was just like a movie ♪
709
00:40:32,517 --> 00:40:36,912
♪ It was just like a song ♪
710
00:40:36,956 --> 00:40:42,135
♪ When we were young. ♪
711
00:40:45,138 --> 00:40:46,792
Thank you very much.
712
00:40:51,057 --> 00:40:53,102
You know, um...
713
00:40:53,146 --> 00:40:55,235
this is the first time...
I got to perch like this
714
00:40:55,278 --> 00:40:57,324
since I can't sit
in this mermaid dress.
715
00:40:59,065 --> 00:41:01,894
I feel like my whole campaign
so far with my outfits
716
00:41:01,937 --> 00:41:04,679
is a bit Death Becomes Her.
717
00:41:04,723 --> 00:41:09,641
Sometimes I'm Hel
and sometimes I'm Mad, you know.
718
00:41:09,684 --> 00:41:11,991
Anyway, this is the first time
that my son
719
00:41:12,034 --> 00:41:13,340
has ever seen me perform.
720
00:41:13,383 --> 00:41:14,994
And I got really...
721
00:41:15,037 --> 00:41:16,604
Oh, and he dressed up for me.
722
00:41:16,648 --> 00:41:18,452
It was... I'm not gonna cry.
Anyway, it's too...
723
00:41:18,476 --> 00:41:21,304
it's too soon to cry and I don't
want anyone to come fix my face.
724
00:41:21,348 --> 00:41:24,090
But, um, it's the absolute
honor of my life, baby,
725
00:41:24,133 --> 00:41:26,005
to have you here tonight.
726
00:41:26,048 --> 00:41:28,181
And you look so beautiful,
and so handsome and smart.
727
00:41:29,835 --> 00:41:33,360
So many women, Adele,
728
00:41:33,403 --> 00:41:35,014
are going to be liberated,
I think,
729
00:41:35,057 --> 00:41:40,236
by listening to you
because so many
730
00:41:40,280 --> 00:41:43,152
women specifically
choose to stay on
731
00:41:43,196 --> 00:41:45,807
in relationships when
732
00:41:45,851 --> 00:41:48,549
they know it's not working,
and they do it for the kids.
733
00:41:48,593 --> 00:41:54,076
And I've read where you said you
weren't miserablemiserable,
734
00:41:54,120 --> 00:41:56,426
-but you also knew you weren't happy.
- Yeah.
735
00:41:56,470 --> 00:41:59,734
And so, you wanted to bring
a happy version
736
00:41:59,778 --> 00:42:01,910
- of yourself to your son.
- Mm-hmm.
737
00:42:01,954 --> 00:42:04,086
- Yes.
- Which I think is about
738
00:42:04,130 --> 00:42:06,306
the best gift anybody
can give to their children.
739
00:42:06,349 --> 00:42:08,961
I think, I think
it's the same as,
740
00:42:09,004 --> 00:42:11,354
you know, the same drive
as staying in a relationship
741
00:42:11,398 --> 00:42:13,419
even though you're not happy
and you do it for the kids,
742
00:42:13,443 --> 00:42:14,749
I think it's as loving
743
00:42:14,793 --> 00:42:16,403
as doing that for the kids
by leaving
744
00:42:16,446 --> 00:42:18,710
and-and, you know,
finding your own happiness
745
00:42:18,753 --> 00:42:21,190
so that they really know
who you are.
746
00:42:21,234 --> 00:42:23,715
But I'm still not fully over it,
747
00:42:23,758 --> 00:42:27,545
of me choosing to dismantle
my child's life
748
00:42:27,588 --> 00:42:29,372
- for my own...
- Mm-hmm.
749
00:42:29,416 --> 00:42:31,244
Makes me very uncomfortable.
750
00:42:31,287 --> 00:42:32,593
You still feel guilt?
751
00:42:32,637 --> 00:42:35,727
I don't feel guilt,
I just feel...
752
00:42:35,770 --> 00:42:38,425
somewhat selfish sometimes,
but, like, I-I know that
753
00:42:38,468 --> 00:42:40,906
I'm-I'm nearing my goal
of, like,
754
00:42:40,949 --> 00:42:42,864
finding my happiness,
like, you know.
755
00:42:42,908 --> 00:42:44,779
And it's been...
No one ever makes me
756
00:42:44,823 --> 00:42:46,496
do anything I don't want
and it was just like...
757
00:42:46,520 --> 00:42:48,435
But I was really
ignoring myself.
758
00:42:48,478 --> 00:42:50,611
- Yeah.
- For a long time, which was wild to me
759
00:42:50,655 --> 00:42:52,004
when I realized it; and I knew
760
00:42:52,047 --> 00:42:54,615
that as an adult,
Angelo would be livid
761
00:42:54,659 --> 00:42:56,356
- with me for doing that.
- Mm-hmm.
762
00:42:56,399 --> 00:42:58,184
I knew that when
he became an adult,
763
00:42:58,227 --> 00:43:01,579
that he'd be furious at me
and I didn't want that, either.
764
00:43:01,622 --> 00:43:03,034
But it was, it was,
it was hard work.
765
00:43:03,058 --> 00:43:04,712
So, this whole album
is dedicated to him.
766
00:43:04,756 --> 00:43:07,149
Yes. Yeah, and the whole album
767
00:43:07,193 --> 00:43:09,369
is not about him, it's about me.
768
00:43:09,412 --> 00:43:12,198
And I just wanted for him
to hear me
769
00:43:12,241 --> 00:43:14,766
talking mad... madly deeply,
770
00:43:14,809 --> 00:43:17,551
about who I am and how I feel,
like, you know.
771
00:43:17,595 --> 00:43:19,224
And I don't know if I'd ever be
able to have that conversation
772
00:43:19,248 --> 00:43:21,468
with him in real life,
so therefore he can go
773
00:43:21,511 --> 00:43:23,165
and listen to it.
774
00:43:23,209 --> 00:43:25,385
Well, everything on the album
is certainly a starter
775
00:43:25,428 --> 00:43:26,734
for a great conversation.
776
00:43:26,778 --> 00:43:30,738
So, does Angelo know that
you are Adele?
777
00:43:30,782 --> 00:43:33,393
No, apart from the other day,
778
00:43:33,436 --> 00:43:34,873
he watched
the "Easy on Me" video...
779
00:43:34,916 --> 00:43:36,657
Like countdown
to when it premiered.
780
00:43:36,701 --> 00:43:39,312
- Yeah.
- Wherever, whatever. I didn't watch that.
781
00:43:39,355 --> 00:43:41,227
And, um, he was like,
"There was, like,
782
00:43:41,270 --> 00:43:43,969
150,000 people waiting,"
and, like, blah-blah-blah.
783
00:43:44,012 --> 00:43:46,493
And he was like,
"You had all these likes."
784
00:43:46,536 --> 00:43:48,582
And then he read
the comments and then...
785
00:43:48,626 --> 00:43:50,323
he was like,
"People really like you."
786
00:43:50,366 --> 00:43:52,151
Like, so he's-he's starting...
787
00:43:52,194 --> 00:43:54,719
- Starting to get it?
- to get it a little bit,
788
00:43:54,762 --> 00:43:56,546
- but not really.
- Didn't you take him
789
00:43:56,590 --> 00:43:58,046
to a Taylor Swift concert
and he was like...
790
00:43:58,070 --> 00:43:59,724
He loved it.
791
00:43:59,767 --> 00:44:01,440
He couldn't believe that
all those people were in there?
792
00:44:01,464 --> 00:44:03,355
Yeah, because he used to come
to my stadium shows
793
00:44:03,379 --> 00:44:05,425
for my rehearsals
and it would be empty.
794
00:44:05,468 --> 00:44:08,210
He was like, "So many people
come to her shows."
795
00:44:08,254 --> 00:44:10,082
But I'd make him leave
before they all arrive.
796
00:44:10,125 --> 00:44:13,302
It was so cute and so funny;
he loved it, yeah.
797
00:44:13,346 --> 00:44:15,000
- He's never seen you perform live?
- No.
798
00:44:15,043 --> 00:44:18,133
- No, this will be his first time.
- Wow.
799
00:44:18,177 --> 00:44:20,092
- Yeah.
- Yes. Do you want more children?
800
00:44:20,135 --> 00:44:22,703
I'm-I'm definitely open to it.
801
00:44:22,747 --> 00:44:24,681
I would like more children.
It wouldn't be the end
802
00:44:24,705 --> 00:44:26,620
of the world
if I don't have them,
803
00:44:26,664 --> 00:44:29,362
'cause I have Angelo,
but yeah, I think so.
804
00:44:29,405 --> 00:44:33,279
Every mother and father has
a dream for their children.
805
00:44:33,322 --> 00:44:38,023
And even when you have a big,
accessed life as you do,
806
00:44:38,066 --> 00:44:40,112
and can give your children
any dreams that
807
00:44:40,155 --> 00:44:41,287
- they can imagine...
- Yeah.
808
00:44:41,330 --> 00:44:42,680
Actually I think
809
00:44:42,723 --> 00:44:45,204
it's more challenging
to raise children
810
00:44:45,247 --> 00:44:47,249
who are kind
and have their own ambition...
811
00:44:47,293 --> 00:44:49,730
- Yeah. Absolutely.
- when they have you.
812
00:44:49,774 --> 00:44:53,125
So, what is the dream
you hold for him?
813
00:44:53,168 --> 00:44:56,128
Just to be a good person,
be a good and happy person.
814
00:44:56,171 --> 00:44:58,957
That's it.
I don't expect anything of him.
815
00:44:59,000 --> 00:45:02,308
I don't care what his career is,
as long as he's passionate about
816
00:45:02,351 --> 00:45:05,572
whatever it is that he does
and that he's happy.
817
00:45:12,927 --> 00:45:15,756
So now this is the big surprise
and I'm very, very excited.
818
00:45:15,800 --> 00:45:17,627
I hope we can pull it off.
819
00:45:17,671 --> 00:45:22,545
So, tonight we've arranged...
820
00:45:22,589 --> 00:45:25,374
I'm a bit nervous in case
it doesn't go well.
821
00:45:25,418 --> 00:45:27,463
It's also a bit ironic
that I'm... that I'm
822
00:45:27,507 --> 00:45:29,901
letting this happen tonight.
We've arranged a surprise
823
00:45:29,944 --> 00:45:32,120
for a lovely guy called Quentin,
824
00:45:32,164 --> 00:45:36,908
who reached out to a, now,
fake show asking for some help,
825
00:45:36,951 --> 00:45:40,128
so... whew, make me all nervous.
826
00:45:40,172 --> 00:45:41,671
Quentin has been
with his girlfriend Ashley
827
00:45:41,695 --> 00:45:43,131
for seven years.
828
00:45:43,175 --> 00:45:44,805
Seven years is, like,
normally like, you know,
829
00:45:44,829 --> 00:45:47,135
you either say yes or you say no
to, like, life together.
830
00:45:47,179 --> 00:45:48,484
Seven-year itch.
831
00:45:48,528 --> 00:45:50,225
She's a chef...
She's a vegan chef.
832
00:45:50,269 --> 00:45:52,793
She's always at work,
but tonight Quentin told Ashley
833
00:45:52,837 --> 00:45:55,448
that they were having
a date night and so
834
00:45:55,491 --> 00:45:57,450
we're going to make
that date night really,
835
00:45:57,493 --> 00:46:00,235
really memorable.
So now, earlier today
836
00:46:00,279 --> 00:46:02,455
Ashley and Quentin
were picked up in a car.
837
00:46:02,498 --> 00:46:05,110
And they came to this park,
to Griffith Park,
838
00:46:05,153 --> 00:46:07,218
and at the bottom of the hill
down there they've been
839
00:46:07,242 --> 00:46:09,592
having a beautiful picnic
pretty much all day.
840
00:46:09,636 --> 00:46:11,788
Quentin told Ashley that he's
planned a small surprise to
841
00:46:11,812 --> 00:46:15,511
celebrate the fact that she just
got her first big catering job.
842
00:46:15,555 --> 00:46:17,078
Also, I love a surprise.
843
00:46:17,122 --> 00:46:19,515
Also love dress-up.
Right, so she...
844
00:46:19,559 --> 00:46:21,996
Blindfolded her...
Bit kinky but you know...
845
00:46:22,040 --> 00:46:24,129
And he's given her
noise-canceling headphones
846
00:46:24,172 --> 00:46:27,349
so that she can't hear what
we've been doing up here,
847
00:46:27,393 --> 00:46:29,003
this concert tonight.
848
00:46:29,047 --> 00:46:30,447
And even though
they're in the area,
849
00:46:30,483 --> 00:46:32,180
she has absolutely no idea
where she is
850
00:46:32,224 --> 00:46:35,357
or where she's going, so...
851
00:46:35,401 --> 00:46:38,099
I need every single person
to be really bloody quiet.
852
00:46:38,143 --> 00:46:39,797
All right?
853
00:46:41,320 --> 00:46:43,452
Let's turn the lights down.
If you, if you
854
00:46:43,496 --> 00:46:44,865
make a noise,
I'm going to kill you.
855
00:46:44,889 --> 00:46:45,846
Turn the lights down.
856
00:46:45,890 --> 00:46:47,587
Turn the lights down.
857
00:46:56,639 --> 00:46:59,251
What are we doing, Quentin?
858
00:47:13,700 --> 00:47:16,094
- All right, listen.
- Okay.
859
00:47:16,137 --> 00:47:18,270
Take the blindfold off, okay?
860
00:47:18,313 --> 00:47:19,793
When you squeeze my hand?
861
00:47:19,837 --> 00:47:22,404
- Yes.
- Am I on grass?
862
00:47:22,448 --> 00:47:23,884
- Shh.
- Oh, shoot.
863
00:47:25,930 --> 00:47:26,974
Quentin...
864
00:47:28,193 --> 00:47:30,978
Take it off? Take it off?
865
00:47:31,022 --> 00:47:32,762
- Oh...
- Babe, look at me.
866
00:47:32,806 --> 00:47:34,852
Look at me, look at me,
look at me, look at me.
867
00:47:34,895 --> 00:47:35,916
- Look at me.
- Oh, my God.
868
00:47:35,940 --> 00:47:37,376
Look at me.
869
00:47:37,419 --> 00:47:38,986
Listen.
870
00:47:39,030 --> 00:47:41,162
- First of all... Listen.
- What are you doing?
871
00:47:41,206 --> 00:47:45,558
Listen, I want to
say thank you, okay?
872
00:47:45,601 --> 00:47:46,994
What are you doing?
873
00:47:47,038 --> 00:47:48,406
I want to thank you
for being so patient
874
00:47:48,430 --> 00:47:49,867
- with me.
- Oh, Quentin Brunson...
875
00:47:49,910 --> 00:47:52,913
Listen, thank you
for being patient with me.
876
00:47:52,957 --> 00:47:54,915
Um...
877
00:47:54,959 --> 00:47:58,527
- You're crazy, man.
- I am extremely proud of you.
878
00:47:58,571 --> 00:48:02,009
And, I mean, every day
you blow my mind.
879
00:48:02,053 --> 00:48:04,098
Oh, my God. Where are we?
880
00:48:04,142 --> 00:48:08,189
There's absolutely nothing
that you cannot do.
881
00:48:08,233 --> 00:48:09,974
And I just know
that you're going to be
882
00:48:10,017 --> 00:48:12,628
an amazing mother
to our kids one day.
883
00:48:14,326 --> 00:48:17,851
And, um...
884
00:48:17,895 --> 00:48:19,722
- And I love you.
- Is this real?
885
00:48:19,766 --> 00:48:22,160
I love you. I love you.
886
00:48:22,203 --> 00:48:25,946
I love you.
And I will continue to love you
887
00:48:25,990 --> 00:48:28,122
forever. Ashley...
888
00:48:28,166 --> 00:48:30,255
Am I awake?
889
00:48:31,996 --> 00:48:34,912
- Who are these people?
- This is real. This is real.
890
00:48:37,827 --> 00:48:40,918
- Oh, my God.
- Ashley.
891
00:48:40,961 --> 00:48:42,615
- All right.
- It's been...
892
00:48:42,658 --> 00:48:45,226
Thank God you didn't let me eat.
I would have thrown up.
893
00:48:48,490 --> 00:48:50,579
This has been
a long time coming.
894
00:48:50,623 --> 00:48:52,296
Oh, my God, I've been
your girlfriend for so long.
895
00:48:52,320 --> 00:48:56,890
Well, babe...
896
00:48:56,934 --> 00:48:59,197
- Oh, my God.
- Will... Okay.
897
00:48:59,240 --> 00:49:00,720
Oh, my God.
898
00:49:00,763 --> 00:49:03,244
Will you marry me,
little Ashley?
899
00:49:03,288 --> 00:49:05,246
- In real life?
- In real life.
900
00:49:06,682 --> 00:49:07,988
- Yeah.
- Yes?
901
00:49:09,076 --> 00:49:11,035
Oy, oy!
902
00:49:12,253 --> 00:49:15,778
♪
903
00:49:15,822 --> 00:49:18,477
Hello, Ashley. Hi.
904
00:49:19,957 --> 00:49:23,961
Hi, Quentin. You all right?
905
00:49:26,006 --> 00:49:28,661
Go sit front row. Go...
go sit down and enjoy the show.
906
00:49:28,704 --> 00:49:30,402
Am I alive?
907
00:49:31,446 --> 00:49:33,033
Thank God she said yes,
'cause I didn't know
908
00:49:33,057 --> 00:49:34,904
who I was going to have to
sing this song to next,
909
00:49:34,928 --> 00:49:36,016
you or him.
910
00:49:36,060 --> 00:49:37,800
Oh, my God, look at her...
911
00:49:37,844 --> 00:49:39,106
She's so in shock.
912
00:49:39,150 --> 00:49:40,673
Ha ha!
913
00:49:42,501 --> 00:49:44,807
Oh, that was lovely...
A little cry.
914
00:49:44,851 --> 00:49:46,287
Okay...
915
00:49:46,331 --> 00:49:48,202
All right, here we go.
This is for you two.
916
00:49:51,510 --> 00:49:54,034
♪
917
00:49:54,078 --> 00:50:00,388
♪ When the rain is blowing
in your face ♪
918
00:50:00,432 --> 00:50:06,264
♪ And the whole world is
on your case ♪
919
00:50:07,830 --> 00:50:12,705
♪ I could offer you
a warm embrace ♪
920
00:50:14,141 --> 00:50:18,493
♪ To make you feel my love ♪
921
00:50:20,713 --> 00:50:26,153
♪ When the evening shadows
and the stars appear ♪
922
00:50:27,415 --> 00:50:32,855
♪ And there is no one there
to dry your tears ♪
923
00:50:34,292 --> 00:50:39,819
♪ I could hold you
for a million years ♪
924
00:50:40,820 --> 00:50:45,651
♪ To make you feel my love ♪
925
00:50:47,435 --> 00:50:52,832
♪ I know you haven't made
your mind up yet ♪
926
00:50:54,138 --> 00:50:58,838
♪ But I would never
do you wrong ♪
927
00:51:00,535 --> 00:51:06,628
♪ I've known it from
the moment that we met ♪
928
00:51:06,672 --> 00:51:10,763
♪ No doubt in my mind
where you belong ♪
929
00:51:10,806 --> 00:51:12,547
She's cryin' her eyes out.
930
00:51:14,332 --> 00:51:19,380
♪ I'd go hungry,
I'd go black and blue ♪
931
00:51:21,121 --> 00:51:26,692
♪ And I'd go crawling
down the avenue ♪
932
00:51:27,910 --> 00:51:33,916
♪ No, there's nothing
that I wouldn't do ♪
933
00:51:33,960 --> 00:51:38,138
♪ To make you feel my love ♪
934
00:51:38,182 --> 00:51:40,445
♪ Yeah ♪
935
00:51:40,488 --> 00:51:44,753
♪
936
00:51:49,193 --> 00:51:53,675
♪
937
00:52:07,559 --> 00:52:10,083
♪ The storms are raging on ♪
938
00:52:10,127 --> 00:52:13,130
♪ The rollin' seas ♪
939
00:52:14,218 --> 00:52:19,484
♪ And on the highway of regret ♪
940
00:52:20,746 --> 00:52:23,183
♪ The winds of change
are blowing ♪
941
00:52:23,227 --> 00:52:26,926
♪ Wild and free ♪
942
00:52:26,969 --> 00:52:33,193
♪ You ain't seen nothing
like me yet ♪
943
00:52:33,237 --> 00:52:40,331
♪ I can make you happy,
make your dreams come true ♪
944
00:52:40,374 --> 00:52:46,163
♪ Nothing that I wouldn't do ♪
945
00:52:47,251 --> 00:52:52,604
♪ Go to the ends of this earth
for you ♪
946
00:52:53,953 --> 00:52:58,218
♪ To make you feel my love ♪
947
00:52:58,262 --> 00:53:01,003
♪ Lord, I ♪
948
00:53:01,047 --> 00:53:06,531
♪ To make you feel my ♪
949
00:53:08,794 --> 00:53:10,970
♪ Love. ♪
950
00:53:11,013 --> 00:53:13,102
Congratulations.
951
00:53:18,151 --> 00:53:19,979
How do you start dating again?
952
00:53:20,022 --> 00:53:22,111
I mean, you can't go on
a dating app. Do you, like...
953
00:53:22,155 --> 00:53:23,896
- No.
- take advice from friends
954
00:53:23,939 --> 00:53:25,499
or somebody says,
"Oh, I know somebody"?
955
00:53:30,468 --> 00:53:32,861
Let's go to the question
everybody wants to know.
956
00:53:32,905 --> 00:53:34,428
- Oh.
- One of the questions
957
00:53:34,472 --> 00:53:35,884
certainly is this whole
weight thing.
958
00:53:35,908 --> 00:53:38,040
- Mm-hmm.
- And you lost
959
00:53:38,084 --> 00:53:40,391
- a hundred pounds in two years.
- Around that, yeah.
960
00:53:40,434 --> 00:53:42,282
- Around that? A hundred pounds in two years.
- Around, yeah.
961
00:53:42,306 --> 00:53:44,960
And then you said it wasn't
even really about the weight.
962
00:53:45,004 --> 00:53:46,484
- No.
- So what was it about?
963
00:53:46,527 --> 00:53:48,660
It was about my anxiety mainly.
964
00:53:48,703 --> 00:53:52,141
I had the most terrifying
anxiety attacks
965
00:53:52,185 --> 00:53:53,621
after I left my marriage.
966
00:53:53,665 --> 00:53:55,710
They'd paralyze me completely
967
00:53:55,754 --> 00:53:57,799
and made me so confused
because I wouldn't be
968
00:53:57,843 --> 00:53:59,497
able to have any control
over my body.
969
00:53:59,540 --> 00:54:02,717
But I knew that I-I was aware
of it all happening.
970
00:54:02,761 --> 00:54:04,850
It was like I was still
very much there
971
00:54:04,893 --> 00:54:07,548
while my whole body was just,
like, on another planet
972
00:54:07,592 --> 00:54:08,810
it felt like, you know?
973
00:54:08,854 --> 00:54:10,290
And I've always
worked out a bit.
974
00:54:10,334 --> 00:54:11,659
You know, a couple times
a week for my back.
975
00:54:11,683 --> 00:54:14,033
- Not very hard. But you know.
- Uh-huh.
976
00:54:14,076 --> 00:54:15,880
'Cause I've had a bad back
since I was a teenager.
977
00:54:15,904 --> 00:54:19,343
[And I started to notice
A] how much I trusted
978
00:54:19,386 --> 00:54:22,302
my trainer and his,
like, presence
979
00:54:22,346 --> 00:54:24,870
when I was feeling so lost,
but also that I didn't have
980
00:54:24,913 --> 00:54:26,741
any anxiety when I was
with him at the gym.
981
00:54:26,785 --> 00:54:28,787
So then I-I picked it up
every day and then
982
00:54:28,830 --> 00:54:31,311
I had nothing else to do,
and I think
983
00:54:31,355 --> 00:54:33,270
it was just, it became my time.
984
00:54:33,313 --> 00:54:35,881
Me having a plan every day
when I had no plans.
985
00:54:35,924 --> 00:54:37,554
I had no idea what each day
was going to bring
986
00:54:37,578 --> 00:54:39,232
for me but me knowing that,
987
00:54:39,276 --> 00:54:41,103
okay, at 9:00 a.m.,
I'm gonna go to the gym.
988
00:54:41,147 --> 00:54:42,777
Okay, great. Well,
that gives me some discipline.
989
00:54:42,801 --> 00:54:44,474
Okay, 1:00 p.m. I'm going
to go for a hike.
990
00:54:44,498 --> 00:54:47,371
You know, having these
sort of pins in my day
991
00:54:47,414 --> 00:54:49,349
- helped me keep myself together.
- So you weren't even
992
00:54:49,373 --> 00:54:51,288
starting out
trying to lose weight?
993
00:54:51,331 --> 00:54:52,593
No, not at all.
994
00:54:52,637 --> 00:54:54,682
I wasn't bothered
about that at all but...
995
00:54:54,726 --> 00:54:58,338
in that process of having, you
know, lost all of that weight,
996
00:54:58,382 --> 00:55:00,732
I definitely
really contributed towards
997
00:55:00,775 --> 00:55:02,135
me getting my mind right,
you know.
998
00:55:02,168 --> 00:55:03,865
- It did.
- And giving me the... absolutely.
999
00:55:03,909 --> 00:55:05,171
It sharpened everything.
1000
00:55:05,214 --> 00:55:06,433
Without a shadow of a doubt.
1001
00:55:06,477 --> 00:55:08,348
Like, it gave me real purpose.
1002
00:55:08,392 --> 00:55:10,718
Interesting, because you know,
I-I've been through this a few
1003
00:55:10,742 --> 00:55:13,353
times myself and I remember
the first time I dropped,
1004
00:55:13,397 --> 00:55:16,617
you know, a lot of weight...
I think it was like 67 pounds...
1005
00:55:16,661 --> 00:55:18,837
People were really upset
and had stuff to say.
1006
00:55:18,880 --> 00:55:21,274
And it actually in many ways
felt like I had abandoned them
1007
00:55:21,318 --> 00:55:23,494
- or something.
- Mm-hmm. Yeah.
1008
00:55:23,537 --> 00:55:26,584
And lots of people
are talking about your weight
1009
00:55:26,627 --> 00:55:28,542
and all in your business
about it.
1010
00:55:28,586 --> 00:55:30,022
- Yeah.
- And I want to know,
1011
00:55:30,065 --> 00:55:31,806
what is the experience
of losing this
1012
00:55:31,850 --> 00:55:34,809
been like for you and also
people's reaction to it?
1013
00:55:34,853 --> 00:55:38,422
I'm not shocked or even
fazed by it because
1014
00:55:38,465 --> 00:55:40,815
my body has been objectified
my entire career.
1015
00:55:40,859 --> 00:55:42,817
I'm either too big,
I'm either too small.
1016
00:55:42,861 --> 00:55:44,578
Like, you know, I'm either
hot or I'm either not...
1017
00:55:44,602 --> 00:55:46,430
Like, whatever.
I never looked up to anyone
1018
00:55:46,473 --> 00:55:48,040
because of their body.
1019
00:55:48,083 --> 00:55:51,173
You know, I never admired
anyone because they had
1020
00:55:51,217 --> 00:55:53,828
the same hair color as me
or the same style as me.
1021
00:55:53,872 --> 00:55:55,850
- Or, you know, whatever, so...
- Or were the same weight as you.
1022
00:55:55,874 --> 00:55:57,832
Never. Never, ever, ever.
1023
00:55:57,876 --> 00:55:59,878
And when you were heavier,
you were fine.
1024
00:55:59,921 --> 00:56:01,401
I was and I was
body positive then
1025
00:56:01,445 --> 00:56:02,881
and I'm body positive now.
1026
00:56:02,924 --> 00:56:05,492
But it's not my job to
validate how people feel
1027
00:56:05,536 --> 00:56:07,233
- about their bodies.
- Whoo.
1028
00:56:07,276 --> 00:56:10,149
And I feel bad that, you know,
it's made anyone feel
1029
00:56:10,192 --> 00:56:12,369
horrible about themselves,
but I...
1030
00:56:12,412 --> 00:56:15,589
That's not my job
and I-I can't...
1031
00:56:15,633 --> 00:56:17,243
I'm trying to sort
my own life out.
1032
00:56:17,286 --> 00:56:19,114
You know, I can't...
1033
00:56:19,158 --> 00:56:21,266
I can't add another worry and
another thing to try and nail.
1034
00:56:21,290 --> 00:56:23,380
- I can't, like, you know?
- Okay.
1035
00:56:23,423 --> 00:56:24,990
- And...
- I got that, I love that.
1036
00:56:25,033 --> 00:56:26,513
- Yeah.
- I love that. I love that.
1037
00:56:26,557 --> 00:56:28,341
And, you know, my-my weight
might fluctuate
1038
00:56:28,385 --> 00:56:29,797
now that I can't work out as
much and I'm on set all day.
1039
00:56:29,821 --> 00:56:31,431
You know, I mean, I'm eating.
1040
00:56:31,475 --> 00:56:33,215
But I don't care if
I put on weight.
1041
00:56:33,259 --> 00:56:34,758
I don't care if I lose it again.
Like, it's not about that.
1042
00:56:34,782 --> 00:56:37,306
As long as, like,
my muscle memory doesn't go
1043
00:56:37,350 --> 00:56:39,613
for when I'm lifting my weights,
which is,
1044
00:56:39,657 --> 00:56:41,398
like my favorite place to be.
1045
00:56:41,441 --> 00:56:43,487
- Lifting weights? Okay.
- I love it.
1046
00:56:43,530 --> 00:56:46,446
- I love it. I love it.
- What's the highest weight you can press now?
1047
00:56:46,490 --> 00:56:48,143
Well, at the moment,
my back's been bad,
1048
00:56:48,187 --> 00:56:49,841
but last summer when
I was at my...
1049
00:56:49,884 --> 00:56:51,886
I was at my peak
of being able to like...
1050
00:56:51,930 --> 00:56:53,730
I felt like I could
have been in the Olympics.
1051
00:56:53,758 --> 00:56:55,257
I remember saying to my trainers
all the time, "I'm gonna get",
1052
00:56:55,281 --> 00:56:57,065
I'm gonna get an Olympic
gold medal next."
1053
00:56:57,109 --> 00:56:58,676
I was like, you know.
1054
00:56:58,719 --> 00:57:00,852
It was... we were getting to,
like, on a deadlift,
1055
00:57:00,895 --> 00:57:04,377
we were getting up to,
like, 160, 170.
1056
00:57:04,421 --> 00:57:05,944
Yeah, I love it.
1057
00:57:05,987 --> 00:57:08,294
But it started out
at ten pounds.
1058
00:57:08,337 --> 00:57:10,731
It started at ten pounds when
I first started lifting.
1059
00:57:10,775 --> 00:57:12,472
I am... Wow.
1060
00:57:12,516 --> 00:57:14,474
Oh, no, I'm... I'm an athlete.
1061
00:57:14,518 --> 00:57:17,651
I'm actually an athlete.
Like, I'm not even boasting.
1062
00:57:17,695 --> 00:57:19,436
Even the proportions of my body.
1063
00:57:19,479 --> 00:57:21,481
I should have been an athlete,
if only at school
1064
00:57:21,525 --> 00:57:23,198
hadn't discovered boys
and someone had told me
1065
00:57:23,222 --> 00:57:25,572
to go and do a bit more P.E.
1066
00:57:25,616 --> 00:57:28,314
Wow. 160, wow.
1067
00:57:28,357 --> 00:57:30,098
Yeah. I love it.
1068
00:57:30,142 --> 00:57:31,336
But I have to eat
quite a lot of food
1069
00:57:31,360 --> 00:57:32,666
to lift the weights I lift.
1070
00:57:32,710 --> 00:57:34,407
- So you eat?
- I eat.
1071
00:57:34,451 --> 00:57:35,689
- Oh, yeah.
- What you want to eat?
1072
00:57:35,713 --> 00:57:37,236
- I had Chinese last night.
- Okay.
1073
00:57:37,279 --> 00:57:38,779
Yeah, we found the best
McDonald's recently.
1074
00:57:38,803 --> 00:57:40,021
It's piping hot every time.
1075
00:57:41,675 --> 00:57:43,634
No, I do. I love it.
I just, I'm not...
1076
00:57:43,677 --> 00:57:45,089
I ain't got much
of a sweet tooth though.
1077
00:57:45,113 --> 00:57:46,308
Yeah, I don't either.
Yeah, yeah.
1078
00:57:46,332 --> 00:57:47,594
I'd rather a sandwich.
1079
00:57:47,638 --> 00:57:49,683
Deadlifting 160, this girl.
1080
00:57:49,727 --> 00:57:51,206
- Yeah.
- She's an athlete.
1081
00:57:51,250 --> 00:57:52,686
I'm also a very good boxer.
1082
00:57:52,730 --> 00:57:54,340
I've got a left hook that
could kill you.
1083
00:57:54,383 --> 00:57:55,907
- Really?
- Oh, yeah.
1084
00:57:55,950 --> 00:57:57,790
- Yeah, I'm a very good boxer.
- I'd be scared.
1085
00:58:03,915 --> 00:58:05,875
Another new song on
the album is titled "Hold On."
1086
00:58:05,917 --> 00:58:07,634
The lyrics to this song
are so brutally honest.
1087
00:58:07,658 --> 00:58:09,486
Sounds like you were
in the dark,
1088
00:58:09,529 --> 00:58:11,357
- dark, dark hours there.
- Mm-hmm. Yeah.
1089
00:58:11,400 --> 00:58:12,706
"I swear to God," you say,
1090
00:58:12,750 --> 00:58:14,534
"I'm such a mess.
1091
00:58:14,578 --> 00:58:17,537
"The harder that I try,
I regress.
1092
00:58:17,581 --> 00:58:20,235
"I am my own worst enemy.
1093
00:58:20,279 --> 00:58:22,760
"Right now I truly hate
being me.
1094
00:58:22,803 --> 00:58:25,806
"Every day feels like the road
I'm on might just open up
1095
00:58:25,850 --> 00:58:27,634
"and swallow me whole.
1096
00:58:27,678 --> 00:58:30,376
"How do I feel so mighty small
when I'm struggling
1097
00:58:30,419 --> 00:58:32,552
to feel at all?"
1098
00:58:32,596 --> 00:58:33,988
- Mm.
- Girl, you can write.
1099
00:58:34,032 --> 00:58:35,207
Oh! Thank you.
1100
00:58:35,250 --> 00:58:36,817
- You can write.
- Thank you.
1101
00:58:36,861 --> 00:58:39,777
So what was going on there?
What was happening?
1102
00:58:39,820 --> 00:58:43,171
How did you keep the faith when
you were at your lowest point?
1103
00:58:43,215 --> 00:58:44,801
- What were you holding on to?
- My friends.
1104
00:58:44,825 --> 00:58:46,784
The question is,
what were you holding on to?
1105
00:58:46,827 --> 00:58:49,264
Um, my-my friends
always would say,
1106
00:58:49,308 --> 00:58:51,179
"hold on" when I would feel like
1107
00:58:51,223 --> 00:58:53,007
how I'm... you know,
the lyrics in the verse.
1108
00:58:53,051 --> 00:58:56,576
- Mm-hmm.
- But it was just exhausting,
1109
00:58:56,620 --> 00:59:01,450
trying to... to-to,
like, keep going with it.
1110
00:59:01,494 --> 00:59:03,583
It's a process, you know;
the process
1111
00:59:03,627 --> 00:59:06,934
of-of a divorce;
the process of, you know,
1112
00:59:06,978 --> 00:59:09,415
being a single parent;
the process of not
1113
00:59:09,458 --> 00:59:10,851
seeing your child
every single day
1114
00:59:10,895 --> 00:59:12,374
wasn't really a plan that I had
1115
00:59:12,418 --> 00:59:14,594
when I, you know, when I,
when I became a mum;
1116
00:59:14,638 --> 00:59:17,554
um, the process of arriving for
yourself every single day,
1117
00:59:17,597 --> 00:59:19,556
turning up for yourself
every single day
1118
00:59:19,599 --> 00:59:21,316
and still running a home,
running a business.
1119
00:59:21,340 --> 00:59:23,211
Like, it's-it's, you know,
so many people
1120
00:59:23,255 --> 00:59:25,170
know what I'm talking about
and it can...
1121
00:59:25,213 --> 00:59:26,693
You know,
I feel like that as well.
1122
00:59:26,737 --> 00:59:28,739
I-I juggle those things as well.
1123
00:59:28,782 --> 00:59:32,307
And it just... I felt like
not doing it anymore,
1124
00:59:32,351 --> 00:59:34,658
and also trying to, like,
1125
00:59:34,701 --> 00:59:38,487
move forward, like...
1126
00:59:38,531 --> 00:59:40,925
but, like, with intention,
1127
00:59:40,968 --> 00:59:43,710
not just trying to get out of it
for no reason.
1128
00:59:43,754 --> 00:59:46,278
It made my feet hurt, walking
through all of that concrete.
1129
00:59:49,150 --> 00:59:51,631
I never, I never questioned
whether I'd made a bad decision.
1130
00:59:51,675 --> 00:59:53,633
I never ever did,
which I'm very grateful for,
1131
00:59:53,677 --> 00:59:55,635
that I never asked myself
those questions.
1132
00:59:55,679 --> 00:59:58,507
But it was just like maybe it
would have been better
1133
00:59:58,551 --> 01:00:01,336
had I just kept my mouth shut,
you know, and carried on.
1134
01:00:01,380 --> 01:00:03,338
- Mm.
- You know, just in terms
1135
01:00:03,382 --> 01:00:04,992
of hurting two people
that I love
1136
01:00:05,036 --> 01:00:07,038
the most in the world, you know.
1137
01:00:11,782 --> 01:00:18,745
♪ Love will soon come ♪
1138
01:00:22,706 --> 01:00:30,409
♪ Just hold on ♪
1139
01:00:35,719 --> 01:00:38,547
♪ Oh, what have I done ♪
1140
01:00:38,591 --> 01:00:41,463
♪ Yet again ♪
1141
01:00:41,507 --> 01:00:47,382
♪ Have I not learned anything ♪
1142
01:00:47,426 --> 01:00:52,692
♪ I don't want to live
in chaos ♪
1143
01:00:52,736 --> 01:00:58,872
♪ It's like a ride that
I want to get off ♪
1144
01:00:58,916 --> 01:01:04,573
♪ It's hard to hold on to
who I am ♪
1145
01:01:04,617 --> 01:01:10,231
♪ When I'm stumbling
in the dark for a hand ♪
1146
01:01:10,275 --> 01:01:16,150
♪ I am so tired of battling ♪
1147
01:01:16,194 --> 01:01:22,026
♪ With myself,
with no chance to win ♪
1148
01:01:22,069 --> 01:01:29,033
♪ Hold on ♪
1149
01:01:29,076 --> 01:01:33,602
♪ Let time be patient ♪
1150
01:01:33,646 --> 01:01:40,479
♪ You are still strong ♪
1151
01:01:40,522 --> 01:01:44,309
♪ Let pain be gracious ♪
1152
01:01:44,352 --> 01:01:51,708
♪ Love will soon come ♪
1153
01:01:55,059 --> 01:02:00,107
♪ Just hold ♪
1154
01:02:00,151 --> 01:02:05,112
♪ Hold on ♪
1155
01:02:08,507 --> 01:02:14,295
♪ I swear to God,
I am such a mess ♪
1156
01:02:14,339 --> 01:02:19,953
♪ The harder that I try,
I regress ♪
1157
01:02:19,997 --> 01:02:25,480
♪ I am my own worst enemy ♪
1158
01:02:25,524 --> 01:02:27,004
♪ Right now ♪
1159
01:02:27,047 --> 01:02:31,399
♪ I truly hate being me ♪
1160
01:02:31,443 --> 01:02:37,057
♪ Every day it feels like
the road I'm on ♪
1161
01:02:37,101 --> 01:02:43,107
♪ Might just open up
and swallow me whole ♪
1162
01:02:43,150 --> 01:02:48,373
♪ How do I feel so
mighty small ♪
1163
01:02:48,416 --> 01:02:53,421
♪ When I'm struggling to
feel at all ♪
1164
01:02:53,465 --> 01:03:00,428
♪ Just hold on ♪
1165
01:03:01,734 --> 01:03:05,607
♪ Let time be patient ♪
1166
01:03:05,651 --> 01:03:12,919
♪ You are still strong ♪
1167
01:03:12,963 --> 01:03:17,837
♪ Let pain be gracious ♪
1168
01:03:17,881 --> 01:03:23,800
♪ Yes, oh, I ♪
1169
01:03:28,065 --> 01:03:33,026
♪ Just hold on ♪
1170
01:03:33,070 --> 01:03:36,769
♪ Hold on ♪
1171
01:03:36,813 --> 01:03:39,163
♪ Just hold on ♪
1172
01:03:39,206 --> 01:03:42,470
♪ Sometimes loneliness ♪
1173
01:03:42,514 --> 01:03:47,824
♪ Is the only rest we get ♪
1174
01:03:49,173 --> 01:03:51,436
♪ Just hold on, just hold on ♪
1175
01:03:51,479 --> 01:03:54,395
♪ And the emptiness ♪
1176
01:03:54,439 --> 01:04:00,053
♪ Actually lets us forget ♪
1177
01:04:00,097 --> 01:04:03,056
♪ Just hold on, just hold on ♪
1178
01:04:03,100 --> 01:04:06,190
♪ Sometimes forgiveness ♪
1179
01:04:06,233 --> 01:04:12,065
♪ Is easiest in secret ♪
1180
01:04:12,109 --> 01:04:14,894
♪ Just hold on, just hold on ♪
1181
01:04:14,938 --> 01:04:17,854
♪ So just hold ♪
1182
01:04:17,897 --> 01:04:22,249
♪ On...! ♪
1183
01:04:22,293 --> 01:04:25,209
♪ Whoo ♪
1184
01:04:25,252 --> 01:04:28,603
♪ Let time be patient ♪
1185
01:04:28,647 --> 01:04:34,305
♪ You ♪
1186
01:04:34,348 --> 01:04:36,960
♪ Are still strong ♪
1187
01:04:37,003 --> 01:04:40,615
♪ Let pain be gracious ♪
1188
01:04:40,659 --> 01:04:48,659
♪ Love will soon come, baby ♪
1189
01:04:49,015 --> 01:04:52,410
♪ If you just hold on ♪
1190
01:04:52,453 --> 01:04:59,896
♪ Hold on, hold on,
hold on, hold on ♪
1191
01:04:59,939 --> 01:05:04,552
♪ Just let time be patient ♪
1192
01:05:04,596 --> 01:05:06,206
♪ Whoo ♪
1193
01:05:06,250 --> 01:05:07,904
♪ 'Cause you're still strong ♪
1194
01:05:07,947 --> 01:05:12,734
♪ I'm still strong ♪
1195
01:05:12,778 --> 01:05:15,389
♪ Just be gracious ♪
1196
01:05:15,433 --> 01:05:23,136
♪ Love will soon come ♪
1197
01:05:23,180 --> 01:05:27,488
♪ If you just hold on ♪
1198
01:05:27,532 --> 01:05:31,144
♪ Mm♪
1199
01:05:31,188 --> 01:05:33,146
♪ Just hold on ♪
1200
01:05:33,190 --> 01:05:36,019
♪ Just be patient ♪
1201
01:05:36,062 --> 01:05:39,979
♪ Just be patient ♪
1202
01:05:40,023 --> 01:05:43,417
♪ Just hold on, you ♪
1203
01:05:43,461 --> 01:05:46,768
♪ Just hold on, you ♪
1204
01:05:46,812 --> 01:05:50,729
♪ Just hold on, just hold on,
just hold on. ♪
1205
01:05:50,772 --> 01:05:52,600
Whew.
1206
01:05:54,689 --> 01:05:56,604
Thank you.
1207
01:05:58,432 --> 01:06:00,826
I heard you. Thanks.
1208
01:06:00,869 --> 01:06:03,176
♪ You could've had it all ♪
1209
01:06:03,220 --> 01:06:04,873
Coming up next...
1210
01:06:04,917 --> 01:06:08,616
♪ Rolling in the deep ♪
1211
01:06:13,360 --> 01:06:15,623
All the therapy
you've done, you know
1212
01:06:15,667 --> 01:06:18,365
that certainly at this stage
1213
01:06:18,409 --> 01:06:20,672
that you end up,
until you can get it right...
1214
01:06:20,715 --> 01:06:22,891
This is what I say to
all my girls in school...
1215
01:06:22,935 --> 01:06:25,546
That whatever the biggest
wound of your life is
1216
01:06:25,590 --> 01:06:29,811
from your parents, that you
end up choosing relationships
1217
01:06:29,855 --> 01:06:31,639
to try to heal those wounds.
1218
01:06:31,683 --> 01:06:34,816
- Yeah.
- So what do you think the deep wound
1219
01:06:34,860 --> 01:06:37,123
from the past,
from you as a little girl
1220
01:06:37,167 --> 01:06:39,996
growing up,
you're trying to heal as you
1221
01:06:40,039 --> 01:06:42,694
reach for your relationships
as an adult woman?
1222
01:06:42,737 --> 01:06:47,568
My dad's absolute lack
of presence and effort with me.
1223
01:06:47,612 --> 01:06:49,440
But you know, as I got older,
1224
01:06:49,483 --> 01:06:51,442
I definitely understood
that it was the alcohol.
1225
01:06:51,485 --> 01:06:54,053
It wasn't a choice that he was
necessarily making in himself
1226
01:06:54,097 --> 01:06:55,577
that he didn't want to
step up for me.
1227
01:06:55,620 --> 01:06:57,535
But when you're little,
you don't know that.
1228
01:06:57,578 --> 01:06:59,339
- Especially when he's like, "I'm drinking juice."
- Yes.
1229
01:06:59,363 --> 01:07:01,104
So I'm like,
"Well, I drink juice."
1230
01:07:01,147 --> 01:07:02,951
Like, you know, you don't know
the sort of effects of it.
1231
01:07:02,975 --> 01:07:04,890
But yeah, like,
when someone that you
1232
01:07:04,933 --> 01:07:07,066
love so much, and the more
that you feel like
1233
01:07:07,110 --> 01:07:09,590
they don't love you,
you love them even more...
1234
01:07:09,634 --> 01:07:12,245
Like, I was definitely always
trying to fill that void.
1235
01:07:12,289 --> 01:07:16,684
But at the same time, I would
expect it to hurt at some point.
1236
01:07:16,728 --> 01:07:19,252
So I would hurt them first.
1237
01:07:19,296 --> 01:07:21,602
You know,
not in a malicious way.
1238
01:07:21,646 --> 01:07:23,517
It wasn't malicious,
it was just like I had
1239
01:07:23,561 --> 01:07:25,258
absolutely zero expectations
of anybody.
1240
01:07:25,302 --> 01:07:26,975
Because I never... I learned not
to have them from my dad.
1241
01:07:26,999 --> 01:07:29,088
Because you'd been let down
so many times.
1242
01:07:29,132 --> 01:07:31,830
Yeah, so by having, you know,
zero expectations,
1243
01:07:31,873 --> 01:07:34,093
I wouldn't
arrive for them either.
1244
01:07:34,137 --> 01:07:36,356
Like, you know,
and I would feed off this energy
1245
01:07:36,400 --> 01:07:39,446
so they'd be like,
well, why would I, like...
1246
01:07:39,490 --> 01:07:42,319
like, make... go beyond
and make that effort with you
1247
01:07:42,362 --> 01:07:44,451
[when A] you don't seem
to want me to;
1248
01:07:44,495 --> 01:07:46,323
[and B] you're not doing it.
Like, you know?
1249
01:07:46,366 --> 01:07:49,413
Um, so it was definitely...
definitely that.
1250
01:07:49,456 --> 01:07:51,241
And then during the-the,
you know,
1251
01:07:51,284 --> 01:07:53,417
the sort of the last two,
three years of my life,
1252
01:07:53,460 --> 01:07:55,419
my dad got really sick.
1253
01:07:55,462 --> 01:07:59,640
And it was interesting
that that...
1254
01:07:59,684 --> 01:08:02,382
happened during... after,
just after having left
1255
01:08:02,426 --> 01:08:04,776
my marriage when I had already
made the conscious decision
1256
01:08:04,819 --> 01:08:07,953
to get to know myself
and figure some things out.
1257
01:08:07,996 --> 01:08:11,913
And... not-not-not
that long ago,
1258
01:08:11,957 --> 01:08:14,960
it was, um, back in April.
1259
01:08:15,003 --> 01:08:16,483
When he... when my dad died
1260
01:08:16,527 --> 01:08:19,834
and we had our peace together,
I felt that...
1261
01:08:19,878 --> 01:08:22,446
that huge gaping hole fill,
like, you know?
1262
01:08:22,489 --> 01:08:24,970
- Really?
- Just, we-we-we forgave each other.
1263
01:08:25,013 --> 01:08:26,841
'Cause, you know,
I said hurtful things.
1264
01:08:26,885 --> 01:08:28,930
I did... I did nothing as bad
as what he did though,
1265
01:08:28,974 --> 01:08:30,517
to be honest with you.
Like, you know, if you add it
1266
01:08:30,541 --> 01:08:32,064
all up throughout my whole life.
1267
01:08:32,108 --> 01:08:33,259
But I definitely, like,
snapped in the press
1268
01:08:33,283 --> 01:08:35,023
and stuff like that at him,
1269
01:08:35,067 --> 01:08:37,156
which definitely hurt
his feelings, of course.
1270
01:08:37,200 --> 01:08:39,941
Um, but we
found our peace together.
1271
01:08:39,985 --> 01:08:41,160
And then...
1272
01:08:41,204 --> 01:08:42,640
You played the album for him.
1273
01:08:42,683 --> 01:08:44,685
Played the album too,
on Zoom, yeah. Yeah.
1274
01:08:44,729 --> 01:08:47,166
Was that healing
for both of you?
1275
01:08:47,210 --> 01:08:48,709
- Yeah.
- What did you learn from that?
1276
01:08:48,733 --> 01:08:51,388
When we met up
and when I heard he was ill,
1277
01:08:51,431 --> 01:08:53,912
um, I went to go
and see him in Wales,
1278
01:08:53,955 --> 01:08:56,262
and I wanted to play him
"To Be Loved."
1279
01:08:56,306 --> 01:09:00,310
My main goal in life is
to be loved and love,
1280
01:09:00,353 --> 01:09:02,070
you know, and so I wanted
to play it to my dad
1281
01:09:02,094 --> 01:09:03,811
being like, "You're the reason
I haven't done that yet."
1282
01:09:03,835 --> 01:09:05,445
'Cause he definitely was
the reason.
1283
01:09:05,489 --> 01:09:07,554
He was the reason I haven't
fully accessed what it is
1284
01:09:07,578 --> 01:09:10,972
to be, like, in a loving, loving
relationship with somebody.
1285
01:09:11,016 --> 01:09:12,670
- Like, 360, like, you know.
- Mm-hmm.
1286
01:09:12,713 --> 01:09:14,280
And he couldn't.
1287
01:09:14,324 --> 01:09:15,997
He was like, "I've only ever
heard 'Hometown Glory.'"
1288
01:09:16,021 --> 01:09:18,042
So I'm like, what? That's
the first song I ever wrote
1289
01:09:18,066 --> 01:09:19,720
when I was, like, 16.
1290
01:09:19,764 --> 01:09:22,549
And he was like, "It's
too painful," like, you know.
1291
01:09:22,593 --> 01:09:24,832
- He's never heard anything other than "Hometown..."
- He would never listen.
1292
01:09:24,856 --> 01:09:26,355
He would switch it off
and he never ever
1293
01:09:26,379 --> 01:09:28,207
played any of my other music,
he said.
1294
01:09:28,251 --> 01:09:30,470
So I forced him to listen
1295
01:09:30,514 --> 01:09:32,318
and it's like we both cried
and stuff like that,
1296
01:09:32,342 --> 01:09:36,346
and then, um, so that...
Him sort of really
1297
01:09:36,389 --> 01:09:38,652
understanding my child wound
through my song
1298
01:09:38,696 --> 01:09:40,437
was amazing for me.
1299
01:09:40,480 --> 01:09:42,284
And again, I think he
could listen to me sing it
1300
01:09:42,308 --> 01:09:44,789
but not say it. Yeah,
we're very similar like that.
1301
01:09:44,832 --> 01:09:47,444
And then when I played him
the album,
1302
01:09:47,487 --> 01:09:50,577
it was just, by then
he'd listened to all of 19,
1303
01:09:50,621 --> 01:09:52,840
all of 21,all of 25,
and my mum was helping to look
1304
01:09:52,884 --> 01:09:54,886
after him
towards the end as well.
1305
01:09:54,929 --> 01:09:58,890
And his favorites were
all of my favorites,
1306
01:09:58,933 --> 01:10:01,458
you know, which I thought
was amazing and...
1307
01:10:01,501 --> 01:10:04,852
he wished that he'd done
what I had been doing.
1308
01:10:04,896 --> 01:10:07,072
For myself, you know?
Like, the journey.
1309
01:10:07,115 --> 01:10:09,050
- Working on himself. Yeah. The journey.
- Yeah. He wished he'd done it.
1310
01:10:09,074 --> 01:10:12,120
- Yeah.
- Yeah. And he was proud of me for doing it, so it was,
1311
01:10:12,164 --> 01:10:15,036
it was very, very healing.
But when he died,
1312
01:10:15,080 --> 01:10:17,256
it was just, it was,
it literally, it was...
1313
01:10:17,300 --> 01:10:18,953
it was like the wound closed up.
1314
01:10:18,997 --> 01:10:21,217
And I've been so open, you know.
1315
01:10:21,260 --> 01:10:22,740
Didn't your therapist
at one point
1316
01:10:22,783 --> 01:10:25,264
say you need to sit with
a seven-year-old Adele?
1317
01:10:25,308 --> 01:10:27,135
- Yeah.
- And when you did that, sat with
1318
01:10:27,179 --> 01:10:28,267
the seven-year-old Adele...
1319
01:10:28,311 --> 01:10:30,269
- Yeah.
- What did you find?
1320
01:10:30,313 --> 01:10:32,706
Um...
1321
01:10:33,838 --> 01:10:35,970
A very sad little girl.
1322
01:10:36,014 --> 01:10:37,450
Mm.
1323
01:10:37,494 --> 01:10:40,279
No! You're trying
to make me cry.
1324
01:10:40,323 --> 01:10:41,411
No, I'm not. No, I'm not.
1325
01:10:41,454 --> 01:10:42,673
No, yeah, it was. It was.
1326
01:10:42,716 --> 01:10:45,719
She was sad but also, you know,
1327
01:10:45,763 --> 01:10:48,461
she was willing, willing.
1328
01:10:48,505 --> 01:10:51,899
- Willing to get out and run.
- Look at what she did.
1329
01:10:51,943 --> 01:10:53,703
- Look at what she did.
- I said I wouldn't stay in there.
1330
01:10:53,727 --> 01:10:55,052
- Yeah.
- I said that when I was little.
1331
01:10:55,076 --> 01:10:56,730
- Look at what she did.
- I was like,
1332
01:10:56,774 --> 01:10:59,037
"I'm not staying here. This is
not what... this life is...
1333
01:10:59,080 --> 01:11:00,841
"I'm in the wrong place.
I've been sent... I've been,
1334
01:11:00,865 --> 01:11:02,345
you know,
sent to the wrong place."
1335
01:11:02,388 --> 01:11:05,043
I said I wasn't staying there
and I-I left.
1336
01:11:05,086 --> 01:11:07,828
Yeah, that's the thing is
to look back on who you were
1337
01:11:07,872 --> 01:11:11,745
and what you've come through
and all of that is what
1338
01:11:11,789 --> 01:11:13,767
-allowed this to be sitting in this chair right now.
- Yeah!
1339
01:11:13,791 --> 01:11:15,508
And then you learn to appreciate
all the things that you did
1340
01:11:15,532 --> 01:11:17,185
- have to go through.
- Yeah.
1341
01:11:17,229 --> 01:11:18,772
'Cause it's a part of it.
You might not have gotten to
1342
01:11:18,796 --> 01:11:20,972
where you are, you know.
And I'm sure I've got many
1343
01:11:21,015 --> 01:11:22,495
more mountains to climb,
1344
01:11:22,539 --> 01:11:24,323
that will come my way,
and I'm sure I'll have
1345
01:11:24,367 --> 01:11:27,021
another little, like, you know,
like swerve, you know,
1346
01:11:27,065 --> 01:11:28,347
swerve out of the way
for something
1347
01:11:28,371 --> 01:11:29,981
and stuff like that, but...
1348
01:11:30,024 --> 01:11:31,852
I feel like I'll get better
at it every time
1349
01:11:31,896 --> 01:11:34,202
- something comes up.
- Every time.
1350
01:11:39,164 --> 01:11:43,821
♪ There's a fire starting
in my heart ♪
1351
01:11:43,864 --> 01:11:46,345
♪ Reaching a fever pitch ♪
1352
01:11:46,389 --> 01:11:48,782
♪ And it's bringing me
out the dark ♪
1353
01:11:48,826 --> 01:11:53,613
♪ Finally, I can see you
crystal clear ♪
1354
01:11:53,657 --> 01:11:55,920
♪ Go ahead and sell me out ♪
1355
01:11:55,963 --> 01:11:58,052
♪ And I'll lay your... bare ♪
1356
01:11:58,096 --> 01:12:02,492
♪ See how I'll leave
with every piece of you ♪
1357
01:12:02,535 --> 01:12:06,844
♪ Don't underestimate
the things that I will do ♪
1358
01:12:06,887 --> 01:12:11,892
♪ There's a fire starting
in my heart ♪
1359
01:12:11,936 --> 01:12:14,068
♪ Reaching a fever pitch ♪
1360
01:12:14,112 --> 01:12:16,897
♪ And it's bringing me
out the dark ♪
1361
01:12:16,941 --> 01:12:21,685
♪ The scars of your love
remind me of us ♪
1362
01:12:21,728 --> 01:12:24,078
♪ They keep me thinking ♪
1363
01:12:24,122 --> 01:12:26,254
♪ That we almost had it all ♪
1364
01:12:26,298 --> 01:12:28,692
♪ The scars of your love ♪
1365
01:12:28,735 --> 01:12:30,911
♪ They leave me breathless ♪
1366
01:12:30,955 --> 01:12:33,087
♪ I can't help feeling ♪
1367
01:12:33,131 --> 01:12:35,220
♪ We could've had it all ♪
1368
01:12:35,263 --> 01:12:37,570
♪ You're gonna wish you
never had met me ♪
1369
01:12:37,614 --> 01:12:39,920
♪ Rolling in the deep ♪
1370
01:12:39,964 --> 01:12:42,445
♪ Tears are gonna fall,
rolling in the deep ♪
1371
01:12:42,488 --> 01:12:47,363
♪ You had my heart inside
of your hands ♪
1372
01:12:47,406 --> 01:12:52,237
♪ And you played it
to the beat ♪
1373
01:12:52,280 --> 01:12:55,675
♪ Yeah ♪
1374
01:12:57,416 --> 01:13:01,681
♪ Baby, I have no story
to be told ♪
1375
01:13:01,725 --> 01:13:04,205
♪ But I've heard one on you ♪
1376
01:13:04,249 --> 01:13:06,773
♪ Now I'm gonna make
your head burn ♪
1377
01:13:06,817 --> 01:13:11,387
♪ Think of me in the depths
of your despair ♪
1378
01:13:11,430 --> 01:13:15,391
♪ Make a home down there,
as mine sure won't be shared ♪
1379
01:13:15,434 --> 01:13:17,088
You can dance if you want.
1380
01:13:17,131 --> 01:13:19,873
♪ The scars of your love ♪
1381
01:13:19,917 --> 01:13:22,572
♪ Remind me of us,
they keep me ♪
1382
01:13:22,615 --> 01:13:25,618
♪ Thinking that we almost
had it all ♪
1383
01:13:25,662 --> 01:13:27,968
♪ The scars of your love ♪
1384
01:13:28,012 --> 01:13:30,449
♪ They leave me breathless ♪
1385
01:13:30,493 --> 01:13:32,451
♪ I can't help feeling ♪
1386
01:13:32,495 --> 01:13:37,151
♪ We could've had it all ♪
1387
01:13:37,195 --> 01:13:41,591
♪ Rolling in the deep ♪
1388
01:13:41,634 --> 01:13:46,509
♪ You had my heart inside
of your hands ♪
1389
01:13:46,552 --> 01:13:50,991
♪ And you played it
to the beat ♪
1390
01:13:51,035 --> 01:13:55,474
♪ You could've had it all ♪
1391
01:13:55,518 --> 01:13:59,739
♪ Rolling in the deep ♪
1392
01:13:59,783 --> 01:14:04,875
♪ You had my heart inside
of your hands ♪
1393
01:14:04,918 --> 01:14:08,400
♪ But you played it
with a beating ♪
1394
01:14:08,444 --> 01:14:09,619
Here we go!
1395
01:14:09,662 --> 01:14:12,186
♪ Throw your soul ♪
1396
01:14:12,230 --> 01:14:14,275
♪ Through every open door ♪
1397
01:14:14,319 --> 01:14:17,496
♪ Count your blessings ♪
1398
01:14:17,540 --> 01:14:19,672
♪ To find what you look for ♪
1399
01:14:19,716 --> 01:14:24,024
♪ Turn my sorrow
into treasured gold ♪
1400
01:14:24,068 --> 01:14:26,505
♪ You'll pay me back in kind ♪
1401
01:14:26,549 --> 01:14:29,203
♪ And reap just what
you've sown ♪
1402
01:14:29,247 --> 01:14:32,468
♪ You're gonna wish you
never had met me ♪
1403
01:14:32,511 --> 01:14:34,382
♪ Could've had it all ♪
1404
01:14:34,426 --> 01:14:36,863
♪ Tears are gonna fall,
rolling in the deep ♪
1405
01:14:36,907 --> 01:14:39,213
♪ We could've had it all ♪
1406
01:14:39,257 --> 01:14:41,868
♪ You're gonna wish you
never had met me ♪
1407
01:14:41,912 --> 01:14:45,872
♪ It all, it all, it all ♪
1408
01:14:45,916 --> 01:14:48,179
♪ We could've had it all ♪
1409
01:14:48,222 --> 01:14:50,921
♪ You're gonna wish you
never had met me ♪
1410
01:14:50,964 --> 01:14:53,271
- ♪ Rolling in the deep ♪
- ♪ Tears are gonna fall ♪
1411
01:14:53,314 --> 01:14:54,925
♪ Rolling in the deep ♪
1412
01:14:54,968 --> 01:14:59,277
♪ You had my heart inside
of your hands ♪
1413
01:14:59,320 --> 01:15:01,409
♪ But you played it ♪
1414
01:15:01,453 --> 01:15:04,064
♪ To the beat ♪
1415
01:15:04,108 --> 01:15:08,155
♪ You could've had it all ♪
1416
01:15:08,199 --> 01:15:12,377
- ♪ Rolling in the deep ♪
- ♪ Tears are gonna fall ♪
1417
01:15:12,420 --> 01:15:14,727
- ♪ Rolling in the deep ♪
- ♪ You had my heart ♪
1418
01:15:14,771 --> 01:15:18,252
♪ Inside of your hands ♪
1419
01:15:18,296 --> 01:15:19,819
♪ But you played it ♪
1420
01:15:19,863 --> 01:15:22,082
♪ You played it, you played it ♪
1421
01:15:22,126 --> 01:15:25,738
♪ You played me to the beat. ♪
1422
01:15:27,784 --> 01:15:30,264
Oh, thank you. Well done.
Look at that,
1423
01:15:30,308 --> 01:15:32,005
standing up. Thank you.
1424
01:15:33,441 --> 01:15:36,096
That's my only fast one,
you see.
1425
01:15:36,140 --> 01:15:38,359
So I know the urge...
It really kicks in when...
1426
01:15:38,403 --> 01:15:40,100
when a fast song comes on
with me.
1427
01:15:40,144 --> 01:15:42,320
You better dance while you can.
1428
01:15:47,368 --> 01:15:49,980
So how do
you start dating again?
1429
01:15:50,023 --> 01:15:51,740
I mean, you can't go on
a dating app. Do you, like...
1430
01:15:51,764 --> 01:15:54,419
- No. -...take advice from
friends or somebody says,
1431
01:15:54,462 --> 01:15:56,073
"Oh, I know somebody"?
1432
01:15:56,116 --> 01:15:57,901
Like, how did you meet
Rich Paul?
1433
01:15:57,944 --> 01:16:00,686
I met him at a birthday party.
We were on the dance floor.
1434
01:16:00,730 --> 01:16:03,297
And I met him and then a
couple of... couple years later,
1435
01:16:03,341 --> 01:16:05,580
we went out for dinner, which
he says was a business meeting.
1436
01:16:05,604 --> 01:16:07,606
I'm like,
a business meeting about what?
1437
01:16:07,650 --> 01:16:09,608
We wouldn't be having a meeting
about business.
1438
01:16:09,652 --> 01:16:11,610
And then it was just
the first time
1439
01:16:11,654 --> 01:16:13,177
we'd hung out only on our own,
1440
01:16:13,220 --> 01:16:14,633
and not with other friends
and stuff like that.
1441
01:16:14,657 --> 01:16:16,354
So that was a very natural way.
1442
01:16:16,397 --> 01:16:17,723
I think that's how people
would normally meet each other
1443
01:16:17,747 --> 01:16:19,444
- is, like, in real life.
- Mm-hmm.
1444
01:16:19,487 --> 01:16:22,621
Mm-hmm. What was it about him
that drew you to him?
1445
01:16:22,665 --> 01:16:25,015
I mean, we all know
he's the super agent.
1446
01:16:25,058 --> 01:16:26,843
- And he's...
- Yeah, he's just hilarious.
1447
01:16:26,886 --> 01:16:28,888
- He's also hilarious?
- Oh, he's so funny.
1448
01:16:28,932 --> 01:16:30,107
- Okay.
- No, he's hilarious.
1449
01:16:30,150 --> 01:16:32,675
- Yeah, and very smart.
- Okay.
1450
01:16:32,718 --> 01:16:34,590
You know, he's very, very smart.
1451
01:16:34,633 --> 01:16:36,568
It's quite... quite incredible
watching him do what he does.
1452
01:16:36,592 --> 01:16:39,725
And just the easiness of it.
It's just, it's...
1453
01:16:39,769 --> 01:16:42,293
- been very smooth.
- He's making it easy on you.
1454
01:16:42,336 --> 01:16:43,662
He's making it easy on me.
I'm blushing.
1455
01:16:43,686 --> 01:16:45,818
He's right up there.
1456
01:16:45,862 --> 01:16:51,345
Okay, so this relationship
with super agent Rich Paul...
1457
01:16:51,389 --> 01:16:53,672
I can't say his name without
saying "super agent" Rich Paul.
1458
01:16:53,696 --> 01:16:56,612
This relationship is the
first time you've actually...
1459
01:16:56,655 --> 01:16:59,092
Loved myself
and been open to loving
1460
01:16:59,136 --> 01:17:00,790
and being loved
by someone else. Yeah.
1461
01:17:00,833 --> 01:17:02,313
So Rich is getting
a different Adele
1462
01:17:02,356 --> 01:17:04,402
than everybody else has gotten.
1463
01:17:04,445 --> 01:17:08,493
Y-Yeah, but I mean,
by arriving and turning up.
1464
01:17:08,536 --> 01:17:10,756
- Yeah.
- You know, maybe I'm getting a different version
1465
01:17:10,800 --> 01:17:12,691
of him and who knows?
It's just, it's just timing.
1466
01:17:12,715 --> 01:17:16,675
- Mm-hmm.
- It's just timing, but it'll be interesting to see
1467
01:17:16,719 --> 01:17:19,983
what my reaction is like
in general to anything that
1468
01:17:20,026 --> 01:17:22,376
hurts me now that I feel
so secure in myself.
1469
01:17:22,420 --> 01:17:23,876
- Yeah.
- And I'm talking outside of romance as well.
1470
01:17:23,900 --> 01:17:25,442
Like, I'm just talking about
any scenario.
1471
01:17:25,466 --> 01:17:27,033
- Yeah.
- It'll be interesting to see
1472
01:17:27,077 --> 01:17:28,382
how close I let it come to me.
1473
01:17:28,426 --> 01:17:29,775
So...
1474
01:17:30,820 --> 01:17:33,605
Do you think you'll be able to
write from a happy space?
1475
01:17:33,649 --> 01:17:35,694
Well, I hope so.
1476
01:17:35,738 --> 01:17:37,696
- I hope so, you know.
- Mm-hmm.
1477
01:17:37,740 --> 01:17:39,002
But the music will change?
1478
01:17:39,045 --> 01:17:41,134
Like...
1479
01:17:41,178 --> 01:17:43,920
Like, "Love Is," like, you know,
the last song on the album?
1480
01:17:43,963 --> 01:17:46,009
- "Love is a Game."
- Yeah, it's about love.
1481
01:17:46,052 --> 01:17:48,141
Here's some of the lyrics.
1482
01:17:48,185 --> 01:17:50,143
"Love is a game
for fools to play
1483
01:17:50,187 --> 01:17:52,537
"and I ain't fooling.
What a cruel thing
1484
01:17:52,580 --> 01:17:54,757
to self-inflict that pain."
1485
01:17:54,800 --> 01:17:57,368
And I wanted to know,
are you, Adele,
1486
01:17:57,411 --> 01:18:02,590
getting better at this game
of love?
1487
01:18:02,634 --> 01:18:04,897
Yeah, I think so because
I don't, I don't, um,
1488
01:18:04,941 --> 01:18:06,682
I don't treat it
like a game anymore.
1489
01:18:06,725 --> 01:18:08,398
You know, that thing of like,
you're gonna hurt me
1490
01:18:08,422 --> 01:18:09,443
so I'm gonna hurt you first.
I certainly,
1491
01:18:09,467 --> 01:18:11,077
I'm not like that anymore.
1492
01:18:11,121 --> 01:18:13,253
You know, one of the things
I think is so valuable
1493
01:18:13,297 --> 01:18:15,734
in knowing how to move forward
in your life
1494
01:18:15,778 --> 01:18:19,477
is having clarity on what
it is you really want.
1495
01:18:19,520 --> 01:18:20,870
Mm-hmm.
1496
01:18:20,913 --> 01:18:22,480
- And when you...
- And what you like.
1497
01:18:22,523 --> 01:18:24,003
Yes, and what you like,
but mostly
1498
01:18:24,047 --> 01:18:26,832
knowing in the spirit and soul
of yourself
1499
01:18:26,876 --> 01:18:28,181
what is it you really want
1500
01:18:28,225 --> 01:18:29,835
because that's how
you start to...
1501
01:18:29,879 --> 01:18:31,707
- Drawing that to yourself.
- Yeah.
1502
01:18:31,750 --> 01:18:34,057
And do you know what that is,
ultimately?
1503
01:18:34,100 --> 01:18:37,103
What do you really want?
1504
01:18:37,147 --> 01:18:38,975
- Peace of mind.
- Just peace of mind?
1505
01:18:39,018 --> 01:18:40,193
- Just peace of mind.
- Okay.
1506
01:18:40,237 --> 01:18:42,761
Um, and stability, but I can...
1507
01:18:42,805 --> 01:18:45,155
I don't have to expect someone
else to give me stability.
1508
01:18:45,198 --> 01:18:47,679
I can also be stable for myself.
1509
01:18:47,723 --> 01:18:50,116
Be a solid house that doesn't
blow over in a storm.
1510
01:18:50,160 --> 01:18:52,771
Mm-hmm. Well, the best thing you
said here in this interview,
1511
01:18:52,815 --> 01:18:54,555
as far as I'm concerned, is that
1512
01:18:54,599 --> 01:18:58,255
now you're in a relationship
where, for the first time,
1513
01:18:58,298 --> 01:19:00,866
-your love for yourself comes first.
- Yeah.
1514
01:19:00,910 --> 01:19:03,564
And all great things come
after that. I know that.
1515
01:19:03,608 --> 01:19:05,915
A quote I heard as well
while on my journey was:
1516
01:19:05,958 --> 01:19:07,240
"If you're not feeling
everything,
1517
01:19:07,264 --> 01:19:08,284
you're missing everything."
1518
01:19:08,308 --> 01:19:10,615
That sort of gave me permission.
1519
01:19:10,658 --> 01:19:12,182
Mm-hmm.
1520
01:19:12,225 --> 01:19:13,665
To really do that
during the process.
1521
01:19:13,705 --> 01:19:15,489
- Yeah. Yeah.
- You know? And not be upset.
1522
01:19:15,533 --> 01:19:18,188
This has been great. Thanks
for coming to the rose garden.
1523
01:19:18,231 --> 01:19:19,711
I can't believe we just
had a chat.
1524
01:19:19,755 --> 01:19:21,191
- It's wild.
- We had a little chat.
1525
01:19:21,234 --> 01:19:23,106
Thanks for letting me come
to the concert.
1526
01:19:23,149 --> 01:19:24,890
Oh, my gosh, I'm so excited.
1527
01:19:24,934 --> 01:19:26,607
- It's gonna be so great.
- I hope you like it. Yeah.
1528
01:19:26,631 --> 01:19:28,938
And I wish you all the things
your heart desires.
1529
01:19:28,981 --> 01:19:31,070
- Oh, thanks. You, too.
- That's my prayer for you.
1530
01:19:31,114 --> 01:19:33,638
- Thank you.
- All the things your heart desires.
1531
01:19:33,681 --> 01:19:35,553
And still good music
from a happy space.
1532
01:19:35,596 --> 01:19:37,511
- Yeah, for sure.
- Okay?
1533
01:19:37,555 --> 01:19:39,818
- Thank you very much.
- Well done.
1534
01:19:42,516 --> 01:19:44,562
♪
1535
01:19:59,403 --> 01:20:04,843
♪ All your expectations ♪
1536
01:20:04,887 --> 01:20:10,849
♪ Of my love are impossible ♪
1537
01:20:12,895 --> 01:20:16,420
♪ Surely you know ♪
1538
01:20:19,858 --> 01:20:24,341
♪ That I'm not easy to hold ♪
1539
01:20:25,690 --> 01:20:31,609
♪ It's so sad how incapable ♪
1540
01:20:33,524 --> 01:20:40,270
♪ Of learning to grow I am ♪
1541
01:20:40,313 --> 01:20:46,232
♪ My heart speaks
in puzzle and codes ♪
1542
01:20:46,276 --> 01:20:49,279
♪ I've been trying ♪
1543
01:20:49,322 --> 01:20:53,065
♪ My whole life to solve ♪
1544
01:20:54,545 --> 01:20:57,548
♪ God only knows ♪
1545
01:20:57,591 --> 01:21:01,639
♪ How I've cried ♪
1546
01:21:01,682 --> 01:21:06,905
♪ I can't take another defeat ♪
1547
01:21:06,949 --> 01:21:12,824
♪ A next time would be
the ending of me ♪
1548
01:21:15,566 --> 01:21:20,919
♪ Now that I see ♪
1549
01:21:22,138 --> 01:21:26,142
♪ Love is a game ♪
1550
01:21:26,185 --> 01:21:31,495
♪ For fools to play ♪
1551
01:21:31,538 --> 01:21:34,019
♪ And I ain't fooling ♪
1552
01:21:34,063 --> 01:21:36,761
- ♪ Fooling ♪
- ♪ What a cruel thing ♪
1553
01:21:36,804 --> 01:21:42,767
- ♪ Cruel thing ♪
- ♪ To self-inflict that pain ♪
1554
01:21:42,810 --> 01:21:46,336
♪ Love is a game ♪
1555
01:21:46,379 --> 01:21:53,038
♪ For fools to play ♪
1556
01:21:53,082 --> 01:21:54,779
♪ And I ain't fooling ♪
1557
01:21:54,822 --> 01:21:56,694
♪ Fooling ♪
1558
01:21:56,737 --> 01:21:58,652
- ♪ What a cruel thing ♪
- ♪ Cruel thing ♪
1559
01:21:58,696 --> 01:22:02,569
♪ To self-inflict that pain ♪
1560
01:22:04,180 --> 01:22:09,402
- ♪ How unbelievable ♪
- ♪ Unbelievable ♪
1561
01:22:09,446 --> 01:22:12,318
♪ Of me to fall ♪
1562
01:22:12,362 --> 01:22:15,104
♪ For the lies that I tell ♪
1563
01:22:15,147 --> 01:22:20,500
- ♪ Lies I tell ♪
- ♪ The dream that I sell ♪
1564
01:22:20,544 --> 01:22:23,242
♪ Dream I sell ♪
1565
01:22:23,286 --> 01:22:26,811
♪ When heartache ♪
1566
01:22:26,854 --> 01:22:29,205
♪ It's inevitable ♪
1567
01:22:29,248 --> 01:22:34,036
♪ But I'm no good
at doing well ♪
1568
01:22:34,079 --> 01:22:36,038
♪ Not that I care ♪
1569
01:22:36,081 --> 01:22:38,562
♪ I don't care ♪
1570
01:22:38,605 --> 01:22:45,003
♪ Why should anything
about it be fair ♪
1571
01:22:45,047 --> 01:22:49,181
♪ When love is a game ♪
1572
01:22:49,225 --> 01:22:54,404
♪ For fools to play ♪
1573
01:22:54,447 --> 01:22:57,929
- ♪ And I ain't fooling ♪
- ♪ Fooling ♪
1574
01:22:57,973 --> 01:22:59,670
♪ What a cruel thing ♪
1575
01:22:59,713 --> 01:23:01,019
♪ Cruel thing ♪
1576
01:23:01,063 --> 01:23:06,155
♪ To self-inflict that pain ♪
1577
01:23:06,198 --> 01:23:09,897
♪ Love is a game ♪
1578
01:23:09,941 --> 01:23:16,034
♪ For fools to play ♪
1579
01:23:16,078 --> 01:23:19,255
♪ And I ain't fooling ♪
1580
01:23:19,298 --> 01:23:21,300
- ♪ What a cruel thing ♪
- ♪ Cruel thing ♪
1581
01:23:21,344 --> 01:23:25,739
♪ To self-inflict that pain ♪
1582
01:23:25,783 --> 01:23:28,960
♪ No amount of love ♪
1583
01:23:31,006 --> 01:23:33,617
♪ Can keep me satisfied ♪
1584
01:23:33,660 --> 01:23:36,141
♪ Satisfied, satisfied ♪
1585
01:23:36,185 --> 01:23:38,709
♪ I can't keep up ♪
1586
01:23:38,752 --> 01:23:40,493
♪ Can't keep up ♪
1587
01:23:40,537 --> 01:23:44,062
♪ When I keep changing my mind ♪
1588
01:23:44,106 --> 01:23:46,456
♪ Change your mind,
change your mind ♪
1589
01:23:46,499 --> 01:23:51,113
♪ The feelings flood me ♪
1590
01:23:51,156 --> 01:23:57,249
♪ To the heights of
no compromise ♪
1591
01:23:59,817 --> 01:24:03,647
♪ Love is a game ♪
1592
01:24:03,690 --> 01:24:08,608
♪ For fools to play ♪
1593
01:24:08,652 --> 01:24:12,047
♪ And I ain't fooling ♪
1594
01:24:12,090 --> 01:24:15,050
- ♪ Fooling ♪
- ♪ What a cruel thing ♪
1595
01:24:15,093 --> 01:24:20,533
♪ To self-inflict that pain ♪
1596
01:24:20,577 --> 01:24:22,753
♪ Love ♪
1597
01:24:22,796 --> 01:24:24,624
♪ Is a game ♪
1598
01:24:24,668 --> 01:24:30,152
♪ For fools to play ♪
1599
01:24:30,195 --> 01:24:33,242
- ♪ And I ain't fooling ♪
- ♪ Fooling ♪
1600
01:24:33,285 --> 01:24:35,896
- ♪ What a cruel thing ♪
- ♪ Cruel thing ♪
1601
01:24:35,940 --> 01:24:41,119
♪ To self-inflict ♪
1602
01:24:41,163 --> 01:24:46,168
♪ That pain ♪
1603
01:24:51,956 --> 01:24:55,699
♪
1604
01:24:57,048 --> 01:25:00,530
All right. So the biggest
lesson I learned
1605
01:25:00,573 --> 01:25:02,967
in sorting this out is that
you can't control
1606
01:25:03,010 --> 01:25:05,274
bloody anything,
so just go with it.
1607
01:25:05,317 --> 01:25:08,625
Just sit with it. Have a laugh
and enjoy all of it.
1608
01:25:08,668 --> 01:25:11,454
Thank you for coming tonight.
1609
01:25:11,497 --> 01:25:14,979
Give it up for my band.
Give it up
1610
01:25:15,022 --> 01:25:17,460
for the beautiful orchestra.
1611
01:25:17,503 --> 01:25:20,115
Give it up for yourselves.
All the crew.
1612
01:25:21,638 --> 01:25:24,031
Here's to real music.
Here's to live music.
1613
01:25:24,075 --> 01:25:26,338
Here's to real artistry as well,
all right.
1614
01:25:26,382 --> 01:25:30,125
Thank you for coming. Thank you
for sticking with me.
1615
01:25:31,169 --> 01:25:33,302
Especially everyone
that knows me
1616
01:25:33,345 --> 01:25:35,739
because I bet it was hard
to hang on sometimes.
1617
01:25:35,782 --> 01:25:39,612
♪
1618
01:25:43,138 --> 01:25:45,792
♪ I can love ♪
1619
01:25:45,836 --> 01:25:51,015
♪ I can, oh, yeah ♪
1620
01:25:51,058 --> 01:25:53,060
♪ I love me now ♪
1621
01:25:53,104 --> 01:25:56,542
♪ I can love me ♪
1622
01:25:56,586 --> 01:25:59,937
♪ I'm a fool for that ♪
1623
01:25:59,980 --> 01:26:02,113
♪ Yeah, yeah ♪
1624
01:26:02,157 --> 01:26:03,767
♪ I'm gonna do it ♪
1625
01:26:03,810 --> 01:26:06,378
♪ Oh♪
1626
01:26:06,422 --> 01:26:11,818
♪ I'll do it all again ♪
1627
01:26:11,862 --> 01:26:15,082
♪ Like I did then ♪
1628
01:26:15,126 --> 01:26:17,824
♪ 'Cause I'm addicted ♪
1629
01:26:17,868 --> 01:26:20,479
♪ I'm addicted ♪
1630
01:26:20,523 --> 01:26:25,049
♪ You know I'm gonna do it ♪
1631
01:26:25,092 --> 01:26:27,399
♪ Again. ♪
1632
01:26:28,792 --> 01:26:30,446
Thank you.
1633
01:26:39,281 --> 01:26:41,326
♪
1634
01:27:28,721 --> 01:27:31,289
♪ 'Cause I'm addicted ♪
1635
01:27:31,333 --> 01:27:34,031
♪ I'm addicted ♪
1636
01:27:34,074 --> 01:27:38,383
♪ You know I'm gonna do it ♪
1637
01:27:38,427 --> 01:27:42,779
♪ Again. ♪
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