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to survive
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isn't always about prevailing over some
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gigantic force
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it's about evolving evolving past what
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doesn't work
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opening ourselves to new possibilities
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and letting go
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of the person we no longer are
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when i died emma went through a natural
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period of grief
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or as i prefer to call it a transition
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transition from one life to another she
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fell in love again
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continued her journey as a submissive
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and it fulfilled her for a while but it
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didn't last
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she kept wanting to recreate what she
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had with me and when that didn't happen
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she let the relationship go
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she let go of a lot of things most
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significantly being a submissive
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the desire just wasn't there anymore she
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couldn't accept that no two
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relationships or experiences
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are ever the same she was moving on from
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the life she'd known
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and it seemed that her sister nadia was
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as well
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there is nothing better than hate sex
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i bet i could think of a few things i'm
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serious
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ever since rey and i have split up it
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has been orgasm
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central it's like i cannot stop coming
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i've come more times with him being
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broken up than i have in our entire
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marriage that's actually sad it's the
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best sex i've had in my life
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how is that sad because you waited for
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your marriage to end to have it at least
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i'm having it
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oh and i'm intentionally making the
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divorce process harder
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so that it gets them all riled up for
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when we're alone
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that sounds perfectly healthy you should
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have heard what i said last week
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it's my [ __ ] house and i'm staying in
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it you didn't even like the house when
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you moved in
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too many windows too much sunlight
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you've been bitching the last five years
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and you think you deserve to live in it
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i'm sorry i don't want to uproot our
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child
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our child rey or have you forgotten
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about her and all of this
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of course i haven't nadia but you don't
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have a job
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and how are you going to afford to live
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in it i'll get roommates
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we'll split the mortgage and besides i
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get child support and alimony oh really
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how much alimony do you think you're
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gonna get
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50 i get 50
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and you'll most likely spend on all that
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overpriced
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garbage designer [ __ ] bed sheets and
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[ __ ] these cartons i got these [ __ ]
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curtains because i couldn't stand the
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windows
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and i can spend your money however i
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want do you hear yourself
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what's yours is mine remember wow
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what happened to you i don't know
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marriage
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um
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i thought you said you couldn't stab me
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anymore
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um
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um
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um
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oh [ __ ]
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i can smack you around
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me
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oh my god
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oh
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oh
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oh my god
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oh
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oh my gosh
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oh yeah
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yes
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oh my
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oh my god yes
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oh my god
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oh my
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god
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oh [ __ ] you i know you like it when they
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do that
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oh my god
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right there oh my god
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oh my right there i'm gonna make me come
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oh my god
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i want you to [ __ ] me
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oh my gosh
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oh my god the [ __ ] he is right there
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yeah right there yeah
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yes
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oh my god
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oh my god
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oh
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oh my god
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oh my god
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oh my god
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yes
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my god
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oh
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oh
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oh
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my god
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oh
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oh
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oh
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oh my god
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he is [ __ ] [ __ ] me right there baby
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yeah oh
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oh my friend he [ __ ] hit that [ __ ]
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it's so
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good yeah
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oh my god
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right there
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all over
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oh yeah
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oh my god oh [ __ ]
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um
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you'll
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he still see you there's no small feat
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given how difficult you can be
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yeah well i'm not getting back with him
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okay it's better being alone anyways
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besides i've got you now nadia this is
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only temporary
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until you get back on your feet
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oh and i forgot to tell you if you see a
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girl wearing all
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black and acting kind of weird that's
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mariah the other roommate
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the other roommate yeah i can't afford
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this place without two roommates
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don't worry you won't even notice her
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but emma did know she was there
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from the death metal music
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to the laundry she left in the dryer for
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days on end
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and the male visitors laughing in the
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wee hours of the night
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emma never once saw mariah she was just
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this invisible presence keeping her
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company
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while most people would have been
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annoyed by the lack of silence
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emma welcomed it mariah was like a
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companion to her
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even though the two had never met but it
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was only a matter of time before
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fate or the universe or something would
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bring them together
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tell mom i said hey i will but you
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should really just come
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we can have a girls weekend i don't need
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a girls weekend
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and i definitely don't need to see mom
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you don't need anyone emma
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make sure the house doesn't burn while
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i'm gone i will
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oh and isabelle staying with ray for the
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weekend so just make sure to call me if
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anything bad happens
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like the house burns down bye
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have fun
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that afternoon the house was
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uncharacteristically quiet
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no sounds of mariah's music or sex
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echoing through the halls
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it was just emma alone with her thoughts
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hello
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our level of discretion is my decision
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not yours
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i control what you do
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how you act what you say
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what you think for this relationship to
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work
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we need to surrender
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just a little something i'd like you to
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wear tonight
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this place is huge hello
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hello what the [ __ ] are you doing i have
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roommates
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i just wanted to hear my echo
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so what do you like everything like what
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let's start thinking oh you're a naughty
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girl huh
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that's me
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yes
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keep on manning me up
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um
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is
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god
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oh
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oh
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oh
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i want you to guide me with your fingers
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grab my [ __ ] knife
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me
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please
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it's so [ __ ] hot
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oh god
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me
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hmm
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i want you to suck my little throat
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um
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oh
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oh
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my throat
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quack
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hmm
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make me
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oh
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oh
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oh my um look it's gonna feel so [ __ ]
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good
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oh
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please
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oh
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oh
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hmm
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i am
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is
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look at this
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oh my god
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um
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please
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oh my god yes
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me
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ugh
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please
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oh
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oh
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my god
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so where's your shower no no showers
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what do you mean a shower we're not
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dating dude
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no showers i've never hooked up with a
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girl and she didn't at least let me have
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a shower
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well now you have
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spanking choking
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handcuffs that's all fine
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but a shower out of the question pretty
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much nice to meet you
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later
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enjoy the show
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i was just uh i'm sorry
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i'm sorry i i just you know if you're
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gonna try to spy on someone you might
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want to do a better job adam
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sneaking in their room i wasn't spying
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on you i was just it's fine
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it i wasn't snooping you know it's just
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we never met before
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and it's a little awkward you know
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and mariah now we've met
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i'm not sure emma had ever met anyone
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quite like mariah
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they were complete opposites in a lot of
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ways and yet
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emma liked her it was the first time in
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a long time that emma really smiled
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smiled at the absurdity of what had
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happened
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smiled remembering the callousness of
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mariah toward her date
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the unabashed unapologetic way in which
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this young girl
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approached life and then of course she
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smiled knowing there was another girl
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out there
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turned on by kink
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so
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if you're worried i'm a psychopath you
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should be
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sorry i invaded your privacy yesterday
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it's fine
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00:44:07,280 --> 00:44:11,359
oh these this is nothing
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you should see the type of bruises i
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come home with
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rope actually works a lot better
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what nope does the same trick with
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handcuffs and
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it's much safer how do you know that
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this is
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all your stuff
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you you've used all this stuff
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at one point or another over the years
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most of them were kips
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from who jesus
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i thought you were like
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i never thought you were like this
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that's an electric wand i've heard of
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these things
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i've just never people actually use
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these
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of course but it's not about the pain
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it's more about exercise and control and
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anticipation
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that's a butt plug you're going to want
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to warm up to that
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how do you know about this stuff
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00:45:30,960 --> 00:45:34,079
can i borrow any of it i mean
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not the butt plug that would be weird
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but
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i'm into really rough crazy [ __ ] too
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00:45:41,040 --> 00:45:44,400
so we have something in common roomie
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i'm not into rough crazy [ __ ]
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electrocuting people is pretty [ __ ]
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crazy
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no it's psychological
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that's what i used to be into it used to
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be
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it's just not a turn on for me now
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00:46:04,079 --> 00:46:07,280
these things just don't turn off emma
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00:46:07,280 --> 00:46:10,160
well it did for me
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00:46:11,520 --> 00:46:14,079
after that day mariah spent less time
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holed up in her room
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and more time looking for opportunities
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00:46:17,119 --> 00:46:20,240
to connect with emma
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mariah felt a kinship to her even though
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emma did everything to keep her at arm's
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length
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but avoiding conversation with someone
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who lives just down the hall
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00:46:35,680 --> 00:46:37,760
is pretty much impossible what are you
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guys cooking
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00:46:39,280 --> 00:46:41,359
oh actually i was going to make a
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cucumber salad and eventually emma would
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00:46:43,359 --> 00:46:45,200
have to come to terms with the fact that
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mariah
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00:46:45,920 --> 00:46:48,720
in some ways reminded her of her former
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self
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i'm sorry if i crossed the line i don't
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seem like the kind of person that makes
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00:46:52,960 --> 00:46:53,680
it a habit
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of apologizing i'm not
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00:46:57,680 --> 00:47:01,359
but i like you look
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00:47:01,359 --> 00:47:03,520
i know you're probably ashamed of i'm
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not ashamed
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okay that was me a long time ago and i'm
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00:47:09,359 --> 00:47:11,359
not that person anymore
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00:47:11,359 --> 00:47:13,119
then why do you still have all that
371
00:47:13,119 --> 00:47:14,560
stuff
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00:47:14,560 --> 00:47:17,839
it has sentimental value
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whether you're over that part of your
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00:47:20,160 --> 00:47:24,000
life or not i'm just getting into it
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00:47:24,000 --> 00:47:28,240
and i'd like you to teach me
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00:47:28,240 --> 00:47:32,480
teach you what kink bdsm
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00:47:32,480 --> 00:47:34,640
all of it and what do you want me to
378
00:47:34,640 --> 00:47:35,520
teach you
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00:47:35,520 --> 00:47:38,319
how to tie a rope how to use a butt plug
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00:47:38,319 --> 00:47:39,040
no
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the psychological part i want to explore
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00:47:42,400 --> 00:47:45,440
experiment and learn from
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somebody who clearly knows
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00:47:51,760 --> 00:47:53,119
you know submissives aren't usually the
385
00:47:53,119 --> 00:47:55,599
teacher so you're submissive
386
00:47:55,599 --> 00:47:58,640
well i used to be but i'm not anymore
387
00:47:58,640 --> 00:48:02,240
but you were oh this is amazing
388
00:48:02,240 --> 00:48:05,599
teach me i'm in dire need of discipline
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00:48:05,599 --> 00:48:06,720
and
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00:48:06,720 --> 00:48:09,040
i want to learn right it's not just a
391
00:48:09,040 --> 00:48:11,200
two-hour conversation
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00:48:11,200 --> 00:48:14,160
it's about practice and training i'll
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00:48:14,160 --> 00:48:15,280
train
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i'll practice
395
00:48:18,800 --> 00:48:21,280
why do you want this so badly because i
396
00:48:21,280 --> 00:48:22,559
do
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00:48:22,559 --> 00:48:26,880
it's who i am it's what i want
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00:48:26,880 --> 00:48:30,079
and you think you're submissive yes as
399
00:48:30,079 --> 00:48:35,839
surprising as that may be
400
00:48:39,280 --> 00:48:41,920
wow i can't believe a place like this
401
00:48:41,920 --> 00:48:43,680
actually exists
402
00:48:43,680 --> 00:48:47,040
i mean i've seen pictures dude
403
00:48:47,040 --> 00:48:48,890
this is legit
404
00:48:52,480 --> 00:48:54,820
do you stick your head in there
405
00:48:57,680 --> 00:48:59,520
are you here for the shock value or do
406
00:48:59,520 --> 00:49:02,160
you have any actual interest
407
00:49:02,160 --> 00:49:04,960
interest but i mean come on let's be
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00:49:04,960 --> 00:49:07,520
honest this stuff is shocking
409
00:49:07,520 --> 00:49:09,520
for as long as i can remember i've
410
00:49:09,520 --> 00:49:11,839
always wanted something like this
411
00:49:11,839 --> 00:49:16,319
what a dungeon no an experience
412
00:49:16,319 --> 00:49:19,839
something that excites me and scares me
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00:49:19,839 --> 00:49:24,240
all in the same breath what excites you
414
00:49:24,240 --> 00:49:25,760
not knowing what's coming next
415
00:49:27,599 --> 00:49:30,400
then what part scares you not knowing
416
00:49:30,400 --> 00:49:32,960
what's coming next
417
00:49:32,960 --> 00:49:35,839
every guy that i've ever dated just
418
00:49:35,839 --> 00:49:37,680
doesn't get it
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00:49:37,680 --> 00:49:39,440
as soon as they find out i'm into kink
420
00:49:39,440 --> 00:49:41,359
they just go straight to my ass and
421
00:49:41,359 --> 00:49:43,599
start spanking it they just don't
422
00:49:43,599 --> 00:49:44,640
realize
423
00:49:44,640 --> 00:49:46,720
the turn on is the moment before this
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00:49:46,720 --> 00:49:48,160
thing
425
00:49:48,160 --> 00:49:51,760
yes not every guy is going to know how
426
00:49:51,760 --> 00:49:55,200
to properly dominate a woman
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00:49:56,839 --> 00:49:59,839
nope
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00:50:02,240 --> 00:50:06,480
we'll find you a good one find me what
429
00:50:06,480 --> 00:50:11,040
dominant a dominant but until then
430
00:50:11,040 --> 00:50:14,160
i'll fill in my
431
00:50:14,160 --> 00:50:18,720
temporary dominant temporary
432
00:50:18,720 --> 00:50:22,240
mistress emma oh boy that's what i'm
433
00:50:22,240 --> 00:50:23,440
going to call you
434
00:50:23,440 --> 00:50:25,359
that's the rule while we're working
435
00:50:25,359 --> 00:50:26,800
together
436
00:50:26,800 --> 00:50:29,920
mr sema that will be the first
437
00:50:29,920 --> 00:50:41,839
and only rule you ever make
438
00:50:42,880 --> 00:50:45,280
submitting isn't just about obeying it's
439
00:50:45,280 --> 00:50:46,960
about surrendering
440
00:50:46,960 --> 00:50:50,100
letting go of every need you have to
441
00:50:52,839 --> 00:50:54,400
control
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00:50:59,200 --> 00:51:01,680
limitations will change as you change
443
00:51:01,680 --> 00:51:03,119
what scares you today
444
00:51:03,119 --> 00:51:09,839
might not tomorrow
445
00:51:12,960 --> 00:51:16,510
let me down are you using your safe word
446
00:51:21,200 --> 00:51:24,880
good girl safe words know when to use
447
00:51:24,880 --> 00:51:26,559
yours
448
00:51:26,559 --> 00:51:28,640
resist the compulsion you might feel to
449
00:51:28,640 --> 00:51:29,680
rush and use it
450
00:51:29,680 --> 00:51:32,880
pineapple pineapple
451
00:51:32,880 --> 00:51:34,720
know the difference between what is a
452
00:51:34,720 --> 00:51:36,640
hard no and what is simply
453
00:51:36,640 --> 00:51:41,119
uncomfortable the goal is to stay open
454
00:51:41,119 --> 00:51:44,800
and take each day each moment each fear
455
00:51:44,800 --> 00:51:50,810
each desire as it comes
456
00:51:56,160 --> 00:51:58,960
and refrain from judgment no matter how
457
00:51:58,960 --> 00:52:01,200
much you disagree with the task
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00:52:01,200 --> 00:52:04,400
cute dress
459
00:52:04,400 --> 00:52:08,240
arms up practice
460
00:52:08,240 --> 00:52:10,559
as often as you can spread your legs
461
00:52:10,559 --> 00:52:12,240
allow your practice to become part of
462
00:52:12,240 --> 00:52:12,800
you
463
00:52:12,800 --> 00:52:16,720
an extension of yourself straighten your
464
00:52:16,839 --> 00:52:19,040
back chin up
465
00:52:19,040 --> 00:52:20,480
okay slave driver
466
00:52:30,960 --> 00:52:33,680
practice all of it the physical the
467
00:52:33,680 --> 00:52:34,640
mental
468
00:52:34,640 --> 00:52:36,640
do it anywhere and everywhere that you
469
00:52:36,640 --> 00:52:39,920
can impressive
470
00:52:39,920 --> 00:52:40,950
now try six
471
00:52:47,040 --> 00:52:49,680
get to know your body well what part of
472
00:52:49,680 --> 00:52:51,200
your body responds the most
473
00:52:51,200 --> 00:52:53,680
intensive to touch bring yourself to the
474
00:52:53,680 --> 00:52:55,119
verge of an orgasm
475
00:52:55,119 --> 00:52:58,720
and then deny yourself the pleasure of
476
00:52:58,839 --> 00:53:00,300
finishing
477
00:53:10,400 --> 00:53:12,319
remember that trust is the most
478
00:53:12,319 --> 00:53:14,480
important aspect of any bdsm
479
00:53:14,480 --> 00:53:16,640
relationship
480
00:53:16,640 --> 00:53:19,359
trust must be there or all else is
481
00:53:19,359 --> 00:53:21,920
irrelevant
482
00:53:24,640 --> 00:53:27,920
seek perfection at your craft never stop
483
00:53:27,920 --> 00:53:29,599
learning
484
00:53:29,599 --> 00:53:33,599
never stop growing seven
485
00:53:33,599 --> 00:53:35,839
understand that if punishment feels like
486
00:53:35,839 --> 00:53:38,240
a reward
487
00:53:38,240 --> 00:53:41,280
it's not punishment one you'll know when
488
00:53:41,280 --> 00:53:41,850
it's punishment
489
00:53:44,240 --> 00:53:46,480
you will be asked to do things solely to
490
00:53:46,480 --> 00:53:47,680
please your dominance
491
00:53:47,680 --> 00:53:49,839
those tasks are a way of showing your
492
00:53:49,839 --> 00:53:50,800
gratitude
493
00:53:50,800 --> 00:53:52,319
you do realize that we have a washing
494
00:53:52,319 --> 00:53:56,000
machine right i know
495
00:53:56,000 --> 00:53:57,839
so what is that like your only pair of
496
00:53:57,839 --> 00:53:58,990
non-black panties
497
00:54:08,000 --> 00:54:11,520
but most importantly don't smush
498
00:54:11,520 --> 00:54:14,400
find joy in what you're doing when it
499
00:54:14,400 --> 00:54:16,160
stops being enjoyable
500
00:54:16,160 --> 00:54:18,720
then it's probably not for you anymore
501
00:54:18,720 --> 00:54:24,800
you may relax
502
00:54:24,800 --> 00:54:29,200
so why'd you stop the bdsm thing
503
00:54:29,200 --> 00:54:32,319
well it wasn't really enjoyable anymore
504
00:54:32,319 --> 00:54:34,160
i could never recreate the magic of my
505
00:54:34,160 --> 00:54:36,079
first relationship
506
00:54:36,079 --> 00:54:38,319
believe me i tried whatever happened
507
00:54:38,319 --> 00:54:41,440
with that relationship
508
00:54:42,240 --> 00:54:45,520
well i called him mr frederick
509
00:54:45,520 --> 00:54:48,880
it's funny because he
510
00:54:48,880 --> 00:54:51,040
always knew i was submissive deep down
511
00:54:51,040 --> 00:54:53,520
even before i met him
512
00:54:53,520 --> 00:54:56,160
probably actually be pretty disappointed
513
00:54:56,160 --> 00:54:57,920
now to know that i'm not
514
00:54:57,920 --> 00:55:01,599
he likes being right maybe he was
515
00:55:01,599 --> 00:55:04,880
well at the time that he said he was but
516
00:55:04,880 --> 00:55:08,400
i have changed a lot since then
517
00:55:12,559 --> 00:55:21,119
back to work
518
00:55:21,119 --> 00:55:24,559
so ray wants to move back in really
519
00:55:24,559 --> 00:55:27,599
yeah i think it might be a good idea i
520
00:55:27,599 --> 00:55:29,760
thought you were going to take him back
521
00:55:29,760 --> 00:55:33,040
those are just words anyways i don't
522
00:55:33,040 --> 00:55:35,200
want to start dating again
523
00:55:35,200 --> 00:55:36,319
so you're just going to stay with him
524
00:55:36,319 --> 00:55:39,359
because you don't want to date yeah
525
00:55:39,359 --> 00:55:42,799
but hey don't worry you and i can stay
526
00:55:42,799 --> 00:55:46,480
i mean i really want you to stay nadia
527
00:55:46,480 --> 00:55:48,559
i don't think it's a good idea for us to
528
00:55:48,559 --> 00:55:50,559
stay when you and ray are trying to save
529
00:55:50,559 --> 00:55:51,839
your marriage
530
00:55:51,839 --> 00:55:55,839
why not it's the perfect distraction
531
00:55:55,839 --> 00:55:57,680
as much as nadia pleaded with emma to
532
00:55:57,680 --> 00:56:00,079
stay she and mariah would be moving out
533
00:56:00,079 --> 00:56:01,760
by the end of the month going on
534
00:56:01,760 --> 00:56:03,599
you guys staying here won't make that
535
00:56:03,599 --> 00:56:06,319
much of a difference
536
00:56:09,119 --> 00:56:11,680
it was something that mariah feared she
537
00:56:11,680 --> 00:56:13,440
had grown so attached to emma in the
538
00:56:13,440 --> 00:56:14,640
last few months
539
00:56:14,640 --> 00:56:16,319
that the thought of her being out of
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00:56:16,319 --> 00:56:19,440
reach terrified her
541
00:56:19,440 --> 00:56:24,799
permission to speak permission granted
542
00:56:25,680 --> 00:56:30,720
i'm worried about what
543
00:56:30,720 --> 00:56:36,240
this whole arrangement what do you mean
544
00:56:36,240 --> 00:56:39,119
when we move out
545
00:56:39,520 --> 00:56:44,000
i'll never get to see you again
546
00:56:44,000 --> 00:56:46,640
you seem to forget that for weeks while
547
00:56:46,640 --> 00:56:48,559
we're living at nadia
548
00:56:48,559 --> 00:56:51,599
we never even saw each other that's
549
00:56:51,599 --> 00:56:53,119
different
550
00:56:53,119 --> 00:56:56,240
i like what we're doing now
551
00:56:56,240 --> 00:56:58,960
i want to be around you i don't want to
552
00:56:58,960 --> 00:57:00,160
be around anyone
553
00:57:00,160 --> 00:57:05,200
but i want to be around you
554
00:57:05,359 --> 00:57:08,720
we'll still see each other then we can
555
00:57:08,720 --> 00:57:12,400
still practice
556
00:57:12,400 --> 00:57:14,880
i do think that this is the right time
557
00:57:14,880 --> 00:57:16,000
to take things a step
558
00:57:16,000 --> 00:57:18,400
further
559
00:57:19,040 --> 00:57:21,760
what do you mean
560
00:57:22,880 --> 00:57:25,520
today is the day you meet your first
561
00:57:25,520 --> 00:57:26,240
real
562
00:57:26,240 --> 00:57:31,119
dumb aren't you my real dumb
563
00:57:31,119 --> 00:57:34,220
no i'm just to stop in dom's clothing
564
00:57:36,640 --> 00:57:39,440
for this particular task i want you to
565
00:57:39,440 --> 00:57:40,480
remember
566
00:57:40,480 --> 00:57:43,599
a few things okay
567
00:57:43,599 --> 00:57:47,200
first your safe word
568
00:57:47,200 --> 00:57:50,720
pineapple second
569
00:57:50,720 --> 00:57:55,680
to trust me and third
570
00:57:55,680 --> 00:57:59,520
remember your senses my senses
571
00:57:59,520 --> 00:58:02,480
yes your senses will guide you to the
572
00:58:02,480 --> 00:58:03,599
right man
573
00:58:03,599 --> 00:58:06,960
the right man so there's
574
00:58:06,960 --> 00:58:10,480
more than one you can't exactly audition
575
00:58:10,480 --> 00:58:13,200
the perfect dom without a few options
576
00:58:13,200 --> 00:58:17,040
can you no [ __ ] no and if you don't find
577
00:58:17,040 --> 00:58:18,400
him today
578
00:58:18,400 --> 00:58:22,559
that's okay you will
579
00:58:22,559 --> 00:58:23,680
eventually
580
00:58:28,720 --> 00:58:32,559
gentlemen you may answer
581
00:58:32,720 --> 00:58:34,960
how will i know which one to pick if i
582
00:58:34,960 --> 00:58:36,000
can't see
583
00:58:36,000 --> 00:58:41,359
i can't touch i can't see with your mind
584
00:58:41,359 --> 00:58:45,359
touch with your mouth smell
585
00:58:45,359 --> 00:58:48,720
taste and when you find someone
586
00:58:48,720 --> 00:58:51,920
that opens up something inside you tell
587
00:58:51,920 --> 00:58:54,000
me
588
00:58:54,000 --> 00:58:58,000
yeah but how will i know
589
00:58:58,640 --> 00:59:01,520
stop trying to control everything mariah
590
00:59:01,520 --> 00:59:01,839
be
591
00:59:01,839 --> 00:59:05,920
submissive not a control freak
592
00:59:05,920 --> 00:59:09,200
this is your first real sexual encounter
593
00:59:09,200 --> 00:59:13,839
in a truly submissive role be present
594
00:59:13,839 --> 00:59:19,839
and enjoy
595
00:59:58,839 --> 01:00:01,490
um
596
01:00:12,839 --> 01:00:15,839
um
597
01:00:54,839 --> 01:00:56,230
ugh
598
01:01:00,799 --> 01:01:10,360
oh my god
599
01:01:44,319 --> 01:01:53,839
him i want him
600
01:01:54,400 --> 01:01:59,440
you chose wisely i approve
601
01:02:05,039 --> 01:02:09,280
hi hi
602
01:02:09,440 --> 01:02:12,720
this is nicholas you are to obey him for
603
01:02:12,720 --> 01:02:14,880
the next half hour
604
01:02:14,880 --> 01:02:18,880
yes mistress you're going to experience
605
01:02:18,880 --> 01:02:20,079
something that
606
01:02:20,079 --> 01:02:23,599
you and i have never done before
607
01:02:23,599 --> 01:02:35,839
are you ready yes mistress
608
01:02:41,520 --> 01:02:44,720
what are you gonna do now
609
01:02:44,960 --> 01:02:49,039
you'll see
610
01:02:49,039 --> 01:02:52,160
i'll bring you some toys
611
01:02:52,160 --> 01:03:03,119
that will play with your body
612
01:03:03,119 --> 01:03:06,000
you're gonna like them i wanna feel
613
01:03:06,000 --> 01:03:08,640
everything
614
01:03:13,280 --> 01:03:15,520
you wanna feel everything what did you
615
01:03:15,520 --> 01:03:16,559
forget to say
616
01:03:16,559 --> 01:03:18,670
sir exactly
617
01:03:21,440 --> 01:03:23,280
if you don't call me sir are you
618
01:03:23,280 --> 01:03:24,660
misbehaving
619
01:03:26,559 --> 01:03:31,839
you will be punished
620
01:03:56,839 --> 01:03:59,839
hmm
621
01:04:24,839 --> 01:04:27,839
um
622
01:04:30,799 --> 01:04:34,559
not that quickly my dear
623
01:04:36,480 --> 01:04:40,079
before i go there i have something
624
01:04:40,079 --> 01:04:54,680
prepared for you
625
01:05:08,440 --> 01:05:23,180
oh yes
626
01:05:34,839 --> 01:05:37,220
huh
627
01:06:25,680 --> 01:06:33,839
all right
628
01:06:44,839 --> 01:06:47,530
is
629
01:06:58,839 --> 01:07:00,550
um
630
01:07:26,839 --> 01:07:28,000
uh
631
01:07:28,000 --> 01:07:30,400
yet
632
01:07:34,960 --> 01:07:42,559
oh it's so wet
633
01:07:42,559 --> 01:07:57,839
you're making me so excited
634
01:08:20,400 --> 01:08:25,839
something more
635
01:08:26,799 --> 01:08:39,839
i have something for you
636
01:08:41,359 --> 01:08:44,239
not that easy
637
01:08:45,520 --> 01:08:49,120
what do you say please give me your [ __ ]
638
01:08:49,120 --> 01:08:52,560
i want it in my mouth so fast so much
639
01:08:52,560 --> 01:08:54,880
better
640
01:08:54,880 --> 01:09:00,060
so much better look at it
641
01:09:04,159 --> 01:09:07,839
open wide
642
01:09:16,719 --> 01:09:21,839
just like that
643
01:09:31,040 --> 01:09:34,590
please please up
644
01:09:46,839 --> 01:09:47,939
holy
645
01:10:01,199 --> 01:10:03,600
i want you to [ __ ] me bro i want you to
646
01:10:03,600 --> 01:10:06,239
use my mouth
647
01:10:09,840 --> 01:10:17,840
not that easy
648
01:10:28,840 --> 01:10:31,840
ah
649
01:10:42,840 --> 01:10:45,840
what
650
01:10:53,360 --> 01:10:56,320
you've had enough of it for now you have
651
01:10:56,320 --> 01:11:13,840
to be patiently waiting for more
652
01:11:17,199 --> 01:11:21,120
i have more toys for you but before i go
653
01:11:21,120 --> 01:11:23,520
for it
654
01:11:25,520 --> 01:11:28,430
i need your hands
655
01:11:33,760 --> 01:11:41,470
let's take this off
656
01:11:52,840 --> 01:11:55,040
ah
657
01:12:06,840 --> 01:12:09,840
uh
658
01:12:20,840 --> 01:12:23,840
huh
659
01:12:28,960 --> 01:12:31,480
i have a request don't you
660
01:12:34,960 --> 01:12:37,360
a request please i want to feel your
661
01:12:37,360 --> 01:12:39,100
[ __ ] inside me
662
01:12:40,640 --> 01:12:49,950
i've been waiting so long to do it
663
01:12:52,400 --> 01:13:05,840
please put it inside me please
664
01:13:08,159 --> 01:13:19,520
i want you to use my little
665
01:13:19,520 --> 01:13:21,440
i don't think you wanted that much
666
01:13:21,440 --> 01:13:23,920
please please give it to me sir i want
667
01:13:23,920 --> 01:13:24,960
it too bad
668
01:13:24,960 --> 01:13:33,840
my little [ __ ] is crazy
669
01:13:39,600 --> 01:13:41,920
i was feeling every part of you inside
670
01:13:41,920 --> 01:13:43,360
my [ __ ] sir
671
01:13:43,360 --> 01:13:47,840
oh you made me feel so good
672
01:13:58,840 --> 01:14:01,840
please
673
01:14:12,719 --> 01:14:15,040
please
674
01:14:40,840 --> 01:14:43,840
hmm
675
01:14:44,480 --> 01:14:46,880
yes nice and slow show me what you can
676
01:14:46,880 --> 01:14:57,840
do with your feet
677
01:15:08,840 --> 01:15:11,679
oh
678
01:15:11,679 --> 01:15:24,010
you forgot something what did you forget
679
01:15:50,159 --> 01:16:07,840
please sir please please i want it
680
01:16:18,840 --> 01:16:21,840
please
681
01:16:23,920 --> 01:16:35,840
thank you sir thank you
682
01:16:46,840 --> 01:16:48,890
nice
683
01:17:00,840 --> 01:17:03,840
please
684
01:17:04,400 --> 01:17:17,840
please give me your call
685
01:17:43,040 --> 01:17:47,440
don't oh things that i told you to write
686
01:17:56,840 --> 01:17:58,560
here
687
01:18:06,159 --> 01:18:12,610
keep stirring
688
01:18:21,760 --> 01:18:26,800
the person needs more punishment yes
689
01:18:36,960 --> 01:18:40,320
i went to see
690
01:18:40,320 --> 01:18:55,840
oh please
691
01:19:05,920 --> 01:19:09,840
thank you thank you
692
01:19:34,840 --> 01:19:37,840
hmm
693
01:19:48,840 --> 01:19:51,840
ah
694
01:20:02,840 --> 01:20:05,840
please
695
01:20:16,840 --> 01:20:19,840
um
696
01:20:41,199 --> 01:20:47,840
no you can
697
01:20:57,040 --> 01:21:00,470
[ __ ] me
698
01:21:23,280 --> 01:21:29,840
thank you
699
01:21:36,239 --> 01:21:43,840
i love you girl
700
01:22:05,120 --> 01:22:07,600
stand up
701
01:22:08,320 --> 01:22:11,840
spread your legs
702
01:22:36,840 --> 01:22:38,480
right
703
01:22:38,480 --> 01:22:53,840
my god
704
01:23:32,840 --> 01:23:35,840
oh
705
01:23:37,360 --> 01:23:49,840
thank you thank you
706
01:24:00,960 --> 01:24:17,840
give you permission to come up
707
01:24:37,840 --> 01:24:40,080
oh
708
01:24:43,360 --> 01:24:59,840
thank you thank you
709
01:25:10,840 --> 01:25:13,410
oh
710
01:25:25,040 --> 01:25:41,840
and i'm gonna stop feeling
711
01:25:52,840 --> 01:25:55,840
yes
712
01:26:02,239 --> 01:26:05,360
i think it's my turn now
713
01:26:06,159 --> 01:26:10,639
i want you to give you what you deserve
714
01:26:10,800 --> 01:26:13,760
i want you to [ __ ] that up i don't want
715
01:26:13,760 --> 01:26:16,639
you to use me until you come
716
01:26:16,639 --> 01:26:20,840
i forgot to work please come here to
717
01:26:20,840 --> 01:26:23,840
come
718
01:26:32,719 --> 01:26:37,840
thank you i think
719
01:26:43,440 --> 01:26:51,840
thank you
720
01:26:59,600 --> 01:27:05,840
thank you
721
01:27:09,920 --> 01:27:19,840
thank you
722
01:27:23,440 --> 01:27:26,560
it's so sweet
723
01:27:26,719 --> 01:27:31,840
thank you sir for my first experience
724
01:27:31,840 --> 01:27:33,310
you're very welcome
725
01:27:42,960 --> 01:27:45,920
how will i ever go back to normal sex
726
01:27:45,920 --> 01:27:47,760
after that
727
01:27:47,760 --> 01:27:50,560
this is normal you can just exist in
728
01:27:50,560 --> 01:27:52,400
this space
729
01:27:52,400 --> 01:27:56,080
i guess he will take care of you from
730
01:27:56,080 --> 01:27:58,320
now on
731
01:27:58,320 --> 01:28:00,719
what about you ryan this is never a
732
01:28:00,719 --> 01:28:02,320
permanent arrangement
733
01:28:02,320 --> 01:28:04,880
i'm not a dom and i don't do this stuff
734
01:28:04,880 --> 01:28:05,679
anymore
735
01:28:05,679 --> 01:28:08,480
you've been doing this stuff yeah that
736
01:28:08,480 --> 01:28:09,600
was for you
737
01:28:09,600 --> 01:28:12,639
not for me for me
738
01:28:12,639 --> 01:28:15,840
oh okay so you haven't gotten anything
739
01:28:15,840 --> 01:28:17,520
out of this
740
01:28:17,520 --> 01:28:20,719
i honestly don't believe you why would
741
01:28:20,719 --> 01:28:22,800
you get yourself into this situation if
742
01:28:22,800 --> 01:28:23,520
you were
743
01:28:23,520 --> 01:28:27,040
so over it because they felt complicated
744
01:28:27,040 --> 01:28:30,480
obligated yes i'm sorry if that hurts
745
01:28:30,480 --> 01:28:33,040
your feelings
746
01:28:33,040 --> 01:28:36,880
look i understand because i was you
747
01:28:36,880 --> 01:28:39,840
years ago and i was so lucky to have
748
01:28:39,840 --> 01:28:40,800
found someone
749
01:28:40,800 --> 01:28:43,440
who understood me and helped me explore
750
01:28:43,440 --> 01:28:44,639
my sexuality
751
01:28:44,639 --> 01:28:46,480
i want that for you too so now you're
752
01:28:46,480 --> 01:28:48,719
just gonna pawn me off to someone else
753
01:28:48,719 --> 01:28:51,199
is that how this works is that what your
754
01:28:51,199 --> 01:28:53,120
dom did to you
755
01:28:53,120 --> 01:28:57,360
this is [ __ ] [ __ ]
756
01:28:57,360 --> 01:29:11,840
no i no don't
757
01:29:17,120 --> 01:29:20,400
mariah left without a word
758
01:29:20,400 --> 01:29:25,140
no note no forwarding address
759
01:29:29,040 --> 01:29:30,960
just one final rent check left on the
760
01:29:30,960 --> 01:29:38,800
kitchen counter
761
01:29:38,800 --> 01:29:41,280
emma tried to locate her see if she was
762
01:29:41,280 --> 01:29:43,120
okay
763
01:29:43,120 --> 01:29:44,800
but the calls and the emails went
764
01:29:44,800 --> 01:29:47,440
unreturned
765
01:29:48,719 --> 01:29:51,199
things had changed that chapter had
766
01:29:51,199 --> 01:29:54,800
ended it was bittersweet for emma
767
01:29:54,800 --> 01:29:56,400
she had found someone she truly
768
01:29:56,400 --> 01:29:59,440
connected with someone who needed her
769
01:29:59,440 --> 01:30:01,280
but she wasn't quite sure what to do
770
01:30:01,280 --> 01:30:03,360
with that you don't have to leave
771
01:30:03,360 --> 01:30:06,880
emma yes i do
772
01:30:06,880 --> 01:30:09,040
you have your own life to live nadia
773
01:30:09,040 --> 01:30:11,679
what about you
774
01:30:11,760 --> 01:30:15,440
i'll be fine i've always been fine
775
01:30:15,440 --> 01:30:19,199
hey cars loaded
776
01:30:19,679 --> 01:30:22,719
i want you to be happy i am
777
01:30:22,719 --> 01:30:24,240
as happy as it can be
778
01:30:27,120 --> 01:30:28,800
don't start worrying i'm only a 10
779
01:30:28,800 --> 01:30:30,159
minute drive away
780
01:30:30,159 --> 01:30:33,120
it feels farther you take care of you
781
01:30:33,120 --> 01:30:34,080
nadia
782
01:30:34,080 --> 01:30:37,820
and who's going to take care of you me
783
01:30:41,280 --> 01:30:43,199
thanks for doing all the heavy lifting
784
01:30:43,199 --> 01:30:49,840
all right that's what a man does
785
01:31:03,120 --> 01:31:05,120
no matter how much we want to stop life
786
01:31:05,120 --> 01:31:06,239
from moving on
787
01:31:06,239 --> 01:31:10,080
we can't things change people come
788
01:31:10,080 --> 01:31:13,600
they go and we evolve
789
01:31:13,600 --> 01:31:15,360
it was three months before emma finally
790
01:31:15,360 --> 01:31:17,679
heard from mariah
791
01:31:17,679 --> 01:31:20,880
dear emma i thought about never speaking
792
01:31:20,880 --> 01:31:22,400
to you again
793
01:31:22,400 --> 01:31:24,320
that's what i would have done if it was
794
01:31:24,320 --> 01:31:25,840
the old me
795
01:31:25,840 --> 01:31:27,440
i would have just run off and found
796
01:31:27,440 --> 01:31:30,239
another guy on craigslist to spank me
797
01:31:30,239 --> 01:31:33,760
which i did by the way
798
01:31:33,760 --> 01:31:36,400
but afterwards all i could think about
799
01:31:36,400 --> 01:31:37,600
was you
800
01:31:37,600 --> 01:31:39,520
how disappointed you would be in my lack
801
01:31:39,520 --> 01:31:40,960
of restraint
802
01:31:40,960 --> 01:31:42,960
and so i thought i would write to
803
01:31:42,960 --> 01:31:44,320
apologize and
804
01:31:44,320 --> 01:31:47,360
also share a few things i got your
805
01:31:47,360 --> 01:31:49,920
address from nadia
806
01:31:49,920 --> 01:31:52,159
i swung by your place hoping you hadn't
807
01:31:52,159 --> 01:31:53,679
moved out yet
808
01:31:53,679 --> 01:31:56,719
but you were gone
809
01:31:56,719 --> 01:31:59,280
she told me about mr frederick and how
810
01:31:59,280 --> 01:32:00,880
you've never been the same since he
811
01:32:00,880 --> 01:32:02,570
passed away a few years ago
812
01:32:03,920 --> 01:32:06,000
he was the dominant you told me about
813
01:32:06,000 --> 01:32:07,040
right
814
01:32:07,040 --> 01:32:10,080
the one that taught you about bdsm the
815
01:32:10,080 --> 01:32:12,400
man who loved you and
816
01:32:12,400 --> 01:32:15,600
changed you i think it's important for
817
01:32:15,600 --> 01:32:17,120
you to know that
818
01:32:17,120 --> 01:32:20,239
you have been that person for me you've
819
01:32:20,239 --> 01:32:21,920
changed me
820
01:32:21,920 --> 01:32:24,840
i guess in some ways you're my mr
821
01:32:24,840 --> 01:32:27,840
frederick
822
01:32:30,560 --> 01:32:33,760
so thank you i know that you said you've
823
01:32:33,760 --> 01:32:35,600
given up bdsm
824
01:32:35,600 --> 01:32:37,440
but i'd like you to reconsider and
825
01:32:37,440 --> 01:32:39,679
continue your journey with me
826
01:32:39,679 --> 01:32:41,840
i saw the joy in your face when you were
827
01:32:41,840 --> 01:32:43,040
teaching me
828
01:32:43,040 --> 01:32:45,120
and i don't think you're ready to just
829
01:32:45,120 --> 01:32:46,800
let it all go
830
01:32:46,800 --> 01:32:55,840
please don't let it go
831
01:33:01,360 --> 01:33:03,360
in order to move forward you have to
832
01:33:03,360 --> 01:33:06,080
make decisions that move you forward
833
01:33:06,080 --> 01:33:09,920
and this was emma's she knew that if she
834
01:33:09,920 --> 01:33:11,600
was going to put her work as a
835
01:33:11,600 --> 01:33:13,360
submissive behind her
836
01:33:13,360 --> 01:33:15,920
she had to give herself one final first
837
01:33:15,920 --> 01:33:17,679
time experience
838
01:33:17,679 --> 01:33:19,679
something that she could always have as
839
01:33:19,679 --> 01:33:23,840
her last memory of that life
840
01:33:48,840 --> 01:33:51,840
so
841
01:34:02,840 --> 01:34:05,840
foreign
842
01:34:16,840 --> 01:34:19,840
uh
843
01:34:30,840 --> 01:34:32,930
hmm
844
01:34:44,840 --> 01:34:47,840
um
845
01:34:58,840 --> 01:35:01,080
um
846
01:35:26,840 --> 01:35:29,840
hmm
847
01:35:54,840 --> 01:35:57,840
um
848
01:37:04,840 --> 01:37:07,840
hmm
849
01:37:18,840 --> 01:37:21,780
um
850
01:37:32,840 --> 01:37:34,390
me
851
01:38:00,840 --> 01:38:02,260
um
852
01:38:14,840 --> 01:38:17,840
hmm
853
01:38:28,840 --> 01:38:30,730
hmm
854
01:38:42,840 --> 01:38:44,530
hmm
855
01:39:03,679 --> 01:39:13,840
any holy desire
856
01:39:38,840 --> 01:39:40,180
ah
857
01:40:06,639 --> 01:40:09,840
let it go
858
01:40:27,040 --> 01:40:37,840
thank you
859
01:40:48,840 --> 01:40:51,840
hmm
860
01:41:13,360 --> 01:41:19,480
thank you
861
01:41:30,840 --> 01:41:47,840
hmm thank you
862
01:41:58,639 --> 01:42:15,840
you want him to [ __ ] your eyes
863
01:42:40,840 --> 01:42:42,150
hmm
864
01:44:04,840 --> 01:44:07,840
oh
865
01:44:18,840 --> 01:44:21,840
me
866
01:44:46,840 --> 01:44:49,070
oh
867
01:45:14,840 --> 01:45:17,840
hmm
868
01:45:28,840 --> 01:45:31,330
oh
869
01:46:38,840 --> 01:46:41,840
oh
870
01:46:42,960 --> 01:46:55,840
oh yes thank you
871
01:47:14,440 --> 01:47:23,840
oh my gosh
872
01:47:34,719 --> 01:47:40,800
oh my gosh oh my goodness
873
01:47:44,360 --> 01:47:47,360
oh
874
01:47:48,080 --> 01:48:04,719
thank you so much oh thank you so much
875
01:48:04,719 --> 01:48:19,840
my gosh
876
01:48:58,840 --> 01:49:01,840
oh
877
01:49:12,840 --> 01:49:15,840
oh
878
01:49:40,840 --> 01:49:43,800
hmm
879
01:50:08,840 --> 01:50:11,840
oh
880
01:50:36,840 --> 01:50:39,840
god
881
01:50:50,840 --> 01:50:53,840
yes
882
01:51:10,320 --> 01:51:21,840
yes thank you
883
01:51:46,840 --> 01:51:49,840
oh
884
01:51:58,599 --> 01:52:00,960
oh my goodness
885
01:52:00,960 --> 01:52:17,140
oh it's so deep there's so much
886
01:52:56,840 --> 01:52:59,840
oh
887
01:53:10,840 --> 01:53:13,840
me
888
01:53:38,840 --> 01:53:55,840
oh thank you
889
01:54:19,360 --> 01:54:22,710
thank you
890
01:54:34,840 --> 01:54:36,810
hmm
891
01:54:48,840 --> 01:54:51,840
hmm
892
01:55:02,840 --> 01:55:03,840
hmm
893
01:55:14,159 --> 01:55:16,000
that was the last day emma ever
894
01:55:16,000 --> 01:55:18,560
performed as a submissive
895
01:55:18,560 --> 01:55:20,719
she had moved beyond that life and was
896
01:55:20,719 --> 01:55:32,320
ready to evolve into something new
897
01:55:32,320 --> 01:55:34,320
i want you to know that this isn't about
898
01:55:34,320 --> 01:55:35,170
your letter
899
01:55:36,400 --> 01:55:40,560
sure it is are you disagreeing with me
900
01:55:40,560 --> 01:55:43,599
yes emma
901
01:55:43,599 --> 01:55:45,520
you can't honestly say that you haven't
902
01:55:45,520 --> 01:55:47,119
enjoyed every moment
903
01:55:47,119 --> 01:55:50,960
of being my dog did i say
904
01:55:50,960 --> 01:55:52,470
that you could speak
905
01:55:54,400 --> 01:55:57,920
you may speak thank you
906
01:55:57,920 --> 01:56:01,440
for coming back thank you for convincing
907
01:56:01,440 --> 01:56:02,800
me to
908
01:56:02,800 --> 01:56:05,760
never in a million years did i imagine
909
01:56:05,760 --> 01:56:07,920
that this would be my reality
910
01:56:07,920 --> 01:56:11,280
what domain is submissive
911
01:56:11,280 --> 01:56:14,960
happiness mrs
912
01:56:14,960 --> 01:56:17,520
you taught me that i still belong in
913
01:56:17,520 --> 01:56:18,880
this world
914
01:56:18,880 --> 01:56:20,670
just not the way that i came to know it
915
01:56:24,800 --> 01:56:43,840
now whatever you do don't come
916
01:56:46,560 --> 01:56:49,679
to survive we have to let go it's part
917
01:56:49,679 --> 01:56:51,040
of moving forward
918
01:56:51,040 --> 01:56:53,040
acknowledging what no longer works for
919
01:56:53,040 --> 01:56:55,280
us
920
01:56:55,360 --> 01:56:57,360
acknowledging that who we were five
921
01:56:57,360 --> 01:56:58,400
years ago
922
01:56:58,400 --> 01:57:01,679
five months ago five days ago might not
923
01:57:01,679 --> 01:57:03,100
be the person we are today
924
01:57:06,880 --> 01:57:08,400
life is a constant journey of
925
01:57:08,400 --> 01:57:11,360
self-discovery and evolution
926
01:57:11,360 --> 01:57:13,760
part of me wonders if i still had a hand
927
01:57:13,760 --> 01:57:15,920
in emma's evolution
928
01:57:15,920 --> 01:57:18,080
you always hear people say that when
929
01:57:18,080 --> 01:57:19,280
someone dies
930
01:57:19,280 --> 01:57:21,040
they live on in those they've left
931
01:57:21,040 --> 01:57:24,239
behind and maybe this was me
932
01:57:24,239 --> 01:57:27,679
living on in emma
933
01:57:36,840 --> 01:57:39,840
mr
934
01:57:39,840 --> 01:57:49,840
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