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[birds twittering]
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[sounds growing louder]
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[soft static buzzing]
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[video equipment clattering]
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So you might wonder
why I just clapped,
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uh...
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because I'm sitting
in my studio by myself
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and am I,
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am I applauding myself?
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[electronica playing]
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I guess a good place to start
is a simple question.
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Why in the world
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would I want to make
a documentary about myself?
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And I think that's a pretty
legitimate question.
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[upbeat electronica playing]
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Thank you, thank you, thank you,
thank you, thank you, thank you.
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Thank you, thank you, thank you,
thank you, thank you, thank you!
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On one hand,
I've had a strange life.
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I grew up very poor in
a very wealthy environment.
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My strange life as a musician
has taken me
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to a lot of very odd places,
literally and figuratively.
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And I guess I could make
a documentary about that.
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Just another biopic
about a weird musician.
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What's more interesting is,
at least to me, is...
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well, the why of it.
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The why of everything.
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The, why do we do what we do?
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Our very short lives
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quite possibly have
very little significance.
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As far as we can tell, we're
in a universe that is vast
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beyond our imagining,
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ancient beyond our imagining.
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But yet, all of us
generally work from a place
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where we think that
our actions have meaning,
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our lives have consequences.
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And that if we do things
in a certain way,
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if we do things in a right way,
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that our lives
might somehow be better.
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If I had legitimacy,
if I had some money,
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if I was recognized
for what I did
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and for who I was,
and if I was esteemed...
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One of the most innovative
figures in the world of
electronic dance music, Moby.
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...happiness,
and meaning would ensue.
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And honestly, that's why
I want to make this movie,
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because I think that a lot of us
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still work
under those assumptions,
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that if we do the right thing,
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if we have the right
existential portfolio,
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if we have the right people,
the right amount of money,
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the right home or homes,
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the right job,
the right amount of recognition,
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then everything
will suddenly make sense
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and we'll be happy
and we'll live for a long time
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and we will die contented.
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There's one huge problem
with that, though.
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That's never actually been
the case for anyone.
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It's almost like we assume
that it's not true
for everyone else,
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but that if we figure it out,
like if I figure out my perfect
existential portfolio,
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that I will find
perfect human happiness,
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but I tried, and it didn't work.
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[ethereal electronica playing]
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This is my dream.
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[ambient electronica pulsing]
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[upbeat electronica playing]
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- [music stops]
- [cow lowing in distance]
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So we're revisiting
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New York City in 1966.
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So yes, I was born in Harlem.
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Let's make it nighttime.
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Rrrrr... There's New York City.
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- [horns honking]
- Rrrr, rrrr!
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My dad, we'll have him
wearing glasses
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because the truth is, I don't
remember my father at all,
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but in my mind he wore glasses,
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and unlike me, he had hair.
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My mom, because I'm not
the best drawer in the world,
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I have a feeling she's
going to look...
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Oh, she actually looks
almost feminine, maybe.
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Little baby me.
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We also need some animals.
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When I was growing up in Harlem
we had a pet dog,
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one or two cats,
and a bunch of rats,
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because my father was,
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he worked in the chemistry
department at Columbia
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and he brought home
some test rats.
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They were in their twenties.
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They were in New York,
and they hung out in the Village
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and talked about poetry
and politics.
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And they had me,
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and then very quickly
realized like,
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"Oh, having a newborn in
a basement apartment in Harlem."
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And my dad had been
a heavy drinker apparently,
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but then apparently he started
drinking more and more and more,
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- and my mom yelling...
- Get out of my house!
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- ...him yelling back...
- Yaaaaaa!
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And then him disappearing
on drunken binges.
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So because I lived
with two very angry parents
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who were screaming at each other
and smoking cigarettes
and drinking,
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the only calm sort of stable
presence in the apartment
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were the animals.
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The cat, the dog,
the rescued lab rats,
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represented here by chihuahuas.
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At an early age, when I was
a tiny little baby,
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I learned a lesson, which is
that animals are nice
and people are terrifying.
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And then after a couple of years
of this, they had a huge fight,
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and my mother told my father,
"I can't do this anymore.
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I want a divorce, and I'm taking
your son away from you."
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So, my father got drunk
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and got in his car...
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and drove into a wall...
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at a hundred miles an hour.
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[car crashes]
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So my mother was a widow
at the age of 23
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with her crying newborn,
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a bunch of animals
in a basement apartment
in Harlem.
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[ominous ambient music playing]
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[somber electronica playing]
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[marching band playing]
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[music stops]
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Hi.
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So I'm Moby and I'm
the director of this scene
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and we will be reenacting
some scenes from my childhood.
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- I'd like to introduce
our players.
- [upbeat music playing]
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Laura, would you step in?
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This is Laura
and she'll be playing my mom.
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Hi, I'm Laura Dawn
and I'm playing Moby's mom.
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Daniel, would you like
to step in?
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Who will be playing my mom's
scumbag boyfriend.
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Hi, my name is Daniel Ahearn.
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I'll be playing
the scumbag boyfriend.
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And this is Daron,
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and he'll be playing me
at about age, say three.
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Hi, my name's Daron Murphy
and I'll be playing young Moby.
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MOBY: Yeah. Perfect.
Life has already gone wrong.
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You're only three years old,
and basically nothing good
has ever happened.
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- You guys are
getting ready to go out.
- Let's go.
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So you're a local motorcycle
gang member...
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but you're just,
you're just scummy.
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- Bye, Moby. We'll be back
in a couple of hours.
- Don't touch my stuff.
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That was great.
The only thing was you were
a little too involved.
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[laughing] OK.
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- MOBY: And action.
- LAURA: All right, Moby,
we're taking off.
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We're going to go out
to this party and we'll
be back later, okay?
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Bye, Molly.
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[in falsetto]
♪ Hello! Hello! Hello!
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- Poor Moby.
- Yeah, yeah, mm-hmm.
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I wish we could save him.
We'd be your friends, Moby.
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- Oh yeah.
- Mm-hmm. Yeah, yeah.
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- Mm-hmm.
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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My mom is upset
because she's unemployed,
her boyfriend has left her,
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and young me is going
to try to comfort her.
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Nothing ever works out.
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Dan left.
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Again.
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And I still haven't found a job.
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So I don't know
what we're gonna do.
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- Mom--
- Just leave me alone!
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Well done.
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A little more sadness.
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Well, okay, no, dial it down,
just not quite so much sadness.
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A little, little more,
just sort of like soft pathos.
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[door creaking open]
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That's okay.
No, come on in.
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We're doing really
important stuff.
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[in falsetto]
Oh, that's very sad.
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- That's a big
apartment to me.
- Call Child Services!
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His first experience,
if you think about your mother
being the center of your world,
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the idea that
if you're the focal point
of someone's world
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and all they know about love
and trust and stability
in the world,
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but you are not stable,
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then that produces
a cascade of effects
in a developing mind
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that can really mess up
the rest of their lives.
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He was left in places
and situations
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that a kid that's three,
four or five, six years old,
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should not be left in.
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And there was a lot
of drug abuse.
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There was a lot of alcoholism.
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I think that he suffers
from anxious attachment.
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When I hear
so much of his music,
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I hear the pain and emotion
and longing that he feels
towards his mother.
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That to me is a core dragon
he's been chasing
his entire life
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as some kind of understanding
and resolution to that pain.
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[indistinct conversations]
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MOBY: When I was very, very
young, I grew up playing
in New York and Connecticut.
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[crowd cheering]
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And at that time,
like my only goal was
to at some point
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put out a seven-inch that maybe
sold a hundred copies.
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I never ever,
ever in a billion years
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thought I would be playing
with one of the most
remarkable orchestras.
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- [cheering and applause]
- So I just wanted to say
thank you all so much.
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Such a beautiful orchestra.
Such a friendly orchestra.
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♪ Oh, Lordy,
my trouble so hard ♪
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♪ Oh, Lordy,
my trouble so hard ♪
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♪ Don't nobody know
my troubles but God ♪
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♪ Don't nobody know
my troubles but God ♪
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♪ Oh, Lordy,
my trouble so hard ♪
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♪ Oh, Lordy,
my trouble so hard ♪
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♪ Well, don't nobody know
my troubles but God ♪
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♪ Oh, don't nobody know
my troubles but God ♪
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♪ Oh, Lordy,
my trouble so hard ♪
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♪ Oh, Lordy,
my trouble so hard ♪
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♪ Oh, don't nobody know
my troubles but God ♪
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♪ Don't nobody know
my troubles but God ♪
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♪ Oh, Lordy,
my trouble so hard ♪
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♪ Oh, Lordy,
my trouble so hard ♪
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♪ Don't nobody know
my troubles but God ♪
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♪ Don't nobody know
my troubles but God ♪
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♪ Oh, Lordy,
my trouble so hard ♪
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♪ Oh, Lordy,
my trouble so hard ♪
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♪ Don't nobody know
my troubles but God ♪
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♪ Don't nobody know
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♪ My trouble
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♪ But God
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[cheering and applause]
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[a/v equipment clattering]
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When a human being
truly dives within all the way,
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negativity begins to lift away.
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Hate, anger, fear,
all these things start to lift.
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The suffocating
rubber clown suit
of negativity dissolving,
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and pure gold
coming in from within.
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[relaxed music playing]
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MOBY: So for a while, we lived
in Darien, Connecticut,
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which is one of the wealthiest
towns in the United States.
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And I was certainly the poorest
person that I knew there.
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I hated it.
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Not being able to bring people
back to my house.
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When I say "bring people,"
I mean like friends
in elementary school,
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but as I had learned early on,
animals were safe,
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and animals didn't judge me,
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and I never had to feel
shame around animals.
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[cattle lows]
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So I'd found animals,
and then I found music.
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And then I picked up a guitar
one of my Mom's boyfriends
had left at the house,
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and I started playing around
and very quickly
I discovered punk rock.
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[punk rock playing]
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And I fell in love
with The Clash, Bad Brains,
Minor Threat, Black Flag.
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And I also found a home.
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I found this amazing community
of misfits and confused
teenagers like me,
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and I felt comfortable
and at home for the first time,
243
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and I just wanted to play
in a punk rock band.
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And I guess that's
when I dedicated my life
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to these two things,
animals and music.
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[clock ticking]
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I've been looking forward
to our session.
248
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- It's good to see you again.
- Oh yeah.
249
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Can I get you water
or a cup of tea?
250
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[discordant
ambient sounds echoing]
251
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I want to know more
about your feelings.
252
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How have you been able
to process your feelings
253
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and what you experienced as
a child through your music?
254
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We've talked about this before
that sometimes you refer
to yourself
255
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in the third person,
256
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which is intellectualizing,
257
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and I'm wondering if you can
connect to your feelings
258
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and tell me about it
from that perspective.
259
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Well, growing up,
I always felt uncomfortable
if I'm being honest
260
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and I felt really
disconnected and unsafe.
261
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I know this sounds
like hyperbole,
262
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this sounds like I'm
overstating, but music saved me.
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I felt connected to this bigger
world that was so much better
264
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and more interesting than
the sad suburban world
I was inhabiting.
265
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Can you just tell me
a little bit more about
how you felt about that?
266
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I was able to like take
all of the things
that I was feeling...
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and make sense of them,
and sort of make them
268
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you know, take the fear
and make it interesting,
269
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and take my confusion
and try to make it beautiful.
270
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And so the act of making music
was almost like a form
of like self-healing,
271
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but also in a way
that maybe other people
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could relate to or understand.
273
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[banjo playing]
274
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♪ I know that we've been
275
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♪ In a fairly conventional
narrative for a little while ♪
276
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♪ But now we're gonna
go back to being weird ♪
277
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[discordant ambience echoing
over traffic noises]
278
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[bowl chimes]
279
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Everyone chant!
280
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- [chimes]
- [group chanting]
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[bowl chiming]
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[chanting continues]
283
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[discordant noise echoing
over furtive whispers]
284
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Someone asked me
this question recently,
285
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if I were an animal,
what would,
286
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or how would my consciousness
be different?
287
00:22:23,864 --> 00:22:25,561
And it's
a fascinating question.
288
00:22:25,605 --> 00:22:30,958
So when I look at an animal
like, like, look at buffalo.
289
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I wonder if sometimes
one of the reasons
290
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that people kill animals,
291
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one of the reasons that people
treat animals so badly
292
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is because of loneliness,
293
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is because they look at animals
and they feel rejected by them.
294
00:22:52,327 --> 00:22:55,983
You know, they look at a buffalo
and buffalo are stoic
295
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and apparently quite happy
to just hang out
with other buffalo,
296
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and they have their own concerns
and their own priorities.
297
00:23:03,033 --> 00:23:05,906
Like the desire
to not get eaten,
298
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the desire to not be hungry,
299
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the desire to spend time
with your family,
with your community.
300
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But sometimes nature has
an indifference towards humans.
301
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And the animals, like let's say
like a buffalo, they don't care.
302
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And I think sometimes
that almost justifies
303
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people's cruelty to animals,
304
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is they're punishing the animals
305
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for having their own lives
independent of us.
306
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The animal is almost like
307
00:23:40,114 --> 00:23:44,771
an emissary of
the vast existential void
308
00:23:44,814 --> 00:23:46,903
that we're all so afraid of.
309
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[static buzzing]
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00:24:03,616 --> 00:24:08,925
♪ 'Cause in my dreams
I'm dying all the time ♪
311
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♪ Then I wake
it's kaleidoscopic mind ♪
312
00:24:20,284 --> 00:24:24,114
♪ I never meant to hurt you
313
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♪ I never meant to lie
314
00:24:30,077 --> 00:24:32,862
♪ So this is goodbye
315
00:24:34,647 --> 00:24:36,344
♪ This is goodbye
316
00:24:51,664 --> 00:24:53,230
♪ So tell the truth
317
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♪ You never wanted me
318
00:24:59,280 --> 00:25:00,847
♪ Tell the truth
319
00:25:00,890 --> 00:25:04,503
♪ You never wanted me
320
00:25:05,982 --> 00:25:07,941
♪ Tell me
321
00:25:30,006 --> 00:25:35,403
♪ 'Cause in my dreams
I'm jealous all the time ♪
322
00:25:38,362 --> 00:25:43,933
♪ When I wake
I'm going out of my mind ♪
323
00:25:43,977 --> 00:25:47,894
♪ I'm going out of my mind
324
00:25:47,937 --> 00:25:51,985
♪ Going out of my mind
325
00:25:52,028 --> 00:25:55,902
♪ Going out of my mind
326
00:26:02,473 --> 00:26:05,651
[ominous music playing]
327
00:26:10,830 --> 00:26:13,441
My friend gave me some acid.
328
00:26:13,484 --> 00:26:16,357
And I thought this
was really interesting,
329
00:26:16,400 --> 00:26:18,185
'cause I'd never
done acid before
330
00:26:19,752 --> 00:26:22,755
and it lasted
for about 15 hours.
331
00:26:22,798 --> 00:26:27,150
And then a day later
I had a panic attack,
332
00:26:27,194 --> 00:26:30,327
and the panic attack lasted
for about six months.
333
00:26:35,681 --> 00:26:40,729
It was so bad that I had to drop
out of school and moved home
334
00:26:40,773 --> 00:26:44,994
back to my mom's house,
and it was really grim.
335
00:26:58,007 --> 00:27:04,448
19 years old, unemployed, broke,
battling constant panic attacks,
336
00:27:04,492 --> 00:27:08,104
going to my local bar,
getting drunk with alcoholics
337
00:27:08,148 --> 00:27:11,455
just 'cause
that was the only thing
that would make the panic abate.
338
00:27:18,245 --> 00:27:22,379
When friends from college
would drop me off...
339
00:27:22,423 --> 00:27:23,772
[sighs]
340
00:27:23,816 --> 00:27:26,775
...I would have them
drop me off here,
341
00:27:26,819 --> 00:27:30,039
and for a brief minute, I would
pretend that I lived here.
342
00:27:35,175 --> 00:27:41,094
Everybody I knew who grew up
like the rich people here
343
00:27:41,137 --> 00:27:46,621
just felt entitled
and were kind of arrogant
and obnoxious,
344
00:27:46,665 --> 00:27:50,233
but anyone who grew up
even slightly poor here,
345
00:27:50,277 --> 00:27:52,671
you just felt this like stain
of inadequacy
346
00:27:52,714 --> 00:27:55,848
because everybody knew exactly
how much money
everyone else had.
347
00:27:55,891 --> 00:27:58,328
No matter where you went,
you just always felt,
348
00:27:58,372 --> 00:28:02,202
if you're poor growing up here,
you just always felt like
a second-class citizen.
349
00:28:02,245 --> 00:28:04,378
In my case,
like an 11th-class citizen.
350
00:28:11,167 --> 00:28:13,692
That was my fantasy
when I was growing up,
351
00:28:13,735 --> 00:28:19,436
to live in a house
like this and drink tea
and sit by a roaring fire,
352
00:28:19,480 --> 00:28:23,789
and read Blake
353
00:28:23,832 --> 00:28:26,400
while the golden retriever
was asleep at my feet
354
00:28:26,443 --> 00:28:29,664
and my beautiful wife was,
I don't know,
355
00:28:29,708 --> 00:28:35,061
writing poetry at her desk
by the leaded window panes.
356
00:28:35,104 --> 00:28:37,933
And then I moved
to an abandoned factory.
357
00:28:37,977 --> 00:28:40,457
[discordant electronica playing]
358
00:29:02,088 --> 00:29:05,787
This huge, weird
factory complex,
359
00:29:05,831 --> 00:29:08,529
I mean millions
and millions of square feet.
360
00:29:08,572 --> 00:29:11,227
It had been a lock factory
in Stamford, Connecticut.
361
00:29:11,271 --> 00:29:16,406
But when I moved in,
it was completely empty
and I paid $50 a month.
362
00:29:16,450 --> 00:29:19,105
What I thought of
as squatter's rent.
363
00:29:19,148 --> 00:29:22,456
There was a security guard,
and I'd give them $50 a month,
364
00:29:22,499 --> 00:29:27,113
and I didn't have running water,
I didn't have heat,
365
00:29:27,156 --> 00:29:28,897
but I had electricity.
366
00:29:28,941 --> 00:29:32,379
And so I had my studio
and it, my space was tiny.
367
00:29:32,422 --> 00:29:36,775
I mean, so tiny,
it was basically like
a big glorified closet.
368
00:29:36,818 --> 00:29:39,778
And I worked on music.
369
00:29:43,433 --> 00:29:48,003
I was DJing
just a couple days a week.
370
00:29:48,047 --> 00:29:51,615
$25 to DJ for six hours.
371
00:29:51,659 --> 00:29:56,707
And this whole huge factory
building was empty,
372
00:29:56,751 --> 00:29:59,101
except for me
and like a few other artists
who are squatting in it.
373
00:30:04,628 --> 00:30:08,154
The two years I lived here,
I think three people
got murdered.
374
00:30:08,197 --> 00:30:10,852
My friend Jamie
got stabbed to death here.
375
00:30:10,896 --> 00:30:14,421
I loved it, because I had free
electricity and my space,
376
00:30:14,464 --> 00:30:16,858
even though it was
very small, was sunny
and I didn't have heat,
377
00:30:16,902 --> 00:30:20,209
but I had space heaters
that I borrowed
from my girlfriend's mom.
378
00:30:22,255 --> 00:30:26,825
Now, Moby, did you grow up
in your punk rock days,
379
00:30:26,868 --> 00:30:30,219
did you live in factories?
380
00:30:30,263 --> 00:30:32,482
As a matter of fact, I did.
381
00:30:32,526 --> 00:30:36,051
Um, but old factories,
the desolation
382
00:30:36,095 --> 00:30:38,575
and like the entropy of them,
383
00:30:38,619 --> 00:30:41,535
'cause they're such
sturdy structures.
384
00:30:41,578 --> 00:30:45,321
Normally things when they're
abandoned collapse,
385
00:30:45,365 --> 00:30:48,629
but what's great about factories
is they're abandoned
and they stick around,
386
00:30:48,672 --> 00:30:52,981
you know, and the bricks become
interesting and the floors
get dusty and interesting.
387
00:30:53,025 --> 00:30:58,030
And especially when the old
machinery is too heavy
to move, you know?
388
00:30:58,073 --> 00:31:00,119
So they're just like,
we're just going to leave it.
389
00:31:00,162 --> 00:31:02,208
- You're talking my type.
- [laughs]
390
00:31:02,251 --> 00:31:04,645
[electronica playing]
391
00:31:04,688 --> 00:31:08,518
And that's when I started making
392
00:31:08,562 --> 00:31:13,219
my own almost exclusively
electronic music.
393
00:31:13,262 --> 00:31:15,961
And then I started working
at a record store,
394
00:31:16,004 --> 00:31:18,746
so I was able to buy
more records and DJ more.
395
00:31:18,789 --> 00:31:21,357
And then I started DJing Friday
nights and Saturday nights.
396
00:31:21,401 --> 00:31:26,188
And then there was
this magic day when I learned
how to mix two records together.
397
00:31:26,232 --> 00:31:29,844
And all of a sudden I realized
like, "Oh, that sounded okay."
398
00:31:29,888 --> 00:31:31,585
Like, "I guess I'm a DJ now."
399
00:31:35,067 --> 00:31:39,071
I had the worst sampler
in the world and a little
four-track,
400
00:31:39,114 --> 00:31:42,901
and so I made my idea
of what hip-hop
should sound like
401
00:31:42,944 --> 00:31:46,687
and my idea
of what house music
and techno should be.
402
00:31:46,730 --> 00:31:49,864
I mean, keep in mind,
house music had just
been invented
403
00:31:49,908 --> 00:31:52,693
and techno had
just been invented,
404
00:31:52,736 --> 00:31:54,913
but with my little
Casio keyboard
405
00:31:54,956 --> 00:31:59,352
and my cheap Roland drum machine
and my little sequencer,
406
00:31:59,395 --> 00:32:02,921
I tried to make electronic music
407
00:32:02,964 --> 00:32:06,794
and I had no idea what was
going on with me
408
00:32:06,837 --> 00:32:10,102
or my life or my future,
but I had some really
good friends,
409
00:32:10,145 --> 00:32:12,800
and I was surprisingly happy.
410
00:32:12,843 --> 00:32:16,325
And I remember trying to explain
that to my family,
411
00:32:16,369 --> 00:32:20,895
how in hindsight it was
one of the happiest times
of my life.
412
00:32:20,939 --> 00:32:23,506
[electronica continues]
413
00:32:54,537 --> 00:32:56,452
[wind whistling]
414
00:33:17,299 --> 00:33:19,649
[electronic
ambient music surging]
415
00:33:58,123 --> 00:34:01,648
- [music fades, resumes]
- [wind howling]
416
00:34:04,564 --> 00:34:06,174
- [in falsetto] Ah!
- Run for your lives!
417
00:34:06,218 --> 00:34:07,697
Let's go to space!
418
00:34:07,741 --> 00:34:10,222
[upbeat electronica playing]
419
00:34:46,170 --> 00:34:49,087
There, 205 East 14th Street,
420
00:34:49,130 --> 00:34:52,132
that was my first apartment
in New York City.
421
00:34:52,177 --> 00:34:54,440
Uh...
422
00:34:54,483 --> 00:34:58,139
And I'm pretty sure,
I had a bunch of roommates,
423
00:34:58,183 --> 00:35:03,710
but my rent was around $150
a month, $160 a month.
424
00:35:06,887 --> 00:35:10,891
Growing up in Connecticut,
I fetishized New York City.
425
00:35:10,934 --> 00:35:14,242
New York was 30,
40 miles away,
426
00:35:14,286 --> 00:35:16,505
and it was easy
to get to on the train.
427
00:35:16,549 --> 00:35:20,944
And so my friends and I
growing up went to New York
every chance we could.
428
00:35:20,988 --> 00:35:25,166
It's where the best record
stores were, it's where we saw
all our first punk rock shows.
429
00:35:25,210 --> 00:35:28,126
And we were amazed
that we could just get
on the train
430
00:35:28,169 --> 00:35:31,781
and hide in the bathroom
and 40 minutes later
be in Grand Central.
431
00:35:31,825 --> 00:35:36,569
Not to overstate it,
but this train saved my life
and made me who I am.
432
00:35:36,612 --> 00:35:41,008
I would make the tapes
in my abandoned factory,
433
00:35:41,051 --> 00:35:46,187
get off in Grand Central,
jump the turnstile, and then
just go around giving out tapes.
434
00:35:46,231 --> 00:35:48,189
Years of doing this.
435
00:35:48,233 --> 00:35:50,887
My first record label
came from that,
436
00:35:50,931 --> 00:35:55,327
other DJing jobs came from that,
being introduced to all
the producers of the day.
437
00:35:55,370 --> 00:35:59,374
I heard about this club called
Mars that was opening.
438
00:35:59,418 --> 00:36:02,986
It was going to be
the coolest nightclub
in the world.
439
00:36:03,030 --> 00:36:06,294
Somehow the man
who was booking Mars
440
00:36:06,338 --> 00:36:09,167
listened to it
and gave me a job.
441
00:36:09,210 --> 00:36:11,734
My first record label
came from that,
442
00:36:11,778 --> 00:36:14,737
so it all started
with that one job at Mars.
443
00:36:17,131 --> 00:36:19,002
♪ Go, go, go...
444
00:36:19,046 --> 00:36:22,354
♪ Well, I came here to rock,
turn it on and on ♪
445
00:36:22,397 --> 00:36:24,530
♪ Keep it going
till the break of dawn ♪
446
00:36:24,573 --> 00:36:26,358
[funky electronica playing]
447
00:36:31,363 --> 00:36:33,930
♪ Yeah!
448
00:36:33,974 --> 00:36:36,150
[cheering]
449
00:36:36,194 --> 00:36:39,022
[muffled shouting
over rhythmic percussion]
450
00:36:57,606 --> 00:37:02,481
In 1990, I put out
a song called "Go."
451
00:37:02,524 --> 00:37:06,354
And this came out
and did nothing.
452
00:37:06,398 --> 00:37:09,357
It sold maybe 1500 copies.
453
00:37:09,401 --> 00:37:13,448
And then after it was released,
454
00:37:13,492 --> 00:37:16,364
a record label guy in the UK
heard it
455
00:37:16,408 --> 00:37:19,019
and wanted to release it,
but needed a remix.
456
00:37:19,062 --> 00:37:22,588
And at this time I was obsessed
with Twin Peaks,
457
00:37:22,631 --> 00:37:25,417
and somehow
I had this weird idea
458
00:37:25,460 --> 00:37:31,336
of adding the strings
from Laura Palmer's theme
from Twin Peaks
459
00:37:31,379 --> 00:37:34,252
to this remix
I was working on for "Go."
460
00:37:36,776 --> 00:37:38,430
So I came up with this remix,
461
00:37:38,473 --> 00:37:41,868
and then I played the chords
to Laura Palmer's theme
462
00:37:41,911 --> 00:37:43,522
on top of the remix.
463
00:37:43,565 --> 00:37:47,613
DAVID LYNCH: Yes. Well, Moby
did that song "Go,"
464
00:37:47,656 --> 00:37:52,705
and that was based on pieces
of Angelo's music
in Twin Peaks.
465
00:37:52,748 --> 00:37:57,536
I thought it was fantastic,
and a lot of other people
thought that too.
466
00:38:11,637 --> 00:38:13,247
♪ Go!
467
00:38:16,729 --> 00:38:22,082
And it became a top-ten record
throughout Europe
and it sold a million copies.
468
00:38:22,125 --> 00:38:23,475
♪ Go!
469
00:38:25,999 --> 00:38:29,219
So my first single
sold 1500 copies,
470
00:38:29,263 --> 00:38:31,483
and my next single sold
a million copies.
471
00:38:31,526 --> 00:38:34,442
That's a big turning point,
472
00:38:34,486 --> 00:38:38,403
and it was so profoundly
unexpected.
473
00:38:40,405 --> 00:38:44,452
So the fact that it became
this weird, weird hit single,
474
00:38:44,496 --> 00:38:48,500
where I was going back and forth
to the UK every two weeks
and DJing in raves
475
00:38:48,543 --> 00:38:52,025
and playing at raves
and being on all sorts
of different TV shows
476
00:38:52,068 --> 00:38:57,117
and being on Top of the Pops,
like none of this was expected.
477
00:38:57,160 --> 00:38:59,902
I had never thought
that I would live in New York.
478
00:38:59,946 --> 00:39:02,340
I had never thought that
I would have a record deal.
479
00:39:02,383 --> 00:39:05,168
I never thought that I would
leave the United States.
480
00:39:05,212 --> 00:39:07,954
I never thought that anyone
would make an effort
481
00:39:07,997 --> 00:39:10,173
to listen to the music
that I was making.
482
00:39:10,217 --> 00:39:12,828
And then all of a sudden I was
doing interviews for magazines.
483
00:39:12,872 --> 00:39:16,049
And then I was on the cover
of dance magazines,
and I was on TV shows,
484
00:39:16,092 --> 00:39:19,400
Spin'salbum of the year,
the Village Voice's
album of the year.
485
00:39:19,444 --> 00:39:23,404
And I had a big hit single
in Europe, I had music
in a Michael Mann movie,
486
00:39:23,448 --> 00:39:26,407
and I went on tour with
the Red Hot Chili Peppers
and the Flaming Lips.
487
00:39:26,451 --> 00:39:30,977
Like by the end of 1995,
things were kind of magical.
488
00:39:31,020 --> 00:39:33,936
All that had happened,
and I had expected none of it.
489
00:39:33,980 --> 00:39:36,417
And I was financially stable
for the first time in my life.
490
00:39:36,461 --> 00:39:38,550
And I bought an apartment,
my very own apartment,
491
00:39:38,593 --> 00:39:42,858
with a real studio
with soundproof walls
and a skylight.
492
00:39:52,302 --> 00:39:55,436
♪ I see the stars...
493
00:39:59,092 --> 00:40:04,097
♪ I see the stars
494
00:40:06,273 --> 00:40:09,276
I still remember,
I was on British Airways
495
00:40:09,319 --> 00:40:12,671
flying to the UK
to do Top of the Pops,
496
00:40:12,714 --> 00:40:17,937
and I saw in the newspaper
my song "Go" in the charts
497
00:40:17,980 --> 00:40:21,375
in between Michael Jackson
and Phil Collins.
498
00:40:21,419 --> 00:40:25,858
♪ I see the stars
499
00:40:28,426 --> 00:40:31,211
Can you talk to me
about how that felt?
500
00:40:31,254 --> 00:40:33,648
Not just intellectualizing
that time,
501
00:40:33,692 --> 00:40:36,825
but really unpack your feelings
around that for me?
502
00:40:36,869 --> 00:40:41,482
It felt baffling, confusing,
503
00:40:41,526 --> 00:40:44,398
dislocating,
but it felt wonderful.
504
00:40:44,442 --> 00:40:48,271
I'd been playing music
for 15 years
505
00:40:48,315 --> 00:40:51,536
and every day of those
15 years thinking like,
506
00:40:51,579 --> 00:40:53,015
how can I have an audience?
507
00:40:53,059 --> 00:40:55,278
How can I finally,
like at some point,
508
00:40:55,322 --> 00:40:57,803
even like get a record deal
and make records?
509
00:40:57,846 --> 00:41:02,198
But I never really expected
that that would happen.
510
00:41:02,242 --> 00:41:06,202
♪ These open doors
511
00:41:06,246 --> 00:41:11,599
♪ These open doors
512
00:41:11,643 --> 00:41:16,082
♪ These open doors
513
00:41:16,125 --> 00:41:20,956
♪ These open doors
514
00:41:21,000 --> 00:41:23,568
♪ These open
515
00:41:23,611 --> 00:41:26,048
♪ These open
516
00:41:26,092 --> 00:41:30,009
♪ These open doors
517
00:41:30,052 --> 00:41:33,316
♪ These open
518
00:41:33,360 --> 00:41:37,364
♪ These open
519
00:41:37,407 --> 00:41:40,628
♪ Open doors
520
00:41:40,672 --> 00:41:45,328
♪ These...
521
00:41:47,592 --> 00:41:50,333
♪ Open doors
522
00:41:50,377 --> 00:41:52,684
♪ These open
523
00:41:52,727 --> 00:41:55,425
♪ These open
524
00:41:55,469 --> 00:41:59,734
♪ These open doors
525
00:42:05,174 --> 00:42:10,223
[bell chiming hour
over rattling ambience]
526
00:42:10,266 --> 00:42:12,965
How many people right now
are beating themselves up
527
00:42:13,008 --> 00:42:16,142
because they think they're
not successful enough,
they're not famous enough,
528
00:42:16,185 --> 00:42:18,840
they're not young enough,
they're not beautiful enough,
and like...
529
00:42:18,884 --> 00:42:23,062
But then the people who are
super young, super attractive,
530
00:42:23,105 --> 00:42:27,066
super famous,
they're miserable, you know?
531
00:42:27,109 --> 00:42:32,550
So it's this, it's this
horrifying, I don't know...
532
00:42:32,593 --> 00:42:35,596
Like I don't have to pretend
to be younger than I am.
533
00:42:35,640 --> 00:42:37,990
I don't have to pretend
to be more attractive than I am.
534
00:42:38,033 --> 00:42:39,644
- I don't have to wear a toupee.
- Yeah.
535
00:42:39,687 --> 00:42:43,648
I don't have to pretend
that I'm still young
536
00:42:43,691 --> 00:42:48,000
and relevant in the same way
that I was 20 years ago
or 15 years ago.
537
00:42:48,043 --> 00:42:50,655
One of the hardest things,
at least for me,
and I assume for you,
538
00:42:50,698 --> 00:42:55,442
for lots of people,
is the reason we overcompensate,
539
00:42:55,485 --> 00:43:00,969
the reason we try
to get people to see us
in like exalted lights
540
00:43:01,013 --> 00:43:03,885
is because deep down
we don't like ourselves.
541
00:43:03,929 --> 00:43:05,974
- Like we're ashamed
of ourselves.
- Yeah.
542
00:43:06,018 --> 00:43:11,632
Um, we assume that if anyone
looks too closely,
they'll be repelled.
543
00:43:11,676 --> 00:43:14,330
Especially if they look at me
at this angle.
Something like that.
544
00:43:14,374 --> 00:43:16,594
And like looking at it
yourself,
545
00:43:16,637 --> 00:43:19,161
but then like being
that in the presence
of other people
546
00:43:19,205 --> 00:43:24,210
for as potentially unattractive
and uncomfortable
as that might be.
547
00:43:24,253 --> 00:43:26,473
[electronica playing]
548
00:44:23,922 --> 00:44:25,706
[camera shutter clicks]
549
00:44:25,750 --> 00:44:27,795
So in the mid-'90s,
I shaved my head,
550
00:44:27,839 --> 00:44:30,493
and after a long period
of sobriety,
I started drinking again.
551
00:44:32,931 --> 00:44:35,107
♪ It's hard to let you go!
552
00:44:35,150 --> 00:44:38,066
And I became a complete
rock-and-roll cliché.
553
00:44:38,110 --> 00:44:41,200
I was living on tour buses,
hanging out in the strip clubs,
554
00:44:41,243 --> 00:44:42,897
dating strippers.
555
00:44:42,941 --> 00:44:44,725
♪ It's hard to let you go!
556
00:44:44,769 --> 00:44:47,380
And I fully
foolishly stupidly embraced
557
00:44:47,423 --> 00:44:49,338
the complete rock-and-roll
degenerate lifestyle.
558
00:44:49,382 --> 00:44:52,559
Ah, yay, yah... drinking!
559
00:44:52,602 --> 00:44:56,041
Ah, yay. Raaaah!
560
00:44:56,084 --> 00:45:00,393
[mumbling] ...glug glug glug.
561
00:45:04,353 --> 00:45:06,181
I don't know,
it made sense to me at the time.
562
00:45:08,531 --> 00:45:11,491
Oh, Hi.
My name is Dr. Richard,
563
00:45:11,534 --> 00:45:14,886
and I'd like to talk
to you today about alcoholism.
564
00:45:14,929 --> 00:45:17,062
A lot of people,
many of you who are watching,
565
00:45:17,105 --> 00:45:19,891
might've had a few bad
experiences with drinking,
566
00:45:19,934 --> 00:45:23,329
you know, a few too many drinks
at the office Christmas party.
567
00:45:23,372 --> 00:45:26,724
Well, one of my worst
experiences, I was on a tour bus
568
00:45:26,767 --> 00:45:29,770
and we were driving
from London to Manchester,
569
00:45:29,814 --> 00:45:33,382
and I had 15 or 20 drinks
and took a whole bunch of drugs
570
00:45:33,426 --> 00:45:38,039
and ended up having, I guess,
a sexual encounter
with a few different people.
571
00:45:38,083 --> 00:45:39,737
And when I woke up
in the morning,
572
00:45:39,780 --> 00:45:44,219
I was sick and hung over
and alone and cold.
573
00:45:44,263 --> 00:45:47,092
And I had poop
all over my body.
574
00:45:47,135 --> 00:45:49,616
I was covered with poop,
575
00:45:49,659 --> 00:45:51,749
but I didn't know
whose poop it was.
576
00:45:51,792 --> 00:45:54,577
And to this day,
I don't know whose poop it was.
577
00:45:59,800 --> 00:46:02,150
[bell jingles]
578
00:46:02,194 --> 00:46:04,152
[crowd noises echoing]
579
00:46:04,196 --> 00:46:07,199
Things started to go wrong.
580
00:46:07,242 --> 00:46:09,418
I broke up with my girlfriend.
581
00:46:09,462 --> 00:46:11,203
I started hanging out
in strip clubs,
582
00:46:11,246 --> 00:46:14,206
and also I decided
to make a punk rock record.
583
00:46:14,249 --> 00:46:16,382
[singing indistinct punk lyrics]
584
00:46:32,398 --> 00:46:36,010
I'd put out the album
Animal Rights
and it had failed.
585
00:46:36,054 --> 00:46:37,838
MAN: No one wanted
to listen to it.
586
00:46:37,882 --> 00:46:41,581
He was considered to be
past it, a bit of a loser.
587
00:46:41,624 --> 00:46:44,758
They were just making fun of him
and he took it badly.
588
00:46:44,802 --> 00:46:46,194
He wanted to be liked.
589
00:46:46,238 --> 00:46:48,893
He wanted to be respected.
590
00:46:48,936 --> 00:46:52,200
MOBY: I was convinced it was
going to be my last record.
591
00:46:52,244 --> 00:46:54,202
That I'd move back
to Connecticut,
592
00:46:54,246 --> 00:46:56,422
and I thought I'd go be
a community school teacher.
593
00:46:56,465 --> 00:46:59,425
[punk song resumes]
594
00:47:23,275 --> 00:47:26,060
Then I learned
my Mom had cancer.
595
00:47:37,855 --> 00:47:39,639
And then she died.
596
00:47:39,682 --> 00:47:41,684
[somber guitar music playing]
597
00:47:47,690 --> 00:47:51,781
And I missed her funeral because
I was in bed drunk, passed out.
598
00:47:51,825 --> 00:47:54,697
[guitar continues
over muffled traffic noises]
599
00:48:25,598 --> 00:48:27,078
[distant thunder rumbling]
600
00:49:20,522 --> 00:49:22,960
I'm really, really sorry.
601
00:49:23,003 --> 00:49:25,875
[muffled announcements
echoing over loudspeaker]
602
00:49:35,363 --> 00:49:37,583
WOMAN: Oh, I think that's Moby.
603
00:49:39,759 --> 00:49:41,195
WOMAN 2: That's Moby.
604
00:49:48,811 --> 00:49:51,249
LYNCH: Well, I always
talk about ideas.
605
00:49:51,292 --> 00:49:56,776
And I always say we don't do
anything without first an idea.
606
00:49:56,819 --> 00:50:03,043
So ideas are precious things
and we all want ideas.
607
00:50:03,087 --> 00:50:05,393
There's trillions of ideas,
you know.
608
00:50:05,437 --> 00:50:09,006
They're thoughts in a way,
thoughts go through our heads.
609
00:50:09,049 --> 00:50:13,053
And... but I picture it
out in the ether.
610
00:50:13,097 --> 00:50:17,623
There's trillions and trillions
of fantastic ideas.
611
00:50:17,666 --> 00:50:21,540
And the deeper you can think,
612
00:50:21,583 --> 00:50:25,370
the bigger the ideas are
that you can catch.
613
00:50:25,413 --> 00:50:29,722
So, it's very important
614
00:50:29,765 --> 00:50:34,553
for any line of work
to catch ideas.
615
00:50:34,596 --> 00:50:38,035
And once in a while,
you catch an idea
that you fall in love with,
616
00:50:38,078 --> 00:50:42,691
and then the idea tells you
everything, pretty
much everything.
617
00:50:42,735 --> 00:50:45,694
So if it's like a musical idea,
618
00:50:45,738 --> 00:50:50,830
you catch something that gets
you going to the guitar
or the piano or whatever.
619
00:50:50,873 --> 00:50:53,789
And it fires you up.
620
00:50:53,833 --> 00:50:56,096
Ideas come with inspiration,
621
00:50:56,140 --> 00:51:01,928
a certain amount of information,
and off you go.
622
00:51:01,971 --> 00:51:04,235
[exotic sci-fi
sound effects playing]
623
00:51:06,454 --> 00:51:08,761
I had lost
my American record deal.
624
00:51:08,804 --> 00:51:12,069
My last album, Animal Rights,
had been a complete failure.
625
00:51:12,112 --> 00:51:15,202
My last tour had been a failure
that no one came to,
626
00:51:15,246 --> 00:51:17,857
and I was working
on this album Play,
627
00:51:17,900 --> 00:51:21,078
and I took the music
I was working on,
which was like "Porcelain"
628
00:51:21,121 --> 00:51:23,123
and "Why Does My Heart
Feel So Bad"
and "Natural Blues,"
629
00:51:23,167 --> 00:51:27,649
and I walked around this
neighborhood and it just
sounded terrible to me.
630
00:51:27,693 --> 00:51:30,696
[Moby playing "Honey"]
631
00:51:30,739 --> 00:51:33,438
♪ Get my honey come back
632
00:51:33,481 --> 00:51:34,874
♪ Get my honey come back
633
00:51:34,917 --> 00:51:39,444
And I stopped on this bench,
634
00:51:39,487 --> 00:51:41,707
convinced that my career
was over...
635
00:51:41,750 --> 00:51:43,970
♪ Get my honey come back
636
00:51:44,013 --> 00:51:46,886
...convinced I was working
on a record that no one
was ever going to hear...
637
00:51:46,929 --> 00:51:49,280
[wind whistling]
638
00:51:49,323 --> 00:51:53,849
...and pretty sure that I
was going to sell my apartment
639
00:51:53,893 --> 00:51:57,201
and move back to Connecticut
and have to get a real job.
640
00:51:59,551 --> 00:52:02,162
CONTROLLER:
Five... vehicle's armed...
641
00:52:02,206 --> 00:52:05,383
Three, two, one, fire!
642
00:52:09,996 --> 00:52:10,997
Thrust fired.
643
00:52:13,173 --> 00:52:14,740
[ethereal electronica playing]
644
00:52:35,282 --> 00:52:39,504
And I thought Play
was going to be a complete,
complete failure,
645
00:52:39,547 --> 00:52:41,723
you know because it was a weird,
badly mixed,
646
00:52:41,767 --> 00:52:44,204
badly produced record
that I made in my bedroom.
647
00:52:44,248 --> 00:52:47,120
Mainly involving vocals
from people who've been dead
648
00:52:47,164 --> 00:52:50,558
for 40 or 50 years,
but then things changed a lot.
649
00:52:50,602 --> 00:52:53,431
DAVID LETTERMAN: Our next guest
is a Grammy-nominated musician
650
00:52:53,474 --> 00:52:56,303
whose CD right here was named
one of the top albums
of the year
651
00:52:56,347 --> 00:52:57,957
by nearly every
major publication.
652
00:52:58,000 --> 00:53:00,351
If you don't have one of
these boys now, you ought to,
653
00:53:00,394 --> 00:53:04,311
seriously, tomorrow you ought
to call in sick and go get one.
It's called Play.
654
00:53:04,355 --> 00:53:06,444
Here's Moby.
655
00:53:08,185 --> 00:53:11,797
MOBY: It started off so small.
656
00:53:11,840 --> 00:53:16,193
I mean, when it started,
it was selling
657
00:53:16,236 --> 00:53:19,108
like 2,000 or 3,000 copies
a week, you know,
658
00:53:19,152 --> 00:53:22,111
barely doing anything... oops.
659
00:53:22,155 --> 00:53:24,766
And, uh...
660
00:53:24,810 --> 00:53:28,248
and then it
just kept selling more.
661
00:53:28,292 --> 00:53:31,120
CONAN: My next guest tonight is
acknowledged as one of the most
innovative figures
662
00:53:31,164 --> 00:53:33,210
in the world
of electronic dance music,
663
00:53:33,253 --> 00:53:37,257
and he's here to perform
a song from his most
recent album, Play.
664
00:53:37,301 --> 00:53:41,435
ERIC: Slowly but surely,
everybody who discovered
the music
665
00:53:41,479 --> 00:53:42,915
felt like there was
something special there.
666
00:53:42,958 --> 00:53:45,309
[relaxed electronica playing]
667
00:53:48,660 --> 00:53:53,839
♪ In my dreams I'm dying
all the time ♪
668
00:53:58,496 --> 00:54:04,284
♪ Then I wake
it's kaleidoscopic mind ♪
669
00:54:08,941 --> 00:54:12,423
♪ I never meant to hurt you
670
00:54:14,468 --> 00:54:17,689
♪ I never meant to lie
671
00:54:22,041 --> 00:54:25,262
♪ So this is goodbye
672
00:54:27,525 --> 00:54:30,136
♪ This is goodbye
673
00:54:30,179 --> 00:54:34,053
And it was so surprising
and every time it sold more,
674
00:54:34,096 --> 00:54:36,273
I thought,
"Great, now it's done."
675
00:54:38,536 --> 00:54:41,495
And then it started selling
10,000 copies a week,
676
00:54:41,539 --> 00:54:45,978
and then it started selling
100,000 copies a week.
677
00:54:46,021 --> 00:54:50,461
And then at one point it was
selling almost 200,000 copies
worldwide a week.
678
00:54:50,504 --> 00:54:53,333
And it went number one
in the UK and it went
number one in France
679
00:54:53,377 --> 00:54:55,117
and Australia and Germany.
680
00:54:55,161 --> 00:54:58,295
And suddenly, you know,
681
00:54:58,338 --> 00:55:02,081
I went from playing to
a couple hundred people a night
682
00:55:02,124 --> 00:55:04,736
to a couple thousand people
a night to...
683
00:55:04,779 --> 00:55:07,260
Oh wow, cricket bats.
684
00:55:07,304 --> 00:55:09,436
Do you need a cricket bat?
685
00:55:09,480 --> 00:55:11,046
Um...
686
00:55:11,090 --> 00:55:12,309
Do I need a cricket bat?
687
00:55:14,441 --> 00:55:17,444
ERIC: So different tracks
in different countries
688
00:55:17,488 --> 00:55:20,055
sort of brought
this album forward.
689
00:55:20,099 --> 00:55:23,537
And at that point I just looked
at Moby and said,
690
00:55:23,581 --> 00:55:27,280
"Who the fuck are these people?
How does this even happen?"
691
00:55:27,324 --> 00:55:29,500
MOBY: It was like magic.
692
00:55:29,543 --> 00:55:34,069
♪ Here we are now
going to the East Side ♪
693
00:55:34,113 --> 00:55:39,510
♪ I pick up my friends
and we start to ride ♪
694
00:55:39,553 --> 00:55:43,905
♪ Ride all night,
yeah, we ride all day ♪
695
00:55:43,949 --> 00:55:48,954
♪ Some may come
and some may stay... ♪
696
00:55:48,997 --> 00:55:51,522
[muffled music playing]
697
00:55:51,565 --> 00:55:54,481
- MOBY: Hello?
- DAVID BOWIE: Hi, guy.
How are you doing?
698
00:55:54,525 --> 00:55:56,527
- Hello?
- Hiya.
699
00:55:56,570 --> 00:55:57,832
Hi, David.
700
00:55:59,094 --> 00:56:00,879
Yeah, I know this voice.
701
00:56:00,922 --> 00:56:03,142
Um...
702
00:56:03,185 --> 00:56:05,405
Go on, keep talking, will ya?
703
00:56:05,449 --> 00:56:08,365
- Hello?
- Hello. You sound
incredibly tall.
704
00:56:08,408 --> 00:56:10,932
Am I right?
Are you a tall person?
705
00:56:10,976 --> 00:56:14,196
I can't, unfortunately
I can't hear you very well.
706
00:56:14,240 --> 00:56:16,155
You're a tall person
with really long hair, yeah?
707
00:56:16,198 --> 00:56:18,200
I'm a tall person
with really long hair.
708
00:56:18,244 --> 00:56:20,986
- I weigh about 300 pounds.
- Yeah, it's Moby, isn't it?
709
00:56:21,029 --> 00:56:23,554
One of the sexiest men...
710
00:56:23,597 --> 00:56:27,340
[cheering and applause]
711
00:56:30,387 --> 00:56:33,390
MOBY: David Bowie
was my favorite musician
of all time.
712
00:56:33,433 --> 00:56:35,522
- [camera shutter clicks]
- Maybe 2000, 2001...
713
00:56:35,566 --> 00:56:38,786
He moved across the street to me
and I couldn't believe it.
714
00:56:38,830 --> 00:56:41,223
Like I became friends
with David Bowie.
715
00:56:41,267 --> 00:56:43,835
Some of the moments that
he and I had together,
716
00:56:43,878 --> 00:56:45,967
I almost feel like
there was maybe like
717
00:56:46,011 --> 00:56:50,450
a quasi older brother quality
to his friendship with me.
718
00:56:50,494 --> 00:56:53,584
And we had barbecues together.
We went to the deli together.
719
00:56:53,627 --> 00:56:55,934
We got tea together and we
worked on music together,
720
00:56:55,977 --> 00:56:59,198
and we had holidays together
and dinners together.
721
00:56:59,241 --> 00:57:00,808
And we got to go
on tour together.
722
00:57:00,852 --> 00:57:02,810
David Bowie and Moby!
723
00:57:04,986 --> 00:57:07,075
[band playing]
724
00:57:13,255 --> 00:57:16,824
♪ Sitting here wishing
on a cement floor ♪
725
00:57:16,868 --> 00:57:21,612
♪ Just wishing that I had
just something you wore ♪
726
00:57:23,875 --> 00:57:27,487
♪ I put it on
when I grow lonely ♪
727
00:57:27,531 --> 00:57:31,839
♪ Won't you take off your dress
and send it to me? ♪
728
00:57:35,060 --> 00:57:39,107
♪ I miss your kiss
and then I miss your head ♪
729
00:57:39,151 --> 00:57:43,242
♪ And a letter in your writing
doesn't mean you're not dead ♪
730
00:57:45,853 --> 00:57:49,770
♪ Just run outside
in the desert heat ♪
731
00:57:49,814 --> 00:57:54,296
♪ Make your dress all wet
then send it to me ♪
732
00:57:56,081 --> 00:58:00,607
Here I was, this panicking,
alcoholic, bald musician
733
00:58:00,651 --> 00:58:03,349
who thought his career was over.
734
00:58:03,392 --> 00:58:05,699
And then all of a sudden
my career wasn't just over,
735
00:58:05,743 --> 00:58:07,788
but it had become
like actual rock stardom.
736
00:58:07,832 --> 00:58:09,877
♪ And I miss your breath
737
00:58:09,921 --> 00:58:12,880
♪ And a little bit of writing
doesn't mean you're dead ♪
738
00:58:12,924 --> 00:58:15,404
I'd walk down the street
and people knew who I was,
739
00:58:15,448 --> 00:58:19,234
and I would go to parties
and women I'd never met
would flirt with me
740
00:58:19,278 --> 00:58:25,327
and then headlining
my own festival, you know,
with New Order and Outkast
741
00:58:25,371 --> 00:58:27,547
and these big bands
opening up for me.
742
00:58:27,591 --> 00:58:31,333
ERIC: I mean
an album like Play
transcends the music industry
743
00:58:31,377 --> 00:58:34,728
because it became
a mainstream phenomenon.
744
00:58:34,772 --> 00:58:39,603
MOBY: It ultimately completely
corrupted and ruined me,
745
00:58:39,646 --> 00:58:42,519
but at the time
it was so much fun
746
00:58:42,562 --> 00:58:45,783
to go from being
kind of a washed-up has-been
747
00:58:45,826 --> 00:58:49,221
to dating movie stars
and going to these parties
and making a lot of money
748
00:58:49,264 --> 00:58:52,006
and touring and playing in front
of tens of thousands of people.
749
00:58:52,050 --> 00:58:57,142
Like maybe I should pretend
it wasn't great, but for
a minute it was really great.
750
00:58:57,185 --> 00:58:59,274
And it was mind boggling.
751
00:58:59,318 --> 00:59:02,277
And every day I drank more.
752
00:59:02,321 --> 00:59:05,933
I started doing
a lot of drugs, and...
753
00:59:08,153 --> 00:59:12,549
it was amazing,
but terrible at the same time.
754
00:59:12,592 --> 00:59:17,292
I mean like my narcissism,
my entitlement,
just were really out of control.
755
00:59:19,599 --> 00:59:22,123
Yeah. Um...
756
00:59:22,167 --> 00:59:24,125
Do you want me
to pick you up anything here?
757
00:59:24,169 --> 00:59:26,432
Yeah. It's an Indian grocery.
758
00:59:30,436 --> 00:59:32,220
[ethereal ambience playing]
759
01:00:10,432 --> 01:00:13,261
Hi. So we're here
talking to Moby,
760
01:00:13,305 --> 01:00:18,658
and, uh, I want to ask him
some questions about fame.
761
01:00:18,702 --> 01:00:23,402
So, Moby, what are your thoughts
about the world of fame?
762
01:00:23,445 --> 01:00:26,013
How did you buy into fame?
763
01:00:26,057 --> 01:00:29,756
And why would you think it was
so important to you?
764
01:00:29,800 --> 01:00:31,671
It's confusing to me.
765
01:00:31,715 --> 01:00:35,066
I think that you're not
a stupid person.
766
01:00:35,109 --> 01:00:38,765
So why do you think you bought
into the cold culture of fame?
767
01:00:38,809 --> 01:00:43,422
I think I just saw it as a way
of, I dunno, very simply
it made me feel better.
768
01:00:43,465 --> 01:00:48,470
It made me feel like I had
legitimacy, and meaning,
that my life had worth.
769
01:00:48,514 --> 01:00:53,258
So you keep saying that, not
having worth and legitimacy,
and how do you feel now?
770
01:00:53,301 --> 01:00:56,087
I mean, how do you think
you got out of that pattern?
771
01:00:56,130 --> 01:00:59,351
How do you measure yourself?
Playwas your
biggest hit, right?
772
01:00:59,394 --> 01:01:01,396
- MOBY: Mm-hmm.
- You've never topped that
since.
773
01:01:01,440 --> 01:01:03,616
- No.
- Why?
774
01:01:03,660 --> 01:01:06,314
Uh...
That's a good question.
775
01:01:06,358 --> 01:01:08,795
You keep saying that,
that's what I'm here to do.
776
01:01:08,839 --> 01:01:10,144
- Yeah.
- [falsetto characters warbling]
777
01:01:10,188 --> 01:01:12,843
And I'm, I don't know.
778
01:01:12,886 --> 01:01:16,411
Like I desperately wanted them
to be as successful as Play
779
01:01:16,455 --> 01:01:19,240
and it would make me sad
that each record was
sort of like
780
01:01:19,284 --> 01:01:21,373
successively less successful...
781
01:01:21,416 --> 01:01:22,330
- [falsetto character warbles]
- And...
782
01:01:22,374 --> 01:01:24,463
Do you analyze it?
783
01:01:24,506 --> 01:01:29,381
We've talked about this,
when Playbecame
successful, I loved it.
784
01:01:29,424 --> 01:01:32,340
I pretended
I didn't really care.
785
01:01:32,384 --> 01:01:36,431
I tried really hard
to pretend when I talked
to journalists or people
786
01:01:36,475 --> 01:01:40,087
that fame didn't matter to me,
but I loved it.
787
01:01:43,874 --> 01:01:46,441
Were you anxious?
Depressed?
788
01:01:46,485 --> 01:01:47,921
What were you going through?
789
01:01:47,965 --> 01:01:51,011
I was angry.
I was like an addict, you know.
790
01:01:51,055 --> 01:01:55,712
Like a baby who was being weaned
from his mother's breast.
791
01:01:55,755 --> 01:01:59,933
Like an addict who like,
the crack pipe
was being taken away from me.
792
01:01:59,977 --> 01:02:03,371
And I was angry,
and I was scared, and I was sad,
793
01:02:03,415 --> 01:02:08,855
and I just wanted anything
that would bring
the fame back to me.
794
01:02:10,770 --> 01:02:12,467
As your therapist,
795
01:02:12,511 --> 01:02:15,862
it's my professional
and personal opinion
796
01:02:15,906 --> 01:02:19,126
that you are a sad
and broken human being.
797
01:02:21,128 --> 01:02:23,609
I mean, you know what I'm
talking about, right?
798
01:02:25,742 --> 01:02:27,744
♪ Ooh-ooh
799
01:02:30,921 --> 01:02:34,402
♪ Beneath the sorrow tree
800
01:02:37,101 --> 01:02:39,799
♪ Ooh-ooh
801
01:02:42,497 --> 01:02:46,719
♪ Beneath the sorrow tree
802
01:02:48,547 --> 01:02:51,680
♪ Ooh-ooh
803
01:02:53,857 --> 01:02:57,948
♪ Beneath the sorrow tree
804
01:02:59,471 --> 01:03:03,127
♪ Ooh-ooh
805
01:03:03,170 --> 01:03:07,435
[cheering and applause]
806
01:03:07,479 --> 01:03:11,439
[discordant
ambient music playing]
807
01:03:11,483 --> 01:03:15,182
♪ Beneath the sorrow tree
808
01:03:15,226 --> 01:03:18,142
[discordant electronica echoing]
809
01:03:32,243 --> 01:03:35,768
[electronica growing louder]
810
01:03:35,812 --> 01:03:38,553
[electronica buzzing,
clattering]
811
01:03:47,258 --> 01:03:50,000
[somber orchestral chords
over clattering]
812
01:04:03,622 --> 01:04:05,189
Oh, hey.
813
01:04:06,494 --> 01:04:08,845
I didn't expect
to see you down here.
814
01:04:12,065 --> 01:04:14,111
Wow, I haven't seen you
in a while.
815
01:04:14,154 --> 01:04:15,721
Ha.
816
01:04:15,764 --> 01:04:19,638
I never really understood
what you were.
817
01:04:19,681 --> 01:04:24,425
You're an alien,
but are you an alien bug?
818
01:04:24,469 --> 01:04:26,558
'Cause you have antenna.
819
01:04:26,601 --> 01:04:29,561
You're sort of a self-portrait.
820
01:04:29,604 --> 01:04:32,259
You're bald except for antenna.
821
01:04:32,303 --> 01:04:34,131
I'm bald.
822
01:04:34,174 --> 01:04:37,874
You come from another planet.
I come from another planet.
823
01:04:37,917 --> 01:04:40,354
- [chimes jingling]
- Do you want to
go for one more,
824
01:04:40,398 --> 01:04:42,487
do you want to go for a ride?
825
01:04:42,530 --> 01:04:45,098
Is your, your ship is here?
826
01:04:47,492 --> 01:04:51,061
Okay. Let's go for one,
you want to?
Yeah, let's go.
827
01:04:51,104 --> 01:04:56,109
The status quo wasn't going
to last, I didn't want
to admit that to myself.
828
01:04:56,153 --> 01:04:58,155
And then I started getting
really bad reviews.
829
01:04:58,198 --> 01:05:00,679
Like I remember
The New York Timesgave
one of my records a review
830
01:05:00,722 --> 01:05:03,073
where they said it was so bad,
it represented the end of music.
831
01:05:03,116 --> 01:05:05,771
- Really?
- Yeah. It was on the homepage
of The New York Times
832
01:05:05,814 --> 01:05:07,599
- for a week.
- The end of music.
833
01:05:07,642 --> 01:05:09,731
And there were people
writing in comments about
834
01:05:09,775 --> 01:05:12,734
not just that they didn't
like me, but they wanted
to stab me to death.
835
01:05:12,778 --> 01:05:14,954
They wanted to kick me
to death on the street.
836
01:05:14,998 --> 01:05:17,957
- They wanted to hang me.
- Where is this?
837
01:05:18,001 --> 01:05:20,699
Just like where people like
write crazy ass stuff.
838
01:05:20,742 --> 01:05:23,876
And it was, it really started
to freak me out.
839
01:05:23,920 --> 01:05:26,357
'Cause I was like,
oh, this is the media.
840
01:05:26,400 --> 01:05:28,315
- Right.
- This is the thing that I love.
841
01:05:28,359 --> 01:05:31,101
This is the thing that I need
to feel good about myself.
842
01:05:31,144 --> 01:05:35,148
And not only are they paying
less attention to me,
843
01:05:35,192 --> 01:05:40,414
but the attention they're paying
to me is so hurtful.
844
01:05:40,458 --> 01:05:41,850
- Right.
- You know?
845
01:05:41,894 --> 01:05:45,680
And so, and it...
it really was disconcerting.
846
01:05:47,987 --> 01:05:49,989
- WOMAN: You suck!
- [crowd booing]
847
01:05:50,033 --> 01:05:52,296
Nobody listens to techno!
848
01:05:52,339 --> 01:05:56,082
Nobody listens to techno!
849
01:05:56,126 --> 01:05:59,085
Nobody listens to techno!
850
01:05:59,129 --> 01:06:01,958
You suck!
851
01:06:02,001 --> 01:06:05,004
MAN: [drunkenly] You suuuuck!
852
01:06:05,048 --> 01:06:06,701
[distorted booing]
853
01:06:06,745 --> 01:06:08,486
You suuuuck!
854
01:06:08,529 --> 01:06:10,270
[booing continues]
855
01:06:10,314 --> 01:06:15,362
[slowing down, echoing]
Nobody listens to techno!
856
01:06:17,147 --> 01:06:21,020
I was in Barcelona
for the MTV Music Awards,
857
01:06:21,064 --> 01:06:24,632
and I'd been told beforehand
that I was going to be winning
an MTV Music Award.
858
01:06:24,676 --> 01:06:27,157
And it was going to be
my third or fourth
859
01:06:27,200 --> 01:06:30,160
or fifth MTV Music Award
that I was winning.
860
01:06:30,203 --> 01:06:34,816
And I got to my hotel
in Barcelona the night before
the MTV Music Awards.
861
01:06:34,860 --> 01:06:41,171
And I was at the top of one
of the most elegant hotels
I've ever been to.
862
01:06:41,214 --> 01:06:43,086
It's called the Arts Hotel.
863
01:06:43,129 --> 01:06:47,742
And there were four huge
apartments at the top
of this hotel,
864
01:06:47,786 --> 01:06:51,833
and my neighbors were P. Diddy,
Bon Jovi, and Madonna.
865
01:06:51,877 --> 01:06:54,053
So the four of us
were sharing this floor.
866
01:06:54,097 --> 01:06:56,186
It's overlooking Barcelona
and the Mediterranean.
867
01:07:02,235 --> 01:07:07,588
And that night I ended up
getting very drunk...
868
01:07:07,632 --> 01:07:12,680
and everything was perfect.
869
01:07:12,724 --> 01:07:16,989
You know,
everything I'd ever wanted had
been given to me, even more so.
870
01:07:17,033 --> 01:07:19,252
You know, like I just wanted
to make a few obscure records
871
01:07:19,296 --> 01:07:24,605
and all of a sudden, like I'm
at the top of this crazy hotel
872
01:07:24,649 --> 01:07:27,869
and I've sold 10
or 20 million records.
873
01:07:27,913 --> 01:07:34,224
And everything had been given
to me that I'd ever wanted
times a million.
874
01:07:34,267 --> 01:07:37,444
And I was so despondent.
875
01:07:37,488 --> 01:07:42,188
How strange it was that
I've been given everything
876
01:07:42,232 --> 01:07:44,886
and I'd never been more
depressed.
877
01:07:47,367 --> 01:07:51,110
And one of the only things
that kept me from killing myself
was the fact
878
01:07:51,154 --> 01:07:54,722
that the windows in the hotel
didn't open wide enough.
879
01:08:00,250 --> 01:08:02,426
And I was even annoyed at that.
880
01:08:02,469 --> 01:08:06,473
I was like, wow,
I can't even kill myself.
881
01:08:06,517 --> 01:08:10,434
Even that somehow is denied me.
882
01:08:10,477 --> 01:08:12,914
It was such an odd moment
883
01:08:12,958 --> 01:08:17,528
to be at what was ostensibly
the pinnacle of my career
884
01:08:17,571 --> 01:08:19,834
and the pinnacle of my life
885
01:08:19,878 --> 01:08:22,488
and to have never been
more depressed.
886
01:08:24,143 --> 01:08:26,450
[choral music echoing
in background]
887
01:08:44,032 --> 01:08:47,166
I went back to New York,
and I just started
drinking more,
888
01:08:47,210 --> 01:08:49,299
and I started doing cocaine.
889
01:08:49,342 --> 01:08:52,040
I'd always avoided cocaine
because of all the drugs,
890
01:08:52,084 --> 01:08:53,912
that was the one
that scared me the most.
891
01:08:53,955 --> 01:08:55,914
So I was having 15 drinks
a night,
892
01:08:55,957 --> 01:08:59,047
a couple hundred dollars' worth
of cocaine every night,
893
01:08:59,091 --> 01:09:01,310
and then every morning
at like 7:00,
894
01:09:01,353 --> 01:09:04,183
I would try to go to sleep
and I would take Xanax
895
01:09:04,227 --> 01:09:10,494
and Vicodin and I would wake up
so disappointed
896
01:09:10,537 --> 01:09:12,322
that I was still alive.
897
01:09:12,365 --> 01:09:15,889
And it got to the point where
when I went to sleep,
898
01:09:15,934 --> 01:09:18,327
all I wanted
was to never wake up.
899
01:09:18,371 --> 01:09:22,680
But somehow, and maybe I'm like
part cockroach or part rat,
900
01:09:22,723 --> 01:09:25,987
I just kept waking up, you know,
at 4 or 5 in the afternoon
901
01:09:26,031 --> 01:09:28,728
so disappointed
I was still alive.
902
01:09:28,773 --> 01:09:31,602
And I was physically,
I was starting to turn gray,
903
01:09:31,645 --> 01:09:36,476
and I was all puffy,
and I had this like
alcoholic bloatedness.
904
01:09:36,520 --> 01:09:38,348
There were complete strangers
in my apartment.
905
01:09:38,390 --> 01:09:41,219
People were smoking
crystal meth in my bathroom.
906
01:09:41,264 --> 01:09:43,527
There are people I'd never met
having sex in my bed.
907
01:09:43,569 --> 01:09:48,401
Finally in 2008, I think
I just bottomed out,
908
01:09:48,444 --> 01:09:54,190
you know, in every way,
like physically,
emotionally, spiritually.
909
01:09:54,233 --> 01:10:00,065
Yeah. And then 2008,
October, 2008, I finally
stopped drinking.
910
01:10:00,108 --> 01:10:02,719
[muffled music pounding,
liquid burbling]
911
01:10:07,594 --> 01:10:10,902
♪ I would stand
in line for this ♪
912
01:10:12,817 --> 01:10:16,212
♪ There's always room
in life for this ♪
913
01:10:18,388 --> 01:10:22,957
♪ Oh babe, oh babe
914
01:10:23,001 --> 01:10:25,786
♪ Then it fell apart
915
01:10:25,830 --> 01:10:29,007
♪ It fell apart
916
01:10:29,050 --> 01:10:31,531
♪ Oh babe
917
01:10:31,575 --> 01:10:33,577
♪ Oh babe
918
01:10:33,620 --> 01:10:36,449
♪ Then it fell apart
919
01:10:36,493 --> 01:10:39,626
♪ It fell apart
920
01:10:39,670 --> 01:10:42,063
♪ I had to close down
everything ♪
921
01:10:42,107 --> 01:10:44,240
♪ I had to
close down my mind ♪
922
01:10:44,282 --> 01:10:47,155
♪ Too many things
could cut me ♪
923
01:10:47,199 --> 01:10:49,809
♪ Too much can
make me blind ♪
924
01:10:49,853 --> 01:10:52,422
♪ I've seen so much
in so many places ♪
925
01:10:52,465 --> 01:10:55,120
♪ So many heartaches,
so many faces ♪
926
01:10:55,163 --> 01:10:57,383
♪ So many dirty things
927
01:10:57,427 --> 01:11:00,473
♪ You couldn't even believe
928
01:11:00,517 --> 01:11:05,261
♪ I would stand
in line for this ♪
929
01:11:05,304 --> 01:11:08,438
♪ There's always room
in life for this ♪
930
01:11:12,355 --> 01:11:14,618
♪ What you say my name was?
931
01:11:14,661 --> 01:11:15,662
♪ Say it
932
01:11:17,273 --> 01:11:20,362
♪ What you say my name was?
933
01:11:20,406 --> 01:11:22,407
♪ Ah, say it when
934
01:11:22,452 --> 01:11:25,281
♪ I know I can
935
01:11:25,324 --> 01:11:27,239
♪ But I know I can
936
01:11:27,282 --> 01:11:32,026
♪ Well, I know
I can't find no... ♪
937
01:11:32,070 --> 01:11:33,853
♪ Oh babe
938
01:11:33,898 --> 01:11:36,030
♪ Oh babe
939
01:11:36,074 --> 01:11:39,120
♪ Then it fell apart
940
01:11:39,164 --> 01:11:40,948
♪ It fell apart
941
01:11:42,210 --> 01:11:44,343
♪ Oh babe
942
01:11:44,387 --> 01:11:46,650
♪ Oh babe
943
01:11:46,693 --> 01:11:49,348
♪ Then it fell apart
944
01:11:49,392 --> 01:11:52,046
♪ It fell apart
945
01:11:52,090 --> 01:11:55,049
♪ Oh babe
946
01:11:55,093 --> 01:11:57,574
♪ Oh babe
947
01:11:57,617 --> 01:12:00,272
♪ Then it fell apart
948
01:12:00,316 --> 01:12:02,709
♪ It fell apart
949
01:12:02,753 --> 01:12:05,451
♪ Oh babe
950
01:12:05,495 --> 01:12:07,366
♪ Oh babe
951
01:12:07,410 --> 01:12:09,803
♪ Like it always does
952
01:12:09,847 --> 01:12:13,719
♪ Always does
953
01:12:20,335 --> 01:12:27,386
[cheering and applause]
954
01:12:27,430 --> 01:12:29,562
In the crack neighborhood
in Stamford, I was happier.
955
01:12:29,606 --> 01:12:32,130
Making $3,000 a year,
I was happier.
956
01:12:32,173 --> 01:12:34,741
Paying $50 a month
so I could squat,
957
01:12:34,785 --> 01:12:37,744
I was happier than when I was
living overlooking Central Park.
958
01:12:37,788 --> 01:12:40,138
Felt like such a confused...
959
01:12:40,181 --> 01:12:43,880
'cause I had thought
that living in this perfect home
was going to fix everything.
960
01:12:43,924 --> 01:12:48,451
Like, how couldn't it?
When I found the perfect home,
I would be perfectly happy.
961
01:12:48,494 --> 01:12:53,369
When you set your sights,
you know you spend your entire
life working towards something
962
01:12:53,412 --> 01:12:55,240
and you achieve it
and you're less happy
963
01:12:55,282 --> 01:12:58,416
than before you even started
working to achieve it,
964
01:12:58,460 --> 01:13:00,724
you don't know what else to do.
965
01:13:00,767 --> 01:13:02,726
- [horn beeps]
- [animals squawking]
966
01:13:02,769 --> 01:13:06,860
Give up the familiar,
even if it's killing you,
967
01:13:06,904 --> 01:13:10,124
and you have to figure out
then what works.
968
01:14:01,088 --> 01:14:02,438
[cow moos]
969
01:14:06,485 --> 01:14:08,618
90% of rainforest deforestation,
970
01:14:08,661 --> 01:14:11,184
probably 75% of erectile
dysfunction...
971
01:14:11,228 --> 01:14:13,318
[audience laughing]
972
01:14:13,361 --> 01:14:15,494
40% of California's water use,
973
01:14:15,538 --> 01:14:18,148
50% of cancer, diabetes,
heart disease,
974
01:14:18,192 --> 01:14:20,237
close to 100% of famine,
975
01:14:20,281 --> 01:14:22,501
'cause all the food that they're
feeding the cows, et cetera,
976
01:14:22,545 --> 01:14:23,633
could be fed to people.
977
01:14:23,675 --> 01:14:25,852
50% of ocean acidification.
978
01:14:25,896 --> 01:14:29,639
So in one fell swoop,
you address all these
environmental issues
979
01:14:29,682 --> 01:14:32,990
just by stopping subsidizing
animal agriculture.
980
01:14:33,032 --> 01:14:34,687
That's my quick spiel.
981
01:14:34,731 --> 01:14:37,516
[crowd murmuring]
982
01:14:42,521 --> 01:14:46,046
I think people should speak up
about what they believe in.
983
01:14:46,090 --> 01:14:47,874
So, Moby, more power to him,
you know.
984
01:14:47,918 --> 01:14:51,530
What he's speaking about
all the time is,
are positive things.
985
01:14:51,574 --> 01:14:55,882
And... but he's known for,
you know, great music.
986
01:14:55,925 --> 01:15:00,931
And I think Moby really does,
you know, love, you know,
what he does
987
01:15:00,974 --> 01:15:02,933
and more power to him.
988
01:15:02,976 --> 01:15:04,543
Just keep on making
that great music, Mo.
989
01:15:04,587 --> 01:15:07,327
Just as an aside, not to take up
too much time,
990
01:15:07,371 --> 01:15:09,505
but like, have you
looked around recently?
991
01:15:09,548 --> 01:15:12,072
This is real.
992
01:15:12,116 --> 01:15:14,945
- Like, you know?
- [applause]
993
01:15:14,987 --> 01:15:16,555
I mean,
you look at the space,
994
01:15:16,599 --> 01:15:19,079
and you look at the people,
this is real.
995
01:15:19,123 --> 01:15:21,168
Like I've been a vegan
for 30 years.
996
01:15:21,212 --> 01:15:24,041
30 years ago,
this didn't exist.
997
01:15:24,084 --> 01:15:25,651
[applause]
998
01:15:25,695 --> 01:15:27,305
So let's just take a moment.
999
01:15:27,348 --> 01:15:30,134
I mean,
we have a long way to go,
1000
01:15:30,177 --> 01:15:31,657
but boy, we've come so far.
1001
01:15:31,701 --> 01:15:33,790
[applause]
1002
01:15:33,833 --> 01:15:38,098
Moby and I are super excited
to present this evening's
incredible news.
1003
01:15:38,142 --> 01:15:41,014
In just a few weeks,
we will be launching
1004
01:15:41,058 --> 01:15:45,584
the world's first ever
vegan music festival
right here in Los Angeles.
1005
01:15:45,628 --> 01:15:47,151
[cheering]
1006
01:15:52,983 --> 01:15:56,813
[indistinct introduction,
crowd cheering]
1007
01:15:59,380 --> 01:16:03,297
First off just once again,
thank you to everyone.
1008
01:16:03,341 --> 01:16:05,343
- And...
- [applause]
1009
01:16:05,386 --> 01:16:08,128
...one last thing before
we play this song.
1010
01:16:08,172 --> 01:16:10,478
Maybe this is
smug of me to say this,
1011
01:16:10,522 --> 01:16:12,437
but we're on the right side
of history.
1012
01:16:12,480 --> 01:16:14,918
- Whoo!
- [cheering and applause]
1013
01:16:14,960 --> 01:16:17,746
It was just a given
that at some point
1014
01:16:17,790 --> 01:16:21,794
people will look
at animal agriculture
in the past
1015
01:16:21,838 --> 01:16:24,014
the way we now look at slavery,
1016
01:16:24,057 --> 01:16:26,843
or the way that we look
at like women not being
allowed to vote,
1017
01:16:26,886 --> 01:16:31,237
or the way we look
at African-Americans
and Caucasians
1018
01:16:31,282 --> 01:16:33,240
not being allowed
to use the same drinking
fountain.
1019
01:16:33,284 --> 01:16:37,809
Like as
Martin Luther King Jr. said,
and we often paraphrase,
1020
01:16:37,853 --> 01:16:41,379
the moral arc of the universe
is long and it bends
towards justice.
1021
01:16:41,422 --> 01:16:44,556
It also bends towards
the pragmatic reason.
1022
01:16:44,600 --> 01:16:48,778
And there's so many reasons
to consider veganism.
1023
01:16:48,821 --> 01:16:53,085
Like using animals for food is
the dumbest, cruelest thing
1024
01:16:53,130 --> 01:16:56,002
that we have ever done
collectively as a species.
1025
01:16:56,046 --> 01:16:58,091
- [cheering and applause]
- And to that end,
1026
01:16:58,135 --> 01:16:59,876
I know it's going to stop,
1027
01:16:59,919 --> 01:17:03,270
especially because everybody
here and people around the world
1028
01:17:03,314 --> 01:17:05,098
are working so hard on it.
1029
01:17:05,142 --> 01:17:08,014
So I would like to dedicate
this song to all the ravers
1030
01:17:08,058 --> 01:17:11,191
and all the animal rights
activists, and everyone.
1031
01:17:11,235 --> 01:17:12,192
Thanks.
1032
01:17:12,236 --> 01:17:14,934
[electronica playing]
1033
01:17:23,508 --> 01:17:27,599
♪ I'm feeling so real
1034
01:17:27,643 --> 01:17:29,645
♪ Love that you feel it now
1035
01:17:29,688 --> 01:17:33,823
♪ I'm feeling so real
1036
01:17:33,866 --> 01:17:35,607
♪ Love that you feel it
1037
01:17:35,651 --> 01:17:39,655
♪ I'm feeling so real
1038
01:17:41,744 --> 01:17:45,269
♪ I'm...
[voice electronically
distorted]
1039
01:18:02,503 --> 01:18:06,333
♪ I'm feeling so real
1040
01:18:06,377 --> 01:18:08,379
♪ Love that you feel now
1041
01:18:08,422 --> 01:18:12,165
♪ I'm feeling so real
1042
01:18:12,209 --> 01:18:14,124
♪ Love that we're
feeling now! ♪
1043
01:18:14,166 --> 01:18:18,344
♪ I'm feeling so real
1044
01:18:18,389 --> 01:18:20,085
♪ Love that you feel now
1045
01:18:20,130 --> 01:18:24,568
♪ I'm feeling so real
1046
01:18:24,612 --> 01:18:26,832
♪ Love that you feel now
1047
01:18:26,876 --> 01:18:29,879
[crowd whistling and applauding]
1048
01:18:29,922 --> 01:18:33,360
Thank you, thank you, thank you,
thank you, thank you...
1049
01:18:56,469 --> 01:18:58,342
[thunder crashing]
1050
01:19:01,824 --> 01:19:03,608
[wind whistling]
1051
01:19:11,007 --> 01:19:15,968
As I've gotten older,
the world of people just
doesn't interest me as much.
1052
01:19:23,846 --> 01:19:25,630
[eagle screeching]
1053
01:19:28,851 --> 01:19:32,593
Nothing that humans make
ever compares
1054
01:19:33,943 --> 01:19:35,727
to what I can find in nature.
1055
01:19:37,380 --> 01:19:39,339
There are no signs.
1056
01:19:39,383 --> 01:19:41,341
There's no advertisements.
1057
01:19:41,385 --> 01:19:47,608
There's this wonderful,
still indifference to us.
1058
01:19:50,394 --> 01:19:55,050
As humans, we love feeling
a sense of significance
1059
01:19:55,094 --> 01:19:58,402
and we spend our whole lives
pursuing significance
1060
01:19:58,445 --> 01:20:03,710
and trying
to maintain the fiction
that we have great significance,
1061
01:20:03,755 --> 01:20:07,280
but there's something really
refreshing and nice
1062
01:20:07,324 --> 01:20:10,806
about giving up
any sense of significance
1063
01:20:10,849 --> 01:20:15,505
and just remembering our place
in the order of things.
1064
01:20:17,987 --> 01:20:20,859
And even though I'm still crazy,
1065
01:20:20,903 --> 01:20:24,166
I think I've hopefully
figured out
1066
01:20:24,210 --> 01:20:27,213
how to avoid looking
for like big, giant things
1067
01:20:27,257 --> 01:20:31,434
to fix more like small
internal problems, but...
1068
01:20:34,003 --> 01:20:36,222
Where am, where am I?
1069
01:20:39,050 --> 01:20:41,053
[geese honking]
1070
01:20:53,805 --> 01:20:56,025
[techno chords playing,
liquid burbling]
1071
01:21:06,121 --> 01:21:07,775
[static buzzing]
1072
01:21:10,735 --> 01:21:12,476
[somber orchestral chords
playing]
1073
01:21:31,582 --> 01:21:33,889
[piano playing somber arpeggios]
1074
01:21:56,999 --> 01:21:59,088
[techno chords playing]
1075
01:22:08,575 --> 01:22:10,925
[fireworks whistling, popping]
1076
01:22:14,233 --> 01:22:17,280
[electronica buzzing]
1077
01:22:17,323 --> 01:22:19,543
[percussion pounding]
1078
01:24:04,865 --> 01:24:06,650
[wind whistling]
1079
01:24:15,050 --> 01:24:17,052
[birds squawking, singing]
1080
01:24:22,840 --> 01:24:24,581
[bees droning]
1081
01:24:24,624 --> 01:24:26,757
[crows cawing]
1082
01:24:29,585 --> 01:24:32,719
[background rumbling,
growing louder]
1083
01:24:38,160 --> 01:24:41,032
[ominous echoes droning]
1084
01:24:41,076 --> 01:24:42,947
[exotic birds trilling]
1085
01:24:46,168 --> 01:24:48,692
[rumbling growing louder]
1086
01:25:30,734 --> 01:25:32,083
- [ambient music stops]
- MOBY: Hey, Hey.
1087
01:25:32,127 --> 01:25:33,867
Hey. Hey.
1088
01:25:33,911 --> 01:25:35,869
Death. Hey!
1089
01:25:35,913 --> 01:25:38,002
[footsteps crunching ground]
1090
01:25:38,045 --> 01:25:39,308
Hey.
1091
01:25:43,486 --> 01:25:44,748
Hey.
1092
01:25:45,879 --> 01:25:47,272
Whoa.
1093
01:25:47,316 --> 01:25:48,665
[clears throat]
1094
01:25:48,708 --> 01:25:50,188
Hey, Death.
1095
01:25:55,802 --> 01:25:57,543
Ugh!
1096
01:25:57,587 --> 01:25:58,978
Hey, Death.
1097
01:26:01,025 --> 01:26:03,288
Hey.
1098
01:26:03,332 --> 01:26:05,160
What are you doing out here?
1099
01:26:06,639 --> 01:26:10,469
[static feedback squealing]
1100
01:26:10,513 --> 01:26:12,297
No.
1101
01:26:12,341 --> 01:26:14,778
I mean, it's a beautiful day.
You want to go for a walk?
1102
01:26:14,821 --> 01:26:17,084
[static feedback squealing]
1103
01:26:17,128 --> 01:26:19,826
Nah, come on. It's...
It's a nice day.
1104
01:26:22,089 --> 01:26:26,093
So it might sound weird,
1105
01:26:26,137 --> 01:26:29,227
but I could almost,
in an odd way,
1106
01:26:29,271 --> 01:26:31,621
say that I'm sort of a fan
of your work...
1107
01:26:31,664 --> 01:26:33,840
- [static feedback squealing]
- ...because...
1108
01:26:33,884 --> 01:26:37,322
Yeah, I know,
I think a lot of people have
1109
01:26:37,366 --> 01:26:39,324
some weird opinions about you,
1110
01:26:39,368 --> 01:26:42,588
but I'm also
an animal rights activist,
1111
01:26:42,632 --> 01:26:46,592
and for most animals,
especially the ones
on factory farms, like,
1112
01:26:46,636 --> 01:26:50,161
who experience nothing
in their entire lives
but sickness and suffering,
1113
01:26:50,205 --> 01:26:55,035
like without you, there's
no end to their suffering.
1114
01:26:55,079 --> 01:27:00,563
I mean think of all the sick
and suffering people.
1115
01:27:00,606 --> 01:27:03,087
You know, without you,
1116
01:27:03,130 --> 01:27:07,004
there is quite literally
no end to their suffering.
1117
01:27:07,047 --> 01:27:10,616
I mean, you are merciful.
1118
01:27:10,660 --> 01:27:14,664
And I think it's also a little
strange that people
are afraid of you
1119
01:27:14,707 --> 01:27:16,969
and have such negative opinions
about you because
1120
01:27:17,014 --> 01:27:23,063
you're the only, literally,
the only guarantee
in people's lives.
1121
01:27:23,107 --> 01:27:26,632
Yeah, I'm really,
I mean, look, I mean,
1122
01:27:26,675 --> 01:27:29,244
I meet a lot of public figures
1123
01:27:29,287 --> 01:27:35,075
and I really don't want
to be some fan weirdo,
1124
01:27:35,119 --> 01:27:37,687
but yeah, I...
1125
01:27:37,730 --> 01:27:38,905
I, I...
1126
01:27:38,949 --> 01:27:41,081
But I am wondering,
1127
01:27:41,125 --> 01:27:45,129
and I hear... you probably
hear this all the time,
1128
01:27:45,172 --> 01:27:49,089
but like what happens
after we die?
1129
01:27:49,133 --> 01:27:52,267
[static feedback squealing]
1130
01:27:56,749 --> 01:27:58,403
[electronica playing]
1131
01:28:47,191 --> 01:28:50,281
[muffled echoes,
liquid burbling]
1132
01:29:15,915 --> 01:29:20,877
♪ Oh...
1133
01:29:20,920 --> 01:29:25,751
♪ We close our eyes
1134
01:29:25,795 --> 01:29:29,494
♪ The perfect life
1135
01:29:29,538 --> 01:29:31,496
♪ Life
1136
01:29:31,540 --> 01:29:34,107
♪ Is all we need
1137
01:29:34,151 --> 01:29:35,413
Everybody! Come on.
1138
01:29:35,457 --> 01:29:37,763
- ♪ Ah, ah...
- Make some noise!
1139
01:29:37,807 --> 01:29:42,159
♪ Oh
1140
01:29:42,202 --> 01:29:47,730
♪ We close our eyes
1141
01:29:47,773 --> 01:29:50,994
♪ The perfect life
1142
01:29:51,037 --> 01:29:52,822
♪ Life
1143
01:29:52,865 --> 01:29:56,173
♪ Is all we need
1144
01:29:56,216 --> 01:29:58,784
- One more, come on.
- A cappella.
1145
01:29:58,827 --> 01:30:03,005
♪ Oh!
1146
01:30:03,049 --> 01:30:08,141
♪ We close our eyes
1147
01:30:08,184 --> 01:30:11,710
♪ The perfect life
1148
01:30:11,754 --> 01:30:13,538
♪ Life
1149
01:30:13,582 --> 01:30:16,454
♪ Is all we need
1150
01:30:16,498 --> 01:30:19,326
Whoo!
1151
01:30:19,370 --> 01:30:23,635
♪ Oh
1152
01:30:23,679 --> 01:30:29,293
♪ We close our eyes
1153
01:30:29,335 --> 01:30:32,469
♪ The perfect life
1154
01:30:32,514 --> 01:30:34,254
♪ Life
1155
01:30:34,298 --> 01:30:38,607
♪ Is all we need
1156
01:30:40,739 --> 01:30:44,482
[falsetto] ♪ Oh
1157
01:30:44,526 --> 01:30:50,183
♪ We close our eyes
1158
01:30:50,227 --> 01:30:53,709
♪ The perfect life
1159
01:30:53,752 --> 01:30:55,362
♪ Life
1160
01:30:55,406 --> 01:30:58,888
♪ Is all we need
1161
01:31:01,804 --> 01:31:05,547
♪ Oh
1162
01:31:05,590 --> 01:31:10,813
♪ We close our eyes
1163
01:31:10,856 --> 01:31:14,425
♪ The perfect life
1164
01:31:14,469 --> 01:31:16,035
♪ Life
1165
01:31:16,079 --> 01:31:19,125
♪ Is all we need
1166
01:31:22,346 --> 01:31:26,437
♪ Oh
1167
01:31:26,481 --> 01:31:31,877
♪ We close our eyes
1168
01:31:31,921 --> 01:31:35,446
♪ The perfect life
1169
01:31:35,490 --> 01:31:37,187
♪ Life
1170
01:31:37,230 --> 01:31:40,538
♪ Is all we need
1171
01:31:43,193 --> 01:31:47,284
♪ Oh
1172
01:31:47,327 --> 01:31:52,724
♪ We close our eyes
1173
01:31:52,768 --> 01:31:56,249
♪ The perfect life
1174
01:31:56,293 --> 01:31:58,077
♪ Life
1175
01:31:58,121 --> 01:32:01,166
♪ Is all we need
88292
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