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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:03,351 --> 00:00:06,615 [ Thunder crashes ]♪ I've got your number, lonely 2 00:00:06,658 --> 00:00:10,053 ♪ October 33 3 00:00:10,097 --> 00:00:12,360 Jackson: It's a natural progression in any profession 4 00:00:12,403 --> 00:00:14,797 for the student to become the teacher, 5 00:00:14,840 --> 00:00:16,668 the mentee to become the mentor. 6 00:00:16,712 --> 00:00:18,018 [ Thunder crashes ] 7 00:00:18,061 --> 00:00:23,240 ♪ Holds me down, like you know how, darlin' ♪ 8 00:00:23,284 --> 00:00:25,982 ♪ Hold me now 9 00:00:26,026 --> 00:00:28,071 ♪ Like you know my plight 10 00:00:28,115 --> 00:00:29,942 ♪ Got your number 11 00:00:29,986 --> 00:00:31,596 [ Thunder crashes ] 12 00:00:31,640 --> 00:00:34,599 ♪♪ 13 00:00:34,643 --> 00:00:36,645 It's not that much different from parenting. 14 00:00:36,688 --> 00:00:37,646 I'm your son. 15 00:00:37,689 --> 00:00:39,909 ♪♪ 16 00:00:39,952 --> 00:00:44,174 We learn from our ancestors how to make the perfect soup. 17 00:00:44,218 --> 00:00:47,830 ♪ I'm sending love where you are at ♪ 18 00:00:47,873 --> 00:00:51,355 How to soothe an aching head or heart. 19 00:00:51,399 --> 00:00:52,617 Woman: Your call has been forwarded 20 00:00:52,661 --> 00:00:55,577 to an automated voice messaging system. 21 00:00:55,620 --> 00:00:58,841 [ Cellphone beeps ]♪ October 33 22 00:00:58,884 --> 00:01:01,713 ♪ Your love's my only good thing ♪ 23 00:01:01,757 --> 00:01:04,499 ♪ Like, fair, fair, fair 24 00:01:04,542 --> 00:01:08,372 ♪ So, help me hear the bird sing ♪ 25 00:01:08,416 --> 00:01:11,114 ♪ I'll help you capture your dream ♪ 26 00:01:11,158 --> 00:01:14,117 ♪ Let's see it in the present 27 00:01:14,161 --> 00:01:16,337 ♪ And try to let it be 28 00:01:16,380 --> 00:01:20,254 ♪ I, I've got your number, lonely ♪ 29 00:01:20,297 --> 00:01:23,605 ♪ October 33 30 00:01:23,648 --> 00:01:26,216 ♪♪ 31 00:01:26,260 --> 00:01:28,697 ♪ Like, fair, fair, fair 32 00:01:28,740 --> 00:01:31,221 Jackson: We measure milestones and percentiles 33 00:01:31,265 --> 00:01:32,962 and first steps...[ Bell jingles ] 34 00:01:33,005 --> 00:01:36,574 ...to try and gain insight into the person they'll grow into. 35 00:01:36,618 --> 00:01:38,141 [ Knocks on door ] 36 00:01:38,185 --> 00:01:39,751 Hello?♪ October 33 37 00:01:39,795 --> 00:01:43,190 Tate, you're early. 38 00:01:43,233 --> 00:01:45,409 I've just started packing lunches. 39 00:01:45,453 --> 00:01:51,720 ♪♪ 40 00:01:51,763 --> 00:01:53,113 ♪ Crying in the back 41 00:01:53,156 --> 00:01:55,593 As if knowing a bunch of numbers on charts 42 00:01:55,637 --> 00:01:58,683 is any true measure of what we might make of ourselves. 43 00:01:58,727 --> 00:02:00,903 Jackson. 44 00:02:00,946 --> 00:02:01,991 ♪ I do, to you 45 00:02:02,034 --> 00:02:04,167 Hey, Dad. 46 00:02:04,211 --> 00:02:06,822 ♪ Hold on 47 00:02:06,865 --> 00:02:08,998 ♪ Hold on 48 00:02:09,041 --> 00:02:10,304 [ Thunder crashes ] 49 00:02:10,347 --> 00:02:12,088 ♪ Hold on 50 00:02:12,132 --> 00:02:15,526 ♪ Fair, fair, fair 51 00:02:15,570 --> 00:02:16,571 ♪♪ 52 00:02:16,614 --> 00:02:18,747 ♪ Hold on 53 00:02:18,790 --> 00:02:21,053 [ Engine shuts off, music stops ] 54 00:02:22,403 --> 00:02:26,407 [ Thunder crashes ] 55 00:02:29,453 --> 00:02:31,716 [ Doorbell rings ]Alright. 56 00:02:31,760 --> 00:02:33,196 I know it seems, like, impulsive and out of nowhere, 57 00:02:33,240 --> 00:02:35,546 but it's not -- it's just, uh... 58 00:02:35,590 --> 00:02:36,939 uh, fast. 59 00:02:36,982 --> 00:02:39,333 But it's not, like... 60 00:02:39,376 --> 00:02:40,334 impulsive, impulsive. 61 00:02:40,377 --> 00:02:42,031 It's... 62 00:02:43,511 --> 00:02:44,947 I thought it through. It's just I thought it through -- 63 00:02:44,990 --> 00:02:46,122 [ Thunder crashes ] 64 00:02:46,166 --> 00:02:47,906 Oh! 65 00:02:47,950 --> 00:02:52,259 ♪♪ 66 00:02:52,302 --> 00:02:53,651 [ Gasps ] 67 00:02:53,695 --> 00:02:56,872 ♪♪ 68 00:02:56,915 --> 00:03:05,663 [ Thunder crashes ] 69 00:03:05,707 --> 00:03:07,622 [ Dog barks in distance ] 70 00:03:10,277 --> 00:03:11,669 Everybody alive? 71 00:03:11,713 --> 00:03:13,541 Yeah. Yeah, yeah. That's not -- 72 00:03:13,584 --> 00:03:15,717 [ Clears throat ] Not why I'm here. 73 00:03:15,760 --> 00:03:17,501 I thought you were Tate. 74 00:03:17,545 --> 00:03:20,243 He delivers meals for me to people in the community that need them. 75 00:03:20,287 --> 00:03:22,289 Okay. Not Tate. 76 00:03:22,332 --> 00:03:24,726 Well, come on in. Take a load off. 77 00:03:24,769 --> 00:03:28,077 I tested clean yesterday and haven't seen anyone. 78 00:03:28,120 --> 00:03:29,383 I haven't seen anyone, either. 79 00:03:29,426 --> 00:03:30,906 I just made a fresh pot of coffee. 80 00:03:30,949 --> 00:03:33,038 Want some? I'm good. 81 00:03:34,083 --> 00:03:36,433 How have you been? 82 00:03:36,477 --> 00:03:38,087 I've been thinking a lot about you lately, 83 00:03:38,130 --> 00:03:39,741 what with everything going on in the world. 84 00:03:39,784 --> 00:03:41,221 I was gonna call, 85 00:03:41,264 --> 00:03:42,657 but the way we left things last time, 86 00:03:42,700 --> 00:03:44,398 I figured you did not want to talk to me. 87 00:03:44,441 --> 00:03:49,141 And I didn't want to be one of those added things 88 00:03:49,185 --> 00:03:51,361 on top of the pandemic to deal with. 89 00:03:53,058 --> 00:03:55,235 How have you been? 90 00:03:55,278 --> 00:03:56,888 How's your little girl? 91 00:03:56,932 --> 00:03:58,368 She must be, what... 92 00:03:58,412 --> 00:04:00,457 She's 3 1/2 years old. Her name is Harriet. 93 00:04:00,501 --> 00:04:01,632 Right. 94 00:04:04,287 --> 00:04:06,550 Look, I didn't travel all this way 95 00:04:06,594 --> 00:04:09,597 to just catch up, so, um... 96 00:04:09,640 --> 00:04:11,381 I need...answers. 97 00:04:11,425 --> 00:04:14,558 Well, I've got about 150 lunches to put together, 98 00:04:14,602 --> 00:04:15,994 so if we're gonna talk, 99 00:04:16,038 --> 00:04:17,518 why don't you grab a pair of gloves over here with me 100 00:04:17,561 --> 00:04:19,476 and, uh... 101 00:04:19,520 --> 00:04:21,217 help me out? 102 00:04:22,262 --> 00:04:23,785 [ Thunder crashes ] 103 00:04:23,828 --> 00:04:26,048 Oh, my God, it's your night. 104 00:04:26,091 --> 00:04:27,223 It's -- Wait -- It's your night? 105 00:04:27,267 --> 00:04:28,833 How can it be your night with Harriet? 106 00:04:28,877 --> 00:04:31,053 She's not packed, she's not ready, she's sick, 107 00:04:31,096 --> 00:04:32,750 and I have a calendar.It's okay, no, no, it's not -- it's not my night. 108 00:04:32,794 --> 00:04:34,186 No? Alright? April, hey. 109 00:04:34,230 --> 00:04:35,318 It's not? No, no, no, it's alright. 110 00:04:35,362 --> 00:04:36,450 Okay. Just take a breath. 111 00:04:36,493 --> 00:04:38,016 What's going on? What's wrong? 112 00:04:38,060 --> 00:04:40,758 She has a temp of 102, and -- and she's coughing...Okay. 113 00:04:40,802 --> 00:04:42,194 ...and she has no appetite. Come here. 114 00:04:42,238 --> 00:04:43,848 But I-I took a rapid test -- it's not COVID. 115 00:04:43,892 --> 00:04:45,589 Come here, munchkin. Come here. That's good. 116 00:04:45,633 --> 00:04:47,156 Hey. Why didn't you call me?I don't know what it is. 117 00:04:47,199 --> 00:04:49,332 Whooping cough or RSV or rickets? 118 00:04:49,376 --> 00:04:51,334 It's not rickets.People get rickets, Jackson. 119 00:04:51,378 --> 00:04:52,901 And -- And Matthew just went out East with Ruby 120 00:04:52,944 --> 00:04:54,119 to see his sister, 121 00:04:54,163 --> 00:04:55,338 and the power keeps going on and off, 122 00:04:55,382 --> 00:04:56,861 and I know, I am a doctor, 123 00:04:56,905 --> 00:04:58,559 I need to take a deep breath and I should be cool, 124 00:04:58,602 --> 00:05:00,125 but I am -- You're not being cool right now. 125 00:05:00,169 --> 00:05:02,127 You're not even breathing, okay? Go ahead. Oh, God. 126 00:05:02,171 --> 00:05:03,651 She's been sick before, obviously, 127 00:05:03,694 --> 00:05:06,218 but, like, COVID just makes everything feel so...big. 128 00:05:06,262 --> 00:05:07,394 And I know I need to calm down, 129 00:05:07,437 --> 00:05:08,699 but no one in the history of calming down 130 00:05:08,743 --> 00:05:10,571 has ever calmed down by being told to calm down, 131 00:05:10,614 --> 00:05:12,094 so I'm not gonna, okay?I'm not gonna tell you to calm down, alright? 132 00:05:12,137 --> 00:05:13,225 I'm not telling you to calm down, I promise. I just... 133 00:05:13,269 --> 00:05:14,401 Why don't you let me in the house, maybe? 134 00:05:14,444 --> 00:05:15,663 Yeah, yes, okay. Just -- sorry.Okay? 135 00:05:15,706 --> 00:05:18,579 Come in.Hey, sweetheart. 136 00:05:18,622 --> 00:05:20,363 I can't tell you how long it took me 137 00:05:20,407 --> 00:05:22,365 to come up with this nifty system. 138 00:05:22,409 --> 00:05:24,193 First, we start with a bunch of these, 139 00:05:24,236 --> 00:05:26,369 what I've coined the brawn bundle. 140 00:05:26,413 --> 00:05:29,503 Here's how we do it -- two pieces of smoked ham, 141 00:05:29,546 --> 00:05:32,767 one slice of honey turkey, and provolone. 142 00:05:32,810 --> 00:05:34,377 Are you serious with all this? 143 00:05:34,421 --> 00:05:36,988 Roll it up, and once you have your ingredients set, 144 00:05:37,032 --> 00:05:38,381 you move down here to the bread. 145 00:05:38,425 --> 00:05:41,471 You won't believe how much time that saves. 146 00:05:41,515 --> 00:05:42,733 Try a piece. 147 00:05:42,777 --> 00:05:45,214 Look, I'll make the damn sandwiches with you 148 00:05:45,257 --> 00:05:46,607 in order to -- it's fine. 149 00:05:46,650 --> 00:05:47,912 Okay? 150 00:05:47,956 --> 00:05:49,479 But I don't need to taste anything 151 00:05:49,523 --> 00:05:50,872 or have any food or coffee. 152 00:05:50,915 --> 00:05:53,309 Just -- I don't need anything from you, honestly. 153 00:05:53,353 --> 00:05:54,528 I just need answers. 154 00:05:54,571 --> 00:05:55,529 [ Dog barking in distance ] 155 00:05:55,572 --> 00:05:57,313 Okay. 156 00:05:59,750 --> 00:06:02,100 Answers? 157 00:06:02,144 --> 00:06:04,189 Mom said something to me 158 00:06:04,233 --> 00:06:05,756 that I cannot get out of my head. 159 00:06:05,800 --> 00:06:07,323 Yeah, she has a talent for that. 160 00:06:07,367 --> 00:06:10,326 She said, for the first time ever, 161 00:06:10,370 --> 00:06:12,676 that I sounded like you. 162 00:06:12,720 --> 00:06:14,156 [ Chuckles ] Did you piss her off? 163 00:06:14,199 --> 00:06:15,766 I said I can't really see change 164 00:06:15,810 --> 00:06:17,420 coming from inside the foundation. 165 00:06:17,464 --> 00:06:19,509 There's too much bureaucracy. Well, to be honest, 166 00:06:19,553 --> 00:06:22,338 I haven't thought about the foundation in a long time. 167 00:06:22,382 --> 00:06:24,427 Yeah, but what do you think she meant by that? 168 00:06:24,471 --> 00:06:26,211 Years ago, I learned 169 00:06:26,255 --> 00:06:28,823 to never put words in your mother's mouth. 170 00:06:28,866 --> 00:06:30,259 If you had to guess. 171 00:06:31,478 --> 00:06:34,132 I've never been one for the establishment. 172 00:06:34,176 --> 00:06:36,047 I always thought the whole system is rigged. 173 00:06:37,092 --> 00:06:39,007 So, how we doing over there? 174 00:06:40,182 --> 00:06:41,401 You know, I don't think 175 00:06:41,444 --> 00:06:43,533 ham-and-turkey sandwiches get enough credit. 176 00:06:43,577 --> 00:06:46,406 They're simple, but they get the job done. 177 00:06:46,449 --> 00:06:49,060 So I said that the whole system's just broken, 178 00:06:49,104 --> 00:06:50,845 needs to be thrown out and rebuilt, 179 00:06:50,888 --> 00:06:53,195 understanding that that's damn near impossible 180 00:06:53,238 --> 00:06:54,675 considering how many people benefit from it 181 00:06:54,718 --> 00:06:56,285 the way it is right now. 182 00:06:56,328 --> 00:06:57,939 That does sound a little like me. 183 00:07:02,204 --> 00:07:04,424 You look like you could use some more turkey. 184 00:07:04,467 --> 00:07:06,513 Ever use a commercial meat slicer? 185 00:07:06,556 --> 00:07:08,993 When would I have done that? Summer job? 186 00:07:10,299 --> 00:07:13,171 Anyway, it reminds me of the O.R., 187 00:07:13,215 --> 00:07:15,783 without the pressure of possibly killing someone. 188 00:07:15,826 --> 00:07:16,958 Come on, let me show you. 189 00:07:23,355 --> 00:07:25,706 Yeah, I can figure it out, thank you. 190 00:07:25,749 --> 00:07:27,011 Okay. 191 00:07:27,055 --> 00:07:28,665 [ Dog barking in distance ] 192 00:07:31,581 --> 00:07:32,669 You might want to -- 193 00:07:32,713 --> 00:07:34,497 You might want to turn it on first. 194 00:07:34,541 --> 00:07:36,194 Yeah, right. 195 00:07:36,238 --> 00:07:39,154 [ Motor whirring ] 196 00:07:39,197 --> 00:07:41,156 Just, what is it? 197 00:07:41,199 --> 00:07:42,940 Here, let me show you. Okay. 198 00:07:42,984 --> 00:07:44,768 First of all, you gotta lift this. 199 00:07:44,812 --> 00:07:46,161 Here's your gauge for how thick 200 00:07:46,204 --> 00:07:47,815 you want to make the slice of meat. 201 00:07:47,858 --> 00:07:49,077 Okay. Got it. Thank you. 202 00:07:49,120 --> 00:07:50,339 The carriage goes back and forth.Great. 203 00:07:50,382 --> 00:07:52,254 [ Motor whirring ] 204 00:07:52,297 --> 00:07:53,342 I got it. 205 00:07:56,606 --> 00:07:59,696 Kinda relaxing when you get a rhythm going, huh? 206 00:07:59,740 --> 00:08:02,177 So...you're saying you wanted change, 207 00:08:02,220 --> 00:08:03,613 but what? 208 00:08:03,657 --> 00:08:05,528 You felt powerless 'cause you were an Avery or...? 209 00:08:05,572 --> 00:08:06,834 As you know, 210 00:08:06,877 --> 00:08:07,922 the Avery name carries a great deal of influence, 211 00:08:07,965 --> 00:08:09,271 but it also carries... 212 00:08:09,314 --> 00:08:11,447 a great deal of baggage. 213 00:08:11,491 --> 00:08:12,579 That amount of money 214 00:08:12,622 --> 00:08:14,929 can become a burden pretty quickly. 215 00:08:14,972 --> 00:08:17,322 Everybody knows you have it, so... 216 00:08:17,366 --> 00:08:19,368 they expect you to be responsible 217 00:08:19,411 --> 00:08:21,065 to fix everything with it. 218 00:08:21,109 --> 00:08:23,285 And there's almost no one in your shoes, 219 00:08:23,328 --> 00:08:25,156 so almost no one seems to get it. 220 00:08:25,200 --> 00:08:27,202 At least not when I said it. 221 00:08:27,245 --> 00:08:29,552 Certainly not when the name is synonymous 222 00:08:29,596 --> 00:08:32,120 with just the worst behavior imaginable. 223 00:08:32,163 --> 00:08:35,210 Well, not here it's not. 224 00:08:35,253 --> 00:08:37,386 Here, nobody knows who my father was 225 00:08:37,429 --> 00:08:38,779 or that I come from money. 226 00:08:38,822 --> 00:08:40,563 Out here, they just think 227 00:08:40,607 --> 00:08:43,479 I'm Robert who runs the diner. 228 00:08:44,741 --> 00:08:48,397 [ Thunder crashes ] 229 00:08:48,440 --> 00:08:50,138 April: God. 230 00:08:50,181 --> 00:08:52,357 Uh, Matthew's been working a lot. 231 00:08:52,401 --> 00:08:54,316 I mean, I've been working a lot. 232 00:08:54,359 --> 00:08:55,796 Yeah, don't worry about it. My place is, uh -- 233 00:08:55,839 --> 00:08:57,275 Please don't do that. 234 00:08:57,319 --> 00:08:58,973 Don't be all weird-nice with your voice an octave higher 235 00:08:59,016 --> 00:09:01,236 like you do with people at hotels or at the bank. 236 00:09:01,279 --> 00:09:02,890 I have a weird bank voice now? 237 00:09:02,933 --> 00:09:04,195 It's making you nuts. 238 00:09:04,239 --> 00:09:05,632 [ Chuckling ] You -- You can say it. 239 00:09:05,675 --> 00:09:07,372 Just mess everywhere. 240 00:09:07,416 --> 00:09:08,852 Pillows all over the place. 241 00:09:08,896 --> 00:09:10,201 I maintain that throw pillows 242 00:09:10,245 --> 00:09:12,813 are useless and stupid, yeah. 243 00:09:12,856 --> 00:09:15,380 How long has my munchkin been sick? 244 00:09:15,424 --> 00:09:17,469 [ Sighs ] Couple days. 245 00:09:17,513 --> 00:09:19,254 She just hasn't wanted to do anything, 246 00:09:19,297 --> 00:09:20,603 just lie on me. 247 00:09:20,647 --> 00:09:22,692 Also, she needs a bath. She smells like feet. 248 00:09:22,736 --> 00:09:24,738 Well, I hate to break it to you -- that's you.No, it's not. 249 00:09:24,781 --> 00:09:25,608 100 percent you. 250 00:09:25,652 --> 00:09:27,001 [ Sniffing ] 251 00:09:27,044 --> 00:09:28,959 Oh, God. That is me.Jackson: Yeah. 252 00:09:29,003 --> 00:09:29,960 Go take a shower. 253 00:09:30,004 --> 00:09:31,353 April: Jackson, I -- 254 00:09:31,396 --> 00:09:33,311 April, go take a shower, please. 255 00:09:34,965 --> 00:09:36,837 Hey, Jackson. Mm-hmm? 256 00:09:36,880 --> 00:09:38,360 I'm calming down. 257 00:09:38,403 --> 00:09:40,101 See? I am. I am. 258 00:09:40,144 --> 00:09:42,190 10 minutes. 10 minutes. 259 00:09:42,233 --> 00:09:44,975 She ever taken a 10-minute shower in her life? 260 00:09:45,019 --> 00:09:46,107 I don't think so. 261 00:09:47,412 --> 00:09:49,632 Some tunes? Good idea. 262 00:09:49,676 --> 00:09:51,591 Let's see what she's got. 263 00:09:54,898 --> 00:09:58,119 [ Jazz music plays] 264 00:09:58,162 --> 00:10:00,600 ♪♪ 265 00:10:00,643 --> 00:10:02,645 We got this, right? 266 00:10:02,689 --> 00:10:04,952 We got this, baby. 267 00:10:04,995 --> 00:10:06,736 We got this. 268 00:10:06,780 --> 00:10:08,825 You're gonna feel better in no time. 269 00:10:08,869 --> 00:10:10,479 Harriet and Dad. 270 00:10:10,522 --> 00:10:12,176 ♪♪ 271 00:10:12,220 --> 00:10:13,351 We got this.[ Thunder crashes ] 272 00:10:13,395 --> 00:10:14,570 [ Electricity crackles ] 273 00:10:14,614 --> 00:10:16,137 April: Oh, come on! 274 00:10:16,180 --> 00:10:17,704 Or maybe we don't. 275 00:10:17,747 --> 00:10:21,272 [ John Moran's "Thousand Watt Workout" plays] 276 00:10:21,316 --> 00:10:25,581 ♪ Looking like a fisherman♪ 277 00:10:25,625 --> 00:10:28,584 ♪ I'm dropping a line in the sea♪ 278 00:10:28,628 --> 00:10:30,455 ♪♪ 279 00:10:30,499 --> 00:10:32,719 I gotta give it to you -- that's some good turkey. 280 00:10:32,762 --> 00:10:34,111 Best in the state. 281 00:10:34,155 --> 00:10:36,070 Yeah, I'll take your word for it. 282 00:10:36,113 --> 00:10:37,158 ♪ Hoping that the graying skies♪ 283 00:10:37,201 --> 00:10:38,420 So, what'd your dad think 284 00:10:38,463 --> 00:10:40,596 when you decided to walk away from it all? 285 00:10:40,640 --> 00:10:43,294 At first, he thought it was just a phase. 286 00:10:43,338 --> 00:10:46,210 But then when he realized I was serious, 287 00:10:46,254 --> 00:10:47,908 he stopped speaking to me. 288 00:10:47,951 --> 00:10:49,257 Completely? 289 00:10:49,300 --> 00:10:51,520 He said I was selfish, compulsive, lazy, 290 00:10:51,563 --> 00:10:53,957 a stain on the family name. 291 00:10:54,001 --> 00:10:57,613 Which I now see is such a complete joke. 292 00:10:57,657 --> 00:11:00,398 No, he was never interested in talking to me, 293 00:11:00,442 --> 00:11:03,097 unless it was about the hospital image 294 00:11:03,140 --> 00:11:04,751 or profits or expansion. 295 00:11:04,794 --> 00:11:06,883 If I have to have one more conversation 296 00:11:06,927 --> 00:11:09,059 about cutting hospital costs, I swear... 297 00:11:09,103 --> 00:11:10,321 Someone's got to do it. 298 00:11:10,365 --> 00:11:12,410 I just knew it wasn't gonna be me. 299 00:11:12,454 --> 00:11:14,978 I was never gonna be the son my father wanted 300 00:11:15,022 --> 00:11:18,547 because I didn't want to be the man the role required. 301 00:11:18,590 --> 00:11:21,376 ♪♪ 302 00:11:21,419 --> 00:11:23,508 That's why you're here. 303 00:11:23,552 --> 00:11:24,945 Why's that? 304 00:11:24,988 --> 00:11:26,207 Because... 305 00:11:26,250 --> 00:11:28,426 you're ready to leave it all behind. 306 00:11:28,470 --> 00:11:29,601 [ Motor whirring ] 307 00:11:29,645 --> 00:11:36,130 ♪♪ 308 00:11:41,352 --> 00:11:43,050 [ Sighs ] 309 00:11:43,093 --> 00:11:44,965 Why does anyone have an electric water heater? 310 00:11:45,008 --> 00:11:47,619 A power outage is when you need hot water the most. 311 00:11:47,663 --> 00:11:50,579 Well, Harriet cried herself to sleep. 312 00:11:50,622 --> 00:11:52,755 I propped her head up to help with the coughing. 313 00:11:52,799 --> 00:11:54,061 Okay, thank you. 314 00:11:54,104 --> 00:11:56,585 And I found a flashlight and a few candles, 315 00:11:56,628 --> 00:11:58,369 but I can't find any damn matches in this place. 316 00:11:58,413 --> 00:12:00,458 Oh, yeah, well, I'm married to a first responder. 317 00:12:00,502 --> 00:12:03,244 The matches are in a drawer even I've never found. 318 00:12:03,287 --> 00:12:05,115 Alright. Well, then, stove it is. 319 00:12:05,159 --> 00:12:07,117 [ Clicking ]Geez. 320 00:12:07,161 --> 00:12:09,032 Can you get some more candles? 321 00:12:09,076 --> 00:12:10,338 [ Chuckles ] 322 00:12:10,381 --> 00:12:12,383 What? 323 00:12:13,471 --> 00:12:14,777 Oh, crap! Sorry. 324 00:12:14,821 --> 00:12:16,736 This is a nun. 325 00:12:16,779 --> 00:12:18,912 I just grabbed the, uh --The first nun you could find? 326 00:12:18,955 --> 00:12:21,088 [ Sighs ] Saying I'm going to hell? 327 00:12:21,131 --> 00:12:23,046 Since when do you believe in hell?True. 328 00:12:23,090 --> 00:12:25,005 But they're your candles, so you're going to hell. 329 00:12:25,048 --> 00:12:26,571 Okay. [ Chuckles ] 330 00:12:26,615 --> 00:12:28,878 Alright, just give me this.Yeah, grab that. 331 00:12:28,922 --> 00:12:30,140 Her fever's at 102, 332 00:12:30,184 --> 00:12:32,577 so you might be right about RSV. 333 00:12:32,621 --> 00:12:33,622 Okay. 334 00:12:33,665 --> 00:12:35,624 So we just give her acetaminophen 335 00:12:35,667 --> 00:12:37,626 and wait it out unless she gets short of breath? 336 00:12:37,669 --> 00:12:39,802 Versus driving in a blackout to Grey-Sloan in a pandemic? 337 00:12:39,846 --> 00:12:41,238 Yeah, we're not going anywhere. 338 00:12:41,282 --> 00:12:42,762 The risk of exposure alone... 339 00:12:42,805 --> 00:12:44,938 We don't need doctors, April. We aredoctors. 340 00:12:44,981 --> 00:12:46,156 And if she gets worse... 341 00:12:46,200 --> 00:12:47,418 Which she probably won't. 342 00:12:47,462 --> 00:12:48,506 Exactly. 343 00:12:48,550 --> 00:12:50,682 Yeah. 344 00:12:50,726 --> 00:12:52,554 How's Meredith doing? 345 00:12:52,597 --> 00:12:54,382 I've been praying for her. 346 00:12:54,425 --> 00:12:56,471 Oh, she's, uh -- She's awake. Yeah? 347 00:12:56,514 --> 00:12:58,342 And she's getting better every day, stronger. 348 00:12:58,386 --> 00:12:59,474 Oh. Yeah. 349 00:13:00,780 --> 00:13:02,782 So, tonight wasn't your night. 350 00:13:02,825 --> 00:13:05,393 Yes. As usual, your calendar is impeccable. 351 00:13:05,436 --> 00:13:06,437 Well done. 352 00:13:06,481 --> 00:13:08,222 No, I'm just saying, uh, tonight -- 353 00:13:08,265 --> 00:13:10,137 tonight wasn't your night, so why are you -- 354 00:13:10,180 --> 00:13:12,095 How have I never been to your place? 355 00:13:12,139 --> 00:13:14,141 I feel like I guess we must always do drop-offs 356 00:13:14,184 --> 00:13:15,403 at mine or work. 357 00:13:15,446 --> 00:13:17,274 It's -- It's nice. It looks really nice. 358 00:13:17,318 --> 00:13:18,841 I like what you've done. Jackson... 359 00:13:18,885 --> 00:13:20,669 You guys are happy, you and -- you and Matthew? 360 00:13:20,712 --> 00:13:22,323 We're busy, like everyone else. 361 00:13:22,366 --> 00:13:23,977 And Harriet and you and him and Ruby, 362 00:13:24,020 --> 00:13:25,892 the same house, it's going... 363 00:13:25,935 --> 00:13:27,763 Exposed brick is -- is cool. I know you've always liked -- 364 00:13:27,807 --> 00:13:28,938 Do you really think I can't tell when you're being cagey? 365 00:13:28,982 --> 00:13:31,245 I'm not being cagey.Am I happy? 366 00:13:31,288 --> 00:13:32,812 Exposed brick? Would you just talk like a person? 367 00:13:33,856 --> 00:13:36,554 [ Sighs ] 368 00:13:36,598 --> 00:13:38,556 I went to see my dad again. 369 00:13:38,600 --> 00:13:39,775 Oh, God. Is he sick? 370 00:13:39,819 --> 00:13:41,385 No, he's the same as always. 371 00:13:41,429 --> 00:13:44,388 Obliviously medium happy about his obliviously medium life. 372 00:13:45,825 --> 00:13:47,522 I thought you never wanted to see him again. 373 00:13:47,565 --> 00:13:49,002 I didn't. 374 00:13:49,045 --> 00:13:52,744 I needed to know if I was right about what I... 375 00:13:52,788 --> 00:13:54,181 what I wanted. 376 00:13:54,224 --> 00:13:56,661 And we're back to being cagey. 377 00:13:56,705 --> 00:13:59,142 I'm not trying to be cagey, April. 378 00:13:59,186 --> 00:14:01,492 He couldn't handle it. 379 00:14:01,536 --> 00:14:02,842 Okay? 380 00:14:02,885 --> 00:14:05,627 He couldn't step up or step into his own, 381 00:14:05,670 --> 00:14:06,976 and I can. 382 00:14:07,020 --> 00:14:08,456 ♪♪ 383 00:14:08,499 --> 00:14:10,980 I want to take over the foundation. 384 00:14:11,024 --> 00:14:14,070 ♪♪ 385 00:14:14,114 --> 00:14:15,942 Is this the, uh, coffee you showed me 386 00:14:15,985 --> 00:14:17,421 last time I was here? 387 00:14:17,465 --> 00:14:19,162 We sold out of our first batch. 388 00:14:19,206 --> 00:14:21,121 The local paper wrote us up, 389 00:14:21,164 --> 00:14:23,471 so we decided to add four more roasts. 390 00:14:23,514 --> 00:14:25,821 I was gonna branch out into other parts of the state, 391 00:14:25,865 --> 00:14:27,910 and then, ah, COVID. 392 00:14:27,954 --> 00:14:30,217 Yeah, I remember. You guys got hit pretty hard. 393 00:14:30,260 --> 00:14:31,914 Hospital was turning people away, right? 394 00:14:31,958 --> 00:14:33,350 It was a lot. 395 00:14:33,394 --> 00:14:34,961 I did everything I could 396 00:14:35,004 --> 00:14:36,701 to keep this place open after COVID hit. 397 00:14:36,745 --> 00:14:39,791 But then I ended up just bagging up food 398 00:14:39,835 --> 00:14:40,575 for the regulars. 399 00:14:40,618 --> 00:14:41,924 Word spread, 400 00:14:41,968 --> 00:14:43,970 and every morning, I come in here 401 00:14:44,013 --> 00:14:46,929 and crank up the Doobie Brothers, 402 00:14:46,973 --> 00:14:48,626 start packing lunches. 403 00:14:48,670 --> 00:14:51,194 It was weirdly therapeutic. 404 00:14:51,238 --> 00:14:53,153 Kept my mind occupied. 405 00:14:53,196 --> 00:14:54,545 [ Sighs ] Well... 406 00:14:54,589 --> 00:14:56,591 you got quite the bubble out here. 407 00:14:56,634 --> 00:14:58,941 Built a very different life for yourself. 408 00:14:58,985 --> 00:15:00,160 We're all raised to think 409 00:15:00,203 --> 00:15:02,510 that's some kind of wild concept. 410 00:15:02,553 --> 00:15:04,947 But what's wild is going to work every day 411 00:15:04,991 --> 00:15:06,688 doing something you do not like, 412 00:15:06,731 --> 00:15:08,777 thinking one day, it'll just magically stop. 413 00:15:08,820 --> 00:15:10,953 Yeah. 414 00:15:10,997 --> 00:15:13,477 I just feel stuck. 415 00:15:13,521 --> 00:15:14,609 Hmm. 416 00:15:16,002 --> 00:15:18,178 Like there's two of me. Like there's this -- 417 00:15:18,221 --> 00:15:21,485 this successful surgeon that I worked so hard to become, 418 00:15:21,529 --> 00:15:23,574 was trying to push the foundation 419 00:15:23,618 --> 00:15:24,706 to be more progressive. 420 00:15:24,749 --> 00:15:26,577 [ Sighs ] And also just the guy 421 00:15:26,621 --> 00:15:29,798 that didn't ask for any of this, you know? 422 00:15:29,841 --> 00:15:32,975 I'm worried that maybe it's too late -- 423 00:15:33,019 --> 00:15:35,717 the system's beyond repair. 424 00:15:35,760 --> 00:15:38,546 Maybe I could be effective from the outside. 425 00:15:38,589 --> 00:15:40,504 Or maybe you could let go of the idea 426 00:15:40,548 --> 00:15:43,246 that it's your job to save the world. 427 00:15:44,508 --> 00:15:45,988 You know, there's nothing wrong 428 00:15:46,032 --> 00:15:48,121 with wanting to keep things simpler. 429 00:15:48,164 --> 00:15:50,253 Yeah, I think about that a lot. 430 00:15:50,297 --> 00:15:52,386 Actually, I think, you know, 431 00:15:52,429 --> 00:15:55,302 I could get a small place in the woods, 432 00:15:55,345 --> 00:15:57,347 maybe open a private practice, 433 00:15:57,391 --> 00:16:00,220 do things [Chuckling] I really care about. 434 00:16:00,263 --> 00:16:03,614 Explore the great outdoors with Harriet. 435 00:16:03,658 --> 00:16:05,921 We all deserve to live our lives however we want. 436 00:16:05,965 --> 00:16:07,488 Sure, yeah. 437 00:16:07,531 --> 00:16:09,751 You are an older white guy who's always had money, so... 438 00:16:09,794 --> 00:16:11,579 If nothing changes in the world, 439 00:16:11,622 --> 00:16:14,277 you're still gonna be fine, but I -- I hear you. 440 00:16:14,321 --> 00:16:16,976 You given any thought to what if? 441 00:16:17,019 --> 00:16:18,629 What if I didn't come back here? 442 00:16:18,673 --> 00:16:20,327 What if you chose differently, yeah. 443 00:16:22,633 --> 00:16:26,986 Well, I'm more of a, hmm... 444 00:16:27,029 --> 00:16:28,900 "never look back" type. 445 00:16:28,944 --> 00:16:31,947 ♪♪ 446 00:16:31,991 --> 00:16:33,644 Right, yeah. 447 00:16:33,688 --> 00:16:36,343 Yeah, um... 448 00:16:36,386 --> 00:16:41,000 ♪♪ 449 00:16:41,043 --> 00:16:44,133 When I was here last time, I wanted to ask you why, 450 00:16:44,177 --> 00:16:46,179 and I -- I didn't -- I couldn't -- 451 00:16:46,222 --> 00:16:48,224 I guess I used to say I was over it, 452 00:16:48,268 --> 00:16:49,225 but I'm not. 453 00:16:49,269 --> 00:16:51,967 I need to know why you left. 454 00:16:52,011 --> 00:16:53,534 ♪♪ 455 00:16:53,577 --> 00:16:55,057 'Cause, um... 456 00:16:55,101 --> 00:16:58,060 ♪♪ 457 00:16:58,104 --> 00:17:00,715 ...I realize that it's really messed me up... 458 00:17:00,758 --> 00:17:02,108 pretty badly. 459 00:17:02,151 --> 00:17:03,718 And, um... 460 00:17:03,761 --> 00:17:04,980 [ Clears throat ] 461 00:17:05,024 --> 00:17:06,329 It just made it hard to, like, 462 00:17:06,373 --> 00:17:08,723 maintain relationships and stuff. 463 00:17:10,072 --> 00:17:12,118 Having this inclination to run away all the time. 464 00:17:12,161 --> 00:17:13,336 And I know, I know -- 465 00:17:13,380 --> 00:17:14,946 running away doesn't actually solve anything. 466 00:17:14,990 --> 00:17:16,731 I know that. 467 00:17:16,774 --> 00:17:17,993 ♪♪ 468 00:17:18,037 --> 00:17:19,560 So -- And I've tried. 469 00:17:19,603 --> 00:17:23,738 I've tried really hard to rid myself of the shame 470 00:17:23,781 --> 00:17:26,306 and the pain that comes with all that, and, uh... 471 00:17:26,349 --> 00:17:28,351 You know, just kind of doubled-down 472 00:17:28,395 --> 00:17:31,093 on being the best at everything -- 473 00:17:31,137 --> 00:17:32,747 the best father I could possibly be. 474 00:17:32,790 --> 00:17:35,184 I probably stayed in my marriage longer than I should have, 475 00:17:35,228 --> 00:17:36,533 went along with foundation business 476 00:17:36,577 --> 00:17:37,882 longer than I should have, 477 00:17:37,926 --> 00:17:39,971 but no matter what, [Grunts] when it gets rough, 478 00:17:40,015 --> 00:17:42,409 I just end up... right there, 479 00:17:42,452 --> 00:17:44,715 running, into the woods. 480 00:17:44,759 --> 00:17:47,022 Try to fight the you in me. 481 00:17:47,066 --> 00:17:49,633 [ Motor whirring ] 482 00:17:49,677 --> 00:17:52,245 Can you not just sit there looking at me? Can you say something? 483 00:17:52,288 --> 00:17:53,898 Pretend that I'm worth talking to? 484 00:17:53,942 --> 00:17:55,857 I don't know how you can just say nothing all the -- Ow! 485 00:17:55,900 --> 00:17:58,120 God! Aah! Damn it! 486 00:17:58,164 --> 00:18:00,253 God! 487 00:18:00,296 --> 00:18:01,602 Oh, man. You alright? 488 00:18:01,645 --> 00:18:03,778 No, I'm not alright! Give it -- I got it! 489 00:18:03,821 --> 00:18:05,475 Pressure, pressure, pressure. 490 00:18:05,519 --> 00:18:07,129 ♪♪ 491 00:18:12,830 --> 00:18:15,050 Okay. 492 00:18:20,882 --> 00:18:22,884 [ Sighs ] Temp's down to 101. 493 00:18:22,927 --> 00:18:24,625 It's just a bad dream. 494 00:18:24,668 --> 00:18:27,149 Oh, yeah? How's her breathing?It's better. 495 00:18:27,193 --> 00:18:28,629 Oh, good, alright. Yeah. 496 00:18:28,672 --> 00:18:31,762 So we could be out of the woods. Yeah. 497 00:18:31,806 --> 00:18:33,373 [ Thunder rumbling ] 498 00:18:33,416 --> 00:18:35,375 So, were you hoping 499 00:18:35,418 --> 00:18:37,377 Matthew wasn't gonna be here tonight?What? 500 00:18:37,420 --> 00:18:38,769 No, I don't have a problem with Matthew. 501 00:18:38,813 --> 00:18:40,119 Really? [ Chuckling ] What? 502 00:18:40,162 --> 00:18:41,903 Whenever you guys are in the same room together, 503 00:18:41,946 --> 00:18:43,296 you say one of three things -- 504 00:18:43,339 --> 00:18:45,254 "Yup," "Sure," "Not a problem." 505 00:18:45,298 --> 00:18:46,603 Well, okay, yeah. 506 00:18:46,647 --> 00:18:49,737 We're not best friends, but, I mean, it's civil. 507 00:18:49,780 --> 00:18:51,565 He seems like a fine guy. 508 00:18:51,608 --> 00:18:55,525 He seems, uh, kind. Kind? 509 00:18:55,569 --> 00:18:56,874 I don't have a badword to say about him. 510 00:18:56,918 --> 00:18:58,354 That -- That's something. 511 00:18:58,398 --> 00:19:01,183 So then why did you want to come tell me this in person? 512 00:19:02,619 --> 00:19:04,273 You're considering running the foundation. 513 00:19:04,317 --> 00:19:05,753 What's that got to do with me? 514 00:19:05,796 --> 00:19:06,754 That's the thing -- 515 00:19:06,797 --> 00:19:09,539 I'm not just considering it. 516 00:19:09,583 --> 00:19:10,584 I'm doing it. 517 00:19:12,020 --> 00:19:14,762 Running the foundation means I got to move to Boston. 518 00:19:14,805 --> 00:19:17,939 W-- Without Harriet? 519 00:19:17,982 --> 00:19:19,680 No. God, no. 520 00:19:19,723 --> 00:19:20,985 I'm moving to Boston, 521 00:19:21,029 --> 00:19:23,684 and I really need you all to come. 522 00:19:23,727 --> 00:19:24,946 ♪♪ 523 00:19:24,989 --> 00:19:26,382 The foundation will employ you and Matthew. 524 00:19:26,426 --> 00:19:27,470 You'll be set. 525 00:19:27,514 --> 00:19:28,950 You can do whatever you want 526 00:19:28,993 --> 00:19:31,561 in terms of an outreach program or design or build. 527 00:19:31,605 --> 00:19:33,259 Anything you want to do, we'll fund it. 528 00:19:33,302 --> 00:19:34,260 ♪♪ 529 00:19:34,303 --> 00:19:36,610 I would never leave Harriet. 530 00:19:36,653 --> 00:19:38,220 ♪♪ 531 00:19:38,264 --> 00:19:41,223 I could never, ever leave Harriet, 532 00:19:41,267 --> 00:19:45,140 which means I really need you all to come with me. 533 00:19:45,184 --> 00:19:46,576 Please. 534 00:19:46,620 --> 00:19:48,187 [ Thunder crashes ] 535 00:19:48,230 --> 00:19:51,364 ♪♪ 536 00:19:51,407 --> 00:19:54,758 Doesn't look like there are any tendon injuries. 537 00:19:54,802 --> 00:19:56,020 Yeah, the cut's not that deep. 538 00:19:56,064 --> 00:19:57,239 Okay. 539 00:19:57,283 --> 00:19:59,633 Another wash, then let's glue it. 540 00:19:59,676 --> 00:20:00,677 [ Sighs ] 541 00:20:00,721 --> 00:20:01,896 I can handle it from here. 542 00:20:01,939 --> 00:20:03,071 Actually, just hand me the glue. 543 00:20:03,114 --> 00:20:05,900 Okay. 544 00:20:07,380 --> 00:20:09,208 Ow. 545 00:20:10,905 --> 00:20:12,167 [ Grunts softly ] 546 00:20:12,211 --> 00:20:14,387 Just give me your hand. 547 00:20:14,430 --> 00:20:16,519 Come on, man. Let me do this. Okay. 548 00:20:16,563 --> 00:20:19,218 I may not have practiced in a while, 549 00:20:19,261 --> 00:20:22,046 but it is like riding a bike. 550 00:20:22,090 --> 00:20:23,700 Not exactly, but okay. 551 00:20:23,744 --> 00:20:25,746 Hold it together. 552 00:20:27,400 --> 00:20:29,402 See? Alright. 553 00:20:29,445 --> 00:20:30,490 That is not bad. 554 00:20:30,533 --> 00:20:32,013 Okay. Does it hurt? 555 00:20:32,056 --> 00:20:34,276 Do you want any Tylenol or anything? Um. 556 00:20:34,320 --> 00:20:36,539 No, no, no. It's actually just... 557 00:20:36,583 --> 00:20:39,063 It stings a little bit, but that's fine. 558 00:20:39,107 --> 00:20:40,891 Thank you. Look at us. 559 00:20:40,935 --> 00:20:42,676 We ought to open up a family practice. 560 00:20:42,719 --> 00:20:47,071 ♪♪ 561 00:20:47,115 --> 00:20:48,812 You know, I'm gonna... 562 00:20:48,856 --> 00:20:50,466 ♪♪ 563 00:20:50,510 --> 00:20:52,468 I'm just gonna grab some air. 564 00:20:52,512 --> 00:20:58,431 ♪♪ 565 00:20:58,474 --> 00:21:00,346 [ Thunder crashes ]April: I get it, Jackson. 566 00:21:00,389 --> 00:21:01,956 You're not the only person in quarantine 567 00:21:01,999 --> 00:21:03,566 who's drowning in big 568 00:21:03,610 --> 00:21:04,698 "What the hell am I doing with my life?" 569 00:21:04,741 --> 00:21:06,177 kind of questions. 570 00:21:06,221 --> 00:21:07,918 But you don't just up and move across the country 571 00:21:07,962 --> 00:21:09,703 on a whim. 572 00:21:09,746 --> 00:21:11,531 No, no, no, that's not what this is. It's not on a whim. 573 00:21:11,574 --> 00:21:13,750 Since the moment I met you at Mercy West, 574 00:21:13,794 --> 00:21:16,753 you have rejected your family name, the legacy, 575 00:21:16,797 --> 00:21:18,189 even the freaking plane. 576 00:21:18,233 --> 00:21:20,409 You've -- You've wanted nothing to do with any of it. 577 00:21:20,453 --> 00:21:21,758 I resisted. That's not necess--No, no, no. 578 00:21:21,802 --> 00:21:23,760 Sorry, you've been running, kicking and screaming. 579 00:21:23,804 --> 00:21:25,327 That is not where this is coming from. 580 00:21:25,371 --> 00:21:27,198 Okay? I can use this as an opportunity 581 00:21:27,242 --> 00:21:29,200 to make some profound changes in the world. 582 00:21:29,244 --> 00:21:30,550 You understand? 583 00:21:30,593 --> 00:21:33,204 I respect that. I mean, I-I admire that, Jackson. 584 00:21:33,248 --> 00:21:35,555 As long as it's not an inconvenience to your perfect little life here? 585 00:21:35,598 --> 00:21:38,949 Uprooting my entire life is not an inconvenience. 586 00:21:38,993 --> 00:21:40,342 Okay, you're right. 587 00:21:40,386 --> 00:21:42,213 But I need this. 588 00:21:42,257 --> 00:21:43,998 I know that I need to do this. 589 00:21:44,041 --> 00:21:45,391 I can feel it in my gut, and I just want to trust that for once. 590 00:21:45,434 --> 00:21:47,001 Okay. 591 00:21:47,044 --> 00:21:49,351 How many times have you "felt in your gut"...Don't -- 592 00:21:49,395 --> 00:21:51,397 ...the need to just pack up a tent 593 00:21:51,440 --> 00:21:53,181 and go for a walkabout 594 00:21:53,224 --> 00:21:55,183 and talk to yourself amongst the trees? 595 00:21:55,226 --> 00:21:57,316 So I'm the only one that's walked away when I was having a hard time? 596 00:21:58,578 --> 00:21:59,622 Just me, huh? [ Sighs ] 597 00:21:59,666 --> 00:22:00,884 How many times have you been 598 00:22:00,928 --> 00:22:02,146 sitting in the front pew at a church, 599 00:22:02,190 --> 00:22:04,540 talking to God about the plans for your life? 600 00:22:04,584 --> 00:22:06,368 It's not the same thing. I --Why not? 601 00:22:06,412 --> 00:22:08,631 Why is it that you can find solace and purpose in a church, 602 00:22:08,675 --> 00:22:10,372 but I can't find it in nature, 603 00:22:10,416 --> 00:22:12,592 where I can actually have some time that's quiet...[ Sighs ] 604 00:22:12,635 --> 00:22:14,420 ...hear myself think, think about what Iwant, 605 00:22:14,463 --> 00:22:16,030 not what everybody else expects of me? 606 00:22:16,073 --> 00:22:17,248 So how long did you spend 607 00:22:17,292 --> 00:22:19,425 thinking about going to see your father? 608 00:22:19,468 --> 00:22:21,557 How much time did you spend doing that? 609 00:22:21,601 --> 00:22:22,993 Don't reduce it to that!Or did you just, like, get in a car and -- and go -- 610 00:22:23,037 --> 00:22:24,038 No, it's not on a whim, okay? 611 00:22:24,081 --> 00:22:25,169 It was a realization.Okay, I -- 612 00:22:25,213 --> 00:22:26,432 I needed clarity, 613 00:22:26,475 --> 00:22:28,956 and I went and talked to Robert, and I got it. 614 00:22:28,999 --> 00:22:33,177 [ Sighs ] You have never wanted any of this. 615 00:22:33,221 --> 00:22:36,355 And -- And I'm just supposed to roll with it 616 00:22:36,398 --> 00:22:38,226 and see what happens? 617 00:22:38,269 --> 00:22:40,533 What -- What happens when you regret it? 618 00:22:40,576 --> 00:22:43,057 What happens when you realize that you actually hate it? 619 00:22:43,100 --> 00:22:44,537 What you're asking of me, 620 00:22:44,580 --> 00:22:47,931 of -- of our family, of our daughter, it's... 621 00:22:47,975 --> 00:22:49,150 [ Sighs ] 622 00:22:49,193 --> 00:22:51,108 What happens if it doesn't work? 623 00:22:53,633 --> 00:22:55,852 Matthew got on one knee and proposed to you... 624 00:22:55,896 --> 00:22:57,724 Please don't. Jackson, I'm --No, no, no, it's true. 625 00:22:57,767 --> 00:22:58,942 He got on one knee and proposed to you 626 00:22:58,986 --> 00:23:00,379 in front of me. 627 00:23:00,422 --> 00:23:01,902 I stood there, 628 00:23:01,945 --> 00:23:03,991 watched another man become your husband 629 00:23:04,034 --> 00:23:06,602 and stepfather to my child -- our child... Mm-hmm. 630 00:23:06,646 --> 00:23:08,996 ...and at no point did I come to you and say, 631 00:23:09,039 --> 00:23:10,563 "Yeah, but what if it doesn't work?" 632 00:23:10,606 --> 00:23:11,781 I didn't do that. 633 00:23:11,825 --> 00:23:14,436 I had your back that day and every day since. 634 00:23:14,480 --> 00:23:16,743 He bugs the hell out of you, doesn't he? 635 00:23:16,786 --> 00:23:18,571 I'm allowed to be frustrated at the guy 636 00:23:18,614 --> 00:23:20,181 who makes sandwiches weird. 637 00:23:20,224 --> 00:23:22,705 Who -- I-It's -- And he calls her Hair-Hair. I know. 638 00:23:22,749 --> 00:23:23,880 I know. I'm working on that. 639 00:23:23,924 --> 00:23:25,665 [ Chuckles ] 640 00:23:25,708 --> 00:23:28,407 What I'm not allowed to do, April, 641 00:23:28,450 --> 00:23:30,496 what -- what I've actually never done, 642 00:23:30,539 --> 00:23:31,758 is stand in the way 643 00:23:31,801 --> 00:23:34,108 of the happiness that you chose for yourself. 644 00:23:34,151 --> 00:23:35,544 [ Thunder rumbles ] 645 00:23:35,588 --> 00:23:37,198 I had your back. 646 00:23:37,241 --> 00:23:39,243 I know this is a surprise, 647 00:23:39,287 --> 00:23:42,246 but I'm just asking you -- do the same for me. 648 00:23:42,290 --> 00:23:43,509 [ Thunder crashes ] 649 00:23:43,552 --> 00:23:45,902 I... 650 00:23:45,946 --> 00:23:49,645 I -- I want you to be happy, Jackson. 651 00:23:49,689 --> 00:23:52,169 You deserve it. 652 00:23:52,213 --> 00:23:55,738 But running the foundation? 653 00:23:55,782 --> 00:23:58,349 I -- I'm sorry. 654 00:23:58,393 --> 00:23:59,699 It's just... 655 00:23:59,742 --> 00:24:01,962 You're not that guy. 656 00:24:02,005 --> 00:24:03,137 [ Thunder rumbles ] 657 00:24:03,180 --> 00:24:05,922 I don't think you ever will be. 658 00:24:05,966 --> 00:24:07,141 ♪♪ 659 00:24:12,538 --> 00:24:15,279 Jackson: So, that's it? I'm either gonna fail or quit? 660 00:24:15,323 --> 00:24:16,542 I'm sorry, Jackson. I didn't -- I didn't mean that -- 661 00:24:16,585 --> 00:24:17,368 Yeah, you did. That's exactly what you meant. 662 00:24:17,412 --> 00:24:18,979 [ Sighs ] Ok-- 663 00:24:19,022 --> 00:24:21,155 Fine. Yeah. I did. 664 00:24:21,198 --> 00:24:23,984 Jackson, you are a brilliant surgeon. 665 00:24:24,027 --> 00:24:26,377 You rebuild people's faces, you rebuild their lives. 666 00:24:26,421 --> 00:24:27,770 You find a way to make them breathe 667 00:24:27,814 --> 00:24:29,990 when -- when it seems impossible. 668 00:24:30,033 --> 00:24:32,166 You gave a little boy back his hands. 669 00:24:32,209 --> 00:24:34,429 You prayed me back into the world 670 00:24:34,473 --> 00:24:35,952 when I was almost dead. 671 00:24:35,996 --> 00:24:38,172 Y-You take out impossible tumors, 672 00:24:38,215 --> 00:24:40,130 and you make people walk out into the world 673 00:24:40,174 --> 00:24:41,741 with their heads held high. 674 00:24:41,784 --> 00:24:44,352 That's where you've left your mark. 675 00:24:44,395 --> 00:24:46,702 It's what makes you exceptional. 676 00:24:46,746 --> 00:24:48,095 Wh-- 677 00:24:48,138 --> 00:24:50,750 Why would you want to give all of that up? 678 00:24:50,793 --> 00:24:53,013 It's not about what I want. It's what I need to do. 679 00:24:53,056 --> 00:24:54,362 Well, you know what? It's a little late to decide that. 680 00:24:54,405 --> 00:24:55,885 Excuse me? 681 00:24:55,929 --> 00:24:57,539 You don't get to choose who I am in this world, April. 682 00:24:57,583 --> 00:24:58,584 Nobody does. 683 00:24:58,627 --> 00:25:00,716 Not my father, not Mom -- nobody. 684 00:25:00,760 --> 00:25:02,544 And you don't get to choose your career over mine. 685 00:25:02,588 --> 00:25:03,893 That's -- I am happy. 686 00:25:03,937 --> 00:25:04,938 I'm helping people. 687 00:25:04,981 --> 00:25:07,027 I'm really helping them. 688 00:25:07,070 --> 00:25:08,637 I am building support systems 689 00:25:08,681 --> 00:25:10,813 and resources for people in rural communities, 690 00:25:10,857 --> 00:25:12,336 and they need so much, 691 00:25:12,380 --> 00:25:14,034 and I can actually do that for them. 692 00:25:14,077 --> 00:25:15,862 And you can keep doing that. 693 00:25:15,905 --> 00:25:17,646 You can do it on an even bigger scale. 694 00:25:17,690 --> 00:25:19,039 You can do it across the country. 695 00:25:19,082 --> 00:25:21,345 I'm -- You're literally just gaining resources. 696 00:25:21,389 --> 00:25:23,217 April, I am not trying to diminish your work. 697 00:25:23,260 --> 00:25:24,740 We have an opportunity 698 00:25:24,784 --> 00:25:26,612 to do something really amazing for all of us. 699 00:25:26,655 --> 00:25:28,570 Matthew will go along with it. 700 00:25:28,614 --> 00:25:30,529 He'll follow you. 701 00:25:30,572 --> 00:25:32,531 That's why I like him so much. 702 00:25:32,574 --> 00:25:34,707 [ Both laugh ] 703 00:25:34,750 --> 00:25:36,796 Oh, God. 704 00:25:41,191 --> 00:25:42,366 You know what? 705 00:25:42,410 --> 00:25:47,241 You -- You didn't always have my back. 706 00:25:48,808 --> 00:25:51,027 When I found what I needed in Jordan, 707 00:25:51,071 --> 00:25:52,768 you didn't go with me. 708 00:25:52,812 --> 00:25:54,640 You left me alone. I went alone. 709 00:25:54,683 --> 00:25:57,294 April, that's not fair. You ran away from me. 710 00:25:57,338 --> 00:26:00,123 And Samuel and the pain and the grief, 711 00:26:00,167 --> 00:26:02,735 which is understandable. 712 00:26:02,778 --> 00:26:04,911 You know, I was resentful at the time, 713 00:26:04,954 --> 00:26:06,042 but I get it. 714 00:26:06,086 --> 00:26:07,740 You were surviving. 715 00:26:07,783 --> 00:26:09,959 You had to do what you had to do to survive. 716 00:26:10,003 --> 00:26:12,353 But this isn't that, anyway. 717 00:26:12,396 --> 00:26:14,137 I'm not running fromsomething. 718 00:26:14,181 --> 00:26:16,183 I'm trying to run tosomething. 719 00:26:16,226 --> 00:26:18,838 Trying to make something my own. 720 00:26:18,881 --> 00:26:20,361 [ Thunder rumbles ] 721 00:26:20,404 --> 00:26:23,582 [ Sighs ] 722 00:26:23,625 --> 00:26:26,193 It's not fair, Jackson. 723 00:26:26,236 --> 00:26:28,761 If you had the opportunity 724 00:26:28,804 --> 00:26:34,201 to finally make it all make sense, 725 00:26:34,244 --> 00:26:37,378 to become what you were meant to be, 726 00:26:37,421 --> 00:26:41,382 wouldn't you try really, really hard to get there? 727 00:26:41,425 --> 00:26:42,688 ♪♪ 728 00:26:42,731 --> 00:26:44,820 I would. 729 00:26:44,864 --> 00:26:47,170 I did. [ Chuckles ] 730 00:26:47,214 --> 00:26:50,043 That's all I'm asking for. 731 00:26:50,086 --> 00:26:52,045 ♪♪ 732 00:26:52,088 --> 00:26:54,090 [ Sighs ] 733 00:26:54,134 --> 00:26:56,658 [ Harriet cries ] 734 00:26:56,702 --> 00:26:58,051 I got it. 735 00:26:58,094 --> 00:27:00,749 [ Crying continues ] 736 00:27:00,793 --> 00:27:02,925 [ Thunder rumbles ] 737 00:27:07,321 --> 00:27:11,586 [ Sighs ] 99.3. 738 00:27:11,630 --> 00:27:12,761 Oh, good. Alright.Yeah. 739 00:27:12,805 --> 00:27:14,197 So she's a little more comfortable. 740 00:27:14,241 --> 00:27:15,938 Yeah. She's talking in her sleep. 741 00:27:15,982 --> 00:27:17,331 Oh, yeah? Yeah. 742 00:27:17,374 --> 00:27:18,375 Anything good? 743 00:27:18,419 --> 00:27:19,899 Just gibberish. 744 00:27:19,942 --> 00:27:21,944 She said, "Amananome." 745 00:27:21,988 --> 00:27:23,685 Ah. That is the sea anemone. 746 00:27:23,729 --> 00:27:25,165 Oh. 747 00:27:25,208 --> 00:27:26,732 She's been waking me up the last few weeks 748 00:27:26,775 --> 00:27:29,125 with a different sea creature fact. 749 00:27:29,169 --> 00:27:30,692 Are they really "facts," though? 750 00:27:30,736 --> 00:27:32,651 [ Laughs ] In her head, they are. 751 00:27:32,694 --> 00:27:34,087 [ Chuckles ] 752 00:27:34,130 --> 00:27:36,567 It's the best alarm clock, ever, I'll tell you. 753 00:27:36,611 --> 00:27:38,178 Last week, she told me 754 00:27:38,221 --> 00:27:41,137 that she could hear "werewoofs" throwing up in your basement. 755 00:27:41,181 --> 00:27:42,704 Really? I don't even have a basement. 756 00:27:42,748 --> 00:27:43,966 Oh, I'm aware. 757 00:27:44,010 --> 00:27:45,707 There's no convincing her otherwise. 758 00:27:45,751 --> 00:27:47,274 So stubborn. 759 00:27:47,317 --> 00:27:49,319 Which I would say comes from her mother... Mm. 760 00:27:49,363 --> 00:27:50,669 ...but I think we both know... 761 00:27:50,712 --> 00:27:51,974 50/50 split. ...right down the middle. 762 00:27:52,018 --> 00:27:53,846 Yeah. 763 00:27:53,889 --> 00:27:56,196 I could never give that up going to Boston. 764 00:27:56,239 --> 00:27:58,981 Sea creature alarm clocks, holding her when she's sick. 765 00:27:59,025 --> 00:28:00,504 But I can't walk away from this chance 766 00:28:00,548 --> 00:28:02,115 to make real change in the foundation. 767 00:28:02,158 --> 00:28:04,726 I mean, Mom was able to do both. 768 00:28:04,770 --> 00:28:07,163 And I know in my gut, that I can, too. 769 00:28:07,207 --> 00:28:09,600 I mean, I owe it to Harriet to try, at least. 770 00:28:09,644 --> 00:28:11,428 I know. And I know I can't do it all, 771 00:28:11,472 --> 00:28:13,169 but, April, I am telling you, 772 00:28:13,213 --> 00:28:16,129 I can take this foundation to a whole new chapter. 773 00:28:16,172 --> 00:28:18,740 I mean, creating real racial equity in medicine. 774 00:28:18,784 --> 00:28:20,133 Are you kidding? 775 00:28:20,176 --> 00:28:22,222 It's a revolutionary, lasting change. 776 00:28:22,265 --> 00:28:24,572 I could look my daughter in the face 777 00:28:24,615 --> 00:28:26,835 and know that I've done everything I possibly can 778 00:28:26,879 --> 00:28:28,141 to give her a better world. 779 00:28:28,184 --> 00:28:30,534 I know. I know. 780 00:28:30,578 --> 00:28:32,580 I could do all that 781 00:28:32,623 --> 00:28:35,539 and -- and be the father that mine never was. 782 00:28:35,583 --> 00:28:38,151 ♪♪ 783 00:28:38,194 --> 00:28:41,850 And all I need to do is turn my life upside down. 784 00:28:41,894 --> 00:28:43,896 ♪♪ 785 00:28:49,162 --> 00:28:52,208 [ Birds chirping ] 786 00:28:59,172 --> 00:29:01,087 Puts a lot into perspective, huh? 787 00:29:05,395 --> 00:29:07,354 Yeah, I come out here every morning 788 00:29:07,397 --> 00:29:09,225 just to take it all in. 789 00:29:10,574 --> 00:29:12,794 Feel like I got a lot more thinking done 790 00:29:12,838 --> 00:29:14,187 these last few days out here 791 00:29:14,230 --> 00:29:16,798 than probably [Chuckling] all year. 792 00:29:19,888 --> 00:29:21,629 Might find it hard to believe, 793 00:29:21,672 --> 00:29:23,936 but I've been thinking a lot about our last visit. 794 00:29:23,979 --> 00:29:25,198 Everything you said. 795 00:29:26,242 --> 00:29:28,331 And the truth is, 796 00:29:28,375 --> 00:29:30,725 I left because that's what I do. 797 00:29:30,769 --> 00:29:33,815 I chose this place because it's safe. 798 00:29:33,859 --> 00:29:36,992 Running the restaurant, bagging lunches, 799 00:29:37,036 --> 00:29:39,778 none of it requires much of me. 800 00:29:39,821 --> 00:29:42,781 I can walk away and not look back any time. 801 00:29:45,696 --> 00:29:48,395 And just forget about who you're leaving behind, yeah? 802 00:29:48,438 --> 00:29:50,527 I was convinced you were better off without me. 803 00:29:50,571 --> 00:29:51,833 Without a father? 804 00:29:51,877 --> 00:29:55,141 How would you think I'm better off without... 805 00:29:55,184 --> 00:29:58,361 my father never being there for any birthdays, 806 00:29:58,405 --> 00:29:59,754 any graduations? 807 00:29:59,798 --> 00:30:02,844 That time I got beat up by Billy Paxton? 808 00:30:02,888 --> 00:30:04,280 At my wedding? 809 00:30:04,324 --> 00:30:07,327 The birth of my child, your granddaughter. 810 00:30:07,370 --> 00:30:09,938 My divorce -- maybe that would've been a good time 811 00:30:09,982 --> 00:30:12,985 for you to step in and share some wisdom. 812 00:30:13,028 --> 00:30:14,769 A hug, I don't know. 813 00:30:14,813 --> 00:30:16,771 Help me make some decisions? 814 00:30:16,815 --> 00:30:19,861 It's not like it was a few months, man. 815 00:30:19,905 --> 00:30:21,820 Or a year or 10 years. 816 00:30:21,863 --> 00:30:23,560 It's my entire life. 817 00:30:23,604 --> 00:30:26,259 How could you think that's better?In my father's eyes, 818 00:30:26,302 --> 00:30:27,913 I was the screw-up in the family, 819 00:30:27,956 --> 00:30:29,131 and I absorbed that story. 820 00:30:29,175 --> 00:30:31,177 Maybe I became it. 821 00:30:31,220 --> 00:30:33,440 And I didn't want to pass that down to you. 822 00:30:33,483 --> 00:30:36,747 Robert: I did not want to mess you up. 823 00:30:36,791 --> 00:30:39,141 [ Scoffs ] Congrats. 824 00:30:39,185 --> 00:30:40,447 I get that now. 825 00:30:40,490 --> 00:30:43,363 I hurt a lot of people. 826 00:30:43,406 --> 00:30:45,800 You, your mother. 827 00:30:45,844 --> 00:30:51,806 And to have found out I have a granddaughter that I... 828 00:30:51,850 --> 00:30:54,243 may never meet... 829 00:30:54,287 --> 00:30:56,115 Yeah, well, it didn't have to be that way, did it? 830 00:30:56,158 --> 00:30:57,725 You're absolutely right. 831 00:30:57,768 --> 00:30:59,596 So I buy her presents. 832 00:30:59,640 --> 00:31:03,252 An art set, a basketball, tricycle, board games. 833 00:31:03,296 --> 00:31:04,993 What are you saying? And you didn't send them? 834 00:31:05,037 --> 00:31:05,864 I don't have the right. 835 00:31:05,907 --> 00:31:08,344 I don't deserve... 836 00:31:08,388 --> 00:31:12,218 to take your time, be in your space. 837 00:31:13,262 --> 00:31:15,569 Not one day has passed 838 00:31:15,612 --> 00:31:18,528 that I haven't regretted leaving you. 839 00:31:18,572 --> 00:31:20,791 It haunts me in my sleep, 840 00:31:20,835 --> 00:31:23,098 when I wake up in the morning. 841 00:31:23,142 --> 00:31:25,579 And I am truly, truly sorry. 842 00:31:25,622 --> 00:31:28,843 And yet I know an apology will never make up for it. 843 00:31:28,887 --> 00:31:30,889 And I have to live with that. 844 00:31:30,932 --> 00:31:33,152 I will never get over it. 845 00:31:34,762 --> 00:31:37,156 Oh, Jackson. 846 00:31:37,199 --> 00:31:39,767 Crossroads like this, you don't arrive at them often, 847 00:31:39,810 --> 00:31:42,291 but I know you will be okay, 848 00:31:42,335 --> 00:31:45,599 no matter what road you choose. 849 00:31:45,642 --> 00:31:46,992 I'm still an Avery, right? 850 00:31:47,035 --> 00:31:48,950 I still find some way to... 851 00:31:48,994 --> 00:31:50,343 walk away from it all. 852 00:31:50,386 --> 00:31:52,127 Apple doesn't fall far from the tree. 853 00:31:52,171 --> 00:31:53,172 Isn't that what they say? 854 00:31:53,215 --> 00:31:55,478 [ Chuckles ] Nice. 855 00:31:55,522 --> 00:31:57,350 That's great.No, I'm sorry. 856 00:31:57,393 --> 00:31:59,134 I just thought that was funny. 857 00:31:59,178 --> 00:32:01,136 I'm the tree, you're the apple. 858 00:32:01,180 --> 00:32:03,051 Do you really think that? 859 00:32:03,095 --> 00:32:05,184 I'm sitting here, aren't I? 860 00:32:05,227 --> 00:32:08,143 Jackson, let me assure you, you are not me. 861 00:32:08,187 --> 00:32:10,102 The fact that you're even questioning your choices 862 00:32:10,145 --> 00:32:11,538 is proof of that. 863 00:32:11,581 --> 00:32:13,148 And if that's not enough, 864 00:32:13,192 --> 00:32:14,802 you are committed, Jackson. 865 00:32:14,845 --> 00:32:16,935 Committed to your work, to your family, 866 00:32:16,978 --> 00:32:18,588 to people in need. 867 00:32:18,632 --> 00:32:20,199 ♪♪ 868 00:32:20,242 --> 00:32:23,158 And I know sometimes you want to run away from it all, 869 00:32:23,202 --> 00:32:25,160 but anybody with any sense does that. 870 00:32:25,204 --> 00:32:26,335 It's very different 871 00:32:26,379 --> 00:32:28,511 from actually following through with it. 872 00:32:28,555 --> 00:32:29,948 ♪♪ 873 00:32:29,991 --> 00:32:31,775 I was scared. 874 00:32:31,819 --> 00:32:33,995 I'm scared. 875 00:32:34,039 --> 00:32:36,606 Yeah, but you're scared of doing the wrongthing. 876 00:32:36,650 --> 00:32:40,175 I was too scared to do the rightthing. 877 00:32:40,219 --> 00:32:41,829 ♪♪ 878 00:32:41,872 --> 00:32:43,570 You're not a runner. 879 00:32:43,613 --> 00:32:46,181 If you were, you would have been long gone by now. 880 00:32:46,225 --> 00:32:47,661 Do you know how easy it would have been 881 00:32:47,704 --> 00:32:49,010 for you to walk away from everything 882 00:32:49,054 --> 00:32:51,099 after it all came out about the foundation? 883 00:32:51,143 --> 00:32:53,101 Did you even consider it? 884 00:32:53,145 --> 00:32:54,755 ♪♪ 885 00:32:54,798 --> 00:32:56,061 Not really, no. 886 00:32:56,104 --> 00:32:57,801 Of course not. 887 00:32:57,845 --> 00:33:00,326 'Cause you have it in your soul to do the right thing, 888 00:33:00,369 --> 00:33:01,675 to make things right. 889 00:33:01,718 --> 00:33:03,720 And you didn't just fix a disaster, 890 00:33:03,764 --> 00:33:05,940 you made it better. 891 00:33:05,984 --> 00:33:09,552 So if you don't want to stay, don't. 892 00:33:09,596 --> 00:33:11,946 But don't blame it on me. 893 00:33:11,990 --> 00:33:13,992 ♪♪ 894 00:33:14,035 --> 00:33:15,341 'Cause on your worst day, 895 00:33:15,384 --> 00:33:17,560 you are 10 times the man I am. 896 00:33:17,604 --> 00:33:23,958 ♪♪ 897 00:33:29,572 --> 00:33:32,575 [ Thunder crashes ] 898 00:33:38,494 --> 00:33:40,105 Jackson?Hey. 899 00:33:40,148 --> 00:33:41,976 Come in. I can't stay. 900 00:33:42,020 --> 00:33:43,456 Honey, it's pouring out here. 901 00:33:43,499 --> 00:33:44,761 Here, Mom. 902 00:33:44,805 --> 00:33:46,372 I mean, I can't stay at Grey-Sloan in Seattle. 903 00:33:46,415 --> 00:33:48,069 I can't keep doing what we've always done. 904 00:33:48,113 --> 00:33:49,462 You know how many people of color 905 00:33:49,505 --> 00:33:51,464 we've already lost since the pandemic started? 906 00:33:51,507 --> 00:33:53,596 The system keeps diminishing and erasing us. 907 00:33:53,640 --> 00:33:55,381 T-They're literally letting people just die in the streets, 908 00:33:55,424 --> 00:33:56,860 and we can do something about it. 909 00:33:56,904 --> 00:33:58,862 I got to show Harriet that we can put our money 910 00:33:58,906 --> 00:34:00,734 and our attention where our mouths are. 911 00:34:00,777 --> 00:34:02,562 And we can acknowledge the connection between our work 912 00:34:02,605 --> 00:34:03,998 and what's actually happening in the streets 913 00:34:04,042 --> 00:34:07,132 and give a sense of equity in this world, okay? 914 00:34:07,175 --> 00:34:08,959 It's not gonna change after COVID. 915 00:34:09,003 --> 00:34:10,744 We know that. 916 00:34:10,787 --> 00:34:13,225 White supremacy is woven into the fabric of this country, 917 00:34:13,268 --> 00:34:15,009 and that means medicine, too. 918 00:34:15,053 --> 00:34:16,576 [ Sighs ]People that look like us 919 00:34:16,619 --> 00:34:19,057 should not have to be gaslit, shamed, and ignored 920 00:34:19,100 --> 00:34:20,623 when they're just going to the doctor, 921 00:34:20,667 --> 00:34:22,321 constantly having to prove that their lives have any value. 922 00:34:22,364 --> 00:34:24,845 It's like this constant cycle of stress 923 00:34:24,888 --> 00:34:27,108 from poverty and trauma and racism, 924 00:34:27,152 --> 00:34:29,632 and it's definitely impacting mental health -- 925 00:34:29,676 --> 00:34:31,373 it's definitely killing us. 926 00:34:31,417 --> 00:34:32,766 Where are people supposed to turn? 927 00:34:32,809 --> 00:34:34,115 They don't feel safe going to the doctor. 928 00:34:34,159 --> 00:34:35,986 They're scared to call the cops. 929 00:34:36,030 --> 00:34:38,163 This is like a deep-seated neglect. 930 00:34:38,206 --> 00:34:40,948 And if our deaths are not affecting their profit margin, 931 00:34:40,991 --> 00:34:42,689 then it's not gonna change. 932 00:34:45,387 --> 00:34:46,693 I want to take over the foundation. 933 00:34:46,736 --> 00:34:48,390 What? 934 00:34:48,434 --> 00:34:49,826 I want to reallocate every penny that we have 935 00:34:49,870 --> 00:34:51,306 to equity in medicine -- 936 00:34:51,350 --> 00:34:53,569 women's health, trans health, racial equity. 937 00:34:53,613 --> 00:34:57,356 I want everyone who this country abuses to be served, okay? 938 00:34:57,399 --> 00:34:59,749 We need to challenge all the ways that we teach, 939 00:34:59,793 --> 00:35:01,447 everything that we're doing. 940 00:35:01,490 --> 00:35:03,971 If that means dismantling the whole medical system 941 00:35:04,014 --> 00:35:06,539 a-and -- and designing something that actually serves everyone, 942 00:35:06,582 --> 00:35:08,018 then that's what I want to do. 943 00:35:08,062 --> 00:35:09,019 I-I see that now. I'm ready. 944 00:35:09,063 --> 00:35:11,152 Jackson, where have you been? 945 00:35:11,196 --> 00:35:12,719 It doesn't even matter anymore, Mom. 946 00:35:12,762 --> 00:35:14,938 It matters that I'm back and I know where I belong. 947 00:35:14,982 --> 00:35:16,244 Oh! 948 00:35:16,288 --> 00:35:17,724 I gotta go. I love you. Ah! 949 00:35:17,767 --> 00:35:19,334 [ Smooches ]Where on God's earth are you going now? 950 00:35:19,378 --> 00:35:20,770 I got to go talk to April. 951 00:35:20,814 --> 00:35:21,815 What?! Jackson... 952 00:35:21,858 --> 00:35:23,338 [ Thunder crashing ] 953 00:35:23,382 --> 00:35:28,909 ♪♪ 954 00:35:28,952 --> 00:35:32,042 Here we go. Yummy! 955 00:35:32,086 --> 00:35:34,175 Are you gonna go with crazy fork? 956 00:35:34,219 --> 00:35:35,176 [ Exhales sharply ] 957 00:35:35,220 --> 00:35:37,961 Pancakes go in your belly. 958 00:35:38,005 --> 00:35:39,311 Why do you always go for the big ones? 959 00:35:39,354 --> 00:35:40,399 Harriet: Hey. 960 00:35:40,442 --> 00:35:42,183 Take all the small pieces, alright? 961 00:35:42,227 --> 00:35:43,271 [ Sighs ]You want to cut your own little piece? 962 00:35:43,315 --> 00:35:44,968 A small one.What are you doing -- 963 00:35:45,012 --> 00:35:47,362 a small one this time, that's soaked up in syrup? 964 00:35:47,406 --> 00:35:48,842 Extra syrup? 965 00:35:48,885 --> 00:35:49,930 Ooh. There she is. 966 00:35:49,973 --> 00:35:52,019 There she is.Hi! 967 00:35:52,062 --> 00:35:53,281 Harriet: Mommy! 968 00:35:53,325 --> 00:35:55,762 [ Laughs ] Hi! 969 00:35:55,805 --> 00:35:57,764 Oh! No fever. 970 00:35:57,807 --> 00:36:00,549 Oh, good, good, good. 971 00:36:00,593 --> 00:36:01,898 I want orange juice. 972 00:36:01,942 --> 00:36:03,465 Yeah, you can have some orange juice. 973 00:36:03,509 --> 00:36:04,901 You want me to get it for you, baby? 974 00:36:04,945 --> 00:36:06,164 No, I get it myself. 975 00:36:06,207 --> 00:36:07,513 [ Chuckles ] Okay.Jackson: Okay. 976 00:36:07,556 --> 00:36:08,688 [ Laughs ] 977 00:36:08,731 --> 00:36:10,646 Go ahead, baby. 978 00:36:10,690 --> 00:36:13,823 Are you gonna unscrew the top and pour it? 979 00:36:17,262 --> 00:36:19,655 April: You are that guy, Jackson. 980 00:36:19,699 --> 00:36:22,441 I was an ass for saying otherwise. 981 00:36:22,484 --> 00:36:23,790 Yeah? 982 00:36:25,095 --> 00:36:27,533 Pillows in every room. [ Chuckles ] 983 00:36:27,576 --> 00:36:29,099 They come in handy. 984 00:36:29,143 --> 00:36:31,711 Hey, are you sure about this? 985 00:36:31,754 --> 00:36:33,930 I'm not sure it's gonna work, but... 986 00:36:33,974 --> 00:36:35,889 I'm sure it's what I want, yeah. 987 00:36:35,932 --> 00:36:39,632 Why is our timing always so terrible? 988 00:36:39,675 --> 00:36:41,634 I thought that was kind of our thing -- bad timing. 989 00:36:41,677 --> 00:36:43,244 We just never figured out 990 00:36:43,288 --> 00:36:45,246 how to want the same thing at the same time. 991 00:36:45,290 --> 00:36:46,552 Even with Harriet. 992 00:36:46,595 --> 00:36:49,424 Yeah, but, I mean, it worked out pretty well. 993 00:36:49,468 --> 00:36:51,339 Yeah, but we were fighting, 994 00:36:51,383 --> 00:36:52,775 and then we had sex 995 00:36:52,819 --> 00:36:54,560 while our marriage was falling apart. 996 00:36:54,603 --> 00:36:56,388 That was actually our thing -- 997 00:36:56,431 --> 00:36:59,173 arguing until we were blue in the face and then having sex. 998 00:36:59,217 --> 00:37:01,436 Yeah, I guess we were doomed, huh? 999 00:37:01,480 --> 00:37:05,310 Look, if you're really living your dream here, 1000 00:37:05,353 --> 00:37:07,181 I'll give it up, because you're right. 1001 00:37:07,225 --> 00:37:08,661 I'm totally springing it on you guys. 1002 00:37:08,704 --> 00:37:09,749 No. What? 1003 00:37:09,792 --> 00:37:11,577 You do not get to do all the speeches 1004 00:37:11,620 --> 00:37:12,839 and the convincing 1005 00:37:12,882 --> 00:37:15,668 and that thing where your face just lights up 1006 00:37:15,711 --> 00:37:16,756 just to take it all back again. 1007 00:37:16,799 --> 00:37:17,844 Don't take it all back. 1008 00:37:17,887 --> 00:37:20,325 You deserve this. 1009 00:37:20,368 --> 00:37:22,327 Wait. What are you saying? 1010 00:37:22,370 --> 00:37:23,850 I am saying... 1011 00:37:25,243 --> 00:37:27,767 ...we will make Boston work. 1012 00:37:28,855 --> 00:37:30,596 I'm saying yes. 1013 00:37:30,639 --> 00:37:32,685 What? You're saying yes? 1014 00:37:32,728 --> 00:37:34,121 To my question, you're saying yes? Yes. 1015 00:37:34,164 --> 00:37:36,384 I'm saying -- Yeah. I thought that's what you wanted. 1016 00:37:36,428 --> 00:37:37,951 Yeah, but -- Yes? 1017 00:37:37,994 --> 00:37:40,301 Like, I didn't think it would be that easy. 1018 00:37:40,345 --> 00:37:41,998 I'm sorry. You call this night easy? 1019 00:37:42,042 --> 00:37:43,565 No, not -- not easy like that, 1020 00:37:43,609 --> 00:37:46,655 but, like, I thought [chuckles] you'd have to pray 1021 00:37:46,699 --> 00:37:49,832 or consult with Matthew, maybe get your pastor involved, 1022 00:37:49,876 --> 00:37:51,878 some additional praying...Yeah. Yeah. Matthew will be fine. 1023 00:37:51,921 --> 00:37:53,532 [ Sighs ] Alright, well, when does he get back? 1024 00:37:53,575 --> 00:37:55,316 I can help with the pitch. I can talk to him. 1025 00:37:55,360 --> 00:37:57,405 What do you want me to...?Uh, no. No. No. 1026 00:37:57,449 --> 00:37:59,102 No, that's a horrible and weird idea... 1027 00:37:59,146 --> 00:38:00,669 Yes. ...obviously. 1028 00:38:00,713 --> 00:38:02,758 Um, but tell him that I can help him with work. 1029 00:38:02,802 --> 00:38:04,586 I'll make sure everything is arranged for him and for Ruby. 1030 00:38:04,630 --> 00:38:06,936 We split up. 1031 00:38:06,980 --> 00:38:09,678 ♪♪ 1032 00:38:09,722 --> 00:38:11,245 Oh. 1033 00:38:11,289 --> 00:38:18,774 ♪♪ 1034 00:38:18,818 --> 00:38:22,604 We kept trying to tell ourselves that our whole winding road 1035 00:38:22,648 --> 00:38:25,390 was God's plan to bring us back together. 1036 00:38:25,433 --> 00:38:26,652 [ Breathes deeply ] 1037 00:38:26,695 --> 00:38:31,091 But he was still so angry and so hurt. 1038 00:38:31,134 --> 00:38:34,050 I mean, I left him at the altar, and then his wife died. 1039 00:38:34,094 --> 00:38:36,183 You know, you don't just stop feeling hurt 1040 00:38:36,226 --> 00:38:37,880 'cause it's a better story 1041 00:38:37,924 --> 00:38:41,667 if God brought us together in our pain. 1042 00:38:41,710 --> 00:38:43,321 He denied it for so long. 1043 00:38:43,364 --> 00:38:46,367 You know, he tried so hard not to hate me. 1044 00:38:46,411 --> 00:38:50,023 I think loving me, making us a full circle 1045 00:38:50,066 --> 00:38:52,417 was the story he was writing. 1046 00:38:52,460 --> 00:38:55,245 I mean, I guess it was the story we were both writing. 1047 00:38:55,289 --> 00:38:56,812 I mean, I was trying to get past my guilt. 1048 00:38:56,856 --> 00:38:58,684 He was -- He was trying to forgive God 1049 00:38:58,727 --> 00:39:00,686 for the loss of Karin. 1050 00:39:00,729 --> 00:39:04,080 ♪♪ 1051 00:39:04,124 --> 00:39:08,737 But, y-you know, ultimately, we learned that... 1052 00:39:08,781 --> 00:39:10,565 [ Chuckles ] 1053 00:39:10,609 --> 00:39:14,787 ...life just isn't always so tidy. 1054 00:39:14,830 --> 00:39:17,833 ♪♪ 1055 00:39:17,877 --> 00:39:21,402 And God's plan isn't always so easy to understand. 1056 00:39:21,446 --> 00:39:22,882 ♪♪ 1057 00:39:22,925 --> 00:39:24,405 He's always been so good with Harriet, 1058 00:39:24,449 --> 00:39:25,972 and I adore Ruby, 1059 00:39:26,015 --> 00:39:27,930 but we both started working longer hours, 1060 00:39:27,974 --> 00:39:29,584 just avoiding coming home. 1061 00:39:29,628 --> 00:39:32,370 And then, his sister got sick. She lives in Philadelphia. 1062 00:39:32,413 --> 00:39:34,633 So he and Ruby went to Philadelphia to be with her, 1063 00:39:34,676 --> 00:39:37,113 and...now she's better, 1064 00:39:37,157 --> 00:39:39,072 uh, but they're still in Philadelphia. 1065 00:39:39,115 --> 00:39:40,900 [ Chuckles ] 1066 00:39:40,943 --> 00:39:43,642 And... 1067 00:39:43,685 --> 00:39:45,731 they are not coming back. 1068 00:39:45,774 --> 00:39:48,995 ♪♪ 1069 00:39:49,038 --> 00:39:50,823 I had no idea. 1070 00:39:52,477 --> 00:39:54,348 Yeah, I mean, I was gonna tell you, 1071 00:39:54,392 --> 00:39:56,959 but, you know, hundreds of thousands of people were dying. 1072 00:39:57,003 --> 00:40:00,963 I just didn't think my marriage counted as a casualty. 1073 00:40:01,007 --> 00:40:05,446 And you were maybe a little too proud to tell me? 1074 00:40:05,490 --> 00:40:07,317 Yeah, fine. [ Chuckles ] 1075 00:40:07,361 --> 00:40:09,363 I was a little -- a little too proud. 1076 00:40:11,670 --> 00:40:13,323 You okay? 1077 00:40:16,370 --> 00:40:17,763 It's hard to say. 1078 00:40:20,635 --> 00:40:23,290 But... 1079 00:40:23,333 --> 00:40:25,423 it looks like I'm moving to Boston. 1080 00:40:25,466 --> 00:40:26,554 [ Chuckles ] 1081 00:40:26,598 --> 00:40:27,642 So... 1082 00:40:27,686 --> 00:40:29,339 [ Humming ] 1083 00:40:29,383 --> 00:40:32,212 Fingers crossed for new horizons. 1084 00:40:32,255 --> 00:40:35,955 Fingers crossed for new horizons. 1085 00:40:35,998 --> 00:40:39,219 ♪ I know you're out there, doin' the best you can ♪ 1086 00:40:39,262 --> 00:40:40,655 Jackson: No one said it was easy, 1087 00:40:40,699 --> 00:40:42,091 becoming the person you're meant to be. 1088 00:40:42,135 --> 00:40:45,355 ♪ But everybody needs a helping hand ♪ 1089 00:40:45,399 --> 00:40:48,750 It takes bravery a step into the power you found 1090 00:40:48,794 --> 00:40:50,491 and earned and deserve. 1091 00:40:50,535 --> 00:40:52,362 ♪ 'Cause we're all alone in this together ♪ 1092 00:40:52,406 --> 00:40:53,712 ♪ But the storm won't last forever ♪ 1093 00:40:53,755 --> 00:40:55,278 He'll come back. 1094 00:40:55,322 --> 00:40:58,020 And you'll visit, and he'll visit. 1095 00:40:58,064 --> 00:40:59,152 I know. 1096 00:40:59,195 --> 00:41:01,371 You know, it's okay to be sad. 1097 00:41:01,415 --> 00:41:04,810 It's hard handing over something you put your life into. 1098 00:41:04,853 --> 00:41:06,028 ♪ So much light 1099 00:41:06,072 --> 00:41:07,726 [ Voice breaking ] I'm not sad. 1100 00:41:07,769 --> 00:41:13,340 It's just, like, I never in my life 1101 00:41:13,383 --> 00:41:17,344 felt pride quite like this. 1102 00:41:17,387 --> 00:41:20,739 ♪ We can hold each other up 1103 00:41:20,782 --> 00:41:26,135 ♪ We can hold each other up 1104 00:41:26,179 --> 00:41:28,921 ♪ Yeah 1105 00:41:28,964 --> 00:41:31,010 ♪ Hold each other up 1106 00:41:31,053 --> 00:41:34,143 The trick is, to take the people who were there for you, 1107 00:41:34,187 --> 00:41:35,318 with you. 1108 00:41:35,362 --> 00:41:37,320 To remind you you're not alone. 1109 00:41:37,364 --> 00:41:39,235 It's gonna take a few days, 1110 00:41:39,279 --> 00:41:41,760 figure out what to tell the chief. 1111 00:41:41,803 --> 00:41:44,023 Feels weird to say Boston. 1112 00:41:44,066 --> 00:41:46,112 [ Scoffs ] Feels like a... 1113 00:41:46,155 --> 00:41:47,374 [ Door creaks ] 1114 00:41:47,417 --> 00:41:49,376 I don't know. 1115 00:41:49,419 --> 00:41:52,379 It feels "I don't know" to me, too. 1116 00:41:52,422 --> 00:41:54,642 ♪ 'Cause I see hope in togetherness ♪ 1117 00:41:54,686 --> 00:41:56,775 Thank you. Oh! 1118 00:41:56,818 --> 00:41:57,776 ♪ So much light 1119 00:41:57,819 --> 00:41:58,907 Harriet: Mommy, Daddy! 1120 00:41:58,951 --> 00:42:00,126 ♪ And so much love 1121 00:42:00,169 --> 00:42:01,214 I got her. 1122 00:42:01,257 --> 00:42:02,563 You go. 1123 00:42:02,607 --> 00:42:04,217 Get ready to go. 1124 00:42:04,260 --> 00:42:05,958 ♪ There is strength, strength in tenderness ♪ 1125 00:42:06,001 --> 00:42:07,612 [ Door closes ] 1126 00:42:07,655 --> 00:42:10,919 You have an entire legacy behind you 1127 00:42:10,963 --> 00:42:12,921 as you create your own. 1128 00:42:12,965 --> 00:42:18,492 ♪ We can hold each other up 1129 00:42:18,536 --> 00:42:22,148 ♪♪ 1130 00:42:28,023 --> 00:42:30,939 --Captions by VITAC-- 1131 00:42:30,983 --> 00:42:40,949 ♪♪ 1132 00:42:40,993 --> 00:42:50,959 ♪♪ 1133 00:42:51,003 --> 00:42:56,095 ♪♪ 75954

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