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[ Thunder crashes ]♪ I've got your number, lonely
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♪ October 33
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Jackson: It's a natural
progression in any profession
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for the student
to become the teacher,
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the mentee
to become the mentor.
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[ Thunder crashes ]
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♪ Holds me down,
like you know how, darlin' ♪
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♪ Hold me now
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♪ Like you know my plight
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♪ Got your number
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[ Thunder crashes ]
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♪♪
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It's not that much different
from parenting.
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I'm your son.
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♪♪
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We learn from our ancestors
how to make the perfect soup.
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♪ I'm sending love
where you are at ♪
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How to soothe an aching head
or heart.
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Woman:
Your call has been forwarded
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to an automated
voice messaging system.
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[ Cellphone beeps ]♪ October 33
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♪ Your love's
my only good thing ♪
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♪ Like, fair, fair, fair
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♪ So, help me
hear the bird sing ♪
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♪ I'll help you
capture your dream ♪
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♪ Let's see it in the present
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♪ And try to let it be
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♪ I, I've got your number,
lonely ♪
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♪ October 33
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♪♪
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♪ Like, fair, fair, fair
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Jackson: We measure milestones
and percentiles
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and first steps...[ Bell jingles ]
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...to try and gain insight into
the person they'll grow into.
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[ Knocks on door ]
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Hello?♪ October 33
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Tate,
you're early.
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I've just started
packing lunches.
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♪♪
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♪ Crying in the back
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As if knowing
a bunch of numbers on charts
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is any true measure of what
we might make of ourselves.
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Jackson.
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♪ I do, to you
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Hey, Dad.
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♪ Hold on
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♪ Hold on
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[ Thunder crashes ]
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♪ Hold on
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♪ Fair, fair, fair
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♪♪
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♪ Hold on
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[ Engine shuts off,
music stops ]
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[ Thunder crashes ]
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[ Doorbell rings ]Alright.
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I know it seems, like,
impulsive and out of nowhere,
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but it's not --
it's just, uh...
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uh, fast.
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But it's not, like...
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impulsive, impulsive.
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It's...
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I thought it through. It's just
I thought it through --
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[ Thunder crashes ]
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Oh!
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♪♪
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[ Gasps ]
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♪♪
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[ Thunder crashes ]
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[ Dog barks in distance ]
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Everybody alive?
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Yeah. Yeah, yeah.
That's not --
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[ Clears throat ]
Not why I'm here.
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I thought
you were Tate.
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He delivers meals for
me to people in the
community that need them.
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Okay.
Not Tate.
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Well, come on in.
Take a load off.
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I tested clean yesterday
and haven't seen anyone.
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I haven't seen anyone,
either.
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I just made
a fresh pot of coffee.
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Want some?
I'm good.
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How have you been?
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I've been thinking a lot
about you lately,
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what with everything going on
in the world.
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I was gonna call,
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but the way we left things
last time,
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I figured you did not want
to talk to me.
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And I didn't want to be
one of those added things
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on top of the pandemic
to deal with.
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How have you been?
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How's your little girl?
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She must be,
what...
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She's 3 1/2 years old.
Her name is Harriet.
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Right.
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Look, I didn't travel
all this way
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to just catch up,
so, um...
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I need...answers.
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Well, I've got about 150 lunches
to put together,
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so if
we're gonna talk,
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why don't you grab a pair
of gloves over here with me
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and, uh...
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help me out?
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[ Thunder crashes ]
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Oh, my God,
it's your night.
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It's -- Wait --
It's your night?
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How can it be your night
with Harriet?
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She's not packed,
she's not ready, she's sick,
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and I have a calendar.It's okay, no, no, it's not --
it's not my night.
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No?
Alright? April, hey.
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It's not?
No, no, no,
it's alright.
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Okay.
Just take a breath.
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What's going on?
What's wrong?
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She has a temp of 102,
and -- and she's coughing...Okay.
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...and she has
no appetite.
Come here.
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But I-I took a rapid test --
it's not COVID.
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Come here, munchkin.
Come here. That's good.
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Hey.
Why didn't you call me?I don't know what it is.
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Whooping cough
or RSV or rickets?
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It's not rickets.People get rickets,
Jackson.
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And -- And Matthew
just went out East with Ruby
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to see his sister,
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and the power
keeps going on and off,
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and I know,
I am a doctor,
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I need to take a deep breath
and I should be cool,
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but I am --
You're not
being cool right now.
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You're not even breathing,
okay? Go ahead.
Oh, God.
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She's been sick before,
obviously,
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but, like, COVID just makes
everything feel so...big.
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And I know
I need to calm down,
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but no one
in the history of calming down
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has ever calmed down
by being told to calm down,
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so I'm not gonna,
okay?I'm not gonna tell you
to calm down, alright?
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I'm not telling you to calm
down, I promise. I just...
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Why don't you let me
in the house, maybe?
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Yeah, yes, okay.
Just -- sorry.Okay?
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Come in.Hey, sweetheart.
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I can't tell you
how long it took me
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to come up with
this nifty system.
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First, we start
with a bunch of these,
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what I've coined
the brawn bundle.
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Here's how we do it --
two pieces of smoked ham,
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one slice of honey turkey,
and provolone.
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Are you serious
with all this?
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Roll it up, and once you have
your ingredients set,
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you move down here
to the bread.
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You won't believe
how much time that saves.
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Try a piece.
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Look, I'll make
the damn sandwiches with you
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in order to --
it's fine.
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Okay?
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But I don't need
to taste anything
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or have any food
or coffee.
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Just -- I don't need anything
from you, honestly.
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I just need answers.
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[ Dog barking in distance ]
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Okay.
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Answers?
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Mom said
something to me
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that I cannot get
out of my head.
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Yeah,
she has a talent for that.
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She said,
for the first time ever,
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that I sounded
like you.
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[ Chuckles ]
Did you piss her off?
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I said
I can't really see change
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coming from inside
the foundation.
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There's too much
bureaucracy.
Well,
to be honest,
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I haven't thought about
the foundation in a long time.
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Yeah, but what do you think
she meant by that?
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Years ago, I learned
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to never put words
in your mother's mouth.
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If you had to guess.
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I've never been one
for the establishment.
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I always thought
the whole system is rigged.
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So, how we doing
over there?
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You know,
I don't think
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ham-and-turkey sandwiches
get enough credit.
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They're simple,
but they get the job done.
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So I said that
the whole system's just broken,
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needs to be thrown out
and rebuilt,
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understanding that
that's damn near impossible
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considering how many people
benefit from it
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the way it is
right now.
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That does sound
a little like me.
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You look like you could use
some more turkey.
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Ever use
a commercial meat slicer?
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When would I
have done that?
Summer job?
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Anyway,
it reminds me of the O.R.,
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without the pressure
of possibly killing someone.
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Come on,
let me show you.
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Yeah, I can figure it out,
thank you.
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Okay.
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[ Dog barking in distance ]
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You might want to --
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You might want to
turn it on first.
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Yeah, right.
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[ Motor whirring ]
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Just,
what is it?
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Here, let me show you.
Okay.
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First of all,
you gotta lift this.
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Here's your gauge
for how thick
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you want to
make the slice of meat.
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Okay. Got it.
Thank you.
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The carriage goes
back and forth.Great.
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[ Motor whirring ]
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I got it.
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Kinda relaxing when you get
a rhythm going, huh?
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So...you're saying
you wanted change,
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but what?
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You felt powerless
'cause you were an Avery or...?
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As you know,
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the Avery name carries
a great deal of influence,
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but it also carries...
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a great deal
of baggage.
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That amount of money
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can become a burden
pretty quickly.
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Everybody knows
you have it, so...
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they expect you
to be responsible
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to fix everything
with it.
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And there's almost no one
in your shoes,
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so almost no one
seems to get it.
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At least
not when I said it.
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Certainly not
when the name is synonymous
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with just the worst
behavior imaginable.
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Well,
not here it's not.
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Here, nobody knows
who my father was
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or that
I come from money.
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Out here,
they just think
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I'm Robert
who runs the diner.
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[ Thunder crashes ]
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April: God.
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Uh, Matthew's been working
a lot.
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I mean,
I've been working a lot.
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Yeah, don't worry about it.
My place is, uh --
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Please don't do that.
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Don't be all weird-nice
with your voice an octave higher
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like you do with people
at hotels or at the bank.
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I have
a weird bank voice now?
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It's making you nuts.
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[ Chuckling ]
You -- You can say it.
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Just mess everywhere.
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Pillows all over
the place.
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I maintain
that throw pillows
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are useless and stupid,
yeah.
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How long has my munchkin
been sick?
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[ Sighs ]
Couple days.
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She just
hasn't wanted to do anything,
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just lie on me.
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Also, she needs a bath.
She smells like feet.
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Well, I hate to break it
to you -- that's you.No, it's not.
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100 percent you.
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[ Sniffing ]
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Oh, God.
That is me.Jackson: Yeah.
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Go take a shower.
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April:
Jackson, I --
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April,
go take a shower, please.
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Hey, Jackson.
Mm-hmm?
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I'm calming down.
257
00:09:38,403 --> 00:09:40,101
See?
I am. I am.
258
00:09:40,144 --> 00:09:42,190
10 minutes.
10 minutes.
259
00:09:42,233 --> 00:09:44,975
She ever taken
a 10-minute shower in her life?
260
00:09:45,019 --> 00:09:46,107
I don't think so.
261
00:09:47,412 --> 00:09:49,632
Some tunes?
Good idea.
262
00:09:49,676 --> 00:09:51,591
Let's see what she's got.
263
00:09:54,898 --> 00:09:58,119
[ Jazz music plays]
264
00:09:58,162 --> 00:10:00,600
♪♪
265
00:10:00,643 --> 00:10:02,645
We got this, right?
266
00:10:02,689 --> 00:10:04,952
We got this, baby.
267
00:10:04,995 --> 00:10:06,736
We got this.
268
00:10:06,780 --> 00:10:08,825
You're gonna feel better
in no time.
269
00:10:08,869 --> 00:10:10,479
Harriet and Dad.
270
00:10:10,522 --> 00:10:12,176
♪♪
271
00:10:12,220 --> 00:10:13,351
We got this.[ Thunder crashes ]
272
00:10:13,395 --> 00:10:14,570
[ Electricity crackles ]
273
00:10:14,614 --> 00:10:16,137
April:
Oh, come on!
274
00:10:16,180 --> 00:10:17,704
Or maybe we don't.
275
00:10:17,747 --> 00:10:21,272
[ John Moran's
"Thousand Watt Workout" plays]
276
00:10:21,316 --> 00:10:25,581
♪ Looking like a fisherman♪
277
00:10:25,625 --> 00:10:28,584
♪ I'm dropping a line
in the sea♪
278
00:10:28,628 --> 00:10:30,455
♪♪
279
00:10:30,499 --> 00:10:32,719
I gotta give it to you --
that's some good turkey.
280
00:10:32,762 --> 00:10:34,111
Best in the state.
281
00:10:34,155 --> 00:10:36,070
Yeah,
I'll take your word for it.
282
00:10:36,113 --> 00:10:37,158
♪ Hoping that
the graying skies♪
283
00:10:37,201 --> 00:10:38,420
So,
what'd your dad think
284
00:10:38,463 --> 00:10:40,596
when you decided
to walk away from it all?
285
00:10:40,640 --> 00:10:43,294
At first,
he thought it was just a phase.
286
00:10:43,338 --> 00:10:46,210
But then when he realized
I was serious,
287
00:10:46,254 --> 00:10:47,908
he stopped speaking
to me.
288
00:10:47,951 --> 00:10:49,257
Completely?
289
00:10:49,300 --> 00:10:51,520
He said I was selfish,
compulsive, lazy,
290
00:10:51,563 --> 00:10:53,957
a stain
on the family name.
291
00:10:54,001 --> 00:10:57,613
Which I now see
is such a complete joke.
292
00:10:57,657 --> 00:11:00,398
No, he was never interested
in talking to me,
293
00:11:00,442 --> 00:11:03,097
unless it was
about the hospital image
294
00:11:03,140 --> 00:11:04,751
or profits
or expansion.
295
00:11:04,794 --> 00:11:06,883
If I have to have
one more conversation
296
00:11:06,927 --> 00:11:09,059
about cutting hospital costs,
I swear...
297
00:11:09,103 --> 00:11:10,321
Someone's got to
do it.
298
00:11:10,365 --> 00:11:12,410
I just knew
it wasn't gonna be me.
299
00:11:12,454 --> 00:11:14,978
I was never gonna be
the son my father wanted
300
00:11:15,022 --> 00:11:18,547
because I didn't want to be
the man the role required.
301
00:11:18,590 --> 00:11:21,376
♪♪
302
00:11:21,419 --> 00:11:23,508
That's why
you're here.
303
00:11:23,552 --> 00:11:24,945
Why's that?
304
00:11:24,988 --> 00:11:26,207
Because...
305
00:11:26,250 --> 00:11:28,426
you're ready
to leave it all behind.
306
00:11:28,470 --> 00:11:29,601
[ Motor whirring ]
307
00:11:29,645 --> 00:11:36,130
♪♪
308
00:11:41,352 --> 00:11:43,050
[ Sighs ]
309
00:11:43,093 --> 00:11:44,965
Why does anyone have
an electric water heater?
310
00:11:45,008 --> 00:11:47,619
A power outage is when
you need hot water the most.
311
00:11:47,663 --> 00:11:50,579
Well, Harriet cried herself
to sleep.
312
00:11:50,622 --> 00:11:52,755
I propped her head up
to help with the coughing.
313
00:11:52,799 --> 00:11:54,061
Okay, thank you.
314
00:11:54,104 --> 00:11:56,585
And I found a flashlight
and a few candles,
315
00:11:56,628 --> 00:11:58,369
but I can't find any
damn matches in this place.
316
00:11:58,413 --> 00:12:00,458
Oh, yeah, well, I'm married
to a first responder.
317
00:12:00,502 --> 00:12:03,244
The matches are in a drawer
even I've never found.
318
00:12:03,287 --> 00:12:05,115
Alright.
Well, then, stove it is.
319
00:12:05,159 --> 00:12:07,117
[ Clicking ]Geez.
320
00:12:07,161 --> 00:12:09,032
Can you get
some more candles?
321
00:12:09,076 --> 00:12:10,338
[ Chuckles ]
322
00:12:10,381 --> 00:12:12,383
What?
323
00:12:13,471 --> 00:12:14,777
Oh, crap!
Sorry.
324
00:12:14,821 --> 00:12:16,736
This is a nun.
325
00:12:16,779 --> 00:12:18,912
I just grabbed the, uh --The first nun
you could find?
326
00:12:18,955 --> 00:12:21,088
[ Sighs ]
Saying I'm going to hell?
327
00:12:21,131 --> 00:12:23,046
Since when
do you believe in hell?True.
328
00:12:23,090 --> 00:12:25,005
But they're your candles,
so you're going to hell.
329
00:12:25,048 --> 00:12:26,571
Okay. [ Chuckles ]
330
00:12:26,615 --> 00:12:28,878
Alright,
just give me this.Yeah, grab that.
331
00:12:28,922 --> 00:12:30,140
Her fever's at 102,
332
00:12:30,184 --> 00:12:32,577
so you might be right
about RSV.
333
00:12:32,621 --> 00:12:33,622
Okay.
334
00:12:33,665 --> 00:12:35,624
So we just
give her acetaminophen
335
00:12:35,667 --> 00:12:37,626
and wait it out
unless she gets short of breath?
336
00:12:37,669 --> 00:12:39,802
Versus driving in a blackout
to Grey-Sloan in a pandemic?
337
00:12:39,846 --> 00:12:41,238
Yeah,
we're not going anywhere.
338
00:12:41,282 --> 00:12:42,762
The risk
of exposure alone...
339
00:12:42,805 --> 00:12:44,938
We don't need doctors, April.
We aredoctors.
340
00:12:44,981 --> 00:12:46,156
And if
she gets worse...
341
00:12:46,200 --> 00:12:47,418
Which she probably won't.
342
00:12:47,462 --> 00:12:48,506
Exactly.
343
00:12:48,550 --> 00:12:50,682
Yeah.
344
00:12:50,726 --> 00:12:52,554
How's Meredith doing?
345
00:12:52,597 --> 00:12:54,382
I've been
praying for her.
346
00:12:54,425 --> 00:12:56,471
Oh, she's, uh --
She's awake.
Yeah?
347
00:12:56,514 --> 00:12:58,342
And she's getting better
every day, stronger.
348
00:12:58,386 --> 00:12:59,474
Oh.
Yeah.
349
00:13:00,780 --> 00:13:02,782
So, tonight wasn't
your night.
350
00:13:02,825 --> 00:13:05,393
Yes. As usual,
your calendar is impeccable.
351
00:13:05,436 --> 00:13:06,437
Well done.
352
00:13:06,481 --> 00:13:08,222
No, I'm just saying,
uh, tonight --
353
00:13:08,265 --> 00:13:10,137
tonight wasn't your night,
so why are you --
354
00:13:10,180 --> 00:13:12,095
How have I never been
to your place?
355
00:13:12,139 --> 00:13:14,141
I feel like I guess
we must always do drop-offs
356
00:13:14,184 --> 00:13:15,403
at mine or work.
357
00:13:15,446 --> 00:13:17,274
It's -- It's nice.
It looks really nice.
358
00:13:17,318 --> 00:13:18,841
I like
what you've done.
Jackson...
359
00:13:18,885 --> 00:13:20,669
You guys are happy,
you and -- you and Matthew?
360
00:13:20,712 --> 00:13:22,323
We're busy,
like everyone else.
361
00:13:22,366 --> 00:13:23,977
And Harriet and you
and him and Ruby,
362
00:13:24,020 --> 00:13:25,892
the same house,
it's going...
363
00:13:25,935 --> 00:13:27,763
Exposed brick is -- is cool.
I know you've always liked --
364
00:13:27,807 --> 00:13:28,938
Do you really think I can't tell
when you're being cagey?
365
00:13:28,982 --> 00:13:31,245
I'm not being cagey.Am I happy?
366
00:13:31,288 --> 00:13:32,812
Exposed brick? Would you just
talk like a person?
367
00:13:33,856 --> 00:13:36,554
[ Sighs ]
368
00:13:36,598 --> 00:13:38,556
I went
to see my dad again.
369
00:13:38,600 --> 00:13:39,775
Oh, God.
Is he sick?
370
00:13:39,819 --> 00:13:41,385
No,
he's the same as always.
371
00:13:41,429 --> 00:13:44,388
Obliviously medium happy about
his obliviously medium life.
372
00:13:45,825 --> 00:13:47,522
I thought you never
wanted to see him again.
373
00:13:47,565 --> 00:13:49,002
I didn't.
374
00:13:49,045 --> 00:13:52,744
I needed to know if I was right
about what I...
375
00:13:52,788 --> 00:13:54,181
what I wanted.
376
00:13:54,224 --> 00:13:56,661
And we're back
to being cagey.
377
00:13:56,705 --> 00:13:59,142
I'm not trying to be cagey,
April.
378
00:13:59,186 --> 00:14:01,492
He couldn't handle it.
379
00:14:01,536 --> 00:14:02,842
Okay?
380
00:14:02,885 --> 00:14:05,627
He couldn't step up
or step into his own,
381
00:14:05,670 --> 00:14:06,976
and I can.
382
00:14:07,020 --> 00:14:08,456
♪♪
383
00:14:08,499 --> 00:14:10,980
I want to take over
the foundation.
384
00:14:11,024 --> 00:14:14,070
♪♪
385
00:14:14,114 --> 00:14:15,942
Is this the, uh,
coffee you showed me
386
00:14:15,985 --> 00:14:17,421
last time
I was here?
387
00:14:17,465 --> 00:14:19,162
We sold out
of our first batch.
388
00:14:19,206 --> 00:14:21,121
The local paper
wrote us up,
389
00:14:21,164 --> 00:14:23,471
so we decided to add
four more roasts.
390
00:14:23,514 --> 00:14:25,821
I was gonna branch out
into other parts of the state,
391
00:14:25,865 --> 00:14:27,910
and then,
ah, COVID.
392
00:14:27,954 --> 00:14:30,217
Yeah, I remember.
You guys got hit pretty hard.
393
00:14:30,260 --> 00:14:31,914
Hospital was
turning people away, right?
394
00:14:31,958 --> 00:14:33,350
It was a lot.
395
00:14:33,394 --> 00:14:34,961
I did
everything I could
396
00:14:35,004 --> 00:14:36,701
to keep this place open
after COVID hit.
397
00:14:36,745 --> 00:14:39,791
But then I ended up
just bagging up food
398
00:14:39,835 --> 00:14:40,575
for the regulars.
399
00:14:40,618 --> 00:14:41,924
Word spread,
400
00:14:41,968 --> 00:14:43,970
and every morning,
I come in here
401
00:14:44,013 --> 00:14:46,929
and crank up
the Doobie Brothers,
402
00:14:46,973 --> 00:14:48,626
start packing lunches.
403
00:14:48,670 --> 00:14:51,194
It was
weirdly therapeutic.
404
00:14:51,238 --> 00:14:53,153
Kept my mind occupied.
405
00:14:53,196 --> 00:14:54,545
[ Sighs ] Well...
406
00:14:54,589 --> 00:14:56,591
you got
quite the bubble out here.
407
00:14:56,634 --> 00:14:58,941
Built a very different life
for yourself.
408
00:14:58,985 --> 00:15:00,160
We're all raised
to think
409
00:15:00,203 --> 00:15:02,510
that's some kind of
wild concept.
410
00:15:02,553 --> 00:15:04,947
But what's wild
is going to work every day
411
00:15:04,991 --> 00:15:06,688
doing something
you do not like,
412
00:15:06,731 --> 00:15:08,777
thinking one day,
it'll just magically stop.
413
00:15:08,820 --> 00:15:10,953
Yeah.
414
00:15:10,997 --> 00:15:13,477
I just feel stuck.
415
00:15:13,521 --> 00:15:14,609
Hmm.
416
00:15:16,002 --> 00:15:18,178
Like there's two of me.
Like there's this --
417
00:15:18,221 --> 00:15:21,485
this successful surgeon
that I worked so hard to become,
418
00:15:21,529 --> 00:15:23,574
was trying
to push the foundation
419
00:15:23,618 --> 00:15:24,706
to be
more progressive.
420
00:15:24,749 --> 00:15:26,577
[ Sighs ]
And also just the guy
421
00:15:26,621 --> 00:15:29,798
that didn't ask
for any of this, you know?
422
00:15:29,841 --> 00:15:32,975
I'm worried
that maybe it's too late --
423
00:15:33,019 --> 00:15:35,717
the system's beyond repair.
424
00:15:35,760 --> 00:15:38,546
Maybe I could be effective
from the outside.
425
00:15:38,589 --> 00:15:40,504
Or maybe you could
let go of the idea
426
00:15:40,548 --> 00:15:43,246
that it's your job
to save the world.
427
00:15:44,508 --> 00:15:45,988
You know,
there's nothing wrong
428
00:15:46,032 --> 00:15:48,121
with wanting
to keep things simpler.
429
00:15:48,164 --> 00:15:50,253
Yeah,
I think about that a lot.
430
00:15:50,297 --> 00:15:52,386
Actually,
I think, you know,
431
00:15:52,429 --> 00:15:55,302
I could get a small place
in the woods,
432
00:15:55,345 --> 00:15:57,347
maybe open
a private practice,
433
00:15:57,391 --> 00:16:00,220
do things [Chuckling]
I really care about.
434
00:16:00,263 --> 00:16:03,614
Explore the great outdoors
with Harriet.
435
00:16:03,658 --> 00:16:05,921
We all deserve to live our lives
however we want.
436
00:16:05,965 --> 00:16:07,488
Sure, yeah.
437
00:16:07,531 --> 00:16:09,751
You are an older white guy
who's always had money, so...
438
00:16:09,794 --> 00:16:11,579
If nothing changes
in the world,
439
00:16:11,622 --> 00:16:14,277
you're still gonna be fine,
but I -- I hear you.
440
00:16:14,321 --> 00:16:16,976
You given any thought
to what if?
441
00:16:17,019 --> 00:16:18,629
What if
I didn't come back here?
442
00:16:18,673 --> 00:16:20,327
What if
you chose differently, yeah.
443
00:16:22,633 --> 00:16:26,986
Well,
I'm more of a, hmm...
444
00:16:27,029 --> 00:16:28,900
"never look back"
type.
445
00:16:28,944 --> 00:16:31,947
♪♪
446
00:16:31,991 --> 00:16:33,644
Right, yeah.
447
00:16:33,688 --> 00:16:36,343
Yeah, um...
448
00:16:36,386 --> 00:16:41,000
♪♪
449
00:16:41,043 --> 00:16:44,133
When I was here last time,
I wanted to ask you why,
450
00:16:44,177 --> 00:16:46,179
and I -- I didn't --
I couldn't --
451
00:16:46,222 --> 00:16:48,224
I guess I used to say
I was over it,
452
00:16:48,268 --> 00:16:49,225
but I'm not.
453
00:16:49,269 --> 00:16:51,967
I need to know
why you left.
454
00:16:52,011 --> 00:16:53,534
♪♪
455
00:16:53,577 --> 00:16:55,057
'Cause, um...
456
00:16:55,101 --> 00:16:58,060
♪♪
457
00:16:58,104 --> 00:17:00,715
...I realize that
it's really messed me up...
458
00:17:00,758 --> 00:17:02,108
pretty badly.
459
00:17:02,151 --> 00:17:03,718
And, um...
460
00:17:03,761 --> 00:17:04,980
[ Clears throat ]
461
00:17:05,024 --> 00:17:06,329
It just
made it hard to, like,
462
00:17:06,373 --> 00:17:08,723
maintain relationships
and stuff.
463
00:17:10,072 --> 00:17:12,118
Having this inclination
to run away all the time.
464
00:17:12,161 --> 00:17:13,336
And I know,
I know --
465
00:17:13,380 --> 00:17:14,946
running away
doesn't actually solve anything.
466
00:17:14,990 --> 00:17:16,731
I know that.
467
00:17:16,774 --> 00:17:17,993
♪♪
468
00:17:18,037 --> 00:17:19,560
So --
And I've tried.
469
00:17:19,603 --> 00:17:23,738
I've tried really hard
to rid myself of the shame
470
00:17:23,781 --> 00:17:26,306
and the pain that comes with
all that, and, uh...
471
00:17:26,349 --> 00:17:28,351
You know,
just kind of doubled-down
472
00:17:28,395 --> 00:17:31,093
on being the best
at everything --
473
00:17:31,137 --> 00:17:32,747
the best father
I could possibly be.
474
00:17:32,790 --> 00:17:35,184
I probably stayed in my marriage
longer than I should have,
475
00:17:35,228 --> 00:17:36,533
went along with
foundation business
476
00:17:36,577 --> 00:17:37,882
longer than
I should have,
477
00:17:37,926 --> 00:17:39,971
but no matter what,
[Grunts] when it gets rough,
478
00:17:40,015 --> 00:17:42,409
I just end up...
right there,
479
00:17:42,452 --> 00:17:44,715
running,
into the woods.
480
00:17:44,759 --> 00:17:47,022
Try to fight
the you in me.
481
00:17:47,066 --> 00:17:49,633
[ Motor whirring ]
482
00:17:49,677 --> 00:17:52,245
Can you not just sit
there looking at me?
Can you say something?
483
00:17:52,288 --> 00:17:53,898
Pretend that
I'm worth talking to?
484
00:17:53,942 --> 00:17:55,857
I don't know how you can just
say nothing all the -- Ow!
485
00:17:55,900 --> 00:17:58,120
God! Aah!
Damn it!
486
00:17:58,164 --> 00:18:00,253
God!
487
00:18:00,296 --> 00:18:01,602
Oh, man.
You alright?
488
00:18:01,645 --> 00:18:03,778
No, I'm not alright!
Give it -- I got it!
489
00:18:03,821 --> 00:18:05,475
Pressure,
pressure, pressure.
490
00:18:05,519 --> 00:18:07,129
♪♪
491
00:18:12,830 --> 00:18:15,050
Okay.
492
00:18:20,882 --> 00:18:22,884
[ Sighs ]
Temp's down to 101.
493
00:18:22,927 --> 00:18:24,625
It's just
a bad dream.
494
00:18:24,668 --> 00:18:27,149
Oh, yeah?
How's her breathing?It's better.
495
00:18:27,193 --> 00:18:28,629
Oh, good, alright.
Yeah.
496
00:18:28,672 --> 00:18:31,762
So we could be
out of the woods.
Yeah.
497
00:18:31,806 --> 00:18:33,373
[ Thunder rumbling ]
498
00:18:33,416 --> 00:18:35,375
So,
were you hoping
499
00:18:35,418 --> 00:18:37,377
Matthew wasn't gonna
be here tonight?What?
500
00:18:37,420 --> 00:18:38,769
No, I don't have a problem
with Matthew.
501
00:18:38,813 --> 00:18:40,119
Really?
[ Chuckling ] What?
502
00:18:40,162 --> 00:18:41,903
Whenever you guys
are in the same room together,
503
00:18:41,946 --> 00:18:43,296
you say
one of three things --
504
00:18:43,339 --> 00:18:45,254
"Yup," "Sure,"
"Not a problem."
505
00:18:45,298 --> 00:18:46,603
Well, okay, yeah.
506
00:18:46,647 --> 00:18:49,737
We're not best friends,
but, I mean, it's civil.
507
00:18:49,780 --> 00:18:51,565
He seems like
a fine guy.
508
00:18:51,608 --> 00:18:55,525
He seems, uh, kind.
Kind?
509
00:18:55,569 --> 00:18:56,874
I don't have a badword
to say about him.
510
00:18:56,918 --> 00:18:58,354
That --
That's something.
511
00:18:58,398 --> 00:19:01,183
So then why did you want to
come tell me this in person?
512
00:19:02,619 --> 00:19:04,273
You're considering
running the foundation.
513
00:19:04,317 --> 00:19:05,753
What's that
got to do with me?
514
00:19:05,796 --> 00:19:06,754
That's the thing --
515
00:19:06,797 --> 00:19:09,539
I'm not
just considering it.
516
00:19:09,583 --> 00:19:10,584
I'm doing it.
517
00:19:12,020 --> 00:19:14,762
Running the foundation means
I got to move to Boston.
518
00:19:14,805 --> 00:19:17,939
W-- Without Harriet?
519
00:19:17,982 --> 00:19:19,680
No. God, no.
520
00:19:19,723 --> 00:19:20,985
I'm moving to Boston,
521
00:19:21,029 --> 00:19:23,684
and I really
need you all to come.
522
00:19:23,727 --> 00:19:24,946
♪♪
523
00:19:24,989 --> 00:19:26,382
The foundation will employ
you and Matthew.
524
00:19:26,426 --> 00:19:27,470
You'll be set.
525
00:19:27,514 --> 00:19:28,950
You can do
whatever you want
526
00:19:28,993 --> 00:19:31,561
in terms of an outreach program
or design or build.
527
00:19:31,605 --> 00:19:33,259
Anything you want to do,
we'll fund it.
528
00:19:33,302 --> 00:19:34,260
♪♪
529
00:19:34,303 --> 00:19:36,610
I would never
leave Harriet.
530
00:19:36,653 --> 00:19:38,220
♪♪
531
00:19:38,264 --> 00:19:41,223
I could never,
ever leave Harriet,
532
00:19:41,267 --> 00:19:45,140
which means I really
need you all to come with me.
533
00:19:45,184 --> 00:19:46,576
Please.
534
00:19:46,620 --> 00:19:48,187
[ Thunder crashes ]
535
00:19:48,230 --> 00:19:51,364
♪♪
536
00:19:51,407 --> 00:19:54,758
Doesn't look like there are
any tendon injuries.
537
00:19:54,802 --> 00:19:56,020
Yeah,
the cut's not that deep.
538
00:19:56,064 --> 00:19:57,239
Okay.
539
00:19:57,283 --> 00:19:59,633
Another wash,
then let's glue it.
540
00:19:59,676 --> 00:20:00,677
[ Sighs ]
541
00:20:00,721 --> 00:20:01,896
I can handle it
from here.
542
00:20:01,939 --> 00:20:03,071
Actually,
just hand me the glue.
543
00:20:03,114 --> 00:20:05,900
Okay.
544
00:20:07,380 --> 00:20:09,208
Ow.
545
00:20:10,905 --> 00:20:12,167
[ Grunts softly ]
546
00:20:12,211 --> 00:20:14,387
Just give me
your hand.
547
00:20:14,430 --> 00:20:16,519
Come on, man.
Let me do this.
Okay.
548
00:20:16,563 --> 00:20:19,218
I may not have practiced
in a while,
549
00:20:19,261 --> 00:20:22,046
but it is like
riding a bike.
550
00:20:22,090 --> 00:20:23,700
Not exactly,
but okay.
551
00:20:23,744 --> 00:20:25,746
Hold it together.
552
00:20:27,400 --> 00:20:29,402
See?
Alright.
553
00:20:29,445 --> 00:20:30,490
That is not bad.
554
00:20:30,533 --> 00:20:32,013
Okay.
Does it hurt?
555
00:20:32,056 --> 00:20:34,276
Do you want any Tylenol
or anything?
Um.
556
00:20:34,320 --> 00:20:36,539
No, no, no.
It's actually just...
557
00:20:36,583 --> 00:20:39,063
It stings a little bit,
but that's fine.
558
00:20:39,107 --> 00:20:40,891
Thank you.
Look at us.
559
00:20:40,935 --> 00:20:42,676
We ought to open up
a family practice.
560
00:20:42,719 --> 00:20:47,071
♪♪
561
00:20:47,115 --> 00:20:48,812
You know,
I'm gonna...
562
00:20:48,856 --> 00:20:50,466
♪♪
563
00:20:50,510 --> 00:20:52,468
I'm just gonna
grab some air.
564
00:20:52,512 --> 00:20:58,431
♪♪
565
00:20:58,474 --> 00:21:00,346
[ Thunder crashes ]April:
I get it, Jackson.
566
00:21:00,389 --> 00:21:01,956
You're not the only person
in quarantine
567
00:21:01,999 --> 00:21:03,566
who's drowning in big
568
00:21:03,610 --> 00:21:04,698
"What the hell am I doing
with my life?"
569
00:21:04,741 --> 00:21:06,177
kind of questions.
570
00:21:06,221 --> 00:21:07,918
But you don't just
up and move across the country
571
00:21:07,962 --> 00:21:09,703
on a whim.
572
00:21:09,746 --> 00:21:11,531
No, no, no, that's not what
this is. It's not on a whim.
573
00:21:11,574 --> 00:21:13,750
Since the moment I met you
at Mercy West,
574
00:21:13,794 --> 00:21:16,753
you have rejected
your family name, the legacy,
575
00:21:16,797 --> 00:21:18,189
even the freaking plane.
576
00:21:18,233 --> 00:21:20,409
You've -- You've wanted
nothing to do with any of it.
577
00:21:20,453 --> 00:21:21,758
I resisted.
That's not necess--No, no, no.
578
00:21:21,802 --> 00:21:23,760
Sorry, you've been running,
kicking and screaming.
579
00:21:23,804 --> 00:21:25,327
That is not
where this is coming from.
580
00:21:25,371 --> 00:21:27,198
Okay? I can use this
as an opportunity
581
00:21:27,242 --> 00:21:29,200
to make some profound changes
in the world.
582
00:21:29,244 --> 00:21:30,550
You understand?
583
00:21:30,593 --> 00:21:33,204
I respect that. I mean,
I-I admire that, Jackson.
584
00:21:33,248 --> 00:21:35,555
As long as it's not
an inconvenience to your
perfect little life here?
585
00:21:35,598 --> 00:21:38,949
Uprooting my entire life
is not an inconvenience.
586
00:21:38,993 --> 00:21:40,342
Okay,
you're right.
587
00:21:40,386 --> 00:21:42,213
But I need this.
588
00:21:42,257 --> 00:21:43,998
I know
that I need to do this.
589
00:21:44,041 --> 00:21:45,391
I can feel it in my
gut, and I just want
to trust that for once.
590
00:21:45,434 --> 00:21:47,001
Okay.
591
00:21:47,044 --> 00:21:49,351
How many times have you
"felt in your gut"...Don't --
592
00:21:49,395 --> 00:21:51,397
...the need
to just pack up a tent
593
00:21:51,440 --> 00:21:53,181
and go
for a walkabout
594
00:21:53,224 --> 00:21:55,183
and talk to yourself
amongst the trees?
595
00:21:55,226 --> 00:21:57,316
So I'm the only one
that's walked away when
I was having a hard time?
596
00:21:58,578 --> 00:21:59,622
Just me, huh?
[ Sighs ]
597
00:21:59,666 --> 00:22:00,884
How many times
have you been
598
00:22:00,928 --> 00:22:02,146
sitting in the front pew
at a church,
599
00:22:02,190 --> 00:22:04,540
talking to God about the plans
for your life?
600
00:22:04,584 --> 00:22:06,368
It's not the same thing.
I --Why not?
601
00:22:06,412 --> 00:22:08,631
Why is it that you can find
solace and purpose in a church,
602
00:22:08,675 --> 00:22:10,372
but I can't find it
in nature,
603
00:22:10,416 --> 00:22:12,592
where I can actually have
some time that's quiet...[ Sighs ]
604
00:22:12,635 --> 00:22:14,420
...hear myself think,
think about what Iwant,
605
00:22:14,463 --> 00:22:16,030
not what everybody else
expects of me?
606
00:22:16,073 --> 00:22:17,248
So how long
did you spend
607
00:22:17,292 --> 00:22:19,425
thinking about
going to see your father?
608
00:22:19,468 --> 00:22:21,557
How much time did you spend
doing that?
609
00:22:21,601 --> 00:22:22,993
Don't reduce it
to that!Or did you just, like,
get in a car and -- and go --
610
00:22:23,037 --> 00:22:24,038
No,
it's not on a whim, okay?
611
00:22:24,081 --> 00:22:25,169
It was a realization.Okay, I --
612
00:22:25,213 --> 00:22:26,432
I needed clarity,
613
00:22:26,475 --> 00:22:28,956
and I went and talked to Robert,
and I got it.
614
00:22:28,999 --> 00:22:33,177
[ Sighs ] You have
never wanted any of this.
615
00:22:33,221 --> 00:22:36,355
And -- And I'm just
supposed to roll with it
616
00:22:36,398 --> 00:22:38,226
and see
what happens?
617
00:22:38,269 --> 00:22:40,533
What -- What happens
when you regret it?
618
00:22:40,576 --> 00:22:43,057
What happens when you realize
that you actually hate it?
619
00:22:43,100 --> 00:22:44,537
What you're asking
of me,
620
00:22:44,580 --> 00:22:47,931
of -- of our family,
of our daughter, it's...
621
00:22:47,975 --> 00:22:49,150
[ Sighs ]
622
00:22:49,193 --> 00:22:51,108
What happens
if it doesn't work?
623
00:22:53,633 --> 00:22:55,852
Matthew got on one knee
and proposed to you...
624
00:22:55,896 --> 00:22:57,724
Please don't.
Jackson, I'm --No, no, no, it's true.
625
00:22:57,767 --> 00:22:58,942
He got on one knee
and proposed to you
626
00:22:58,986 --> 00:23:00,379
in front of me.
627
00:23:00,422 --> 00:23:01,902
I stood there,
628
00:23:01,945 --> 00:23:03,991
watched another man
become your husband
629
00:23:04,034 --> 00:23:06,602
and stepfather to my child --
our child...
Mm-hmm.
630
00:23:06,646 --> 00:23:08,996
...and at no point
did I come to you and say,
631
00:23:09,039 --> 00:23:10,563
"Yeah, but what if
it doesn't work?"
632
00:23:10,606 --> 00:23:11,781
I didn't do that.
633
00:23:11,825 --> 00:23:14,436
I had your back that day
and every day since.
634
00:23:14,480 --> 00:23:16,743
He bugs the hell out of you,
doesn't he?
635
00:23:16,786 --> 00:23:18,571
I'm allowed
to be frustrated at the guy
636
00:23:18,614 --> 00:23:20,181
who makes
sandwiches weird.
637
00:23:20,224 --> 00:23:22,705
Who -- I-It's -- And he
calls her Hair-Hair.
I know.
638
00:23:22,749 --> 00:23:23,880
I know.
I'm working on that.
639
00:23:23,924 --> 00:23:25,665
[ Chuckles ]
640
00:23:25,708 --> 00:23:28,407
What I'm not allowed
to do, April,
641
00:23:28,450 --> 00:23:30,496
what -- what I've actually
never done,
642
00:23:30,539 --> 00:23:31,758
is stand in the way
643
00:23:31,801 --> 00:23:34,108
of the happiness
that you chose for yourself.
644
00:23:34,151 --> 00:23:35,544
[ Thunder rumbles ]
645
00:23:35,588 --> 00:23:37,198
I had your back.
646
00:23:37,241 --> 00:23:39,243
I know
this is a surprise,
647
00:23:39,287 --> 00:23:42,246
but I'm just asking you --
do the same for me.
648
00:23:42,290 --> 00:23:43,509
[ Thunder crashes ]
649
00:23:43,552 --> 00:23:45,902
I...
650
00:23:45,946 --> 00:23:49,645
I -- I want you to be happy,
Jackson.
651
00:23:49,689 --> 00:23:52,169
You deserve it.
652
00:23:52,213 --> 00:23:55,738
But running
the foundation?
653
00:23:55,782 --> 00:23:58,349
I --
I'm sorry.
654
00:23:58,393 --> 00:23:59,699
It's just...
655
00:23:59,742 --> 00:24:01,962
You're not that guy.
656
00:24:02,005 --> 00:24:03,137
[ Thunder rumbles ]
657
00:24:03,180 --> 00:24:05,922
I don't think
you ever will be.
658
00:24:05,966 --> 00:24:07,141
♪♪
659
00:24:12,538 --> 00:24:15,279
Jackson: So, that's it?
I'm either gonna fail or quit?
660
00:24:15,323 --> 00:24:16,542
I'm sorry, Jackson. I didn't --
I didn't mean that --
661
00:24:16,585 --> 00:24:17,368
Yeah, you did.
That's exactly what you meant.
662
00:24:17,412 --> 00:24:18,979
[ Sighs ] Ok--
663
00:24:19,022 --> 00:24:21,155
Fine. Yeah.
I did.
664
00:24:21,198 --> 00:24:23,984
Jackson,
you are a brilliant surgeon.
665
00:24:24,027 --> 00:24:26,377
You rebuild people's faces,
you rebuild their lives.
666
00:24:26,421 --> 00:24:27,770
You find a way
to make them breathe
667
00:24:27,814 --> 00:24:29,990
when --
when it seems impossible.
668
00:24:30,033 --> 00:24:32,166
You gave a little boy back
his hands.
669
00:24:32,209 --> 00:24:34,429
You prayed me
back into the world
670
00:24:34,473 --> 00:24:35,952
when I was almost dead.
671
00:24:35,996 --> 00:24:38,172
Y-You take out
impossible tumors,
672
00:24:38,215 --> 00:24:40,130
and you make people
walk out into the world
673
00:24:40,174 --> 00:24:41,741
with their heads
held high.
674
00:24:41,784 --> 00:24:44,352
That's where
you've left your mark.
675
00:24:44,395 --> 00:24:46,702
It's what
makes you exceptional.
676
00:24:46,746 --> 00:24:48,095
Wh--
677
00:24:48,138 --> 00:24:50,750
Why would you want
to give all of that up?
678
00:24:50,793 --> 00:24:53,013
It's not about what I want.
It's what I need to do.
679
00:24:53,056 --> 00:24:54,362
Well, you know what? It's
a little late to decide that.
680
00:24:54,405 --> 00:24:55,885
Excuse me?
681
00:24:55,929 --> 00:24:57,539
You don't get to choose
who I am in this world, April.
682
00:24:57,583 --> 00:24:58,584
Nobody does.
683
00:24:58,627 --> 00:25:00,716
Not my father,
not Mom -- nobody.
684
00:25:00,760 --> 00:25:02,544
And you don't get to choose
your career over mine.
685
00:25:02,588 --> 00:25:03,893
That's --
I am happy.
686
00:25:03,937 --> 00:25:04,938
I'm helping people.
687
00:25:04,981 --> 00:25:07,027
I'm really helping them.
688
00:25:07,070 --> 00:25:08,637
I am building
support systems
689
00:25:08,681 --> 00:25:10,813
and resources for people
in rural communities,
690
00:25:10,857 --> 00:25:12,336
and they need
so much,
691
00:25:12,380 --> 00:25:14,034
and I can actually
do that for them.
692
00:25:14,077 --> 00:25:15,862
And you can
keep doing that.
693
00:25:15,905 --> 00:25:17,646
You can do it
on an even bigger scale.
694
00:25:17,690 --> 00:25:19,039
You can do it
across the country.
695
00:25:19,082 --> 00:25:21,345
I'm -- You're literally
just gaining resources.
696
00:25:21,389 --> 00:25:23,217
April, I am not trying
to diminish your work.
697
00:25:23,260 --> 00:25:24,740
We have
an opportunity
698
00:25:24,784 --> 00:25:26,612
to do something really amazing
for all of us.
699
00:25:26,655 --> 00:25:28,570
Matthew will go along
with it.
700
00:25:28,614 --> 00:25:30,529
He'll follow you.
701
00:25:30,572 --> 00:25:32,531
That's why
I like him so much.
702
00:25:32,574 --> 00:25:34,707
[ Both laugh ]
703
00:25:34,750 --> 00:25:36,796
Oh, God.
704
00:25:41,191 --> 00:25:42,366
You know what?
705
00:25:42,410 --> 00:25:47,241
You -- You didn't always
have my back.
706
00:25:48,808 --> 00:25:51,027
When I found
what I needed in Jordan,
707
00:25:51,071 --> 00:25:52,768
you didn't go
with me.
708
00:25:52,812 --> 00:25:54,640
You left me alone.
I went alone.
709
00:25:54,683 --> 00:25:57,294
April, that's not fair.
You ran away from me.
710
00:25:57,338 --> 00:26:00,123
And Samuel and the pain
and the grief,
711
00:26:00,167 --> 00:26:02,735
which is understandable.
712
00:26:02,778 --> 00:26:04,911
You know,
I was resentful at the time,
713
00:26:04,954 --> 00:26:06,042
but I get it.
714
00:26:06,086 --> 00:26:07,740
You were surviving.
715
00:26:07,783 --> 00:26:09,959
You had to do
what you had to do to survive.
716
00:26:10,003 --> 00:26:12,353
But this isn't that,
anyway.
717
00:26:12,396 --> 00:26:14,137
I'm not
running fromsomething.
718
00:26:14,181 --> 00:26:16,183
I'm trying
to run tosomething.
719
00:26:16,226 --> 00:26:18,838
Trying to make
something my own.
720
00:26:18,881 --> 00:26:20,361
[ Thunder rumbles ]
721
00:26:20,404 --> 00:26:23,582
[ Sighs ]
722
00:26:23,625 --> 00:26:26,193
It's not fair,
Jackson.
723
00:26:26,236 --> 00:26:28,761
If you had
the opportunity
724
00:26:28,804 --> 00:26:34,201
to finally
make it all make sense,
725
00:26:34,244 --> 00:26:37,378
to become
what you were meant to be,
726
00:26:37,421 --> 00:26:41,382
wouldn't you try really,
really hard to get there?
727
00:26:41,425 --> 00:26:42,688
♪♪
728
00:26:42,731 --> 00:26:44,820
I would.
729
00:26:44,864 --> 00:26:47,170
I did. [ Chuckles ]
730
00:26:47,214 --> 00:26:50,043
That's all
I'm asking for.
731
00:26:50,086 --> 00:26:52,045
♪♪
732
00:26:52,088 --> 00:26:54,090
[ Sighs ]
733
00:26:54,134 --> 00:26:56,658
[ Harriet cries ]
734
00:26:56,702 --> 00:26:58,051
I got it.
735
00:26:58,094 --> 00:27:00,749
[ Crying continues ]
736
00:27:00,793 --> 00:27:02,925
[ Thunder rumbles ]
737
00:27:07,321 --> 00:27:11,586
[ Sighs ] 99.3.
738
00:27:11,630 --> 00:27:12,761
Oh, good.
Alright.Yeah.
739
00:27:12,805 --> 00:27:14,197
So she's
a little more comfortable.
740
00:27:14,241 --> 00:27:15,938
Yeah.
She's talking in her sleep.
741
00:27:15,982 --> 00:27:17,331
Oh, yeah?
Yeah.
742
00:27:17,374 --> 00:27:18,375
Anything good?
743
00:27:18,419 --> 00:27:19,899
Just gibberish.
744
00:27:19,942 --> 00:27:21,944
She said,
"Amananome."
745
00:27:21,988 --> 00:27:23,685
Ah.
That is the sea anemone.
746
00:27:23,729 --> 00:27:25,165
Oh.
747
00:27:25,208 --> 00:27:26,732
She's been waking me up
the last few weeks
748
00:27:26,775 --> 00:27:29,125
with a different
sea creature fact.
749
00:27:29,169 --> 00:27:30,692
Are they really "facts,"
though?
750
00:27:30,736 --> 00:27:32,651
[ Laughs ]
In her head, they are.
751
00:27:32,694 --> 00:27:34,087
[ Chuckles ]
752
00:27:34,130 --> 00:27:36,567
It's the best alarm clock, ever,
I'll tell you.
753
00:27:36,611 --> 00:27:38,178
Last week,
she told me
754
00:27:38,221 --> 00:27:41,137
that she could hear "werewoofs"
throwing up in your basement.
755
00:27:41,181 --> 00:27:42,704
Really?
I don't even have a basement.
756
00:27:42,748 --> 00:27:43,966
Oh, I'm aware.
757
00:27:44,010 --> 00:27:45,707
There's no
convincing her otherwise.
758
00:27:45,751 --> 00:27:47,274
So stubborn.
759
00:27:47,317 --> 00:27:49,319
Which I would say
comes from her mother...
Mm.
760
00:27:49,363 --> 00:27:50,669
...but I think
we both know...
761
00:27:50,712 --> 00:27:51,974
50/50 split.
...right down
the middle.
762
00:27:52,018 --> 00:27:53,846
Yeah.
763
00:27:53,889 --> 00:27:56,196
I could never give that up
going to Boston.
764
00:27:56,239 --> 00:27:58,981
Sea creature alarm clocks,
holding her when she's sick.
765
00:27:59,025 --> 00:28:00,504
But I can't walk away
from this chance
766
00:28:00,548 --> 00:28:02,115
to make real change
in the foundation.
767
00:28:02,158 --> 00:28:04,726
I mean,
Mom was able to do both.
768
00:28:04,770 --> 00:28:07,163
And I know in my gut,
that I can, too.
769
00:28:07,207 --> 00:28:09,600
I mean, I owe it to Harriet
to try, at least.
770
00:28:09,644 --> 00:28:11,428
I know.
And I know
I can't do it all,
771
00:28:11,472 --> 00:28:13,169
but, April,
I am telling you,
772
00:28:13,213 --> 00:28:16,129
I can take this foundation
to a whole new chapter.
773
00:28:16,172 --> 00:28:18,740
I mean, creating real
racial equity in medicine.
774
00:28:18,784 --> 00:28:20,133
Are you kidding?
775
00:28:20,176 --> 00:28:22,222
It's a revolutionary,
lasting change.
776
00:28:22,265 --> 00:28:24,572
I could look my daughter
in the face
777
00:28:24,615 --> 00:28:26,835
and know that I've done
everything I possibly can
778
00:28:26,879 --> 00:28:28,141
to give her
a better world.
779
00:28:28,184 --> 00:28:30,534
I know.
I know.
780
00:28:30,578 --> 00:28:32,580
I could do all that
781
00:28:32,623 --> 00:28:35,539
and -- and be the father
that mine never was.
782
00:28:35,583 --> 00:28:38,151
♪♪
783
00:28:38,194 --> 00:28:41,850
And all I need to do
is turn my life upside down.
784
00:28:41,894 --> 00:28:43,896
♪♪
785
00:28:49,162 --> 00:28:52,208
[ Birds chirping ]
786
00:28:59,172 --> 00:29:01,087
Puts a lot into perspective,
huh?
787
00:29:05,395 --> 00:29:07,354
Yeah, I come out here
every morning
788
00:29:07,397 --> 00:29:09,225
just to
take it all in.
789
00:29:10,574 --> 00:29:12,794
Feel like
I got a lot more thinking done
790
00:29:12,838 --> 00:29:14,187
these last few days
out here
791
00:29:14,230 --> 00:29:16,798
than probably
[Chuckling] all year.
792
00:29:19,888 --> 00:29:21,629
Might find it
hard to believe,
793
00:29:21,672 --> 00:29:23,936
but I've been thinking a lot
about our last visit.
794
00:29:23,979 --> 00:29:25,198
Everything you said.
795
00:29:26,242 --> 00:29:28,331
And the truth is,
796
00:29:28,375 --> 00:29:30,725
I left because
that's what I do.
797
00:29:30,769 --> 00:29:33,815
I chose this place
because it's safe.
798
00:29:33,859 --> 00:29:36,992
Running the restaurant,
bagging lunches,
799
00:29:37,036 --> 00:29:39,778
none of it
requires much of me.
800
00:29:39,821 --> 00:29:42,781
I can walk away
and not look back any time.
801
00:29:45,696 --> 00:29:48,395
And just forget about who
you're leaving behind, yeah?
802
00:29:48,438 --> 00:29:50,527
I was convinced you were
better off without me.
803
00:29:50,571 --> 00:29:51,833
Without a father?
804
00:29:51,877 --> 00:29:55,141
How would you think
I'm better off without...
805
00:29:55,184 --> 00:29:58,361
my father never being there
for any birthdays,
806
00:29:58,405 --> 00:29:59,754
any graduations?
807
00:29:59,798 --> 00:30:02,844
That time I got beat up
by Billy Paxton?
808
00:30:02,888 --> 00:30:04,280
At my wedding?
809
00:30:04,324 --> 00:30:07,327
The birth of my child,
your granddaughter.
810
00:30:07,370 --> 00:30:09,938
My divorce -- maybe that
would've been a good time
811
00:30:09,982 --> 00:30:12,985
for you to step in
and share some wisdom.
812
00:30:13,028 --> 00:30:14,769
A hug,
I don't know.
813
00:30:14,813 --> 00:30:16,771
Help me
make some decisions?
814
00:30:16,815 --> 00:30:19,861
It's not like
it was a few months, man.
815
00:30:19,905 --> 00:30:21,820
Or a year
or 10 years.
816
00:30:21,863 --> 00:30:23,560
It's my entire life.
817
00:30:23,604 --> 00:30:26,259
How could you think
that's better?In my father's eyes,
818
00:30:26,302 --> 00:30:27,913
I was the screw-up
in the family,
819
00:30:27,956 --> 00:30:29,131
and I absorbed
that story.
820
00:30:29,175 --> 00:30:31,177
Maybe I became it.
821
00:30:31,220 --> 00:30:33,440
And I didn't want
to pass that down to you.
822
00:30:33,483 --> 00:30:36,747
Robert: I did not want
to mess you up.
823
00:30:36,791 --> 00:30:39,141
[ Scoffs ] Congrats.
824
00:30:39,185 --> 00:30:40,447
I get that now.
825
00:30:40,490 --> 00:30:43,363
I hurt
a lot of people.
826
00:30:43,406 --> 00:30:45,800
You,
your mother.
827
00:30:45,844 --> 00:30:51,806
And to have found out
I have a granddaughter that I...
828
00:30:51,850 --> 00:30:54,243
may never meet...
829
00:30:54,287 --> 00:30:56,115
Yeah, well, it didn't have to
be that way, did it?
830
00:30:56,158 --> 00:30:57,725
You're absolutely right.
831
00:30:57,768 --> 00:30:59,596
So I buy her presents.
832
00:30:59,640 --> 00:31:03,252
An art set, a basketball,
tricycle, board games.
833
00:31:03,296 --> 00:31:04,993
What are you saying?
And you didn't send them?
834
00:31:05,037 --> 00:31:05,864
I don't have
the right.
835
00:31:05,907 --> 00:31:08,344
I don't deserve...
836
00:31:08,388 --> 00:31:12,218
to take your time,
be in your space.
837
00:31:13,262 --> 00:31:15,569
Not one day has passed
838
00:31:15,612 --> 00:31:18,528
that I haven't regretted
leaving you.
839
00:31:18,572 --> 00:31:20,791
It haunts me
in my sleep,
840
00:31:20,835 --> 00:31:23,098
when I wake up
in the morning.
841
00:31:23,142 --> 00:31:25,579
And I am truly,
truly sorry.
842
00:31:25,622 --> 00:31:28,843
And yet I know an apology
will never make up for it.
843
00:31:28,887 --> 00:31:30,889
And I have to live
with that.
844
00:31:30,932 --> 00:31:33,152
I will never
get over it.
845
00:31:34,762 --> 00:31:37,156
Oh, Jackson.
846
00:31:37,199 --> 00:31:39,767
Crossroads like this,
you don't arrive at them often,
847
00:31:39,810 --> 00:31:42,291
but I know
you will be okay,
848
00:31:42,335 --> 00:31:45,599
no matter
what road you choose.
849
00:31:45,642 --> 00:31:46,992
I'm still an Avery,
right?
850
00:31:47,035 --> 00:31:48,950
I still find
some way to...
851
00:31:48,994 --> 00:31:50,343
walk away
from it all.
852
00:31:50,386 --> 00:31:52,127
Apple doesn't fall far
from the tree.
853
00:31:52,171 --> 00:31:53,172
Isn't that
what they say?
854
00:31:53,215 --> 00:31:55,478
[ Chuckles ]
Nice.
855
00:31:55,522 --> 00:31:57,350
That's great.No, I'm sorry.
856
00:31:57,393 --> 00:31:59,134
I just thought
that was funny.
857
00:31:59,178 --> 00:32:01,136
I'm the tree,
you're the apple.
858
00:32:01,180 --> 00:32:03,051
Do you really
think that?
859
00:32:03,095 --> 00:32:05,184
I'm sitting here,
aren't I?
860
00:32:05,227 --> 00:32:08,143
Jackson, let me assure you,
you are not me.
861
00:32:08,187 --> 00:32:10,102
The fact that you're even
questioning your choices
862
00:32:10,145 --> 00:32:11,538
is proof of that.
863
00:32:11,581 --> 00:32:13,148
And if
that's not enough,
864
00:32:13,192 --> 00:32:14,802
you are committed,
Jackson.
865
00:32:14,845 --> 00:32:16,935
Committed to your work,
to your family,
866
00:32:16,978 --> 00:32:18,588
to people in need.
867
00:32:18,632 --> 00:32:20,199
♪♪
868
00:32:20,242 --> 00:32:23,158
And I know sometimes you want
to run away from it all,
869
00:32:23,202 --> 00:32:25,160
but anybody with any sense
does that.
870
00:32:25,204 --> 00:32:26,335
It's very different
871
00:32:26,379 --> 00:32:28,511
from actually
following through with it.
872
00:32:28,555 --> 00:32:29,948
♪♪
873
00:32:29,991 --> 00:32:31,775
I was scared.
874
00:32:31,819 --> 00:32:33,995
I'm scared.
875
00:32:34,039 --> 00:32:36,606
Yeah, but you're scared
of doing the wrongthing.
876
00:32:36,650 --> 00:32:40,175
I was too scared
to do the rightthing.
877
00:32:40,219 --> 00:32:41,829
♪♪
878
00:32:41,872 --> 00:32:43,570
You're not a runner.
879
00:32:43,613 --> 00:32:46,181
If you were, you would have been
long gone by now.
880
00:32:46,225 --> 00:32:47,661
Do you know how easy
it would have been
881
00:32:47,704 --> 00:32:49,010
for you to walk away
from everything
882
00:32:49,054 --> 00:32:51,099
after it all came out
about the foundation?
883
00:32:51,143 --> 00:32:53,101
Did you even
consider it?
884
00:32:53,145 --> 00:32:54,755
♪♪
885
00:32:54,798 --> 00:32:56,061
Not really, no.
886
00:32:56,104 --> 00:32:57,801
Of course not.
887
00:32:57,845 --> 00:33:00,326
'Cause you have it in your soul
to do the right thing,
888
00:33:00,369 --> 00:33:01,675
to make things right.
889
00:33:01,718 --> 00:33:03,720
And you didn't just
fix a disaster,
890
00:33:03,764 --> 00:33:05,940
you made it better.
891
00:33:05,984 --> 00:33:09,552
So if you don't want
to stay, don't.
892
00:33:09,596 --> 00:33:11,946
But don't
blame it on me.
893
00:33:11,990 --> 00:33:13,992
♪♪
894
00:33:14,035 --> 00:33:15,341
'Cause on
your worst day,
895
00:33:15,384 --> 00:33:17,560
you are 10 times
the man I am.
896
00:33:17,604 --> 00:33:23,958
♪♪
897
00:33:29,572 --> 00:33:32,575
[ Thunder crashes ]
898
00:33:38,494 --> 00:33:40,105
Jackson?Hey.
899
00:33:40,148 --> 00:33:41,976
Come in.
I can't stay.
900
00:33:42,020 --> 00:33:43,456
Honey,
it's pouring out here.
901
00:33:43,499 --> 00:33:44,761
Here, Mom.
902
00:33:44,805 --> 00:33:46,372
I mean, I can't stay
at Grey-Sloan in Seattle.
903
00:33:46,415 --> 00:33:48,069
I can't keep doing
what we've always done.
904
00:33:48,113 --> 00:33:49,462
You know how many
people of color
905
00:33:49,505 --> 00:33:51,464
we've already lost
since the pandemic started?
906
00:33:51,507 --> 00:33:53,596
The system keeps diminishing
and erasing us.
907
00:33:53,640 --> 00:33:55,381
T-They're literally letting
people just die in the streets,
908
00:33:55,424 --> 00:33:56,860
and we can do something
about it.
909
00:33:56,904 --> 00:33:58,862
I got to show Harriet
that we can put our money
910
00:33:58,906 --> 00:34:00,734
and our attention
where our mouths are.
911
00:34:00,777 --> 00:34:02,562
And we can acknowledge
the connection between our work
912
00:34:02,605 --> 00:34:03,998
and what's actually happening
in the streets
913
00:34:04,042 --> 00:34:07,132
and give a sense of equity
in this world, okay?
914
00:34:07,175 --> 00:34:08,959
It's not gonna change
after COVID.
915
00:34:09,003 --> 00:34:10,744
We know that.
916
00:34:10,787 --> 00:34:13,225
White supremacy is woven into
the fabric of this country,
917
00:34:13,268 --> 00:34:15,009
and that
means medicine, too.
918
00:34:15,053 --> 00:34:16,576
[ Sighs ]People that look like us
919
00:34:16,619 --> 00:34:19,057
should not have to be
gaslit, shamed, and ignored
920
00:34:19,100 --> 00:34:20,623
when they're
just going to the doctor,
921
00:34:20,667 --> 00:34:22,321
constantly having to prove
that their lives have any value.
922
00:34:22,364 --> 00:34:24,845
It's like this constant
cycle of stress
923
00:34:24,888 --> 00:34:27,108
from poverty and trauma
and racism,
924
00:34:27,152 --> 00:34:29,632
and it's definitely
impacting mental health --
925
00:34:29,676 --> 00:34:31,373
it's definitely
killing us.
926
00:34:31,417 --> 00:34:32,766
Where are people
supposed to turn?
927
00:34:32,809 --> 00:34:34,115
They don't feel safe
going to the doctor.
928
00:34:34,159 --> 00:34:35,986
They're scared
to call the cops.
929
00:34:36,030 --> 00:34:38,163
This is like
a deep-seated neglect.
930
00:34:38,206 --> 00:34:40,948
And if our deaths are not
affecting their profit margin,
931
00:34:40,991 --> 00:34:42,689
then it's not
gonna change.
932
00:34:45,387 --> 00:34:46,693
I want to take over
the foundation.
933
00:34:46,736 --> 00:34:48,390
What?
934
00:34:48,434 --> 00:34:49,826
I want to reallocate
every penny that we have
935
00:34:49,870 --> 00:34:51,306
to equity
in medicine --
936
00:34:51,350 --> 00:34:53,569
women's health, trans health,
racial equity.
937
00:34:53,613 --> 00:34:57,356
I want everyone who this country
abuses to be served, okay?
938
00:34:57,399 --> 00:34:59,749
We need to challenge
all the ways that we teach,
939
00:34:59,793 --> 00:35:01,447
everything that
we're doing.
940
00:35:01,490 --> 00:35:03,971
If that means dismantling
the whole medical system
941
00:35:04,014 --> 00:35:06,539
a-and -- and designing something
that actually serves everyone,
942
00:35:06,582 --> 00:35:08,018
then that's
what I want to do.
943
00:35:08,062 --> 00:35:09,019
I-I see that now.
I'm ready.
944
00:35:09,063 --> 00:35:11,152
Jackson,
where have you been?
945
00:35:11,196 --> 00:35:12,719
It doesn't even
matter anymore, Mom.
946
00:35:12,762 --> 00:35:14,938
It matters that I'm back
and I know where I belong.
947
00:35:14,982 --> 00:35:16,244
Oh!
948
00:35:16,288 --> 00:35:17,724
I gotta go.
I love you.
Ah!
949
00:35:17,767 --> 00:35:19,334
[ Smooches ]Where on God's earth
are you going now?
950
00:35:19,378 --> 00:35:20,770
I got to go
talk to April.
951
00:35:20,814 --> 00:35:21,815
What?! Jackson...
952
00:35:21,858 --> 00:35:23,338
[ Thunder crashing ]
953
00:35:23,382 --> 00:35:28,909
♪♪
954
00:35:28,952 --> 00:35:32,042
Here we go.
Yummy!
955
00:35:32,086 --> 00:35:34,175
Are you gonna go with
crazy fork?
956
00:35:34,219 --> 00:35:35,176
[ Exhales sharply ]
957
00:35:35,220 --> 00:35:37,961
Pancakes
go in your belly.
958
00:35:38,005 --> 00:35:39,311
Why do you always go
for the big ones?
959
00:35:39,354 --> 00:35:40,399
Harriet: Hey.
960
00:35:40,442 --> 00:35:42,183
Take all the small pieces,
alright?
961
00:35:42,227 --> 00:35:43,271
[ Sighs ]You want to cut
your own little piece?
962
00:35:43,315 --> 00:35:44,968
A small one.What are you doing --
963
00:35:45,012 --> 00:35:47,362
a small one this time,
that's soaked up in syrup?
964
00:35:47,406 --> 00:35:48,842
Extra syrup?
965
00:35:48,885 --> 00:35:49,930
Ooh.
There she is.
966
00:35:49,973 --> 00:35:52,019
There she is.Hi!
967
00:35:52,062 --> 00:35:53,281
Harriet: Mommy!
968
00:35:53,325 --> 00:35:55,762
[ Laughs ] Hi!
969
00:35:55,805 --> 00:35:57,764
Oh!
No fever.
970
00:35:57,807 --> 00:36:00,549
Oh, good, good, good.
971
00:36:00,593 --> 00:36:01,898
I want orange juice.
972
00:36:01,942 --> 00:36:03,465
Yeah, you can have
some orange juice.
973
00:36:03,509 --> 00:36:04,901
You want me
to get it for you, baby?
974
00:36:04,945 --> 00:36:06,164
No,
I get it myself.
975
00:36:06,207 --> 00:36:07,513
[ Chuckles ] Okay.Jackson: Okay.
976
00:36:07,556 --> 00:36:08,688
[ Laughs ]
977
00:36:08,731 --> 00:36:10,646
Go ahead, baby.
978
00:36:10,690 --> 00:36:13,823
Are you gonna unscrew the top
and pour it?
979
00:36:17,262 --> 00:36:19,655
April: You are that guy,
Jackson.
980
00:36:19,699 --> 00:36:22,441
I was an ass
for saying otherwise.
981
00:36:22,484 --> 00:36:23,790
Yeah?
982
00:36:25,095 --> 00:36:27,533
Pillows in every room.
[ Chuckles ]
983
00:36:27,576 --> 00:36:29,099
They come in handy.
984
00:36:29,143 --> 00:36:31,711
Hey,
are you sure about this?
985
00:36:31,754 --> 00:36:33,930
I'm not sure
it's gonna work, but...
986
00:36:33,974 --> 00:36:35,889
I'm sure
it's what I want, yeah.
987
00:36:35,932 --> 00:36:39,632
Why is our timing always
so terrible?
988
00:36:39,675 --> 00:36:41,634
I thought that was kind of
our thing -- bad timing.
989
00:36:41,677 --> 00:36:43,244
We just
never figured out
990
00:36:43,288 --> 00:36:45,246
how to want the same thing
at the same time.
991
00:36:45,290 --> 00:36:46,552
Even with Harriet.
992
00:36:46,595 --> 00:36:49,424
Yeah, but, I mean,
it worked out pretty well.
993
00:36:49,468 --> 00:36:51,339
Yeah,
but we were fighting,
994
00:36:51,383 --> 00:36:52,775
and then we had sex
995
00:36:52,819 --> 00:36:54,560
while our marriage
was falling apart.
996
00:36:54,603 --> 00:36:56,388
That was actually
our thing --
997
00:36:56,431 --> 00:36:59,173
arguing until we were blue
in the face and then having sex.
998
00:36:59,217 --> 00:37:01,436
Yeah, I guess
we were doomed, huh?
999
00:37:01,480 --> 00:37:05,310
Look, if you're really
living your dream here,
1000
00:37:05,353 --> 00:37:07,181
I'll give it up,
because you're right.
1001
00:37:07,225 --> 00:37:08,661
I'm totally
springing it on you guys.
1002
00:37:08,704 --> 00:37:09,749
No. What?
1003
00:37:09,792 --> 00:37:11,577
You do not
get to do all the speeches
1004
00:37:11,620 --> 00:37:12,839
and the convincing
1005
00:37:12,882 --> 00:37:15,668
and that thing where your face
just lights up
1006
00:37:15,711 --> 00:37:16,756
just to
take it all back again.
1007
00:37:16,799 --> 00:37:17,844
Don't take it all back.
1008
00:37:17,887 --> 00:37:20,325
You deserve this.
1009
00:37:20,368 --> 00:37:22,327
Wait.
What are you saying?
1010
00:37:22,370 --> 00:37:23,850
I am saying...
1011
00:37:25,243 --> 00:37:27,767
...we will
make Boston work.
1012
00:37:28,855 --> 00:37:30,596
I'm saying yes.
1013
00:37:30,639 --> 00:37:32,685
What? You're saying yes?
1014
00:37:32,728 --> 00:37:34,121
To my question,
you're saying yes?
Yes.
1015
00:37:34,164 --> 00:37:36,384
I'm saying -- Yeah. I thought
that's what you wanted.
1016
00:37:36,428 --> 00:37:37,951
Yeah, but -- Yes?
1017
00:37:37,994 --> 00:37:40,301
Like, I didn't think
it would be that easy.
1018
00:37:40,345 --> 00:37:41,998
I'm sorry.
You call this night easy?
1019
00:37:42,042 --> 00:37:43,565
No, not --
not easy like that,
1020
00:37:43,609 --> 00:37:46,655
but, like, I thought [chuckles]
you'd have to pray
1021
00:37:46,699 --> 00:37:49,832
or consult with Matthew,
maybe get your pastor involved,
1022
00:37:49,876 --> 00:37:51,878
some additional praying...Yeah. Yeah.
Matthew will be fine.
1023
00:37:51,921 --> 00:37:53,532
[ Sighs ]
Alright, well,
when does he get back?
1024
00:37:53,575 --> 00:37:55,316
I can help with the pitch.
I can talk to him.
1025
00:37:55,360 --> 00:37:57,405
What do you want me to...?Uh, no. No. No.
1026
00:37:57,449 --> 00:37:59,102
No, that's a horrible
and weird idea...
1027
00:37:59,146 --> 00:38:00,669
Yes.
...obviously.
1028
00:38:00,713 --> 00:38:02,758
Um, but tell him that
I can help him with work.
1029
00:38:02,802 --> 00:38:04,586
I'll make sure everything is
arranged for him and for Ruby.
1030
00:38:04,630 --> 00:38:06,936
We split up.
1031
00:38:06,980 --> 00:38:09,678
♪♪
1032
00:38:09,722 --> 00:38:11,245
Oh.
1033
00:38:11,289 --> 00:38:18,774
♪♪
1034
00:38:18,818 --> 00:38:22,604
We kept trying to tell ourselves
that our whole winding road
1035
00:38:22,648 --> 00:38:25,390
was God's plan
to bring us back together.
1036
00:38:25,433 --> 00:38:26,652
[ Breathes deeply ]
1037
00:38:26,695 --> 00:38:31,091
But he was still so angry
and so hurt.
1038
00:38:31,134 --> 00:38:34,050
I mean, I left him at the altar,
and then his wife died.
1039
00:38:34,094 --> 00:38:36,183
You know,
you don't just stop feeling hurt
1040
00:38:36,226 --> 00:38:37,880
'cause it's a better story
1041
00:38:37,924 --> 00:38:41,667
if God brought us together
in our pain.
1042
00:38:41,710 --> 00:38:43,321
He denied it for so long.
1043
00:38:43,364 --> 00:38:46,367
You know, he tried so hard
not to hate me.
1044
00:38:46,411 --> 00:38:50,023
I think loving me,
making us a full circle
1045
00:38:50,066 --> 00:38:52,417
was the story
he was writing.
1046
00:38:52,460 --> 00:38:55,245
I mean, I guess it was the story
we were both writing.
1047
00:38:55,289 --> 00:38:56,812
I mean, I was trying
to get past my guilt.
1048
00:38:56,856 --> 00:38:58,684
He was -- He was
trying to forgive God
1049
00:38:58,727 --> 00:39:00,686
for the loss of Karin.
1050
00:39:00,729 --> 00:39:04,080
♪♪
1051
00:39:04,124 --> 00:39:08,737
But, y-you know,
ultimately, we learned that...
1052
00:39:08,781 --> 00:39:10,565
[ Chuckles ]
1053
00:39:10,609 --> 00:39:14,787
...life just
isn't always so tidy.
1054
00:39:14,830 --> 00:39:17,833
♪♪
1055
00:39:17,877 --> 00:39:21,402
And God's plan isn't always
so easy to understand.
1056
00:39:21,446 --> 00:39:22,882
♪♪
1057
00:39:22,925 --> 00:39:24,405
He's always been so good
with Harriet,
1058
00:39:24,449 --> 00:39:25,972
and I adore Ruby,
1059
00:39:26,015 --> 00:39:27,930
but we both started
working longer hours,
1060
00:39:27,974 --> 00:39:29,584
just avoiding coming home.
1061
00:39:29,628 --> 00:39:32,370
And then, his sister got sick.
She lives in Philadelphia.
1062
00:39:32,413 --> 00:39:34,633
So he and Ruby went to
Philadelphia to be with her,
1063
00:39:34,676 --> 00:39:37,113
and...now she's better,
1064
00:39:37,157 --> 00:39:39,072
uh, but they're
still in Philadelphia.
1065
00:39:39,115 --> 00:39:40,900
[ Chuckles ]
1066
00:39:40,943 --> 00:39:43,642
And...
1067
00:39:43,685 --> 00:39:45,731
they are
not coming back.
1068
00:39:45,774 --> 00:39:48,995
♪♪
1069
00:39:49,038 --> 00:39:50,823
I had no idea.
1070
00:39:52,477 --> 00:39:54,348
Yeah, I mean,
I was gonna tell you,
1071
00:39:54,392 --> 00:39:56,959
but, you know, hundreds of
thousands of people were dying.
1072
00:39:57,003 --> 00:40:00,963
I just didn't think my marriage
counted as a casualty.
1073
00:40:01,007 --> 00:40:05,446
And you were maybe
a little too proud to tell me?
1074
00:40:05,490 --> 00:40:07,317
Yeah, fine.
[ Chuckles ]
1075
00:40:07,361 --> 00:40:09,363
I was a little --
a little too proud.
1076
00:40:11,670 --> 00:40:13,323
You okay?
1077
00:40:16,370 --> 00:40:17,763
It's hard to say.
1078
00:40:20,635 --> 00:40:23,290
But...
1079
00:40:23,333 --> 00:40:25,423
it looks like
I'm moving to Boston.
1080
00:40:25,466 --> 00:40:26,554
[ Chuckles ]
1081
00:40:26,598 --> 00:40:27,642
So...
1082
00:40:27,686 --> 00:40:29,339
[ Humming ]
1083
00:40:29,383 --> 00:40:32,212
Fingers crossed
for new horizons.
1084
00:40:32,255 --> 00:40:35,955
Fingers crossed
for new horizons.
1085
00:40:35,998 --> 00:40:39,219
♪ I know you're out there,
doin' the best you can ♪
1086
00:40:39,262 --> 00:40:40,655
Jackson:
No one said it was easy,
1087
00:40:40,699 --> 00:40:42,091
becoming the person
you're meant to be.
1088
00:40:42,135 --> 00:40:45,355
♪ But everybody needs
a helping hand ♪
1089
00:40:45,399 --> 00:40:48,750
It takes bravery a step into
the power you found
1090
00:40:48,794 --> 00:40:50,491
and earned and deserve.
1091
00:40:50,535 --> 00:40:52,362
♪ 'Cause we're all alone in this
together ♪
1092
00:40:52,406 --> 00:40:53,712
♪ But the storm
won't last forever ♪
1093
00:40:53,755 --> 00:40:55,278
He'll come back.
1094
00:40:55,322 --> 00:40:58,020
And you'll visit,
and he'll visit.
1095
00:40:58,064 --> 00:40:59,152
I know.
1096
00:40:59,195 --> 00:41:01,371
You know,
it's okay to be sad.
1097
00:41:01,415 --> 00:41:04,810
It's hard handing over something
you put your life into.
1098
00:41:04,853 --> 00:41:06,028
♪ So much light
1099
00:41:06,072 --> 00:41:07,726
[ Voice breaking ]
I'm not sad.
1100
00:41:07,769 --> 00:41:13,340
It's just, like,
I never in my life
1101
00:41:13,383 --> 00:41:17,344
felt pride
quite like this.
1102
00:41:17,387 --> 00:41:20,739
♪ We can hold each other up
1103
00:41:20,782 --> 00:41:26,135
♪ We can hold each other up
1104
00:41:26,179 --> 00:41:28,921
♪ Yeah
1105
00:41:28,964 --> 00:41:31,010
♪ Hold each other up
1106
00:41:31,053 --> 00:41:34,143
The trick is, to take the
people who were there for you,
1107
00:41:34,187 --> 00:41:35,318
with you.
1108
00:41:35,362 --> 00:41:37,320
To remind you
you're not alone.
1109
00:41:37,364 --> 00:41:39,235
It's gonna
take a few days,
1110
00:41:39,279 --> 00:41:41,760
figure out what to tell
the chief.
1111
00:41:41,803 --> 00:41:44,023
Feels weird
to say Boston.
1112
00:41:44,066 --> 00:41:46,112
[ Scoffs ]
Feels like a...
1113
00:41:46,155 --> 00:41:47,374
[ Door creaks ]
1114
00:41:47,417 --> 00:41:49,376
I don't know.
1115
00:41:49,419 --> 00:41:52,379
It feels "I don't know"
to me, too.
1116
00:41:52,422 --> 00:41:54,642
♪ 'Cause I see hope
in togetherness ♪
1117
00:41:54,686 --> 00:41:56,775
Thank you.
Oh!
1118
00:41:56,818 --> 00:41:57,776
♪ So much light
1119
00:41:57,819 --> 00:41:58,907
Harriet:
Mommy, Daddy!
1120
00:41:58,951 --> 00:42:00,126
♪ And so much love
1121
00:42:00,169 --> 00:42:01,214
I got her.
1122
00:42:01,257 --> 00:42:02,563
You go.
1123
00:42:02,607 --> 00:42:04,217
Get ready to go.
1124
00:42:04,260 --> 00:42:05,958
♪ There is strength,
strength in tenderness ♪
1125
00:42:06,001 --> 00:42:07,612
[ Door closes ]
1126
00:42:07,655 --> 00:42:10,919
You have
an entire legacy behind you
1127
00:42:10,963 --> 00:42:12,921
as you create your own.
1128
00:42:12,965 --> 00:42:18,492
♪ We can hold each other up
1129
00:42:18,536 --> 00:42:22,148
♪♪
1130
00:42:28,023 --> 00:42:30,939
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1131
00:42:30,983 --> 00:42:40,949
♪♪
1132
00:42:40,993 --> 00:42:50,959
♪♪
1133
00:42:51,003 --> 00:42:56,095
♪♪
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