All language subtitles for Highway to Heaven S04E08 All the Colors of Heart.eng

[opening theme music playing]

Well, everything
looks good.

I just wish you were
a little younger.

So do I, doc,

But, um, will it
affect things?

Just don't get
your hopes up too high.

Whoa!
It's much too late for that.

Because, what we have
is a major occurrence.

Hold on.

Me...

Sight?

Oh, brother.

For the first time?

Me...
See?

Calm down,
will you, Frank?

Okay, doc.

Um...
What are the odds?

That's hard to say.

It's a combined process

Of a laser procedure
on the optic nerve,

plus a retinal implant.

Both procedures are new.

I don't know why
I'm asking about this.

I've been blind
all my life.

I've nothing to lose.
Let's go for it.

[mysterious instrumental
music playing]

The angle of sight has
diminished considerably.

I noticed.

It's progressing
a lot faster than
I anticipated.

Look, I did some
reading up
on retinitis--

Scott, please.

It said with
absolute rest,

Atropine,
avoidance of light--

Scott...

What you have is
retinitis pigmentosa--

An entirely different
form of retinitis.

I don't care
what you call it.

Just tell me
how you're gonna cure it.

I can't.

It's degenerative.

There's no cure
at the present time.

You're full of crap.
You know that?

What the hell
am I paying you for?

You can't even help
me out.

I'm sorry.

We can't bury
our heads in the sand.

You are going blind.

I think you should start
planning for the future.

What future?

I tell you,
this whole thing
doesn't make sense.

You sure we're not
on an assignment?

I told you, no.

Alright, then tell me this
why would Caz write to me?

He's your friend.
What'd he say in the letter?

Nothing. Just that
he needed help.

I haven't
heard from Caz Lawton

in I don't know how long.

I do know how long...
I haven't heard from him since
he quit the force.

He quit before me.

He walked in one day,
handed in his papers,

said he wanted
something different
with his life.

Why now?
Why all of a sudden--

Mark!
Here's the turn.

-Here's the turn.
-oh. Right. Okay.

[captivating instrumental
music playing]

I'm not gonna like this.

-How come?
-Summer camp.

So?

Rich kids.

I can't believe Caz
would have anything to do

With a camp
for spoiled rich kids.

-Excuse me.
-Yes sir?

Where would we find Caz Lawton?

Just follow this road
down to the beach.

He's at the
climbing area.

-Thank you.
-You bet.

Climbing area?

Let's go see
what rich kids climb.

That's not too tight,
is it?

This snap is
a very important snap.

Are you ready
to go up, Leda?

Uh-huh.

Harry,
Leda's ready to go up.

I want you to take
her up the west face.

Hey, Caz!

Mark!

Aah!

Ha ha ha!

You made it!

I'm glad to see you!

Look out!

Watch out!

Hey, that wasn't too bright.
Watch where you're going!

I certainly
wish I could.

Wait a minute. You're--

I know. Please don't
tell me I'm blind.

You rappelled
down that cliff,
and you can't see?

It's the only way I'd
rappel down a sheer
face like that.

Wouldn't take a chance if
I were sighted, it's
much too scary.

Am I done for
the day, Caz?

Yes, you are Frank.
Brian!

Give Frank
a hand with his gear.

All right,
what's going on here?

What do you mean?

Didn't I explain
in the letter?

This is a camp
for the junior blind.

The guy who almost landed on
your head started it.
And, I run it.

You didn't say anything in
your letter, except it
was very important.

It is important.
My cook quit.

Your cook quit.

Yeah.

Your cook quit?
Ha ha!

Mark,
it's hard to explain.

When Willie, my cook,
up and quit me,

There was no one in the world
I could think of
to replace him

but you.

Why me?
I'm not a cook.

I know it doesn't
make any sense.

But, that's what happened
It was like I was
getting a message--

"Get a hold
of Mark Gordon."

Strange, isn't it?

Oh, yeah...

Very strange,
very strange.

Caz, I offer you
my heartfelt apology
for scaring you.

Funny man, Frank.

Meet an old buddy
of mine, Mark Gordon.

How are you?

Mark's gonna be
our new cook.

Now, wait a minute...
I didn't say--

What was your name again?

Jonathan smith.
How you doin'?

I remember you.
You're what they call--

I know--
the blind jock.

In college
you wrestled,
shot-put, discus--

Youthful enthusiasm.
All gone now.

You're still skiing
and running marathons?

Don't golf with him.
He'll take your wallet.

Taking up
mountain climbing now?

Just until my tryout
with the Cincinnati reds.

Oh, good joke.

No, no.
No joke.

I'm getting my sight
in the near future.

Pete rose can use
hard-throwing right-handers.

Until Pete calls,
how about giving me a hand?

I got it started.
It's up to you now.

You've got many counselors.
And, I'm not a teacher.

It's a very special case.

They're all
special cases, Caz.

He's sighted, but
I don't know for how long.

No, I'm sorry.
It's not a good idea.

Brian, get me out
of here, would you?

I'll show you
where we're bunking.

Wait, Caz! I told you
we're not staying.

You mind if I have a crack at
that special case of yours?

I've done some work with
people with a disability.

Sounds good to me.

-Jonathan--
-I mean as long as
Mark'll be your cook.

Jonathan!

[laughing]

[knock on door]

Scott?

Scott! Come on, I know
you're in there.

I've been calling
for the last two hours.

Didn't all that
ringing bother you?

Will you
let me come in,

or, are we gonna argue
in the hallway?

Going away?

Camp.

The one Dr. Lovell
recommended?

Yeah.

I thought you said--

I changed my mind.

Good. I'm glad...

I think.

What's that
supposed to mean?

Are you really going to learn
or, just running away?

I'm not running away.

Yes, you are.

Ever since this thing's
gotten worse,

you've cut yourself off.

You quit your job--

I've had a lot
on my mind lately.

I know.

Why don't you
let me share some of it.

I'm going blind!

How do you want
to share that--

What're you gonna do?
Trade me one of
your eye

so that we can both
go blind in one eye?

If I could, I would.

Scotty, whether or not
you have your sight

Is not what's
important to me.

That's
because it's not
happening to you!

Look, I've got to
finish packing.

Goodbye, Bets.

Scott, I think
it's a very wise
thing you're doing.

Yeah. Whatever.

My daughter's blind.

RP, Like you.

I wish I'd had the sense
to do what you're doing

while she still
had her sight.

Hmm?

Huh, Scott?

Alright, I'm gonna
turn you over
to Jonathan.

He'll show you around.

Okay? If there's
any questions,

that's what we're
here for--to help.

See you later, Jonathan.

You bet.

Follow me.

Watch your step
on this bridge.

It takes
getting used to.

Most of the activities
around here are voluntary.

Caz figures if you
pick out what you want,

you'll do better at it.

We've got stables
down there on your left.

I don't ride.
I don't like horses.

A ball game's
starting pretty soon.

No, thanks.

How about
that swimming pool?

Not much
into water anymore.

Let me
put it another way--

What is it
you'd like to see?

Next week...
Next year...

I'd like to see
the rest of my life.

You ever been blind?

Huh?

No.

Right.

So, how are you going
to teach me to be?

[chattering]

Hey, I'll see you in
the ball field.

-See you in the ball field.
-Hey! Bye.

Those are either the best
behaved kids in the world,
or, the hungriest.

I'm mean, bot one can play.

Mark, has it ever occurred
to you that maybe...

-maybe the food was good.
-Np, it wasn't.

I'm a lousy cook and I know it.

Let me tell you something,
lousy or, not,

we have an old
tradition here at
the camp...

that the cook, umpires
the Bowling Pin basketball
game on Tuesday.

And, today is Tuesday.

-You just made that up.
-No, I didn't.

No come on, I don't know
anything about Bowling
Pin basketball.

I'll explain the rules
to you as we walk.

Very simple.
Very Simple.

Hey, don't worry about it.
I'll be along to help.

-Hey Jonathan.
-Yeah?

You're heading for the ball
game, mind if
I tag along?

Hey, like the company.

Did I hear you correctly?
You're gonna get your sight?

Did you ever?

-It's gotta be a great feeling.
-It's all I can think about.

I know I shouldn't
get my hopes up,

but, it's every blind
persons dream.

All the things I've done...

are things they said a
blind person shouldn't or,
couldn't do.

I did, because, I was trying
to show the world that...

I don't know,
didn't matter.

But, down deep,
I always knew it did.

I can't blame you for that.

I'll tell you something else.

I always thought
of myself as... uh...

-...kind of a fraud.
-You

-You gotta be kidding.
-No, seriously.

I can even give
you an example.

The slopes, are filled with
people who ski and
a lot have handicaps,

one kind or, another.

But because I'm blind...
big deal.

Same with my running, or, golf.

You know, it's kind of a scam.

This camp you
started is no scam.

Oh no. But, it's no
big deal either.

A lot of people start camps,
but, because I'm blind,
that's a big deal.

Frank I gotta tell ya, you're
selling yourself a little
short.

Hey, I've done alright for
a blind guy. So what?

You think you're gonna feel
different when you're sighted?

I don't know.

At least I'll find out if I
can cut it in the sighted
world without allowances.

It means a lot to
you, doesn't it?

Jonathan,
when I was a little boy,

I used to hear the other
kids play baseball in the
park next door,

they we having
so much fun...

but, all I had was
a stick and a rock.

Throw up the rock
and hit it with a stick.

Well then, why
didn't you use a ball?

It's easy to tell, you've
never been blind?

If I hit a ball, I'd have
to spend a lot of time
going to get it.

No big deal.

That's pretty smart.

You know, people think
I'm crazy when I tell 'em...

that I'm gonna try out
for the Cincinnati Reds,
but, I know I can pitch.

I can hit the
strike zone blind.

Imagine how good I'm
gonna be if I can see.

And the arm...

[whistles]
is good as new. Got a
lot of mileage left on it.

That's what sight
is gonna give me.

Baseball.

And, I'll see a rainbow...

and, a sunset.

And, flowers.

I'm gonna find out if
they're as lovely as small.

[upbeat instrumental
music playing]

[cheering]

Give me
the ball.

Here we go.
Here we go.

Alright!

[cheering]

You're not
playing?

No.

What about helping me
umpire first base?

No way.

Well, you should have
asked me, jonathan.

Because when somebody yells,
"the umpire's blind!",

They'll be right.

That's very cute,
Frank.

-I'll see you later.
-Okay.

All right, play ball.

Hi, I'm Frank Riley.

Scott lee.

Oh, yeah,
you're the guy.

Guy who what?

The guy
who's going blind.

Yeah, that's right.

Why do you think
I'm here?

That's what
I was wondering.

That's what I was wondering.
Why'd you come here anyway?

If you're not
going to participate?

You wouldn't understand.

Okay.

Oh! Good hustle out there.
Play ball! Play ball!

Well, kiddo, here's
where I got to leave you.

Why?

I got to go to work.
That's why.

I'll come with you.

That's not
a good idea.

You're a camper.
You're supposed to camp.

Besides, a kitchen's
a very dangerous place.

Hot stuff all over the place.

I won't get
in the way.

No, no, no.
Uh, excuse me, miss?

Jennifer.

Could you escort Jerry to
where he's supposed to be?

Sure, I'll
take care of him.

Come on, Jerry.

See you later.

What did you
think of Scott?

You sat me there
on purpose.

I didn't think
you'd notice.

Don't try fooling
a blind guy.

I can't get
through to him.

Jonathan, what do you know
about RP?

Just what I've read.

Your field of vision
gradually narrows,
tunnel vision,

Until one day
there's nothing left.

It's among
the cruelest diseases,

because you literally
watch yourself go blind.

Can make a fellow
pretty bitter.

How about giving me
a hand with him?

Uh-uh, not me.
I'm the wrong person.

You're uncomfortable
working with blind
people, aren't you?

I am now.

Why?

How can I tell him
to accept his blindness,

when I'm about
to get my sight back?

How can I do that
and not think of myself

as the worst kind
of hypocrite?

I don't know. Maybe
you ought to find out.

Ah, not bad. Not bad.
Mind if I try a couple?

Be my guest.

Can I have the ball?

You can bounce it to me.

The ball, sir.

Thank you.

Now, just stand
under the basket.

Okay.

Okay, and if you can,
just count for me.

Count?

Like in school.

1...

2...

3...

4...

Hey, that's
pretty good.

Just a trick.

Yeah? How's
your rebounding?

Oh, terrible.

Listen, they tell me
you're a beach person.

Are you a lifeguard?

Surfer.

That's one of
the best ways to go.

Not one of the best.
The best.

What's it like?

You can't
describe it.

Try me. Please.

Well, you spend lots
of time waiting.

Then you see
the one you want,

See it building.

You know it's good.

You get
a good push off,

go sliding down
the face,

picking up speed.

Sometimes,
if the pipe's
formed just right,

You can duck inside.

Then the water
closes off
all the sound.

It's just you...

And the wave.

You look up...

I don't do that
anymore.

It sounds
absolutely great.

I wish
I could learn.

It's a little tough
if you can't see.

I don't think
it's so easy
if you can.

Listen, I've...
I've got an idea.

I like to jog
every morning
on the beach.

I always feel bad
asking a counselor
to accompany me.

Why don't you
come along tomorrow?

I don't know.

You'd be doing me
a favor.

Yeah, well...

All right, try this.

How about if you and I
play a game of horse?

I win,
you come jogging.

You're on.

Oh! The ball,
please, sir.

Thank you.

Still under the basket?

I am now.

Whoo!

Magic Johnson!

Awoo! That's "H"!

Hey listen,
close your eyes for a second.

What for?

Just want to find out
if you're a sharp beach
person you said you are.

Forget it, I don't
wanna play blind
man's bluff.

Hey, can we cool it
here a second?

It's getting
to my calves.

I agree.
The sand's tough.

Look, Scott,
all I was trying to do

was show you that as
awful as blindness is,

it really isn't
the end of the world.

Maybe not for you.

I don't think
for you, either.

Look, for
an old guy,

give it
a try, huh?

Okay. Let's just
get it over with.

Alright!

Let's start with,
um,

tell me about
what you can hear.

Ocean there, road there.
I hear cars. Are we done?

Come on, Scott,
what else?

Birds.

Where?

Everywhere.

No. No, wait.

Back--
back there.

No. They're moving over--

They're moving.

What kind?

Gulls.

And?

What do you mean,
and? I don't know.

I never paid
much attention before.

That is right.

I can hear pipers
and terns and even
some sparrows.

Wait.

I hear a plane.

What kind?

Very funny.

Just checking.
Now, the good stuff.

Tell me
about the waves.

What do you
want to know?

What kind?

Are you kidding me?

I spent all those hours
out there for nothing?

An even dozen.

A dozen?

I can only count 11.

That's not bad
for a non-surfer.

Where is the wind
coming from?

Over there.

How do you know?

I feel it
on my face.

Very nice.
What do you smell?

Salt water,

sand...

Hamburgers.

Yes!
That's Charlie's.

It's a quarter-mile
down the beach.

It's a bastion
of culinary delight.

Let's get jogging.
Got any cash?

I knew there was
a catch to this.

Let's jog.
You're buying.

[uplifting instrumental
music playing]

All right, come on.

Something wrong?

Oh. Well, will you tell me
what it is,

or, do I have to guess.

I'm scared.

Now, look,
I'm going to be
right there with you.

I wouldn't let you fall.

I'm not scared
of falling.

What are you
afraid of?

The horse.

Oh, well, that's because
he's a stranger, see?

Come on,
I'll introduce you.

Here we go.

All right. Now,
this is old Dutchie.

Funny name.

Not for old Dutch.

Hey, Dutch, this is
my friend, jerry.

Give me your hand.

Feel that?
That's his neck.

Right there,
that's his mane.

Feel it?

Right there,
that's his ear.

He likes
to be scratched
right around there.

[whinnies]

Don't be afraid.

He's just
saying thank you.

You ready
to ride him?

No.

Do you think
the old bear

is gonna let you get hurt.

Okay.

Atta boy.
Up you go.

Hold right on that.

You okay?

Okay, as long
as I'm with you.

All right, pal,
let's go.

[lifting instrumental
music playing]

Look down!

You trying to be funny?

I was talking
to Scott.

Move right
so he can climb up.

That's pretty tough.

You think
this is tough?

Wait till we get
to the next part.

Take a breath.
I'm going
to the next stop.

Nice place
to watch the sunset.

I'll bet.

I like this.

Climbing?

That's not what this
camp's all about.

I heard
you messed up
the basic classes,

Like braille
and learning
to use a cane.

I'll get to them.

Mm-mm. Climbing,
running along
the surf down there

Builds lots
of confidence,

But, you've
got to learn
the practical stuff.

How to pour
milk without
making a mess,

Using a cane
to go to work.

I said
I'd get to it.

The time, my friend,
is right now,

Before you lose
your sight.

Alright!

Don't make it
harder than
it is already.

I'm not trying
to make it harder.

I just want you
ready to go on
with your life.

You married?

Me? Nah,
much too young.

You don't look
too young.

Thanks a lot.

You married?

No.

You thinking about it?

Not anymore.

Because of
the blindness?

I'd say that was
a pretty good reason.

I think it's
a very stupid one.

Alright, break's over.
Let's move it!

Hey Jonathan, you seen
Frank around?

He went to town
with Mark.

When will he be back?
You know?

It depends how long
he's with the doctor.

Doctor?
What's going on?

The one who's
operating on his eyes.

He never told me.

I thought you knew.

There's a good chance
Frank will get
his sight back.

I'm sorry
to be so long, Frank.

But, these test results
took a while.

That's okay, doc.

So what's
the good word?

The word's not so good.

We knew going in
it was a long shot,

But, we thought it
was worth a chance.

You...You...Won't
do the operation?

It would be
an exercise in futility.

I guess I...

I guess I figured that.

I'm not going
to put you
through the pain

and the expense
of something I know

has a 100% chance
of failure.

Frank, I'm really sorry
it didn't work out.

So am I, doc.

but, you know,
like they say,

Them's the breaks.

[melancholic instrumental
music playing]

Frank.

Frank!

Hmm. Yes?

We're back.

Oh. Thanks
for the ride.

Frank.

Remember what
you said on the way
to the doctor.

"If this thing
doesn't work out,

it's not the end
of the world."

No, but it is
the end of a dream.

Maybe they're
the same thing.

[knock on door]

Uh, Jonathan?

I can't find Scott.

Didn't he
come to dinner?

No. The way I cook,
I don't blame him.

He knows the rules about
staying out after dark.

I'm worried
about him.

We'll help you
look for him.

[knock on door]

Who is it?

It's jonathan.
I'm looking for Scott.

He's...Not here.

Have you seen him
since you got back?

No.

Mark told me
about what happened.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, too.

Scott heard
about the operation.

It seemed
to upset him
quite a bit.

He doesn't know
it's off?

No.

He's been missing
since then.

If you happen to think
of where he might be,

let me know. Okay?

Oh, Scott, you dummy!

Okay, here we go people,
here's some more flashlights.

Jack and Arnie,
check the beach.

The rest of us
will sweep the camp.

If you see him,
holler loud.

Let's go.
Let's hit it.

Check the beach
real good.

He might be down there.

What are you
doing out here?

Waiting for you.

What for?

To look for Scott.

I thought
you might need company.

It's getting on
toward nighttime.

I'm not afraid
of the dark.

I can be a big help.

I like being with you.

You know what?

I like being
with you, too.

[gripping instrumental
music playing]

[branches crunching]

Get away.

Who's that? Scott?

You heard me.
Get away.

Ohh...
You scared me to death.

I thought I was
the only one up here.

What are you
doing here anyway?

Watching
the sun set.

I heard you'll be
doing it soon.

Oh, you heard that,
did you?

Yeah. All that time
you were telling me

how it's going to
be okay going blind,

You were just
waiting to see.

And you think
that's bad?

Well...

You're coming out
of a dark room.

I'm going in.

Kind of makes you
a hypocrite,
doesn't it?

Would it help you...

if you found out...

I was going
to stay blind?

Would that make you
feel better?

Yeah, it would.
It would.

Well,
you got your wish

because they can't
do the operation.

I'm sorry.

I didn't
really mean--

All my life...

All my life,

I've wanted to see
color, you know?

I've smelled flowers,

I've tasted grass--

Blades of grass,

But, I always wondered
what green was.

But, all
I'll ever see...

is black.

Maybe that's
a blessing.

You don't know
what you missed.

Oh, I think I do.

Today, when
I drove into town,

I thought,
for the first time,

I'd find out
what a sunset

was really,
really like.

It was a good one.

One of the kind
that has everything.

The whole horizon
was really red...

Like a fire engine.

Then it dropped off
to orange...

And yellow...

And, there was
a band up there

that was absolutely
white...

and then the palest
blue-green.

There was a bunch
of low-lying clouds.

They had
that bright red
on the bottom...

And the bluest black
on top.

It was the prettiest
sunset I've ever--

I'll ever see...

again.

The tunnel vision's
almost closed down now.

I kept running
into things all day.

I guess that's
one of the reasons

I climbed up here--

to see my last sunset.

I think...

I think you came up here
to jump, Scott.

What makes you
think that?

Oh, I don't know.

I guess 'cause
we're supposed
to hear everything.

I told you that

blind people,
we hear everything.

Anyway, you're
sort of a classic.

The trouble
with you, Scott,

is that you think
that you're the only one

in the world
that hurts.

But, everybody
at this camp

is in pain.

They hate
the darkness,

but, they either
let that hatred

turn them into lumps,

Or, they fight back.

Yeah, well that's
easy for you to say.

You've always had
it all together.

You're a fighter.

Well, hooray!

But, I'm not, okay?

So just
leave me alone!

I can't do that.

Well, you don't
have any choice.

Scotty...

You've got
to understand.

If you jump...
If you jump,

that's the end
of everything.

And blindness isn't?

No. No, it's not.

Yeah. Yeah,
you say that.

You say
that because

You've never
known anything
but darkness.

You don't know
anything else.

But, I do.

I mean,
for the rest
of my life,

I'm going to
have to remember

What I've lost.

I'll know
what I've lost.

I know, I know.

I can't
handle that.

But, you will remember.

You've got memories
to hold on to.

I don't want to
hold on to them!

What can't you
see that?

It hurts,

And, I can't
take the pain
anymore.

Let me go!

No!

Why?

Because--

Why won't you
let me jump?

Because I can't!

I can't.
I can't.

Think I always
had it together?

That's what you think!

I came up here today,

Just like you, to jump!

Just like you!

And I can't!

All those so-called
accomplishments,

all those things,

I was apologizing
for being blind!

I was apologizing
for being blind!

And that's stupid!

It's stupid
because I'm damn good.

We are gonna make a choice.

It's stupid
I am not--m damn good.

I am not going to let you
turn into a lump!

You don't
have to leave.

We can always
use another cook.

Forget it.

You're just lucky Willie
decided to come back.

Yeah,
Willie shows up,

Begs for
his job back.

Weird, isn't it?

Yeah, weird.

Jerry wanted
to say goodbye.

I'll be right back.

Well, kiddo, I, uh--

I got to be going.

You take care
of uncle Dutchie?

Yeah.

Will you brush him?

Yes.

Will you feed him?

Mm-hmm.

Will you ride him?

Of course.

So, kid, you take
care of yourself,
you hear me?

Okay.

There.

I love you.

I love you,
too, kiddo.

I love you, too.

♪ I don't know
Day from night ♪

♪ And I don't know
Dark from light ♪

♪ And I believe
That life is more ♪

♪ Than just
A gift of sight ♪

♪ Rainbows I'll never see ♪

♪ Don't mean
Half as much to me ♪

♪ Because I found
The heart and soul ♪

♪ Have rainbows
That can be ♪

♪ All the colors
Of the heart ♪

♪ Are more than
You can see ♪

♪ You've got
To look beyond ♪

♪ To find
What's you and me ♪

♪ All the colors
Of the heart ♪

♪ May have
A special plan ♪

♪ Look inside ♪

♪ Find the colors
Of the heart ♪

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