All language subtitles for [English] When I was the Most Beautiful E14 NEXT.VIU

Jin. Hey, Jin.

Carrie...

Ki Seok stabbed Carrie.

Move aside.

Carrie... What if Carrie dies?

What are you talking about?

Calm down
and tell me what's going on.

Who's dying?

Ki Seok?

Carrie?

Try to calm down.
I'll be there soon.

What's going on?

Can you take me to Seoul?

Carrie got stabbed.

I'll pull out the car to the front.

EPISODE 14

I'll come too.

What for?

You'll be going to
the police station and the hospital.

You might need another hand.

And you'll need someone to drive.

You don't have to do that.

I'm not sure if you can
betray me in any other way,

but I don't want to stay unaware
only to get backstabbed.

IN OPERATION

Are you her guardian?

She bled a lot,
so we can't be at ease yet.

But the CT scan showed...

that the main artery
in her abdomen wasn't damaged.

It'll take a while
to control internal bleeding...

and to suture the wound.

Let's go to the police station.

You should go home.

Go with Hwan.

I'll stay here.

- What?
- You should go home.

Why would you?

Are you doing this out of spite?

I'm exhausted.

I got exhausted waiting for you,
who wouldn't return.

I got exhausted walking on thin ice
when you returned as a wreck.

And I got exhausted after
I finally found out...

about your betrayal.

Let me go.

I will also...

let you go.

Ki Seok.

Why did you do it?

On the day...

of your accident,

I had marred your tires
with a box cutter.

Carrie had told me to stop you
from making a new record.

She had said you'd come back.

But your tires exploded,

and your car went over the cliff.

You...

You were the one who did this?

Carrie had told me
to keep it a secret.

She said nobody would know.

But I was afraid.

I could neither sleep nor eat.

And then,

suddenly,

I heard that you were alive...

and that you couldn't walk.

She knew everything
but kept it from me.

She was very shameless.

I know it was all my fault,

but the woman who had ruined
both of our lives...

was grinning in front of me.

Then I lost it.

What are you saying?

You guys were a team for a decade.

After all those years,

you did what to my brother?

I'll receive my punishment.

It may be late,
but I'll come clean...

and get what I deserve.

Will doing that cure him?

Do you even know
what our family's going through?

I'm sorry.

This is...

all my fault.

I'm sorry.

You'll make it out alive,
so don't worry too much.

You're in the ICU right now.

I thought you'd panic if you woke up
and found yourself hospitalized.

So I decided to stay
and explain to you once you woke up.

Where's Ki Seok?

He's at the police station.

Jin is probably there too.

I wish you a speedy recovery...

even though I don't know
why you deserved this.

What about Jin?

Is he okay?

Well...

He's showing no emotions.

He's not even furious.

Nothing.

That's what makes me more nervous.

He seems like a ticking bomb.

Take your medication
and get some rest.

I took out the pills
you ordered from the U.S.

I think I'm getting punished.

At first,

I thought getting paralyzed
by the accident...

was my punishment.

Why would you get punished?

Because I abandoned my brother...

so that I could live.

But my true punishment...

was losing you.

That was what I got
for living such a wrongful life.

It was Carrie.

That woman...

made Ki Seok cause the accident...

then feigned ignorance
in front of me...

who couldn't walk.

What should I do with her?

What about the past seven years
that I've lost?

What about the fact
that I've lost you?

Would putting her
behind bars suffice?

My resentment...

and your pain...

won't go away that easily.

I couldn't...

visit her at the hospital.

If I saw her face...

If she appeared in front of me,

I wouldn't have been able
to sit still.

Don't do anything.

Never.

Don't visit her. Don't see her.

Let the police and the law
take care of it.

If you act rashly and retaliate,

it'll only ruin us all.

You can't do that.

This...

This is too unfair.

Father.

Hey. It's okay.

Is Jin hanging in there?

I gave him some medication
so he could sleep.

Please do me this favor.

Please help him stay strong.

Are you okay?

I'm sorry.

For what?

I feel like...

at least someone
should properly apologize to you.

That woman didn't just ruin...

Jin's legs.
She ruined all of our lives.

Don't resent him...

too much.

You should get some sleep.
You didn't sleep at all yesterday.

Let's all get some good rest...

and discuss what to do...

once we have a clear head.

You weren't asleep?

I couldn't sleep.

I can't seem to calm down.

You were too concerned
about Jin to notice,

but you must've been
very shaken as well.

Would you like a drink?

- It could help you...
- Are you...

okay?

You had strived to find him
for many years,

and it was all because of her.

I was furious back at the station.

But I don't quite understand
myself either.

It feels like
she has stolen my life.

She stole all of our lives.

I'll stay with you.

I want to hug you,

but I know I shouldn't.

You better wake up...

so that I can repay you
for everything you've done.

You dared to ruin my son...

and hid him.

Then you brazenly told us
that you wanted him.

You're truly incredible.

Make sure she doesn't squirm
out of this.

Prepare well
and put her behind bars.

I'll gather some attorneys
who specialize in criminal affairs.

Send Hwan back to the U.S.

He'll know what to do.

Book a place for him
and get him on a plane.

Yes, ma'am.

I'll skip dinner today.

I don't think
I can stomach anything.

When you were gone...

Do you know how we pulled through?

Ye Ji and I...

woke up on time
and never skipped our meals.

We made sure of that.

We forced ourselves to eat
even if we threw up afterward.

Even though
we spent all night crying,

we always rose from our beds
in the morning.

If you keep up
with your daily routine,

you won't hit rock bottom.

No matter how painful
and tough things may be.

I know how you feel right now,

but let me ask you for a favor.

You can break furniture,
shout your lungs out,

or drink so much
that you end up in an ambulance.

I don't care what you do.

However,

don't skip your meals.

Just do that.

Jin.

- Dad.
- Yes?

What's wrong with her?

Goodness,

she lost something she had
obsessed over her entire life.

Her hatred toward Ye Ji and her mom.

She could keep hating them.

It's not like
we see each other anyway.

Take top stars for example.

Many suffer from panic disorders
after finally succeeding.

You can say that she's going through
something similar.

Whether it be love, hatred,
or whatnot,

they feel empty
once they let go of it...

after a very long time.

They become sick.

What? I thought
you weren't going to eat.

If you knew that I was sick,
you should've made some porridge.

What is this kimchi fried rice?
It's so red.

Don't eat it.

She and I will have this
and make you some porridge...

out of frozen rice.

Forget it. I don't want to eat
something that's not even tasty.

Hey, make another fried egg.

There are three of us, you know?

I hate it the most when you do this.

You act like you're not going to eat
then you pick up the spoon.

Mom.

Where's your friend?

She's teaching a class today.

Oh, dear.
I've made two servings of food.

You haven't had lunch yet, have you?

I didn't know what you like to eat,

so I just...

packed some food
you used to like as a kid.

I still like the same food.

People's taste in food
doesn't change that easily.

You should eat with me.

You brought so much food.

Okay.

Try it like this.

It's good.

You're right.

It's perfect.

Don't blame yourself.

It wasn't your fault.

It wasn't anybody's fault.

Any mother in this world...

would have done the same.

Then...

can we stay together now?

And don't worry about
something like my future.

If I live an unhappy life now,
having a future won't mean anything.

If we stay together,

whenever we look at each other,

we'll think of Dad,

we'll be reminded of that day,

and you will torture yourself
thinking that I went to prison...

because of you.

When you go through
a painful and traumatic experience,

you can't go back
to how things were...

even with your family.

That's how it is.

You liked this
much more than gimbap.

You still remember.

I've tried making these once...

on your birthday
because seaweed soup seemed...

too difficult for me to make.

The time when you put in
unseasoned rice...

in fried tofu
that was also unseasoned?

That's my dark history.

But still, it was great.

I missed you.

Once a year passed by,

I thought to myself,
"Would she be this big by now?"

Another year went by, and I thought,
"Would she have grown this much?"

"Would she have become
a young lady by now?"

I imagined that every night
before I went to sleep.

Didn't I grow up wonderfully?

Now, eat up.

That looks good.

YE JI'S WORKSHOP

Seung Min.

You were here?

Yes, hey.

I made a meal box for her.

Are you here to see Ye Ji?

Yes.

Okay, then. Go ahead and do that.

I'll get going.

Goodbye.

I...

want to be listed under
my mom's family register again.

I'm legally
Aunt's daughter right now.

Is there a way...

to fix that?

What will happen to me?

I heard Kang Ki Seok got arrested.

If he opens up his mouth...

There's no evidence
that you put him up for it.

Kang Ki Seok is just a racer
who wasn't talented enough,

who got jealous of his friend...

and caused harm
to his friend's life.

But still, I need a way
to protect myself.

My attorneys are on it.

Don't worry about it...

and get well soon.

I have something to tell you,
Chairman Bang.

You're here.

I need you...

turn in a petition for Ki Seok.

Why should I?

He's a lunatic who stabbed me.

I almost died.

You brought it upon yourself.

I don't know
what Kang Ki Seok said to you,

but whatever he said isn't true.

I said I won't give him any money
when he asked for more,

- then he went crazy and...
- I finally get it.

Back in the U.S.,

although I threw huge fits...

and harassed you in pain,

you had a reason to put up with me.

Because you made me like this.

That's why you put up with me.

You were paying for your wrongdoing.

No.

It was out of love.

Killing someone
if he can't be yours?

Is that what you call love?

Then can you...

let your wife leave you
to be with another man?

If your wife says
she's in love with someone else,

will you let her go quietly?

I wasn't trying to hurt you.

I thought you would
never return to me...

if you successfully
finished that rally.

I was only trying to slow you down.

I didn't know
the route was that rough.

I couldn't imagine that the wheels
would burst on that cliff...

and throw your car into the sea.

Both you and I...

shouldn't have returned
from the U.S.

We should've lived there alone
away from everyone else.

And deceive me forever?

I didn't mean to.

Then you should have told me...

that you were behind this
and you put him up for it.

You should've asked me
to forgive you in honesty.

I was scared.

That we would end for good.

I felt sorry to death...

for making you like this.

But on one hand, I liked it...

because you were mine once again.

I put up with you
when you got angry,

and I didn't mind it
when you swore at me,

because you were by my side.

What about Ki Seok's life?

What about
how my family lived in agony?

And my woman, who got deeply hurt?

Edit the parts we can use
and turn it into evidence.

RECEIVED FROM SEO JIN: RECORDING 1

She'll no longer have a chance.

I'll suffocate her little by little.

Are you really
going to put an end to this?

I know our relationship
has become awkward,

but how can you quit
without telling me?

Have you always been
this irresponsible?

What are you talking about?

I heard you're giving up
on doing this project.

Jinhwan's head office called
and asked me to pull you out.

I heard you're going back
to the U.S.

Darn it.

Do you think
my job is like a school,

a place where a parent can call in
and meddle with my business?

You never cared about me
back in school.

What do you think
you're doing at this point?

Don't you know why I did that?

I'm scared someone will find out.

What will people say once they do?

That rumor...

was built on some ground.

- I was the only one who liked her.
- Do you think that's any better?

You need to leave.
That's the best way.

How can I trust you?

You abandoned
your daughter-in-law...

to make a deal with a woman
who's like garbage.

Do you think
I'll let that girl live?

I just needed her shares.

I won't kick out my daughter-in-law
and hold my enemy's hand.

I don't trust you.
I'm not leaving the country.

Then should I let Ye Ji go?

What about your brother?

Make a wise decision.

Think about what's really important.

Once I come to a conclusion,

can you handle it?

I won't live a cowardly life
like you did.

I either take responsibility
or abandon something for good.

I only do 1 of the 2.

Are you threatening me?

Yes, if I can threaten you...

by severing our tie
as a mom and a son.

THE NEXT EPISODE WILL AIR SOON

What brings you here?

I came to see Mom for a moment.

Can you stop by and talk to me too?

Why are you drinking in your office?

We can't talk about this out there,

but we also can't talk about this
without a drink.

We could've done it at home.

I don't want to make
our dad's life difficult.

Drink slowly. That's a strong drink.

Jin.

I thought about...

how I can pay that woman back
for destroying my life.

Then I began to wonder
if I even qualify to do that.

What do you mean?

I saw you...

living in agony over what happened
to Dad for a long time...

and wanted to tell you...

that it wasn't your fault, but mine.

But I couldn't.

What do you mean, it was your fault?

The trail ended,

and we were faced with a rocky road.

We wanted to pass through safely,

so he tied us up with one rope.

But one of the cams...

got pulled out.

That's how things got dangerous.

I got...

too scared...

and cut off the rope.

No, Jin.

Jin.

No, Jin.

- No.
- Dad.

- It's okay.
- Dad.

Help me.

Dad!

Dad!

I was scared...

of falling and dying.

I abandoned you...

to live.

Then Dad threw himself to catch you.

That was an accident.

It was.

An accident that broke out
because of my selfishness.

Why are you telling me this
at this point?

What's the reason?

Whenever I saw
how oblivious you were,

I hated myself so much.

We were both young.

You were young.

That doesn't mean I can be forgiven.

I have no idea why you're doing this
at this point in time.

Hey, you came back early.

Could you give us some privacy?

I need to talk to Dad.

Oh, sure. Okay.

I'm responsible for that.

I took both of you hiking
while you two were far too young.

Hwan.

Anybody can make
such a decision in that moment.

Jin wasn't the only one
who made that choice.

But you didn't.

You threw yourself to save me.

I'm a dad.

I'm the one who's at fault.
I'm the one to blame.

I was the only one who didn't know.

I was the only one...

who had been oblivious.

Why did he live in agony
all by himself?

He should've said something.
He should've told me.

He always felt distant to me.

He'd suddenly act friendly
then he'd be out of contact.

No matter how much I tried to get
closer to him, he pushed me away.

He probably felt like a villain
out of guilt...

whenever he saw you.

As he couldn't love himself,

he wasn't able to love his brother.

Do you think...

he was the only one who felt guilty?

My guilt was eating me up
my entire life, watching you.

You sacrificed your legs for me.

I kept telling myself that...

I was everything you had.

I was a young housewife
after Mom left.

And I was all alone
after Jin just left home.

Who will recognize the pain
I went through?

You had a bigger heart.

You didn't stay because of
your guilt. It was love.

That's why you stayed by my side...

and took care of our family.

That's your opinion.

No one knew
how suffocating it was for me.

- Hwan.
- It became my responsibility...

because she never came back.

I stayed here with you
because Jin was never home.

You didn't have anyone but me.

I didn't have a choice.

Even so, you could have left.

You had no choice but to stay,

but the fact that you did...

proves how amazing you are.

Dad.

You even tried to kill yourself.

It happened because of me.

I told myself
that I couldn't let you die.

Do you know how desperately I tried
to stop you when I was only a boy?

I'm sorry.

- Back then...
- No one in my family...

thought about me.

Mom didn't.

And neither did you...

and Jin.

Hwan.

Jung Il wants to drink.
What should I give him?

Wine?

Beer?

What's wrong?

I feel all alone...

in this world.

Is this how you felt all along?

When I was young,

I thought I was dealt a better hand.

So I wanted to protect you
and all that.

But I didn't know my place
after all.

Did your mother say something
to you?

I feel as if I've been cheated
my whole life.

Sit down.

If you need a friend,

I'll listen to your story.

A friend?

Do you think
I want to be friends with you?

Is being my friend...

all you want to be with me?

Are you already drunk?

You can get drunk with your friends.

Why are you out here?

I guess you don't want
to be friends with me,

but I want to be your friend.

I'll stay with you.

I won't have a chance
to do this pretty soon.

You've watched the movie series,
"Harry Potter", right?

Yes, I've seen the movies.

I only read the books.

It was so sad.

Harry lived in the broom closet
with his aunt's family...

and was poorly treated.

I thought I was reading
my life story.

Both Harry Potter
and Lord Voldemort were orphans.

But Harry's parents died
while trying to save Harry.

And Lord Voldemort
was just abandoned.

They were both orphans,

but Harry was loved by his parents.

Reading about how an orphan
who wasn't loved...

became a villain
made me feel self-conscious.

But I turned out to be Harry.

My mother saved me.

It's the opposite with me.

Growing up,

I thought I was Harry whose father
saved him when he was young.

But in fact,

I was Voldemort who was abandoned.

You're too nice to be Voldemort.

You think I'm nice?

If you know what goes in my head,

you won't say that.

It's quiet in here.

Father went to Seoul.

And Hwan is drinking
with his friends.

Seoul?

I think he went to see your mother.

Did you have dinner?

Not yet.

I didn't have dinner yet.

Let's eat together.

If I try to stop you
after all I've put you through,

I feel like I'm being selfish again.

So I decided.

I won't stop you.

Don't bring your disability
into this.

I couldn't forgive you
for betraying me.

It wasn't your disability.

But...

if I were my old self,

I think I could have been
able to stop you.

I know that you're exhausted.

I can't do anything
if you don't want to stay with me.

I can understand that you don't...

want to stay in this marriage.

You can leave.

I won't...

get in your way.

I won't abandon someone
when things are...

hard.

Father asked me to stay too.
I can wait.

I can leave whenever I want.

Let's not focus on our marriage
for the time being.

Focus on your company.

And you will have to deal
with Ki Seok and that woman.

I don't want to add our marriage
to you and cause you to crumble.

But that doesn't mean...

there's hope with us.

I want to tell that you shouldn't...

be nice to me...

and you should just leave.

But hearing that
you won't leave me right away...

gave me so much relief.

And I feel small for that.

Hwan, I know you went through
a lot for all those years.

You need to relax
from time to time to go on.

Why did you put ice cubes in wine?

You're supposed to drink red wine
at room temperature.

Drinks are supposed to be icy cold.
What are you talking about?

You are so not on my level.

Gosh. What about you?

You paired tofu and kimchi
with wine.

Even I know that this dish
doesn't go well with wine.

My mom wanted me to take this.

So I had no choice.

Slow down.

You can still get drunk from wine
if you drink too fast.

Did something happen?

What are brothers?

What is a family?

From my point of view,

they are bothersome.
I'm just talking about mine.

My older brother smacked me
as soon as he came home yesterday.

So I got mad
and asked him why he hit me.

He hit me more.

He thinks I'm his punching bag.

Did my brother...

also hate me?

What? No way. Jin was nice to you.

You know,
all the men in this world...

kind of hate their brothers.

I don't know your pain
since I'm the only child.

This is what I saw
from my friends with siblings.

They would fight as if they are
each other's enemies or something.

But once other people hurt
their siblings, they can't stand it.

That's true.

When I was young
and came home beaten up,

he would go out
and schooled those kids.

Ta-da! I'm here.

What brings you all the way here?

Don't you have work tomorrow?

- I do.
- How will you get home later?

- You said you had a room for me.
- I did?

Yes. That's what Jung Il told me.

I could sleep over at your place.

There's a room Ye Ji used before.

You'll let her stay, right?

Amber.

I called her.

He said he needed more drinks.

Did you call every woman you know?

Wasn't I amazing?
Aren't you excited?

Aren't you having fun?

Can you give me a hug just once?

This is hard on you, isn't it?

Perhaps,

I might have been better off dead.

I was in despair after getting hurt.

But a part of me...

accepted my injury...

and felt I deserved this.

Why would you think that?

Whenever I saw Dad,

I kept thinking that
I should have been in a wheelchair.

I thought that I finally got
my well-deserved punishment.

I felt...

a sense of relief.

But that won't change the fact
that you were in an accident.

Can Father go back to
before he injured his legs?

Why would you put
such a silly thought in your head?

You did the same thing.

Because of your mother
who was in prison,

you felt
as if you shouldn't be happy.

You lived so many years
with your brutal aunt.

Weren't you punishing yourself?

Your misfortune...

seemed bigger than mine.

Is that why you wanted to help me?

You might be right.

I always told myself
I didn't deserve to be happy.

My whole life,
I felt as if I was being scolded.

I told Hwan...

that Dad's accident...

happened all because of me.

I told him I cut the rope
because I wanted to save myself.

Growing up,

I thought I was Harry whose father
saved him when he was young.

But in fact,

I was Voldemort who was abandoned.

Now, he's the one in pain.

Isn't that odd?

My action feels lighter
now that I have told him the truth.

But Hwan who had no idea...

has just started to feel his pain.

It was my fault,

but he's the one in pain.

And so are you.

He already has a lot going on.
Why did you...

I was livid
with what Carrie did to me.

But it made me think my action
was no different than hers.

You were young.

It was just an accident.
Just like mine.

I won't blame myself anymore.

You should stop it too.

Can't I...

only be free...

when I have been forgiven?

Will Hwan...

forgive me?

I'm sorry about earlier.

My friends were teasing you.

I had fun.

Did your talk
with your mother go well?

I won't let her boss me around,

but I'm still thinking.

About going back to the States.

That sounds better.

I'm not saying it
because of my feelings for you.

You don't seem happy here.

You seem depressed.

You were awfully quiet
when we were drinking.

I hope you were troubled
because of me,

but you're not, right?

I gave up on my first crush...

because I was young back then,

so I couldn't do anything for her.

But it was for my family too...

because I loved...

my family too.

But my family...

left me to sacrifice myself.

They just lived...

however they wanted.

I think you need time
away from them.

If you're too close,
you can't make your decision.

It will only hurt you.

Let's leave this place.

You can leave it. I'll clean up.

Are you all right?

Do you feel better?

I heard you said you'll move out.

Not right away.

Father asked me to stay for a while,

so I'm going to wait a little more.

This is a tough time.

Then will you two...

end up getting divorced?

Jin and I...

can't ever go back to our old days.

And that's the case for us too.

Now that Mother found out,

our family can't go back
to our old times either.

It's like a broken dish.

There's another way. I can leave.

I just...

don't have to come back.

I can't let you make
such a huge sacrifice.

I'm not going to sacrifice anymore.

But I might try to get my revenge.

Forgive...

Jin.

Not for him,

but for you.

Just as you and his relationship
can't be saved,

his relationship with me...

can't be fixed either.

We can't go back
to our old relationship...

as if nothing had happened.

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WITH VOTING RIGHTS

Come in.

I want to ask something.

Sure.

If I...

were you,

if I did that,

what would you do?

You should've trusted your family.

You should've trusted me.

You should've just asked me
to forgive you.

You still...

don't trust me right now.

It's true that I liked Ms. Oh.

- I know.
- But I could hold...

my feelings back...

for you.

You shouldn't have been suspicious.

You should've still trusted me
through everything,

not because my feelings
didn't matter,

but because you're my brother,

because we're family.

We're still family.

I no longer have a brother.

- Hwan.
- I haven't had one for a long time,

but I finally realized it.

WHEN I WAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL

I want to know how you feel.

Does Hwan have nothing to do
with you leaving this place?

You love him.

I love him too.

Your brother is the one I loved.

I love him a lot.

Did you love me?

Do you love me?