All language subtitles for Saving.Hope.S05E15.WEBRip.x264-ION10

Good morning.

Isn't it, though?

-Charlie.
-Zach.

What are you doing here?

Well, I work here --
for today, anyway.

I know. It's just, aren't you
not supposed to be talking

to any of the staff?

Uh, it's no trial, Zach.

Look, I wish I didn't
have to go at all,

but, you know,
when the Board calls.

You answer.
No, I get it.

No way around it, just like
there was no way around

Dawn filing a complaint
in the first place.

Where is she, by the way?

Worried about you.

Seriously, it's eating her up.
She didn't come in today.

Hey, listen.

You smell like
a distillery.

I think you should just go home
and wait for them to call you.

No. I'm here to fight
for my job.

[ Sighs ]
This is my home.

Yikes.

I'm up next in the boardroom
for his assessment.

On a scale of 1 to 10,
how painful was that?

Almost as painful as being
stuck in the E.R.

instead of some
killer surgery.

Just so you know,
I put myself here.

Lucky me.

I thought
it would only be fair

to the other residents,
you know, lead by example.

Right.
Because there weren't

any cool surgeries
on the docket today?
Yeah.

Well, how about this?

Skateboarder with Q-tip
in the ear.

He's all yours...

Chief.

[ Sighs ]

[ Sighs ]

[ Indistinct P.A. announcement ]

Good morrow, Dr. Sekara.

Oh, uh, hey.

We're not supposed to see each
other before the Board --

Relax, Dev.
It's not our wedding day.

What can I tell you?

I went out last night,

ordered the bourbon chicken,
hold the chicken.

Uh-huh.
The Board call you in?

Oh, yeah. They called,
like, everyone.

[ Cellphone vibrates ]

I totally forgot.
Um, and I have to go.

Dr. Harris.

Don't worry.
I got your back.

Thank you.

Alex.
Yep.

It's my morning to bring him
to daycare.

I totally forgot.
I'm sorry.

It's fine. I got it.

How are you dealing
with today?

Well, all I got to do is tell
them the truth, right?

The truth.
What?

Nothing.

Alex, I need you
on my side for this.

When have I not been
on your side?

Did you sleep
in those clothes?

Um, they do look a little
familiar, actually.

[ Sighs ]
It's okay. I got a suit
in my office.

Okay. Charlie...

have you been drinking?

Because you've got to pull
yourself together.

You have to figure out
what you're gonna say.

The Board is gonna want
to know why you're --

Screwing up?

Well, yeah.
You walked out on a surgery.

Oh. Glad you're not speaking
on my behalf.

Charlie.

Good chat.

[ Elevator dings ]

[ Sighs ]

Oh, there you are.
Dr. Reid!

Mrs. Crace.

I understand today must be
incredibly stressful for you,

so I wanted to give you
the opportunity to speak

to the Board during
Charlie's assessment.

Oh. Wow. Well, I was
under the impression

I wouldn't be allowed to.

Is something wrong?
I-I thought you'd be happy.

No. You know what?
It's great. Thank you.

Good. Keep your schedule
relatively clear.

We'll notify you of a time.

[ Sighs ]
That is wonderful.

Hey.

You need to get back in bed.
I haven't discharged you yet.

Actually, you said I was healing
really quickly

and I could probably
go home tonight.

Probably isn't definitely.

Here.
I brought you a present.

Oh, wow. That's really
beautiful. You shouldn't have.

It's a spirometer
to make sure

you're breathing
at full capacity.

Now, a lot of people
after surgery

tend to shallow-breathe
because it hurts.

We want to make sure your lungs
won't collapse.

Breathing is my thing.
I'm good.

All right.

Put your mouth
on this piece,

breathe in slowly,
and what you want to do is,

you want to make sure
that this little blue disc

gets to 1,250 milliliters.

Fine. Easy.

[ Disc rattles ]

[ Panting ]
What the hell?

Hurts?

No. It's just broken.

All right. Breathe in it
a few times every hour.

Until you get to 1250,
you're not going anywhere.

Great.

Have you thought
about my offer?

To help you?

'Cause your energy
is kind of like --

It's like a fountain
spewing gunk.

Most people
would understand it

as a thick, disgusting,
black cloud,

kind of just permeating
everything.
You know what?
You're just saying that

because I didn't
discharge you.
That is not true.

Come on.
What's going on?

Don't worry about me.
I'm fine.

Or, I will be fine.

Thank you, though,
but I'm -- I'm fine.

Well, you just said "fine"
about 20 times.

Okay. My ex, he's a doctor,
he works here.

He's going in
for an assessment.

I have to give
a character evaluation.

[ Cellphone vibrates ]

I also have to get
to my next consult,

so I'll come back in
and I'll check on you,

and in the meantime,
deep breaths.

Yeah, you too.

[ Siren wails in distance ]

Well, just the deceitful spirit
I didn't want to see.

I hear the Board has been called
in to investigate you.

Yes. No thanks to you.

To me?

Yeah. Your, uh,
lack of honesty

about your
current...situation.

Not a big help.

You were on a collision course
with a breakdown,

with or without me, sir.

Now you can
leave me alone,

because I need to prep
to fight for my job.

Uh, no. Charlie, we --
-Not going?

Okay, I will.

[ Sighs ]

I read in your profile
that your favorite book

is "Lila Zila
and the Watermelon Smash."

Now -- Now, I read the book,

and I found it particularly
empowering for children,

especially young girls.

[ Exhales ]
Do you concur?

I'll try that again.

Shazam! [ Laughs ]

Anjali! Wow.
What are you doing here?

Mm-hmm-hmm!

Okay, that's enough. Yes.

Right. The 3-second-hug rule.
Almost forgot.

So, are you joining
the obstetrics staff?

Nah. Don't get your hopes up,
Shazam.

Just followed
a patient here.

Right. You're very good
at following people.

You should've just told me
you were gay.

I did. I said that repeatedly.
I said, "I'm gay."

Well, water under the bridge.
I need your help with a case.

26-week fetus
with spina bifida.

Wow. This is
the most severe case

of Myelomeningocele
that I've seen.

Very good.
I was scheduled to perform

a laparoscopic in-utero repair
today with Dr. Solomon.

So, what does this
have to do with me?

Solomon's mother died
last night.

That's unfortunate.
It is.

And I don't know how long
he's gonna be out for.

You are the only other surgeon
in this city

qualified to perform
this surgery.

Falak, that's our patient.

Our?

She's at the 26-week mark.

Right now is the target of
opportunity for optimum results.

No. I'm sorry.

Anjali, you know,
I made a promise

that I don't do pediatric
surgeries anymore.

Why not?
Because, it's, um...

I --
I'm sorry. It's complicated,

you know, and, uh, um,
thank you for stopping by.

I have a chili to prepare.
Thank you.

See you.

Right. Right.
[ Clears throat ]

"Lila Zila
and the Watermelon Smash."

Why did you like this book?

Oh!

Special delivery
for Dr. Williams.

Yeah. I...can see you.

You know what? I'm good. If you
want to -- You can have those.

It's called globophobia.
Fear of balloons.

Mm-hmm.

Uh, don't you already have
a phobia of parasites?

Oh, doesn't everyone? Aah!

Besides, is there a limit
to the number

of paralyzing fears
one can have?

[ Panting ]
Does it say who it's from?

Oh, God! Seriously,
is this some kind of sick joke?

It doesn't say.
The card reads,

"Think of you often."
That's it.

Well, aren't we just saving
the world here?

Look, I got to get to
the Harris inquisition.

Do you think you can manage
the E.R. by yourself?

-Me?
-Yes, you.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Will you just take those
with you when you go?

You got it.
Ginkgo biloba.

It's called globophobia.
And good luck in there.

It is a...total witch hunt.

Oh, man. Okay.

[ Exhales deeply ]
They're gone.

Dr. Sharpe: Dr. Bell finished
the aortic dissection

while Dr. Sekara
repaired the bleeders,

and he walked out.

Just like that.

Did he give any explanation
for his actions?

In a roundabout way.

What does that mean?

Dr. Harris always
has an explanation

for his unorthodox behavior.

Anyone who goes into surgery
with him just accepts that.

Charlie and I met 10 years ago
at this hospital.

And since then, we've be--

No. No, no. No!

Um...

the past several years,

Charlie...has become a bit
of a miracle worker.

How does he perform
said miracles?

Well, you ask,
he talks to ghosts.

[ Paper tears ]

Hey.
I didn't mean to, uh...

Uh, it's just that this thing
is, for sure, broken,

like, won't go past 800,
so...

But, while I'm here,

who talks to ghosts?

First of all, you need
to get back in bed.

And, secondly, you really
shouldn't be here.

No, I know. I'm sorry.

I didn't mean to interrupt
you...with yourself.

You know I do this
for a living, right?

What? Stalk people?
Speak.

Your speech.
You said you need

to write a statement
about your ex.

Clearly, you're struggling,
so let me help.

I'm bored to death in here.

This thing
ain't great company.

Fine. I'm not quite sure
what I want to say.

Well, how about the truth?

It's not that simple.

The truth could cost
Charlie his job.

Oh, is this the thing
about the ghosts?

He's the one that talks
to the ghosts?

We're done here. Yeah.

Hold on a second.
No, no, no, no.

No. What did you say to me

before you convinced me
to cut me open?

You said we needed
to trust each other.

Don't rip
your stitches, huh?

I will not open my stitches...
if you slow down.

Dr. Reid.
[ Grunts ]

I can't believe none of
our staff supervisors

have a single
surgery today.

Baloney.

Well, I'm kind of glad,
in a way.

Nerves got me all...

What's the word?

Nervous?

How am I supposed to go
in front of the Board

and talk about Dr. Harris?

[ Clears throat ] Excuse me.
What are you eating?

Mm. This is chili
from the lounge.

It is delicious.
Why? You want some?

-That chili --
-Dr. Hamza?

My name is Falak.

I'm Dr. Vrnasi's
spina bifida patient.

Well, I mean, technically,
he's her patient.

I've already talked
to Vrnasi about this.

Wait, wait, wait.
Is this -- Wait.

You're doing a spina bifida
operation on a fetus?

-No.
-But if you were...

He'd be taking
these loose nerves

mushrooming out of the hole
in the baby's spine

and tucking them back in.

-Can I get in on that?
-Can I get in on that?

I'm not operating today.

Can I talk to you?

Look, I'm in the process

of giving this baby up
for adoption,

and I'm afraid that no one's
going to want to adopt

a physically disabled
baby.

And while I'm still
this child's...incubator person,

I need to do everything
I can to help him.

Please?

Falak...
[ Clears throat ]

Even if this surgery
is successful,

best-case scenario

is that this baby learns
how to walk with crutches.

It's a very risky surgery
for your baby.

I know it is.

But research shows that
this is the optimal time

to have an operation done,
and I want this surgery now.

[ Siren wails in distance ]

Finally! Hi!

Hi. I'm Dr. Williams.
How are y--

Yeah, so, I have a menstrual cup
stuck up my...me.

I don't even know why I tried
the damn thing.

My teenage daughter was going
on and on about it.

Anyway, I got up this morning,
and I couldn't get it out.

I tried all the positions.
No bueno.

So, it's your turn.

And your family doctor was
unavailable, I am assuming?

Oh, he was.
Just not until tomorrow.

And I...have
a third date tonight.

You know, for someone who works
in an emergency room,

you move kind of slow.

Well, that's 'cause
normally I'm a surgeon.

I'm Jennifer, by the way.

Scoot your bum forward.

Spread 'em.

Oh, hey. Remember me?

That was wildly unfair.
You just operated on me.

You are relentless.

Look, you know what?
Hear me out.

I have this, like, karma
superstition thing, okay?

So, if you're not going to let
me help you for you,

please, let me
help you for me.

Nice try with the reverse
psychology.

So, let me get this straight.
This is going to help you?

Yes.

Unbelievable.

Look, who cares if Charlie
sees ghosts?

Okay, first of all,
I didn't say that. You did.

But who cares? So what?

Hey, you know what?
I have an idea.

What are you doing?

It's a ridiculous idea,
but that's the point.

We are meant to laugh.
Right?

Laughter lowers our inhibitions
and encourages vulnerability.

Vulnerability
then encourages truth.

You get the first huff.

You have got
to be kidding me.

Fine. More for me.

[ Inhales deeply ]

[ Squeaky voice ] Damn it.
That was a really good one.

[ Laughs ] I should've saved it
for my spirometer.

Come on.

[ Balloon pops ]

You want me
to speak the truth?

You know what? I-I-I watched
some of your video podcasts,

and they were great.
They really were,

but I think
something's missing

from your
"Speaking the Truth" series.

I mean, maybe
your just going around

trying to help other people
is to escape

your own life
and your own past.

You know what? I told you
about my past in confidence.

Yeah, and I appreciate that.
I really do.

But that doesn't mean
I'm going to turn around

and talk to you about
everything in my life.

I'm sorry.

Yeah. All right.

Good luck
with your speech.

[ Sighs ]

Damn it.

Yeah, moody. God complex,
delusions of grandeur.

You're describing every surgeon
I work with here.

Why would Charlie Harris
be any different?

Look, do you mind...
if I eat this?

I didn't get a chance
to grab lunch.

I'm very busy.

Would you consider Dr. Harris
as mentally unstable?

Sure.

I mean,
Einstein had depression.

Darwin, agoraphobia, OCD.

Beethoven was bipolar.

There have been links drawn.

Great thinkers
have mental disorders.

Charlie Harris
is a great surgeon.

Unconventional
in his process, yes.

But has Dr. Harris'
recent behavior

been alarming to you
on any level?

No.

Are you concerned
about him?

I'm not not concerned.

I came here to be alone.

Me too.

It's the only place
that I can hear myself think.

Could you shove over?

I'm sitting for two people
here, basically.

[ Groaning ]

Charlie sees ghosts.

He talks to dead people.

How am I supposed to tell
the Board that?

Why don't you just
say that to them?

It's his truth.

Okay, his truth,
but not the truth.

There is a difference.

So you believe
there's only one truth?

I don't know
what I believe.

All I know is
that his truth

affects the people
around him.

It affects his patients
and Luke and me.

Is that why you guys
aren't together?

No. Actually,
it's because,

beyond all reason,
I think that I'm cursed.

So you believe in your curse
but not his ghosts?

You...have a point.

Would it help
if you see what he sees?

I've been doing a little
eavesdropping on your behalf.

Your colleagues are loyal,
if that's any consolation.

They're confounded by you,
but they believe in you.

Yeah, unfortunately,
that may not count for much.

It's true.

Now you're poring over
your case files.

You want to be prepared
to win the fight.

It's not going to do
any good, Charlie.

Meaning?

Meaning this is going
to happen over and over.

Why -- Are you
my personal savior?

A-Are you
my spiritual guide?

'Cause you're just as lost
as I am.

I didn't want to lie to you,
Charlie. Truly, I didn't.

But that didn't stop you,
did it?

If I told you I was a ghost,

you would've tried to help me,
made me your mission,

but you're the one that needs
the help, Charlie.
Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no.

That's right.
This is about you.

Are you ready to let me
help you, Charlie?

Do you think
you can trust me?

No, Amos, I can't.

[ Sighs ] Well, this is
really disappointing!

Because I'm stuck here
until you do.

[ Sighs ]

I just want to remind you
that this isn't permanent.

It's just gonna
be temporary.

Don't -- Don't do this for me,
or even Charlie.

Do this for you.

Are you ready?

Okay.
Knock yourself out.

Okay. I just want you
to close your eyes.

Take a deep breath.
Okay?

I want you to think about
your favorite place.

[ Breathes deeply ]

You're a very practical
person, Alex.

But now it's time for you
to surrender.

Trust that you have
the power...

to handle anything
that comes your way.

See what Charlie sees.

Through the love you grew.

[ Laughs ]

[ Baby cries ]

Children you conceived.

[ Breathes deeply ]

[ Exhales slowly ]

Do you see
what Charlie sees?

[ Gasps ]

Charlie?

Charlie!

Amos: Hello.

Hello?

Anyone?
Can anyone help me?

Excuse me.
Can you help me?

Excuse me.
I'm looking for Charlie.

Charlie.

[ Sighs ]

You can see me.
Oh, that feels good.

How do you know Charlie?

Oh, uh, I've been
working with him.

I'm Amos.

I -- I need help.

That came out wrong.

Look, five years,
you don't understand.

I've been stuck here,
in limbo.

The pain, you have no idea
the frustration!

But now I've found him --
this Charlie --

he's the only one
who can help me.

Please. Please, Alex,
talk to Charlie.

I don't -- I don't know how
to help you.

I-I don't know how,
but I'll find him.

I'll find him.

Layla:
Whenever you're ready,

I want you to open your eyes
and meet me back in the chapel.

Welcome back.

How do you feel?

[ Strained ] Charlie.

I need -- I need to --

I need to...

Wait. Alex?

Alex?

[ Sighs ]

Dr. Reid, what happened?
I'm all right.

I just fainted.
Oh, this is so embarrassing.

Let's get Dr. Reid
to Bed 5 right now.

Zach, really,
I'm -- I'm all right.

No. I want
a full blood panel,

and get me the portable
ultrasound machine.

-Yeah.
-I just need a minute.

And maybe some juice.

Get Dr. Reid some juice.

Zach, honestly, I'm fine.

Okay.

Crace: How long have you
known Dr. Harris?

11 years. As a colleague
and as a patient.

As a patient?

Yes. When he was in a coma

and then again when they
discovered and operated on

a tumor on
his occipital lobe.

The surgery did have
its complications,

but Charlie pulled through.

You know, his brain is
unbelievably resilient,

I have to say.

It's not uncommon for
neurological difficulties

to present themselves
post-surgery,

even years later -- migraines,
dizziness, depression.

Did he ever mention
any of those symptoms to you?

No.

But could Dr. Harris'
recent behavior

be linked to something
neurological?

Can you be more specific,
please?

Walking out of an active
operating theatre

with a patient
on the table.

Hmm.

Dr. Hamza, could that be linked
to something neurological,

in your
professional opinion?

It's possible, yes.

[ Cellphone vibrates ]

Okay. If you'll excuse me, I am
needed in the operating room.

-Of course.
-Okay. Thank you.

Welcome to
Hope Zion Airlines.

My name is Dr. Vrnasi.

I'll be your pilot.
Hop up here, love.

Oh.

On behalf of my flight team,
Drs. Sekara and Scott,

do you have any questions?

Where's Dr. Hamza?

Oh, he's still making his way
through customs.

[ Laughs ]

I'm sorry I'm late.
I had a Board meeting.

-Ah, yes. Charlie Harris.
-Mm.

How do you know
Dr. Harris?

Everyone knows
about Dr. Harris.

I don't know
if I can do this.

Oh, that's quite common.

In fact, I would be concerned
if you weren't scared.

No. I-I mean giving up my baby.
I mean, the baby.

I mean, I-I don't know if I can
give it up for adoption,

if it's the right decision,

because the father's not
in the picture anymore

and my mom's
really pressuring me,

but I really do want this baby
to go to a family

that's ready and willing
for this

I can't believe I'm telling you
all of this.

Okay. Falak,
you are the mother, okay?

Yeah.

And you're going to make
the best decision for your baby.

And I'm going to be with you
100%, whatever you decide.

You're a father,
aren't you?

I can tell.
You give off that vibe.

Dr. Vrnasi: Mm. You and Jonathan
took the plunge!

Wish you would have told me.
I'd offer to be a surrogate.

Actually, Jonathan and I are
going the adoption route.

We're meeting a pair
of foster siblings tonight.

Oh, wow. That's amazing.

Jonathan's your husband?

Not exactly,
but he is my main man.

Dr. Sharpe: All right.
Good to go here, guys.

Great. Okay.
So, let's just, um...

Here we go. Easy.

[ Sighs ]

What do you want?

What do you want
from me?

[ Monitor beeping ]

Okay.

There's a deep pocket
here.

Yeah, this is the best spot
we've got.

It's furthest away from the baby
and placenta.

Scope in.

It's so alien-like.

Hey, little guy.
We come in peace.

Hmm. Dr. Sekara, shift him
proximally, please.

All right.

Damn it.
Let me see that.

What is it?

The way this baby's positioned,
it's not going to work.

If his back is down,
he won't turn over.

I can't approximate the sides
laparoscopically.

So, what do we do?

Let's get
a uterine stapler.

You want to open her up?

You're going to operate
directly on the exposed baby?

Yes.

[ Child giggling ]

There's a man
with a dog bite in Bed 2.

It needs
to be irrigated.

You're making friends
with the patients, I see.

"Dr. Stupid Face"?

-Tommy Nuenos.
-Pbht!

Bed 6.
He's a little pissed off

'cause I stuck a needle
in his thigh.

Okay. We're really
running behind.

Can you page Dev
and Billy

and have them come down
and help out?

Nah, no can do.

They're both in Shahir's
in-utero spina bifida surgery.

What? No. Wait.

How do you know that
anddon't know that?

I saw them in the lounge
on my break.

They were headed to scrub in
like an hour ago.

-Oh, man! Spina bifida!
-Are you okay?

Me? Okay?

You mean, me, resident,
who's been practicing suturing

every Saturday night
for the last six years,

and I'm not in some
cool surgery

because two other residents
who work half as hard as I am

are therem and I'm here
stuck with Q-tip guy

and menstrual-cup girl
and dog-bite guy?

Yeah, I'm fine!

Uh, this box came for you.

[ Monitor beeping ]

Okay, there, first mate.
More suction.

I'm just going to move baby
around here a touch

to get the exposure
you need, Hamza.

[ Chuckles ]
He's mooning us.

Little prankster.

Shahir:
I'm giving baby pain meds.

I.M. injection administered.

Second mate, make sure
you're keeping a close eye

on our little guy's heart.

I don't think second mate's
a thing, but you got it.

Good contractility.
Normal Doppler.

Heart rate's perfect.

Scalpel, please.

Okay, Drs. Sekara and Scott,
pay attention here.

This is the exposed
nerve tissue

that I'll be dissecting
from the meninges.

Now, I need to make sure to
figure out which are meninges

and which are spinal nerves.

The last thing I want to do
is nick a spinal nerve.

[ Monitor beeps rapidly ]

Oh, baby's showing signs
of distress.

Heart rate's going up.

Why? Dr. Hamza's
being so careful.

It happens.
Baby's lost too much blood.

He can't tolerate
the surgery.

Membranes are separating
from the uterine wall.

Blood is pooling out of
the membrane and placenta.

Okay. Everybody, please.
I need to concentrate.

Just, please, quiet.

-Hey, what's happening?
-Heart rate's bottoming out.

Dr. Vrnasi: She's having
a placental abruption.

I need to get in there.
Let's go!

-6-0 sutures!
-Let's prep for baby.

I'm going to extend
the incision.

Oh, you're going
to deliver the baby?

Without a placental connection
to the uterus,

the baby can't survive.

Page neonatal, get someone
down here yesterday!

Damn it!
-Scissors.

He's barely viable.

The NICU is his best shot

if he wants to keep
staying viable.

Okay. I am done.

You don't need me anymore.

Dev: As a resident,
you're gunning to operate solo,

but I don't feel ready, I guess.

Guess I keep imagining
Dr. Harris...

walking out and me by myself.

[ Clears throat ]

Uh, I'm sorry. My throat's
a little dry. Do you mind?

Woman: You consider Dr. Harris
a mentor?

I did. I do.

All due respect,

what kind of mentor abandons
his junior resident

in the middle of a surgery?

A crap one.

Crace: Dr. Harris!

Woman: We haven't conducted
all of our interviews yet.

You will be able to
make a statement when
we've finished here.

Well, let me save you the time.
[ Exhales slowly ]

I quit.

[ Scoffs ]

Oh, Charlie,
what have you done?

You know, Amos,

I'm tired of convincing people
that I'm not crazy.

I'm, uh, tired of helping people
that no one else can see.

Basically, I'm tired.

Ever since the day
I was shot,

which is a memorable day for me,
I've been stuck here.

I couldn't help him --
my patient,

who had a gun
stuffed down his throat.

And then I met you,
and I thought,

"Maybe he's my chance
to make up for it,

to move on."

Sorry to disappoint you.

Well, I haven't
given up on you,

even if you have given up
on yourself.

[ Sighs ]

When was the first time
you felt like this?

[ Scoffs ]

The first time you felt
your world move sideways

like nothing
made sense anymore?

I don't know. I-I--

When my parents died.

Yeah. That makes sense.

And how old were you
at the time?

Around the same age
as that boy that you found?

Yeah.

And how did
your parents die?

It was a car accident.

And that was your fault.

What?

I've read all your files,
Charlie.

I've read
Dr. Murphy's files.

I know what happened.

I know you were in the car
at the time.

And what were you doing?

What was I doing?

I was doing little kid stuff
in the back seat.

I was -- I was --
I was playing.

Playing. That's what kids do.
Nothing wrong with that.

Right.

Man: It's like this guy
is driving a tractor.

Woman: There's no room.

-Dad, slow down!
-Hold on.

-There's no room.
-Daddy! Please!

[ Screaming, horn blares,
crashing ]

You dropped your toy car,

and your father turned to see
what was wrong

and was distracted,

and that's what
caused the accident.

That's what you
think happened.

That's what you've been carrying
all these years.

I did this to myself.

All of this.

You've seen the spirit world
growing darker, haven't you?

I'm part of that.

And why do you think
that is?

You can stop it.

So stop it.
Push the darkness back.

You've got to
forgive yourself.

Forgive yourself, Charlie.

N-No. No!
They should be alive!

All your life, Charlie,
you've been surrounded by death,

and it's still
coming for you.

Now might be
your only chance.

Now's the time
to let it go.

But...

[ Voice breaking ]
then I'll have to let them go.

Nothing's ever lost,
Charlie.

[ Scoffs ]

[ Echoing ] Haven't you
learned that by now?

I'm late. Have you
talked to them already?

I-I went to the boardroom.
Where are they?

Alex, I...I quit.

What?

I, um, I resigned...

right before
Sekara threw up.

I don't -- I don't
understand, Charlie.

Why would you do something
like that?

You can't understand.

Actually,
I-I can, after today.

Trust me.

It makes sense now
more than it ever has,

and I was going
to go in there,

and I was going to tell them
that if they got rid of you,

Charlie, they would be getting
rid of something amazing.

You help people more
than any other doctor can.

I mean, look --
look at these files.

What is it, five years?
Maybe 20 miracle saves.

You should be getting a medal,
not losing your job.

Why would you ever quit
doing what you do?

Wow!

Where were you
20 minutes ago?

Wherever you go,
I think I went there.

And I think
that I finally understand

how difficult this must be
for you,

to be torn, to try to --

try to help these people.

Charlie, I am so sorry.

I am so sorry
that I was not there for you,

that I wasn't with you.

But I'm here.
I'm here now.

Hey, hey, hey, hey.

I think...

we're gonna be okay.

I know we will.

[ Sighs ]

Screw that curse.

[ Creaking ]

[ Sighs ]

Cassie.

The package of yours --
it's squeaking or whistling.

Who?

The box. It's alive.

Whatever it is, could you please
get it out of here?

Thank you.

[ Cellphone rings ]

So? What's going on with you?
What's the matter?

My chili's gone.

About why you didn't want
to operate earlier.

Who did you
make a promise to

that you wouldn't do
pediatric surgeries anymore?

Oh. Myself.

You were
outstanding today.

I lost a patient
a month ago.

A young girl.

And seeing her parents,
they lost their daughter.

It really affected me in a way
I didn't like.

Stop it. Give me a break.

It's gonna be hell.
I'm not gonna lie.

But you're a great surgeon,

and you're going to be
a great father,

and all at the same time,
all right?

Agree with me.

I'll try.

Believe it.

Just believe it.

Okay.

Okay.

Two...and three.

Dr. Hamza.
And you must be Dr. Vrnasi.

I heard about
the incredible surgery

you guys pulled off today.

Yeah, we did.

Ugh. I don't want
to hear about it.

Oh, I'm just kidding.

I want to hear all of it.
Tell me everything.

-Drinks?
-[ Sighs ]

One for every patient
I had today

that had something stuck
in a place it shouldn't be.

Don't ask.
-Did you hear?

Dr. Harris quit.

Yeah. Weird day.

I blame the balloons.

Why would you
send me those?

What? Send you what?

The...

Wait. So, you didn't send me
this, either?

Please.
I wasn't that into you.

So, what's in it?

I don't know.
I'm afraid to open it.

I'm not.

[ Pen clicks ]

Love note.

What the...?

"I can adapt and be whoever
you want me to be."

Isn't it supposed
to be "whomever"?

[ Chuckles ]

Adapt.

Like a chameleon.

[ Chuckling ] Oh, man.

That's weird.

I had a baby.

Not the most ideal timing,
but you did.

I have to run
something by you.

Hm?

Are you and Jonathan in it
for the long haul?

Like, till-death-do-you-part
kind of long haul?

As far as I know,
yes, we are.

I think I had this epiphany
after my surgery

that all of this was
meant to be after all --

me getting pregnant,

my other surgeon getting sick,
meeting you.

I think you and Jonathan are
meant to have this baby.

Will you adopt him?

-Nailed it.
-Amazing.

Looks like
you're free to go.

Speaking of free,
your aura is...

awesome.

Maybe.

I mean, for the first time
in a long time, I'm --

I'm not scared,

and I'm looking forward to
the changes that are coming,

so...

I think
they're gonna be epic.

[ Chuckles ]

Okay. That's it.

You know, the thing I said
earlier about your past,

it didn't come out the way
I intended it.

It was harsh.

Uh, no, actually, um,
you were right.

When I was speaking with you,
or -- correction --

when I was preaching
at you,

I realized that
this is something

I really need to be
talking about.

Um, it's the catalyst of why
I chose to do what I do.

I think it'll help them,

hearing about
what you've overcome.

I hope so.
[ Chuckles ]

Look at us pulling the truth
out of each other, huh?

Yeah.

And you. Your aura --

I think it is...

sparkly, rainbows,
pastels --

Nice try.
Yeah.

[ Both laugh ]

Thank you, really.

* All my friends are trying

* To be you

Hi. Jonathan?

I-I'm sorry I missed
the pot luck,

but I need you to come here.

Because there's someone
I want you to meet.

Hey, guys. It's Layla.

Um, I've gone on
about speaking the truth.

Well, your truths, mostly,

um, and I've really
encouraged you

to face your pasts
and...your demons.

There's something that I haven't
told you about my past,

something that happened
in college.

And while it doesn't define me
or who I am,

it, uh, really changed me.

* I can't blame them

I was sexually assaulted.

It's taken me years to overcome,

and this past week,

I...I came face to face
with another hurdle.

I think this little guy
needs to get to bed.

I'm gonna run you a bath.

Really?
Mm-hmm.

Well, I'm gonna pour you
a scotch.

[ Laughs ]
I'm just kidding.

I think we could both use
herbal tea tonight.

Yeah.

**

[ Door closes ]

Welcome home, Charlie.

Good job.