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Bettencourt Schueller Foundation
presents
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A GoodPlanet Foundation
prolect
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With the participation of
France Télévisions
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A film by
Yann Arthus-Bertrand
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l remember...
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my stepfather
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would beat me with extension cords
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and hangers,
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pieces of wood
and all kinds of stuff.
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He would tell me:
"lt hurt me more than you.
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"l only did it, because l love you."
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lt communicated the wrong message
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to me about what love was.
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So, for many years,
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l thought
that love was supposed to hurt.
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l hurt everyone that l loved.
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And l measured love
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by how much pain
someone would take from me.
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And it wasn t until l came to ison,
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an environment
that is devoid of love,
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that l began to have
some understanding
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about what it actually
was and was not.
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l met someone.
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She gave me my first real insight
into what love was.
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She saw past my condition
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and the fact that l was in prison
with a life sentence
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for doing the worst kind of murder
that a man can do:
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murdering a woman and a child.
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lt was Agnes,
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the mother and grandmother of...
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Patricia and Chris, that l murdered,
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who gave me
my best lesson about love.
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By all rights, she should hate me.
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But she didn t.
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Over the course of time,
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through the lourney that we took,
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it has been pretty amazing,
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she gave me love.
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She taught me what it was.
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l m ve happ when it ains,
[ ry y r
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when l drink milk
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and l have a good life.
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When l put on weight.
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l m thin now.
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When it rains,
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l am very happy.
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When l drink milk
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and l eat everything l like.
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And when l sleep with the man l love
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who says sweet things to me.
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And when l am in a nice hut
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that protects me
from the cold and rain.
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Those are the things
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that make me happy.
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Happiness, for us,
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would be...
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having food,
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a small piece of land
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and a real place to live,
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with electricity day and night.
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We wouldn t have to slee
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in the dark.
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That would be happiness.
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But we sleep on the floor,
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without even a mat, on straw.
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With electricity,
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there would be light
in m child en s lives.
y r [
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So,
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as l had
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a difficult childhood
without any money,
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when l went to university,
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l got a grant
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and l bought myself a motorbike.
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Brand-new!
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l was the first person
to start it up.
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l was the first person to get on it
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to go home.
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When l feel the wind
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whipping me as l ride along,
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knowing that l m not
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on someone elses moto bike.
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lts m ve own moto bike.
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l arrived home,
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and to get to sleep,
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l put the bike in my bedroom
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and l locked myself in with it.
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That way, l could smell
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the hot engine.
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The smell of the engine,
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the new bike smell.
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And when l turned the light on,
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l could see it was my very own bike.
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l couldn t ut the bike
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on the bed, under the covers,
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but its what l wanted to do.
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Yes...
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l felt it. Yes.
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That was a moment
of great happiness for me.
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Happiness
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is the children coming home.
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Thats a mothe s ha iness.
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lts when m husband
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comes home, smiles,
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and kisses me,
after 33 years of married life.
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Thats a woman s ha iness.
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Happiness is hearing
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my grandchildren saying: "Grandma!"
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When they say that, you feel older,
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but thats ha iness, too.
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lts also meeting colleagues
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who are happy to see you.
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They think:
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" [ r [ "
Shes he e, lets talk.
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Thats ha iness, too.
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lts getting up in the mo ning
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and not hurting anywhere.
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Thats ha iness, too.
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lts the ain which is the omise
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of a good harvest.
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There are many kinds of happiness,
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but at the same time,
the es onl one:
r [ y
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ou e alive, so ou e happ.
y [r y [r y
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lust my experiences
from being in a wheelchair
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and traveling the world
in a wheelchair
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lve seen life f om a diffe ent angle
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and thats taught me
on a spiritual level
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to lust accept and to be happy,
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whateve s coming next.
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l m so mentall st ong.
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The only reason is because
of losing my legs physically.
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M e esights sha pe, m ea s a e...
y y [ r r y r r
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l can hear much better.
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So, thats on a h sical sense, but
[ p y
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l feel lm luck, as in
[ y
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l don t anal e
[ yz
or question life too much.
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l can cruise through life
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and always be
in the right place at the right time.
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l always have amazing things
happen to me.
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l m eall luck in that situation.
[ r y y
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But that comes from believing in luck
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or believing
in the power of attraction
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or believing in
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attracting the goodness
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into ones life.
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And l think
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that can be seen as luck.
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So, if God Himself
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lumped down in front of me right now
and said to me:
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B uno, l ll give ou back ou legs,
" r [ y y r
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but l ll take awa all that
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ou ve lea ned in the last 13 ea s.
y [ r y r "
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l ll tell God: Kee ou legs.
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We didn t use to die like toda.
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We lived in peace.
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Ou fighting didn t kill us.
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There was only one gun per village.
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What decimates us is the Kalashnikov.
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Before, we only died
from sickness and disease.
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A few people died:
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a sick person, an old man, a baby.
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Only the weak.
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The victims of the Kalashnikov
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are countless.
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Our fighting is degenerating.
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3 men die from one shot.
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Yesterday, people died.
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We didn t bu them.
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Maybe animals ate them.
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That weapon is bad.
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lt deprives the young generation
and the country
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of peace.
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As soon as l took up arms,
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l felt fear.
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Fear is a human feeling.
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l was afraid of blood.
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When l took up arms,
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l went from being a teacher
to a man of arms.
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l had no choice.
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l saw and experienced things
which forced me to do it.
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Sometimes my son asks me,
because it worries him:
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"Dad, why this war?
ls there no end to it?
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"Why do you kill the soldier?
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Doesn t the soldie have a famil
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"waiting for him, lust like us?"
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l say to him:
"H [ r [r r "
es w ong and we e ight.
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"Why, Dad?"
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l say:
"He kills families and children.
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"He destroys mosques.
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"We defend all that."
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We always try to be clear
to the children.
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We tell them that we took up arms,
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because we had to,
not because we wanted to.
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l don t like having blood
on my hands...
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or the idea that l killed someone.
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Nobody likes that.
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l m not af aid of death.
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l m not af aid if its fo S ia.
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l m not af aid if its fo m fathe.
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lf he wasn t dead,
l would be afraid of death.
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But l m no longe af aid.
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Even if my throat is cut
or l get blown up.
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What matters is loining my father
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or going back to Syria.
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During the genocide...
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l was separated from my parents
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and l lived alone
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in the sorghum fields.
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l spent at least two weeks there.
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Then,
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someone took me.
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She asked me who l was.
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But as l was very little,
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l couldn t distinguish
between Hutus and Tutsis.
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l didn t eall know.
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She looked at me and started touching
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my fingers, my skin.
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She told me l was a Tutsi
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or mixed race.
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She told people to shoot me,
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to eliminate me.
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l asked why,
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what ld done w ong.
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After that,
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there was a lot of shooting.
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l ran away.
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All along the way,
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there were corpses and blood.
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Then l sat down and asked God
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that His will be done.
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l was lucky to survive.
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l went home.
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The door was smashed in.
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ln front, there was a hole
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where a shell had fallen.
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l went in
and found my father lying there.
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l saw my brothers too, behind him.
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My father
had opened the door to them.
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He told them
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there were no combatants.
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They told him to step forward.
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My mother and brothers were lined up.
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"loin them."
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As soon as he moved,
they started shooting.
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He got a bullet in the back.
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He fell.
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They started shooting at my brothers.
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At the time of the massacre,
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in 1982, l was a young student.
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l didn t hate an one,
[ y
l felt no hatred.
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But that massacre
made me question many things.
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l asked myself:
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"Who loves me? Who hates me?
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"Why did this happen?"
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l thought more about it
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and all that brought about in me
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a love of hatred,
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a love of vengeance.
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Man isn t bo n with those feelings.
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They grow
over the course of your experiences.
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Both love and hatred.
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Would you forgive me
if l kill your father or brother?
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lf no law stands in my way?
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lf your rights are scorned?
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Would you forgive me
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if ld killed ou b othe,
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father or mother?
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No, certainly not.
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No way.
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l will never forgive.
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Even if my head is cut off.
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One evening, while in the reserves,
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my unit had to stop a suicide attack
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by capturing a terrorist
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in a village near Nablus.
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l deployed our forces.
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To flush him out,
we shot at the walls
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as a demonstration of strength.
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A woman came out of the house,
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carrying a girl
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and holding another by the hand.
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lt was 3 AM.
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The girl panicked and ran toward us.
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l was af aid she d blow he self u.
r [ r p
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l yelled at her in Arabic to stop.
She kept coming.
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l fired above her head.
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She stopped.
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At that moment, time stood still.
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lt was the shortest
and the longest moment
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of my life.
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The girl remained alive.
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And so did l.
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But at the same time,
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something died
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in us both.
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When a child is shot at,
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it kills something inside.
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l don t know what.
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When an adult shoots at a child,
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it kills something inside.
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Something dies
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and something else
has to come to life.
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l was ashamed of shooting at her.
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A painful shame.
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And above all, this sensation
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of my finger
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pressing the trigger
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and shooting at the girl.
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From this finger pressing the trigger
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something had to come to life.
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One of the most impactful things
that will occur,
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after being in combat,
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is the feeling
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of killing another human being.
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Once ou ve ex e ienced it,
y [ p r
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ou ll see
y [
that its not like an thing else
[ y
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that ou ve ex e ienced befo e.
y [ p r r
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And unfortunately,
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that feeling,
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your body will want
to experience again.
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lts eall difficult
[ r y
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to try to explain to somebody
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[
what that feeling s like.
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Right now,
l still feel like experiencing
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that again,
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and its obabl wh l kee
[ pr y y p
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a loaded weapon in my house.
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l yearn or desire for someone
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to try to hurt me
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or to break in
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or to give me an excuse
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to use that violence
against somebody else again.
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On the 16th of lanuary 2007,
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an lsraeli border policeman
shot and killed
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my 10-year-old daughter, Abir,
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in front of her school
in Anath where l live.
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She was with her sister
and two friends.
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9.30 in the morning.
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ln her head in the back
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from a distance of 15 to 20 meters
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by a rubber bullet.
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r [ r
Abi wasn t a fighte.
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She was lust
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a child.
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She didn t know an thing
[ y
about the conflict
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and she was not part
of this conflict.
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Unfortunately, she lost her life
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because she was a Palestinian.
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[ r r
l m an ls aeli who lost his daughte
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to a suicide bombing
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on the 4th of September 1997.
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And l am a product of...
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of an education system.
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00:29:38,961 --> 00:29:42,961
These are two societies at war.
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They socialize the young generation
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to make them able to sacrifice
themselves when the time comes.
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This is true to Palestinian society
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and this is also true
to lsraeli society.
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Because we are human beings.
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Sometimes you think:
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"lf l kill the killer
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"or anyone from the other side,
from the lsraelis,
356
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"or maybe ten,
357
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"this will give me back my daughter."
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No.
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l ll cause anothe ain
[ r p
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and another victim to the others.
361
00:30:25,041 --> 00:30:27,201
l decided
to break this circle of violence
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and blood and revenge
363
00:30:29,841 --> 00:30:33,041
by stopping killing
and supporting revenge,
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by myself.
365
00:30:36,281 --> 00:30:38,241
My definition of "sides"
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has changed dramatically.
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Today, on my side are
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00:30:44,041 --> 00:30:47,561
all those who want peace and are
willing to pay the price of peace.
369
00:30:47,721 --> 00:30:49,161
On the other side
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are those who do not want peace
371
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and are not willing
to pay the price of peace.
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Many people told me:
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lts not ou ight
" [ y r r
to forgive in her name."
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And the answer:
its also not m ight
[ y r
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to seek revenge in her name.
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l ho e shes satisfied.
p [
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l hope she rests in peace.
378
00:31:20,881 --> 00:31:22,281
e es what ha ened:
H r [ pp
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a German officer
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in an SS uniform
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entered the ghetto
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one rainy night.
383
00:31:29,561 --> 00:31:32,321
My mother told him:
"Take my daughter."
384
00:31:32,481 --> 00:31:35,921
She lifted the wire fence
385
00:31:36,081 --> 00:31:38,721
and handed him her baby, me,
386
00:31:38,881 --> 00:31:41,801
a lewish girl
2 and a half years old.
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And with a heavy heart,
388
00:31:44,241 --> 00:31:46,401
she put me in the hands
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of a wonderful man
390
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in an SS uniform.
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l now know that this man,
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00:31:53,481 --> 00:31:54,601
Aloïs Pleva,
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00:31:54,761 --> 00:31:56,401
served in the German army
394
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and lived near the German border.
395
00:31:59,761 --> 00:32:03,281
This man put me in his coat.
396
00:32:03,441 --> 00:32:06,201
He hid me inside his coat
397
00:32:06,361 --> 00:32:08,041
and took me
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to the border
between Germany and Poland
399
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to his parents.
400
00:32:13,721 --> 00:32:17,241
They passed me off as his daughter.
401
00:32:17,401 --> 00:32:20,721
They raised me
in the purest Catholic tradition
402
00:32:20,881 --> 00:32:23,121
until the end of the war.
403
00:32:23,281 --> 00:32:25,761
What a gesture!
404
00:32:25,921 --> 00:32:28,001
What magic,
405
00:32:28,161 --> 00:32:29,721
this outstretched hand!
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00:32:29,881 --> 00:32:33,201
Like sparks of light
407
00:32:33,361 --> 00:32:36,361
in what we call human folly.
408
00:32:37,881 --> 00:32:41,241
Sometimes a question comes to mind.
409
00:32:41,401 --> 00:32:43,601
lf l had been
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00:32:43,761 --> 00:32:46,161
in a situation like that,
411
00:32:46,801 --> 00:32:49,721
would l have acted in the same way
412
00:32:49,881 --> 00:32:52,801
as that German officer?
413
00:32:53,601 --> 00:32:55,241
How can l answer
414
00:32:55,401 --> 00:32:56,801
such a question?
415
00:32:56,961 --> 00:32:59,321
[
l don t think l would have had
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00:32:59,481 --> 00:33:01,761
the moral strength to do it,
417
00:33:01,921 --> 00:33:03,361
in all honesty.
418
00:33:03,521 --> 00:33:04,681
Maybe.
419
00:33:04,841 --> 00:33:06,561
Did he know he had the strength?
420
00:33:06,721 --> 00:33:08,441
How can you know?
421
00:33:08,601 --> 00:33:09,921
How can you recognize
422
00:33:10,081 --> 00:33:11,721
the moment of truth
423
00:33:11,881 --> 00:33:13,721
when you can sacrifice yourself,
424
00:33:13,881 --> 00:33:16,681
sacrifice the only life you have
425
00:33:16,841 --> 00:33:18,561
for someone else?
426
00:33:19,001 --> 00:33:20,841
r [ r
The es no answe to that question.
427
00:33:21,001 --> 00:33:22,161
Or a question
428
00:33:22,321 --> 00:33:24,241
others can answer.
429
00:33:24,401 --> 00:33:26,441
But this question must be asked.
430
00:35:48,241 --> 00:35:51,601
Love is the beginning and the end.
431
00:35:53,361 --> 00:35:56,321
Love is where we come from,
r [r
whe e we e going
432
00:35:56,481 --> 00:35:59,241
and what we live between the two.
433
00:36:00,481 --> 00:36:02,201
Love is everything.
434
00:36:03,761 --> 00:36:05,081
Love.
435
00:36:05,521 --> 00:36:09,281
The word love
is full of meaning for me.
436
00:36:10,161 --> 00:36:11,481
When you talk about love,
437
00:36:11,641 --> 00:36:13,281
it encompasses everything.
438
00:36:13,801 --> 00:36:16,121
Love encompasses everything,
[
doesn t it?
439
00:36:16,281 --> 00:36:19,081
Whe e the es no love, ou feel em t
r r [ y p y
440
00:36:19,961 --> 00:36:22,161
or rather, l feel empty.
441
00:36:24,841 --> 00:36:26,201
Love...
442
00:36:27,281 --> 00:36:29,521
Love is what fills the soul.
443
00:36:30,161 --> 00:36:32,641
You have to take love
one day at a time.
444
00:36:32,801 --> 00:36:34,841
You live it every day.
445
00:36:36,201 --> 00:36:39,521
Love is this feeling that you can
446
00:36:40,361 --> 00:36:42,161
give
447
00:36:42,321 --> 00:36:44,361
and that the other person gives you.
448
00:36:44,521 --> 00:36:47,481
My wife has a strong character.
449
00:36:47,841 --> 00:36:51,841
Shes the one who guides the famil.
[ y
450
00:36:54,921 --> 00:36:56,601
l love her a lot.
451
00:36:57,401 --> 00:36:59,161
[
Shes magnificent.
452
00:36:59,321 --> 00:37:01,161
lf ou don t make love,
y [
453
00:37:01,321 --> 00:37:03,601
your love will be a failure.
454
00:37:03,761 --> 00:37:05,561
Do you hear? Why?
455
00:37:05,721 --> 00:37:07,721
Through love comes sex.
456
00:37:07,881 --> 00:37:09,921
Without sex, ou ll go w ong.
y [ r
457
00:37:10,081 --> 00:37:12,201
Your wife will ask herself:
458
00:37:12,361 --> 00:37:14,921
"He gives me love, but not sex.
459
00:37:15,081 --> 00:37:18,081
"Love, food, clothing, everything,
460
00:37:18,241 --> 00:37:19,241
"but not sex.
461
00:37:19,401 --> 00:37:21,161
"What can l do with this man?"
462
00:37:21,321 --> 00:37:24,761
What will happen to our home?
The home will collapse,
463
00:37:24,921 --> 00:37:27,401
because after love must come sex.
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00:37:27,561 --> 00:37:30,321
And thats ultimatel
[ y
why love exists.
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00:37:30,481 --> 00:37:33,281
r r [
Othe wise, the es nothing.
466
00:37:44,401 --> 00:37:47,321
Oh, wow!
What a question to ask me...
467
00:37:47,481 --> 00:37:49,321
lf lve had love s?
[ r
468
00:37:49,481 --> 00:37:51,961
To be honest, lve neve had an.
[ r y
469
00:37:56,241 --> 00:37:57,481
[
l haven t...
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00:38:00,161 --> 00:38:01,841
l went to parties,
471
00:38:02,001 --> 00:38:04,441
[
but l didn t go to dances, because,
472
00:38:04,601 --> 00:38:08,081
to tell you the truth,
l never learned to dance.
473
00:38:09,601 --> 00:38:12,241
r [ r
l t ied, but it didn t wo k.
474
00:38:16,521 --> 00:38:18,161
So, l gave up.
475
00:38:23,801 --> 00:38:25,161
When you marry someone,
476
00:38:25,321 --> 00:38:27,321
you marry them as they are.
477
00:38:27,481 --> 00:38:30,041
At a given moment,
you love them the way they are.
478
00:38:30,201 --> 00:38:31,801
l had an accident.
479
00:38:31,961 --> 00:38:34,441
l lost my arms and legs.
480
00:38:34,601 --> 00:38:37,601
She didn t ma a gu
[ rry y
with no arms or legs.
481
00:38:37,761 --> 00:38:39,681
But she stood it
482
00:38:39,841 --> 00:38:42,281
for a number of years.
483
00:38:42,441 --> 00:38:44,401
We ended up separating,
484
00:38:44,561 --> 00:38:46,161
we got a divorce.
485
00:38:46,321 --> 00:38:48,801
l had to start a new life.
486
00:38:48,961 --> 00:38:51,601
lt took me 3 years
to get over the break-up.
487
00:38:51,761 --> 00:38:53,721
After 3 years, l said to myself:
488
00:38:53,881 --> 00:38:55,681
ou can t sta on ou own!
"Y [ y y r "
489
00:38:55,841 --> 00:38:58,481
So, l signed up on the internet
490
00:38:58,641 --> 00:39:00,321
to a dating site.
491
00:39:00,481 --> 00:39:02,881
At first, l lust put a head shot.
492
00:39:03,041 --> 00:39:04,841
The rest was a surprise.
493
00:39:05,001 --> 00:39:07,121
[ r r
l didn t show l had no a ms o legs.
494
00:39:07,281 --> 00:39:09,001
l had fun on the net,
495
00:39:09,161 --> 00:39:11,481
but when l told people
about my handicap,
496
00:39:11,641 --> 00:39:13,081
nobody answered me.
497
00:39:13,241 --> 00:39:14,601
So, l announced my handicap
498
00:39:14,761 --> 00:39:16,801
and one day, l met Suzanna.
499
00:39:16,961 --> 00:39:19,601
There we are, love is possible.
500
00:39:19,761 --> 00:39:21,641
Weve been togethe fo 8 ea s.
[ r r y r
501
00:39:21,801 --> 00:39:24,041
Suzanna has 3 girls, l have 2 boys.
502
00:39:24,201 --> 00:39:25,401
We have a one-eyed dog,
503
00:39:25,561 --> 00:39:27,481
4 cats, a guinea-pig.
504
00:39:27,641 --> 00:39:30,121
lts one big econstituted famil.
[ r y
505
00:39:30,281 --> 00:39:31,521
An thing s ossible.
y [ p
506
00:39:31,761 --> 00:39:32,961
l found love again.
507
00:39:33,121 --> 00:39:34,841
And we really love each other.
508
00:39:38,201 --> 00:39:41,281
lve been ma ied to m husband
[ rr y
for 18 years now.
509
00:39:41,801 --> 00:39:44,841
He has never said, "l love you,"
510
00:39:45,001 --> 00:39:46,441
but l feel he does.
511
00:39:46,601 --> 00:39:49,761
Sometimes,
eyes speak more than mouths.
512
00:39:50,201 --> 00:39:52,121
When l was younger, l wondered
513
00:39:52,281 --> 00:39:54,681
how people could live together
for so long,
514
00:39:54,841 --> 00:39:56,921
without falling out of love.
515
00:39:57,161 --> 00:39:59,441
l also couldn t imagine how eo le
[ p p
516
00:39:59,601 --> 00:40:01,921
could sleep
in the same bed for 20 years.
517
00:40:02,081 --> 00:40:05,241
l thought it would be boring.
[
But its not!
518
00:40:05,481 --> 00:40:07,041
Every day,
519
00:40:07,201 --> 00:40:08,401
l think,
520
00:40:08,561 --> 00:40:10,321
"Yesterday, my love was weaker.
521
00:40:10,481 --> 00:40:12,281
Toda, its t ue love.
" y [ r "
522
00:40:12,801 --> 00:40:15,041
And then, a year goes by.
523
00:40:15,201 --> 00:40:18,081
This love becomes even stronger.
524
00:40:19,201 --> 00:40:20,681
When l go to bed at night,
525
00:40:20,841 --> 00:40:22,601
l look at him and think,
526
00:40:23,641 --> 00:40:25,241
if he died,
527
00:40:25,401 --> 00:40:28,361
l could never replace him.
528
00:40:34,921 --> 00:40:36,481
After being married for...
529
00:40:36,641 --> 00:40:39,001
50 years, 49...
530
00:40:39,161 --> 00:40:40,961
51 years.
531
00:40:42,161 --> 00:40:44,961
My wife took seriously ill
532
00:40:46,441 --> 00:40:48,441
lust before we celebrated
533
00:40:48,601 --> 00:40:50,961
our 50th wedding anniversary.
534
00:40:51,441 --> 00:40:54,321
And she suffered terribly
535
00:40:54,481 --> 00:40:56,281
for about 2 years
536
00:40:56,841 --> 00:40:58,441
as an invalid.
537
00:40:59,201 --> 00:41:01,601
For the last 2 years of her life,
538
00:41:01,761 --> 00:41:03,801
l was her nurse,
539
00:41:04,241 --> 00:41:06,441
l was her doctor, l was her friend,
540
00:41:06,601 --> 00:41:08,881
l was her lover, l was her husband.
541
00:41:09,841 --> 00:41:12,441
Everybody wanted me to get
542
00:41:12,601 --> 00:41:15,081
a full-time nurse, day and night,
543
00:41:15,881 --> 00:41:18,401
and she begged me not to.
544
00:41:18,561 --> 00:41:20,801
She only wanted me to look after her.
545
00:41:20,961 --> 00:41:23,561
And l loved doing it for her.
546
00:41:23,721 --> 00:41:26,561
And l did it by myself.
547
00:41:26,721 --> 00:41:28,201
l carried her to the car,
548
00:41:28,361 --> 00:41:30,521
l carried her oxygen tank,
549
00:41:30,681 --> 00:41:31,801
her wheelchair.
550
00:41:31,961 --> 00:41:34,441
l packed it in the car,
l pushed her round,
551
00:41:34,601 --> 00:41:36,241
l put it back, l took her home,
552
00:41:36,401 --> 00:41:38,201
l bathed her, l put her to bed.
553
00:41:38,361 --> 00:41:39,601
And l loved it
554
00:41:39,761 --> 00:41:41,961
that l was able to do it for her
555
00:41:42,121 --> 00:41:43,521
without anyone else.
556
00:41:43,681 --> 00:41:45,361
And she appreciated it.
557
00:41:45,521 --> 00:41:47,241
[
Thats love.
558
00:41:50,681 --> 00:41:54,441
The magic moment
that l had with my grandfather
559
00:41:54,601 --> 00:41:57,401
was right after my grandmother died.
560
00:41:57,561 --> 00:41:58,801
l went to go see him.
561
00:41:58,961 --> 00:42:01,241
l knew that he was hurting,
562
00:42:01,401 --> 00:42:05,401
[ r
but l wasn t su e
what kind of state he would be in.
563
00:42:05,561 --> 00:42:07,521
And she was his partner 65 years
564
00:42:07,681 --> 00:42:09,561
as well as his driver.
565
00:42:09,721 --> 00:42:11,681
l said: "Grandpa...
566
00:42:12,361 --> 00:42:14,041
"How are you doing?"
567
00:42:14,201 --> 00:42:16,721
And he said:
"Did you know that for 4 dollars,
568
00:42:16,881 --> 00:42:19,241
"l can get a shuttle
anywhere in the city?"
569
00:42:19,401 --> 00:42:21,241
l said:
Wow, thats g eat, G and a.
" [ r r p "
570
00:42:21,401 --> 00:42:24,201
He said:
"Well, l went to the grocery store,
571
00:42:24,361 --> 00:42:27,001
"l went to the woman
behind the counter and said:
572
00:42:27,161 --> 00:42:29,281
"l have this list of things.
Could you help me find them?
573
00:42:29,441 --> 00:42:32,161
"My wife has recently changed
her residence to heaven."
574
00:42:33,041 --> 00:42:34,001
And l said:
575
00:42:34,161 --> 00:42:37,601
"Grandpa, man, you always
help me see the glass as half full."
576
00:42:37,761 --> 00:42:38,881
And he leaned back,
577
00:42:39,041 --> 00:42:41,361
looked me in the eyes, and he said:
578
00:42:41,761 --> 00:42:43,761
" [ "
lts a beautiful glass.
579
00:46:12,921 --> 00:46:16,401
When l was 12, l left
580
00:46:16,561 --> 00:46:18,361
m g andpa ents house
y r r [
581
00:46:18,521 --> 00:46:20,321
because of abuse.
582
00:46:20,481 --> 00:46:23,161
l went to live in the street.
583
00:46:23,601 --> 00:46:26,681
lt was better for me to keep going
584
00:46:26,841 --> 00:46:31,321
and try to become independent.
585
00:46:32,321 --> 00:46:35,201
What l can never forgive
586
00:46:35,361 --> 00:46:37,881
concerns my mother.
587
00:46:40,401 --> 00:46:43,881
[
Selling me wasn t a good idea.
588
00:46:45,041 --> 00:46:48,121
[r r r
Because we e he child en
589
00:46:48,921 --> 00:46:51,521
and she suffered, giving birth to us.
590
00:46:52,241 --> 00:46:55,601
[ [ r r
So, thats what l ll neve fo give.
591
00:47:00,521 --> 00:47:03,041
The hardest moment
592
00:47:03,201 --> 00:47:04,961
in my whole life
593
00:47:06,881 --> 00:47:09,161
was m fathe s death.
y r[
594
00:47:09,321 --> 00:47:10,801
Because...
595
00:47:16,161 --> 00:47:18,121
l don t want to c.
[ ry
596
00:47:24,081 --> 00:47:26,161
He supported me.
597
00:47:26,321 --> 00:47:28,001
He would...
598
00:47:29,481 --> 00:47:32,361
He would encourage
me and my brothers.
599
00:47:39,641 --> 00:47:43,121
l m not af aid of an thing an mo e,
[ r y y r
600
00:47:43,601 --> 00:47:47,121
[ r
because lve been th ough
many horrible things,
601
00:47:47,281 --> 00:47:49,361
[ r
and lve g own used to it.
602
00:47:50,961 --> 00:47:54,001
And lm ha dl sca ed of an thing.
[ r y r y
603
00:47:54,161 --> 00:47:56,361
When they say to me:
604
00:47:56,521 --> 00:47:59,321
We e going to hit ou.
" [r y
We ll kill ou.
[ y "
605
00:47:59,481 --> 00:48:02,121
l sa to them: No, l m not sca ed,
y " [ r
606
00:48:02,521 --> 00:48:04,721
"and if you do,
607
00:48:04,881 --> 00:48:07,921
[ r "
l won t be sca ed.
608
00:48:11,921 --> 00:48:16,761
My father used to tell me
609
00:48:17,521 --> 00:48:20,281
that it didn t matte if ou fell.
[ r y
610
00:48:20,441 --> 00:48:22,801
You lust had to get up again.
611
00:48:22,961 --> 00:48:25,521
lf l fell, l had to get up again.
612
00:48:25,681 --> 00:48:29,281
Always get up again.
613
00:48:29,441 --> 00:48:32,281
That helps me a lot.
614
00:48:32,441 --> 00:48:35,281
lf l lived in the past,
615
00:48:35,441 --> 00:48:37,641
ld s end m time c ing,
[ p y ry
616
00:48:37,801 --> 00:48:40,601
[ r
ld be bitte,
617
00:48:42,401 --> 00:48:45,201
l wouldn t be f iendl.
[ r y
618
00:48:47,681 --> 00:48:49,801
You have to know
619
00:48:49,961 --> 00:48:53,481
how to play and smile,
620
00:48:54,321 --> 00:48:57,481
because living in the past is no use.
621
00:48:57,641 --> 00:49:00,081
You have to live in the present.
622
00:49:05,841 --> 00:49:07,681
Family, to me,
623
00:49:08,601 --> 00:49:11,041
is a communion.
624
00:49:11,201 --> 00:49:12,761
[
lts coming home
625
00:49:12,921 --> 00:49:14,601
and being greeted:
626
00:49:14,761 --> 00:49:16,721
lts good to have ou home!
" [ y "
627
00:49:16,881 --> 00:49:18,121
Helping my brothers
628
00:49:18,281 --> 00:49:20,601
to do what l can already do,
629
00:49:20,761 --> 00:49:23,121
because lm one of the elde s.
[ r
630
00:49:23,281 --> 00:49:24,721
Teaching them.
631
00:49:25,321 --> 00:49:28,001
Seeing my father
come home from work, satisfied,
632
00:49:28,161 --> 00:49:29,481
sitting in his armchair,
633
00:49:29,641 --> 00:49:31,721
and me making him a coffee.
634
00:49:32,161 --> 00:49:33,881
That makes me feel good.
635
00:49:34,041 --> 00:49:36,281
lt fills you up inside.
636
00:49:36,441 --> 00:49:38,041
[
lf someones missing,
637
00:49:38,201 --> 00:49:41,241
it feels like a hole in your heart.
638
00:49:41,401 --> 00:49:43,401
"What the hell has happened?
639
00:49:43,561 --> 00:49:44,761
"Where is he?"
640
00:49:46,241 --> 00:49:47,681
Family is something
641
00:49:47,841 --> 00:49:49,641
happy, remarkable.
642
00:49:51,161 --> 00:49:52,601
[
lts something else.
643
00:49:53,161 --> 00:49:54,561
lt fills you up.
644
00:49:58,601 --> 00:50:00,081
When l was young,
645
00:50:00,241 --> 00:50:02,961
l didn t think l was going to sta
[ y
646
00:50:03,681 --> 00:50:05,401
in the religious community
647
00:50:05,561 --> 00:50:07,441
that l had loined.
648
00:50:07,601 --> 00:50:10,161
And l su ose l didn t unde stand
pp [ r
649
00:50:10,321 --> 00:50:12,041
what l was actually doing
650
00:50:12,201 --> 00:50:14,521
and that l was maybe
making a decision
651
00:50:14,681 --> 00:50:16,801
which meant
[ r
that l wouldn t have child en
652
00:50:16,961 --> 00:50:18,481
and l wouldn t have a famil
[ y
653
00:50:18,641 --> 00:50:20,081
as other people had.
654
00:50:20,241 --> 00:50:23,401
l don t eall think
[ r y
l understood that,
655
00:50:23,561 --> 00:50:25,281
but later in life,
656
00:50:26,161 --> 00:50:28,761
l had a sister who died
657
00:50:30,361 --> 00:50:31,801
of cancer.
658
00:50:31,961 --> 00:50:34,361
And when l saw her family,
659
00:50:34,521 --> 00:50:36,561
l realized
660
00:50:37,161 --> 00:50:40,641
that when l died,
the e wouldn t be an bod...
r [ y y
661
00:50:42,401 --> 00:50:44,961
to mourn me the same way.
662
00:51:01,681 --> 00:51:04,641
As time goes on, then you recognize
663
00:51:05,121 --> 00:51:08,561
that you are a parent to other people
664
00:51:08,721 --> 00:51:10,761
who you work with
665
00:51:10,921 --> 00:51:12,321
or who are friends
666
00:51:12,481 --> 00:51:15,081
or who are related
to you in some way.
667
00:51:15,241 --> 00:51:18,721
So, even though
ou haven t ou own famil,
y [ y r y
668
00:51:18,881 --> 00:51:21,081
you have family.
669
00:51:21,801 --> 00:51:24,801
So, l think thats im o tant to me.
[ p r
670
00:51:27,881 --> 00:51:31,241
My whole life,
l wanted to have a son.
671
00:51:31,401 --> 00:51:33,961
l already had daughters.
l wanted a son
672
00:51:34,121 --> 00:51:37,761
to support me, be my right-hand man.
673
00:51:37,921 --> 00:51:41,521
My son brings me a lot,
674
00:51:41,681 --> 00:51:44,681
lust in the way he looks at me.
675
00:51:44,841 --> 00:51:46,841
When we[re doing odd lobs
...
676
00:51:48,641 --> 00:51:51,881
l try to explain things to him.
677
00:51:52,041 --> 00:51:53,841
l often say to him:
678
00:51:54,681 --> 00:51:56,561
it is said...
679
00:51:58,521 --> 00:52:00,841
that when God...
680
00:52:06,241 --> 00:52:07,761
gave
681
00:52:07,921 --> 00:52:10,561
this child to that family,
682
00:52:10,721 --> 00:52:13,681
the angels asked: "Lord,
683
00:52:13,841 --> 00:52:17,681
"why do You give a handicapped child
to that family?
684
00:52:17,841 --> 00:52:21,841
The live well. The e ha.
" y y[r ppy
685
00:52:22,001 --> 00:52:24,681
"Why do You impose
such a burden on them?"
686
00:52:24,841 --> 00:52:26,761
God replied:
687
00:52:26,921 --> 00:52:28,721
"l chose them
688
00:52:30,721 --> 00:52:33,561
"so that they may teach the child
that l exist,
689
00:52:33,721 --> 00:52:35,281
"that l am omnipresent,
690
00:52:35,441 --> 00:52:37,841
"in the leaves and in the wind."
691
00:52:40,401 --> 00:52:42,401
Thats what l tell m son.
[ y
692
00:52:43,081 --> 00:52:44,641
l say to him...
693
00:52:52,041 --> 00:52:54,001
l tell him all the time...
694
00:52:54,161 --> 00:52:57,241
l say to him: "Look, Alyosha.
695
00:52:58,041 --> 00:53:00,281
" [
Thats a leaf.
696
00:53:05,361 --> 00:53:07,401
"And those are flowers.
697
00:53:09,801 --> 00:53:11,521
"All that makes up
698
00:53:12,481 --> 00:53:14,361
"the happiness of life."
699
00:53:15,201 --> 00:53:18,521
When l m with Al ocha in the evening,
[ y
700
00:53:18,681 --> 00:53:20,041
l say to him:
701
00:53:21,481 --> 00:53:23,921
"Look, son,
702
00:53:24,801 --> 00:53:27,721
those are stars!"
703
00:53:28,321 --> 00:53:29,801
And he
704
00:53:30,801 --> 00:53:32,441
sees them
705
00:53:33,521 --> 00:53:35,121
and he looks at me
706
00:53:35,881 --> 00:53:39,681
with adult eyes.
707
00:53:39,841 --> 00:53:41,721
l get the impression
708
00:53:42,241 --> 00:53:44,961
that he has a spirit
709
00:53:46,881 --> 00:53:49,241
[ r r
thats much st onge than mine.
710
00:53:49,401 --> 00:53:51,401
lts m son who guides me.
[ y
711
00:53:51,561 --> 00:53:55,161
He guides the whole family.
712
00:53:55,321 --> 00:53:56,921
Thats wh...
[ y
713
00:53:58,961 --> 00:54:01,481
now l understand
714
00:54:01,641 --> 00:54:03,041
what love is
715
00:54:04,201 --> 00:54:06,641
and the meaning of love.
716
00:54:06,801 --> 00:54:08,681
Because to live together,
717
00:54:08,841 --> 00:54:11,641
you must love yourself,
718
00:54:11,801 --> 00:54:13,361
love your wife,
719
00:54:13,561 --> 00:54:15,441
your children,
720
00:54:16,321 --> 00:54:18,201
big and small.
721
00:54:19,601 --> 00:54:22,801
You must love your family,
your parents.
722
00:54:22,961 --> 00:54:25,041
My parents are still alive.
723
00:54:26,681 --> 00:54:28,361
You must love
724
00:54:29,041 --> 00:54:30,841
all human beings
725
00:54:31,001 --> 00:54:33,001
for what they are deep down
726
00:54:34,281 --> 00:54:36,161
for only the love of people
727
00:54:38,001 --> 00:54:41,081
can save the world.
728
00:59:13,481 --> 00:59:15,801
No, l never thought about it.
729
00:59:15,961 --> 00:59:18,721
[
l wouldn t have liked to be a man.
730
00:59:18,881 --> 00:59:21,961
Because men have an easy life.
731
00:59:22,561 --> 00:59:23,881
Too easy.
732
00:59:25,241 --> 00:59:29,041
And easy lives are boring.
733
00:59:29,601 --> 00:59:32,761
lts eas ofessionall,
[ y pr y
734
00:59:32,921 --> 00:59:34,801
maybe even easier to attain
735
00:59:34,961 --> 00:59:37,601
their sentimental prey.
736
00:59:37,761 --> 00:59:40,201
For women,
everything is more difficult.
737
00:59:40,361 --> 00:59:43,441
But there is also the appeal
738
00:59:43,601 --> 00:59:46,481
of attaining your goals
despite the difficulties.
739
00:59:47,801 --> 00:59:51,201
Without question, l prefer
740
00:59:51,361 --> 00:59:53,001
being a woman.
741
00:59:54,481 --> 00:59:58,081
l feel powerless when, say,
742
00:59:58,761 --> 01:00:01,961
a very small woman enters the store,
743
01:00:02,121 --> 01:00:04,561
sees something high up
and says to me:
744
01:00:04,721 --> 01:00:06,641
"lf only a man could get that..."
745
01:00:06,801 --> 01:00:10,001
Y [
ou don t have to be a man.
lump up and grab it.
746
01:00:10,161 --> 01:00:12,601
You have two hands. Why a man?
747
01:00:12,761 --> 01:00:14,001
Whatever next?
748
01:00:14,161 --> 01:00:16,121
lt makes me so angry.
749
01:00:17,521 --> 01:00:19,921
l eall don t like it when women...
r y [
750
01:00:20,081 --> 01:00:24,081
l hate it
when women are discriminated against.
751
01:00:25,921 --> 01:00:28,121
Today, l feel free.
752
01:00:28,721 --> 01:00:30,041
Because...
753
01:00:30,961 --> 01:00:34,401
l can do lots of things
754
01:00:34,801 --> 01:00:36,921
without rushing.
755
01:00:37,561 --> 01:00:38,801
[ r
Whats mo e,
756
01:00:38,961 --> 01:00:40,721
[ r
l m divo ced.
757
01:00:44,321 --> 01:00:45,681
Sorry.
758
01:00:46,601 --> 01:00:48,121
Excuse me.
759
01:00:53,761 --> 01:00:56,121
l shouldn t sa that, should l?
[ y
760
01:00:56,281 --> 01:00:57,401
Sorry.
761
01:00:57,561 --> 01:00:59,521
Do you want to do it again?
762
01:01:01,121 --> 01:01:02,441
ls that OK?
763
01:01:03,801 --> 01:01:06,321
[
l know l shouldn t laugh about it,
764
01:01:06,481 --> 01:01:09,521
but l feel good, l feel free.
765
01:01:12,001 --> 01:01:14,041
My husband has 2 wives.
766
01:01:14,641 --> 01:01:17,081
H [ p y
es ol gamous, he has 2 wives.
767
01:01:18,241 --> 01:01:20,281
Here, in Senegal,
768
01:01:20,441 --> 01:01:22,161
with polygamy,
769
01:01:22,321 --> 01:01:24,761
some people have 4 wives.
770
01:01:24,921 --> 01:01:28,321
Others have 3, or 2.
771
01:01:28,481 --> 01:01:31,561
But some people only have 1 wife.
772
01:01:31,961 --> 01:01:33,201
[ r
lts thei choice.
773
01:01:33,361 --> 01:01:37,521
Some even have 6, 7, 8, 9...
as many as 10!
774
01:01:37,681 --> 01:01:39,961
But my husband has 2 wives.
775
01:01:40,401 --> 01:01:41,561
2 wives.
776
01:01:41,721 --> 01:01:44,121
[ r
l m the 1st, the othe is the 2nd.
777
01:01:44,281 --> 01:01:46,361
We live in peace.
778
01:01:46,521 --> 01:01:48,601
Shes m f iend.
[ y r
779
01:01:49,241 --> 01:01:52,281
She really loves me. And l love her.
780
01:01:53,561 --> 01:01:54,681
Luckily, for us,
781
01:01:54,881 --> 01:01:57,881
ol gam isn t ossible fo women.
p y y [ p r
782
01:01:58,041 --> 01:02:00,241
l say "luckily," because if my wife
783
01:02:00,401 --> 01:02:02,761
loved another man besides me,
784
01:02:02,921 --> 01:02:04,721
[
itd make things difficult.
785
01:02:04,881 --> 01:02:06,441
lt d be ve com licated
[ ry p
786
01:02:06,601 --> 01:02:08,441
because l am extremely lealous.
787
01:02:08,601 --> 01:02:10,321
Extremely lealous.
788
01:02:10,481 --> 01:02:12,401
[
l couldn t stand
789
01:02:12,561 --> 01:02:15,001
my wife spending the night
790
01:02:15,161 --> 01:02:16,721
r [ r
in anothe man s a ms
791
01:02:16,881 --> 01:02:19,361
and then spend the next night
with me.
792
01:02:19,521 --> 01:02:21,561
l could never stand that.
793
01:02:21,721 --> 01:02:23,441
So, luckily,
794
01:02:23,601 --> 01:02:25,361
polygamy for women
795
01:02:25,521 --> 01:02:27,641
isn t ossible in Bu kina Faso.
[ p r
796
01:02:27,801 --> 01:02:31,441
Because l lust couldn[t imagine it
.
797
01:02:32,441 --> 01:02:35,001
When l went and stayed with my...
798
01:02:35,761 --> 01:02:38,121
wife at her house in San Francisco...
799
01:02:38,281 --> 01:02:39,801
Shes not m wife,
[ y
800
01:02:39,961 --> 01:02:41,521
[
but the woman lm with.
801
01:02:42,561 --> 01:02:44,161
This was about a week
802
01:02:44,321 --> 01:02:45,721
after we started dating.
803
01:02:46,281 --> 01:02:48,521
l woke up in the morning and l said:
804
01:02:48,681 --> 01:02:51,481
"l ask this of you
and this of you and this of you
805
01:02:52,601 --> 01:02:54,401
and ou e hesitating.
" y [r "
806
01:02:54,561 --> 01:02:56,801
[
The woman lm with
[
can t have a list of nos.
807
01:02:56,961 --> 01:02:58,961
lts got to be ett much all eses
[ pr y y
808
01:02:59,201 --> 01:03:01,561
o we don t have a elationshi.
r [ r p
809
01:03:01,721 --> 01:03:04,161
And it took her about a month
810
01:03:04,321 --> 01:03:06,161
after l pointed that out to her
811
01:03:06,641 --> 01:03:09,601
to realize
that these nos could not exist.
812
01:03:09,761 --> 01:03:13,681
And so, thats how ve little shitt
[ ry y
my woman is.
813
01:03:13,841 --> 01:03:17,441
Shes f eakin ve uni ue,
[ r [ ry q
very amazing.
814
01:03:17,601 --> 01:03:19,281
She gives me...
815
01:03:19,441 --> 01:03:22,761
Like, she was raised
to adore her man.
816
01:03:22,921 --> 01:03:25,001
Like old-school Mexican.
817
01:03:25,161 --> 01:03:26,681
Know when to speak up.
818
01:03:26,841 --> 01:03:29,641
[
That doesn t mean
ou can t tell me something,
y [
819
01:03:29,801 --> 01:03:32,681
[
that doesn t mean
[
l don t want guidance.
820
01:03:32,841 --> 01:03:34,401
But in my household,
821
01:03:34,561 --> 01:03:36,201
the man is the man of the house.
822
01:03:37,881 --> 01:03:40,601
At home, on weekends,
l do the cooking.
823
01:03:40,761 --> 01:03:42,761
One day, a friend came to my house.
824
01:03:42,921 --> 01:03:44,961
He said: "You do the cooking?"
825
01:03:45,121 --> 01:03:46,001
l said: "Yes."
826
01:03:46,161 --> 01:03:47,201
"ls your wife sick?"
827
01:03:47,361 --> 01:03:50,561
" [ r "
l said: No, shes esting.
828
01:03:50,721 --> 01:03:52,401
"What? You do the cooking
829
01:03:52,561 --> 01:03:55,001
"while your wife has a rest?"
830
01:03:55,161 --> 01:03:58,001
"Yes, she needs rest."
831
01:03:58,161 --> 01:04:02,001
He said:
"My wife will never come visit you.
832
01:04:02,161 --> 01:04:05,841
ou d ut ideas in he head.
"Y [ p r
833
01:04:06,001 --> 01:04:07,681
"When she comes home,
834
01:04:07,841 --> 01:04:09,521
" [ "
she ll ask me to cook too.
835
01:04:10,321 --> 01:04:12,601
l said to him: "You must understand
836
01:04:12,761 --> 01:04:14,721
"that they need to rest."
837
01:04:15,321 --> 01:04:16,921
Anyway, l enloy
838
01:04:17,081 --> 01:04:19,401
cooking for my family.
839
01:04:23,641 --> 01:04:25,321
l m in ison,
[ pr
840
01:04:25,481 --> 01:04:27,601
because l had an abortion.
841
01:04:27,761 --> 01:04:32,001
l couldn t have continued m studies
[ y
842
01:04:32,161 --> 01:04:34,361
because l was in a boarding school
843
01:04:34,921 --> 01:04:38,721
and l didn t want to sto m studies.
[ p y
844
01:04:38,881 --> 01:04:42,441
ld have sto ed fo too long,
[ pp r
845
01:04:42,601 --> 01:04:47,401
with the pregnancy,
the birth, breastfeeding,
846
01:04:47,561 --> 01:04:50,081
[ r
and l couldn t conside that.
847
01:04:50,241 --> 01:04:54,121
So, l decided to have an abortion.
848
01:04:56,761 --> 01:04:58,801
What pleases me today
849
01:04:58,961 --> 01:05:03,001
is that lm getting out of ison
[ pr
tomorrow.
850
01:05:03,281 --> 01:05:07,361
l ll continue m studies
[ y
851
01:05:07,521 --> 01:05:09,521
and work.
852
01:05:10,161 --> 01:05:13,081
And ma be one da, l ll have a child.
y y [
853
01:05:13,241 --> 01:05:16,201
l[ll be lust like everyone else
.
854
01:05:27,321 --> 01:05:29,601
There is a way out of being abused.
855
01:05:30,241 --> 01:05:31,921
For me, it was tough because
856
01:05:32,081 --> 01:05:34,001
l used to have the worst abuse.
857
01:05:34,161 --> 01:05:36,001
l would have a gun put to my head
858
01:05:36,161 --> 01:05:39,121
and get told to go on my knees
and beg for my life.
859
01:05:39,921 --> 01:05:43,081
And l would do it.
My kids used to be watching.
860
01:05:43,241 --> 01:05:44,841
Or get put out of the house
861
01:05:45,001 --> 01:05:47,761
and have to sleep outside
on the steps.
862
01:05:47,921 --> 01:05:50,081
lf l moved from there,
[
ld get a hiding.
863
01:05:50,241 --> 01:05:52,601
lt was tough,
because l thought it was me.
864
01:05:52,761 --> 01:05:55,161
l was the one
that was doing something wrong
865
01:05:55,321 --> 01:05:56,681
in our marriage.
866
01:05:57,441 --> 01:06:00,401
l talked about my kids,
the most important thing of my life.
867
01:06:00,561 --> 01:06:03,481
l thought,
[ r
if l don t move on out of he e,
868
01:06:03,641 --> 01:06:05,121
[ r
l m eithe going to be dead
869
01:06:05,281 --> 01:06:06,761
or my kids are going to be dead.
870
01:06:06,921 --> 01:06:08,201
So, l need to move on.
871
01:06:08,521 --> 01:06:10,401
l need to do something.
872
01:06:10,561 --> 01:06:13,881
l went home that day
" [ "
and l said to him: l m leaving.
873
01:06:14,801 --> 01:06:16,161
Mark got a bit of a shock,
874
01:06:16,321 --> 01:06:19,441
[ r z
because he didn t eali e
that l was leaving.
875
01:06:19,601 --> 01:06:23,001
H "Y [ r
e said: ou ll neve leave me,
you love me too much."
876
01:06:23,161 --> 01:06:25,441
And l said: "Well, you know what?
877
01:06:25,961 --> 01:06:28,521
" [ "
Thats what love is about. Leaving.
878
01:06:30,201 --> 01:06:33,641
l gave him two choices.
l said to him:
879
01:06:33,801 --> 01:06:36,881
"You either go for counseling,
or l leave."
880
01:06:37,761 --> 01:06:39,761
You know what?
Toda, hes a bette man.
y [ r
881
01:06:39,921 --> 01:06:42,881
es neve lifted a hand u fo me
H [ r p r
since the day.
882
01:06:43,041 --> 01:06:45,801
Thats about 9 ea s ago.
[ y r
883
01:06:46,641 --> 01:06:49,321
So, 9 years ago,
l was still an abused woman.
884
01:09:54,561 --> 01:09:55,961
l am gay.
885
01:09:56,121 --> 01:10:00,161
[ [ r
lve known lve liked gi ls
ever since l was a little girl.
886
01:10:00,321 --> 01:10:03,601
And l kept it a secret
from my family.
887
01:10:03,761 --> 01:10:06,881
l remember when Ellen DeGeneres,
the TV host, came out,
888
01:10:07,041 --> 01:10:10,881
it was the first time l ever heard
of the word "gay" before.
889
01:10:11,041 --> 01:10:12,801
My parents were talking about it.
890
01:10:12,961 --> 01:10:15,201
l asked my dad: "Dad, what is gay?"
891
01:10:15,361 --> 01:10:19,801
" [ r r r
lts a gi l who likes anothe gi l
and the e going to hell.
y[r "
892
01:10:19,961 --> 01:10:22,881
And so, l said: "OK."
893
01:10:23,041 --> 01:10:25,721
l walked straight up to my room,
closed the door
894
01:10:25,881 --> 01:10:26,801
very quietly,
895
01:10:26,961 --> 01:10:30,281
and then,
l bawled my eyes out into my pillow.
896
01:10:30,441 --> 01:10:32,761
And l prayed to God every day:
897
01:10:32,921 --> 01:10:35,881
"Please let me like boys,
please make me straight."
898
01:10:36,041 --> 01:10:38,561
Because l knew l liked girls.
899
01:10:38,721 --> 01:10:40,521
And so, l tried
900
01:10:41,281 --> 01:10:44,081
pretending l liked boys,
but l never did.
901
01:10:44,241 --> 01:10:45,841
And then, l met
902
01:10:46,841 --> 01:10:48,841
to me the love of my life.
903
01:10:49,801 --> 01:10:51,761
And her name is len.
904
01:10:52,681 --> 01:10:55,041
Gosh, she was lust...
my world changed.
905
01:10:55,201 --> 01:10:58,241
And l didn t eall ca e
[ r y r
about anything else.
906
01:10:58,401 --> 01:11:01,241
l lust knew l wanted to be near her.
907
01:11:01,961 --> 01:11:04,081
And that was love to me.
908
01:11:08,241 --> 01:11:10,841
Being a lesbian
is not a choice for me.
909
01:11:11,001 --> 01:11:13,481
lts something that is inside ou...
[ y
910
01:11:16,481 --> 01:11:19,561
that noone can help.
911
01:11:20,001 --> 01:11:22,881
[ r
lts not cu able.
lts not a disease actuall.
[ y
912
01:11:23,041 --> 01:11:25,041
Cause the alwa s sa we e sick.
[ y y y [r
913
01:11:25,201 --> 01:11:29,321
Our families
r[
even take us to the docto s,
914
01:11:29,481 --> 01:11:31,121
r [
to the ma abouts.
915
01:11:31,281 --> 01:11:34,241
But it lust stays there.
916
01:11:35,201 --> 01:11:36,961
l even had to
917
01:11:37,121 --> 01:11:39,561
force myself with guys
918
01:11:40,761 --> 01:11:43,281
to get m g ann s app oval.
y r y[ r
919
01:11:44,681 --> 01:11:46,521
r [
lt hu ts, cause
920
01:11:47,921 --> 01:11:49,441
l had to do stuff
921
01:11:49,601 --> 01:11:52,201
l eall, eall didn t want to do.
r y r y [
922
01:11:52,361 --> 01:11:55,641
Even though l did that...
923
01:11:56,321 --> 01:11:59,121
l even asked a friend of mine
924
01:11:59,281 --> 01:12:02,201
to etend as if hes m bo f iend.
pr [ y y r
925
01:12:02,361 --> 01:12:04,401
But that guy, what he did...
926
01:12:04,561 --> 01:12:07,841
He forced himself to me
927
01:12:08,001 --> 01:12:10,641
and then, he left me with HlV.
928
01:12:12,961 --> 01:12:15,721
And that was in 2003.
929
01:12:16,441 --> 01:12:20,561
l did all that
lust to get my granny[s approval
.
930
01:12:20,721 --> 01:12:22,161
But now
931
01:12:22,321 --> 01:12:24,841
l know
that l don t have to do an thing
[ y
932
01:12:25,001 --> 01:12:27,441
to please someone else.
933
01:12:28,601 --> 01:12:31,521
My parents were so afraid
[ r
ld emain a homosexual
934
01:12:31,681 --> 01:12:33,521
that when l said l was changing,
935
01:12:33,681 --> 01:12:35,001
they really believed it.
936
01:12:35,721 --> 01:12:37,841
They asked me every day:
937
01:12:38,001 --> 01:12:39,481
"OK, have you changed?"
938
01:12:39,721 --> 01:12:41,521
As its not ossible to change,
[ p
939
01:12:41,681 --> 01:12:44,041
l pretended to ignore the question.
940
01:12:44,201 --> 01:12:47,081
After a while,
m fathe couldn t take an mo e.
y r [ y r
941
01:12:47,321 --> 01:12:49,361
He started yelling at me,
942
01:12:49,521 --> 01:12:51,241
hitting me and saying:
943
01:12:51,401 --> 01:12:53,921
l know ou haven t changed!
" y [
944
01:12:54,081 --> 01:12:55,921
"lf you bullshit me,
945
01:12:56,081 --> 01:12:57,881
l ll make ou life hell.
"[ y r
946
01:12:58,041 --> 01:13:00,401
"Leave now
if ou e eall like that.
y [r r y "
947
01:13:00,561 --> 01:13:02,441
[
So, l left. l didn t hesitate.
948
01:13:02,601 --> 01:13:04,041
l left.
949
01:13:04,561 --> 01:13:07,081
l have a son who s now 31 ea s old
[ y r
950
01:13:08,161 --> 01:13:09,801
who l love very much.
951
01:13:10,121 --> 01:13:12,001
H [ y y
es ga, a ga man.
952
01:13:12,161 --> 01:13:14,761
The day that he came out
was quite significant.
953
01:13:15,161 --> 01:13:17,961
l knew that he was struggling
with something.
954
01:13:18,121 --> 01:13:19,881
H [
e d been suicidal
955
01:13:20,041 --> 01:13:22,401
and he was 18 years old.
956
01:13:23,521 --> 01:13:26,841
He said to me one day:
Dad, lve got to tell ou something.
" [ y "
957
01:13:27,001 --> 01:13:30,601
And l said:
"OK, son, tell me, what is it?"
958
01:13:32,081 --> 01:13:35,641
He went pale, he really went white,
959
01:13:35,801 --> 01:13:38,241
and he said: "l feel sick."
960
01:13:38,401 --> 01:13:40,361
And my heart really went out to him.
961
01:13:40,521 --> 01:13:42,881
At that moment, l kind of knew
962
01:13:43,041 --> 01:13:45,121
that he was going to tell me
he was gay
963
01:13:45,281 --> 01:13:48,281
[
although l hadn t made
that connection,
964
01:13:48,441 --> 01:13:51,801
because he s uite masculine
[ q
in his traits.
965
01:13:51,961 --> 01:13:55,601
At that moment, l had a sense
[
thats what he was going to tell me.
966
01:13:55,761 --> 01:13:58,761
So, l said to him:
"Son, let me guess.
967
01:13:58,921 --> 01:14:01,041
"Let me make it easier for you."
968
01:14:01,201 --> 01:14:02,001
He said OK.
969
01:14:02,161 --> 01:14:05,281
"Y [r
l said: ou e going to tell me
ou e ga, a en t ou?
y [r y r [ y "
970
01:14:05,441 --> 01:14:08,001
He went: "Yes, l am."
971
01:14:09,081 --> 01:14:11,841
l lust really, really felt for him.
972
01:14:12,001 --> 01:14:14,681
lt was such a struggle for him
to tell me that.
973
01:14:14,841 --> 01:14:16,721
Everything sort of made sense,
974
01:14:16,881 --> 01:14:18,481
because he didn t want to be ga.
[ y
975
01:14:18,641 --> 01:14:21,161
And thats wh he d been suicidal.
[ y [
976
01:14:21,321 --> 01:14:24,561
l lust gave him a big hug
and said: "l love you anyway, son.
977
01:14:24,721 --> 01:14:27,721
lt doesn t make an diffe ence
" [ y r
to how much l love you."
978
01:14:27,881 --> 01:14:29,721
And l think that
979
01:14:29,881 --> 01:14:33,601
our relationship has really been
a lot stronger since then.
980
01:14:34,121 --> 01:14:36,561
[
So, thats been
a lourney in itself.
981
01:14:41,121 --> 01:14:44,081
lt was in 2009.
982
01:14:44,481 --> 01:14:46,281
A friend, homosexual like me.
983
01:14:46,441 --> 01:14:48,841
When this friend died,
984
01:14:49,001 --> 01:14:50,561
he was buried
985
01:14:50,721 --> 01:14:53,921
in his village cemetery.
986
01:14:55,161 --> 01:14:57,921
But the local imam
987
01:14:58,081 --> 01:15:00,761
gathered together the people,
988
01:15:00,921 --> 01:15:02,281
the young people.
989
01:15:02,441 --> 01:15:04,281
They went to the cemetery
990
01:15:04,441 --> 01:15:07,161
to dig up the body.
991
01:15:07,761 --> 01:15:10,321
They took it, tied it up,
992
01:15:10,481 --> 01:15:12,601
and dragged it through the streets.
993
01:15:12,761 --> 01:15:15,121
The media were there.
994
01:15:15,281 --> 01:15:16,881
They filmed it.
995
01:15:19,681 --> 01:15:21,561
The police came.
996
01:15:22,801 --> 01:15:26,081
Afterwards,
the family got the body back
997
01:15:26,881 --> 01:15:28,361
and buried it again.
998
01:15:28,521 --> 01:15:31,641
lt was dug up again. 3 times in all.
999
01:15:31,801 --> 01:15:34,241
ln the end, the body was buried
1000
01:15:34,401 --> 01:15:36,561
in his fathe s a d.
r[ y r
1001
01:15:36,721 --> 01:15:40,201
Because the Muslim religion says
1002
01:15:40,361 --> 01:15:42,321
that when ou e homosexual,
y [r
1003
01:15:42,481 --> 01:15:43,761
if you die,
1004
01:15:43,921 --> 01:15:46,921
people can t p a fo ou,
[ r y r y
1005
01:15:47,081 --> 01:15:48,961
the can t bu ou
y [ ry y
1006
01:15:49,121 --> 01:15:51,081
in a Muslim cemetery.
1007
01:15:51,241 --> 01:15:53,561
Thats what the sa.
[ y y
1008
01:15:54,401 --> 01:15:57,361
l m a ga man f om Lebanon.
[ y r
1009
01:15:57,521 --> 01:15:59,241
We have no rights over there.
1010
01:15:59,401 --> 01:16:02,121
We have no rights
in the Arab world in general.
1011
01:16:02,281 --> 01:16:03,761
l think what l can do more
1012
01:16:03,921 --> 01:16:05,761
[ r
is what lve sta ted to do,
1013
01:16:06,241 --> 01:16:08,721
l think l should come out even more.
1014
01:16:09,481 --> 01:16:10,961
l am out to my parents.
1015
01:16:11,121 --> 01:16:14,161
l am out to my friends,
l am out to my work,
1016
01:16:16,201 --> 01:16:19,001
but l think l want to encourage
other people like me
1017
01:16:19,841 --> 01:16:21,561
who have nothing to lose.
1018
01:16:21,721 --> 01:16:22,921
Because l have a salary,
1019
01:16:23,081 --> 01:16:25,721
because my mum
has proven with time,
1020
01:16:25,881 --> 01:16:28,001
it took time,
that she ll love me an wa.
[ y y
1021
01:16:28,161 --> 01:16:30,641
Now she knows,
she knows my boyfriend.
1022
01:16:30,801 --> 01:16:32,841
She loves me for the way l am,
my dad as well.
1023
01:16:33,001 --> 01:16:34,481
My friends as well.
1024
01:16:35,081 --> 01:16:37,041
l think if ou don t tell an one,
y [ y
1025
01:16:37,721 --> 01:16:40,761
r [
the othe moms won t know
that its OK to be ga.
[ y
1026
01:16:41,081 --> 01:16:43,721
People should be less shy,
1027
01:16:43,961 --> 01:16:45,921
more daring
when you have nothing to lose.
1028
01:16:46,081 --> 01:16:47,361
Some people have a lot to lose.
1029
01:16:47,521 --> 01:16:49,881
Those are not the people
that should do the change,
1030
01:16:50,041 --> 01:16:52,561
but the ones
that have nothing to lose.
1031
01:20:34,321 --> 01:20:36,161
ln lraq, one of my friends
1032
01:20:36,321 --> 01:20:38,281
was hit with a car bomb
in front of me.
1033
01:20:38,441 --> 01:20:42,121
l chased after the triggerman
with my squad,
1034
01:20:42,281 --> 01:20:43,881
with one of my teams.
1035
01:20:44,041 --> 01:20:47,681
And we were lust...
we wanted to kill that guy.
1036
01:20:47,841 --> 01:20:51,321
[ r
Cause l could hea
my buddy screaming, he was hurt.
1037
01:20:51,601 --> 01:20:54,041
[r r
And so, we e unning
as fast as we can.
1038
01:20:54,201 --> 01:20:56,321
We[re lust full of hate and fury
.
1039
01:20:56,481 --> 01:20:59,441
We lust want to do
whatever we can to...
1040
01:21:00,241 --> 01:21:02,561
He hurt our friend,
[r
we e going to get him back.
1041
01:21:02,721 --> 01:21:06,961
We[re lust running as fast as we can
,
with all that weight.
1042
01:21:07,121 --> 01:21:09,481
lust sweat pouring off of us.
1043
01:21:09,641 --> 01:21:11,521
Through orange fields,
1044
01:21:11,681 --> 01:21:14,201
then we get to a clearing.
1045
01:21:16,681 --> 01:21:19,281
lt hit me. l mean, this blue sky.
1046
01:21:19,441 --> 01:21:21,521
There was an old man
1047
01:21:22,001 --> 01:21:25,521
in a white robe and a child.
1048
01:21:25,681 --> 01:21:28,561
lust tilling a field, you know,
and that lust...
1049
01:21:29,241 --> 01:21:30,681
brought me back to reality.
1050
01:21:30,841 --> 01:21:32,921
"What am l doing?
1051
01:21:33,081 --> 01:21:35,441
"[ [
l m a human being, l m not...
1052
01:21:36,801 --> 01:21:39,481
"[ r r "
l m not some inst ument of evenge.
1053
01:21:39,641 --> 01:21:42,561
[ [
l don t know. lts like,
ou sto and ou e like...
y p y [r
1054
01:21:43,921 --> 01:21:46,561
lust people doing
1055
01:21:46,721 --> 01:21:49,801
people things here,
whe e lm su osed to...
r [ pp
1056
01:21:49,961 --> 01:21:52,361
where all this violence is happening.
1057
01:21:52,521 --> 01:21:55,001
And ou sto and ou e like...
y p y [r
1058
01:21:57,801 --> 01:22:00,641
l don t know, makes ou human again.
[ y
1059
01:22:01,481 --> 01:22:03,921
l get up in the morning,
go to the fields
1060
01:22:04,081 --> 01:22:07,681
to get my beans and my corn.
1061
01:22:07,841 --> 01:22:12,841
l see ripe beans and corn.
1062
01:22:13,001 --> 01:22:14,241
Oh, what loy!
1063
01:22:14,401 --> 01:22:16,321
When we get to the field,
1064
01:22:16,481 --> 01:22:18,081
we are so happy
1065
01:22:18,241 --> 01:22:22,121
that we almost want
to lust stand there
1066
01:22:22,281 --> 01:22:23,801
[
as its so beautiful.
1067
01:22:23,961 --> 01:22:26,961
A field of corn or beans
is beautiful.
1068
01:22:27,121 --> 01:22:30,001
And every time, it gives us
1069
01:22:30,161 --> 01:22:31,881
fresh heart.
1070
01:22:32,961 --> 01:22:35,641
At the moment, l have nothing at all.
1071
01:22:35,801 --> 01:22:37,801
l farm a small piece of land.
1072
01:22:37,961 --> 01:22:41,201
l plant some vegetables to eat.
1073
01:22:41,361 --> 01:22:44,281
My husband has lust gone
to get his pay,
1074
01:22:44,441 --> 01:22:48,481
but its a tin amount.
[ y
1075
01:22:48,641 --> 01:22:50,601
Apart from that,
l have nothing at all.
1076
01:22:50,761 --> 01:22:54,241
There[s lust a hen at home
.
1077
01:22:54,401 --> 01:22:56,161
lf she lays eggs,
1078
01:22:56,321 --> 01:22:57,481
l sell them at the market,
1079
01:22:57,641 --> 01:22:59,641
then l buy salt and things,
1080
01:22:59,801 --> 01:23:01,601
enough to survive each day.
1081
01:23:01,761 --> 01:23:03,041
l have no cattle.
1082
01:23:03,201 --> 01:23:05,161
l have nothing.
1083
01:23:07,921 --> 01:23:09,761
Yes, well,
1084
01:23:09,921 --> 01:23:13,001
l, Estima loseph, say
1085
01:23:13,161 --> 01:23:15,961
that my life is finished
in this country.
1086
01:23:17,881 --> 01:23:19,481
The ain doesn t fall.
r [
1087
01:23:19,641 --> 01:23:22,161
l can t plant an thing to ha vest
[ y r
1088
01:23:22,321 --> 01:23:26,001
to feed my wife and children.
1089
01:23:26,161 --> 01:23:28,001
So, at the moment,
1090
01:23:28,841 --> 01:23:31,881
the es no mo e wood to cho
r [ r p
in the countryside
1091
01:23:32,041 --> 01:23:34,041
to earn money,
1092
01:23:34,201 --> 01:23:36,401
not even small branches
1093
01:23:36,561 --> 01:23:38,321
to make a bag of charcoal.
1094
01:23:38,481 --> 01:23:40,321
You can spend a day or two
1095
01:23:40,481 --> 01:23:42,681
without any food
1096
01:23:42,841 --> 01:23:45,481
for your children
who are crying at your feet.
1097
01:23:45,641 --> 01:23:48,241
The es no one to tell ou:
r [ - y
1098
01:23:48,401 --> 01:23:50,441
"My dear fellow, take this.
1099
01:23:50,601 --> 01:23:53,441
lts fo ou,
" [ r y
to help you in the country!"
1100
01:23:53,601 --> 01:23:55,561
We e l ing down, waiting fo death,
[r y r
1101
01:23:55,721 --> 01:23:58,601
because what we call life is over.
1102
01:23:59,521 --> 01:24:00,801
You lie there,
1103
01:24:00,961 --> 01:24:02,601
ou ve nothing fo ou child en.
y [ r y r r
1104
01:24:02,761 --> 01:24:05,481
Nothing to give them,
nobody to help you.
1105
01:24:05,641 --> 01:24:08,001
You lie there and wait for death.
1106
01:24:08,161 --> 01:24:10,001
l call that "life finished".
1107
01:24:10,161 --> 01:24:11,921
Life is already finished.
1108
01:24:12,081 --> 01:24:14,201
Y [
ou don t have an animal to sell.
1109
01:24:16,961 --> 01:24:18,001
Yes.
1110
01:24:20,401 --> 01:24:22,441
Yes, life is completely finished.
1111
01:24:22,841 --> 01:24:23,841
Yes.
1112
01:24:28,681 --> 01:24:30,441
We had no harvest.
1113
01:24:30,601 --> 01:24:32,161
lt was so dry
1114
01:24:32,321 --> 01:24:34,761
that my husband had 2 wells dug
1115
01:24:34,921 --> 01:24:36,721
for 70,000 rupees each.
1116
01:24:37,281 --> 01:24:39,961
But as the didn t find an wate,
y [ y r
1117
01:24:40,121 --> 01:24:42,041
the vines dried up
1118
01:24:42,201 --> 01:24:44,841
and we didn t have an g a es.
[ y r p
1119
01:24:45,001 --> 01:24:46,761
l think that my husband
1120
01:24:46,921 --> 01:24:49,321
already had debts last year
1121
01:24:49,481 --> 01:24:51,241
which he couldn t e a.
[ r p y
1122
01:24:51,401 --> 01:24:54,481
Now who should be paid back first?
1123
01:24:54,641 --> 01:24:57,241
l have no idea what to do.
1124
01:24:57,401 --> 01:24:58,801
The es no wate an whe e.
r [ r y r
1125
01:24:58,961 --> 01:25:01,321
The e was a well, but its d.
r [ ry
1126
01:25:01,481 --> 01:25:02,841
r [ r r
The es no mo e wate.
1127
01:25:03,001 --> 01:25:06,281
So, how can the debts be repaid?
1128
01:25:08,681 --> 01:25:10,801
Thats wh he committed suicide.
[ y
1129
01:25:24,601 --> 01:25:25,721
This year,
1130
01:25:25,961 --> 01:25:28,561
l was covering a very severe drought
1131
01:25:28,721 --> 01:25:31,561
in western Maharastra,
in this country.
1132
01:25:32,041 --> 01:25:33,321
And on the one hand,
1133
01:25:33,481 --> 01:25:37,761
l was looking at
people facing destitution
1134
01:25:37,921 --> 01:25:39,601
due to a water crisis.
1135
01:25:39,761 --> 01:25:41,001
On the other hand,
1136
01:25:41,161 --> 01:25:44,161
l was looking
at multi-story buildings coming up
1137
01:25:44,321 --> 01:25:46,521
with a swimming pool
1138
01:25:46,681 --> 01:25:48,641
on every floor.
1139
01:25:49,041 --> 01:25:52,361
[r
We e not talking about buildings
with 3 or 4 floors.
1140
01:25:52,521 --> 01:25:55,041
There is a plan
for 2 twin towers in Mumbai
1141
01:25:55,201 --> 01:25:57,281
even now under construction,
1142
01:25:57,721 --> 01:25:59,561
37 floors each,
1143
01:25:59,721 --> 01:26:04,201
which means
there are 74 swimming pools.
1144
01:26:04,441 --> 01:26:06,121
[ r
lts a twin towe.
1145
01:26:06,281 --> 01:26:07,801
And then, l went and looked at
1146
01:26:07,961 --> 01:26:11,281
who are the people doing
the construction, these laborers.
1147
01:26:11,441 --> 01:26:13,601
All the laborers
were landless laborers
1148
01:26:13,761 --> 01:26:15,401
and marginal farmers
1149
01:26:15,561 --> 01:26:17,361
who had left their villages
1150
01:26:17,601 --> 01:26:19,881
as refugees of the water crisis
1151
01:26:20,041 --> 01:26:21,441
and the e in the cities
y[r
1152
01:26:21,601 --> 01:26:23,681
building our swimming pools.
1153
01:26:24,681 --> 01:26:26,801
The sheer humiliation of it,
1154
01:26:27,041 --> 01:26:29,401
the sheer inlustice of it!
1155
01:26:29,761 --> 01:26:31,801
l think
the fastest growing sector in lndia
1156
01:26:31,961 --> 01:26:33,961
is not software or lT.
1157
01:26:34,121 --> 01:26:35,841
lt is inequality.
1158
01:26:36,441 --> 01:26:38,401
So, yeah, it makes me furious.
1159
01:26:38,561 --> 01:26:41,241
lt is completely unacceptable to me
1160
01:26:41,401 --> 01:26:44,001
to see how closely
1161
01:26:44,881 --> 01:26:47,201
the affluence of the few
1162
01:26:47,361 --> 01:26:50,681
is tied to the misery of the many.
1163
01:26:50,841 --> 01:26:52,601
Thats unacce table.
[ p
1164
01:26:55,561 --> 01:26:58,201
World leaders,
1165
01:26:58,361 --> 01:27:00,841
help us have a decent life.
1166
01:27:01,001 --> 01:27:03,681
r [ r
Othe wise we ll sta ve to death.
1167
01:27:04,361 --> 01:27:06,641
[ r
lts the fault of the gove nment
1168
01:27:06,801 --> 01:27:08,881
and politicians
1169
01:27:09,041 --> 01:27:11,961
if we have nothing to wear,
1170
01:27:12,481 --> 01:27:15,201
nowhere to sleep,
and nothing to cook.
1171
01:27:15,361 --> 01:27:17,241
We e d ing.
[r y
1172
01:27:17,401 --> 01:27:19,521
Who knows
if we ll still be alive tomo ow?
[ rr
1173
01:27:19,681 --> 01:27:22,481
Who can say
if we ll have an thing to eat?
[ y
1174
01:27:22,641 --> 01:27:24,921
My children are dying.
1175
01:27:25,081 --> 01:27:26,961
We have nowhere to live,
1176
01:27:27,121 --> 01:27:30,121
not even a roof or a plot of land.
1177
01:27:30,281 --> 01:27:32,401
l go from village to village
1178
01:27:32,561 --> 01:27:34,601
to low othe eo les fields.
p r p p [
1179
01:27:34,761 --> 01:27:36,881
And all this for what?
1180
01:27:37,041 --> 01:27:40,521
One day, we eat,
the next, we have to starve.
1181
01:27:41,401 --> 01:27:44,121
But nobody listens to us.
1182
01:27:44,561 --> 01:27:48,041
r [ r
The gove nment doesn t ca e
about our problems.
1183
01:27:48,201 --> 01:27:50,721
The don t think
y [
about us poor folk.
1184
01:27:51,441 --> 01:27:54,201
Only about themselves.
1185
01:31:11,841 --> 01:31:13,561
l left Pakistan
1186
01:31:13,721 --> 01:31:17,961
because of our living conditions.
1187
01:31:18,121 --> 01:31:20,601
lt was especially clear to my wife
1188
01:31:20,761 --> 01:31:23,241
that my income could not provide
1189
01:31:23,401 --> 01:31:25,361
for health care and schooling.
1190
01:31:26,081 --> 01:31:27,881
She sacrificed herself for me,
1191
01:31:28,041 --> 01:31:29,241
for my family.
1192
01:31:29,401 --> 01:31:31,921
l sacrificed myself and my family too
1193
01:31:32,081 --> 01:31:33,721
by allowing myself
1194
01:31:33,881 --> 01:31:36,401
to emigrate so l could at least
1195
01:31:36,561 --> 01:31:38,361
give my children an education
1196
01:31:38,521 --> 01:31:39,881
and health care
1197
01:31:40,041 --> 01:31:43,361
and meet all their basic needs.
1198
01:31:44,241 --> 01:31:47,481
l ll neve fo get the da l left.
[ r r y
1199
01:31:47,641 --> 01:31:49,441
l was with a few friends.
1200
01:31:49,601 --> 01:31:52,601
My mother came out on the doorstep.
1201
01:31:53,001 --> 01:31:56,081
She was holding my son in her arms.
1202
01:31:56,241 --> 01:31:58,281
l was sitting in the car.
1203
01:31:58,441 --> 01:32:01,281
She put my son on my lap:
1204
01:32:01,441 --> 01:32:02,841
"Take a good look at him.
1205
01:32:03,001 --> 01:32:05,241
"Who knows
when ou ll see him again?
y [ "
1206
01:32:05,401 --> 01:32:08,081
[ r r
l ll neve fo get that scene.
1207
01:32:08,241 --> 01:32:09,961
l can still see my child
1208
01:32:10,121 --> 01:32:12,961
as if he were right in front of me.
1209
01:32:18,081 --> 01:32:21,641
l left Sudan because the regime
1210
01:32:23,601 --> 01:32:25,801
[
wouldn t leave us alone.
1211
01:32:27,201 --> 01:32:30,121
Entire families were killed.
1212
01:32:31,241 --> 01:32:33,121
Everyone figured
1213
01:32:33,281 --> 01:32:34,881
we were doomed.
1214
01:32:35,041 --> 01:32:38,561
The main thing was that l was saved.
1215
01:32:38,721 --> 01:32:40,401
God spared me.
1216
01:32:40,561 --> 01:32:42,601
l arrived in France.
1217
01:32:43,401 --> 01:32:47,321
Thanks to God,
at home, we were farmers.
1218
01:32:47,481 --> 01:32:49,241
And it was enough for us!
1219
01:32:49,481 --> 01:32:50,921
We had cattle.
1220
01:32:51,081 --> 01:32:54,241
We never lacked either money
1221
01:32:54,401 --> 01:32:56,521
or food.
1222
01:32:58,241 --> 01:33:00,401
Thanks to God, we lived well.
1223
01:33:00,561 --> 01:33:03,041
But the regime
would not leave us alone.
1224
01:33:05,641 --> 01:33:08,081
They raped my sisters in front of me.
1225
01:33:10,521 --> 01:33:12,001
When my wife arrived,
1226
01:33:12,161 --> 01:33:13,481
they flogged her.
1227
01:33:13,641 --> 01:33:15,401
They raped her in front of me.
1228
01:33:15,561 --> 01:33:17,121
How could l live
1229
01:33:17,881 --> 01:33:19,521
in that country?
1230
01:33:21,601 --> 01:33:23,561
When l was in the boat,
1231
01:33:24,761 --> 01:33:26,721
l was very scared,
1232
01:33:26,881 --> 01:33:30,281
because l saw absolutely nothing,
only the water.
1233
01:33:30,441 --> 01:33:34,361
And the boat also,
its not a ualit boat.
[ q y
1234
01:33:36,281 --> 01:33:40,961
We are 110 people inside the boat,
nobody comfortable.
1235
01:33:41,601 --> 01:33:44,761
There was no food to eat,
no water to drink.
1236
01:33:45,681 --> 01:33:47,841
You are sitting in that fuel.
1237
01:33:48,521 --> 01:33:50,161
lt destroyed all my body.
1238
01:33:50,321 --> 01:33:51,721
Things were hard for me.
1239
01:33:51,881 --> 01:33:54,401
So, when l see the ltalians,
1240
01:33:55,441 --> 01:33:57,281
they come and rescue us,
1241
01:33:57,841 --> 01:33:59,121
l thank God.
1242
01:33:59,281 --> 01:34:01,841
[
l know that now l m safe.
1243
01:34:02,841 --> 01:34:04,561
Europeans have their reasons
1244
01:34:04,721 --> 01:34:06,641
for limiting immigration.
1245
01:34:07,721 --> 01:34:10,921
We sta he e, but the es no wo k.
y r r [ r
1246
01:34:11,081 --> 01:34:12,801
There are entire families
1247
01:34:12,961 --> 01:34:14,841
in which noone works.
1248
01:34:15,841 --> 01:34:17,521
lf ou can t fish,
y [
1249
01:34:17,681 --> 01:34:19,441
you have nothing to do.
1250
01:34:19,601 --> 01:34:20,801
Thousands of Africans
1251
01:34:20,961 --> 01:34:22,841
die at sea, going to Europe.
1252
01:34:23,601 --> 01:34:26,481
[ r [
But its wo th it. l m leaving again.
1253
01:34:26,761 --> 01:34:28,321
For Spain or ltaly.
1254
01:34:28,481 --> 01:34:29,921
lve made u m mind.
[ p y
1255
01:34:30,081 --> 01:34:32,601
lts in m blood to go.
[ y
1256
01:34:32,761 --> 01:34:34,241
l ll go b canoe.
[ y
1257
01:34:34,401 --> 01:34:37,241
l ll go, c ing. l ll go, shouting.
[ ry [
1258
01:34:39,881 --> 01:34:43,281
[
Now lm living
in the lungle of Calais.
1259
01:34:43,441 --> 01:34:45,441
The police come and disturb us:
1260
01:34:45,601 --> 01:34:47,521
"You have to leave the lungle."
1261
01:34:47,681 --> 01:34:51,441
l said: "Where l have to go?
1262
01:34:51,601 --> 01:34:54,161
"Show me the place.
We want to go to that."
1263
01:34:54,321 --> 01:34:56,881
He said: "You have to go back
to your country."
1264
01:34:57,041 --> 01:34:58,561
"Where is my country?
1265
01:34:58,721 --> 01:35:00,321
l don t have a count, man!
" [ ry
1266
01:35:00,481 --> 01:35:02,201
" [ r
lts a killing g ound,
1267
01:35:02,361 --> 01:35:04,721
its a g ound of killing the eo le,
" [ r p p
1268
01:35:04,881 --> 01:35:06,881
" [ r
its a g ound of fighting.
1269
01:35:07,041 --> 01:35:08,281
"lt is not a country!
1270
01:35:08,441 --> 01:35:10,681
"Afghanistan is not a country now!
1271
01:35:10,841 --> 01:35:13,441
" [ r "
lts a killing g ound, man.
1272
01:35:13,601 --> 01:35:17,041
37 countries
came to control that country,
1273
01:35:17,201 --> 01:35:20,121
but they cannot control these people.
1274
01:35:20,281 --> 01:35:22,561
The UN cannot control these people!
1275
01:35:22,721 --> 01:35:26,201
How can you send me back
to that country?
1276
01:35:27,681 --> 01:35:30,241
l lost my family in that country.
1277
01:35:30,401 --> 01:35:32,441
How can l go back to that country?
1278
01:35:32,601 --> 01:35:34,641
l was a refugee in Pakistan,
1279
01:35:34,801 --> 01:35:36,281
a refugee in lran,
1280
01:35:36,441 --> 01:35:38,161
a refugee in Dubai.
1281
01:35:38,321 --> 01:35:41,361
l was a refugee in Turkey,
1282
01:35:41,521 --> 01:35:43,081
a refugee in Bulgaria,
1283
01:35:43,241 --> 01:35:46,881
a refugee in a European country,
in Greece.
1284
01:35:47,721 --> 01:35:51,081
[ r r
And now lm a efugee in F ance.
1285
01:35:51,641 --> 01:35:53,681
But let me live, man.
1286
01:35:53,841 --> 01:35:55,681
l don t want an thing f om ou.
[ y r y
1287
01:35:55,841 --> 01:35:57,561
l don t want eating f om ou.
[ r y
1288
01:35:57,721 --> 01:36:00,921
l don t want an thing f om ou.
[ y r y
1289
01:36:01,081 --> 01:36:02,561
l don t need hel!
[ p
1290
01:36:02,721 --> 01:36:05,481
But let me live.
1291
01:36:08,401 --> 01:36:10,521
Dad, here l am in ltaly.
1292
01:36:10,761 --> 01:36:13,441
l don t know how ou a e.
[ y r
1293
01:36:13,601 --> 01:36:16,001
l don t know if ou can see me,
[ y
1294
01:36:16,161 --> 01:36:18,121
but l m in ltal.
[ y
1295
01:36:18,281 --> 01:36:20,521
l ll alwa s wo about ou,
[ y rry y
1296
01:36:20,681 --> 01:36:24,121
you and the others,
all my brothers and sisters,
1297
01:36:24,281 --> 01:36:26,321
and all my friends over there.
1298
01:36:26,481 --> 01:36:29,161
lf l make it here,
1299
01:36:29,321 --> 01:36:32,001
it ll be mainl fo ou.
[ y r y
1300
01:36:32,161 --> 01:36:33,601
l ll think about ou
[ y
1301
01:36:33,761 --> 01:36:35,561
till my last breath.
1302
01:36:35,721 --> 01:36:37,801
l don t have the means et,
[ y
1303
01:36:37,961 --> 01:36:39,641
so pray for me.
1304
01:36:39,801 --> 01:36:41,841
l greet you all!
1305
01:40:27,801 --> 01:40:30,801
[ r r
l m a Bangladeshi wo ke
in the garment industry.
1306
01:40:30,961 --> 01:40:33,881
[ r
l m out aged
when a buyer comes to meet
1307
01:40:34,041 --> 01:40:37,441
the company owner
or the marketing team
1308
01:40:37,601 --> 01:40:40,881
to negotiate the price of his order.
1309
01:40:41,201 --> 01:40:44,001
And when other countries
slash prices,
1310
01:40:44,161 --> 01:40:48,841
our buyer will look
for the best deal.
1311
01:40:49,321 --> 01:40:51,641
He could lust think:
1312
01:40:51,801 --> 01:40:54,161
"lf Bangladesh supplies me
1313
01:40:54,321 --> 01:40:56,361
"with good quality garments,
1314
01:40:56,521 --> 01:40:59,041
"why not pay a fair price?"
1315
01:40:59,601 --> 01:41:02,321
But weve alwa s been sco ned.
[ y r
1316
01:41:02,481 --> 01:41:04,801
By everyone.
1317
01:41:04,961 --> 01:41:08,041
Not lust one person in particular.
1318
01:41:08,201 --> 01:41:11,761
lts the final consume
[ r
who steals from me.
1319
01:41:11,921 --> 01:41:13,641
What can l do about it?
1320
01:41:14,001 --> 01:41:15,521
What can...
1321
01:41:15,681 --> 01:41:17,521
How will we be happy?
1322
01:41:17,681 --> 01:41:18,881
How?
1323
01:41:21,801 --> 01:41:25,521
Many things are forbidden
in the factory:
1324
01:41:25,681 --> 01:41:27,361
no talking,
1325
01:41:27,521 --> 01:41:29,481
no answering the phone.
1326
01:41:29,641 --> 01:41:32,801
To go to the bathroom,
1327
01:41:32,961 --> 01:41:37,081
we have to ask the supervisor
1328
01:41:37,561 --> 01:41:39,521
for permission,
1329
01:41:39,681 --> 01:41:42,321
and only one person at a time.
1330
01:41:42,681 --> 01:41:46,481
As for productivity,
hes ve demanding.
[ ry
1331
01:41:47,041 --> 01:41:50,161
The es an hou l quota to meet,
r [ r y
1332
01:41:50,481 --> 01:41:51,721
[
its checked.
1333
01:41:51,881 --> 01:41:54,601
lf the uota isn t met,
q [
1334
01:41:54,761 --> 01:41:56,601
they blame you
1335
01:41:56,881 --> 01:41:59,081
and often insult you.
1336
01:41:59,241 --> 01:42:00,561
[ r
lts unbea able.
1337
01:42:00,721 --> 01:42:03,161
[r r r r
We e unde constant p essu e.
1338
01:42:05,441 --> 01:42:08,001
l feel exhausted.
1339
01:42:08,161 --> 01:42:09,721
l can t take an mo e,
[ y r
1340
01:42:10,601 --> 01:42:12,481
but l have no other choice.
1341
01:42:18,841 --> 01:42:21,801
r r [ r
An honest wo ke isn t ich.
1342
01:42:22,361 --> 01:42:26,041
[
l m talking about someone
who works in a company,
1343
01:42:26,201 --> 01:42:28,521
not the heir to the family business.
1344
01:42:29,641 --> 01:42:30,761
They lust luggle
1345
01:42:30,921 --> 01:42:33,561
millions in a company.
1346
01:42:33,721 --> 01:42:35,121
Those folk don t wo k.
[ r
1347
01:42:35,281 --> 01:42:37,801
They sit at a desk
and sign bits of paper.
1348
01:42:37,961 --> 01:42:39,961
They[re thieves lust like me
.
1349
01:42:40,121 --> 01:42:41,721
l m su e of it.
[ r
1350
01:42:41,881 --> 01:42:45,241
lf ou e talking about wo ke s,
y [r r r
1351
01:42:45,401 --> 01:42:48,281
the e eo le
y[r p p
who get up every morning
1352
01:42:48,441 --> 01:42:50,881
and who do real work.
1353
01:42:51,641 --> 01:42:54,241
l don t know an ich folk.
[ y r
1354
01:42:55,761 --> 01:42:57,481
But take my mother,
1355
01:42:57,641 --> 01:43:00,401
she got up every morning,
1356
01:43:00,561 --> 01:43:03,721
and shes ove 40 al ead.
[ r r y
1357
01:43:04,441 --> 01:43:05,481
[ r
Shes not ich.
1358
01:43:05,721 --> 01:43:07,561
Shes wo ked he whole life.
[ r r
1359
01:43:09,801 --> 01:43:12,881
Losing my lob was a huge shock.
1360
01:43:13,041 --> 01:43:14,241
Not finding another
1361
01:43:14,401 --> 01:43:16,521
was an even bigger shock.
1362
01:43:16,681 --> 01:43:19,961
You know, l worked for 27 years.
1363
01:43:21,121 --> 01:43:22,321
When l had to
1364
01:43:22,481 --> 01:43:25,441
go back to live with my mother,
1365
01:43:25,601 --> 01:43:27,441
l mainly felt
1366
01:43:27,681 --> 01:43:29,601
humiliation.
1367
01:43:29,761 --> 01:43:31,401
A feeling...
1368
01:43:32,281 --> 01:43:34,201
of devastation.
1369
01:43:36,201 --> 01:43:40,921
l sank into a deep depression.
1370
01:43:41,081 --> 01:43:42,801
More and more.
1371
01:43:44,121 --> 01:43:45,801
l said to myself:
1372
01:43:45,961 --> 01:43:49,481
l m 47 and m life is ove?
"[ y r
1373
01:43:49,641 --> 01:43:51,561
"Have l nothing else to offer?
1374
01:43:51,721 --> 01:43:53,481
"Nothing more?"
1375
01:43:54,521 --> 01:43:55,961
And these thoughts
1376
01:43:56,121 --> 01:44:01,041
stop you going out and talking.
1377
01:44:01,201 --> 01:44:03,921
You look at yourself in the mirror
1378
01:44:04,081 --> 01:44:06,281
and say: "Who are you, moron?
1379
01:44:06,441 --> 01:44:08,161
"What are you playing at?
1380
01:44:09,041 --> 01:44:10,881
"What are you doing in this life?
1381
01:44:11,041 --> 01:44:12,681
"Why are you breathing?
1382
01:44:12,841 --> 01:44:14,561
"Why do you see the sun?
1383
01:44:14,721 --> 01:44:16,721
"What makes you...
1384
01:44:18,641 --> 01:44:21,961
"any use in this mess you live in?
1385
01:44:22,121 --> 01:44:23,921
"Why, at 47,
1386
01:44:24,081 --> 01:44:26,881
"did you go back
to live at ou mothe s?
y r r[
1387
01:44:27,041 --> 01:44:29,001
"Were you afraid
of being on the street?"
1388
01:44:29,161 --> 01:44:31,361
Y [ r
es, lm sca ed
of being on the street.
1389
01:44:31,521 --> 01:44:34,161
And this humiliation turns into rage.
1390
01:44:35,561 --> 01:44:38,681
Rage,
because you want to let off steam,
1391
01:44:38,841 --> 01:44:40,521
and ou don t know how.
y [
1392
01:46:33,881 --> 01:46:36,441
l am poor.
1393
01:46:38,481 --> 01:46:41,081
l will define poverty now.
1394
01:46:41,681 --> 01:46:45,201
What poverty means to me.
1395
01:46:45,921 --> 01:46:48,081
[
lts when l have to go to school,
1396
01:46:48,241 --> 01:46:50,081
[
but l can t go.
1397
01:46:50,241 --> 01:46:52,921
[
When l have to eat, but l can t.
1398
01:46:53,081 --> 01:46:55,681
When l have to slee, but l can t.
p [
1399
01:46:55,841 --> 01:46:58,961
When my wife and children suffer.
1400
01:46:59,321 --> 01:47:04,241
[
l don t have
a sufficient intellectual level
1401
01:47:04,641 --> 01:47:07,361
to get us out of this situation,
1402
01:47:07,521 --> 01:47:09,361
me or my family.
1403
01:47:09,521 --> 01:47:11,561
l really feel poor.
1404
01:47:11,721 --> 01:47:14,561
Physically poor, mentally poor.
1405
01:47:15,121 --> 01:47:18,281
And you rich people who listen to me,
1406
01:47:19,081 --> 01:47:20,961
what do you have to say
1407
01:47:21,121 --> 01:47:23,121
about your wealth?
1408
01:47:26,241 --> 01:47:27,881
l know
1409
01:47:28,041 --> 01:47:30,961
that lm less ha with mo e mone.
[ ppy r y
1410
01:47:31,121 --> 01:47:35,081
And l know that l still want more.
1411
01:47:35,641 --> 01:47:38,561
l like things
and l pursue the things,
1412
01:47:38,721 --> 01:47:40,961
but the things only make me happy
1413
01:47:41,121 --> 01:47:43,321
for a short period of time.
1414
01:47:45,001 --> 01:47:48,121
Then, l go back
and l have the challenges of my family
1415
01:47:48,281 --> 01:47:50,281
[
and l don t know how
1416
01:47:50,881 --> 01:47:53,561
to make a depressed person happy.
1417
01:47:53,721 --> 01:47:56,601
Y [
ou can t give them a thing
and make them happy,
1418
01:47:57,561 --> 01:47:59,921
because their brain is not happy.
1419
01:48:01,801 --> 01:48:04,841
So, l feel frustrated that
1420
01:48:05,081 --> 01:48:06,641
r [
the cu es don t exist.
1421
01:48:06,801 --> 01:48:10,801
And l can[t lust wave a magic wand
and make my...
1422
01:48:11,841 --> 01:48:13,641
son...
1423
01:48:27,321 --> 01:48:28,961
better.
1424
01:48:33,361 --> 01:48:38,561
l lived in a place
surrounded by villas.
1425
01:48:38,721 --> 01:48:40,601
And l lived in a hovel.
1426
01:48:41,241 --> 01:48:43,801
l knew that people
1427
01:48:43,961 --> 01:48:46,761
sometimes threw food away.
1428
01:48:47,401 --> 01:48:50,121
And we, especially me,
1429
01:48:50,281 --> 01:48:51,681
we were hungry.
1430
01:48:53,201 --> 01:48:56,641
We lust wanted some food.
1431
01:48:56,801 --> 01:49:00,161
For me, poverty
1432
01:49:00,321 --> 01:49:02,761
makes me sad
1433
01:49:02,921 --> 01:49:05,081
because of the inlustice.
1434
01:49:05,881 --> 01:49:09,601
Because if everyone had food,
1435
01:49:09,761 --> 01:49:11,481
at least had full bellies,
1436
01:49:11,641 --> 01:49:14,561
at home, we could think.
1437
01:49:15,521 --> 01:49:18,321
Reasoning is intelligence.
1438
01:49:19,841 --> 01:49:23,121
So, we could be poor,
1439
01:49:23,281 --> 01:49:24,761
live in a hovel,
1440
01:49:24,921 --> 01:49:27,681
but have the intelligence
1441
01:49:27,841 --> 01:49:29,881
to be able to get ahead.
1442
01:49:30,041 --> 01:49:31,761
Thank God,
1443
01:49:31,921 --> 01:49:34,481
l managed to rise above all that.
1444
01:49:34,641 --> 01:49:37,521
But how man othe s can t?
y r [
1445
01:49:38,041 --> 01:49:40,401
Many die because of it.
1446
01:49:41,081 --> 01:49:42,921
And that is really sad.
1447
01:49:43,081 --> 01:49:45,761
To me that[s sheer inlustice
,.
1448
01:49:48,441 --> 01:49:51,681
The street is a very tough school.
1449
01:49:54,641 --> 01:49:56,041
Poverty
1450
01:49:57,241 --> 01:49:58,921
is a state
1451
01:50:00,121 --> 01:50:02,121
[
which lm in
1452
01:50:02,881 --> 01:50:04,841
at the moment.
1453
01:50:05,681 --> 01:50:09,721
When ou e poo,
y [r r
day in and day out,
1454
01:50:12,281 --> 01:50:14,601
it[s not that you enloy it
,
1455
01:50:15,961 --> 01:50:19,241
but you do get used to it,
1456
01:50:19,401 --> 01:50:20,961
quite simply.
1457
01:50:25,441 --> 01:50:27,721
Poverty is a state.
1458
01:50:31,161 --> 01:50:33,041
[
lts a state
1459
01:50:33,761 --> 01:50:35,081
which lasts.
1460
01:50:38,361 --> 01:50:40,081
And for many.
1461
01:50:41,641 --> 01:50:43,401
Far too many.
1462
01:51:05,361 --> 01:51:06,921
What would l like to ask?
1463
01:51:07,161 --> 01:51:09,041
[ r
What the hell l m doing he e.
1464
01:51:10,001 --> 01:51:12,401
Wh can t l be whe e ou a e
y [ r y r
1465
01:51:12,561 --> 01:51:15,401
to see what the hell is going on?
1466
01:51:15,561 --> 01:51:17,241
Lets switch fo a minute.
[ r
1467
01:51:19,961 --> 01:51:22,401
[
Lets switch!
You come here and be me
1468
01:51:22,561 --> 01:51:24,241
and l ll go the e and be ou.
[ r y
1469
01:51:24,401 --> 01:51:27,521
We ll meet u
[ p
in the middle line on the Equator
1470
01:51:27,681 --> 01:51:29,561
and we ll la golf.
[ p y
1471
01:54:23,841 --> 01:54:26,561
[ r
lt doesn t matte
if l[m the president (of Uruguay)
.
1472
01:54:28,681 --> 01:54:31,161
[
lve thought about all this a lot.
1473
01:54:32,721 --> 01:54:34,321
l spent over 10 years
1474
01:54:34,481 --> 01:54:36,161
in a solitary confinement cell.
1475
01:54:37,481 --> 01:54:39,281
l had the time...
1476
01:54:39,441 --> 01:54:42,081
l spent 7 years
without opening a book.
1477
01:54:42,481 --> 01:54:44,881
lt left me time to think.
1478
01:54:45,041 --> 01:54:47,281
This is what l discovered.
1479
01:54:47,841 --> 01:54:50,921
Eithe ou e happ with ve little,
r y [r y ry
1480
01:54:51,961 --> 01:54:54,081
without overburdening yourself,
1481
01:54:55,041 --> 01:54:57,521
because you have happiness inside,
1482
01:54:59,521 --> 01:55:01,441
o ou ll get nowhe e.
r y [ r
1483
01:55:03,961 --> 01:55:06,681
l am not advocating poverty.
1484
01:55:06,841 --> 01:55:09,961
l m advocating sob iet.
[ r y
1485
01:55:13,481 --> 01:55:14,841
But we invented
1486
01:55:15,001 --> 01:55:17,721
a consumer society...
1487
01:55:21,081 --> 01:55:23,601
which is continually seeking growth.
1488
01:55:24,001 --> 01:55:26,681
r [ r [ r
When the es no g owth, its t agic.
1489
01:55:28,441 --> 01:55:31,201
We invented a mountain
1490
01:55:31,361 --> 01:55:33,121
of superfluous needs.
1491
01:55:33,281 --> 01:55:36,641
You have to keep buying,
throwing away...
1492
01:55:36,801 --> 01:55:39,441
lts ou lives we a e s uande ing.
[ r r q r
1493
01:55:40,081 --> 01:55:42,601
When l buy something,
1494
01:55:43,961 --> 01:55:45,561
or when you buy it,
1495
01:55:46,321 --> 01:55:48,881
we e not pa ing with mone.
[r y y
1496
01:55:49,521 --> 01:55:52,081
We e pa ing
[r y
with the time from our lives
1497
01:55:52,241 --> 01:55:54,081
we had to spend
1498
01:55:54,241 --> 01:55:56,601
to earn that money.
1499
01:55:57,081 --> 01:55:58,881
The difference is
1500
01:55:59,041 --> 01:56:02,481
that ou can t bu life.
y [ y
1501
01:56:02,841 --> 01:56:04,881
Life lust goes by.
1502
01:56:05,761 --> 01:56:07,641
[ rr
And its te ible
1503
01:56:07,801 --> 01:56:09,761
to waste your life
1504
01:56:10,681 --> 01:56:12,641
losing your freedom.
1505
02:00:36,681 --> 02:00:38,681
l m not af aid of d ing.
[ r y
1506
02:00:38,841 --> 02:00:41,361
My children want to make me happy
1507
02:00:42,721 --> 02:00:45,361
so that l leave this life serenely.
1508
02:00:45,801 --> 02:00:48,201
lf lm ha befo e l die,
[ ppy r
1509
02:00:49,081 --> 02:00:51,161
l will be after, too.
1510
02:00:52,881 --> 02:00:55,401
l can t wo k an mo e.
[ r y r
1511
02:00:55,561 --> 02:00:58,361
[ r
l m so old that l no longe know
1512
02:00:58,881 --> 02:01:00,041
if l should sleep
1513
02:01:02,361 --> 02:01:04,761
on this side or that side.
1514
02:01:05,281 --> 02:01:06,761
l sleep badly.
1515
02:01:06,921 --> 02:01:10,121
So, l wait in my bed.
1516
02:01:10,681 --> 02:01:11,841
Sometimes, l tell myself
1517
02:01:12,001 --> 02:01:15,321
ld be bette off dead.
[ r
1518
02:01:15,721 --> 02:01:18,241
At least ld be at eace.
[ p
1519
02:01:24,241 --> 02:01:25,481
After death,
1520
02:01:25,641 --> 02:01:27,641
r r [
fo me, the es nothing else.
1521
02:01:28,401 --> 02:01:30,001
[
Then, we ll laugh:
1522
02:01:30,161 --> 02:01:31,321
[r
we e going to heaven,
1523
02:01:31,481 --> 02:01:33,521
[r r
but we e not taking the ight path.
1524
02:01:33,681 --> 02:01:34,681
When you go in the ground,
1525
02:01:34,841 --> 02:01:36,001
ou don t go to heaven.
y [
1526
02:01:36,161 --> 02:01:38,401
We e not taking the ight ath.
[r r p
1527
02:01:39,001 --> 02:01:42,281
[
l don t think
the es life afte death.
r [ r
1528
02:01:42,441 --> 02:01:44,961
[
l don t believe in all that.
1529
02:01:48,321 --> 02:01:51,121
When l think of my grandmother
whom l loved a lot
1530
02:01:51,281 --> 02:01:53,641
and who died a long time ago,
1531
02:01:53,801 --> 02:01:56,561
l tell myself memories soon fade.
1532
02:01:56,721 --> 02:01:58,881
The picture becomes blurred.
1533
02:01:59,801 --> 02:02:02,761
Sometimes,
the sound of the voice disappears.
1534
02:02:02,921 --> 02:02:05,681
What do we leave behind?
What remains?
1535
02:02:05,841 --> 02:02:07,401
That scares me.
1536
02:02:07,841 --> 02:02:11,281
lts a totall i ational fea...
[ y rr r
1537
02:02:14,681 --> 02:02:17,161
which is based on something
1538
02:02:17,321 --> 02:02:20,001
completely archaic and tribal.
1539
02:02:20,161 --> 02:02:23,241
lt stirs up
so many things inside of me.
1540
02:02:24,361 --> 02:02:26,321
[
lts not something
1541
02:02:26,481 --> 02:02:30,121
which has to do with pride
1542
02:02:30,281 --> 02:02:32,361
or anything like that.
1543
02:02:33,241 --> 02:02:35,281
[
lts something else.
1544
02:02:36,401 --> 02:02:38,481
[
lts to do with the meaning of life.
1545
02:02:38,641 --> 02:02:40,761
What have we done with our lives?
1546
02:02:40,921 --> 02:02:42,801
Why am l here?
1547
02:02:44,601 --> 02:02:47,001
[
l don t know.
1548
02:02:47,161 --> 02:02:49,361
[
ld like to leave something behind.
1549
02:02:49,521 --> 02:02:51,721
ld like to leave m ma k.
[ y r
1550
02:03:11,881 --> 02:03:13,641
The meaning of life...
1551
02:03:16,641 --> 02:03:19,801
[
l don t know
if it comes from the fact
1552
02:03:19,961 --> 02:03:21,801
that l don t feel im o tant.
[ p r
1553
02:03:21,961 --> 02:03:23,881
We are not important.
1554
02:03:24,041 --> 02:03:25,561
[
l don t see...
1555
02:03:26,321 --> 02:03:29,161
l don t see life that wa.
[ y
1556
02:03:30,721 --> 02:03:32,481
You lust have to live life.
1557
02:03:33,641 --> 02:03:35,401
We all have been, we all are,
1558
02:03:35,561 --> 02:03:37,201
and we all will cease to be.
1559
02:03:41,801 --> 02:03:44,361
l think l was born
1560
02:03:45,681 --> 02:03:47,601
to give birth
1561
02:03:47,761 --> 02:03:50,161
to one or two children.
1562
02:03:50,681 --> 02:03:52,641
To feed them
1563
02:03:52,801 --> 02:03:55,361
from infancy
1564
02:03:55,521 --> 02:03:59,081
[
so that, when l m old,
1565
02:03:59,241 --> 02:04:01,881
they take care of me, in return.
1566
02:04:03,481 --> 02:04:05,801
My biggest fear is...
1567
02:04:07,641 --> 02:04:09,521
is being nobody,
1568
02:04:09,681 --> 02:04:11,521
is being nothing...
1569
02:04:15,961 --> 02:04:17,841
Not knowing
1570
02:04:18,881 --> 02:04:21,761
wh lm he e, what the oint is,
y [ r p
1571
02:04:21,921 --> 02:04:23,761
if it has meaning.
1572
02:04:24,241 --> 02:04:27,121
To really not be any use whatsoever,
1573
02:04:27,281 --> 02:04:28,641
me,
1574
02:04:28,801 --> 02:04:30,761
lust a man among men.
1575
02:04:32,241 --> 02:04:34,081
l have the impression
1576
02:04:34,321 --> 02:04:36,641
that the es a unive sal d namic
r [ r y
1577
02:04:36,801 --> 02:04:39,001
and if l m not a t of it,
[ p r
1578
02:04:40,161 --> 02:04:41,841
it will destroy me.
1579
02:04:44,801 --> 02:04:47,041
l want to be part
1580
02:04:47,201 --> 02:04:49,121
of the history of mankind.
1581
02:04:53,041 --> 02:04:55,721
Me being 15 with a life sentence,
1582
02:04:55,881 --> 02:04:58,161
what can be the meaning of my life?
1583
02:04:58,561 --> 02:05:00,721
That is a hard question.
1584
02:05:01,361 --> 02:05:03,721
l think
the meaning of my life could be
1585
02:05:05,321 --> 02:05:07,961
happiness, making everything right.
1586
02:05:08,121 --> 02:05:10,681
Helping out young and older people.
1587
02:05:11,921 --> 02:05:14,041
lust help one another.
1588
02:05:16,361 --> 02:05:18,121
Stand for someone.
1589
02:05:18,921 --> 02:05:21,081
lust stay out of trouble,
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don t come to p ison.
1590
02:05:21,241 --> 02:05:23,441
[
That ain t no meaning in life.
1591
02:05:23,601 --> 02:05:25,601
This ain t no lace fo nobod.
[ p r y
1592
02:05:27,201 --> 02:05:30,081
[
l don t know...
Everybody has their own purpose.
1593
02:05:30,241 --> 02:05:32,441
l don t know what m pu pose is.
[ y r
1594
02:05:32,601 --> 02:05:36,401
l don t know about that uestion.
[ q
1595
02:05:41,361 --> 02:05:43,081
Sometimes, l think
1596
02:05:43,241 --> 02:05:46,081
of a phrase l heard as a boy,
1597
02:05:46,241 --> 02:05:48,681
a friend who said:
1598
02:05:50,241 --> 02:05:54,001
"Life is like carrying a message
1599
02:05:54,161 --> 02:05:56,721
"from the child you were
1600
02:05:56,881 --> 02:05:59,721
"to the old man you will be.
1601
02:05:59,881 --> 02:06:02,441
"You have to make sure
that this message
1602
02:06:02,601 --> 02:06:04,801
isn t lost along the wa.
" [ y "
1603
02:06:05,641 --> 02:06:07,641
l often think of that,
1604
02:06:07,801 --> 02:06:10,001
because when l was little,
1605
02:06:10,161 --> 02:06:12,441
l used to imagine fine things,
1606
02:06:12,601 --> 02:06:15,361
to dream of a world without beggars
1607
02:06:15,521 --> 02:06:17,681
in which everyone was happy.
1608
02:06:21,081 --> 02:06:24,361
Simple, subtle things.
1609
02:06:24,521 --> 02:06:28,601
But you lose those things
over the course of life.
1610
02:06:28,761 --> 02:06:30,961
You lust work
1611
02:06:31,121 --> 02:06:33,761
to be able to buy things.
1612
02:06:33,921 --> 02:06:35,921
And you stop seeing the beggar,
1613
02:06:36,081 --> 02:06:37,921
you stop caring.
1614
02:06:38,081 --> 02:06:40,921
r [
Whe es the message
of the child l once was?
1615
02:06:41,081 --> 02:06:44,481
Maybe the meaning of life
1616
02:06:44,641 --> 02:06:47,521
is making sure that this message
1617
02:06:47,961 --> 02:06:49,961
doesn t disa ea.
[ pp r
1618
02:06:52,881 --> 02:06:54,641
lve al ead asked m self...
[ r y y
1619
02:07:01,841 --> 02:07:03,521
lve al ead asked m self
[ r y y
1620
02:07:03,681 --> 02:07:05,881
why l was on Earth.
1621
02:07:06,361 --> 02:07:08,081
[ r
l m he e...
1622
02:07:11,481 --> 02:07:14,601
to do what God
1623
02:07:15,241 --> 02:07:17,321
has planned for me.
1624
02:07:17,481 --> 02:07:19,641
Because on Earth,
1625
02:07:19,801 --> 02:07:23,001
everyone has a mission.
1626
02:07:23,801 --> 02:07:26,681
l have one, too,
1627
02:07:26,841 --> 02:07:29,961
but l don t know it et.
[ y
1628
02:09:25,361 --> 02:09:27,801
This movie is dedicated
to the thousands of people
1629
02:09:27,961 --> 02:09:31,961
who answered our questions
with honesty, courage and kindness.
1630
02:09:32,121 --> 02:09:33,921
A huge thank you.
1631
02:09:35,201 --> 02:09:36,601
A special thank you also
1632
02:09:36,761 --> 02:09:39,761
to the Bettencourt Schueller Foundation
and to its team
1633
02:09:39,921 --> 02:09:42,161
who made this prolect possible.
1634
02:09:42,881 --> 02:09:45,601
Mom and Dad, you must listen to me:
1635
02:09:45,761 --> 02:09:48,481
if you can, stop the drugs.
1636
02:09:48,641 --> 02:09:50,321
lve told ou so man times
[ y y
1637
02:09:50,481 --> 02:09:51,881
and l tell you again.
1638
02:09:52,041 --> 02:09:54,801
Sto the d ugs. The e bad fo ou.
p r y[r r y
1639
02:09:54,961 --> 02:09:57,561
The e dest o ing ou h sicall.
y[r r y y p y y
1640
02:09:57,721 --> 02:09:59,081
lf you remember
1641
02:09:59,241 --> 02:10:01,321
that lm ou daughte, stop.
[ y r r
1642
02:10:01,481 --> 02:10:03,001
Do it for me.
1643
02:10:07,041 --> 02:10:08,921
l have a younger brother...
1644
02:10:09,081 --> 02:10:11,641
l have a little brother who died.
1645
02:10:11,801 --> 02:10:14,601
He left behind a 4-year-old girl.
1646
02:10:14,761 --> 02:10:16,081
Unfortunately,
1647
02:10:16,241 --> 02:10:18,801
the mother of the girl is dead, too.
1648
02:10:18,961 --> 02:10:21,521
[ r r
So, ld like to tell that b othe
1649
02:10:21,681 --> 02:10:23,441
that he shouldn t wo.
[ rry
1650
02:10:23,601 --> 02:10:27,921
r r[
l knew this b othe s love
for his daughter.
1651
02:10:28,601 --> 02:10:31,361
He should know
that she is in good hands,
1652
02:10:31,521 --> 02:10:33,481
that l take very good care of her.
1653
02:10:34,681 --> 02:10:36,401
l m a lad of the night
[ y
1654
02:10:36,561 --> 02:10:38,881
and l have a message for my parents.
1655
02:10:39,041 --> 02:10:41,001
Don t wo an mo e.
[ rry y r
1656
02:10:41,161 --> 02:10:43,041
[
lts OK now.
1657
02:10:43,201 --> 02:10:44,401
l can fulfill my mission.
1658
02:10:44,561 --> 02:10:47,201
l can look after
my brothers and sisters.
1659
02:10:47,361 --> 02:10:49,521
The e at home and will stud.
y[r y
1660
02:10:49,681 --> 02:10:51,561
The ll com lete thei studies,
y[ p r
1661
02:10:51,721 --> 02:10:52,961
l promise.
1662
02:10:53,121 --> 02:10:55,761
[
l don t want them
to have a hard life.
1663
02:10:55,921 --> 02:10:58,441
They must study for years.
1664
02:10:58,601 --> 02:10:59,921
lt will make me happy,
1665
02:11:00,081 --> 02:11:02,121
because l wasn t so luck.
[ y
1666
02:11:02,281 --> 02:11:04,321
The ll com lete thei studies.
y[ p r
1667
02:11:04,961 --> 02:11:06,481
l want them to study
1668
02:11:06,641 --> 02:11:08,321
as long as possible.
1669
02:11:08,481 --> 02:11:09,921
[
l don t have the intelligence
1670
02:11:10,081 --> 02:11:11,481
to do anything else,
1671
02:11:11,641 --> 02:11:13,761
but l want my brothers and sisters
1672
02:11:13,921 --> 02:11:15,241
to finish their studies.
1673
02:11:16,521 --> 02:11:17,681
There are two things
1674
02:11:17,841 --> 02:11:19,841
ld like to tell ou.
[ y
1675
02:11:21,041 --> 02:11:22,881
Don t fo get who ou a e
[ r y r
1676
02:11:23,401 --> 02:11:24,761
and always smile.
1677
02:11:24,921 --> 02:11:26,321
Smiling is the only language
1678
02:11:26,481 --> 02:11:28,041
everyone understands.
1679
02:11:38,761 --> 02:11:40,481
Y [ r
ou ve b ought up
1680
02:11:40,641 --> 02:11:43,601
a lot of things for me today.
1681
02:11:43,761 --> 02:11:46,161
ou ve made me feel im o tant.
Y [ p r
1682
02:11:46,321 --> 02:11:47,401
ou ve made me feel
Y [
1683
02:11:47,561 --> 02:11:49,961
that l have something to offer,
1684
02:11:50,921 --> 02:11:53,641
that l had a place to go.
1685
02:11:53,801 --> 02:11:54,761
You made me feel
1686
02:11:54,921 --> 02:11:57,401
like my stories were welcome.
1687
02:11:57,561 --> 02:11:59,481
And you made me feel happy.
1688
02:11:59,641 --> 02:12:01,961
l think people need to
1689
02:12:02,121 --> 02:12:04,961
feel that they have done something
1690
02:12:05,121 --> 02:12:06,401
while the ve lived.
y[
1691
02:12:06,561 --> 02:12:07,521
They need to feel
1692
02:12:07,681 --> 02:12:09,001
that the ve cont ibuted.
y[ r
1693
02:12:09,161 --> 02:12:10,161
And today,
1694
02:12:10,321 --> 02:12:12,641
you made me feel like l contributed.
1695
02:12:12,801 --> 02:12:15,161
And lm ve g ateful to ou
[ ry r y
for that.
1696
02:12:15,321 --> 02:12:16,601
Thank you.
1697
02:12:19,001 --> 02:12:21,041
My message is that you are
1698
02:12:21,201 --> 02:12:22,841
welcome to my home.
1699
02:12:23,001 --> 02:12:24,521
Come to my home.
1700
02:12:24,681 --> 02:12:26,401
l invite you all!
1701
02:12:26,561 --> 02:12:27,801
Every tribe:
1702
02:12:27,961 --> 02:12:30,081
Ovatua, Ovahimba,
1703
02:12:30,241 --> 02:12:32,201
Ovambo, Ovangandliera.
1704
02:12:32,361 --> 02:12:34,921
Y [r
ou e all welcome.
1705
02:12:36,801 --> 02:12:39,161
Today, in this world,
1706
02:12:41,161 --> 02:12:42,321
we hear
1707
02:12:42,481 --> 02:12:44,841
about people who make films.
1708
02:12:45,001 --> 02:12:46,681
We hear this kind of story,
1709
02:12:46,841 --> 02:12:48,241
but now...
1710
02:12:49,281 --> 02:12:51,281
that Ulla and Emmanuel are here,
1711
02:12:51,441 --> 02:12:53,441
that the e making a film,
y[r
1712
02:12:53,601 --> 02:12:56,241
everyone will see where we live,
1713
02:12:56,401 --> 02:12:58,321
in my village.
1714
02:12:58,481 --> 02:13:00,521
l am so happy.
1715
02:13:00,681 --> 02:13:03,041
Seeing more film-people coming here
1716
02:13:03,201 --> 02:13:04,721
would make me very happy.
1717
02:13:04,881 --> 02:13:06,881
The world will get to know us.
1718
02:13:07,041 --> 02:13:09,201
l don t know if the ll see me,
[ y[
1719
02:13:09,361 --> 02:13:10,881
but l am very happy
1720
02:13:11,041 --> 02:13:12,641
to talk now
1721
02:13:12,801 --> 02:13:15,121
and to those who will come.
1722
02:13:15,281 --> 02:13:16,681
Tell them.
1723
02:13:20,081 --> 02:13:22,601
r [
The es nothing to add.
1724
02:13:22,761 --> 02:13:24,441
We talked about peace.
1725
02:13:24,601 --> 02:13:27,401
We talked about everything.
1726
02:13:27,561 --> 02:13:29,481
[ [ r
Weve finished, its ove.
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