subtitlecat.com

All language subtitles for Healing.River.2020.720p.AMZN.WEBRip.800MB.x264-GalaxyRG

Afrikaans

Albanian

Amharic

Arabic Download

Armenian

Azerbaijani

Basque

Belarusian

Bengali

Bosnian

Bulgarian

Catalan

Cebuano

Chichewa

Chinese (Simplified)

Chinese (Traditional)

Corsican

Croatian

Czech

Danish Download

Dutch Download

English Download

Esperanto

Estonian

Filipino

Finnish Download

French Download

Frisian

Galician

Georgian

German Download

Greek Download

Gujarati

Haitian Creole

Hausa

Hawaiian

Hebrew

Hindi

Hmong

Hungarian

Icelandic

Igbo

Indonesian Download

Irish

Italian Download

Japanese

Javanese

Kannada

Kazakh

Khmer

Korean

Kurdish (Kurmanji)

Kyrgyz

Lao

Latin

Latvian

Lithuanian

Luxembourgish

Macedonian

Malagasy

Malay

Malayalam

Maltese

Maori

Marathi

Mongolian

Myanmar (Burmese)

Nepali

Norwegian Download

Pashto

Persian

Polish

Portuguese Download

Punjabi

Romanian Download

Russian

Samoan

Scots Gaelic

Serbian

Sesotho

Shona

Sindhi

Sinhala

Slovak

Slovenian

Somali

Spanish Download

Sundanese

Swahili

Swedish Download

Tajik

Tamil

Telugu

Thai

Turkish Download

Ukrainian

Urdu

Uzbek

Vietnamese

Welsh

Xhosa

Yiddish

Yoruba

Zulu

Odia (Oriya)

Kinyarwanda

Turkmen

Tatar

Uyghur

Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:31,256 --> 00:00:34,583 ♪ Tell me your story ♪ 2 00:00:34,584 --> 00:00:37,926 ♪ Show me your pain ♪ 3 00:00:37,927 --> 00:00:42,927 ♪ Teach me how to find the healing river again ♪ 4 00:00:44,942 --> 00:00:49,942 ♪ Where is the water that first made me whole ♪ 5 00:00:51,748 --> 00:00:56,748 ♪ Where is the potter that can remake my soul ♪ 6 00:00:58,886 --> 00:01:03,886 ♪ Oh ♪ 7 00:01:04,439 --> 00:01:07,155 ♪ Oh ♪ 8 00:01:12,519 --> 00:01:14,269 ♪ Oh ♪ 9 00:01:32,041 --> 00:01:34,310 - The canal was right out there. 10 00:01:34,311 --> 00:01:35,430 Gone now. 11 00:01:35,431 --> 00:01:36,920 They paved over it. 12 00:01:36,921 --> 00:01:39,080 So, no more water. 13 00:01:39,081 --> 00:01:43,800 Now, we brew coffee, the best in Cincinnati. 14 00:01:43,801 --> 00:01:46,578 Notice how it says "Hebrews". 15 00:01:47,491 --> 00:01:50,352 Or, in this case "she-brews". 16 00:01:51,186 --> 00:01:52,186 Ah-dit-dit! 17 00:01:55,939 --> 00:01:57,522 - Hey, Mama! 18 00:02:00,531 --> 00:02:01,381 - Taylor! 19 00:02:01,382 --> 00:02:03,805 Are you looking for sex or love? 20 00:02:03,806 --> 00:02:04,639 - Um... 21 00:02:04,640 --> 00:02:05,910 Both? 22 00:02:05,911 --> 00:02:07,490 - Get the order right, honey! 23 00:02:07,491 --> 00:02:10,587 There's an extra pair of pants in the locker. 24 00:02:10,588 --> 00:02:11,588 - Okay. 25 00:02:17,109 --> 00:02:18,109 - Oh, d... 26 00:02:26,091 --> 00:02:27,953 - Is she your mom? 27 00:02:27,954 --> 00:02:28,801 - No. 28 00:02:28,802 --> 00:02:30,470 - Is she her mom? 29 00:02:30,471 --> 00:02:31,710 - No. 30 00:02:31,711 --> 00:02:33,264 But don't tell her that. 31 00:02:36,801 --> 00:02:38,434 - Frittatas up, Mama Bear. 32 00:02:52,041 --> 00:02:53,030 - Blessings til it hurts. 33 00:02:53,031 --> 00:02:56,204 - Forgive me, father, for I have sinned. 34 00:02:56,205 --> 00:02:57,430 - What now? 35 00:02:57,431 --> 00:03:00,170 - I told Michael he had to close up tonight 36 00:03:00,171 --> 00:03:02,940 because I needed to make more mugs. 37 00:03:02,941 --> 00:03:03,901 I lied. 38 00:03:03,902 --> 00:03:06,230 We don't need no stinkin' mugs. 39 00:03:06,231 --> 00:03:08,425 - And you lied because... 40 00:03:08,426 --> 00:03:11,460 - Because he wants to move out, Peter! 41 00:03:11,461 --> 00:03:13,890 He was gonna go look at apartments! 42 00:03:13,891 --> 00:03:16,230 I mean, he just graduate, for Pete's... 43 00:03:16,231 --> 00:03:17,830 For your sake. 44 00:03:17,831 --> 00:03:19,050 What's the rush? 45 00:03:19,051 --> 00:03:20,714 - Life. 46 00:03:20,715 --> 00:03:21,631 He's 18, Ingrid. 47 00:03:21,632 --> 00:03:23,340 You moved out when you were 18. 48 00:03:23,341 --> 00:03:25,000 - Yeah, and look how I turned out. 49 00:03:25,001 --> 00:03:26,870 - You turned out great! 50 00:03:26,871 --> 00:03:28,630 And so has Michael. 51 00:03:28,631 --> 00:03:30,020 He's my favorite nephew. 52 00:03:30,021 --> 00:03:31,560 - He's your only nephew. 53 00:03:31,561 --> 00:03:33,980 - Nothing is gonna happen to him. 54 00:03:33,981 --> 00:03:36,286 - Who died and made you God? 55 00:03:36,287 --> 00:03:37,730 You can't promise that. 56 00:03:38,565 --> 00:03:39,600 - Look, I've got vespers. 57 00:03:39,601 --> 00:03:40,680 Talk to you tomorrow? 58 00:03:40,681 --> 00:03:42,490 - You're my well, Peter. 59 00:03:42,491 --> 00:03:43,570 - Yeah, well... 60 00:03:43,571 --> 00:03:46,014 the well has to refill sometimes. 61 00:03:48,261 --> 00:03:51,124 When did you become so cautious, Ing? 62 00:03:51,125 --> 00:03:52,031 I mean, you used to adopt everything 63 00:03:52,032 --> 00:03:54,384 that came through the door, and... 64 00:03:54,385 --> 00:03:56,185 Now it's just Michael and your cubs. 65 00:03:57,081 --> 00:03:58,720 What about the rest of the world? 66 00:03:58,721 --> 00:04:01,353 - Have you seen the rest of the world lately? 67 00:04:38,026 --> 00:04:38,859 - Is it heroin? 68 00:04:38,860 --> 00:04:41,109 - Try it out. 69 00:04:43,508 --> 00:04:44,850 - Goodnight Rose. 70 00:04:44,851 --> 00:04:45,684 Goodnight Michael. 71 00:04:45,685 --> 00:04:46,700 Hey, good luck in college. 72 00:04:46,701 --> 00:04:47,701 - Hey, thanks! 73 00:04:53,088 --> 00:04:53,971 - You sure? 74 00:04:53,972 --> 00:04:55,530 - We got it, Nadine. 75 00:04:55,531 --> 00:04:57,590 - Rose, you know that grill needs a good cleaning. 76 00:04:57,591 --> 00:04:59,191 - I know how to clean the grill. 77 00:05:02,677 --> 00:05:03,677 - Hm! 78 00:05:39,011 --> 00:05:40,220 - Hey. 79 00:05:40,221 --> 00:05:42,770 So, I'm the brash but charming singer 80 00:05:42,771 --> 00:05:44,010 you're all gonna fall in love with 81 00:05:44,011 --> 00:05:47,382 so they actually pay me to play this time. 82 00:05:55,161 --> 00:05:56,161 Hey! 83 00:05:57,261 --> 00:06:00,564 So, my dad was this really pissed off Irish guy, right? 84 00:06:01,881 --> 00:06:03,870 Liked to smash things up. 85 00:06:03,871 --> 00:06:05,904 So I wrote this song about him. 86 00:06:09,529 --> 00:06:13,296 ♪ Well the sun comes up and the moon goes down ♪ 87 00:06:13,297 --> 00:06:14,130 ♪ And we work all day for barely a crown ♪ 88 00:06:14,131 --> 00:06:18,901 ♪ And the time comes along ♪ 89 00:06:18,902 --> 00:06:20,842 ♪ And the time goes away ♪ 90 00:06:20,843 --> 00:06:25,174 ♪ And we spend our lives with nothing to say ♪ 91 00:06:25,175 --> 00:06:27,415 ♪ So give me a gun ♪ 92 00:06:27,416 --> 00:06:29,233 ♪ Give me a knife ♪ 93 00:06:29,234 --> 00:06:33,023 ♪ Give me a reason to not take your life ♪ 94 00:06:33,024 --> 00:06:36,808 ♪ You killed my friends and my brothers as well ♪ 95 00:06:36,809 --> 00:06:40,413 ♪ You may kill me but we'll both go to hell ♪ 96 00:06:40,414 --> 00:06:44,048 ♪ La da die die da da die die die die die die ♪ 97 00:06:44,049 --> 00:06:47,843 ♪ La da die da die die die die die die ♪ 98 00:06:47,844 --> 00:06:52,148 ♪ La da die die da da die die da die die die ♪ 99 00:06:52,149 --> 00:06:55,355 ♪ Lie da die die da die die ♪ 100 00:06:55,356 --> 00:06:59,444 ♪ La da die die da da die die da die die die ♪ 101 00:06:59,445 --> 00:07:04,112 ♪ And the rain will be coming down fast ♪ 102 00:07:31,567 --> 00:07:34,317 - You gotta try mine too. 103 00:07:35,416 --> 00:07:36,249 - Hey, cute ladies. 104 00:07:36,250 --> 00:07:37,740 - Ooh! 105 00:07:37,741 --> 00:07:38,581 What's up, big guy? 106 00:07:38,582 --> 00:07:39,660 - How old are you, kid? 107 00:07:39,661 --> 00:07:40,511 - I'm older than I look. 108 00:07:40,512 --> 00:07:41,588 - Yeah, right. 109 00:07:41,589 --> 00:07:42,422 So am I! 110 00:07:42,423 --> 00:07:44,504 And so's my license, which I'd like to keep! 111 00:08:01,005 --> 00:08:01,838 ♪ There's a paradox to livin' ♪ 112 00:08:01,839 --> 00:08:06,838 ♪ 'Cause the way to get is just by givin' ♪ 113 00:08:06,925 --> 00:08:10,706 ♪ 'Cause the way to live is just by dying ♪ 114 00:08:10,707 --> 00:08:15,685 ♪ And the way to find love stop trying and just ♪ 115 00:08:15,686 --> 00:08:18,391 ♪ Love ♪ 116 00:08:20,422 --> 00:08:22,175 - I use a hairbrush. 117 00:08:22,176 --> 00:08:23,307 - Hey, girl! 118 00:09:00,011 --> 00:09:02,340 - This it totally not what my mom is paying us for. 119 00:09:02,341 --> 00:09:03,360 - I know. 120 00:09:03,361 --> 00:09:06,050 Totally irresponsible, Michael. 121 00:09:11,081 --> 00:09:11,914 - Dang. 122 00:09:11,915 --> 00:09:13,475 I'm supposed to be the responsible one. 123 00:09:14,281 --> 00:09:16,740 You're still in high school, but I... 124 00:09:16,741 --> 00:09:19,020 - I have to go study for my SATs, 125 00:09:19,021 --> 00:09:21,510 since I'm still in high school! 126 00:09:21,511 --> 00:09:22,344 - Joke. 127 00:09:22,344 --> 00:09:23,177 Hey, joke. 128 00:09:23,177 --> 00:09:24,101 Joke. 129 00:09:24,102 --> 00:09:27,350 You're 10 times as responsible as I am, and... 130 00:09:27,351 --> 00:09:28,484 way hotter, too. 131 00:09:31,121 --> 00:09:31,954 What? 132 00:09:31,955 --> 00:09:33,090 - You're leaving. 133 00:09:33,091 --> 00:09:34,210 - Three and a half miles. 134 00:09:34,211 --> 00:09:35,198 Xavier University is three and a half miles away. 135 00:09:35,199 --> 00:09:37,854 - It's another world. 136 00:09:39,881 --> 00:09:41,120 - I'm not goin' anywhere. 137 00:09:41,121 --> 00:09:42,121 I swear. 138 00:09:48,417 --> 00:09:50,167 - I still have to go. 139 00:10:37,361 --> 00:10:38,361 - Evening. 140 00:11:00,528 --> 00:11:02,780 - May the Lord who frees you from sin 141 00:11:02,781 --> 00:11:04,081 save you and raise you up. 142 00:11:06,651 --> 00:11:07,484 - I'm sorry, Father. 143 00:11:07,485 --> 00:11:09,030 Can you... 144 00:11:09,031 --> 00:11:10,048 This one's DOA. 145 00:11:10,049 --> 00:11:12,527 - Yeah, that's fine. 146 00:11:28,431 --> 00:11:29,421 - Michael? 147 00:11:29,421 --> 00:11:30,254 - Ma'am. 148 00:11:30,254 --> 00:11:31,141 Mrs. Ambelin? 149 00:11:31,142 --> 00:11:32,257 - Yes, I'm trying to find my son! 150 00:11:32,258 --> 00:11:33,532 - You were supposed to check in 151 00:11:33,533 --> 00:11:34,366 at the... - No, no, no. 152 00:11:34,366 --> 00:11:35,199 I'm looking for Michael. 153 00:11:35,199 --> 00:11:36,032 I'm Mrs. Ambelin! 154 00:11:36,032 --> 00:11:36,865 I'm looking for my son! 155 00:11:36,865 --> 00:11:37,741 Peter, where's Michael? 156 00:11:37,741 --> 00:11:38,741 Why can't I see Michael? 157 00:11:38,741 --> 00:11:39,741 What's going on? 158 00:11:40,471 --> 00:11:41,304 Peter! 159 00:11:41,304 --> 00:11:42,137 - Ingrid. 160 00:11:42,138 --> 00:11:43,235 - I need to see Michael! 161 00:11:43,236 --> 00:11:44,370 Just... - Mrs. Ambelin? 162 00:11:44,371 --> 00:11:45,371 Your son was DO... 163 00:11:46,801 --> 00:11:47,900 He passed. 164 00:11:47,901 --> 00:11:48,871 25 minutes ago. 165 00:11:48,872 --> 00:11:50,330 - There must be some mistake. 166 00:11:50,331 --> 00:11:51,164 No. 167 00:11:51,164 --> 00:11:51,997 Please, I just need to see him. 168 00:11:51,997 --> 00:11:52,841 You have to let me see him. 169 00:11:52,841 --> 00:11:53,761 Peter, please tell her. 170 00:11:53,762 --> 00:11:55,501 Please tell her that I need to see my son. 171 00:11:55,502 --> 00:11:58,280 - Another young man's car jumped a curb and... 172 00:11:58,281 --> 00:11:59,505 He didn't suffer. 173 00:12:03,634 --> 00:12:05,186 - It can't... 174 00:12:05,187 --> 00:12:06,187 be. 175 00:12:09,758 --> 00:12:10,614 Is that him? 176 00:12:10,615 --> 00:12:12,260 Ma'am, you can't go in there. 177 00:12:12,261 --> 00:12:15,490 - Is that who murdered my son? 178 00:12:15,491 --> 00:12:17,280 And he gets to live? 179 00:12:17,281 --> 00:12:18,114 He! 180 00:12:18,115 --> 00:12:19,960 He gets to live! 181 00:12:19,961 --> 00:12:21,841 Why does he get to live? 182 00:12:21,842 --> 00:12:23,557 Why does he get to live? 183 00:13:50,511 --> 00:13:52,684 - Hey, Mom, there was a total mix-up. 184 00:13:58,524 --> 00:14:01,807 ♪ Tell me your story ♪ 185 00:14:01,808 --> 00:14:05,158 ♪ Show me your pain ♪ 186 00:14:05,159 --> 00:14:10,159 ♪ Teach me how to find that healing river again ♪ 187 00:14:12,015 --> 00:14:17,015 ♪ Where is the water that first made me whole ♪ 188 00:14:18,561 --> 00:14:23,561 ♪ Where is the potter that can remake my soul ♪ 189 00:14:25,747 --> 00:14:30,747 ♪ Oh ♪ 190 00:14:31,605 --> 00:14:36,605 ♪ Oh ♪ 191 00:14:39,015 --> 00:14:44,015 ♪ Oh ♪ 192 00:14:44,527 --> 00:14:45,844 ♪ Oh ♪ 193 00:14:45,845 --> 00:14:47,928 - Why do you get to live? 194 00:14:52,412 --> 00:14:55,372 ♪ Lord I've been drifting ♪ 195 00:14:55,373 --> 00:14:58,776 ♪ And I don't know why ♪ 196 00:14:58,777 --> 00:15:03,777 ♪ When did this world get so barren and dry ♪ 197 00:15:05,561 --> 00:15:06,914 ♪ Where is the water ♪ 198 00:15:08,820 --> 00:15:12,018 ♪ That first made me whole ♪ 199 00:15:12,019 --> 00:15:12,852 - Ha! 200 00:15:12,853 --> 00:15:14,997 Match that Papa Pete! ♪ Where is the potter ♪ 201 00:15:14,998 --> 00:15:19,107 ♪ That can remake my soul ♪ 202 00:15:19,108 --> 00:15:24,108 ♪ Oh ♪ 203 00:15:25,570 --> 00:15:30,570 ♪ Oh ♪ 204 00:15:32,631 --> 00:15:34,741 ♪ Oh ♪ 205 00:15:36,908 --> 00:15:38,566 - No problem. 206 00:15:38,567 --> 00:15:43,567 ♪ Oh ♪ 207 00:15:46,364 --> 00:15:48,114 ♪ Oh ♪ 208 00:15:57,974 --> 00:16:00,024 - Anything at all, just call me. 209 00:16:01,591 --> 00:16:03,062 - Love you. 210 00:16:04,611 --> 00:16:05,611 Bye, sweetie. 211 00:16:08,038 --> 00:16:09,038 Thanks. 212 00:16:14,841 --> 00:16:16,590 You see this? 213 00:16:16,591 --> 00:16:18,216 - I saw the obituary. 214 00:16:18,217 --> 00:16:19,050 - No. 215 00:16:19,050 --> 00:16:19,883 No, no, no. 216 00:16:19,884 --> 00:16:21,380 The local section, Peter! 217 00:16:21,381 --> 00:16:24,330 They put them together like they were... 218 00:16:24,331 --> 00:16:25,910 brothers or something! 219 00:16:25,911 --> 00:16:26,960 We have gotta make sure 220 00:16:26,961 --> 00:16:28,744 that he never hurts anyone again! 221 00:16:36,461 --> 00:16:37,690 - Mr. Longerman. 222 00:16:37,691 --> 00:16:39,344 - Dave. 223 00:16:39,345 --> 00:16:40,345 Do we... 224 00:16:41,251 --> 00:16:42,161 - Thank you for doing this. 225 00:16:42,162 --> 00:16:43,860 I know prosecutors have long hours. 226 00:16:43,861 --> 00:16:45,640 - And short lives. 227 00:16:45,641 --> 00:16:48,010 - My sister, Ingrid Ambelin. 228 00:16:48,011 --> 00:16:50,140 - Mrs. Ambelin, I'm so sorry. 229 00:16:50,141 --> 00:16:51,141 - So am I! 230 00:16:57,881 --> 00:16:59,381 Is there any chance for death? 231 00:17:00,331 --> 00:17:01,600 - Uh, no. 232 00:17:01,601 --> 00:17:02,668 It's vehicular homicide, Mrs. Ambelin, so... 233 00:17:02,669 --> 00:17:05,900 - He was stoned out of his mind! 234 00:17:05,901 --> 00:17:08,090 - Yes, and that will be in the charges. 235 00:17:08,091 --> 00:17:10,610 A DUI and driving under a suspended license 236 00:17:10,611 --> 00:17:11,730 is aggravated vehicular. 237 00:17:11,731 --> 00:17:13,980 Plus, if he has any other priors, 238 00:17:13,981 --> 00:17:15,840 normally I'd go for up to 20 years. 239 00:17:15,841 --> 00:17:16,821 - Normally? 240 00:17:16,822 --> 00:17:18,580 - The defendant is a juvenile. 241 00:17:18,581 --> 00:17:20,517 Well, he's 17. 242 00:17:20,518 --> 00:17:21,870 - So, what, it's a prank? 243 00:17:21,871 --> 00:17:22,731 Kids'll be kids? 244 00:17:22,731 --> 00:17:23,564 - No. 245 00:17:23,565 --> 00:17:24,690 But it will be handled differently. 246 00:17:24,691 --> 00:17:26,080 The CPS is involved. 247 00:17:26,081 --> 00:17:29,640 Plus, the defendant, Alec McCortland, is a foster child. 248 00:17:29,641 --> 00:17:30,642 So, Job and Family Services is involved. 249 00:17:30,643 --> 00:17:34,070 They've already assigned him a Guardian Ad Litem. 250 00:17:34,071 --> 00:17:36,250 - So, where's he now, at a party? 251 00:17:36,251 --> 00:17:37,111 - Ingrid. 252 00:17:37,112 --> 00:17:38,780 - No, it's okay. 253 00:17:38,781 --> 00:17:39,755 He's being booked into 50/50. 254 00:17:39,756 --> 00:17:44,050 It's juvenile detention at 5050 Reynolds Avenue. 255 00:17:44,051 --> 00:17:45,640 - Kid jail? 256 00:17:45,641 --> 00:17:46,621 - Basically, yeah. 257 00:17:46,622 --> 00:17:47,800 - Then what? 258 00:17:47,801 --> 00:17:49,720 - He'll stay there through his trial and sentencing. 259 00:17:49,721 --> 00:17:51,460 - Then what? 260 00:17:51,461 --> 00:17:52,381 - Look. 261 00:17:52,382 --> 00:17:54,140 He's not jut a foster kid. 262 00:17:54,141 --> 00:17:56,240 He's a bad egg. 263 00:17:56,241 --> 00:17:57,430 He bailed on his last family, 264 00:17:57,431 --> 00:17:59,300 stole all of their prescription painkillers, 265 00:17:59,301 --> 00:18:01,300 and just disappeared about a month ago. 266 00:18:01,301 --> 00:18:04,680 Stopped going to school, has a history of substance abuse. 267 00:18:04,681 --> 00:18:06,640 Rehab didn't stick. 268 00:18:06,641 --> 00:18:08,200 - Surprise, surprise! 269 00:18:08,201 --> 00:18:10,750 - If all they do is detox, all they do is retox. 270 00:18:10,751 --> 00:18:12,060 - So... 271 00:18:12,061 --> 00:18:13,570 What happens now? 272 00:18:13,571 --> 00:18:14,771 - I get him tried as an adult. 273 00:18:21,328 --> 00:18:22,487 McCortland agreed to waive his right 274 00:18:22,488 --> 00:18:23,321 to an amenability hearing, 275 00:18:23,322 --> 00:18:26,758 so this should be pure... 276 00:18:33,641 --> 00:18:35,150 - All rise. 277 00:18:35,151 --> 00:18:37,720 Hamilton County Youth Court is now in session. 278 00:18:37,721 --> 00:18:40,504 The Honorable Judge Hua-Ling Graham presiding. 279 00:18:43,941 --> 00:18:44,861 - Good morning. 280 00:18:44,862 --> 00:18:47,400 This bindover hearing is now in session. 281 00:18:47,401 --> 00:18:48,610 This is a closed hearing. 282 00:18:48,611 --> 00:18:50,430 The only persons allowed in the courtroom 283 00:18:50,431 --> 00:18:53,030 are those directly involved in the case. 284 00:18:53,031 --> 00:18:54,031 Please be seated. 285 00:18:57,721 --> 00:19:00,140 There are three criteria in determining 286 00:19:00,141 --> 00:19:02,170 whether the defendant, Alec McCortland, 287 00:19:02,171 --> 00:19:06,780 is to be tried as an adult: age, seriousness of offense, 288 00:19:06,781 --> 00:19:11,544 and prior record, which it seems I have almost nothing on. 289 00:19:13,211 --> 00:19:15,064 Councils, please approach the bench. 290 00:19:21,091 --> 00:19:23,130 Council Longerman, how did we get here 291 00:19:23,131 --> 00:19:25,170 without an amenability hearing? 292 00:19:25,171 --> 00:19:28,370 - I have a signed waiver for the accused, Your Honor. 293 00:19:28,371 --> 00:19:30,070 - And why wasn't this expressly stated 294 00:19:30,071 --> 00:19:30,987 in the record beforehand? 295 00:19:30,988 --> 00:19:33,750 Council Gitdmeier, I'm sorry, 296 00:19:33,751 --> 00:19:35,560 do you have someplace else you'd rather be? 297 00:19:35,561 --> 00:19:36,394 - No, Your Honor. 298 00:19:36,395 --> 00:19:38,867 It's just that Mr. McCortland... 299 00:19:38,868 --> 00:19:41,230 he signed the waiver against my council. 300 00:19:41,231 --> 00:19:43,920 - Rule Three of the Ohio Rules of Juvenile Procedures 301 00:19:43,921 --> 00:19:45,850 says that the accused may relinquish his rights 302 00:19:45,851 --> 00:19:48,770 to be tried as a juvenile only with permission of the court 303 00:19:48,771 --> 00:19:51,200 after we have determined that the juvenile 304 00:19:51,201 --> 00:19:53,540 understands the consequences of that action! 305 00:19:53,541 --> 00:19:56,143 That's what amenability hearings are for, gentlemen! 306 00:19:56,144 --> 00:19:59,340 - I know, Your Honor, but it isn't required if... 307 00:19:59,341 --> 00:20:00,174 Look. 308 00:20:00,175 --> 00:20:01,240 McCortland understands. 309 00:20:01,241 --> 00:20:02,520 Trust me. 310 00:20:02,521 --> 00:20:04,090 I mean, he may be a smart a... 311 00:20:04,091 --> 00:20:05,170 He's not stupid. 312 00:20:05,171 --> 00:20:06,004 - Well, gosh. 313 00:20:06,004 --> 00:20:06,837 We have your testimony. 314 00:20:06,838 --> 00:20:07,994 What else do we need? 315 00:20:09,931 --> 00:20:11,120 And there's no legal guardian. 316 00:20:11,121 --> 00:20:12,310 Is that correct? 317 00:20:12,311 --> 00:20:13,251 - No, Your Honor. 318 00:20:13,252 --> 00:20:16,194 There is a Guardian ad Litem from Job and Family Services. 319 00:20:19,251 --> 00:20:20,241 - Excuse me! 320 00:20:20,241 --> 00:20:21,074 You! 321 00:20:21,074 --> 00:20:21,907 Guardian! 322 00:20:21,908 --> 00:20:24,240 Lose the phone now! 323 00:20:24,241 --> 00:20:25,238 - Why does the kid have to agree? 324 00:20:25,239 --> 00:20:28,190 Why don't they just put a robe on him? 325 00:20:28,191 --> 00:20:30,360 - Defense respectfully requests that Your Honor 326 00:20:30,361 --> 00:20:32,250 overrule Mr. McCortland's waiver, 327 00:20:32,251 --> 00:20:34,520 in so much as the defendant's psych eval 328 00:20:34,521 --> 00:20:36,360 shows that he suffers from ADD 329 00:20:36,361 --> 00:20:38,350 with comorbid symptoms of OCD. 330 00:20:38,351 --> 00:20:40,770 - Just because he watches birds and washes his hands a lot 331 00:20:40,771 --> 00:20:42,157 doesn't mean that he's a... 332 00:20:42,158 --> 00:20:42,991 - Stop! 333 00:20:42,991 --> 00:20:43,824 Just stop. 334 00:20:43,825 --> 00:20:45,830 You both have done shotty work here, gentlemen, 335 00:20:45,831 --> 00:20:47,980 just plain shotty! 336 00:20:47,981 --> 00:20:48,981 Sit down! 337 00:20:49,761 --> 00:20:50,761 Now! 338 00:20:55,561 --> 00:20:57,090 I am enjoined by juvenile law 339 00:20:57,091 --> 00:20:58,560 to determine whether this young man 340 00:20:58,561 --> 00:21:01,060 knowingly, voluntarily, and intelligently 341 00:21:01,061 --> 00:21:03,140 waived his right to an amenability hearing. 342 00:21:03,141 --> 00:21:04,840 I do not find the facts compelling. 343 00:21:04,841 --> 00:21:06,040 - Not compelling? 344 00:21:06,041 --> 00:21:07,810 He murdered my son! 345 00:21:07,811 --> 00:21:08,644 - Ingrid, Ingrid... 346 00:21:08,645 --> 00:21:11,470 - Alec McCortland will be tried as a juvenile. 347 00:21:11,471 --> 00:21:13,660 - You said he would be tried as an adult! 348 00:21:13,661 --> 00:21:14,950 - I said maybe. 349 00:21:14,951 --> 00:21:15,784 - No! 350 00:21:15,785 --> 00:21:17,040 You said that you could do it! 351 00:21:17,041 --> 00:21:18,090 - What does this mean now, Dave? 352 00:21:18,091 --> 00:21:21,812 - Well, at worst he'll be sent to DYS until he's 21. 353 00:21:21,813 --> 00:21:22,646 - What? 354 00:21:22,646 --> 00:21:23,479 Four years of summer camp? 355 00:21:23,480 --> 00:21:25,290 - Actually, they only send the most serious... 356 00:21:25,291 --> 00:21:26,700 - Mr. Longerman. 357 00:21:26,701 --> 00:21:28,040 Do you need a timeout? 358 00:21:28,041 --> 00:21:29,780 - My apologies, Your Honor. 359 00:21:29,781 --> 00:21:33,050 - Are there any adults in this room? 360 00:21:33,051 --> 00:21:35,243 Trial is set for one month from today. 361 00:21:43,691 --> 00:21:44,524 - Hello? 362 00:21:44,524 --> 00:21:45,465 - Hi, can you hear me okay? 363 00:21:45,466 --> 00:21:46,920 - Who is this? - Great! 364 00:21:46,921 --> 00:21:49,414 This is Chad from cardholder services. 365 00:22:21,911 --> 00:22:24,530 - Everything you make is so beautiful. 366 00:22:24,531 --> 00:22:26,230 The pottery. 367 00:22:26,231 --> 00:22:27,231 This place. 368 00:22:28,441 --> 00:22:29,450 That. 369 00:22:29,451 --> 00:22:30,730 - Oh, sweetie. 370 00:22:30,731 --> 00:22:32,750 It's not art, it's just a stencil. 371 00:22:32,751 --> 00:22:34,850 - That you made. 372 00:22:34,851 --> 00:22:37,354 Everything, the pottery, the food, Michael. 373 00:22:38,815 --> 00:22:40,914 - I did have a little help making Michael. 374 00:22:48,715 --> 00:22:50,048 You know, he... 375 00:22:51,422 --> 00:22:53,784 He talked about you all the time. 376 00:22:56,031 --> 00:22:57,831 - I don't know how to let go of him. 377 00:23:00,601 --> 00:23:01,601 - Neither do I. 378 00:23:29,041 --> 00:23:31,300 - Need you... 379 00:23:31,301 --> 00:23:32,384 to... 380 00:23:33,311 --> 00:23:35,744 light up my life. 381 00:23:36,741 --> 00:23:38,150 Nah, nah. 382 00:23:38,151 --> 00:23:39,160 Total crap. 383 00:23:39,161 --> 00:23:40,161 Crap cliche. 384 00:23:42,161 --> 00:23:43,164 Need you to... 385 00:23:45,613 --> 00:23:46,645 What? 386 00:23:46,646 --> 00:23:47,960 Need you to what? 387 00:23:47,961 --> 00:23:48,994 - All rise. 388 00:23:54,651 --> 00:23:58,160 - Alec McCortland, considering the grave circumstances 389 00:23:58,161 --> 00:24:02,540 of your offense, prior unsuccessful rehabilitation efforts, 390 00:24:02,541 --> 00:24:04,550 and your failure to respect the rules 391 00:24:04,551 --> 00:24:07,190 of the Hamilton County foster care system, 392 00:24:07,191 --> 00:24:11,670 but weighing these against time already served in detention, 393 00:24:11,671 --> 00:24:13,300 your abandonment as a child, 394 00:24:13,301 --> 00:24:16,240 and the circumstances surrounding that incident, 395 00:24:16,241 --> 00:24:19,550 the court is ordering a suspended sentence 396 00:24:19,551 --> 00:24:23,150 and treatment in lieu of incarceration. 397 00:24:23,151 --> 00:24:26,370 This means that your guilty plea will be suspended 398 00:24:26,371 --> 00:24:28,340 during your six-to-12 months residence 399 00:24:28,341 --> 00:24:30,474 at the Merskin Juvenile Treatment Center. 400 00:24:31,461 --> 00:24:34,090 If you successfully complete the program, 401 00:24:34,091 --> 00:24:37,080 your case will then be dismissed as not guilty. 402 00:24:37,081 --> 00:24:41,100 However, if you fail to complete the program, 403 00:24:41,101 --> 00:24:43,730 your case will be reopened, and I will recommend 404 00:24:43,731 --> 00:24:46,660 that, at such time, you be remanded to the Department 405 00:24:46,661 --> 00:24:49,970 of Youth Services for extended incarceration 406 00:24:49,971 --> 00:24:51,344 until the age of 25. 407 00:24:55,563 --> 00:24:58,610 - Well, Judge Graham crackers and milk strikes again. 408 00:24:58,611 --> 00:25:00,390 - So, he's the victim now! 409 00:25:00,391 --> 00:25:03,800 So, he gets treated for his unfortunate condition, 410 00:25:03,801 --> 00:25:05,070 and all is forgiven! 411 00:25:05,071 --> 00:25:05,904 He... 412 00:25:05,905 --> 00:25:09,410 He gets dismissed as not guilty! 413 00:25:09,411 --> 00:25:10,760 What the hell is that? 414 00:25:10,761 --> 00:25:12,320 - There's gotta be something else, Dave! 415 00:25:12,321 --> 00:25:14,770 - If there was something I could do, Mrs. Ambelin. 416 00:25:14,771 --> 00:25:16,850 There were facts in the probation investigation 417 00:25:16,851 --> 00:25:18,730 that the defense completely mis-characterized. 418 00:25:18,731 --> 00:25:20,080 It make McCortland seem almost like... 419 00:25:20,081 --> 00:25:20,914 - A victim! 420 00:25:20,914 --> 00:25:21,747 - Yes. 421 00:25:21,748 --> 00:25:23,150 And he's not. 422 00:25:23,151 --> 00:25:25,930 He's just a slick little criminal. 423 00:25:25,931 --> 00:25:27,439 I'm sorry. 424 00:25:27,440 --> 00:25:28,630 - What, that's it? 425 00:25:28,631 --> 00:25:29,874 Everyone else is done? 426 00:25:30,771 --> 00:25:31,771 - Except us. 427 00:25:32,941 --> 00:25:34,940 We don't get to be done! 428 00:25:34,941 --> 00:25:36,310 Ever! 429 00:25:36,311 --> 00:25:38,530 - Look, I'm telling you, he is a runner. 430 00:25:38,531 --> 00:25:40,040 And that security at Merskin's? 431 00:25:40,041 --> 00:25:41,490 What security? 432 00:25:41,491 --> 00:25:43,394 He'll be out in about two seconds. 433 00:25:56,289 --> 00:25:57,789 - The well is dry. 434 00:26:01,761 --> 00:26:02,834 And I'm dry. 435 00:26:09,081 --> 00:26:10,561 How can I give... 436 00:26:12,083 --> 00:26:14,250 what I don't have to give? 437 00:27:43,171 --> 00:27:44,171 Okay. 438 00:27:56,951 --> 00:27:58,134 Long time, Ray. 439 00:28:00,281 --> 00:28:01,281 - Father... 440 00:28:04,281 --> 00:28:05,281 I... 441 00:28:09,368 --> 00:28:12,290 I fell into the gutter again, Father. 442 00:28:12,291 --> 00:28:13,291 And I... 443 00:28:14,771 --> 00:28:16,504 drug Alisha and the kids with me. 444 00:28:18,837 --> 00:28:19,837 I... 445 00:28:21,761 --> 00:28:26,723 I hit Gray when he poured out my booze, 446 00:28:26,724 --> 00:28:28,090 'cause I'm a worthless piece of shit. 447 00:28:28,091 --> 00:28:29,280 - No! 448 00:28:29,281 --> 00:28:31,294 What you did was wrong, Ray. 449 00:28:32,651 --> 00:28:36,500 But you have to remember who you are. 450 00:28:36,501 --> 00:28:39,104 Remember whose you are. 451 00:28:47,681 --> 00:28:48,694 We both do. 452 00:28:51,551 --> 00:28:53,494 - Gray said he'd forgive me, but... 453 00:28:55,319 --> 00:28:56,664 that just makes it worse. 454 00:28:59,531 --> 00:29:01,094 I'm unfixable, Father. 455 00:29:02,261 --> 00:29:03,540 Why do you even... 456 00:29:03,541 --> 00:29:05,100 - No, you're not, Ray. 457 00:29:05,101 --> 00:29:07,670 God hasn't given up on you, and neither have I. 458 00:29:07,671 --> 00:29:09,204 - But I can't do it. 459 00:29:10,641 --> 00:29:12,160 I ain't got it in me. 460 00:29:12,161 --> 00:29:14,494 - Then let Him do it in you. 461 00:29:19,361 --> 00:29:22,222 Tomorrow night, in the parish center. 462 00:29:22,223 --> 00:29:23,223 Go on. 463 00:29:24,511 --> 00:29:26,601 Alisha can attend Al-Anon at the same time. 464 00:29:27,435 --> 00:29:28,268 - Nah, nah. 465 00:29:28,268 --> 00:29:29,268 She ggve up on me. 466 00:29:30,631 --> 00:29:31,881 - What's the number, Ray? 467 00:29:32,911 --> 00:29:33,988 I'll call her. 468 00:29:45,061 --> 00:29:47,014 You do know you're crazy, right? 469 00:29:49,669 --> 00:29:51,200 That... 470 00:29:51,201 --> 00:29:52,944 That is crazy. 471 00:29:57,711 --> 00:29:59,794 But I wouldn't be here if you weren't. 472 00:30:01,111 --> 00:30:02,634 So whatever you're doing... 473 00:30:04,571 --> 00:30:05,571 I'm in. 474 00:30:11,781 --> 00:30:13,160 Ingrid? 475 00:30:13,161 --> 00:30:14,600 I tried to call you five times! 476 00:30:14,601 --> 00:30:15,571 Why didn't you call me... 477 00:30:15,572 --> 00:30:17,500 - I'm not the enemy here, Peter. 478 00:30:17,501 --> 00:30:18,707 Why should I die? 479 00:30:20,661 --> 00:30:21,900 - Who said you were gonna die? 480 00:30:21,901 --> 00:30:24,140 - No one is gonna fix us! 481 00:30:24,141 --> 00:30:26,505 We have got to fix ourselves! 482 00:30:26,506 --> 00:30:28,535 - Now, what are you talking about? 483 00:30:28,536 --> 00:30:29,394 Who's "we"? 484 00:30:29,395 --> 00:30:32,120 - You and me, and the survivor support group 485 00:30:32,121 --> 00:30:35,340 that we are gonna start at Our Lady of Grace. 486 00:30:35,341 --> 00:30:37,750 Next week, Tuesday, Wednesday, take your pick. 487 00:30:37,751 --> 00:30:38,790 - Ingrid. 488 00:30:38,791 --> 00:30:40,230 I don't think that would be appropriate. 489 00:30:40,231 --> 00:30:42,420 - Peter, please. 490 00:30:42,421 --> 00:30:43,520 We need to do something! 491 00:30:43,521 --> 00:30:46,060 I mean, I need to do something! 492 00:30:46,061 --> 00:30:47,061 Please! 493 00:30:50,021 --> 00:30:52,090 - I prayed my family wouldn't show up. 494 00:30:52,091 --> 00:30:53,620 - Exactly, Arjun. 495 00:30:53,621 --> 00:30:56,750 I mean, your restaurant, it's not just a building. 496 00:30:56,751 --> 00:30:58,990 It's a part of you. 497 00:30:58,991 --> 00:30:59,881 Breaking and entering? 498 00:30:59,882 --> 00:31:01,480 I mean, hell, try rape! 499 00:31:01,481 --> 00:31:02,481 - I agree. 500 00:31:04,641 --> 00:31:07,341 - This is Rose Harken, everyone. 501 00:31:08,351 --> 00:31:09,670 Now, Rose is... 502 00:31:09,671 --> 00:31:10,671 - Family. 503 00:31:11,491 --> 00:31:14,240 Now, honey, I don't mean to put you on the spot, 504 00:31:14,241 --> 00:31:17,470 but he was sentenced as a juvenile. 505 00:31:17,471 --> 00:31:18,830 You're a juvenile. 506 00:31:18,831 --> 00:31:21,760 What do you think should have happened to Michael's killer? 507 00:31:21,761 --> 00:31:22,594 - Perhaps we should focus on... 508 00:31:22,595 --> 00:31:24,460 - I think Michael should still be alive, 509 00:31:24,461 --> 00:31:25,740 and he should be dead! 510 00:31:25,741 --> 00:31:26,860 But he's not! 511 00:31:26,861 --> 00:31:29,230 So I think he should be made to regret what he did 512 00:31:29,231 --> 00:31:30,910 for the rest of his life! 513 00:31:30,911 --> 00:31:32,867 That's the only way I'm ever gonna sleep again! 514 00:31:36,291 --> 00:31:37,291 - Sorry, guys. 515 00:31:40,281 --> 00:31:41,450 What the hell, Peter? 516 00:31:41,451 --> 00:31:43,710 You said we were gonna go until 8:30! 517 00:31:43,711 --> 00:31:46,850 - You said survivor support group, Ingrid. 518 00:31:46,851 --> 00:31:47,851 Support group! 519 00:31:47,851 --> 00:31:48,721 - Exactly! 520 00:31:48,722 --> 00:31:49,920 - That's not what this was! 521 00:31:49,921 --> 00:31:50,921 This was... 522 00:31:51,761 --> 00:31:54,277 You don't heal wounds by poking them. 523 00:31:54,278 --> 00:31:57,020 - Oh, so Catholic denial, that's your solution? 524 00:31:57,021 --> 00:31:59,218 - Just Us, justice, is that what you want? 525 00:31:59,219 --> 00:32:00,052 - Yes! 526 00:32:00,053 --> 00:32:03,120 - Justice without mercy is revenge! 527 00:32:03,121 --> 00:32:04,223 God doesn't want that! 528 00:32:04,224 --> 00:32:05,057 - That... 529 00:32:05,057 --> 00:32:05,941 - Well it's what I want! 530 00:32:05,942 --> 00:32:08,460 It's what I want, Peter! 531 00:32:08,461 --> 00:32:11,360 And it's what a hell of a lot of people want, too! 532 00:32:11,361 --> 00:32:12,790 It's what I need! 533 00:32:12,791 --> 00:32:13,960 I need to do something! 534 00:32:13,961 --> 00:32:15,460 I need to take action! 535 00:32:15,461 --> 00:32:17,670 Do you know, last week, I almost... 536 00:32:17,671 --> 00:32:19,838 - Honey, honey, it's okay. 537 00:32:22,871 --> 00:32:25,360 It's not taking action 538 00:32:25,361 --> 00:32:28,334 to rage over something you cannot change. 539 00:32:30,051 --> 00:32:33,004 Michael isn't coming back. 540 00:32:33,981 --> 00:32:37,670 We have to focus on what we can change 541 00:32:37,671 --> 00:32:39,324 and who we can change. 542 00:32:41,181 --> 00:32:43,194 Ingrid, go home. 543 00:32:44,731 --> 00:32:45,731 Pray. 544 00:32:58,421 --> 00:33:00,571 - Look, I'm telling you, he is a runner. 545 00:33:29,594 --> 00:33:31,984 - Lookin' for love that... 546 00:33:34,101 --> 00:33:35,574 Love that... 547 00:33:37,451 --> 00:33:38,371 No! 548 00:33:38,372 --> 00:33:40,830 No freakin' lookin' for love crap, 549 00:33:40,831 --> 00:33:42,188 you brain-dead piece of... 550 00:33:44,693 --> 00:33:45,989 - What is he doing? 551 00:33:45,990 --> 00:33:48,320 - That's the new guy, isn't it? 552 00:33:56,885 --> 00:33:58,613 - He's not bad. 553 00:33:58,614 --> 00:33:59,447 - He's pretty good. 554 00:33:59,448 --> 00:34:00,697 - That's right. 555 00:34:12,701 --> 00:34:13,801 - Man, don't touch me! 556 00:34:14,861 --> 00:34:17,780 It was just a kiddie piece of crap starter guitar! 557 00:34:17,781 --> 00:34:19,200 I put it out of its misery, man! 558 00:34:19,201 --> 00:34:20,450 Man, I had a guitar! 559 00:34:20,451 --> 00:34:21,371 - The one in your car? 560 00:34:21,372 --> 00:34:23,760 The one that you trashed? 561 00:34:23,761 --> 00:34:25,924 You're confined til group session tomorrow! 562 00:35:50,901 --> 00:35:51,734 - Actually, I was thinking 563 00:35:51,735 --> 00:35:54,314 maybe we could schedule it for June the 14th? 564 00:35:55,341 --> 00:35:56,174 Okay, yeah. 565 00:35:56,175 --> 00:35:57,180 And is there any other paperwork 566 00:35:57,181 --> 00:35:58,914 I need to bring besides the ID? 567 00:35:59,871 --> 00:36:01,698 Okay, I have to make a copy of the ID? 568 00:36:01,699 --> 00:36:02,957 Okay. 569 00:36:02,958 --> 00:36:04,763 And social security as well? 570 00:37:33,055 --> 00:37:34,055 - Get in! 571 00:37:46,021 --> 00:37:47,621 Would you like to die like that? 572 00:37:49,451 --> 00:37:50,451 - Yes. 573 00:37:53,691 --> 00:37:56,220 - Ingrid nailed him on a VCO! 574 00:37:56,221 --> 00:37:57,870 - Violation of court order. 575 00:37:57,871 --> 00:38:00,146 - He'll be locked up until he's 25. 576 00:38:01,531 --> 00:38:02,594 - Sorry I'm late. 577 00:38:03,701 --> 00:38:04,950 May I? 578 00:38:04,951 --> 00:38:07,780 This is a list of victim's rights groups 579 00:38:07,781 --> 00:38:09,980 and their locations. 580 00:38:09,981 --> 00:38:11,580 You're all familiar with MADD, 581 00:38:11,581 --> 00:38:14,020 Mothers Against Drunk Driving. 582 00:38:14,021 --> 00:38:18,170 Some of you may genuinely benefit from what these groups do. 583 00:38:18,171 --> 00:38:19,161 - Peter, why are you... 584 00:38:19,162 --> 00:38:20,564 - But that's not what we do. 585 00:38:21,721 --> 00:38:24,580 This is the last meeting of Just Us. 586 00:38:24,581 --> 00:38:26,110 Now, as a connection, 587 00:38:26,111 --> 00:38:28,310 I'm inviting you to join our Mercy Teens. 588 00:38:28,311 --> 00:38:32,150 There will be sacraments and counseling and listening. 589 00:38:32,151 --> 00:38:35,200 It's at the juvenile center at 5050 Reynolds Avenue. 590 00:38:35,201 --> 00:38:36,470 - That's where he's at! 591 00:38:36,471 --> 00:38:37,760 - Yes, it is. 592 00:38:37,761 --> 00:38:40,520 All the information is on the list. 593 00:38:40,521 --> 00:38:41,521 Call me. 594 00:38:43,771 --> 00:38:46,442 - Michael was like a son to you! 595 00:38:57,181 --> 00:38:59,631 Why does it feel like you left when Michael left? 596 00:39:05,149 --> 00:39:06,260 Or... 597 00:39:06,261 --> 00:39:07,261 before. 598 00:39:11,251 --> 00:39:12,251 I can't breathe. 599 00:39:14,181 --> 00:39:15,181 I can't... 600 00:39:19,961 --> 00:39:21,300 Please. 601 00:39:21,301 --> 00:39:22,301 Just... 602 00:39:23,009 --> 00:39:24,897 let me see him in my dreams. 603 00:39:24,898 --> 00:39:27,724 Just let me see Michael in my dream. 604 00:39:35,751 --> 00:39:37,340 - The body of Christ. 605 00:39:37,341 --> 00:39:38,341 - Amen. 606 00:39:44,661 --> 00:39:45,631 - The body of Christ. 607 00:39:45,631 --> 00:39:46,631 - Amen. 608 00:39:49,261 --> 00:39:50,600 - Attention. 609 00:39:50,601 --> 00:39:52,950 All juvenile facility visitors 610 00:39:52,951 --> 00:39:55,214 must vacate the premises by 4:30. 611 00:40:02,321 --> 00:40:03,321 - Hello? 612 00:40:04,181 --> 00:40:06,614 Father Peter Wexler, Our Lady of Grace Parish. 613 00:40:07,711 --> 00:40:09,980 The database said that you were Catholic. 614 00:40:09,981 --> 00:40:13,040 Or rather, it actually said ex-Cath, 615 00:40:13,041 --> 00:40:15,260 which seems kind of high-tech to me, 616 00:40:15,261 --> 00:40:16,500 so I thought that I would... 617 00:40:16,501 --> 00:40:18,333 - Ex-Catholic. 618 00:40:18,334 --> 00:40:19,900 I don't believe that crap anymore. 619 00:40:19,901 --> 00:40:22,090 - Put away childish things. 620 00:40:22,091 --> 00:40:23,370 - Exactly. 621 00:40:23,371 --> 00:40:24,371 - Good. 622 00:40:26,291 --> 00:40:27,291 Me too. 623 00:40:28,771 --> 00:40:31,020 Saint Paul said when he was older 624 00:40:31,021 --> 00:40:33,910 that he put away childish things. 625 00:40:33,911 --> 00:40:36,720 He was talking about growing closer to God. 626 00:40:36,721 --> 00:40:40,500 Childish faith just isn't enough anymore, is it? 627 00:40:40,501 --> 00:40:42,650 - Nothing's enough anymore. 628 00:40:42,651 --> 00:40:43,870 - Not when you're carrying around 629 00:40:43,871 --> 00:40:45,484 a 1,000-pound backpack. 630 00:40:47,291 --> 00:40:48,580 - Don't need any more guilt. 631 00:40:48,581 --> 00:40:49,915 - I can see that. 632 00:40:49,916 --> 00:40:51,216 You've got enough already. 633 00:40:52,591 --> 00:40:55,341 Why don't you make confession and unload that backpack? 634 00:40:59,521 --> 00:41:02,214 No God, no guilt, right? 635 00:41:03,341 --> 00:41:04,341 - How could you... 636 00:41:06,291 --> 00:41:07,124 No. 637 00:41:07,124 --> 00:41:07,957 No, whatever. 638 00:41:07,958 --> 00:41:09,161 I told you, I don't believe. 639 00:41:10,041 --> 00:41:12,700 - You know how you can't actually fly 640 00:41:12,701 --> 00:41:14,780 in a picture of an airplane? 641 00:41:14,781 --> 00:41:15,614 - What? 642 00:41:15,615 --> 00:41:19,870 - Real forgiveness is a plane you can fly in. 643 00:41:19,871 --> 00:41:21,440 It's so much better than pretending 644 00:41:21,441 --> 00:41:23,204 that you don't need to be forgiven. 645 00:41:23,205 --> 00:41:24,230 - Ah. 646 00:41:24,231 --> 00:41:25,414 So you forgive me? 647 00:41:26,791 --> 00:41:27,791 - Yes. 648 00:41:28,581 --> 00:41:30,560 - That's what you're supposed to say. 649 00:41:30,561 --> 00:41:31,720 - True. 650 00:41:31,721 --> 00:41:32,821 - You know what I did? 651 00:41:34,511 --> 00:41:35,511 - Yes. 652 00:41:37,571 --> 00:41:39,110 - Wait a minute. 653 00:41:39,111 --> 00:41:41,074 Wait a minute, you were in the courtroom. 654 00:41:42,771 --> 00:41:43,604 You're the... 655 00:41:43,605 --> 00:41:44,710 - Uncle... 656 00:41:44,711 --> 00:41:46,061 of the boy that you killed. 657 00:41:48,991 --> 00:41:50,230 - Jesus! 658 00:41:50,231 --> 00:41:52,070 - Not really, but I'm trying. 659 00:41:52,071 --> 00:41:54,330 - I told you I didn't believe! 660 00:41:54,331 --> 00:41:55,990 You knew what the stupid "ex" meant! 661 00:41:55,991 --> 00:41:56,931 Even if I did believe, 662 00:41:56,932 --> 00:41:59,710 I wouldn't listen to some psycho priest like you! 663 00:41:59,711 --> 00:42:01,000 - All I want... - No! 664 00:42:01,001 --> 00:42:01,834 No. 665 00:42:01,834 --> 00:42:02,671 Get out. 666 00:42:02,672 --> 00:42:04,567 Get outta here! 667 00:42:10,634 --> 00:42:12,620 - In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost. 668 00:42:12,621 --> 00:42:13,454 - Bless me, Father. 669 00:42:13,455 --> 00:42:15,741 It's been two months since my last confession. 670 00:42:16,861 --> 00:42:17,861 - Three. 671 00:42:18,881 --> 00:42:20,044 - These are my sins. 672 00:42:23,677 --> 00:42:25,750 - There's gotta be somethin'. 673 00:42:25,751 --> 00:42:27,130 You use the Lord's name in vain. 674 00:42:27,131 --> 00:42:28,045 - I do not! 675 00:42:28,045 --> 00:42:28,878 - Yes, you do. 676 00:42:28,878 --> 00:42:29,711 You say "oh my God". 677 00:42:29,711 --> 00:42:30,544 - That's not... 678 00:42:30,544 --> 00:42:31,377 - Yes, it is. 679 00:42:31,378 --> 00:42:33,191 - God isn't his name, it's his title. 680 00:42:37,916 --> 00:42:38,749 I've never... 681 00:42:38,750 --> 00:42:40,654 felt anything like this before, Peter. 682 00:42:41,832 --> 00:42:42,832 I mean... 683 00:42:43,721 --> 00:42:45,434 even Evan's death... 684 00:42:47,651 --> 00:42:50,020 that was... 685 00:42:50,021 --> 00:42:51,021 clean. 686 00:42:54,991 --> 00:42:59,260 It's an ache that'll always be there, it'll never go away. 687 00:42:59,261 --> 00:43:00,261 But this... 688 00:43:01,341 --> 00:43:05,130 I would rather be hit by a car myself 689 00:43:05,131 --> 00:43:07,980 every day for the rest of my life. 690 00:43:07,981 --> 00:43:08,814 Why? 691 00:43:08,814 --> 00:43:09,647 Why? 692 00:43:09,648 --> 00:43:11,054 Why would God let that happen? 693 00:43:12,921 --> 00:43:16,070 What is the purpose of an 18-year-old boy 694 00:43:16,071 --> 00:43:21,071 who has his whole life ahead of him be crushed? 695 00:43:21,811 --> 00:43:24,340 So what possible purpose could that serve? 696 00:43:24,341 --> 00:43:26,930 - Our families in Syria being beheaded 697 00:43:26,931 --> 00:43:29,904 or our girls in east India buses being raped? 698 00:43:31,321 --> 00:43:33,770 I don't know why God allows what He allows 699 00:43:33,771 --> 00:43:35,194 or does what He does. 700 00:43:37,161 --> 00:43:39,884 I just know that He tells me what He wants me to do. 701 00:43:40,981 --> 00:43:42,024 And I trust Him. 702 00:43:43,021 --> 00:43:45,487 - Well that's pretty frickin' one-sided, isn't it? 703 00:43:45,488 --> 00:43:46,770 And you're okay with that? 704 00:43:46,771 --> 00:43:48,180 - He doesn't ask my permission. 705 00:43:48,181 --> 00:43:50,030 - Well I am not okay with that, Peter. 706 00:43:50,031 --> 00:43:51,660 I am not okay with that. 707 00:43:51,661 --> 00:43:53,920 - Are you here to confess your sins or God's? 708 00:43:53,921 --> 00:43:57,905 - I'm here because... 709 00:43:57,906 --> 00:43:58,906 because... 710 00:44:00,351 --> 00:44:01,444 I'm drowning. 711 00:44:03,791 --> 00:44:04,960 And... 712 00:44:04,961 --> 00:44:07,810 Okay, yeah, maybe I don't know. 713 00:44:07,811 --> 00:44:12,020 Maybe somewhere in here are my sins. 714 00:44:12,021 --> 00:44:15,144 But God is not coming to rescue me. 715 00:44:17,134 --> 00:44:19,294 I don't even want Him to rescue me. 716 00:44:20,981 --> 00:44:22,050 I want... 717 00:44:22,051 --> 00:44:23,520 him. 718 00:44:23,521 --> 00:44:28,184 Peter, I don't know how to get to him. 719 00:44:29,311 --> 00:44:30,980 I hate him for what he's done, 720 00:44:30,981 --> 00:44:32,781 but nothing makes sense without him. 721 00:44:35,491 --> 00:44:36,760 - And you're here because... 722 00:44:36,761 --> 00:44:38,250 - Because... 723 00:44:38,251 --> 00:44:41,240 you said the other night... 724 00:44:41,241 --> 00:44:42,241 You said that... 725 00:44:45,381 --> 00:44:48,850 my rage won't bring Michael back. 726 00:44:48,851 --> 00:44:49,950 And you're right. 727 00:44:49,951 --> 00:44:50,951 Of course. 728 00:44:51,773 --> 00:44:53,498 Of course you are, but... 729 00:44:55,501 --> 00:44:56,634 my rage... 730 00:44:58,121 --> 00:44:59,594 that was all I had. 731 00:45:01,709 --> 00:45:03,614 And now I don't even have that. 732 00:45:05,101 --> 00:45:06,140 - Well if... 733 00:45:06,141 --> 00:45:08,164 - You also said that... 734 00:45:08,165 --> 00:45:11,220 That you and I, we should start to focus on 735 00:45:11,221 --> 00:45:14,390 what we can change and who we can change. 736 00:45:14,391 --> 00:45:15,391 What did you mean? 737 00:45:17,367 --> 00:45:18,784 - You heard that? 738 00:45:20,551 --> 00:45:21,551 Well... 739 00:45:22,861 --> 00:45:25,930 I know that I said that God doesn't tell me 740 00:45:25,931 --> 00:45:28,280 why He does what He does. 741 00:45:28,281 --> 00:45:30,504 Sometimes I get a glimmer. 742 00:45:32,251 --> 00:45:33,620 Are you sure you wanna hear this? 743 00:45:33,621 --> 00:45:34,491 - No. 744 00:45:34,491 --> 00:45:35,491 But go on. 745 00:45:45,391 --> 00:45:48,444 - Michael was never yours. 746 00:45:50,608 --> 00:45:54,420 I think God is reminding you... 747 00:45:54,421 --> 00:45:57,080 us, all of us... 748 00:45:57,081 --> 00:46:01,504 that God is teaching us to love what He loves, 749 00:46:02,371 --> 00:46:07,044 who He loves, even if that means loving outsiders. 750 00:46:08,801 --> 00:46:11,484 And, yeah, forgiving them, 751 00:46:13,321 --> 00:46:14,980 the awful ones, 752 00:46:14,981 --> 00:46:17,720 that ones that we would never let in if it was up to you. 753 00:46:17,721 --> 00:46:19,367 - Oh my God! 754 00:46:19,368 --> 00:46:21,270 You're talking about him? 755 00:46:21,271 --> 00:46:24,770 That kid who killed Michael? 756 00:46:24,771 --> 00:46:25,960 How could you? 757 00:46:25,961 --> 00:46:27,690 How could He... 758 00:46:27,691 --> 00:46:28,740 No. 759 00:46:28,741 --> 00:46:29,990 No! 760 00:46:29,991 --> 00:46:34,130 No, I was willing to try to move forward if I could 761 00:46:34,131 --> 00:46:37,010 or put it behind me, but that, 762 00:46:37,011 --> 00:46:39,370 that is going backwards! 763 00:46:39,371 --> 00:46:42,966 He is the gun that killed Michael. 764 00:47:15,378 --> 00:47:16,378 Hello? 765 00:47:18,145 --> 00:47:23,070 Peter! 766 00:47:23,071 --> 00:47:24,071 Peter? 767 00:47:26,376 --> 00:47:27,376 Peter? 768 00:47:54,361 --> 00:47:55,670 So, God killed your son. 769 00:47:55,671 --> 00:47:56,844 How'd you get past it? 770 00:48:01,611 --> 00:48:03,564 I used to want to be exactly like you. 771 00:48:04,691 --> 00:48:05,959 Of course, you know that, 772 00:48:05,960 --> 00:48:08,200 'cause you are the original mama bear. 773 00:48:08,201 --> 00:48:11,854 Actually, at first, I wanted to be a nun really bad. 774 00:48:15,561 --> 00:48:17,514 I wanted to be you. 775 00:48:19,241 --> 00:48:21,054 But then, you know, boys. 776 00:48:21,941 --> 00:48:22,871 Evan. 777 00:48:22,871 --> 00:48:23,871 And then a kid. 778 00:48:25,491 --> 00:48:28,924 So now I've got what you've got: dead son. 779 00:48:32,323 --> 00:48:33,860 I mean... 780 00:48:33,861 --> 00:48:36,530 He forgave everyone because He's God. 781 00:48:36,531 --> 00:48:39,250 But you... 782 00:48:39,251 --> 00:48:41,314 didn't have to forgive. 783 00:48:42,527 --> 00:48:43,360 And you did. 784 00:48:43,361 --> 00:48:45,820 I mean, duh, of course, I know you did, but... 785 00:48:45,821 --> 00:48:46,821 But how? 786 00:48:48,271 --> 00:48:49,670 And Peter! 787 00:48:49,671 --> 00:48:51,350 Not my Peter, your Peter. 788 00:48:51,351 --> 00:48:54,370 He betrayed your son, they all did. 789 00:48:54,371 --> 00:48:56,670 Didn't you hate them for that? 790 00:48:56,671 --> 00:48:57,724 You must have. 791 00:49:03,834 --> 00:49:05,917 But you stayed with them. 792 00:49:07,209 --> 00:49:08,259 And you forgave them. 793 00:49:09,991 --> 00:49:10,991 How? 794 00:49:12,821 --> 00:49:14,362 How? 795 00:49:42,191 --> 00:49:43,314 One visit. 796 00:49:55,151 --> 00:49:56,460 - Yeah? 797 00:49:56,461 --> 00:49:58,811 - I'm here to see Alec McCortland. 798 00:50:00,171 --> 00:50:01,680 - Your name? 799 00:50:01,681 --> 00:50:02,514 - Oh, I... 800 00:50:02,515 --> 00:50:04,201 I don't think I'm actually on the list. 801 00:50:07,600 --> 00:50:08,433 Ambelin. 802 00:50:08,434 --> 00:50:09,531 Ingrid Ambelin. 803 00:50:10,601 --> 00:50:12,150 - Huh. 804 00:50:12,151 --> 00:50:13,780 Aren't the... 805 00:50:13,781 --> 00:50:14,781 What's her name? 806 00:50:15,521 --> 00:50:18,120 The king with all the wives wife. 807 00:50:18,121 --> 00:50:19,081 - Henry VIII? 808 00:50:19,081 --> 00:50:19,951 - Yeah. 809 00:50:19,951 --> 00:50:20,784 - No. 810 00:50:20,784 --> 00:50:21,617 Oh. 811 00:50:21,618 --> 00:50:23,270 Not Anne Boleyn. 812 00:50:23,271 --> 00:50:24,131 Ambelin. 813 00:50:24,132 --> 00:50:27,004 A-M-B-E-L-I-N. 814 00:50:29,291 --> 00:50:30,171 - Sorry. 815 00:50:30,171 --> 00:50:31,171 I don't see it. 816 00:50:31,872 --> 00:50:33,669 If you're not on the PL, I can't let you through. 817 00:50:33,670 --> 00:50:34,990 - The... 818 00:50:34,991 --> 00:50:36,124 - Permitted list. 819 00:50:39,260 --> 00:50:41,781 Unless of course the PD's already updated it. 820 00:50:42,731 --> 00:50:44,080 - The... 821 00:50:44,081 --> 00:50:45,081 - Public defender. 822 00:50:48,561 --> 00:50:51,934 - Well, do you think you could call the PD about the PL? 823 00:50:54,671 --> 00:50:55,671 Sorry. 824 00:50:58,081 --> 00:50:59,081 I'm family. 825 00:51:07,861 --> 00:51:09,314 - Yeah, Mr. Gitmeier, please. 826 00:51:10,171 --> 00:51:13,510 Yeah, this is Sergeant Early over at 50/50. 827 00:51:13,511 --> 00:51:14,511 Thank you. 828 00:51:15,421 --> 00:51:16,411 Mr. Gitmeier. 829 00:51:16,412 --> 00:51:18,150 Yeah, this is Early over at Juvenile. 830 00:51:18,151 --> 00:51:21,144 Got somebody that wants to visit with Alec McCortland. 831 00:51:22,761 --> 00:51:24,044 No, she'd be the first. 832 00:51:25,401 --> 00:51:27,220 Yeah, Anne Boleyn. 833 00:51:27,221 --> 00:51:28,734 Ingrid Anne Boleyn. 834 00:51:31,041 --> 00:51:32,041 Really? 835 00:51:33,231 --> 00:51:34,850 From the victim's family? 836 00:51:34,851 --> 00:51:36,788 'Cause we don't have her... 837 00:51:38,400 --> 00:51:39,430 Are you sure? 838 00:51:39,431 --> 00:51:40,831 Because I don't think that... 839 00:51:42,467 --> 00:51:43,738 All right. 840 00:51:43,739 --> 00:51:44,739 Thank you. 841 00:51:58,248 --> 00:52:00,454 Didn't say you were from that family. 842 00:52:01,951 --> 00:52:04,420 But Mr. Gitmeier's approved it, so I guess it's all right. 843 00:52:04,421 --> 00:52:05,494 I gotta tell you... 844 00:52:06,771 --> 00:52:08,800 we don't do this. 845 00:52:08,801 --> 00:52:09,651 Ever. 846 00:52:09,652 --> 00:52:11,950 So, I'm gonna need you to promise me 847 00:52:11,951 --> 00:52:14,720 that, when you get in there, you're not gonna... 848 00:52:14,721 --> 00:52:15,721 - Lose my head? 849 00:52:18,321 --> 00:52:19,321 I promise. 850 00:52:39,061 --> 00:52:40,061 It's coffee. 851 00:52:41,361 --> 00:52:42,194 From the lobby. 852 00:52:42,195 --> 00:52:43,214 I had to beg. 853 00:52:44,641 --> 00:52:46,960 They fished around there with a pencil, 854 00:52:46,961 --> 00:52:48,961 make sure there wasn't anything in them. 855 00:52:50,111 --> 00:52:51,780 I mean, it's what I do. 856 00:52:51,781 --> 00:52:52,946 Coffee. 857 00:52:56,641 --> 00:52:57,850 God. 858 00:52:57,851 --> 00:52:59,764 Only I use actually coffee beans. 859 00:53:04,651 --> 00:53:05,839 You know, it's the least you could do 860 00:53:05,840 --> 00:53:07,400 to make eye... - I didn't do it on purpose! 861 00:53:07,401 --> 00:53:08,560 - What? 862 00:53:08,561 --> 00:53:10,820 Oh my God, this isn't a time out! 863 00:53:10,821 --> 00:53:12,300 What was I thinking? 864 00:53:12,301 --> 00:53:13,900 - I don't even know what he looked like. 865 00:53:13,901 --> 00:53:14,734 - What? 866 00:53:14,734 --> 00:53:15,567 - Your son. 867 00:53:15,567 --> 00:53:16,567 - He's... 868 00:53:17,351 --> 00:53:18,740 He was... 869 00:53:18,741 --> 00:53:22,230 taller than you, like his dad. 870 00:53:22,231 --> 00:53:23,320 - Is he... 871 00:53:23,321 --> 00:53:24,154 - Dead too? 872 00:53:24,155 --> 00:53:25,860 Yes, 51, brain hemorrhage. 873 00:53:25,861 --> 00:53:27,611 Why the hell am I telling you this? 874 00:53:29,181 --> 00:53:30,810 - I'm sorry. 875 00:53:30,811 --> 00:53:31,811 About your husband. 876 00:53:36,081 --> 00:53:37,770 Yeah, that coffee seriously sucks. 877 00:53:37,771 --> 00:53:39,120 - You're sorry? 878 00:53:39,121 --> 00:53:40,450 About my husband? 879 00:53:40,451 --> 00:53:42,060 You're sorry about my husband 880 00:53:42,061 --> 00:53:43,510 when you can't even say that you're sorry... 881 00:53:43,511 --> 00:53:45,140 - It just doesn't feel like I did it! 882 00:53:45,141 --> 00:53:46,260 I don't remember anything. 883 00:53:46,261 --> 00:53:47,470 It's totally surreal to me. 884 00:53:47,471 --> 00:53:48,890 It's just like a bad dream. - Oh it's real! 885 00:53:48,891 --> 00:53:50,180 It is real! 886 00:53:50,181 --> 00:53:53,530 I wake up every morning to how real it is! 887 00:53:53,531 --> 00:53:57,220 And just because you don't feel like it's real 888 00:53:57,221 --> 00:54:00,670 doesn't change reality one shred, one shred! 889 00:54:00,671 --> 00:54:01,914 - There was alcohol! 890 00:54:02,931 --> 00:54:03,851 And other stuff. 891 00:54:03,852 --> 00:54:05,190 And my car was messed up, 892 00:54:05,191 --> 00:54:07,610 but I couldn't afford to... - I'm supposed to hate them 893 00:54:07,611 --> 00:54:10,640 for crushing the life out of Michael? 894 00:54:10,641 --> 00:54:13,580 I'm supposed to blame the alcohol 895 00:54:13,581 --> 00:54:15,680 and your messed up car and the other stuff 896 00:54:15,681 --> 00:54:18,574 for killing my son, for murdering him? 897 00:54:20,381 --> 00:54:21,214 God! 898 00:54:21,215 --> 00:54:26,214 If you can't say you're sorry, at least admit it! 899 00:54:26,432 --> 00:54:27,432 Admit it! 900 00:54:31,421 --> 00:54:32,884 Hell was I thinking? 901 00:54:37,056 --> 00:54:38,870 You know, the record said you're smart, 902 00:54:38,871 --> 00:54:40,571 but you talk like a five-year-old. 903 00:54:41,711 --> 00:54:42,711 - You read about me? 904 00:54:47,661 --> 00:54:52,220 My foster parents were quite erudite, actually, 905 00:54:52,221 --> 00:54:55,180 whetting my young mind with their succinct reasoning 906 00:54:55,181 --> 00:54:57,230 and engaging me in spirited discussions 907 00:54:57,231 --> 00:54:58,131 about the way... 908 00:54:58,132 --> 00:54:59,440 - You... 909 00:54:59,441 --> 00:55:03,017 do not have the right to be sarcastic with me! 910 00:55:03,018 --> 00:55:05,064 You don't have the right to be anything to me! 911 00:55:08,576 --> 00:55:10,243 What was I thinking? 912 00:55:28,201 --> 00:55:29,201 - I did it. 913 00:55:39,481 --> 00:55:40,481 - Michael! 914 00:55:43,721 --> 00:55:44,874 That's obscene! 915 00:55:47,761 --> 00:55:48,761 Thanks, Ben. 916 00:55:48,761 --> 00:55:49,761 Goodnight. 917 00:55:52,581 --> 00:55:53,990 - Spill. 918 00:55:53,991 --> 00:55:55,530 - Spill what? 919 00:55:55,531 --> 00:55:56,910 - Ingrid? 920 00:55:56,911 --> 00:55:57,990 It's me. 921 00:55:57,991 --> 00:55:58,991 - Oh really? 922 00:56:08,661 --> 00:56:10,120 I went to see him. 923 00:56:10,121 --> 00:56:11,122 - Who? 924 00:56:11,123 --> 00:56:12,370 - McCortland! 925 00:56:12,371 --> 00:56:15,011 That kid who killed Michael. 926 00:56:15,012 --> 00:56:16,590 - Damn! 927 00:56:16,591 --> 00:56:17,591 Why? 928 00:56:20,401 --> 00:56:22,114 - Closure, maybe. 929 00:56:23,591 --> 00:56:24,591 Something. 930 00:56:25,584 --> 00:56:27,060 - You get it? 931 00:56:27,061 --> 00:56:28,061 - Not yet. 932 00:56:28,941 --> 00:56:29,941 Maybe never. 933 00:56:31,271 --> 00:56:32,364 It was torture. 934 00:56:33,271 --> 00:56:35,260 - You don't seem any worse. 935 00:56:35,261 --> 00:56:36,311 - Or better. 936 00:56:37,901 --> 00:56:38,851 - You still hate him? 937 00:56:38,852 --> 00:56:39,884 - Yes. 938 00:56:40,911 --> 00:56:43,070 Maybe not so much. 939 00:56:43,071 --> 00:56:44,521 Oh stop it with the eyebrows. 940 00:56:46,381 --> 00:56:47,221 - You gonna go back? 941 00:56:47,221 --> 00:56:48,221 - No! 942 00:56:51,399 --> 00:56:53,420 - When I was a little girl, 943 00:56:53,421 --> 00:56:55,430 I remember hearing this story about how, 944 00:56:55,431 --> 00:56:57,740 when an oyster got a grain of sand in them, 945 00:56:57,741 --> 00:57:00,230 it hurts so much it makes them wanna cry. 946 00:57:00,231 --> 00:57:01,064 - Wow. 947 00:57:01,065 --> 00:57:02,080 That's really comforting. 948 00:57:02,081 --> 00:57:03,081 - Not done yet. 949 00:57:04,341 --> 00:57:05,530 - Sorry. 950 00:57:05,531 --> 00:57:06,630 Check. 951 00:57:06,631 --> 00:57:07,464 Sand. 952 00:57:07,464 --> 00:57:08,371 Continue. 953 00:57:08,372 --> 00:57:10,680 - So then after a while, the piece of sand 954 00:57:10,681 --> 00:57:12,840 gets all coated with their tears, 955 00:57:12,841 --> 00:57:14,950 until finally it doesn't hurt them anymore. 956 00:57:14,951 --> 00:57:19,420 Plus, the sand is now a beautiful... 957 00:57:19,421 --> 00:57:21,140 - Pearl. 958 00:57:21,141 --> 00:57:22,260 Nadine! 959 00:57:22,261 --> 00:57:24,970 That is the corniest story! 960 00:57:24,971 --> 00:57:26,430 But... 961 00:57:26,431 --> 00:57:28,890 it's also kind of beautiful. 962 00:57:28,891 --> 00:57:30,154 - Oh, you mushy old lady. 963 00:57:32,311 --> 00:57:33,144 - Hey! 964 00:57:33,144 --> 00:57:33,977 - Sorry. 965 00:57:33,978 --> 00:57:35,190 - School go late? 966 00:57:35,191 --> 00:57:36,191 - Honors club. 967 00:57:37,401 --> 00:57:38,954 - Rose, honey, are you okay? 968 00:57:39,831 --> 00:57:40,664 - Yeah. 969 00:57:40,664 --> 00:57:41,664 I'm fine, Mama. 970 00:57:43,081 --> 00:57:45,944 I just feel him when I'm here, you know? 971 00:57:59,461 --> 00:58:00,461 - Sand. 972 00:58:16,321 --> 00:58:17,324 No Alec. 973 00:58:20,420 --> 00:58:21,830 Ooh. 974 00:58:21,831 --> 00:58:23,881 The apple doesn't fall far from the tree. 975 00:58:29,484 --> 00:58:30,817 Holy 40 to life! 976 00:58:34,088 --> 00:58:35,671 What didn't you do? 977 00:58:49,831 --> 00:58:50,831 Stop it! 978 00:58:52,384 --> 00:58:54,120 - Why are you here? 979 00:58:54,121 --> 00:58:55,258 - I forgive you. 980 00:58:55,259 --> 00:58:56,092 - What? 981 00:58:56,092 --> 00:58:56,925 No! 982 00:58:56,925 --> 00:58:57,758 - Look, I get it. 983 00:58:57,759 --> 00:58:59,780 Your father was a crazy, violent animal. 984 00:58:59,781 --> 00:59:00,850 He killed your mother. 985 00:59:00,851 --> 00:59:02,160 You were 12. 986 00:59:02,161 --> 00:59:05,620 So you started taking drugs and drinking 987 00:59:05,621 --> 00:59:09,030 and doing God knows what to get it outta your head, right? 988 00:59:09,031 --> 00:59:10,530 Burning through foster families. 989 00:59:10,531 --> 00:59:11,680 So I get it. 990 00:59:11,681 --> 00:59:12,541 You're forgiven. 991 00:59:12,542 --> 00:59:13,767 I forgive you, end of story. 992 00:59:13,768 --> 00:59:14,601 - No! - What? 993 00:59:14,601 --> 00:59:15,434 I thought that's what you wanted? 994 00:59:15,434 --> 00:59:16,267 - No! 995 00:59:16,268 --> 00:59:17,428 - Well then what do you want? 996 00:59:19,881 --> 00:59:21,181 I'll tell you what I want. 997 00:59:24,211 --> 00:59:25,420 I want to... 998 00:59:25,421 --> 00:59:27,140 breathe again. 999 00:59:27,141 --> 00:59:28,310 I want to... 1000 00:59:28,311 --> 00:59:31,947 not wake up every morning and say, "Shit! 1001 00:59:31,948 --> 00:59:33,228 "I'm still alive." 1002 00:59:35,401 --> 00:59:36,401 So I forgive you. 1003 00:59:37,811 --> 00:59:38,711 You are forgiven. 1004 00:59:38,711 --> 00:59:39,701 I just wanna be done. 1005 00:59:39,702 --> 00:59:40,810 I wanna be done with this. 1006 00:59:40,811 --> 00:59:41,980 I wanna be done with you. 1007 00:59:41,981 --> 00:59:44,230 I wanna be done with everything. 1008 00:59:44,231 --> 00:59:46,640 - I always tell people he's from Ireland, 1009 00:59:46,641 --> 00:59:48,250 'cause it sounds cooler. 1010 00:59:48,251 --> 00:59:50,950 But he's really from Boston. 1011 00:59:50,951 --> 00:59:52,030 And he doesn't get pissed 1012 00:59:52,031 --> 00:59:54,450 because of some noble protest-y crap. 1013 00:59:54,451 --> 00:59:56,880 He gets pissed when people don't do what he wants. 1014 00:59:56,881 --> 00:59:58,230 - Pissed off or pissed drunk? 1015 00:59:58,231 --> 00:59:59,181 - Both. 1016 00:59:59,182 --> 01:00:00,510 He wants what he wants. 1017 01:00:00,511 --> 01:00:01,344 That's it. 1018 01:00:01,344 --> 01:00:02,330 His whole deal. 1019 01:00:02,331 --> 01:00:03,970 He wants what he wants. 1020 01:00:03,971 --> 01:00:05,397 You never knew when he'd be there. 1021 01:00:05,398 --> 01:00:07,500 But when he was, he brought 1022 01:00:07,501 --> 01:00:10,780 all kinds of video games and iPhones. 1023 01:00:10,781 --> 01:00:12,360 He said it was for us. 1024 01:00:12,361 --> 01:00:14,432 My mom didn't buy it, 'cause she didn't drink. 1025 01:00:14,433 --> 01:00:15,980 - Wait, your mom didn't drink? 1026 01:00:15,981 --> 01:00:18,128 - Well, maybe when I was little 1027 01:00:18,129 --> 01:00:19,370 and Dez was around all the time. 1028 01:00:19,371 --> 01:00:21,414 But by the time Neecie arrived... 1029 01:00:23,081 --> 01:00:24,310 She's not what you think. 1030 01:00:24,311 --> 01:00:26,320 She worked her ass off! 1031 01:00:26,321 --> 01:00:29,740 She volunteered all the time at the St. Tobias food pantry. 1032 01:00:29,741 --> 01:00:32,250 Man, if she isn't in heaven, there isn't one. 1033 01:00:32,251 --> 01:00:33,201 - Catholic. 1034 01:00:33,202 --> 01:00:35,650 - Was there more than one? 1035 01:00:35,651 --> 01:00:36,814 - No, I meant that... 1036 01:00:37,971 --> 01:00:40,620 - She hated the way Dez lied. 1037 01:00:40,621 --> 01:00:43,110 He'd stack all this stuff up in the corner 1038 01:00:43,111 --> 01:00:44,230 and say it was for us, 1039 01:00:44,231 --> 01:00:45,860 but then these douche bags would come over, 1040 01:00:45,861 --> 01:00:48,481 get high, and leave with everything. 1041 01:00:48,482 --> 01:00:50,982 And Dez would be like, "Well, you didn't want it." 1042 01:00:52,191 --> 01:00:54,190 But when he was high... 1043 01:00:54,191 --> 01:00:57,480 Oh, when he was high, he was awesome! 1044 01:00:57,481 --> 01:01:01,730 He was like this skinny R-rated Santa Clause. 1045 01:01:01,731 --> 01:01:03,430 - Did she love him? 1046 01:01:03,431 --> 01:01:04,431 - Maybe once. 1047 01:01:05,401 --> 01:01:07,870 But Neecie's dad is who she really loved. 1048 01:01:07,871 --> 01:01:09,480 - So your sister has a different dad? 1049 01:01:09,481 --> 01:01:10,760 - Yeah. 1050 01:01:10,761 --> 01:01:13,620 Only mom couldn't marry him because of God. 1051 01:01:13,621 --> 01:01:14,524 - But she had a child with him. 1052 01:01:14,525 --> 01:01:16,894 - Is that a problem for Catholic heaven? 1053 01:01:19,471 --> 01:01:21,495 I started using before she died. 1054 01:01:21,496 --> 01:01:22,329 - What? 1055 01:01:22,330 --> 01:01:24,040 - He'd been gone for like a year, 1056 01:01:24,041 --> 01:01:25,850 and all a sudden he's back, 1057 01:01:25,851 --> 01:01:28,770 and he's got game boxes and TVs, 1058 01:01:28,771 --> 01:01:31,540 and a guitar, my first guitar! 1059 01:01:31,541 --> 01:01:34,260 An actual legit Taylor. 1060 01:01:34,261 --> 01:01:39,090 I just wanted him to stay and be R-rated Santa all the time. 1061 01:01:39,091 --> 01:01:40,594 So I asked him for a hit. 1062 01:01:41,621 --> 01:01:43,154 And he rolled one just for me. 1063 01:01:44,271 --> 01:01:45,708 At first, nothin'. 1064 01:01:46,551 --> 01:01:49,390 But then, all of a sudden, it's like bam! 1065 01:01:51,849 --> 01:01:54,804 And we're like eating everything in sight and laughing. 1066 01:01:55,641 --> 01:01:58,150 Oh, and he pours me a shot of leprechaun juice. 1067 01:01:58,151 --> 01:01:59,290 God, I thought it was... 1068 01:01:59,291 --> 01:02:01,140 I thought it was real magic. 1069 01:02:01,141 --> 01:02:04,560 'Cause for the first time, I just didn't feel scared. 1070 01:02:04,561 --> 01:02:06,260 I felt like a normal person, you know? 1071 01:02:06,261 --> 01:02:07,910 I felt like everyone else feels. 1072 01:02:07,911 --> 01:02:09,130 - Nobody... 1073 01:02:09,131 --> 01:02:10,121 feels normal. 1074 01:02:10,122 --> 01:02:12,394 Everyone just thinks everybody else does. 1075 01:02:13,871 --> 01:02:14,914 - So it was me? 1076 01:02:16,591 --> 01:02:17,511 I did it. 1077 01:02:17,512 --> 01:02:19,370 Just like I did your son. 1078 01:02:19,371 --> 01:02:23,260 I ain't goin' to Catholic heaven or any other one, so... 1079 01:02:23,261 --> 01:02:24,810 So don't forgive me. 1080 01:02:24,811 --> 01:02:25,860 Don't you forgive me! 1081 01:02:25,861 --> 01:02:27,000 - What happened? 1082 01:02:27,001 --> 01:02:28,511 - You don't wanna know. 1083 01:02:28,512 --> 01:02:29,535 - No! 1084 01:02:29,536 --> 01:02:30,536 I don't! 1085 01:02:34,020 --> 01:02:34,974 But I... 1086 01:02:34,975 --> 01:02:35,984 I think I need to. 1087 01:02:36,949 --> 01:02:37,938 - I liked it, you know? 1088 01:02:37,939 --> 01:02:39,180 I just liked it. 1089 01:02:39,181 --> 01:02:40,910 I liked... 1090 01:02:40,911 --> 01:02:42,800 drinkin' booze and holdin' a joint. 1091 01:02:42,801 --> 01:02:45,600 I don't know, it just made me feel kinda grown up, in a way. 1092 01:02:45,601 --> 01:02:46,890 - Oh God, it's ironic. 1093 01:02:46,891 --> 01:02:47,724 - What? 1094 01:02:47,724 --> 01:02:48,557 - Nothing! 1095 01:02:48,557 --> 01:02:49,390 - Yeah, I know what ironic mean! 1096 01:02:49,391 --> 01:02:50,764 - I know you do! 1097 01:02:53,611 --> 01:02:54,611 - Anyway... 1098 01:02:57,611 --> 01:02:59,874 Me and Dez, Dez and I... 1099 01:03:00,831 --> 01:03:01,811 get high. 1100 01:03:01,812 --> 01:03:04,640 Sometimes he'd give me guitar lessons. 1101 01:03:04,641 --> 01:03:06,738 Only Neecie... 1102 01:03:06,739 --> 01:03:08,054 God, he hated her. 1103 01:03:09,421 --> 01:03:11,020 'Cause of Marcus, Marcus Rowland. 1104 01:03:11,021 --> 01:03:12,021 That was her dad. 1105 01:03:13,201 --> 01:03:14,894 Dez would call Neecie a wigger. 1106 01:03:16,271 --> 01:03:19,094 But Mom and Marcus would call her their golden child. 1107 01:03:20,431 --> 01:03:21,884 I always wanted to be golden. 1108 01:03:25,531 --> 01:03:27,228 - What happened to Neecie? 1109 01:03:28,251 --> 01:03:29,404 - They split us up. 1110 01:03:30,681 --> 01:03:31,844 The foster people. 1111 01:03:34,069 --> 01:03:36,650 We didn't have the same dad, and our mom was dead. 1112 01:03:36,651 --> 01:03:37,690 - Did you ever see her? 1113 01:03:37,691 --> 01:03:38,990 - Once. 1114 01:03:38,991 --> 01:03:41,274 After they first took us away. 1115 01:03:43,161 --> 01:03:45,810 And I got to talk to her on the phone two years ago. 1116 01:03:45,811 --> 01:03:49,210 Marcus was trying to get custody, but I was in re-bad, 1117 01:03:49,211 --> 01:03:51,980 so I didn't get to talk to her very long. 1118 01:03:51,981 --> 01:03:52,981 - What happened? 1119 01:03:54,381 --> 01:03:55,381 - I told you. 1120 01:03:56,111 --> 01:03:57,111 I killed her. 1121 01:03:57,981 --> 01:04:00,580 I was afraid she was gonna make him leave! 1122 01:04:00,581 --> 01:04:03,534 And then I was afraid she was gonna kill him. 1123 01:04:03,535 --> 01:04:04,660 I just, I didn't care. 1124 01:04:04,661 --> 01:04:06,140 I didn't care about either of them. 1125 01:04:06,141 --> 01:04:07,645 I just... 1126 01:04:07,646 --> 01:04:08,660 I just cared about me! 1127 01:04:08,661 --> 01:04:10,150 I mean, I wanted... 1128 01:04:10,151 --> 01:04:10,984 - What? 1129 01:04:10,985 --> 01:04:12,110 What? 1130 01:04:12,111 --> 01:04:13,590 - I wanted what I wanted. 1131 01:04:13,591 --> 01:04:16,604 Just like him, I want what I want, that's it. 1132 01:04:17,771 --> 01:04:19,824 And when she picked up that knife... 1133 01:04:21,001 --> 01:04:22,010 I was pissed, you know? 1134 01:04:22,011 --> 01:04:23,784 She was ruining everything! 1135 01:04:24,861 --> 01:04:27,020 And then all a sudden Neecie came in. 1136 01:04:27,021 --> 01:04:27,951 - And then what happened? 1137 01:04:27,951 --> 01:04:28,861 - I took it from her! 1138 01:04:28,862 --> 01:04:30,350 I took the knife from her and I gave it to him! 1139 01:04:30,351 --> 01:04:32,010 - You couldn't have known... 1140 01:04:32,011 --> 01:04:33,910 - No, I knew, and I gave it to him anyway! 1141 01:04:33,911 --> 01:04:35,770 - Well then what happened next? 1142 01:04:35,771 --> 01:04:37,160 - I locked Neecie in her room. 1143 01:04:37,161 --> 01:04:38,139 - And then what? 1144 01:04:38,139 --> 01:04:38,972 - What do you want me to say? 1145 01:04:38,972 --> 01:04:39,805 I tried to stop him? 1146 01:04:39,805 --> 01:04:40,805 I did it, I did it! 1147 01:04:43,307 --> 01:04:44,680 I smashed up the guitar instead. 1148 01:04:44,681 --> 01:04:48,458 I smashed up the Taylor, 'cause I was pissed. 1149 01:04:57,031 --> 01:04:58,111 I killed her, I killed her. 1150 01:04:59,231 --> 01:05:00,231 - No. 1151 01:05:01,641 --> 01:05:03,407 You didn't. 1152 01:05:03,408 --> 01:05:04,308 He did. 1153 01:05:04,309 --> 01:05:06,025 - I let him! 1154 01:05:10,131 --> 01:05:12,055 - You were 12 years old, Alec. 1155 01:05:22,151 --> 01:05:23,254 So do you sleep? 1156 01:05:32,311 --> 01:05:33,360 - Niacin. 1157 01:05:33,361 --> 01:05:34,271 - Huh? 1158 01:05:34,272 --> 01:05:35,734 - He needs niacin. 1159 01:05:37,901 --> 01:05:39,050 - You a doctor? 1160 01:05:39,051 --> 01:05:40,460 - No. 1161 01:05:40,461 --> 01:05:41,461 - Then nope. 1162 01:05:43,221 --> 01:05:44,221 Why? 1163 01:05:44,941 --> 01:05:45,911 - Anxiety. 1164 01:05:45,912 --> 01:05:47,110 I take them too. 1165 01:05:47,111 --> 01:05:49,330 It's just a vitamin. 1166 01:05:49,331 --> 01:05:51,860 - And you care because... 1167 01:05:51,861 --> 01:05:55,434 - Is there a doctor you could call to approve this? 1168 01:05:56,531 --> 01:05:57,704 - Dr. Hasigawa. 1169 01:06:04,421 --> 01:06:07,390 'Cause he chopped off her head, right? 1170 01:06:07,391 --> 01:06:08,910 - What? 1171 01:06:08,911 --> 01:06:09,911 - Anne Boleyn. 1172 01:06:10,882 --> 01:06:13,432 You said you weren't gonna lose your head in there. 1173 01:06:19,251 --> 01:06:20,690 - I mean, even our names. 1174 01:06:20,691 --> 01:06:22,510 Peter, rock. 1175 01:06:22,511 --> 01:06:25,380 Then I come along, and it's Ingrid, 1176 01:06:25,381 --> 01:06:26,962 beautiful fertility goddess. 1177 01:06:27,797 --> 01:06:30,000 What the heck, Mom? 1178 01:06:30,001 --> 01:06:30,834 - Now, what a minute. 1179 01:06:30,834 --> 01:06:31,667 Wait, wait, wait. 1180 01:06:31,668 --> 01:06:34,040 There was a St. Ingrid, wasn't there? 1181 01:06:34,041 --> 01:06:37,050 - Some dicey, discredited pseudo saint, maybe. 1182 01:06:37,051 --> 01:06:40,190 But compare to you, Saint-frickin'-Peter? 1183 01:06:40,191 --> 01:06:41,450 - Please, Ingrid. 1184 01:06:41,451 --> 01:06:44,220 You were still little when I went to seminary. 1185 01:06:44,221 --> 01:06:46,830 You have no idea what I was like beforehand. 1186 01:06:46,831 --> 01:06:48,360 - Ooh, so tell. 1187 01:06:48,361 --> 01:06:49,614 - Never, little sister. 1188 01:06:51,041 --> 01:06:52,041 - Tell me. 1189 01:06:54,031 --> 01:06:55,031 - All right. 1190 01:06:57,541 --> 01:06:59,920 When Judy broke up with me, I went crazy. 1191 01:06:59,921 --> 01:07:01,260 I mean, completely crazy. 1192 01:07:01,261 --> 01:07:02,350 - Yeah, Judy Franken! 1193 01:07:02,351 --> 01:07:03,390 I thought you were gonna marry her. 1194 01:07:03,391 --> 01:07:04,224 - So did I. 1195 01:07:04,225 --> 01:07:05,630 And the things that I smoke, 1196 01:07:05,631 --> 01:07:06,927 and the things that I drank, and then the girls... 1197 01:07:06,928 --> 01:07:07,861 - No, no, no! 1198 01:07:07,862 --> 01:07:08,990 No! 1199 01:07:08,991 --> 01:07:10,980 I don't wanna see that in my head. 1200 01:07:10,981 --> 01:07:12,410 - Neither do I. 1201 01:07:12,411 --> 01:07:14,050 But I do. 1202 01:07:14,051 --> 01:07:17,174 And every time some wreck of a human walks in the door... 1203 01:07:18,918 --> 01:07:20,734 it reminds me that that could be me. 1204 01:07:21,691 --> 01:07:23,914 - So that's why you're mister grace? 1205 01:07:26,181 --> 01:07:27,674 - To whom much is forgiven. 1206 01:07:29,011 --> 01:07:30,710 See, I'm no better than Alec McCortland. 1207 01:07:30,711 --> 01:07:31,551 I'm... 1208 01:07:31,551 --> 01:07:32,551 just luckier. 1209 01:07:35,561 --> 01:07:36,561 - What is that? 1210 01:07:37,751 --> 01:07:39,654 - Longerman's file on Alec McCortland. 1211 01:07:42,211 --> 01:07:44,670 You still think he's the gun that killed Michael? 1212 01:07:44,671 --> 01:07:45,671 - No. 1213 01:07:46,701 --> 01:07:48,554 Wreck of a human, maybe. 1214 01:07:49,466 --> 01:07:50,923 That kid. 1215 01:07:50,924 --> 01:07:53,154 He's drowning in his own guilt. 1216 01:07:54,646 --> 01:07:55,479 - I know. 1217 01:07:55,480 --> 01:07:59,090 And he won't let anyone take it away from him, and so... 1218 01:07:59,091 --> 01:08:01,350 I'm praying that you can. 1219 01:08:01,351 --> 01:08:02,184 - Save him? 1220 01:08:02,184 --> 01:08:03,131 Oh, no. 1221 01:08:03,132 --> 01:08:06,630 No, I am not in the business of saving Alec McCortland. 1222 01:08:06,631 --> 01:08:07,950 That's your job. 1223 01:08:07,951 --> 01:08:11,470 I'm just working on trying to not hate him. 1224 01:08:11,471 --> 01:08:13,674 - But what if you're the only one who can? 1225 01:08:15,551 --> 01:08:16,384 - Rose! 1226 01:08:16,384 --> 01:08:17,384 Honey! 1227 01:08:20,245 --> 01:08:25,206 ♪ I remember when my life was over ♪ 1228 01:08:25,207 --> 01:08:29,765 ♪ And I remember when it all began again ♪ 1229 01:08:29,766 --> 01:08:33,246 ♪ The old man still a smolder ♪ 1230 01:08:33,247 --> 01:08:38,247 ♪ The new man just a kindling wind ♪ 1231 01:08:40,078 --> 01:08:43,727 ♪ Oh I remember love every day ♪ 1232 01:08:43,728 --> 01:08:47,190 ♪ When happiness and hope on display ♪ 1233 01:08:47,191 --> 01:08:51,138 ♪ And I remember wanting to play ♪ 1234 01:08:51,139 --> 01:08:53,147 ♪ Where the world was so ♪ 1235 01:08:53,148 --> 01:08:56,444 ♪ So far away ♪ 1236 01:08:56,445 --> 01:08:58,842 ♪ Hey ♪ 1237 01:08:58,843 --> 01:09:01,052 ♪ But there's a paradox to living ♪ 1238 01:09:01,053 --> 01:09:04,525 ♪ And the way to get is just by giving ♪ 1239 01:09:04,526 --> 01:09:08,512 ♪ And the way to live is just by dying ♪ 1240 01:09:08,513 --> 01:09:12,359 ♪ And the way to find love is to stop trying ♪ 1241 01:09:12,360 --> 01:09:15,027 ♪ And just love ♪ 1242 01:09:22,381 --> 01:09:23,381 Weapon-free. 1243 01:09:28,881 --> 01:09:29,881 Ew. - Ew. 1244 01:09:33,171 --> 01:09:35,710 I can't believe you came back. 1245 01:09:35,711 --> 01:09:36,711 - I didn't plan to. 1246 01:09:41,171 --> 01:09:42,004 Did you... 1247 01:09:42,005 --> 01:09:43,690 Did you get nia... - Niacin! 1248 01:09:43,691 --> 01:09:44,524 Yes! 1249 01:09:44,525 --> 01:09:46,380 Yeah, it made me itchy. 1250 01:09:46,381 --> 01:09:47,251 - Oh. 1251 01:09:47,252 --> 01:09:48,320 Niacin flush. 1252 01:09:48,321 --> 01:09:49,497 It does that. 1253 01:09:49,498 --> 01:09:51,040 - Yeah, I read about it. 1254 01:09:51,041 --> 01:09:52,420 - Researching? 1255 01:09:52,421 --> 01:09:54,377 To make sure that I wasn't poisoning you? 1256 01:09:55,941 --> 01:09:56,941 - I fell asleep. 1257 01:09:58,801 --> 01:10:00,524 For the first time since the... 1258 01:10:03,251 --> 01:10:04,251 - Well, good. 1259 01:10:06,581 --> 01:10:10,750 I take it, too, for ADD and probably OCD. 1260 01:10:10,751 --> 01:10:13,139 My teacher's called it poor citizenship. 1261 01:10:13,974 --> 01:10:15,920 Even now, when I see "citizenship" on a form, 1262 01:10:15,921 --> 01:10:18,059 I feel like I should write "needs improvement". 1263 01:10:19,961 --> 01:10:20,961 - Yes! 1264 01:10:22,111 --> 01:10:24,630 Oh, I can never, I can never stop the... 1265 01:10:24,631 --> 01:10:25,464 - The what? 1266 01:10:25,465 --> 01:10:26,980 The racing thoughts, the distractions? 1267 01:10:26,981 --> 01:10:27,814 - Oh, crap yeah! 1268 01:10:27,815 --> 01:10:30,620 I mean, sometimes I just feel trapped with... 1269 01:10:30,621 --> 01:10:32,414 - With what, with your thoughts? 1270 01:10:33,901 --> 01:10:34,901 - Are you my friend? 1271 01:10:35,761 --> 01:10:36,850 - Don't push it. 1272 01:10:36,851 --> 01:10:37,974 I'm... 1273 01:10:39,541 --> 01:10:40,511 just here. 1274 01:10:40,512 --> 01:10:42,330 - So I've gotta be religious? 1275 01:10:42,331 --> 01:10:43,944 - You do whatever you want. 1276 01:10:44,861 --> 01:10:46,200 - Before I quit school, 1277 01:10:46,201 --> 01:10:48,770 I used to argue with the religious geeks. 1278 01:10:48,771 --> 01:10:53,000 If God is all-powerful, can he build a football field 1279 01:10:53,001 --> 01:10:56,050 so big even He can't kick a field goal? 1280 01:10:56,051 --> 01:10:57,400 Just to mess with them. 1281 01:10:57,401 --> 01:11:02,401 I used to say, "Man makes God in his image." 1282 01:11:02,929 --> 01:11:04,190 Oh, I thought I was so deep. 1283 01:11:04,191 --> 01:11:05,720 I thought I made that up. 1284 01:11:05,721 --> 01:11:06,554 - You didn't. 1285 01:11:06,555 --> 01:11:07,824 - Yeah, I know. 1286 01:11:09,141 --> 01:11:12,305 I really thought I didn't believe in God anymore. 1287 01:11:12,306 --> 01:11:13,356 It'd be a lot easier. 1288 01:11:14,561 --> 01:11:15,561 - What? 1289 01:11:17,511 --> 01:11:18,511 - Are you my friend? 1290 01:11:24,881 --> 01:11:26,094 I feel trapped with me. 1291 01:11:29,571 --> 01:11:31,050 - You said that... 1292 01:11:31,051 --> 01:11:32,220 you didn't believe? 1293 01:11:32,221 --> 01:11:34,310 But then... 1294 01:11:34,311 --> 01:11:35,644 - Then you came back. 1295 01:11:37,413 --> 01:11:39,913 And there's just no way you'd be here without God. 1296 01:12:15,151 --> 01:12:15,984 - We... 1297 01:12:15,985 --> 01:12:17,620 received communion. 1298 01:12:17,621 --> 01:12:19,400 - I didn't realize you were one of 1299 01:12:19,401 --> 01:12:21,724 Father what's-his-name's little group. 1300 01:12:23,421 --> 01:12:24,660 - I'm not. 1301 01:12:24,661 --> 01:12:28,784 But my brother is Father Wexler, so... 1302 01:12:30,021 --> 01:12:31,990 - Well, I'm glad you're here. 1303 01:12:31,991 --> 01:12:32,824 - There's... 1304 01:12:32,825 --> 01:12:34,800 There's someone else I want you to meet. 1305 01:12:34,801 --> 01:12:35,801 Rose. 1306 01:12:40,601 --> 01:12:42,040 This is Rose. 1307 01:12:42,041 --> 01:12:42,874 She's my... 1308 01:12:42,874 --> 01:12:43,874 - Employee. 1309 01:12:45,101 --> 01:12:47,614 - I was going to say she's like a daughter to me. 1310 01:12:51,001 --> 01:12:52,940 Rose sings. 1311 01:12:52,941 --> 01:12:53,941 - A little. 1312 01:12:54,711 --> 01:12:56,770 - And she is ridiculously smart. 1313 01:12:56,771 --> 01:12:59,604 You know, she's gonna go to UC, pre-law. 1314 01:13:00,511 --> 01:13:01,511 - Cool. 1315 01:13:03,691 --> 01:13:06,140 - Alec wants to major in music. 1316 01:13:06,141 --> 01:13:07,141 Someday. 1317 01:13:09,578 --> 01:13:11,054 - So, why law? 1318 01:13:12,111 --> 01:13:15,340 - A friend of mine was killed, and... 1319 01:13:15,341 --> 01:13:17,350 - And Rose wants to help people. 1320 01:13:17,351 --> 01:13:18,524 - Mama, I can't. 1321 01:13:19,641 --> 01:13:23,130 - She also tutors third graders at Merksen Elementary, 1322 01:13:23,131 --> 01:13:24,210 and all the kids really... 1323 01:13:24,211 --> 01:13:26,410 - He was my boyfriend, actually. 1324 01:13:26,411 --> 01:13:27,244 - Rose, don't! 1325 01:13:27,245 --> 01:13:29,290 - Do you know who I'm talking about? 1326 01:13:29,291 --> 01:13:30,124 - No, no. 1327 01:13:30,125 --> 01:13:31,612 No, I don't. 1328 01:13:34,151 --> 01:13:34,984 Do you mean... 1329 01:13:34,985 --> 01:13:36,060 - Yes! 1330 01:13:36,061 --> 01:13:36,894 Funny. 1331 01:13:36,895 --> 01:13:39,110 He promised me he wouldn't go anywhere, 1332 01:13:39,111 --> 01:13:40,150 that he wouldn't leave me, 1333 01:13:40,151 --> 01:13:42,329 right before I saw him for the last time! 1334 01:13:42,330 --> 01:13:43,163 - What is this? 1335 01:13:43,164 --> 01:13:44,720 - I felt the same way about you, Alec, 1336 01:13:44,721 --> 01:13:46,180 until I met you, and so I thought 1337 01:13:46,181 --> 01:13:48,080 if Rose met you... - But you fixed things, 1338 01:13:48,081 --> 01:13:48,914 didn't you? 1339 01:13:48,915 --> 01:13:50,850 You made sure I'd never see him again! 1340 01:13:50,851 --> 01:13:51,684 - Rose! 1341 01:13:51,685 --> 01:13:54,350 - And now, you're taking her away from me? 1342 01:13:54,351 --> 01:13:55,880 You're like some black hole 1343 01:13:55,881 --> 01:13:57,880 that sucks everything down into it! 1344 01:13:57,881 --> 01:13:58,910 Why law? 1345 01:13:58,911 --> 01:14:01,480 So I can send people like you where they belong! 1346 01:14:01,481 --> 01:14:02,411 - No! 1347 01:14:02,411 --> 01:14:03,244 - What? 1348 01:14:03,245 --> 01:14:04,940 You're gonna hurt me, too? 1349 01:14:04,941 --> 01:14:07,420 Well, guess what, you already have! 1350 01:14:07,421 --> 01:14:08,421 - Rose! 1351 01:14:11,981 --> 01:14:12,814 Rose? 1352 01:14:12,815 --> 01:14:14,550 I'm sorry! 1353 01:14:14,551 --> 01:14:15,821 I thought... 1354 01:14:15,822 --> 01:14:16,655 Honey, listen. 1355 01:14:16,656 --> 01:14:18,383 Just wait a second. 1356 01:14:20,844 --> 01:14:22,330 - It's okay, officer. 1357 01:14:22,331 --> 01:14:23,281 He knows me. 1358 01:14:23,282 --> 01:14:24,537 Can I talk to him? 1359 01:14:24,538 --> 01:14:25,371 Would that be okay? 1360 01:14:25,371 --> 01:14:26,371 - Five minutes! 1361 01:14:31,141 --> 01:14:32,111 - You break that bad enough, 1362 01:14:32,112 --> 01:14:33,961 you won't be able to play the guitar. 1363 01:14:36,001 --> 01:14:38,410 Penance, of course! 1364 01:14:38,411 --> 01:14:40,060 - What? 1365 01:14:40,061 --> 01:14:40,961 - You give up. 1366 01:14:40,962 --> 01:14:42,820 The only thing that you have, and maybe God was... 1367 01:14:42,821 --> 01:14:44,654 - No, I was just pissed! 1368 01:14:47,471 --> 01:14:50,470 - Real penance isn't a knife to cut. 1369 01:14:50,471 --> 01:14:51,994 It's medicine to heal. 1370 01:14:55,101 --> 01:14:56,480 - Whatever. 1371 01:14:56,481 --> 01:14:57,970 Doesn't matter. 1372 01:14:57,971 --> 01:14:59,354 I'm walkin' dead anyway. 1373 01:15:05,481 --> 01:15:06,481 - Me too. 1374 01:15:07,461 --> 01:15:08,461 - What? 1375 01:15:09,541 --> 01:15:11,070 - Walking dead. 1376 01:15:11,071 --> 01:15:12,164 Zombies. 1377 01:15:13,031 --> 01:15:14,790 We all are. 1378 01:15:14,791 --> 01:15:16,474 - Psycho priest. 1379 01:15:17,921 --> 01:15:20,080 - Did you ever see I Am Legend? 1380 01:15:20,081 --> 01:15:21,330 - What, the movie? 1381 01:15:21,331 --> 01:15:22,331 - With Will Smith. 1382 01:15:23,401 --> 01:15:24,234 - I don't know. 1383 01:15:24,235 --> 01:15:25,860 Maybe. 1384 01:15:25,861 --> 01:15:27,570 - The book was better. 1385 01:15:27,571 --> 01:15:29,544 But it's a great theology text. 1386 01:15:30,941 --> 01:15:34,980 See, there's this man, the Will Smith character. 1387 01:15:34,981 --> 01:15:37,820 And he hunts zombies, right? 1388 01:15:37,821 --> 01:15:41,141 In the end, they capture him, and he finds out 1389 01:15:42,366 --> 01:15:44,340 that some of them are still alive. 1390 01:15:44,341 --> 01:15:47,100 Some of the ones that he's been killing. 1391 01:15:47,101 --> 01:15:49,450 - Living walking dead? 1392 01:15:49,451 --> 01:15:50,850 - The book is great! 1393 01:15:50,851 --> 01:15:51,920 Seriously. 1394 01:15:51,921 --> 01:15:54,780 It turns out they have these pills, 1395 01:15:54,781 --> 01:15:58,300 this medicine, that keeps them alive. 1396 01:15:58,301 --> 01:16:00,284 So, even thought they're zombies, 1397 01:16:01,291 --> 01:16:05,040 they don't eat people like the dead dead ones do. 1398 01:16:05,041 --> 01:16:06,230 They watch out for each other, 1399 01:16:06,231 --> 01:16:07,781 and they keep each other alive. 1400 01:16:08,811 --> 01:16:10,220 - You're a total geek. 1401 01:16:10,221 --> 01:16:12,800 - The geeks shall inherit the earth. 1402 01:16:12,801 --> 01:16:13,920 - Isn't that the meek? 1403 01:16:13,921 --> 01:16:14,940 - Ha! 1404 01:16:14,941 --> 01:16:16,774 You do know your bible! 1405 01:16:18,741 --> 01:16:20,330 See... 1406 01:16:20,331 --> 01:16:21,534 we have the pill. 1407 01:16:23,041 --> 01:16:24,041 - What? 1408 01:16:25,151 --> 01:16:26,960 - Jesus... 1409 01:16:26,961 --> 01:16:28,640 is our pill. 1410 01:16:28,641 --> 01:16:29,874 He keeps us alive. 1411 01:16:31,661 --> 01:16:35,991 We breathe out the disease that makes us walking dead 1412 01:16:37,161 --> 01:16:42,161 when we confess our sins and take in his life and his blood. 1413 01:16:44,361 --> 01:16:49,014 The ability to be alive, even though we were dead. 1414 01:17:18,091 --> 01:17:19,700 - Look, I'm so sorry. 1415 01:17:19,701 --> 01:17:21,330 No, I'm sorry. 1416 01:17:21,331 --> 01:17:22,201 - I brought someone. 1417 01:17:22,202 --> 01:17:24,721 - No, no, no, no, no, no, please! 1418 01:19:04,354 --> 01:19:06,220 - It's okay, Mom. 1419 01:19:06,221 --> 01:19:07,071 - Michael, I... 1420 01:19:07,072 --> 01:19:08,620 - I know. 1421 01:19:08,621 --> 01:19:09,621 I love you. 1422 01:19:15,824 --> 01:19:17,204 - I love you too, Michael. 1423 01:19:24,431 --> 01:19:27,110 - Michael was like, maybe, 13. 1424 01:19:27,111 --> 01:19:30,190 And after mass one Sunday, he goes up, 1425 01:19:30,191 --> 01:19:31,577 in the middle of everyone, and says, 1426 01:19:31,578 --> 01:19:34,228 "Papa Peter, how do I get girls?" 1427 01:19:37,057 --> 01:19:39,230 He had this mischievous innocence. 1428 01:19:39,231 --> 01:19:40,790 - Oh, I wish I'd known him. 1429 01:19:40,791 --> 01:19:42,341 - Oh, you would have loved him. 1430 01:19:43,991 --> 01:19:47,837 So anyway, Peter looks at my son and says, 1431 01:19:47,838 --> 01:19:49,890 "There are three things that girls like." 1432 01:19:49,891 --> 01:19:52,370 And then, he notices that, right there, 1433 01:19:52,371 --> 01:19:54,010 there's this group of little old ladies, 1434 01:19:54,011 --> 01:19:56,480 and they are standing there with their mouths hanging open. 1435 01:19:56,481 --> 01:19:58,357 And he looks at 'em, and he goes, "What? 1436 01:19:58,358 --> 01:20:00,006 "I wasn't born a priest." 1437 01:20:01,975 --> 01:20:03,210 Crazy! 1438 01:20:03,211 --> 01:20:04,500 - He's kinda demented, you know? 1439 01:20:04,501 --> 01:20:05,401 - Yes. 1440 01:20:05,402 --> 01:20:08,360 - Massively into Star Trek and zombies? 1441 01:20:08,361 --> 01:20:09,194 - Oh! 1442 01:20:09,195 --> 01:20:11,110 And don't even get him started on The Beatles. 1443 01:20:11,111 --> 01:20:13,960 Saint John, Saint Paul, Saint George, Saint Ringo! 1444 01:20:13,961 --> 01:20:14,794 - Seriously? 1445 01:20:14,794 --> 01:20:15,627 - Oh yeah. 1446 01:20:15,628 --> 01:20:17,860 - Well, they only reinvented music. 1447 01:20:17,861 --> 01:20:20,940 Backtracking, phase shifting, multi-tracking, 1448 01:20:20,941 --> 01:20:23,670 and their chord progressions are totally sick! 1449 01:20:23,671 --> 01:20:27,350 - You know, one Sunday he did an entire homily 1450 01:20:27,351 --> 01:20:29,227 on the lyrics of "Blackbird". 1451 01:20:29,228 --> 01:20:32,197 "Take these sunken eyes and learn to see." 1452 01:20:32,198 --> 01:20:33,407 - "All your life. 1453 01:20:33,408 --> 01:20:34,447 "You were only waiting..." 1454 01:20:34,448 --> 01:20:36,780 - "For this moment to be free." 1455 01:20:36,781 --> 01:20:37,781 Whew. 1456 01:20:39,621 --> 01:20:41,584 - So, I finished that song. 1457 01:20:44,003 --> 01:20:44,964 - Wh... 1458 01:20:44,965 --> 01:20:46,250 The one that you couldn't... 1459 01:20:46,251 --> 01:20:47,251 - Yeah. 1460 01:20:48,081 --> 01:20:49,214 - Well... - I just... 1461 01:20:50,171 --> 01:20:53,300 Finally figure out that it wasn't about a girl. 1462 01:20:53,301 --> 01:20:54,534 - Well sing it to me. 1463 01:21:02,409 --> 01:21:05,181 ♪ Been looking for love ♪ 1464 01:21:05,182 --> 01:21:08,321 ♪ That can never be broken ♪ 1465 01:21:08,322 --> 01:21:10,913 ♪ Impossible love ♪ 1466 01:21:10,914 --> 01:21:13,614 ♪ That couldn't exist ♪ 1467 01:21:13,615 --> 01:21:16,378 ♪ A love that can hear me ♪ 1468 01:21:16,379 --> 01:21:19,725 ♪ When words are not spoken ♪ 1469 01:21:19,726 --> 01:21:23,738 ♪ But even my unfaithful heart ♪ 1470 01:21:23,739 --> 01:21:27,439 ♪ Can't resist ♪ 1471 01:21:27,440 --> 01:21:30,287 ♪ Maybe I'll never know ♪ 1472 01:21:30,288 --> 01:21:33,697 ♪ If I can find you ♪ 1473 01:21:33,698 --> 01:21:38,535 ♪ Or if you are even alive ♪ 1474 01:21:38,536 --> 01:21:41,004 ♪ But you are the one ♪ 1475 01:21:41,005 --> 01:21:45,164 ♪ Thing that I bind to ♪ 1476 01:21:45,165 --> 01:21:50,165 ♪ The reason that I can survive ♪ 1477 01:21:50,394 --> 01:21:55,063 ♪ I need you to light up ♪ 1478 01:21:55,064 --> 01:22:00,064 ♪ These dark lonely halls ♪ 1479 01:22:00,764 --> 01:22:05,764 ♪ Need to know you know ♪ 1480 01:22:06,136 --> 01:22:11,136 ♪ My innermost walls ♪ 1481 01:22:11,757 --> 01:22:14,933 ♪ Need you to live ♪ 1482 01:22:14,934 --> 01:22:19,934 ♪ Where I've wandered alone ♪ 1483 01:22:20,993 --> 01:22:24,482 ♪ Need you to make ♪ 1484 01:22:24,483 --> 01:22:27,983 ♪ My heart into your home ♪ 1485 01:22:32,852 --> 01:22:34,954 - Not just your song, Alec. 1486 01:22:36,831 --> 01:22:37,880 - I'm... 1487 01:22:37,881 --> 01:22:40,090 pretty freaked out about going back to court. 1488 01:22:40,091 --> 01:22:41,091 - I know. 1489 01:22:42,571 --> 01:22:44,080 - Would... 1490 01:22:44,081 --> 01:22:45,830 Could you pray for me? 1491 01:22:45,831 --> 01:22:46,664 - Sure! 1492 01:22:46,665 --> 01:22:48,463 We'll pray together. - No! 1493 01:22:48,464 --> 01:22:49,464 Just you. 1494 01:22:56,001 --> 01:22:57,660 - Lord... 1495 01:22:57,661 --> 01:22:59,844 bless this young man tomorrow. 1496 01:23:00,891 --> 01:23:01,724 Be with him... 1497 01:23:01,725 --> 01:23:03,080 - We have heard well-prepared presentation 1498 01:23:03,081 --> 01:23:05,450 by councils Longerman and Gitmeier, 1499 01:23:05,451 --> 01:23:08,380 and I see no reason not to rule at this time. 1500 01:23:08,381 --> 01:23:10,640 Alec McCortland, this court has shown 1501 01:23:10,641 --> 01:23:13,910 tremendous leniency on your behalf. 1502 01:23:13,911 --> 01:23:15,960 It is the very real intent 1503 01:23:15,961 --> 01:23:18,050 of the Hamilton County Juvenile System 1504 01:23:18,051 --> 01:23:21,974 to rehabilitate young people, not throw them away. 1505 01:23:22,881 --> 01:23:25,190 But when every effort fails, 1506 01:23:25,191 --> 01:23:27,180 your almost immediate violation 1507 01:23:27,181 --> 01:23:29,160 of court order, Mr. McCortland, 1508 01:23:29,161 --> 01:23:32,240 coupled with the clear warning I gave you previously, 1509 01:23:32,241 --> 01:23:35,774 speak loudly of your need for harsher discipline. 1510 01:23:37,061 --> 01:23:40,980 Yes, defense has made a dramatic case. 1511 01:23:40,981 --> 01:23:44,070 It is extraordinary that Mrs. Ambelin would visit 1512 01:23:44,071 --> 01:23:47,794 or even be allowed to visit Mr. McCortland in lockup. 1513 01:23:48,661 --> 01:23:50,920 However, such circumstances say more 1514 01:23:50,921 --> 01:23:54,530 about Mrs. Ambelin's character than yours. 1515 01:23:54,531 --> 01:23:57,180 You have shown no willingness to change. 1516 01:23:57,181 --> 01:23:59,480 Hence, I am inclined to sentence you 1517 01:23:59,481 --> 01:24:02,140 to extended incarceration at DYS 1518 01:24:02,141 --> 01:24:05,330 until the age of 25, at which time... 1519 01:24:05,331 --> 01:24:06,944 - He has changed, Your Honor. 1520 01:24:11,311 --> 01:24:14,000 - Mrs. Ambelin, this hearing is concluding. 1521 01:24:14,001 --> 01:24:16,150 There are procedures for testifying. 1522 01:24:16,151 --> 01:24:18,420 Mr. McCortland's defense did not submit any... 1523 01:24:18,421 --> 01:24:20,340 - He doesn't know anything about this. 1524 01:24:20,341 --> 01:24:22,830 I'm sorry, Your Honor, it's just... 1525 01:24:22,831 --> 01:24:25,840 Would it change the outcome if Alec... 1526 01:24:25,841 --> 01:24:28,524 If Mr. McCortland had a legal guardian? 1527 01:24:31,661 --> 01:24:33,020 - It might. 1528 01:24:33,021 --> 01:24:35,750 But Mrs. Ambeline, CPS has documented the fact 1529 01:24:35,751 --> 01:24:39,020 that Mr. McCortland does not have a legal guardian. 1530 01:24:39,021 --> 01:24:42,191 - I have applied for legal guardianship of Alec McCortland. 1531 01:25:30,631 --> 01:25:31,716 - We do it this time, 1532 01:25:31,717 --> 01:25:32,550 my way! - Let's do it. 1533 01:25:32,550 --> 01:25:33,383 - All right? 1534 01:25:33,384 --> 01:25:34,410 Let's go! - Let's go? 1535 01:25:34,411 --> 01:25:35,271 - We're done! 1536 01:25:35,272 --> 01:25:37,484 Let's go. - All right, let's go. 1537 01:25:38,961 --> 01:25:40,050 - I'm very sorry, but I don't... 1538 01:25:40,051 --> 01:25:40,884 - You're sorry? 1539 01:25:40,885 --> 01:25:41,924 How do you lose a child? 1540 01:25:41,925 --> 01:25:42,781 - I didn't lose a child. 1541 01:25:42,781 --> 01:25:43,614 - He's not even 18! 1542 01:25:43,614 --> 01:25:44,491 - Can I help you? 1543 01:25:44,492 --> 01:25:45,500 - Yes. 1544 01:25:45,501 --> 01:25:46,491 My... 1545 01:25:46,492 --> 01:25:49,120 Alec McCortland was supposed to be brought here 1546 01:25:49,121 --> 01:25:51,190 half an hour ago by Detective Carny. 1547 01:25:51,191 --> 01:25:52,462 - We're aware of that Mrs... 1548 01:25:52,463 --> 01:25:53,517 - Ambelin! 1549 01:25:53,518 --> 01:25:54,351 It's Mrs. Ambelin! 1550 01:25:54,351 --> 01:25:55,184 - Carny's car was here... 1551 01:25:55,185 --> 01:25:57,120 - Did you call Detective Carny? 1552 01:25:57,121 --> 01:25:58,740 - Yes, but he never answered. 1553 01:25:58,741 --> 01:26:01,480 When the car ex-officers are on duty, they usually... 1554 01:26:01,481 --> 01:26:04,070 - We really should wait until we hear from Carny. 1555 01:26:04,071 --> 01:26:04,904 - What? 1556 01:26:04,905 --> 01:26:07,210 Wait til he gets off of work a couple hours from now? 1557 01:26:07,211 --> 01:26:09,530 Alec could be dead by then. 1558 01:26:09,531 --> 01:26:10,391 - What if you find him? 1559 01:26:10,392 --> 01:26:12,410 I mean, what are you gonna do? 1560 01:26:12,411 --> 01:26:13,880 - I don't know, Peter. 1561 01:26:13,881 --> 01:26:16,181 But I just can't sit here and not do anything. 1562 01:26:17,909 --> 01:26:18,909 - Ingrid! 1563 01:26:28,581 --> 01:26:29,581 - What up H? 1564 01:26:45,241 --> 01:26:46,870 So... 1565 01:26:46,871 --> 01:26:47,871 Listen, dude. 1566 01:26:48,721 --> 01:26:50,590 I got some contacts in the burbs. 1567 01:26:50,591 --> 01:26:51,491 - What are you sayin'? 1568 01:26:51,492 --> 01:26:54,241 - You know rich white kids, just itchin' for this shit. 1569 01:26:59,881 --> 01:27:01,331 - Where did he get the money? 1570 01:27:02,258 --> 01:27:03,874 And why is he still there? 1571 01:27:05,651 --> 01:27:06,690 - We can't handle this ourselves. 1572 01:27:06,691 --> 01:27:07,691 I'm callin' Carny. 1573 01:27:11,428 --> 01:27:12,505 - You Daymond? 1574 01:27:12,506 --> 01:27:13,339 - What's up? 1575 01:27:13,340 --> 01:27:15,931 - Daymond, I got a way for us to make some money. 1576 01:27:15,932 --> 01:27:18,262 - Ingrid, no! 1577 01:27:18,263 --> 01:27:19,646 - Alec! 1578 01:27:19,647 --> 01:27:20,960 - Who the hell's this? 1579 01:27:20,961 --> 01:27:21,961 Who is she? 1580 01:27:23,013 --> 01:27:24,173 - No, no, no, no, no, no, no! 1581 01:27:34,776 --> 01:27:37,852 - Stay with me. - No, no, no, no, no, no, no. 1582 01:27:37,853 --> 01:27:39,231 You're okay. 1583 01:27:39,232 --> 01:27:40,660 You're okay, you're okay, you're okay. 1584 01:27:40,661 --> 01:27:41,870 - Police, stop! 1585 01:27:41,871 --> 01:27:45,370 - Through this holy oil and His great mercy, 1586 01:27:45,371 --> 01:27:46,989 may God forgive you for any sins 1587 01:27:46,990 --> 01:27:49,744 that you may have committed. 1588 01:27:49,745 --> 01:27:53,078 - You're okay, you're okay, you're okay. 1589 01:28:12,332 --> 01:28:13,749 - It was a sting. 1590 01:28:16,766 --> 01:28:18,217 - What? 1591 01:28:18,218 --> 01:28:20,174 - You think I just happened to show up? 1592 01:28:21,151 --> 01:28:22,400 Look, it was his idea. 1593 01:28:22,401 --> 01:28:24,700 He said he would do it with or without us. 1594 01:28:24,701 --> 01:28:25,924 So I said... 1595 01:28:27,851 --> 01:28:29,693 Look, it wasn't supposed to go down like that. 1596 01:28:29,694 --> 01:28:30,970 - He's 17! 1597 01:28:30,971 --> 01:28:33,063 - We've been trying to nail this guy for months! 1598 01:28:33,064 --> 01:28:33,941 - I don't care what you've been trying! 1599 01:28:33,942 --> 01:28:35,700 You don't put a kid at risk! 1600 01:28:35,701 --> 01:28:36,681 And my sister! 1601 01:28:36,681 --> 01:28:37,681 - I heard. 1602 01:28:40,592 --> 01:28:41,592 - Go. 1603 01:28:45,491 --> 01:28:47,614 - I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 1604 01:28:48,651 --> 01:28:50,600 - Look, I know I screwed up. 1605 01:28:50,601 --> 01:28:52,070 And Judge Graham knows it, too. 1606 01:28:52,071 --> 01:28:52,904 Trust me. 1607 01:28:52,905 --> 01:28:54,634 She set me straight on procedure. 1608 01:28:55,801 --> 01:28:58,780 But the shooter and the kingpin are down for the count. 1609 01:28:58,781 --> 01:29:00,490 Look, the guy's phone list is golden. 1610 01:29:00,491 --> 01:29:02,244 All kinds of NTs are on there. 1611 01:29:03,941 --> 01:29:05,190 Anyway... 1612 01:29:05,191 --> 01:29:07,480 the kid's be readmitted to Merskin. 1613 01:29:07,481 --> 01:29:08,670 You're authorized to pick him up 1614 01:29:08,671 --> 01:29:10,240 and bring him back at any time. 1615 01:29:10,241 --> 01:29:11,391 The hours are on there. 1616 01:29:14,021 --> 01:29:15,021 - Thanks. 1617 01:29:19,381 --> 01:29:20,621 - I'm sorry, Father. 1618 01:29:46,381 --> 01:29:47,581 - For when you're ready. 1619 01:30:05,115 --> 01:30:08,341 ♪ Life is just a game we play ♪ 1620 01:30:08,342 --> 01:30:12,959 ♪ To pass away the years ♪ 1621 01:30:12,960 --> 01:30:16,135 ♪ Yeah that's what I used to say ♪ 1622 01:30:16,136 --> 01:30:20,130 ♪ But it never stopped one tear ♪ 1623 01:30:20,131 --> 01:30:24,291 ♪ And a tear is just a drop you see ♪ 1624 01:30:24,292 --> 01:30:28,085 ♪ In an ocean of regrets ♪ 1625 01:30:28,086 --> 01:30:32,435 ♪ And a sea of grief could never free ♪ 1626 01:30:32,436 --> 01:30:36,232 ♪ A heart so far in debt ♪ 1627 01:30:36,233 --> 01:30:41,233 ♪ In debt ♪ 1628 01:30:44,215 --> 01:30:48,123 ♪ Even though I know I'm not enough ♪ 1629 01:30:48,124 --> 01:30:52,056 ♪ I keep trying anyway ♪ 1630 01:30:52,057 --> 01:30:56,117 ♪ I keep thinking when I'm up to snuff ♪ 1631 01:30:56,118 --> 01:31:00,424 ♪ I could blow this fog away ♪ 1632 01:31:00,425 --> 01:31:04,386 ♪ But if I had a million years ♪ 1633 01:31:04,387 --> 01:31:08,161 ♪ And all my Sundays too ♪ 1634 01:31:08,162 --> 01:31:12,094 ♪ I could never set the balance straight ♪ 1635 01:31:12,095 --> 01:31:15,393 ♪ For the things I didn't do ♪ 1636 01:31:15,394 --> 01:31:20,394 ♪ Didn't do ♪ 1637 01:31:25,026 --> 01:31:29,177 ♪ Some day I'll know ♪ 1638 01:31:29,178 --> 01:31:31,578 ♪ And I'll never forget ♪ 1639 01:31:31,579 --> 01:31:33,154 ♪ No no no ♪ 1640 01:31:33,155 --> 01:31:36,402 ♪ What I do in the end's what matters ♪ 1641 01:31:36,403 --> 01:31:40,986 ♪ So I won't fall in love with regrets ♪ 1642 01:31:47,431 --> 01:31:49,511 ♪ No regrets ♪ 1643 01:31:49,512 --> 01:31:53,110 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1644 01:31:53,111 --> 01:31:57,096 ♪ Da da da da ♪ 1645 01:31:57,097 --> 01:32:01,083 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1646 01:32:01,084 --> 01:32:03,518 ♪ Da da da ♪ 1647 01:32:03,519 --> 01:32:05,282 ♪ No regrets ♪ 1648 01:32:05,283 --> 01:32:09,019 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1649 01:32:09,020 --> 01:32:13,082 ♪ Da da da ♪ 1650 01:32:13,083 --> 01:32:16,857 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1651 01:32:16,858 --> 01:32:21,095 ♪ Da da da ♪ 1652 01:32:21,096 --> 01:32:25,163 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1653 01:32:25,164 --> 01:32:27,414 ♪ Da da da ♪ 1654 01:32:29,121 --> 01:32:32,240 You can see the difference even while she's sleeping. 1655 01:32:32,241 --> 01:32:34,440 Now, had we argued, she would've woke up 1656 01:32:34,441 --> 01:32:35,991 and told us we were both wrong. 1657 01:32:37,771 --> 01:32:38,860 I'll pick you up first tomorrow, 1658 01:32:38,861 --> 01:32:40,970 and you can help me bring her home. 1659 01:32:40,971 --> 01:32:41,804 - I should go. 1660 01:32:41,804 --> 01:32:42,637 - Why, Alec? 1661 01:32:42,637 --> 01:32:43,470 You belong here! 1662 01:32:43,470 --> 01:32:44,303 - No, no, I can't. 1663 01:32:44,304 --> 01:32:45,730 - It was your prayers. 1664 01:32:45,731 --> 01:32:46,564 - I put her here! 1665 01:32:46,565 --> 01:32:48,040 Don't you get that? 1666 01:32:48,041 --> 01:32:49,380 - No, stop it! 1667 01:32:49,381 --> 01:32:50,381 Stop it! 1668 01:32:53,203 --> 01:32:54,036 - What? 1669 01:32:54,037 --> 01:32:56,190 - You are not the center of the universe, Alec! 1670 01:32:56,191 --> 01:32:58,590 Things don't happen just because of you! 1671 01:32:58,591 --> 01:33:00,267 You think God gets up every morning and says, 1672 01:33:00,268 --> 01:33:02,187 "Boy, I'd like to do a lot of terrific stuff today, 1673 01:33:02,188 --> 01:33:04,427 "but I just can't, because Alec's gonna screw it up"? 1674 01:33:04,428 --> 01:33:05,540 - How can you say that? 1675 01:33:05,541 --> 01:33:06,374 - Say what? 1676 01:33:06,375 --> 01:33:07,750 Talk like I'm a regular person? 1677 01:33:07,751 --> 01:33:10,300 Because I am a regular person, Alec. 1678 01:33:10,301 --> 01:33:13,060 I eat, I sleep, I poop, I have stupid ideas 1679 01:33:13,061 --> 01:33:15,080 that can be more simple than you might think. 1680 01:33:15,081 --> 01:33:17,500 But that's when God invades me again! 1681 01:33:17,501 --> 01:33:19,460 Because that's what He does! 1682 01:33:19,461 --> 01:33:21,150 He is my medicine for stupid! 1683 01:33:21,151 --> 01:33:22,287 He's the pill that keeps me alive! 1684 01:33:22,288 --> 01:33:23,990 - No, I can't let him inside! 1685 01:33:23,991 --> 01:33:25,930 Don't you get that, you psycho? 1686 01:33:25,931 --> 01:33:27,050 It's full of shit in here! 1687 01:33:27,051 --> 01:33:29,490 Full of shit and darkness and hell, 1688 01:33:29,491 --> 01:33:30,960 and I just fucking can't! 1689 01:33:30,961 --> 01:33:32,880 - He's already inside! 1690 01:33:32,881 --> 01:33:33,995 Let him finish what he started! 1691 01:33:33,996 --> 01:33:35,644 - No, no, I can't. 1692 01:33:37,162 --> 01:33:38,152 Let go of me. 1693 01:33:38,153 --> 01:33:39,319 Get off of me! 1694 01:33:44,520 --> 01:33:46,141 Just get off. 1695 01:33:46,142 --> 01:33:47,225 Just get off! 1696 01:33:48,241 --> 01:33:49,074 No! 1697 01:33:49,074 --> 01:33:49,907 No, no. 1698 01:33:49,907 --> 01:33:50,740 Just let me go. 1699 01:33:50,741 --> 01:33:54,030 - It is time for you to stop thinking about yourself! 1700 01:33:54,031 --> 01:33:57,100 That woman over there, that crazy, wonderful, 1701 01:33:57,101 --> 01:33:58,787 caffeinated Madonna needs your love! 1702 01:33:58,788 --> 01:34:00,320 - No, no, I don't deserve it. 1703 01:34:00,321 --> 01:34:01,580 - Of course you don't! 1704 01:34:01,581 --> 01:34:02,620 None of us do! 1705 01:34:02,621 --> 01:34:04,271 Haven't you figured that out yet? 1706 01:34:05,261 --> 01:34:07,431 You're her son. 1707 01:34:07,432 --> 01:34:08,311 - No. 1708 01:34:08,311 --> 01:34:09,171 No, I'm the one 1709 01:34:09,171 --> 01:34:10,051 who killed her son. - Tell God. 1710 01:34:10,052 --> 01:34:11,980 He's the one who made the arrangement. 1711 01:34:11,981 --> 01:34:12,901 I'm merely an observer. 1712 01:34:12,902 --> 01:34:14,460 - No, no, it was me. 1713 01:34:14,461 --> 01:34:16,134 I killed her son. 1714 01:34:17,865 --> 01:34:20,160 And I killed my mother, and I almost killed her. 1715 01:34:20,161 --> 01:34:21,811 - And you're leaving someone out. 1716 01:34:23,441 --> 01:34:24,774 Who put him there? 1717 01:34:32,395 --> 01:34:33,617 - I did. 1718 01:34:33,618 --> 01:34:34,618 - I did. 1719 01:34:36,778 --> 01:34:37,844 - And so did I. 1720 01:34:40,784 --> 01:34:42,150 - No. 1721 01:34:42,151 --> 01:34:42,984 No, no, no. 1722 01:34:42,985 --> 01:34:44,264 After what I did to you? 1723 01:34:45,391 --> 01:34:46,391 The bullet? 1724 01:34:48,261 --> 01:34:50,244 - I chose that bullet, Alec. 1725 01:34:51,342 --> 01:34:52,342 And he chose that. 1726 01:34:56,131 --> 01:34:57,494 - You saved my life. 1727 01:34:59,491 --> 01:35:00,491 Twice. 1728 01:35:02,411 --> 01:35:04,170 - No choice. 1729 01:35:04,171 --> 01:35:05,184 You're my pearl. 1730 01:35:07,801 --> 01:35:08,801 It's a long story. 1731 01:35:23,131 --> 01:35:25,331 - I think I'm ready to go to confession now. 1732 01:35:35,824 --> 01:35:38,280 ♪ Been looking for love ♪ 1733 01:35:38,281 --> 01:35:40,739 ♪ That can never be broken ♪ 1734 01:35:40,740 --> 01:35:43,109 ♪ Impossible love ♪ 1735 01:35:43,110 --> 01:35:45,583 ♪ That couldn't exist ♪ 1736 01:35:45,584 --> 01:35:48,096 ♪ A love that can hear me ♪ 1737 01:35:48,097 --> 01:35:50,619 ♪ When words are not spoken ♪ 1738 01:35:50,620 --> 01:35:54,778 ♪ That even my unfaithful heart ♪ 1739 01:35:54,779 --> 01:35:59,779 ♪ Can't resist ♪ 1740 01:36:00,411 --> 01:36:02,751 ♪ Maybe I'll never know ♪ 1741 01:36:02,752 --> 01:36:05,409 ♪ If I can find you ♪ 1742 01:36:05,410 --> 01:36:10,087 ♪ Or if you are even alive ♪ 1743 01:36:10,088 --> 01:36:12,505 ♪ But you are the one ♪ 1744 01:36:12,506 --> 01:36:15,130 ♪ Thing that I bind to ♪ 1745 01:36:15,131 --> 01:36:20,131 ♪ The reason that I can survive ♪ 1746 01:36:22,140 --> 01:36:27,140 ♪ I need you to light up ♪ 1747 01:36:27,154 --> 01:36:32,154 ♪ These dark lonely halls ♪ 1748 01:36:32,600 --> 01:36:36,727 ♪ Need to know you know ♪ 1749 01:36:36,728 --> 01:36:41,728 ♪ My innermost walls ♪ 1750 01:36:42,305 --> 01:36:45,550 ♪ Need you to live ♪ 1751 01:36:45,551 --> 01:36:50,551 ♪ Where I've wandered alone ♪ 1752 01:36:52,357 --> 01:36:55,687 ♪ Need you to make ♪ 1753 01:36:55,688 --> 01:36:59,188 ♪ My heart into your home ♪ 1754 01:37:08,789 --> 01:37:13,789 ♪ Well I heard of a man who vanished completely ♪ 1755 01:37:13,846 --> 01:37:18,738 ♪ Had riches and power like an old king of Spain ♪ 1756 01:37:18,739 --> 01:37:23,638 ♪ But nobody whispered or spoke his name sweetly ♪ 1757 01:37:23,639 --> 01:37:28,639 ♪ In the end he was only a stain on the world ♪ 1758 01:37:33,440 --> 01:37:38,428 ♪ Maybe I'll never know if I can find you ♪ 1759 01:37:38,429 --> 01:37:43,182 ♪ Or if you are even alive ♪ 1760 01:37:43,183 --> 01:37:45,593 ♪ But you are the one ♪ 1761 01:37:45,594 --> 01:37:48,168 ♪ Thing that I bind to ♪ - Is that your mom? 1762 01:37:48,169 --> 01:37:52,471 ♪ The reason that I can survive ♪ 1763 01:37:52,472 --> 01:37:53,472 - Yup. 1764 01:37:55,463 --> 01:38:00,026 ♪ I need you to light up ♪ 1765 01:38:00,027 --> 01:38:05,027 ♪ These dark lonely halls ♪ 1766 01:38:05,365 --> 01:38:09,672 ♪ Need to know you know ♪ 1767 01:38:09,673 --> 01:38:14,673 ♪ My innermost walls ♪ 1768 01:38:15,352 --> 01:38:18,740 ♪ Need you to live ♪ 1769 01:38:18,741 --> 01:38:23,741 ♪ Where I've wandered alone ♪ 1770 01:38:25,098 --> 01:38:28,520 ♪ Need you to make ♪ 1771 01:38:28,521 --> 01:38:33,521 ♪ My heart into your home ♪ 1772 01:38:34,912 --> 01:38:38,269 ♪ Need you to live ♪ 1773 01:38:38,270 --> 01:38:43,270 ♪ Where I've wandered alone ♪ 1774 01:38:44,539 --> 01:38:47,925 ♪ Need you to make ♪ 1775 01:38:47,926 --> 01:38:51,426 ♪ My heart into your home ♪ 1776 01:39:15,776 --> 01:39:18,703 ♪ Father I'm on fire ♪ 1777 01:39:18,704 --> 01:39:22,107 ♪ And I'm burning up for you ♪ 1778 01:39:22,108 --> 01:39:25,567 ♪ 'Cause it's filled me with desire ♪ 1779 01:39:25,568 --> 01:39:30,568 ♪ To know what's really truly in your will for me ♪ 1780 01:39:31,496 --> 01:39:35,436 ♪ I know that you will show me ♪ 1781 01:39:35,437 --> 01:39:40,437 ♪ 'Cause you answer every knock on your door ♪ 1782 01:39:42,521 --> 01:39:45,433 ♪ Lord I'm just a baby ♪ 1783 01:39:45,434 --> 01:39:48,806 ♪ But I'm learning how to crawl ♪ 1784 01:39:48,807 --> 01:39:52,499 ♪ And I hope that someday maybe ♪ 1785 01:39:52,500 --> 01:39:57,500 ♪ I can grow up taller than I stood before ♪ 1786 01:39:58,545 --> 01:40:02,108 ♪ And I know you'll use me more ♪ 1787 01:40:02,109 --> 01:40:07,109 ♪ 'Cause you answer every knock on your door ♪ 1788 01:40:08,978 --> 01:40:12,205 ♪ And I'd like to sing this song out loud ♪ 1789 01:40:12,206 --> 01:40:15,614 ♪ So everyone can hear ♪ 1790 01:40:15,615 --> 01:40:18,917 ♪ And if there's someone in the crowd ♪ 1791 01:40:18,918 --> 01:40:23,918 ♪ That's longing to get nearer to thee ♪ 1792 01:40:24,819 --> 01:40:28,722 ♪ Then Father work through me ♪ 1793 01:40:28,723 --> 01:40:30,736 ♪ 'Cause you changed my life ♪ 1794 01:40:30,737 --> 01:40:34,237 ♪ It's you I'm living for ♪ 118999