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Lashauwn Beyond: This is not
RuPaul's Best Friend Race.

Laganja Estranja:
I feel very attacked!

Vanjie: I was trying
to reach closure with you!

Silky: If I would've lip synced
for my life today, bitch,

I was ready to do so!

RuPaul: This is Untucked,
backstage at the competition

to become America's
next drag superstar.

Girl, if you're not
watching Untucked,

you're only getting
half the story.

Director:
Break on the main stage.

All cameras re-po.

RuPaul: Thanks, ladies.

Now, while you
untuck backstage,

the judges and I
will deliberate.

You may leave the stage.

I am in heaven right now.

I had the audience laughing
the entire time nonstop.

I cannot believe
that I did what I did.

I'm so speechless.

It's everything I wanted
and more!

It's really hard
when you are closing the show.

Everybody in the middle
could be hilarious,

and they need you
to match that same energy.

And even though I tried
to work hard as I could,

the end is a bad position,

and I knew that it was
gonna bite me in my ass.

Imma have to do
what I have to do

to prove to the judges that
I deserve to still be
here.graphic

Go ahead.

All right, guys, here we go.

-Oh, child, child, child, child.
-Girls.

All right, ladies.

Yes, yes, yes.

Girls, ghouls.

Girls, girls!

-Ooh, okay.
-Cocktail.

I'm down.

I don't think
that's gonna work. Uh!

-You so difficult, Jackie.
-[laughs]

How is everybody feeling?

As a top, I will have to say
I'm bottoming this week.

I am incredibly sorry.

I don't know
how much time passed.

I don't--that blew my mind.

Long-winded Sherry, honey.

I was enjoying it,
but I was like,

oh, my God,
this is taking a long time.

Like, a really long time.

Sorry.

It is what it is.

It, like--it didn't work
and it didn't work.

That's just really it, you know?

Yeah.

At the beginning
of the competition,

I was at the top.

And just last week,
I was at the top.

And now, I find myself
in the bottom.

There's so few girls,

all it takes is one mistake
and you're out the door.

All I can just feel is,
like, just disappointment.

I feel really good

because of the positive
critiques that they gave me.

So I'm kind of riding on,
like, a strange high.

But I also know that
the bottoms of the week

are me and Heidi and Jaida.

Mm-hmm.

I think, like, me and Heidi

received
such different critiques

that it's so hard
to tell which of us--

I don't wanna say failed more.

-[laughs]
-I mean, really.

I mean, it's like
neither of us--

and neither of us
completely tanked it, either.

Yeah.

Right now, I'm not feeling
too confident.

I'm just concerned
that I'm not showing

exactly what the judges have
been asking to see from me.

So if I end up in the bottom two

and end up having
to lip sync this week,

I cannot go home.

I'm here to claw my way
to the top

and get the crown
in this competition.

We received
such very different critiques,

I don't even know,
like, which one of us

is gonna end up
being in the bottom.

Well, and of the three of you,

I've heard all of the judges

say so many amazing things
about all three of you.

It's gonna be very difficult

for them to actually
send one of you home.

-Yeah.
-Baby.

I just feel bad,
mostly for Jaida.

Miss Jaida, I get that you're
annoyed you had to go last,

but someone had to go last.

I mean, I get that, but...

But what?

I'm not saying anything.

Girl, stop.

I didn't throw you
under the bus.

-Did you choose to go last?
-No.

-So Jackie assigned you last?
-Yes.

Jaida's had a rough night,

so in the moment we're onstage,
I'm not gonna say anything.

But backstage, I'm gonna
ask her about this.

I did say, like, I would
like to go second or third,

and then I got placed last.

But then you also said,
"I could go, you know, last."

No, obviously you know
that is not a fact.

That is obviously not a fact.

Jaida's denying that she
ever volunteered to be last,

and we need
to roll back those tapes,

because she clearly said
that she would go last.

I wouldn't mind going,
like, second or third.

I'm with Jaida.

I wanna go
kind of in the beginning.

I just don't wanna close
the show, I'll tell you that.

Jaida, I know you didn't,
like, want to be last.

I mean, I don't care
at this point.

If it's gonna be funny, bitch,
it's gonna be funny.

All right, Jaida.
Jaida signed up for it.

Speak now, because
I don't want people to come back

and tell me
things are shady later.

I did not wanna go last,

but when everybody else
had already had position,

it didn't matter if I go last

because I really
don't have a choice and a say,

so it really didn't matter.

Girl, you offered
to go in that spot.

Either she has selective memory

or she's just trying
to blame this performance on me.

It's not my fault
she's in the bottom.

It's not my fault she went last.

Don't be coming for me, saying
that I assigned this to you,

and I even gave you a chance
to object at the end of it all.

I'm not, like, mad at you.

I just thought, maybe,
like, you were mad at me.

Now I feel like you, like,
trying to make it a thing.

I'm just telling--
I just told you now,

like, I did not choose
to go last...

-[sighs] Child.
-But I was last.

Okay.

Girl. Come on now, baby.

You know for a fact

that I didn't wanna
have to close the show.

I wanted to go
more towards the middle.

But the thing is is nobody
wanted to close the show,

and I got stuck,
and you know that.

I mean, I think they loved a lot
of things about what you did.

Bitch, I don't think so.end act

Heidi, how are you feeling?

I feel, you know...
I feel good.

Making it so close to the end
will sting

if I don't make it
to that very end.

Yeah.

But you know, I've lasted longer

than what y'all thought,
especially this one.

[laughs] Okay, bitch.

You think that Heidi N Closet
is your weakest competition.

Just based off
first impressions.

Well, Heidi,
what do you say to that.

Fuck all them bitches.

Oh!
[all laugh]

I didn't know you, bitch.

I know, I know.

Oh, I knew from week one
that I was--

I had my doubts.

[all laugh]

I've shown what this little-town
country girl could do.

Bitch.

Me and Jaida
have grown really close

since the initialation of--

"Initialation?"
What's this?

What is this?
"Initialation."

That's not a word.
That's not a word.

Since the very beginning
of our premiere

and throughout
this whole competition,

I really wanted
to prove to Jaida

that I belong here
and I deserve my spot.

And, you know, I did that.

There's no shame at this point
in whatever may happen.

-Crystal, you have this win.
-Yeah.

You guys! Thank you.

I had no idea you could do that.

-Thank you.
-I hope you do that show.

You guys, I don't even know.

It was, like,
such an outrageous idea,

and, like, going in

when Ru, like,
did not understand it at first.

He was like, "You're
gonna be a male stripper?"

And I was like, "Yes."

And I just knew that I had
to be really, really weird.

It just felt really good
to be out there,

like, acting a fool
in front of people.

And, yeah, you guys,
I haven't won anything yet,

and I'm just really happy
and really excited.

For such a long time,

the other girls may not have
always seen me as a full threat

because they think
I'm just goofy

and underestimate me
a little bit.

I am weird, but I'm a serious
competitor and I can do this

and I can win this competition.

I think what's amazing
about you, Crystal,

is I think those first few weeks

is they saw your makeup
as a mask.

-Yeah.
-And as they got to know you,

I think they got to see
the person

that lives through the mask,
you know?

-Yeah.
-Like, you basically changed

their entire mind
around what Crystal is.

Jackie, how are you feeling?

In this critique, I saw that
big smile break over Ru's face

and she said,
"I fell in love with you."

I finally was able
to show her who I am,

and that's all--you know,
just like you, Crystal,

like, that's all I've
wanted to do this whole time

is, like, finally show them
who I really am.

But it's so much easier said
than done.

[gasps]

-Oh!
-Oh!

-Oh, no!
-Wow!

-Oh, my God.
-Hi!

We get more time with you?

-Oh, my gosh!
-Stop!

Aah! It's Whoopi!

Hey, baby.

-Hi.
-Hey.

Workshopping with Whoopi, it was
like a master class in comedy.

-Hello, darling.
-Hello.

She was dropping
nuggets of wisdom

basically that you could live
your life by, and it's amazing.

And I didn't expect
to see her here.

I love it, I love it.

Can I just say that I wish
you were here every week.

-Yeah.
-Yeah.

You should be a permanent judge
on this show.

Can you please?

Listen, here's the thing.

You all know so much more
than you realize that you know.

And the only thing
I would say to anybody

is, you know, there are
always gonna be people

you think are funnier than you

or more attractive than you
or smarter than you.

The question is, are they
gonna stop you from being you?

Yeah.end act

Even if somebody
is really, really funny

or a really, really great actor

or a really,
really great performer

doesn't preclude you
from being as good.

And that's what you always
have to carry with you.

It's not that they're better.
They're as good.

You are as good.

Put yourself here and not here.

Never start yourself down here.

Everybody else
will do that for you.

They'll try
to put you down here.

Always walk up this way--

in the light,
with your head up,

and a fuck you
on your lips.

[all laugh]

You know,
you're not taking me down.

Nothing's taking me down.

Not you, not anybody else,
except me.

If I'm gonna go down,
I'm gonna do it myself.

But I'm not gonna let you do it.

It won't necessarily always make
people wanna be your friend.

But if that's okay with you,

then you could be an individual,
and it's fantastic.

Sometimes lonesome,
but fantastic.

Oh, my God.

I wish that I could spend
every day with Whoopi,

because she's so smart.

I wish that I could call her up
and ask her advice

on every life decision
that I make.

She is so wise. Wow.

Just watching everything
that you did tonight,

all the things that I know
you went back and thought about,

it was just--it was magnificent.

You know, you can have
these conversations with pros,

and they will never listen.

They'll always do it the way
they think they should do it,

and that's the gorgeous part of
everything that I saw tonight.

You're not afraid of it.

It was just heaven to watch.

Every one of you.
Every one of you.

And, you know, I see the show,
and it's fantastic.

You know, my family's here,

and they're all devotees.

See, they're all over there
and stuff.

-Oh, hi!
-Thank you guys for coming!

-Hi, family!
-Fuck Gary!

-Fuck.
-Gary, please.

[all laugh]

The one in the distressed denim?

Tell her to buy you
a new jacket.

[laughs]

On the floor.
On the floor.

"Fuck you, Gary."

I think I'm gonna watch

everything you're saying
on repeat

or make an audio recording

and have it in my ear
forever from now on.

I wanna carry around,

like, words of wisdom
from Whoopi in my pocket.

The only words of wisdom
from me to you

that you ever need is...

What's the most important thing?

The most important thing is...

I give it my all
and do my best.

That's it.

And that's from my mom
to you all.

Give it your all.

Wow, thank you.

And do your best.

Yeah, she was pretty cool.
I liked her a lot.

I liked her a lot.

Joel, please
don't do this to us.

-Five minutes!
-Five more minutes.

Queens, sorry.

-Do not take her away from us.
-Whoopi, I gotta take you away.

Say goodbye, Queens. Sorry.

-Thank you for today.
-Thank you.

-Thank you.
-So kind.

Thanks for giving me permission
to be myself.

Yeah, shit, fly.

Fuck 'em. They all
want you to walk. Fly.

[cheering]

Queens, you got two minutes.
Two minutes, Queens.

-Two?
-Two minutes?

-Are you shitting me?
-Really?

Oh, God.

I'm worried right now

because I've worked really,
really hard to be here.

And at this point,
it would be so sad

to see all of that hard work
go right out the window.

My dream is to win
this competition.

So whatever I have to do
to stay in this competition,

I'm gonna do it.

I can see
the writing on the wall.

I'm gonna be lip syncing.

But I'm gonna show you
that I'm here for a reason,

regardless of if this is
my fourth time in the bottom,

if this is my eighth time
in the bottom.

Whoever I'm lip syncing against,

they could have wigs
on wigs on wigs

on wigs on costume changes.

I don't care.

They are going to remember
who Heidi is.

All right, Queens, please
follow me to the runway.

-Jaida.
-Come on over.

-I love you. You're incredible.
-Thank you.GRAPHIC

RuPaul: Welcome back, ladies.

Heidi.

Jaida Essence Hall.

The time has come
for you to lip sync

for your...

life.

Jaida Essence Hall,
shantay you stay.

[sniffles]

My dear Heidi.

No more hiding in closets.

Michelle: Yeah!
[applause]

Thank you all so much
for seeing something in me,

even when I didn't see
something in myself.

RuPaul: You are a superstar.

Now sashay away.

-Heidi!
-Whoo!

[sobs]

I don't want to leave,

but I'm proud of this journey.

Yes, it's hard getting so close

and feeling like you didn't
have enough to get there.

But there's just so much more
in the future

to look forward to,
you know.

This isn't the end for Heidi.

This is actually
the beginning.

And you know what?

I can go out still happy
about everything.

Oh, what's--ooh.

Gigi.

The one that called me ugly,
mind you.

Mm-hmm.

"Dearest Heidi, you have
so much star quality.

"Ru fucking told you
straight up.

"I see such a light in you,

"and I really hope
you have no ill will towards me

"for dumb things from the past.

So much love, Gigi."

Of course I don't hold
anything against you.

I feel good with what
I accomplished here.

I exceeded all my expectations

of what I thought going into
this I would be able to do.

But I am disappointed I didn't
get to that finish line.

I was so close, you know?

It's literally,
like, right in your grasp,

and it gets taken away.

[gasps] My Leslie Jones hair.
Yeah!

Oh, y'all can't take
my Leslie Jones.

I've changed a lot
since being here.

Like, before coming here,
I never did comedy.

I've never done a lot of things
coming into this competition.

And it really opened my eyes

and it showed me
I could do these things

that I was either afraid to do

or didn't think
I was capable of doing.

I believe in myself now,

and I'm a completely
changed person.

I really look forward

to seeing what I can bring
into the future.

It's just like the beginning
of a new journey.

Oh, I can't wait.

[sighs]

Heidi's not done just yet.

Maybe you'll see me again.

Maybe.

I'm proud of this journey.

I had to do things
I'd never done before.

I had to come out of
my comfort zone,

and I bared it all out there.

You know, no,
I may not be in that top five,

I may not be in that top four,
but I'm a winner, baby.

Pretty thing.

And you know what?

You gotta keep
your eyes open,

'cause there's
so much more to see.

It doesn't matter who you are
or where you're from.

You can be fabulous
and a star, too.

Mwah. Love everyone!

Bye!

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