All language subtitles for Craig.Ross.Jrs.Monogamy.S01E05_English

(light jingle)

(crashing)

(slow piano music)

- Last night, huh?

- Yep.

I thought I'd get
started on the packing

so that we could
have a little more-

- More time to spend
together later.

Yeah, me, too, I was
thinking the same thing.

- Shit, Connor, what the hell?

How did you become
so right or die,

I just met you.

- Because I see you.

I see me inside of you.

I got you.

- Okay, say that again.

- I got you.

- If I don't stop, I don't
think I'm a be able to stop, so.

Wait.

You, you don't want me?

- Is that a rhetorical question?

Girl, I know you know how
much I want you, don't you?

- Yeah.

I just, I can't.

- Not like this.

You made a promise
to your husband

and I know I got to be
digging your fine ass

'cause I ain't got
nothing to do with that.

You made that promise, not me.

And although every part of me

wants to be deep inside
of you right now.

I got you enough to
know how much that

promise means to you, so
I'm gonna help you keep it

so that when we ever make love,

it's gonna be right.

No shame, no guilt,
no broken promises.

None of that.

Just you and me.

No regrets.

- No regrets.

That's the hard part.

- Yeah.

All right.

- Yeah, okay.

(dramatic piano music)

(knocking)

- Mags, I didn't know
you were in here.

You didn't say nothing
when I knocked.

You okay?

Come here.

I know we just peeled each
other's clothes off, baby,

but we bit off
quite a few layers

off that artichoke, too.

It's time to get down
to the heart now.

All right, baby?

Maggie, you got to let me know

what's going on.

There's some layers that,

maybe shouldn't be peeled.

There's reasons for secrets.

I've been living a
fantasy with you,

this is not real.

- No, no, no, I'm real.

We are real.

Where's all this coming from.

- My husband is real, the child,

the child that I lost.

Was real.

She was almost,

she was only a few months old.

- Maggie, I wish there was
something that I could say.

- I don't want you
to say anything.

I want someone to do something,
someone, anyone, you.

I want you to do something.

- What you want me to do?

You know I want to help Maggie,

just tell me what you want
me to do and I'll do it.

- I want you to bring
my baby back to me.

I want you to
bring my baby back.

- Maggie.

I can't bring your baby back.

No one can, okay.

But I can be here.

I can hold you.

I can listen to you until you

you're actual self again, okay?

- I don't know.

I don't know if I'll make it.

- Bae, I need you to try.

All right, I know that
is' a terrible loss.

I need you to know that
it's not your fault.

(phone text signals)

Come on, not now.

- Hey, down for some breakfast?

- Yeah, sure.

- Hey, by the way, what
was that last night?

- Are you talking
about you kissing me?

- No, I'm not talking
about kissing you,

I know what that was.

I mean, what did you
see in the light?

- Oh, yeah, well, the light
wasn't supposed to be there,

it was put there recently.

- How do you know that?

- Well, that's what our
company does, we sell lights.

I started off with
a city contract

and now we also go
directly to the consumer.

- Mm.

But what does it matter that
the light was just put there.

- Well, it's just too much
wattage for the location.

I mean, you'd only
put that there

if you really wanted
to see something,

somebody really wanted you
to see something last night.

And I'm guessing the way
you came home, you saw it.

- All of that you
just got from a light?

- Yeah, even my skills
amaze me at times.

- You're annoying.

Oh, by the way are
you down for one

of those trust exercises
later, submission thing?

- Yeah, sure, why not?

- Okay.

(funky music)

(moaning)

* If the world
evolves to change *

* Let our hearts
remain the same *

* As it was meant to

* When nothing else remains

* And the feelings
start to fade *

* Hold on, forget the rules

* Even when your heart
seems out of place *

* Yeah

* I still feel mine near you

(phone buzzing)

- [Woman] I guess, I'd
be a little too cliche if

I lit up a cigarette, huh?

- You smoke.

- No.

I just didn't know
what else to say.

- For a second, I thought
I really didn't know

the person I was
sacrificing my marriage for.

- You surprise me.

I thought we'd be knee
deep in eggs and pancakes

before the regret
started to settle in.

- I've never cheated
before, ever.

Does this bother
you a little bit,

or is this just a game to you.

- This is not a
game, this is my life

and I am not cavalier
about any of my choices.

- So you're saying this
means something to you.

- That's exactly
what I'm saying.

- So, are you gonna
tell me what it means

or are you just gonna
leave me sitting here

looking at you like an idiot?

- Dallas, how do you
articulate feelings

of acceptance, of
acknowledgement,

of being seen, being heard
and being understood?

- You got me breathing again.

I don't know how the
hell you always do that.

- I just think
that we're the air

that we're both
supposed to breathe.

- I've never experienced
a woman like you before.

- Stop.

I hear a but coming.

And I know because I
hear it in my own head.

There.

You happy now?

- [Man] Tell me again
why we're doing this.

- [Woman] You remember
this is your game.

You said it's
about trust, right?

- Mm-hmm.

Hey, hey now.

- I figure we can be
as intimate as possible

without really
doing anything else.

You know?

- Dichotomy.

Go as far as you can go
without going anywhere.

- Right, fighting
is much more mental

than it is physical.

Physical, that's
just the reaction

of the action.

The action is all in the mind,

how you stimulate it,
how you arouse it.

(phone buzzing)

- Oh, God, not now.

- [Woman] Is that your
phone, I'll get it, got it.

- Oh, damn, I'm sorry,
I got to run an errand.

- Now?

- When Big Brother calls.

- The experiment
aliens await you.

Now should I untie you.

(groaning)

(gentle piano music)

- What is this.

- [Carson] I can only
assume that we're both pawns

in this phase of the experiment.

- Yeah, you got the pawn
part right, are you?

- Must be.

- [Computer Voice] Coffee black,

fasoya and one cake pop.

And we have a soy chai
latte, hot, for Carson.

(dramatic piano music)

- Well, I'll be damned.

- Might be.

So you're the
infamous fighter, huh?

- And you the infamous
whatever you are.

- Well, they got us here.

- So what do we do now?

Sage each other up, make peace?

At least that's what
Mags would want.

- Mags.

That's cute.

Nicknames don't
constitute an awareness

of the person however.

- I'm quite aware
of who your wife is.

- Perhaps that is
true of us both.

- Caroline and I have an
understanding, bottom line,

she loves me.

- Oh, I'm well aware
of your understanding.

Carolina and I have
been fully committed

to exploring every inch
of this experiment.

She knows how to hit
the right buttons

to make any man or
woman come alive.

- What do you mean a woman?

- Why am I not surprised
you didn't know?

Some day I'll introduce
you to your wife.

- You know what, you're right,

you're absolutely right.

A woman just needs
to be comforted,

especially in the face of
such a devastating loss.

It's okay Carson.

Maggie knows now that
it's not her fault.

- To speak on things
you know nothing about

only heightens your
already obvious immaturity.

(phone text beeping)

- Saved by the bell.

- God's mercy never fails.

- Stay up my brother.

- [Connor] Hello?

Hello?

- Do we know each other man.

- [Connor] Aw, God, come on,

figure it out detective.

- Excuse me brother.

- How is she?

- A lot stronger than you
give her credit for being.

- I saw more in her
than she saw in herself.

- That's pretty arrogant B.

Obviously if you saw
who she really was,

you'd know that she is where she

is today because of herself.

I mean, you might have
been the catalyst,

but don't try to take credit

for her resilience and strength.

- Said the misguided miscreant.

- You don't know a damn
thing about me bro.

- I know enough.

Diandre was very forthcoming.

- Since I already didn't
have to cough up too much

for me to tag your number.

Funny thing, no matter
how much you pretend,

you spend enough time out there

in them shitty streets,
you gonna end up

getting some on you
and I can smell you

from over here bro.

- I think you smell your
own failure Wall Street.

- I think you mistaken.

Because when I woke up
this morning, it wasn't me

who was worried about
his boss calling him

telling him not
to come into work.

- I can think of that
as a learning vacation.

- Interesting.

So how's my wife?

- Your wife.

Well, from the way she
responds to my touch,

it's obvious she's never
felt more satisfied.

- Well, Diandre is free
to do whatever she wants

and obviously you
think you are, too.

- See, Diandre is
a beautiful woman

who responds accordingly
when she's appreciated,

but you wouldn't know
nothing about that

now would you convict?

(snickering)

- You know the funny
thing about my encounter

in the streets
with cats like you

is that I find that
we're cut distinctly

from the same cloth.

Only that is that,
uh, I'm a lot smarter

because I have to be.

That's why I've
never been a convict.

- I promise you try
to operate in DC,

that won't be the case.

- Well, I appreciate
the challenge.

But I'm a stockbroker
Barney Fife.

- Diandre might be scared
of that street in you boy,

but I'm not.

- You should be.

(phone buzzing)

Well, I can't say that
it's been a pleasure.

- How convict, do you even
know what Diandre means?

I didn't think so.

Guess you're not always the
smartest person in the room.

- Touche.

Catch you on the flip side.

I just might pull
up on you brother.

Mm.

Good thing I ain't packing

or our little story might
have ended in tragedy.

- Still could.

- [Connor] Minus the body bags.

- Silver lining,
mm, this is good.

Can you grab me one.

- Last one, you're welcome.

- Hold on.

I was looking for
you, where'd you go?

- Went for a walk.

Needed to clear my
head and get some air.

- Okay, what happened?

- So, you're
interrogating now, really?

I thought your husband
was the detective.

- Con, don't play me.

- Just stick to Connor, please.

I ain't trying to be kind
of con, ex or any otherwise.

- Okay, are you gonna
tell me what's up?

- I can't.

All right, I can't.

Please.

- Why so serious, are
you breaking up with me?

- All right, look,
one of the things that

I love about us that we give
it to each other straight,

no chaser, right?

Here's the straight up and down.

I care for you more
than I ever thought

that I could or would.

But I still love my
wife and I don't know

what I'm a do.

- Wow, who needs a beer
when you can splash

cold water in my face.

- I didn't mean it like that.

- Well, you know, I'm
confused, too, Connor, okay.

I got all kind of
emotions going on.

I'm trying to get
my husband's image

out of my head, too,
and it's easy to do that

when I'm with you,
when I'm talking to you

and, you know, we're
laughing and joking

and touching you.

- How about when I'm not around?

- Then it's like a tsunami
of confusion hits me

and I feel like I
could drown in it.

- I would never let you drown.

- Nor I you.

- You know this is
like the weirdest thing

I've ever done.

Craziest thing that's
ever happened to me.

My wife and I we gave
each other permission

to do whatever here.

And you, you still hold
on to whatever it is

you and Dallas have left.

I don't know if the
boundaries that Diandre

and I made or
didn't make actually

set us up for failure.

- Don't covet what me
and Dallas have, Connor.

We have nothing, okay,
it's a shell of a marriage.

I'm holding up to some idea,

a vow I made to be
a better person,

but that ain't got
nothing to do with him.

I mean we're here
because he wanted

to do the experiment
and you and I didn't

cross that line because of me.

But don't get it twisted.

I want you more than
I've wanted any man.

- [Maggie] I woke up
and you were gone.

- Yeah, I had to make a run.

Plus I had a caffeine fix.

I figured you needed your space,

so I didn't want to disturb you.

But I got you something though.

(laughing)

- What the heck is that?

- It's a cake pop.

- [Maggie] A cake pop.

- Yeah, you know,
it's like a cake

but on a stick.

Can I see the ingredients?

- No, don't even worry about it.

It's not gluten free,
sugar free, vegan free,

hell, it ain't even taste free.

It got everything in
that's bad for you,

but right now it's
gonna give you life.

So stop tripping and bite it.

Oh, my God, you just
bit the whole thing off?

- Mm.

- Mm-hmm, I'm a
start watching you.

- I feel so much better now.

- [Sawyer] You like it.

- I do.

- That's the sugar rush.

Whatever it takes to
make you feel better.

Hey.

I just want to say thank
you for trusting me.

I know it's hard for you
to finally tell me that

and I appreciate it.

- I realize that
it's good for me

to talk about it, you know.

If I want to heal from
the pain and move on,

create my life, I'm
gonna have to talk about

it and trust that, you know,

everything's gonna be okay.

But your ear is what I
needed, so thank you.

- Cool, I hear
that, but this whole

creating your life thing,
right now I don't even

know if that includes me or not.

I'm pretty sure your
ex, I mean your current

little hubby, he's
not gonna want to

give you up without a fight
and if that's the case,

you know, I'll
definitely whip his ass.

I'm just saying.

- Carson is a lover,
not a fighter.

Now Caroline, that's
another story.

Carson and I have been
fighting to find time

to find our way
back to each other.

I'm just not sure
that this experiment

was the road toward
that or further away.

- I can understand that.

Caroline is a good woman,
I'll give her that.

She's worth fighting for.

Shit, maybe after all this
I might eventually start

thinking that when
we once leave.

- It's stupid.

- Yeah, right.

- I care for you
Saw, I really do,

but I just don't know
if the connection

that we have is sustainable
outside this bubble.

- What you mean, we
can stay in this bubble

for as long as you like baby.

We have to choose to leave.

- We got to wake up sometime.

Oh, and thank you
for the sugar rush.

They always end with a crash.

- You don't have to do that.

- I want to, I like
taking care of you.

- [Michael] Yeah, but
you don't have to,

it's not your job, not anymore.

- I didn't know that
sniper was a part

of your job description.

- My goodbye.

I did not say that to hurt you.

- But it did, it does hurt.

- Look it was odd
at first letting

someone take care of me,

after always being
the caretaker.

I like that.

I still do.

There's a certain rush
to feeling needed.

But you help me
understand that I have

to learn to strike a balance.

And I'm responsible for
evening out those scales.

That's my obligation
and I think my wife.

- You can say her
name, say her name.

She's your wife.

She deserves honor and respect.

- Please stop talking.

You're making me want
you more and more

with every word and
I can't have you.

- Maybe that's not true.

- Please stop.

It's time for me
to marry who I was

with who I am and
who I need to be.

And who I am and who I have
to be is Sincere's husband.

Don't I?

- And when we get back.

And we find out that
no matter how hard

we try with our spouses,
we will never have

what you and I have.

Then what?

- This whole experience has been

an incredible
moment, our moment.

What if we don't
let the moment end

just because we're going back.

- Connor.

- Hey.

Oh, thanks.

- Hmm.

They're coming to get me soon.

- Yep.

Deal's a deal.

- I don't know what that means.

- It means that we came,
we fulfilled our agreement,

we played full on or as
full on as we could play

given your promise
to your husband.

Now it's time for us to go back

and fulfill our
original agreements

with our original partners.

- Wow.

You sound so cold.

- Sometimes you just
look at the bottom line

and do what you gotta do.

- What is it that you
think you gotta do?

- It's what we gotta do Sincere.

We have to go ahead and
complete whatever it is

that we need to complete
and let the chips fall

where they may.

- Well, chips fall where
we put them Connor, right?

- Look, you remember
our conversation

that we had about drowning
and what I said to you?

Huh?

I said that I will
never let you drown

and I meant that.

- I believed you, I still do.

- Yeah, well, sometime in
order to avoid drowning,

you got to step away
from the other person

and allow them to see if
they can float by themselves.

- Can you take those off please?

(gentle piano music)

You're right, right, I gotta go,

we gotta go home.

- Hey.

You know.

There's always a tattoo shop.

It ain't Paris, but.

- Some things are permanent.

Some things you just
can't get rid of.

Oh.

Some things just stick.

(exhaling)

- Like me and you.

- Wow.

Like no, really.

Wow.

You sure do know how to
save the best for last.

You, you look amazing.

- I wanted to make sure
that you remembered me.

I want you to remember
our connection.

- You got to know that
you're impossible to forget.

And I wouldn't want to.

- How do we just say goodbye
to each other like this.

What if we became Mormons?

They can have more
than one life, right.

- Doesn't really work
that way these days,

not in America anyway,
except for maybe Utah.

We don't live in Utah.

Besides, I don't think you
would actually go for that.

- You're right about that.

Why don't you show
me what you got?

- What, are you kidding me.

No, my jaw has muscle
memory, I'm good.

- For old times' sake.

- All right.

(sexy music)

You're a good student.

- So are you.

- I have to go.

Car's waiting.

- Will you do the honors?

I don't want to watch you leave.

- Fare thee well Caroline.

- Oh, God willing.

- Oof.

What are you cooking,
it smells awful?

- Wow, this is a deja vu.

I think this is where
I first met you,

except you were
stinking up the house.

Yeah, eggs, baby,
I'm making eggs.

I thought I would
make you breakfast.

I figure we should
break bread before

we start breaking hearts.

Plus why you tripping?

Eggs never bothered you before.

- I don't know what's
wrong with me today.

- Maybe it's because you
miss me or is it him?

- It's you.

It's me, it's him, it's
Caroline, it's everything.

- Wow.

You said her name.

Was that to make
it real for you?

- For both of us.

- Come here baby.

Come here.

You are so beautiful.

I never want to leave you.

- Me neither my sweet Sawyer.

- I gotta be honest.

I don't want you and
me to not be together.

- Me either.

Real life might be
a little too real

after this experience.

- Yeah?

- [Maggie] Mm-hmm.

- Answer me honestly.

- [Maggie] Absolutely.

- Do we ever see each
other again after this?

I mean are we just gonna
be randomly bumping

into each other in the
street 10 years from now

and not even talk,
just give each other

a look like hey, I know you,

way better than
anyone else ever will

and that's just it.

Just walk off.

- How long have you been
thinking about this.

- Since the first day
you invited me in.

- I will answer you

if you answer me first.

- [Sawyer] All right, shoot.

- Do you still love Caroline?

- Part of me will
always love her.

- Have you done
everything you can

to fix that situation?

I mean can you just walk
out the door tomorrow

knowing that you've
done everything

humanly possible to
heal your marriage.

- I came here didn't I?

- For what purpose?

To help your marriage
or to escape it?

- You're not gonna
leave him are you?

- You tell me.

Um.

Hold that thought.

- What?

Maggie.

No you're not gonna leave him.

No, Maggie.

I have not done
everything that I could

possibly do to save my marriage.

And what's wrong with
me escaping, shit?

I mean real life
sucks anyway, right.

Maggie.

Come on, Mag.

Mag, you okay.

Maggie, if you don't
open this door,

I promise I'm a knock it down.

Maggie.

(knocking)

Mag, you okay?

* I feel it'll never change

* But heart feels like
a shattered pain *

* Knee deep in agony

* Oh, oh, oh

* You set this path for me

* Where is the sanity

* 'Cause we're too
deep I can't retrieve *

* Oh, oh, oh

* See I hate you, I love
you is one in the same *

* 'Cause you know,
'cause you know *

* That I am the shame

* The proof, the proof

* Is you, is you

* Oh, oh, oh

* Oh, oh, oh

* Oh, oh, oh

* Oh, oh, oh

* Girl I ain't
gotta fall in love *

* You will know this is
a bad time for my love *

* You can keep your lies
and I'm a keep my trust *

* That's why I hate
when I fall in love *

* My soul feels like
a burning flame *

* But you carry on
with your day to day *

* While Jack helps
me disguise my pain *

* Oh, oh, oh

* I just wanna run away

* But the teardrops
they never fade *

* Like blood stains
up against remain *

* Oh, oh, oh

* See I hate you, I love
you is one in the same *

* 'Cause you know, 'cause you
know that I am the shame *

* The proof, the proof

* Is you, is you

* Oh, oh, oh

* oh, oh, oh

* oh, oh, oh

* oh, oh, oh

* Girl I ain't
gotta fall in love *

* You know it's a bad
time for my love *

* You keep your lies and
I'm a keep my trust *

* That's why I hate
when I fall in love *