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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:01:01,561 --> 00:01:05,482 I was 18 when I wrote my novel "Sarah. 2 00:01:05,607 --> 00:01:08,944 Never thought it'd become a best seller with all these fancy people 3 00:01:09,069 --> 00:01:13,698 wantin' to meet me, the elusive JT Leroy, 4 00:01:15,075 --> 00:01:19,663 but I prefer to be a shut-in 'cause when I'm writin' or on the phone, 5 00:01:19,788 --> 00:01:23,166 I get to show people exactly what I wanna show 'em. 6 00:01:23,291 --> 00:01:28,463 I can focus on the words and just... leave my body behind. 7 00:01:54,281 --> 00:01:56,157 - Dude, it's so good. - Yeah? 8 00:01:56,908 --> 00:01:59,452 We just got the demos back from the studio, 9 00:01:59,577 --> 00:02:01,663 so, yeah, I'm pretty fuckin' excited. 10 00:02:05,208 --> 00:02:08,878 - Is that her? Is that Laura? - Uh-huh. Yeah, no, that's her. 11 00:02:09,004 --> 00:02:10,755 - Cool. - Pretty fucking great, right? 12 00:02:10,880 --> 00:02:12,090 Yeah. 13 00:02:12,215 --> 00:02:13,550 Man, she's... 14 00:02:14,509 --> 00:02:16,678 I just can't wait for you to meet her. 15 00:02:19,014 --> 00:02:21,516 I fucking live here now. I can't believe this. 16 00:02:21,641 --> 00:02:23,518 Fuck, yes, you live here! 17 00:02:24,436 --> 00:02:26,438 Dude, you made it out of Mom's place. 18 00:02:26,813 --> 00:02:30,400 You're going up in the world. I'm proud of you. Proud of you. 19 00:02:30,525 --> 00:02:31,609 Thanks. 20 00:02:48,960 --> 00:02:50,253 Hey, hey! 21 00:02:50,670 --> 00:02:53,631 Hey, come in. This is us. 22 00:02:53,757 --> 00:02:57,344 Kitchen's right over here. Cooker. Careful. There's books everywhere. 23 00:02:57,469 --> 00:02:59,512 - These are beautiful. - I wouldn't touch that. 24 00:02:59,637 --> 00:03:01,765 We got lead. I had it tested. 25 00:03:02,265 --> 00:03:05,268 All right, this is it. This is where the magic happens. 26 00:03:06,019 --> 00:03:09,230 - This is so cool, Geoff. - Right? Now, listen. 27 00:03:09,356 --> 00:03:14,152 Couch opens up. Make yourself comfy and I'll make some tea. You want a tea? 28 00:03:15,111 --> 00:03:16,571 I'd love a beer. 29 00:03:17,489 --> 00:03:19,282 Beer. Right on. OK. You're in luck. 30 00:03:19,407 --> 00:03:23,203 I just made a fresh batch of home brew. Cool. 31 00:03:23,328 --> 00:03:25,080 Hey, yo! Come meet my sister! 32 00:03:25,205 --> 00:03:26,623 Be right there! 33 00:03:27,874 --> 00:03:30,144 Anyway, every time I tell 'em no, 34 00:03:30,168 --> 00:03:32,754 I can feel 'em wantin' more. 35 00:03:32,879 --> 00:03:37,133 They just can't believe this itty-bitty Southern rent boy is denying 'em. 36 00:03:38,468 --> 00:03:41,721 I gotta admit, I like having the power. 37 00:03:42,764 --> 00:03:46,309 All right, yeah. Yeah, thanks. 38 00:03:47,102 --> 00:03:49,020 Same time tomorrow. Bye. 39 00:03:51,898 --> 00:03:53,024 Where is she? 40 00:03:53,149 --> 00:03:55,443 - Where is she? - Hey. 41 00:03:55,568 --> 00:03:59,781 Oh, look at you. Oh, Savannah. 42 00:04:00,740 --> 00:04:03,201 Geoff's baby sister. 43 00:04:03,326 --> 00:04:05,763 - Oh, I see your soul in your smile. - Cool, you guys have met. 44 00:04:05,787 --> 00:04:07,622 - You guys have met. - Look at this creature. 45 00:04:07,747 --> 00:04:10,067 - Welcome to our little chateau. - Just as you said. 46 00:04:10,166 --> 00:04:12,086 - The smile I fell in love with. - You made this? 47 00:04:12,127 --> 00:04:15,338 - I'm getting good at this. - You're good at everything, baby. 48 00:04:16,381 --> 00:04:17,674 I heard the music in the car. 49 00:04:18,383 --> 00:04:20,510 - It is good. It's really... - Amazing, right? 50 00:04:20,635 --> 00:04:23,179 It's so cool! He's in a zone! 51 00:04:23,304 --> 00:04:26,433 - I'm just writin' lyrics. - She's just writing...? No, no. 52 00:04:26,558 --> 00:04:29,185 This woman is turning my music into these beautiful songs. 53 00:04:29,310 --> 00:04:31,271 We're writing two, three songs a day. It's insane. 54 00:04:31,396 --> 00:04:33,356 - He's on fire. - Sounds like it's happening. 55 00:04:33,440 --> 00:04:36,025 - You're on fire. - We're on fire. 56 00:04:36,151 --> 00:04:39,237 - What's that? - Oh, it's just this thing I made. 57 00:04:39,362 --> 00:04:41,162 I had an extra roll of duct tape lying around. 58 00:04:41,197 --> 00:04:43,992 - Wait a minute. Hold on. - That's pretty cool. 59 00:04:44,117 --> 00:04:47,871 Yeah. Just a thing you made? That is not just a thing. 60 00:04:47,996 --> 00:04:52,959 What is that, like magical unicorn backpack? That is blowing my mind. 61 00:04:53,460 --> 00:04:56,671 That's pure art. That's like creative genius. 62 00:04:56,796 --> 00:04:59,174 Don't... Don't put that stuff down. Right, baby? 63 00:04:59,299 --> 00:05:00,300 Hm-hmm. 64 00:05:00,425 --> 00:05:03,011 - Yeah. Yeah. No, fuck, yeah. Of course. - Right? 65 00:05:03,136 --> 00:05:04,736 You gotta take her to Lee's party. 66 00:05:04,804 --> 00:05:06,139 - Right? - You gotta go. 67 00:05:06,264 --> 00:05:08,433 - We gotta go! We gotta go! - Yeah, first night! 68 00:05:08,558 --> 00:05:10,118 - You're gonna come? - Of course. 69 00:05:10,226 --> 00:05:12,395 - Anything you wanna do, I'm open. - You gonna come? 70 00:05:12,520 --> 00:05:15,040 - She just got here. You've gotta come. - If you want me to come... 71 00:05:15,064 --> 00:05:17,609 Come on, we don't want you to come, we need you to come. 72 00:05:17,734 --> 00:05:19,277 - You're pulling me in. - We need you. 73 00:05:19,402 --> 00:05:22,655 You're dragging me into a celebration! 74 00:05:22,780 --> 00:05:26,451 You're going to Lee's party! Sav's in San Francisco! 75 00:05:26,576 --> 00:05:28,620 Yo, what's up? 76 00:05:29,287 --> 00:05:31,039 Hey, what's up? 77 00:05:31,164 --> 00:05:35,960 I'll put this on you. We share clothes. God, it looks amazing with your hair. 78 00:05:36,085 --> 00:05:38,254 Oh, Samuel! 79 00:05:38,963 --> 00:05:41,424 This is Geoff's sister Savannah! 80 00:05:41,883 --> 00:05:43,468 She's taking over his old apartment. 81 00:05:43,593 --> 00:05:48,681 - I'm Sav, nice to meet you. - Twist & Scream poster is on the wall. 82 00:05:48,806 --> 00:05:49,933 Oh, shit! 83 00:05:50,058 --> 00:05:52,018 That's so beautiful. That's our band. Yeah. 84 00:05:52,143 --> 00:05:53,144 No way! 85 00:05:53,269 --> 00:05:55,313 - So you're an artist? - Yeah. Yeah. 86 00:05:55,438 --> 00:05:56,731 - What's your name? - Sophie. 87 00:05:56,856 --> 00:05:59,943 - Sophie. What kind of art? - It's, like, conceptual. 88 00:06:07,659 --> 00:06:09,744 And the writing has been amazing. 89 00:06:09,869 --> 00:06:12,288 I'm finally not paying the rent with phone sex. 90 00:06:12,956 --> 00:06:15,458 And I'm getting some offers. It's like... 91 00:06:15,583 --> 00:06:18,878 - You say you did phone sex? - Yeah. Oh, yeah. 92 00:06:19,003 --> 00:06:21,548 It's one of the more creative jobs ever. 93 00:06:21,673 --> 00:06:23,673 You know, you have to get into the role-play of it. 94 00:06:23,758 --> 00:06:26,761 But as a writer, it's in the madness of creating a character, 95 00:06:26,886 --> 00:06:28,388 you know what I mean? 96 00:06:30,974 --> 00:06:34,227 And then their attention turns to Sophie? 97 00:06:35,353 --> 00:06:37,772 Because of her rinky-dink paintings? 98 00:06:37,897 --> 00:06:42,068 I mean, I'm sorry, but, like, she's getting that 'cause she's a cute girl 99 00:06:42,193 --> 00:06:45,446 with a cute little fucking ass, and her cute little art. 100 00:06:47,323 --> 00:06:51,744 Can you imagine if they knew I was JT Leroy? 101 00:06:54,080 --> 00:06:55,540 Right? 102 00:06:55,665 --> 00:06:58,459 If they knew I was a New York Times best-selling author? 103 00:06:58,585 --> 00:07:01,963 - I mean, that's so crazy. - Yeah, well, then tell them! 104 00:07:02,088 --> 00:07:03,339 Geoff. 105 00:07:04,966 --> 00:07:06,676 You know I can't do that. 106 00:07:12,849 --> 00:07:14,892 I've got an idea. 107 00:07:15,018 --> 00:07:19,897 What if I do go out, but with some kind of disguise? 108 00:07:28,865 --> 00:07:30,033 Oh! 109 00:07:30,408 --> 00:07:33,369 - What's up? - You wanna keep a secret? 110 00:07:40,001 --> 00:07:41,252 What's this? 111 00:07:41,377 --> 00:07:45,632 It's my book Sarah. My shot at immortality. 112 00:07:46,841 --> 00:07:49,260 Oh, so JT's like your pen name. 113 00:07:50,053 --> 00:07:51,971 More like my avatar. 114 00:07:53,056 --> 00:07:54,223 Who is this kid? 115 00:07:54,349 --> 00:07:56,476 That's just a photo I found at a thrift store. 116 00:07:56,601 --> 00:07:59,646 I loved it 'cause he looks like a kid in a Dennis Cooper novel. 117 00:07:59,771 --> 00:08:03,316 - I love Dennis Cooper. - Of course you do. Oh! 118 00:08:03,441 --> 00:08:05,068 Hey, do you know Mary Gaitskill? 119 00:08:05,193 --> 00:08:08,571 Um, yeah, but I haven't... I haven't read any of her stuff. I want to. 120 00:08:08,696 --> 00:08:09,906 Oh, you're gonna love it. 121 00:08:10,031 --> 00:08:12,241 I'm just finishing the Colette books right now. 122 00:08:12,367 --> 00:08:14,827 My God, I remember the first time I read Colette. 123 00:08:14,952 --> 00:08:16,913 I'd feel so French and... 124 00:08:19,707 --> 00:08:23,461 All this great writing that comes from distress. 125 00:08:24,170 --> 00:08:26,422 But it has beauty in it too, you know? 126 00:08:26,547 --> 00:08:28,508 Like, JT certainly had that. 127 00:08:28,633 --> 00:08:32,303 Like, his grandparents were fundamentalists, super sadistic. 128 00:08:35,723 --> 00:08:39,644 - Hey, let me know what you think. - Of course. Yeah. 129 00:08:41,020 --> 00:08:43,272 Hello? Hi. 130 00:08:45,900 --> 00:08:47,777 It's my first day on the lot. 131 00:08:48,986 --> 00:08:53,199 I'm wearing the golden Rapunzel wig bestowed upon me by my mother, Sarah. 132 00:08:53,324 --> 00:08:55,451 The legendary beauty and fiercest hooker 133 00:08:55,576 --> 00:08:58,162 that ever did work a truck stop down South. 134 00:08:59,372 --> 00:09:03,084 In her high heels, I strut between the long shimmering lines of big rigs. 135 00:09:03,209 --> 00:09:05,628 Cash's hand is like the maw of some big animal 136 00:09:05,753 --> 00:09:09,132 as he opens it revealing a raccoon penis bone, 137 00:09:09,257 --> 00:09:13,302 the talisman that distinguishes his asphalt girls from all others. 138 00:09:13,428 --> 00:09:17,765 The bigger the bone, the more in demand her soft girl material is. 139 00:09:17,890 --> 00:09:20,476 If you didn't notice the raccoon penis bone necklaces 140 00:09:20,601 --> 00:09:22,228 and you didn't know what that meant, 141 00:09:22,353 --> 00:09:24,897 you'd never know they were actually boys. 142 00:09:25,565 --> 00:09:26,805 You got to earn that raccoon... 143 00:09:26,899 --> 00:09:31,237 The mob surrounds me, tearing at my lace, ripping my hard-won finery. 144 00:09:31,362 --> 00:09:32,739 "It's a goddamn boy!" they yell, 145 00:09:32,864 --> 00:09:36,367 hungry jackals baying at the moon while chasing me through the woods. 146 00:09:36,492 --> 00:09:37,994 This is all I am. 147 00:09:38,119 --> 00:09:41,748 A bloody, glittering heart thumping under a bruise-black sky, 148 00:09:41,873 --> 00:09:45,084 refusing to let anyone tell me who I'm supposed to be. 149 00:09:55,928 --> 00:09:59,432 I found it so beautiful. It's crazy. 150 00:10:00,433 --> 00:10:05,271 I've never read anything like it, and it's really painful, you know, 151 00:10:05,396 --> 00:10:08,775 but, like, fucking magic and I can't even... 152 00:10:09,776 --> 00:10:11,110 I can't think of the right way 153 00:10:11,235 --> 00:10:13,529 to describe how it makes me feel, honestly. 154 00:10:13,654 --> 00:10:15,948 Oh, my God! 155 00:10:16,073 --> 00:10:19,118 That's so beautiful to hear you talk about it that way. 156 00:10:19,243 --> 00:10:21,454 God! Of course you so get it. 157 00:10:22,163 --> 00:10:28,127 I don't know if Geoff told you. I was in such a dark place, you know? 158 00:10:28,252 --> 00:10:30,880 The soul or spirit or whatever you wanna call it 159 00:10:31,005 --> 00:10:33,966 just... embodied me. 160 00:10:35,009 --> 00:10:41,599 This Jeremiah Terminator LeRoy. 161 00:10:43,518 --> 00:10:46,354 Jeremiah Terminator LeRoy... 162 00:10:47,230 --> 00:10:48,231 Wow. 163 00:10:48,356 --> 00:10:52,109 Then he started calling this therapist who told JT, 164 00:10:52,235 --> 00:10:54,695 "Hey, you should write your story down." 165 00:10:55,363 --> 00:10:59,826 It's kind of amazing sharing this with you 'cause... 166 00:11:00,451 --> 00:11:04,413 um... when I first saw you, I thought you looked like him. 167 00:11:05,081 --> 00:11:06,916 - Huh? - It's why I was just... 168 00:11:07,041 --> 00:11:09,794 I wanted to ask you if I could take a picture of you as him. 169 00:11:10,378 --> 00:11:12,421 Well, what do you mean? Like... 170 00:11:12,547 --> 00:11:15,258 I've been JT on the phone for years, 171 00:11:15,383 --> 00:11:18,469 and people need to see him now. 172 00:11:18,594 --> 00:11:23,933 I mean, I'm... a girl, you know, just to state the obvious. 173 00:11:24,058 --> 00:11:25,434 No! No! 174 00:11:25,560 --> 00:11:29,355 That's what's beautiful. He's androgynous. You know? He's like, 175 00:11:29,480 --> 00:11:35,069 you know, discovering his own identity. Boy, girl. He's in disguise. 176 00:11:35,194 --> 00:11:37,613 I'd pay you 50 bucks. It's for Interview magazine. 177 00:11:37,738 --> 00:11:40,366 Sav! Interview magazine. 178 00:11:40,491 --> 00:11:41,993 What do you think? 179 00:11:44,829 --> 00:11:47,415 I mean... Yeah, sure. Why not? 180 00:12:23,701 --> 00:12:25,261 Oh, really? This is what it looks like? 181 00:12:25,286 --> 00:12:26,787 - Yeah. - Ew. 182 00:12:27,955 --> 00:12:29,749 - Looks great. - Yeah. 183 00:12:38,716 --> 00:12:41,594 So put your chin down. Perfect. 184 00:12:41,719 --> 00:12:43,930 Little bit to the right. New just give me eyes though. 185 00:12:44,055 --> 00:12:46,599 A little bit... Perfect. 186 00:13:03,032 --> 00:13:06,494 Oh, my God, I'm getting chills. 187 00:13:06,619 --> 00:13:08,704 - Sav, you look great. - That's JT. 188 00:13:08,829 --> 00:13:11,540 - It's fucking perfect. - You don't wanna do one more? 189 00:13:11,666 --> 00:13:14,669 Are you kidding? These are $12 a box. Let's go! 190 00:13:18,047 --> 00:13:19,423 I did it. 191 00:13:19,548 --> 00:13:24,804 This is a whole new beginning for me. Like a whole new world. 192 00:13:42,989 --> 00:13:45,533 Here you go. You all good? 193 00:13:46,409 --> 00:13:48,411 That hair looks good on you. 194 00:13:49,495 --> 00:13:52,623 Thank you. I was noticing your shoes. 195 00:13:53,624 --> 00:13:56,168 - I've never seen that. - Yeah. 196 00:13:56,293 --> 00:13:58,546 Free the toes and the rest will follow. 197 00:14:01,590 --> 00:14:05,011 You've been in here. I've seen you in here. Do you live nearby? 198 00:14:06,345 --> 00:14:09,390 Pretty close. Mission. 199 00:14:09,890 --> 00:14:12,518 - You? - Uh, SoMa. 200 00:14:13,352 --> 00:14:14,437 Right. 201 00:14:21,444 --> 00:14:24,238 If you need anything, I'm gonna be working here 202 00:14:24,363 --> 00:14:27,450 for the rest of the time you'll be here, so... 203 00:14:28,784 --> 00:14:30,911 - OK. - OK. 204 00:14:43,841 --> 00:14:44,842 Hello? 205 00:14:44,967 --> 00:14:47,053 Savannah. It's Laura. Oh, my God, how are you? 206 00:14:47,178 --> 00:14:49,138 Can you do it one more time? 207 00:14:51,098 --> 00:14:53,559 Hey, I'm JT Leroy. 208 00:14:54,351 --> 00:14:56,395 Hey, I'm JT Leroy. 209 00:14:58,856 --> 00:15:01,150 Hey, I'm JT Leroy. 210 00:15:01,609 --> 00:15:03,652 Hey, I'm JT Leroy. 211 00:15:06,405 --> 00:15:07,531 It's great. 212 00:15:09,325 --> 00:15:11,243 I mean, it's one thing taking a photo, 213 00:15:11,368 --> 00:15:14,872 maybe saying like, "Hey, I'm JT Leroy," but it's another thing being him. 214 00:15:14,997 --> 00:15:17,225 No, no! First of all, I did the interview already. 215 00:15:17,249 --> 00:15:19,251 It's not like he's trying to talk to you. 216 00:15:19,376 --> 00:15:20,711 He just wants to get the picture. 217 00:15:20,836 --> 00:15:23,214 And besides, when you're meeting someone new, 218 00:15:23,339 --> 00:15:25,466 would you ever question who they say they are? 219 00:15:26,634 --> 00:15:28,052 It's gonna be perfect. Here. 220 00:15:28,177 --> 00:15:32,014 This is an interview with JT so you can listen to the voice. 221 00:15:32,139 --> 00:15:33,724 Oh, I've gotta show you. 222 00:15:33,849 --> 00:15:38,187 There's this unbelievably, like, hot-as-fuck actress, 223 00:15:38,312 --> 00:15:42,274 Eva Avelin, from Europe. The book is doing really well there. 224 00:15:42,399 --> 00:15:44,151 She's been calling JT every night. 225 00:15:44,276 --> 00:15:47,780 Just, like, obsessing and we're finishing each other's sentences. 226 00:15:49,281 --> 00:15:52,952 - Whoa. - Yeah. D'you want a cookie? 227 00:15:55,496 --> 00:15:58,040 No, cookies produce curves. I can't do it. 228 00:15:58,958 --> 00:16:02,128 What? You can't, like, eat cookies and be goth? 229 00:16:03,003 --> 00:16:06,257 I'm... I'm not goth. 230 00:16:06,924 --> 00:16:08,092 Just skinny? 231 00:16:08,217 --> 00:16:12,388 No, not necessarily, just no... curves. 232 00:16:12,513 --> 00:16:17,059 Is that why you're, like, binding it up and wearing sports bras all the time? 233 00:16:17,768 --> 00:16:18,978 That's perfect for JT. 234 00:16:19,311 --> 00:16:21,188 Get rid of the boobs, you're already there. 235 00:16:21,522 --> 00:16:22,523 Yeah. 236 00:16:23,232 --> 00:16:26,110 Today I'm speaking with JT Leroy, 237 00:16:26,235 --> 00:16:27,778 the young writer of "Sarah", 238 00:16:27,903 --> 00:16:30,614 a best-selling novel based on his experience 239 00:16:30,739 --> 00:16:35,077 as the son of a prostitute who worked truck stops in the South. 240 00:16:35,202 --> 00:16:40,082 JT, your mother used to pass you off as her younger sister? 241 00:16:40,207 --> 00:16:42,334 Yeah. I mean... 242 00:16:42,459 --> 00:16:46,130 Sarah, she knew that johns didn't like having a boy around, 243 00:16:46,255 --> 00:16:49,258 so she made it two pretty girls. 244 00:16:49,383 --> 00:16:52,303 'Cause she knew they'd get twice the attention. 245 00:16:52,428 --> 00:16:53,804 Sav, you're cool with this, right? 246 00:16:53,929 --> 00:16:56,974 I mean, you don't have to do it if you don't want to. 247 00:16:57,516 --> 00:17:00,102 Yeah, no, no, totally. I'm into it. 248 00:17:00,436 --> 00:17:04,064 Did your mother expect you to engage in prostitution? 249 00:17:04,190 --> 00:17:07,151 I mean, she didn't force me or nothin', but... 250 00:17:07,276 --> 00:17:09,671 - She didn't force me or nothin'. - Part of me really liked it. 251 00:17:09,695 --> 00:17:11,780 I don't quite understand it a hundred percent, but... 252 00:17:11,906 --> 00:17:14,992 Yeah, it's... it's... complicated. 253 00:17:15,117 --> 00:17:17,244 - I loved dressing up... - I loved dressing up... 254 00:17:17,369 --> 00:17:19,622 - Putting on clothes. - Putting on clothes. 255 00:17:19,747 --> 00:17:22,750 - Turning into someone else. - Turning into someone else. 256 00:17:22,875 --> 00:17:25,753 Look, Laura is on the phone all the time as JT, 257 00:17:25,878 --> 00:17:28,589 but she also pretends to be his manager, Speedie. 258 00:17:28,714 --> 00:17:32,885 - And she deemed me Astor. - Astor? 259 00:17:33,010 --> 00:17:36,805 Astor's, like, Speedie's boyfriend, and we saved JT from the streets. 260 00:17:36,931 --> 00:17:39,391 Now we're like this "happy family" and shit. 261 00:17:39,516 --> 00:17:42,811 My books are fiction. I mean, I tell stories, 262 00:17:42,937 --> 00:17:46,232 but sometimes the lies are more true than the truth. 263 00:17:46,357 --> 00:17:47,816 More true than the truth. 264 00:17:47,942 --> 00:17:50,986 Sometimes the lie is more true than the truth. 265 00:17:51,737 --> 00:17:55,074 Trust me, this whole thing is crazy for me too. 266 00:17:55,199 --> 00:17:57,243 I mean, didn't expect to be moving in 267 00:17:57,368 --> 00:18:02,081 with a teenage male prostitute and an obnoxious, loud British woman. 268 00:18:02,915 --> 00:18:05,000 Obnoxious, loud British woman? 269 00:18:05,125 --> 00:18:07,711 Oh, yeah, yeah. That's... That's Speedie. 270 00:18:08,963 --> 00:18:11,715 Well, 'ello, you right little bugger. 271 00:18:11,840 --> 00:18:13,968 I thought you weren't gonna show. 272 00:18:14,093 --> 00:18:17,429 Ready for the shoot? Bruce, this is JT! 273 00:18:18,055 --> 00:18:20,599 - Hi, JT. - Say 'ello. 274 00:18:22,017 --> 00:18:23,143 Hi. 275 00:18:27,690 --> 00:18:29,858 Yeah. He gets a bit nervous. 276 00:18:30,859 --> 00:18:35,072 And also, by the way, he don't like to be touched, all right? 277 00:18:35,197 --> 00:18:38,867 So I give you full permission. Poke around, find your shot, 278 00:18:38,993 --> 00:18:40,661 but, like, in this room. 279 00:18:40,786 --> 00:18:44,248 Hey, JT. I'm so glad that we could make this work. 280 00:18:44,373 --> 00:18:47,251 - Right. - I bought this from you online. 281 00:18:47,376 --> 00:18:48,460 Oh! 282 00:18:48,585 --> 00:18:50,879 And I know how much you like chocolate. 283 00:18:51,005 --> 00:18:54,675 What? Nothin' for the handler? I like it too. 284 00:18:55,968 --> 00:18:57,636 - Great room. - Great. 285 00:18:57,761 --> 00:18:59,305 My sister's got great taste. 286 00:18:59,430 --> 00:19:03,350 So, JT, why you don't tell me where you two guys live? 287 00:19:06,061 --> 00:19:07,563 Well, I live in... 288 00:19:08,188 --> 00:19:10,065 - Tenderloin. - Yeah. Over there. 289 00:19:10,190 --> 00:19:11,650 Oh, cool. 290 00:19:11,942 --> 00:19:13,569 - There we go. - You know, 291 00:19:13,694 --> 00:19:16,655 if you can get that Twist & Scream poster in, 292 00:19:16,780 --> 00:19:20,659 that's me sister's band and JT loves it. You'd like that, right? 293 00:19:21,201 --> 00:19:24,204 I think we need to loosen up a little bit. 294 00:19:24,330 --> 00:19:25,581 - Oh, loosen up? - Yeah, we do. 295 00:19:25,706 --> 00:19:30,586 Shake up them muscles, little lovey. You like that? 296 00:19:30,711 --> 00:19:33,255 Great. Great. I got an idea. 297 00:19:33,380 --> 00:19:34,548 Why don't you, um... 298 00:19:37,009 --> 00:19:38,635 just try standing on this? 299 00:19:42,139 --> 00:19:45,726 I'm not really a skater, so it's kinda weird. 300 00:19:46,185 --> 00:19:47,561 OK, how about... 301 00:19:47,686 --> 00:19:49,313 You know what? Wait. 302 00:19:49,438 --> 00:19:50,439 Um... 303 00:19:51,231 --> 00:19:54,777 I've got... JT loves makeup. 304 00:19:55,027 --> 00:19:57,404 What about lipstick? Right? 305 00:19:57,529 --> 00:20:00,699 You wanna put some lipstick on, love? In the mirror? 306 00:20:00,824 --> 00:20:03,577 - It could be good, right? - Let's try it. We can get right... 307 00:20:04,161 --> 00:20:06,413 This is nice. 308 00:20:06,538 --> 00:20:07,915 Do you like it? 309 00:20:08,040 --> 00:20:10,918 - Good. Really nice. Slowly. - Nice! 310 00:20:11,043 --> 00:20:14,046 - Apply it slowly to your face. - I'm worried that that skateboard... 311 00:20:14,171 --> 00:20:15,214 Lean into the mirror. 312 00:20:15,339 --> 00:20:18,175 - Speedie, you're in the shot. - Oh. Sorry. 313 00:20:18,300 --> 00:20:20,219 Come out. Come on out. Good. 314 00:20:20,344 --> 00:20:23,055 Beautiful, JT. Beautiful. 315 00:20:23,180 --> 00:20:25,057 - Beautiful. - Shit. 316 00:20:25,182 --> 00:20:27,059 - Beautiful. - It's all right. 317 00:20:27,184 --> 00:20:29,269 - I'm just gonna take a leak. - OK. 318 00:20:31,897 --> 00:20:37,569 - Yeah, I think he's done. - Ooh, I just... I only shot one roll. 319 00:20:37,694 --> 00:20:40,447 No, no, you don't know how fortunate you are to get the shot at all. 320 00:20:40,572 --> 00:20:41,657 I understand that. 321 00:20:41,782 --> 00:20:43,782 You're the first person who's ever taken his photo. 322 00:20:43,867 --> 00:20:44,868 Thank you. 323 00:20:44,993 --> 00:20:46,553 He's been in the house for three months. 324 00:20:46,620 --> 00:20:48,747 But my editor's gonna want more than one shot. 325 00:20:48,872 --> 00:20:51,375 - I know, but he's delicate. - Hey, JT. 326 00:20:53,419 --> 00:20:55,421 What do you say we do a couple more, huh? 327 00:20:56,296 --> 00:20:57,381 Um... 328 00:20:59,133 --> 00:21:00,926 JT, you... 329 00:21:01,885 --> 00:21:05,055 Yeah, nah, I think we're done, Bruce. 330 00:21:05,597 --> 00:21:07,224 Thank you for understanding. 331 00:21:07,349 --> 00:21:11,437 But I bet you got a great shot, right? 332 00:21:11,562 --> 00:21:13,730 - Thank you, JT, for your time. - Yeah, thanks. 333 00:21:13,856 --> 00:21:16,042 - It was a real pleasure. - You did great. 334 00:21:16,066 --> 00:21:20,070 - Speedie? - All right, thank you, Bruce. 335 00:21:20,195 --> 00:21:23,866 - Thank you. - I'm sure it will be great. 336 00:21:23,991 --> 00:21:26,827 - And we'll see the shots soon. - OK. Great. 337 00:21:26,952 --> 00:21:28,620 All right then. 338 00:21:37,671 --> 00:21:39,798 - You were fuckin' great! - Disaster vibes. 339 00:21:39,923 --> 00:21:42,176 - You were great! - Oh, my God! I'm so sorry. 340 00:21:42,301 --> 00:21:43,343 Sorry? 341 00:21:43,469 --> 00:21:45,721 - What are you talking about? - I can't do that accent. 342 00:21:45,846 --> 00:21:48,599 He could so see that I was a girl. I could see him looking at me. 343 00:21:48,724 --> 00:21:52,311 Not at all. He never suspected anything. It was the opposite. 344 00:21:52,436 --> 00:21:54,688 He wanted you to go home with him. 345 00:21:54,813 --> 00:21:59,318 Fuck, you were great. And playing Speedie was so cool, right? 346 00:21:59,443 --> 00:22:01,653 Like, not giving a fuck what anybody thinks of you, 347 00:22:01,778 --> 00:22:04,698 you just say whatever the fuck's on your mind! I love 'er! 348 00:22:04,823 --> 00:22:07,701 What about when you answered every question for me? It was so obvious. 349 00:22:07,826 --> 00:22:09,828 No, that's so JT. He's nervous. 350 00:22:09,953 --> 00:22:12,456 He can't speak for himself. That was perfect. 351 00:22:13,749 --> 00:22:15,584 Oh, Sav, trust me. 352 00:22:15,709 --> 00:22:18,003 I learned about this from my phone sex days. 353 00:22:18,128 --> 00:22:20,839 You establish yourself as someone else, right? 354 00:22:20,964 --> 00:22:25,010 You can do that. Then drop the accent and nobody even notices. 355 00:22:25,886 --> 00:22:30,432 And he's elusive. That's the mystery and people love mystery. 356 00:22:30,557 --> 00:22:33,143 I almost puked when I walked in. 357 00:22:33,268 --> 00:22:36,438 Oh, that's so JT. That was what was so perfect. 358 00:22:36,563 --> 00:22:39,942 He looked nauseous and nervous and awkward. 359 00:22:40,067 --> 00:22:43,946 Oh, my God, on Friday night, we've got the reading 360 00:22:44,071 --> 00:22:46,323 and there are all these fabulous people that will show up 361 00:22:46,448 --> 00:22:48,492 and read for him 'cause he's never there. 362 00:22:48,617 --> 00:22:51,745 What if you just showed up and just, like, hyperventilate? 363 00:22:51,870 --> 00:22:53,789 - No way. - Run out like you're gonna throw up? 364 00:22:53,914 --> 00:22:56,041 - No way. - Yes way! 365 00:22:56,166 --> 00:22:58,627 I can't. It was sickening. 366 00:22:58,752 --> 00:23:02,130 That's that feeling. That's what's so beautiful. 367 00:23:02,256 --> 00:23:05,801 It's that feeling we all get, like, right before we do something important. 368 00:23:15,185 --> 00:23:18,397 You know what? Don't worry about it. 369 00:23:18,522 --> 00:23:19,940 I can get somebody else next time. 370 00:23:20,482 --> 00:23:23,235 I gotta go 'cause Geoff and I have band practice. 371 00:23:24,611 --> 00:23:26,321 Shit. I'm late. 372 00:23:26,446 --> 00:23:28,865 I'm just gonna go like this. OK, Sav. Here. 373 00:23:28,991 --> 00:23:30,200 Oh, thanks. I... 374 00:23:30,325 --> 00:23:34,079 As promised, love. Thank you, ta very much. 375 00:23:34,997 --> 00:23:37,457 - Oh, my God, that was so fun. - See ya. 376 00:23:45,924 --> 00:23:49,553 Thank you. JT actually isn't feeling well, 377 00:23:49,678 --> 00:23:53,473 so I'm sorry to say he won't be joining us after all. 378 00:23:57,728 --> 00:23:59,563 Told you. This is some sort of hoax. 379 00:23:59,688 --> 00:24:01,148 Right? 380 00:25:17,516 --> 00:25:18,558 Hello? 381 00:25:18,684 --> 00:25:21,603 Sav. Can you come over tonight? I have big news. 382 00:25:22,312 --> 00:25:24,106 My God! Get in here. 383 00:25:24,231 --> 00:25:26,942 You're not gonna believe what I'm gonna tell you. Are you ready? 384 00:25:27,067 --> 00:25:30,904 A Hollywood producer wants to make Sarah into a movie. 385 00:25:31,029 --> 00:25:34,157 - What? No way. Are you serious? - Can you imagine? 386 00:25:34,700 --> 00:25:37,285 Sarah on the big screen? 387 00:25:38,453 --> 00:25:40,247 Yeah, yeah. That'd be epic. 388 00:25:40,372 --> 00:25:43,250 JT can do his thing and say, you know, 389 00:25:43,375 --> 00:25:47,546 hey, I'm an agoraphobe who just wants his autonomy respected, but... 390 00:25:48,630 --> 00:25:51,550 I don't think so. I think this is too big an opportunity. 391 00:25:55,429 --> 00:25:57,639 You... us... tonight? 392 00:25:57,764 --> 00:26:02,060 No, no, silly. This weekend. In LA. 393 00:26:02,644 --> 00:26:04,271 We'd stay at her house. 394 00:26:04,396 --> 00:26:06,690 There's a party, a reading, a photo shoot. 395 00:26:06,815 --> 00:26:09,151 Come on, it'll be fun. 396 00:26:09,276 --> 00:26:11,611 No, just 'cause I... I'm working this weekend. 397 00:26:11,737 --> 00:26:13,405 That's... That's the only thing. 398 00:26:15,157 --> 00:26:16,575 Sweet girl. 399 00:26:17,909 --> 00:26:19,828 I know the photo shoot was intense. 400 00:26:20,287 --> 00:26:22,414 Right? It was a lot. 401 00:26:23,248 --> 00:26:26,960 But, Sav, there was a light in you. 402 00:26:28,336 --> 00:26:30,046 And I... 403 00:26:30,172 --> 00:26:35,635 I felt him leave my body and enter yours. 404 00:26:40,557 --> 00:26:46,897 I mean, I was in high school when, I don't know, he was turning tricks. 405 00:26:48,732 --> 00:26:51,943 Am I interesting enough to, like, be him? 406 00:26:52,068 --> 00:26:53,278 What? 407 00:26:53,403 --> 00:26:56,990 You are interesting. Are you kidding me? Sav. 408 00:26:58,116 --> 00:26:59,618 You're incredible. 409 00:26:59,743 --> 00:27:03,330 I don't hate myself, I just... That's so different. 410 00:27:03,455 --> 00:27:05,457 I think you gotta think about this differently. 411 00:27:06,082 --> 00:27:10,754 I mean, we're talking Warhol, Ziggy Stardust, Grace Jones. 412 00:27:11,463 --> 00:27:14,143 What if you wake up one morning and say, "I wanna be somebody else?" 413 00:27:14,216 --> 00:27:17,177 That's what they did. They didn't wait for permission. 414 00:27:17,302 --> 00:27:20,305 Well, yeah, I... I know that feeling. 415 00:27:22,182 --> 00:27:24,518 I knew I wanted to be an artist, right? 416 00:27:25,769 --> 00:27:28,522 'Cause I was like, I wanna have a life. 417 00:27:28,647 --> 00:27:32,567 I don't wanna live in a fuckin' cubicle nine to fucking five. 418 00:27:33,318 --> 00:27:34,778 That's not who I am. 419 00:27:35,529 --> 00:27:38,281 Fine! Fine! Spend my life, "Hello, hi. Wanna fuck?" 420 00:27:38,406 --> 00:27:40,450 Doing phone sex for the rest of my life? 421 00:27:40,575 --> 00:27:42,494 No. I'm a writer. 422 00:27:43,328 --> 00:27:46,915 I spent my twenties and thirties waiting for somebody to discover me, 423 00:27:47,040 --> 00:27:50,043 somebody to give me permission? 424 00:27:50,710 --> 00:27:52,462 Nobody gives you anything. 425 00:27:52,587 --> 00:27:53,839 You have to take it. 426 00:27:55,382 --> 00:27:56,925 Are you gonna take it? 427 00:27:59,594 --> 00:28:02,597 You've got all these selves inside of you. Explore them. 428 00:28:02,722 --> 00:28:05,851 This is your time. Find out who the fuck you are. 429 00:28:16,528 --> 00:28:18,280 - Oh, shit. - Are we out of chips? 430 00:28:18,405 --> 00:28:19,781 We ate three bags of chips? 431 00:28:20,615 --> 00:28:22,409 I'm gonna be sweating potato chips. 432 00:28:22,534 --> 00:28:26,413 Don't worry. No food tomorrow, but we need the sweet with the salty. 433 00:28:26,538 --> 00:28:28,748 - I don't. - Secret stash. 434 00:28:30,083 --> 00:28:31,376 - Chocolate. - I'm OK. 435 00:28:32,252 --> 00:28:33,295 - Yeah? - Uh-uh. 436 00:28:36,256 --> 00:28:39,718 - Tell me about this boy. - Sean? What about him? 437 00:28:39,843 --> 00:28:42,929 Well, you date men? 438 00:28:44,389 --> 00:28:48,560 Sometimes. If they're as cute as he is, I do. 439 00:28:48,685 --> 00:28:51,021 But I'm open. I like girls, obviously. 440 00:28:52,022 --> 00:28:54,691 I can't go to any more dyke nights. It makes me so uncomfortable. 441 00:28:54,816 --> 00:28:57,569 It's so embarrassing. The music's so awful. 442 00:28:57,694 --> 00:29:00,739 Did Geoff ever tell you I pretended to be a dyke when we first met? 443 00:29:00,864 --> 00:29:03,033 No. Why? 444 00:29:03,158 --> 00:29:06,620 Because... he was just so good-looking. 445 00:29:07,412 --> 00:29:10,081 You know, I wanted to know if he liked me for me. 446 00:29:10,707 --> 00:29:11,958 Ah. 447 00:29:12,626 --> 00:29:15,503 Test the waters and not be the fat girl swooning. 448 00:29:16,254 --> 00:29:17,380 Hey. 449 00:29:17,505 --> 00:29:22,052 I was a hundred pounds fatter than I am now. 450 00:29:22,886 --> 00:29:25,305 Oh. I didn't realize that. 451 00:29:25,972 --> 00:29:28,391 Good thing I'm not terrified of the knife. 452 00:29:30,727 --> 00:29:32,646 But I've been with women before. 453 00:29:33,355 --> 00:29:35,023 Especially in the group home. 454 00:29:36,066 --> 00:29:37,317 How was that? 455 00:29:38,777 --> 00:29:40,278 Sex was amazing. 456 00:29:40,403 --> 00:29:42,614 No, I mean the group home. 457 00:29:43,323 --> 00:29:44,991 Oh. 458 00:29:45,116 --> 00:29:46,159 Rough. 459 00:29:47,744 --> 00:29:50,163 But it gave me the tough skin I live in. 460 00:29:52,999 --> 00:29:57,087 You know I used to sneak out at night and call suicide hotlines for help, 461 00:29:57,212 --> 00:30:01,049 and I could never... be me. 462 00:30:02,884 --> 00:30:05,720 I'd create characters, usually boys. 463 00:30:07,597 --> 00:30:10,183 Some of them didn't make it, but JT... 464 00:30:12,519 --> 00:30:14,312 JT kept calling. 465 00:30:16,147 --> 00:30:19,526 And it felt so good to not have to be in this body. 466 00:30:20,402 --> 00:30:23,530 You know? To be as far away from it as possible. 467 00:30:26,199 --> 00:30:27,325 I get that. 468 00:30:58,940 --> 00:30:59,941 JT! 469 00:31:00,066 --> 00:31:01,443 Oh, my God! 470 00:31:02,235 --> 00:31:03,361 JT! 471 00:31:04,738 --> 00:31:07,365 Oh, my God, it's so good to finally meet you. 472 00:31:08,366 --> 00:31:11,995 - This is amazing! - Right? 473 00:31:12,120 --> 00:31:15,373 JT, keep writing them books. Maybe you'll get a house like this. 474 00:31:15,498 --> 00:31:17,792 Oh, no, JT, the real money's in screenwriting. 475 00:31:17,917 --> 00:31:21,046 You should write me a part. A cool part. I could play a lot lizard. 476 00:31:21,171 --> 00:31:25,383 - Oh. You already got an actor. - The guest bedroom's this way. 477 00:31:25,967 --> 00:31:29,095 I don't think we've been in a guest room. 478 00:31:29,888 --> 00:31:30,930 It's amazing. 479 00:31:31,056 --> 00:31:34,225 - Oh, my God, what a house. - Thank you. 480 00:31:34,851 --> 00:31:38,980 Oh, and JT brought you a little prezzie. 481 00:31:39,105 --> 00:31:40,148 Ah. 482 00:31:40,273 --> 00:31:42,525 Not really from Neiman Marcus. 483 00:31:42,650 --> 00:31:45,904 I stole that bag out of my neighbor's recycling, but... 484 00:31:48,948 --> 00:31:52,285 Oh, little mini onions. How cute. 485 00:31:53,453 --> 00:31:54,621 And... 486 00:31:54,746 --> 00:31:56,915 baked beans. 487 00:31:58,500 --> 00:32:02,045 - Oh, God. I've needed one of these. - Those are great, right? 488 00:32:05,548 --> 00:32:09,052 I love that you're quite good at that. 489 00:32:09,177 --> 00:32:11,471 That's all I'm gonna say. 490 00:32:15,016 --> 00:32:16,059 Oh! 491 00:32:16,184 --> 00:32:20,980 And JT wrote all the lyrics to our band's songs, Twist & Scream. 492 00:32:21,856 --> 00:32:23,441 Thought you'd love it. 493 00:32:23,566 --> 00:32:25,026 Oh, that's so cool. 494 00:32:25,735 --> 00:32:27,946 JT, did you get that book I sent you? 495 00:32:30,532 --> 00:32:31,699 Yeah, we loved it. 496 00:32:32,075 --> 00:32:33,868 Yeah, yeah. It's real good. 497 00:32:35,870 --> 00:32:37,872 JT, what are you wearing? 498 00:32:40,416 --> 00:32:42,335 What... What is going on? 499 00:32:42,460 --> 00:32:44,712 What's happening to all the money? 500 00:32:45,880 --> 00:32:48,216 There's not much money though yet. 501 00:32:50,176 --> 00:32:52,470 Why do you keep answering for him? 502 00:32:55,473 --> 00:32:58,434 He's a deaf mute. 503 00:32:59,769 --> 00:33:03,565 That's the way it feels because he hates talking about money, 504 00:33:03,690 --> 00:33:05,233 hates business talk. 505 00:33:05,358 --> 00:33:08,695 You know, it's like art, art, art. Keep it pure. 506 00:33:08,820 --> 00:33:12,031 I mean, we're two orphans, fuck, who found each other. 507 00:33:12,157 --> 00:33:15,201 I don't know these things either, so you're right. That's great advice. 508 00:33:15,326 --> 00:33:19,497 We need a guide, you know. I'll get someone. 509 00:33:20,915 --> 00:33:23,084 OK, all right, Oliver Twist. 510 00:33:26,880 --> 00:33:27,922 Come on. 511 00:33:30,008 --> 00:33:31,092 Hi, David. 512 00:33:31,217 --> 00:33:35,054 Oh, my God. JT, listen to this. Trying to emulate the icons. 513 00:33:35,180 --> 00:33:38,183 If I have to talk to all of JT's friends as JT... 514 00:33:38,308 --> 00:33:40,602 We work off each other. You're perfect. 515 00:33:40,727 --> 00:33:42,270 Totally trust yourself. 516 00:33:44,981 --> 00:33:46,149 JT, are you OK? 517 00:33:46,274 --> 00:33:50,111 JT's a genius and Sav's a genius. Don't you ever forget that. 518 00:33:51,487 --> 00:33:53,323 The bacon-wrapped dates are amazing. 519 00:33:53,448 --> 00:33:54,866 Oh, we don't eat pork. 520 00:33:55,742 --> 00:33:57,342 Well, I was just being polite, but yeah. 521 00:33:57,452 --> 00:33:59,704 If you don't understand a reference, just go with it. 522 00:33:59,829 --> 00:34:01,414 Do what I do. Hang a lantern on it. 523 00:34:01,539 --> 00:34:02,957 What is... what is that? 524 00:34:03,082 --> 00:34:05,682 You're so funny with the sunglasses, JT. D'you ever take them off? 525 00:34:05,710 --> 00:34:08,004 It means if it's obvious, make it more obvious. 526 00:34:08,129 --> 00:34:11,007 Let 'em see these beauties. 527 00:34:11,132 --> 00:34:12,508 Your eyes are so beautiful. 528 00:34:12,634 --> 00:34:14,552 It's like those Chinese finger puzzles. 529 00:34:14,677 --> 00:34:16,763 You go in further to get out. 530 00:34:16,888 --> 00:34:20,099 Baby, we're at play in the fields of the Lord. 531 00:34:24,103 --> 00:34:27,941 Look, there's Eva Avelin. She's dying to do Sarah. 532 00:34:28,066 --> 00:34:29,609 To direct and star in it. 533 00:34:32,528 --> 00:34:36,032 JT? Hi. John Bradwell. 534 00:34:36,157 --> 00:34:38,451 - We loved the piece you did on JT. - Oh. 535 00:34:38,576 --> 00:34:41,537 - Thoughtful, investigative. - Wow. 536 00:34:41,663 --> 00:34:44,874 - Really a great piece. - Thank you. Thank you. 537 00:34:45,875 --> 00:34:49,003 Um, I'm still living in San Francisco, 538 00:34:49,128 --> 00:34:52,257 so if you wanted to meet up and continue that conversation... 539 00:34:52,382 --> 00:34:53,508 Yeah, definitely. 540 00:34:53,633 --> 00:34:56,010 - I'm just gonna grab... - Right. 541 00:34:56,886 --> 00:34:57,929 OK. 542 00:35:03,726 --> 00:35:04,978 JT. 543 00:35:05,728 --> 00:35:07,897 Oh, Eva. Hey. 544 00:35:10,066 --> 00:35:11,401 Enfant. 545 00:35:14,279 --> 00:35:16,239 You are here at last. 546 00:35:16,781 --> 00:35:19,993 Um, I'm here, pretty sure. 547 00:35:20,660 --> 00:35:22,954 How's the snail story coming along? 548 00:35:23,579 --> 00:35:25,498 - Good. - Excuse me one second. 549 00:35:26,124 --> 00:35:28,376 Does the snail still have a visage brute? 550 00:35:29,002 --> 00:35:32,630 - Um... - Visage brute? Sorry, I'm Speedie. 551 00:35:33,256 --> 00:35:34,966 JT was just tellin' me about that. 552 00:35:35,091 --> 00:35:38,136 "Ugly face" or somethin'. I love it! 553 00:35:38,803 --> 00:35:40,972 - Just give us a minute? - Like a title... 554 00:35:41,097 --> 00:35:42,515 Oh, sure. 555 00:35:42,640 --> 00:35:44,183 Are you staying here? 556 00:35:44,559 --> 00:35:47,770 Um, hm-hmm. I'm just in that room there. 557 00:35:47,895 --> 00:35:51,316 OK, cool. I'm just kinda worried about you staying at some hotel, 558 00:35:51,441 --> 00:35:53,151 running off and getting into trouble. 559 00:35:54,694 --> 00:35:57,196 I don't really get in that kind of trouble anymore. 560 00:35:57,322 --> 00:35:58,323 Hm-hmm. 561 00:35:58,448 --> 00:36:00,742 You have trouble written all over you. 562 00:36:01,826 --> 00:36:04,662 Oh, my God. You are so fucking cute. 563 00:36:04,787 --> 00:36:07,081 Why are you so shy? Soak up the attention. 564 00:36:07,206 --> 00:36:10,585 - Everybody's here for you. - Yeah, it's crazy. 565 00:36:11,294 --> 00:36:12,879 Eva! 566 00:36:16,424 --> 00:36:17,425 All right. 567 00:36:17,550 --> 00:36:19,802 - Find me at the bar? - OK. 568 00:36:19,927 --> 00:36:21,012 OK. 569 00:36:23,097 --> 00:36:26,434 Oh, hey, Eva, is... are you gonna be at the reading tomorrow? 570 00:36:27,101 --> 00:36:30,229 Baby, what are you talking about? I'm one of the readers. 571 00:36:30,813 --> 00:36:32,273 Oh, yeah. 572 00:36:32,648 --> 00:36:34,817 Well, I was... I was thinkin'... 573 00:36:36,694 --> 00:36:37,820 Fuck. 574 00:36:48,081 --> 00:36:49,207 Perfect. 575 00:36:49,749 --> 00:36:51,501 Nice. Just shake it out. 576 00:36:52,001 --> 00:36:53,544 There we go. 577 00:36:53,669 --> 00:36:54,921 Look at that. 578 00:36:55,671 --> 00:36:57,048 Up a little bit. 579 00:37:31,499 --> 00:37:32,500 JT! 580 00:37:33,376 --> 00:37:36,671 So sorry to bother you. I, um... 581 00:37:37,255 --> 00:37:40,216 I just wanted to tell you how much your work means to me. 582 00:37:40,675 --> 00:37:43,553 I was on the streets for a while too. 583 00:37:43,678 --> 00:37:47,682 When I read your book, I was like, someone gets me. 584 00:37:49,225 --> 00:37:51,394 Your voice means a lot. 585 00:37:52,979 --> 00:37:54,105 Thank you. 586 00:37:56,649 --> 00:37:58,693 Do you see that? Huh? 587 00:37:59,986 --> 00:38:02,738 Your work, you're helping people. It's beautiful. 588 00:38:13,458 --> 00:38:14,500 Thank you. 589 00:38:17,587 --> 00:38:18,629 It looks nice. 590 00:38:19,755 --> 00:38:21,340 Come to Paris. OK? 591 00:38:23,551 --> 00:38:24,719 JT? 592 00:38:25,595 --> 00:38:26,804 JT! 593 00:38:30,725 --> 00:38:31,976 Au revoir. 594 00:38:45,531 --> 00:38:48,451 I feel alive for the first time in my life. 595 00:38:51,496 --> 00:38:53,289 Sav, you're never gonna believe this. 596 00:38:53,956 --> 00:38:58,211 JT's French publishers are flying us to Paris for a press conference. 597 00:38:58,336 --> 00:38:59,754 Holy fucking shit. 598 00:39:00,755 --> 00:39:03,633 Get the fuck out of here. I can't believe this is happening. 599 00:39:04,175 --> 00:39:06,886 And Eva's throwing the after party. 600 00:39:07,887 --> 00:39:10,848 OK, I kinda gotta go. I'll talk to you. I'll call you tomorrow. 601 00:39:10,973 --> 00:39:12,350 OK, bye. 602 00:39:18,773 --> 00:39:21,025 - You're making us headbands? - Yeah. 603 00:39:21,150 --> 00:39:22,902 - Cute. - Thanks. 604 00:39:29,283 --> 00:39:33,079 So I have to go to Paris in, like, two weeks. 605 00:39:34,038 --> 00:39:35,998 - Shit. - Yeah. 606 00:39:36,123 --> 00:39:38,751 Wow. That's... What... What for? 607 00:39:39,460 --> 00:39:41,379 Um, Laura has some work there, 608 00:39:41,504 --> 00:39:44,549 so I'm gonna go assist her. She needs some help. 609 00:39:45,174 --> 00:39:47,176 - That's so cool. - Yeah. 610 00:39:47,301 --> 00:39:48,461 - Have you ever been? - Uh-uh. 611 00:39:48,553 --> 00:39:49,679 - No? - Uh-uh. 612 00:39:49,804 --> 00:39:51,639 - Have you? - I wish. 613 00:39:52,557 --> 00:39:54,225 Well, where's my invite? 614 00:39:56,561 --> 00:39:58,229 You wanna fit in my backpack? 615 00:39:58,354 --> 00:40:00,314 - You can come. - Oh. 616 00:40:01,148 --> 00:40:03,234 I can fit in very small places. 617 00:40:09,740 --> 00:40:10,866 I'll miss you. 618 00:40:13,536 --> 00:40:14,870 Yeah, I'll miss you too. 619 00:40:15,663 --> 00:40:16,789 Eva... 620 00:40:17,665 --> 00:40:20,001 You haven't taken it off? Really? 621 00:40:20,126 --> 00:40:23,212 I love that. You know I can't stop. 622 00:40:23,337 --> 00:40:25,715 You got my bone around your neck. 623 00:40:25,840 --> 00:40:27,800 But you started it. 624 00:40:28,759 --> 00:40:31,137 I can't wait to see you again too. 625 00:40:31,929 --> 00:40:33,973 OK. All right. Call me right back. 626 00:40:38,436 --> 00:40:41,314 They sent enough money for first-class tickets. 627 00:40:42,481 --> 00:40:44,233 I mean, we'll go coach and pocket the rest, 628 00:40:44,358 --> 00:40:48,529 but I tried to get another ticket for Astor and they just won't budge, 629 00:40:48,654 --> 00:40:52,283 so I figured we'll just buy one if... 630 00:40:52,408 --> 00:40:54,619 Yeah, why would I wanna go to Europe? 631 00:40:54,744 --> 00:40:57,079 We have a recording session next week. 632 00:40:57,204 --> 00:41:00,166 We have a recording session next week. 633 00:41:00,291 --> 00:41:01,667 I know, babe. 634 00:41:01,792 --> 00:41:06,589 I figured we'd move it and it'd give you a little more time to work on the music, 635 00:41:06,714 --> 00:41:11,052 refine things. I mean, we're gonna be just jamming through that press. 636 00:41:11,177 --> 00:41:14,889 It'll be a nightmare and I know you hate that whole world anyways, so... 637 00:41:15,014 --> 00:41:17,850 Yeah, I don't exactly wanna be the caboose on the JT train, 638 00:41:17,975 --> 00:41:21,562 but, Laura, we're in a band, you know? 639 00:41:22,188 --> 00:41:24,774 Like, that's our pack. It's a band, it's a bond. 640 00:41:24,899 --> 00:41:30,071 Hey. What do we always say? By any means... 641 00:41:30,196 --> 00:41:34,492 Necessary. Yeah, for the band. You know, for the music. 642 00:41:34,617 --> 00:41:37,578 - It is for the music. - How is this for the music? 643 00:41:37,703 --> 00:41:40,748 Babe! JT's gonna plug the shit out of this band. 644 00:41:40,873 --> 00:41:42,500 Are you kidding? 645 00:41:42,625 --> 00:41:44,960 It's massive worldwide press. 646 00:41:45,086 --> 00:41:49,382 And I'm, like, this close to getting us a review in Spin. 647 00:41:50,758 --> 00:41:51,801 I mean, 648 00:41:51,926 --> 00:41:54,261 Madonna sent us Kabbalah books. 649 00:41:54,887 --> 00:41:58,057 Madonna is in our world! 650 00:41:58,474 --> 00:42:00,810 Yeah, that's great, Laura. No, really great. 651 00:42:01,477 --> 00:42:03,562 What world are you in? 652 00:42:03,979 --> 00:42:05,272 Eva... 653 00:42:05,648 --> 00:42:06,941 Yeah. 654 00:42:07,858 --> 00:42:10,778 Yeah, I've gotta have creative control. 655 00:42:11,612 --> 00:42:13,030 It's my life. 656 00:42:14,824 --> 00:42:16,826 I'm the only one who knows the truth. 657 00:42:16,951 --> 00:42:20,413 Look, I get it. You wanna go to Europe, you know? It's cool. 658 00:42:24,083 --> 00:42:25,418 Of course. 659 00:42:25,793 --> 00:42:28,462 I mean, the only thing is, 660 00:42:28,587 --> 00:42:30,868 you don't think what we're doing is totally fucked, right? 661 00:42:34,301 --> 00:42:35,928 No, no. I mean... 662 00:42:36,846 --> 00:42:38,139 No, right? 663 00:42:39,765 --> 00:42:41,767 I mean I guess technically it's lying. 664 00:42:41,892 --> 00:42:45,187 Like, on paper, we're... lying to people, 665 00:42:45,312 --> 00:42:47,440 but I feel like... 666 00:42:49,275 --> 00:42:51,235 It feels like I'm making something. 667 00:42:51,360 --> 00:42:56,782 It feels like a performance, and I'm so compelled to do it, I... 668 00:42:58,242 --> 00:43:00,703 I love that feeling, I've wanted that feeling forever, 669 00:43:00,828 --> 00:43:03,548 and I never knew really what was gonna, like, give me that, you know? 670 00:43:03,581 --> 00:43:06,021 You have it. You play guitar, you've played since you were 12. 671 00:43:06,125 --> 00:43:08,502 I see your face when you do it, like... 672 00:43:08,627 --> 00:43:10,796 It's that feeling. 673 00:43:13,340 --> 00:43:19,638 I guess I'm really good at pretending to be a feral 19-year-old street kid. 674 00:43:19,764 --> 00:43:21,557 That's not weird, right? 675 00:43:23,184 --> 00:43:24,185 No. 676 00:43:25,936 --> 00:43:27,021 Oh, man. 677 00:44:05,768 --> 00:44:06,769 Welcome. 678 00:44:08,229 --> 00:44:10,481 How was your flight? All right? 679 00:44:11,148 --> 00:44:12,775 JT's hungry. 680 00:44:13,067 --> 00:44:15,611 Vraiment? You did not indulge in the first-class fare? 681 00:44:15,736 --> 00:44:19,198 Bugger slept the whole flight. Maybe some eggs. 682 00:44:19,990 --> 00:44:21,510 We don't have much time. 683 00:44:21,617 --> 00:44:23,744 He loves eggs, so if we can grab... 684 00:44:24,411 --> 00:44:27,373 First time in Paris? Voil?. 685 00:44:28,499 --> 00:44:31,377 Fucking take my... Fuckin' French. 686 00:44:42,012 --> 00:44:45,266 Quite mature trees, aren't they? 687 00:44:47,059 --> 00:44:49,603 You never see that in America. 688 00:44:50,604 --> 00:44:51,939 It's gorgeous. 689 00:44:52,606 --> 00:44:56,318 Europe, I love it. You know? It's fantastic. 690 00:44:57,027 --> 00:44:58,028 I'm gonna barf. 691 00:44:58,153 --> 00:45:01,782 I can't believe they wouldn't stop for eggs. I can't live off snacks. 692 00:45:01,907 --> 00:45:04,910 You need to be my advocate and speak up or we'll never eat. 693 00:45:05,035 --> 00:45:06,036 Sorry. 694 00:45:06,161 --> 00:45:09,498 You'll have to take the jacket off too. We gotta see the whole band name. 695 00:45:09,623 --> 00:45:11,542 - You can see it. - No, it's promotion. 696 00:45:11,667 --> 00:45:13,168 - It's good for Geoff. - JT? 697 00:45:14,044 --> 00:45:15,421 Ah. 698 00:45:16,964 --> 00:45:18,465 Hello! 699 00:45:19,633 --> 00:45:20,885 Hi. 700 00:45:21,010 --> 00:45:22,553 - Hey, Speedie. - Hey, Eva. 701 00:45:22,678 --> 00:45:26,223 - You look gorgeous as usual. - How are you? 702 00:45:26,348 --> 00:45:28,642 - What's up? You nervous? - Yeah, of course. 703 00:45:28,767 --> 00:45:32,354 Don't be. You look great. I love your jacket. Hey! 704 00:45:32,479 --> 00:45:35,566 You're gonna be fuckin' great. I'm so proud of you, baby. 705 00:45:36,734 --> 00:45:38,527 I have something for you. 706 00:45:45,534 --> 00:45:48,329 All right. Should we...? You know what? 707 00:45:48,454 --> 00:45:52,666 I think it's best I come with you so that we can check the venue and... 708 00:45:57,296 --> 00:45:59,173 So you gave me your talisman. 709 00:46:02,426 --> 00:46:03,928 I'm gonna give you mine. 710 00:46:06,889 --> 00:46:08,641 It belonged to my grandfather. 711 00:46:12,853 --> 00:46:16,106 Oh... Oh, it's incredible. 712 00:46:16,231 --> 00:46:19,693 - I shouldn't accept that. You know... - Yes, you should. 713 00:46:32,998 --> 00:46:36,418 We have to go. 714 00:46:45,719 --> 00:46:47,471 JT LeRoy. 715 00:46:52,768 --> 00:46:54,561 JT! 716 00:47:09,576 --> 00:47:10,869 Hi. 717 00:47:15,249 --> 00:47:18,377 Oui? 718 00:47:25,342 --> 00:47:28,554 Your mother put you through some awful situations. 719 00:47:28,679 --> 00:47:31,306 How does she feel about your exposé of her behavior? 720 00:47:32,433 --> 00:47:33,475 Um... 721 00:47:35,227 --> 00:47:36,520 She's not... 722 00:47:37,813 --> 00:47:39,565 with us anymore, 723 00:47:40,524 --> 00:47:43,652 so I don't really know. 724 00:47:43,777 --> 00:47:45,320 We cannot hear you, JT! 725 00:47:46,321 --> 00:47:47,781 You can't hear me? Um... 726 00:47:47,906 --> 00:47:50,576 I... 727 00:47:52,119 --> 00:47:54,079 I was just sayin' that, um... 728 00:47:55,706 --> 00:48:00,711 my... my mom isn't here anymore, and... 729 00:48:01,628 --> 00:48:05,591 Also the books are fiction, so, yeah. 730 00:48:11,764 --> 00:48:13,307 JT? 731 00:48:15,225 --> 00:48:17,895 You wrote on your website that writing is your lifesaver. 732 00:48:18,020 --> 00:48:21,065 It's painful but I need it. 733 00:48:21,190 --> 00:48:25,069 - What do your friends think? - The truth in fiction... 734 00:48:25,194 --> 00:48:28,322 JT, why do you tend to avoid public events? 735 00:48:28,447 --> 00:48:30,532 Protection, I think, and... 736 00:48:32,117 --> 00:48:36,121 Speak to your choice of wearing a quote unquote "disguise." 737 00:48:36,246 --> 00:48:39,583 Anonymity's kinda like losing your virginity. 738 00:48:39,708 --> 00:48:42,252 They are based on your real experiences, right, JT? 739 00:48:42,377 --> 00:48:47,299 Fiction's sort of a lie, but can be more true than the truth. 740 00:48:48,759 --> 00:48:53,263 JT, you sound like a woman to me, but you insist you are a man. 741 00:48:59,186 --> 00:49:00,437 Uh... 742 00:49:01,772 --> 00:49:04,650 You know, it's not really my responsibility 743 00:49:04,775 --> 00:49:12,032 to help lead you through your own discomfort on how I make you feel. 744 00:49:14,243 --> 00:49:18,247 - I can be whomever I wanna be. - Fuck, yeah! 745 00:49:20,457 --> 00:49:23,585 And as for sounding like a woman, um, 746 00:49:23,710 --> 00:49:25,879 well, I'd say thank you. 747 00:49:27,840 --> 00:49:28,924 But, JT, 748 00:49:29,049 --> 00:49:31,552 are you really who you say you are? 749 00:49:31,677 --> 00:49:34,429 Are you really who you say you are? 750 00:49:37,432 --> 00:49:38,475 I... 751 00:49:39,268 --> 00:49:41,186 I can't really tell. Are you a man? 752 00:49:42,312 --> 00:49:45,399 Prove your masculinity right now. Pull your cock out. 753 00:49:57,077 --> 00:49:59,663 All right, it's done. 754 00:49:59,788 --> 00:50:01,790 It's done. 755 00:50:02,916 --> 00:50:04,459 It's done. 756 00:50:09,882 --> 00:50:11,175 Merci. 757 00:50:12,551 --> 00:50:15,304 - You know what I mean? That's the key. - Hold on a second. 758 00:50:15,429 --> 00:50:17,890 In America it's different. 759 00:50:19,266 --> 00:50:20,809 In America... 760 00:50:20,934 --> 00:50:22,769 You handled that so well, baby. 761 00:50:24,646 --> 00:50:26,190 Super cool... 762 00:50:33,655 --> 00:50:37,659 JT? This young man would love for you to sign his book. 763 00:50:39,494 --> 00:50:40,537 Bonjour, JT. 764 00:50:40,996 --> 00:50:42,998 Eva... Eva. 765 00:50:45,834 --> 00:50:46,835 Eva. 766 00:50:49,421 --> 00:50:52,966 I need to take JT back to the hotel now. We need a proper meal. 767 00:50:53,091 --> 00:50:55,260 - Nonsense. - Nah, he's drinking too much. 768 00:50:55,385 --> 00:50:57,638 And I can't stand all this smoke. 769 00:50:58,555 --> 00:51:00,766 Speedie, come on. 770 00:51:00,891 --> 00:51:03,393 Stop interfering with his life all the time. 771 00:51:05,229 --> 00:51:08,148 She's interfering with my life, actually. 772 00:51:09,066 --> 00:51:10,525 Excuse me. 773 00:51:12,611 --> 00:51:13,862 JT. 774 00:51:13,987 --> 00:51:17,658 - Let's go back to the hotel. - I'm not ready to go yet. 775 00:51:18,325 --> 00:51:22,162 Well, this place is filled with toxicity. Let's go. 776 00:51:23,580 --> 00:51:25,958 At play in the fields of the Lord, remember? 777 00:51:27,918 --> 00:51:29,169 My words. 778 00:51:30,045 --> 00:51:31,713 See you later, Speedie. 779 00:51:49,815 --> 00:51:50,816 Ennio! 780 00:51:52,609 --> 00:51:54,111 This look is everything! 781 00:52:06,540 --> 00:52:09,334 Oh, man! It's our favorite song. 782 00:52:09,876 --> 00:52:11,295 Oh, right. 783 00:52:12,838 --> 00:52:13,964 Sorry. 784 00:52:18,093 --> 00:52:19,386 What's up, JT? 785 00:52:20,429 --> 00:52:21,930 Where are you? 786 00:52:23,890 --> 00:52:24,975 I'm... 787 00:52:27,686 --> 00:52:31,023 I'm totally right here. I'm just... 788 00:52:32,524 --> 00:52:34,443 I'm just tired, you know? 789 00:52:50,167 --> 00:52:51,293 Hi. 790 00:52:54,004 --> 00:52:55,130 Hi. 791 00:52:58,467 --> 00:53:01,094 You have a very different vibe than on the phone. 792 00:53:04,056 --> 00:53:05,390 Yeah, I'm... 793 00:53:06,975 --> 00:53:08,393 so jetlagged. 794 00:53:14,691 --> 00:53:17,069 What's the deal with you and Speedie? Huh? 795 00:53:18,779 --> 00:53:21,990 I mean, you barely give each other room to breathe. 796 00:53:23,617 --> 00:53:25,243 She's so obnoxious. 797 00:53:27,704 --> 00:53:30,248 I know she's your friend. I'm sorry, but... 798 00:53:31,875 --> 00:53:35,295 No, it seems weird from the outside. 799 00:53:35,420 --> 00:53:36,546 Um... 800 00:53:39,216 --> 00:53:41,468 But I wouldn't even exist without her. 801 00:53:44,054 --> 00:53:45,055 What? 802 00:53:52,187 --> 00:53:54,147 I don't really wanna go there, but... 803 00:53:56,483 --> 00:53:59,403 where are we with the option for the film? 804 00:54:01,988 --> 00:54:03,365 Um... 805 00:54:04,699 --> 00:54:07,911 I just, you know, I'd be so fuckin' honored to direct it, 806 00:54:08,036 --> 00:54:10,580 and play your mother. 807 00:54:13,250 --> 00:54:17,170 You know, she's such a character obsessed with her own downfall. 808 00:54:17,295 --> 00:54:20,382 I've always just related to that kind of woman, you know? 809 00:54:21,800 --> 00:54:24,469 And I really think it's important to show how... 810 00:54:24,594 --> 00:54:27,139 how you absorbed her pain, you know? 811 00:54:27,264 --> 00:54:29,307 I wanna do it justice. 812 00:54:36,773 --> 00:54:39,818 I'd probably need, like, full control of the script. 813 00:54:41,403 --> 00:54:43,780 You know, 'cause it's my life, but... 814 00:54:50,787 --> 00:54:51,830 Deal. 815 00:55:02,591 --> 00:55:04,092 You're so beautiful. 816 00:55:40,545 --> 00:55:42,214 Oh, shit! 817 00:55:48,803 --> 00:55:49,804 Oh, baby. 818 00:56:10,033 --> 00:56:12,536 Oh. 819 00:56:13,411 --> 00:56:16,164 It's the famous JT! 820 00:56:17,541 --> 00:56:19,709 So, JT LeRoy, tell me. 821 00:56:21,044 --> 00:56:26,216 How do you have time to write your amazing best-selling books, huh? 822 00:56:26,591 --> 00:56:29,970 Because it seems like you just stay out all night partying. 823 00:56:30,095 --> 00:56:33,598 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I know. 824 00:56:34,891 --> 00:56:36,560 What were you doing? 825 00:56:38,103 --> 00:56:39,604 I thought it was earlier. 826 00:56:39,729 --> 00:56:43,775 You can't go out so long without me, and you're drinking. 827 00:56:43,900 --> 00:56:47,487 Who knows what you said. The whole thing could have fallen apart. 828 00:56:48,280 --> 00:56:52,492 I secured full creative control over the script, so... there's that. 829 00:56:53,952 --> 00:56:56,538 - What? - Yeah. 830 00:57:00,834 --> 00:57:02,836 Well, I didn't ask you to do that. 831 00:57:04,588 --> 00:57:05,755 But, I... 832 00:57:07,007 --> 00:57:08,675 I mean that's good news. 833 00:57:11,678 --> 00:57:13,972 What did she say? I mean, how did that go? 834 00:57:14,097 --> 00:57:16,537 I need to know everything. I gotta get on the phone right away 835 00:57:16,641 --> 00:57:19,311 and make sure she said what she meant and... 836 00:57:19,436 --> 00:57:21,646 I'd love to know what you talk about on the phone. 837 00:57:22,188 --> 00:57:24,065 If I knew what you talked about on the phone, 838 00:57:24,190 --> 00:57:27,193 maybe I wouldn't sound like a stammering idiot around her. 839 00:57:27,319 --> 00:57:30,447 I need more to talk about than stuff I read in interviews. 840 00:57:30,572 --> 00:57:31,865 I want her to feel... 841 00:57:34,534 --> 00:57:35,994 like... 842 00:57:37,537 --> 00:57:39,205 Oh, my God. 843 00:57:40,874 --> 00:57:42,459 Did you fuck her? 844 00:57:43,960 --> 00:57:45,086 I... 845 00:57:45,211 --> 00:57:49,382 It's a Chinese finger puzzle, right? You go further in to get out? 846 00:57:50,258 --> 00:57:53,553 Fuck! Savy. Goddamn it! 847 00:57:53,678 --> 00:57:55,263 It's not as bad as you think, honestly. 848 00:57:55,388 --> 00:57:57,766 - It's not even like that. - Are you fucking kidding me? 849 00:57:58,224 --> 00:58:02,604 Baby girl, she doesn't want you. 850 00:58:03,229 --> 00:58:07,734 OK? She wants the person she talked to on the phone. 851 00:58:08,151 --> 00:58:10,153 She wants JT. 852 00:58:10,362 --> 00:58:13,239 In fact, she doesn't even want that. 853 00:58:13,365 --> 00:58:15,700 She wants the fucking rights to the movie! 854 00:58:21,206 --> 00:58:23,208 Oh, I'm being mean. 855 00:58:25,377 --> 00:58:28,046 I just hate myself. I binged all night. 856 00:58:29,130 --> 00:58:31,132 I was worried. 857 00:58:31,966 --> 00:58:36,721 I need you here to keep me on track. I just... Oh, God. 858 00:58:37,389 --> 00:58:38,515 Damn it! 859 00:58:40,308 --> 00:58:42,435 Don't you think this is ridiculous? 860 00:58:43,645 --> 00:58:45,480 You should write as you. 861 00:58:46,481 --> 00:58:49,484 Savy, come on. 862 00:58:49,609 --> 00:58:53,530 You're out of it. Nobody listens to me as me. 863 00:58:54,447 --> 00:58:56,282 They listen to you as JT. 864 00:58:57,784 --> 00:59:01,121 But JT doesn't exist, you know? He's not real. 865 00:59:01,246 --> 00:59:06,501 I mean, he's super real for some people, you know? Like... personal. 866 00:59:08,002 --> 00:59:10,755 - I see it. - Is it real for them? 867 00:59:15,009 --> 00:59:16,511 I got left. 868 00:59:18,471 --> 00:59:23,852 I got tricked... and put in a mental home for grown-ups. 869 00:59:28,398 --> 00:59:29,607 Abused... 870 00:59:31,526 --> 00:59:35,447 Used up by men, my mom... 871 00:59:36,364 --> 00:59:39,117 I was that kid. 872 00:59:39,242 --> 00:59:41,077 And it is real. 873 00:59:42,495 --> 00:59:44,080 I didn't say it wasn't. 874 00:59:45,415 --> 00:59:47,500 That's not what I'm saying. 875 00:59:47,625 --> 00:59:49,210 You're so mean. 876 00:59:49,335 --> 00:59:53,173 You are so manipulative. You don't have to do that with me. 877 00:59:53,298 --> 00:59:55,508 I'm the last person you have to do that with. 878 00:59:55,633 --> 01:00:00,388 We're in Paris because of me, 879 01:00:02,182 --> 01:00:03,850 because of my writing, 880 01:00:05,018 --> 01:00:06,936 because of my genius. 881 01:00:08,605 --> 01:00:11,316 I'm glad you know how to put an outfit together, 882 01:00:12,901 --> 01:00:16,237 but all you do is show up. 883 01:00:16,362 --> 01:00:19,032 I don't inhabit him, he doesn't inhabit me, 884 01:00:19,157 --> 01:00:20,837 he doesn't leap out of your body into mine? 885 01:00:20,867 --> 01:00:23,828 We're not making something together. All this bullshit that you say to me 886 01:00:23,953 --> 01:00:25,705 to get me to do this crazy shit? 887 01:00:26,706 --> 01:00:29,542 No, no, if all I do is show up, honestly, 888 01:00:29,667 --> 01:00:32,587 why don't I fucking go ahead and stop showing up? 889 01:00:41,095 --> 01:00:43,181 Stop being a drama queen. 890 01:00:49,395 --> 01:00:53,942 I feel lost in a limitless hall of desire and longing. 891 01:00:54,943 --> 01:00:56,736 What was I thinkin'? 892 01:01:12,043 --> 01:01:15,380 Hey. I have to tell you something. 893 01:01:23,847 --> 01:01:25,598 - What? - Yeah. 894 01:01:28,101 --> 01:01:30,436 - Sav... - Yeah. 895 01:01:31,312 --> 01:01:32,981 I've seen pictures of JT. 896 01:01:33,106 --> 01:01:35,400 - I bet. - Yeah, and I read Sarah. 897 01:01:35,525 --> 01:01:37,235 - I know. - And never connected the dots. 898 01:01:37,360 --> 01:01:38,570 I noticed that. 899 01:01:39,821 --> 01:01:41,364 Wow. Um... 900 01:01:41,489 --> 01:01:43,491 OK, so wait. 901 01:01:43,616 --> 01:01:45,451 When you... when you talk to people in person, 902 01:01:45,577 --> 01:01:47,912 they don't notice that it's not Laura's voice? 903 01:01:50,331 --> 01:01:52,959 And they all think that you're a boy? 904 01:01:54,210 --> 01:01:57,130 It's like The Emperor's New Clothes kinda deal, you know? 905 01:01:57,255 --> 01:02:00,258 Every time someone questions it, Laura just throws it right back on them 906 01:02:00,383 --> 01:02:02,719 and is like, "What do you mean, the emperor has no clothes? 907 01:02:02,844 --> 01:02:04,679 That's his very best outfit." 908 01:02:05,597 --> 01:02:06,890 I mean... 909 01:02:07,807 --> 01:02:11,644 I wanted to tell you, I just think I really valued the secret of it 910 01:02:11,769 --> 01:02:14,772 and... wanted to protect her. 911 01:02:14,898 --> 01:02:19,485 I would just fucking die if I, like, ruined that for her, and... 912 01:02:22,030 --> 01:02:23,448 Yeah. 913 01:02:23,740 --> 01:02:26,993 This is literally the craziest thing I've ever heard. 914 01:02:27,118 --> 01:02:30,914 I'm really not sure if I should, like, ask more questions or... 915 01:02:31,039 --> 01:02:32,874 - I don't know, run away. - Run out of here. 916 01:02:32,999 --> 01:02:34,250 Yeah. 917 01:02:35,168 --> 01:02:36,961 Am I... terrible? 918 01:02:40,423 --> 01:02:41,925 - I mean... - Also it's over. 919 01:02:42,050 --> 01:02:43,676 I'm not gonna do it anymore, 920 01:02:43,801 --> 01:02:46,638 which is why it was, like, a lot easier to tell you this, to be honest. 921 01:02:47,722 --> 01:02:49,933 - You're not gonna do it anymore? - No. 922 01:02:52,352 --> 01:02:54,812 ??If I could be 923 01:02:54,938 --> 01:02:56,856 ??What you wanted 924 01:02:57,941 --> 01:02:59,734 ??If you wanted... 925 01:03:02,570 --> 01:03:04,238 Come and be my one? 926 01:03:04,364 --> 01:03:08,326 ??If I could be what you wanted... 927 01:03:08,451 --> 01:03:11,091 No, it's not that I don't want to. I've just been... 928 01:03:11,120 --> 01:03:14,958 I feel like if I leave the house, I'm gonna fall into old habits. 929 01:03:16,834 --> 01:03:18,670 No, I know. 930 01:03:19,671 --> 01:03:23,925 Dennis, I know you know, but I feel stuck... 931 01:03:24,050 --> 01:03:26,469 No, I really wanna go, Jason. 932 01:03:27,303 --> 01:03:30,139 I do. I just... 933 01:03:30,515 --> 01:03:35,728 For my health, I need to focus on me right now. 934 01:03:35,853 --> 01:03:39,732 I know it's probably not something I should relive, but... 935 01:03:40,274 --> 01:03:44,570 I mean... But they're making a movie on my life. 936 01:03:46,239 --> 01:03:49,450 Well, they keep asking for me to come down to the set and... 937 01:03:50,702 --> 01:03:51,703 Yeah. 938 01:03:53,371 --> 01:03:55,873 No, but how do I say no to that? 939 01:03:57,041 --> 01:04:02,046 Yeah, Eva and I have been having phone sex lately and... 940 01:04:04,632 --> 01:04:07,719 I know it's not healthy, but... 941 01:04:08,803 --> 01:04:11,139 the heart wants what the heart wants, right? 942 01:04:28,740 --> 01:04:30,700 Hey. 943 01:04:30,825 --> 01:04:31,951 Hey. 944 01:04:34,620 --> 01:04:36,539 - How you doin'? - Is that Sav? 945 01:04:36,664 --> 01:04:38,458 I'm OK. Yeah, it's Sav. 946 01:04:39,167 --> 01:04:42,628 Oh, my God. Get her in here, it's like Christmas. 947 01:04:42,754 --> 01:04:45,506 Look at all this stuff that JT gets for free. 948 01:04:45,631 --> 01:04:48,176 Thank God you're here, you guys. Start taking stuff. 949 01:04:48,301 --> 01:04:50,678 Here, Astor bow ties. 950 01:04:50,803 --> 01:04:53,514 - Look at those! - What? No. 951 01:04:53,639 --> 01:04:56,726 Did you tell her about Astor doing the music for the movie? 952 01:04:59,187 --> 01:05:02,774 Yeah, well, Laura's been speaking to Eva about maybe, right, 953 01:05:02,899 --> 01:05:06,319 you know, doing the score for the whole movie, so... 954 01:05:06,444 --> 01:05:09,197 Definitely. I'm talking to her. We're gonna push this through. 955 01:05:10,948 --> 01:05:12,325 How's she doin'? 956 01:05:12,450 --> 01:05:15,244 She's good. She's really good. 957 01:05:15,369 --> 01:05:18,873 I mean, she's I think overwhelmed. 958 01:05:18,998 --> 01:05:20,875 You know, it's a lot, making a movie. 959 01:05:21,751 --> 01:05:26,005 She said she wants JT to design an outfit for her to wear in the movie. 960 01:05:26,130 --> 01:05:29,467 Oh, my God, this is beautiful. 961 01:05:29,592 --> 01:05:30,843 You gotta try this. 962 01:05:33,054 --> 01:05:37,558 Look at that on. Oh, please. Anzevino's been sending all this stuff. 963 01:05:37,683 --> 01:05:40,144 - Like this and all this fabric. - It's really nice. 964 01:05:40,269 --> 01:05:42,396 He wants to support JT the designer. 965 01:05:42,522 --> 01:05:44,232 Do you think I could talk to her? 966 01:05:45,024 --> 01:05:46,692 Uh... 967 01:05:47,777 --> 01:05:49,987 I just got an email. You wanna see it? 968 01:05:50,530 --> 01:05:51,989 I just got one from her. 969 01:05:55,785 --> 01:05:56,911 I just, I think 970 01:05:57,036 --> 01:05:58,788 talking to her would be hard 971 01:05:58,913 --> 01:06:03,334 'cause we're talking so much and it might get a little mucky, but... 972 01:06:03,918 --> 01:06:05,044 Subject line. 973 01:06:05,169 --> 01:06:07,255 "Please, please, please come to Tennessee. 974 01:06:09,632 --> 01:06:12,635 Baby boy, I miss your soft lips. 975 01:06:13,469 --> 01:06:15,555 I dream of your skin." 976 01:06:16,180 --> 01:06:17,557 I love this. 977 01:06:17,682 --> 01:06:21,185 "I wanna pull on your hair like a horse's mane." 978 01:06:21,936 --> 01:06:25,106 She is so into your pheromones. I love that. 979 01:06:25,231 --> 01:06:27,733 I mean you're talking to her as me, you know? Like... 980 01:06:30,403 --> 01:06:31,487 Yeah. 981 01:06:32,572 --> 01:06:33,865 I mean... 982 01:06:34,991 --> 01:06:36,993 I'm talking to her as JT. 983 01:06:43,040 --> 01:06:46,210 We had, like, a thing. Like, a real thing. 984 01:06:46,335 --> 01:06:48,379 It wasn't bullshit, it wasn't... 985 01:06:48,880 --> 01:06:50,840 I... I know that. 986 01:06:51,549 --> 01:06:52,925 Sav... 987 01:06:54,218 --> 01:06:56,804 you're as much a part of JT as me. 988 01:06:59,056 --> 01:07:00,975 That's the truth. 989 01:07:01,601 --> 01:07:06,689 Not some adolescent talking to you in Paris saying dumb shit 990 01:07:08,107 --> 01:07:12,111 because she was jealous and felt left out and lonely. 991 01:07:12,653 --> 01:07:16,616 I'm so sorry. It's embarrassing. 992 01:07:18,701 --> 01:07:24,123 And the Eva thing actually turned out to be great. 993 01:07:24,957 --> 01:07:27,418 Why shouldn't you wanna be intimate with her? My God. 994 01:07:27,543 --> 01:07:29,754 You guys have this connection, so... 995 01:07:31,422 --> 01:07:32,798 This is crazy. 996 01:07:34,884 --> 01:07:36,510 And this whole Tennessee thing. 997 01:07:36,636 --> 01:07:41,766 I don't know what to do. I mean, it would be... great for Astor to go 998 01:07:41,891 --> 01:07:43,559 because of the music, and I... 999 01:07:44,727 --> 01:07:49,899 You know, she really wants us to be on set and see the experience, but... 1000 01:07:50,775 --> 01:07:54,528 I don't know if you wanna be JT again. 1001 01:07:55,238 --> 01:07:57,865 That's... That's for you to decide. 1002 01:08:21,639 --> 01:08:22,890 It's the wardrobe. 1003 01:08:30,773 --> 01:08:32,191 Makeup. 1004 01:09:17,111 --> 01:09:18,863 Well, well, well! 1005 01:09:18,988 --> 01:09:21,115 Hi, there, baby boy! 1006 01:09:23,993 --> 01:09:26,912 Ain't this a pretty little thing that JT made for me? 1007 01:09:28,164 --> 01:09:32,043 - Everything looks real good. - Oh, thank you, honeypie. 1008 01:09:35,546 --> 01:09:37,465 Hey, there, Momma. 1009 01:09:40,634 --> 01:09:42,094 Hey, Speedie. 1010 01:09:42,511 --> 01:09:45,056 Oi. There's your music man. 1011 01:09:45,931 --> 01:09:48,684 - Hey. - Oh, hey. Astor. 1012 01:09:48,809 --> 01:09:52,563 Oh, my God, I'm so glad you're here. It's been a fucking nightmare. 1013 01:09:52,688 --> 01:09:54,607 It's just been me and these fucking idiots. 1014 01:09:54,732 --> 01:09:56,525 Honestly, I have to fight for everything. 1015 01:10:00,237 --> 01:10:03,366 You know what, Speedie? I kind of understand what you're going through 1016 01:10:03,491 --> 01:10:05,117 with this little rascal over here. 1017 01:10:05,242 --> 01:10:09,955 You know, keeping him clothed and fed and out of mischief. 1018 01:10:10,081 --> 01:10:12,666 I mean, it's exactly what I'm going through on this fucking set. 1019 01:10:12,792 --> 01:10:15,378 You have no idea. All these men. It's like herding cats. 1020 01:10:15,961 --> 01:10:19,965 They all need attention, they all need to express their opinions to me. 1021 01:10:20,091 --> 01:10:22,385 Honestly, would they treat a male director like this? 1022 01:10:22,510 --> 01:10:23,844 I don't think so. 1023 01:10:25,137 --> 01:10:27,306 You know, I'm JT's mother, I'm the movie's mother, 1024 01:10:27,431 --> 01:10:29,725 I'm the fucking world's mother. It's exhausting. 1025 01:10:32,061 --> 01:10:33,729 But you're doing OK though, right? 1026 01:10:36,107 --> 01:10:38,818 Baby, I'm so happy you're here. 1027 01:10:38,943 --> 01:10:41,862 You know, you ground me. Calm me down. 1028 01:10:45,241 --> 01:10:46,992 I gotta finish this scene. 1029 01:10:47,118 --> 01:10:50,663 Gotta be perfect, right? Gotta be better than the guys. 1030 01:10:51,247 --> 01:10:53,082 - Eva, we need you on set! - John! 1031 01:10:53,207 --> 01:10:57,753 I told you this is not the right place. Where are we gonna put this? What? 1032 01:10:58,796 --> 01:11:00,464 She looks fuckin' wrecked. 1033 01:11:02,216 --> 01:11:03,634 Fuck. 1034 01:11:09,974 --> 01:11:12,268 I can't describe what I'm feeling. 1035 01:11:12,601 --> 01:11:17,565 It's like this... déj? vu feeling. 1036 01:11:20,943 --> 01:11:22,987 But I feel like I'm home. 1037 01:11:32,955 --> 01:11:34,540 JT... 1038 01:11:40,171 --> 01:11:42,673 And Eva, that was so spooky. 1039 01:11:46,427 --> 01:11:48,053 Looking at Sarah... 1040 01:11:49,513 --> 01:11:52,641 You know, like, all these things she's picking up on. 1041 01:11:53,309 --> 01:11:56,395 I've never, ever told anybody about it. 1042 01:11:57,188 --> 01:12:01,942 All about Sarah, my best friend in the group home. 1043 01:12:02,985 --> 01:12:05,446 It's like looking right at her. 1044 01:12:08,991 --> 01:12:10,576 Art is... 1045 01:12:12,661 --> 01:12:15,122 eerie shit, man. 1046 01:12:25,382 --> 01:12:26,967 This is so crazy. 1047 01:12:31,889 --> 01:12:33,516 I have to tell Eva the truth. 1048 01:12:35,643 --> 01:12:37,019 Are you sure? 1049 01:12:39,396 --> 01:12:40,731 - Baby. - Hey. 1050 01:12:41,190 --> 01:12:43,317 Hey, I'm so glad you came. 1051 01:12:44,902 --> 01:12:46,779 Can you believe it's all happening? 1052 01:12:46,904 --> 01:12:48,489 - It's crazy. - Right? 1053 01:12:50,366 --> 01:12:52,826 Are you doing OK? A little bit better from earlier? 1054 01:12:52,952 --> 01:12:56,497 Yeah. I'm sorry about that. I just, I had the worst fucking day. 1055 01:12:56,622 --> 01:12:58,457 - But it's all gonna be fucking amazing. - JT. 1056 01:12:58,582 --> 01:13:01,022 It's gonna be great. Sit down, I'm gonna get you a drink. 1057 01:13:01,126 --> 01:13:03,337 Nice to fucking meet you in person. 1058 01:13:04,296 --> 01:13:05,965 - Hey. - Hey. 1059 01:13:06,966 --> 01:13:09,927 I am so excited to be in your fucking movie. 1060 01:13:11,095 --> 01:13:13,264 He knows that already, silly. 1061 01:13:13,389 --> 01:13:16,600 I've never acted in anything, and it's so cool. 1062 01:13:17,601 --> 01:13:18,936 You're doing a really good job. 1063 01:13:20,729 --> 01:13:22,690 So, is it, like, weird for you? 1064 01:13:24,108 --> 01:13:25,317 What? 1065 01:13:25,442 --> 01:13:28,737 Like seeing your whole life recreated and shit? 1066 01:13:30,906 --> 01:13:34,201 Uh... Yeah, it's weird. 1067 01:13:39,164 --> 01:13:41,667 I've been working on that song we were talkin' about. 1068 01:13:42,251 --> 01:13:44,336 Hmm, play it. 1069 01:13:50,050 --> 01:13:52,386 ??I told you to tell me 1070 01:13:52,761 --> 01:13:55,055 ??To sign on the dotted line 1071 01:13:55,514 --> 01:13:59,727 ??Any time I gotta sell my soul 1072 01:14:00,519 --> 01:14:01,895 ??For the... 1073 01:14:04,398 --> 01:14:06,859 Did we settle on first or second? I can't remember. 1074 01:14:13,115 --> 01:14:14,742 - First. - Yeah. 1075 01:14:15,075 --> 01:14:18,203 You gotta get that recorded, baby, so it's ready for the soundtrack. 1076 01:14:18,329 --> 01:14:19,872 I... I'm gonna. 1077 01:14:21,081 --> 01:14:26,587 It's really cool that Astor's got some stuff for the soundtrack too. 1078 01:14:26,712 --> 01:14:30,841 Oh, my God, JT. I really can't talk about this again. 1079 01:14:38,932 --> 01:14:40,351 I'm sorry, babe. 1080 01:14:43,103 --> 01:14:44,855 I am thinkin' about it. 1081 01:14:45,481 --> 01:14:46,815 OK. 1082 01:14:48,025 --> 01:14:51,570 Remember, babe, that scene tomorrow that I was talking about earlier? 1083 01:14:51,695 --> 01:14:53,781 When you see Jeremiah in the basement? 1084 01:14:54,782 --> 01:14:57,785 I was gonna shoot it with the dolly when I told you about it earlier, 1085 01:14:57,910 --> 01:15:01,163 but I feel like... I feel like I need to shoot it handheld, behind you. 1086 01:15:01,288 --> 01:15:02,414 You mind if I take a shower? 1087 01:15:02,539 --> 01:15:04,619 - I've been running around all day. - Yeah, go, babe. 1088 01:15:04,708 --> 01:15:06,308 - I feel really dirty. - It's over there. 1089 01:15:06,335 --> 01:15:07,544 I think it'd be much cooler... 1090 01:15:42,705 --> 01:15:44,123 Hey. 1091 01:15:45,332 --> 01:15:47,626 - You're not helping. - I'm helping you! 1092 01:15:47,751 --> 01:15:52,256 Stop! Stop it! I'm tired, let's go. Oh, my God. 1093 01:15:53,465 --> 01:15:54,466 All right. 1094 01:15:54,591 --> 01:15:57,594 Hey. It's so late, babe. Just crash here. 1095 01:15:57,720 --> 01:16:01,807 This is actually super comfy. Manson stayed on it last week. 1096 01:16:01,932 --> 01:16:03,058 We're gonna go to bed. 1097 01:16:03,183 --> 01:16:05,269 - I'm so fucking tired. - Night, JT. 1098 01:16:06,061 --> 01:16:07,396 - Goodnight. - Night. 1099 01:16:07,521 --> 01:16:08,522 Hey. 1100 01:16:56,653 --> 01:16:59,406 She's not really quitting, right? 1101 01:16:59,531 --> 01:17:00,908 I mean, 1102 01:17:01,992 --> 01:17:04,203 she'll come around, huh? 1103 01:17:05,162 --> 01:17:08,123 - We're a team. - No, baby. No. 1104 01:17:08,248 --> 01:17:14,004 Look, I'm sorry, I gotta set a boundary here, OK? Either you stop or I'm out. 1105 01:17:14,129 --> 01:17:15,422 Hey. 1106 01:17:16,381 --> 01:17:18,509 You know what that means for me. 1107 01:17:30,437 --> 01:17:32,022 OK, it's done. 1108 01:17:34,358 --> 01:17:35,484 OK. 1109 01:17:36,235 --> 01:17:37,569 OK. 1110 01:18:51,768 --> 01:18:53,520 - Hm-hmm? - Hm-hmm. 1111 01:18:53,645 --> 01:18:55,188 All right, I gotta jet. 1112 01:18:55,981 --> 01:18:57,608 I'll be back soon, OK? 1113 01:19:04,197 --> 01:19:06,325 Don't worry, I'll get back to writin'. 1114 01:19:07,326 --> 01:19:09,620 No. Trust me, you. 1115 01:19:09,745 --> 01:19:11,997 I can't really answer that, Dot. 1116 01:19:12,497 --> 01:19:17,794 They say I don't exist, so I'm not even talkin' to you right now, right? 1117 01:19:18,503 --> 01:19:20,088 When shit gets this bleak, 1118 01:19:21,298 --> 01:19:24,885 you have no idea where I could go, what I could do to myself. 1119 01:19:27,012 --> 01:19:28,597 You have no idea. 1120 01:19:33,518 --> 01:19:34,853 JT? 1121 01:19:35,896 --> 01:19:36,980 I... 1122 01:19:38,357 --> 01:19:42,611 I think you've got the wrong person. But I'll send your server over. 1123 01:19:43,445 --> 01:19:45,113 OK. 1124 01:19:46,114 --> 01:19:48,700 Jason, no. I don't... 1125 01:19:50,744 --> 01:19:51,912 What? 1126 01:19:52,788 --> 01:19:55,749 Really? That's crazy. 1127 01:19:57,501 --> 01:20:00,963 No, I ain't workin' at no restaurant. 1128 01:20:01,088 --> 01:20:03,048 Life's the same old thing. 1129 01:20:03,173 --> 01:20:07,052 People just tryin' to cut me down, say I don't exist, 1130 01:20:07,177 --> 01:20:11,974 and I'm out there, say I'm workin' in a restaurant 1131 01:20:12,099 --> 01:20:13,892 when I'm here talkin' to you. 1132 01:20:18,772 --> 01:20:22,901 Eva, why would you for one second listen to some dumb rumor? 1133 01:20:23,026 --> 01:20:25,487 Rumors have been circling me for years. 1134 01:20:25,612 --> 01:20:30,158 I mean, come on, you know my spirit, my soul, my art. 1135 01:20:30,283 --> 01:20:33,704 We're creative partners. You gotta trust me on this. 1136 01:20:33,829 --> 01:20:35,038 How can I prove...? 1137 01:20:35,956 --> 01:20:37,958 The premiere? 1138 01:20:38,083 --> 01:20:42,587 Of course I wanna come, but you know how hard travel is on me. 1139 01:20:43,755 --> 01:20:45,465 Yeah, OK. 1140 01:20:45,590 --> 01:20:49,177 I get it. I get... I'll go. 1141 01:20:50,012 --> 01:20:51,763 I'll be there. 1142 01:21:10,657 --> 01:21:12,325 Everything OK? 1143 01:21:12,451 --> 01:21:13,577 Yeah. 1144 01:21:19,958 --> 01:21:21,209 Was that Laura? 1145 01:21:25,756 --> 01:21:26,965 I can tell. 1146 01:21:29,426 --> 01:21:34,514 Eva's movie or JT's movie or whatever got into the Cannes Film Festival. 1147 01:21:37,851 --> 01:21:39,936 And they want JT to go. 1148 01:21:41,855 --> 01:21:46,234 They're pretty desperate for him to be there, like, to promote the movie. 1149 01:21:47,861 --> 01:21:50,489 And they'd pay me, like, a thousand dollars a day. 1150 01:21:51,656 --> 01:21:54,242 People are skeptical too, you know? Especially Eva. 1151 01:21:54,367 --> 01:21:57,537 If JT doesn't go, the whole thing will be over for Laura, you know? 1152 01:21:58,455 --> 01:22:01,041 I know, but so what? 1153 01:22:02,667 --> 01:22:06,088 Every time you come back from being JT, you're a mess. 1154 01:22:06,213 --> 01:22:08,673 I could use the money. It's a lot of money. 1155 01:22:08,799 --> 01:22:10,884 And use a few more people while you're at it? 1156 01:22:12,803 --> 01:22:18,225 That's a... really reductive, simplified version of it. 1157 01:22:19,017 --> 01:22:20,811 We've talked about that. 1158 01:22:22,104 --> 01:22:25,607 OK. Let's get real for a second. 1159 01:22:29,152 --> 01:22:32,322 People respond to JT because of who they think he is. 1160 01:22:33,365 --> 01:22:35,117 But what you guys are doing is just, like... 1161 01:22:35,242 --> 01:22:39,121 People get just as much as they... put into it. 1162 01:22:39,246 --> 01:22:42,958 It's like they use us, we use them. Everyone uses each other. 1163 01:22:43,083 --> 01:22:45,293 - That's like how it is. - Oh, my God. 1164 01:22:47,045 --> 01:22:48,964 You've already decided, haven't you? 1165 01:22:50,006 --> 01:22:51,550 It's one more time. 1166 01:22:52,342 --> 01:22:56,930 I mean, do you hear yourself right now? Just one more time again? Like... 1167 01:22:57,055 --> 01:22:58,682 You sound like an addict. 1168 01:22:58,807 --> 01:23:03,145 Honestly, I'm... missing something. 1169 01:23:03,270 --> 01:23:05,397 Like I... I miss it. 1170 01:23:06,106 --> 01:23:08,233 Please. We both know this is about Eva. 1171 01:23:11,653 --> 01:23:13,113 You miss her. 1172 01:23:15,198 --> 01:23:17,117 Do you wanna see her? 1173 01:23:17,868 --> 01:23:19,661 But that's not happenin', Sav. 1174 01:23:20,495 --> 01:23:22,164 I mean, it's crazy. 1175 01:23:22,289 --> 01:23:25,250 She's into who she thinks JT is, not you. 1176 01:23:29,713 --> 01:23:31,590 I fucked her in Paris. 1177 01:23:34,217 --> 01:23:37,053 - What? - I should've told you. I... 1178 01:23:37,387 --> 01:23:38,889 I'm sorry. 1179 01:23:45,896 --> 01:23:47,939 I always knew you had a crush. 1180 01:23:49,482 --> 01:23:51,401 I mean, it was fuckin' obvious. 1181 01:23:53,111 --> 01:23:56,740 But of course I... I didn't think it really meant anything. 1182 01:23:57,866 --> 01:23:59,743 I mean, you know me. 1183 01:23:59,868 --> 01:24:03,079 Had you told me earlier, I wouldn't have freaked out, but to lie about it? 1184 01:24:06,541 --> 01:24:09,628 Just think about what you want and what you're doing, and then we can talk. 1185 01:27:20,318 --> 01:27:23,113 - Oi! - Hey, Eva. Hey. 1186 01:27:23,238 --> 01:27:25,865 They want the two of you to introduce the film. 1187 01:27:25,990 --> 01:27:27,867 - No. No. - Eva! Eva! 1188 01:27:28,868 --> 01:27:30,412 - No. - What? 1189 01:27:31,121 --> 01:27:32,789 - Babyhead! - Oh, my God. 1190 01:27:32,914 --> 01:27:36,042 What's...? Come here. What's wrong? 1191 01:27:38,086 --> 01:27:39,796 I don't know what I was thinking. 1192 01:27:40,672 --> 01:27:43,174 I really thought something could have worked out between us. 1193 01:27:43,299 --> 01:27:45,135 I feel like a complete idiot. 1194 01:27:46,928 --> 01:27:50,181 Don't blame yourself. OK? 1195 01:27:50,306 --> 01:27:53,643 Oh, my God. What? For going there? 1196 01:27:53,768 --> 01:27:56,646 If we never let ourselves go there, we'll never grow. 1197 01:27:57,730 --> 01:28:00,066 So you're stuck, right? 1198 01:28:00,191 --> 01:28:04,362 Some emotional vortex with her. There's no way around that, 1199 01:28:04,487 --> 01:28:07,824 so you need to talk to her about what happened in Tennessee. 1200 01:28:09,325 --> 01:28:12,078 You're at an impasse, my beautiful friend. 1201 01:28:13,705 --> 01:28:16,499 - OK? - Hmm. 1202 01:28:16,958 --> 01:28:19,627 It's like one of those sores that scabs over 1203 01:28:19,752 --> 01:28:22,130 and all kinds of dirt are underneath. 1204 01:28:22,672 --> 01:28:25,425 You just gotta go back in and take that dirt out. 1205 01:28:25,550 --> 01:28:26,593 Yeah. 1206 01:28:26,718 --> 01:28:29,596 Talk to her and clean up this mess, right? 1207 01:28:29,721 --> 01:28:31,806 Yeah. 1208 01:28:31,931 --> 01:28:35,143 Hey. I love you. 1209 01:28:37,103 --> 01:28:38,855 Come on. 1210 01:28:43,443 --> 01:28:47,113 You took a film about truck-stop hookers to the Cannes Film Festival. 1211 01:28:47,572 --> 01:28:49,866 People know you're only involved if it's edgy, 1212 01:28:49,991 --> 01:28:51,826 if it's relevant, if it's real. 1213 01:28:51,951 --> 01:28:55,997 More importantly, JT is interested in taking the problems 1214 01:28:56,122 --> 01:29:00,793 of the soul, the spirit, and transforming them into craft. 1215 01:29:00,919 --> 01:29:04,464 Oh, my God! He does it with his own designs. 1216 01:29:04,589 --> 01:29:05,715 You design? 1217 01:29:18,686 --> 01:29:21,564 I just wanted to say something... 1218 01:29:29,197 --> 01:29:33,910 Just that in... Tennessee, I was feeling, 1219 01:29:35,078 --> 01:29:37,872 like, really hurt 'cause, 1220 01:29:37,997 --> 01:29:42,043 you know, that you were with... Ben. 1221 01:29:42,418 --> 01:29:45,588 Not that you shouldn't have been. It's just... 1222 01:29:47,298 --> 01:29:49,425 I shouldn't have been there and... 1223 01:29:50,760 --> 01:29:53,137 it was awkward and shitty. 1224 01:29:54,347 --> 01:29:55,598 Really? 1225 01:29:56,182 --> 01:29:58,726 That's what you wanna talk about, JT? 1226 01:30:02,105 --> 01:30:03,982 What did you expect? 1227 01:30:04,107 --> 01:30:07,485 Like one drunk fuck and I was gonna run off into the sunset with you, 1228 01:30:07,610 --> 01:30:11,114 and be in some sweet little lesbian relationship? 1229 01:30:13,199 --> 01:30:15,118 I mean you wrote all those... 1230 01:30:18,162 --> 01:30:19,372 emails. 1231 01:30:23,960 --> 01:30:25,962 I guess you just wanted the film rights. 1232 01:30:30,341 --> 01:30:32,093 I've put my whole life in this movie. 1233 01:30:34,971 --> 01:30:38,933 I made a movie that is based on a true story, right? 1234 01:30:39,058 --> 01:30:40,852 I made this film for you. 1235 01:30:42,729 --> 01:30:44,689 I mean, you kinda made it for yourself too though. 1236 01:30:44,814 --> 01:30:47,525 You know what? Don't tell me who I made this movie for, all right? 1237 01:30:47,650 --> 01:30:50,695 And don't pretend like you don't know what I'm trying to talk about. 1238 01:30:52,155 --> 01:30:55,450 Do you know how many times I had to defend you? 1239 01:30:55,575 --> 01:30:59,412 Like, tell people, "No, JT is actually real"? 1240 01:31:01,456 --> 01:31:04,626 If this whole thing turns out to be bullshit... 1241 01:31:11,007 --> 01:31:14,552 I'm gonna be devastated, JT, OK? 1242 01:31:16,512 --> 01:31:18,222 You gotta tell me. 1243 01:31:19,098 --> 01:31:22,518 Please tell me that your story is real. 1244 01:31:23,603 --> 01:31:25,521 Tell me that you wrote these books 1245 01:31:27,607 --> 01:31:29,859 and that you are who you say you are. 1246 01:31:41,245 --> 01:31:42,747 Eva... 1247 01:31:50,672 --> 01:31:53,091 I mean, JT's whoever you want him to be. 1248 01:31:59,764 --> 01:32:01,474 Oh, my God. 1249 01:32:35,550 --> 01:32:38,219 I feel like... we're salmon 1250 01:32:38,344 --> 01:32:40,513 returning to our ocean home. 1251 01:32:40,638 --> 01:32:43,224 And we're finally leavin' the chrysalis 1252 01:32:43,349 --> 01:32:47,520 to become the monarch butterflies of our own selves. 1253 01:32:48,271 --> 01:32:51,065 I feel like I've arrived. 1254 01:32:51,190 --> 01:32:55,278 Like I've finally found my true self. 1255 01:33:01,033 --> 01:33:03,703 Laura, this is John Bradwell from "The Guardian". 1256 01:33:03,828 --> 01:33:05,621 I'm running a piece about JT, 1257 01:33:05,747 --> 01:33:08,833 in particular, about the photo I found online of Savannah. 1258 01:33:08,958 --> 01:33:11,335 It looks strikingly like Mr. LeRoy. 1259 01:33:12,378 --> 01:33:15,173 It'd really be in your best interests to return my call. 1260 01:33:16,549 --> 01:33:17,550 Fuck. 1261 01:33:17,675 --> 01:33:19,218 Geoff. Bradwell with "The Guardian" 1262 01:33:19,343 --> 01:33:21,095 calling again to confirm that Savannah... 1263 01:33:21,220 --> 01:33:23,681 Yeah, Savannah, my sister, 1264 01:33:23,806 --> 01:33:27,769 was the body of... of JT Leroy, yeah. 1265 01:33:27,894 --> 01:33:31,606 But, Laura... Laura was the voice. She... She did all the writing. 1266 01:33:32,231 --> 01:33:35,026 Savannah, Bradwell calling again. 1267 01:33:35,151 --> 01:33:37,445 Listen, I know for a fact that you're JT, 1268 01:33:37,570 --> 01:33:42,116 so at this point you should really just make a statement before my story runs. 1269 01:33:45,620 --> 01:33:49,290 This may sound crazy, but the whole thing was never a big scheme. 1270 01:33:49,415 --> 01:33:52,043 Never at all. I mean, it was just... 1271 01:33:52,168 --> 01:33:54,879 I dunno, it just got out of hand. It snowballed, I guess. 1272 01:34:03,888 --> 01:34:06,474 What the fuck? 1273 01:34:07,058 --> 01:34:10,394 I guess we betrayed some people, sure. 1274 01:34:17,610 --> 01:34:19,946 Baby, did you get followed? 1275 01:34:20,071 --> 01:34:21,781 I don't know, I don't think so. 1276 01:34:23,032 --> 01:34:25,993 Fuck. This is a fucking witch-hunt. 1277 01:34:27,286 --> 01:34:30,706 Do you... Do you want a tea? Or I can make you eggs or something. 1278 01:34:30,832 --> 01:34:32,625 No, I can't eat anything. I'm OK. 1279 01:34:34,710 --> 01:34:35,920 Oh, my God. 1280 01:34:36,629 --> 01:34:37,672 Babe. 1281 01:34:43,886 --> 01:34:45,638 They know who I am now. 1282 01:34:51,853 --> 01:34:53,646 I'm so ashamed. 1283 01:34:58,651 --> 01:35:01,112 I just wanna fucking disappear. 1284 01:35:05,741 --> 01:35:07,410 How are you holding up? 1285 01:35:09,120 --> 01:35:12,540 I mean, I figured I'd feel some kind of relief. 1286 01:35:15,501 --> 01:35:18,379 But I'm kind of at a loss. I'm just like... 1287 01:35:20,840 --> 01:35:23,384 - At a loss. - Yeah. 1288 01:35:26,053 --> 01:35:27,263 Babyhead. 1289 01:35:29,473 --> 01:35:32,476 It's the fucking end of the book. 1290 01:35:32,602 --> 01:35:34,562 It's like the end of Sarah. 1291 01:35:36,063 --> 01:35:39,442 JT's, like, running naked through the woods. 1292 01:35:39,942 --> 01:35:41,402 They have pitchforks. 1293 01:35:42,945 --> 01:35:44,780 They're fucking after him. 1294 01:35:46,282 --> 01:35:48,326 Mad 'cause he's actually a boy. 1295 01:35:52,455 --> 01:35:54,957 You could have written a different ending. 1296 01:35:57,335 --> 01:35:59,045 It had to be that ending. 1297 01:36:06,594 --> 01:36:08,512 It's a great fucking ending. 1298 01:36:20,566 --> 01:36:23,194 They think that the work is fraudulent. 1299 01:36:26,113 --> 01:36:29,450 You know, this ain't a hoax, this ain't fraud. 1300 01:36:29,575 --> 01:36:31,243 My books are real. 1301 01:36:35,164 --> 01:36:36,290 Hello? 1302 01:36:39,335 --> 01:36:40,503 Hello? 1303 01:37:19,667 --> 01:37:24,046 Without further ado, let's give a warm welcome to Laura Albert. 1304 01:37:44,066 --> 01:37:45,735 Tom Waits... 1305 01:37:47,069 --> 01:37:52,199 wanted to do an interview with JT LeRoy for Vanity Fair. 1306 01:37:53,826 --> 01:37:55,661 JT declined... 1307 01:37:58,205 --> 01:38:00,499 because he was notoriously shy. 1308 01:38:06,005 --> 01:38:10,176 One of the reasons JT was so shy 1309 01:38:12,261 --> 01:38:14,847 is JT didn't have a body. 1310 01:38:17,224 --> 01:38:19,351 JT was an avatar. 1311 01:38:21,270 --> 01:38:23,606 We are given this persona, 1312 01:38:24,607 --> 01:38:27,151 and then we are given this body. 1313 01:38:27,693 --> 01:38:31,572 And there's no promise from whomever made us 1314 01:38:31,697 --> 01:38:33,657 that the two will be in sync. 1315 01:38:35,284 --> 01:38:39,205 And, hey, I say we can be in the misery 1316 01:38:40,915 --> 01:38:43,042 of trying to get them to match up, 1317 01:38:45,252 --> 01:38:47,505 or we can create our own world. 1318 01:38:50,466 --> 01:38:51,967 Let me take you back. 1319 01:38:53,094 --> 01:38:55,012 I was in a group home, 1320 01:38:55,429 --> 01:38:57,681 I'm in my pain, 1321 01:38:57,807 --> 01:39:00,226 and there's pain all around, 1322 01:39:00,351 --> 01:39:01,727 and I'm... 1323 01:39:02,269 --> 01:39:04,688 I'm looking for the tools... 1324 01:39:06,357 --> 01:39:08,734 for other people to feel that pain, 1325 01:39:09,860 --> 01:39:11,612 to understand it, 1326 01:39:13,030 --> 01:39:16,909 and I can't be in this body, you know? 1327 01:39:17,034 --> 01:39:21,956 Because my biggest fear is if I tell you my pain, 1328 01:39:23,541 --> 01:39:26,001 you'll say, "You deserved it. 1329 01:39:26,127 --> 01:39:28,254 You're disgusting. 1330 01:39:28,379 --> 01:39:29,797 You're horrible." 1331 01:39:31,799 --> 01:39:36,512 And I'm seeing these blond, blue-eyed boys 1332 01:39:36,637 --> 01:39:39,140 on after-school specials, and I'm like... 1333 01:39:41,225 --> 01:39:43,060 I gotta find another body. 1334 01:39:46,605 --> 01:39:49,108 So I start calling suicide hotlines. 1335 01:39:51,068 --> 01:39:52,862 And I meet JT. 1336 01:39:54,864 --> 01:39:57,700 I was as surprised as everyone else 1337 01:39:59,869 --> 01:40:02,037 what JT wrote. 1338 01:40:04,498 --> 01:40:06,250 Then I was sad 1339 01:40:07,960 --> 01:40:13,424 'cause I couldn't give JT the body he wanted. 1340 01:40:17,011 --> 01:40:18,971 The body he deserved. 1341 01:40:23,809 --> 01:40:27,396 And he found that in Savannah. 1342 01:40:33,444 --> 01:40:36,197 - Um, but to be back is... - Oh, I know. 1343 01:40:36,322 --> 01:40:38,324 - ...meta. - It's incredible. 1344 01:40:38,449 --> 01:40:39,617 - What's your name? - Mikayla. 1345 01:40:39,742 --> 01:40:42,077 Mikayla. Pleasure. 1346 01:40:42,203 --> 01:40:43,871 - Thank you. - Really. 1347 01:40:43,996 --> 01:40:45,039 Hey. 1348 01:40:46,624 --> 01:40:48,626 Babyhead. Get in here. 1349 01:40:49,001 --> 01:40:50,461 It's been a long time. 1350 01:40:51,962 --> 01:40:53,756 I'm... I'm really glad that I came. 1351 01:40:53,881 --> 01:40:55,507 I'm really glad you did too. 1352 01:40:55,633 --> 01:40:56,842 - What's your name? - DJ. 1353 01:40:56,967 --> 01:40:59,678 - DJ. Thanks for coming. - Thank you so much. 1354 01:41:00,596 --> 01:41:02,097 How's Geoff? 1355 01:41:02,223 --> 01:41:06,060 He's good. You know, he's being Geoff. Making music. 1356 01:41:06,560 --> 01:41:08,062 I like what you said earlier too. 1357 01:41:08,187 --> 01:41:10,856 Thank you for connecting to Sarah like that. 1358 01:41:10,981 --> 01:41:12,233 It's really beautiful. 1359 01:41:12,358 --> 01:41:14,443 Oh, can we just get a picture of you guys? 1360 01:41:14,568 --> 01:41:16,946 - Sure. - Yeah, sure. 1361 01:41:18,030 --> 01:41:19,657 Wow. 1362 01:41:19,782 --> 01:41:20,783 Here we are. 1363 01:41:23,661 --> 01:41:28,582 Well, I also came to say goodbye. Um, I'm gonna move to New York. 1364 01:41:29,166 --> 01:41:30,292 I'm excited. 1365 01:41:30,417 --> 01:41:33,545 Wow. I guess. That's a big one for you. 1366 01:41:34,004 --> 01:41:35,673 - What's your name? - Thomas. 1367 01:41:42,346 --> 01:41:46,892 Congratulations. And, you know, maybe I'll see you out in the world. 1368 01:41:47,017 --> 01:41:49,395 Out playing in the fields of the Lord. 1369 01:41:49,520 --> 01:41:51,021 - What's your name? - Alex. 1370 01:41:56,527 --> 01:41:57,778 Hey, Sav. 1371 01:41:59,071 --> 01:42:02,491 I heard you were, uh... writing. 1372 01:42:03,242 --> 01:42:06,203 - Yeah. - Just remember. 1373 01:42:06,328 --> 01:42:09,128 Just 'cause you played a writer, doesn't mean you are one. 1374 01:42:15,838 --> 01:42:17,089 Good luck. 1375 01:42:19,758 --> 01:42:20,926 Thank you. 1376 01:42:22,553 --> 01:42:24,054 - What's your name? - Eva. 1377 01:42:24,179 --> 01:42:25,973 Eva... 1378 01:42:38,235 --> 01:42:40,237 BTI Studios 104861