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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:01:25,483 --> 00:01:31,388 ♪ Earth stood hard as iron ♪ 2 00:01:31,390 --> 00:01:37,325 ♪ Water like a stone ♪ 3 00:01:37,328 --> 00:01:40,430 ♪ Snow had fallen ♪ 4 00:01:40,432 --> 00:01:43,432 ♪ Snow on snow ♪ 5 00:01:43,435 --> 00:01:46,502 ♪ Snow on snow ♪ 6 00:01:46,503 --> 00:01:48,640 Stand up straight. 7 00:01:50,241 --> 00:01:51,674 Meant to be quiet. 8 00:01:51,676 --> 00:01:54,743 ♪ In the bleak midwinter ♪ 9 00:01:54,746 --> 00:01:56,546 - Liam! Liam! - Ba-a-a! 10 00:01:56,549 --> 00:01:57,680 ♪ Long, long ago ♪ 11 00:01:57,682 --> 00:01:58,713 - Ba-a-a! - Sh-sh-sh! 12 00:01:58,716 --> 00:02:00,652 - Hi! - What are you doing? 13 00:02:01,718 --> 00:02:03,418 Ba-a-a! 14 00:02:03,421 --> 00:02:04,519 Ba-a-a! 15 00:02:04,522 --> 00:02:07,522 ♪ Heaven cannot hold Him ♪ 16 00:02:07,525 --> 00:02:11,865 ♪ Nor earth sustain ♪ 17 00:02:25,311 --> 00:02:27,243 OK, everyone into your position. 18 00:02:27,246 --> 00:02:30,513 I'm missing a sheep and an angel. 19 00:02:30,514 --> 00:02:31,747 Has anyone... 20 00:02:31,750 --> 00:02:33,584 Oh, there you are. 21 00:02:33,586 --> 00:02:34,750 Liam, Lacey. 22 00:02:34,752 --> 00:02:36,586 Do you wanna come join us? 23 00:02:36,587 --> 00:02:37,687 Not really. 24 00:02:37,688 --> 00:02:39,256 But we need you. 25 00:02:39,258 --> 00:02:40,290 What? 26 00:02:40,293 --> 00:02:42,459 Do you know how we come to church once a year? 27 00:02:42,461 --> 00:02:45,293 - Do you wanna come every Sunday? - No! 28 00:02:45,295 --> 00:02:46,929 Sh-sh-sh! OK. 29 00:02:46,930 --> 00:02:49,268 We have to make tonight count. 30 00:02:50,936 --> 00:02:53,173 - Go make me proud. - OK. 31 00:03:06,651 --> 00:03:09,719 ♪ The holly and the ivy ♪ 32 00:03:09,722 --> 00:03:11,687 ♪ When they are both full grown ♪ 33 00:03:11,688 --> 00:03:13,356 Quiet! 34 00:03:13,359 --> 00:03:15,424 ♪ Of all the trees that are in the wood ♪ 35 00:03:15,425 --> 00:03:17,893 - Come on, where's your Christmas spirit, Liam? - Quiet! 36 00:03:17,895 --> 00:03:19,929 ♪ The rising of the sun ♪ 37 00:03:19,931 --> 00:03:21,329 Quiet! 38 00:03:21,331 --> 00:03:23,801 ♪ And the running of the deer ♪ 39 00:03:33,444 --> 00:03:36,412 Hey, you guys. You guys. 40 00:03:36,413 --> 00:03:38,281 Good kids... 41 00:03:38,283 --> 00:03:39,316 get better gifts. 42 00:03:40,918 --> 00:03:43,019 Wait a minute. You did not just do that. 43 00:03:43,021 --> 00:03:44,687 I did. You noticed that, didn't you? 44 00:03:44,688 --> 00:03:46,590 - I did it because it works. - That's not fair. 45 00:03:46,591 --> 00:03:48,858 - It worked on you for years. - You didn't do it to me. 46 00:03:48,860 --> 00:03:49,959 Always, always. 47 00:03:49,961 --> 00:03:50,961 Look, we're home! 48 00:03:53,966 --> 00:03:56,365 What? 49 00:03:56,366 --> 00:03:57,366 What the... 50 00:03:59,670 --> 00:04:00,971 Oh, my God. 51 00:04:03,942 --> 00:04:06,979 Mom. Mom. No. Don't! 52 00:04:14,985 --> 00:04:17,257 Oh, my God. I can't believe it. 53 00:04:18,588 --> 00:04:19,723 Hi, Mom. 54 00:04:19,725 --> 00:04:21,790 Oh, let me see you. Is it you? 55 00:04:21,793 --> 00:04:24,028 Is that Ben? 56 00:04:26,764 --> 00:04:28,331 Come on. Look. 57 00:04:28,334 --> 00:04:29,800 - It's Ben. - Yeah, it is Ben. 58 00:04:29,802 --> 00:04:31,567 Take hold of my hand. Come on. Hurry! 59 00:04:31,569 --> 00:04:32,901 Oh, my God. I was just... 60 00:04:32,903 --> 00:04:34,870 I was truly just wondering. 61 00:04:34,872 --> 00:04:36,872 Just wondering what if. 62 00:04:36,875 --> 00:04:38,742 Ben! 63 00:04:38,744 --> 00:04:40,012 Don't let go. 64 00:04:46,451 --> 00:04:48,384 So, my roommate, Timmy, has two years, 65 00:04:48,387 --> 00:04:50,485 and is, like, a recovery rockstar. 66 00:04:50,487 --> 00:04:52,389 And he offers me a free ride. 67 00:04:52,391 --> 00:04:54,456 And I was like, "Yeah, I'm down." 68 00:04:54,459 --> 00:04:58,495 But I'm thinkin', there's no way my sponsor's gonna go for this. 69 00:04:58,497 --> 00:04:59,596 But he did? 70 00:04:59,598 --> 00:05:01,629 But he did because that's how good I'm doing. 71 00:05:01,632 --> 00:05:03,598 Wow, honey. 72 00:05:03,600 --> 00:05:05,901 So, Timmy's mom and dad and his little brother pick us up. 73 00:05:05,903 --> 00:05:07,569 I'm squeezed in the middle. 74 00:05:07,572 --> 00:05:08,637 They're very Christian. 75 00:05:08,639 --> 00:05:09,838 They're all super healthy. 76 00:05:09,841 --> 00:05:11,081 They don't even drink caffeine. 77 00:05:11,843 --> 00:05:12,908 Great. 78 00:05:12,911 --> 00:05:14,110 Mom, Ben is feeding Ponce. 79 00:05:14,112 --> 00:05:15,877 Oh, yeah. Guilty. 80 00:05:15,879 --> 00:05:17,747 Bread is bad for his teeth. 81 00:05:17,750 --> 00:05:19,814 I think a little bit is OK, honey. 82 00:05:19,817 --> 00:05:21,418 OK. Go on. 83 00:05:21,420 --> 00:05:23,552 OK, so we're, like, 10 minutes into the ride, 84 00:05:23,555 --> 00:05:26,055 and suddenly there's this smell 85 00:05:26,057 --> 00:05:27,656 that just hangs there. 86 00:05:27,658 --> 00:05:28,858 And it's a... 87 00:05:28,860 --> 00:05:30,394 And just when it starts to clear, 88 00:05:30,396 --> 00:05:33,795 another cloud of... of stink is unleashed. 89 00:05:33,798 --> 00:05:35,463 - Wait, it's human? - Mm-hmm. 90 00:05:35,466 --> 00:05:36,800 - Oh, my God. - It was the silent but deadly kind. 91 00:05:36,802 --> 00:05:37,867 Oh, my God. 92 00:05:37,870 --> 00:05:39,569 That's the worst kind. 93 00:05:39,571 --> 00:05:41,538 This is great. So great. 94 00:05:41,540 --> 00:05:42,771 You know, Ponce, 95 00:05:42,774 --> 00:05:44,973 all of us in the kitchen. 96 00:05:44,975 --> 00:05:46,475 You happy. 97 00:05:46,478 --> 00:05:47,576 Zip me, please. 98 00:05:47,579 --> 00:05:48,778 Oh, you got one on. 99 00:05:48,781 --> 00:05:49,846 Good job. OK. 100 00:05:49,848 --> 00:05:50,846 Leave these on. 101 00:05:50,848 --> 00:05:52,548 - OK? All right. - Bye! 102 00:05:52,550 --> 00:05:53,617 - Be smart. - Bye! 103 00:05:53,619 --> 00:05:54,783 All right. 104 00:05:54,786 --> 00:05:56,586 - Then what happened? - OK, so, 105 00:05:56,588 --> 00:05:58,721 we're trapped in the back and the farts just keep on coming. 106 00:05:58,723 --> 00:06:00,156 Front door. 107 00:06:00,158 --> 00:06:02,725 And so, I'm thinking, surely someone is gonna say sorry. 108 00:06:02,728 --> 00:06:04,060 - Or excuse me... - Excuse me. Yes. 109 00:06:04,062 --> 00:06:05,728 Or, like, maybe crack a window. 110 00:06:05,730 --> 00:06:07,663 But, no, they act like nothing is wrong. 111 00:06:07,665 --> 00:06:08,697 Oh, my God. 112 00:06:08,699 --> 00:06:09,932 So, I just said, 113 00:06:09,935 --> 00:06:11,634 "You know, you can let me out here." 114 00:06:11,637 --> 00:06:12,867 Mom? 115 00:06:12,870 --> 00:06:14,204 It's not that funny. 116 00:06:14,206 --> 00:06:15,572 But it is. 117 00:06:15,574 --> 00:06:17,673 So, I just hiked the rest of the way home. 118 00:06:17,675 --> 00:06:18,875 You didn't! 119 00:06:20,946 --> 00:06:22,778 Oh, they did it again. Ugh. 120 00:06:22,781 --> 00:06:25,649 - Rascals. - All right. You're gonna regret this. 121 00:06:25,651 --> 00:06:26,985 Oh, go get 'em. 122 00:06:28,821 --> 00:06:30,552 The big brother. 123 00:06:30,555 --> 00:06:31,923 Aah! 124 00:06:50,242 --> 00:06:51,639 Mom? Mom? 125 00:06:51,641 --> 00:06:54,043 Did you see? He's gained some weight and... 126 00:06:54,045 --> 00:06:56,146 he's got the sparkle back in his eyes. 127 00:06:56,148 --> 00:06:58,112 He's clearly doing better. 128 00:06:58,115 --> 00:06:59,716 Then why are you hiding everything? 129 00:06:59,718 --> 00:07:00,850 You know why. 130 00:07:00,853 --> 00:07:02,884 Sad. Having to hide. 131 00:07:02,887 --> 00:07:05,086 Well, I would do the same for you. 132 00:07:05,088 --> 00:07:07,257 But you'll never have to. 133 00:07:07,259 --> 00:07:10,560 Sweetie, I've got a very good feeling about this. 134 00:07:10,562 --> 00:07:11,661 Well, I don't. 135 00:07:11,663 --> 00:07:14,531 Listen. This time will be different. You'll see. 136 00:07:14,533 --> 00:07:16,132 It will. 137 00:07:16,134 --> 00:07:17,867 Mom? 138 00:07:17,870 --> 00:07:19,269 Why is he here anyway? 139 00:07:19,271 --> 00:07:22,538 Weren't we supposed to go visit him tomorrow? 140 00:07:23,675 --> 00:07:24,740 OK, you need to go watch him. 141 00:07:24,742 --> 00:07:26,108 No. 142 00:07:26,110 --> 00:07:27,675 No, he'll think I'm spying. 143 00:07:27,677 --> 00:07:30,747 No, then just, uh, film him on your phone then. 144 00:07:30,749 --> 00:07:32,615 Hmm? 145 00:07:32,617 --> 00:07:33,617 Are you serious? 146 00:07:33,619 --> 00:07:34,750 Yes, Ivy. 147 00:07:34,752 --> 00:07:35,850 Now. 148 00:07:37,153 --> 00:07:39,288 - Yeah? - I want hot chocolate. 149 00:07:46,098 --> 00:07:48,298 Go, go, go! 150 00:07:49,534 --> 00:07:50,834 What are you doing? 151 00:07:50,836 --> 00:07:53,637 I'm making a video of holiday highlights. 152 00:07:56,707 --> 00:07:58,810 - Run! - No, hurry! 153 00:08:12,156 --> 00:08:13,956 Hurry, hurry! 154 00:08:23,701 --> 00:08:24,867 Come here, boy! 155 00:08:24,870 --> 00:08:26,802 Come on, Ponce! 156 00:08:28,706 --> 00:08:30,307 Let's go! 157 00:08:42,687 --> 00:08:43,953 Don't do that. 158 00:08:43,956 --> 00:08:45,054 No... 159 00:08:58,302 --> 00:09:02,173 ♪ When Ben was ten ♪ 160 00:09:03,707 --> 00:09:07,278 ♪ Lacy was a baby ♪ 161 00:09:08,379 --> 00:09:11,582 ♪ When Ben was ten ♪ 162 00:09:12,783 --> 00:09:15,985 ♪ Liam was a maybe ♪ 163 00:09:15,988 --> 00:09:17,289 What about Ivy? 164 00:09:19,191 --> 00:09:22,857 ♪ And now we're all here ♪ 165 00:09:22,860 --> 00:09:25,995 ♪ So let's go crazy ♪ 166 00:09:25,998 --> 00:09:28,864 ♪ Let's go crazy! ♪ 167 00:09:28,865 --> 00:09:31,799 ♪ Who's gonna help me today? ♪ 168 00:09:31,802 --> 00:09:33,235 Neal? 169 00:09:33,238 --> 00:09:36,042 ♪ We're going crazy ♪ 170 00:09:36,975 --> 00:09:38,407 I got it under control. 171 00:09:38,408 --> 00:09:41,744 Ivy called, texted. Why didn't you? 172 00:09:41,745 --> 00:09:43,078 ♪ Let's go crazy ♪ 173 00:09:43,081 --> 00:09:47,286 ♪ Let's go crazy! ♪ 174 00:09:50,022 --> 00:09:51,323 Hey, Neal. 175 00:09:52,423 --> 00:09:55,024 Hey, Ben. 176 00:09:55,027 --> 00:09:58,861 How about 15 extra minutes of screen time starting right now? 177 00:09:58,864 --> 00:10:00,198 Yay! 178 00:10:04,836 --> 00:10:06,238 We better hurry up! 179 00:10:08,940 --> 00:10:10,241 I'm... I'm confused. 180 00:10:12,976 --> 00:10:15,145 I thought we had an understanding. 181 00:10:16,846 --> 00:10:18,380 The therapists. 182 00:10:18,383 --> 00:10:19,347 The doctors. 183 00:10:19,350 --> 00:10:22,451 Everyone, even... even you, agreed that it's in 184 00:10:22,452 --> 00:10:24,153 your best interest 185 00:10:24,154 --> 00:10:26,221 not to be home yet. 186 00:10:26,224 --> 00:10:27,155 I know. 187 00:10:27,158 --> 00:10:30,859 There's too many triggers for you here. 188 00:10:30,860 --> 00:10:32,061 That was months ago. 189 00:10:32,062 --> 00:10:33,929 And, and, and your sponsor said... 190 00:10:33,932 --> 00:10:36,732 Please, let... let Ben tell me, please. 191 00:10:36,735 --> 00:10:37,732 Please, honey. 192 00:10:37,735 --> 00:10:40,001 OK, I know... 193 00:10:40,004 --> 00:10:42,203 I know I really fucked up last Christmas. 194 00:10:42,206 --> 00:10:44,210 And the one before that. 195 00:10:46,344 --> 00:10:47,844 It's true. 196 00:10:47,846 --> 00:10:51,115 Yeah, I know I've made a lot of mistakes. 197 00:10:51,850 --> 00:10:54,084 But... 198 00:10:54,086 --> 00:10:55,818 Now, since I'm doing so good, 199 00:10:55,821 --> 00:10:59,455 and... and with all the support I'm getting and... 200 00:10:59,456 --> 00:11:02,357 w-with my sponsor? 201 00:11:02,360 --> 00:11:05,260 I honestly didn't think I'd ever... 202 00:11:05,263 --> 00:11:06,698 feel this good again. 203 00:11:11,903 --> 00:11:13,368 What? You don't believe me? 204 00:11:13,370 --> 00:11:14,469 Sweetie, we do. 205 00:11:14,471 --> 00:11:17,239 Which is why she hid all the meds and the jewelry. 206 00:11:17,240 --> 00:11:19,844 I was just removing the temptation. 207 00:11:21,913 --> 00:11:24,917 Wow. Fuck. You're all still scared of me. 208 00:11:26,884 --> 00:11:30,423 Which is the last thing I wanna make any of you feel. 209 00:11:33,957 --> 00:11:36,860 You should just... you should take me back. 210 00:11:43,500 --> 00:11:45,102 Mom, take me back. 211 00:11:48,240 --> 00:11:50,205 Front door. 212 00:11:52,110 --> 00:11:54,911 - Mom? - You should have known better. 213 00:11:54,913 --> 00:11:56,245 Don't blame him. 214 00:11:56,248 --> 00:11:58,147 It's my fault. 215 00:11:58,149 --> 00:12:00,982 When he called and asked what I wanted for Christmas, 216 00:12:00,985 --> 00:12:03,085 I shouldn't have said him home. 217 00:12:03,086 --> 00:12:04,253 That's what you said? 218 00:12:04,254 --> 00:12:06,121 I wanted him to know I missed him. 219 00:12:06,124 --> 00:12:08,423 I didn't... I never dreamed he would just... 220 00:12:08,426 --> 00:12:10,359 show up. 221 00:12:10,360 --> 00:12:11,460 Is he in the car? 222 00:12:11,461 --> 00:12:13,462 Yup. 223 00:12:13,465 --> 00:12:15,364 It's not like he came home to stay. 224 00:12:15,365 --> 00:12:17,933 Obviously, that can't happen right now. 225 00:12:17,936 --> 00:12:19,333 It wouldn't be good for him. 226 00:12:19,336 --> 00:12:20,469 He needs to go back. 227 00:12:20,471 --> 00:12:22,070 I agree. 228 00:12:22,072 --> 00:12:23,338 And if it weren't Christmas... 229 00:12:23,341 --> 00:12:25,340 It's the right thing, honey. 230 00:12:25,341 --> 00:12:26,241 It is, Mom. 231 00:12:26,244 --> 00:12:28,010 We hope. We don't know. 232 00:12:28,013 --> 00:12:29,445 I mean, honestly... 233 00:12:29,447 --> 00:12:32,080 I'm so goddamn angry at the two of you right now. 234 00:12:32,081 --> 00:12:33,081 I am. 235 00:12:33,082 --> 00:12:34,183 What did I do? 236 00:12:34,186 --> 00:12:35,951 You gave up on him. 237 00:12:35,952 --> 00:12:37,052 You both have. 238 00:12:37,053 --> 00:12:39,121 This is not giving up. 239 00:12:39,124 --> 00:12:41,423 - It is. - It's... no, it... it's giving a shit, 240 00:12:41,426 --> 00:12:44,025 which we do, about what's best for him. 241 00:12:44,028 --> 00:12:45,195 And for you. 242 00:12:45,197 --> 00:12:46,863 You have a problem with him, Neal. 243 00:12:46,865 --> 00:12:49,164 No, I'm rooting for him, but I'm frustrated. 244 00:12:49,167 --> 00:12:50,866 He's lucky, and we're... 245 00:12:50,869 --> 00:12:52,368 - We're playing loose with it. - OK, Neal. 246 00:12:52,370 --> 00:12:54,570 If he were black, he would be in jail by now. 247 00:12:54,572 --> 00:12:56,138 Maybe this isn't the time. 248 00:12:56,139 --> 00:12:58,207 We said we weren't going to do this again. 249 00:12:58,210 --> 00:12:59,912 Remember? 250 00:13:01,413 --> 00:13:03,413 I remember. 251 00:13:09,421 --> 00:13:10,923 Holly? 252 00:13:11,855 --> 00:13:12,988 Here's the list. 253 00:13:12,990 --> 00:13:14,323 I don't care who gets what. 254 00:13:14,326 --> 00:13:15,224 Just get it done. 255 00:13:15,225 --> 00:13:16,995 Yeah. 256 00:13:29,206 --> 00:13:31,143 God, damn it! 257 00:13:32,076 --> 00:13:34,144 God, damn it! 258 00:13:35,480 --> 00:13:37,014 We're all set. 259 00:13:48,225 --> 00:13:49,258 It's okay, Mom. 260 00:13:49,259 --> 00:13:50,961 It's for the best. 261 00:13:53,630 --> 00:13:55,299 Seat belt, please. 262 00:14:07,946 --> 00:14:09,378 Mom. 263 00:14:09,379 --> 00:14:11,046 Mom! 264 00:14:18,023 --> 00:14:19,291 What? 265 00:14:21,024 --> 00:14:23,225 I'm thinking. 266 00:14:35,004 --> 00:14:37,174 All right. Come on. 267 00:14:48,284 --> 00:14:49,618 OK. 268 00:14:49,620 --> 00:14:52,721 Here's the deal, and it is not negotiable. 269 00:14:52,724 --> 00:14:54,293 You get a day. 270 00:14:55,125 --> 00:14:56,692 Are you sure? 271 00:14:56,695 --> 00:14:59,126 So long as you pass the drug test I'm about to administer. 272 00:14:59,129 --> 00:15:00,629 Stay clean while you're here, 273 00:15:00,630 --> 00:15:03,097 and that this time tomorrow you are back in Sober Living. 274 00:15:03,100 --> 00:15:04,267 Yeah, OK. 275 00:15:04,269 --> 00:15:05,534 Now, I'm not done. 276 00:15:05,537 --> 00:15:06,602 These are our terms, 277 00:15:06,605 --> 00:15:09,171 and I don't give a shit if you hate these rules. 278 00:15:09,173 --> 00:15:11,573 You do not leave my sight ever. 279 00:15:11,576 --> 00:15:14,042 You do not close the door to your room, 280 00:15:14,043 --> 00:15:16,211 where, by the way, I will be sleeping on the floor, 281 00:15:16,213 --> 00:15:17,446 and if you try to sneak off, 282 00:15:17,447 --> 00:15:19,181 if your bed so much as make squeak, 283 00:15:19,182 --> 00:15:21,083 I will be all over you 284 00:15:21,086 --> 00:15:25,355 because, for the next 24 hours, you are mine. All mine. Got it? 285 00:15:26,157 --> 00:15:27,458 I got it. 286 00:15:28,460 --> 00:15:29,392 Good. 287 00:15:29,394 --> 00:15:31,096 Let's get you tested. 288 00:15:38,470 --> 00:15:40,068 Mom. 289 00:15:40,071 --> 00:15:42,504 Relax, I'm not going to be looking at your privates. 290 00:15:42,505 --> 00:15:43,338 OK, then. 291 00:15:43,341 --> 00:15:45,273 I will be keeping my eyes on you. 292 00:15:45,274 --> 00:15:47,077 Just like I said. 293 00:15:51,249 --> 00:15:52,447 This is so not cool. 294 00:15:52,450 --> 00:15:55,086 Nothing about this is cool, Ben. 295 00:15:59,157 --> 00:16:00,188 Come on, pee-pee time. 296 00:16:00,191 --> 00:16:01,756 Shut up. 297 00:16:03,461 --> 00:16:05,494 Do you want me to turn the faucet on? 298 00:16:05,495 --> 00:16:06,630 Stop. 299 00:16:09,500 --> 00:16:11,633 - Shh. - All right, all right, all right. 300 00:16:11,634 --> 00:16:14,202 - Sometimes it helps. - Mm-hmm. 301 00:16:14,205 --> 00:16:15,671 - What are you doing? - OK. 302 00:16:15,673 --> 00:16:19,174 - There's a surprise coming. - What surprise? 303 00:16:19,177 --> 00:16:20,342 Do you trust me? 304 00:16:20,345 --> 00:16:21,344 - Yes! - Yes, I do. 305 00:16:21,346 --> 00:16:22,811 Awesome. That's awesome. 306 00:16:22,812 --> 00:16:24,546 Good. Good to hear. 307 00:16:24,548 --> 00:16:25,414 All right. 308 00:16:25,417 --> 00:16:27,282 - You close your eyes. - Yeah. 309 00:16:27,283 --> 00:16:29,150 - Can you see anything? - No. 310 00:16:29,153 --> 00:16:30,489 OK, no peaking. 311 00:16:33,356 --> 00:16:35,256 I hear something. 312 00:16:35,259 --> 00:16:37,659 - When I was your age, this was my favorite. - It's gross. 313 00:16:37,662 --> 00:16:39,695 Ivy, chill out. 314 00:16:39,697 --> 00:16:42,065 Liam doesn't like crust. 315 00:16:42,067 --> 00:16:44,269 There's a crust-less option 316 00:16:44,802 --> 00:16:46,201 in the works. 317 00:16:46,202 --> 00:16:47,538 Oh, really? 318 00:16:49,274 --> 00:16:50,639 Are you two ready? 319 00:16:50,642 --> 00:16:51,840 Yes. 320 00:16:51,841 --> 00:16:53,508 Back door. 321 00:16:53,509 --> 00:16:56,480 OK, open your eyes and feast. 322 00:17:00,418 --> 00:17:02,350 - Yum! - Right? 323 00:17:02,351 --> 00:17:04,152 It's really good. 324 00:17:04,153 --> 00:17:05,421 What have you done? 325 00:17:05,423 --> 00:17:07,221 I know. I know. There's no going back. 326 00:17:07,223 --> 00:17:11,393 Mm-hmm. More, please! 327 00:17:11,394 --> 00:17:13,662 But Ashley's wings have glitter. 328 00:17:13,663 --> 00:17:17,231 Well, we are going to bedazzle these things like crazy. 329 00:17:17,233 --> 00:17:18,834 Mom, seriously, they're so good. 330 00:17:18,836 --> 00:17:20,236 I don't want to brag. 331 00:17:20,238 --> 00:17:22,269 Well, yeah, I do. These are gonna be good. 332 00:17:26,711 --> 00:17:28,211 Ben? 333 00:17:40,289 --> 00:17:42,858 Boy. Hey, buddy. 334 00:17:47,230 --> 00:17:48,230 Hi Mama. 335 00:17:48,231 --> 00:17:50,298 You knew it. 336 00:17:50,299 --> 00:17:52,300 You came back for Ponce. 337 00:17:52,302 --> 00:17:54,201 Busted. 338 00:17:54,203 --> 00:17:55,472 Actually, no. 339 00:18:05,848 --> 00:18:07,751 OK, let's party. 340 00:18:12,390 --> 00:18:13,555 You know, I really wouldn't appreciate it if you leave me. 341 00:18:13,557 --> 00:18:14,757 - Holly. - Hi. 342 00:18:14,759 --> 00:18:15,691 How'd the test go? 343 00:18:15,692 --> 00:18:17,625 - Negative. - That's great. 344 00:18:17,627 --> 00:18:18,594 Yeah. 345 00:18:18,596 --> 00:18:20,729 And he's helping out with chores. 346 00:18:20,730 --> 00:18:23,199 - Really? - Mm-hmm. 347 00:18:23,201 --> 00:18:24,432 OK, well... 348 00:18:24,433 --> 00:18:26,736 I left word with Sober Living. 349 00:18:26,738 --> 00:18:28,836 OK. 350 00:18:28,838 --> 00:18:32,509 It hurts to think about the shit I've done. 351 00:18:33,912 --> 00:18:35,911 And what I'm learning in recovery is I can't undo 352 00:18:35,913 --> 00:18:38,846 what I've done, but I can do it differently now. 353 00:18:38,848 --> 00:18:40,182 I think we're good here. 354 00:18:40,183 --> 00:18:41,449 One... just one sec, Ivy. 355 00:18:41,451 --> 00:18:43,518 What I mean is, is I have to be present. 356 00:18:43,519 --> 00:18:44,753 I have to be present. 357 00:18:44,756 --> 00:18:46,654 - It's about this log. - OK. 358 00:18:46,656 --> 00:18:48,391 - It's about this log. It's... - That's enough. 359 00:18:48,393 --> 00:18:50,660 It's about taking care of this log and placing it here. 360 00:18:50,662 --> 00:18:52,728 And I have to take it one log at a time, 361 00:18:52,730 --> 00:18:54,930 - No, stop. - Otherwise it's not gonna... 362 00:18:54,932 --> 00:18:56,535 Ben, stop! 363 00:19:05,410 --> 00:19:06,807 Aah! 364 00:19:06,809 --> 00:19:08,411 - God! - Come on. You got this. 365 00:19:08,413 --> 00:19:10,680 Come on. 366 00:19:10,682 --> 00:19:13,248 Fine. Just leave it. We don't need anymore, Ben. 367 00:19:13,250 --> 00:19:14,883 Cleaning up your mess. 368 00:19:14,884 --> 00:19:18,286 - We'll do it. We're gonna do it. - Aah! 369 00:19:18,288 --> 00:19:20,422 - It's so heavy! - I got it. I got it. 370 00:19:20,423 --> 00:19:23,692 - You're good. You're good. - Ponce! 371 00:19:23,693 --> 00:19:25,294 Nice. OK. 372 00:19:28,566 --> 00:19:30,565 We're in no danger of it burning out. 373 00:19:30,567 --> 00:19:33,469 What the fuck is this? Where did our ornaments go? 374 00:19:33,471 --> 00:19:35,438 They don't share the current aesthetic. 375 00:19:35,440 --> 00:19:37,605 Is there a problem? 376 00:19:37,607 --> 00:19:41,009 Ben was just asking where our old ornaments are. 377 00:19:41,010 --> 00:19:42,579 Did you throw them away? 378 00:19:50,255 --> 00:19:51,557 Come with me. 379 00:19:57,427 --> 00:19:59,996 Be quick and be careful, yeah? 380 00:19:59,998 --> 00:20:02,601 - Mommy! - Yes, yes. OK. 381 00:20:13,743 --> 00:20:15,479 Do you see 'em? 382 00:20:17,615 --> 00:20:19,651 It should be right there. 383 00:20:31,296 --> 00:20:33,296 Ben? 384 00:20:33,298 --> 00:20:34,596 Fuck! 385 00:20:34,597 --> 00:20:35,830 Ben? 386 00:20:35,833 --> 00:20:36,934 Can you come up? 387 00:20:44,040 --> 00:20:47,542 - That's it. - I hate it up here. 388 00:20:47,545 --> 00:20:48,643 OK, then let's go already. 389 00:20:48,644 --> 00:20:50,378 Wait... 390 00:20:50,381 --> 00:20:51,883 I need you to check. 391 00:20:52,950 --> 00:20:54,552 I'm, uh... 392 00:20:55,920 --> 00:20:57,987 I used to stash my... my, um... 393 00:20:57,989 --> 00:20:59,954 OK. 394 00:21:05,394 --> 00:21:06,730 Back there? 395 00:21:09,665 --> 00:21:13,637 If there's something there, then you have to make it go away. 396 00:21:21,913 --> 00:21:23,413 Nothing. 397 00:21:29,385 --> 00:21:30,688 We're good. 398 00:21:31,954 --> 00:21:33,423 I'll help you down. 399 00:21:36,027 --> 00:21:37,695 Come on. Let's go. 400 00:21:56,712 --> 00:21:59,013 Oh, wow. Ben. 401 00:21:59,016 --> 00:22:01,816 Nice. 402 00:22:01,817 --> 00:22:04,056 Liam, I have a pine cone nose. 403 00:22:05,690 --> 00:22:08,026 This is better. 404 00:22:09,727 --> 00:22:11,759 - Yeah. - Yeah, cotton balls. 405 00:22:11,761 --> 00:22:14,964 Ben, Ivy, can you two come with me, please? 406 00:22:16,601 --> 00:22:19,701 I know, I went a little overboard this year. 407 00:22:19,702 --> 00:22:21,603 - Mom? - Keep wrapping. 408 00:22:22,740 --> 00:22:23,971 Hello? 409 00:22:23,973 --> 00:22:25,074 - Hey, honey. - Yeah? 410 00:22:25,076 --> 00:22:26,173 They only have regular. 411 00:22:26,175 --> 00:22:27,741 No. 412 00:22:27,743 --> 00:22:29,711 Organic cranberries. 413 00:22:29,712 --> 00:22:32,748 Mom, we don't have to be 100%... 414 00:22:32,750 --> 00:22:34,615 It's important. 415 00:22:34,617 --> 00:22:35,984 - Got it. - OK. 416 00:22:35,987 --> 00:22:37,018 Thank you. 417 00:22:38,855 --> 00:22:40,154 Ugh, gotta love that Neal. 418 00:22:40,156 --> 00:22:41,757 Mom? 419 00:22:41,759 --> 00:22:43,858 Running all my last-minute errands so we can just... 420 00:22:43,861 --> 00:22:46,027 - stay here till church. - Mom. Mom, I wanna do some shopping of my own. 421 00:22:46,028 --> 00:22:46,862 Why? 422 00:22:46,864 --> 00:22:49,064 I wanna get them something from me. 423 00:22:49,066 --> 00:22:52,535 Well, sweetie, you are the present. 424 00:22:52,537 --> 00:22:54,103 Something that they can unwrap. 425 00:22:54,105 --> 00:22:56,638 Well, OK. Let's just say these are from you, then. 426 00:22:56,641 --> 00:22:58,641 But they're not really from me. I didn't pick them out. 427 00:22:58,643 --> 00:22:59,740 They'll never know. 428 00:22:59,742 --> 00:23:01,442 But I'll know. 429 00:23:01,444 --> 00:23:04,747 All right. Well, honestly, they have everything they need. 430 00:23:04,749 --> 00:23:06,815 They really don't need anything more. 431 00:23:06,817 --> 00:23:07,650 So true. 432 00:23:07,652 --> 00:23:09,183 OK, but... 433 00:23:09,185 --> 00:23:11,653 if I didn't pick them out, then they're not really from me, 434 00:23:11,654 --> 00:23:13,122 which makes me a liar. 435 00:23:13,124 --> 00:23:15,023 And the whole point of this 436 00:23:15,026 --> 00:23:16,124 is to be honest. 437 00:23:16,125 --> 00:23:18,227 It's no good if I'm not honest. 438 00:23:35,680 --> 00:23:37,046 This is nice. 439 00:23:37,048 --> 00:23:39,785 Getting to spend a little quality alone time together. 440 00:23:45,087 --> 00:23:47,625 What do you think you'll wear tonight? 441 00:23:48,526 --> 00:23:49,923 This is all I brought. 442 00:23:49,925 --> 00:23:53,628 Oh, well, no worries. We can pick up a sweater 443 00:23:53,631 --> 00:23:56,701 or maybe even a whole new ensemble. 444 00:23:57,233 --> 00:23:58,701 Ensemble? 445 00:24:00,171 --> 00:24:03,171 That way you'll... I want you to be comfortable. 446 00:24:03,173 --> 00:24:04,605 Oh, I'm okay with just... 447 00:24:04,607 --> 00:24:06,240 No, come on. 448 00:24:06,242 --> 00:24:09,078 It's Christmas Eve. We're gonna be in a front pew. 449 00:24:14,719 --> 00:24:16,250 Hey, Burns! 450 00:24:16,252 --> 00:24:17,818 What's going on? 451 00:24:17,820 --> 00:24:21,025 - Hey, man. - Wow, it's been a long time. 452 00:24:21,826 --> 00:24:23,626 I thought you were dead. 453 00:24:25,261 --> 00:24:26,728 What's new? 454 00:24:26,730 --> 00:24:30,132 - I'm... I'm good. - Yeah? 455 00:24:30,134 --> 00:24:32,634 Dude, it's... it's really good to see you. 456 00:24:32,635 --> 00:24:34,536 - Yeah. - And you look good. 457 00:24:34,538 --> 00:24:35,537 Oh, thank you. 458 00:24:35,538 --> 00:24:36,875 OK. 459 00:24:41,310 --> 00:24:43,878 He was a little full of himself, don't you think? 460 00:24:43,881 --> 00:24:45,680 He's all right. 461 00:24:45,682 --> 00:24:48,017 And what's his drug of choice? You know he has one. 462 00:24:48,019 --> 00:24:50,685 - Speed? Weekend cocaine? - Mom. 463 00:24:50,688 --> 00:24:53,322 - High caffeinated energy drinks? - Mom. 464 00:24:53,324 --> 00:24:58,227 All I'm saying is you forget how special you are. 465 00:24:58,229 --> 00:24:59,795 You just don't... you don't... 466 00:24:59,797 --> 00:25:01,596 Well, people look up to you, and they love you. 467 00:25:01,597 --> 00:25:04,865 You're a natural leader, and you are so, so smart. 468 00:25:04,867 --> 00:25:06,768 No, Mom, Ivy is smart. 469 00:25:06,769 --> 00:25:08,769 Well, nobody wants to be that smart. 470 00:25:08,771 --> 00:25:12,606 It's not like she's having a tremendous amount of fun, hmm? 471 00:25:12,608 --> 00:25:13,307 What was my point? 472 00:25:13,309 --> 00:25:14,776 You don't have a point. 473 00:25:14,778 --> 00:25:15,943 I do have a point. 474 00:25:15,945 --> 00:25:17,813 My point is, look, you lick this, 475 00:25:17,815 --> 00:25:19,815 and who knows how far you can go 476 00:25:19,817 --> 00:25:21,048 and what you can do. 477 00:25:21,050 --> 00:25:23,186 There's so much to look forward to. 478 00:25:34,730 --> 00:25:37,599 OK, honey, you've barely touched your breakfast. 479 00:25:37,602 --> 00:25:40,070 You've got to eat this. Come on now. 480 00:25:40,903 --> 00:25:41,903 Mrs. Crane. 481 00:25:41,904 --> 00:25:43,104 Dr. Crane. 482 00:25:43,105 --> 00:25:44,674 Oh, hello. 483 00:25:45,608 --> 00:25:46,809 Do I know you? 484 00:25:47,778 --> 00:25:49,711 Holly Burns. 485 00:25:49,712 --> 00:25:52,145 Yes. Oh, yes. 486 00:25:52,147 --> 00:25:55,249 He doesn't always remember. 487 00:25:55,250 --> 00:25:59,253 Holly is the mother of Ivy, whose singing we love. 488 00:25:59,256 --> 00:26:01,323 She was your patient. 489 00:26:01,325 --> 00:26:02,990 I remember. 490 00:26:02,992 --> 00:26:05,759 You must be so proud of her. 491 00:26:05,761 --> 00:26:08,298 I am proud of all of my children, yes. 492 00:26:17,842 --> 00:26:20,345 Oh, fuck. 493 00:26:24,315 --> 00:26:26,315 Oh, look, I need to get a napkin. I... 494 00:26:26,317 --> 00:26:27,849 I'll sit with him. 495 00:26:27,852 --> 00:26:29,718 You're a dear. 496 00:26:29,720 --> 00:26:30,821 Be right back. 497 00:26:32,788 --> 00:26:37,792 So, if you remember Ivy, then you must remember my son, Ben. 498 00:26:37,795 --> 00:26:39,060 Right over there. 499 00:26:39,063 --> 00:26:40,332 Who? 500 00:26:43,365 --> 00:26:44,967 - I don't remember him. - Hmm. 501 00:26:44,969 --> 00:26:48,036 I understand. You had so many patients. 502 00:26:48,038 --> 00:26:50,270 But when was 14, he had a small 503 00:26:50,272 --> 00:26:52,207 snowboarding injury. 504 00:26:52,209 --> 00:26:54,375 And you prescribed painkillers. 505 00:26:54,376 --> 00:26:58,113 And when I asked, you told me they weren't addictive 506 00:26:58,115 --> 00:27:00,281 and kept upping his dose, and he got hooked, 507 00:27:00,284 --> 00:27:01,816 and it fucked up his life. 508 00:27:01,817 --> 00:27:03,451 So, you can pretend you don't remember, 509 00:27:03,452 --> 00:27:05,720 but I won't forget. 510 00:27:05,721 --> 00:27:08,358 I hope you die a horrible death. 511 00:27:11,193 --> 00:27:13,228 Merry Christmas. 512 00:27:13,230 --> 00:27:15,098 I'm just here for a day. 513 00:27:17,067 --> 00:27:18,199 OK. Yeah. 514 00:27:18,201 --> 00:27:19,702 I will. 515 00:27:20,471 --> 00:27:23,375 OK. Yes. I gotta go. I gotta go. 516 00:27:24,942 --> 00:27:26,141 Who was that? 517 00:27:26,143 --> 00:27:28,142 Um, my... my sponsor. 518 00:27:28,144 --> 00:27:30,445 I'm feeling... I'm feeling shaky. 519 00:27:30,448 --> 00:27:32,913 So, I... that's why I called him. 520 00:27:32,915 --> 00:27:34,248 He told me to go to a meeting. 521 00:27:34,250 --> 00:27:35,450 They all say that. 522 00:27:35,451 --> 00:27:38,385 Whenever you feel shaky, get to a meeting. 523 00:27:38,387 --> 00:27:40,888 OK, well, let's just get your clothes... 524 00:27:40,891 --> 00:27:42,894 I gotta find a meeting. Now. 525 00:27:45,863 --> 00:27:47,132 Did you hear me? 526 00:27:47,765 --> 00:27:49,797 OK. 527 00:27:49,798 --> 00:27:51,932 I'm so proud of you. 528 00:27:51,934 --> 00:27:53,134 Knowing what you need. 529 00:27:53,135 --> 00:27:55,304 I just, I think it's so great. 530 00:27:55,306 --> 00:27:58,940 Like they say, it's working when you... 531 00:27:58,942 --> 00:28:00,108 What do they say? 532 00:28:00,111 --> 00:28:01,209 It works if you work it. 533 00:28:01,211 --> 00:28:02,243 It works if you work it. 534 00:28:02,246 --> 00:28:03,277 Well, you are working it. 535 00:28:03,278 --> 00:28:04,412 Oh, let's go in. 536 00:28:04,413 --> 00:28:05,881 You're not coming in. 537 00:28:05,883 --> 00:28:07,281 No, why? Of course I am. 538 00:28:07,284 --> 00:28:08,750 No, Mom, I-I'm... I'm good. 539 00:28:08,751 --> 00:28:10,250 It's... it's a... it's a meeting. 540 00:28:10,252 --> 00:28:11,885 I'm gonna come right out afterwards. No. 541 00:28:11,887 --> 00:28:12,787 I may just tag along. 542 00:28:12,788 --> 00:28:14,288 - Hi! - Mom. 543 00:28:14,289 --> 00:28:15,891 - Hey, yo, what's up, baby? - Hello. 544 00:28:15,893 --> 00:28:17,025 - How are you? - Hey, how you doing? 545 00:28:17,027 --> 00:28:18,125 Stop. 546 00:28:18,127 --> 00:28:19,127 Never hurts to be friendly. 547 00:28:19,130 --> 00:28:20,128 Dial it down. 548 00:28:20,131 --> 00:28:21,130 OK. 549 00:28:21,132 --> 00:28:22,296 Maybe I'll just... Hi! 550 00:28:22,298 --> 00:28:23,902 - Hi, guys. - Hello. 551 00:28:25,035 --> 00:28:26,738 Everybody seems so nice. 552 00:28:32,509 --> 00:28:34,041 The minute I think I have it, 553 00:28:34,044 --> 00:28:37,045 the minute I think I've got this, uh... 554 00:28:37,047 --> 00:28:38,479 it's waiting, you know? 555 00:28:38,480 --> 00:28:40,516 It's out there, doing push-ups right now 556 00:28:40,518 --> 00:28:42,316 while we're sitting in these folding chairs. 557 00:28:42,317 --> 00:28:45,921 So, I'm really, really grateful to be here with all of you. 558 00:28:45,923 --> 00:28:48,221 And I-I thank you for keeping me clean. 559 00:28:48,223 --> 00:28:50,092 Thank you for letting me share. 560 00:28:50,094 --> 00:28:51,160 So, uh... 561 00:28:51,162 --> 00:28:53,230 Thank you. 562 00:28:55,499 --> 00:28:57,164 Go on to show of hands? 563 00:28:57,166 --> 00:28:59,933 I have a deep fear of using. 564 00:28:59,935 --> 00:29:03,305 I have a deep fear of going back into those dark places. 565 00:29:03,307 --> 00:29:06,007 This fellowship, this group of people, 566 00:29:06,009 --> 00:29:07,808 is what keeps me alive. 567 00:29:07,810 --> 00:29:10,577 You know, I have two new baby nieces, 568 00:29:10,579 --> 00:29:13,914 and they're going to meet me for the first time. 569 00:29:13,916 --> 00:29:18,286 I'm just so grateful that they'll never know me high. 570 00:29:18,288 --> 00:29:20,959 They'll just know me as... as me. 571 00:29:22,357 --> 00:29:25,294 Hi, I'm Ben, and I, um, I'm an addict. 572 00:29:25,296 --> 00:29:27,128 Hey, Ben. 573 00:29:27,131 --> 00:29:29,263 I got 77 days. 574 00:29:33,470 --> 00:29:36,604 And, uh, that's my most ever. 575 00:29:36,605 --> 00:29:38,973 So, I just want to get to 78... 576 00:29:38,976 --> 00:29:40,007 right now. 577 00:29:40,009 --> 00:29:42,276 Um, so, I, uh... 578 00:29:42,278 --> 00:29:45,046 I called my sponsor and... 579 00:29:45,048 --> 00:29:49,284 the thing about my sponsor is that he's a... he's a loud talker. 580 00:29:49,286 --> 00:29:53,555 And, so, uh, I say, "Hey," and he goes, 581 00:29:53,557 --> 00:29:55,022 "What's up?" 582 00:29:55,025 --> 00:29:57,057 And I was like, "Well, I-I got big news." 583 00:29:57,059 --> 00:29:59,427 I just bought presents that I actually picked out for someone." 584 00:29:59,430 --> 00:30:03,131 And he was like, "Oh, well, you're feeling pretty good, huh?" 585 00:30:03,133 --> 00:30:06,602 And I was like, "Yeah, you know, I actually feel like I'm being honest." 586 00:30:06,604 --> 00:30:09,103 And, well, he said, "If you were honest, Ben, 587 00:30:09,105 --> 00:30:13,007 you'd look in the mirror and say, I'm a great big phony." 588 00:30:13,009 --> 00:30:14,442 So, I was like, "OK." 589 00:30:14,443 --> 00:30:16,143 "Because Ben you're a fucking addict," 590 00:30:16,144 --> 00:30:18,645 and you're the last person who should believe his own bullshit. 591 00:30:18,647 --> 00:30:20,449 "So, now get to a meeting." 592 00:30:20,451 --> 00:30:22,383 So, here I am. 593 00:30:22,384 --> 00:30:25,186 77 days clean. 594 00:30:25,189 --> 00:30:28,288 Some things are better now. 595 00:30:28,290 --> 00:30:30,191 Like I can actually take a shit. 596 00:30:32,363 --> 00:30:35,197 Yeah, uh, even better than that, 597 00:30:35,199 --> 00:30:38,435 I'm waking up more often than not with an erection. 598 00:30:40,938 --> 00:30:41,670 Sorry, Mom. 599 00:30:41,672 --> 00:30:43,508 And my... yeah, my mom's here. 600 00:30:45,173 --> 00:30:46,476 Um... 601 00:30:48,644 --> 00:30:52,048 I've put her through a lot, um... 602 00:30:53,951 --> 00:30:56,450 This summer, she found me upside down on the stairs 603 00:30:56,451 --> 00:30:59,388 with, um, a needle in my arm. 604 00:31:00,355 --> 00:31:01,625 And, uh... 605 00:31:03,093 --> 00:31:05,928 with my dog trying to keep me awake. 606 00:31:05,930 --> 00:31:07,028 So... 607 00:31:07,029 --> 00:31:09,498 The doctor said that if it weren't for my dog, 608 00:31:09,500 --> 00:31:11,266 I... I would be dead. 609 00:31:11,268 --> 00:31:14,268 Um, and my mom. 610 00:31:14,269 --> 00:31:18,673 Without her, I wouldn't be here right now in this room. 611 00:31:18,674 --> 00:31:24,445 Uh, the things that I've done to myself 612 00:31:24,448 --> 00:31:25,950 and others. 613 00:31:28,652 --> 00:31:32,320 Uh, so, I don't... Why am I still... 614 00:31:32,323 --> 00:31:34,392 here? 615 00:31:36,226 --> 00:31:38,259 There's gotta be a reason. 616 00:31:38,260 --> 00:31:39,961 Maybe it's to... 617 00:31:39,962 --> 00:31:42,564 come back and... and make this Christmas right 618 00:31:42,566 --> 00:31:44,664 or maybe this is the biggest 619 00:31:44,666 --> 00:31:47,469 fucking mistake of my life. 620 00:31:47,471 --> 00:31:50,505 Um, anyways, here I am. 621 00:31:50,507 --> 00:31:51,640 Still here. 622 00:31:51,642 --> 00:31:54,177 So, thank you. Thank you for... 623 00:31:58,714 --> 00:32:00,548 grant us the serenity 624 00:32:00,549 --> 00:32:03,183 to accept the things we cannot change, 625 00:32:03,185 --> 00:32:06,086 the courage to change the things we can, 626 00:32:06,088 --> 00:32:08,457 and the wisdom to know the difference. 627 00:32:08,459 --> 00:32:12,396 Keep coming back. It works if you work it. 628 00:32:19,269 --> 00:32:21,402 Ben? 629 00:32:21,403 --> 00:32:23,671 - Ben. Good job, sweetie. - Thanks. 630 00:32:23,673 --> 00:32:25,440 And you coming back was not a mistake. 631 00:32:25,442 --> 00:32:29,678 Someone wiser than me, your sponsor, said you can do this. 632 00:32:29,680 --> 00:32:32,546 OK. Yeah. That's right. 633 00:32:32,548 --> 00:32:34,548 I think some people want to talk to you. 634 00:32:34,549 --> 00:32:35,548 I'll just wait over here. 635 00:32:35,550 --> 00:32:37,086 OK. 636 00:32:38,422 --> 00:32:40,488 Hey, man. Thanks for your share. 637 00:32:40,490 --> 00:32:41,788 It's been a long time, yo. 638 00:32:41,790 --> 00:32:45,026 - Yeah. - That really hit home. 639 00:32:45,028 --> 00:32:47,432 - Thanks, man. - Thank you. 640 00:32:52,669 --> 00:32:54,134 Hey. 641 00:32:54,136 --> 00:32:55,436 I-I loved what you said. 642 00:32:55,439 --> 00:32:57,104 You were... you were very funny. 643 00:32:57,105 --> 00:33:00,142 There's not enough funny around here. 644 00:33:00,144 --> 00:33:02,308 Thanks. 645 00:33:02,310 --> 00:33:04,112 - You're the mom? - Yes. 646 00:33:04,114 --> 00:33:05,145 I am. 647 00:33:05,147 --> 00:33:06,314 It's great you came with him. 648 00:33:06,316 --> 00:33:07,248 Aw, I hope so. 649 00:33:07,250 --> 00:33:09,383 No, my mom died before I ever got clean. 650 00:33:09,384 --> 00:33:12,554 I would have given anything for her to see me get my shit together. 651 00:33:12,556 --> 00:33:14,057 I'm sure. 652 00:33:18,095 --> 00:33:19,394 It was honest. 653 00:33:19,395 --> 00:33:25,733 And it was you saying it. Someone young and hot. Oh, shit. 654 00:33:25,736 --> 00:33:29,438 - Oh, uh, it's... that's okay. - Oh, I'm blushing... I'm blushing now. 655 00:33:29,440 --> 00:33:32,140 That makes me nervous. 656 00:33:32,142 --> 00:33:33,842 - Is it your first meeting? - Uh, yeah. 657 00:33:33,844 --> 00:33:36,411 - I'm, you know, new to it all, so... - Yeah? 658 00:33:36,413 --> 00:33:37,778 Well, you should get a sponsor. 659 00:33:37,779 --> 00:33:39,680 Um, it should be a woman. 660 00:33:39,682 --> 00:33:42,217 It should be someone really tough, who will 661 00:33:42,219 --> 00:33:44,585 you know, call you on your bullshit, and 662 00:33:44,586 --> 00:33:49,190 it's all about, you know, rigorous honesty. 663 00:33:49,192 --> 00:33:50,758 Oh, they're just talking program. 664 00:33:50,759 --> 00:33:53,094 It's how we help each other. 665 00:33:53,096 --> 00:33:53,894 OK. 666 00:33:53,896 --> 00:33:55,729 So, nothing to worry about then. 667 00:33:55,730 --> 00:33:58,101 Oh, I didn't say that. 668 00:34:00,502 --> 00:34:02,740 You don't remember, do you? 669 00:34:08,244 --> 00:34:09,780 You were my dealer. 670 00:34:11,248 --> 00:34:12,514 Oh, fuck. 671 00:34:12,516 --> 00:34:13,681 Oh, my. I'm sorry. 672 00:34:13,684 --> 00:34:16,117 No, it's fine. I'm, uh... 673 00:34:16,119 --> 00:34:18,719 I'm going to rehab the day after Christmas, so, 674 00:34:18,722 --> 00:34:20,822 that's why I, um, I, you know, I related to 675 00:34:20,824 --> 00:34:22,757 so much to what you were saying. 676 00:34:22,759 --> 00:34:25,630 It was very inspiring, so... 677 00:34:27,731 --> 00:34:30,599 I just want... I just want to get high just one last time. 678 00:34:30,601 --> 00:34:31,632 That's normal. 679 00:34:31,635 --> 00:34:33,199 I'm not going to, though. 680 00:34:33,202 --> 00:34:36,137 Good. Don't. 681 00:34:36,139 --> 00:34:38,141 Unless I could do it with you. 682 00:34:49,552 --> 00:34:50,851 - Hey. - Hi. 683 00:34:50,853 --> 00:34:53,190 - Have a good one. - Merry Christmas. 684 00:34:59,762 --> 00:35:02,929 I think this one will work. 685 00:35:02,931 --> 00:35:04,864 Or this. 686 00:35:04,867 --> 00:35:06,601 And they have it in light blue. 687 00:35:06,603 --> 00:35:09,469 And everybody looks good in light blue. 688 00:35:09,472 --> 00:35:10,639 - Ben? - What? 689 00:35:10,641 --> 00:35:11,639 Which? 690 00:35:11,641 --> 00:35:12,907 Yes. 691 00:35:12,909 --> 00:35:13,775 Good. 692 00:35:13,777 --> 00:35:15,313 OK, light blue. 693 00:35:19,315 --> 00:35:22,550 Looks like she's gonna have you try on the whole store. 694 00:35:24,688 --> 00:35:25,719 Thank you so much. 695 00:35:25,722 --> 00:35:27,322 You're welcome. 696 00:35:27,324 --> 00:35:29,925 These will both complement your complexion as a gift 697 00:35:29,927 --> 00:35:31,659 from your mother. You're welcome. 698 00:35:31,661 --> 00:35:32,726 - Coat, please. - OK. 699 00:35:32,728 --> 00:35:34,896 Nice. I'm good. 700 00:35:34,898 --> 00:35:36,233 Come on. 701 00:35:43,539 --> 00:35:44,875 Pockets. 702 00:35:52,748 --> 00:35:54,382 This is humiliating. 703 00:35:54,384 --> 00:35:55,449 Shh. 704 00:35:55,452 --> 00:35:58,655 No, this is love. 705 00:35:59,922 --> 00:36:01,791 All right. Free to go. 706 00:36:04,561 --> 00:36:06,396 You didn't check my shoes. 707 00:36:14,938 --> 00:36:16,469 That's not funny. 708 00:36:16,472 --> 00:36:17,606 It was a joke, Mom. 709 00:36:17,608 --> 00:36:18,873 Ben. 710 00:36:18,875 --> 00:36:20,373 - Mom, it was a joke. - It's not funny. 711 00:36:20,376 --> 00:36:21,443 Excuse me? 712 00:36:21,445 --> 00:36:23,744 Can I get a key to this door, please? 713 00:36:23,746 --> 00:36:25,579 Unlock the door, Ben. Right now. 714 00:36:25,581 --> 00:36:26,614 Ben. 715 00:36:27,650 --> 00:36:29,617 Open the door. 716 00:36:29,619 --> 00:36:30,851 This is not funny. 717 00:36:30,853 --> 00:36:32,554 Open this fucking door 718 00:36:32,556 --> 00:36:33,554 right now. 719 00:36:33,556 --> 00:36:34,856 Ben. God, damn it. 720 00:36:34,858 --> 00:36:36,793 Open this fucking door. 721 00:36:39,396 --> 00:36:40,864 What is going on? 722 00:36:44,367 --> 00:36:45,670 What's going on? 723 00:37:01,617 --> 00:37:04,018 Fuck. You stupid fuck. 724 00:37:04,021 --> 00:37:04,853 Hey. 725 00:37:04,855 --> 00:37:06,155 Where did you get this? 726 00:37:06,157 --> 00:37:07,920 - I've been with you the whole time. - Excuse me. 727 00:37:07,922 --> 00:37:09,291 The... the... the girl at the meeting. 728 00:37:09,293 --> 00:37:10,791 The one that you're helping. 729 00:37:10,793 --> 00:37:12,661 She was gonna use, now, so I took it from her. 730 00:37:12,663 --> 00:37:13,661 Excuse me. I'm gonna have to 731 00:37:13,664 --> 00:37:14,862 ask you two to leave. 732 00:37:14,864 --> 00:37:16,563 She was gonna use. Now she can't. 733 00:37:16,565 --> 00:37:18,532 Mom, the last time I didn't help someone they died. 734 00:37:18,534 --> 00:37:19,835 Ma'am? 735 00:37:23,507 --> 00:37:25,572 You think I'm an idiot. 736 00:37:25,574 --> 00:37:27,876 - Can you please just exit the store? - Yes! 737 00:37:27,878 --> 00:37:28,976 Fuck. Maybe she's a dealer. 738 00:37:28,978 --> 00:37:31,579 - What? - Maybe she played me. 739 00:37:31,581 --> 00:37:34,315 - You can't trust addicts, Mom. All we do is fucking lie. - What do I do with that? 740 00:37:34,318 --> 00:37:35,617 I don't... I don't know. I don't know. 741 00:37:35,619 --> 00:37:37,021 Mind your own fucking business. 742 00:37:39,989 --> 00:37:41,588 Mom. What...? 743 00:37:41,590 --> 00:37:42,922 Get out of the car. 744 00:37:42,925 --> 00:37:44,693 What is this? 745 00:37:47,396 --> 00:37:48,630 What're we doing here? 746 00:37:48,632 --> 00:37:50,001 Get out of the car. 747 00:37:50,599 --> 00:37:52,534 Now. 748 00:37:52,536 --> 00:37:55,570 - Why are you... - Because I'll be too angry to do it at the time. 749 00:37:55,572 --> 00:37:57,371 Huh? So, where? 750 00:37:57,373 --> 00:37:58,405 Where do you wanna be? 751 00:37:58,407 --> 00:37:59,806 Oh. 752 00:37:59,809 --> 00:38:01,574 Don't say next to grandpa. That's prime placement. 753 00:38:01,577 --> 00:38:02,876 And you don't get that when you OD. 754 00:38:02,878 --> 00:38:04,612 - I'm not gonna OD. - So, where? 755 00:38:04,614 --> 00:38:05,813 The new section is nice, 756 00:38:05,815 --> 00:38:07,748 or do you want to be near a tree? 757 00:38:07,751 --> 00:38:09,016 I don't know. 758 00:38:09,018 --> 00:38:10,818 Well, you better figure it out. 759 00:38:10,820 --> 00:38:13,054 OK, why... why don't you cremate me and sprinkle me over. 760 00:38:13,056 --> 00:38:15,090 Mrs. Blink, my second grade teacher? She was pretty hot. 761 00:38:15,092 --> 00:38:17,690 - No, you don't get to be a smart ass about this, young man. - Ow! 762 00:38:17,693 --> 00:38:18,891 I wasn't gonna use. 763 00:38:18,893 --> 00:38:20,628 I was... I-I'm not gonna use. 764 00:38:20,630 --> 00:38:22,130 - You just... - I'm just... Mom. 765 00:38:22,132 --> 00:38:23,498 You just told me. 766 00:38:23,500 --> 00:38:25,900 I should never believe you. 767 00:38:25,902 --> 00:38:27,905 Don't say another fucking word. 768 00:38:29,505 --> 00:38:32,606 Just tell me, son, 769 00:38:32,608 --> 00:38:34,911 where you want me to bury you. 770 00:38:38,148 --> 00:38:39,650 I'll wait all day. 771 00:38:40,916 --> 00:38:43,918 I'm not going to die. 772 00:38:43,920 --> 00:38:46,824 That's right. You will, and soon. 773 00:39:08,777 --> 00:39:10,878 Mommy's here! 774 00:39:10,880 --> 00:39:14,748 They didn't like my spaghetti special, for some reason. 775 00:39:14,751 --> 00:39:16,717 Go figure. 776 00:39:16,719 --> 00:39:18,686 Ben, they only wanted your sandwich. 777 00:39:18,688 --> 00:39:20,088 What did you put in it? 778 00:39:20,090 --> 00:39:20,954 Drugs. 779 00:39:20,956 --> 00:39:22,824 It's not funny. 780 00:39:22,826 --> 00:39:25,958 - It was a joke. - Still not funny. 781 00:39:25,960 --> 00:39:27,094 The kids are watching TV? 782 00:39:27,097 --> 00:39:28,630 Yeah, they're watching TV. 783 00:39:28,632 --> 00:39:29,630 You OK? 784 00:39:29,632 --> 00:39:30,864 You come with me. 785 00:39:32,902 --> 00:39:33,900 Hi, sweethearts. 786 00:39:33,902 --> 00:39:35,637 Hi, Mommy! 787 00:39:35,639 --> 00:39:37,704 - Ben is gonna watch some TV with you. - Yay! 788 00:39:37,706 --> 00:39:41,074 - Mom, can I talk to you for a second? - Sit down. 789 00:39:41,077 --> 00:39:43,777 Out of a canon and now we can't find her anywhere. 790 00:39:43,780 --> 00:39:44,813 Come on. 791 00:39:44,815 --> 00:39:46,117 Right in the middle. 792 00:39:47,751 --> 00:39:49,851 Stay. 793 00:39:49,853 --> 00:39:52,585 Everyone grab on to me, and I'll swing on this tree branch 794 00:39:52,588 --> 00:39:54,125 into the pond! 795 00:39:59,695 --> 00:40:01,463 You fucking monster. 796 00:40:04,800 --> 00:40:06,534 Honey, you OK in there? 797 00:40:06,536 --> 00:40:09,938 Yes, just getting changed. 798 00:40:09,940 --> 00:40:12,443 How'd it go? How's he... how's he doing? 799 00:40:14,677 --> 00:40:16,543 Great. He's doing great. 800 00:40:16,545 --> 00:40:17,947 How are you doing? 801 00:40:18,648 --> 00:40:21,916 I am doing great. 802 00:40:21,918 --> 00:40:24,117 OK. 803 00:40:24,119 --> 00:40:26,786 Honey, I... I better get ready. 804 00:40:26,789 --> 00:40:27,822 Of course. 805 00:40:27,824 --> 00:40:30,123 You get ready. I will take care of the chores. 806 00:40:30,126 --> 00:40:31,126 Thank you. 807 00:40:35,898 --> 00:40:37,534 Would you just? 808 00:40:43,507 --> 00:40:44,938 No. No, not those slacks. 809 00:40:44,940 --> 00:40:46,873 The ones from when you were skinny. 810 00:40:46,876 --> 00:40:48,074 Skinnier. 811 00:40:48,077 --> 00:40:49,077 Ivy? 812 00:40:49,079 --> 00:40:50,411 What? 813 00:40:50,414 --> 00:40:53,184 I need your big safety pins. There's some in the kitchen. 814 00:40:54,717 --> 00:40:56,918 - It sounded great, by the way. - Mm-hmm. 815 00:40:56,920 --> 00:40:58,920 Thank you. 816 00:40:58,922 --> 00:41:00,188 I'm feeding Ponce. 817 00:41:00,190 --> 00:41:01,956 Oh, I'm so glad. Thanks, honey. 818 00:41:01,958 --> 00:41:03,657 - Mom! - Yes, sweetie. 819 00:41:03,659 --> 00:41:04,858 It itches. 820 00:41:04,860 --> 00:41:06,927 - Where? - Everywhere! 821 00:41:06,929 --> 00:41:09,929 I wish I'd known that earlier. Mommy can't do anything about it now. 822 00:41:09,931 --> 00:41:11,931 But it's everywhere. 823 00:41:11,934 --> 00:41:13,668 Well, it's just part of being a sheep. 824 00:41:13,670 --> 00:41:17,539 Hey, buddy. The thing about an itch is just don't scratch. 825 00:41:17,541 --> 00:41:19,210 - Um... - Shh. Ivy! 826 00:41:19,943 --> 00:41:20,940 Thank you. 827 00:41:20,943 --> 00:41:22,809 I beg your pardon. 828 00:41:26,849 --> 00:41:27,949 I'm gonna need a sweater. 829 00:41:27,951 --> 00:41:30,150 OK. Coming right up. 830 00:41:30,152 --> 00:41:32,152 All right, everybody. Let's get going. 831 00:41:32,155 --> 00:41:34,925 We don't want to be late. 832 00:41:35,791 --> 00:41:37,757 I'm so sorry. 833 00:41:37,760 --> 00:41:39,063 Don't. 834 00:42:10,659 --> 00:42:11,927 Stay put. 835 00:42:19,902 --> 00:42:21,605 I'm so sorry, Beth. 836 00:42:22,771 --> 00:42:24,208 This has gotta hurt. 837 00:42:30,746 --> 00:42:32,248 Maggie was an angel. 838 00:42:34,083 --> 00:42:35,617 We think about her. 839 00:42:41,023 --> 00:42:42,625 Hold on tight. 840 00:42:44,293 --> 00:42:45,628 I am. 841 00:43:08,851 --> 00:43:10,152 What'd she say? 842 00:43:12,789 --> 00:43:14,224 No one blames you. 843 00:43:16,126 --> 00:43:18,358 There were shepherds out in the field 844 00:43:18,360 --> 00:43:21,161 keeping watch over their flock by night. 845 00:43:21,164 --> 00:43:23,797 And an angel of the Lord appeared to them... 846 00:43:23,800 --> 00:43:25,400 Ben. Hi, Ben! 847 00:43:25,402 --> 00:43:28,670 Shone around them, and they were filled with fear, 848 00:43:28,672 --> 00:43:31,271 and the angel said to them, "Be not afraid." 849 00:43:31,273 --> 00:43:33,675 I bring you good news of a great joy, 850 00:43:33,677 --> 00:43:35,876 which will come to all the people. 851 00:43:35,878 --> 00:43:38,146 For to you is born this day in the city 852 00:43:38,148 --> 00:43:41,349 of David, a savior, who is Christ the Lord. 853 00:43:41,351 --> 00:43:45,219 You will find a babe wrapped in swaddling clothes 854 00:43:45,221 --> 00:43:47,391 and lying in a manger. 855 00:43:51,293 --> 00:43:54,460 ♪ O, Holy night ♪ 856 00:43:54,463 --> 00:43:59,733 ♪ The stars are brightly shining ♪ 857 00:43:59,735 --> 00:44:01,469 ♪ It is the night ♪ 858 00:44:01,471 --> 00:44:07,842 ♪ Of our dear savoir's birth ♪ 859 00:44:07,844 --> 00:44:10,978 ♪ Long lay the world ♪ 860 00:44:10,980 --> 00:44:15,215 ♪ In sin and error pining ♪ 861 00:44:15,217 --> 00:44:21,791 ♪ Till He appear'd and the soul felt its worth ♪ 862 00:44:23,293 --> 00:44:26,927 ♪ A thrill of hope ♪ 863 00:44:26,929 --> 00:44:30,965 ♪ The weary world rejoices ♪ 864 00:44:30,967 --> 00:44:34,135 ♪ For yonder breaks ♪ 865 00:44:34,137 --> 00:44:38,139 ♪ A new and glorious morn ♪ 866 00:44:38,141 --> 00:44:44,210 ♪ Fall on your knees ♪ 867 00:44:44,213 --> 00:44:51,219 ♪ And hear the angel voices ♪ 868 00:44:51,221 --> 00:44:57,925 ♪ O, night divine ♪ 869 00:44:57,927 --> 00:45:04,333 ♪ O, night when Christ was born ♪ 870 00:45:05,300 --> 00:45:11,306 ♪ O, night divine ♪ 871 00:45:12,876 --> 00:45:16,143 ♪ O, night ♪ 872 00:45:16,146 --> 00:45:22,083 ♪ O, night divine ♪ 873 00:45:22,085 --> 00:45:23,918 Hey! 874 00:45:23,920 --> 00:45:26,954 Ivy, by the way, that was your best singing ever. 875 00:45:26,956 --> 00:45:29,523 I think the two of you were great. 876 00:45:29,525 --> 00:45:32,193 Yeah, they're completely right. You were amazing. 877 00:45:32,195 --> 00:45:34,027 - Yeah, you were awesome! - Really amazing. 878 00:45:34,030 --> 00:45:35,795 - Yes! - And you, little buddy. 879 00:45:35,797 --> 00:45:37,231 - You think so? - Yes. 880 00:45:37,233 --> 00:45:38,800 For a second there, I literally thought 881 00:45:38,802 --> 00:45:39,802 that you were a sheep. 882 00:45:40,971 --> 00:45:43,804 And, and, and you didn't even have to pretend 883 00:45:43,806 --> 00:45:44,938 because you're an angel. 884 00:45:46,342 --> 00:45:48,141 Front door. 885 00:45:51,481 --> 00:45:53,280 All right, kiddos. 886 00:45:53,282 --> 00:45:55,583 Jammies and teeth brushed right now, please. 887 00:45:55,585 --> 00:45:59,119 - Start jammin'. - All right. Come on. 888 00:45:59,121 --> 00:46:00,219 What happened? 889 00:46:00,222 --> 00:46:01,487 Oh, my God. 890 00:46:01,489 --> 00:46:03,157 - OK, kids. - Stay right here. 891 00:46:03,159 --> 00:46:04,492 - Shh, sit down. Sit down. - Why? 892 00:46:04,494 --> 00:46:05,592 - Don't move. - Sit down. 893 00:46:05,594 --> 00:46:07,094 Sit down, sit down right here. 894 00:46:07,096 --> 00:46:08,429 - Mom. - Sit down. 895 00:46:08,431 --> 00:46:10,530 It's okay. It's okay, honey. 896 00:46:10,532 --> 00:46:12,498 There's broken glass. 897 00:46:12,501 --> 00:46:15,302 - Don't be scared. Daddy's just checking... - Ben. 898 00:46:15,304 --> 00:46:17,271 Be careful. 899 00:46:26,114 --> 00:46:28,248 Come on. Fuck. Come on. 900 00:46:28,251 --> 00:46:29,815 This can't be happening. Not again. 901 00:46:29,818 --> 00:46:32,119 Stay right here. Don't move. It's okay. I know. Don't move. 902 00:46:32,121 --> 00:46:33,856 - I'm scared. - It's okay. It's okay. 903 00:46:36,860 --> 00:46:38,393 Come on, motherfucker. 904 00:46:43,498 --> 00:46:44,833 What? 905 00:46:46,302 --> 00:46:47,838 I was at church. 906 00:46:50,039 --> 00:46:51,942 Coast is clear. 907 00:46:53,242 --> 00:46:55,041 We still got the TV, 908 00:46:55,043 --> 00:46:56,344 and we got the computers, 909 00:46:56,346 --> 00:47:01,949 and, most importantly, we got the presents. 910 00:47:01,951 --> 00:47:04,985 Yeah, it was probably just neighborhood kids. 911 00:47:04,987 --> 00:47:06,286 Just a practical joke. 912 00:47:06,289 --> 00:47:08,054 Neal? 913 00:47:08,056 --> 00:47:09,422 No, no real damage. 914 00:47:09,425 --> 00:47:11,123 That's a relief. 915 00:47:11,126 --> 00:47:12,260 Where's Ponce? 916 00:47:12,262 --> 00:47:13,494 I don't know. 917 00:47:13,496 --> 00:47:15,496 I'm sure he's here somewhere. 918 00:47:15,498 --> 00:47:17,898 - Mom? Where's Ponce? - You just checked the whole house. 919 00:47:17,900 --> 00:47:19,900 - Yeah. - He's probably just hiding. 920 00:47:19,902 --> 00:47:20,802 You didn't see him? 921 00:47:20,804 --> 00:47:23,036 - No. - I wanna find Ponce. 922 00:47:23,039 --> 00:47:24,505 - You know what? It's way past our bed time. - Ponce! 923 00:47:24,507 --> 00:47:26,072 - Shh, upstairs. - But mo-o-om. 924 00:47:26,074 --> 00:47:27,574 Ponce! 925 00:47:27,577 --> 00:47:30,311 - I wanna find Ponce. - No, shh, upstairs. 926 00:47:30,313 --> 00:47:32,478 Fuck. 927 00:47:32,481 --> 00:47:34,614 Ponce! 928 00:47:34,617 --> 00:47:36,349 Come on, Poncey! 929 00:47:36,351 --> 00:47:38,052 Come on, Poncey! 930 00:47:38,054 --> 00:47:39,186 I bet he just... 931 00:47:39,188 --> 00:47:40,655 you know, went out exploring. 932 00:47:40,657 --> 00:47:42,356 No, he didn't. 933 00:47:42,358 --> 00:47:46,458 Sweetie, he is just having a Christmas adventure. 934 00:47:46,460 --> 00:47:47,460 All right? 935 00:47:47,463 --> 00:47:49,295 Come on, boy! 936 00:47:49,297 --> 00:47:50,530 Ponce! 937 00:47:50,532 --> 00:47:52,335 OK, snuggled in. 938 00:47:53,469 --> 00:47:55,436 Front door. 939 00:47:55,438 --> 00:47:58,005 I can't find him anywhere. 940 00:47:58,007 --> 00:47:59,606 And he'd never run off. 941 00:47:59,608 --> 00:48:01,108 Someone took him. 942 00:48:02,177 --> 00:48:04,512 Who would steal our dog? 943 00:48:04,514 --> 00:48:08,217 You come back, and then this happens? 944 00:48:09,619 --> 00:48:10,987 This is on you. 945 00:48:28,438 --> 00:48:31,670 Front door. 946 00:48:31,672 --> 00:48:33,306 Tomorrow, when you wake up, 947 00:48:33,309 --> 00:48:34,708 it's gonna be Christmas. 948 00:48:34,710 --> 00:48:37,380 With presents and Ponce. 949 00:48:38,246 --> 00:48:40,347 All right. I love you. 950 00:48:40,349 --> 00:48:42,614 Try to sleep, and I'll be right back, OK? 951 00:48:42,617 --> 00:48:43,985 Love you. 952 00:48:43,987 --> 00:48:44,985 Leave the light on. 953 00:48:44,987 --> 00:48:46,422 Of course I will. 954 00:48:59,668 --> 00:49:01,135 What are you doing? 955 00:49:01,137 --> 00:49:03,003 You aren't calling the cops, are you? 956 00:49:03,005 --> 00:49:04,405 I am. 957 00:49:04,407 --> 00:49:07,407 No, Neal. No cops. Not yet. 958 00:49:07,409 --> 00:49:08,541 Where is he? 959 00:49:08,543 --> 00:49:10,010 Why wasn't the alarm on? 960 00:49:10,012 --> 00:49:11,411 Because Ben was with us. 961 00:49:11,414 --> 00:49:14,215 He's the reason we got the alarm in the first place. 962 00:49:14,217 --> 00:49:15,614 Where is he? 963 00:49:15,617 --> 00:49:16,987 He left. 964 00:49:23,059 --> 00:49:24,427 Go. 965 00:49:27,697 --> 00:49:29,032 Holly. 966 00:49:31,034 --> 00:49:32,099 Holly? 967 00:49:32,101 --> 00:49:33,603 Left door. 968 00:49:41,177 --> 00:49:43,579 Jesus. Ben! 969 00:49:45,047 --> 00:49:46,579 Ben! 970 00:49:46,581 --> 00:49:49,650 Every fucking thing I do turns to shit. 971 00:49:49,652 --> 00:49:51,518 - No, honey... - No, no matter how 972 00:49:51,521 --> 00:49:53,621 hard I try, everything just turns to shit. 973 00:49:53,623 --> 00:49:55,188 Please, just get in the car. 974 00:49:55,190 --> 00:49:56,190 I didn't do it. 975 00:49:56,192 --> 00:49:57,590 Obviously. 976 00:49:57,592 --> 00:49:59,324 But I'm... I'm the reason that somebody did. 977 00:49:59,327 --> 00:50:00,661 I put you in danger. 978 00:50:00,663 --> 00:50:04,097 I put my... I put my family in danger. 979 00:50:04,099 --> 00:50:05,465 And... 980 00:50:05,467 --> 00:50:07,668 And I should've known. I'm so stupid. 981 00:50:07,670 --> 00:50:10,507 No, you're not. Please, get in the car. 982 00:50:11,606 --> 00:50:14,378 Jesus. Where are you going? 983 00:50:15,244 --> 00:50:16,708 Ben! 984 00:50:16,710 --> 00:50:18,210 Will you stop? 985 00:50:18,213 --> 00:50:19,847 I have to fix it. I have to fix it. 986 00:50:19,849 --> 00:50:21,215 I gotta find Ponce. 987 00:50:21,217 --> 00:50:22,248 OK, well, just think. 988 00:50:22,251 --> 00:50:23,684 I am. God, damn it. 989 00:50:23,686 --> 00:50:24,751 What? 990 00:50:24,753 --> 00:50:26,454 H-How? 991 00:50:26,456 --> 00:50:27,755 You don't understand. 992 00:50:27,757 --> 00:50:30,092 There are so many people that it could be. 993 00:50:33,362 --> 00:50:37,797 All right, well, we'll just take it one asshole at a time. 994 00:50:37,800 --> 00:50:39,802 Well, get in the car. 995 00:50:48,244 --> 00:50:49,545 Seat belt. 996 00:51:00,655 --> 00:51:03,527 No, don't turn here. Don't turn on Elm. 997 00:51:06,128 --> 00:51:07,393 Not Pleasant. 998 00:51:07,396 --> 00:51:09,699 All right. Just tell me where to turn. 999 00:51:11,199 --> 00:51:12,266 Tell me where. 1000 00:51:12,268 --> 00:51:13,501 - Fuck! - What? 1001 00:51:13,503 --> 00:51:15,672 I've... I've used there. 1002 00:51:24,713 --> 00:51:27,182 I robbed someone there. I... 1003 00:51:41,563 --> 00:51:42,795 This place? 1004 00:51:42,797 --> 00:51:44,429 - Yeah. - What's here? 1005 00:51:44,431 --> 00:51:45,833 You cannot ask, Mom. 1006 00:51:45,835 --> 00:51:47,367 If we're... 1007 00:51:47,369 --> 00:51:49,637 If we're doing this together, 1008 00:51:49,639 --> 00:51:50,670 you cannot ask. 1009 00:51:50,672 --> 00:51:52,706 OK, I won't ask. 1010 00:51:52,708 --> 00:51:53,840 I'll just... OK. 1011 00:51:53,842 --> 00:51:55,510 No. No, Mom. 1012 00:51:59,547 --> 00:52:01,181 But I'm not letting you out of my sight. 1013 00:52:01,184 --> 00:52:03,452 You won't have to. Just stay here. 1014 00:52:25,541 --> 00:52:26,842 Well. 1015 00:52:28,277 --> 00:52:29,545 It's about time. 1016 00:52:30,246 --> 00:52:31,579 Come in. 1017 00:52:41,922 --> 00:52:44,594 Did you take... did you take my dog? 1018 00:52:57,472 --> 00:52:58,505 No luck. 1019 00:52:58,507 --> 00:53:00,407 Who was that? 1020 00:53:00,409 --> 00:53:02,376 Mom, we had a deal. 1021 00:53:02,378 --> 00:53:03,646 Let's go. 1022 00:53:12,487 --> 00:53:14,487 - I recognize him. - Mom. 1023 00:53:14,489 --> 00:53:15,824 I know I know him. 1024 00:53:18,527 --> 00:53:20,630 God, he looks so familiar. 1025 00:53:21,264 --> 00:53:22,496 Mr. Richman. 1026 00:53:22,498 --> 00:53:23,530 Your history teacher? 1027 00:53:23,532 --> 00:53:24,867 Yeah. 1028 00:53:30,273 --> 00:53:31,871 His mother had cancer. 1029 00:53:31,873 --> 00:53:33,440 Hospice. 1030 00:53:33,442 --> 00:53:36,813 He had lots of oxy. Jars full, and endless supply. 1031 00:53:39,382 --> 00:53:40,884 We had an arrangement. 1032 00:53:46,554 --> 00:53:48,021 Oh, God. 1033 00:53:48,023 --> 00:53:50,422 Oh, my God. 1034 00:53:52,360 --> 00:53:53,829 Oh, that piece of shit. 1035 00:54:17,452 --> 00:54:19,389 Mom, we gotta keep going. 1036 00:54:56,659 --> 00:54:58,360 I think it's... 1037 00:55:00,596 --> 00:55:01,862 What's here? 1038 00:55:01,864 --> 00:55:04,067 Maggie's dad lives in one of these. 1039 00:55:06,668 --> 00:55:08,637 Why would he take Ponce? 1040 00:55:09,572 --> 00:55:10,974 Who hates me more? 1041 00:55:19,148 --> 00:55:20,449 It's one of these. 1042 00:55:34,797 --> 00:55:36,364 That's him. 1043 00:55:43,672 --> 00:55:44,974 No Ponce. 1044 00:55:54,717 --> 00:55:56,485 Heartbreaking, that. 1045 00:55:58,420 --> 00:56:00,554 Sometimes it catches. 1046 00:56:00,556 --> 00:56:04,791 - Why don't you let me try? - I got it. 1047 00:56:04,793 --> 00:56:05,992 Just... you're being too herky-jerky with it. 1048 00:56:05,994 --> 00:56:07,427 I'm not being herky-jerky. 1049 00:56:07,429 --> 00:56:08,695 Sweetie, I'm not criticizing you. 1050 00:56:08,697 --> 00:56:10,563 I'm just saying. 1051 00:56:10,565 --> 00:56:12,800 - Mom, I know how to... - I don't... apparently not this exact seatbelt 1052 00:56:12,802 --> 00:56:14,635 - you know how to put on. - Holy...! 1053 00:56:14,637 --> 00:56:16,103 - Shit! - Oh, my God! 1054 00:56:16,105 --> 00:56:19,139 What the fuck are you doing here? 1055 00:56:19,141 --> 00:56:21,474 You fucking junkie piece of shit! 1056 00:56:21,476 --> 00:56:22,507 Get the fuck out! 1057 00:56:22,510 --> 00:56:23,846 Oh, the fuck?! 1058 00:56:30,085 --> 00:56:32,719 We are going to have to talk about this. 1059 00:56:32,721 --> 00:56:34,521 I mean, I get to ask questions. 1060 00:56:34,523 --> 00:56:36,023 I get... 1061 00:56:36,025 --> 00:56:38,958 I'm gonna have to explain the window to Neal. 1062 00:56:38,960 --> 00:56:42,728 He tried to bash in my head, and he should. 1063 00:56:42,731 --> 00:56:43,963 Don't say that. 1064 00:56:43,965 --> 00:56:45,797 If you were him, you'd want me dead 1065 00:56:45,800 --> 00:56:47,668 for what I did. 1066 00:56:47,670 --> 00:56:49,503 All right, well, then you're going to have to help me here. 1067 00:56:49,505 --> 00:56:50,840 What did you do? 1068 00:57:08,891 --> 00:57:10,791 Who are we looking for? 1069 00:57:10,793 --> 00:57:12,195 You'll know when I know. 1070 00:57:15,498 --> 00:57:16,900 Thank you. 1071 00:57:27,510 --> 00:57:28,978 I got Maggie hooked. 1072 00:57:37,820 --> 00:57:40,523 I told her how great it was. 1073 00:57:42,023 --> 00:57:44,556 Did you tie her down and stick a needle in her arm? 1074 00:57:44,559 --> 00:57:46,659 - No, but... - And, at that time, 1075 00:57:46,661 --> 00:57:52,065 didn't you think it was the best thing ever? 1076 00:57:52,067 --> 00:57:54,934 Then, you told her the truth. 1077 00:57:54,936 --> 00:57:58,271 At that time, that was your truth. 1078 00:57:58,273 --> 00:57:59,139 But it was wrong. 1079 00:57:59,141 --> 00:58:02,641 Didn't you just want her to be happy? 1080 00:58:02,643 --> 00:58:04,978 This... this is so twisted. 1081 00:58:04,980 --> 00:58:07,583 Well, what did you want her to feel? 1082 00:58:08,817 --> 00:58:11,050 Do you hear yourself right now? 1083 00:58:11,052 --> 00:58:13,623 What did you want her to feel? 1084 00:58:20,795 --> 00:58:22,063 Safe. 1085 00:58:24,833 --> 00:58:26,565 Loved. 1086 00:58:26,568 --> 00:58:28,538 Alive. Whole. 1087 00:58:31,106 --> 00:58:33,076 Something that nobody... 1088 00:58:33,943 --> 00:58:36,175 not even you could ever... 1089 00:58:36,177 --> 00:58:37,579 make me feel. 1090 00:58:42,851 --> 00:58:44,119 OK. 1091 00:58:47,789 --> 00:58:49,858 You know what you did wrong. 1092 00:58:51,126 --> 00:58:53,996 You lived, and she didn't. 1093 00:58:55,130 --> 00:58:56,931 And we'll never know why. 1094 00:58:58,701 --> 00:59:00,036 It should've been me. 1095 00:59:00,735 --> 00:59:02,003 No. 1096 00:59:03,771 --> 00:59:05,670 You ready to order? 1097 00:59:05,672 --> 00:59:09,742 Um, yes, I will have you soup of the day 1098 00:59:09,744 --> 00:59:11,047 and a combo, please. 1099 00:59:16,985 --> 00:59:18,650 Hi, honey, I was about to call you. 1100 00:59:18,652 --> 00:59:21,324 I'm going out of my mind. Where are you? 1101 00:59:22,291 --> 00:59:24,324 Um, I'm... I'm with Ben. 1102 00:59:24,326 --> 00:59:28,094 It took me a while to find find him, but I did, and, uh, 1103 00:59:28,097 --> 00:59:29,996 We're just getting a bite. 1104 00:59:29,998 --> 00:59:32,231 - Daddy. - We're supposed to be a united front. 1105 00:59:32,233 --> 00:59:35,001 We are. You just have to trust me. 1106 00:59:35,003 --> 00:59:36,168 Well, you're making that very hard. 1107 00:59:36,170 --> 00:59:38,005 You need to come home. 1108 00:59:38,007 --> 00:59:39,972 Not without Ponce. 1109 00:59:39,974 --> 00:59:43,010 Those kids are waking up with their dog. 1110 00:59:43,012 --> 00:59:45,311 And there's no need for cops because 1111 00:59:45,313 --> 00:59:47,380 we've got this, Ben and I. 1112 00:59:47,382 --> 00:59:48,081 Don't we, Ben? 1113 00:59:48,083 --> 00:59:49,349 You've got this. 1114 00:59:49,351 --> 00:59:51,952 - You and the drug addict. You got this. - Daddy? 1115 00:59:51,954 --> 00:59:53,255 Please... 1116 00:59:54,322 --> 00:59:55,856 Baby. 1117 00:59:55,858 --> 00:59:57,157 Here's an ideal, Neal. 1118 00:59:57,159 --> 00:59:59,793 Why don't you take care of our kids? 1119 00:59:59,795 --> 01:00:00,893 And I'll deal with mine. 1120 01:00:00,896 --> 01:00:02,195 Hm? 1121 01:00:02,197 --> 01:00:04,067 I'm going to bed. 1122 01:00:05,701 --> 01:00:06,969 Neal. 1123 01:00:13,409 --> 01:00:15,175 What? 1124 01:00:15,177 --> 01:00:16,945 He's a bit of a dick. 1125 01:00:17,277 --> 01:00:18,344 Wow. 1126 01:00:18,347 --> 01:00:19,978 Weren't you just complaining? 1127 01:00:19,981 --> 01:00:23,181 No, I can think or say about him 1128 01:00:23,184 --> 01:00:25,952 whatever I want because he is my husband, 1129 01:00:25,954 --> 01:00:28,155 and I love him, but you... 1130 01:00:28,157 --> 01:00:30,126 God, you clearly don't get it. 1131 01:00:30,858 --> 01:00:32,123 You're here, 1132 01:00:32,126 --> 01:00:35,295 and without Neal, you wouldn't be. 1133 01:00:35,297 --> 01:00:36,829 Mm, don't be so sure. 1134 01:00:36,831 --> 01:00:38,130 How many rehabs is it now? 1135 01:00:38,132 --> 01:00:39,364 I couldn't've paid for it. 1136 01:00:39,367 --> 01:00:40,967 Insurance won't anymore. 1137 01:00:40,969 --> 01:00:42,702 The government doesn't give a fuck. 1138 01:00:42,704 --> 01:00:45,170 And, heaven help you if you're poor, 1139 01:00:45,172 --> 01:00:48,742 which, because of Neal, we aren't anymore. 1140 01:00:48,744 --> 01:00:53,813 He took out a second mortgage on the house to pay for you this time. 1141 01:00:53,815 --> 01:00:56,985 The only thing you should say about Neal is thank you. 1142 01:00:58,286 --> 01:00:59,885 No way, man. 1143 01:00:59,887 --> 01:01:01,152 Go! 1144 01:01:01,155 --> 01:01:03,054 - Relax. - No, I'm not relaxing. Go. 1145 01:01:03,056 --> 01:01:04,257 I said get out. 1146 01:01:04,259 --> 01:01:05,492 What is it? 1147 01:01:05,494 --> 01:01:06,494 Oh, shit. 1148 01:01:07,530 --> 01:01:09,666 What's going on? 1149 01:01:28,150 --> 01:01:29,483 Who'd you tell? 1150 01:01:29,485 --> 01:01:30,617 About what? 1151 01:01:30,619 --> 01:01:32,219 - That I'm back. - Everyone knows you're back. 1152 01:01:32,221 --> 01:01:33,820 'Cause of you. 1153 01:01:33,822 --> 01:01:34,820 Where's my dog? 1154 01:01:34,822 --> 01:01:36,322 Who took my dog? 1155 01:01:36,324 --> 01:01:37,824 Oh, so you can steal other people's shit all you want? 1156 01:01:37,826 --> 01:01:39,762 But someone steals yours you get all holy? 1157 01:01:40,762 --> 01:01:43,027 OK, was it Tommy? 1158 01:01:43,030 --> 01:01:44,030 No. 1159 01:01:44,032 --> 01:01:45,030 Was it Bumgarner? 1160 01:01:45,032 --> 01:01:46,099 Jail. 1161 01:01:46,101 --> 01:01:47,369 Was it Clayton? 1162 01:01:55,476 --> 01:01:56,811 Who's that? 1163 01:01:58,347 --> 01:01:59,481 My mom. 1164 01:02:01,016 --> 01:02:02,452 Oh, oh, hey, Mrs. B. 1165 01:02:03,085 --> 01:02:04,353 Long time. 1166 01:02:05,186 --> 01:02:06,952 Spencer? 1167 01:02:06,954 --> 01:02:08,853 I... I go by Spider now, Mrs. B. 1168 01:02:08,856 --> 01:02:10,293 Feels more like me. 1169 01:02:11,293 --> 01:02:12,795 You look terrible. 1170 01:02:14,295 --> 01:02:16,764 You always say it like it is, Mrs. B. 1171 01:02:19,835 --> 01:02:21,568 Oh, my God. 1172 01:02:21,570 --> 01:02:22,570 I'm sorry, Mrs. B. 1173 01:02:36,585 --> 01:02:38,885 Oh, God, that little shit. 1174 01:02:38,887 --> 01:02:39,885 It's okay. 1175 01:02:39,887 --> 01:02:41,085 Let me just help. 1176 01:02:41,088 --> 01:02:42,490 - It's not helping. - OK. 1177 01:02:43,391 --> 01:02:45,324 I know who has Ponce. 1178 01:02:45,327 --> 01:02:48,360 - Well, that's great. That's something. - No, no. 1179 01:02:48,362 --> 01:02:51,099 It's the person I hoped it wouldn't be. 1180 01:03:00,409 --> 01:03:02,110 It's gonna take more. 1181 01:03:03,045 --> 01:03:05,411 That's my daily limit. 1182 01:03:05,414 --> 01:03:07,947 I can write a check, but... 1183 01:03:07,949 --> 01:03:10,318 these aren't check people, are they? 1184 01:03:11,119 --> 01:03:12,387 No. 1185 01:03:16,858 --> 01:03:18,126 Take this. 1186 01:03:20,262 --> 01:03:21,563 It's worth a lot. 1187 01:03:22,864 --> 01:03:24,132 It's just a thing. 1188 01:03:28,103 --> 01:03:29,405 I'm sorry. 1189 01:03:31,639 --> 01:03:33,141 I never liked it. 1190 01:03:41,181 --> 01:03:44,150 Turn your lights off. 1191 01:03:44,152 --> 01:03:45,985 All right. Let's... You know what? 1192 01:03:45,987 --> 01:03:48,021 Let's just... let's just turn right around 1193 01:03:48,023 --> 01:03:50,556 because Ponce was a rescue, and we had a good run. 1194 01:03:50,559 --> 01:03:52,123 You did not just say that. 1195 01:03:52,126 --> 01:03:53,958 Yes, I did. Ponce is just a dog. 1196 01:03:53,960 --> 01:03:56,661 I love five people, and Ponce is two of them. 1197 01:03:56,664 --> 01:03:58,429 OK, well, he is a pee in the house, 1198 01:03:58,431 --> 01:03:59,498 crap on the carpet dog, 1199 01:03:59,501 --> 01:04:00,967 and you are so much more. 1200 01:04:00,969 --> 01:04:03,436 Fuck, what are we doing? This is madness. 1201 01:04:03,438 --> 01:04:05,438 No. No, this is manageable. 1202 01:04:05,440 --> 01:04:07,273 It's Clayton. We go way back. 1203 01:04:07,275 --> 01:04:08,507 I'll pay up, 1204 01:04:08,510 --> 01:04:09,574 and maybe we'll have a good laugh. 1205 01:04:09,577 --> 01:04:11,010 You don't believe that. 1206 01:04:11,012 --> 01:04:12,545 If I don't deal with this, 1207 01:04:12,547 --> 01:04:16,219 then it could be worse next time for you and the family. 1208 01:04:18,619 --> 01:04:21,554 OK, you go in, pay the man, 1209 01:04:21,556 --> 01:04:23,422 get Ponce, and get right back out. 1210 01:04:26,228 --> 01:04:28,228 You're coming out. 1211 01:04:28,230 --> 01:04:29,864 Yeah, I'm coming out. 1212 01:04:34,036 --> 01:04:35,338 Be careful. 1213 01:04:39,974 --> 01:04:40,974 Lock the door. 1214 01:04:40,976 --> 01:04:42,311 Lock the door. 1215 01:05:28,523 --> 01:05:30,458 Just be calm. 1216 01:05:32,728 --> 01:05:33,726 I can't be calm. 1217 01:05:33,728 --> 01:05:35,063 I'll just go in. 1218 01:06:01,222 --> 01:06:02,487 Mom. 1219 01:06:02,489 --> 01:06:04,056 Mom, what are you doing? 1220 01:06:04,059 --> 01:06:05,056 Oh, my God. 1221 01:06:05,059 --> 01:06:06,492 Get over here. 1222 01:06:06,494 --> 01:06:07,726 What happened? Where's Ponce? 1223 01:06:07,728 --> 01:06:09,429 All right, I got in, and I got out. 1224 01:06:09,431 --> 01:06:10,429 And that's the good news. 1225 01:06:10,431 --> 01:06:11,563 What's the bad? 1226 01:06:11,565 --> 01:06:13,233 I just need you to drive, OK? 1227 01:06:13,235 --> 01:06:14,233 Let me do the thinking. 1228 01:06:14,235 --> 01:06:16,302 OK. 1229 01:06:16,304 --> 01:06:18,007 Oh, Jesus. 1230 01:06:24,346 --> 01:06:25,648 Oh, my God. 1231 01:06:26,748 --> 01:06:28,679 Easy. Easy, Mom. 1232 01:06:28,681 --> 01:06:30,050 You're trying too hard. 1233 01:06:30,052 --> 01:06:31,050 OK, of course I am. 1234 01:06:31,052 --> 01:06:33,085 It's what I do. 1235 01:06:33,088 --> 01:06:35,320 Stop. Stop, you're flooding the engine. 1236 01:06:35,322 --> 01:06:36,322 You've gotta give it a rest. 1237 01:06:36,324 --> 01:06:37,657 Oh, sorry. 1238 01:06:37,659 --> 01:06:39,659 Clayton doesn't deal out of here anymore. 1239 01:06:39,661 --> 01:06:42,762 He's gone up the chain, and he's not happy with me. 1240 01:06:42,764 --> 01:06:43,829 Oh, my God. 1241 01:06:43,831 --> 01:06:46,065 But I got a plan, so I need you to listen to me. 1242 01:06:46,068 --> 01:06:48,199 I can't help but think if I hadn't left your dad... 1243 01:06:48,202 --> 01:06:49,735 He left us, so just please listen to me. 1244 01:06:49,737 --> 01:06:51,838 You took it so hard you blamed yourself. 1245 01:06:51,840 --> 01:06:52,737 OK, just stop. 1246 01:06:52,739 --> 01:06:54,273 It was something that... it changed you. 1247 01:06:54,275 --> 01:06:55,744 Just move... move over. 1248 01:06:59,414 --> 01:07:01,416 A boy needs a dad. 1249 01:07:03,085 --> 01:07:04,248 A boy needs a dad. 1250 01:07:04,251 --> 01:07:05,418 Mom. 1251 01:07:05,420 --> 01:07:07,387 No, it... that's what you needed. 1252 01:07:07,389 --> 01:07:08,690 Not that dad. 1253 01:07:12,226 --> 01:07:13,795 Fuck, we need gas. 1254 01:07:15,697 --> 01:07:17,795 You tried so hard to keep me happy. 1255 01:07:17,797 --> 01:07:20,766 And what kid wouldn't crack under the weight of that. 1256 01:07:20,768 --> 01:07:22,070 Mom. 1257 01:07:23,271 --> 01:07:24,335 What? 1258 01:07:24,338 --> 01:07:25,641 What is it? 1259 01:07:40,155 --> 01:07:41,887 You need to go home. 1260 01:07:41,889 --> 01:07:43,123 Not without you. 1261 01:07:43,125 --> 01:07:44,389 You cannot go where I'm going. 1262 01:07:44,391 --> 01:07:45,592 It's not safe. 1263 01:07:45,594 --> 01:07:46,824 Then I'm definitely going. 1264 01:07:46,827 --> 01:07:48,128 No. No. 1265 01:07:48,130 --> 01:07:49,262 Go home. 1266 01:07:49,264 --> 01:07:50,329 I'll be there soon. 1267 01:07:50,331 --> 01:07:51,697 No, I don't believe you. 1268 01:07:51,699 --> 01:07:53,833 OK, so now you don't believe me. 1269 01:07:53,835 --> 01:07:55,266 No, I don't. 1270 01:07:55,268 --> 01:07:57,704 Mom, you don't know what you're doing. 1271 01:07:57,706 --> 01:08:00,206 - I do. - You don't know what you're doing. 1272 01:08:00,208 --> 01:08:01,739 I'm not worth it. 1273 01:08:01,742 --> 01:08:03,742 If you really knew me, you'd be done with me. 1274 01:08:03,744 --> 01:08:04,911 No, honey, I wouldn't. 1275 01:08:04,913 --> 01:08:06,579 - And I know you... - No. 1276 01:08:06,581 --> 01:08:08,313 - I know you. - You don't, Mom. You don't know me. 1277 01:08:08,315 --> 01:08:10,150 You don't. 1278 01:08:10,152 --> 01:08:13,686 My sponsor told me not to come back. 1279 01:08:13,688 --> 01:08:15,621 He said it was a shit idea. 1280 01:08:15,623 --> 01:08:17,422 That I was not ready. 1281 01:08:17,425 --> 01:08:18,490 That's not true. 1282 01:08:18,493 --> 01:08:19,826 Yes, it is. It is true. 1283 01:08:19,828 --> 01:08:22,194 And I didn't get the drugs from the girl. 1284 01:08:22,197 --> 01:08:23,427 They were in the attic 1285 01:08:23,430 --> 01:08:26,832 above Liam and Lacey's room. 1286 01:08:26,835 --> 01:08:28,701 And within an hour of coming home, 1287 01:08:28,703 --> 01:08:30,472 they were in my pocket. 1288 01:08:33,875 --> 01:08:35,841 I told you not to believe me, 1289 01:08:35,844 --> 01:08:39,311 and you didn't fucking listen. 1290 01:08:39,314 --> 01:08:41,747 Do you... I mean, I could... I could... I could go on. 1291 01:08:41,750 --> 01:08:43,248 Do you want me to go on? 1292 01:08:43,251 --> 01:08:44,317 There's so much more. 1293 01:08:44,319 --> 01:08:45,585 I killed Maggie. 1294 01:08:45,587 --> 01:08:47,252 - It's not working. - I killed Maggie! 1295 01:08:47,255 --> 01:08:48,524 It's not working. 1296 01:08:50,192 --> 01:08:51,856 Please, go home! 1297 01:08:51,859 --> 01:08:54,860 You have to go home, please. 1298 01:08:54,863 --> 01:08:57,329 Please. I'm not worth it, please. 1299 01:08:57,332 --> 01:08:58,430 Please, go home. 1300 01:08:58,431 --> 01:09:00,469 I will not leave you. 1301 01:09:32,234 --> 01:09:33,636 Get whatever you want. 1302 01:09:41,774 --> 01:09:43,542 Oh, and I know you are not open, 1303 01:09:43,545 --> 01:09:45,409 so you have a Merry Christmas! 1304 01:09:45,412 --> 01:09:46,778 You, too. 1305 01:09:46,779 --> 01:09:48,614 Can you get me that blue drink I really like? 1306 01:09:48,617 --> 01:09:49,917 Yeah. 1307 01:09:51,685 --> 01:09:54,655 Mom, you're the best. 1308 01:10:00,028 --> 01:10:02,965 So, its just these two and one more. 1309 01:10:06,501 --> 01:10:07,733 Honey, which one is it? 1310 01:10:07,734 --> 01:10:10,573 Because there is more than one choice. 1311 01:10:15,810 --> 01:10:16,945 Ben? 1312 01:10:31,960 --> 01:10:34,326 Hey, it's Ben. You know what to do. 1313 01:10:35,697 --> 01:10:38,864 No. No, I don't, Ben. I don't know what to do. 1314 01:10:38,867 --> 01:10:41,904 Get fucking back here right now. 1315 01:10:47,006 --> 01:10:48,711 No! 1316 01:11:17,970 --> 01:11:19,274 I'm sorry. 1317 01:11:22,408 --> 01:11:25,010 I... I... I didn't know where else to go. 1318 01:11:25,011 --> 01:11:26,346 He took my car. 1319 01:11:28,448 --> 01:11:31,653 And he's gone somewhere and I don't know what to do. 1320 01:11:35,355 --> 01:11:36,759 Come... come in. 1321 01:11:44,099 --> 01:11:47,069 I can't tell my husband. He'll call the cops. 1322 01:11:47,902 --> 01:11:49,434 Someone took our dog, 1323 01:11:49,435 --> 01:11:51,774 and Ben's just out trying to find our dog. 1324 01:11:52,506 --> 01:11:53,908 Come on, Holly. 1325 01:11:54,743 --> 01:11:56,576 He's an addict. 1326 01:11:56,578 --> 01:11:58,476 And he's out there. 1327 01:12:04,386 --> 01:12:05,753 Stay put. 1328 01:12:25,171 --> 01:12:27,809 Holly, you'll need to listen closely. 1329 01:12:28,943 --> 01:12:31,543 He has a shelf-life of 18 to 24 months, 1330 01:12:31,546 --> 01:12:33,512 and it's been over two years, but... 1331 01:12:33,515 --> 01:12:36,715 It should be strong enough if it's the only kit available. 1332 01:12:36,716 --> 01:12:37,983 I'm such a smug bitch. 1333 01:12:37,984 --> 01:12:40,819 I'd never thought I'd need this. 1334 01:12:40,822 --> 01:12:43,121 First you pull off the yellow caps. 1335 01:12:43,122 --> 01:12:45,657 You screw in the applicator tip. 1336 01:12:45,658 --> 01:12:47,192 You take off this cap, 1337 01:12:47,194 --> 01:12:48,693 and insert it here. 1338 01:12:48,694 --> 01:12:50,996 Half a dose in each nostril. 1339 01:12:50,997 --> 01:12:53,765 I c... I can't. I don't know what I'm doing. 1340 01:12:53,768 --> 01:12:55,634 I'd... If you couldn't save Maggie... 1341 01:12:55,636 --> 01:12:57,005 We can't save them. 1342 01:12:59,605 --> 01:13:02,411 But you'll hate yourself if you don't try. 1343 01:13:15,657 --> 01:13:16,957 Go find him. 1344 01:14:18,185 --> 01:14:20,787 Now's starting to feel like Christmas. 1345 01:14:23,055 --> 01:14:24,225 Here. 1346 01:14:28,563 --> 01:14:29,930 This is my mom's. 1347 01:14:31,666 --> 01:14:33,033 And it's worth a lot. 1348 01:14:37,805 --> 01:14:40,841 I'm good for the rest, and I'll make it right. 1349 01:14:44,578 --> 01:14:45,880 Yeah, well... 1350 01:14:47,113 --> 01:14:49,585 It's not just about the money, Burns. 1351 01:14:51,185 --> 01:14:54,189 I mean, I had big plans for you. You were my guy. 1352 01:14:55,689 --> 01:14:56,689 I know. 1353 01:15:04,096 --> 01:15:05,630 Look, just give me my dog back, 1354 01:15:05,631 --> 01:15:08,033 and leave my family out of this because 1355 01:15:08,036 --> 01:15:09,734 they didn't do anything. 1356 01:15:09,737 --> 01:15:11,735 I wish it were that easy. 1357 01:15:11,738 --> 01:15:12,837 It can be. 1358 01:15:18,112 --> 01:15:20,148 Fuck it. It's Christmas, right? 1359 01:15:24,018 --> 01:15:25,350 All right. Come on. 1360 01:15:25,353 --> 01:15:26,854 Take this. 1361 01:15:28,988 --> 01:15:32,960 All I need is for you to do me just one more little favor. 1362 01:15:36,130 --> 01:15:37,599 What's that? 1363 01:16:04,658 --> 01:16:06,692 Merry Christmas. How can I help you? 1364 01:16:06,694 --> 01:16:10,163 So, I have this, and it's expired. I need it replaced. 1365 01:16:20,006 --> 01:16:21,975 Excuse me, ma'am. 1366 01:16:23,211 --> 01:16:24,743 Ma'am. 1367 01:16:24,746 --> 01:16:27,012 We don't carry this. 1368 01:16:27,015 --> 01:16:28,947 What do you mean you don't carry it? 1369 01:16:28,948 --> 01:16:30,315 You need to try another pharmacy. 1370 01:16:30,318 --> 01:16:31,983 No, you're the only one open. 1371 01:16:31,984 --> 01:16:33,752 What do you mean you don't carry it? 1372 01:16:33,755 --> 01:16:38,256 It's our policy not to encourage irresponsible behavior. 1373 01:16:38,259 --> 01:16:41,326 All right, well, then why don't you discontinue the oxys, 1374 01:16:41,328 --> 01:16:44,829 the perk 30s, and the... the... the benzo cheerios 1375 01:16:44,832 --> 01:16:46,164 or whatever you call them. 1376 01:16:46,167 --> 01:16:47,798 If you'd like to file a complaint, there is a... 1377 01:16:47,801 --> 01:16:49,670 I'm fucking filing one! 1378 01:16:52,073 --> 01:16:53,338 God, fucking damn it. 1379 01:17:25,037 --> 01:17:29,042 Yo. Yo, yo, yo. 1380 01:18:08,881 --> 01:18:10,283 Spare some change? 1381 01:18:20,161 --> 01:18:23,261 Mrs. B. Mrs. B, I'm... I'm... I'm... I'm not gonna hurt you. 1382 01:18:23,264 --> 01:18:26,268 I'm not gonna hurt you. I-I-I'm t-too sick. 1383 01:18:27,167 --> 01:18:29,134 Spencer. 1384 01:18:29,136 --> 01:18:30,438 Get in the car. 1385 01:18:35,810 --> 01:18:38,109 Where is he? 1386 01:18:38,112 --> 01:18:40,278 I'm sorry, Mrs. B. I-I-I'm not... 1387 01:18:40,279 --> 01:18:43,181 I'm not doing my best thinking. 1388 01:18:43,184 --> 01:18:45,150 I need... I need to get well. 1389 01:18:45,153 --> 01:18:46,417 You mean get high. 1390 01:18:46,420 --> 01:18:49,320 Fuck, there's no high anymore. 1391 01:18:49,323 --> 01:18:52,824 I just don't want... I just don't wanna be sick. 1392 01:18:52,827 --> 01:18:54,393 Help me. H-Help me. 1393 01:18:54,395 --> 01:18:57,427 I just... I just... I just need a little... a little money. 1394 01:18:57,430 --> 01:19:01,135 OK, I will help you, but you have to help me. 1395 01:19:02,069 --> 01:19:03,368 Where can I find him? 1396 01:19:03,371 --> 01:19:05,273 He used to run for Clayton. 1397 01:19:06,541 --> 01:19:09,407 You don't... you don't leave Clayton. 1398 01:19:09,408 --> 01:19:10,842 That's where Ben went. 1399 01:19:10,845 --> 01:19:12,210 Shit. 1400 01:19:12,212 --> 01:19:14,345 - I j... I just snitched. - No, I-I-I... 1401 01:19:14,346 --> 01:19:16,981 I need more. Tell me everything you know. 1402 01:19:16,984 --> 01:19:18,286 I can't. 1403 01:19:27,228 --> 01:19:28,529 You can. 1404 01:19:32,064 --> 01:19:34,234 - Where is he? - OK. 1405 01:19:35,368 --> 01:19:38,773 Go to the pawn shop across the bridge. 1406 01:19:39,841 --> 01:19:42,875 It's in Yonkers. Ask around. 1407 01:19:42,877 --> 01:19:45,376 And that's all I could... I could tell you Mrs. B. 1408 01:19:45,377 --> 01:19:47,278 Anything else, and they'll kill me. 1409 01:19:47,279 --> 01:19:49,447 OK? 1410 01:19:49,448 --> 01:19:51,920 You said you'd help me get well. 1411 01:19:54,622 --> 01:19:56,988 Your mother and I were friends 1412 01:19:56,989 --> 01:19:58,389 when you and Ben were babies. 1413 01:19:58,390 --> 01:19:59,858 I changed your diaper. 1414 01:19:59,859 --> 01:20:01,125 This is so fucked. 1415 01:20:01,127 --> 01:20:02,961 Yeah, Mrs. B. It is. 1416 01:20:02,962 --> 01:20:06,434 Call you mother, and tell her that you're not dead. 1417 01:20:27,255 --> 01:20:28,418 Honey, are you OK? 1418 01:20:28,421 --> 01:20:30,555 Just... Just tell me you're OK. 1419 01:20:30,556 --> 01:20:32,490 You need to be calm. 1420 01:20:32,493 --> 01:20:35,894 I'm calm. Are you OK? 1421 01:20:35,895 --> 01:20:37,465 Yup, we are on it. 1422 01:20:38,297 --> 01:20:39,898 Just totally safe, 1423 01:20:39,899 --> 01:20:42,000 and closing in. 1424 01:20:42,002 --> 01:20:43,034 OK. OK. 1425 01:20:43,037 --> 01:20:44,435 Is that my mom? 1426 01:20:44,438 --> 01:20:46,436 Where are you? Because I'm coming to get you. 1427 01:20:46,439 --> 01:20:48,039 No, Neal. 1428 01:20:48,042 --> 01:20:49,539 - Is that my mom? - OK. Yes, it is. 1429 01:20:49,542 --> 01:20:51,542 Can I please talk to her? 1430 01:20:51,545 --> 01:20:53,613 Yes, you may. Hold on one second. 1431 01:20:55,483 --> 01:20:56,850 Mommy? 1432 01:21:07,261 --> 01:21:08,592 You need to be in bed. 1433 01:21:08,595 --> 01:21:10,427 Ben and I have this this under control, 1434 01:21:10,430 --> 01:21:13,064 and we will see you in the morning. 1435 01:21:13,067 --> 01:21:15,166 Why are you lying? 1436 01:21:15,167 --> 01:21:17,168 I'm not. 1437 01:21:17,171 --> 01:21:22,073 Mom, I'm the one who set up the phones for everybody. 1438 01:21:22,076 --> 01:21:23,574 You're not with Ben. 1439 01:21:23,577 --> 01:21:25,476 Ben is in a whole other town. 1440 01:21:25,479 --> 01:21:28,079 And I've been calling you and texting you 1441 01:21:28,082 --> 01:21:29,713 and you won't pick up. 1442 01:21:29,716 --> 01:21:32,417 And I didn't tell Neal because he'll call the cops, 1443 01:21:32,420 --> 01:21:36,323 but now I'm freaking out because you lied to me. 1444 01:21:37,358 --> 01:21:40,362 We split up to cover more ground. 1445 01:21:42,095 --> 01:21:43,360 I don't believe you. 1446 01:21:43,363 --> 01:21:44,695 Ivy? 1447 01:21:44,698 --> 01:21:47,398 What am I... what am I supposed to do? 1448 01:21:47,399 --> 01:21:48,567 All right, sweetheart. 1449 01:21:48,569 --> 01:21:50,335 You need to be calm and hang up. 1450 01:21:50,337 --> 01:21:51,601 Deal with Neal. 1451 01:21:51,604 --> 01:21:53,237 Call me back as soon as you can 1452 01:21:53,238 --> 01:21:54,372 from your own phone. 1453 01:21:54,375 --> 01:21:56,307 All right? 1454 01:21:56,310 --> 01:21:57,307 Yeah? 1455 01:21:57,310 --> 01:21:59,210 Ivy? 1456 01:21:59,212 --> 01:22:00,514 OK. 1457 01:22:34,715 --> 01:22:35,713 Hi, honey. 1458 01:22:35,716 --> 01:22:37,414 Hi, Mom. 1459 01:22:37,417 --> 01:22:39,684 OK, I want you to help me find your brother, yeah? 1460 01:22:39,685 --> 01:22:43,323 Keep going, and, um, if you turn left on Millwood. 1461 01:22:46,560 --> 01:22:48,395 Keep going straight... 1462 01:22:49,430 --> 01:22:51,295 and turn right on 23rd street. 1463 01:22:51,296 --> 01:22:52,430 Do you see that? 1464 01:22:52,431 --> 01:22:54,970 This is 23rd street, right? OK. 1465 01:22:57,304 --> 01:22:59,037 OK, and, um... 1466 01:22:59,038 --> 01:23:01,443 just keep going straight for a bit. 1467 01:23:03,310 --> 01:23:06,144 You're doing great, Ivy. 1468 01:23:06,145 --> 01:23:07,680 You're getting really close. 1469 01:23:10,451 --> 01:23:12,283 OK, turn before the intersection. 1470 01:23:12,286 --> 01:23:13,755 Mom, turn now. 1471 01:23:21,529 --> 01:23:24,064 You're really close. Do you see him? 1472 01:23:26,765 --> 01:23:28,135 Mom? 1473 01:23:29,569 --> 01:23:31,604 He should be right there. 1474 01:23:33,707 --> 01:23:35,206 I'm gonna call his phone. 1475 01:23:35,207 --> 01:23:36,743 OK, good idea. 1476 01:23:41,346 --> 01:23:42,649 OK, it's ringing. 1477 01:23:47,188 --> 01:23:48,519 Do you hear it? 1478 01:23:51,158 --> 01:23:53,224 I'll call you right back. 1479 01:23:53,225 --> 01:23:54,225 Don't hang up. 1480 01:23:54,228 --> 01:23:56,029 No. Mom? 1481 01:24:17,350 --> 01:24:19,217 I got him. 1482 01:24:19,220 --> 01:24:20,851 OK, God. 1483 01:24:20,854 --> 01:24:22,854 So, so, so, we're good, sweetie. 1484 01:24:22,855 --> 01:24:25,389 Can I just talk to him really quick? 1485 01:24:25,390 --> 01:24:26,757 We gotta keep moving. 1486 01:24:26,760 --> 01:24:30,398 We're going to be home so soon with Ponce. 1487 01:24:31,230 --> 01:24:32,396 Let me talk to Ben. 1488 01:24:32,399 --> 01:24:34,398 No, we gotta keep moving, honey. 1489 01:24:34,399 --> 01:24:35,833 No, Mom. 1490 01:24:35,836 --> 01:24:39,605 Sweetie, listen, I just... I need you to go to sleep. 1491 01:24:40,806 --> 01:24:42,707 I can tell there's something wrong. 1492 01:24:42,710 --> 01:24:45,680 Everything's going to be OK. Just trust me. 1493 01:24:46,479 --> 01:24:47,912 Mom. 1494 01:24:47,913 --> 01:24:49,149 OK, sweetie. 1495 01:24:50,484 --> 01:24:51,819 OK, I'll see you. 1496 01:25:08,536 --> 01:25:09,837 Excuse me. 1497 01:25:11,770 --> 01:25:13,108 Excuse me. 1498 01:25:14,274 --> 01:25:15,676 I'm looking for my son. 1499 01:25:17,278 --> 01:25:19,846 His name is Ben. I know he was just here. 1500 01:25:24,283 --> 01:25:25,685 Over by the river. 1501 01:25:27,488 --> 01:25:29,457 That's where they all end up. 1502 01:25:49,777 --> 01:25:51,578 Hey! Get up! 1503 01:26:22,309 --> 01:26:23,645 Ben? 1504 01:26:25,979 --> 01:26:27,314 Ben. 1505 01:26:53,739 --> 01:26:55,877 Mmm, you did good. 1506 01:26:56,743 --> 01:26:59,310 Hey, he did good, right? 1507 01:26:59,313 --> 01:27:01,681 You made a lot of people happy today. 1508 01:27:06,287 --> 01:27:07,717 For all your hard work. 1509 01:27:07,720 --> 01:27:09,756 Just give me my dog, man. 1510 01:27:56,904 --> 01:27:57,902 Holly. 1511 01:27:57,904 --> 01:27:59,436 Holly? 1512 01:27:59,439 --> 01:28:00,806 I lost him. 1513 01:28:01,442 --> 01:28:03,740 What? 1514 01:28:03,743 --> 01:28:06,677 I didn't want to tell you I've been... 1515 01:28:06,680 --> 01:28:07,881 lying to you. 1516 01:28:11,051 --> 01:28:14,322 I've looked everywhere, and I-I-I can't find him. 1517 01:28:16,657 --> 01:28:18,292 But I tried. 1518 01:28:22,563 --> 01:28:24,395 I know you did. 1519 01:28:24,398 --> 01:28:26,934 I lost him a long time ago. I just... 1520 01:28:28,502 --> 01:28:32,970 I don't know where to look, and I'm so tired. 1521 01:28:32,971 --> 01:28:36,006 And I don't know what to do. 1522 01:28:36,009 --> 01:28:39,043 Tell me where you are. I'm coming to get you. 1523 01:28:39,046 --> 01:28:41,015 And we'll find him together. 1524 01:28:44,649 --> 01:28:47,654 No, I'm co... I'm coming home. 1525 01:28:50,390 --> 01:28:52,091 I'm just gonna come home. 1526 01:29:03,935 --> 01:29:06,872 Hey, boy. Hey, boy. 1527 01:30:33,158 --> 01:30:34,895 Anything else? 1528 01:31:07,792 --> 01:31:09,063 Here, bud. 1529 01:32:03,684 --> 01:32:05,015 Excuse me. 1530 01:32:05,018 --> 01:32:06,250 Excuse me. I'm sorry. I need help, please. 1531 01:32:06,252 --> 01:32:08,619 Ma'am, need to wait your turn. 1532 01:32:08,622 --> 01:32:10,988 No, I can't... I can't wait my turn because my son, who's... he's not a bad kid. 1533 01:32:10,989 --> 01:32:13,923 No, no, no, no, I can't. There's not time for that right now. 1534 01:32:13,926 --> 01:32:14,925 He stole my car. 1535 01:32:14,926 --> 01:32:15,993 Please. 1536 01:32:15,996 --> 01:32:17,261 Excuse me, sir. 1537 01:32:17,264 --> 01:32:18,896 Ma'am, hold on a second. 1538 01:32:18,899 --> 01:32:20,898 - Can you find...? - Hello. Hold on one second. 1539 01:32:20,899 --> 01:32:22,199 Ma'am, standing there 1540 01:32:22,202 --> 01:32:24,335 - won't help you... - I just need you to 1541 01:32:24,337 --> 01:32:27,605 please find my son and arrest him! 1542 01:32:27,608 --> 01:32:29,609 I'm begging you! 1543 01:32:30,877 --> 01:32:32,680 [Ponce barking. 1544 01:32:40,685 --> 01:32:44,054 If you just wanna calm down and have a seat, I'll start the form. 1545 01:32:44,055 --> 01:32:45,189 Thank you. I'm sorry. 1546 01:32:59,904 --> 01:33:01,242 Hello? 1547 01:33:47,118 --> 01:33:49,355 Good boy. Good boy. 1548 01:33:50,355 --> 01:33:52,024 Oh, my God. 1549 01:33:52,426 --> 01:33:53,761 Honey? 1550 01:33:54,961 --> 01:33:56,760 Wake up, Ben. 1551 01:33:56,761 --> 01:33:57,860 Wake up, honey. 1552 01:33:57,863 --> 01:33:59,164 Come on. 1553 01:34:01,935 --> 01:34:02,932 OK. 1554 01:34:02,935 --> 01:34:04,201 All right. 1555 01:34:04,203 --> 01:34:05,706 We've got this. OK. 1556 01:34:06,872 --> 01:34:08,207 All right. 1557 01:34:12,444 --> 01:34:14,144 Come on. 1558 01:34:14,145 --> 01:34:15,813 Come on. Hang in there. 1559 01:34:15,814 --> 01:34:16,980 Come back to me. 1560 01:34:16,983 --> 01:34:18,252 Come on. 1561 01:34:18,850 --> 01:34:20,121 Fuck. 1562 01:34:23,122 --> 01:34:24,658 Just stay with me. 1563 01:34:27,327 --> 01:34:29,726 OK. OK. 1564 01:34:29,729 --> 01:34:31,698 OK. Ready? 1565 01:34:36,737 --> 01:34:37,768 OK. 1566 01:34:37,770 --> 01:34:38,836 Wake up. 1567 01:34:38,837 --> 01:34:40,341 Wake up. 1568 01:34:43,009 --> 01:34:44,310 Please. 1569 01:34:58,189 --> 01:35:00,423 Please. Please, come back. 1570 01:35:00,426 --> 01:35:02,960 Come back. Please, come back. 1571 01:35:02,962 --> 01:35:04,264 Please. 1572 01:35:09,435 --> 01:35:11,301 Oh, my boy. Please. 1573 01:35:11,304 --> 01:35:13,137 Please. I know you can do this. 1574 01:35:20,779 --> 01:35:22,082 Ben. 1575 01:35:23,783 --> 01:35:25,786 My boy. Please. 104350