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Okay.
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You don't like nature.
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Whores are natural.
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The trees, the countryside...
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They bore me.
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Carl Weisner took us through a trip
through Germany, showing us all the hills
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and the hill with the greenness.
I started nodding off.
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Shit, one time I was giving a poetry
reading up in Oregon
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or Washington somewhere.
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Some guy was driving us
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after the reading where I'm supposed
to rape
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an English teacher, a female teacher
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by the time I got there I was so dulled
I couldn't even get my dick up.
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Trees, greeness...
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It's okay! It's okay, but I mean it
can finally be deadening.
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It's just like uh green trees...
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green trees, green trees, green trees.
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Okay!
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All right. What are you gonna do with it?
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Give me the cities, give me smog.
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I like what the kid told me in Paris. The
king of the what? The king of the punks?
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He said:
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"People complain about smog - I love it"
and he zipped up and down
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And you know there is a way of loving smog
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it's not a non-truth, it feels good.
You walk out and you go
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You're part of it, shit! You're walking
through smog, you live through smog
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you love the buildings,
you love the inflation
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There are creatures who
adjust to conditions.
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There will be fo...smog people,
inflation people.
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The higher the price. You're gonna go in
their place someday
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you're gonna, the waitress'll say
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"Well, it's a dol..$365 for a
a leg sandwich of mutton."
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and you'll say: "Is that all?
I'm gonna pay you $565
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and here's a $365 tip!"
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These are the people who are gonna
survive, don't you see?
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They're ready for inflation.
They're ready for smog.
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They love it! What's the difference?
It's only mental.
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Go with it!
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Here, have a $500 tip.
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No, it's okay.
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It doesn't mean anything unless you
want to make it mean something. Hell...
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So you keep changing governments,
you keep changing women,
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what's the difference?
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Here we're back to women.
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You said that starving doesn't create art,that it creates many things
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but mainly it creates time.
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Oh yeah, well hey, that's very basic.
I'd hate to use up your film to say this
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But you know
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if you work an 8 hour job and you're gonna
get 55 cents an hour you're gonna get it
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if you stay home you're not gonna
get any money
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but you're gonna have time to write
things down on paper.
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I guess I was one of those rarities of,
of our modern times who
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did starve for his art. I really starved,
(you know) to have...
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a 24 hour day, unintruded upon
by other people.
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I gave up food, I gave up everything
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just to...I was a nut. I was dedicated.
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But you see...
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the problem is
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you can be a dedicated nut
and not be able to do it.
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Dedication without talent is useless.
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Understand what I mean?
-Yeah
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Dedication alone is not enough.
You can starve and want to do it
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Hey, you know?
-Just a waste.
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I know.
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And how many do that?
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They starve in the gutters
and they don't make it
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But you knew you had talent.
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They all think they have.
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How do you know that you're the one?
You don't know.
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It's a shot in the dark,
you take it or you become
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a normal civilized person from 8 to 5.
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Get married, have children
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Christmas together, here comes Grandma.
"Hi Grandma, come on in" "Hi you"
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You know.
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Shit, I couldn't take that.
I'd rather murder myself.
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I guess just, in the blood
of me couldn't stand
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the whole thing that's going on.
The ordinariness of life.
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I couldn't stand family life.
I couldn't stand job life.
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I couldn't stand anything I looked at.
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I just decided I either had to starve,
make it, go mad,
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come through or do something.
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Even if I hadn't made it on writing
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I could not do the 8 to 5, I would've been
a suicide, something. I'm sorry.
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I could not accept
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the snail's pace, 8 to 5.
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Johnny Carson.
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Happy Birthday. Christmas. New Year.
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To me this is the sickest
of all sick things.
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So I just had to lock a helldown, somebody
took a pile of my short stories somewhere.
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Now I just sit around and drink wine,
and I talk about myself
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because you guys ask the questions.
Not because
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I give the answers.
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Okay?
-Okay.
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So one time I'm working in
this comic book house
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and these two clerks got
in an argument about...
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comic books.
Somebody counted a rack of a
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a stack of comic books wrong.
The other one's arguing about, I said:
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"Jesus Christ. This job isn't even,
a comic book house.
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It isn't even worth arguing about."
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"Well, that's the first time we heard
you speak, in a couple of weeks."
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"We all know you always think
you're a genius."
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"We know you think you're a genius!
We know you think you're a genius!"
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I saw all these teeth come out.
All the faces
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I wasn't trying to be a genius, I just
didn't want to be in a comic book house.
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I want to be out in the park. I want to
be sailing down a river in a sailboat
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I want to- anything decent.
I could not resign myself
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to the 8 hour job of nothingness.
I could not understand it.
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That's all. So I bummed and I bummed
and I bummed.
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It was one job after another.
It was a park bench...
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It was a job in Dallas. It was a job
in Atlanta. It was a job in Miami.
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Name the city somewhere south,
I been there.
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And that's how one day you
ended up in Philadelphia?
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Oh yeah, Philadelphia.
First I ended up in New York.
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Then, New York was so bad I thought: "I
want to go to a nice, shady, quiet city."
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"Everything is calm, the people are
decent, there's no trouble."
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"Philadelphia, what do they call it?
The City of Brotherly Love."
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"I'll just go there where people are
dumb. They don't fuck with anybody."
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I went there, it was tougher than New York.
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They killed on the streets,
they bribed the cops.
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My first night in this bar I'm writing about,
that's what appeased me, attracted me.
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I walked in half dead,
I just went in for a beer.
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It wasn't even a night, it was about
one in the afternoon. I walked in
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and the place was packed, it was
in a poor neighborhood.
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I sat down, drank a beer, looked around.
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It was packed! Everybody was crazy and
drunk. They were all drinking beer but
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all of a sudden
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here came a bottle flying through the air.
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This guy next to me I find out his name's
Danny Freely, turns and that, he says:
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"You ever do that again man, I'll kill you!"
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I said: "Boy, this is the place I want to
be. Something's finally happening."
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Another bottle flew by, through the air.
Crash!
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The bartender just poured another drink,
he didn't say anything. I said:
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"This my Nirvana, everything's happening.
Open...violence. Decent open violence."
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And then, two guys got in a fight.
They start slamming it around
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and I went to take a piss- they're still
fighting. And I went right through them,
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I said: "Okay pardon me, gentlemen."
And they both stood aside
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and they start fighting again. When I came
back they, I said "Pardon me gentleman..."
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They start, I said: "This is my heaven."
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I'm gonna drink in this bar, I'm gonna
fight like this and live like this.
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This is the thing that I'm talking about:
this bar, this place
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You know what happened?
That night never repeated again.
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It was like they had all planned it for me.
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And the same people were there,
and I waited and I waited.
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I waited 2 1/2 years. I went away a year
and I came back
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I waited 2 1/2 years again, I sat in a
stool. There was never any night
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like that first afternoon.
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I was trapped into a dream that I wanted.
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That's all. Bad shit.
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Conversation on a telephone
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I could tell by the crouch of the cat
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the way it was flattened
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that it was insane with prey;
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and when my car came upon it
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it rose in the twilight
and made off
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with bird in mouth
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a very large bird, gray
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the wings down like broken love
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the fangs in
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life still there
but not much,
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not very much
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the broken love-bird
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the cat walks in my mind
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and I cannot make him out
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the phone rings,
I answer a voice,
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but I see him again and again,
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and the loose wings
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the loose gray wings,
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and this thing held
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in a head that knows no mercy;
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I put the phone down
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and the cat-sides of the room
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come in upon me
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and I would scream,
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but they have places for people
who scream;
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and the cat walks
the cat walks forever
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in my brain.
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That was a tough afternoon, saying that
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is that the one- that's the way it is,
everybody says
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that's nature, you know.
Nature is not normal.
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God is not normal. Nature is not kind.
Nature...doesn't give a fuck, man.
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And I give a fuck
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So when I see something happening,
something getting,
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something else killing something
else I don't like it.
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But you know
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the real intelligent people say:
"Well, that's the way it is, you see."
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"This is killing that and
this is feeding that"
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"and here is the grasshopper, there's
this- this feeds upon that. It's all arranged."
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Except when something jumps upon
them they scream, don't they?
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You see
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they don't get themselves in with
the spider and the fly.
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I got myself in
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I am the fly, that's the spider you see
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They don't get themselve into...
they're indifferent to what's happening
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Oh, that's interesting. Look
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But you see they too are involved
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But...
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the only is that there's a human
going to kill now.
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But they don't know it
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they're arranging it,
but they don't know it.
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They're dumb! They're dumb.
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Almost all people are dumb.
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Ever see people go into a
restaurant to order food?
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They don't even want to eat food.
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They come in because it's time to eat.
They're not even hungry.
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The more I think of humanity,
the less I want to think of them.
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Is there anything else you ha...
ask me something. Jesus.
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You lived in East Hollywood
before moving here.
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What are the places we could film there?
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Nowhere.
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The bars are shut down
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The Big Twenty
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is covered with plywood
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like the, like the police have come
and nailed plywood across the
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front of it with little tacks.
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The Big Twenty is closed down like
it was a malaria joint.
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And that whole neighborhood is very,
very dead. I mean, umm...
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We used to walk around there and you'd see
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pimps and whores hanging around
the corners, eating hotdogs,
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with mustards dripping down their chins.
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There's nothing, there's
nobody there anymore.
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There's no place to film anything anymore.
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I get the feeling the world is more
and more drying up.
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I don't where the whores are going,
where the black pimps are going,
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where the music is going.
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But my idea in life is
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where the black pimps are, where the
whores are, where the music is playing
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where the bar, where the...
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jukeboxes are playing in the bars,
where the lights are on,
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that's where life is.
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That may seem to be a terrible
type of life to most people
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but you listen to that music and you
walk into that bar sometime
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and you walk in try to find a barstool
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and you sit down and the bartender
comes up and serves you a drink
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you're glad to get it.
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Cause you're in a lively joint
where something is happening.
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I think degradation,
black pimps, prostitution
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are the flowers of the earth.
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I think those joints,
where this is going on
239
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I think there's great happiness
240
00:19:00,337 --> 00:19:02,768
in terror and horror too
241
00:19:02,888 --> 00:19:04,889
but that all counts in adding up
242
00:19:05,009 --> 00:19:07,580
when you walk into a place to get a drink.
243
00:19:08,340 --> 00:19:09,797
It's a liveliness.
244
00:19:12,339 --> 00:19:14,761
When you clean up a city you kill it.
245
00:19:16,677 --> 00:19:20,856
There's no place to film around
Hollywood and Western, anymore.
246
00:19:21,339 --> 00:19:24,189
It's dead...dead...dead.
247
00:19:24,648 --> 00:19:26,199
It stinks of death.
248
00:19:26,319 --> 00:19:31,376
The Puritans. The Christians.
They've cleaned it up, they've dried it up
249
00:19:31,828 --> 00:19:34,804
like no rose will ever grow there again.
250
00:20:10,327 --> 00:20:13,999
I've always been used
because I'm a good guy.
251
00:20:15,203 --> 00:20:17,736
And women when they meet me they say:
252
00:20:18,575 --> 00:20:23,511
"I can use this sonofabitch. I can push
him around, he's an easy going guy."
253
00:20:24,065 --> 00:20:25,300
So they do it.
254
00:20:26,970 --> 00:20:29,851
But you know, finally I get
to resent it a bit
255
00:20:29,971 --> 00:20:31,387
What do you resent?
256
00:20:32,733 --> 00:20:34,458
Just being pushed.
257
00:20:34,712 --> 00:20:35,756
Pushed?
258
00:20:38,519 --> 00:20:39,327
Yeah.
259
00:20:43,000 --> 00:20:44,725
Just being pushed.
260
00:20:44,845 --> 00:20:48,759
Why do you let yourself to be pushed
by this kinda shit? You idiot.
261
00:20:48,879 --> 00:20:52,290
Why do you allow yourself to be pushed
by this sort of thing?
262
00:20:52,410 --> 00:20:56,671
I've told you a thousand times to leave,
you won't leave. I've told -Wait a minute
263
00:20:56,791 --> 00:21:01,264
No wait, that doesn't have anything to do
with it -Get an attorney to tell you to leave
264
00:21:01,384 --> 00:21:05,846
Why do you continually allow
yourself to be pushed?
265
00:21:05,966 --> 00:21:09,859
Because I'm kind-hearted, I give
the other person another chance.
266
00:21:12,598 --> 00:21:16,049
You do?
- I've given you dozens of chances.
267
00:21:17,482 --> 00:21:19,857
You keep pushing and pushing
268
00:21:21,397 --> 00:21:24,484
and you keep laughing at me.
That's why I'm gonna tell you
269
00:21:24,604 --> 00:21:28,553
I'm getting an attorney and I'm gonna
get your ass moved out of here.
270
00:21:34,296 --> 00:21:38,396
She thinks I don't have the guts.
She thinks I can't live without her.
271
00:21:39,235 --> 00:21:44,586
I can move your ass out of here so bright
and so fast with a Jewish attorney
272
00:21:45,734 --> 00:21:49,692
you're gonna feel like your
ass is skinned, baby.
273
00:21:52,629 --> 00:21:56,064
You think that you're the last woman
on earth that I can get?
274
00:21:56,793 --> 00:21:59,674
Never had a thought about it.
- Yeah, well...
275
00:22:00,386 --> 00:22:02,492
you better start thinking.
276
00:22:04,685 --> 00:22:06,901
I'm turning you over to the next.
277
00:22:07,155 --> 00:22:08,421
Next what?
278
00:22:08,541 --> 00:22:12,490
The next guy, he can have you.
I won't be the least bit jealous.
279
00:22:12,610 --> 00:22:17,897
Your...bull shit, all your goddamn...
stay out every night bull shit.
280
00:22:18,610 --> 00:22:20,984
I don't need the kinda woman you are
281
00:22:21,658 --> 00:22:24,159
I don't need your shit, baby.
282
00:22:24,428 --> 00:22:25,900
I don't need it
283
00:22:31,275 --> 00:22:33,001
What about the hostess?
284
00:22:37,069 --> 00:22:38,985
I don't need them either.
285
00:22:44,994 --> 00:22:48,746
See what Linda doesn't realize,
when I met Jan,
286
00:22:48,866 --> 00:22:51,783
she pushed the shit that Linda's
putting on me now.
287
00:22:51,903 --> 00:22:55,345
Out every night, showing up 5:30
-Not every night.
288
00:22:55,978 --> 00:23:00,826
I don't want you to give these people that
impression, because it's not true.
289
00:23:00,946 --> 00:23:04,926
Okay, then you're not out every night. Okay.
-That's better. -All right.
290
00:23:05,046 --> 00:23:09,374
Linda's not out every night
-Thank you. Thank you very much.
291
00:23:13,293 --> 00:23:17,409
You know what a fucking hunk
of phony shit you are?
292
00:23:19,982 --> 00:23:21,929
I hate liars.
293
00:23:22,847 --> 00:23:25,887
You lied right into their faces, you cunt.
294
00:23:26,007 --> 00:23:28,634
Just then? -Yeah...
I did not.
295
00:23:29,082 --> 00:23:35,620
You were out five nights in a row, last
weekend. You came in at 5:30 one night,
296
00:23:35,740 --> 00:23:40,842
3:30 the other. The night before last you
came in at 2:01am
297
00:23:40,962 --> 00:23:44,645
There was a reason for every one
of those nights -Hey...
298
00:23:44,765 --> 00:23:49,185
And I told you about them and you
simply wouldn't accept them.
299
00:23:49,305 --> 00:23:52,953
Of course not, would you accept
my nights out? -Yes I would!
300
00:23:53,073 --> 00:23:59,884
I invited you along every time, I said come
you can see, nothing is happening. Come.
301
00:24:00,004 --> 00:24:04,375
Don't enjoy. Just come and understand
that there is something
302
00:24:04,918 --> 00:24:09,608
that I am doing. That I require.
I need to do
303
00:24:10,015 --> 00:24:14,401
in my life! And it's not bad,
it's not against you
304
00:24:15,014 --> 00:24:17,437
it doesn't make me love you less.
305
00:24:17,848 --> 00:24:19,162
It might even...
306
00:24:19,621 --> 00:24:21,822
permit me to love you more.
307
00:24:22,297 --> 00:24:24,877
Listen
-You don't see that.
308
00:24:25,171 --> 00:24:30,933
I don't want a woman out six nights a
week after 2am in the morning.
309
00:24:31,053 --> 00:24:34,685
I don't care what the excuse is.
-It wasn't like that for six nights a week.
310
00:24:34,805 --> 00:24:39,443
The month of May you were out
fifteen nights past midnight.
311
00:24:42,514 --> 00:24:45,641
It's true. The calendar is marked.
312
00:24:47,236 --> 00:24:49,943
So what?
-So what.
313
00:24:50,063 --> 00:24:53,407
This is why, I'm gonna get an attorney
-What do you think? What? Wait a minute!
314
00:24:53,527 --> 00:24:56,732
to get you off of my ass.
-Wait! Wait! Wait!
315
00:24:57,428 --> 00:25:00,404
Why are you so offended by...
-Why should I tolerate you?
316
00:25:00,524 --> 00:25:02,929
Why are you so offended by me
317
00:25:03,049 --> 00:25:04,782
doing something else?
318
00:25:05,494 --> 00:25:10,393
Because I live with a woman or she lives
with me, she doesn't live with other people.
319
00:25:10,513 --> 00:25:14,985
I do live with other people and I'm
going to for the rest of my life.
320
00:25:15,583 --> 00:25:20,146
I know, I'm gonna turn you over to them.
Don't you see? -No, no no.
321
00:25:20,510 --> 00:25:24,535
Like shit! You fucking cunt!
322
00:25:24,655 --> 00:25:28,018
You think you'll walk out on me
every fucking night?
323
00:25:28,588 --> 00:25:30,456
You fuckin' whore.
324
00:25:31,641 --> 00:25:33,082
You bitch!
325
00:25:33,494 --> 00:25:38,211
Who do you think I am? Just, I'm gonna
do this, live with other people.
326
00:25:38,331 --> 00:25:40,507
I didn't...
-You fucking shit!
327
00:26:21,421 --> 00:26:23,559
What's the address here, Hank?
328
00:26:24,057 --> 00:26:28,659
Ah, this is 2122 Longwood Avenue.
329
00:26:29,032 --> 00:26:30,884
The house of horrors,
330
00:26:31,004 --> 00:26:32,736
the house of agony.
331
00:26:33,749 --> 00:26:39,544
The house where I was almost done in,
but not quite. I'm still here you see.
332
00:26:43,023 --> 00:26:46,189
This is the lawn that I manicured.
333
00:26:46,490 --> 00:26:49,118
I had to mow it both ways.
334
00:26:49,238 --> 00:26:51,957
This way first, then this way
335
00:26:52,077 --> 00:26:55,931
and I had to get all the hairs
with the shears.
336
00:26:57,179 --> 00:27:00,361
If I missed one hair, I got a beating.
337
00:27:00,481 --> 00:27:01,628
One hair.
338
00:27:03,538 --> 00:27:07,781
It's very hard not to miss one hair.
Try it some time.
339
00:27:07,901 --> 00:27:11,240
So I always got a beating.
In here we have...
340
00:27:12,966 --> 00:27:14,438
a torture chamber.
341
00:27:15,634 --> 00:27:20,256
So, we'll go and see that.
-You'll go see a torture chamber, okay?
342
00:27:27,295 --> 00:27:28,293
Well...
343
00:27:30,383 --> 00:27:31,253
this...
344
00:27:31,633 --> 00:27:33,517
is a torture chamber.
345
00:27:35,059 --> 00:27:38,336
This is where I learned, something.
346
00:27:42,152 --> 00:27:44,431
The old man had a razor strap
347
00:27:44,978 --> 00:27:48,033
he used to hang here,
and he'd just pick it off...
348
00:27:50,234 --> 00:27:52,450
Drop your pants and your shorts.
349
00:27:52,570 --> 00:27:54,603
I would stand about here
350
00:27:55,925 --> 00:27:57,683
and he would begin.
351
00:28:00,358 --> 00:28:04,221
And I wouldn't know how many lashes
he would give me. They'd be hard.
352
00:28:05,591 --> 00:28:08,583
Eight, ten, twelve, fourteen.
353
00:28:10,403 --> 00:28:14,171
And ah, of course you can't help screaming
354
00:28:15,684 --> 00:28:19,087
especially when you're six years old,
seven years old.
355
00:28:19,990 --> 00:28:21,984
As I got around to be about
356
00:28:22,690 --> 00:28:26,743
ten, or eleven, or twelve I screamed
less, in fact
357
00:28:27,978 --> 00:28:31,413
the last beating I got I didn't
scream at all. I just...
358
00:28:33,195 --> 00:28:35,094
didn't make a sound
359
00:28:36,266 --> 00:28:39,258
and I guess that terrorized him because
360
00:28:39,638 --> 00:28:42,693
that was the last one,
when I didn't make a sound.
361
00:28:43,826 --> 00:28:44,807
So, uh...
362
00:28:45,266 --> 00:28:47,926
this place holds some memories all right.
363
00:28:49,715 --> 00:28:54,678
I don't know it's just a terrible
place to stand and talk about it.
364
00:29:02,254 --> 00:29:04,375
Let's forget it, okay?
365
00:29:06,164 --> 00:29:11,313
You're a small creature and you have a
large creature beating upon you
366
00:29:11,433 --> 00:29:12,785
and the mother...
367
00:29:14,009 --> 00:29:18,267
says okay. Okay, this sounds
very tearful and like uh...
368
00:29:18,695 --> 00:29:21,920
I'm weeping for mercy or something,
but at that time
369
00:29:22,040 --> 00:29:26,160
it's very, very difficult because there's
no place to go, there's nothing you can do.
370
00:29:29,271 --> 00:29:33,023
But as we said earlier,
and I've said other times
371
00:29:33,783 --> 00:29:36,332
I think my father taught me how to write.
372
00:29:40,329 --> 00:29:46,393
Because, even now in times of difficult
problems, I never weep, I never beg.
373
00:29:47,762 --> 00:29:49,321
I go through the next
374
00:29:49,646 --> 00:29:51,942
situation quietly
375
00:29:52,955 --> 00:29:53,794
without
376
00:29:55,235 --> 00:29:59,656
asking mercy. I just move on
to the next situation.
377
00:30:01,381 --> 00:30:02,980
I think it's good training.
378
00:30:03,255 --> 00:30:06,516
I don't want that kind of
training for anybody.
379
00:30:07,886 --> 00:30:09,912
But for me, now that I've gotten it
380
00:30:11,084 --> 00:30:14,614
it makes me...you know, know
things like other people have
381
00:30:14,734 --> 00:30:17,685
get a flat tire, something bad.
They go crazy.
382
00:30:17,805 --> 00:30:18,643
I say
383
00:30:18,763 --> 00:30:24,200
well, that's just something bad that
happens again. It all, it should happen.
384
00:30:24,944 --> 00:30:27,319
So, I take it better. You know.
385
00:30:28,530 --> 00:30:33,295
I lose a leg, somebody leaves,
somebody robs the house.
386
00:30:33,976 --> 00:30:36,462
Yes, well, that's it. You see
387
00:30:37,768 --> 00:30:39,320
they made me ready.
388
00:30:41,678 --> 00:30:43,531
And my father especially...
389
00:30:44,164 --> 00:30:48,478
Since my father's left me I've found
others who have taken his place, you see.
390
00:30:49,566 --> 00:30:51,371
Sometimes in female form.
391
00:30:52,737 --> 00:30:56,093
So the father never leaves,
even after he's dead.
392
00:30:56,988 --> 00:30:58,397
Fathers always...
393
00:31:01,183 --> 00:31:03,083
No, I was against me.
394
00:31:06,020 --> 00:31:12,273
Not in my heart, he might be under my
toenail somewhere like dirty...grime.
395
00:31:41,003 --> 00:31:42,554
Happy night, you know
396
00:31:43,384 --> 00:31:46,962
everybody, you know sometimes you have
a good night, everybody's laughing
397
00:31:47,082 --> 00:31:48,181
you're feeling good.
398
00:31:49,467 --> 00:31:53,678
So, while we're going to the store to
get more beer, of course I'm buying
399
00:31:53,798 --> 00:31:56,607
I'm one of these type that always buys...
400
00:31:58,095 --> 00:31:59,757
I'm a sucker. Anyhow
401
00:32:01,907 --> 00:32:06,467
so coming back I'm, they're carrying all
these six-packs which, how everybody
402
00:32:07,068 --> 00:32:10,155
three or four people, we're all laughing
403
00:32:11,478 --> 00:32:13,805
and all of a sudden this guy comes up.
He says:
404
00:32:14,596 --> 00:32:17,620
"Gee, you guys seem to
be having a good time"
405
00:32:18,443 --> 00:32:19,172
406
00:32:20,272 --> 00:32:22,093
"You mind if I come along?"
407
00:32:23,328 --> 00:32:26,890
They all said: "Yes, yes, yes!"
And I said: "Hey, wait..."
408
00:32:27,729 --> 00:32:31,243
He says: "Oh come on, let me come along."
I said: "All right, come on."
409
00:32:31,363 --> 00:32:34,370
So we all in, and we start
drinking and drinking.
410
00:32:35,478 --> 00:32:36,872
So, uhh...
411
00:32:38,439 --> 00:32:42,357
There's a piano there. I go to play the piano.
The night goes on.
412
00:32:42,477 --> 00:32:44,395
I can't play it, but I play it.
413
00:32:44,954 --> 00:32:49,616
And I'm sitting in a chair-I don't like
this guy too much and I'm giving him um...
414
00:32:50,341 --> 00:32:52,419
Oh, what he's doing...
415
00:32:54,397 --> 00:32:59,188
He's talking about the war he's been in
and how many people he killed.
416
00:33:01,958 --> 00:33:05,979
And that didn't interest me too much,
you know, because in a war...
417
00:33:06,601 --> 00:33:09,866
you can kill people and it doesn't
mean anything. It's legal.
418
00:33:11,682 --> 00:33:15,134
It takes guts to kill somebody
when it's not legal. Got it?
419
00:33:15,882 --> 00:33:16,769
Okay
420
00:33:17,489 --> 00:33:18,835
So I told him this.
421
00:33:21,463 --> 00:33:23,758
He kept talking, bragging.
422
00:33:24,475 --> 00:33:28,785
About various things: what a good shot
he was, how many people he killed.
423
00:33:29,256 --> 00:33:32,375
I said: "Bull shit, Get out of here!"
He said: "You don't like me?"
424
00:33:32,495 --> 00:33:33,863
I said: "Yeah, leave."
425
00:33:35,423 --> 00:33:39,100
So he left a while, we're all talking.
You know, you drink.
426
00:33:39,539 --> 00:33:42,800
Is a lighter here? -Yes.
I keep losing it...
427
00:33:44,134 --> 00:33:45,131
So, uh...
428
00:33:48,559 --> 00:33:50,506
All of a sudden he came back.
429
00:33:52,644 --> 00:33:54,021
He had a gun.
430
00:33:55,296 --> 00:33:59,586
Suddenly I had no friends around me.
You know, they kind of disappeared away...
431
00:34:00,884 --> 00:34:05,333
and then he came up behind me, and
he said: "You don't like me, do you?"
432
00:34:10,534 --> 00:34:11,832
Well, you know...
433
00:34:12,291 --> 00:34:13,641
this is the point
434
00:34:13,761 --> 00:34:17,583
where people often make a mistake. But
I'm only gonna talk about myself.
435
00:34:20,816 --> 00:34:24,125
I, I told him the truth. I said:
"No, I don't like you."
436
00:34:26,128 --> 00:34:30,719
So he came up behind me and
he put the gun to my temple.
437
00:34:32,096 --> 00:34:34,598
He says: "You still don't
like me, do you?"
438
00:34:34,718 --> 00:34:37,536
I said: "No, I still don't like you."
439
00:34:40,195 --> 00:34:43,536
Let me tell you something,
I really wasn't frightened
440
00:34:43,829 --> 00:34:44,731
at all.
441
00:34:46,600 --> 00:34:50,383
It was almost like seeing
a movie, somewhere...
442
00:34:51,880 --> 00:34:54,191
So he said: "Well, I'm going to kill you."
443
00:34:54,311 --> 00:34:55,727
And I said: "Okay."
444
00:34:56,328 --> 00:34:57,880
Let me tell you something
445
00:35:00,523 --> 00:35:02,692
I said: "If you kill me know..."
446
00:35:02,812 --> 00:35:04,759
"you're gonna do me a favor."
447
00:35:05,883 --> 00:35:07,846
It was true what I told him.
448
00:35:09,366 --> 00:35:12,183
I said: "I'm a suicide case anyhow."
449
00:35:15,516 --> 00:35:19,680
"I've been wondering how to do this thing,
now you've solved my problem."
450
00:35:25,546 --> 00:35:27,335
And also, I said:
451
00:35:28,047 --> 00:35:31,055
"P.S. By the way, If you kill me"
452
00:35:31,665 --> 00:35:33,580
"you've solved my problem"
453
00:35:33,945 --> 00:35:35,813
"and you've got a problem."
454
00:35:35,933 --> 00:35:37,997
"You do life in jail"
455
00:35:39,351 --> 00:35:43,230
"or the electric chair, whatever the
hell's going ona round here."
456
00:35:45,177 --> 00:35:46,554
There was silence...
457
00:35:48,201 --> 00:35:50,512
I could feel it just pressing on me.
458
00:35:51,914 --> 00:35:54,589
Just stayed there and I didn't say anymore,
he didn't say anymore.
459
00:35:54,709 --> 00:35:56,521
Then he put the gun down
460
00:35:57,475 --> 00:36:01,749
and he walked toward the door, and the
screen door slammed, he walked out.
461
00:36:03,827 --> 00:36:07,136
And, what I said was really true,
you know, it ju...
462
00:36:07,256 --> 00:36:11,980
I had a suicidal, it didn't matter.
But he came up a wrong, along...
463
00:36:12,100 --> 00:36:16,755
a wrong, around, in between,
on top of the wrong guy.
464
00:36:17,055 --> 00:36:20,515
He came across the nut as bad as he was.
465
00:36:21,096 --> 00:36:22,552
There was no solving
466
00:36:23,095 --> 00:36:26,700
but I think, if the person had, you know,
had been me and said:
467
00:36:27,283 --> 00:36:30,544
"Oh no! Don't do it!"
He might have done it. You see...
468
00:36:30,829 --> 00:36:32,903
Even though I wanted him to do it.
469
00:36:33,331 --> 00:36:35,658
So later, all my friends came around
470
00:36:35,778 --> 00:36:39,592
"Oh Hank you all ri-" I said: "Yeah, you
guys are really great while I was in the"
471
00:36:39,712 --> 00:36:41,639
"You really helped me, didn't you?'
472
00:36:41,759 --> 00:36:46,313
"Just standing, watching. You couldn't
have grabbed him from behind or anything"
473
00:36:46,582 --> 00:36:48,798
"Well Hank-" I say: "Okay..."
474
00:36:49,622 --> 00:36:51,822
So later it was discovered
475
00:36:52,899 --> 00:36:55,875
he'd gone into some drugstore
476
00:36:56,896 --> 00:36:59,509
with a gun and did something
477
00:36:59,629 --> 00:37:04,005
smashed somebody with the gun butt,
and tried to shoot
478
00:37:04,337 --> 00:37:06,779
and they put him in a madhouse, later.
479
00:37:07,634 --> 00:37:09,898
So, he was really for true, you know
480
00:37:10,531 --> 00:37:12,763
but you know there's nothing like one nut
481
00:37:12,883 --> 00:37:15,752
talking to another, you know.
There's nobody
482
00:37:15,872 --> 00:37:18,998
well, there are many so crazy
you can't get to them.
483
00:37:19,425 --> 00:37:20,486
But, uh...
484
00:37:20,961 --> 00:37:22,053
I lucked it.
485
00:37:23,541 --> 00:37:26,933
But I was really ready to go.
It wouldn't have been a big thing.
486
00:37:28,394 --> 00:37:31,813
And he knew it. If you don't
feel the fear, you don't react.
487
00:37:32,608 --> 00:37:36,440
Sometimes. Some don't feel the
fear and they still react.
488
00:37:37,168 --> 00:37:39,368
So that's all. No big story.
489
00:38:16,723 --> 00:38:19,398
That's a lady fortune teller there.
490
00:38:19,905 --> 00:38:22,125
I went in there one time.
491
00:38:22,245 --> 00:38:26,526
She read my palm, she said:
"You're an alcoholic."
492
00:38:28,065 --> 00:38:32,387
I said: "Really? Do I gamble too?"
She says: "Yes, you gamble."
493
00:38:32,981 --> 00:38:35,466
"That'll be five dollars."
494
00:38:37,164 --> 00:38:41,803
Well, this is Hollywood and Western.
This is the place.
495
00:38:42,883 --> 00:38:45,464
Look over there, man. Great!
496
00:38:45,584 --> 00:38:49,295
There used to be...cement benches out front
497
00:38:50,127 --> 00:38:55,525
and all the insane people would sit there.
And all the people would sit there.
498
00:38:55,625 --> 00:38:59,459
The street people, they'd talk to
each other, all day long.
499
00:38:59,908 --> 00:39:03,786
Here at this corner.
-Yeah, it's still all right.
500
00:39:03,906 --> 00:39:04,874
Got it?
501
00:39:07,058 --> 00:39:09,116
This is where the people are.
502
00:39:10,582 --> 00:39:14,350
There's the old sex shop.
Keeps changing hands.
503
00:39:15,711 --> 00:39:17,469
They used to call this...
504
00:39:17,589 --> 00:39:21,487
The Big, The Big Twenty, but
they changed the name now
505
00:39:21,931 --> 00:39:23,450
to The Rail.
506
00:39:23,570 --> 00:39:27,139
Used to have women across the street
would sit in the windows.
507
00:39:27,259 --> 00:39:29,147
You'd just say: "I want you."
508
00:39:29,267 --> 00:39:31,981
There's, there's a woman who's not a hooker.
509
00:39:34,324 --> 00:39:36,033
There's a dope dealer.
510
00:39:37,520 --> 00:39:40,512
That's a place I never got a loan,
like I told you.
511
00:39:40,632 --> 00:39:43,488
Oh, I been in this liquor store,
many a time.
512
00:39:45,356 --> 00:39:46,876
Many a time!
513
00:39:47,787 --> 00:39:49,212
Great place.
514
00:39:51,238 --> 00:39:53,075
There's one of my men.
515
00:39:53,518 --> 00:39:55,164
Bank of America.
516
00:39:56,075 --> 00:39:57,246
All right!
517
00:39:59,368 --> 00:40:04,101
Shit! There's a back of, look at that
hotel, man. La Paula Apartment.
518
00:40:04,940 --> 00:40:05,954
Beautiful.
519
00:40:10,110 --> 00:40:12,880
That's all there is. That's all.
520
00:40:17,816 --> 00:40:21,912
Oh, here's a strange place. You know,
wanna get stuff about the devil?
521
00:40:22,032 --> 00:40:23,310
You go in there.
522
00:40:23,704 --> 00:40:28,617
You can get all kinds of powder, if you
know, you mail them to people and they die.
523
00:40:29,187 --> 00:40:33,461
For 15 cents, you know, something
like that, you can kill somebody.
524
00:40:34,832 --> 00:40:35,830
It's nice.
525
00:40:38,299 --> 00:40:41,640
Okay, this is the end of your territory?
-This is the end!
526
00:40:42,004 --> 00:40:45,170
They won't let me beyond.
They didn't let me beyond.
527
00:40:51,432 --> 00:40:54,962
Where did I get all those stories
out of those few blocks?
528
00:40:56,110 --> 00:40:58,089
Well, they came to see me.
529
00:40:58,675 --> 00:41:00,511
The girls, you know.
530
00:41:01,002 --> 00:41:04,691
The most vicious women in the world
knocked on my door.
531
00:41:06,440 --> 00:41:09,211
They knew how to find a softy, yeah.
532
00:41:12,124 --> 00:41:13,026
Well...
533
00:41:13,525 --> 00:41:15,567
now I'm all straightened out.
534
00:41:16,216 --> 00:41:17,309
Feel great.
535
00:41:21,639 --> 00:41:26,024
Oh, I miss a little bit of that dirty
action now and then. I gotta admit it.
536
00:41:29,194 --> 00:41:33,484
Teaches you where humanity is, you
never want to forget that, you know.
537
00:41:34,260 --> 00:41:36,698
You never quite want to forget
538
00:41:37,732 --> 00:41:41,246
who they are, where they come from
and how they act.
539
00:41:41,366 --> 00:41:44,152
You don't want to get too
far away from that.
540
00:41:44,832 --> 00:41:49,313
This bar used to be called The Playwright
-Yeah -Did you go there?
541
00:41:50,176 --> 00:41:55,590
Not too often, just went there 4 or 5 times
till they kicked me out. Gave me the 86.
542
00:41:56,291 --> 00:41:58,159
I just went in drunk, I said:
543
00:41:58,279 --> 00:42:01,531
"This place is called The Playwright?
Where the hell are the playwrights?"
544
00:42:01,651 --> 00:42:05,140
"The bartender's not a playwright.
That guy's not a playwright."
545
00:42:05,260 --> 00:42:06,633
They took offence.
546
00:42:08,580 --> 00:42:13,386
So this is the famous corner?
-Yeah, and there's The Pioneer.
547
00:42:14,003 --> 00:42:15,666
It's open all night.
548
00:42:16,793 --> 00:42:19,944
Lots of hookers go up there,
you know, late at night.
549
00:42:20,064 --> 00:42:22,698
Guys. Thieves. Murderers.
550
00:42:22,988 --> 00:42:25,109
Get a late snack, get a...
551
00:42:25,229 --> 00:42:28,371
3:30am, get a little bite of something.
552
00:42:28,491 --> 00:42:31,134
After they've rolled somebody, you know.
553
00:42:31,254 --> 00:42:35,091
It's quite chummy and warm there,
there are good feelings there.
554
00:42:37,292 --> 00:42:38,432
So, umm...
555
00:42:38,552 --> 00:42:40,973
there go a couple girls there.
556
00:42:41,906 --> 00:42:44,043
Did you get 'em? Good.
557
00:42:44,518 --> 00:42:46,909
Hey man, what's happenin'.
558
00:42:48,628 --> 00:42:53,045
So, umm... -We're gonna go down
Western. -All right.
559
00:43:00,414 --> 00:43:03,248
Oh yeah, there's a motel here
560
00:43:03,818 --> 00:43:07,606
I stayed in here after Linda King
ran me out one night
561
00:43:07,706 --> 00:43:10,661
she came back, got me and I
ended up living with her again.
562
00:43:10,761 --> 00:43:12,925
Terrible mistake.
563
00:43:13,025 --> 00:43:16,428
This motel, a great place, they
have a swimming pool.
564
00:43:17,244 --> 00:43:18,447
Used to have.
565
00:43:18,567 --> 00:43:19,983
There it is. -Yes.
566
00:43:20,103 --> 00:43:24,083
I had a terrible hangover and two
big fat guys were jumping in it and
567
00:43:24,203 --> 00:43:26,505
they must've weighed 400lbs a piece.
568
00:43:26,909 --> 00:43:30,186
I start laughing at 'em and
they came up to get me.
569
00:43:30,306 --> 00:43:33,273
I bolted the door and they're
beating on the goddamn door
570
00:43:33,393 --> 00:43:35,835
There was another liquor store there
571
00:43:36,642 --> 00:43:40,125
Used to...and there's some of my friends.
572
00:43:40,817 --> 00:43:42,701
That about covers it.
573
00:43:44,262 --> 00:43:47,001
So you see, you don't have
to come to Hollywood now
574
00:43:47,121 --> 00:43:49,581
I've told you all about
Holywood and Western.
575
00:43:49,701 --> 00:43:52,320
You got it, relax, forget it.
576
00:43:52,440 --> 00:43:53,824
Go to sleep.
577
00:44:29,018 --> 00:44:30,807
What do you think of then...
578
00:44:31,876 --> 00:44:33,823
the drugs (inadudible)?
579
00:44:34,741 --> 00:44:37,322
Ahh, my favorite subject.
580
00:44:40,092 --> 00:44:41,881
I think a man can
581
00:44:42,254 --> 00:44:43,900
keep on drinking
582
00:44:44,153 --> 00:44:45,547
for centuries.
583
00:44:45,667 --> 00:44:47,130
He'll never die.
584
00:44:50,138 --> 00:44:52,528
Especially wine and beer.
585
00:44:54,119 --> 00:44:55,972
But I've met too many...
586
00:44:57,333 --> 00:45:01,212
young people, especially when
I was working for Open City
587
00:45:02,677 --> 00:45:04,466
just smoking marijuana
588
00:45:07,347 --> 00:45:11,266
within a two year period who
were intelligent at first
589
00:45:11,386 --> 00:45:15,235
and after two years of marijuana
they just came around like:
590
00:45:16,063 --> 00:45:20,021
"Hey! Hey! How you doing?"
591
00:45:24,921 --> 00:45:27,771
I'm gonna be one of the first to say...
592
00:45:29,821 --> 00:45:33,557
that marijuana is very,
ultimately, destructive.
593
00:45:35,061 --> 00:45:38,798
And then finally, there'll be
government studies to prove
594
00:45:40,009 --> 00:45:44,521
that it's totally harmful. Much
more harmful that's ever been
595
00:45:45,059 --> 00:45:46,911
exposed to have been.
596
00:45:47,933 --> 00:45:50,608
Cause I've seen it through people.
597
00:45:50,728 --> 00:45:52,128
they just end up:
598
00:45:52,587 --> 00:45:55,564
"Hey...hey..."
599
00:45:55,684 --> 00:45:59,957
I don't like that. I like drunkards,
man, because drunkards
600
00:46:00,801 --> 00:46:05,820
they come out of it, they're sick and they
spring back, they spring back and forth.
601
00:46:07,279 --> 00:46:10,145
But even the light drug freaks,
they're just...
602
00:46:10,921 --> 00:46:13,928
"Okay. Okay." It's like...
603
00:46:15,353 --> 00:46:19,177
all mind circulation, all spirit
has been cut off.
604
00:46:20,348 --> 00:46:22,359
I've met good old alcoholics
605
00:46:22,479 --> 00:46:26,459
you know, this old guy Jim...
I don't know if he's in...
606
00:46:26,579 --> 00:46:30,520
Yeah. He's in port. He's a great old
guy, got drunk every night
607
00:46:30,640 --> 00:46:33,761
but his face was human, you know,
he'd talk to you, he'd say:
608
00:46:33,881 --> 00:46:36,979
"Well, Hank..." He'd talk a
definite language
609
00:46:37,099 --> 00:46:38,982
these other, you know these kids
610
00:46:41,515 --> 00:46:42,671
There's um...
611
00:46:42,791 --> 00:46:46,027
so...yeah. I'm anti-drugs. Put me down.
612
00:46:46,797 --> 00:46:48,364
It's a very,
613
00:46:49,298 --> 00:46:51,150
very lousy way to go.
614
00:46:54,111 --> 00:46:56,216
Just, out of what I've seen.
615
00:46:56,873 --> 00:46:57,982
I can't call it.
616
00:46:58,868 --> 00:47:00,166
Be an alcoholic.
617
00:47:00,286 --> 00:47:02,763
If you gotta be anything, be an alcoholic.
618
00:47:03,285 --> 00:47:05,541
What a...what can you dream?
619
00:47:06,091 --> 00:47:07,421
Alcoholism...
620
00:47:08,133 --> 00:47:09,042
well...
621
00:47:09,162 --> 00:47:12,914
or drunkness. If I hadn't been a drunkard
622
00:47:15,587 --> 00:47:18,459
I probably would have
commited suicide long ago.
623
00:47:18,579 --> 00:47:21,729
You know, working the factories,
the eight hour job.
624
00:47:21,849 --> 00:47:23,645
The slums. The streets.
625
00:47:24,492 --> 00:47:25,268
Okay
626
00:47:25,648 --> 00:47:28,766
you work a god damn lousy job, you know.
627
00:47:29,906 --> 00:47:32,233
You come home at night, you're tired.
628
00:47:32,701 --> 00:47:35,012
What are you gonna do, go to a movie?
629
00:47:35,329 --> 00:47:37,007
Turn on your radio
630
00:47:37,127 --> 00:47:39,334
in a three dollar a week room?
631
00:47:40,937 --> 00:47:46,720
Or, are you gonna rest up and wait for
the job the next day, for $1.75 an hour?
632
00:47:47,238 --> 00:47:51,196
Hell no! You're gonna get a bottle
of whiskey and drink it.
633
00:47:51,889 --> 00:47:55,103
And go down to a bar and
maybe get in a fist fight.
634
00:47:56,116 --> 00:47:58,981
And meet some bitch, something's going on.
635
00:47:59,101 --> 00:48:03,692
Then you go to work the next day, and
do your simple little things, right?
636
00:48:03,997 --> 00:48:06,229
But you're not, gonna just...
637
00:48:07,507 --> 00:48:12,019
do your 8 hour job and go back to
your place in a bicycle factory.
638
00:48:12,439 --> 00:48:14,671
This guy told me, I was
working in a, he said:
639
00:48:14,791 --> 00:48:17,267
"You can have a job here
all you like, if you want."
640
00:48:17,387 --> 00:48:18,154
Great!
641
00:48:19,297 --> 00:48:22,659
Wow! I mean alcohol...
642
00:48:23,540 --> 00:48:28,875
gives you the release of the dream
without the deadness of ahh...drugs.
643
00:48:28,995 --> 00:48:32,847
You know, you can come back down.
You have your hangover to face.
644
00:48:33,780 --> 00:48:37,849
That's the tough part. You get over it,
you do your job. You come back.
645
00:48:37,949 --> 00:48:39,369
You drink again.
646
00:48:40,929 --> 00:48:43,794
I'm all for alcohol, I'll tell ya.
647
00:48:44,744 --> 00:48:46,122
It's the thing.
648
00:49:16,099 --> 00:49:22,123
I loved murder. I loved anybody who tried
to murder me cause I had a suicide complex.
649
00:49:24,027 --> 00:49:28,796
So they told me anybody who walked in
there who wasn't known would be murdered.
650
00:49:29,853 --> 00:49:33,383
So, of course, any suicide
would walk in there.
651
00:49:34,290 --> 00:49:36,253
So, I walked in and uhh...
652
00:49:38,699 --> 00:49:40,852
they didn't fulfill their promise.
653
00:49:46,418 --> 00:49:50,439
Because you talked to the wife of a
gangster, I think I remember.
654
00:49:50,559 --> 00:49:55,537
Said: "You talk to here, you're dead, man"
So, I went right up and talked to her.
655
00:49:55,657 --> 00:49:56,978
She was a good looker.
656
00:49:57,857 --> 00:50:00,073
And, you know, like any other woman
657
00:50:00,722 --> 00:50:06,484
she played right along with me. Says: "Hi,
how ya doing?" Shook her head. I said:
658
00:50:06,604 --> 00:50:11,511
"I'm doin' all right, baby." Well, I
wasn't, had about $13 in my wallet.
659
00:50:14,424 --> 00:50:15,643
So, uh...
660
00:50:17,741 --> 00:50:19,198
some guy came up.
661
00:50:19,451 --> 00:50:24,422
Well, there were two big, you
know how these Italians look.
662
00:50:25,032 --> 00:50:26,916
And they're both glaring at me,
663
00:50:27,036 --> 00:50:29,971
but you know, when death is there,
death looks like anything...
664
00:50:30,091 --> 00:50:34,056
Death can look like a milk bottle
or a milk carton or, or a...
665
00:50:34,615 --> 00:50:39,839
death can take any form. Human, the
human form doesn't even matter.
666
00:50:40,156 --> 00:50:41,517
This guy came down...
667
00:50:41,637 --> 00:50:44,319
You know when a tough guy tries to
be tough and you're ready for death
668
00:50:44,419 --> 00:50:47,149
it doesn't matter. He came down.
He said: "Hey buddy"
669
00:50:47,249 --> 00:50:49,714
Oh, she went to take a leak,
that's what happened.
670
00:50:50,394 --> 00:50:54,962
You have to go down this long
stairway down. I found out later.
671
00:50:55,062 --> 00:50:58,852
"I'll be back. I have to go to the ladies
room to powder my..."
672
00:50:58,952 --> 00:51:00,593
I don't know if she said that.
673
00:51:01,215 --> 00:51:03,384
I said: "Okay, baby. I'll be here."
674
00:51:04,833 --> 00:51:08,237
Meanwhile she said: "You know
what my favorite song is?"
675
00:51:08,728 --> 00:51:11,482
"Her Tears Flowed Like Wine."
676
00:51:11,776 --> 00:51:14,071
So, I kept going to the jukebox
677
00:51:14,171 --> 00:51:18,345
and I went, must've been a nickel or a
dime in those days. I think it was a nickel.
678
00:51:18,630 --> 00:51:21,686
I kept pumping nickels into the damn thing.
679
00:51:22,376 --> 00:51:26,729
So all night long was "Her Tears
Flowed Like Wine".
680
00:51:26,829 --> 00:51:31,036
And I love it, I like that song myself.
So it got me all hyped up.
681
00:51:34,194 --> 00:51:36,506
So some-while she was down there
682
00:51:37,598 --> 00:51:40,590
this big moose came up. He said:
683
00:51:41,691 --> 00:51:45,253
"Hey, man." I said: "Yeah..." He said:
684
00:51:45,870 --> 00:51:47,200
"You know..."
685
00:51:47,738 --> 00:51:52,270
"You know what you're doing?' I said:
"Yeah, I don't know. Yeah..." He said:
686
00:51:52,370 --> 00:51:55,927
"You're messin' with the boss' girlfriend."
687
00:51:56,027 --> 00:51:59,106
I said: "Yeeeaaahhhh?"
688
00:51:59,206 --> 00:52:02,304
He said: "You know what that means?"
689
00:52:04,045 --> 00:52:09,713
He said: "You know what that means, man.
Lay off and get your ass outta here now!"
690
00:52:10,433 --> 00:52:12,950
"Yeeeaaahhhh?
691
00:52:13,050 --> 00:52:14,803
I was a nut, you know.
692
00:52:15,946 --> 00:52:20,336
So, he walked down, they both looked at
each other and she came up. And I said:
693
00:52:20,436 --> 00:52:25,956
"Put some more money in the juke, baby.
Her Tears Flowed Like Wine." We're thinking
694
00:52:26,056 --> 00:52:29,923
Got my arm around her, "Her Tears Flowed
Like Wine", we're going like this.
695
00:52:30,023 --> 00:52:34,229
These two guys are looking-the boss is
out of town somewhere evidently.
696
00:52:34,329 --> 00:52:37,846
And this is a tough, Philadelphia joint.
697
00:52:40,380 --> 00:52:43,958
I'm still drinking. So, finally
I gotta take a piss.
698
00:52:45,429 --> 00:52:49,755
So, I walked down...and I go down
the stairway and I saw the...
699
00:52:49,855 --> 00:52:54,482
Finally I hear these two guys, each
step I take, they're kinda in rhythm.
700
00:52:54,582 --> 00:52:59,294
you know, I hear these two big guys,
at the bar, they're behind me, like
701
00:52:59,584 --> 00:53:05,632
they're like two big shadows, each time
I could take a step they come boom, boom
702
00:53:06,526 --> 00:53:09,123
But you know, I feel no fear.
703
00:53:09,408 --> 00:53:10,943
No fear at all.
704
00:53:12,194 --> 00:53:15,614
And I go down, and they're
both standing behind me.
705
00:53:16,809 --> 00:53:20,751
And they're waiting.
I unzip and I start pissing
706
00:53:21,131 --> 00:53:26,217
They're both standing and all of a sudden
I feel this arm raising. I don't even move
707
00:53:26,317 --> 00:53:30,786
I feel it coming down. I stand there.
It goes...aaagh!
708
00:53:34,003 --> 00:53:36,678
I finish zipping, I piss up.
709
00:53:36,778 --> 00:53:38,689
I finish pissing, I zip up.
710
00:53:39,100 --> 00:53:42,821
I piss up and I finish zipping.
Okay, either way.
711
00:53:43,525 --> 00:53:46,992
So, I turn around and they both look at me.
712
00:53:47,847 --> 00:53:49,810
And one of 'em says to the other:
713
00:53:50,333 --> 00:53:52,882
That's us...oh no, wait, I say:
714
00:53:52,982 --> 00:53:56,119
"Pardon me gentlemen. I want
to get through here."
715
00:53:56,990 --> 00:53:59,982
And I start going up the stairway
and the other guy says:
716
00:54:00,082 --> 00:54:03,212
"That sonofabitch is crazy!
You can't kill him."
717
00:54:04,233 --> 00:54:07,653
So, I went upstairs again,
I said: "Bartender..."
718
00:54:07,938 --> 00:54:09,347
"two more drinks."
719
00:54:09,632 --> 00:54:11,836
The jukebox has stopped playing
720
00:54:11,936 --> 00:54:17,251
I went up and put in some more coins and
it was: "My tears flowed like wine".
721
00:54:18,474 --> 00:54:21,244
And the bartender didn't wanna
come up. I said:
722
00:54:21,697 --> 00:54:28,330
"Hey man I told you, I wanted some more to
drink for me and my lady. Now, come here!"
723
00:54:29,961 --> 00:54:35,035
And he very hesitantly came up, he finally
poured me-looked at the other two guys.
724
00:54:35,332 --> 00:54:37,548
I was sitting there all night.
725
00:54:38,581 --> 00:54:41,051
And finally the night went on.
726
00:54:41,151 --> 00:54:42,706
The bar closed
727
00:54:43,086 --> 00:54:46,268
and I noticed this bar was different
from the other bars.
728
00:54:46,368 --> 00:54:48,120
Because when the front door closed
729
00:54:48,220 --> 00:54:52,736
all the people stayed inside and they kept
pouring drinks, except the lights went out.
730
00:54:54,065 --> 00:54:58,276
And so, I don't, I'm talking but
I really wasn't interested in her.
731
00:54:58,376 --> 00:55:00,809
I was just trying to prove
732
00:55:01,482 --> 00:55:03,319
that I was not afraid.
733
00:55:04,284 --> 00:55:08,258
And I guess that's a weakness,
when you try to prove you're not afraid.
734
00:55:08,662 --> 00:55:12,192
But I still had the weakness,
but I didn't even want to fuck her.
735
00:55:12,292 --> 00:55:16,245
She, I don't know, she looked like.
I wasn't even interested in her.
736
00:55:16,910 --> 00:55:20,013
It was just the challenge that
somebody else wanted.
737
00:55:20,113 --> 00:55:24,169
I was supposed to pretend to want,
that they were supposed to want.
738
00:55:25,087 --> 00:55:29,789
And I think they finally knew that I
kept dragging, drinking. Then finally
739
00:55:30,684 --> 00:55:34,563
about...3:30am, the bar opened.
740
00:55:35,057 --> 00:55:37,637
We all went outside, we're singing songs.
741
00:55:37,737 --> 00:55:42,276
We got our arms around each other. The
bitch is gone somewhere, I don't even care.
742
00:55:42,376 --> 00:55:44,339
And finally a guy says: "Hey,"
743
00:55:44,624 --> 00:55:46,745
"Hank." They learned my name. He says:
744
00:55:47,371 --> 00:55:50,094
" Man, we really love you.
You got the guts."
745
00:55:50,194 --> 00:55:53,751
"You're a madman. You're insane.
You got the courage."
746
00:55:54,083 --> 00:55:58,373
"You're beautiful. You know what
we want?" I said: "What?"
747
00:55:59,776 --> 00:56:02,277
"We want you to join our gang."
748
00:56:02,377 --> 00:56:07,533
"We're the toughest gang in Philadelphia.
We want you man, you've got what we need."
749
00:56:08,349 --> 00:56:12,987
I said: "Shit! I don't fuck with
that kind of shit, you guys."
750
00:56:13,336 --> 00:56:14,887
"I gotta go away."
751
00:56:15,560 --> 00:56:17,571
"It was nice being with you."
752
00:56:18,267 --> 00:56:22,510
"Goodnight, babies." And I just walked
off all by myself. I had to...
753
00:56:22,610 --> 00:56:26,635
well, I shoulda gone this way, but
see they were all standing here.
754
00:56:26,735 --> 00:56:30,941
I had to circle the whole block, go
back to my rooming house room.
755
00:56:31,041 --> 00:56:35,073
Then I, no. What I did,
I was smarter than that.
756
00:56:35,825 --> 00:56:38,215
While I was trying to circle this way
757
00:56:38,959 --> 00:56:42,727
a police car came by, and I said: "Hey!"
758
00:56:45,189 --> 00:56:48,609
"I been blackjacked. Somebody
tried to take my money."
759
00:56:48,709 --> 00:56:51,886
I was in need of medical attention.
I was bleeding like mad.
760
00:56:52,250 --> 00:56:54,229
So they took me to a hospital
761
00:56:54,918 --> 00:56:56,739
The cops?
-Yeah, yeah.
762
00:56:57,039 --> 00:56:59,541
So they said: "Who robbed you?"
And I said:
763
00:56:59,641 --> 00:57:02,628
"Well, officers. You're
not gonna believe this."
764
00:57:03,697 --> 00:57:07,449
"But it was two sailors who
jumped me from behind."
765
00:57:07,702 --> 00:57:11,217
"They tried to take my money and I
fought 'em. I fought 'em off."
766
00:57:12,491 --> 00:57:15,009
"You really?" And I said: "Yeah..."
767
00:57:15,109 --> 00:57:18,381
So, I was sitting there and they're,
everybody's on my side. They said:
768
00:57:18,481 --> 00:57:22,568
"Well, it could be two sailors."
Everybody was very sympathetic toward me.
769
00:57:22,668 --> 00:57:25,228
But the nurse who was playing with my head
770
00:57:26,336 --> 00:57:28,426
she had beautiful legs.
771
00:57:28,526 --> 00:57:33,295
And she had them crossed. All of a sudden
drunkeness got across from me, I went:
772
00:57:33,881 --> 00:57:38,061
"Oh, you bitch!" And I started
playing with her fucking knee.
773
00:57:38,161 --> 00:57:41,781
And the cop said: "Oh oh! This
guy's no fucking good."
774
00:57:41,881 --> 00:57:44,575
And they just stood up and they
said: "Get him out of here!"
775
00:57:44,675 --> 00:57:48,106
And the doctor said: "Okay. Okay, we'll
let him go. We'll get him out." So they
776
00:57:48,206 --> 00:57:49,467
pushed me out of there.
777
00:57:49,567 --> 00:57:53,402
But I did get my stitches in my
head which are still here.
778
00:57:53,502 --> 00:57:56,220
Feel that bump?
-I know. I know.
779
00:57:56,885 --> 00:58:00,225
So that's, that's one of
those bar stories, eh?
780
00:58:01,373 --> 00:58:02,877
Ahh, God...
781
00:58:05,252 --> 00:58:06,993
And that whole gang
782
00:58:07,658 --> 00:58:12,242
I was sitting in the other bar about,
three days later and I said:
783
00:58:12,649 --> 00:58:15,499
"You hear what ha-what helped, what, what
784
00:58:15,788 --> 00:58:17,719
happened up at uh...
785
00:58:18,067 --> 00:58:19,587
We'll call it Murphy's.
786
00:58:20,308 --> 00:58:23,158
"The cops came in.
I knocked over some tables."
787
00:58:23,258 --> 00:58:26,260
"Two guys shot some guns.
One guy got killed."
788
00:58:26,577 --> 00:58:28,113
"They all got locked up."
789
00:58:29,008 --> 00:58:32,158
So, thank God I didn't join that gang.
790
00:58:32,258 --> 00:58:35,356
Just now, we're living here,
we have our little garden.
791
00:58:35,456 --> 00:58:38,981
Our three kitties, right? See?
792
00:58:39,211 --> 00:58:42,409
I do all the right things, don't I baby?
793
00:58:42,509 --> 00:58:45,654
Part of the time.
-Huh? Shit.
794
00:59:15,426 --> 00:59:17,801
Oh, I told you I'm not a guru.
795
00:59:18,133 --> 00:59:19,456
I'm not a leader.
796
00:59:19,556 --> 00:59:23,937
I drink my wine, I play the horses and
I type poems. That's all there is you see.
797
00:59:24,037 --> 00:59:26,897
I have nothing to say about anything.
798
00:59:28,489 --> 00:59:32,541
There's nothing to say.
The less I say the better I feel.
799
00:59:33,064 --> 00:59:35,913
You ever tried keeping quiet all day long?
800
00:59:36,013 --> 00:59:37,489
The moment you awake
801
00:59:37,589 --> 00:59:40,022
till you go to sleep. And better yet
802
00:59:40,122 --> 00:59:43,141
just sleep all day long and forget the day.
803
00:59:43,378 --> 00:59:45,895
Get up the next day, you'll feel great.
804
00:59:47,708 --> 00:59:50,400
People do too much, they say too much.
805
00:59:50,500 --> 00:59:54,326
There, I'm giving directions but you
know what I mean. -Yeah, I do.
806
00:59:54,426 --> 00:59:55,395
Forget it.
807
01:00:03,184 --> 01:00:04,656
That's my problem.
808
01:00:05,915 --> 01:00:07,973
I'm usually living with a woman.
809
01:00:08,844 --> 01:00:12,358
I try not to, but somehow
I find myself with...
810
01:00:12,881 --> 01:00:13,641
one.
811
01:00:15,311 --> 01:00:16,673
When I'm alone
812
01:00:17,417 --> 01:00:21,675
I'm handling my own propositions.
I always, or usually...
813
01:00:21,775 --> 01:00:23,053
when I'm alone.
814
01:00:23,153 --> 01:00:27,304
I have periods where, you know, when
I feel a little weak or depressed.
815
01:00:28,000 --> 01:00:31,182
Fuck it! The Weaties aren't
going down right.
816
01:00:31,856 --> 01:00:35,339
I just go to bed for three
days and four nights
817
01:00:35,439 --> 01:00:39,804
pull down all the shades and just
go to bed. Get up. Shit. Piss.
818
01:00:39,904 --> 01:00:42,732
Drink a beer down and go back to bed.
819
01:00:43,833 --> 01:00:49,960
I come out of that completely re-enlightened
for 2 or 3 months. I get power from that.
820
01:00:51,915 --> 01:00:53,736
I think someday...
821
01:00:54,432 --> 01:00:57,915
they'll say this psychotic guy
knew something that...
822
01:00:58,248 --> 01:01:02,522
you know in days ahead and medicine,
and how they figure these things out.
823
01:01:02,784 --> 01:01:06,314
Everybody should go to bed now
and then, when they're down low
824
01:01:06,414 --> 01:01:08,594
and give it up for three or four days.
825
01:01:08,847 --> 01:01:10,288
Then they'll come back
826
01:01:10,724 --> 01:01:12,259
good for a while.
827
01:01:12,877 --> 01:01:18,417
But we're so obsessed with, we have to
get up and do it and go back to sleep.
828
01:01:19,708 --> 01:01:20,610
In fact
829
01:01:21,655 --> 01:01:26,721
there's a woman I'm living with now,
get's around 12:30, 1pm, sh-I say:
830
01:01:26,821 --> 01:01:29,064
"I'm sleepy. I want to go to sleep."
She says:
831
01:01:29,164 --> 01:01:32,413
"What? You want to go to sleep,
it's only 1pm!"
832
01:01:32,809 --> 01:01:37,178
We're not even drinking, you know. Hell,
there's nothing else to do but sleep.
833
01:01:40,226 --> 01:01:43,202
People are nailed to the processes.
834
01:01:43,946 --> 01:01:48,632
Up. Down. Do something. Get up,
do something, go to sleep. Get up.
835
01:01:49,147 --> 01:01:51,664
They can't get out of that circle.
836
01:01:53,659 --> 01:01:57,364
You'll see, someday they'll say:
"Bukowski knew."
837
01:01:57,721 --> 01:02:01,299
Lay down for 3 or 4 days till
you get your juices back
838
01:02:01,399 --> 01:02:03,642
then get up, look around and do it.
839
01:02:04,560 --> 01:02:07,727
But who the hell can do it
cause you need a dollar.
840
01:02:09,255 --> 01:02:13,149
That's all. That's a long speech,
isn't it? But it means something.
841
01:02:16,292 --> 01:02:17,369
It's always
842
01:02:17,891 --> 01:02:20,836
trying to avoid being
swallowed by machinery.
843
01:02:21,627 --> 01:02:24,750
Yeah, basically all was, every inch of
844
01:02:24,850 --> 01:02:28,707
even when you walk in, you meet a waitress,
you know, she walks up and says:
845
01:02:28,807 --> 01:02:30,370
"You wanna cup of coffee?"
846
01:02:30,976 --> 01:02:32,432
Right there it starts
847
01:02:32,891 --> 01:02:35,915
cause you don't even know if you
want a cup of coffee cause she...
848
01:02:36,015 --> 01:02:39,517
Either she's up too fast or
she's around too long.
849
01:02:40,229 --> 01:02:43,491
It's always questions and answers
and they have to fit.
850
01:02:45,209 --> 01:02:47,346
We're never allowed to...
851
01:02:49,721 --> 01:02:50,671
you know?
852
01:02:54,526 --> 01:02:56,116
That's why...
853
01:02:56,489 --> 01:03:00,209
we all enjoy seeing madmen,
in movies or something.
854
01:03:00,922 --> 01:03:02,568
We admire them
855
01:03:03,285 --> 01:03:07,389
because they're doing exactly what
they want to do. It might be...
856
01:03:07,623 --> 01:03:12,673
cutting heads off of little girls and putting
them all in the bathtub or something
857
01:03:12,977 --> 01:03:15,194
We admire that creature
858
01:03:15,519 --> 01:03:20,046
because it's aligned to do exactly
what it wants to do.
859
01:03:22,631 --> 01:03:26,292
And the closer you get to exactly
what you want to do
860
01:03:27,064 --> 01:03:30,341
the better you are as a human creature.
861
01:03:30,626 --> 01:03:32,494
Or as any kind of thing.
862
01:03:34,217 --> 01:03:35,974
This wood, anything.
863
01:03:36,988 --> 01:03:40,011
It's waiting to get burned.
Let's forget that.
864
01:03:40,834 --> 01:03:42,418
But, you know my point
865
01:03:42,822 --> 01:03:45,893
So, if you get...
-People are pointless!
866
01:04:13,084 --> 01:04:14,113
Shit.
867
01:04:16,361 --> 01:04:17,992
One more poem.
868
01:04:20,342 --> 01:04:21,561
What is it?
869
01:04:28,275 --> 01:04:30,380
Oh...that's not any good.
870
01:04:38,795 --> 01:04:40,853
The Tragedy of the Leaves.
871
01:04:42,682 --> 01:04:46,703
I awakened to dryness
and the ferns were dead,
872
01:04:47,779 --> 01:04:50,756
the potted plants yellow as corn;
873
01:04:52,268 --> 01:04:57,365
my woman was gone
and the empty bottles like bled corpses
874
01:04:58,704 --> 01:05:01,664
surrounded me with their uselessness;
875
01:05:03,215 --> 01:05:05,923
the sun was still good, though,
876
01:05:06,508 --> 01:05:11,974
and my landlady's note crackled in fine
and undemanding yellowness;
877
01:05:13,531 --> 01:05:17,093
what was needed now
was a good comedian,
878
01:05:17,979 --> 01:05:19,808
ancient style
879
01:05:20,331 --> 01:05:24,320
a jester with jokes upon absurd pain;
880
01:05:25,507 --> 01:05:28,626
pain is absurd
because it exists,
881
01:05:29,363 --> 01:05:30,819
nothing more;
882
01:05:32,307 --> 01:05:35,727
I shaved carefully with an old razor
883
01:05:36,574 --> 01:05:38,933
the man who had once been young
884
01:05:40,516 --> 01:05:42,891
and said to have genius;
885
01:05:44,047 --> 01:05:46,722
but that's the tragedy of the leaves,
886
01:05:47,506 --> 01:05:50,229
the dead ferns, the dead plants;
887
01:05:51,432 --> 01:05:53,965
I walked into a dark hall
888
01:05:54,440 --> 01:05:56,356
where the landlady stood
889
01:05:57,171 --> 01:05:59,419
execrating and final,
890
01:06:00,385 --> 01:06:02,221
sending me to hell,
891
01:06:03,045 --> 01:06:06,005
waving her fat, sweaty arms
892
01:06:06,433 --> 01:06:07,874
and screaming
893
01:06:08,365 --> 01:06:10,312
screaming for the rent
894
01:06:11,056 --> 01:06:13,779
because the world has failed us
both
895
01:06:16,027 --> 01:06:18,924
Good poem, even if it's an oldie.
896
01:06:20,444 --> 01:06:22,724
But I write much better shit now.
897
01:06:23,721 --> 01:06:24,908
What's the difference?
898
01:06:25,518 --> 01:06:30,173
The difference is, there is no differnce.
I write the same thing, over and over.
899
01:06:31,487 --> 01:06:33,450
The difference is...
900
01:06:34,083 --> 01:06:35,001
area.
901
01:06:37,338 --> 01:06:39,586
But, you know the terror
902
01:06:39,686 --> 01:06:41,375
is always there.
903
01:06:44,090 --> 01:06:46,211
The ugliness is always there.
904
01:06:47,937 --> 01:06:49,362
There's no way out.
905
01:06:49,884 --> 01:06:54,238
You can get a beautiful woman living
with you and she can be more ugly
906
01:06:56,605 --> 01:07:00,594
than putting your quarter into a newspaper
stand and lifting it up.
907
01:07:00,694 --> 01:07:03,127
Taking out the next days news.
908
01:07:04,925 --> 01:07:06,888
There's never any escape
909
01:07:08,787 --> 01:07:10,513
from anything at all.
910
01:07:10,613 --> 01:07:13,157
You're always going to be burnt.
911
01:07:16,110 --> 01:07:18,579
There is never any pleasantness,
912
01:07:19,149 --> 01:07:20,986
easiness anywhere.
913
01:07:21,548 --> 01:07:24,239
You'll be burnt down to the grave.
914
01:07:26,107 --> 01:07:30,461
No matter how much you know, no matter
how much you feel you're gonna be burnt,
915
01:07:30,738 --> 01:07:32,733
burnt...burnt...burnt.
916
01:07:33,461 --> 01:07:35,773
Till the last minute you breathe.
917
01:07:36,263 --> 01:07:40,031
Till you open a cap on a mustard jar,
you're gonna be burnt.
918
01:07:40,894 --> 01:07:44,203
If you open up a can of cat food,
you're gonna be burnt.
919
01:07:44,884 --> 01:07:48,177
Everything is burning.
All you're trying to do...
920
01:07:48,620 --> 01:07:53,045
is walk across a room and drink a
glass of water and take it easy.
921
01:07:53,342 --> 01:07:56,334
There's always things burning,
ripping at you.
922
01:07:58,238 --> 01:07:59,932
It's the whole universe.
923
01:08:00,032 --> 01:08:01,317
It's everything.
924
01:08:02,631 --> 01:08:06,130
Women. Men. Friends. Everything.
925
01:08:06,843 --> 01:08:08,584
Rips and tears...
926
01:08:11,617 --> 01:08:13,390
Rips and tears...
927
01:08:13,490 --> 01:08:15,084
all you wanna do...
928
01:08:15,591 --> 01:08:19,343
The best seems, a good eight hour sleep.
If you can get it.
929
01:08:20,301 --> 01:08:23,578
If you can't, you might
as well get drunk. Hell.
930
01:08:50,507 --> 01:08:53,594
What are we gonna do, you stupid fuck?
931
01:08:55,177 --> 01:08:59,883
Let's go to Paris and burn
the town down. Shit, man.
932
01:09:02,081 --> 01:09:04,693
Oh!
-What, you don't hear anything?
933
01:09:04,793 --> 01:09:07,805
No, we have a...
-The mike disappeared again.
934
01:09:11,129 --> 01:09:15,071
There should be a camera doing
what we're trying to do.
935
01:09:15,171 --> 01:09:17,010
Wait, I can't find it.
936
01:09:20,430 --> 01:09:21,570
Linda.
937
01:09:26,691 --> 01:09:32,137
Oh, I feel something. What? Something's
coming out, something's going down.
938
01:09:32,422 --> 01:09:35,114
Wait, what is it? Is this all right?
939
01:09:35,834 --> 01:09:37,133
Can you hear?
940
01:09:37,813 --> 01:09:39,206
There's a little clip.
941
01:09:41,011 --> 01:09:45,638
Well, Henry Miller's dead. They
gotta find somebody...dying.
942
01:09:47,252 --> 01:09:50,767
Jesus! We had to done this
with Henry in his last days.
943
01:09:51,817 --> 01:09:52,767
Yeah.
944
01:09:53,345 --> 01:09:55,166
He appeared on all the talk shows.
945
01:09:55,266 --> 01:09:58,427
Baby, you're not gonna get,
oh this is just as bad, isn't it?
946
01:09:58,791 --> 01:10:01,498
Next question. Shit.
-No...
947
01:10:08,760 --> 01:10:10,818
Why you don't want to go on a talk show?
948
01:10:13,863 --> 01:10:15,842
Going to a talk show...
949
01:10:17,220 --> 01:10:18,185
Okay.
950
01:10:19,452 --> 01:10:23,536
A man begins typewriting with
a typewriter, generally...
951
01:10:25,048 --> 01:10:28,484
he's got a tiny room somewhere,
and he begins...
952
01:10:29,845 --> 01:10:31,603
telling something
953
01:10:32,418 --> 01:10:36,329
I won't say that it's bothering him,
but it's something must come out.
954
01:10:38,371 --> 01:10:41,141
And it just comes out naturally
955
01:10:41,799 --> 01:10:46,849
like a firecracker exploding.
You put a match to it, it blows up.
956
01:10:48,416 --> 01:10:54,155
And this process goes on a while and it's
a very good process. And all of a sudden
957
01:10:54,610 --> 01:10:58,952
you get a letter in the mail, the royalties
get a little better. And somebody says:
958
01:10:59,499 --> 01:11:04,438
"I'll give $375 to appear on a
talk show for 15 minutes."
959
01:11:05,135 --> 01:11:07,193
Uh, the other guests will be
960
01:11:07,293 --> 01:11:08,855
so-and-so and so-and-so.
961
01:11:09,323 --> 01:11:11,381
And you know what, they bite on it.
962
01:11:13,613 --> 01:11:17,951
How can they have the strength
to begin with, to be original...
963
01:11:18,704 --> 01:11:22,867
and then have the very non-strength
to appear on a talk show
964
01:11:23,342 --> 01:11:25,068
and sit in a chair
965
01:11:26,176 --> 01:11:26,999
and...
966
01:11:27,414 --> 01:11:30,253
say little, unreal things because
967
01:11:30,353 --> 01:11:34,206
they're not gonna say anything real,
sitting with the other people.
968
01:11:36,395 --> 01:11:38,833
Why do they do it? I don't know.
969
01:11:39,855 --> 01:11:42,008
It's like swallowing your own vomit.
970
01:11:44,810 --> 01:11:47,644
I was gonna say, if you ever
catch me on a talk show...
971
01:11:48,586 --> 01:11:49,473
Okay!
972
01:11:50,407 --> 01:11:52,227
You can shoot me. No.
973
01:11:53,383 --> 01:11:56,201
The only talk show I'd go on
would be Dick Cavett
974
01:11:56,301 --> 01:11:58,679
because that's the only guy I respect.
975
01:11:59,407 --> 01:12:03,444
To go on Merv Griffin or,
Johnny Carson, or any of those
976
01:12:03,856 --> 01:12:05,755
is swallowing your own vomit.
977
01:12:06,286 --> 01:12:08,803
I know you would go. Don't look at me.
978
01:12:09,674 --> 01:12:11,764
I am me, you are you.
979
01:12:11,864 --> 01:12:14,740
I'm speaking to my companion.
980
01:12:15,445 --> 01:12:17,471
My female companion.
981
01:12:19,513 --> 01:12:20,622
Of the moment.
982
01:12:28,005 --> 01:12:28,765
No...
983
01:12:29,319 --> 01:12:33,071
it's really bad. I don't see
how an instinctive...
984
01:12:34,839 --> 01:12:40,997
person can have that non-instinct to finally
bite the poison they've been trying to avoid.
985
01:12:42,153 --> 01:12:45,161
I don't know what else to say.
It's just, it's just death.
986
01:13:20,458 --> 01:13:24,543
This whole place is diseased with the
presence of everybody but myself.
987
01:13:25,256 --> 01:13:29,451
Now, Linda's gonna come back. I'm not
gonna be happy when she comes back.
988
01:13:29,942 --> 01:13:31,968
Pretend, I say: "Hi..."
989
01:13:33,322 --> 01:13:36,805
I just don't like people.
I only like myself.
990
01:13:39,386 --> 01:13:41,570
There's something wrong with me.
991
01:13:43,985 --> 01:13:45,584
I don't know what it is
992
01:13:47,135 --> 01:13:49,209
but I'm not gonna try to cure it.
993
01:13:51,814 --> 01:13:55,962
All I want is what I am.
I'm gonna keep pumping up
994
01:13:56,294 --> 01:13:57,466
what I love.
995
01:14:00,498 --> 01:14:03,316
You smell a rose up your asshole
996
01:14:04,250 --> 01:14:09,189
your asshole is dead shit to begin with
it doesn't matter if there are roses up it
997
01:14:09,688 --> 01:14:12,300
or a thorn's dick!
998
01:14:15,893 --> 01:14:21,877
God! You people don't understand any
invented decency of any sort.
999
01:14:23,486 --> 01:14:26,083
You're just so subliminal to,
1000
01:14:26,320 --> 01:14:28,584
sublimal, subliminal...
1001
01:14:29,020 --> 01:14:31,869
to whatever occurrence. You just ride
1002
01:14:31,969 --> 01:14:34,386
tendered little wave of nowhere.
1003
01:14:35,811 --> 01:14:39,452
You have no original courage of definition.
1004
01:14:41,392 --> 01:14:46,331
You're all flat-pancaked mamas
with syrup spilled over your head.
1005
01:14:46,791 --> 01:14:49,308
You have nothing. You have no direction.
1006
01:14:49,408 --> 01:14:50,899
You have no motive.
1007
01:14:52,831 --> 01:14:54,540
All you want is money.
1008
01:14:55,569 --> 01:14:58,435
You don't even would money is. You want it
1009
01:14:59,156 --> 01:15:02,100
but when you get it you wouldn't
even know what to do with it.
1010
01:15:02,200 --> 01:15:04,886
Just smear it up your asshole
and swallow it.
1011
01:15:05,551 --> 01:15:08,227
Out your nostrils of death.
1012
01:15:13,713 --> 01:15:16,277
And I know less than you, either.
1013
01:15:16,377 --> 01:15:18,502
Even though I talk about it
1014
01:15:18,602 --> 01:15:21,557
at least I smooth it out
and dance it around.
1015
01:15:21,921 --> 01:15:23,932
Which makes more
1016
01:15:24,032 --> 01:15:26,133
sense than just letting it sit.
1017
01:15:30,574 --> 01:15:34,706
I'm pretty clever in spite of my dumbness.
Don't worry.
1018
01:15:35,695 --> 01:15:39,289
I handle my asshole. Turd twirl.
1019
01:15:41,252 --> 01:15:44,403
Okay, next question, next poem.
1020
01:15:46,391 --> 01:15:47,309
Shit.
1021
01:15:54,805 --> 01:15:57,924
I'm sure you've all been
at places like this.
1022
01:16:03,196 --> 01:16:05,286
The Man at the Piano.
1023
01:16:07,700 --> 01:16:11,927
The man at the piano plays a song he didn't write
1024
01:16:13,091 --> 01:16:15,687
sings words that aren't his
1025
01:16:16,590 --> 01:16:19,249
upon a piano he doesn't own
1026
01:16:20,896 --> 01:16:24,735
While people at tables eat, drink and talk
1027
01:16:25,812 --> 01:16:29,437
the man at the piano finishes to no applause,
1028
01:16:30,862 --> 01:16:34,313
then begins to play a new song he didn't write
1029
01:16:35,287 --> 01:16:38,422
begins to sing words that aren't his
1030
01:16:38,960 --> 01:16:41,715
upon a piano that isn't his
1031
01:16:43,259 --> 01:16:48,420
and as the people at the tables
continue to eat, drink and talk
1032
01:16:49,734 --> 01:16:52,346
when he finishes to no applause
1033
01:16:53,146 --> 01:16:55,045
he announces over the mike
1034
01:16:55,789 --> 01:16:58,481
that he's going to take a ten minute break.
1035
01:17:00,190 --> 01:17:05,597
He goes back to the men's room,
enters a toilet booth, bolts the door,
1036
01:17:06,083 --> 01:17:07,350
sits down,
1037
01:17:07,730 --> 01:17:10,088
pulls out a joint, lights up.
1038
01:17:11,305 --> 01:17:14,138
he's glad he's not at the piano
1039
01:17:15,278 --> 01:17:19,600
and the people at the tables - eating, drinking and talking
1040
01:17:20,069 --> 01:17:22,776
are glad he isn't there either.
1041
01:17:24,359 --> 01:17:30,359
This is the way it goes almost everywhere
with everybody and everything
1042
01:17:31,016 --> 01:17:34,056
as, fiercefully in the hinterlands,
1043
01:17:34,325 --> 01:17:36,335
the black slum burns.
1044
01:18:04,346 --> 01:18:08,430
You know, sometimes I've walked down the
streets, you know, and I've felt like
1045
01:18:08,530 --> 01:18:11,533
you wanna reach out and grab this
woman and do it, but you think
1046
01:18:12,147 --> 01:18:15,313
just before you reach you think,
why haven't other men
1047
01:18:15,582 --> 01:18:16,801
reached and
1048
01:18:16,901 --> 01:18:18,036
you think
1049
01:18:18,136 --> 01:18:20,363
because there's a penalty for this.
1050
01:18:20,463 --> 01:18:22,374
We're all screened.
1051
01:18:23,316 --> 01:18:25,770
We're screened through the years.
1052
01:18:26,428 --> 01:18:28,549
It's very interesting. Do you realize
1053
01:18:28,818 --> 01:18:30,417
how well we're screened?
1054
01:18:30,987 --> 01:18:36,190
But then, they think they've screened us,
and all of a sudden we fool them finally.
1055
01:18:36,290 --> 01:18:39,655
On some bright day, in some special place.
1056
01:18:40,636 --> 01:18:45,354
And we cut of their legs, their arms,
their heads. Float them down the river
1057
01:18:45,663 --> 01:18:49,795
laugh and drink our wine,
and eat our chocolate cake.
1058
01:18:50,223 --> 01:18:50,967
Okay.
1059
01:18:52,407 --> 01:18:53,405
So...
1060
01:18:55,314 --> 01:18:59,414
We;re all that way. Not only me,
but you and you and you.
1061
01:19:00,570 --> 01:19:03,182
We're all rapists. We're all murderers.
1062
01:19:04,294 --> 01:19:07,270
It's just...while I'm not a murderer.
1063
01:19:07,370 --> 01:19:09,661
It's just, can we get away with it.
1064
01:19:13,774 --> 01:19:15,610
It's what holds us back.
1065
01:19:16,322 --> 01:19:17,177
I think.
1066
01:19:18,491 --> 01:19:20,043
Or maybe I'm wrong.
1067
01:19:20,644 --> 01:19:21,863
I hope I'm wrong.
1068
01:19:23,281 --> 01:19:24,959
I've admired all men,
1069
01:19:25,196 --> 01:19:26,874
like Adolf Hitler.
1070
01:19:27,935 --> 01:19:29,281
All gross
1071
01:19:29,581 --> 01:19:32,146
evil creatures have something
1072
01:19:33,532 --> 01:19:37,711
because they don't believe in the rules.
I mean you're supposed to-this is not right
1073
01:19:38,360 --> 01:19:42,175
These guys just come out and say:
"I'll do..." Well, you know.
1074
01:19:42,275 --> 01:19:46,157
But they, they;re, they have
escaped from all teachings.
1075
01:19:47,677 --> 01:19:49,118
And so...
1076
01:19:49,218 --> 01:19:53,416
The rest of you men or...says:
"They're insane. They're insane."
1077
01:19:56,936 --> 01:20:00,688
What happens when these evil men
start attracting followers?
1078
01:20:02,417 --> 01:20:06,327
Well, if enough evil men
attract enough followers
1079
01:20:06,427 --> 01:20:10,859
and the followers spread all over the
earth then they become good men.
1080
01:20:11,370 --> 01:20:15,249
Then we need new evil men to overthrow
1081
01:20:18,715 --> 01:20:23,838
Evil is what most people don't do well
by people who do the other thing.
1082
01:20:29,691 --> 01:20:31,243
Celine was evil.
1083
01:20:34,092 --> 01:20:37,635
Well, all the good men are evil,
that I can think of
1084
01:20:37,735 --> 01:20:39,417
only using in
1085
01:20:39,876 --> 01:20:43,786
the terms of human terms
they say this man is evil.
1086
01:20:44,214 --> 01:20:48,140
To me the evil men are the good men.
You see, it's all reversed.
1087
01:20:52,027 --> 01:20:55,874
Anybody who can see the
opposite of what's going on
1088
01:20:55,974 --> 01:20:58,122
I think is exceptional.
1089
01:20:59,460 --> 01:21:04,320
Like, any place you go you see
a long line of people standing
1090
01:21:04,969 --> 01:21:09,908
You see another line, you see a line
of fifty people standing in one line
1091
01:21:10,233 --> 01:21:12,608
and four people standing in another
1092
01:21:12,909 --> 01:21:15,917
You know which line you get into,
don`t you baby?
1093
01:21:16,017 --> 01:21:18,402
You always get in the line of ten people
1094
01:21:18,502 --> 01:21:20,104
and you'll be better off.
1095
01:21:20,516 --> 01:21:24,062
No matter what? Politically...
-Right. Automatically
1096
01:21:24,162 --> 01:21:28,368
in any way?
-It's because the masses are always wrong.
1097
01:21:28,468 --> 01:21:33,506
You see a line of 1000, a line of 800,
a line of 50, a line of 12,
1098
01:21:33,606 --> 01:21:34,978
a line of 2...
1099
01:21:35,078 --> 01:21:37,179
If you just see an open place
1100
01:21:37,614 --> 01:21:38,960
waiting for
1101
01:21:39,060 --> 01:21:43,266
nobody's gonna go there. Go right
there, and that's going to be it.
1102
01:21:45,973 --> 01:21:47,256
Wisdom...
1103
01:21:48,214 --> 01:21:50,984
is doing everything the crowd does not do.
1104
01:21:51,887 --> 01:21:53,470
All you do is reverse
1105
01:21:54,027 --> 01:21:56,196
the totality of their learning
1106
01:21:56,296 --> 01:21:59,173
and you have the heaven
they're looking for.
1107
01:22:00,376 --> 01:22:04,286
It's true...Yeah.
-That's how you win at the track.
1108
01:22:04,561 --> 01:22:07,636
Well, that's how I break even at the track
1109
01:22:07,736 --> 01:22:09,235
and why they lose.
1110
01:22:10,533 --> 01:22:11,958
So, uh, yeah...
1111
01:22:12,576 --> 01:22:14,539
It's a basic wisdom.
1112
01:22:15,643 --> 01:22:18,810
Wherever the crowd goes,
run in the other direction.
1113
01:22:19,807 --> 01:22:21,359
They're always wrong.
1114
01:22:22,087 --> 01:22:26,013
Through centuries they're wrong
and they will always be wrong.
1115
01:22:52,834 --> 01:22:53,483
Look.
1116
01:22:55,334 --> 01:22:57,867
There's a sense of human privacy
1117
01:22:58,421 --> 01:23:01,824
I believe that everybody...should have.
1118
01:23:03,400 --> 01:23:07,168
And if they come in with three
heads on, that's their business.
1119
01:23:07,564 --> 01:23:11,142
Now, if I come in with four
heads on, that's my business.
1120
01:23:11,926 --> 01:23:15,472
You just take a glance
and go back say, well...
1121
01:23:15,572 --> 01:23:19,224
I'll have french fries and onions,
you know. That's it.
1122
01:23:20,284 --> 01:23:21,757
It's what I call
1123
01:23:22,367 --> 01:23:23,459
style.
1124
01:23:23,934 --> 01:23:24,979
Style...
1125
01:23:25,248 --> 01:23:26,720
is very important.
1126
01:23:30,567 --> 01:23:31,644
A sense of
1127
01:23:32,350 --> 01:23:33,189
decency.
1128
01:23:34,075 --> 01:23:37,146
If we have nothing else left, amongst our
1129
01:23:38,334 --> 01:23:40,328
carnivorous, glutinous,
1130
01:23:41,350 --> 01:23:46,194
anti-human, anti-life ways, we should
have a minor sense of style
1131
01:23:46,294 --> 01:23:47,983
left in all the rubbish.
1132
01:23:48,747 --> 01:23:52,298
We should realize, well, we're all
dead, we're all fucked up
1133
01:23:52,398 --> 01:23:56,536
but at least give us a glance and
settle with our indifferences.
1134
01:23:56,636 --> 01:23:59,881
and order our meals,
and leave each other alone.
1135
01:24:00,665 --> 01:24:03,752
That's a graceful sense of style,
that's all.
1136
01:24:05,430 --> 01:24:08,042
Why stare? Why, if you stare
1137
01:24:08,142 --> 01:24:09,704
you're trying to defeat
1138
01:24:10,093 --> 01:24:12,594
and say I am better than you are.
1139
01:24:19,568 --> 01:24:22,687
Of course I am better.
I don't have to glance and stare.
1140
01:24:24,127 --> 01:24:24,808
Yes?
1141
01:24:25,995 --> 01:24:27,135
The style is
1142
01:24:27,709 --> 01:24:28,521
applies
1143
01:24:29,071 --> 01:24:30,337
to everything.
1144
01:24:30,891 --> 01:24:33,044
Not to the writing but to
1145
01:24:33,144 --> 01:24:36,769
well, the whole way of behaving.
Not only at staring, but...
1146
01:24:37,569 --> 01:24:40,086
I think style is more important
1147
01:24:41,637 --> 01:24:45,975
I always like to use that: more important
than truth. You know, like I say.
1148
01:24:46,395 --> 01:24:48,770
Endurance is more important than truth,
1149
01:24:49,387 --> 01:24:52,379
I think all things are
more important than truth.
1150
01:24:52,479 --> 01:24:55,735
If we keep thinking of truth,
we're not going to get there.
1151
01:24:56,584 --> 01:25:01,396
But we do, we do all things outside
of truth and we may arrive there.
1152
01:25:01,496 --> 01:25:03,486
But we don't search for truth.
1153
01:25:03,819 --> 01:25:06,462
We do everything except the truth.
1154
01:25:08,592 --> 01:25:11,299
You understand?
We just don't fuck with truth.
1155
01:25:16,168 --> 01:25:17,782
We don't go to temples.
1156
01:25:19,745 --> 01:25:22,041
We don't go to special occasions.
1157
01:25:23,054 --> 01:25:26,094
We sit in small rooms,
pull down the shades
1158
01:25:26,593 --> 01:25:29,173
and jack-off or read a magazine.
1159
01:25:29,273 --> 01:25:30,424
That's the truth.
1160
01:25:34,674 --> 01:25:35,497
Right then.
1161
01:26:08,628 --> 01:26:11,968
The further away I am from the human race
1162
01:26:12,301 --> 01:26:13,646
the better I feel.
1163
01:26:14,786 --> 01:26:17,959
Even though I write about the human race
1164
01:26:18,228 --> 01:26:22,186
the further away I am from them,
the better I feel.
1165
01:26:23,746 --> 01:26:26,389
Two inches is great, Two miles is great.
1166
01:26:26,643 --> 01:26:28,891
2000 miles is beautiful.
1167
01:26:29,429 --> 01:26:31,281
As long as I'm able to eat.
1168
01:26:32,684 --> 01:26:33,903
They feed me
1169
01:26:34,663 --> 01:26:36,230
because I feed them.
1170
01:26:36,974 --> 01:26:38,826
But I don't like to be near them.
1171
01:26:38,926 --> 01:26:44,217
When somebody even brushes against me
with an elbow, in a crowd, I react.
1172
01:26:44,946 --> 01:26:47,178
I do not like the human race.
1173
01:26:47,278 --> 01:26:49,948
I don't like their heads.
I don't like their faces.
1174
01:26:50,048 --> 01:26:53,835
I don't like their feet.
I don't like their convesations.
1175
01:26:54,500 --> 01:26:58,458
I don't like their hairdos.
I don't like their automobiles.
1176
01:26:58,558 --> 01:27:01,798
I don't like their dogs or
their cats or their roses.
1177
01:27:05,036 --> 01:27:05,922
Earthquake.
1178
01:27:07,347 --> 01:27:10,292
Americans don't know what tragedy is.
1179
01:27:11,123 --> 01:27:15,984
A little 6.5 earthquake can send them
to chattering like monkeys
1180
01:27:16,981 --> 01:27:19,007
A piece of chinawear broken
1181
01:27:19,443 --> 01:27:22,403
The Union Rescue Mission falls down.
1182
01:27:23,432 --> 01:27:24,636
6:00 am
1183
01:27:25,095 --> 01:27:29,401
they sit in their cars, they're all
driving around. Where are they going?
1184
01:27:30,327 --> 01:27:34,016
A little excitement has broken into
their canned lives.
1185
01:27:35,045 --> 01:27:37,895
Stranger stands next to stranger.
1186
01:27:38,283 --> 01:27:40,658
Chattering gibberish fear
1187
01:27:41,097 --> 01:27:44,109
anxious fear, anxious laughter
1188
01:27:44,916 --> 01:27:47,259
My baby, my flowerpot
1189
01:27:47,632 --> 01:27:50,180
my ceiling, my bank account,
1190
01:27:51,748 --> 01:27:54,676
This is just a tickler, a feather
1191
01:27:55,009 --> 01:27:56,513
and they can't bear it.
1192
01:27:57,550 --> 01:28:01,587
Suppose they bombed the city
as other cities have been bombed
1193
01:28:02,300 --> 01:28:05,798
not with an A-bomb
but with ordinary blockbusters,
1194
01:28:05,898 --> 01:28:07,445
day after day.
1195
01:28:07,945 --> 01:28:11,618
Every day as has in
other cities of the world
1196
01:28:13,248 --> 01:28:16,794
If the rest of the world
can only see you today
1197
01:28:17,278 --> 01:28:20,697
Their laughter would bring
the sun to its knees
1198
01:28:21,061 --> 01:28:25,241
and even the flowers would
leap from the ground like bulldogs
1199
01:28:25,581 --> 01:28:28,510
and chase you away to where you belong.
1200
01:28:29,080 --> 01:28:30,632
Forever that is.
1201
01:28:31,091 --> 01:28:34,479
And who cares where it is
as long as it's somewhere
1202
01:28:34,579 --> 01:28:36,102
away from here.
1203
01:28:36,202 --> 01:28:40,534
I'm not interested in
solving the ills of society.
1204
01:28:41,088 --> 01:28:43,146
I don't want to save the world.
1205
01:28:44,128 --> 01:28:46,186
I don't even want to save me.
1206
01:28:47,192 --> 01:28:50,532
I think...most talk is so boring.
1207
01:28:51,704 --> 01:28:54,791
I mean, save this, do that, do this
1208
01:28:55,258 --> 01:28:58,472
I think...we're all so
boring say everything
1209
01:28:58,788 --> 01:29:03,205
we don't even want to save ourselves,
we're so boring talking about it.
1210
01:29:04,496 --> 01:29:06,364
There's nothing left to say.
1211
01:29:06,744 --> 01:29:08,517
We;re so fucking boring.
1212
01:29:09,514 --> 01:29:11,541
Let it die, I say.
1213
01:29:12,253 --> 01:29:14,216
Let there be a new beginning.
1214
01:29:17,043 --> 01:29:18,135
It's awful.
1215
01:29:19,006 --> 01:29:19,940
Goodnight.
1216
01:29:25,093 --> 01:29:28,386
Fucking thing's been shut
off for 20 minutes by now.
1217
01:29:29,937 --> 01:29:32,011
You guys don't fool me.
1218
01:29:33,129 --> 01:29:33,889
Shit!
1219
01:29:35,123 --> 01:29:37,023
And you missed the best part.
1220
01:29:37,530 --> 01:29:38,195
No.
1221
01:30:08,632 --> 01:30:09,756
All right then.
1222
01:30:17,030 --> 01:30:18,582
Do you think there is
1223
01:30:18,930 --> 01:30:21,510
there is absolutely no way the
1224
01:30:22,166 --> 01:30:25,094
the human condition can be improved?
1225
01:30:27,077 --> 01:30:30,069
Well, you know anybody asked
that question would have to
1226
01:30:30,169 --> 01:30:33,425
swallow a martini and an olive
before answering it.
1227
01:30:33,900 --> 01:30:36,164
Would you ask me that again?
1228
01:30:38,221 --> 01:30:40,691
I mean, do you think that there is no way that
1229
01:30:40,791 --> 01:30:44,633
anything can be improved in the troublings
1230
01:30:45,440 --> 01:30:48,986
of man and the problems of man?
1231
01:30:49,644 --> 01:30:53,095
I would say...
-Like maybe the rent control or
1232
01:30:56,024 --> 01:30:57,496
I would say,
1233
01:30:59,927 --> 01:31:01,716
if you're really serious
1234
01:31:04,898 --> 01:31:07,826
I would say we would need less
1235
01:31:09,561 --> 01:31:12,807
God guru spiritual outlets
1236
01:31:15,992 --> 01:31:18,256
which allow people to...
1237
01:31:23,295 --> 01:31:26,588
escape their pains in another
1238
01:31:26,913 --> 01:31:30,412
God form in other, in order to exist.
1239
01:31:32,739 --> 01:31:36,918
In other words, if you have an
alter God up there that you can
1240
01:31:37,433 --> 01:31:38,684
crawl to
1241
01:31:39,840 --> 01:31:42,499
after you've been defeated all day long
1242
01:31:43,671 --> 01:31:48,001
by a guy you're working a 14 hour day for
1243
01:31:48,693 --> 01:31:50,324
$6 an hour or
1244
01:31:50,424 --> 01:31:51,891
$3 an hour.
1245
01:31:52,540 --> 01:31:53,257
Well...
1246
01:31:54,222 --> 01:31:56,534
then you're only helping that man.
1247
01:32:00,025 --> 01:32:04,505
In other words, I would say the only
way humanity can escape
1248
01:32:04,605 --> 01:32:07,316
what is bothering them a little bit
1249
01:32:08,266 --> 01:32:10,498
is by removing
1250
01:32:11,954 --> 01:32:15,184
the creatures in the sky and
coming down and facing
1251
01:32:15,284 --> 01:32:16,775
what's looking at them.
1252
01:32:17,725 --> 01:32:19,831
But you're not gonna get them to do that.
1253
01:32:22,031 --> 01:32:24,900
So they're going to keep on accepting
1254
01:32:26,452 --> 01:32:30,394
their bad husbands,
their bad wives, their bad jobs,
1255
01:32:30,494 --> 01:32:33,200
their bad whores, their bad children,
1256
01:32:34,174 --> 01:32:37,024
because they have gods up in the sky.
Later...
1257
01:32:37,124 --> 01:32:40,095
who are gonna solve
all these things for them
1258
01:32:40,665 --> 01:32:44,426
when it's all unscrambled
after they've died, you see.
1259
01:32:45,751 --> 01:32:49,487
But after you die is no
time to unscramble things.
1260
01:32:51,796 --> 01:32:55,659
And they can't even be unscrambled now,
but they can be
1261
01:32:55,897 --> 01:32:58,524
a few kinks can be taken out of the
1262
01:32:58,794 --> 01:33:01,342
air hoses. So you can
breathe a little better.
1263
01:33:05,720 --> 01:33:07,018
I'm not a guru.
1264
01:33:10,185 --> 01:33:13,581
I wish you wouldn't pose these
things on me, man.
1265
01:33:14,135 --> 01:33:16,114
Ask me about women or something.
1266
01:33:36,983 --> 01:33:41,732
The only time I've been felt desperate
for company is when I've been set up
1267
01:33:41,832 --> 01:33:43,479
by a broad.
1268
01:33:45,125 --> 01:33:48,782
Like, you know, they make you
used to them. You know, some...
1269
01:33:48,882 --> 01:33:52,305
long red-haired bitch,
walking around with her hair.
1270
01:33:52,405 --> 01:33:56,216
Looking at herself in the mirror.
Putting on lipstick, talking.
1271
01:33:56,770 --> 01:34:00,451
They cause the vacancy when they're gone.
1272
01:34:01,412 --> 01:34:04,262
But it's not a true vacancy, you see.
1273
01:34:04,362 --> 01:34:08,968
What you're trying to do
is find someone to substitute for
1274
01:34:09,068 --> 01:34:13,453
what is gone when they are gone.
But this is not you.
1275
01:34:13,553 --> 01:34:15,611
This is what they have built in you.
1276
01:34:15,711 --> 01:34:18,650
The vision that they want.
1277
01:34:19,497 --> 01:34:21,176
But if they stay
1278
01:34:21,276 --> 01:34:22,711
over
1279
01:34:22,811 --> 01:34:24,801
six or seven days,
1280
01:34:25,592 --> 01:34:27,017
two or three weeks
1281
01:34:27,117 --> 01:34:30,793
it heals, you don't need anybody.
You don't need a replacement.
1282
01:34:31,062 --> 01:34:36,192
What it is, is just a mirage or
somebody you think you need, you see.
1283
01:35:06,865 --> 01:35:08,369
I go with Ibsen's...
1284
01:35:09,154 --> 01:35:11,497
the strongest men are without gods.
1285
01:35:13,365 --> 01:35:14,758
I think it was Ibsen.
1286
01:35:15,938 --> 01:35:19,262
If it wasn't, whoever said it
was a fine gentleman.
1287
01:35:26,270 --> 01:35:29,832
So, when yout talk about the gods
it's mostly about your luck.
1288
01:35:29,932 --> 01:35:32,381
And you talk very often about the luck.
1289
01:35:32,713 --> 01:35:34,375
The luck. The luck.
1290
01:35:35,458 --> 01:35:36,931
And, uh...luck
1291
01:35:37,031 --> 01:35:40,524
we can go into that for centuries, uh...
1292
01:35:42,608 --> 01:35:44,602
it's talent mixed with
1293
01:35:44,702 --> 01:35:46,819
circumstance mixed with
1294
01:35:48,101 --> 01:35:53,816
being there at a certain spot
when somebody is looking at you.
1295
01:36:01,321 --> 01:36:03,822
That's all. I have no more to say.
1296
01:36:03,922 --> 01:36:06,466
Do you think there are
many people that are...
1297
01:36:07,558 --> 01:36:08,302
No.
1298
01:36:08,556 --> 01:36:12,181
There isn't any undiscovered talent
laying around under the bushes.
1299
01:36:17,572 --> 01:36:21,170
It's just not there. In fact, as time
goes more and more on
1300
01:36:21,270 --> 01:36:23,133
there seems to be an attrition
1301
01:36:23,972 --> 01:36:25,317
of natural
1302
01:36:27,142 --> 01:36:29,865
creative talent. I guess it is
1303
01:36:30,649 --> 01:36:34,354
the crush of the numbers
upon the earth. And also...
1304
01:36:35,731 --> 01:36:39,388
the fact that we're all
narrowed down through uh...
1305
01:36:40,093 --> 01:36:43,544
shit like television, newspapers, communication.
1306
01:36:43,644 --> 01:36:46,631
Communication is the greatest
destroyer of talent
1307
01:36:47,296 --> 01:36:51,337
because it makes everybody like
everybody else. And the only way...
1308
01:36:52,730 --> 01:36:54,381
a child who
1309
01:36:54,481 --> 01:36:57,943
you must start as a child
to become original
1310
01:36:58,449 --> 01:36:59,890
is to be shut out
1311
01:37:00,643 --> 01:37:01,735
from
1312
01:37:02,352 --> 01:37:05,613
these forces of communication.
1313
01:37:07,422 --> 01:37:10,593
And, the only way you can
do that is to have cruel parents
1314
01:37:10,693 --> 01:37:14,404
to be burried under ground for
six months or something terrible.
1315
01:37:16,909 --> 01:37:21,947
The brilliant child cannot be brilliant
because he's taught to be brilliant.
1316
01:37:22,047 --> 01:37:25,636
You see, he must be the
counterpart to all these
1317
01:37:26,402 --> 01:37:28,824
forces that are telling him what to do.
1318
01:37:29,924 --> 01:37:32,394
It gets harder and harder for a child
1319
01:37:32,647 --> 01:37:37,808
to become individual because they're more
and more melded together into one piece.
1320
01:37:39,099 --> 01:37:41,173
So as time goes on and on
1321
01:37:41,632 --> 01:37:43,896
it's gonna be more and more difficult.
1322
01:37:43,996 --> 01:37:45,954
We're gonna have to look in, uh...
1323
01:37:46,054 --> 01:37:48,938
little places in Africa and then...
1324
01:37:50,221 --> 01:37:52,532
Okay, this sounds very dismal but
1325
01:37:52,975 --> 01:37:56,680
that's it. The chance of genius
becomes less and less.
1326
01:37:58,176 --> 01:38:00,203
The others say it becomes more and more.
1327
01:38:00,303 --> 01:38:04,160
But it's the same kind of genius
that they agree with, you see...
1328
01:38:05,229 --> 01:38:08,174
The true genius like Idi Amin,
1329
01:38:08,274 --> 01:38:09,710
Adolf Hitler,
1330
01:38:10,010 --> 01:38:11,562
and Charles Bukowski
1331
01:38:11,799 --> 01:38:14,127
will become less and less and less.
1332
01:38:15,908 --> 01:38:17,412
Further questions?
1333
01:38:18,330 --> 01:38:20,230
There is something behind the light.
1334
01:38:22,320 --> 01:38:24,045
The devil's face.
1335
01:38:51,228 --> 01:38:55,107
Generally speaking, you're free till
you're about four years old.
1336
01:38:56,581 --> 01:38:58,037
And then...
1337
01:38:58,765 --> 01:39:03,277
five around, then you go to grammar
school and you start becoming
1338
01:39:03,634 --> 01:39:05,866
demented and solved in.
1339
01:39:06,404 --> 01:39:09,080
Orientated and shoved into areas.
1340
01:39:10,885 --> 01:39:15,828
You lose what individualism you have,
if you have enough, of course...
1341
01:39:16,240 --> 01:39:17,712
you retain some of it.
1342
01:39:18,140 --> 01:39:20,863
But most don't have enough so, you become
1343
01:39:22,062 --> 01:39:25,450
watchers of game shows, you know,
and things like that.
1344
01:39:30,120 --> 01:39:33,152
Then you work the eight hour
job with almost...
1345
01:39:35,063 --> 01:39:36,773
a feeling of goodness.
1346
01:39:39,231 --> 01:39:40,735
Like you're doing something.
1347
01:39:45,224 --> 01:39:48,327
And you get married like
marriage is a victory,
1348
01:39:48,427 --> 01:39:51,446
and you have children like
children is a victory.
1349
01:39:52,150 --> 01:39:57,517
But most things most people do are a
total grind. Marriage. Birth. Children.
1350
01:39:58,661 --> 01:40:02,381
It's something they have to do
because there's nothing else to do.
1351
01:40:02,793 --> 01:40:06,308
There's no glory in it,
there's no steam, there's no fire.
1352
01:40:06,783 --> 01:40:08,191
It's very, very flat.
1353
01:40:09,281 --> 01:40:10,927
And the earth is full of them.
1354
01:40:13,333 --> 01:40:14,489
Sorry, but...
1355
01:40:14,853 --> 01:40:16,626
that's the way I see it.
1356
01:40:20,928 --> 01:40:23,239
The Proud Thin Dying
1357
01:40:27,274 --> 01:40:31,351
I see old people on pensions in the
supermarkets
1358
01:40:32,217 --> 01:40:35,843
and they are thin and they are
proud and they are dying
1359
01:40:37,011 --> 01:40:40,985
they are starving on their feet
and saying nothing.
1360
01:40:42,204 --> 01:40:47,285
Long ago, among other lies,
they were taught that silence was bravery.
1361
01:40:48,972 --> 01:40:52,977
Now, having worked a lifetime,
inflation has trapped them.
1362
01:40:53,927 --> 01:40:57,077
They look around,steal a grape
chew on it.
1363
01:40:58,447 --> 01:41:01,883
Finally thay make a tiny
purchace, a day's worth
1364
01:41:02,912 --> 01:41:04,906
Another lie they were taught:
1365
01:41:06,276 --> 01:41:08,112
Thou shalt not steal.
1366
01:41:10,725 --> 01:41:13,163
They'd rather starve than steal
1367
01:41:14,302 --> 01:41:16,503
(one grape won't save them)
1368
01:41:17,572 --> 01:41:22,100
and in tiny rooms while
reading the market ads they'll starve
1369
01:41:23,417 --> 01:41:27,633
They'll die without a sound
pulled out of roominghouses
1370
01:41:28,341 --> 01:41:31,618
by young blond boys with long hair
1371
01:41:32,303 --> 01:41:35,818
who'll slide them in
and pull away from the curb
1372
01:41:36,665 --> 01:41:39,404
these boys handsome of eye
1373
01:41:39,958 --> 01:41:43,219
thinking of Vegas and pussy and victory.
1374
01:41:44,897 --> 01:41:46,822
It's the order of things:
1375
01:41:47,297 --> 01:41:50,748
each one gets a taste of honey
then the knife.
1376
01:43:07,827 --> 01:43:08,667
So...
1377
01:43:09,284 --> 01:43:10,693
this is um...
1378
01:43:11,184 --> 01:43:12,781
where I lived
1379
01:43:17,198 --> 01:43:18,813
and drank
1380
01:43:20,326 --> 01:43:24,173
and wrote some stories and some poems
1381
01:43:25,867 --> 01:43:27,988
and had a hell of a lot of trouble.
1382
01:43:30,165 --> 01:43:32,667
I guess trouble make stories, you know.
1383
01:43:34,709 --> 01:43:38,920
That's about it. This is the place,
I got a lot of work done here.
1384
01:43:39,177 --> 01:43:40,001
Great.
1385
01:43:42,126 --> 01:43:46,242
This is where you wrote 'Woman' and
where most of 'Woman' happens.
1386
01:43:46,496 --> 01:43:49,108
A lot of 'em were here, in fact...
1387
01:43:49,208 --> 01:43:52,884
I think all of them came here,
at one time or another.
1388
01:43:54,388 --> 01:43:55,987
There were a lot of them.
1389
01:43:57,174 --> 01:43:59,351
Good and bad, mostly bad.
1390
01:44:00,887 --> 01:44:03,103
But, I got a book out of it.
1391
01:44:05,367 --> 01:44:07,979
That's all it's -Airplane.
1392
01:44:08,858 --> 01:44:10,600
Lots of airplanes.
1393
01:44:12,579 --> 01:44:17,601
The cops used to circle overhead with
their helicopters, shine the light down...
1394
01:44:17,701 --> 01:44:21,733
The helicopters used to circle our pad,
you know, we'd go out and look at them
1395
01:44:21,833 --> 01:44:24,919
nude and naked and leering.
1396
01:44:25,220 --> 01:44:26,423
It was great.
1397
01:44:43,704 --> 01:44:45,889
They'd say: "No! I'll kill you!:
1398
01:44:45,989 --> 01:44:49,657
I'd listen there'd be glass breaking,
you'd see shards of glass
1399
01:44:49,757 --> 01:44:53,302
flying through the night.
You'd hear screaming
1400
01:44:53,735 --> 01:44:57,692
but you know the cops never came.
It'd go on for two or three hours.
1401
01:44:58,152 --> 01:45:01,270
And finally there would
be silence of one voice
1402
01:45:01,555 --> 01:45:04,437
so you knew somebody would either be dead
1403
01:45:04,714 --> 01:45:08,403
or reamed up the ass with a telephone
pole or something, but you know
1404
01:45:08,503 --> 01:45:10,508
but they got what they wanted.
1405
01:45:11,727 --> 01:45:16,781
So, San Pedro's all right but I kinda miss
those nights too...kind of interesting.
1406
01:45:18,253 --> 01:45:22,069
I always liked the cops never came,
in those cases.
1407
01:45:49,324 --> 01:45:52,051
The big hype now is to bring up
1408
01:45:52,732 --> 01:45:55,423
there's a message goes
through the underworld
1409
01:45:55,523 --> 01:45:58,558
of all the grapevine,
you know, all the bigwigs.
1410
01:45:58,787 --> 01:46:03,988
The big message now is to bring up Liz
Taylor back to where she used to be.
1411
01:46:05,013 --> 01:46:07,894
Now, all the hype and the
propaganda is to say
1412
01:46:08,168 --> 01:46:11,302
Elizabeth Taylor is a great,
beautiful woman.
1413
01:46:11,548 --> 01:46:14,429
She's the most wonderful
creature of all-time.
1414
01:46:15,062 --> 01:46:19,258
Now, all the hype, all the media has been
told to do this and they're doing it.
1415
01:46:19,821 --> 01:46:22,085
All of a sudden I read
the papers and I think
1416
01:46:22,512 --> 01:46:25,789
God! She must be
some kind of super goddess.
1417
01:46:26,391 --> 01:46:30,717
All these films I saw her in were
really crappy except the one,
1418
01:46:30,817 --> 01:46:33,234
you know, 'Who's Afraid of Virginia Wolfe?'
1419
01:46:34,663 --> 01:46:38,035
Oh, I read on that.
Oh, I missed something.
1420
01:46:38,930 --> 01:46:39,769
Then,
1421
01:46:40,402 --> 01:46:43,094
there's even a quote from J.D. Salinger.
1422
01:46:43,194 --> 01:46:46,577
"She's the most beautiful
woman I've ever seen."
1423
01:46:48,975 --> 01:46:51,081
And, you know when I was a kid,
1424
01:46:51,181 --> 01:46:52,996
and I'm 61,
1425
01:46:53,994 --> 01:46:55,767
when I saw her as a kid...
1426
01:46:56,796 --> 01:46:58,759
now this, okay, I did.
1427
01:46:59,559 --> 01:47:03,659
I thought that woman is really ugly.
Her face is ugly.
1428
01:47:03,912 --> 01:47:06,857
Her eyes are ugly, her mouth is ugly.
1429
01:47:08,290 --> 01:47:13,926
And I always thought, Elizabeth Taylor is
one of the most ugly women I've ever seen.
1430
01:47:15,623 --> 01:47:18,600
She had the most portentous, evil,
1431
01:47:18,916 --> 01:47:20,689
grabbing, gross...
1432
01:47:21,323 --> 01:47:24,679
She exemplifies the, the...
1433
01:47:26,418 --> 01:47:28,729
female creature grabbing for everything
1434
01:47:28,829 --> 01:47:31,199
because her lips are formed
a little bit like that.
1435
01:47:31,299 --> 01:47:34,618
Her eyebrows are a little bit like that,
her eyes are a little bit like that,
1436
01:47:34,718 --> 01:47:36,739
and her hair is a little bit like that.
1437
01:47:37,064 --> 01:47:39,138
That has nothing to do with beauty.
1438
01:47:40,231 --> 01:47:45,597
That has things to do with the mada-
mathematical equation of where
1439
01:47:45,697 --> 01:47:48,202
the chin should be and the ears should be.
1440
01:47:49,120 --> 01:47:51,257
Beauty is nothing.
1441
01:47:51,954 --> 01:47:54,028
It's an idea of something.
1442
01:47:54,797 --> 01:47:56,934
The gods don't give beauty.
1443
01:47:58,644 --> 01:48:00,734
The gods don't give beauty.
1444
01:48:01,652 --> 01:48:04,296
There's no idea of physical beauty.
1445
01:48:05,966 --> 01:48:08,104
So she's a stupid woman.
1446
01:48:09,845 --> 01:48:12,964
Oh my god, it makes me sick.
1447
01:48:14,373 --> 01:48:15,370
I'm sorry.
1448
01:48:16,882 --> 01:48:19,210
And she can sue me for saying it.
1449
01:48:19,589 --> 01:48:21,093
I'll stand on it.
1450
01:48:21,822 --> 01:48:23,761
Get and put it right on in
1451
01:48:24,094 --> 01:48:25,835
I said what I said.
1452
01:48:26,322 --> 01:48:29,789
I will Elizabeth Taylor
you are an ugly woman.
1453
01:48:31,408 --> 01:48:36,007
And we will go into the courts to prove
whether you are ugly or beautiful.
1454
01:48:36,589 --> 01:48:39,106
The judges will say you are beautiful.
1455
01:48:39,807 --> 01:48:42,371
But the gods of everywhere,
1456
01:48:42,696 --> 01:48:45,182
beyond this place will know
1457
01:48:45,435 --> 01:48:47,271
that you are not beautiful.
1458
01:48:47,731 --> 01:48:51,134
You just, ears were formed in certain way.
1459
01:48:51,234 --> 01:48:53,525
Your mouth was formed a certain way.
1460
01:48:53,625 --> 01:48:55,528
Your eyes were formed a certain way.
1461
01:48:55,628 --> 01:48:58,963
But you are not beautiful,
Elizabeth Taylor.
1462
01:48:59,264 --> 01:49:01,243
You are hardly anything.
1463
01:49:01,986 --> 01:49:04,060
This is beautiful.
1464
01:49:30,846 --> 01:49:32,144
Millionaires
1465
01:49:32,623 --> 01:49:36,422
you, no faces, no faces, nothing at all
1466
01:49:37,055 --> 01:49:38,686
laughing at nothing�
1467
01:49:39,913 --> 01:49:41,433
let me tell you
1468
01:49:41,971 --> 01:49:46,072
I have drunk in skid row rooms with
imbecile winos
1469
01:49:46,911 --> 01:49:48,842
whose cause was better
1470
01:49:49,658 --> 01:49:52,207
whose eyes still held some light
1471
01:49:52,982 --> 01:49:56,054
whose voices retained some sensibility,
1472
01:49:57,621 --> 01:50:00,344
and when the morning came
we were sick
1473
01:50:00,875 --> 01:50:02,141
but not ill,
1474
01:50:02,679 --> 01:50:04,817
poor but not deluded,
1475
01:50:05,846 --> 01:50:11,692
and we stretched in our beds and rose
in the late afternoons like millionaires.
1476
01:50:11,945 --> 01:50:16,045
In those places people were closer
to each other. A knock on the door...
1477
01:50:16,382 --> 01:50:18,012
someone has a bottle to share.
1478
01:50:20,237 --> 01:50:22,184
Yeah, very true.
1479
01:50:26,332 --> 01:50:27,741
There was almost...
1480
01:50:28,509 --> 01:50:31,564
I'll say no night there because
that's the way I used to talk.
1481
01:50:31,664 --> 01:50:35,221
No night there you went without a drink
and if you didn't have one
1482
01:50:35,855 --> 01:50:38,372
well, somebody would show up. I guess...
1483
01:50:40,407 --> 01:50:43,810
why they did it, I don't know.
But it just happened like
1484
01:50:44,792 --> 01:50:47,867
Many a night I'd be laying there, I'd say:
"Jesus, what am I-"
1485
01:50:47,967 --> 01:50:49,878
I'd have, I'm all out of money...
1486
01:50:50,926 --> 01:50:55,438
somebody would knock, a door would open,
and here come a hand with a bottle.
1487
01:50:56,293 --> 01:50:57,702
"How ya doin', Hank?"
1488
01:50:58,098 --> 01:50:59,824
"Hey! Come on in."
1489
01:51:00,514 --> 01:51:02,477
Then you start drinking
1490
01:51:03,240 --> 01:51:04,966
pretty soon someone else comes in,
1491
01:51:05,066 --> 01:51:09,383
pretty soon you look up there are 3
or 4 people in the room. A tiny room.
1492
01:51:10,512 --> 01:51:14,628
And all of a sudden people start getting
out of money. They run out of wine.
1493
01:51:14,728 --> 01:51:17,391
Somebody gets up a quarter,
somebody gets up a dollar.
1494
01:51:17,491 --> 01:51:20,050
Somebody runs down the hall,
comes back with a...
1495
01:51:20,150 --> 01:51:23,818
Pretty soon, somebody goes down.
There's more wine bottles.
1496
01:51:24,127 --> 01:51:30,001
Pretty soon everybody's smoking, drinking,
talking, the radio's on. Everybody's drunk.
1497
01:51:31,489 --> 01:51:34,417
Can you imagine this happening
in this neighborhood?
1498
01:51:35,787 --> 01:51:36,610
Come on.
1499
01:51:37,560 --> 01:51:38,985
Quite interesting.
1500
01:51:40,647 --> 01:51:42,009
So the poor
1501
01:51:42,753 --> 01:51:43,988
since they have
1502
01:51:45,025 --> 01:51:47,875
What's the difference between
having 75 cents or nothing?
1503
01:51:47,975 --> 01:51:51,611
You know, you might as well give
it to someone or share it, you know. So...
1504
01:51:52,007 --> 01:51:52,988
pretty good.
1505
01:51:53,883 --> 01:51:54,754
Style.
1506
01:51:59,329 --> 01:52:02,669
Style is the answer to everything.
1507
01:52:05,147 --> 01:52:09,564
A fresh way to approach a dull
or dangerous thing.
1508
01:52:11,266 --> 01:52:13,974
To do a dull thing with style
1509
01:52:14,654 --> 01:52:18,612
is preferable to doing a
dangerous thing without it.
1510
01:52:20,963 --> 01:52:23,069
Joan of Arc had style.
1511
01:52:24,114 --> 01:52:25,523
John the Baptist
1512
01:52:25,982 --> 01:52:27,866
Christ. Socrates.
1513
01:52:28,452 --> 01:52:29,386
Caesar.
1514
01:52:30,351 --> 01:52:31,808
Garcia Lorca.
1515
01:52:33,448 --> 01:52:35,458
Style is the difference.
1516
01:52:37,073 --> 01:52:40,287
A way of doing, a way of being done.
1517
01:52:43,572 --> 01:52:47,862
Six Herons standing quietly in a pool of water
1518
01:52:49,406 --> 01:52:52,288
or you walking out of the bathroom naked
1519
01:52:53,000 --> 01:52:54,583
without seeing me.
1520
01:53:32,931 --> 01:53:34,799
I'm not one of these
1521
01:53:36,015 --> 01:53:40,456
self-centered, genius-driven
characters, who wakes up and...
1522
01:53:41,607 --> 01:53:45,312
I'm more like a slug. I'm more like a...
1523
01:53:46,163 --> 01:53:49,440
a very slow, easy creature.
1524
01:53:50,580 --> 01:53:52,543
I really don't want to do anything.
1525
01:53:53,034 --> 01:53:55,994
I wake up in the morning,
I just wanna lay in bed
1526
01:53:56,494 --> 01:53:58,251
three or four more hours.
1527
01:53:59,533 --> 01:54:01,987
There's nothing I wanna do...
1528
01:54:02,842 --> 01:54:03,792
in fact,
1529
01:54:05,391 --> 01:54:07,259
even going to the typewriter,
1530
01:54:09,041 --> 01:54:13,569
as I walk toward it I realize
I must be a writer because, you know...
1531
01:54:14,032 --> 01:54:17,831
I made money at it.
I don't even like the looks of a typewriter.
1532
01:54:18,465 --> 01:54:23,974
Sometimes I stay away from it for days
because it seems like jobs I used to have.
1533
01:54:25,047 --> 01:54:30,208
The minute I sit down to the damn thing I
have a few bottles of wine. A few bottles...
1534
01:54:30,778 --> 01:54:33,406
Well! A half a bottle of wine
1535
01:54:33,506 --> 01:54:35,306
the thing starts humming
1536
01:54:35,406 --> 01:54:37,499
and the words start popping out.
1537
01:54:37,599 --> 01:54:39,620
You know, like popcorn kernels.
1538
01:54:41,805 --> 01:54:43,451
So there's, there isn't
1539
01:54:44,473 --> 01:54:47,892
For me there's no egocentric or...
1540
01:54:48,858 --> 01:54:51,866
I'm not doing it.
Something's doing it to me.
1541
01:54:51,966 --> 01:54:57,194
See. So, I walk into it and here's
the gift. Hi, baby. And it happens.
1542
01:54:59,378 --> 01:55:02,608
That's not just false modesty,
it just occurs.
1543
01:55:02,949 --> 01:55:05,292
I'm set off. I'm tripped out.
1544
01:55:08,347 --> 01:55:10,358
I guess I'm just a good ole kid,
1545
01:55:10,458 --> 01:55:13,935
from the stockyards or railroad
yards and the post office.
1546
01:55:15,479 --> 01:55:17,933
I'm thinking at my 60th birthday,
1547
01:55:18,329 --> 01:55:19,295
Saturday...
1548
01:55:20,419 --> 01:55:23,736
Do you realize ten years ago
I was a postal clerk
1549
01:55:24,143 --> 01:55:25,996
down at Alameda Street,
1550
01:55:26,375 --> 01:55:28,829
sticking letters into slots like this.
1551
01:55:30,163 --> 01:55:31,873
Within ten years
1552
01:55:32,832 --> 01:55:38,025
I'm published in Germany, Norway,
France, Holland, Italy...England.
1553
01:55:40,202 --> 01:55:43,067
You know, more.
I can't name six or seven more.
1554
01:55:43,495 --> 01:55:44,666
What happened?
1555
01:55:47,690 --> 01:55:50,286
I don't know, kid. I guess...
1556
01:55:51,134 --> 01:55:54,775
I just wrote down the words
the way they were meant to be.
1557
01:55:57,565 --> 01:56:01,776
And it scares me alot because I wonder...
1558
01:56:03,949 --> 01:56:09,379
No. You get a little touch of luck,
can you carry on with the same grace?
1559
01:56:10,733 --> 01:56:12,871
It's a good bloody hard test.
1560
01:56:15,245 --> 01:56:17,596
I mean, okay, I'm 60...
1561
01:56:17,915 --> 01:56:20,016
soon I'll be 61,
1562
01:56:20,668 --> 01:56:23,851
62, 67, 73.
1563
01:56:24,140 --> 01:56:27,833
Soon I'll be 83, 85, 89...
1564
01:56:28,780 --> 01:56:31,613
Am I still gonna be typing at 92?
1565
01:56:32,823 --> 01:56:36,674
I just heard from my uncle, he's 93.
He said:
1566
01:56:37,240 --> 01:56:40,439
"I hope you're in good health, Henry."
1567
01:56:41,474 --> 01:56:45,946
"Louisa and I are in good health,
except our knees hurt."
1568
01:56:49,615 --> 01:56:53,403
Maybe I'll be hurting-writing
about hurting knees....
1569
01:56:54,947 --> 01:56:59,858
at the age of 93. I hope not.
I hope I'm long dead and long gone.
1570
01:57:59,862 --> 01:58:00,881
Earthquake
1571
01:58:02,386 --> 01:58:05,155
Americans don't know what tragedy is.
1572
01:58:06,094 --> 01:58:11,044
A little 6.5 earthquake
can send them to chattering like monkeys.
1573
01:58:11,808 --> 01:58:13,940
A piece of chinaware broken
1574
01:58:14,411 --> 01:58:17,260
The Union Rescue Mission falls down
1575
01:58:18,358 --> 01:58:19,583
6am.
1576
01:58:20,029 --> 01:58:24,303
They sit in their cars, they are all
driving around. Where are they going?
1577
01:58:25,210 --> 01:58:29,237
A little excitment
has broken into their canned lives.
1578
01:58:29,969 --> 01:58:32,865
Stranger stands next to stranger
1579
01:58:33,209 --> 01:58:35,612
chattering gibberish fear,
1580
01:58:36,041 --> 01:58:39,018
anxious fear, anxious laughter
1581
01:58:39,845 --> 01:58:42,169
My baby, my flowerpots.
1582
01:58:42,670 --> 01:58:45,121
My ceiling, my bank account.
1583
01:58:46,744 --> 01:58:51,312
This is just a tickler, a feather,
and they can't bear it.
1584
01:58:52,467 --> 01:58:56,461
Suppose they bombed the city,
as other cities have been bombed
1585
01:58:57,162 --> 01:59:02,439
Not with an A-bomb but with
ordinary blockbusters, day after day.
1586
01:59:02,868 --> 01:59:06,561
Everyday as has happened
in other cities of the world.
1587
01:59:08,104 --> 01:59:11,717
If the rest of the world
could only see you today
1588
01:59:12,270 --> 01:59:15,341
their laughter
would bring the sun to its knees.
1589
01:59:15,928 --> 01:59:20,081
And even the flowers
would leap from the ground like bulldogs
1590
01:59:20,647 --> 01:59:23,480
and chase you away to where you belong
1591
01:59:24,021 --> 01:59:25,581
wherever that is.
1592
01:59:25,978 --> 01:59:30,832
and who cares where it is
as long as it's somewhere away from here.
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