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How about a Caribbean Cruise?
www . Casino Royal Dragon . com
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I sing.
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Why do you sing?
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Well, because,
um, I get to experience
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a lot of feelings.
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It's really a lot of fun.
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You get to feel
all kinds of things
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that you could hardly find if
you went to parties all year
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round and made it with
everyone you ever wanted to
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because you get to feel things
that are in your imagination
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and another end of truth.
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That's why I like music
because it's created from
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and as it's happening
creates feelings.
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What could I feel if I
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attended your concert tonight?
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I'd like you
to feel like standing up
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and jump up and down
in time with the music
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and get sweaty and
just go with the music.
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Just go with it.
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Like, rock and
roll's very rhythmic.
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That's what it's all about.
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You know, it's 1,2, 3, 4.
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Yeah, you thought you had
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found yourself a good
girl, one who would love
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you and give you the world.
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Then you find, hun, that
you've been misused.
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Look at me, honey.
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I'll do what you choose.
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I want you to, well,
tell Mama all about it.
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Yeah, tell Mama.
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What do you need?
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Tell your Mama, babe.
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What you want?
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Tell your Mama, babe.
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What do you need?
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What do you want?
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What do you need?
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What do you want?
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I'll make everything all right.
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I'll tell ya.
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When you get lonely... and I
figure everybody does, now,
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because as a matter of
fact, everybody does... I'll
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tell you what you need, baby.
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When you get those strange
thoughts in your head,
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you don't know where
they came from,
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man, you've got those
strange little weirdness
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that's happening to you.
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You don't know what they are.
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I'll tell you what you need.
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You need a sweet-loving
mama, baby.
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Hun, a sweet-talking
mama, babe, you
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know, someone to listen to you,
someone to want you, someone
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to hold you, someone to need
you, someone to use you,
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someone to want you, someone
that needs you, someone
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to hold you.
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You need a mama, mama, mama,
babe, a mama, ma, ma, ma.
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Yeah, mama, mama, mama, ma mama.
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Tell Mama all about it.
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Tell Mama all about it.
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What do you need?
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What do you want?
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Anything I can do,
anything I can do,
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I'll be your mama, babe,
yeah, your mama, babe,
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oh, mama, babe, oh, mama, babe,
oh, mama, babe, oh, mama, babe.
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I'll make everything all right.
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Dear family, I managed
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to pass my 27th birthday
without really feeling it.
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Oh, it's such a funny game.
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Two years ago, I didn't
even want to be it.
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No, that's not true.
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I've been looking around,
and I've noticed something.
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After you reach a certain level
of talent... and quite a few
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have that talent...
The deciding factor
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is ambition or, as I see it,
how much you really need,
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need to be loved and need
to be proud of yourself.
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And I guess that's
what ambition is.
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It's not all a depraved
quest for position or money.
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Maybe it's for love,
lots of love, ha, Janice.
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Port Arthur, to a lot of people,
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it was a really good
town to grow up in.
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I never thought so.
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Janice never thought
so, and she couldn't
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figure out how to make
herself like everybody else,
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thank goodness.
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Our parents,
I'm not exactly sure
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how they actually
met, but they started
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dating after Mother had gone
away to college and come back
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and started working.
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Daddy was a mechanical
engineer, but he
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was able to get a job
because at that time,
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so many people
were away fighting.
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So he got a job at
Texaco, and he stayed
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there his entire working life.
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And he came home from work
one day and told mother,
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let's do something
for posterity.
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So that's Janis
being born in 1943.
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So that's Janis
being born in 1943.
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She joined the choir,
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and they kicked her
out of the choir.
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She wouldn't follow directions,
and they said, you're out.
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Like most women, Janis
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wanted to be beautiful
and curvaceous and skinny
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like the pictures that
she saw in magazines.
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And she saw herself, you know,
gain weight and get chunky.
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Her skin broke out,
and her features
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weren't that fine, beautiful,
female thing that we
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see pictures everywhere.
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And so she had
questions about her own,
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you know, desirability.
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She demanded to be different.
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You know, our parents had
given us permission to do it
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and then weren't aware of what
would happen if you did it.
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Janis was the first one in
our family to find that out,
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that if you were rocking the
boat, you might get noticed.
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And she rocked the boat
as often as she could.
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She liked rocking the boat.
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The world was changing,
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and I think that Janis's
interpretation of what being
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good was included things that
a lot of people in the South
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weren't yet ready to include.
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She said, I think immigration
is the right thing to do.
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Well, our hometown had
an active KKK chapter.
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And what happened
was she was harassed
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by some guys in her class.
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They threw pennies at her.
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They called her names,
and she became a target
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for the last three
years of high school.
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She started dressing
differently, wearing loafers
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without socks and tight skirts.
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Her hair was becoming
more, like, beatnik,
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and still there was an
aspect of her sexuality
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and her personality
that was at odds.
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Where does she go?
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What does she do?
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She was pushing the
limits, and women
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weren't supposed to swear.
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And women were
supposed to be demure
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and not know that anything
existed below their waistlines.
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And I met her in high school,
and she wouldn't go away.
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She was always calling us
up, one of us or the other,
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and say, what are
you doing tonight'?
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Where are we going?
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She was a lot of trouble.
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We went to Louisiana, and
she would start fights which
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we didn't want started
because the Cajuns
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were known, good fighters.
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But she got a kick out of it,
just playing the bad girl.
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She wasn't a bad girl.
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I mean, she just
liked to bait the men.
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You know, we would deny
all knowledge of her
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and barely escape
with our lives.
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That made her real
dangerous to take to a bar.
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I mean, she was amusing, so we
took her to the beach with us.
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She borrowed some records
which were obscure.
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One of them was a
record by Odetta.
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All of a sudden, she busted into
a perfect imitation of Odetta
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on the record, and
everybody was just
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stunned... this little,
troublesome kid, you know,
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could sing that well.
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This particular
night Janis said,
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let's go see this
wonderful Austin
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you're always talking about.
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So we pulled in at
five thirty in the morning,
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and you could hear music.
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And it wasn't recorded music.
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It was live music.
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And Janis grabbed my
arm, and she said,
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Jack, I am going
to like it here.
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On accident, I discovered
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I had an incredibly loud voice.
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So I started singing blues
because that was always
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what I liked, and, you know,
I got in a bluegrass band,
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played hillbilly music in
Austin, Texas for free beer.
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I used to sing at folk
clubs just for a goof.
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We call ourselves
the Waller Creek Boys,
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and instantly Janis
became one of the boys.
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People just stared
open mouthed, and she
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was not ever accepted, really,
except by the folk community.
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Growing up, her peers picked
on her and bullied her.
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And by the time
she got to Austin,
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and by the time I knew
her, she had already been
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profoundly hurt over and over.
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And so in Austin,
it was the same way.
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Every year, the
fraternities held a contest,
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and people could nominate
someone to be ugliest man.
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And someone nominated Janis, and
all these jerks voted for her.
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And it crushed her,
saddest thing I ever saw.
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You know, it really was.
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To that point, I'd
never seen Janis cry.
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Janis had a very tough
exterior, but it really got her.
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It got her bad.
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And I said, Janis, they
don't mean anything to you.
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They're... they're not
even in your class.
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It became increasingly
harder to fit
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into a group of angry, angry
men who liked to pick on her.
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Even though she ran around with
a tight group of friends that
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were into books and
ideas, she needed
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to go out to where
the people were
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that wrote those books,
where the people were
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that sung those songs.
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Where does she go?
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What does she do?
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San Francisco.
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It would have to be about
'63 or something like that.
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I couldn't stand Texas anymore,
and I went to California
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because it's a lot freer.
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You can do what you want
to do, and nobody bugs you.
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15,000 San
Franciscans protest segregation
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in Birmingham, negro
and white citizens
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marching in unity for
equality in San Francisco.
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We used to all hang out at
a bar called the Anxious Asp
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on Green Street in North Beach.
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We went to a party one
night, and, you know,
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with a little of wine and
a little bit of, you know,
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whatever, We kind
of got to talking.
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And two weeks later,
she moved in with me.
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Sometimes, we went
down to Monterrey,
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and she would sing
in the hootenannies.
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And she would win tickets for
us to get to the main arena.
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One time, we went there, and
there was Bob Dylan, her idol.
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And she walks up to him, and she
said, oh, Bob, I just love you.
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You know, I'm gonna
be famous one day.
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He said, yeah, we're
all gonna be famous.
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I'll never forget
that, you know?
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She definitely felt the blues.
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Bessie Smith and all
the blues singers,
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she loved those people.
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And I think she emulated
them in the sense of wanting
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to be like them, you
know, to have the pain,
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and I guess that's
why she drank like she
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did and took drugs
because that's
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all part of the whole picture.
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She definitely needed people
to tell her how great she was,
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and she needed that
stroking all the time.
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I don't think she was with
girls to shock people.
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I think she was with
girls because that's
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what she felt at the moment.
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And I think she was
totally in a conflict
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all the time with
herself, constantly,
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and she was unhappy.
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She was quite
unhappy, and I think
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on the stage it made her feel
that she was somebody, that she
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had something to offer.
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And I said, I just think this
is not working for both of us.
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You know, you want to go off
and do things with other people,
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and I'm not strong
enough to handle that.
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She got with this
English fellow,
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and they were into shooting
up and stuff like that.
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And that was never my style.
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You know, I just never
could get into that.
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Janis was in North
Beach, and she
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developed an
intense relationship
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with Peter de Blanc.
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Then Janis got into methadrine.
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Janis told me that
they were living
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in that building
behind Tommy's joint
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and had not a
stick of furniture.
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And Peter was just sitting
there for hours on end
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throwing a Super Ball against
the wall and catching it.
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And she was skin and bones.
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She used, overused, lost weight,
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got so strung out that her
group of friends held a party,
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and they passed the
hat to get enough money
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to put her on a Greyhound
bus and send her back home.
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She and Peter decided
that they both needed
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to get their lives cleaned up
and would go to their hometowns
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and get their lives
together, and then they'd
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get together and get married.
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Dear Peter, well, I'm home now.
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I have your picture on the
desk where I do my homework,
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and everyone in the family's
seen it at least three times.
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Everyone agrees you're handsome.
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I really love you.
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In attempting to find a
semblance of a pattern
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in my life, I find I've gone
out with great vigor every time
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and gotten really fucked up.
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All I did was be wild,
drank constantly,
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fucked people, sang.
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Then San Francisco, kind
of wanting to find an old
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man and be happy, but I didn't.
281
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I just found Linda and
became a meth freak.
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Jesus fucking Christ, I want
to be happy so fucking bad.
283
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He came home at one
point and met the family
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and asked our father formally
for her hand in marriage.
285
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Well, now it's Saturday,
286
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and you're letter didn't come.
287
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So I'm very sad and
moping around the house,
288
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and mother's worried.
289
00:18:03,916 --> 00:18:05,338
Baby, what's happening?
290
00:18:05,626 --> 00:18:09,221
You could really be hurting
me, and, hell, I couldn't tell.
291
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Am I still happy?
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Do I still have you?
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She was embarrassed
that he wasn't
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going to show up
after she had told
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her mom and dad that he was.
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He was evidently living with a
woman who he'd gotten pregnant.
297
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And Janis only discovered that
when she happened to call him,
298
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and this woman
answered the telephone.
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Do you ever go
back to Port Arthur?
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I went back once.
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It's a... it's a bummer, and
I ain't going back again.
302
00:18:43,831 --> 00:18:46,505
No, it's no good.
303
00:18:46,792 --> 00:18:50,717
Chet asked me to come
and see his new band,
304
00:18:51,005 --> 00:18:55,681
and that's when I heard that Big
Brother was auditioning women.
305
00:18:55,968 --> 00:18:58,767
So I went by his house and said,
you know, I'm going to go home.
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I can ask about
Janis if you like.
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00:19:01,432 --> 00:19:03,651
And she found out
that I was there,
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00:19:03,934 --> 00:19:06,062
and we spent the whole
day talking about what was
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going on since she had left.
310
00:19:08,856 --> 00:19:10,824
And we should go see
a rock and roll band,
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00:19:11,108 --> 00:19:13,907
and there's one playing
around the corner.
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Didn't have anything to
drink because she was sober.
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And we listened to, I think,
two songs, and she turned to me
314
00:19:22,620 --> 00:19:25,089
and she said, that's
what I want to do.
315
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So I said, OK.
316
00:19:26,332 --> 00:19:27,332
Let's go figure this out.
317
00:19:27,541 --> 00:19:29,464
He said, I'm not
going to go and take
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it till you tell your parents.
319
00:19:32,213 --> 00:19:36,434
He waited in the car while Janis
went in to tell her parents.
320
00:19:36,717 --> 00:19:39,812
Janis went in and said she was
going to Austin for the weekend
321
00:19:40,096 --> 00:19:42,975
and left and went
to San Francisco.
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Mother and
Dad, with a great deal of
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00:19:53,651 --> 00:19:56,530
trepidation, I bring the news.
324
00:19:56,821 --> 00:19:58,539
I am in San Francisco.
325
00:19:58,823 --> 00:20:00,666
Now, let me explain.
326
00:20:00,950 --> 00:20:05,080
Chet Helms, an old friend,
now is Mr. Big in SF.
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00:20:05,371 --> 00:20:07,499
He encouraged me to come out.
328
00:20:07,790 --> 00:20:10,964
Seems the whole city had gone
rock and roll, and it has.
329
00:20:11,252 --> 00:20:15,849
And he assured me fame
and fortune, so I came.
330
00:20:16,132 --> 00:20:17,975
I'm so sorry.
331
00:20:18,259 --> 00:20:20,432
My love to Mike and Laura.
332
00:20:20,720 --> 00:20:23,098
Love, Janis.
333
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I would pick her
up, and I'd drive her
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00:20:53,169 --> 00:20:54,512
back to where she was staying.
335
00:20:54,795 --> 00:20:58,516
I mean, she was always like,
I don't know whether this
336
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is going to work out.
337
00:21:00,134 --> 00:21:03,058
I probably... I should
go back to Texas.
338
00:21:03,345 --> 00:21:05,063
I don't know if
I should do this.
339
00:21:05,347 --> 00:21:06,690
She had a lot of misgivings.
340
00:21:06,974 --> 00:21:09,523
She was very afraid of drugs.
341
00:21:12,688 --> 00:21:16,067
She said, I don't ever want
to see anybody shooting drugs.
342
00:21:16,358 --> 00:21:19,953
I can't stand to see that
because if I see that,
343
00:21:20,237 --> 00:21:22,831
it's just going to
take her out so much.
344
00:21:23,115 --> 00:21:24,555
She came out to San
Francisco and had
345
00:21:24,784 --> 00:21:26,661
this coffeehouse career.
346
00:21:26,952 --> 00:21:28,249
She almost died that time.
347
00:21:28,537 --> 00:21:29,914
She lost all this
weight, you know,
348
00:21:30,206 --> 00:21:31,674
and she went back to Texas.
349
00:21:31,957 --> 00:21:34,631
And her mother said, if you
ever go back out there again,
350
00:21:34,919 --> 00:21:35,919
you're going to die.
351
00:21:53,020 --> 00:21:56,024
Parents encourage
you to sing at all?
352
00:21:56,315 --> 00:21:58,693
Oh, no, no, no, they wanted
me to be a schoolteacher,
353
00:21:58,984 --> 00:22:01,578
you know, like all parents.
354
00:22:01,862 --> 00:22:05,082
But I started singing
when I was about 17.
355
00:22:05,366 --> 00:22:06,913
I listened to a
lot of music first,
356
00:22:07,201 --> 00:22:08,453
and one day I started singing.
357
00:22:08,744 --> 00:22:09,996
And I could sing.
358
00:22:10,287 --> 00:22:14,008
It was, like, it was a
surprise, to say the least.
359
00:22:27,429 --> 00:22:29,932
Dear Mother
and Dad, Daddy brought up
360
00:22:30,224 --> 00:22:31,864
the college issue,
which is good because I
361
00:22:31,976 --> 00:22:34,946
probably would have continued
avoiding it until it went away.
362
00:22:35,229 --> 00:22:37,152
I don't think I can go back now.
363
00:22:37,439 --> 00:22:39,543
I don't know all the reasons,
but I just feel that this
364
00:22:39,567 --> 00:22:42,286
a truer feeling, true to me.
365
00:22:42,570 --> 00:22:43,913
I don't feel like I'm lying now.
366
00:22:52,413 --> 00:22:54,211
I have to see this
through first.
367
00:22:54,498 --> 00:22:56,418
If I don't, I'd always be
thinking about singing,
368
00:22:56,500 --> 00:22:59,128
being good and known, and
feel like I cheated myself,
369
00:22:59,420 --> 00:23:00,420
you know?
370
00:23:08,012 --> 00:23:10,515
Weak as it is, I
apologize for being so
371
00:23:10,806 --> 00:23:13,434
just plain bad in the family.
372
00:23:13,726 --> 00:23:16,400
I'm just sorry, love, Janis.
373
00:23:21,025 --> 00:23:22,572
We're all primitive musicians.
374
00:23:22,860 --> 00:23:25,363
We're self-taught.
375
00:23:25,654 --> 00:23:26,894
We don't know much about music.
376
00:23:27,072 --> 00:23:29,370
We're not trained in the
music that we're doing.
377
00:23:29,658 --> 00:23:30,818
We've all sort of come to it.
378
00:23:31,911 --> 00:23:34,505
I was trained on
triangle and tuba.
379
00:23:34,788 --> 00:23:36,016
Tuba, you weren't house trained.
380
00:23:36,040 --> 00:23:37,225
You're a great
triangle player, baby.
381
00:23:37,249 --> 00:23:38,842
I wasn't even house trained.
382
00:23:39,126 --> 00:23:40,799
Go outside.
383
00:23:41,086 --> 00:23:43,088
I used to be sort of
like a blues singer.
384
00:23:43,380 --> 00:23:44,552
And Jimmy Swift.
385
00:23:44,840 --> 00:23:45,840
Jimmy Swift?
386
00:23:45,925 --> 00:23:47,205
She used to be a
baseball player,
387
00:23:47,301 --> 00:23:50,100
and she always used
to say, sock it to me.
388
00:23:50,387 --> 00:23:52,435
Folk blues, you know,
I was a folk singer,
389
00:23:52,723 --> 00:23:56,444
you know, and sang blues mostly,
country blues, old time blues,
390
00:23:56,727 --> 00:23:58,604
slow.
391
00:23:58,896 --> 00:24:00,398
Didn't you have a
job soldering once?
392
00:24:00,689 --> 00:24:01,360
Soldering?
393
00:24:01,649 --> 00:24:02,649
No, a key punch operator.
394
00:24:02,858 --> 00:24:04,075
It was a back then.
395
00:24:04,360 --> 00:24:06,738
I was a waitress in a
bowling alley once, too.
396
00:24:07,029 --> 00:24:10,374
Playing is like the
mostest fun there is.
397
00:24:10,658 --> 00:24:14,162
Feeling things and really
getting into it, that's fun.
398
00:24:24,046 --> 00:24:26,515
At that time,
there was definitely
399
00:24:26,799 --> 00:24:28,221
a sense Of camaraderie.
400
00:24:28,509 --> 00:24:32,230
If you knew the Grateful Dead
had the house on Ashbury,
401
00:24:32,513 --> 00:24:35,608
it Wouldn't be unlikely that
if you were in the neighborhood
402
00:24:35,891 --> 00:24:38,110
you'd just drop by and
hang out with those guys
403
00:24:38,394 --> 00:24:40,442
and smoke a joint or
something like that.
404
00:24:44,108 --> 00:24:47,533
We were all sort of riding the
same wave in a sense, all part
405
00:24:47,820 --> 00:24:50,539
of the same scene, and
all shared, in some ways,
406
00:24:50,823 --> 00:24:52,791
the same values
that we were par':
407
00:24:53,075 --> 00:24:56,830
of this counterculture,
revolutionary music thing that
408
00:24:57,121 --> 00:24:58,794
was going to change the world.
409
00:25:06,505 --> 00:25:11,602
She was just funny,
unassuming, sexy,
410
00:25:11,885 --> 00:25:15,185
and sort of a kind of, like,
almost a sort of Huck Finn
411
00:25:15,472 --> 00:25:19,648
innocence to her, the
absolutely child-woman
412
00:25:19,935 --> 00:25:21,562
ideal of the.
413
00:25:21,854 --> 00:25:24,448
Well, I met Janis as
a romantic interest
414
00:25:24,732 --> 00:25:29,203
for one of my band mates,
Pigpen, Ron McKernan.
415
00:25:29,486 --> 00:25:31,614
We called him the Mighty Pig.
416
00:25:31,905 --> 00:25:35,785
It was an on again, off again
little affair that they had.
417
00:25:36,076 --> 00:25:38,750
And on the nights that Janis
would come over and visit,
418
00:25:39,038 --> 00:25:41,132
I got very little
sleep because Janis
419
00:25:41,415 --> 00:25:45,340
was not real quiet in the rack.
420
00:25:45,627 --> 00:25:48,221
And so all night long, it
would be, daddy, daddy,
421
00:25:48,505 --> 00:25:52,931
daddy, all that kind of
stuff, I mean, but endlessly.
422
00:25:53,218 --> 00:25:55,061
Isn't Pigpen cute?
423
00:25:55,345 --> 00:25:57,145
They make Pigpen T-shirts
now with his picture
424
00:25:57,222 --> 00:25:58,222
on it for fans.
425
00:25:58,307 --> 00:25:59,934
I have one in red.
426
00:26:00,225 --> 00:26:01,693
Those people are
all friends of mine.
427
00:26:01,977 --> 00:26:03,024
Aren't they amazing?
428
00:26:03,312 --> 00:26:04,832
The people with stars
after their names
429
00:26:05,064 --> 00:26:06,407
are members of the band.
430
00:26:06,690 --> 00:26:10,786
I'm in the back on the left,
really an amazing picture.
431
00:26:11,070 --> 00:26:12,070
They aren't dressed up.
432
00:26:12,237 --> 00:26:13,659
They look that way all the time.
433
00:26:13,947 --> 00:26:17,121
Now, taken in perspective,
I'm not so far out at all, eh'?
434
00:26:25,167 --> 00:26:26,339
There was a party.
435
00:26:26,627 --> 00:26:30,052
There was a party in
the city at an apartment
436
00:26:30,339 --> 00:26:32,467
on California Street.
437
00:26:32,758 --> 00:26:35,181
Someone opened this bottle
model of this stuff.
438
00:26:35,469 --> 00:26:36,469
It's called Cold Duck.
439
00:26:36,678 --> 00:26:37,349
You don't sit it around much.
440
00:26:37,638 --> 00:26:38,935
Sparkling wine.
441
00:26:39,223 --> 00:26:41,476
Sparkling wine, and it
started to go around the room,
442
00:26:41,767 --> 00:26:43,127
and people were
taking chugs of it.
443
00:26:43,227 --> 00:26:45,446
And Janis took a big swig of it.
444
00:26:45,729 --> 00:26:47,276
And someone said to
Janis, oh, man, you
445
00:26:47,564 --> 00:26:49,407
must really want to get high.
446
00:26:49,691 --> 00:26:51,819
And she just went, like, what?
447
00:26:52,111 --> 00:26:53,838
And someone said, yeah,
there's, like, you know,
448
00:26:53,862 --> 00:26:56,490
60, 80 hits of acid in
that bottle of Cold Duck.
449
00:26:56,782 --> 00:27:00,787
Anyway, she ran into the
bathroom and tried to throw up.
450
00:27:06,416 --> 00:27:10,762
But she got very high, anyway,
and we went from this party
451
00:27:11,046 --> 00:27:12,046
to the Fillmore.
452
00:27:26,854 --> 00:27:29,323
And Otis Redding was I
think in his second night,
453
00:27:29,606 --> 00:27:31,028
and it was his second show.
454
00:27:31,316 --> 00:27:33,545
They did two shows, so there
weren't a lot of people there.
455
00:27:33,569 --> 00:27:35,412
And I remember sitting with her.
456
00:27:35,696 --> 00:27:37,869
We sat down in the
middle of the floor,
457
00:27:38,157 --> 00:27:40,080
and Otis Redding came
out with his band.
458
00:27:46,081 --> 00:27:49,881
I think when she saw him and
so the way he moved and how
459
00:27:50,169 --> 00:27:52,763
he interpreted a song, I
really think it very much
460
00:27:53,046 --> 00:27:54,423
affected her.
461
00:27:54,715 --> 00:27:56,568
I mean, literally, she'd start
doing this got to, go to,
462
00:27:56,592 --> 00:27:57,093
go to.
463
00:27:57,384 --> 00:27:58,384
She stole that.
464
00:28:05,225 --> 00:28:06,977
Billie Holiday, Aretha Franklin,
465
00:28:07,269 --> 00:28:09,613
now, they are so subtle.
466
00:28:09,897 --> 00:28:13,117
They can milk you
with two notes.
467
00:28:13,400 --> 00:28:16,279
They could go no
farther from A to B,
468
00:28:16,570 --> 00:28:18,131
and they could make you
feel like they told you
469
00:28:18,155 --> 00:28:20,203
the whole universe, you know?
470
00:28:20,490 --> 00:28:21,867
And Otis, too.
471
00:28:22,159 --> 00:28:26,335
And Otis, oh, Otis, my man,
but I don't know that yet.
472
00:28:26,622 --> 00:28:31,594
All I got now is strength,
but maybe if I keep singing,
473
00:28:31,877 --> 00:28:32,548
maybe I'll get it.
474
00:28:32,836 --> 00:28:33,836
That's what I think.
475
00:28:48,894 --> 00:28:50,612
Mother,
haven't heard from you yet.
476
00:28:50,896 --> 00:28:52,944
But I'm brimming with
news, so here I am.
477
00:28:53,232 --> 00:28:54,700
Last weekend, we
played in the city,
478
00:28:54,983 --> 00:28:59,284
and a man from Elektra, a good
label, spoke to me afterwards.
479
00:28:59,571 --> 00:29:01,073
Rothchild feels
that popular music
480
00:29:01,365 --> 00:29:03,083
can't continue getting
farther and farther
481
00:29:03,367 --> 00:29:04,619
out and more chaotic.
482
00:29:04,910 --> 00:29:06,628
He feels there's going
to be a reaction,
483
00:29:06,912 --> 00:29:09,461
and old-fashioned music...
Blues, shuffles, melodic stuff...
484
00:29:09,748 --> 00:29:11,216
Is going to come back in.
485
00:29:11,500 --> 00:29:14,049
Well, Elektra wants to form
the group to be this way,
486
00:29:14,336 --> 00:29:16,179
and they want me.
487
00:29:16,463 --> 00:29:18,650
Wish I could ask someone for
advice that knew and wasn't
488
00:29:18,674 --> 00:29:20,176
biased for any reason.
489
00:29:20,467 --> 00:29:21,889
Ah, dream on, Janis.
490
00:29:31,561 --> 00:29:34,531
We thought maybe we
could get Janis to be
491
00:29:34,815 --> 00:29:36,237
more locked into the group.
492
00:29:36,525 --> 00:29:38,368
I took her down the hill,
down a little pathway
493
00:29:38,652 --> 00:29:40,450
here through the
woods, and talked
494
00:29:40,737 --> 00:29:42,034
to her all about this stuff.
495
00:29:42,322 --> 00:29:46,828
And a lot of what you would
say the American dream
496
00:29:47,119 --> 00:29:53,798
of most girls in the '50s and
'60s came out at that time.
497
00:29:54,084 --> 00:29:56,837
She said, you know, I've
dreamed about all this stuff
498
00:29:57,129 --> 00:29:59,757
all my life, being on the
cover of these magazines
499
00:30:00,048 --> 00:30:04,895
and having a fancy car and
living in a fancy home.
500
00:30:05,178 --> 00:30:06,350
And I don't know what to do.
501
00:30:06,638 --> 00:30:09,016
I mean, you guys are
good stuff, but, I mean-
502
00:30:09,308 --> 00:30:11,468
and I said, you know, a lot
of that stuff was bullshit,
503
00:30:11,685 --> 00:30:13,232
and give us a chance.
504
00:30:13,520 --> 00:30:14,520
Give us a month.
505
00:30:17,357 --> 00:30:21,282
Bobby Shad from Mainstream
Records, he offered us a deal,
506
00:30:21,570 --> 00:30:25,200
and so we signed this
bad record contract.
507
00:30:25,490 --> 00:30:27,413
And at the same
time, in doing so,
508
00:30:27,701 --> 00:30:30,796
we were kind of locking in Janis
and that she knew what she was
509
00:30:31,079 --> 00:30:32,956
doing, that she was
in some way locking
510
00:30:33,248 --> 00:30:37,344
herself in with the band
for at least a few years.
511
00:30:37,627 --> 00:30:38,987
It was good that
she stayed with us
512
00:30:39,254 --> 00:30:40,756
because we let her alone.
513
00:30:41,048 --> 00:30:43,847
You know, we weren't talented
enough to get in her way.
514
00:30:44,134 --> 00:30:44,805
You know what I mean?
515
00:30:45,093 --> 00:30:46,310
We weren't strong enough.
516
00:30:46,595 --> 00:30:49,394
But those guys, you know,
Paul Rothchild, they
517
00:30:49,681 --> 00:30:50,807
would have eaten her alive.
518
00:30:51,099 --> 00:30:54,899
They would have shoved
her over in the corner,
519
00:30:55,187 --> 00:30:57,531
as much as you could
shove Janis in the corner.
520
00:31:01,068 --> 00:31:03,036
In the very
beginning, she didn't
521
00:31:03,320 --> 00:31:04,913
take over as, I'm the singer.
522
00:31:05,197 --> 00:31:06,289
I'm the lead singer.
523
00:31:06,573 --> 00:31:08,667
She really tried to
integrate into the band
524
00:31:08,950 --> 00:31:10,076
and be part of it.
525
00:31:10,369 --> 00:31:12,918
The big turning point
was Monterey Pop.
526
00:31:17,167 --> 00:31:20,671
A very good friend of mine
said, you've got to come
527
00:31:20,962 --> 00:31:23,135
to the Monterey Pop Festival.
528
00:31:23,423 --> 00:31:24,845
There's never been
a Pop Festival.
529
00:31:27,761 --> 00:31:29,481
You know, you're going
to have a great time.
530
00:31:29,554 --> 00:31:30,554
It's a weekend.
531
00:31:30,597 --> 00:31:32,270
It's in Monterey, California.
532
00:31:32,557 --> 00:31:35,356
Simon and Garfunkel were
going to perform there.
533
00:31:35,644 --> 00:31:38,022
That's all I knew about.
534
00:31:38,313 --> 00:31:46,313
So I came here with my khaki
pants and a tennis sweater,
535
00:31:46,947 --> 00:31:52,295
and I was astonished by
everything that I saw.
536
00:31:52,577 --> 00:31:55,046
I got a call from
Lou Adler, who was
537
00:31:55,330 --> 00:31:56,490
the producer of Monterey Pop.
538
00:31:56,706 --> 00:31:59,835
He was also the manager of
the Mamas and the Papas.
539
00:32:00,127 --> 00:32:03,802
He told me there's
in the Monterey Pop Festival.
540
00:32:04,089 --> 00:32:06,763
Well, Big Brother, come.
541
00:32:07,050 --> 00:32:08,050
I saw the future.
542
00:32:19,813 --> 00:32:22,657
He offered me a number,
and I went for it.
543
00:32:22,941 --> 00:32:24,568
I didn't give a damn
about the money.
544
00:32:24,860 --> 00:32:27,864
I knew that this was
going to be a monster.
545
00:32:34,119 --> 00:32:37,714
So I vividly remember
sitting in the grounds
546
00:32:37,998 --> 00:32:41,753
there, being surrounded
by this unusual crowd,
547
00:32:42,043 --> 00:32:44,262
and then they
announced the group.
548
00:32:44,546 --> 00:32:48,722
Three or four years ago,
I ran into a chick in Texas
549
00:32:49,009 --> 00:32:55,642
by the name of Janis Joplin,
and I heard her sing.
550
00:32:55,932 --> 00:32:59,186
And Janis and I hitchhiked
to the West Coast.
551
00:32:59,478 --> 00:33:02,357
A lot of things have gone
down since that time,
552
00:33:02,647 --> 00:33:04,991
but it gives me a
great deal of pride
553
00:33:05,275 --> 00:33:08,324
to present today
the finished product
554
00:33:08,612 --> 00:33:10,580
of three or four years
of work, Big Brother
555
00:33:10,864 --> 00:33:12,036
and the Holding Company.
556
00:33:24,419 --> 00:33:27,013
We had been told
about Monterey Pop
557
00:33:27,297 --> 00:33:29,641
that it was going
to be a big party,
558
00:33:29,925 --> 00:33:31,222
and everybody's
playing for free.
559
00:33:31,510 --> 00:33:32,950
And no one's going
to make any money.
560
00:33:33,053 --> 00:33:35,226
And then all of a sudden
there's a movie being made
561
00:33:35,514 --> 00:33:36,936
by DA Pennebaker,
and they're asking
562
00:33:37,224 --> 00:33:40,945
everybody to sign a release
just before you get on stage.
563
00:33:41,228 --> 00:33:42,946
I thought everybody
in this country
564
00:33:43,230 --> 00:33:44,652
is dying to get
out to California
565
00:33:44,940 --> 00:33:46,567
to see what's going on.
566
00:33:46,858 --> 00:33:50,613
And so, without even
thinking, I said, sure.
567
00:33:50,904 --> 00:33:54,659
Lou Adler wanted me to sign,
as he had everybody sign,
568
00:33:54,950 --> 00:33:56,042
the contract for the movie.
569
00:33:56,326 --> 00:33:57,623
And I said, no.
570
00:33:57,911 --> 00:34:00,710
And he kept on it,
and I kept saying, no.
571
00:34:00,997 --> 00:34:04,376
There was a whole sort of San
Francisco kind of contingent
572
00:34:04,668 --> 00:34:05,988
that was of the
sort of philosophy
573
00:34:06,211 --> 00:34:08,134
that these LA guys
are not going to make
574
00:34:08,421 --> 00:34:10,014
a movie out of out stuff.
575
00:34:10,298 --> 00:34:11,567
We're not going to
be in your movie.
576
00:34:11,591 --> 00:34:13,218
We just came for the party.
577
00:34:13,510 --> 00:34:19,017
There were nine big machine-gun
cameras around the arena.
578
00:34:19,307 --> 00:34:22,356
All nine cameras were
pointed down to the ground.
579
00:34:22,644 --> 00:34:24,817
Now, they're starting
to come off stage.
580
00:34:25,105 --> 00:34:26,948
People are starting
to tell them.
581
00:34:27,232 --> 00:34:27,824
This wasn't filmed.
582
00:34:28,108 --> 00:34:28,609
This wasn't filmed.
583
00:34:28,900 --> 00:34:30,823
This wasn't filmed.
584
00:34:31,111 --> 00:34:34,490
But Janis is really pissed off.
585
00:34:34,781 --> 00:34:36,909
They got to Janis, John Phillips
586
00:34:37,200 --> 00:34:39,874
and Lou Adler and these
people, and they said, look.
587
00:34:40,161 --> 00:34:41,504
We'll put you on again.
588
00:34:41,788 --> 00:34:43,891
We'll give you a second show
if you'll be in the movie.
589
00:34:43,915 --> 00:34:47,294
And to make a long story short,
there was a lot of infighting
590
00:34:47,586 --> 00:34:50,305
amongst the band
and our manager.
591
00:34:50,589 --> 00:34:52,057
Grossman was involved, too.
592
00:34:52,340 --> 00:34:54,342
And Albert Grossman
got involved.
593
00:34:54,634 --> 00:34:56,102
I went to Albert,
and I said, Albert,
594
00:34:56,386 --> 00:34:57,466
I know what you have to do.
595
00:34:57,596 --> 00:35:00,440
But you better find
a way to get her
596
00:35:00,724 --> 00:35:04,649
so that we can film her because
she's really critical to this.
597
00:35:04,936 --> 00:35:07,109
This group we'd
like to bring on now
598
00:35:07,397 --> 00:35:10,367
because of the great acceptance
they had on Saturday afternoon.
599
00:35:16,865 --> 00:35:19,038
From San Francisco,
on Mainstream Records,
600
00:35:19,326 --> 00:35:21,920
let's hear it for Big Brother
and the Holding Company.
601
00:35:27,459 --> 00:35:29,803
Cass was sitting there
in one of the rows,
602
00:35:30,086 --> 00:35:33,932
and I kind of had an
eye on her during Janis
603
00:35:34,215 --> 00:35:38,015
because they had been a
little critical because they
604
00:35:38,303 --> 00:35:39,304
were Los Angelenos.
605
00:35:39,596 --> 00:35:42,145
And the Los Angelenos
were somewhat
606
00:35:42,432 --> 00:35:45,185
critical of the San Franciscans
in terms of the bands.
607
00:35:45,477 --> 00:35:49,573
And so I kind of wanted to
watch her when Janis sang.
608
00:35:57,197 --> 00:36:01,452
Sitting down by my window,
609
00:36:01,743 --> 00:36:05,748
just looking out at the rain.
610
00:36:13,963 --> 00:36:19,265
Something came along,
honey, grabbed a hold of me,
611
00:36:19,552 --> 00:36:24,399
and it felt like
a ball and chain.
612
00:36:24,683 --> 00:36:29,814
Well, yeah.
613
00:36:30,105 --> 00:36:36,363
And I said, oh, oh, oh,
well, honey, this can't be.
614
00:36:36,653 --> 00:36:42,001
This can't be in vain.
615
00:36:42,283 --> 00:36:48,290
Na, na, na, na,
na, na, na, and I
616
00:36:48,581 --> 00:36:54,213
said, oh, oh, oh, well,
honey, oh, this can't be
617
00:36:54,504 --> 00:36:59,180
b... b... b... baby, not in vain.
618
00:36:59,467 --> 00:37:06,601
I said, no, no,
no, no, yeah, whoa,
619
00:37:06,891 --> 00:37:10,521
and I want somebody
to tell me, come on.
620
00:37:10,812 --> 00:37:15,989
And tell me why, why, 0h,
people tell me why love,
621
00:37:16,276 --> 00:37:24,276
honey, why love is like, well,
it's like a ball and a chain.
622
00:38:08,328 --> 00:38:11,332
Once she caught real
recognition at the Monterey Pop
623
00:38:11,623 --> 00:38:15,048
Festival, I think
she began to see
624
00:38:15,335 --> 00:38:16,837
what the possibilities were.
625
00:38:17,128 --> 00:38:20,348
And the possibilities were
somewhat over the top.
626
00:38:25,220 --> 00:38:29,646
Dear Mother, at
last, a tranquil day and time
627
00:38:29,933 --> 00:38:31,526
to write all the good news.
628
00:38:31,810 --> 00:38:35,030
I'm now safely moved into my
new room in our beautiful house
629
00:38:35,313 --> 00:38:36,940
in the country.
630
00:38:37,232 --> 00:38:40,236
Gosh, I can't seem to find
anything else to talk about.
631
00:38:40,527 --> 00:38:42,529
This band is my whole life now.
632
00:38:42,821 --> 00:38:46,371
I really am totally
committed, and I dig it.
633
00:38:46,658 --> 00:38:48,098
I wanted to send
you these clippings.
634
00:38:48,243 --> 00:38:51,087
Since Monterey, all
this has come about.
635
00:38:51,371 --> 00:38:53,373
Did "Port Arthur News"
have anything on these?
636
00:38:53,665 --> 00:38:55,417
If so, please send.
637
00:38:55,708 --> 00:38:57,927
I just may be a star someday.
638
00:38:58,211 --> 00:38:59,428
You know, it's funny.
639
00:38:59,712 --> 00:39:01,760
As it gets closer and more
probable, being a star
640
00:39:02,048 --> 00:39:03,516
is really losing its meaning.
641
00:39:03,800 --> 00:39:06,849
But whatever it
means, I'm ready.
642
00:39:07,136 --> 00:39:09,355
Things are going so
well for me personally.
643
00:39:09,639 --> 00:39:11,061
I have a boyfriend.
644
00:39:11,349 --> 00:39:14,853
He's head of Country Joe and
the Fish, a band from Berkeley.
645
00:39:15,144 --> 00:39:17,613
He' a Capricorn
like me and is 25,
646
00:39:17,897 --> 00:39:19,820
and so far we're
getting along fine.
647
00:39:20,108 --> 00:39:21,588
Everyone in the rock
scene just thinks
648
00:39:21,776 --> 00:39:23,295
it's the cutest thing
they've ever seen,
649
00:39:23,319 --> 00:39:24,571
and it is rather cute actually.
650
00:39:28,199 --> 00:39:30,577
Oh, we were never in
love with each other.
651
00:39:30,869 --> 00:39:36,046
No, no, there was
no sizzle going on.
652
00:39:36,332 --> 00:39:38,255
We were good friends.
653
00:39:38,543 --> 00:39:41,843
We were both control
freaks, both lead singers.
654
00:39:42,130 --> 00:39:44,758
There was a maternal
feminine side of her
655
00:39:45,049 --> 00:39:48,679
that never was allowed to grow.
656
00:39:48,970 --> 00:39:51,723
She was really trying
hard, you know,
657
00:39:52,015 --> 00:39:53,813
and her mother was
coming to town.
658
00:39:54,100 --> 00:39:55,977
She wanted to cook chow
mein for her mother.
659
00:39:56,269 --> 00:39:58,146
She was so worried
that her mother
660
00:39:58,438 --> 00:39:59,860
would like her apartment.
661
00:40:00,148 --> 00:40:02,992
And had just
made that poster of her naked
662
00:40:03,276 --> 00:40:04,823
with the necklaces.
663
00:40:05,111 --> 00:40:06,351
We put them all up on the wall.
664
00:40:09,991 --> 00:40:13,370
We went out to visit her the
Summer of Love as a family.
665
00:40:13,661 --> 00:40:15,834
My brother and I were the
only teenagers who probably
666
00:40:16,122 --> 00:40:17,499
went outwith their parents.
667
00:40:17,790 --> 00:40:18,950
You know, we go to see Janis.
668
00:40:19,042 --> 00:40:20,402
And we're walking
down the streets.
669
00:40:20,460 --> 00:40:24,090
She's showing us around,
and I was so excited.
670
00:40:24,380 --> 00:40:26,132
Then We went to the
Avalon Ballroom,
671
00:40:26,424 --> 00:40:30,349
and Big Brother was not
on the bill that night.
672
00:40:30,637 --> 00:40:32,935
But they went on and
did three or four songs.
673
00:40:33,222 --> 00:40:35,975
Moby Grape let them have
a set because Janis's
674
00:40:36,267 --> 00:40:38,895
parents were there.
675
00:40:39,187 --> 00:40:41,281
When we were getting
ready to leave,
676
00:40:41,564 --> 00:40:45,865
I remember overhearing one of
my parents tell the other one,
677
00:40:46,152 --> 00:40:48,530
you know, dear, I
don't think we're going
678
00:40:48,821 --> 00:40:50,289
to have much influence anymore.
679
00:40:57,330 --> 00:41:00,755
I think that her own
telling of her story
680
00:41:01,042 --> 00:41:06,390
was about the ability to make
your life fit your values,
681
00:41:06,673 --> 00:41:09,722
and she found that
opportunity in the music
682
00:41:10,009 --> 00:41:17,439
world of the 1960s.
683
00:41:17,725 --> 00:41:20,854
The social acceptance that
she'd always wanted was there,
684
00:41:21,145 --> 00:41:23,489
and it just propelled
her forward.
685
00:41:23,773 --> 00:41:24,319
Come on.
686
00:41:24,607 --> 00:41:26,280
Come on.
687
00:41:26,567 --> 00:41:27,784
Come on.
688
00:41:28,069 --> 00:41:29,321
Come on.
689
00:41:29,612 --> 00:41:37,612
Didn't I make you feel
like you were the only man?
690
00:41:38,997 --> 00:41:42,376
It felt so fresh
and so different
691
00:41:42,667 --> 00:41:43,987
for someone who'd
been an outcast.
692
00:41:47,588 --> 00:41:50,842
Each time I tell myself that I,
693
00:41:51,134 --> 00:41:53,307
well, I think I've had enough.
694
00:41:53,594 --> 00:41:59,317
But I'm gonna show you, baby,
that a woman can be tough.
695
00:41:59,600 --> 00:42:00,772
I want you to come on.
696
00:42:01,060 --> 00:42:02,733
Come on.
697
00:42:03,021 --> 00:42:04,238
Come on.
698
00:42:04,522 --> 00:42:05,739
Come on.
699
00:42:06,024 --> 00:42:07,241
Take it.
700
00:42:07,525 --> 00:42:11,155
Take another little piece
of my heart now, baby.
701
00:42:11,446 --> 00:42:12,618
Break it.
702
00:42:12,905 --> 00:42:17,581
Break another little piece
of my heart, oh, yeah.
703
00:42:17,869 --> 00:42:19,041
Come on.
704
00:42:19,328 --> 00:42:23,458
Take another little piece
of my heart now, baby.
705
00:42:23,750 --> 00:42:28,256
You know you got it if
it makes you feel good.
706
00:42:31,382 --> 00:42:33,805
You've got another
manager, Albert Grossman,
707
00:42:34,093 --> 00:42:35,811
who also manages Bob Dylan.
708
00:42:36,095 --> 00:42:39,599
Yeah, he's better.
709
00:42:39,891 --> 00:42:42,565
Dear Mother,
as of yesterday afternoon,
710
00:42:42,852 --> 00:42:44,650
we're officially with Columbia.
711
00:42:44,937 --> 00:42:46,814
Wow, I'm so lucky.
712
00:42:47,106 --> 00:42:51,327
25, 25, 25, it's
all too incredible.
713
00:42:51,611 --> 00:42:53,784
I just fumbled around
being a mixed-up kid
714
00:42:54,072 --> 00:42:55,619
and then fell into this.
715
00:42:55,907 --> 00:42:57,267
Finally, it looks
like something is
716
00:42:57,366 --> 00:42:58,646
gonna work for me... incredible.
717
00:43:09,295 --> 00:43:13,175
February 20, 1968,
Dear Mother, our record
718
00:43:13,466 --> 00:43:15,013
is a success story in itself.
719
00:43:15,301 --> 00:43:17,895
We got a gold album
in three days,
720
00:43:18,179 --> 00:43:20,932
and the most fantastic thing of
all happened at the Rose Bowl.
721
00:43:21,224 --> 00:43:23,304
The cops wouldn't let the
kids off the grass near us.
722
00:43:23,518 --> 00:43:25,771
And all of a sudden they
broke, just like a wave,
723
00:43:26,062 --> 00:43:27,609
and swarmed onto the field.
724
00:43:27,897 --> 00:43:30,320
They were pulling on my
clothes, my beads, calling,
725
00:43:30,608 --> 00:43:33,031
Janis, Janis, we love you.
726
00:43:33,319 --> 00:43:34,536
Come on.
727
00:43:34,821 --> 00:43:38,917
Take another little piece
of my heart now baby.
728
00:43:39,200 --> 00:43:43,797
You know you got it, man,
if it makes you feel good.
729
00:43:46,874 --> 00:43:50,845
She had a sense that as long
as people gave her the stage,
730
00:43:51,129 --> 00:43:52,129
she would be a winner.
731
00:43:59,470 --> 00:44:00,767
Let's sit down, boys.
732
00:44:01,055 --> 00:44:02,272
Come on, boys.
733
00:44:02,557 --> 00:44:04,935
Let's sit down.
734
00:44:05,226 --> 00:44:07,274
Here we are, sitting down.
735
00:44:07,562 --> 00:44:09,189
Almost everybody's sitting down.
736
00:44:09,480 --> 00:44:10,026
Oh, yes.
737
00:44:10,314 --> 00:44:12,316
Fantastic.
738
00:44:12,608 --> 00:44:14,360
Is there a San Francisco sound?
739
00:44:14,652 --> 00:44:16,825
And if so, what is it,
and how did it start?
740
00:44:17,113 --> 00:44:19,433
The thing that makes what they
call the San Francisco music
741
00:44:19,657 --> 00:44:21,830
scene, as far as I'm concerned,
is, like, first of all,
742
00:44:22,118 --> 00:44:23,791
the freedom to create here.
743
00:44:24,078 --> 00:44:26,078
You know, for some reason,
like, a lot of musicians
744
00:44:26,205 --> 00:44:28,003
ended up here and
ended up together
745
00:44:28,291 --> 00:44:30,760
and had complete freedom to
do whatever they wanted to.
746
00:44:31,043 --> 00:44:32,966
And so they came up with
their own kind of music.
747
00:44:33,254 --> 00:44:36,258
What do you think, Sam?
748
00:44:40,052 --> 00:44:41,052
Honey.
749
00:44:45,766 --> 00:44:47,359
That's what we call
love music, baby.
750
00:45:01,407 --> 00:45:04,160
Not bad.
751
00:45:04,452 --> 00:45:05,971
Well, here we are,
together again at last,
752
00:45:05,995 --> 00:45:07,167
by popular demand.
- Honey.
753
00:45:07,455 --> 00:45:08,126
How are ya?
754
00:45:08,414 --> 00:45:09,558
Yeah, I don't know what it was.
755
00:45:09,582 --> 00:45:10,959
We sort of hit it
off right away.
756
00:45:11,250 --> 00:45:13,844
Was she romantically
attached to me?
757
00:45:14,128 --> 00:45:15,801
I would hope so.
758
00:45:16,088 --> 00:45:17,368
May I light your fire, my child?
759
00:45:21,010 --> 00:45:22,010
I guess not.
760
00:45:22,261 --> 00:45:24,730
Apparently not,
no, well, I would
761
00:45:25,014 --> 00:45:26,186
have bet against it myself.
762
00:45:26,474 --> 00:45:27,474
We were good friends.
763
00:45:27,516 --> 00:45:29,689
And I will level with you.
764
00:45:29,977 --> 00:45:37,577
We may or may not have
ended up intimate.
765
00:45:37,860 --> 00:45:40,283
I just, you know,
my memory is so bad.
766
00:45:43,157 --> 00:45:44,157
Or so good.
767
00:45:46,911 --> 00:45:49,790
We lived in the
Chelsea Hotel while we
768
00:45:50,081 --> 00:45:52,504
were making Cheap Thrills
and while we were touring.
769
00:45:52,792 --> 00:45:54,044
And we lived in Los Angeles.
770
00:45:54,335 --> 00:45:56,212
About half the time,
we were in Hollywood,
771
00:45:56,504 --> 00:46:00,008
and half the time we were at
the Chelsea Hotel in Manhattan.
772
00:46:00,299 --> 00:46:02,472
And it was just so much fun.
773
00:46:02,760 --> 00:46:07,436
You know, we would get together
and do heroin at these people's
774
00:46:07,723 --> 00:46:13,401
rooms and just kind of not nod
off or go to sleep or something
775
00:46:13,688 --> 00:46:16,692
but just have really nice
mellow conversations.
776
00:46:41,257 --> 00:46:46,138
She liked New York, and it had
that tombstone quality for her.
777
00:46:46,429 --> 00:46:49,353
And so I was going to do a
little film with her because I
778
00:46:49,640 --> 00:46:50,812
really liked her a lot.
779
00:46:51,100 --> 00:46:55,446
And she was recording
stuff with the band,
780
00:46:55,730 --> 00:46:59,155
and I would go and
listen and film them.
781
00:47:02,320 --> 00:47:06,917
I was interested mostly in
how she understood to control
782
00:47:07,199 --> 00:47:09,327
her singing because
her singing had
783
00:47:09,618 --> 00:47:15,000
this thing of when she'd lose
it, she would shout and scream.
784
00:47:15,291 --> 00:47:18,761
And sometimes that
was very effective,
785
00:47:19,045 --> 00:47:21,969
but the music had to have
something more to it than that.
786
00:47:32,933 --> 00:47:36,563
Liar, I think it's a
real good-liar, liar.
787
00:47:36,854 --> 00:47:37,946
Let's do Summertime.
788
00:47:38,230 --> 00:47:41,325
OK, let's go.
789
00:47:53,996 --> 00:47:59,469
Play the second one,
when she goes, no, no, no,
790
00:47:59,752 --> 00:48:00,878
don't you cry.
791
00:48:01,170 --> 00:48:05,596
No, no, no,
no, no, don't you cry.
792
00:48:05,883 --> 00:48:07,003
At the very end of the song.
793
00:48:07,259 --> 00:48:08,779
End of the song, the
last chord of the song.
794
00:48:08,803 --> 00:48:12,353
You're first G major
arpeggio, I think, is wrong.
795
00:48:12,640 --> 00:48:13,857
That's when she says, cry.
796
00:48:14,141 --> 00:48:16,439
What do you want, like,
six arpeggios of G minor?
797
00:48:16,727 --> 00:48:18,647
Because it changes to B
minor for two after that.
798
00:48:18,854 --> 00:48:19,854
He's already in a major.
799
00:48:19,897 --> 00:48:21,097
He's trying to get in a minor.
800
00:48:25,820 --> 00:48:26,912
We can do it either way.
801
00:48:27,196 --> 00:48:29,073
I mean, they're both
valid approaches.
802
00:48:29,365 --> 00:48:31,208
But I think if we...
Like, it's 10 o'clock.
803
00:48:31,492 --> 00:48:33,836
I think by 4:00 we
could have Summertime.
804
00:48:34,120 --> 00:48:36,794
I'd say if we don't do it
by 12 o'clock or 1 o'clock,
805
00:48:37,081 --> 00:48:39,101
we can spend a few hours doing
something else, you know?
806
00:48:39,125 --> 00:48:41,719
If you all voted to do
a bunch of them tonight,
807
00:48:42,002 --> 00:48:43,002
it's OK with me.
808
00:48:43,212 --> 00:48:44,398
But I personally
don't agree with it.
809
00:48:44,422 --> 00:48:45,782
Playing it and
listening to it back
810
00:48:46,006 --> 00:48:47,849
ain't gonna take
us a damn thing.
811
00:48:48,134 --> 00:48:50,182
Man, I know exactly what
that song sounds like,
812
00:48:50,469 --> 00:48:52,549
and I've racked my brain to
try and get ideas for it,
813
00:48:52,638 --> 00:48:53,890
as I'm sure everybody else has.
814
00:48:54,181 --> 00:48:55,701
D major and D minor
sing don't you cry.
815
00:48:55,933 --> 00:48:56,952
I don't even know what it says.
816
00:48:56,976 --> 00:48:58,148
Turn that mic thing off.
817
00:48:58,436 --> 00:49:00,438
OK,.
818
00:49:00,729 --> 00:49:02,356
Hey, don't go away.
819
00:49:40,060 --> 00:49:41,580
You look so cute when
you're passed out.
820
00:49:41,604 --> 00:49:42,275
You look just like a hot dog.
821
00:49:42,563 --> 00:49:43,563
OK.
822
00:49:48,194 --> 00:49:49,194
OK, good time.
823
00:49:56,368 --> 00:49:57,888
You dug it the first
time you heard it.
824
00:49:57,912 --> 00:49:58,912
Yeah, I did dig it.
825
00:49:59,163 --> 00:50:00,223
I did dig it the
first time I heard it.
826
00:50:00,247 --> 00:50:01,373
I also liked the other way.
827
00:50:01,665 --> 00:50:04,885
I mean, I think maybe an
adaptation or.
828
00:50:05,169 --> 00:50:07,547
Yeah, right, because, like,
yours had a lot of lyricism
829
00:50:07,838 --> 00:50:11,388
to it, but this has nothing
but-frenetic is the word.
830
00:50:51,006 --> 00:50:56,006
Oh, one of
these mornings, child,
831
00:51:01,600 --> 00:51:03,819
you'll rise up singing, babe.
832
00:51:08,065 --> 00:51:14,914
I said you're gonna go, honey,
gonna spread your wings.
833
00:51:15,197 --> 00:51:18,792
Honey, take, take to the sky.
834
00:51:21,912 --> 00:51:22,912
Move the sky.
835
00:51:26,208 --> 00:51:31,208
Until that morning, honey, no,
nothing's gonna harm you, baby.
836
00:51:39,346 --> 00:51:42,395
I said, honey, nothings
ever gonna let you down.
837
00:51:42,683 --> 00:51:44,936
Oh, it just wouldn't do it.
838
00:51:45,227 --> 00:51:51,451
Hush, baby, baby,
baby, baby, baby, baby.
839
00:51:51,734 --> 00:51:53,953
No, no, no, no, don't you cry.
840
00:52:13,464 --> 00:52:17,264
Janis Joplin and the Holding
Company, aren't they great?
841
00:52:17,551 --> 00:52:19,613
Absolutely great, Janis, I just
thought you were wonderful.
842
00:52:19,637 --> 00:52:22,516
You know, you were written up
recently in "Life Magazine,"
843
00:52:22,806 --> 00:52:24,353
and I have a copy here.
844
00:52:24,642 --> 00:52:26,360
And I'd like to read
what you were quoted
845
00:52:26,644 --> 00:52:29,443
as saying about your music.
846
00:52:29,730 --> 00:52:33,701
The audience sitting
down is a weird trip.
847
00:52:36,862 --> 00:52:38,785
It's like separateness.
848
00:52:39,073 --> 00:52:42,043
But when they're dancing,
they're doing it with you,
849
00:52:42,326 --> 00:52:43,748
like you said it to them.
850
00:52:44,036 --> 00:52:49,509
And they've got it, and you
can play freer and freer.
851
00:52:49,792 --> 00:52:51,669
Would you care to
elaborate on that?
852
00:52:54,880 --> 00:52:56,928
It sounds different when
you say it,.
853
00:52:57,216 --> 00:52:59,890
It's sort of like
you as a performer
854
00:53:00,177 --> 00:53:03,681
will understand like an audience
communicating with a performer.
855
00:53:03,972 --> 00:53:06,395
Instead of one giving
and one receiving,
856
00:53:06,684 --> 00:53:08,106
it's, like, a reciprocal thing.
857
00:53:08,394 --> 00:53:10,372
When an audience is dancing,
they're communicating with you.
858
00:53:10,396 --> 00:53:11,790
And you know that
you're getting to them.
859
00:53:11,814 --> 00:53:13,454
And they're grooving,
and you're grooving.
860
00:53:13,524 --> 00:53:14,946
And it's sort of like feedback.
861
00:53:15,234 --> 00:53:16,628
Do you know what feedback
is in amplifiers?
862
00:53:16,652 --> 00:53:17,904
Yes.
863
00:53:18,195 --> 00:53:19,339
When you play the note
too loud, and the amplifier
864
00:53:19,363 --> 00:53:19,955
will play it back.
865
00:53:20,239 --> 00:53:21,616
And you play it back.
866
00:53:21,907 --> 00:53:22,926
And it goes around and back,
and it just makes everything
867
00:53:22,950 --> 00:53:24,327
go higher and higher.
868
00:53:24,618 --> 00:53:28,213
I see, well, that...
That clears it up for me.
869
00:53:32,042 --> 00:53:34,795
Dear family,
lots of trouble in the band,
870
00:53:35,087 --> 00:53:36,567
most of them revolving
around the fact
871
00:53:36,839 --> 00:53:38,591
that I think I'm hot
shit, as I'm told
872
00:53:38,882 --> 00:53:40,225
by everyone from Albert down.
873
00:53:40,509 --> 00:53:42,307
And the band is sloppy.
874
00:53:42,594 --> 00:53:44,267
When she came into
the band, Peter
875
00:53:44,555 --> 00:53:46,275
was the leader of the
band, the bass player,
876
00:53:46,390 --> 00:53:49,985
and James was the
mythic, iconic, you know,
877
00:53:50,269 --> 00:53:51,521
beautiful figure.
878
00:53:51,812 --> 00:53:53,280
He represented the band.
879
00:53:56,358 --> 00:53:57,405
And then here comes Janis.
880
00:53:57,693 --> 00:53:58,973
And when she joined
the band, she
881
00:53:59,027 --> 00:54:00,324
became both of those things.
882
00:54:00,612 --> 00:54:03,331
They had a very complicated
reaction to her fame.
883
00:54:09,747 --> 00:54:12,591
There was a cadre
of hangers that
884
00:54:12,875 --> 00:54:16,129
sort of insulated her from her
band, from what I could see.
885
00:54:16,420 --> 00:54:18,593
And it was just a matter
of time until somebody
886
00:54:18,881 --> 00:54:24,103
tried to polish her up and
make a big star out of her.
887
00:54:24,386 --> 00:54:27,310
It's crazy, now, to think back
at it that we signed, you know,
888
00:54:27,598 --> 00:54:28,998
a management agreement
with the guy.
889
00:54:29,266 --> 00:54:30,734
But I think from
the very get go,
890
00:54:31,018 --> 00:54:34,272
I think there was a sense that
he was not a big fan of ours,
891
00:54:34,563 --> 00:54:36,816
that he really was into Janis.
892
00:54:37,107 --> 00:54:42,534
But we wanted to believe that he
would work for the whole band.
893
00:54:42,821 --> 00:54:45,119
And the guys in the
band were powerless.
894
00:54:45,407 --> 00:54:48,456
No one had the ability to
stop that from happening.
895
00:54:48,744 --> 00:54:50,997
She was a singularity,
and she attracted
896
00:54:51,288 --> 00:54:52,288
that kind of attention.
897
00:54:54,792 --> 00:54:57,511
She cared about Big
Brother's career.
898
00:54:57,795 --> 00:55:00,765
She loved those guys, but
there was something that she
899
00:55:01,048 --> 00:55:04,769
saw that was beyond that.
900
00:55:05,052 --> 00:55:09,023
And if she didn't do it,
she'd never know if she could.
901
00:55:09,306 --> 00:55:11,900
Dear family,
so we're back in California
902
00:55:12,184 --> 00:55:13,936
for two more weeks.
903
00:55:14,228 --> 00:55:16,777
After that, begins
my hardest task.
904
00:55:17,064 --> 00:55:19,658
I told you, remember, that
I was leaving Big Brother
905
00:55:19,942 --> 00:55:21,865
and going to do a
thing on my own.
906
00:55:22,152 --> 00:55:24,433
There will be a whole lot of
pressure because of the vibes
907
00:55:24,655 --> 00:55:26,123
created by my
leaving Big Brother,
908
00:55:26,406 --> 00:55:28,204
and also just how big I am now.
909
00:55:35,040 --> 00:55:37,000
Nobody ever saw her wearing
those kind of clothes,
910
00:55:37,167 --> 00:55:38,510
but that's the
kind of clothes she
911
00:55:38,794 --> 00:55:40,421
had when she came for Texas.
912
00:55:40,712 --> 00:55:42,774
If someone said, well, what
did you learn from Janis?
913
00:55:42,798 --> 00:55:43,798
What did she teach you?
914
00:55:44,049 --> 00:55:45,801
If I had to say
it in a sentence,
915
00:55:46,093 --> 00:55:52,351
it's emotional honesty and the
price of not emotional honesty.
916
00:55:52,641 --> 00:55:54,063
She started to lose that.
917
00:55:54,351 --> 00:55:57,355
She started to become something
that people expected of her.
918
00:55:57,646 --> 00:55:59,523
She started to
become a caricature
919
00:55:59,815 --> 00:56:04,116
of what she was and play
it for people, you know?
920
00:56:04,403 --> 00:56:07,623
And I think that
hurt her in some way.
921
00:56:07,906 --> 00:56:11,331
Take this lonely heart
from one lonely girl.
922
00:56:11,618 --> 00:56:15,668
Reach in to high, babe, can't
help from getting burned.
923
00:56:15,956 --> 00:56:19,551
Everything she ever wrote
pretty much is autobiographical.
924
00:56:19,835 --> 00:56:21,475
And I thought the
reaching too high, babe,
925
00:56:21,503 --> 00:56:23,881
too, this is done
right at the time
926
00:56:24,172 --> 00:56:26,925
when she's leaving Big Brother.
927
00:56:27,217 --> 00:56:30,096
She knows she's kind of
going to go for some higher
928
00:56:30,387 --> 00:56:33,266
level of fame and
stardom and, you know,
929
00:56:33,557 --> 00:56:34,934
she might fall on her face.
930
00:56:35,225 --> 00:56:35,896
She knew that.
931
00:56:36,184 --> 00:56:37,184
It might not work out.
932
00:56:37,394 --> 00:56:38,394
She might get burned.
933
00:56:48,113 --> 00:56:51,663
The fallout for James
and Peter and David
934
00:56:51,950 --> 00:56:55,454
was significant because
Janis asked Sam to come
935
00:56:55,746 --> 00:56:57,168
with her to her new band.
936
00:57:00,500 --> 00:57:01,500
I loved Jan.
937
00:57:01,627 --> 00:57:02,907
I loved her all the way through.
938
00:57:03,045 --> 00:57:05,013
You know, the first
time I ever saw her,
939
00:57:05,297 --> 00:57:08,301
she just had this
attitude that I liked.
940
00:57:08,592 --> 00:57:11,220
It wasn't belligerent, but
it was non-compromising.
941
00:57:17,726 --> 00:57:18,773
She's loud.
942
00:57:19,061 --> 00:57:22,110
She's one of these
loud Texas women.
943
00:57:22,397 --> 00:57:27,403
She's real smart and
considerate most of the time.
944
00:57:27,694 --> 00:57:29,947
And we both had
real quick tempers.
945
00:57:46,713 --> 00:57:48,886
They called me up
to play with Janis,
946
00:57:49,174 --> 00:57:50,391
so they sent me a ticket.
947
00:57:50,676 --> 00:57:53,520
And I went to New York.
948
00:57:53,804 --> 00:57:55,602
And I went there, and
they opened the door.
949
00:57:55,889 --> 00:58:00,315
And this girl had on a
bra and some panties.
950
00:58:00,602 --> 00:58:02,400
She said, hi, I'm Janis.
951
00:58:02,688 --> 00:58:04,048
I said, hi, I'm in
the right place.
952
00:58:10,320 --> 00:58:12,573
And she started singing.
953
00:58:12,864 --> 00:58:14,707
I said, damn.
954
00:58:14,992 --> 00:58:15,992
Are you sure she's white?
955
00:58:19,746 --> 00:58:21,874
When you quit Big Brother
and the Holding Company,
956
00:58:22,165 --> 00:58:24,839
why did you do that?
957
00:58:25,127 --> 00:58:30,600
Well, just because it was
sort of just time for us,
958
00:58:30,882 --> 00:58:32,509
I think, to go on and
do something else.
959
00:58:32,801 --> 00:58:33,973
You know what I mean?
960
00:58:34,261 --> 00:58:38,232
Like, you grow together,
you know, a certain way,
961
00:58:38,515 --> 00:58:40,813
and you sort of
exhaust each other.
962
00:58:41,101 --> 00:58:43,141
You exhaust the good that
you can do for each other,
963
00:58:43,311 --> 00:58:45,313
and it was just
time for us to start
964
00:58:45,605 --> 00:58:47,528
growing in other directions.
965
00:58:47,816 --> 00:58:48,816
You know what I mean?
966
00:58:51,486 --> 00:58:53,339
You know, I think you
really grow as a musician.
967
00:58:53,363 --> 00:58:55,866
And that's what, after all,
we're supposed to be all about,
968
00:58:56,158 --> 00:58:58,078
is trying to get better
at what we do, you know'?
969
00:59:03,498 --> 00:59:05,216
San Francisco was
the first place,
970
00:59:05,500 --> 00:59:10,222
the first community, Where
Janis really felt at home.
971
00:59:10,505 --> 00:59:12,974
When she left Big
Brother, she lost it.
972
00:59:46,583 --> 00:59:48,677
The pressure to
succeed was huge,
973
00:59:48,960 --> 00:59:51,463
and she was carrying
around this weight.
974
01:00:00,555 --> 01:00:02,523
You know, she didn't
know how to lead a band.
975
01:00:02,808 --> 01:00:05,152
That's one of the
reasons it was a mistake.
976
01:00:05,435 --> 01:00:06,875
She didn't know how
to lead the band.
977
01:00:07,145 --> 01:00:10,240
And she was in charge, so she
had people putting together
978
01:00:10,524 --> 01:00:14,779
that band for her, along with a
lot of other strange people who
979
01:00:15,070 --> 01:00:16,788
were appointed band directors.
980
01:00:17,072 --> 01:00:19,325
It wasn't working.
981
01:00:22,369 --> 01:00:25,794
There were changes in
personnel, and none of it
982
01:00:26,081 --> 01:00:28,004
solved anything.
983
01:00:28,291 --> 01:00:33,092
We went to Europe only, like,
two months into touring.
984
01:00:33,380 --> 01:00:35,380
She's there with a new band
which doesn't know what
985
01:00:35,549 --> 01:00:38,428
the hell it's supposed to be.
986
01:00:38,718 --> 01:00:39,890
OK, You GUYS-
987
01:00:43,098 --> 01:00:45,021
You know what?
988
01:00:45,308 --> 01:00:48,357
I make it a policy.
989
01:00:48,645 --> 01:00:53,526
We played in Frankfurt,
and Janis was freaking out.
990
01:00:53,817 --> 01:00:56,445
We peeped out a curtain,
and all of these dudes
991
01:00:56,736 --> 01:00:59,660
were sitting there with
their little haircuts,
992
01:00:59,948 --> 01:01:04,579
like you put a bowl on their
head and cut around the bowl.
993
01:01:04,870 --> 01:01:05,917
(Is everybody read)”
994
01:01:06,204 --> 01:01:07,205
But we felt like playing.
995
01:01:07,497 --> 01:01:10,091
We said, hey, man,
we'll play the show.
996
01:01:10,375 --> 01:01:14,380
If y'all want to boogie, come
on up here with us and boogie.
997
01:01:22,220 --> 01:01:24,939
If there's something you need,
998
01:01:25,223 --> 01:01:29,444
hun, that you've never ever
had, I know you've never had it.
999
01:01:29,728 --> 01:01:32,447
Oh, honey, don't you
sit there crying.
1000
01:01:32,731 --> 01:01:36,452
Don't just sit there
feeling bad, no, no, no.
1001
01:01:36,735 --> 01:01:37,952
You better get up.
1002
01:01:38,236 --> 01:01:39,453
Now, do you understand?
1003
01:01:39,738 --> 01:01:40,955
Raise your hand.
1004
01:01:41,239 --> 01:01:42,957
Hey, hey! hey.
1005
01:01:43,241 --> 01:01:45,460
Raise your hand.
1006
01:01:45,744 --> 01:01:47,667
Right here, right now.
1007
01:01:47,954 --> 01:01:48,954
Hey.
1008
01:01:52,125 --> 01:01:56,380
Whoa, oh, yeah.
1009
01:02:15,273 --> 01:02:15,865
I'm nobody.
1010
01:02:16,149 --> 01:02:17,401
I'm just a fan.
1011
01:02:17,692 --> 01:02:19,410
No, I'm just a fan.
1012
01:02:19,694 --> 01:02:21,367
I'm crazy about her.
1013
01:02:21,655 --> 01:02:22,372
Where from you are friend?
1014
01:02:22,656 --> 01:02:23,373
I can't talk.
1015
01:02:23,657 --> 01:02:24,374
Quit taking pictures of me.
1016
01:02:24,658 --> 01:02:25,875
Why not?
1017
01:02:26,159 --> 01:02:27,159
Because I'm not groovy.
1018
01:02:27,369 --> 01:02:27,870
She's groovy.
1019
01:02:28,161 --> 01:02:29,161
Look at her.
1020
01:02:34,542 --> 01:02:37,921
I guess because we're
strangers in foreign lands,
1021
01:02:38,213 --> 01:02:39,931
the Cosmic Blues
Band came together.
1022
01:02:43,343 --> 01:02:47,018
The Albert Hall in London
was the last concert,
1023
01:02:47,305 --> 01:02:50,525
and Janis knew that
Bob Dylan had sold out.
1024
01:02:50,809 --> 01:02:53,733
And she was really excited
about playing the Albert Hall,
1025
01:02:54,020 --> 01:02:55,863
and she did sell out.
1026
01:02:56,147 --> 01:02:58,525
She got people dancing in the
aisles at the Albert Hall,
1027
01:02:58,817 --> 01:03:01,320
and she was just ecstatic after.
1028
01:03:01,611 --> 01:03:04,660
Excited,
woo, nobody ever-nobody,
1029
01:03:04,948 --> 01:03:07,121
anybody, ever thought
it would be that good.
1030
01:03:07,409 --> 01:03:08,786
Nobody's ever
fucking got up yet.
1031
01:03:09,077 --> 01:03:11,000
No one's ever got up
and danced and dug it.
1032
01:03:11,288 --> 01:03:14,007
No one's ever done anything
there, and they did it, man.
1033
01:03:14,291 --> 01:03:16,419
They fucking got up and grooved.
1034
01:03:16,710 --> 01:03:18,804
Then they listened.
1035
01:03:19,087 --> 01:03:20,714
God, I'm so happy, woo-hoe.
1036
01:03:33,143 --> 01:03:35,942
When Janis was on stage
and things were going well,
1037
01:03:36,229 --> 01:03:37,389
all was right with the world.
1038
01:03:40,150 --> 01:03:43,745
But after that hour, you've
got to come off stage.
1039
01:03:52,203 --> 01:03:54,877
She used to say that
it was like making love,
1040
01:03:55,165 --> 01:03:59,261
being on the stage, you
know, but it's an illusion.
1041
01:03:59,544 --> 01:04:02,172
When the show's over,
the audience leaves,
1042
01:04:02,464 --> 01:04:03,664
and you're left with yourself.
1043
01:04:16,394 --> 01:04:21,241
She rarely was using
heroin before a concert
1044
01:04:21,524 --> 01:04:24,653
because it wasn't the right
kind of energy for onstage,
1045
01:04:24,944 --> 01:04:26,446
and she cared about that.
1046
01:04:26,738 --> 01:04:30,208
But her after-the-concert
fix was a real regular thing.
1047
01:04:33,119 --> 01:04:35,167
We were devolving into this drug
1048
01:04:35,455 --> 01:04:37,503
use that was way out of hand.
1049
01:04:37,791 --> 01:04:41,011
I have to, you know,
digress for a second say,
1050
01:04:41,294 --> 01:04:44,548
when Janis was in Big Brother,
Peter didn't do any drugs.
1051
01:04:44,839 --> 01:04:46,637
You know, so out
of respect to him,
1052
01:04:46,925 --> 01:04:50,975
we kept it toned down a lot.
1053
01:04:51,262 --> 01:04:54,061
So now she's in Cosmic
Blues so we're doing really
1054
01:04:54,349 --> 01:04:56,397
a lot of drugs, you know,
because Peter's not-...
1055
01:04:56,684 --> 01:04:58,231
Daddy isn't there anymore.
1056
01:04:58,520 --> 01:05:00,864
We're free, and we can
do all these drugs now.
1057
01:05:03,983 --> 01:05:05,781
So it really got out of hand.
1058
01:05:06,069 --> 01:05:09,744
In Los Angeles, in particular,
at the Landmark Hotel,
1059
01:05:10,031 --> 01:05:11,283
she called me to her room.
1060
01:05:11,574 --> 01:05:15,249
And she said, your services
are no longer needed.
1061
01:05:15,537 --> 01:05:17,457
And so then we shot up
some heroin, and she said,
1062
01:05:17,622 --> 01:05:19,169
well, aren't you
going to ask me why?
1063
01:05:21,835 --> 01:05:23,929
I said what difference
does it make?
1064
01:05:24,212 --> 01:05:27,386
It was just like a marriage, you
know, it had run out of juice.
1065
01:05:27,674 --> 01:05:32,896
And a lot of our friends
were dying that year.
1066
01:05:33,179 --> 01:05:35,307
She's lying on a motel
bed, and she says,
1067
01:05:35,598 --> 01:05:37,646
it's not going to happen to me.
1068
01:05:37,934 --> 01:05:39,777
She said, my people
are pioneer stock,
1069
01:05:40,061 --> 01:05:41,741
you know, and they came
across the country.
1070
01:05:41,980 --> 01:05:42,980
And they came to Texas.
1071
01:05:43,022 --> 01:05:44,069
They're tough.
1072
01:05:44,357 --> 01:05:45,779
I've got those
genes, and nothing's
1073
01:05:46,067 --> 01:05:47,319
going to happen to me.
1074
01:05:47,610 --> 01:05:49,988
And I said, shit, I wish
you wouldn't have said that.
1075
01:06:45,877 --> 01:06:48,756
We had heard about Woodstock
from pretty well in advance.
1076
01:06:49,047 --> 01:06:50,264
And we thought, oh, great.
1077
01:06:50,548 --> 01:06:53,301
It's the next Monterey.
1078
01:06:53,593 --> 01:06:59,350
It's a very warm summer day,
and all this variety of choppers
1079
01:06:59,641 --> 01:07:00,721
are taking off and landing.
1080
01:07:03,561 --> 01:07:07,566
I do remember that Peggy
was on the airlift zone
1081
01:07:07,857 --> 01:07:10,701
where we took off from.
1082
01:07:10,985 --> 01:07:14,910
I was always apprehensive when
Peggy was around because I felt
1083
01:07:15,198 --> 01:07:18,077
that she would be an enabler,
rather than a helper,
1084
01:07:18,368 --> 01:07:19,711
with the drug problem.
1085
01:07:24,457 --> 01:07:28,553
She called and
said, you have to come.
1086
01:07:28,836 --> 01:07:31,840
I said, I can't, because
we were hearing reports
1087
01:07:32,131 --> 01:07:34,054
that the turnpike
was bogged down.
1088
01:07:34,342 --> 01:07:36,265
And people were out of
gas and having babies,
1089
01:07:36,553 --> 01:07:40,603
and, you know, it was like
locusts coming through.
1090
01:07:40,890 --> 01:07:43,018
And so I said the
only way I'd come out
1091
01:07:43,309 --> 01:07:45,152
there is if I was airlifted in.
1092
01:07:45,436 --> 01:07:46,436
And she said, OK.
1093
01:08:06,457 --> 01:08:11,054
We were both around the
same age in the South
1094
01:08:11,337 --> 01:08:13,180
with middle-class families.
1095
01:08:13,464 --> 01:08:18,971
But I think Janis had a
harder time of coming through.
1096
01:08:19,262 --> 01:08:22,141
But on the other hand, you know,
people tend to take because
1097
01:08:22,432 --> 01:08:25,276
of that she was depressed.
1098
01:08:25,560 --> 01:08:27,312
She wasn't.
1099
01:08:27,604 --> 01:08:29,948
It was all fun.
1100
01:08:30,231 --> 01:08:34,611
We shot heroin for fun,
and it took the edge off.
1101
01:08:34,902 --> 01:08:37,405
We were in the midst
of one of the most
1102
01:08:37,697 --> 01:08:39,244
social phenomenons in history.
1103
01:08:44,329 --> 01:08:45,956
What I understand
is she got very
1104
01:08:46,247 --> 01:08:52,846
high shooting up in the
portisan and couldn't go on.
1105
01:08:53,129 --> 01:08:55,678
Finally, Peggy and John Cooke
had to push her onstage.
1106
01:09:07,810 --> 01:09:11,235
How are y'all... how... I mean,
um, how are you out there?
1107
01:09:11,522 --> 01:09:12,023
Are you mellow?
1108
01:09:12,315 --> 01:09:13,315
Are you OK?
1109
01:09:17,195 --> 01:09:19,448
You're not, uh, are
you staying stoned?
1110
01:09:19,739 --> 01:09:21,741
And you've got enough water,
and you've got a place
1111
01:09:22,033 --> 01:09:23,205
to sleep and everything?
1112
01:09:27,246 --> 01:09:30,295
Because, you know, because we
ought to all of us, you know,
1113
01:09:30,583 --> 01:09:32,176
I don't mean to be preachy.
1114
01:09:32,460 --> 01:09:35,088
But we ought to remember... and
that means promoters, too...
1115
01:09:35,380 --> 01:09:37,474
That music's for grooving, man.
1116
01:09:37,757 --> 01:09:40,260
And music's not for putting
yourself through bad changes.
1117
01:09:40,551 --> 01:09:43,020
You know, I mean, you don't
have to take anybody's shit,
1118
01:09:43,304 --> 01:09:44,806
man, just to like music.
1119
01:09:45,098 --> 01:09:45,644
You know what I mean?
1120
01:09:45,932 --> 01:09:47,149
You don't.
1121
01:09:47,433 --> 01:09:50,482
So if you're getting more
shit than you deserve,
1122
01:09:50,770 --> 01:09:53,990
you know what to
do about it, man.
1123
01:09:57,735 --> 01:09:58,952
Work me, lord.
1124
01:10:06,077 --> 01:10:09,581
Work me, lord.
1125
01:10:09,872 --> 01:10:14,093
Please, don't you leave me.
1126
01:10:14,377 --> 01:10:22,353
I feel so useless down
here with no one to love,
1127
01:10:22,635 --> 01:10:26,105
though I've looked everywhere.
1128
01:10:26,389 --> 01:10:32,487
And I can't find me anybody
to love, to feel my care.
1129
01:10:32,770 --> 01:10:40,770
So work me.
1130
01:10:41,404 --> 01:10:48,913
Whoa, oh, use me, lord.
1131
01:10:49,203 --> 01:10:50,483
Did you ever have a whole night,
1132
01:10:50,538 --> 01:10:51,932
though, you just stand
up there and feel
1133
01:10:51,956 --> 01:10:53,833
like you're not making it?
1134
01:10:54,125 --> 01:10:56,753
Well, yeah, but you
kind of try and... you
1135
01:10:57,044 --> 01:10:58,522
have little games that
you play with yourself
1136
01:10:58,546 --> 01:10:59,718
to turn yourself on.
1137
01:11:00,006 --> 01:11:01,883
You can usually
get yourself going.
1138
01:11:02,175 --> 01:11:04,849
You never had a desire to
just leave the stage and say,
1139
01:11:05,136 --> 01:11:07,230
I'm sorry, it isn't
working tonight, folks?
1140
01:11:07,513 --> 01:11:09,073
It's the best thing
ever happened to me.
1141
01:11:09,265 --> 01:11:10,357
I wouldn't leave.
1142
01:11:10,641 --> 01:11:13,315
Yeah, yeah, if you
couldn't do it anymore,
1143
01:11:13,603 --> 01:11:15,947
you'd be miserable, huh?
1144
01:11:16,230 --> 01:11:18,198
Yeah, I hope that by
that time, I'll have
1145
01:11:18,483 --> 01:11:19,643
something else that's groovy.
1146
01:11:22,153 --> 01:11:27,153
Whoa, whoa, please, oh, no, no,
1147
01:11:35,833 --> 01:11:40,509
no, no, no, please...
Ah, oh, no, no,
1148
01:11:40,797 --> 01:11:42,219
no, don't you go and leave me.
1149
01:11:42,507 --> 01:11:44,305
Honey, when I reach
you, I want to,
1150
01:11:44,592 --> 01:11:48,972
I said I want to hold on to you.
1151
01:11:49,263 --> 01:11:51,516
Well, you're never there.
1152
01:11:51,808 --> 01:11:53,276
It doesn't turn me off, man.
1153
01:11:53,559 --> 01:11:58,190
I still reach out to
hold onto my man.
1154
01:11:58,481 --> 01:12:03,738
I said, daddy, daddy, daddy,
daddy, daddy, don't you go.
1155
01:12:04,028 --> 01:12:09,028
No, no, no, no, honey, don't
you go and leave some love.
1156
01:13:07,133 --> 01:13:11,809
This is the dark time
in my time with Janis.
1157
01:13:12,096 --> 01:13:13,689
Albert and Janis
reached a point where
1158
01:13:13,973 --> 01:13:17,352
they said, well, we're
going to let the Cosmic
1159
01:13:17,643 --> 01:13:19,145
Blues Band dissipate.
1160
01:13:23,149 --> 01:13:25,868
Janis took that
failure on herself.
1161
01:13:26,152 --> 01:13:28,075
She felt that she was failing.
1162
01:13:28,362 --> 01:13:30,364
And this was, as
a result, by far,
1163
01:13:30,656 --> 01:13:33,034
their worst abuse of
heroin and alcohol.
1164
01:13:41,250 --> 01:13:44,220
Well, this whole thing that's
happened to me, you see,
1165
01:13:44,503 --> 01:13:49,805
this whole success
thing, uh, it hasn't yet
1166
01:13:50,092 --> 01:13:52,265
really compromised
the position that I
1167
01:13:52,553 --> 01:13:53,753
took a long time ago in Texas.
1168
01:13:53,930 --> 01:13:56,024
That was to be true
to myself, to be
1169
01:13:56,307 --> 01:13:59,151
the person that was
on the inside of me
1170
01:13:59,435 --> 01:14:00,903
and not play games.
1171
01:14:01,187 --> 01:14:04,361
And so that's What I'm trying
to do mostly in the whole world,
1172
01:14:04,649 --> 01:14:05,901
is to not bullshit myself.
1173
01:14:08,694 --> 01:14:10,822
When I saw her in the hotel, all
1174
01:14:11,113 --> 01:14:12,831
of the uncertainties
and the little girl
1175
01:14:13,115 --> 01:14:15,117
lost were very visible.
1176
01:14:15,409 --> 01:14:18,128
And she said, come
on up, and we'll
1177
01:14:18,412 --> 01:14:20,005
order drinks from room service.
1178
01:14:20,289 --> 01:14:23,338
And I hadn't been
there very long
1179
01:14:23,626 --> 01:14:24,843
when she decided to shoot up.
1180
01:14:25,127 --> 01:14:27,676
And I'd never seen
her do that before.
1181
01:14:27,964 --> 01:14:30,092
And then we had some drinks.
1182
01:14:30,383 --> 01:14:34,388
We talked, and she did
it again before I left.
1183
01:14:34,679 --> 01:14:37,649
When I left, I thought,
I don't know if I
1184
01:14:37,932 --> 01:14:39,354
will want to see her again.
1185
01:14:44,563 --> 01:14:46,043
What do you think
when you're singing?
1186
01:14:46,315 --> 01:14:47,793
Are you actually thinking
what's going on in the song,
1187
01:14:47,817 --> 01:14:50,570
or can your mind
be somewhere else?
1188
01:14:50,861 --> 01:14:51,880
I'm not really thinking much.
1189
01:14:51,904 --> 01:14:54,077
You just sort of try and feel.
1190
01:14:56,951 --> 01:15:00,501
When last I heard of you, you
were in the jungles of Brazil.
1191
01:15:00,788 --> 01:15:03,587
I went to Rio for a
carnival, and then I
1192
01:15:03,874 --> 01:15:07,674
decided to hitchhike around
the northern part of Brazil.
1193
01:15:07,962 --> 01:15:09,054
As a kind of vacation?
1194
01:15:09,338 --> 01:15:11,058
Just like a regular
old beatnik on the road.
1195
01:15:20,099 --> 01:15:22,568
I knew I was going to try to
make it to Rio for carnivals
1196
01:15:22,852 --> 01:15:24,329
because I was meeting
a friend of mine.
1197
01:15:24,353 --> 01:15:27,232
So I got to Rio a
couple days early.
1198
01:15:27,523 --> 01:15:30,948
And I thought, God,
there's Ipanema Beach,
1199
01:15:31,235 --> 01:15:32,908
the girl from Ipanema you know?
1200
01:15:33,195 --> 01:15:37,200
So I went over to Ipanema Beach
and the very first person I ran
1201
01:15:37,491 --> 01:15:40,165
into on the beach was Janis.
1202
01:15:40,453 --> 01:15:41,750
So I didn't know it was Janis.
1203
01:15:42,038 --> 01:15:43,961
I just saw this girl
with a bikini on.
1204
01:15:58,971 --> 01:16:00,348
She looked up.
1205
01:16:00,639 --> 01:16:02,576
I remember her lifting her
sunglasses up and saying,
1206
01:16:02,600 --> 01:16:04,523
hi, you cute thing.
1207
01:16:04,810 --> 01:16:07,279
And I went, wow,
I, a cute thing.
1208
01:16:07,563 --> 01:16:09,003
I had been in the
jungle a long time.
1209
01:16:28,167 --> 01:16:30,716
When we went back to the
hotel the first night,
1210
01:16:31,003 --> 01:16:32,003
she wasn't sleeping well.
1211
01:16:32,171 --> 01:16:32,763
She was rolling around.
1212
01:16:33,047 --> 01:16:33,764
She was unhappy.
1213
01:16:34,048 --> 01:16:35,550
She was having cold sweats.
1214
01:16:35,841 --> 01:16:38,435
And she told me that she was
trying to kick the habit.
1215
01:16:38,719 --> 01:16:41,142
So I held her for two and a
half days while she came down.
1216
01:16:46,685 --> 01:16:48,733
She was really a
different person.
1217
01:16:49,021 --> 01:16:50,819
She was much more calm.
1218
01:16:51,107 --> 01:16:53,610
She was much more beautiful.
1219
01:16:53,901 --> 01:16:55,781
You know, and she wasn't
used to being straight,
1220
01:16:55,820 --> 01:16:58,289
so she knew she
was more beautiful.
1221
01:16:58,572 --> 01:17:00,540
And then after that,
everything was clear.
1222
01:17:00,825 --> 01:17:05,126
She couldn't have gotten higher
when we traveled around Brazil.
1223
01:17:05,412 --> 01:17:08,006
She was so free and so
different than any other girl
1224
01:17:08,290 --> 01:17:09,290
I'd ever met.
1225
01:17:11,877 --> 01:17:15,256
I never had a woman inspire
me before, so it stopped
1226
01:17:15,548 --> 01:17:16,668
me in my track, so to speak.
1227
01:17:16,924 --> 01:17:19,427
I was heading for North Africa.
1228
01:17:19,718 --> 01:17:22,118
And when I met her, I realized,
shit, I'm not going anywhere.
1229
01:17:25,683 --> 01:17:29,438
When we came back to
California, we more spent time
1230
01:17:29,728 --> 01:17:31,947
together just the two of us.
1231
01:17:32,231 --> 01:17:33,671
I mean, we did come
to the park here,
1232
01:17:33,858 --> 01:17:35,075
and we did go to.
1233
01:17:35,359 --> 01:17:37,239
But basically, we just
pretty much fun together.
1234
01:17:37,444 --> 01:17:39,617
We were inseparable,
really, for those months.
1235
01:17:43,701 --> 01:17:46,124
As my relationship
with Janis grew,
1236
01:17:46,412 --> 01:17:48,835
I realized that when she
sang me all these songs,
1237
01:17:49,123 --> 01:17:51,217
they were always the blues.
1238
01:17:51,500 --> 01:17:53,969
And that's what she felt,
basically, were the blues.
1239
01:17:54,253 --> 01:17:56,722
She could feel everybody's pain.
1240
01:17:57,006 --> 01:17:58,349
That's one of the
reasons she did
1241
01:17:58,632 --> 01:18:01,135
heroin was so she didn't
have to be involved
1242
01:18:01,427 --> 01:18:03,225
with everybody else's life.
1243
01:18:03,512 --> 01:18:06,186
Most people can be oblivious
to what's going on around them,
1244
01:18:06,473 --> 01:18:07,473
but Janis couldn't.
1245
01:18:07,558 --> 01:18:10,107
She couldn't block it out.
1246
01:18:10,394 --> 01:18:12,988
But she was addicted to it, you
know, and I got her to stop.
1247
01:18:13,272 --> 01:18:15,821
And then when I would
go away, she'd get weak,
1248
01:18:16,108 --> 01:18:20,579
I guess is one way to say
it, and start it again.
1249
01:18:20,863 --> 01:18:22,865
I told her I can't do that part.
1250
01:18:23,157 --> 01:18:25,117
I can't put up with that
because it's killing you.
1251
01:18:25,284 --> 01:18:26,444
And it broke my heart to see.
1252
01:18:26,493 --> 01:18:27,494
That's really what it is.
1253
01:18:27,786 --> 01:18:30,289
It broke my heart
more than anything.
1254
01:18:30,581 --> 01:18:31,981
When I said I was
leaving, she said,
1255
01:18:32,166 --> 01:18:34,510
why don't you stay
and become my manager?
1256
01:18:34,793 --> 01:18:39,264
And it was a tempting offer,
but the heroin I couldn't even
1257
01:18:39,548 --> 01:18:40,548
begin to put up with.
1258
01:18:51,602 --> 01:18:59,602
Baby, yeah, baby, well, baby,
1259
01:19:01,111 --> 01:19:05,287
oh, honey, welcome back home.
1260
01:19:05,574 --> 01:19:07,292
I had a man.
1261
01:19:10,955 --> 01:19:16,553
He said, honey, honey,
you know that I love you.
1262
01:19:16,835 --> 01:19:18,337
See, but I gotta go find myself.
1263
01:19:18,629 --> 01:19:21,098
You know, I gotta
go and find my life.
1264
01:19:21,382 --> 01:19:26,309
I gotta go find myself over in
Africa or over in, uh, New York
1265
01:19:26,595 --> 01:19:30,850
City or over in, uh,
, some place
1266
01:19:31,141 --> 01:19:32,661
those cats are always
wandering off to.
1267
01:19:32,851 --> 01:19:35,445
I never figured out
exactly where it was.
1268
01:19:35,729 --> 01:19:37,129
They're always going
somewhere, man.
1269
01:19:40,526 --> 01:19:42,654
And I said, baby,
don't you realize?
1270
01:19:45,781 --> 01:19:48,079
You're looking for your
life over there, honey.
1271
01:19:48,367 --> 01:19:49,869
Well, you know
where your life is?
1272
01:19:50,160 --> 01:19:52,288
You're life's waiting
like a God-damned fool
1273
01:19:52,579 --> 01:19:55,583
right here for you, man.
1274
01:19:55,874 --> 01:19:59,253
And one morning, you're gonna
wake up in, uh, Casablanca,
1275
01:19:59,545 --> 01:20:01,013
one of those fancy places.
1276
01:20:01,297 --> 01:20:03,925
Honey, you're gonna be
freezing to death, man.
1277
01:20:04,216 --> 01:20:07,220
You're gonna wake up and
you'll say, good, good lord,
1278
01:20:07,511 --> 01:20:10,560
good, good, good lord.
1279
01:20:10,848 --> 01:20:12,316
I just went off
and left that woman
1280
01:20:12,599 --> 01:20:15,603
in that great big huge double
bed with that great big fur rug
1281
01:20:15,894 --> 01:20:18,192
on top of it and those
satin sheets, man.
1282
01:20:18,480 --> 01:20:21,609
What am I doing in
Casablanca, man?
1283
01:20:21,900 --> 01:20:23,277
I mean, really, man.
1284
01:20:23,569 --> 01:20:24,963
One of these days, that
cat's going to wake
1285
01:20:24,987 --> 01:20:26,409
up and say that to himself.
1286
01:20:26,697 --> 01:20:31,544
And when he comes back home,
there, just like the Capricorn
1287
01:20:31,827 --> 01:20:34,546
that I am, I'll be
standing there waiting.
1288
01:20:34,830 --> 01:20:38,630
I said, baby, I
knew one day, hun,
1289
01:20:38,917 --> 01:20:42,717
I knew, knew, knew one day.
1290
01:20:43,005 --> 01:20:45,758
'Cause you've finally
come on home to me.
1291
01:20:46,050 --> 01:20:49,805
Honey, when you walk
in my front door,
1292
01:20:50,095 --> 01:20:52,769
I'm gonna be able to tell
by the look in your eyes.
1293
01:20:53,057 --> 01:20:57,107
I'll say, good God, that
man finally done got it.
1294
01:20:57,394 --> 01:21:01,570
Lord, that man
finally done realized.
1295
01:21:01,857 --> 01:21:04,576
So you can put your
head on my shoulder,
1296
01:21:04,860 --> 01:21:09,991
baby, yeah, 'cause I know you've
got some more tears to shed.
1297
01:21:10,282 --> 01:21:11,499
So come on.
1298
01:21:11,784 --> 01:21:12,501
Come on.
1299
01:21:12,785 --> 01:21:13,502
Come on.
1300
01:21:13,786 --> 01:21:14,503
Come on.
1301
01:21:14,787 --> 01:21:15,504
Come on.
1302
01:21:15,788 --> 01:21:20,885
Come on and cry, cry, baby.
1303
01:21:21,168 --> 01:21:25,093
Cry, baby.
1304
01:21:25,381 --> 01:21:26,381
Cry.
1305
01:21:29,259 --> 01:21:30,259
Cry.
1306
01:21:34,014 --> 01:21:41,273
Oh, baby, cry, baby-
1307
01:21:41,563 --> 01:21:42,735
Cry, baby.
1308
01:21:54,993 --> 01:21:57,337
Hey, I want to ask about
that tune that you just sang.
1309
01:21:57,621 --> 01:22:01,626
It's, um, it's about men.
1310
01:22:01,917 --> 01:22:02,917
It's about men?
1311
01:22:03,085 --> 01:22:05,554
Did you ever see
those mule carts'?
1312
01:22:05,838 --> 01:22:06,885
Yeah.
1313
01:22:07,172 --> 01:22:08,692
They, uh, there's a
dumb mule up there,
1314
01:22:08,882 --> 01:22:12,136
right, and a long stick
with a string and a carrot
1315
01:22:12,428 --> 01:22:13,805
hanging out of it.
1316
01:22:14,096 --> 01:22:16,199
And they hang this thing out
in front of the mule's nose,
1317
01:22:16,223 --> 01:22:19,693
and he runs after
it all day long.
1318
01:22:19,977 --> 01:22:23,356
And who is the man in this
parable, the mule or the person
1319
01:22:23,647 --> 01:22:24,647
holding the carrot?
1320
01:22:24,898 --> 01:22:27,993
The woman is the
mule, chasing something
1321
01:22:28,277 --> 01:22:29,517
that somebody's always teasing.
1322
01:22:29,695 --> 01:22:32,824
Constantly chasing a man
who always eludes here.
1323
01:22:33,115 --> 01:22:34,843
Well, they just always
hold up something more
1324
01:22:34,867 --> 01:22:36,067
than they're prepared to give.
1325
01:22:38,579 --> 01:22:41,924
We had dinner one night, and
I remember suddenly saying,
1326
01:22:42,207 --> 01:22:46,883
not having planned to,
how-— can you assure me
1327
01:22:47,171 --> 01:22:52,268
that you're not doing heroin?
1328
01:22:52,551 --> 01:22:53,894
And her answer was interesting.
1329
01:22:54,178 --> 01:22:57,227
It was, who would care?
1330
01:22:57,514 --> 01:22:58,514
It really stopped me.
1331
01:23:04,771 --> 01:23:06,773
Do you ever get back
to Port Arthur, Texas?
1332
01:23:07,065 --> 01:23:09,568
No, but I'm back in August, man.
1333
01:23:09,860 --> 01:23:10,860
And guess what I'm doing?
1334
01:23:10,903 --> 01:23:12,155
I don't know, night clubbing?
1335
01:23:12,446 --> 01:23:14,366
I'm going to my tenth
annual high school reunion.
1336
01:23:19,036 --> 01:23:21,116
Oh, I want to... take movies
and bring them back here
1337
01:23:21,205 --> 01:23:22,205
and show us.
1338
01:23:22,414 --> 01:23:23,558
Hey, would you
like to go with me?
1339
01:23:23,582 --> 01:23:24,299
Well, I don't have
that many friends
1340
01:23:24,583 --> 01:23:25,709
in your high school class.
1341
01:23:26,001 --> 01:23:27,562
- I don't, either.
- Or mine, for that matter.
1342
01:23:27,586 --> 01:23:28,087
I don't either.
Believe me.
1343
01:23:28,378 --> 01:23:29,470
You don't, either?
1344
01:23:29,755 --> 01:23:31,515
How do you know they
won't move the reunion'?
1345
01:23:31,548 --> 01:23:32,265
That's true.
1346
01:23:32,549 --> 01:23:33,669
I wasn't going to tell them.
1347
01:23:39,264 --> 01:23:40,984
What do you remember
most about Port Arthur?
1348
01:23:45,145 --> 01:23:48,820
Uh, I don't really...
Uh, no comment.
1349
01:23:52,444 --> 01:23:55,368
Because it was really only
the acceptance of millions
1350
01:23:55,656 --> 01:24:00,583
that could make up for that
way that she had grown up.
1351
01:24:00,869 --> 01:24:03,213
If everyone loved
her, then it was OK.
1352
01:24:03,497 --> 01:24:08,003
But if anyone didn't, they
could destroy her in a minute.
1353
01:24:08,293 --> 01:24:10,512
Hi, how were you different
from your schoolmates
1354
01:24:10,796 --> 01:24:12,389
when you were in DJ?
1355
01:24:12,673 --> 01:24:13,265
I don't know.
1356
01:24:13,549 --> 01:24:14,549
Why don't you ask them?
1357
01:24:17,844 --> 01:24:18,845
I wonder.
1358
01:24:19,137 --> 01:24:20,514
I was they who
made you different?
1359
01:24:20,806 --> 01:24:21,932
No, I was...
1360
01:24:22,224 --> 01:24:23,368
In other words, you were
different in comparison
1361
01:24:23,392 --> 01:24:23,893
to them.
1362
01:24:24,184 --> 01:24:25,857
Why Were you?
1363
01:24:26,144 --> 01:24:28,272
I felt apart from them.
1364
01:24:28,564 --> 01:24:31,238
Did you go to football games?
1365
01:24:31,525 --> 01:24:33,698
I don't remember.
1366
01:24:33,986 --> 01:24:38,116
Uh, I don't remember.
1367
01:24:38,407 --> 01:24:39,909
I think not.
1368
01:24:40,200 --> 01:24:42,294
I didn't go to the
high school prom.
1369
01:24:45,163 --> 01:24:46,460
Aw, you were asked, weren't you?
1370
01:24:46,748 --> 01:24:48,796
No, I wasn't.
1371
01:24:49,084 --> 01:24:52,008
They didn't think... I don't
think they wanted to take me.
1372
01:24:55,382 --> 01:24:59,637
And I've been... I've been
suffering ever since.
1373
01:24:59,928 --> 01:25:04,604
I remember when I was young,
some doctor told my mother
1374
01:25:04,891 --> 01:25:08,361
that if I didn't, quote,
"straighten up," quote,
1375
01:25:08,645 --> 01:25:12,070
I was going to end up either
in jail or an insane asylum
1376
01:25:12,357 --> 01:25:14,906
by the time I was 21.
1377
01:25:15,193 --> 01:25:17,241
So when I turned 25 and
my second record came out,
1378
01:25:17,529 --> 01:25:19,529
I think my mother sent me
a congratulatory telegram
1379
01:25:19,573 --> 01:25:24,044
or something, you know,
that I had escaped the pen.
1380
01:25:24,328 --> 01:25:25,955
How do you get along
with your parents?
1381
01:25:26,246 --> 01:25:27,246
Pretty good.
1382
01:25:27,497 --> 01:25:28,589
They had somewhere to go.
1383
01:25:28,874 --> 01:25:30,421
Right, they went to a wedding.
1384
01:25:30,709 --> 01:25:34,384
We go along pretty good, yeah.
1385
01:25:34,671 --> 01:25:37,595
Did they ever seem
surprised by your success?
1386
01:25:37,883 --> 01:25:40,011
I think, yeah, yeah.
1387
01:25:40,302 --> 01:25:44,307
Our parents saw it was
challenging to their way
1388
01:25:44,598 --> 01:25:47,226
of life, to their
positions in the community,
1389
01:25:47,517 --> 01:25:52,614
and it created difficulties
between them and both of them
1390
01:25:52,898 --> 01:25:55,492
silently with each
other, feeling that they
1391
01:25:55,776 --> 01:25:59,781
had somehow caused a calamity.
1392
01:26:24,513 --> 01:26:26,015
I didn't see her for six months.
1393
01:26:26,306 --> 01:26:30,482
She had promised me that she
was going to quit heroin,
1394
01:26:30,769 --> 01:26:31,770
and she did.
1395
01:26:32,062 --> 01:26:33,188
And it changed her.
1396
01:26:36,733 --> 01:26:38,531
Dear family, things
1397
01:26:38,819 --> 01:26:40,571
are going so well for me.
1398
01:26:40,862 --> 01:26:44,207
I have a new, smaller band, and
it's really going fantastic.
1399
01:26:44,491 --> 01:26:47,085
I met a really fine man in Rio,
but I had to get back to work.
1400
01:26:47,369 --> 01:26:49,747
So he's off finding
the rest of the world,
1401
01:26:50,038 --> 01:26:53,042
but he really did love
me and was so good to me.
1402
01:26:53,333 --> 01:26:55,210
He wants to come
back and marry me.
1403
01:26:55,502 --> 01:26:58,221
I thought I'd die without
someone besides fans asking me,
1404
01:26:58,505 --> 01:26:59,006
but he meant it.
1405
01:26:59,297 --> 01:27:00,297
And who knows?
1406
01:27:00,507 --> 01:27:01,651
I may get tired
of the music biz,
1407
01:27:01,675 --> 01:27:03,177
but I'm really
getting it on now.
1408
01:27:08,598 --> 01:27:11,147
She called me up and said,
I've got a great new band.
1409
01:27:11,435 --> 01:27:14,405
Do you want to come
back on the road?
1410
01:27:14,688 --> 01:27:16,110
With Janis, it was magic.
1411
01:27:16,398 --> 01:27:19,993
She had a gift from
God when she played.
1412
01:27:20,277 --> 01:27:22,077
There was a connection
there that I don't even
1413
01:27:22,154 --> 01:27:24,031
know what it was between us.
1414
01:27:24,322 --> 01:27:25,762
Somehow, we didn't
really do a lot...
1415
01:27:25,949 --> 01:27:27,149
We never did a lot of talking.
1416
01:27:29,745 --> 01:27:31,497
She was bubbly person.
1417
01:27:31,788 --> 01:27:34,132
She wanted everything to
be so perfect for everyone,
1418
01:27:34,416 --> 01:27:36,043
not just her, everyone.
1419
01:27:36,334 --> 01:27:39,884
You say that it's over, baby.
1420
01:27:40,172 --> 01:27:43,301
You say that it's over, dear.
1421
01:27:43,592 --> 01:27:44,718
But still you hang around.
1422
01:27:45,010 --> 01:27:46,808
She said, man, with Full Tilt, I
1423
01:27:47,095 --> 01:27:48,938
can change something in
the middle of a song,
1424
01:27:49,222 --> 01:27:52,146
and they're right there.
1425
01:27:52,434 --> 01:27:56,234
She was a fantastic
front person.
1426
01:27:56,521 --> 01:28:00,742
She would say, when I do the
windmill, keep her going.
1427
01:28:01,026 --> 01:28:03,266
Or we'd be playing a song,
and she would decide she would
1428
01:28:03,445 --> 01:28:05,447
like to talk to the audience.
1429
01:28:05,739 --> 01:28:08,333
And she would bring
the band down,
1430
01:28:08,617 --> 01:28:10,369
and then she would
start talking.
1431
01:28:10,660 --> 01:28:11,660
I can't hear ya.
1432
01:28:17,626 --> 01:28:19,173
She was working the crowd.
1433
01:28:23,298 --> 01:28:25,096
It wasn't just
that she was clean.
1434
01:28:25,383 --> 01:28:28,853
She had learned just
about every lesson
1435
01:28:29,137 --> 01:28:34,109
to be learned from the really
tough times of the year before.
1436
01:28:34,392 --> 01:28:36,736
She was more comfortable
about her whole life.
1437
01:28:39,606 --> 01:28:43,236
Having David leave her was
actually really good for her.
1438
01:28:43,527 --> 01:28:46,622
She spoke of him afterwards
as her lost love,
1439
01:28:46,905 --> 01:28:48,185
and she still
hoped that he would
1440
01:28:48,448 --> 01:28:50,121
come back after she got clean.
1441
01:28:58,542 --> 01:29:03,218
Hey, make up your mind, honey.
1442
01:29:03,505 --> 01:29:06,133
You're playing with me.
1443
01:29:06,424 --> 01:29:08,267
David, honey, daddy, listen.
1444
01:29:08,552 --> 01:29:10,930
I kicked, man, four months ago.
1445
01:29:11,221 --> 01:29:14,896
I'm on the road rocking with a
great group, so get Janis back.
1446
01:29:15,183 --> 01:29:18,027
She's delightfully crazy,
but I love her, man.
1447
01:29:18,311 --> 01:29:19,871
I've got that picture
of us in Salvador,
1448
01:29:20,063 --> 01:29:21,565
and every time I
look at it, I look
1449
01:29:21,857 --> 01:29:23,951
like a woman, not a pop star.
1450
01:29:24,234 --> 01:29:25,781
But I'm afraid it's too late.
1451
01:29:26,069 --> 01:29:29,164
I know how to be a pop star, but
I don't know how to bake bread.
1452
01:29:29,447 --> 01:29:32,417
But, honey, when I look at you,
this whole flood comes over me.
1453
01:29:32,701 --> 01:29:34,578
I love you, and I did
write, mother fucker.
1454
01:29:34,870 --> 01:29:36,087
Don't you yell at me.
1455
01:30:01,479 --> 01:30:04,858
It seems to bother a
lot of women's lib people
1456
01:30:05,150 --> 01:30:09,200
that you are kind of
so up front sexually.
1457
01:30:09,487 --> 01:30:10,967
I haven't
been attacked by anyone yet.
1458
01:30:11,239 --> 01:30:12,661
You know, how can
they attack me?
1459
01:30:12,949 --> 01:30:16,169
I'm representing everything
they said they want, you know?
1460
01:30:16,453 --> 01:30:19,548
It's sort of like you
are what you settle for.
1461
01:30:19,831 --> 01:30:21,299
Do you know what I mean?
1462
01:30:21,583 --> 01:30:23,256
You are only as much
as you settle for.
1463
01:30:23,543 --> 01:30:26,342
And, you know, if they
settle for being somebody's
1464
01:30:26,630 --> 01:30:28,553
dishwasher, that's their
own fucking problem.
1465
01:30:28,840 --> 01:30:30,888
If you don't settle
for that, and you
1466
01:30:31,176 --> 01:30:34,726
keep fighting, you know, you
end up anything you want to be.
1467
01:30:35,013 --> 01:30:39,393
I'm just doing what I want
to and what feels right
1468
01:30:39,684 --> 01:30:41,732
and not settling for
bullshit, and it works.
1469
01:30:42,020 --> 01:30:43,488
How can they be mad at that?
1470
01:30:43,772 --> 01:30:46,092
Yeah, one girl I know said,
well, how come she doesn't have
1471
01:30:46,274 --> 01:30:48,902
any women in any of her groups?
1472
01:30:49,194 --> 01:30:51,663
You show me a
good drummer, and I'll hire one.
1473
01:30:51,947 --> 01:30:54,200
You know, show me a good chick.
1474
01:30:54,491 --> 01:30:56,260
Besides, I don't want any
chicks on the road with me.
1475
01:30:56,284 --> 01:30:57,410
You don't?
1476
01:30:57,702 --> 01:31:00,501
I've got
enough competition, man.
1477
01:31:00,789 --> 01:31:02,666
No, I like to be around men.
1478
01:31:08,046 --> 01:31:09,047
God bless ya, folks.
1479
01:31:09,339 --> 01:31:12,263
God bless ya.
1480
01:31:12,550 --> 01:31:14,803
It was fun getting
back together with her
1481
01:31:15,095 --> 01:31:18,019
on the Festival
Express because we were
1482
01:31:18,306 --> 01:31:21,150
all stuck in a little area.
1483
01:31:21,434 --> 01:31:24,358
Her yes men couldn't
contain her there.
1484
01:31:24,646 --> 01:31:27,570
They couldn't control
her there because she
1485
01:31:27,857 --> 01:31:29,817
wanted to get out and be
with her kindred spirits,
1486
01:31:29,943 --> 01:31:30,944
the musicians.
1487
01:31:31,236 --> 01:31:32,328
Are we in Calgary yet?
1488
01:31:32,612 --> 01:31:33,204
We're stopped.
1489
01:31:33,488 --> 01:31:35,115
Hey, we're in Alberta.
1490
01:31:35,407 --> 01:31:35,999
Alberta?
1491
01:31:36,282 --> 01:31:37,283
Alberta.
1492
01:31:37,575 --> 01:31:39,498
Alberta, don't let
your hair hang down.
1493
01:31:48,753 --> 01:31:50,272
I've loved you ever
sine the day I saw you.
1494
01:31:50,296 --> 01:31:50,922
He ain't much of a boxer.
1495
01:31:51,214 --> 01:31:52,511
I got to tell you.
1496
01:31:52,799 --> 01:31:55,348
Jerry didn't love Janis
because she was a Sports
1497
01:31:55,635 --> 01:31:57,478
Illustrated swimsuit model.
1498
01:31:57,762 --> 01:32:00,515
He loved her for what she did.
1499
01:32:00,807 --> 01:32:03,526
And the sparks
that she threw off,
1500
01:32:03,810 --> 01:32:06,484
he had a right proper
appreciation for what Janis was
1501
01:32:06,771 --> 01:32:07,811
and what she had to offer.
1502
01:32:14,863 --> 01:32:16,740
From the Kentucky coal
1503
01:32:17,032 --> 01:32:21,082
mines to the
California sun, Bobby
1504
01:32:21,369 --> 01:32:24,964
shared the secrets of my soul.
1505
01:32:25,248 --> 01:32:30,248
Her producer gave me a demo
of her singing "Bobby McGee."
1506
01:32:39,512 --> 01:32:44,063
It was so exhilarating for me
to hear her make that her song.
1507
01:32:44,350 --> 01:32:46,694
If you're a songwriter
and somebody
1508
01:32:46,978 --> 01:32:49,652
does that with what you've
got, it's the greatest
1509
01:32:49,939 --> 01:32:51,282
feeling in the world.
1510
01:32:51,566 --> 01:32:54,240
But I'd trade
all of my tomorrows
1511
01:32:54,527 --> 01:32:58,703
for one single
yesterday to be holding
1512
01:32:58,990 --> 01:33:03,621
Bobby's body next to mine.
1513
01:33:03,912 --> 01:33:09,385
And freedom's just another
word for nothing left to lose,
1514
01:33:09,667 --> 01:33:13,012
nothing, that's all
my Bobby left me.
1515
01:33:13,296 --> 01:33:14,639
I hear you're
making a new record.
1516
01:33:14,923 --> 01:33:16,203
Yeah, and
it's really going good.
1517
01:33:16,466 --> 01:33:17,558
I like my producer.
1518
01:33:17,842 --> 01:33:19,361
He's really working
out very well with me.
1519
01:33:19,385 --> 01:33:20,728
Who's producing it?
1520
01:33:21,012 --> 01:33:22,138
Paul Rothchild.
1521
01:33:22,430 --> 01:33:23,908
You haven't worked
with him before, huh?
1522
01:33:23,932 --> 01:33:25,058
No, no, I haven't.
1523
01:33:25,350 --> 01:33:27,523
The first time I talked
to Janis about Paul,
1524
01:33:27,811 --> 01:33:29,984
she said, boy, that guy.
1525
01:33:30,271 --> 01:33:31,271
And I said, what?
1526
01:33:31,439 --> 01:33:33,533
And she started
talking about him.
1527
01:33:33,817 --> 01:33:37,287
This is serious Janis, and I had
never heard her say this kind
1528
01:33:37,570 --> 01:33:38,947
of stuff about anybody.
1529
01:33:39,239 --> 01:33:42,789
She was talking about how much
she was learning from him.
1530
01:33:43,076 --> 01:33:46,296
The mood was very up.
1531
01:33:46,579 --> 01:33:50,300
I mean, as good as sessions
get, everybody in love
1532
01:33:50,583 --> 01:33:55,180
with everybody else and
working very hard, and Janis,
1533
01:33:55,463 --> 01:33:58,182
she was always ready
to do the most.
1534
01:33:58,466 --> 01:34:01,720
She was a much better singer
than the world, or even she,
1535
01:34:02,011 --> 01:34:03,011
knew.
1536
01:34:08,810 --> 01:34:09,810
Oh, we knew.
1537
01:34:10,061 --> 01:34:11,779
We knew there was
something here.
1538
01:34:12,063 --> 01:34:15,158
And that was all, really,
that whole thing was
1539
01:34:15,441 --> 01:34:17,864
spontaneous combustion
because she had
1540
01:34:18,153 --> 01:34:19,700
an incredible sense of time.
1541
01:34:19,988 --> 01:34:21,549
You listen to that stuff,
and like I tell you,
1542
01:34:21,573 --> 01:34:23,826
it's like you're breathing.
1543
01:34:24,117 --> 01:34:28,588
And the slowing down, and
it's like being in heaven.
1544
01:34:28,872 --> 01:34:32,627
What he was asking her
to do was to understand
1545
01:34:32,917 --> 01:34:35,386
the different voices
she had at her command.
1546
01:34:35,670 --> 01:34:38,594
And the ramifications
for this, for Janis,
1547
01:34:38,882 --> 01:34:42,056
were really profound because
she had always said...
1548
01:34:42,343 --> 01:34:44,141
And she absolutely
meant it... oh, man.
1549
01:34:44,429 --> 01:34:46,807
When I blow out my voice,
I'm going to buy a bar
1550
01:34:47,098 --> 01:34:49,066
and retire in Marin County.
1551
01:34:49,350 --> 01:34:52,980
What she was learning from Paul
was enabling her to see farther
1552
01:34:53,271 --> 01:34:55,490
into the future,
and that's where
1553
01:34:55,773 --> 01:34:57,650
Paul was looking all along.
1554
01:34:57,942 --> 01:34:59,785
He said, 30 years
from now, I want
1555
01:35:00,069 --> 01:35:01,821
you to be making
your best album,
1556
01:35:02,113 --> 01:35:05,413
and I want you to be
making it with me.
1557
01:35:05,700 --> 01:35:08,749
She called me on the
phone and she said,
1558
01:35:09,037 --> 01:35:12,587
I gotta play on
the phone for you
1559
01:35:12,874 --> 01:35:16,924
a song of Kris
Kristofferson's that I've just
1560
01:35:17,212 --> 01:35:23,060
recorded... to hear that
voice, to hear her pride,
1561
01:35:23,343 --> 01:35:26,563
to hear her excitement.
1562
01:35:26,846 --> 01:35:28,974
I didn't hear it
till she was gone,
1563
01:35:29,265 --> 01:35:35,739
and it was very
emotional for me.
1564
01:35:36,022 --> 01:35:37,302
Uh, I could just
hear her saying,
1565
01:35:37,565 --> 01:35:39,283
wait till that son of
a bitch hears this.
1566
01:35:39,567 --> 01:35:40,567
You know?
1567
01:35:47,951 --> 01:35:49,419
You know, everything
about it was
1568
01:35:49,702 --> 01:35:52,080
positive for Janis,
except that she
1569
01:35:52,372 --> 01:35:53,999
always hated the down hours.
1570
01:35:57,585 --> 01:36:00,054
The Janis who says, how
come the guys in the band
1571
01:36:00,338 --> 01:36:05,014
go home with these girls and I
go home alone, she was saying,
1572
01:36:05,301 --> 01:36:08,145
you can't imagine how
hard it is to be me.
1573
01:36:14,602 --> 01:36:18,106
She just didn't know
who to relax with.
1574
01:36:18,398 --> 01:36:22,073
She just didn't know, anymore.
1575
01:36:22,360 --> 01:36:24,454
A lot of pressure, you've
got to do this, Janis.
1576
01:36:24,737 --> 01:36:27,206
You've got to do that.
1577
01:36:27,490 --> 01:36:29,913
That's what made it
hard for her, I think.
1578
01:36:30,201 --> 01:36:30,793
She loved everybody.
1579
01:36:31,077 --> 01:36:34,081
That was the probably.
1580
01:36:34,372 --> 01:36:38,218
She was like a little girl
lost, and then she would be
1581
01:36:38,501 --> 01:36:41,050
as strong as a mountain lion.
1582
01:36:49,721 --> 01:36:53,021
As far as anyone could
see, she had kicked heroin.
1583
01:36:53,308 --> 01:36:54,901
She had replaced
it with alcohol,
1584
01:36:55,184 --> 01:36:57,733
but it didn't look like
that was going to kill her.
1585
01:36:58,021 --> 01:37:01,696
I think she just thought,
one last little, uh, hurrah.
1586
01:37:04,819 --> 01:37:06,287
I can understand her wanting to.
1587
01:37:06,571 --> 01:37:09,290
You know, oh, no
one's ever gonna know.
1588
01:37:09,574 --> 01:37:13,670
I'll hang in my room, do
a hit, and then go to bed.
1589
01:37:17,582 --> 01:37:20,506
Paul Rothchild called me,
and he said, Janis isn't here.
1590
01:37:20,793 --> 01:37:22,966
Can you see if you can find her?
1591
01:37:23,254 --> 01:37:26,599
And I pull out of the driveway,
and I just look up there.
1592
01:37:26,883 --> 01:37:28,931
And I know which window
is hers, and there's
1593
01:37:29,218 --> 01:37:31,812
a light in the window.
1594
01:37:32,096 --> 01:37:35,066
And when I opened the
door, I had this really
1595
01:37:35,350 --> 01:37:36,852
simple and direct feeling.
1596
01:37:37,143 --> 01:37:39,111
Nobody's here.
1597
01:37:39,395 --> 01:37:43,025
I came around the corner and
saw Janis lying by the bed.
1598
01:37:46,944 --> 01:37:51,791
But that feeling of nobody
is here, it was right.
1599
01:38:24,941 --> 01:38:29,913
I was standing at the stove,
boiling an egg or something.
1600
01:38:30,196 --> 01:38:32,244
The radio said,
Janis Joplin, and I
1601
01:38:32,532 --> 01:38:35,081
knew before they got the
last consonant in her name
1602
01:38:35,368 --> 01:38:36,711
out that she was dead.
1603
01:38:49,215 --> 01:38:56,520
And I wrote a telegram to Janis
that says, um, really miss you.
1604
01:38:56,806 --> 01:38:59,935
Things aren't the same alone.
1605
01:39:00,226 --> 01:39:02,524
I could meet you in
Kathmandu anytime,
1606
01:39:02,812 --> 01:39:06,282
but late October
is the best season.
1607
01:39:06,566 --> 01:39:10,070
Love you, Mama,
more than you know.
1608
01:39:17,493 --> 01:39:18,790
I just fell apart.
1609
01:39:19,078 --> 01:39:20,500
I just completely fell apart.
1610
01:39:20,788 --> 01:39:23,507
She was in touch
with her own emotions
1611
01:39:23,791 --> 01:39:28,592
and who she was in some way
that nobody else that I knew
1612
01:39:28,880 --> 01:39:30,723
was that in touch with.
1613
01:39:31,007 --> 01:39:33,806
And to be that way,
to try to get that,
1614
01:39:34,093 --> 01:39:41,443
that's" that's the
price you pay for doing
1615
01:39:41,726 --> 01:39:43,228
that kind of art on that level.
1616
01:39:50,401 --> 01:39:52,620
Dear family, I'm awfully
1617
01:39:52,904 --> 01:39:55,953
sorry to be such a
disappointment to,
1618
01:39:56,240 --> 01:39:59,164
but I really do think there's
an awfully good chance
1619
01:39:59,452 --> 01:40:01,830
I won't blow it this time.
1620
01:40:02,121 --> 01:40:05,125
There is really nothing
more I can say right now.
1621
01:40:05,416 --> 01:40:07,136
Guess I'll write more
when I have more news.
1622
01:40:07,168 --> 01:40:11,548
Until then, address all
criticism to the above address.
1623
01:40:11,839 --> 01:40:15,343
And please believe that you
can't possibly want for me
1624
01:40:15,635 --> 01:40:17,603
to be a winner more than I do.
1625
01:40:17,887 --> 01:40:18,887
Love, Janis.
1626
01:40:21,766 --> 01:40:22,766
Sit there.
1627
01:40:28,231 --> 01:40:29,231
Go on.
1628
01:40:29,357 --> 01:40:33,032
Go on and count your fingers.
1629
01:40:33,319 --> 01:40:41,045
I know what else, what else,
what have you got to do?
1630
01:40:41,327 --> 01:40:45,252
And I know how you
feel, and I know you
1631
01:40:45,540 --> 01:40:47,417
ain't got no reason to go on.
1632
01:40:47,708 --> 01:40:49,881
I know you feel that
you must be through.
1633
01:40:50,169 --> 01:40:53,389
Go on and sit right back down.
1634
01:40:53,673 --> 01:40:55,846
I want you to count.
1635
01:40:56,133 --> 01:41:03,813
Count your fingers, my
unhappy, my unlucky,
1636
01:41:04,100 --> 01:41:08,822
but my little, my girl blue.
1637
01:41:09,105 --> 01:41:11,324
I know you're unhappy.
1638
01:41:11,607 --> 01:41:19,607
Oh, hun, I know, babe, I
know just how you feel.
1639
01:41:59,905 --> 01:42:01,373
I thought I might share with you
1640
01:42:01,657 --> 01:42:04,501
some comments made from some
of the people who loved her.
1641
01:42:07,663 --> 01:42:11,668
Dearest family, although
I never ever met Janis,
1642
01:42:11,959 --> 01:42:16,305
she was my best friend
in this whole world.
1643
01:42:16,589 --> 01:42:19,809
Janis was a beautiful
person because she always
1644
01:42:20,092 --> 01:42:23,187
put everything she
had into her music.
1645
01:42:23,471 --> 01:42:28,102
She was and always will be
the mother of the blues.
1646
01:42:28,392 --> 01:42:30,736
Words fail me now.
1647
01:42:31,020 --> 01:42:35,025
Nevertheless, I am
very, very sorry.
1648
01:42:35,316 --> 01:42:37,819
Women were way ballsier
then than they are now,
1649
01:42:38,110 --> 01:42:42,536
and Janis was fearless with
her pain and with her truth.
1650
01:42:42,823 --> 01:42:44,903
And that was one of the most
inspiring things for me,
1651
01:42:44,992 --> 01:42:46,539
watching her, going, OK.
1652
01:42:46,827 --> 01:42:52,800
I don't need to be anything
other than who I am.
1653
01:42:53,084 --> 01:42:57,635
To perform that way with
those lyrics and those songs,
1654
01:42:57,922 --> 01:43:01,142
and to feel there's
no lie in it,
1655
01:43:01,425 --> 01:43:06,682
it is like... you might as well
be slashing yourself on stage
1656
01:43:06,972 --> 01:43:08,349
and opening your skin.
1657
01:43:11,560 --> 01:43:13,983
She, like, took a flag and
made a place in rock and roll
1658
01:43:14,271 --> 01:43:15,693
for women.
1659
01:43:15,981 --> 01:43:20,908
She was the first to really
feel that crazy light of what
1660
01:43:21,195 --> 01:43:23,914
rock and roll was at the time.
1661
01:43:24,198 --> 01:43:26,158
I know if you knew Janis
Joplin well, or if you...
1662
01:43:26,200 --> 01:43:27,761
She sent me a birthday
tape on my birthday.
1663
01:43:27,785 --> 01:43:29,429
Last birthday, Yoko asked
all different people
1664
01:43:29,453 --> 01:43:30,454
to make a tape for me.
1665
01:43:30,746 --> 01:43:32,015
And she was one of
them, and we got it.
1666
01:43:32,039 --> 01:43:33,559
After she died, it
arrived in the post.
1667
01:43:33,666 --> 01:43:35,826
And she was singing happy
birthday to me in the studio.
1668
01:43:36,001 --> 01:43:37,979
What do you think could be
done about drug overdosing,
1669
01:43:38,003 --> 01:43:39,471
in or out of the
profession of music?
1670
01:43:39,755 --> 01:43:41,928
Well, I think the
basic thing nobody asked
1671
01:43:42,216 --> 01:43:43,968
is why do people take
drugs of any sort,
1672
01:43:44,260 --> 01:43:46,388
from alcohol to
aspros to hard drugs.
1673
01:43:46,679 --> 01:43:48,865
I mean, is there something wrong
with society that's making us
1674
01:43:48,889 --> 01:43:51,517
so pressurized that we
cannot live in it without
1675
01:43:51,809 --> 01:43:53,903
guarding ourselves against it?
1675
01:43:54,305 --> 01:44:00,755
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