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- My entire life, I
just wanted to be loved,

and on my search for love,

I did some things I knew
I might regret someday,

but in the moment,

it felt right for me.

Good morning babes,

and thank you so much for
joining me for breakfast.

Today we have sticky
buns.

Extra honey is key.

Mm.

Sticky and sweet.

All right, babes,
and in nine minutes

we'll sink into some
ooey, gooey deliciousness.

- Hi Jenna, this
is Vanessa, your landlord.

It's been brought
to my attention

that you've filming
pornography in my home.

This is totally unacceptable.

You'll have to
leave immediately.

- Just when I thought I might
change everything and move on,

just when I thought I
would find love with them,

along came her.

- How can I help you?

- Hi, I'm Rain.

I'm here to see Blake.

- Follow me.

Here's Rain.

Lemme know if you
guys need anything.

- Thanks.

Hi Rain.

- Hi. It's nice to
meet you in person.

- Likewise.

Please, take a seat.

You like champagne?
I poured you a glass.

- Sure. Thanks.

- It's garnet.

It symbolizes love
and friendship.

- This house is beautiful. I
really wasn't expecting this.

- What were you expecting?

- Well, I mean, you said in
your ad it was $2,000 a month

for the rent.

I just thought it would be
nice, but this is next level.

- It was a birthday
present from my father.

You can afford to pay
2000 a month in rent?

- Yeah. Yes.

I mean, I told you
how I make my money.

That's if you're cool with it.

- I checked out your webpage.
Totally cool with it.

- It's going really
well, actually.

I almost have 20,000
fans, so, yeah.

- Wow.

- Hmm. It's a side thing though.

Until I start nursing
school in the fall.

- So you're a
naughty nurse then?

- I don't know about that.

- Hmm.

You're cute.

I bet the men on the
website love you.

Where's your stuff?

- It's inside.

- Well, this will be fun.

Do you enjoy using the pool
to create your sexy videos?

And give your rent
to my uncle Sterling.

He's the guy that walked you in.

- Yeah.

- I don't really deal
with that kind of thing.

- Definitely.

Thank you.

- So, you want a tour?

- Yeah.

Don't let the smiles fool you.

We were both broken,

lost souls drawn together
by the flaws we shared

and recognized in each other.

It's really nice of your dad

to gift you this place.

- My dad flows with money.

I guess he's good
for that at least.

- I grew up with a single mom.

She worked the front
desk at a hotel,

so I guess I can say the
money's never flowed.

- Were you guys close?

- Uh, yeah, we were actually.

- What? What'd she do to you?

- She died.

Um, you know, she was
really sick for a long time,

and... I'm sorry,
we just met and I,

I don't wanna dump
all this on you.

- It's okay.

- I don't like to
think about it.

She's actually the reason
I wanted to become a nurse.

I remember how much she
cared for all the nurses

and how much they loved her

and cared for her while
she was in hospice,

and I just, I wanna
give that back.

- Where's your father?

- I've only met him
a couple of times

and he's married to someone

that doesn't really
want me around.

They have a couple of
kids, so I guess I get it.

- Well, um, we have
something in common.

- What's that?

- I lost my mom too, but...

Shooting.

Overdose on pain pills.

- Sorry.

- At least your mom
cared about you,

and you guys were close.

My mom didn't give a fuck.

Well, she cared about fucking
rock stars and doing blow,

but not about me,

so life is more fun when
you don't give a fuck.

She taught me one
good thing about that.

- Hey babe, I have a very
special surprise for you.

What do you think?

- I made this one just for you.

- Really?
- Mm-hmm.

- Thanks.

Mm.

- I used to make cocktails at
my parents' dinner parties.

- Wait. A child bartender?

- Yep.

- I was joking.

- I was nine.

My parents liked dinner
parties, and I liked attention,

so I taught myself just
about anything and everything

behind the bar.

- Nine. So you were
in like third grade?

- I think it was third grade.

I mean, I don't really
remember, but...

you ever try an orange
slice vodka shot?

- No, but I'm intrigued.

- I'll teach you.

It was one of my
specialties back in the day.

So, um, Sterling catch
you with your top off?

- You saw that?

- I was spying on you.

- Oh, really?

Well, since you like the
show so much, where's my tip?

- A businesswoman. I like it.

- You know, I used to
make a lot of money

working at this strip club,
but things are different now.

Everything's online. It's
not the same anymore.

Although, I have a
couple of clients

that call me for some
private bookings,

but I don't really
do that anymore.

Sometimes.

- That's really hot.

What happens at a
private booking?

- A lot of private things.

- I bet.

You know, after
seeing you out there,

not bad, but not
that great either.

Especially now that I know
that you're a stripper.

You're so boring.

Don't be boring.

- Uh, okay.

- 20,000 followers ain't
shit. You need a million.

- I do need a million.

- I can help.

Let's live stream tonight.

- You wanna live stream with me?

- Yeah, why not? I mean, I
don't have any other plans.

Do you?

- No. I just, usually only
ever make solo content,

and I'm not really into
the whole girl girl thing,

if that's what you're thinking.

- We're not going to
fuck. Just tease a bit.

It'll be fun.

- I mean, a lot of
people are gonna see it.

Would you be okay with that?

- I don't have
anyone that cares.

Fuck it.

- Okay.

- Wanna bartend?

I've a feeling I'll
have to be drunk

for the live stream tonight.

we put the gelatin
in the orange halves,

but first...

We don't wanna waste any
fresh orange juice, right?

Come here.

Open your mouth.

Ready?
- Mm-hmm.

- Okay.

- So you want me to do
most of the talking?

Only because you've never done
anything like this before?

- Sure. I'll chime in
when it makes sense.

Oh, I was thinking, and I'm
going to wear this mask.

I'll be your sexy mystery woman.

Call me Claudia.
- Ooh.

- I knew a hot
girl named Claudia once.

- Okay, Claudia.

All right. Are you ready?

- Mm-hmm.
- Here we go.

And we're live.

Hey babes. Welcome
to my live stream.

Tonight, joining me, I have
my beautiful friend, Claudia.

Tonight I think we
should play a little game

called "You Tip, We Strip,"

and when we hit
our goal of $3,000,

we'll put on a
special show for you.

- Some girl on girl action

for all you perverted
degenerates.

- Uh, so we have some
special customized rewards

to inspire you to
get to our goal,

starting with the $50 tier.

For $50, I'll write
your name right here,

and of course,

I won't forget to private
message you the photo.

For $75, you'll get a
set of my explicit nudes

and of course, your
name across my tits,

but for a hundred
dollars, you'll get
both of those rewards,

and I'll call out your
name in the hottest way.

- Seriously?

- Yeah.

It'll go something
a little like this.

Oh, Larry.

Oh, Larry.

Larry.

Insert your name here.

What some people might call
easy money comes with a price,

but it's so totally complicated.

So totally fucked up.

And here we were bonding
over our desperate need

for validation,
love, and acceptance.

Tip To Strip.

We just hit our goal of 30,000.

- This is freaking wild.

- Are you ready?

- Ready.

- Thank you.

I cannot believe we made three
grand in less than an hour.

I've never even come
close to that before.

- You're rich.

- We're rich. Half
of that's yours.

No.

- I would've paid to do that.

Keep the money.

- I'll give it to
Sterling for rent.

I have a confession to make.

- What?

- That was the first
time I've kissed a woman.

- Did you like it?

- Yeah.

- Hey, gorgeous.

- Hi. How are you?
- Great, great.

You raised your rate
on me. What gives?

- Well, I...

I'm not really doing this
sort of thing anymore,

but since it was
you, we have history,

and you're sexy.

- Well, thank you,

but you doubled your price
'cause you're phasing out?

- Yeah.

- Here's our normal rate.

You want another five bills,

I want something more from you.

I'm not gonna pay a
grand for the usual.

I'm happy with
our standard date,

but if you're gonna get an
attitude with me, forget it.

I get an attitude from my
wife seven days a week.

I don't need this.

Okay.

Okay.

You're making me
feel like a jerk.

Come on.

Take care.

- Are you hungry?

- Yeah. Everything
looks amazing.

- Please, help yourself.

Where have you been?

- Uh, I was, uh, out.

- What's wrong? You good?

- I did something really
stupid this morning.

I went to a private booking.

- Why?

You have 207 new subscribers
after last night.

You don't need to do that.

- I feel like such a moron.

I mean, I thought I had some
power in this situation.

I mean, last night we
made so much money,

I thought I could raise my rate.

Instead he berated me for it,

and he didn't even pay
me what I asked for.

- The guy with the dough
runs the show, honey.

- It was humiliating.

It's disgusting.

- Fuck him. Gross.

He's just some loser
cheating on his wife

and trying to throw what
little fucking power

he has over a young woman.

What a disgrace.

His wife probably
hates his fucking guts.

No, forget about it.

Let's have some fun
and have a great day.

Some retail therapy.

Hmm?

- Do you mind
refilling me first?

I kind of wanna forget
what just happened.

From the outside, her
life appeared perfect,

with seemingly no worries.

She was intoxicating.
She drew me in.

I am not used to day drinking.

- Buying stuff makes
me feel better,

even if it's just
for the moment.

- You live a fantasy
life for most women.

- Did you play any sports

or take music lessons
or anything growing up?

- I played soccer.

- Did your mom go to your games?

- Every single one of 'em.

Ironically, she would bring
orange slices for the team,

but not as good as
your orange slices.

- My orange slices are special.

I took ballet.

I dreamed of dancing
at Juilliard.

I practiced day and night.

No one ever came to watch me.

No one.

My nanny would drop me off
in the parking lot and wait

until I was done.

On the upside,

I can spend a hundred grand
on my father's credit card

without consequences.

- When my mom died,

I had to find a way
to pay for groceries.

I literally started
giving back massages

to the ladies at a nail salon

just to be able to pay for food.

It's a little hard to relate.

I wanna see you dance.

I had a really good
day today with you.

What was I thinking?

- Are you gonna do your
lingerie try on haul?

What's wrong?

- I shouldn't have
spent so much money.

I, I can't be doing that.

I have to pay for my
first semester coming up

and I don't have anyone or
anything to fall back on.

If I fail, it's my fault.

- Well, is it a bad
time to give you this?

I got something for you today.

The color's perfect
for your skin tone,

and neutrals will
elevate your style.

I have a feeling you're
gonna kill it tonight.

A whole new class of
subscribers are gonna show up.

- I... I just can't tonight.

I really have to
start this paper.

It's due on the first day

and it's gonna take
a lot of research.

I just don't wanna wait
for the last minute.

- Okay.

One night away from studying
is not gonna hurt you.

Besides, what you spent today
you'll make back in, what,

less than an hour?

- Hey babes, welcome to
my lingerie try on haul.

I'm sure you'll love everything
just as much as I do.

Did you like it?

- I did.

- Oh, it feels good
in here though.

- Mm-hm.

- This is perfect.

- Can I ask you a question?
- Hmm?

- Why do you call yourself
Rain? It's not your real name.

- My real name is Jenna.

Rain is the name I gave myself

when I first started my webpage.

I remember watching
the rain late at night

from my bedroom window.

There was a street lamp.

You could see all the glowing
droplets falling from the sky.

It was beautiful.

My mom worked a
lot, so I was alone,

but the sounds of the
water tapping on the roof

kept me company.

- And you're scared, Jenna?

- Scared?

- Of people recognizing
you on the website?

That's why you
actually go by Rain.

- I mean, I,

I just don't wanna miss
out on opportunities

or be judged for
trying to survive.

- I get it.

- So what's underneath that?
I never see you go without it.

What are you hiding?

- Are you asking me if
I'm hiding something

in the way you're
hiding your real name?

- Yeah.

- Battle scars.

- Can I see?

- I'm in the process of healing.

Come here.

- What?

- Come here. I wanna
give you something.

I know it sounds weird,

but I feel like I've
known you forever.

- Hey.
- Oh my God.

What are you doing?
I was live streaming.

- We need to celebrate.

500 new subscribers, and 50,000
likes on last night's video.

Get back into that position.

- Okay. Like this?
- Mm-hmm.

- Oh. Hello.
- Hello.

Mm.
- How's it going?

Stop.

Stop.

- Hey, what's up?

- You're really good.

- Thanks.

- Oh, I didn't
mean to interrupt.

It's just, I need
to pay you the rent,

so can I just
transfer it to you?

- Just don't worry about it.

- I mean, if you want a check,

all I have to do
is go to the bank.

- You're here 'cause
she needs a friend.

She's lonely, you know?

Just keep your money.

- Hmm.

- I don't ever wanna
forget this moment.

- Which part?

- Everything.

Blake.

You ready?

- Cheers.
- Cheers.

- Mm. Not bad.

Do you want some bread?
- Sure.

- Are you drinking?
- Nah, I'm good.

Thank you, though.
- He's sober.

That's why father
sends him here,

to make sure I don't
go off the deep end.

- Exactly, because if
there's no danger involved,

she's not interested.

- Cheers to that.

- We're working on
building Rain's audience.

- Our audience.

She gets off on the likes,

so we've been filming
content together.

- Likes are my new
drug of choice.

- We're turning up the heat
with more foreplay and fantasy.

- Light and dark.
- Good and evil.

- Sounds deep. Hope you
guys get a lot of likes.

- What are you talking about?

You're part of the show.

- No, no, not with you
two. You guys are crazy.

- Dear diary.

I met a mysterious
woman the other night.

Her name was Claudia.

She had me mesmerized one night

while she danced alone
in a darkened piano bar.

I felt feelings I'd never
felt about a woman before.

Every essence captivated me.

- Come with me.

Come with me.

- All right, I'm outta here.

- Come on. Stay.

- Not a chance.

- Okay.

Bye then.

- Okay, babes. Hope you
enjoyed our little movie.

Now it's your turn
to join in the fun.

You tell us what happens next.

Does Claudia take off her dress?

Do I strip and dance with her?

- You're the writer, so
don't make it boring.

- We'll act out
just about anything.

Here we go.

Gino here says,

"You both get naked and
shove dildos up your asses."

Really Gino? Not happening.

Okay.

- Victor says,

"Leave the piano bar and
go take a shower together."

- I don't think that
sounds too crazy.

- I like that story.

Very hot, Victor,

but we're gonna have to get
to 4,000 in tips first, babes,

so tip me up.
- Mm-hmm.

- Oh, look at this.

They must think we're very
dirty and really need a shower.

- And Rain needs
200 new subscribers,

so if you're watching
and not subscribed,

be sure to hit that
subscribe button right now.

- Oh wow. Thanks babes.

All righty. We will see you
when we get to the shower.

- What's happening?

You're magical.

You're so beautiful.

You make me so happy.

Every day feels like a dream.

Why aren't you responding?

Do you not feel
the same as I do?

- I just need time.

This is all so new for me.

- What's new?
Being with a woman?

- I do know I'm enjoying
spending my time with you.

- He pays you.

- Yeah, because
of your fucked up shit.

- I don't do anything.

- I'm not. Are you
fucking kidding me?

Stay the fuck out of
it. Stay out of it.

- Come on.

- That's not even fucking true

- Good morning.

- You saw us fighting.

- Sorta. Yeah, I was
just grabbing coffee.

Are you okay?

- I'm okay.

You know he's not my real uncle.

I only call him that
because I've known him

since I was a kid.

He used to work at my dad's
recording studio in Hollywood,

and, as I've said, he's
here to make sure I behave.

- What do you mean, behave?
You're a grown woman.

- My hypocrite father seems to
think that I drink too much,

and that I'm predisposed
to a drug addiction

because of my mother.

So stupid. Like, I'm
my own fucking person.

- You said he doesn't
care. Sounds like he does.

- He's a drug addict. He's
a liar and a manipulator.

It's his ego, not me.

- I don't believe that.

- You don't know him.

Did your mom ever show up high

with fucking blow
all over her face

to your fucking soccer games?

No?

Did your dad ever
bring over $5 hookers

and do blow off their tits
and their ass in front of you

while your mom was passed
out in another room?

Apologies...

if it fucks me up a little bit.

- I'm sorry that
that happened to you,

but why are you taking
this all out on me?

We're friends.

- Right?

We're friends.

I woke up today already
fucking irritated.

Now everything is
pissing me off.

- And in an instant,
everything changed.

She would lock me out.

Why did she do this to me? Is
this just a meaningless game?

I see you. I see you, Blake.

- I need to apologize
for earlier.

I'm truly sorry.

I was being crazy.

- I don't know what to say.

It's like I'm on a
rollercoaster with you.

- No. No.

Just... I'm working on things.

I am.

Everyone's so
dramatic. I'm fine.

I just...

None of this is my fault.

Have you ever been to
the south of France?

- Uh, no.

- I wanna take you there.

My dad has all the hookups.

I could take a yacht to Monaco.

It's insane. You'll love it.

- Where's Sterling?

- Probably at the studio.

Fuck him. Who cares?

Don't you wanna
have fun with me?

- You make me bad.

- What are you doing?

- Have you seen Blake?

Where is she?

- Therapy.

- Oh.

- Did you find any
needles in there?

- Needles?

No.

- She knows if she shoots
up again, it'll kill her,

and you can't rescue her.

- She hasn't said anything
about needles before.

- She's an addict.
That's what they do.

Keep secrets and tell lies.

- Well, what about her dad?

- He pays me to enable her

so he doesn't have
to deal with it.

You're competing with a
drug, and that won't change.

- Hey.
- Hey.

Such a fiend.

You wanna come inside?

- I'm seeing someone.
I can't fuck it up.

- Please. It's only
a matter of time.

- Hey, it's Blake. Text me.

I hate talking on the phone.

How's the studying going?

- I'm having a
hard time focusing.

- Sterling told me you found
some personal things of mine.

- My nose was just bleeding,

and I was just looking
for something to stop it.

- I know I'm not easy to love.

Not like you.

You're easy.

I really am sorry. I
just can't lose you.

- What's up?

- I have... I have the fucking
results and I need to party.

I need something.

Please. Please, please.

- Yeah, come through.
I'm, I'm here right now.

- I can't. I can't.

I have therapy and I
can't. I can't get to you.

Can you... can you
please come over tonight?

- I'll try. I don't know though.

I might be busy tonight.

I'll have to let you know.

- I think we should call
your dad. What do you think?

- If you want.

- You've
reached Richard Malone.

You know what to do.

- Hey, Richard, it's
Sterling and Blake.

Just thought I'd give you a
call, see what's going on.

Haven't heard from
you in a while.

I know your daughter would
like to hear from you.

Give us a call when you can.

Okay, talk soon. Later.

I'm sure he'll call back.

That girl can't come inside.

- Hey, Claudia.

- Wanna play with Claudia?

Tonight is gonna be insane.
Get ready and come back.

- I got the X from one of my
connects in Cathedral City.

- That was a smooth
pass you did earlier.

Sterling had no fucking idea
you put it in my pocket.

- You know I've always
been good with my hands.

- Do you miss me?

- I don't want you back,
but I'll fuck with you.

More party favors.

- No fucking way.

For when I wanna feel nothing
instead of everything.

- You know, Sterling will have
me arrested if he finds out.

- He's on the need to know
basis about everything.

Damn, girl.

- Claudia invited
me to the party.

- Meet Lisa, my past
toxic relationship.

- Well, join us.

- Don't overthink it.

Hi, it's Claudia. Welcome
to our night of debauchery.

Don't forget to hit the
like and subscribe button.

I love you, Jenna Thayer.

- I've never said
that to anyone before.

- You can say it to me.

- And here I thought
you were dead inside.

- Jenna is a beautiful soul.

And she's gonna be a nurse.

She's a healer.

I just want you
to love me, Jenna.

Do you love me?

- I love you.

- Oh nice, Jenna.
Oh, that's beautiful.

- Shit.

Fuck.

- We made
$11,000 last night.

- There's no way.

- Yes way. And 24,000 likes.

Let me know if
you need anything.

- Mm-hmm.

- You really should
get up and move around.

- I can't.

- I'll take care of you.

You want a drink?

Um, do you remember what
you said to me last night?

- What?

- You told me that you love me.

- Last night was
really fucked up.

- Um, okay. What, what
is that supposed to mean?

Does that mean that you
didn't mean what you said?

- I don't know. I'm kind
of freaking out right now.

I think the live
stream was still on

when you called me Jenna, and
then the nurse thing came up.

I fucked myself.

I was too scared to even
check my fucking computer

to see what happened.

You know, this is really
creepy and I don't feel safe.

Can we please go?

- But do you remember
what you said to me?

- Do you hear what I said?

I ruined my entire
life last night.

- What the hell is the big deal?

You live your entire
life online anyways.

I'm surprised you're not
taking some kind of selfie

to document your fucking
hangover right now.

- I can't even have this
conversation with you right now.

You're clearly on something.

I can't even believe
you're drinking again.

I'm tired of being
with a druggie.

- You're right. You
did fuck yourself.

Most people probably
don't want some kind of

amateur porn star nurse
attending to them.

Jenna.

- It's temporary.

- Decisions like these
are not temporary.

I would've thought
that last night

you would've had some
kind of wake up call.

You really put
yourself on blast.

I don't think you're smart
enough to be a nurse.

I think most medical
professionals

need some kind of common
sense, more than you at least.

- Did you just call me stupid?

- Who the fuck are you,
Jenna? Who the fuck is Rain?

You dehumanize yourself, made
yourself a sexual object,

and now you wanna
be taken seriously?

I think the ship has
sailed on that one.

Good luck, honey.

I think you'll have better luck

going back to private
bookings again.

- Fuck you for that.

You're a fucking bitch.

- How did you think the
truth wouldn't come out?

Truth always comes
out in the end.

Jenna.

Jenna. Jenna.

Open the door.

Open the door.

Jenna.

Open the door.

Fucking needles.
Fucking needles.

Fucking needles.
Fucking needles.

Did my dad ever call me back?

- You need to sleep this off.

- Where are you going?

- I have a job interview.

- What job? You didn't
tell me about any job.

- It's in urgent
care. An internship.

- Are you sure it isn't
a private booking?

Don't.

Don't leave me, please. Please.

I didn't mean to hurt you.

Please don't leave me.

Please don't leave me.

It was a test to make sure
you wouldn't leave me,

but I pushed you away.

I know I did.

- Just stop. I, I have to go.

- Do you think I
wanna be this way?

No.

I can't control it.

I can't control who I am.

I don't wanna be alone.

I can't be alone.

Please don't leave me.

- You're right. You
don't wanna be alone.

This has nothing to do with me.

You're in a toxic
relationship with yourself.

- I love you, Rain.

- This isn't love.

It's a fucking train wreck.

- Please.

Please.

Please.

Leave me the fuck alone.

- It was in
that moment that I knew

it was time to
let go of my past.

Forgive myself for the mistakes
that I had made and move on.

- Hey.

- Hey.

Are you okay?

You look hot today, Uncle.
That shirt looks good on you.

- Thanks.

I kind of need to
run to the studio.

Are you okay if I go for a bit?

I mean, I can stay
if you need me to.

- No, go.

I'm really good.

- Are you sure?

- Yeah.

- Okay, cool.

- Have fun.

I'd rather feel nothing
than everything.

Maybe I'm better off alone.

Maybe I deserve all of
this pain that I feel.

I love you, but I
can't love myself.

I'm fucking worthless.

I am empty. No one
has ever loved me.

My head is a very dark place.

In the end, I am always alone,
and suddenly I felt nothing.

I just want you
to love me, Jenna.

Do you love me?

You're magical.

Oh my god.

Oh my god.

Help. Help somebody.

Help. Please.

Please help.

Please, please help, please.

I will never understand
the point of life,

the loneliness,
the pain we suffer.

If I hadn't left, maybe
she'd still be here.

Maybe the pain was too
deep and she had to go.

Blake will never know that
she was my first love.