All language subtitles for Lifetime-Jodi Arias Dirty Little Secret [2013]

How do you want me?

Travis:
Just like that.

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

[ Giggles ]

Like that?

Yeah.

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

I like that, 'cause
the light's coming through it.

[ Laughs ]
Are you really thinking that?

[ Laughs ]

[ Camera shutter clicks ]
That's a good one.

Love it.

Perfect.

[ Camera shutter clicking ]

Come on.
Tell me what to do!

Yeah, keep doing that.
Look back at me.

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

That's pretty sexy.

These are kind of amazing.

[ Laughs ]

[ Camera shutter clicking ]

[ Laughs ]

You know that camera
has a video function, right?

Jodi: [ Chuckles ]

Want me to put some makeup on,
shoot a porno?

[ Camera beeping ]

[ Camera shutter clicking ]

Woman: 911 operator,
what is your emergency?

Woman #2: [ Voice breaking ]
A friend of ours

is dead in his bathroom.

Ma'am?

We haven't heard from him
in a while.

Ma'am, I need you to tell me.
Could you...

There's blood everywhere.

I-I understand that.

Could you please tell me what...

I'm gonna give the phone
to someone else!

Who?
Hello, hello? Ma'am?

Man: He's dead.

Please tell me what's going on.

He's in his bathroom.
He's in the shower.

Okay, who is in the shower?

It's, uh...
It's all over the place.

Okay, listen to me carefully.

I need all of you
out of the house immediately.

[ Rock-'n'-roll music plays ]

[ Cheers and applause ]

Good afternoon, everybody.

I'm Travis Alexander,
and I love my life.

Now, if there are any of you
out there

who can't say the same thing,
then let's get you there!

[ Cheers and applause ]

Everyone wants basically
the same things in life, right?

Success, purpose, love.

Well, these things
are attainable,

and what's worked for me
is committing to the steps.

These are very simple rules
that, if you follow them,

I can almost guarantee
that you will reach your goals.

Now, before we get started,

obviously, you have to know
what your goals are.

So do me a favor.

Everyone here,
I want you to shut your eyes.

Now, you might feel
a slight sensation

of someone tugging
at your wallet,

and it's just your imagination.
Keep your eyes closed.

[ Laughter ]

Everyone here has to focus
on one single thing,

and that is what you want
your life to be.

Put a bull's-eye on what it is
you want and promise yourself

that you will never let
anything get in your way.

Picture what you want.

See it.

Now open your eyes.

So, think about it.

It's me, five sisters,
and a brother,

and we're all growing up
in this little pickup camper.

Mom's dirt-poor.
Dad's long gone.

We don't even know where the
next sandwich is coming from.

So I'm just trying
to illustrate to you guys

that there's no pit so deep
that you can't climb out of it.

That's how I began my life,

and now I have my own house,
drive a BMW.

I have great friends.

So if that dirty, little kid
in a pickup truck can do it,

why can't you?

Because
we are mere mortals

in your supernatural glow,
Travis.

And then you've got guys
like Nick here.

This guy's been my best friend
for, what, 10 years,

and you've come to like
a dozen of these things,

but, uh, he doesn't listen.

He just likes to come 'cause
he likes to get out of town.

Did it ever occur to you

that my goal was
to become an accountant,

and I already achieved that?

Well, so now you got
to set new goals,

'cause that's
what life's about.

You're never supposed to be
finished.

Like right now, my new goal
is to find the men's room,

and I shall not yield
until I succeed.

[ Laughter ]

I just want you to know
I think you're amazing.

Whoa! Men's room.

What you were saying earlier
at the conference...

You were so right.

You know, that thing about

how we have to stop
letting things happen

and start
making things happen...

Yep. Just trying
to make things happen here.

[ Laughs ]
God, you know, it's funny.

It's like it sounds so obvious
when I hear you say it out loud,

but it's like I feel stupid
for not thinking of it myself.

Yeah. You know, sometimes,
we just need a gentle nudge.

Yeah. That's me.

Boy, is that me.
I am so ready for a change.

I'm Jodi, by the way.

Travis.

[ Chuckles ]

I like that one there.

Just that one?

No. I like all of them.

But, uh, you know,
my instinct would have been

to shoot the sunset,
and the tree's it.

The tree makes it.

Yeah. I think I've developed
kind of an eye.

I mean, I like sales.

I think I'm pretty good
at sales.

It's just photography
has always been

where the passion is,
you know?

So, why aren't you
going for it?

I meet a guy,
and suddenly,

he's got all my enthusiasm,
so...

What about
your current boyfriend?

Does he support
your passion?

Wow. Subtle.

[ Chuckles ]

Oh, you're the only man
in my life, Travis,

at the moment.

[ Laughs ]

And you're the only woman

within four feet of me,
Jodi.

I feel so much closer
to you lately.

We have made some great strides
recently.

Seven, I think.

[ Chuckles ]

But have I made you happy,
Travis?

Very.

Although I should tell you,
I'm seeing another woman.

[ Chuckles ]

Well, we'll always have
our memories.

[ Sighs ] Hmm.

It's late.

Is it past your bedtime?

Way.

[ Chuckles ]

But, hey,
it's Vegas, right?

Well, we can't have you
falling asleep, can we?

Let's go up to your room
for a cup of coffee.

I should tell you...

I'm a mormon.

Okay. That's cool.

So the thing is, is that mormons
aren't supposed to...

Drink coffee.

Okay, maybe there was
some confusion here.

I was just suggesting
that we go up to your room,

tear off each other's clothes,
oil each other down,

and see how quickly we can
turn your bed into splinters.

You know, coffee.

Well, you said to put
a bull's-eye on what I want.

So, let me ask you...

...what do you want,
Travis?

Okay.

I'm not gonna do this,
and I'm gonna tell you why.

You blow me away, Jodi.

You've got this thirst
for self-betterment,

which is what I've devoted
my entire life to.

So as much as
I want to go and do

the whole oil
and bed-splintering thing...

And I really, really do...
I think it would be better

that if you knew,
in my eyes,

you were a whole lot more

than just a... hot...
Cup of coffee.

Well, let me tell you something,
Mr. Travis Alexander.

That right there...
Was the correct answer.

What are you doing
tomorrow?

Travis: We got a thing
in palm Springs next month.

It's kind of
a recruiting deal.

Maybe you should come.

I don't want to wait a month
to see you.

Why do you have to live
so far away?

Palm desert's
like 400 miles from mesa.

What is that,
couple hours in a car?

No. It's five hours.

Okay,
so hit cruise control,

put something in
that'll play for hours.

In fact, I have a great mix
of gospel music for you.

It's, like,
religious stuff,

but it'll get
your heart pumping.

Religious music?
Yeah.

You don't like
religious music?

I... no.

Travis?

Katie!
Holy crap!

What are you doing here?!

The temple here
in Las Vegas.

It's a fellowship weekend.

I haven't seen you
in forever.

Well, you're always
out of town, aren't you?

Jodi, um, this is Katie.

She, um, goes to my church.

Hey, I'm here
with Paul and Helen.
No way.

Yeah! They have a table!
You should come say hi.

I'm just gonna be one minute,
okay?

Sure.

Hello! [ Laughs ]

Good to see you.

Hey, man.

Paul: How are you?
Looking good.

[ Indistinct conversation ]

[ Both laugh ]

Travis: Don't laugh.
It's not that funny.

So, who's up
for another round?

Two ginger ales
are my limit.

Besides,
I should get back.

Oh, boy.
Uh, you know what?

I think I've been rude,
it was great seeing you guys.

You, go to bed.
[ Laughs ]

All right, man.
Good night.

Damn.

[ Elevator dings ]

Hey.

Hey.

I called your room.

Yeah. I'm not there.

I'm sorry about before.

I didn't mean to leave you
in the lurch.

I just hadn't seen...
You know?

[ Up-tempo music plays ]

♪ You know I can't resist

♪ when you hold me close
like this ♪

♪ when you do
those things you do ♪

♪ when you hold me
close to you ♪

♪ kiss close

♪ can you give me kiss close?

♪ Kiss close

♪ can you give me kiss close?

♪ You're my dirty,
little secret ♪

♪ if you think
that you can keep it ♪

♪ in a picture-perfect dream

♪ where our kisses
can't be seen ♪

♪ kiss close

♪ can you give me kiss close?

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

All that
and he can sing, too?

Sounds like Mr. Perfect.

He doesn't have
a great big "s"

emblazoned on his chest,
does he?

Quit it!
You're gonna like this one.

I just want you to walk

a little carefully
this time, honey.

You tend to date...
Jerks.

Gee, grandma,
don't whitewash it.

Well, come on, sweetheart.

You have to admit.

I mean, the guy who wanted
to hunt vampires?

I was 15.
Okay.

Well,
what about the geezer?

He was 40.

He was twice your age,

and he strung you along
for years.

I've just seen guys hurt you
too many times.

When you get your heart broken,
mine breaks, too.

[ Sighs ]

I only get hurt
if they cheat on me.

But that's the difference
about Travis.

He's totally
not the cheating type.

He does have a wienie,
doesn't he?

[ Both chuckle ]

Yes, he does.

But he's religious.

His faith
really means a lot to him.

You just don't find that
in most guys.

He sounds very nice.

I'm sure he is.

Just let things happen naturally
with this one.

Don't start picking China
patterns right out of the gate.

Hi! Come on in!

Hi.
I don't think we've met.

I'm Jodi.
I'm Travis' girlfriend.

Oh.

Say hi, Napoleon!

Hi!

Aw, he misses his daddy.

Uh, Travis is out back.

Okay.

Wow. You didn't
have to do that.

Oh, it's nothing.
Those are new.

Oh, aren't they amazing?

I got them
at a mesa swap meet.

Wow.
The place looks beautiful.

Thank you.
[ Laughs ]

I've had so much fun
decorating this awesome pad.

Come on out back.

So, we've got my special
strawberry lemonade over there.

Uh, other drinks are
in the cooler.

And grill master Alexander's
working his magic.

Paul: Really? Oh, boy.

So, was it like a rasping
or a wheezing,

or was it a combo of the two?

Um, it was ridiculous.

I thought I was going
to suffocate.

Well, Angela, that's
the price you got to pay

to the pilates gods.

Anyone can tell your chakras
are out of whack.

[ Laughs ]
Seriously, I'll show you.

See if you can breathe
through this.

Okay.

It's a position
called the saw.

Oh, gosh.
Okay.

Is it supposed to tickle?

Mm, not sure.
All right.

Hey, gang.

Hey.
Hey, guys.

You just saved me
from the saw.

Do you mind
if I borrow him for a bit?

Uh, sure.
Will you do the honors?

Be very gentle.
They're my children.

Aye, aye, captain.

[ Laughs ]

Hey, what's up?

I'm just rescuing you
from Angela.

I could tell
she was boring you.

No, a-Angela's cool.

She's... she's telling me
about her pilates instructor.

He's obsessed
with controlling her breathing.

That's riveting.

Okay, wise ass,
you had to be there.

I prefer being here.

J-Jodi, Jodi, people
are like five feet away.

Then you better control
your breathing.

[ Coughs ]

[ Whimpering ]

Thanks for coming, guys.
Take care.

Babe?

I can't say goodbye?

Well, then, they'll all think
you're staying over.

I am staying.

What? Wait.
What's the big deal?

They gonna excommunicate you
from the church or something?

No, but they don't need
to know everything we do.

So, wait, what?

I'm just
your dirty, little secret?

Not just.

What else am I to you?

Well, you're a...
How do you mean?

I mean...

Like, do you even know
what my middle name is?

I want to say it's Phillip.

It's Ann.

Well, that's nice!

But how was I supposed to
know that?

You never told me.

You never asked me.

You never ask me about me.

You don't know
about my parents,

about where
I went to school.

Well, I would have
got around to it.

I care about those things,
really.

It's just when we're alone,

we're not doing
all that much talking.

We're not alone enough,
Travis.

You always have
too many people around.

You want to be alone?

Then let's get
out of here...

Just the two of us.

[ Laughs ]

Oh, I like that one.
Yeah.

Aww.
Look at how cute you look.

You like it?
Mm-hmm.

You take a nice picture.

You big dork.

You fell more than I did.

You're the one
on camera, pal.

Yeah, well, that's why
we have delete buttons.

Oh, I am gonna sleep
tonight.

Sleep?
We're on vacation.

Hotel beds
aren't made for sleep.

Oh.

Oh.

Mr. Travis Alexander,

whatever would
the church folk think?

Hey, don't...
Don't bring that into it, huh?

I'm not supposed to be
doing most of the stuff

we've already covered,
Jodi.

Right. I'm like coffee.

Yeah,
like very strong coffee.

[ Laughs ]

So, explain this whole
coffee thing to me.

I mean, what's that about?

Like, I-I understand

you're not supposed to
drink alcohol, right?

Too much alcohol is bad.

It makes you an alcoholic.
I get that.

But coffee?

Coffee is addicting, too.

Well, so are nutter butters
for some people.

Yeah,
but that's the thing.

I can have nutter butters,

but if I find that I'm becoming
addicted to them,

I got to give them up.

You're kidding?

Well, then,
anything can be off-limits.

Knitting can be
off-limits.

Yep. [ Chuckles ]

Well, then, what about me?

I mean,
am I addicting to you?

No. I can quit you
anytime I want.

I just choose not to.

[ Chuckles ]

Yeah. You're not alcoholic
when it comes to me.

No, just
a very heavy drinker.

[ Laughs ]

[ Door closes ]
Hey.

[ Sighs ]

You almost gave me
a heart attack.

I'm sorry.
You headed home?

Yeah. A long trip,
and I'm getting a late start.

What's up?

Came to fetch your boy
to shoot some hoops.

He's still sleeping.

[ Laughs ]
It's 1:00 in the afternoon.

Well, we were up late.

Uh, it's nothing a bucket
of ice water won't fix.

Really, Nick, maybe it's better
if you come back later.

Travis prefers it
if people call first.

Yeah?

Well, I'm not people,
Jodi.

You drive safe.

T-dogg.

Hey.

What's going on?

You tell me.
Do you know what time it is?

I was up late.

Oh, yeah.
I heard from your girlfriend.

She's not my girlfriend.
Okay, sorry.

Your, uh,
"three-hole wonder,"

as you so poetically
like to put it.

[ Chuckles ]

Dude,
what are you doing?

I'm wondering
how I went to bed

with a beautiful woman
next to me

and I'm waking up to you.

No, I mean,
what are you doing?

Nobody ever sees you
anymore.

And what's up
with all this flowery crap?

It's like Martha Stewart
jumped on a grenade in here.

Okay.
So, what's it to you?

She brought a woman's touch
to the place.

Seriously?

Look, man, I don't know
what to tell you.

But look at this girl.

If she was offering up to you
what she's offering up to me,

you'd get it.

Hmm.

You bringing these
to Bible study tonight?

I got it under control.

Get dressed.

Travis: "We are all infected
and impure with sin.

"When we display
our righteous deeds,

they are nothing
but filthy rags."

They wrote about my underwear
in the Bible?

[ Laughter ]

So, at first glance,
this passage seems confusing,

but if we look deeper,

I think the message
is pretty simple.

I think what it's saying...

[ Cellphone ringing ]

Excuse me, guys.

I'm just gonna take this
really quick, okay?

Hey. Where you at?

Jodi: On a very boring
stretch of road.

Keep me company.
I've got another hour of this.

I'd love to, but I'm right
in the middle of something.

[ Laughter ]

Are you throwing a party?

It's Bible study.

I hear girls there.

Girls are allowed
at Bible study, Jodi.

The mormons even let them
show their ankles in public.

Don't be sarcastic
with me.

[ Laughter ]

Oh, what's everybody
laughing at?

What's so funny?

I don't know
what they're laughing at

because I'm talking to you
right now.

Why don't you give me a call
when you get home?

We'll be done by then.

You'll be done?
What, screwing those bimbos?

Well, I got to get them
drunk first, don't I?

So give me a minute here.

Oh, sure, Travis.
You think you're funny?

Look, really,
I can't talk, okay?

I got to get back.
I'll talk to you later.

[ Sighs ]

You did not just hang up on me.
Hello?!

[ Tires screeching ]

[ Horn honks ]

Son of a bitch!

[ Screams ]

[ Tires screeching ]

[ Horn honks ]

What?

Jodi, what are you
doing here?

Jodi?

What are you doing?

Hey, what's wrong?

Whose is this?

It's yours, dummy.

What is going on
in that head?

Look. Nobody's here.

No, I know.
I-I just thought...

It's not my fault.

I just missed you.

You're kind of crazy.
You know that?

It's funny, 'cause I was just
having a dream about you.

Good dream or a bad dream?

A pretty good dream.

So, where are you taking me
for breakfast?

Cocoa puffs are
in the kitchen.

You treat me like a queen,
Travis.

I told you. I got to be
at church in an hour.

I got a better idea.

Blow it off,

and we'll go, I don't know,
horseback riding.

I can't just blow it off.

Of course you can.
Call in sick.

I don't want
to call in sick.

You know I wasn't expecting you
to be here today, right?

Yeah, but I am here.

I mean, you never seem to have
a problem blowing things off

when it's something
you want.

Jodi, we talked about this.

I'm the one that always
makes the five-hour trip

from palm desert.

I think you should be
a little more flexible.

It's just church, Travis.

Look, I know I haven't been
too strict

with the rules lately,

but it's not "just church"
to me.

How am I supposed to know

when you're being pious Travis
or horny Travis?

You're right.

I've been a big, dumb jerk
a lot of the time.

But we've talked about this.

My religion
is very important to me.

Look at my life.

All of my friends
are mormons.

Someday,
I'll marry a mormon.

It's not nothing to me.

[ Water runs ]

[ Cellphone beeps ]

So, let him marry
some prissy, little twit.

He's just another guy,
Jodi.

He's not just another guy.

Of course he is.
They all are.

I mean, they got
to be lining up.

I mean, look at you.

Well,
not look at you now.

I mean normally.

Look, you're...
You're gorgeous.

I mean, you've got
to let them chase you.

Nobody even really knows
what's going on between us

because he doesn't even

act like I'm his girlfriend
in public.

Great.
He's ashamed of you, too?

[ Scoffs ]
Some guy.

No.

I mean, it's because
of his whole religious thing.

Look, Travis has got
this tremendous...

Got this tremendous what?

[ Chuckles ]
I'm not talking about that.

I'm talking about his heart,
you know, his soul.

Well, sweetheart,
all three are important.

I mean,
the sex is really great,

but it's...
It's so not about that.

I mean, Travis...
Travis loves me.

He completely loves me.
He just...

Doesn't know it?

Listen,
you know how I was,

like, bouncing
all over the place

after I dropped out
of high school.

I mean, you saw me.

Travis is...
[ Sighs ]

He's helping me
find a direction.

And I mean, we talk, like,
every day for hours.

I mean, I can't remember
the last time

I talked to my freaking
parents, you know?

Didn't you spend hours on the
phone with other boyfriends?

Yeah, well,
they spent hours telling me

what a hot piece of ass
I was.

I mean, did I tell you that
the first night I met Travis,

he turned me down?

And he said it was because
I was a smart, like, complex,

you know, like...
Like a real human being.

I don't know, like,
I've never...

I've never felt that before.

Look, you got to ask yourself
what you want, Jodi,

and it seems like he's already
said what he's looking for.

I just want to be the girl
that he wants.

[ Cellphone beeps ]

He's just saying
that he misses me.

Travis:
What do you demand?!

All: Success!

Travis:
How will you succeed?!

All: The 10 steps!

[ Cheers and applause ]

Thank you. Right on.

Thank you.
Thanks.

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

Hey, you!

Hey.

Whoa.

I've been thinking
about you.

Me too.

Oh, Travis.

Baby...

I have a surprise
for you.

Yeah?

Mm-hmm.

It's something
I really want to do.

Yeah?

Well, if it's better than this,
I'm dying to know.

Mm, I've been thinking
about it a lot.

I think you're really
gonna like it.

I decided
I'm gonna convert.

I'm gonna become
a mormon.

[ Moans ]

Am I hurting you?

Yeah, but in a good way.

So, she just brought that up
out of the blue?

She said she wanted
to be baptized.

It's a good thing,
right?

Okay, you guys obviously have
something you want to say.

So, we're all friends here.

Come on.
Let's hear it.

Listen, Travis, it's none
of our business here,

but don't you think

she's being a little obsessive,
a little creepy?

Y-You know her way better
than we do, okay,

but is this girl really
the kind of girl

that you're looking for?

Okay, so you guys
don't like her.

Let's put that
on the table.

No. She's fine.

It's just... we don't like her
for you.

Guys, I appreciate
the concern,

but Jodi's cool...
Really.

And nobody's talking
anything long-term, so...

Paul:
Okay, man. All right.

It's just we care a lot about
you, you know, and, I mean, I...

Hi, guys.
When did you get here?

They were on their way.

They stopped by
to say hello.

Oh, well, I'm glad I got
to see you before you left.

Hon, I thought we were gonna
stay in the bedroom.

Oh, I'm sorry.
We were thirsty.

So, what are you guys
talking about?

Jodi, I'd really appreciate it
if you put some clothes on.

Mm. Is that what you'd like
in the short term?

What are you talking about?

I'm talking about you and I

apparently aren't,
um, long-term?

Listen, Jodi, you know
I think that you're amazing,

and our friendship
is hugely...

Oh, god.
You got to be kidding me.

"Our friendship"?!

Keep it down.

I mean, we are friends,
right?

Nick's your friend, too.

When's the last time
you bent him over the bed?

[ Bottle clanging ]

Babe, we've only been together
for what, like five months?

What is that
supposed to mean?

What's the magic length of time
supposed to be?

How long does it take you
to know what you want, Travis?!

I knew in Vegas!

I don't know what you want me
to tell you right now.

You're breathing
down my neck here.

Well, what more
are you looking for?

I never said
I was looking for anything!

And I'm certainly not...
Not ready to talk about that.

Oh, god. You can't even say
the word out loud.

What, you're not ready
for that... marriage?

Or you're not ready
for that marriage with me?

You think I'm gonna be
your Booty call forever?

If so,
man up and tell me.

[ Cellphone ringing ]

Jodi...

Who the hell's Marie?

A girl that I know.

How well do you know her?

Well enough that she texts me
from time to time.

This is crazy!
You're acting crazy!

This is like
insane jealousy!

I feel like a prostitute,
Travis,

a piece of toilet paper.

It is way too soon
to be discussing this.

Marriage?!

I know I can say that
out loud.

I think you and I
need to take a break.

[ Voice breaking ]
You're breaking up with me?

I just... I think that
we need to take some time

and rethink things,
all right?

It's way too much.

And if you're gonna say it
like that

and you need an answer
right now, in that case, yes.

[ Light switch flipping ]

Hello?

Hello?

Hey, who the hell's in here?

All: Surprise!

Happy birthday!

[ Cheers and applause ]

Man: Happy birthday!

Happy birthday, old man.

Aw, adult diapers.

I could have used these
about 10 seconds ago.

[ Laughs ]

Hey.

Did we get you?

No, no, Travis.
Jodi was a skank.

She wasn't a skank.
She just...

No, she should have seen
the looks she gave us

when you weren't around.

Yeah, well, you live
and you learn, right?

Where are you taking me?

I want to give you
your birthday present.

Okay, close your eyes.

Come on. Really?

Just hear me out.

I want you
to close your eyes

and picture something
that you want.

I heard this from some
motivational speaker once.

Complete hack, but he had
some good points.

Just close them.
Come on.

Okay, now, I want you
to picture the perfect woman

for Travis Alexander.

See her.

Now open your eyes.

She's a little young.
[ Laughs ]

Happy birthday.

Woman:
Hey, Katie, get over here.

We need
your nacho expertise.

Everybody has a gift.

[ Chuckles ]

You're not stupid, Travis.

You'll know her
when you find her.

No, I'm actually really happy
to be out of it.

Are you?
Now that it's over,
you know?

So, anyone new
on the horizon?

[ Laughs ]
Hmm, maybe.

[ Laughs ]

That is music to my ears.

I never thought the guy
was right for you.

Travis is a good person.

No, no, look.

Just concentrate
on the future.

It's gonna be
what you make of it.

Sheri, I promise you,
it is all behind me.

[ Laughs ]

Travis: Step five.

There's no such thing as no...

Unless you're in the back seat
of your car, guys,

and then you got to take her no
very seriously.

[ Laughter ]

But in terms of our bigger
goals, when someone says no,

you got to hear maybe,

and it's up to you to convince
them when they're wrong.

♪ In this farewell

♪ there's no blood

♪ there's no alibi

[ camera shutter clicking ]

♪ 'Cause I've drawn regret

♪ from the truth

♪ of a thousand lies

♪ so let mercy come

♪ and wash away

♪ what I've done

♪ I'll face myself

♪ to cross out
what I've become ♪

♪ erase myself

♪ and let go of what I've done

[ camera shutter clicking ]

♪ What I've done

♪ forgiving what I've done

Hey.

I knew I'd run
into you eventually.

What? What are you...
What are you doing here?

I live here now.

I moved here
about a week ago.

You moved here, to mesa?

Things haven't really been
working out in palm desert,

so I figured i'd, uh, take
a shot here and look for work.

That's... that's cool.

I just...
I wouldn't think that...

Relax, Travis.

I'm here for the town,
not for you.

No. I mean, I really came
to love this place

from our... you know,
our time together.

I'm relaxed.

I'm totally...

I'm really glad to see you.

Me too.

[ Sighs ]

I feel really stupid
about the way we left things.

It was totally my fault.

No, come on.

Really, Travis,
I painted you into a corner.

I had no right.
I'm sorry.

Hey, listen,
step number two,

be positive
in your attitude, right?

That's right.
Step two. Be positive.

So, you're here
looking for work?

You know, right now,

I'm just looking for anything
to tide me over.

And I'm not above waitressing
or cleaning houses.

[ Laughs ]

So, I mean, no pressure,
but if you know someone...

[ Doorbell rings ]

[ French accent ]
Jodi's maid service.

Bonjour.

I just thought
you'd find the outfit funny.

You want funny...

I still expect you
to clean my house.

Oui, oui, monsieur.

[ Snorts ]

This was maybe
not the best idea.

You didn't like?

I liked.
I liked way too much.

There you go,
getting nervous again.

This was just...
We're having fun.

I mean... unless you want it
to mean something more.

No, no.
I-I like how you put it.

We're just having fun.

Doesn't have to mean
anything more than it does.

That's what we got going.

We're cool with that,
right?

Totally cool with it.

Where are you going?

Well, you didn't expect me
to stay the night, did you?

I hadn't thought about it,
but you can if you want to.

[ Sighs ]
Travis, this is better.

We're friends.

And I'm cool with it,
really.

[ Laughs ]

Hey.

You know not to mention this
to anybody, right?

Didn't I just say
I was cool with it?

[ Rock-'n'-roll music plays ]

Man: And then he turns around
and sends her money.

[ Laughs ]

[ Indistinct conversation ]

Um... I need to go.

Hi.

Hey.

[ Computer beeps ]

[ Computer beeps ]

Travis: "Thanks for sending me
your photo shoot.

"Why don't you have that guy
take you out into the woods

and screw you
like the animal you are?"

Jodi: "Yikes.
You sound pretty jealous

"for a guy who just wants
to be friends.

"What happened to

'nothing has to mean
anything more than it does'?"

"Simply stating that
you're a slut and a whore

"doesn't mean I'm jealous.
It's just a fact.

"So you can stop pretending
you give a crap about me.

"This just proves
I was never anything to you

but a dildo
with a heartbeat."

"You would not be reacting
this way to someone

"who didn't mean
something to you.

"Maybe you don't see me
as just a friend.

Maybe you're realizing now
that you never wanted to."

"You go right ahead
and think that

"if it makes you feel good
about yourself, Jodi.

"How about this?

We're not friends anymore
either."

[ Cellphone beeps ]

Of course it wasn't me, Katie.
I wouldn't write that.

She obviously stole my password!

Alexander, get in here.

I-I got to go.
I'll call you.

Listen, John, s-somebody
obviously hacked my account.

I mean, you can't...
You can't think that...

Why are you
telling me this?

I don't need a confession.

I want a clean slate.

All right.

If we're cleaning slates,

you're not the only one
who's done stuff, Travis.

One night... this was
about a year ago...

I was on a date
with this guy, Steve,

and he was driving me home,

and he parked
in front of my house,

and he gave me...
That look.

So I undid my seatbelt.

He never bothered
to undo his.

He just sat there.

His eyes were saying like,
"we're gonna do this.

It's because you want it
just as much as I do."

And I lean over to him,
and he turns in his chair,

just to give me
a better angle.

I don't know.

And I just...
Close my eyes,

and I give him a full-on...
Kiss good night.

[ Voice breaking ] Like
on his lips and everything.

[ Laughs ]

I hate every one
of your guts right now.

I got you!
Oh! I got you.

[ Laughs ]

I'm not... I am gonna
get you back for that.

No.
I don't know if you can.

No. We're even now.

How do you figure?
That's twice you got me.

Yeah, but gentlemen
don't retaliate.

That's the unwritten law.

Oh, no. You have it coming,
when you least expect it.

[ Laughs ]
Oh, you don't scare me.

I eat punks like you
for breakfast.

You should be scared.

[ Engine revving ]

[ Tires screech ]

It's okay.
Just some stupid kids.

You got to be kidding me.

I mean, when are you gonna get
the cops in on this, Travis?

It's like fraud
or identity theft, isn't it?

Plus, she damaged
your property.

I mean, what does
this skank have to do

before you take her
seriously?

I take it seriously.
Don't call her that.

Then press charges.
She's stalking you.

She's venting... loudly.

Look, man, I let this thing
go on too long with her.

It's my fault.

Let's just let her
get it out of her system.

She's gonna burn herself out
before long.

T-dogg, you got to pull
your head out of your ass.

This thing
is getting dangerous.

You're messing
with this girl's head.

You know what, Nick?
Why don't you focus on
getting yourself a girl

and stop instructing me
about my choices?

Look, man, I know
you're just looking out for me.

She hasn't bugged me
in like three days, okay?

So if it ain't over yet,
it's gonna be over soon.

Are we playing or what?

[ Kissing ]

Travis...

Mm, no.
Travis, no.

I don't...
I don't do that.

Hmm. Okay.

Now, that right there...

...was the correct answer.

[ Chuckles ]

Do you want
to watch a movie?

Yeah.
Something g-rated

with, like, really
ugly people in it.

[ Chuckles ]
Popcorn?

Coming right up.

[ Motor whirring ]

Hey.

Hey.

Oh, it's morning.

Well, you got me
to sleep with you.

Congratulations.

It wasn't as good
as I thought it would be.

[ Chuckles ]
Didn't live up to the hype?

Please tell me
you have orange juice.

I have orange juice.

Just help yourself, okay?
I'll be back in a second.

Jodi: Hey. I've been thinking
about you.

Travis: Jodi, we need
to talk right now.

I know what that means.

Well, you're out of luck.

I'm at my grandparents' house
in yreka.

You broke into my house.
What's wrong with you?

You have no respect
for my privacy.

And those pictures...
Are you nuts?

Jodi, this crap's got to stop
right now

or it's gonna get ugly
very fast.

Travis... you're only looking
at the bad things.

It's normal for people
to get jealous sometimes.

People argue.

Listen, Jodi, I'm hanging up
the phone, okay?

Just please...

I wish you well.
I really, really do,

and I'm sorry, but you have to
leave me alone.

You gonna go hang out with
your little twinkie right now?

[ Click ]

It's gonna...
Not gonna last, Travis.

She's not gonna
challenge you.

She's not gonna improve you.

She's just a pretty,
little distraction.

That's it.

And one day, you Mark me,

she'll just disappear
on you.

Goodbye, Jodi.

[ Door closes ]

Hi, grandma.

Jodi!

[ Chuckles ]

I haven't seen you
in such a long time.

I know.
I've just been so busy.

I'm sorry.
Oh.

Where's grandpa?

He's at the hardware store.

What have you been doing
with yourself?

I like that skirt.
Is it new?

Jodi, you need to call
your mother.

[ Sighs ]

Mom and I aren't
in a talking way right now.

She's just worried
about you.

I'm fine.

We're all worried
about you.

I mean...

Do you want to talk to me
about anything?

I am fine.

Sweetie, I just love you
so much.

I just want you
to be happy.

Everyone who loves you
wants you to be happy.

My life is unconventional.
I know that.

But that doesn't mean
there's something wrong with me.

I don't need to talk.

Travis accepts me
for who I am.

I should get going.

I've got to grab a couple things
from my room.

[ Smooches ]

Hawaii? For real?

Travis: Two tickets,
hotel rooms, food.

Company pays for everything.

Heck yeah, I'll go!
Are you kidding?!

I'm gonna need a new bathing
suit,

so will your company pay
for that, too?

[ Car alarm beeps ]

Bathing suit?

You don't want tan lines,
do you?

Katie?

Jodi: "If you sleep
under the same roof as him,

you will be giving
the appearance of evil."

Katie, you there?

"You are a daughter of god,

"and you have been
a shameful example.

Be thou clean.
Sin no more."

Hey, sexy man.

My god, you really are
without a clue, aren't you?

Okay, let's just
talk this out.

Go away, Jodi!
Get out of my life!

You don't want that.

I-I don't know how to make
myself any more clear to you!

I am done!
Do you not understand me?!

Do you not hear me?!

No, I hear you, but
neither one of us believes it.

How dare you
threaten Katie?!

If I have to call the cops,
I'm prepared to.

So call the cops.
What's that gonna do?

Maybe it'll open your eyes
to reality.

I see what's going on here
way more clearly than you.

Jodi!

You're not pushing me away
because I'm bad for you.

You're doing it because you
think you have to live your life

based on these idiotic steps
of yours.

But you're the one who needs
to open your eyes, Travis,

because every time you see me,
you can't resist me.

You can't.

That's because
I'm really what you want.

Jodi...

You're missing something
really big here.

In all the time
that we spent together,

did I ever once say
that I love you?

I didn't say it
'cause it wasn't true.

You were a girlfriend, Jodi.

I liked you.

I enjoyed being with you.

But I never loved you.

[ Voice breaking ] You don't
know your own feelings.

I looked
into your eyes, Travis.

I saw it.

Jodi, you saw lust...

You saw weakness,

but you didn't see love.

It was never there.

I'm with Katie now.

I need to hear
that you understand that.

Tell me, Jodi.

I understand, Travis.

Everything's clear now.

[ Sighs ]

[ Gun clicking ]

[ Doorbell rings ]

I saw your light on.

I just wanted
to say goodbye.

Come on in, Jodi.

I'm actually really glad
to see you.

I like the brunette thing.
It's very nice.

I got some hot water on.

You want some of that tea
you like?

[ Teakettle whistling ]

Sure.

So, where are you headed?

What do you mean?

You said you came
to say goodbye.

I'm moving back
to California.

That's a whole lot
of good-looking

that Arizona's gonna lose.

Why are you being
so nice to me?

'Cause you're easy
to be with, Jodi.

So are lots of girls.

Yeah, but you and I...

We're always on the same
wavelength when we're together.

Other girls
are so much damn work.

What happened to
what's her name... Katie?

She thinks I have
abandoned my principles.

Maybe she's right.

She broke up with you?

Looks that way.

You did some really
messed-up stuff, Jodi.

[ Voice breaking ]
I know.

I'm sorry.

Do you want to stay?

You don't want
to be alone...

Or you want to...
Be with me?

I want you, Jodi.

Jodi: How do you want me?

[ Laughs ]

Just like that.

Like that?

Yeah. Perfect.

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

How do you like
your new camera?

I'm starting to see
what your fascination is

with this thing.

[ Laughs ]

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

Our eyes see all sorts of things

we don't want them to see
every day.

But the camera lens... that only
sees what you want it to.

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

This is what I want to see
right here.

And if it sees something
you don't want,

you can just delete it,
and it's gone forever.

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

Deep.
[ Laughs ]

I like this one.

[ Laughs ]
This one?

[ Laughs ]
Let me see this.

[ Laughs ]

You got to flex
in this one.

Come on. Do it.

[ Both laugh ]

[ Camera shutter clicking ]

Very nice.

Come on. You got to make love
to the camera.

[ Laughs ]

You know that camera has
a video function, right?

[ Laughs ]

Oh, yeah?

Want me to put some makeup on,
shoot a porno?

Maybe after
a little rehearsal.

♪ I want a girl

♪ just like the girl
that married dear, old dad ♪

[ Laughs ]

♪ She was a Pearl and the only
girl that daddy ever had ♪

[ Cellphone beeps ]

[ Hums ]

[ Camera shutter clicking ]

Hey, keep those north
of the equator, would you?

I better not see these
on the Internet.

The camera loves you,
Travis.

[ Laughs ]

Let me see those pecs.

Uh-huh.

Yeah, you look good.

[ Laughs ]
Okay, that's enough.

I'm done.

No, wait. Let's just take
a couple more.

Come on. Face the wall.

Let me see those big,
broad shoulders.

Yeah. That's it.

[ Camera shutter clicking ]

You look good, Travis.

You know you don't
have to sweet-talk me

if you want to get
some of this.

I'm done talking.

[ Coughing ]

Woman: 911 operator,
what is your emergency?

Woman #2: [ Voice breaking ]
A friend of ours

is dead in his bathroom.

Ma'am?

We haven't heard from him
in a while.

Ma'am, I need you to tell me.
Could you...

There's blood everywhere.

Seal it off.

Tommy, there's a digital camera
coming down to you

which somebody tried
to wash clean,

along with some bloody sheets
and clothes.

Get it to the lab forthwith.

See if we can find out
what they don't want us to see.

[ Computer beeping ]

What are we looking at?

Body parts.

[ Beeping continues ]

Well, hello, darling.

And who might you be?

[ Police radio chatter ]

Do you think someone
could grab my makeup

before we leave?

[ Siren wailing ]

Just let me know when, okay?

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

I'm gonna need you to be
honest with me, Jodi.

I was not at Travis' house.

That's not gonna help you.

Admitting to something I
didn't do won't help me either.

Oh, my god.

Is that...

That's blood.

You got to be freaking
kidding me.

We have a photo of the killing
as it's happening?

I witnessed, um,
Travis being attacked

by two other individuals.

They were white Americans.

Um, from what I could tell,
they were wearing, uh, like...

What do you call
those things?

Like... like, um, beanies
that cover your whole face,

um, like... like masks.

And they kept arguing about
whether or not to kill me,

and then they pulled the
trigger, and nothing happened.

Man: Dirty text messages entered
into evidence, nude pictures,

audiotape of... of phone sex

between the victim
and the defendant.

Randi kaye reports on the case
that has so many people riveted.

But first, I just want to warn
you, as I've said,

there's some very graphic
details woven through this case

which may be too explicit
for younger viewers.

Kaye: Travis Alexander
never had a chance.

Woman: She had
a very normal background.

There's nothing in her history.

She doesn't have
a criminal record.

She was with a guy
before she was with Travis.

Flores: Okay, this wound went
straight back to his spine,

nearly decapitating him.

The victim was stabbed
27 times front and back.

He was then shot once
in the face,

though the medical examiner
believes

that this wound was posthumous.

It didn't bleed.

Detective flores...

...you're not gonna
believe this.

I've seen it.

You've seen it,
but you haven't seen it.

We got the full picture now
right here.

It's the top
of the victim's head.

Okay.

His body is lying stretching
away from the camera.

It's this stuff
on the left here

that's been hard to make out,
but... look.

That's a hand.

Right.

And here...

That's a leg...

And sweatpants,
white stripes.

I'll be damned.

That's a photograph
of our killer

dragging the body
back into the bathroom,

where we found him.

Jodi, I don't think ever

in the entire history
of criminal investigation,

has there been a killer
who has provided us

with a photograph
of themselves

actually committing
the murder.

[ Camera shutter clicking ]

Your blood was in that house,
mixed with his.

I don't think
I could stab him.

I think... I would shoot him
continuously

until he was dead.

Flores: These are
some of the photos

you guys took of each other
on the day of the murder.

[ Camera shutter clicking ]

That one looks like me.

Are you sure these
aren't from another time?

No, it's you, Jodi.

They're date-
and time-stamped.

I'm not a murderer,
but, I mean,

if I were to kill somebody,
I would use gloves.

I have plenty of gloves.

Jodi... it's over.

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

I promise to tell the truth,
the whole truth, so help me god.

Did you kill Travis Alexander
June 4, 2008?

Yes, I did.

Why?

The simple answer is
he attacked me,

and I defended myself.

So he wanted to kill you

because you dropped
his camera?

Jodi arias was

Travis Alexander's
dirty, little secret.

She killed him because he simply
gave her no other choice.

Show us
how Travis lunged to you.

He just came at me,
like that, like...

Like a linebacker,
like... like that.

It's the only way I know
how to describe it.

Jodi:
Tell me what you're gonna do.
Tell me again, baby.

Travis:
I'm gonna tie you to a tree,

and I'm gonna stick it
all the way in.

Jodi: I did these things
because I wanted to please him.

Willmott:
Did you enjoy these things

that he wanted you to do?

I enjoyed his attention.

Would you describe Mr. Alexander
as a sexual deviant?

That's actually a polite way
of putting it.

When he'd get upset, he'd send
me really mean e-mails.

He'd call me things
like whore and slut.

Willmott: And when
he would do this to you,

how did it make you feel?

Well, sometimes it hurt
if it got in my eyes.

[ Camera shutter clicking ]

Travis kind of got off
on debasing me.

He said,
"don't act like it hurts."

Then he called me a bitch
and kicked me in the ribs.

And then he went
to kick me again.

And I put my hand...

Grace: One married man
even wants to leave his wife

after meeting arias
for just three hours.

Lucky Jodi arias' sex mojo
doesn't work on a jury.

After the gun went off,
what happened then?

I have no memory of anything
that happened after that.

It's all just a fog.

Jodi, continuing to lie
will not help you.

A records check shows a report
of a gun stolen

from her grandparents' house,
a .25 auto.

A-And what kind of gun was used
to kill Travis Alexander?

A .25-caliber automatic.

When I walked in, Travis
was on the bed, masturbating.

And he started grabbing
at something on the bed,

and I could see
it was a little...

A picture of a little boy
in his underwear.

Did you tell anyone
about this?

No.

Did you write about this

anywhere
in your personal diary?

No.

Did you confront him
in any of the 82,000 texts

we have on file about
his deviant behavior?

I didn't use the word
"deviant." You did.

Answer the question.

No.

So, then, we're supposed to
believe this story

based only on the testimony
of a well-documented liar?

Woman: Who has the premeditation

to bring a butcher knife
and a gun

to go have sex
wither ex-boyfriend?

Martinez: If Travis broke
your finger in January,

why does it look
perfectly normal

in this photograph
taken in may?

It's not normal.
It's crooked.

It's crooked now
because you hurt it

when you were killing
Mr. Alexander.

Man:
Arias' defense is falling apart.

Man #2: Lie after lie after lie,
and none of them are holding up.

You went there
with the sole intention

of murdering
Travis Alexander,

and you did whatever you could
to cover your tracks.

Woman: Hey, Travis.
What's going on?

It's almost midnight.

So, listen, um, we were talking

about your upcoming travels
my way,

and I was looking
at the may calendar.

[ Chuckles ] Duh!

Martinez:
Jodi arias came to Arizona

with three full five-gallon
gas cans in her trunk.

Why?

So there'd be no receipts
in Arizona

or the possibility of her image
on a security camera.

She knew that she was coming
to kill him.

There is no other reason.

Jodi: Hi. Detective flores,

I just wanted to offer
any assistance I can.

I was a really good friend
of Travis'.

Martinez: You had the audacity
to attend Travis' memorial.

You sat there
with the family of the man

who you stabbed 29 times,
most of them in his back,

pretending to mourn,
right along with them.

They think
you're obsessed.

"Obsessed" was the word
they used.

[ Sniffles, sighs ]

That's the word I hear
used by everybody.

[ Crying ]

Martinez: Were you crying
while you were shooting him?

Jodi: [ Voice breaking ]
I don't remember.

Were you crying
when you were stabbing him?

I don't remember.

How about when
you cut his throat?

Were you crying then?

I don't know.

I have nothing further.

Foreman: "The state of Arizona
versus Jodi Ann arias.

"Verdict, count one.

"We, the jury,

"duly empanelled and sworn
in the above-entitled action,

"upon our oaths
do find the defendant

"as to count one,
first-degree murder, guilty.

"Five jurors find premeditated.

"Zero find felony murder.

"Seven find both
premeditated and felony.

Signed foreperson."

Judge:
Is this your true verdict,

so say you one and all?

Jurors: Yes.

Jodi: [ Voice breaking ]
I'm sorry, Travis.

I'm so sorry.

Travis: You could have had
any guy you wanted, Jodi.

Why me?

Because I loved you.

You found a hell of a way
to show it.

Why didn't you want me,
Travis?

Why didn't you love me back?

Why didn't you love me back?

Why didn't you love me back?

♪ O, holy night, the stars
are brightly shining ♪

♪ it is the night
of our dear savior's birth ♪

♪ long lay the world
in sin and error pining ♪

♪ till he appeared
and the soul felt its worth ♪