All language subtitles for Call.the.Midwife.S13E07.WEB

There are days
that dawn without clouds.

Only sunshine is expected,
and rain, should it come,

will not be of any consequence.

There is promise in the air,
and there are new beginnings.

Relish the light, and the warmth.

Turn your face towards them

because these days are beautiful
and rare.

Too much is unknown.

Too much is not within our powers.

Too much has yet to be revealed.

Well, there's a sight for sore eyes.

Thank you.

Do we think it might be missing
something, Sister Julienne?

Thank you.

Wow.

It is a sight that never fails
to stop the heart.

A midwife, new-minted,

career commenced.

Today, it begins.

And I wish you Godspeed.

It is an honour to wear this
uniform, Sister Monica Joan.

And all we want is to do it justice.

Your slip's showing, lass.

Oh! Do I need to hitch it up?

I'm going to run to the autoclave.
We're running a bit late.

Not so fast. We're not done just yet.

Each year, the Violet Albany Prize
is given to the midwife

who qualifies with the highest marks
in their exams.

The award for 1969...

..goes to Nurse Joyce Highland.

Thank you.

And if everyone would like
to follow me,

there's a photographer
from the Gazette waiting outside

to take a picture for posterity.

Oh, no, no, I'm not happy that
they've not had their breakfast...

Give her a cheer.

Are you absolutely sure about this?

I don't want any more time
to go by, Trixie.

It seems the only honourable thing
to do.

We had our wedding reception
right here on this forecourt.

I thought that the disasters had
already happened.

That there couldn't be anything
ahead of us but joy.

We didn't realise how perfect
it was, did we?

I realise it now.

So do I.

Oh, Nurse Aylward.
Better late than never.

You're at the maternity home
today with Nurse Highland.

Oh, yes. We're showing
prospective mothers round later.

Will it just be mothers or
are fathers included?

They're not excluded
but they'll be at work.

I think all parents-to-be
should know what to expect.

And a quick tour of the facilities
will settle a lot of jitters.

I'll put it through again.

Meanwhile, Nurse Clifford,
you are coming with me

to the Kingsley Toy Factory
for the first of two talks

on female reproductive health
and birth control.

As health visitor, my offer
to attend does still stand.

Do you really want to go?

I've been on two appropriate
training courses.

I haven't been on any.

With respect, Sister Veronica,
the union representative

is of the view that the
religious habit might be

a bar to open discourse.

In the first instance, you only
need to sign this one,

to agree to the proposal.

The ownership of this building
is transferred to the order?

But, Sir Matthew,
I cannot do anything

without conferring
with Mother Mildred.

A deed of gift isn't a very
complicated thing, Sister.

But the upkeep and maintenance
of the building is...

And it would mean a great deal
to me to know that the work,

or at least the good that
I tried to do here

won't have been completely
dashed away.

Why are you afraid it might be?

Because money, it transpires,

is like life itself.

It doesn't always do
what you want it to do...

..and sometimes it comes
to a very abrupt end.

When I first started trying
to help...

..it was in the manner
of a memorial

to someone very precious.

But Nonnatus House itself has
become precious to me now.

It gave me things
I never knew I needed,

or could have.

And I do not want to leave you
in the lurch.

Is this building
of no financial use to you?

Only if I sell it.

If the truth be told,
it's more likely

to be seized from me in the
not entirely impossible event...

..of me being declared bankrupt.

And then sold, by somebody else.

Please, Sister. Accept my offer.

It would at least enable me to
keep some self-respect.

If it is of any consolation to you,
you already have my respect,

the gratitude of everyone
your generosity has touched.

And you have our love.

I did attempt drawing
the male anatomy

for today's talk, but struggled
with the scale.

And the general details.
So I only did a female one.

I don't doubt the girls will find it
just as revelatory.

You wouldn't believe the things
their mothers never taught them.

Excuse me?

Excuse me, can I help?
That's my car.

Well, according to this,
it belongs to Aylward Estates,

and they want it back.

I have been told nothing at all
about this.

I'm telling you. Sign here.

I'm a bailiff.

I'm not prepared to discuss this
in the middle of the street.

You can discuss it at the
police station if you want to.

Can we get this show
on the road, please, ladies?

Other people's business is
not a spectator sport.

Matthew? What's happening?

Keys...

..please.

Another surprise
from the family firm.

I don't know what to say, Matthew.

And do you know what? Nor do I.

I failed him, Sister.

He looked at me
as though I could help him.

And just for that moment,
I didn't know how.

You are to drink this.

Then you are to go to your duties.

You will help others,

and by doing so,
you will help yourself.

Everyone in business has their
ups and downs, Sir Matthew.

Please...

..would you just call me Matthew?

Only if you call me Violet.

Everyone.

My whole family were shopkeepers,
butchers, grocers.

My Uncle Percy had a Pets Emporium.

And I'm telling you now,

there was always someone
who had their back to the wall.

Because they'd miscalculated?

Absolutely.

Or failed to spot a trend.

And that matters, doesn't it?

Seeing the next big chance.

I certainly never set out
to be in haberdashery.

I trained as a milliner.
But then the war broke out and,

well, hats collapsed.
It was all "make do and mend".

So I started to sell
what people needed,

which was needles and pins
and darning mushrooms,

and trimmings
to tart things up a bit.

Clever.
No, it was resourceful.

You will find a way out of this.

And you will learn things.

I'm learning all the time.

We were hoping for a full hour
with the young ladies, Mrs Tantouri.

Not a mere 30 minutes.

The health and welfare advisory says
classes like this are essential.

Boss says 30 minutes.

Right, Nurse Clifford.

We shall just have to make use
of the time we have.

Wait here, please.

A midwife will show you round during
a suitable pause in her duties.

I'm not too late, am I?
I had to go back

and change this one's bum.

You are somewhat less than punctual,

but the tour has not commenced.
Take a seat.

Do we get a cup of tea?

I'm afraid tea is only served
to patients

and very anxious relatives.

Ah! Nurse Aylward.

Um, can you confirm that the
delivery room remains unoccupied?

I certainly can. It's all ready
for inspection.

As are two new-delivered mothers,
washed, brushed, fully made up

and ready to answer your questions.
Follow me.

This is the ward where you'll come
before and after your birth.

Baby will be looked after
in the nursery

and brought to you for feeds.

Is this the only ward
or can you have your own room?

Bless you, this isn't a hotel.

Most of the ladies like the company.

Next, we'll look at the
delivery room.

This way, please.

You know, we can always pull
the screens round

if you're not in the mood
for a chat.

It's Mrs Godfrey, isn't it?
I know you from Tuesday clinic.

Please don't think I'm being snooty.

I had Roger in the hospital,

and this time round I've had
a change of circumstance.

And I don't want people asking me
where me fella is

all through visiting every day.

I understand, honey.

Have you considered a home birth?

Dennis, my husband, he was
dead against it last time,

in case anything went wrong.

Mm. And did it?

No.

It was like shelling peas!

And if Dennis isn't around, then
he can't have an opinion, can he?

No.

Will you be home tomorrow?

All day.

I make kiddies' jumpers
in my flat for a living.

Then, I'll add you to my rounds.

We'll soon work out what's what.

Just leave 'em round
the front of the shop.

And they will be here
in plenty of time?

You heard me say so, didn't ya?

Did you know that there has been a
fantastic turnip harvest this year?

I've done a deal with Larry
off the market.

For turnips?

Oh, we don't sell veg, Fred.

I'll have the costermongers
baying for my blood.

Turnips ain't veg, Vi.

They are seasonal novelties,

like Catherine wheels
or Christmas crackers.

Go on, then.

Now, there may be some girls
who can set their watches

by their periods, but not many.

Still, it's important to get
to know YOUR cycle.

Then you know
when you're most fertile

and when you've missed a period.

Too late then!

Time to buy a pram.

We'll be talking about the mechanics
of pregnancy next week.

Today, we're concentrating on
the mysteries of the monthly cycle.

Is it true about perms?

Is what true, lass?

My mum says a perm
won't take properly

if you're on your monthly.

My grandma says you shouldn't
even wash your hair.

Or have a bath.

Personal hygiene is
just as important

during menstruation
as it is at any other time.

And as a devotee
of the permanent wave,

I can't say I ever had any trouble
when I was younger.

Yes?

Ooh! It speaks!

Don't be shy.

There could be three other people
in this room

who want to ask the same thing
but haven't got the courage.

Quite.

It doesn't matter.

Oh, I'm glad that's over.

I found those girls quite scary.

And you have to see them every day.

If there is anything
you'd like to ask,

now might be the time to.

It's all right. I need
to get back to work.

Thanks.

I'm sorry. Hmm.

I just stopped to talk
to that girl, Alison.

The one in the massive
woolly jumper?

And with chloasma across
her nose and cheeks.

Well observed, Nurse Clifford.

Not everyone would notice
the mask of pregnancy.

We got here too late, didn't we?

She's already having a baby.

And soon, by the look of things.

I will enquire,

but I'm afraid you will need
to give me a telephone number.

Girl, you're as pale as death.

I can't work out
whether you need a coffee break,

or just a bit more rouge.

Oh, I haven't been sleeping
terribly well.

You are of course welcome
to enquire again

at a later date.

Ladies, do we know of a nurse
with the surname Warren?

What's the Christian name?

The gentleman didn't disclose it.

He had quite a formal manner,

I don't think he's accustomed
to speaking on the telephone.

I can't think of anyone, can you?

No.

You go and find that rouge.
I'm going to put the kettle on.

All right, love?

Chops and chips for tea

with a bit of onion gravy.

Not that jumper again.

I'm sick of the sight of it.

I tell you what.

Let's get your hair done.

I'll make us both an appointment

before your dad comes home
next week.

I thought he wasn't coming back
until Christmas.

And he's not my dad.

That's enough of that, Alison.

He brought you up as his own,
so that's enough of that.

It's hard on us all when
he's away working,

but we all feel the benefit,
including you.

Look at the lovely life we have.

A cosy home. Good food on the table.

I know.

We're lucky, really.

Why is Jonty covered in jam?

I made him a sandwich for his tea.

Er, I was working through
some papers.

He needs a balanced and
healthy diet, Matthew.

The freezer's full
of little casseroles.

Which he'd push round and round
his plate, pulling faces.

He fell on that jam sandwich
like a long-lost friend.

Did you speak to your mother
about the car?

Trixie... You shouldn't just accept
this lying down.

I'm not accepting anything lying
down. I'm working

as hard as I possibly can to clarify

what we have left and what I can do
with it. And...

..it's not all doom.

Isn't it?

Do you remember Chester,
my school friend, in New York?

I remember being annoyed
that you were doing business

whilst we were on our honeymoon.

I bought two large warehouses
from him for an absolute song.

On behalf of Aylward Estates?

No. From my personal account.

Which means they're a
personal asset.

Aylward Estates can't touch them.

Matthew, can you sell them?

Just get them off your hands
and bring the money back here?

I-I-I don't know.

But I'm going to speak to Chester.

Has he called yet?

No, he was going out to dinner.
He won't ring until after that.

Oh, yes. The time difference. Mm-hm.

Strangely, I don't mind waiting.

I can't remember the last time
I felt this excited about anything.

Or even...particularly alive.

Darling, I was thinking
that if it might help...

..perhaps we could discuss
letting go of Jonty's nanny.

Oh, I've already given her notice.

Oh?

I'm going to get us
out of this mess, Trixie.

Go get some sleep.

You deserve it.

You can't have come to bed before
half past three this morning.

Why are you up so early?

He says that the property market
in New York is on the up

and the district where I bought
the warehouses

has been marked for massive
redevelopments.

Chester thinks he can raise
all the necessary capital.

So if we join forces, I could see

a return on my investment
within five years.

Well, it's certainly something
to discuss.

Yes. We were on the phone
for an hour and a half.

You and Chester were on the phone
for an hour and a half?

Mm.

I think this concerns me
a little too.

Just like sacking the nanny
concerns me.

Well, as soon as I have more details
from New York,

you'll be the first person
I come to. I promise you.

I got us into this mess.

I'm going to get us out of it.

Meanwhile, we live off my wages
for five years?

We're married.

That's what marriage means.

And I'm...

..I'm so unbelievably grateful
simply to have the chance

to build something new
with you, for all of us.

Please, please let me redeem myself.

Help me!

Oh, my dear.

Oh! Are you unwell?

I'm going to have a baby.

Alison, have you spoken to
anyone about this pregnancy?

The baby's father, your boyfriend?

No.

I don't have one.

Your mum?

She'll kill me.

No, she won't
because we won't let her.

We are going to look after you
and your baby.

And that starts with me taking
a gentle look at you,

just to see where things are at.

Someone will call your mum
and we'll break the news for you.

If you just lift your bottom up,
we can slip your knicks off.

There we go.

You won't be needing those
for a while.

Try to relax.

I can't.

Please don't make me.

It's all right, Alison.

You're safe.

You're safe.

This all looks very suitable.

But, my goodness,
you keep yourself busy.

Well, I don't have much choice.

I can get through a couple
of kids' cardies a day

if young feller-me-lad plays along.

How close do you let him get
to that apparatus?

The knitting machine?
He stays in his playpen.

You won't report me, will you?

I...I have got his name down
for a nursery place.

Honey, look at me and listen.

You are doing a wonderful job.

Your home is spotless,
and it's warm.

I can smell the cooking on
the stove,

and your love for your little boy
shines out of you.

Do you hear me?

Nobody ever said that to me before.

Well, somebody should have done.

Now. Let's take a look at you,
shall we?

It was really hard
to even examine her.

She was so tense and so distressed.

How dilated is she?

Eight centimetres.

She isn't coping
with the pain at all.

I tried her with the gas and air
but it was hopeless.

We can give her pethidine.

I think this might be a
two-woman job.

Of course.

The poor girl's had no preparation
and probably only

the vaguest idea of how
Baby is going to get out.

If you ask me, she's only got
the vaguest idea

of how Baby got in.

She says she's never even had
a boyfriend.

Oi!

Oi, where are you going?

I don't think it's too early
to ask the council

about improved play scheme funding
for the summer.

November's a hard time
for disadvantaged children.

They need to know they've got
something to look forward to.

Hmm.

I hope they're not planning
on parking by my shop.

Excuse me!

You can't leave these here.
We...we...we can't get out!

It's all under control, Vi.

I only wanted a couple of crates.

You agreed to 20 hundredweight.

Yeah, but I didn't really know
what 20 hundredweight looked like.

It looks like that.

And you were meant to deliver them
round at MY shop, not here.

You sort this now!

Before the rats arrive.

Here, pal.

Hey, are you going to give us
a hand or what?

My Alison is an innocent.

And I'm not being daft
when I say that.

Look, I'm not one of them mums
who thinks butter wouldn't melt

while her daughter's out
acting like an alleycat.

No-one is suggesting that
Alison has done anything wrong.

But, at the moment, she's scared
and she's confused.

How did I not notice, Doctor?

And how are we going to cope?

Not to mention, how am I
going to tell her father?

I have seen families going through
this sort of crisis many times.

And things tend to turn out best
when they all pull together.

I'm the one who runs everything.

He's working away, building the M6.

I mean, he's backwards and forwards

but you'd think it was going
to the ruddy moon and back,

it's taking that long.

That's Alison, isn't it?

She sounds like I did
when I was having her.

Alison, with the next pain
I want you to be

as quiet as possible.

Gather up all that strength,

all that sound,

and use it to push that baby out.

Chin on chest now.

And a great, big, deep,
deep, quiet push.

That's it.

That's it!

You have a little boy.

It's all over now, Alison.

As soon as Sister has cut the cord,
we'll give him to you to hold.

Not yet.

When you feel ready.

There's some sugar in the spoon.

Thank you.

Nurse Aylward?

Is something amiss?

Are you looking for someone?

Yes.

I am visiting my cousin.

Doctor?

Miss Higgins thought you might
be able to spare me

two minutes of your time.

What's the trouble?

Er...

I think the best way of
summing it up

is to refer to "circumstances
beyond my control".

Change, stress, money worries.

Trixie, you can tell me
as much or as little

about your situation as you'd like.

I can't sleep.

I have to force myself to eat,
but it's...

It's the insomnia
that's tearing me to shreds.

How much sleep do you get each night?

A couple of hours,
if you add it all together.

But I keep waking up.

And then when I do
eventually drift off,

I suddenly feel as if I'm...falling,

or being pushed
from somewhere very high.

And then I'm lying awake again.

Do you need to be signed off work
for a while?

I'm better at work
than you might think.

I drink coffee.

I cope, I can concentrate.

I'm in control.

But the nights are torment.

What I need is sleep.

I am going to prescribe you
some sleeping pills.

They can only be a solution
in the short term,

but if you can get some rest,
you'll get some perspective.

I hope so.

Nitrazepam. You don't have
to take them every night,

I wouldn't advise it.

But...try them,

and come and see me again
in a fortnight.

Thank you, Doctor. I mean it.

I'm always here.

What are you doing
with all those turnips?

That's for us to know and the
Halloween goblins to find out.

Nurse Joyce!

You have a visitor.

He came to see you as a surprise!

Here, fancy a cup of tea?

I'll go to the shed and put
the kettle on.

If we stop now, we'll be
doing this at bedtime.

Evening, everybody.

There she is!

Cousin Joyce.

Sylvester.

How long has it been?

Er, four years,

since I came to England
to start my training.

She looks even more like
her mother now.

And even more like my mother.

They were sisters,

sadly both gone to glory
in advance of us.

If they could see her now,
they'd have so much to say.

When I saw you in the newspaper
with your prize,

I could hardly believe it.

I didn't even know
you'd come to England.

Mr Warren caught us all
completely unawares.

The larder was entirely devoid
of cake.

Mr Warren has been telling us
he's hoping to settle

in Stepney and find work there.

Er, why Stepney?

I suggested Brixton.

Now the docks are shutting up shop,

there are more opportunities
further west.

I think it's the docks that draw me.

Or at least the river.

Would you care for another
cup of tea, Mr Warren?

No.

Thank you, but I have imposed
long enough for one day.

If Joyce will show me to the door,

we'll make plans to meet again.

Of course.

Thank you, Sisters.

I hope our paths cross again.

So do we, Mr Warren.

What an absolutely charming
young man.

I thought he was smarmy.

And I didn't like his shoes.

So...

...why Highland?

It was my mother's maiden name.

And why Joyce?

Why not your real name, Claudine?

Joyce is a modern name.

Joyce is the name of a woman who
could say, "I have had enough,"

and then go in search
of something more.

Claudine Warren was your wife.

And I am never going to be
Claudine again.

We'll see.

You left me
without even leaving a note.

You beat me and you abused me.

I was young.

And I was wrong.

People can change.

You grew up without shoes

and you became a qualified nurse.

But you are married to me.

And you can't change that

because I won't let you.

Enjoyed your visit?

I did. Thank you.

Come on.

Gosh, that was a shift and a half.

I felt tempted to leave my bike
at the maternity home

and just crawl back.

Some days are harder than others.

Sister Julienne asked me to stay
late and I could not refuse.

And now I find I've missed
an absolute treat,

in the form of your cousin.

Will you please just shut up?

I...I'm sorry.

Was I going a little bit
a mile a minute?

Maybe.

I can be awfully thoughtless
sometimes.

Shall I go out and come back in
and...and start again?

Child, please don't cry.

You're my friend.

You really are.

Turnips, turnips!

Get your turnips before they all go.

Free with your newspaper.

Free with a box of matches.

Just free, really.

No, thank you, Fred.

We've got enough at Nonnatus House.

Ah, Mrs Turner.

Can I interest you
in a couple of turnips?

Free with the Gazette.

Two of them?

I'm calling it
the Cook and Carve Double. Oh.

One for your dinner

and one to make into a lantern.

Oh! What a nice idea.

The children will be thrilled.

Oh, then take 'em one each,
here y'are. Here y'are.

Thank you.

Oh, that's enough.
Here, here, here, here.

Oh, gosh, no.

Oh, gosh...thank you.

Oh...

All the urine and blood tests
from yesterday are back.

Thanks, Miss Higgins.

I suggest you look at Alison Casey's
as a matter of some urgency.

Alison has syphilis.

Syphilis?

The girl's so naive she's barely
had sexual intercourse.

And the disease then spread
to this little chap.

Are you sure?

We can't be until he's tested.

But he's showing signs of mild fever
and he's slightly jaundiced.

How's he feeding?

He doesn't seem that peckish.

I'm starting them both on
penicillin straight away.

Now, keep an eye open for any
sign of a sore mouth or a rash.

Doctor!

What about Alison?

There's a lot we need to find out.

Nonnatus House, midwife speaking.

Nurse Highland, is that you?

It's Gerri...Gerri Godfrey.

You're sounding a
little anxious, Gerri.

Are things on the move?

The pains have started.
They're coming quite regular.

That's lovely news.

Go home, and I'll be with you
before you know it.

Where are you off to?

Gerri Godfrey.

My first solo home birth -
wish me luck.

You don't need luck.

You can do it standing on your head.

Oh, I forgot to write down
the address.

Oh, go and strap your bag on.
I'll fetch it for you.

Flat 2, 7 Farfield Terrace.

Thanks. You're a true friend.

Well done.

That is Olympic-standard breathing.

If you were in bed,
I'd give you a gold medal,

but you're only getting bronze
cos you're still working.

That's that one over with.

Ah! Bed!

Your boy's safely with a neighbour

and the only machine
of any interest to you and me

for the rest of this evening is the
one with the gas and air.

Come on.

I got you.

Syphilis?

Is that like VD?

VD stands for venereal disease.

Syphilis is just one of a
number of types.

And it gets passed on
through sexual activity.

Sex?

Yes.

So how can the baby have it?

I've never had sex with him.

Do people think I've interfered
with him or something?

It will have been passed on
through your bloodstream,

while he was in your womb.

Your mum is still out in reception.

Do you want us to talk to her?

You're going to have to.

Cos I think she might have
syphilis herself.

That's a disgusting thing to say.

In fact, it's worse than disgusting.

It's just...it's just plain wicked.

What does she mean?

I run a good clean home.

And a good, clean marriage.

We're a very happy family.

We're just very troubled by the
things Alison seems to be suggesting.

You can tell me anything
about your own health

and it will be kept
in complete confidence.

I did have trouble
with me waterworks last year.

Well, with me down-belows.

Like a bit of a boil.

Did you seek any help from anyone?

Well, you don't like to.

My husband works away.

I know he goes to tarts

but I never say anything.

He's a very loving man is my Stan,

and he's a good provider.

So I took some antibiotics
I had left from when

the kids had tonsillitis,
and it just went.

Some venereal diseases
can appear to do that.

Including syphilis.

Well, there's nothing
to say it was that.

You know, there's no proof.

Sorry, little 'un.

He won't get any more poorly,
will he?

Not now he's receiving penicillin.

And you're looking after him
so beautifully.

Have you decided what you're
going to call him yet?

Mum says I should pick
a family name.

But I'm certainly not calling him
after my dad.

The one who ran off.

Or his dad.

Oh?

What name would that be, then?

Stanley.

He's my stepdad.

Your blood pressure's
a little high, Gerri.

How are you feeling?

Like I'm having a baby!

I mean, are you feeling anxious?

Are you worried about what's coming?

Well, I'm not looking forward to it,

but it's not like I haven't
done it before.

So, why don't we get you
on your side?

I think you and Baby
will find it more comfortable.

Dinner is served.
No bursting into tears,

it's actually turned out quite well.
What is it?

Savoury mince.

It turns out I'm quite good
at cooking really cheap things.

How was today?

I've been speaking with Chester
for most of it.

Was it good?

It was better than good.
It was decisive.

I've accepted his offer
to form a partnership,

starting right away.

In New York.

In New York?

I've agreed to go out
for three or four months,

with immediate effect.

If things go well, we can confirm
it's a permanent move.

Can we?

A fresh start.

To get away from all the things
that we've failed at.

Or I've...I've failed at.

Matthew, if you try
to force this through,

you're failing all over again.

You're failing to tell me
crucial details.

You're failing to trust me to listen
and to try to help you.

And you're failing to think that
I might want a choice!

Well, you can have a choice.

You can choose to stay here
and eat mince

and try to support a family
on a nurse's wages

or you can choose to go to New York!

And a fresh start.
You loved New York!

We were on our honeymoon!
I would have loved Skegness!

Would you?

With you?

Yes.

I want to be the man
that you fell in love with.

I want to be able to solve
problems and be generous.

I want to have all the answers
again.

I want to lay flowers
at my wife's feet.

You bought me a cheese plant once.

Because I was scared
of saying what I felt.

And now you're scared
of me saying what I feel.

Which is that I want you
to stop gambling

with what money we've got left.

I want to rebuild where we are,
where we belong.

Well, that's not going
to be possible.

Oh, you've decided that
independently, have you?

Act now and tell the little woman
later?

I am going to New York with Jonty.

If you need time to think
about it, I don't

think that's unreasonable.

Oh! Thank you.

We will go.

And you can come when you're ready.

I've never even heard such a thing.

Even animals don't molest
their young.

I was ten when it started.

Ten.

You'd told me nothing
about what men did,

or could do.

You were too young
to need to know about all that.

Well, he didn't think so.

Please, love.

Will you let me put my arms
around you?

I don't like being touched.

By anyone.

It's how you feel after somebody
takes no notice

of you screaming no.

I never heard you screaming!

I promise, I never heard you.

He taught me how to scream
in whispers.

He said you'd run away
if you found out.

My real dad had already run away.

So in the end I...I didn't
scream at all.

I thought we were happy.

When he was away,
I thought we were, too.

I saw you and Richard and Rachael,

all laughing around
the dinner table,

and I nearly felt it was worth it.

He won't do it again.

I will make sure
he doesn't do it again.

Are you going to let him come home?

Where are you going?

To find someone
who's going to protect me.

I'm a mother now and I know
when a mother has failed.

Good girl. Rest for me now. I'm
going to check your blood pressure

before your next contraction.

I'm getting this weird pain
in my side.

It's like it's there all the time.

I'm not going to hurt you.

I just need to see what might
be going on.

Nurse, I don't feel right.

I know, honey.

And that's why I'm going to go
and call for extra help.

Don't leave me. I'll be gone for
less than five minutes.

And soon, everything will be better.

I have an obstetric emergency
at Flat 2, 7 Farfield Terrace.

Yeah, I need the flying squad
as soon as possible.

I suspect the placenta
has partially detached.

Sylvester, I am needed by a woman
in labour and her child.

Don't just walk away...
I walked away from you years ago.

I will not let you drag me back
into the past.

I am not in the past, Claudine.
I'm right here.

The head's out.

What?

Should there be this much blood?

Just listen to me, honey.

Everything is going to be
completely fine.

The pain in my side,
it's getting worse.

The afterbirth is coming away
before Baby's properly arrived.

Gerri, you are to do exactly
as I tell you. Do you hear me?

Push now.

Now, now, now, now, now, now.

That's it.

You have a daughter.

Aww.

That should deliver the placenta.

I'm cold.

I know. I know.

You just hold on to your baby.

I need to apply pressure
to your uterus.

Get into bed, Trixie.

I'm afraid I won't sleep.

We're still married and still
have a future together.

And I'm afraid that I'll spend
the whole night

lying awake asking myself

if all or any of those things
are true.

I need to do this.

I know you do.

But I need time.

And there'll be an ocean between us.

Well, right now, this bed feels
bigger than that ocean.

Take one of your sleeping pills.

Please.

Come and lie next to me and sleep.

Wait!

I wish you could come with me.

I'll be seeing you back here,

in your own home, within the week.

Mother and baby doing well?

Baby is picture-book perfect.
Mother will recover.

What do you want from me, Sylvester?

I want to make a life here.

Immigration isn't easy
for a single man.

The laws aren't what they were.

But when a man is married
to a woman with a job

and professional qualifications,

it might be easier.

Do you need money?

Yes.

And you need my silence.

Do I?

You trained and qualified
under a false name, Claudine.

You lied about your marital status
and you carried on lying

by passing me off as your cousin.

You passed yourself off
as my cousin.

And you did nothing to contradict
me.

What would the good Sisters
think of that?

I don't carry money with me.

It isn't safe.

I know where you live...

..Claudine.

Mr Robinson.

I, uh, I know you've been summoned
in your professional capacity,

but I thought you'd be
pleased to hear

that Nurse Crane and I have plans
for your surplus of turnips.

Oh? Are they culinary plans?

Happily not.

The scheme involves
the Cubs, Halloween,

and their activity badges.

Once the midwives discharge you
and the baby,

I'll be your health visitor and
can help you both settle in

with your new foster mum.

I'm her mum.

I should be looking after her.

I'm not coming back to that
house until he's dead.

He's not coming back either.

I've spoken to him. I promise.

In a moment, I'm going
to bring in Mr Robinson,

the child welfare officer
assigned to the whole family.

He'll steer you through everything,

including what may happen
if the police become involved.

The police?

You don't want to go to the police.

You need to put this behind you.

Alison will make her own decision,
in her own time.

For now, all she should be
worrying about is recovering

from the birth and choosing
a name for her baby.

Nurse Clifford,

would you be so kind
as to go and fetch Mr Robinson?

I've got a name for him now, anyway.

Martin.

There's never been anyone
in our family called Martin.

That's the point, Mum.

We're starting new
and going somewhere safe.

Sister Veronica says
can you please come through?

Are feelings running high in there?

Mine as well as everybody else's.

Most of the time I adore this job.

But...

..sometimes, I can't bear it.

I am the same.

Are you going to be a good boy
for your daddy?

Yeah.

That's the last of the cases
in the taxi.

The cabbie's keen to get going.

Don't forget Jonty's satchel.

I've put his Dinky cars in it.

And some jam sandwiches.

Thanks.

I don't have much hope
for him and aeroplane food.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

Please come. Please.

You can come tomorrow
if you want to.

And if you haven't decided
what you want,

I won't force things.

I love you.

I love you.

Let me help too.

Life, and love,
follow patterns of their own.

There's never only darkness,

but there is never only light.

Flames burn more brightly
in any given gloom.

There's the spark of the other
in everything we feel.

Grief contains a mote of hope.

Joy is flecked with the fear
that joy will pass.

And happiness shines in the shadow
of its opposite.

We give, we receive,

we steal, we share.

We laugh together,

to keep the beasts at bay.

Because we are formidable and small.

We are valiant and fragile.

We are frail and invincible.

And we're only human.

I'm afraid I must ask you to leave.

Well, has something untoward
occurred?

Help!

I have a very sick lady on my bus.

The cord is round its neck.

Look who's here! Sylvester.

Thank you for making me so welcome.

When did you last go
to Alcoholics Anonymous?

Too long ago.