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I wanna go places
no one has ever been.

Like, not like
actually physically a place.

But, like...

# (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) #

...mentally and just, like,

do something
that's completely...

just great and super grand,
and big.

And I feel like, you know...

You do it once, you do it twice,
you have...

You have to be able to do
a third time, right?

And then, a fourth, and a fifth,
and a sixth, and a seventh,

and an eighth, and a ninth,
and a tenth, and 11, 12

13, 14, 15, 16, 17,
18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25,

26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33,
34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39,

50-- wait-- 40, 41, 42, 43,
44, 45, 46, 47, 48, 49, 50,

51, 52, 53, 54, 55, 56, 57, 58,
59, 60, 61, 62, 63, 64, 65, 66,

67, 68, 69, 70, 71, 72, 73,
74, 75, 76, 77, 78, 79, 80,

81, 82, 83, 84, 85, 86, 87, 88,
89, 90, 91, 92, 93, 94, 95, 96,

97, 98, 99, 100.

MONTERO LAMAR HILL:
Who's gonna pump the beats?

The beats need to be heard
all the way up here,

like back there.

And somebody pumps them.

Jesus, Chris,
there's another level?

Oh, boy.

They placed these seats nicely.

I was wondering
how some people would see,

but I can see
how they would see.

Huh.

(YAWNS) Long live Montero.

CHRISTIAN OWENS:
This is beautiful, huh?

MONTERO:
I wonder how things gonna be

when everything is turned off.

Tomorrow is the first day
of my first tour.

You can kind of see backstage.

Maybe we'll fix that though,
right?

CHRISTIAN: Day one.

MONTERO: Day zero, actually.

-(CHRISTIAN LAUGHS)
-Day one is tomorrow.

CHRISTIAN: That's right,
that's right.

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

MONTERO: Best case scenario
is in whatever way,

this tour changes
how I see the world...

and how I see, like, life.

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

# (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) #

In the beginning, all was dark
as far as the eye could see.

And then, a spark,
light and dust,

and just a little bit
of nasty... (LAUGHS)

...all colliding in space,

creating the universe,

the world, your world,
home to a very special creature.

You, humans.

It's a special thing to be born.

Souls travel
through light and space

to make it to Earth,
each on their own journey.

This is a story about one
of those special souls

and how one day
he found himself in music

and his music found us.

The greatest thing
a human can do is to create.

To create themselves,
to be themselves

no matter how hard that may be.
So let's go.

Let's meet this child
named Montero.

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

MONTERO: I mean,
I was honestly really scared.

Like, how the fuck
are we possibly gonna put

this entire thing together
in a month, you know?

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

MONTERO: A lot of times in life
when I'm the most scared,

it's usually right before
I do something

that's gonna change
my life drastically.

(AUDIENCE CHEERING, SCREAMING)

# ("PANINI"
BY LIL NAS X PLAYING) #

(AUDIENCE CHEERS)

MONTERO: Daytrip took it to ten.

# Ayy, Panini
Don't you be a meanie #

# Thought you wanted me to go
Why you tryna keep me teeny? #

# It's a dreamy
Wished it on a genie #

# I got fans finally, ain't you
Wanting them to see me? #

# I thought you want this
For my life, for my life #

# Said you wanted
To see me thrive #

# You lied #

# Say to me
What you want from me #

# Just say to me
What you want from me #

# Ayy, Panini
Don't you be a meanie #

# Thought you wanted me to go #

# Why you tryna
Keep me teeny now? #

# Now they need me
Number one on streamin' #

# Oh, yeah
You used to love me #

# So what happened
What's the meaning? #

# I thought you want this
For my life, for my life #

# Said you wanted
To see me thrive, you lied #

# Now when it's all done
I get the upper hand #

# I need a... #

# Not another fan #

# But I still want you
As a fan #

# I'ma need to sit down
Don't mean to make demands #

# But I need you #

I just really wanna feel
every last drop of sweat

come to fruition
and I wanna feel every, like,

powerful moment,
every big thing that happens,

every blessing,
and I want it to feel

big and loud.

# Ayy, Panini #

# Ayy, Panini #

# Ayy, Panini #

# Ayy, Panini #

# Ayy, Panini #

# Ayy, Panini #

# Ayy, Panini #

# (MUSIC STOPS) #

# Ayy, Panini
don't you be a meanie #

# I thought you wanted me... #

Okay. Um, let's um...

SEAN BANKHEAD: Go, one, two,
three, four, five,

-and six, seven, and we say...
-Got a lot to learn.

In a very short amount of time.

-PRODUCER:
But you suck at dancing.
-But I know I'm gonna do it.

It's really scary though.
Because they're all so good.

SEAN: Six. Snap, snap.
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,

oh, oh,
step, shift, step, shift.

(GROANS) I fucked up again.
Let's do it again.

My mind is hardwired
since a kid

that when you fuck up,
like, one time,

then it's kind of, like...

you have to quit
the whole thing.

You know,
I was always a brat growing up,

so I'm doing a little training.

A little training.

SEAN: And up, snap, snap, snap,
and hunch, hunch,

hunch, hunch, hunch, yeah,
shift the bar, shift the bar!

I'll give-- I'll give it a clap.

MONTERO:
You're at the precipice.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER ON TV)

-ACTOR 1: Begin your journey.
-ACTOR 2: No, no, no, wait!

-CHILD: Hi-yah!
-(BLOWS LANDING)

ACTOR 3: Yeah!
That's daddy's little girl.

ACTOR 2: Gee, I hope the sensei
doesn't mistake me for
a young student.

Okay.

Quiet.

I like a little bit of chaos.

You know,
I don't wanna be perfect.

I want something
I can work around.

I want something I can, um,
complain about, you know?

I want something-- I don't know.

I guess I'm just allergic
to something

that's just too good.

I'll be honest with you guys.

I never let anyone
into my house.

(CHUCKLES) This is like
a Black family's

living room painting,

-you know what I mean?
-PRODUCER: Right.

MONTERO: And I feel like
I never have anything

that's just like real,

but, you know, I'm, like,
very hesitant to, like, start

building up, like, my house
and shit, you know what I mean?

Like, I still, like,
have this couch

I was supposed to, like,
get a fucking really cool couch

and, you know, a new table
'cause this is, like,

from my apartment
and stuff like that, but I just,

like, refuse to, like,
settle into a house, you know?

'Cause if I settle
into the house,

it means have to be there
forever or something, you know?

This is my empty bedroom.

It's like
a pop culture collage...

you know? See, here is--
Where is she? Where is she?

Here's Maddy.
You know Maddy, right?

And then, here's, uh,
Viola Davis.

You know, I met Viola Davis
at an Erewhon,

but she-- but I don't think
she knew who the fuck I was.

She was like, "Oh, thanks."

I was like,
"Oh, I'm such a big fan."

She was like, "Oh, thanks."

And she kind of,
like, hurried out the store.

It was kind of funny.

There's some random high guys
in here too somewhere.

Oh, yeah, here's Bad Bunny.

PRODUCER: Oh, yeah.

MONTERO: You see Bad Bunny
kiss a guy on the stage?

How cool is that for him?

When I was a kid,
I was like, I wanted to be--

I wanted to be a surgeon,
you know?

I wanted
to be a cardiovascular surgeon

'cause my grandmother
and, like,

a lot of family members
have heart problems.

Yeah, college is actually
the reason I started

to make music.

I got, like,
so immediately bored,

I, like, made a song for fun
and posted it onto Twitter.

I told my parents,

"Oh, yeah, I'm just gonna take
a semester off."

That's so crazy at that year
of my life because it was like

I had never had someone,
like, close to me pass,

and my great-grandmother
had passed.

That's when I started getting,
like, bad, like,

anxiety attacks
and shit like that.

And then, I, like, found music.
I felt like music

was also great
for escaping that.

I felt, like, a fucking
spiritual presence

over me that,
"Okay. This was not a mistake,

like, this is what I'm supposed
to be doing in life."

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

MONTERO: Why are you hiding?

-What are you hiding from?
-SAUL LEVITZ: I'm so excited.

-MONTERO: We're starting?
-I'm excited to have an opener.

-Hello, Adam of manager.
-Hello, Montero of artist.

Oh, my God. It's up.

Yay. What do you think
about our frame?

It's Nas as the sun.

# (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) #

HODO MUSA: The sun of the world.

MONTERO: I knew that I wanted
to do something like theatrical

and like a play.

I didn't know
the best way to go

about doing good,
and Saul and Hodo,

thankfully, my lifesavers,
uh, gave me, like, the concept

of the tour.

It's this kid that enters
a completely new world,

adjusts to the new world...

and then, you know,
becomes sure of himself.

And then, you know, the cycle

kind of ends
and, like, starts again.

And I feel like that's exactly
where we are right now.

PRODUCER: What do you think
the potential of Montero is?

MONTERO: Stop saying that.
Don't even answer.

Don't answer him.
And you don't say anything.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

SEAN:
Well, I've been instructed.

-No, but I, like...
-MONTERO: Stop.

Okay.

-MONTERO: That's too limiting.
-(CHUCKLES)

He's-- he's breaking down--
he's breaking down barriers

and he's-- he's creating
his own lane for himself.

He's really creating
his own lane for himself.

There's nobody like him
right now.

And we're gonna keep digging

this-- this-- this special lane

that only he's gonna be able
to do.

Nobody is gonna be able
to touch him at all.

And he's working
really hard and he wants it.

Bitch,
I am not talking about you.

MONTERO:
Okay. I was just making sure.

As "Panini" finishes,

then we're standing strongly
on stage,

the lights go a little dim

and Nas starts to fall
from the sky

down to Earth,
that we hit "Tales of Dominica."

# ("TALES OF DOMINICA"
BY LIL NAS X PLAYING) #

CHRISTIAN: Twerk.

Five and...

Six.

Okay.

# Woke up on the floor #

# Oh, this plastic bed
Don't blow up anymore #

# In this broken home #

# Everyone becomes predictable #

# Finally grown #

# Ain't nothing like I hoped
It would be #

# Out on my own
I'm floating... #

Yeah! (LAUGHS)

# Could I be wrong? #

# Was everybody
Right about me? #

# Scary things in my head
I can't dream and I just #

SEAN: Is there a reason
why we stopped that?

Can we play...

They stopped playing,
but it goes all the way in,

and then we fade up on the room.

Tomorrow is the first day
of tour, Detroit.

And I'm wondering, like,
am I gonna shake it all off

and just go crazy and have fun?

Or am I gonna freeze up
and-- and--

and go back inside
of my dad's balls? You know?

HODO: Have--
have we seen the horse?

STYLIST: No,
I haven't seen Margot yet.

Let's look for our horse.
There's a horse coming.

Oh, my God.
Guys, come, come, come, come.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

HODO: There's a horse in there.
(CHUCKLES)

And this is the horse.
He's coming in

for "Old Town Road,"
I don't know,

like, maybe he will walk
with it, maybe he will ride it?

MARGOT RADA: It comes down
to the dancers, really.

I think it's whether or not
the dancers

can support the weight,
but I think

there's some kind of practice
required for them

to be able to get used
to the frame itself.

I don't feel safe
because they don't feel safe.

CREW MEMBER: They said
get off. Gotta get off.

Oh, it's too heavy?

CREW MEMBER:
No, I think it's leaning

a certain way.

How the fuck I'm supposed
to get down from this?

Do you ever feel
like a plastic bag?

SEAN: Should we stretch,
you guys? Is it time to stretch?

MONTERO: One, two, three, four.

# Need a boy... #

Did you hear that?

Go back. Let's see.
I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry.

Go back like ten seconds.

I'm not really worried.
I'm just saying, you know?

Like, I'm sure
everything is gonna be great.

It's just like, you know,

if one thing is bad,
like, everything is bad.

TECHNICIAN: Yeah,
we just gotta make that change.

MONTERO: They don't have
their shit together.

If I have to close that curtain
one more time on my own...

SEAN: Right, so

I don't know, like,
what's happening where...

Like, it'll be right,
and then the next day

everybody forgot everything.

-SEAN: Right. Give me the mic.
-HODO: Yeah, yeah, yeah.

'Cause I feel like
we just need to check everybody.

-HODO: Yeah, shoot.
-Like, what's up? Seriously.

-The show is tomorrow.
-DANCER: It's the day to do it.

We're fucking shit up.

We're fucking shit up
that we've been practicing

in all departments.

Oh, we're gonna fix the wings.

-(CHUCKLES) Oh!
-Yeah.

-Oh, boy.
-Yeah. (CHUCKLES)

Can we-- can we try the wings?

Can we just grab the wings
right before we do another run?

We've been fixing these wings
for, like, a month.

Is it loose now? Is it looser?

I don't know
why it was tighter last time.

No, no,
I loosened it up for you.

I just did it.

No, no-- Yeah, they loosened it.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

Detroit,
how y'all doing out there?

I've been waiting
for this moment

a very long time.
To tell y'all that...

What was I supposed
to tell them?

Hold on, what was I supposed
to tell them?

SEAN: Let's get him set
for a top of show again.

(CAMERA CLICKS)

MONTERO: Here's me.
I'm landing in Detroit.

There's Bronco. Mm-hmm.

There's me and Bronco again
on the plane, as you can see.

It's gonna be great
in my photo book.

-# (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) #
-MONTERO: You have certain ways

you want to show yourself

to the world, and I feel
like, as a human being,

we're always gonna have,
like, parts of ourselves

that we're not going to be
super out there with, you know?

Around 2019,
I became way more spiritual

and I started to trust
what I would see as spiritual,

like, signs and, like,
guides and whatnot.

And I felt like coming out
was very important

if I wanted to continue
to progress.

(SINGING INDISTINCTLY)

Burying parts of yourself
will keep you further away

from finding, you know,
the truest version of you

as you go.

And there's still, like,
parts of myself

that I am learning to accept.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

Um, I've been a fan since,

you know, the whole
"Old Town Road" blew up.

I remember my little sister
came up to me,

was like, "Hey,
it's this viral song," whatever,

I'm like, "What is this?
This is stupid.

Get this out of my face,"
you know?

But then I heard the whole EP
and I got caught up in it

and the whole controversy
with his Billboard presence

being taken away
with the country charts,

so I was like,
"Wow, that was cool."

Then he came out. I was like,
"Yeah, this is even bigger."

Then I was like, "'Kay, it can't
get any bigger than this."

-Can I curse on here? (LAUGHS)
-INTERVIEWER: Yes, go ahead.

Like, he's so sexy, like,
he's the first male celebrity

I've wanted to actually fuck
and be at the same time.

I just love Lil Nas X
because it's--

He's so groundbreaking
and it's amazing to see him

be so openly queer.

And I just feel like he's,
like...

he's very important
for the culture,

like, right now,
you know what I'm saying?

You know, he inspired me
to come out my shell

a little bit, so--
As you can see.

-(CHUCKLES)
-Oh, yeah.

Do y'all see what it's giving?

(LAUGHS)
Do y'all see what it's giving?

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

MONTERO:
What time the show start?

HODO: The show starts...

MONTERO:
I wanna get my leg massaged,

I wanna hopefully
get a chance to poop.

I wanna poop really badly,

so then I won't have
to poop later.

HODO: Yeah, and then
we're doing one hour of fitting.

Because once you get
on that stage, the nerves hit,

and then that's when you really
gotta poop, you know?

So if I get the real poop
out now, I won't have to worry

about that other poop
being real.

-# (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) #
-You know what I mean?

CREW MEMBER: Yes.

It won't be real.
You know what I mean?

CREW MEMBER:
Now I'm gonna take a poop
before I go on stage.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

MONTERO: Ooh, once we go out,
and then everybody, like,

sits down and like,
they're on their phone,

they're like,
"We wanna go home."

-(SEAN LAUGHING)
-What if that happens?

Oh, my God,
what if that happens?

What if
I fall on the stage?

I'm gonna lose
all confidence immediately.

-FAN: Long live Montero!
-(FANS CHEER, APPLAUD)

(FANS CHEERING OVER CELL PHONE)

-Did you go out there?
-Hmm.

MONTERO: Why'd you show me this?
I wanted to be surprised.

HODO: It's good.
Congrats, Nas. We did it.

Let's high five for the future.

Don't let me hang
in front of these people.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

(FANS SCREAMING, CHEERING)

# (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING) #

MONTERO: Uh,
society's perception of me,

I think is different.
You know, as I told you before,

some people think
I'm really brave...

-(FANS CHEER)
-...and some people

think my music is dope
but they think I do too much

as far as videos
and the things I do online go.

And some people think
the things I do online

and things like that are cool,
but they don't like my music.

And some people still see me
as the kid-friendly artist

and I don't know.

Some people see me
as, like, this satanic devil

that's gonna ruin the world
or something

or part of a big agenda.

Um, yeah,
a lot of different things,

I feel like.

PRODUCER: Yeah.
I mean, so people feel--

I mean, people feel
a lot of things about you.

People feel a lot
of things about me,

but me...

boy, do I love this kid.

# ("SUN GOES DOWN"
BY LIL NAS X PLAYING) #

# I wanna run away #

# Don't wanna lie
I don't want a life #

# Send me a gun
And I'll see the sun #

# I'd rather run away #

# Don't wanna lie
I don't want a life #

# Send me a gun
And I'll see the sun #

# You need an instant ease
From your life #

# Where you got plenty
Of every hurt and heartbreak #

# You just take it all
To the face #

# I know that you want to cry #

# But it's much more to life
Than dyin' #

# Over your past mistakes #

# And people
Who threw dirt on your name #

# Since ten
I've been feelin' lonely #

# Had friends
But they was pickin' on me #

# Always thinkin'
"Why my lips so big?" #

# Was I too dark?
Can they sense my fears? #

# These gay thoughts
Would always haunt me #

# I prayed
God would take it from me #

# It's hard for you
When you're fightin' #

# And nobody knows it
When you're silent #

# I'd be by the phone #

# Stanning Nicki
Mornin' into dawn #

# Only place I felt
Like I belonged #

# Strangers make you feel
So loved, you know? #

# And I'm happy by the way #

# That I made that jump
That leap of faith #

# I'm happy that it all
Worked out for me #

# I'ma make my fans
So proud of me #

-Let's go!
-(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

# I wanna run away #

# Don't wanna lie
I don't want a life #

# Send me a gun
And I'll see the sun #

# I wanna run away #

# Don't wanna lie
I don't want a life #

# Send me a gun
And I'll see the sun #

For one,
I feel like power comes the most

when you're able to be, like,
honest with yourself

about who you believe
you are,

who you think you are
in that moment.

DOMINIC: You are not alone
in the way that you feel

and I know sometimes
that transforming

can feel so very isolating,
but there are other people

that have been through
this transformation

and have made it
through the other side

and have felt
the way that you felt.

EMARA: It came down to

not being able to live my life,
period,

unless I accepted who I was
on the inside.

Every day is a new challenge

into learning
how to love myself.

You're on the path to where
younger you would wanna be.

You're already there.
You're steps ahead.

Just keep going.
Definitely just keep going.

Lil Nas X made me realize
that in order to love myself,

I have to love
the parts of myself that I fear.

# I know that you want to cry #

# But it's much more to life
Than dying #

# Over our past mistakes #

# And people who threw dirt
On your name #

DOMINIC: All my life,
I was trying to be perfect,

um, get the perfect grades,
be the perfect son.

I thought that being perfect
would make up for this one flaw.

And it took a lot to realize
that who I was

and who I love was not a flaw.

There's a light
at the end of the tunnel.

Don't give up.

You're gonna learn
to love yourself

more than you thought
anybody could ever love you.

Okay. Listen,
I'll be right fucking back.

Don't move. Don't move.

(AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING)

MONTERO: You know,

no matter what
you're going through or how bad,

I feel like there's never
a reason to end it all,

to not want to be here anymore,
because it all works itself out.

There's more people to meet.
There's more places to go.

There's more things to do.
There's more highs to reach.

There's more lows
to make you learn stuff.

There's more.

I guess when the lights came on,
when the flashlights came on,

that was the moment
that, like, really hit me,

because I can also see,

like, the people
even up top and shit.

I was like, "Oh, my God,
this is crazy."

And then-- And I got,
like, a little emotional.

Yeah.

My eyes started to water up.

You know how your eyes water up
and-- and, like,

everything that's a light
turns into, like, a star almost?

So, like, that was crazy to see.

Yeah, it seemed
like thousands of stars.

That's what it looked like.

I was like-- I was like, uh,
it was kind of, like, funny,

but it was also
kind of emotional.

But it was, like,
funny the way that,

"Oh, my God,
I started to do this music thing

and it actually worked,"
you know?

All right, uh,
what day is it? January...

January 8th, 2019,

and I finna eat
some fucking pizza

and, you know, say some words.

I just put out
"Old Town Road"

and it's doing
pretty fucking good.

(MUNCHES)

And... (CHOMPS)
You know, right now...

no matter what,
you know, 3K on Instagram,

2K on YouTube...

not even 1K followers
on Spotify yet, I don't think.

But I'ma hit y'all back
a year from now and, you know,

we're gonna see where I'm at.

All right.

(KEYBOARD CLICKS SOFTLY)

# ("34 GHOST IV"
BY NINE INCH NAILS PLAYING) #

I didn't even know
it was a sample at first,

so when I did figure out
it was a sample,

I was like, "Oh, my fucking God,
I'm doomed."

Luckily, Nine Inch Nails
didn't know the song

had blew up yet,
because they would've

probably would've took,
like, 99 percent.

I think the moment
that I heard the loop,

the, like, original instrumental
of that song, I, like--

That feeling
I always talk about,

it was, like,
on an astronomical level.

You can, like, mistake.

That's why-- that's why I guess
I'm so spiritual now.

And you can, like,
mistake a feeling that,

when I heard that,
I almost, like--

I got, like, emotional

and it's just, like,
a loop and drums.

I'm just like, "Oh, my God,

this is gonna be
something great."

I remember, like, a few days

after I released
"Old Town Road,"

I tell my dad,
I wanna take off a semester

to do music.

He was like,
"You know there's like

a one in a million chance."

My stepmom was like,
"So, what's y'all gonna do?"

Like, "What's y'all plan B?"

I was just like,
"I don't have a plan B."

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

# Can't nobody tell me nothing #

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

# Can't nobody tell me nothing #

# You can't tell me nothing #

MONTERO: Like,
nobody has any idea,

like, what's about to happen
or anything.

But I just know,
like, in my heart,

I'm like, "Oh, okay.

I'm about to, like,
blow up, you know?"

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

# ("OLD TOWN ROAD"
BY LIL NAS X PLAYING) #

(HORSE NEIGHING)

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

Who knows
this motherfucking song?

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

# Yeah, I'm gonna take
My horse to the old town road #

# I'm gonna ride
'Til I can't no more #

# I'm gonna take my horse
To the old town road #

# I'm gonna ride
'Til I can't no more #

# I got the horses in the back
Horse tack is attached #

# Hat is matted black #

# Got the boots that's black
To match #

# Riding on a horse, ha #

# You can whip your Porsche #

# I been in the valley #

# You ain't been up
Off the porch now #

# Can't nobody tell me nothing #

# You can't tell me nothing #

# Can't nobody tell me nothing #

-# You can't tell me nothing #
-(SQUEALS)

# Yeah, I'm gonna take my horse
To the old town road #

# I'm gonna ride
'Til I can't no more #

# I'm gonna take my horse
To the old town road #

# I'm gonna ride
'Til I can't no more... #

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

(AUDIENCE CHEERS)

MONTERO:
I mean, it is so insane,

like, the trajectory of life
and how quickly shit can happen.

# I'm gonna take my horse
To the old town road #

# I'm gonna ride
'Til I can't no more #

# I'm gonna take my horse
To the old town road #

# I'm gonna ride
'Til I can't no more #

# I'm gonna take my horse... #

(CREW MEMBERS CHEERING)

# I'm gonna ride
'Til I can't no more... #

Nas, you're on fucking fire.

CREW MEMBER:
You owned them all.

-(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
-You heard them? I owned them.

You owned those motherfuckers.

HODO: Our Montero's universe

has expanded
beyond his wildest dreams.

For most, these heights
will mark the end of the story,

but our hero
still has a long way to go.

No one on earth would believe
that was your first show.

Ain't always shaking
my nerves off, you know?

I was getting comfortable
up there.

ADDISON RAE: I love you so much.

-MONTERO: I love you, too.
-ADDISON: I can't believe

you didn't forget a single--

Like, I'm-- I'm shocked.

-Oh, I forgot a lot. (LAUGHS)
-(LAUGHS)

MONTERO: You just didn't know.

HODO:
This is only the beginning.

There's more to be written.

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

MONTERO: Yeah.

Everybody!

(CROWD CHEERS)

FAN 1: All right.
What's going on?

He's gonna start? I can feel it.

MONTERO: Thank you.
I love y'all.

FAN 2: Love you.

AARON IDELSON: The-- the show
last night was interesting.

We had some protestors outside.

Lil Nas X will never do
anything for you.

All he's going to do
is make you feel your sin.

He's gonna make you feel
indulged in your sin.

-FAN: Oh, I'm gonna feel my sin.
-Yeah. Yeah. You will.

Yeah, and one day, you're gonna
face the living God.

But it was very cool
seeing all of the, like, fans

in the audience,
or in the line rather,

kind of unite against them.

Like, it was a lot of kids,
like, flipping them off

and all wearing glitter
and neon.

(CROWD CHANTING) Suck a dick!
Suck a dick! Suck a dick!

Suck a dick! Suck a dick!

Suck a dick! Suck a dick!

AUTOMATED VOICE:
(READS PROMPT)

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

AUTOMATED VOICE:
(READS PROMPT)

PROTESTOR:
No thank you, I really...

# ("MYSTERY OF LOVE"
BY SUFJAN STEVENS PLAYING) #

# Oh to see without my eyes #

# The first time
That you kissed me #

# Boundless by the time
I cried... #

SQUIDWARD: (OVER TIKTOK)
Oh no, he's hot.

I think it's really great
when people have...

like, a sense of, like,
belonging to something

or, like, feel like

they're part
of something bigger.

And I feel like
that's what those people feel

like they're doing,
so it's, like,

part of me is, like, "Oh,
wish they weren't, like, hateful

towards this," but it's,
like, another part is like,

"Oh, that's kind of dope,
like, these people

have their own, like,
group where they feel

like they're doing something
to change the world."

That's really--

that's really nice for them,
you know?

I guess I, like,
actually paid attention

to one of the videos.
I was like,

"Oh, that's kind of fucked up,"

like, what--
what they were saying.

I don't know.

It's like, um,
"Do you see what he did?

He comes out
with a kid-friendly song,

and then he goes
and becomes super sexual,

and then tries to convert."
I don't know.

And it was like, I was like,

"That's not exactly
what happened."

Lil Nas X is not going
to fulfill anything.

You're going to go in there,
you're going to drink,

you're going to smoke.

PRODUCER: What about Chase?
Who's Chase?

Who's Chase?

Chase is my nephew.

# (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) #

When I started to,
like, make music

and I was, like,
at my sister's house

all the time,
he was, like, my first fan.

Okay, y'all, my nephew
dared me to do something.

So, okay, go ahead.

CHASE WHITE: Weave. (LAUGHS)

Listening, knowing the words
to my songs and, you know,

like, stuff like that
is a real boost

as a beginning artist.

I was really afraid...

of, I guess, him even looking
at me differently too...

uh, when I did come out
and stuff like that.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

MONTERO: You see a lot of minds
get, like, tainted

by the world around them.

I just hope
his mind doesn't, you know?

All right, TikTok,
I'm finna teach my nephews

to not be homophobic.

Hey, hey, hey, y'all.

-What?
-MONTERO: Don't--

don't be homophobic.

-Okay.
-Okay.

MONTERO: Even before
any of this satanic shit

and the devil,

so many little kids became,
like, Lil Nas X fans and shit.

And it was already
being painted as that.

It was, like,
"Oh, it was all, like, schemed

by these corporate giants
to-- to poison our kids."

And, you know,
I've always been,

like, a super goofy person,
so I was able to, like,

navigate my way
through it, like, joking a lot.

But, you know,
I feel like mentally...

like, you know,
you definitely feel,

like, bad about,
like, what you just did.

Hello?

TANYA: Hi.

Hello, Tanya. How are you?

TANYA: I'm doing great.
How are you?

MONTERO: I feel like at the top
of this year,

like, I tried to be,
like, I guess, like, full-time,

like, serious and...

Yay, go Lil Nas X!

...I don't know,
just completely,

like, dedicated to being, like,

this serious artist
that everyone's gonna

take seriously,
blah, blah, blah.

REPORTER 1:
We have Lil Nas X here.

-How's it feel?
-How does what feel?

I'm actually nervous
before every single performance.

No, this is my son, Bronco.

(REPORTERS EXCLAIM)

-REPORTER 1: Okay. Okay. Okay.
-REPORTER 2: What's up, Bronco?

MONTERO: And then I realized,
you know, I have the most fun
as an artist

when I'm being a fun artist
or just like this happy,

playful being,
that's when I'm the happiest

and I think that's a really
vital part of me.

I actually think
it was kind of dope

that people were, like, outside
of my concert protesting,

like, that's some really cool,
like, rock star shit.

Good for me.
I killed them with kindness,

but I was a little evil
in doing it

because it was pineapple pizza.

I think I've always,
as most people do,

like, used jokes to,
you know, make life easier

when it's not, you know?

Oh...

-Do you wanna have sex?
-(ALL LAUGH)

Could you imagine
if I forgot to mute it? (LAUGHS)

I'll see you later.
You have an amazing time.

I appreciate your time.
(BLOWS KISS)

TANYA: Thank you.
I'll see you soon.

Did you see the baddie?

Saffa?

She's the baddest.

PRODUCER: Who's that?

-Saffa.
-PRODUCER: (WHISPERING) Saffa.

She's the baddest.
Oh, my God, Saffa.

# (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) #

PRODUCER:
If you had one superpower,

what would it be?

MONTERO: I told you,
shapeshifting,

because then I could be a bird
or I could be an ant.

I could be a fly on the wall.

I feel like, I don't know,
sometimes like a slave

to my, like, human body
or some shit.

(YAWNING) I'm just like, I wish
I could just fly sometimes.

I think shapeshifting
is dangerous though

because imagine,
if you turn into a bug

and somebody immediately
kills you.

-DESIGNER: Are you ready?
-Uh-huh.

DESIGNER: Okay, go.

Oh, my God.

This is kind of scary, actually.
(CHUCKLES)

I wasn't expecting it
to be scary.

Oh, my God.
It's kind of terrifying.

DESIGNER: Go on. Go on.
He's not gonna bite you.

Or maybe he will.

Oh, my God.
It even has my grill.

Oh, my God. What the fuck!

DESIGNER: Look
at your hair. Touch your hair.

(GASPS) Oh, my God.

Are we gonna do this?

I'm not gonna do that with you.

CREW MEMBER:
(WHISPERING) Kiss him.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

(CAR HORNS BEEPING)

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

MONTERO: In New York, my stepmom

and my brothers
came to the show.

My brothers, I feel like
our relationship was, like,

super tight where I can do
almost anything around them now.

We already know the vibe.

We turn up everywhere we go.
Turn down for what?

Long live Montero Tour.

He said it ain't even
on the same wave as y'all.

I had to switch it up.

TRAMON HILL: What's up,
my boy?

Had to switch it up real quick.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

# (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) #

TRAMON: At the end of the day,
we only had each other.

Like, our parents,
they were doin' what they doin'.

We got separated,
you feel what I'm sayin'?

All of us got separated,
you feel me?

Everybody found their way back
to each other.

When we lost our grandma,
like...

LAMARCO HILL: Appreciate you.

...shit really was different,
you feel what I'm sayin'?

Because that,
like, that was her heart.

And that was his heart because,
you know,

no cap, I'ma let you know,

that little motherfucker
was spoiled.

Finally got what I was saying,
to the real tight shit.

TRAMON: It was the reason
why he was taken care

of the way
he was taken care of.

He had a destiny.
My grandma knew something

about that baby
when he was young.

She knew he was the chosen one.

I thought
we were going to the top?

You have to go down.

You have to--
There's, like, a special door

you have to take to get there.

Oh, you gotta go down to go up.
That's life.

LAMARCO: We used to have,
like, a love-hate relationship.

As we grow,
we start likin' each other more.

And then, boom, he got rich. Oh!

TRAMON:
He come up outta nowhere.

There you go.

(CROWD CHEERING)

Who just got cleaned?

CREW MEMBER: Montero, look.

-Mommy!
-Oh, my God!

-(ALL CHEER)
-MIA STAFFORD: Y'all didn't know
I was coming. (LAUGHS)

ROBERT SLEEPY: Why you here?
Why you here?

You're not supposed to be here.
You're not supposed to be here.

I can go where I wanna go.
I got money.

MONTERO:
You got the shirt on, too?

My stepmom, I don't know,
it still feels, like,

really weird,
like, being flamboyant

or closer to, like, myself

that I show most people,
around her.

-He four months.
-(ROBERT LAUGHING)

MONTERO:
Wanna introduce yourself?

Hi, I'm Mia Stafford.
Lil Nas X Montero's mother.

-(KISSES, LAUGHS)
-Mm-hmm.

-What else you wanna say?
-I hope I--

What you expectin'
for the show tonight?

I hope not to cry.

MONTERO: Don't cry.
You won't cry.

-You gon' be happy.
-It's gonna be happy tears.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

I have one thing for you to do.
One thing.

You gotta promise
to sign these four for me.

I actually printed
these pictures I have--

MONTERO: Oh, no autographs.
I'm kidding. (LAUGHS)

When you-- when you--
when you finish.

MONTERO: We got a marker?

CREW MEMBER:
Lemme get one, I got you.

Let's see.

MONTERO:
Now, I'm warning you now

the signature ain't changed.

They don't care.

They just--
they just love Lil Nas X.

MONTERO: The thing
that has come with,

like, my success...

is the idea of...

fear for them, and the feeling
of fear of losing me,

and not tripping on their words.

I've seen my family become
much more accepting...

of what I am and people like me.

And I think that is super dope
and beautiful.

But...

I don't know.

I feel like
there's a lot of things that...

people may wanna say but don't.

They don't wanna lose me
as, like,

-an asset of a person, you know?
-(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

-Oh, my God. Hey.
-MADONNA: Hi.

-How are you, friend?
-MADONNA: Hi, precious.

-MONTERO: You look amazing.
-So do you.

-I love the hair.
-I love your outfit.

-MONTERO: Oh, my God.
-Did you not know I was here?

MONTERO: Oh, my-- I did.
But this is crazy.

You better put on a show for me.

MONTERO: Fuckin'--
Now, I'm nervous.

(LAUGHS)

MONTERO:
I'm not performing anymore.

(MADONNA LAUGHING)

Do you remember
coming to my show?

Yes. That's literally--
Your show literally inspired

some things happening
here tonight.

-Whoo!
-(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

# You know I never
Did you wrong #

# You know I'm right here
By the phone, dawg #

This song is, like, I guess,

mainly responds
to a lot of family.

-(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
-# (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING) #

MONTERO:
When someone who gets, like,

famous and rich and whatnot,
everyone wants to hit them up.

And basically,
if you don't call them

and talk to them
and respond to all their needs,

then to them, it's, like,

you're fake,
you're a terrible person,

you're going Hollywood,
you're selfish.

(AUDIENCE CHEERING, CHANTING)
Montero! Montero! Montero!

# ("DEAD RIGHT NOW"
BY LIL NAS X PLAYING) #

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

# Breaker, breaker, 911
Somebody come get this bitch #

# Thinkin' you a star
On the rise #

# You got time to reply
Don't lie, you can hit my shit #

# You can lend me five
Lil' nigga, on the side #

# Lil' nigga, couple thou'
Need to fix my whip #

# How you switch sides
On a nigga #

# Who was down
With you, nigga? #

# You a fraud, just a fib
My nig', my nig' #

# Oh, oh #

# You know I never
Did you wrong #

# Even though I'm right here
By the phone, dawg #

# You know you never
Used to call #

# Keep it that way now #

# I'll treat you like
You're dead right now #

# I'm on your head right now #

# You wanna fuck with me
So bad right now #

# Well, now
You can't right now #

# 2018
I was in my sister's house #

# The whole summer #

# Songs wasn't doing numbers
Whole life was going under #

# Left school, then my dad and I
Had a face to face in Atlanta #

# He said, "It's one
In a million chance, son" #

# I told him,
"Daddy, I am that one", uh #

# I ain't never need 'em, huh #

# I ain't never need
No nigga, uh #

# I ain't never need
No feature #

# If I didn't blow
I woulda died tryna be here #

# If it didn't go
Suicide, wouldn't be here #

# Now they all come around
Like they been here #

# When you get this rich
And famous #

# Everybody come up
To you singin' #

# Hallelujah, how'd you do it? #

# You been on my mind
You been runnin' through it #

# Yeah #

# Hallelujah, how'd you do it? #

# You been on my mind
You been running through it #

# Yeah... #

I feel like that's
an important part in life,

like, letting go of people
that you feel like

are taking the advantage of you.

# You know
You never used to call #

# Keep it that way now #

# I'll treat you like
You're dead right now #

# I'm on your head right now #

# You wanna fuck
With me so bad #

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

# Well, now you can't
Right now, oh #

(AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING)

SECURITY:
Do you want them in here?

MONTERO: No.

(GRUMBLES) Nah.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

MONTERO: It's crazy, like,
this is actually my first,

like, fuckin' show in Atlanta.

Like, this is the place
I started music

and it's my first time
having a show here.

Long live Montero.

-Period.
-Period.

MONTERO: Hey, Siri.

Can you set
an alarm for 34 minutes?

I think my dad
was the first person that I,

like, came out to, it was just,
like, kinda awkward,

and, you know,
he was kind of, like,

"It could be, like,
the devil tempting you

and whatnot."

Which I understood,
like, to a degree.

I mean,
you gotta think about it.

Your son gets rich and famous,
and suddenly, like, he's gay.

It just sounds like everything
the YouTube things

warned you about, you know?

# ("FREE" BY DENIECE WILLIAMS
PLAYING) #

Okay. (LAUGHS)

MONTERO: Let me see.

(CHUCKLES)

MONTERO: I think
my dad's side of the family

is a bit more conservative.

But one great thing about them
is they are very,

like, family oriented.

They're all about togetherness.

But even there, I guess,
I would feel like

uh, somewhat of, like,
a stepchild sometimes.

That's fashion.

# Whispering #

# In his ears... #

My grandma
loved the Braves so much.

She used to love
these goddamn Braves.

# Potion for love #

# Telling him #

# I'm sincere #

# And that there's nothing
Too good #

# For us #

# And I just got to be me #

MONTERO: Wow! Wow!

# Free, free #

# And I just got to be me
Yeah... #

ROBERT STAFFORD: He is probably
extra nervous tonight

because Dad is here,
aunties, you know?

His whole family is here,
so, you know,

maybe he'll try to be more
subdued on the stage,

so, you know, I guess he--
You know, he's kinda nervous

that he can't do
his thing, you know?

Being-- being Montero,
you know what I'm saying?

(LAUGHS)
But I told him last night,

"Hey, man, be you.

Do you, we all support you,
we all love you,

we know your story,
we know where you came from,

and we're excited
to see where you goin'."

We call him Doobie,
so he's still just Doobie to us.

You know, he's not--
I don't see him as a major star,

I see him just as my son.
That's my baby boy.

So, thanks to me
all of y'all here.

Thanks to me everybody's here
because I didn't use a condom.

(CROWD LAUGHS)

# (SONG ENDS ABRUPTLY) #

This song has a chokehold on me.

PRODUCER: It's a great song.

This song. This song.

She was not playing
with them bitches.

She was so serious.

Do you think, um...

singers back then were,
like, um,

uh, saying shit like that?

Like, "I'm not playing
with these hoes."

You think she said something
like that

when she left the studio?

(CROWD CHEERING)

(MONTERO GRUNTING)

(GRUNTS, SMACKS LIPS)

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

# (JAUNTY PIANO MUSIC PLAYS) #

(VOCALIZING WITH PIANO)

MINDY PACK: Do it, say it again,
sing it out for me,

-"No!"
-No!

MINDY: There it is,
one more time, together.

# No, no, no, no, no,
No, no, no, no, no, no, no #

("ON THE LEVEL"
BY MAC DEMARCO PLAYING)

# Boy #

# This could be your year #

MAKEUP ARTIST:
Are you gonna go under?

Ba! Ba!

# Make your old man
Proud of you #

# Forget about the tears #

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

I hear you and your dad have
a really great relationship?

# On the level... #

Is he proud of you?

Is he like,
"Son, I'm proud of you"?

# Stand up like a man #

# (SONG FADES OUT) #

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

# ("DON'T WANT IT"
BY LIL NAS X PLAYING) #

# If I say so
Know they gon' ride #

# I know G's, and you know
They ain't nice #

# If I pop up
I'ma want it, but I get by #

# Tell the devil
I can't have him inside #

# Tell the reaper
He don't want it #

# He don't want it, oh #

# I know everything's
Gonna be all right #

# Tell the reaper
He don't want it #

# He don't want it, oh #

# I know everything's
Gonna be all right #

REPORTER 1: (OVER SPEAKERS)
The award goes to Lil Nas X.

-REPORTER 2: Lil Nas X.
-REPORTER 3: Lil Nas X.

REPORTER 4: The number one song
on the Billboard Hot 100,

"Call Me By Your Name"
by Lil Nas X.

(AUDIENCE CHEERS)

MONTERO: I feel like every day,
though, I'm able to, like,

slip from it a little bit more
and be just,

like, a little bit
just more free in general.

That's more conservative, right?

Mm-hmm.

I like reserving a bit, huh?
It's not too much, right?

CREW MEMBER 1:
Just the right amount of leg.

CREW MEMBER 2:
Grab what you want, Chase.

You want something from there?

MONTERO: You don't think so?

-Are you serious?
-CREW MEMBER 1: Yeah.

MONTERO: Do I look stupid?

CREW MEMBER 1:
No, it looks great.

What do you think?
Do I look stupid?

PRODUCER: I think you look dope.

# (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) #

-MONTERO: Hello, family.
-(CROWD LAUGHING)

STYLIST: I love it.

How are you?

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

Like, what's up, Dad?

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

You sure I don't look stupid?

Like a little stupid?

I like that, like,
that skirt is low-key,

like, a big transitional moment
in my life

that was so small
but such a big thing.

It's easy to, like,
go to a music video set

and do some, like, super,
like, fruity shit.

But to, I guess, like,
walk out in front of, like,

both sides of your family in,
like, this little skirt...

(CHUCKLES)

...and the fuckin' shirt
that has, like, every version

of the LGBT flag
on the back of it

is, like-- It's, like, crazy.

It's, like, really
freeing almost.

Not almost, it actually is.

(CROWD CHEERING)

(CROWD CHANTING)

Hold on, hold on, hold on.

I love my mom and dad to death.

But I feel, like, disconnected
from them, you know?

Even when I first came out,
I still, like, never talked

about, like, boys and stuff
in front of family

or-- or just, like,
any other experience at all.

It was just, like, the elephant
in the room, you know?

And I feel like even
now though, I guess,

it's still kinda hard
to be open, like,

when I'm dating somebody
or somethin'.

And my dad actually
talked to me about it,

he was like,
"You know you can let me know,

like, what's happening
on that side"

and stuff like that, so, like,
that was really great,

but it's still, like...

It's a fight to get
that out there,

but we're getting closer.

I mean, like, you gotta think
going from

"the devil is tempting you,"

to-- to fucking coming
to a gay club

with me is crazy.

# ("FREE" BY DENIECE WILLIAMS
PLAYING) #

# Whispering #

# In his ear #

# My magic potion for love... #

MONTERO: And so
now, I just, um,

I guess I'll just
try to be, like,

just more free in general
because, I mean,

everything I fucking do,
I guess, at this point,

I'm always just tryin'
to, I guess,

challenge the way
my family or just, like,

the world in general,
like, looks at things.

Being back home in Atlanta,

taking a picture
with my mom and dad,

looking into the audience,

and seeing,
like, my nephew right there,

it's just crazy because he's,
like, my first fan ever.

To me, it's like
a full circle moment

that I'm probably
gonna look back on

like, "Oh, my God,
I remember that."

It feels like I'm having
a great time.

It feels like
I'm having the best time.

It feels like, um...

It feels like I'm living life.

# And that there's nothing
Too good for us #

# But I want to be free, free #

# Free #

# And I just got to be me
Yeah #

# Me, me #

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

DANCER: One, two, three, four.

# Need a boy who can cuddle
With me all night #

# Keep me warm, love me long
Be my sunlight #

# Tell me lies, we can argue
We can fight #

# Yeah, we did it before
But we'll do it tonight #

# An afro, Black boy
With the gold teeth #

# With dark skin, looking at me
Like he know me #

# I wonder if he got
The G or the B #

# Let me find out and see
Coming over to me #

# These days
I'm way too lonely #

# I'm missing out, I know #

# These days
I'm way too alone #

# And I'm known
For giving love away, but #

# I want #

# Someone who love me #

# I need #

# Someone who needs me #

# 'Cause it don't feel right
When it's late at night #

# And it's just me
In my dreams #

# So I want #

# Someone to love #

# That's what I fucking want #

# I want #

# Someone who love me #

# I need #

# Someone who needs me #

# 'Cause it don't feel right
When it's late at night #

# And it's just me
In my dreams #

# So I want #

# Someone to love
That's what I fucking want #

(AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING)

(AUDIENCE SCREAMING, CHEERING)

(AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING)

No, he was really
reading you.

-SEAN: He really was.
-That's not reading at all.

I mean, like, I'm not gonna
say some names,

but some of these bitches
are just like Debbie Downer

-personalities.
-(CHUCKLES) Oh, my God.

And some bitches are like fun.

-Oh, my God.
-MONTERO: There's, like,

cool people and there's, like,
people that are just like,

-"I wanna go home." (GRUNTS)
-(LAUGHS)

-(LAUGHS) 'Cause, bitch, I do.
-(LAUGHS)

-"I wanna go home."
-Wait. Can I see really quick?

"My boyfriend..."

(LAUGHS)
"My boyfriend's at home."

-(LAUGHS)
-AMARI SMITH: Check the jiggle.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

# (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) #

MONTERO:
Sean has helped bring me out

of my comfort zone so much
concerning my sexuality.

'Cause, I mean,
I was so against doing anything

like, feminine,
bringing that side out at all...

or even, like, I don't know,
having gay men

on stage with me
and shit like that.

'Cause I wanted to, at first,
like, stay, like,

the acceptable gay person,
you know?

Like, this is the one

that doesn't shove it down
our throats.

It's the one
that, like, keeps it to himself.

I felt like, even nowadays,

I'm not, like, ever able to be
100 percent around,

like, family members.

I feel like I'm most myself
with maybe the dancers,

if-- And I know
that's, like, crazy.

Rocco, to the front.

MONTERO: I love that they're all
usually, like, just so vibrant,

full of life
and, like, happiness,

and just really
confident in themselves

and able to just,
like, move so fluid.

And I'm just, like, in awe,
you know?

Yeah. We some superstars,
for real. Especially Nas

-'cause he be eating it.
-Yeah.

Let's do a group scream.
Ready? One, two, three.

(GROUP SCREAMS)

DOBBIN PINKNEY:
The fact that he's a gay artist

and he's Black,
I really resonated with that.

And, like, just generally
his artistic vision, like...

ZACHARIAH MOLTON:
This whole experience

of being on tour has just been
a dream come true.

KEBAHB GLANVILLE: Being on stage
and performing this show

feels like magic every night,
you know?

AMARI:
The connection and the bond

that you form with people

helps transform relationships,
helps transform you as a person,

and turn you
into a higher power,

a higher being of yourself.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

MONTERO: I'm inspired by them.

I love them.
I see them as friends.

I'm really happy
to have other people like me

by my side.

They help me-- they help me
understand myself more.

-Wait. Why did I stop?
-MONTERO: You know?

I feel like that's one
of the best parts about

where I am in life
and what I get to do

and who I get to work with.

I'm able to finally,
I guess, like,

be with other Black gay
young men, you know?

And we share, like, common,

you know, like,
little commonalities

and-- and whatnot.
I think that's really dope.

I guess, I didn't see
the value in that

until, like, I was actually
in that space.

That is how you win.
Okay? Like that.

I feel like maybe there's,
like, a weight lifted...

for a lot of...

Black gay men

and the way we're supposed
to behave, you know?

Tell me, do you feel, um...

Do you feel in yourself shy?

I mean, you know,
you walk around like this,

but do you ever feel
that you wanna hide away...

-Oh, no. God.
-...yourself, you know?

I don't wanna hide nothing.

God knows I don't. (CHUCKLES)

I ain't never hid nothing,
holy macadandy!

I ain't never hid nothing.

I won't ever.
I let it all hang out.

I don't hide none.
I think that everything

is supposed to be showed.

Your limbs, everything
is supposed to work,

in the right function,
in the right pause

and the potions
that you have a notion

to give out to the world

the love, the gentleness,
the tenderness, the kindness.

You ain't supposed
to hide nothing.

You got it. God gave it.
Show it to the world.

Ain't nothing wrong.
You ain't hurting nobody.

You helping the world.

MONTERO: I don't know
if he ever explicitly stated

that he was gay or whatnot,
but like his idea, you know,

he'd be like, you know,
"Let it all hang out

and like..."

He's like--
I think his story is sad,

'cause I feel like
that's the story

for so many queer people,
where it's like...

they're doing
these amazing things,

making these huge strides...

and they kinda get,
like, painted over by history

as if they never happened,
you know?

I mean, of course,
Black people, in general,

but Black queer people,
even more so.

# (MYSTICAL MUSIC PLAYING) #

In life, we hide
the parts of ourselves

we don't want the world to see.

We lock them away.
We tell them no.

We banish them.
But, here, we don't.

We thrive.

Welcome to Montero.

(WHISPERING) Wake up.
Wake up. Wake up, Montero.

Montero...

Wake up.

(AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING)

# ("MONTERO
(CALL ME BY YOUR NAME)"
BY LIL NAS X PLAYING) #

# I caught it bad yesterday #

# You hit me with a call
To your place #

# Ain't been out
In a while anyway #

# Was hoping I could catch you
Throwing smiles in my face #

# Romantic talking?
You don't even have to try #

# You're cute enough
To fuck with me tonight #

# Looking at the table
All I see is weed and white #

# Baby, you living the life #

# But nigga
You ain't livin' right #

# Cocaine and drinking
With your friends #

# You live in the dark, boy
I cannot pretend #

# I'm not fazed
Only here to sin #

# If Eve ain't in your garden
You know that you can #

# Call me when you want
Call me when you need #

# Call me in the morning
I'll be on the way #

# Call me when you want
Call me when you need #

# Call me out by your name
I'll be on the way like #

# Hey, hey #

# I wanna sell
What you're buying #

# I wanna feel
On your ass in Hawaii #

# I want that jet lag
From fucking and flying #

# Shoot a child in your mouth
While I'm riding #

(AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING)

MONTERO: "Montero
(Call Me By Your Name)."

Along with being sexually,
mentally,

and emotionally liberating,

this song marked
a growth period for me.

(BIRDS CHIRPING)

MONTERO: I went
from being the friendly,

likable neighborhood cowboy
in people's minds

to this controversial,
quote, "satanic," unquote...

(SIGHS) ...gay guy.

I was, like, able to break
out of that mold

that people had built for me.

That was like a breakthrough

on so many different areas
at once.

# Oh, call me by your name #

# Tell me you love me
In private #

# Call me by your name #

# I do not care if you lying #

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

MONTERO:
With "Call Me By Your Name"

and that release,
I guess I was just so anxious.

'Cause I feel like
that was my first time...

being able to, like, make music
that's so literally

-about my life.
-(AUDIENCE CHEERS)

MONTERO: Yeah, I feel like
it's a very liberating song.

For me and other people.

Starting when I turned, like,
16 or something,

I, like, kinda abandoned, like,
religion altogether at first,

and I was just like,
"Oh, my God. I don't want--

I don't believe this
and none of this is real."

But when I started to do music,
I can't explain it,

but I felt, like, a presence,
like, bigger than me.

And I was like--

"I know for a fact
this is gonna work."

The world
that we coming in, now,

my brother really opened
the doors for a lot of people.

Yeah, he opened the door for me.
Like, what I mean by that,

like, I'm not-- I'm not gay,
you know? You feel me?

I'm-- I'm bisexual.

He helped me be real myself.

My brother made me more open
to it. You feel what I'm saying?

You fuck with me,
you fuck with me.

If you don't, you don't.

Bye. Get out my person.
I don't need you.

At the end of the day,
people are gonna fuck with

who they fuck with,
if you know what I'm saying.

So stop trying
to chase a friend.

A friend going out
would be--

There's somebody out there
like you. Trust me.

Every moment is an opportunity
for you to, like, decide

who you are
and who you wanna be

and what the core
of your authenticity is.

And I really have to, like,
support people younger than us

who are brave enough
to be themselves.

And I see that in his dancing
and his choreography

and what he wears
and how he represents himself.

It's totally inspiring.

And I love to see,
uh, that energy in young people.

PRODUCER: We're back in L.A.

I feel like this is almost like
hometowns again.

It's like second hometowns.

It feels more like home,
because I actually live here.

# (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) #

And Atlanta feels like past.

It's like I'm going to the past.

PRODUCER:
What do you mean by that?

MONTERO: Like, you know,
it doesn't feel like home.

It feels like a place
where, you know,

there's family and stuff
out there.

But, I guess, you know,
I always considered myself home.

So, I guess, where I dwell...

it's the most home can be,
you know?

I feel like this year
was the best for me

growing into an adult,
if that makes sense.

-PRODUCER: Yeah.
-You know what I mean?

Like, I feel like this tour
has helped that so much.

And like, in Atlanta,
like, I can't explain it,

but, you know, I had some
conversations that I feel

changed the entire course
of my life, you know,

that I needed to have.

Needed to have.

It's lot of healing and stuff
and whatnot to do, but...

How y'all folks doing?

(INDISTINCT)

Fans.

-Is this thing gum?
-PRODUCER: Sure.

-Do you have some?
-PRODUCER: Oh, no.

Oh, I thought I said,
"You want some gum?"

PRODUCER: Yeah. I'm like,
"Yeah, am I smelling?"

I need some gum.

JAMAL NEWSOME:
I got you some of these.

-Yeah.
-JAMAL: Okay.

You thought you were gonna get
a cheap laugh out of me?

-Right.
-Huh?

I got something.
I got something though.

MONTERO: Just, like,
heavy conversations,

in general,
I wanna have with my family,

like stuff I wanna talk about,
like, my brothers and sisters,

like, what the fuck
are we doing?

How the hell can we get everyone
in a fuckin' house

in the next five years
without it being just me

paying for it or something,
you know?

It's, like, stuff like that.

I wanna start having, like,
actual, building conversations,

you know?

Where do we go from here?

You're thinking too much.
You're Montero. You're Montero.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

-Let's get this guy out of here.
-(LAUGHS)

MONTERO: I definitely progressed
as far as confidence goes

throughout these shows.

You were right.

I didn't wanna say it
in front of everyone.

JAMAL: Oh, no problem. I know.

MONTERO: For a person
that only has used

social media to talk
for so long,

like, saying actual words,
it's really hard to do.

But I feel like,
throughout this tour...

I've become better
at getting those points across.

On a-- on a small scale like,
this is, you know, like...

-CHRISTIAN: Yeah, yeah, yeah.
-...just us doing a performance.

But on a biggest scale, like--

like, it just can't be,
like, half-assed.

-You know what I mean?
-CHRISTIAN: Oh, yeah.

Absolutely. Yeah.

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
At this part, after your verse,

we-- I say we come back
into this thing, and like,

'cause everybody
get right here, right?

I think you should come
over here too.

And then, 'cause I'll do
my little God damn.

And then I think we can, like,
do that at the same time.

You know, like--

-(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
-One, two, three, four. One.

# Bring the cash out #

# I need one million ones
For the ones with they ass out #

# Blow her back out #

# All the bitches 'bout to bar
In the back finna act out #

# Oh, bring the cash out #

# For the freaks on the pole
And the hoes with they ass out #

# Get the draw, hit the floor #

# Shake that ass
Make it clap now #

# ("DOWN SOUF HOES" BY LIL NAS X
& SAUCY SANTANA PLAYING) #

# Southside niggas on ten
They lurkin' #

# Lookin' at my friends
Like virgins #

# Wasted #

# Wasted #

SAUCY SANTANA: # Santana #

# You've got
To fuck me properly #

# Before you hit,
Run my money, monopoly #

# Smack, smack, smack #

# Keep chewin'
On this coochie, nigga #

# Get on your knees #

# Put this pussy
On your coochie, nigga #

# Have you ever made love
To a gold digger? #

# Fendi first, then Gucci
For this coochie #

# Not no Hilfiger #

# Uh, pussy boomin'
Like an 808 #

# Send him home, full stomach
He already ate #

# I'm on his mind, on his chest
Like a nameplate #

# I'm on the gram with your man
Make you deactivate #

# Uh, pussy great
They call me Tony #

# Bitch you tweakin'
I ain't fuckin' #

# With the little man
I'm lookin' for... #

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

# Dick in the pants
Can you keep up the pace? #

# The boys in the yard
They want a milkshake #

-If I get that part...
-CREW MEMBER: Do it, you got it.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

...everything will be great.

Good knees. Good knees.

CREW MEMBER: You already got it.

CREW MEMBER 2: Why you scared?
You gotta let loose on stage.

-Yeah, yeah.
-It's hard to let loose.

JAMAL: No, you scared of Saucy.

-You scared of Saucy.
-Yeah, I was scared.

I mean, how often do,
you know, I'm on stage

and getting twerked on
by another man.

It's not as often--
It doesn't happen a lot.

So, yeah,
it was a little nerve-racking.

Y'all ready to shake some ass?

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

MONTERO:
They wanna shake some ass.

# Down souf hoes
Up at late night workin' #

# Ten toes down
And they won't stop twerkin' #

# Southside niggas on ten
They lurkin' #

# Lookin' at my friends
Like virgins #

# Wasted, faded, T'd up #

# Baby, yeah, you wasted #

# Faded #

# T'd up #

# Baby, yeah you #

# Bounce it biggity
Bounce it biggity #

# Bounce it biggity, bounce it #

# Too much money,
I'm 22, already iconic #

I love you, Santana.

SANTANA: I love you, Lil Nas.

MONTERO:
Everybody-- Well, sit down.

We're gonna take
a picture first. Everybody.

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

MONTERO:
My fans mean the world to me.

I'm really thankful for anybody

that would just publicly
just fuck with Lil Nas X.

LEULA "J.R." KAILAHI:
He snuck out again.

(CHUCKLES) I knew it.
Right when I pull up,

I'm like, "Oh, my gosh.

This guy is gonna
wanna test it."

Because he loves buildings.

He sees, like, this, busy--
He likes to blend in.

He's like, "Oh,
I could blend in here."

It's what he does.

-Oh, speak of the devil.
-MONTERO: Cool hand washing.

That was some
really dope hand washing.

LEULA: Yeah!

(BOTH LAUGH)

Pretty good.
You made it. You made it.

So, I'm in my room.

I'm like, "Oh, my God, man,
I'm so bored.

What am I gonna do?
I hate this."

And I'm like, "I need to go out
and do something."

So I get outside
and I started walking.

And I'm like, "Am I incognito?"

Basically, like this
but with this

and, like, a mask.
It was just, like, "Oh."

And then I, like,
start walking.

This guy said,
"Man, keep your head up, man.

Don't let these people
have you lookin' down,"

but I was really just trying
to hide my identity.

And then I walked and I walked.

I end up at this bus station.

Hold on. Where is it at?

Ended up in, like,
this bus station,

train station thing.
I go. I get me a bus card...

'cause I'm lit now. I'm lit now.
And then I hopped on the bus.

PEARL: (OVER TIKTOK)
No, I'm a star!

Please, I'm a star!

MONTERO: And I realized
my phone is one percent.

I'm like, "Oh, no, I'm fucked.
I need to get a charger

or I'm not gonna be able
to contact anybody,

and I don't wanna be, like,
technically, like, missing."

And I'm, like, walking
looking for an Apple store.

I looked up to the right
and there's, like, my name

on, like, the outside
of this building.

(CHUCKLES)
I was like, "No fucking way."

You know-- 'Cause, you know,
I would never be here on time

on purpose like this.

# (SOMBER MUSIC PLAYING) #

# (SOMBER MUSIC FADES) #

-(WIND BLOWING)
-(LEAVES RUSTLING)

I'm always a little angsty
after a nap,

so I might be a little pissy,
but it's not you guys.

Butterfly,
come down here at once.

Get down here right now
or you guys are grounded.

Oh, he's so gonna get it.

I don't think
the threats are working.

Just-- So should I try, like,
twerking or something?

You like that, huh?

(GROUP LAUGHING)

You like that?

ROBERT: Is that what you want?

Is that what you want?
Now, you'll come?

Oh, they're coming.
They're coming.

(GROUP LAUGHING)

They're coming down. Yes.

ROBERT:
They smell something sweet.

Very funny, buddy,

but that's actually
a compliment.

Okay, guys. Come down.
You're ruining my movie.

ROBERT: I've had enough.

MONTERO: Come down at once.

This feels like my neighborhood
as... um, in high school.

This area.

-PRODUCER: In Atlanta?
-The weather.

Uh, the houses.
This feels like...

this feels like I'm back
in high school.

Even these trees.

It's very Lithia Springs,
Georgia.

# (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) #

MONTERO: You know,
a lot of things had to go

in hand for me
to become a pop star

with the biggest song
in the world in a few months

after not making music
my entire life, you know?

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

Are you ready for last show
of the United States?

MONTERO: No.

I'm not.

Do you feel like
you were in a whirlwind?

It was all right.

CHRISTIAN: Like,
are you feeling pensive?

It was the best time
of my life though.

So I'll say that.

CHRISTIAN: I really love that.

MONTERO: You guys ready?

CREW MEMBERS: Yes.

Dear God.
God's angels of the universe.

Uh, thank you so much for having
all of my team here tonight.

Thank you for this tour.

I can't believe
this is the last day

of the American leg.

And I just hope everybody
goes out there and performs

like it's their last day
on Earth.

I hope nothing goes wrong.

I hope the crew is set.
No offense. I love you guys.

Um, I hope this is the best show
we have yet. And please...

We're, like, we live
in this time where it's like,

it's the easiest to blow up
in the music industry

but it's the hardest
to, like, maintain it.

You're lucky
if somebody remembers

your name next year.

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Okay. We're gonna do...

(VOCALIZES)
...but the best one of all time.

Y'all, ready? One, two, three.

(CREW MEMBERS VOCALIZE)

MONTERO: And I feel like
that's the one thing in life

that keeps me going
more than any other thing,

knowing that everything
can change so quickly like this.

Oh, my God.

And how crazy that can be.

If I take a shot,
can I go out there?

CREW MEMBER 15:
Nope. Just drink it.

It's electrolytes,
it's like getting an IV.

HODO: No, no. It's good.

MONTERO: This is gross.

CREW MEMBER 15: (CHUCKLES)
I didn't say it tasted good.

HODO: What does it taste like?

CREW MEMBER 15:
It's electrolytes.

(COUGHS)

-CREW MEMBER 15: That's it.
-Oh, my God!

CREW MEMBER 15: Okay. That's it.
You don't need to do that.

LEULA: Aaron,
connect him to the house.

# (PENSIVE MUSIC PLAYING) #

CREW MEMBER 16:
Where? Is he going out,
or doing it from here?

LEULA: No, no, no, no.
He's gonna talk to the house,

then we're gonna
take care of something,

then we'll be right back out.

CREW MEMBER 17:
The house is on, house is on.

MONTERO: Hello?
Can you guys hear me?

-(AUDIENCE CHEERING)
-MONTERO: Wait.

Hey, look, I'm sorry.

I wanna come out,
but I just vomited,

so give me, like, five minutes
to get back together.

I'm not-- It's not a joke.

FAN 6: We love you, Lil Nas!
We love you!

I love you, too.
Give me a second.

-(AUDIENCE CHEERING)
-(MONTERO WRETCHES)

CREW MEMBER 15:
Can you get a bucket?

LEULA: Hey, let me get everybody
to clear out this hallway.

Let's clear everybody out.

Clear everybody out.
Everybody out.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

(MONTERO WRETCHES)

LEULA:
There you go. There it is.

There we go.

(GROANS)

All good. Let's do it.

(CREW MEMBERS CHEERING)

ANNOUNCER:
Ladies and gentlemen,

welcome to the stage

the undeniable,
the irresistible,

the pussy-popping.
Oh, God damn, he's cunt,

the record-breaking,
the Grammy-winning,

the fuck BET
and baddest bitch alive,

put your hands together

for the Industry Baby.

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

# ("INDUSTRY BABY"
BY LIL NAS X PLAYING) #

# Daytrip took it to ten, hey #

# Baby back, ayy
Couple racks, ayy #

# Couple Grammys on him
Couple plaques, ayy #

# That's a fact, ayy
Throw it back, ayy #

# Throw it back, bitch #

# And this one
Is for the champions #

# I ain't lost
Since I began, yeah #

# Funny how you said
It was the end, yeah #

# Then I went
Did it again, yeah #

# I told you long ago
On the road #

# I got what they waiting for #

# I don't run
From nothing, dog #

# Get your soldiers
Tell 'em I ain't layin' low #

# You was never really
Rooting for me anyway #

# When I'm back up at the top #

# I wanna hear you say #

# He don't run
From nothin', dog #

# Get your soldiers #

# Tell 'em
That the break is over #

# Uh, need to, uh
Need to get this album done #

# Need a couple number ones
Need a plaque on every song #

# Need me like one
With Nicki now #

# Tell a rap nigga
"I don't see ya" #

# I'm a pop nigga like Bieber #

# I don't fuck bitches
I'm queer #

# But these niggas bitches
Like Madea #

# Yeah, yeah, yeah #

# Ayy, oh, let's do it #

# I ain't fall off I just ain't
Release my new shit #

# I blew up
Now everybody tryna sue me #

# You call me Nas
But the hood call me Doobie #

# I told you long ago
On the road #

# I got what they waitin' for #

# I don't run
From nothin', dog #

# Get your soldiers
Tell 'em I ain't layin' low #

# Bitch, I ain't running
From nowhere #

# You was never really rootin'
For me anyway #

# When I'm back up at the top
I wanna hear you say #

# He don't run
From nothin', dog #

# Get your soldiers #

# Tell 'em that the break
Is over #

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

MONTERO: I mean, you know,
worries like hit my mind,

but it's like I always
come back to the thought

that I'm just getting started.

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

Los Angeles,
I'd like to introduce myself.

# I'm the industry baby... #

I didn't really know,

I guess, too much
about Montero

until the last couple years,
and that was due to Lil Nas X.

This world,
this universe around me

is where I wanted to be.

# I wanna hear you say... #

I'm able to move more free.
I'm able to create more.

I'm able to be, you know...

# Yeah #

# I'm the industry baby
Yeah #

(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

Oh, my God. Really? No way.
Congratulations.

We call him Little Nas.

MONTERO: Really? That's sweet.

My third time here.

FANS: ATL hoe! ATL hoe!

-CROWD: Happy birthday to you!
-Happy birthday, T-Dog.

MONTERO: Put your hands together
for my motherfucking team.

You even look good
with your head shaved.

Say "Hey, Auntie Sean."

-It's giving superstar.
-(CREW MEMBER CHUCKLES)

-# (SONG CONCLUDES) #
-(AUDIENCE CHEERING)

MONTERO:
I am lucky and thankful enough

to create something
that I feel like is really able

to give people an idea
of my story,

where I come from
and where I see myself going.

I guess I'm, like, desperate
to, like, to find

that next phase of me
that, like, feels new

and feels new to everybody else,
you know?

I feel like I've been
the same me for like two years.

Through, like, the Montero era,
you know?

And I wanna be a new me now.

But I'm sure
gonna miss this me,

but that's how life is,

you always miss
whatever version.

I'm sure it's gonna be
way better

but I gotta, like, find it.

And that's why
I gotta get lost.

I feel like
there's something brewing

that's gonna be so amazing
for me.

And I trust that feeling.

(CREW MEMBERS CHEERING)

MONTERO: I can't explain it.

It's, like, this anxious...

-(CROWD CHEERS, APPLAUDS)
-...excitement.

Like, it's-- Right now,
it's, like, glowing all over me.

I can't explain that.
I cannot explain that.

Like, right now,
me just talking about that,

like my body
is on a different plane.

I think what I want
my next album to be is...

escapism
but, like, happy escapism,

you know? Maybe that's it.

Maybe it's like getting away
but, like, in a happy way.

Maybe it's not, like,
escapism as in, like,

I don't wanna be alive,
but I wanna be more alive.

Yeah.

ROBERT: Hey. Hey! Stop it! Nas!

FAN 7: We love you, Lil Nas X.
We love you.

# ("WHERE DO WE GO NOW"
BY LIL NAS X PLAYING) #

-We love you, Nas X.
-We fucking love you, come back!

# Na, na, na, na, na, na #

# Na, na, na, na, na, na #

# This door, in my home #

# Ain't ever going
To let me grow #

# She won't close now #

# Honestly
She's slowing me down #

# And it seems
This river it go #

# Ain't never going
To let me flow #

# These aimless rides #

# On a boat
I brought my tries to uphold #

# So can we keep it going
Keep it going #

# 'Cause I miss the moments #

# When the mornings
Dawned on me #

Long live, baby!

# And I could see #

# So where do we go now #

# I've seen everything
That we had to see #

# And figured it out my love #

# So where are we going? #

# So where do we go now? #

# We did everything
So endlessly #

# And only to feel undone #

# So where are we going? #

# Suddenly
Gravity is just like me #

# Pull me down
Every chance it gets #

# Holding me bound
To the way I is, oh #

# And therapy there's no need
It ain't no good for me #

# Why would I want to talk
About the shit I did #

# A penny for your thoughts
Is really all it is #

# So can we keep it going?
Keep it going? #

# 'Cause I miss the moments #

# When the mornings
Dawned on me #

# And I could see #

# So where do we go now? #

# I've seen everything
We had to see #

# And figured it out my love #

# So where are we going? #

# So where do we go now? #

# We did everything
So endlessly #

# And only to feel undone #

# So where are we going
So decide #

# I just wanna be somebody
New inside #

# I just wanna be somebody
Outside there #

# I just wanna be somebody #

# I just wanna feel
Consoled inside #

# I just wanna be somebody
New inside #

# I just wanna be somebody
Else out there #

# I just wanna be somebody #

# So where do we go now? #

# We've seen everything
We've had to see #

# And only to feel undone #

# Where are we going? #

# (MYSTICAL MUSIC PLAYING) #

MONTERO: It's so cold.
It's so cold.

(BREATHES HEAVILY)

-(GROANS)
-(WAVES CRASHING)