All language subtitles for DAHMER.S01E03.1080p.NF.WEB-DL.DDP5.1.Atmos.H.264-SM

Joyce?

So you're how many weeks now?

Twenty-six.

Okay, so you're well
into your last trimester. Good.

The moodiness. The nervousness. Hmm?

Look, you want to think of this
as the time where you can relax,

just think about the joy that's about to
enter your lives when this baby comes. Hm?

Now, I see you've been put on lots
of medications. I see some hormones here.

- Which drugs are you currently taking?
- I'm...

That's why we're here today, Doctor.
It's the medications.

She's taking Equanil for anxiety.

That's supposed to be as needed,

but she's gone through
refill after refill.

- Another doctor gave her sleeping pills.
- It's important I sleep.

Laxatives, Valium.
He's given her morphine.

Three times
he's given me morphine.

She's had injections of barbiturates.

If they relax me,
I should be taking them.

My concern is the fetus.

I... I fear for the child.

You know, you hear about all
those thalidomide babies in England.

- I'm not taking thalidomide.
- Don't interrupt me.

You are taking 26 pills a day.

I am taking the pills
that the doctors have given me, Lionel.

I'm doing what they're telling me.

All I want is to feel better,
and I have you angry with me.

Every doctor makes me feel
I'm doing wrong,

and I don't know
what it is that I'm doing wrong.

Okay. Okay.

I understand.

Your hormones are all over the place.
You're confused.

Your world's about to be
turned upside down...

- I don't feel confused.
- Joyce.

I just want to know
what is actually happening.

I mean, chemically,
that would make me feel this way.

I don't want you to worry
about any of that, okay?

All you need to know
is that it's normal and it'll pass.

It would be best if you could try to deal
with it without relying on medication.

I just want this to be over
so I can get on with my life.

Some women actually enjoy pregnancy.

I know that.

I feel so guilty that I don't.

It'll be over soon enough.

Oh. Oh!

There we go. Got one. Nice, nice, nice.

Here, you take it.

Okay. Okay.

- Dang, it's really small.
- Oh, no, no. A nice size.

We'll eat him.

Okay. All right.

Now I'm gonna show you
how to put a worm on a hook.

Let me get a nice big one here.

Now this...

This is the head,
and you want to keep it wiggling.

So, I have to kinda imagine
where the ass'd be.

And, uh, that's where
you get the hook to penetrate.

Go ahead.

It'll wiggle a little.

Right there?

Yeah.

"Ow."

Sorry, pal. That's gotta hurt.

I don't know.

Maybe it's, like, a girl worm.

And maybe you're just stickin' it in her.

I'm sure you and your buddies, that's
all you talk about in school, right?

Girls?

- Like that?
- Yeah. Attaboy.

Now just take the head there,
and just wrap it around a couple of times,

and then stick it in the side.

Wow.

Yeah, there you go.

Now, that way, it's alive, but,

you know, it can't fall off,
and the fish can't take it off.

- Well, see what else is out there.
- Okay.

So, you dating any girls at school?

I don't really like any of 'em.

Right. Yeah.

But you know how it works.

Right?

When a man
and a woman, you know, have sex?

I'm sure your friends, you know...
Somebody's got a Playboy in his locker.

We don't have to talk about this, Dad.

And then...

you just lop off the head.

- Like that.
- Mmm.

Oh, can I try mine?

Yeah. Sure. Just be careful.

Knife is really sharp.
Yeah, let me dry it for you.

Don't want it to slip.

Come on.

C'mon.

- I don't understand why...
- What?

- What's wrong with what I did?
- You knew I needed it.

- So?
- You knew that. Jesus Christ!

Why can't I go anywhere?
You never let me go anywhere.

You have an issue with everywhere I go!

What is the matter with you?

What do you mean?
Why is there something the matter with me?

We had a conversation.
I told you I needed the car.

Yeah? Okay, well, I found
something that was really interesting!

- But you never believe me.
- You could've told me before!

- You don't believe anything I do.
- I needed the car.

- You knew that I needed it.
- And you think I'm nuts, yeah.

No, please, stop.

But something happened,
and it was really interesting,

and you think I'm crazy.
You always think I'm crazy.

- Put the fuckin'...
- Don't you call me crazy!

Put down the fucking knife, Joyce!
Put it...!

What's the matter with you?

You can't take the car
and drive wherever you choose.

And there's no fucking UFOs.

The Akron Beacon Journal
wrote an article about it!

- Did they?
- There were lights in the sky!

And I followed it
all the way down Route 14,

so don't tell me that I'm fucking crazy!

Hey! Hey, this is none of your business!

Go do your homework, Jeff!

- Happy? Are you hap...?
- I hate you!

Hey, Dahmer.
Do that thing you did in Spanish class.

It was hilarious.

What?

That guy your mom knows,
who's all... fucked up.

Ah! You should put blue curtains in there!

That's so funny, man.

That's what they call "doin' a Dahmer."

Oh!

No!

- Silence!
- What?

Joyce! Put down the knife, Joyce!

Put it down!

All right.

Peace.

- Later, man.
- "Peace"?

Okay, guys. Just remember,
these scalpels are razor sharp.

Okay?

So when you give it to your partner,
you put it down and let them pick it up.

Denise.

Do we have to do this?

Yes.

Okay, but I'm a vegetarian.

Fuck you.

Okay, Chazz.
That is enough, thank you.

Yes, this is mandatory.

Anatomy is part of science.

It's how we learn
about the human body, Denise.

And besides,
these pigs are already dead, okay?

Yeah, but they didn't just die.

They got killed so we could dissect them.

Shut up, Denise. We want to do this.

Okay, Jeff, thank you.

That's enough.

All right, guys. Please be very careful.

No trips to the emergency room today.

Good. Now, you may need
to cut through the sternum

in order to expose the chest cavity.

Now, be real careful with that.

Good.

Okay, now let's go ahead
and remove the pericardium.

That is the membrane
surrounding the heart.

No, Jeff, don't take the heart out yet.

Sorry.

Hey, good work today, Jeff.
I could tell you really got into that.

Yeah, I really enjoyed that.

Good.

You think I could take one home?

Just to practice.

Well, to be honest with you, Jeff,
I've been, uh, teaching for 22 years

and no one's ever asked me that. Um...

Sure.

Thanks.

Dude! Wasn't that fun?
Shutting down that fucking bitch, Denise?

Yeah, she's, like,
the fucking worst partner.

Hey, man.

I got another one.

- You want to come over?
- Another what?

Another pig.

Bertoglio gave me one.
Wanna come over and dissect it?

What, are you fucking kidding me?

No.

So, I've reviewed the testimony,
and I've made a decision.

Mr. Dahmer, I understand your concerns
about Mrs. Dahmer's emotional stability.

But you've got to understand

that if you're getting physically violent
with her, even if it's once or twice...

That's not true. It's not true.

And there is a question
of your work as well.

You work very long hours,

and who can actually be there for
these two boys is really what's paramount.

You will retain all visitation rights,
but I hereby award custody to Mrs. Dahmer.

Thank you.

Okay. This is just a first step.
We can appeal, so don't worry.

- David.
- Honey, come on.

David, I'll always be here for you.
If you need me, call, and I'll get you.

Don't talk to him.

So, what do we do about Jeff?

Well, he's 17. He's a man.
He can figure it out for himself.

So you get a sheen!

Lemon refreshed Mr. Clean.

- I'll buy that.
- That's nice.

- Nice nose.
- Thanks.

Carol Knight
doesn't like to see dandruff.

Uh, I work at the airport,

and there's no reason
why people should walk around,

very noticeably,
people there, they have dandruff.

It's not... In this day and age,
there are so many things to use,

and Head & Shoulders
just makes me feel like, um...

What are you watching?

Oh, hi, Jeff.

Uh, would you turn the TV off and sit?

...it works. Use it regularly.

Head & Shoulders is number one
on the list as far as I'm...

It's been real hard
around here for me.

And, uh...

some things have got to change.

Uh, they have to change
because I can't function like this.

Am I...

I'm gonna stay with you, right?

I get to live with you?

Oh, we'll figure that out.

Mmm.

What's that smell?

Uh...

It's my fetal pig.

Oh!

We're dissecting them in class.

Oh, that's good.

You keep at that.

You're a good boy, Jeff.

♪ I love you ♪

♪ Babe, I love you so ♪

♪ I want you to know ♪

♪ That I'm gonna miss your love ♪

♪ The minute you walk out that door ♪

♪ So please don't go ♪

♪ Don't go ♪

♪ Don't go... ♪

Come on, David, let's go!

Hurry up.

What's goin' on?

Ah!

Your father's fucking
that new girlfriend of his at the motel.

Get in the car, David! We're leaving.

- Well...
- I just need to get away.

Get my head together. Okay?
I'm sorry. That's what's happening.

Well, Mom, uh, wait a second.

I... I can't just leave.
I got graduation and... prom.

Ha! What are you talking about?
You're staying here.

I just cooked a big pot of stew,
and there's food in the freezer.

You can't just leave me here.

Cut the shit, Jeff.

You haven't had
a nice word for me in years.

You're always in your room.

You don't want a mother.
You don't want me.

You're just like your father,
bonding over what a lunatic I am.

You never wanted
anything to do with Joyce.

Neither one of you!

So, fine. You got what you wished for.

And did it ever occur to you

that you never once asked me
to help you with one of your projects

out in the garage with the animals
like you did with your father?

Not once.

I didn't think you'd want to.

You're right! It's fucking disgusting!

Cutting up roadkill in the garage!

It's sick!

And it would've been nice
if you'd asked me!

Mom.

So that's it, huh?

Well, that's great, Ma.

Just... just go take my brother
and chase UFOs.

They're real!

I don't want you to do that.

Why did you do that?

No. No.

Stop. Stop.

No. No.

No. No.

Okay. Okay. Okay!

I'll get you a beer, jeez. God.

Yeah.

Okay, here you go.

Cheers.

I can't. I can't.

Mm...

Sorry it's such a mess.

You want a drink or something?
You want a beer?

Yeah, that'd be great.

It's just nice
having some companionship, I mean...

I've been here by myself this whole time.

Yeah?

Yeah.

I haven't heard from my dad and

my mom said she'd be gone
like two weeks, and that was...

three months ago.

I don't know where she is.

That's tough, man.

Yeah.

Well, you're here now.

So it's better.

Cheers.

I've always found
that if I can occupy my hands,

my anxieties just melt away.

I'm not obsessing over my failures,

my disappointments.

I'm just taking my life
one little knot at a time.

Joyce? Just a minute.

Sure. Uh, excuse me.

I know we helped you
through a really tough time, Joyce,

and I'm so appreciative
you're willing to come back here now

and help other women.

I wish everyone did that.

Well, mostly,
these ladies want to be heard.

I think that's
what it was about for me too.

And then I walked in here,
and someone listened to me

for the very first time
in my life, and I thought,

"My God, I'm not crazy."

Of course you're not crazy.

You had a medical condition, Joyce.

I'm sure of it.

It's called postpartum depression.

- Really.
- I'm positive.

We just didn't know what it was back then.

It can last for years.

Postpartum. Never even occurred to me.

Joyce, your classes, the arts and crafts,

they are a godsend to these women.

No, Joyce, they are.

Which is what I wanted
to talk to you about.

I'm leaving here.

Simon got transferred to Grand Rapids,

and I got a job
counseling women at a clinic there.

I want you to take over for me here.

It could be part-time.
Even two, three days a week.

Oh, Dottie.

I don't know what to say.

I'm very flattered.

But it's...

Since it's over between Lionel and I...

Oh, sweetheart.

No, no, it's not that.

It's just, I've been
thinking so much lately

about how I'd do
my life over again if I could.

I don't think
I would have married so young.

I would have waited to have kids.

I'd have a career.

What kind of career, do you think?

Well, that's just the thing.

I'd want the job you just offered me.

Of course I'll do it.

Two, three days.

Yes, I'll make it work!

You should be writing
this down. This will be on the exam.

So, next is the different types
of ranges, which...

You're late.

Okay. So, one standard deviation is what?

34.1 in either direction.

Jeff, are you drinking a beer?

Jeff, this is your senior year,

so now is the time
to be thinking about colleges.

If you thought
that was where you were headed.

Jeff, I know your family's
been going through a tough divorce,

and that'd be hard on anybody,

but I know your father
is out of the house now

and that you were very close to him.

I've tried several times to call him.
Guess he's at a hotel.

I've also tried to phone your mother.

Right. She's out a lot.

Well, what do you love to do?

What's your dream?
I wanna know what your dream is.

Um...

Dad always said
I was good at science stuff.

And I got, like,
a taxidermy station in the garage,

where I can dissect roadkill and whatnot.

Okay. Well, um, maybe
that's a career path you could take.

Yeah, I thought about that.

But, uh, I'm not any good at math.

So...

But I... my new hobby
is kind of exploring physical fitness.

Great. Maybe that's
a direction for you to go in.

Yeah.

But it's not my dream, you know.

I think that's just something people say.

Like, I don't think everybody
gets to have a dream.

At least not people like me.

Well, what do you mean?

People like you?

♪ American Top 40! ♪

Here's the fourth-biggest hit

in the USA this week.

Suzi Quatro and Chris Norman
with "Stumblin' In."

♪ Our love is alive
And so we begin ♪

♪ Foolishly laying
Our hearts on the table ♪

♪ Stumblin' in ♪

♪ Our love is a flame
Burning within ♪

♪ Now and then firelight will catch us
Stumblin' in... ♪

- Hey, man.
- Hey.

Uh, can I get a lift?

I'm trying to get to a concert
in Chippewa Lake Park.

Are you headed that way?

I could be.

What's the concert?

You know Pegasus?

- Yeah.
- Me and some buddies are meeting up there.

I'm like a big Bruce Fulper fan.

I heard they were playin',
and I was like, "Fuck it, I'll hitchhike."

Cool.

What time you gotta be there?

Show's at 7:30.

♪ Whatever it takes
Baby, I'll do it for you ♪

♪ Our love is alive... ♪

How about this?

I was just headed home
to crack open a few brewskis.

How about you come with me?

I got some weed. And drink a few beers.

Lift some weights.

And then, uh, I'll drive you out there.

Yeah, man, that sounds great.

What's your name?

Jeff.

Nice to meet you, Jeff.

I'm Steven.

♪ I may've been young
But baby that's not what I wanted to be ♪

♪ Well, you were the one ♪

- ♪ Dying flame... ♪
- Yeah, man.

It's like everybody's
into working out all of a sudden.

You know, suddenly,
uh, everybody's jogging.

That ain't gonna cut it
for skinny guys like us, you know?

We gotta lift weights.

Or, like,
chicks ain't even gonna notice us.

- Yeah, exactly.
- That's right.

Jeez.

One more. One more. Yeah. Come on.

Yeah. Nice.

You are fuckin' strong, man.

Yeah, well, I've been workin' out a lot.

I could tell.

- You try it, dude. I'll spot you.
- No. No, no.

- Come on.
- I'm all right. I'm all right.

I... What time is it?

I feel like we should get movin'.

♪ Fool if you think it's over... ♪

No. We got time.

You want another beer?
We'll have one more beer.

I just...

I'm meeting my buddies there
at, like, seven.

It's like

at least an hour away, right?

Okay, just... we'll have another beer.
We'll get goin' soon.

Okay.

Or, you know,
maybe we could have it on the way.

I just don't want
to miss the concert, you know.

Like, it's Pegasus, man!

You worry too much, jeez.

What the f...?

- What?
- What the...? I mean...

- What?
- Why'd you do that?

I was just joking.

'Cause I'm not that way, man.

Neither am I.
I was just jokin' around. Just sit down.

Are you gonna take me
to the concert or not?

Because you said you would.

Yeah, I will.
Just sit down and have a drink first.

No, man. Let's go.

No. Hey, I don't want to go yet.

Let's... Let's do ten more reps.

I'll put two 25s on. What do you think?

Listen, man, you told me
you would drive me to the concert, okay?

I don't know what you wanted,
but that's what I want.

I want you to drive me there right now.

But I don't want you to go.

Are you fucking crying?

- No.
- What the fuck? Jesus.

I'm... I'm outta here, man.

I'm gonna miss the fucking show now!

Fucking asshole faggot!

Goddammit.

Hey, man.

Hey, man.

Stop playing around.

What are you doin'? Ow. Fuck.

Hey, stop!

Fuck you.

Hey. Hey!

Stop.

Oh, fuck.

Oh...

Hey.

What are you doing?

Stop.

Come on, man. Let's go.

Hey. Hey, wake up. Wake up!

No, no, no, no, no. No. No.

No.

Oh my God.

No, no, no, no. Oh my God.

No. No, no, no, no.

Oh, no.

No!

They're never gonna talk to me again.

My family.

You idiot! You fucking idiot!

No.

Hey, come on.

Come on, wake up.

Wake up.

Fuck!

No!

Fuck.

Oh, shit.

Oh, fuck.

Oh, shit.

Look at this guy.
Swerving all over the place.

Can I see your driver's license?

Sure.

Know why I pulled you over?

No.

Because you were
swerving across the road.

And I can smell from here
that you've been drinking, okay?

You been drinking tonight?

Oh, I just had a couple beers.

You had more
than a couple of beers, okay?

What's in the garbage bags?

Uh...

They're, uh... clippings. From the yard.

My parents just got divorced,
and I... I can't really sleep.

So, I, um...

just do yard work, and I, um...

I was gonna... drop 'em at the dump.

You're 18. Is that right?

Yeah.

So you got your whole life ahead of you.

And I'm not gonna fuck that up
by arresting you tonight, okay?

Okay.

But I want you
to turn this car around,

drive your ass home.

And I don't want to ever fucking
see your face again, okay?

Yes, Officer.

Thank you.

Get the fuck outta here.

Okay.