All language subtitles for 1_90.Day.Fiance.Before.the.90.Days.S06E10.Sex.Lies.and.Videotape.720p.AMZN.WEB-DL.DDP2.0.H.264-NTb_English

I have something
here for you, Jasmine.

This is a promise ring.

That I will try harder
to avoid arguments
and to give you more,

what can I say? Meat.

Yes.

Your communication
was not so good in Thailand.

I just felt like
maybe you were cheating.

- What?
- I don't know.

Cheating?

- 'Cause you're so into me.
- Yeah.

She gives me all of the things
that I really, really need

like reassurance and safety.

But tomorrow,
I'm supposed to meet her dad.

He is her best friend,

so I have to have
his approval,

or our entire relationship
could be for nothing.

What?

No, none.

None.

I had asked him

when we were first
getting to know one another,

if he saw himself
having children,

and he told me, "No."

So I feel like we
don't know each other

as well as I thought.

Uh, typically,
I'm kind of the guy

who waits for the girl
to make the first move. Like...

Oh, I was, like, I never make
the first move.

Things are a little awkward
from the pressure

that I'm putting on myself

to finally be intimate.

Maybe it's just something
that will just happen
when it happens.

Yeah.

Can you imagine
what it would be like
to live my whole life

with someone feeling
like they don't really care?

You have to start acting
from your heart.

I don't think
this was anything like
I thought it was.

How could I have been
so off base?

She's a cam pornstar.

Oh, wow.

I... I'm angry that someone,
like, got me

with pictures of a pornstar.

Maybe they're working together
on their scam.

You never know.

I am suspicious that Carmella
and Christian

might have some type
of connection.

This is very common.
They work in gangs.

Maybe she can
lead me to him.

I've come too far
to just stop.

All right. Grab it from here.
It's easier.

- Thank you.
- No, I mean, no, no, no,

- I mean, grab it from here.
- Oh.

Oh, I thought you were
gonna help me.

Well, I'm pulling this one.

Jasmine and I
are trying to improve
our relationship together,

and it's going really well.

I bought her
a simple promise ring.

It seemed like
she really liked it.

So I want to keep
the momentum going

strong like we have
the last few days.

The therapist mentioned
that, you know,

we should try to focus on
building good memories together.

So we decided to take
a weekend trip getaway
in Western Panama In Boquete.

And this is, like,
the perfect opportunity

for us to rekindle
our relationship,

get back to the way
we used to be,

having fun,
enjoying each other and...

...you know, that's...
That's what I want.

I think we're gonna
make this flight, barely.

- I hope so.
- Um...

- And travel.
- Like, look, heavy traffic
right now.

I'm so sorry I caused
a little delay today.

I was waking up
a bunch of times
throughout the night.

And that happened
for you not listening to me.

It was the goddamn nachos
that I told you not to order.

- Geez.
- Yeah.

Yesterday, I ate some nachos,

and it had tons
of bean dip in it.

It was, like,
three-quarters bean dip
and maybe a quarter nachos.

I ate all that bean dip.

Why the day before a trip?

Just not smart, you know.

But they certainly
were delicious.

I want to believe
that this trip
is gonna be good for us.

This way, baby.

Hurry up, babe.

Let's do it. Whoo!

Oh, my goodness.

Ooh.

I hope that it can set up
the mood for

a romantic time together
with my man.

- We are in Boquete, babe.
- Boquete.

Look at those mountains. Unreal.

I know.

Baby, you know
that this trip, like,

I want to put a lot of effort.
I know that...

...I need to work
on a lot of things,
you know, like,

- I promise, baby, I will.
- Same with me.

Both of us need to work
on stuff.

Yeah.

Are you feeling better?

Diarrhea.

Feel a little better now,

but maybe you can massage
my feet tonight.

Really? I will massage
every inch of you, baby,
if you want to.

Jasmine means
the world to me.

And I know Jasmine feels like
we're lacking intimacy
in our relationship.

- Okay, come, my king.
- Yeah.

Look at this place.

So I want to take
the extra effort to make sure

that this is a special night.

Wow!

This is romantic!

Aw.

So, baby,
how about some wine?

Oh, yes, please,
let's set up the mood.

You look so sexy.

I just want to know
what is under that robe.

Come. Come.

Oh, you want me to sit?
Come next to you?

Come, come to bed, baby.

I have something
to show you.

But you have to wait
for me here.

Okay.

Good boy.

I'll be right back.

Okay.

But I want to take it
to the next level.

And I'm just
crossing my fingers

that I have
a positive reaction from him.

- Sit.
- Whoa!

- Okay, baby.
- Those are sexy boots.

It's like a...

Do you want to take it off?

Oh, my God!

Wow! I get all of this?

Hot. Sexy.

Come to bed.

- Come.
- Okay.

You open.

This is the gift.

- Oh, my God.
- You know what it is?

Handcuffs?

- Yes, baby.
- Ooh.

I also have this.

- Is this a whip?
- Yeah.

- Yeah, it's a whip.
- Oh, this is good.

Okay.

Wow!

Be careful with that.

Come to daddy.

You love this [bleep].

Yeah, this is good.

This is good.

You've been a bad, bad girl.

Bad, bad girl.

- Bad
- You know you deserve this.

You will do as I say,
won't you?

I never thought of Gino

enjoying this this much.

I'm the one in control.

I like it.

Tonight, I feel the most
desire, beautiful woman
on Earth.

I love this game.

I love you.

Oh, yes.

Mmm.

It looks scary.

I'm feeling sad
that me and Amanda
lost one week mostly arguing.

I really want to make
things work,

and to forget about
all of the fights,

and start from zero.

So tonight, I prepared
this special night

going to a Romanian
traditional restaurant.

I'm looking forward
to have real fun date night,
to enjoy our time, to relax.

I'm trying.
I'm trying my best.

Almost all the dishes
are Romanian.

How can I read anything?

Well, I can tell you.

They have all kind
of strange names.

Like, steak, with pork,
with potatoes.

It's called "After the battle
one has escaped."

Yeah.

And another one, it's like
the sheep.

It's called...

As we're getting to know
each other more
on a deeper level,

there have been
some challenges.

But there is such
a sweet side to him.

And then another thing like

Why do you keep
mentioning those?

Because this is how it called,
"The Sword of the King."

Burebista.

He makes me laugh.

You know, that's like
a huge thing for me.

Very interesting.

You don't like pork brain?
- You know exactly

- what I'd say about that.
- This is a very,

Well, I would have to
kindly decline.

Hmm.

My parents and my brother
live in Croatia
because my father works there.

I want to take Amanda
to meet my family.

Me and my family,
we are very close,

so it's a big deal.

I feel like they
would like Amanda
because she has a good heart,

and I feel like
they will feel that.

I'm... I'm a little bit afraid
that, you know,

Amanda can be difficult sometimes,

and I don't want her
to be like that
with my parents.

They...

And it really affect
our relationship.

- Thank you.
- Thank you.

- This looks good.
- Yeah.

How did your mother
and your ex-wife get along?

- Not good at all.
- Why?

Because my mother
was feeling that, uh,
my ex-wife,

uh, was so controlling,

and for me to do

So you think if I meet
your mom and she likes me,

then that's better
than your ex-wife?

What if she doesn't like me?

Yeah.

Even if I were not...

You always...
You always wanted to move
to the United States?

I didn't know that.

You've never said that
to me before.

If you would have told me that
in the beginning
I would have been like,

"Well, that's
kind of a red flag.
That's a little strange."

You don't think
that's strange?

Something.

It's not about America.
It's about you.

You have to think of it
from my position.

Like, I'm not trying
to come off as like,

"Oh, I don't trust you,"
or, "I don't believe you,"

but I have to be cautious.

I have to ask these questions,

and I have to truly know
your intentions

because there's so much
at stake.

It's... It's more than
my heart.

It's me, Junior's heart,
Alina's heart,

bringing you into our family,
into our lives.

So, it's even more important
that I know that you're
really with me

because you love me,
and you're not
trying to just...

...I don't know, like,
not be real with me.

And I don't think
Amanda trusts me.

All I can do
is... is to be me,
and prove through that

I... I want to be with you.

I don't know.
I know it's a hard situation
for her because of the kids,

but it makes me feel insecure
that I invest in someone
my feelings,

and she cannot stop herself,
uh, find, reasons to argue.

I don't know what
she really wants from me.

You look nice.

Today, I'm going to meet
Dempsey's dad.

She hasn't said
that I'm her girlfriend.

I don't think she's said
anything about me.

So I feel like I'm walking
into really rough waters.

Yikes. Okay. Wow.

Yeah,
I'm worried about you going.

Last week, the real Carmella
told me that she'd be open
to meeting.

I just wanted to get, like,
the closure that I need.

But I'm concerned about,
you know, your heart
getting broken again.

I'm gonna go shower.
- Okay.

- Can you, like,
help me set this up, or...
- Yeah, sure.

This is my first cold shower.

I've been at Dempsey's caravan
for two days,

and things are going
really well.

I feel like she really sees me
and accepts me and gets me.

And it's heavenly.

What do I do here?

I want to eventually
talk to Dempsey

about the possibility
of me moving in with her.

But I'm still
a little concerned
about the living situation.

- Okay.
So you just turn that. Yeah.
- Just turn it.

If you can get a cold shower,
you can do anything.

Since being at the farm,

I have not had any
kind of bathing

because I'm really nervous
to take a cold shower.

It's already freezing outside.

The thought of being
freezing and wet...

...doesn't seem like
a good mix right now.

I think that's just so easy
for you to say

in the warmth of the kitchen.

Okay, it's gonna be fine.
It's gonna be fine.

Okay.

Oh.

Oh, no. [chuckles] Oh, no.

Oh, God, no. I don't know.
I don't know about this.

Like, my hair is freezing.
Oh, my...

There's no chance
of that happening.

I'm wondering
how long it takes for a person
to smell really bad,

because cold showers
is not it.

I made you a smoothie.

Oh, thank you for that.

It's got chia seeds in it.
That's good for your gut.

- Make you feel good
about seeing my dad.
- Yeah.

I mean, if I can
get through this,

I think I can get through
meeting your dad.

What did I just say?

If you can get through that
you can get through anything.

I'm just preparing you.
It's all in the prep.

Today,
I'm going to meet
Dempsey's dad.

I'm glad she arranged it,

but I'm still feeling anxious
as all hell.

She hasn't said
that I'm her girlfriend.

I don't think she's said
anything about me.

So I feel like I'm walking
into really rough waters,
and it's...

It doesn't feel
super comfortable.

You look nice.

I'm gonna get
my makeup on.

So, like, I know we spoke
a little bit about how

my last ex, yeah,
he got on with her
well at first,

and then stuff just
happened in the relationship,

and my dad obviously then
didn't like, didn't like my ex
after that.

- I get that.
- Yeah, he just wants
me to be happy.

- like, he likes you.
- I know.

Otherwise, it would jeopardize
a lot.

Like,
you wouldn't be with me?

Um...

Yikes. Okay, wow.

My last relationship,
it was a toxic relationship.

Like, I was so skinny,
I didn't eat, I was ill.

Like my headspace
was so, so bad.

And my dad obviously knew
that it ended quite badly.

So I just needed
to get to know Statler
a little bit more

before I took the plunge
to tell my dad about

me and Statler
being in a relationship.

He worries about his girls
and I didn't want him
to worry about me.

So, we're going
to Saltburn today.

- Saltburn?
- Saltburn-by-the-sea!

- Saltburn-by-the-sea?
- Yeah. Yeah.

- To have some proper good
English grub.
- Mmm.

- Have you ever been
to the seaside?
- Mmm-hmm.

Whereabouts?

Salcombe, Plymouth, uh, Kingsbridge,

- the Devon area.
- That's a lot of places.

Yeah.

How long did you, like,
spend in England
when you came last time?

Probably, I think four weeks.

Do you feel like you had,
like, the same, like,

connection with her
as you said you do
with me?

No.

- What?
- What?

It just, I don't know,
it just came out.

So, Statler says,
"Oh, to be in love."

She was, like, I think she was
trying to imply something
without saying it,

so I just kind of left it
at that

because we haven't said,
"I love you," yet.

I feel a massive connection
with Statler, but I don't know
what to say.

In my mind, I'm thinking that,

"Like, all her past
relationships have failed

because she's wanted
to move too fast.

She's got, like,
ahead of herself."

And I'm worried that
if she's too full on
in front of my dad

that my dad won't
support the relationship.

Oh, boy.

It's been over a month
since the meeting
with the private investigator

where I found out that
the love of my life

was actually
a man named Christian

who's been
catfishing me for four years

using photos of a girl
named Carmella.

I'm extremely embarrassed
about what happened.

Um, especially the fact that,
you know, I had to tell this
to my family,

and, you know,
I love that person.

And that's why I'm like...

That's the part that
really hurt.

I never stopped messaging
the fake Carmella
AKA Christian.

But whoever it is,
it still ghosted me.

I can't stop thinking
about how this person
was saying that they love me.

I do wanted to kind of know

So, even though
my heart's broken,

I really believe if I was
able to confront this person,

it would give me the closure
I need in order to move on
with my life.

The PI gave me information
to contact the real Carmella.

He said it was possible
that she was working
with the scammer.

I reached out to her,

and amazingly
she got back to me.

I did let her know
that someone had been
using her pictures

to catfish people
and that someone
actually catfished me

using her photos
for the past four years.

Once she did get back,
it was just kind of like,

it was kind of like
a sigh of relief

because it was finally,
felt like I was getting somewhere.

Yeah, trying to get
everything together
before this trip.

Sorry, this is a little embarrassing.

Don't look at
my underwear, Mom.

At first, I was,
had it in my mindset
I'm going to Barbados.

But the real Carmella
told me that she lives
outside of Denver.

I asked if it was cool
if I come out and visit

so we can talk
about what happened.

And last week she told me
she'd be open to meeting.

Are you gonna be okay
with me gone though?

I do have Shaprea
and Lashanti with me.

- Don't worry about me.
I'm good.
- Okay.

I don't know what to expect.

I didn't feel like I got much
from her in our texting,

and I'm still not
100% convinced

that she doesn't have anything
to do with the situation.

So, I feel like
if I meet her face to face,
I could find out more.

I mean,
I'm worried about you going.

I know, you're...
I'm gonna be careful.

That's why I'm being open
with you guys about this
whole thing in a way.

Yeah.

It could be possible

they're just like some type
of circuit that scams people.

I don't know for sure.

I just want to get,
like, get perspective
on what happened.

- 'Cause that might be
the closure that I need.
- But I'm concerned about

you know, your heart
getting broken again.

Just don't want that
to happen.

Yeah, but, like,
I'm not meeting her there to,
like, fall in love with her.

You saw her pretty face
and then you fell in love.

No.

- That's what it was.
- It was more than that.

- Hey.
- Oh, hey.

- Hey!
- Hi.

- Hey, hon.
- Are you ready?
We gotta go.

Yeah, I'm ready.

- See you later.
- All right. I love you, okay?

I love you too.
Take care of your brother.

- All right, Ma.
See you later.
- Okay, Ma.

- Safe travels.
- All right, bye.

- Okay, go ahead.
- Thank you, ma'am.

All right.

I am coming
at a vulnerable place.

And I don't know
how I'm gonna react

when I see the face
of the person

that I thought
was my first love.

Now we're here at the airport.

I am afraid
that I might end up

channeling the energy and love
that I have

for the old Carmella
for the real Carmella.

- You ready ready?
- I'm ready.

But meeting her
could bring me one step closer

in getting the closure
that I need.

I know it's crazy,
but it's the last option
I have.

This is it.
No turning back now.

Meaning what?

Girl, you know what I mean.

And was he comfortable
with the whole process?

It's a really cute place.

I have a university lecture
to attend later today,

but first I'm having tea
with my friend, Jane.

- Hi, um,
I will have a chai latte.
- Hi.

Even though Christian
has only been here
for a short time,

we've already had
a lot of ups and downs.

So, I hope that
talking to Jane

will help me process things.

She's like a rock to me,
and she's somebody
I can rely on.

- How are things with you?
- It's okay.

I mean, the usual, work.

- Workaholic.
You're a workaholic.
- Workaholic.

You're a total workaholic.

Tell me everything.

I would say,

at the beginning,
things were a little rough.

But I have strong feelings
for him.

I really, really,
really like Christian and...

Okay.

I feel like something
happened last night.

- Yes.
- Spill the tea.

Yesterday,
we had an amazing date.

I actually loved it.

We ordered some wine,
and he brought with him
the virtual reality set.

- We played this kind of
zombie-killing game.
- Okay.

So, that was great.

And then after that
we got ready and,
you know, went to bed.

But then suddenly Christian
starts to act sort of weird.

And at that point, he said,
"I am a guy who never
ever makes the first move."

Mmm.

And I said to him,
"Well, I'm not somebody that's

gonna make the first move,
and you know that."

- It was obviously awkward...
- Awkward.

...as hell.

But then after that,
we turned off the lights.

He basically started to
kiss my cheek.

And we ended up taking
our relationship to, like,
you know, the next level.

Meaning what?

Girl, you know what I mean.

Christian and I
had sex last night.

One thing led to another
and it was really nice.

I would say that our sex

was romantic, for sure,
and passionate.

Like I felt we were
making love rather than
just having sex.

The thing is I felt that

all of the sort of chemistry
that we probably had

in our head
or the infatuation,

it was definitely there.

- You know, the attraction...
- Mmm-hmm.

...it was all there.

And was he, like, comfortable
with, with the whole process?

Like, you know,
me being the first trans woman
that he's ever dated,

and then, of course I've got,
you know,

kind of complexes
about the fact, you know,

there's still certain,
you know,

transition-related surgeries
that I'd like to get.

I probably might be
more androgynous.

Yes, obviously
I did feel like maybe,

- you know,
he would be awkward about it.
- Mmm-hmm.

But he just wasn't, you know?

So, you know,
just a girl having a good time
and a guy having a good time.

- It's good.
- Yeah.

I am feeling super positive
after last night.

Everything just felt
super natural,

and it gave me hope that

Now how do I
get this going without
burning down the whole place?

Okay, here we go.

Um, yeah. Things, I guess,
I guess you could consider
things a little awkward, um,

we were kind of at an impasse.

But I kind of just
bit the bullet and ended up
making the first move anyway.

So, yeah,
uh, it was a good night.

Oh!

I didn't really say anything.
I just turned around

and I just started
giving her a kiss

and then, yeah, we hooked up.

Um, uh, no.

But let's just say
we hit a couple of bases, uh,

you could say we got a double.

Yeah, no, uh, no home run.

So, I'm glad that he made
the first move.

But, like,
do you have a question,

"Why in the beginning
it was being so awkward?"

I don't see the reason
why he would be apprehensive
about that.

It just felt
super out of character.

Because deep down,
I know he's attracted to me.

And maybe it was because
both of us,

both of us were in our heads.

And I feel he was
in his heads, head a lot.

- So...
- Yeah. Mmm-hmm.

I was very surprised
that Christian said

he's not the person
to make the first move

because from all
of the stories that, um,
Cleo shared to me so far,

I know he's very outgoing.
He's very extroverted.

I think considering that
Christian has never dated
a transgender woman,

I might be wrong,
but I feel like maybe
he was having some concerns

with, with having a sexual
relationship with Cleo.

Uh, and that,
that is a little bit worrying.

Cleo definitely deserves
to be validated and desired
by the man she's with,

and I just hope that
he's being honest with her
about that.

All I can say, I'd be careful,
and, and, like, try to see

the person for who they are,
for their actions,

rather for who you want them
to be.

There is a lot
that was said last night,

and I'm feeling
just super confused.

Okay, what do you
want me to do, Meisha?

We're not
communicating the same way
that we have been on the phone

and I have no idea what to do.

- Nicola.
- Yes?

- I'm gonna go down
to get coffee.
- Okay, sweetie.

Oh, my Lord,
there is no coffee here.

What is this?

Last night, Nicola and I
had the biggest fight
that we've ever had.

We're not communicating
the same way that we have been

on the phone for many,
many years.

And it seems like
Nicola doesn't really care
about my feelings.

And I have no idea what to do,

and not only is that scary,
but it's really sad.

I just had to get out
of that room right away.

There are so many bad emotions
in that room.

I'm, like,
trying to remain hopeful.

I'm looking for any little
crack in the door

that maybe
this could be salvageable.

But right now,
as it stands right now,

I'm feeling
very depleted of hope.

Meisha,

you say you want to
go drink coffee,

but why you don't come back?

Yeah.

I'm not sad.

It's just that there is a lot
that was said last night.

We went to bed not good,
in a good space.

So, it's not sad,
it's more like there is a lot,

and I'm feeling
just super confused,
like, what to do here.

Okay, what do you
want me to do, Meisha?

In order to fix this problem,
problem between us, honesty.

Whatever you want,
I will do for you.

Nico, do you know
what the problem is?

Do you know?

- I think I know, Meisha.
- Okay, what?

You, you don't like
certain way how I behave.

And I really want to
work on it, Meisha,
because I love you.

Because I love you,
and I want this relationship
to work out for us.

This morning,
still there is the tension
between me and Meisha.

I realized that
some of the problem that
me and Meisha experiencing

I am little bit shy.

And I think that's what
maybe Meisha want, you know?

The affection.

So, I think I need to
start changing for Meisha.

I am happy
that you came down here,

and that there is
a different tone with you

right now than there was
last night.

So for me, my, my fear is that

you don't care about
how I feel, you're,
you're not--

I don't even know if
you're ever, like, listening,

and the only reason
I'm tolerating this

is because I do know
that Nicola that I've been
talking to

for almost seven years,
that's the person
I'm wondering,

"is that who it is,
or is this Nicola here
that doesn't really care?"

Forgive me,
if I hurt you.

Forgive me, if I did something
to you wrong.

I think I need to be
more gentle with you.

More sweet, like you like.

You're such a good to me,
Meisha, you teach me
a lot in life.

You love God so much.

Your laugh,

Look how you laugh.
Ha-ha-ha-ha. I mean,
I love this laugh.

It's so cute!

You're very friendly
with people.

You have a good heart.

I don't see
many women like you.

Beautiful!

- That's so sweet.
- I'm crazy about you.

I know you have experience,
but relationship need time.

I like this, that there was
a little bit more tenderness,

and that we could
get somewhere.

And I love how you care
about me over the phone,
how you've loved me.

I can't get my mind off of
how it's always been
for seven years,

and that's why I'm still here.

Neither one of us know
what's gonna happen
in the end, right?

God will give us
the grace, Meisha, you know?

He will always do what's best.

Yeah, I will do everything,
Meisha, that you will be happy.

I really concern
what you're feeling.

Hearing Nicola say
the reasons why he loves me,

it certainly doesn't fix
all of our problems
at this point,

but what it does is
it kinda brings us
back to center

where we can
take a deep breath

and hopefully
continue building.

I do love him,
and I want to believe

that we have
a future together.

But we only have
one week left.

I have to start
seeing a person

who is loving
and caring of me.

That really is going to
depend on Nicola

having an ability
and willingness
to change a little bit.

I will never give up on you.

That's what
I will tell you, and look,

- the church bell, Meisha.
- Yes, I know.

- That's mean--
- I love that.

My lease is up back home
pretty much, like,

a month after I come back.

So, I'm considering
moving over here.

Statler wants to
move to England.

Just a complete
and utter shock.

Things need to slow down.

Aw.

Christian and I
got into an argument

and it's really broken
my trust in him.

I feel like
I've been manipulated.

And I don't know
who he is anymore.

I feel a bit lightheaded
all of a sudden.

Fish and chips
would be good.

Just don't talk about
food right now, probably.

I'm feeling sick.

We were just
driving to the pier
to meet Dempsey's dad

for the first time

and I'm nervous as all hell.

Here I am
about to meet her dad

and he has no clue
that we're in a relationship.

There's a part of me
that wants to just sprint off.

Boom, off to the boardwalk,

maybe into the ocean,

to never be seen again,

and I'm wishing
I wore black pants

just in case
I accidentally [bleep] myself.

Hi.

- Hiya. You all right?
- Yeah.

Mwah.

- Hello.
- Hello. Hi.

- This is Statler.
- Nice to meet ya.

Nice to meet you.

- It's like...
- okay.

I'll sit there and...

- How've you been?
- Good.

- All right?
- Erm...

Er, yeah. How's your coffee?

Well, it's just a little bit
awkward, isn't it?

Erm... so you know,
when I told you about
Statler a little bit?

- You know,
we were talking and stuff?
- Yeah?

Er...

And?

Er...

- We're in
a relationship. Yeah.
- Yeah?

Erm,
around seven months.

Oh.

Long distance
relationship, then?

"Why not?"

Why not?

I know you don't get it.

You can...
You can join in any time.

So we both
liked each other on the app

and then, uh, we just
started talking and,
you know, getting, kind of,

like, emotional and deep
about things and...

- Of course,
I want to meet her in person.
- Okay.

So I'm here and, you know,
things are even better
in person, I feel.

Statler's quite
an awkward person.

I'm quite
an awkward person. Yes.

- Oh, yeah?
- Yeah. Yeah.

Ooh. Eeh.

- Fish and chips. Yeah.
- Yeah. Traditional.

Not this time.

Have you been
to England before?

Yeah. Yeah, I've, uh...

- I... I...
- Statler has a thing
for English girls.

- So, this is my second time
coming to England to meet...
- Okay.

To meet an Englishwoman.

Dempsey, she said
she'd been messaging
an American girl,

but I wasn't aware
there was any sparks
of a relationship

till today.

Yeah. I want, er...

I want, uh,
fish and chips and peas.

All right.

Dempsey's last relationship
wasn't a good one.

It ended badly.

Erm, I'm very protective.

I want just the best for her.

So, I hope she never has to
go through that again.

What about your, erm,
previous relationship
with the, er, Brit?

You know, we talked
for a couple of months first
before I came over

and, uh, I was gonna
move to England

'cause I was,
you know, in love.

But she said, you know,
that that's too fast for her.

So at that point,
she just kind of ended
the relationship and...

My lease is up back home,

uh, well, pretty much
like a month after
I come back.

So Dempsey and I haven't
really talked about it,

but it might be
something I'm considering,
moving over here

and moving in with her.

I know it's pretty fast.

Pretty fast.

- Heya.
- Hello!

Yum.

There we go, guys.

- Are we all good?
- Yeah,
we're all good.

- Here?
- Yeah.

It's fish and chips.

The most English meal.

- It is.
- I guess.

It is.

Statler seems
a really, really nice girl

for the short time
that I met her today.

Statler wants
to move to England.

Just a complete
and utter shock.

They just need to
take a step back.

Things need to slow down.

Cool, okay.

- I'm gonna go to the bathroom.
- Okay.

I think she's...
Yeah, she's a nice girl.

Yeah, she's nice.

My only concern is...

she rushed here before,
she's told me that.

Yeah.

When my dad says that

Statler might be

rushing things,

it definitely
starts to weigh on me.

It's true that
her relationships have failed

based on Statler
pushing things too quickly.

I'm worried Statler
rushes relationships

because she's craving love.

So, I think
we need to slow down

and I need
to take a step back.

I want to make sure
that she's in the relationship
for the right reasons,

not just because
she wants to be with somebody,

but because
she wants to be with me.

I'm feeling nervous

about meeting
Razvan's friends.

Hey!

I can be a jealous person,

and she's, like,
wearing a thong bikini.

I look in your eyes

and after I look
in Razvan eyes was like,

"I love you so much,
but I want to kill you
right now."

It's a toxic relationship.

Hi.

Mm-hmm.

Last night after we got home
from our date night,

Razvan and I
did not talk about things.

So I am very much
still processing him
keeping his dream

about always wanting
to come to America from me.

I know
I'm a very guarded person,

but I have to be
very careful of my decisions

because they don't
only affect myself,
they affect my children.

So, you know...

Okay. Thank you.

You don't seem okay.

I'm fine.

It does kind of
feel like the more
I spend time with him,

the more, kind of,
concerns I have.

But I know that
he is a good person,
truly, in his heart

and I do want
the relationship to work.

I feel good about today.

It's nice, I think, and...

And I think it'll be nice
to feel more relaxed

and to meet some people.

Hmm. Okay.

It still feels that

Amanda doesn't trust me 100%.

Enjoy. Enjoy, please.

Enjoy, guys.

- Oh, here's Diana.
- Hey!

- Hey.
- Look at you!

- Nice to see you, Razvan.
- Nice to see you.

- How are you?
- Good.

So this is
your American girlfriend!

Yeah, this is Amanda.

- Hi. Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.
You look great.

Oh, thank you.
So do you.

- How is everything?
- Good. Very good.

I'm feeling nervous

about meeting
Razvan's friends,

especially a female friend
that I've never even heard of.

Let's go to eat something.

I can be
a jealous person,

and she's, like,
wearing a thong bikini.

So it's like added levels
of stress and anxiety to me.

Uh, no I didn't bring...

I didn't bring a swimsuit.

- Why would you...
- Okay.

Okay, I understand.

What?

- Nothing.
- It's true.

Okay.

I have no idea
why Razvan just announces
to this pool party,

like, that I'm on my period.

I just want, like,
to just crawl into
my skin right now.

Oh, my gosh.

So what you did
in these days?

We were in town, you know.

I show her the town and...

Mm, Amanda, you're ready
to meet, uh, his parents?

Um, yeah.

- But they do not
speak English, so...
- Mm!

Razvan's
gonna have to translate,

and I don't know
if he's gonna
say the right thing.

- He might just
leave things out.
- Maybe.

Maybe.

You better not.

Like a cat.

You like Romania?

Um... Like,
I'm not used to, like, a city.

Like, where I live
is, like, a town.

But she's getting
used to it.

- Am I?
- Yeah, you told me.

Okay.

So, can I take
your girlfriend?

Because I want to
talk with her.

Come on, Amanda.

Let's go for a walk.

- Yeah.
- Come.

So...

How can I say?

- How it's working
with your relationship?
- Um, I mean...

You fight.

We have some fights.
We just met, you know.

Yeah, but...

Yeah.

No, I'm in love with him.

If I didn't love him

and I didn't think
it was worth

leaving my kids at home
for three weeks, you know...

...was because
when I look in your eyes,

and after I look
in Razvan eyes was like,

"I love you so much,
but I want to kill you
right now."

This kind of eye contact,

it's when
it's a toxic relationship.

Because toxic people do that.

I don't think
our relationship is toxic.

I think we love
each other very much,

and like I said, we...

Uh, sorry. How is possible
to love a person in six days?

- Yeah. Yeah.
- It's a little bit hard
for me to understand.

It is difficult
to hear Diana

call my relationship
with Razvan toxic.

I don't know if Diana
has any ulterior motives,

if she, like,
has a crush on Razvan,

or, I don't know.

Maybe that's the reason
she's so critical
about our relationship.

I'm just
a good friend.

And he suffered a lot
in the past.

And after, his heart
was like a prison.

Yeah.

And I don't want you
to play with him.

I think this is not love.

I think it's impossible
to love a person
in a short time,

and I don't think this will be
a healthy relationship,

and I think it's not working.

I just want you
to be careful with him.

- You understand?
- Yeah.

It's very hard
to find boys like Razvan.

It makes me so happy, baby,
that you ejaculate

for the very first time.

Last night, we tried things
that I never thought.

I'm in shock.

It's, like, truly amazing.

- Hey.
- Happy Valentine's Day.

Mwah.

I didn't expect
me to fall in love this soon.

Oh, yeah!

Obviously, the next step
is talking about
if I can move in,

and I hope she's on
the same page as I am.

Buenos dias.

Buenos
dias, baby.

Wasn't it comfortable

sleeping in this
super comfortable bed
last night?

- So amazing.
- Yes. It was super awesome.

And it makes me
so happy, baby,

that you ejaculate
for the very first time.

Um, I'm in shock.

It's, like, truly amazing.

I was starting to doubt

that it will
ever be possible...

Only masturbation.

But last night,

we tried things
that I never thought.

Like, he...

I gave him the golden shower.

Gino was like this
on the Jacuzzi

and he was, like,
"Give it to me, baby."

And when he said it,
I was like...

like a dog, just,
you know, my leg like this,
peeing on him.

Ready, baby.

I see the horses!

- They're so cute.
- Aw.

Which one
do I get to pick out?

Today, I arranged
a super fun activity.

We're going horseback riding
in the Panamanian wilderness.

I have never done
horseback riding before,

but I love animals and nature,

and it's very important for me

to have new experiences
with my fiancé.

The therapist said,
"Collect good memories."

I've never been
on a horse before.

They're not gonna kick me
if I approach 'em
from behind, right?

Okay, to go to the back,
you have to tell them
that you're in the back.

- Oh, really?
- It's really important. Yes.

Uh...

So, okay.

I'm here.

- Yes.
- I'm here.

Okay.

You're a good horse,
you're a good horse.

Okay, ready?

Hopefully,
I can get up on him.

We have the stairs.
No problem.

Oh, the stairs
will help. Yeah, right?

I've never been
horseback riding before,

but after last night,
you know, pulling out

the whips and chains
with Jasmine, you know,

it was so fun and exciting
and it was like...

I felt, like, so in control.

You're my cowboy, baby!

Oof. Here we go!

Let's rock it!

So today, I'm feeling
pretty sexy and strong
on the horse.

Hopefully...

Whoo! Is this fun or what?

I love it, baby.

Doesn't it feel great
to be out here? The air...

You know,
breathing the air,
it's so good here.

Come on.

- Huh?
- Wait, wait, wait.

What?
Wait, wait, wait.

It should be sweet.

- If it's sweet,
it's ready. Yeah.
- For me?

- Oh, wow.
- Yes.

I can just eat into it?

Yes, go, bite.

- This way.
- Wow, thank you.

You're welcome.

- I like it.
- Nice.

Baby,
I cannot think of
any other person than you

to collect
these memories with.

- Aw! You're so cute.
- I love you, baby!

I love you!

Yeah, it feels good to...

You know,
we're doing those things

that the counselor
was suggesting

and things seem to be
coming together
during this trip.

Like, our bond...
I feel like our bond
is coming back.

Ooh,
we're going to the river!

This is a whole
new adventure, baby.

"Yeah."

Whoo!

- Uh, do you mind, baby--
- Hey, how does
this helmet come off?

Yes, wait.
Let me help you. Here.

- Just here.
- Okay.

- You look good
with it though.
- Okay, thank you.

Thank you. You're welcome.

Aw.

Yeah,
maybe I'll take a picture.

Ready?

- Okay.
- He posed!

- You're amazing!
- He turned his head.

Aw!

I love it.

Can you send those pictures?

I'd like to send to my family.

- Your family.
- Yeah.

Uh, I sent it to you. Um...

Don't take me...
Don't take it wrong,

but once in the United States,

I don't want your family
to be too involved

because sometimes I feel like
they don't liking me.

Like, for example...

Before Gino came to Panama,

Gino's cousin Dana
texted me on social media

something that I considered
highly inappropriate and rude.

Like, interrogating me,

like, accusing me
of me not really loving Gino.

That's huge.

And I address it
with Gino at that time,

but I haven't forgotten.

All right, well,
don't generalize
about my family

because of one message
that you got.

Okay, so if they call me,
like, a whore, they call me,

"You're a freaking
sugar babe."

They're not gonna do that.
They're not like that.

But that's,
like, the direction

your cousin Dana is taking.

You're coming up
with all these things
that they're gonna do bad

and you haven't even
met 'em in person yet.

- I just want you...
- It wasn't a personal attack.

You should talk to your family
and tell them

that I don't take any kind
of criticism slightly.

You understand?

You know, I think
you need to talk to Da--
have a chat with Dana,

so that maybe
you can clear the air...

or he can
clear the air with you.

- He has to-- I do not think...
- He will-- He can clear...

- I think he'll--
- I didn't respond.

He'll clear the air with you.
I would think so.

Would you agree
to have, you know...

Would you agree
to talk to Dana this weekend
through video call?

- He's talked to you
a couple of times.
- Okay, let's, let's...

I agree.

I am really happy
that Jasmine agreed
to talk with my cousin Dana.

I don't want to be
in the middle between
my family and Jasmine,

especially when
she comes to the US,

but I'm a little worried,
you know, what could happen.

Jasmine is not easy
to win over,

and so, yeah,

you know, it could blow up.

Good morning.

- Morning.
- Happy Valentine's Day.

- Happy Valentine's Day.
- Mwah.

What are you doing?

I'm getting some,
uh, massage oil...

- Am I getting a massage?
- ...for your feet.

Uh, I know
you have to work today.

So I thought
I would just give you

a little something, something.

You're so kind.

- Ooh, that's really nice.
- Is it?

Yeah.

What can I say?
I'm a professional.

I thought, uh,
yesterday went really well
with your dad.

Mm-hmm.

Like, I was so nervous
before I met him,

but then he ended up
being, like, really cool.

I'm glad that you think
it went well.

Yeah, I think so.
Think it went really well.

Probably the best
first meeting-the-parents
I've ever had.

- Wow.
- Yeah.

So, very happy about that.

Mm-hmm.

I think my dad likes Statler,

but my dad is just concerned

that, erm, things might be
moving a little bit fast.

I have to go to work soon.

Oh, yeah.

Statler can be a bit full-on,

and it concerns me that, erm,

Statler, erm,
has an ex from England,

and she got into things
too quickly.

Now I'm, like, kind of
thinking in my head that,

yeah, I do think that
we should take things
a bit slower.

- See you soon.
- Have a good one.

Bye.

I'm usually single
on Valentine's Day,

so to finally have someone
to spend Valentine's Day with,

it's very exciting to me.

I am a romantic at heart,

and so this is, like, my day

to do whatever
the heck I want,

and I have a lot of ideas.

Oh, yeah!

After we got back from meeting
Dempsey's dad yesterday,

I told her that
I needed to run to the store

to get a few things
for myself,

but I actually went
and got some stuff
for Valentine's Day today,

and now it's crunch time.

Okay.

Today, I am putting on
a scavenger hunt

because it's Valentine's Day

and I want things to be
as romantic as possible
for Dempsey.

I want to, like,
end on a fire scene

with a couple of drinks
and, uh,

some s'mores,
some candles, some roses.

Really make the romance big

because things are just going
better than I expected.

I didn't expect me
to fall in love this soon.

Um, it's just like,

obviously the next step is,

you know, asking

or talking about
if I can move in.

And I hope, I think,

she's on the same page
as I am.

Even though
I've been in England
for only a week,

I'm confident
that I love Dempsey.

I even kind of told her
I love her yesterday,

but she didn't say it back.

Um, I don't know
if she was just stressed

because we were on our way
to meet her dad,

but I definitely feel
like I need to tell her
in a more proper way.

I need to actually say
the three words, "I love you,"

so she knows that it's legit
and not just word vomit.

Let's see.
Where should I do it?

Honestly, this could be
one of the most important
days of my life

and I need it to go perfectly.

Okay.

I feel like I'm selling roses.

Would anybody like a rose?

Fivepence for one.

But I am anxious.

I'm scared.
I'm feeling insecure.

Because last time I did this,
with my ex,

she said it was
just too much too fast

and she ended things.

I thought I was devastated
with my ex,

but losing Dempsey
would be ten times worse.

I'm pretty sure
that's the definition
of insanity,

to do the same thing twice

and expect
a different outcome.

So, yeah, I'm a little crazy,

but I think Dempsey
is worth the gamble.

That's everything.

Uh, s'mores, lighting, roses.

All I need is for her
to say she's... she loves me,

and she wants me
to move in with her.

I'm obviously
feeling very agitated

and confused as to why
was he so vague
with the producers

and was not
transparent at all.

For him to go on
and lie about our intimacy

feels extremely confusing.

At this point,
my trust in him
is, like, zero percent.

Hey!

Oh, babe.

Thank you so much
for coming.

How are you?

No, no, no. That's all right.

- You okay?
- Uh, not really.

I feel like I've been, like,
so deluded, to be honest.

Mm-hmm.

Aw.

I just feel like
I'm so stupid.

Aw.

I don't wanna see you cry.

All right.

No, you can cry,
but I don't want to
see you be so sad.

Would you mind
coming to the Airbnb with me?

Whatever you need.

Thank you.

What happened?

Maybe it's best
if we talk about it,
like, in the car.

Yeah.

I'm feeling
very frustrated and upset.

Christian and I got into
a bit of a argument

and it is something
that I feel, at the moment,

has really broken
my trust in him.

Yesterday, it was
a very nice moment for us.

I thought that
our relationship

is gonna be so much better.

And now I don't understand
what is going on.

I don't necessarily know
if I know who he is anymore.

Well, basically
what happened, like,

you know that yesterday,

Christian and I
have been, you know,

- intimate for first time.
- Mm-hmm.

- And I thought
it was pretty special.
- Mm-hmm.

And, you know, after that,

we talked about
how we really care
about each other

and, you know,
we agreed that we should
be openly transparent

about the fact
that we had sex.

Mm-hmm.

And then at some point today,

he messaged me and he says,

"Have you told people
that we were intimate?"

And I said,
"Yes, of course I did."

Why... You know,
"Why, have you not?"

And he said,

"Yeah, no, I didn't
really talk about it
to the cameras.

I just said that we made out,

we hooked up
or 'hit second base.'"

Okay.

And I'm obviously feeling
very agitated and confused

as to why was he so vague
with the producers

and was not
transparent at all.

Christian and I have shared

what I felt was like
a magical moment together.

Um, you know,
really close intimacy.

I let myself be vulnerable
with Christian those nights,

so for him to go on and lie
about our intimacy today

feels extremely confusing
and upsetting,

and I feel like
I've been manipulated.

So, like, I was literally
about to enter the lecture,

but I was like,
"Okay, I'm gonna
have to call him."

- Mm-hmm.
- I just... I needed to hear
what he had to say.

- Mm-hmm.
- And we talked.

And he just kept saying,

you know,
"It was probably best
to not talk about it

to protect you," or to...

"Because I don't feel
it's anyone's business."

Yeah. That's, that's,
that's what I'm feeling.

And I said to him
that I feel that...

...but one place is,
maybe he doesn't want people,

or his family,

to be able to know
that he has been intimate
with a trans woman

because he's scared
of having...

You know, he doesn't
want to hear their opinions.

And such as...

You know, similarly
to when he was saying,

"Oh, we shouldn't have
public displays of affection"

when he arrived at the airport

because, you know,

"I'm afraid of people

or what
they will be thinking."

- So, by keeping
it all vague...
- Hmm.

...he's, in a sense,
still getting to

live whatever
he wants to in his life

and without necessarily
having to deal
with the backlash.

I don't want to be
anyone's secret lover.

I have no interest in that.

I would rather just be alone.

There's been, you know,
a few instances where

Christian's insecurity
is about what
other people think...

It really hurts because
I thought we were past that.

You know, now I'm wondering,

is he starting to, like,
crack under this pressure?

Is... is that
what's happening?

And I'm feeling
disappointed and sad

and also frustrated that
things have taken this turn.

From everything
you told me,

like, it sounds like

he's not taking into account
your emotions,

and he just does
whatever he wants.

I mean, do you think
he genuinely cares about you?

Up until yesterday,

I had my doubts at times,

but I always chose to believe

that him deciding
to come here and meet

was enough of a proof
that he cared.

But the way
he's going about things,

I would say, at this point,
my trust in him is, like,
nearly zero percent.

But my heart,
it's still there,

and I know
it's probably wrong,

but there's
one part of me

that still wants
to give him a chance.

So, you just got to meet him.

I'm feeling
very anxious

about confronting Christian.

He needs to be
able to separate

what people think about us

from his own feelings
about our relationship.

If he can't do that,

there's a slim chance
of this relationship
working out.

Oh, man.
My heart is racing.

Like, it's finally here,
you know?

I don't know
how I'm gonna react
when I see this person,

or how she's gonna react.

Or what if she doesn't
show up at all

Um, feeling nervous.

Mixed emotions, actually.

Still debating
whether I want to go or not.

Might just have to lock myself
in the bathroom.

My sisters and I
landed in Denver

and in a few hours
I'm gonna be

meeting the real Carmella,

the one I thought
I was talking to
for four years.

Meeting the real Carmella
is a big deal

because she could
be easily involved
with Christian

and this whole catfish scheme.

Maybe she knows him
and maybe she could
lead me to him.

So it's confusing
and it's also, like,
weird to--

It's kind of hard to explain,

but I do feel excitement
to be meeting her.

You know,
I'm meeting the person

that is the image
of the person

I thought that I was
in love with, you know.

So it's kind of,
like, a mixed bag

because,
at one point, I'm like,
"This is the real her,"

but then at the same time,
I'm like, "I don't know her."

If I do feel like
I'm catching feelings
or anything like that,

I just have to remind myself
the reason that I'm here:

to meet and talk
about what happened.

I believe
that she's gonna think

I'm some type
of loser, honestly.

That's, that's pretty much
what I have in my mind.

She's gonna be like,
"Wow, this guy got played
and embarrassed,"

and then, you know,
"I'm just gonna help him."

And that's...
that's nice of her.

If it turns out that Carmella
isn't involved in this scam,

I do feel like
I owe her something.

She really didn't
have to agree to meet.

So just in case,
I went with my sisters

to get her a little something
to show my gratitude.

- They have a lot of
jewelry up here, too.
- Oh, jewelry.

That's, like,
an easy gift, I think.

- What are you trying to do?
- Yeah, what do you need
to send her a gift for?

I think you guys are thinking
too much into it.

So, candle it is.

- Just this.
- Gift her that candle.

Oh, hey, guys.

- Oh, hey.
- Hello.

- You look nice.
- Oh, thanks. You, too.

I'm feel like
it's important to give
the real Carmella a gift

just to show my gratitude,

but I don't want her
to get the wrong idea

and I don't want her think
I'm some type creep
or anything like that.

So it's all sorts of things
going through my mind.

So...
So, how you feeling?

Nervous, scared, anxious?

I'm mainly nervous
because I don't really know,
like, you know,

I don't know what to expect,

and I'm just nervous
about what I'm gonna say.

I don't know
if she's connected
with this, you know.

So that's where I'm at.
I just, I just don't know.

And where are you guys going?

Um, to a lounge.

Did she suggest a place
or you?

Um, I was looking online.
I suggested it.

- Oh, okay.
- Okay.

I'll keep it on.

Tyray appears to be nervous,
a little anxious.

- Good luck.
- Cheers.

- Good luck, yeah.
- Cheers.

Got it.

I think
he has a lot of reasons
to be nervous.

He doesn't even
know this person.

She could be
some catfish woman
behind the catfish

- All right.
- Just let us know
when you make it back.

All right.

He definitely
will feel a type of way
when he sees her face...

- Mm-hmm.
- ...because she is
the face of the person

that he been talking to.

So I just don't know
how that's really gonna go.

Phew!

Oh, man.

So slippery. Hello. Ooh.

Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
I can't get up. Hey.

Oh, man. My heart is racing
and it's overwhelming.

Like,
it's finally here, you know?

This whole journey.

And it's, like,
gonna come to an end,

or maybe a new beginning.

Heading to meet
the real Carmella

is heartbreaking because,

you know, I envisioned me
actually, you know,

meeting the Carmella
I was in love with,
my Carmella.

Thank you. Appreciate it.

You're welcome.

And even though
I'm focused
on confronting her,

I also have
all this excitement
and butterflies

my thinking about meeting her

because she is the image
of the person

I've been talking to
for four years.

- Hi. How are you?
- Hey. Hello.
I'm good. How are you?

Good! I've got a menu
for you there.

Okay, thanks.

You're welcome.
Are you meeting anybody?

Uh, supposedly.

Hopefully.

- Can I just get water for now?
- Yeah, of course.

All right, thanks.

- Oh, thanks.
- You're welcome.

I'm really anxious.

I'm nervous. I'm afraid.

The seconds
are just going by so slow.

I don't know
how I'm gonna react

when I see this person,
or how she's gonna react.

Or what if she doesn't
show up at all

and they just played me again?

That would crush me.

Happy Valentine's Day.

In my heart,
I know I'm ready
to move in with her.

I don't want to wait
any longer

to find out
if she feels the same way.

You know, I have, like,
a month until my lease is up.

I'm not planning
on renewing it.

So I think the next step
is, like, move in with you.

I have Jasmine here.

I mean,
why would I have sex with you
and express those feelings

and then lie?

Well, you kind of did.

Not in my mind.

She called me a manipulator.

She called me a gaslighter.

And it's really
leaving me thinking,

is this even a relationship
that I can be in anymore?

I'm...

Maybe you think
she wants your money?

After what
I've been through,

I can't trust anything unless
I see it with my own two eyes.

Who...