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[Derailment]

[Adapted from Derailment by Priest
on Jinjiang Literature City]

[Episode 21]

May 16th, 2018.

It was the day before she signed the contract.

Did she come back?

She put this in it later.

[Little princess Jiang Xiaoyuan's dream life]

Little princess Jiang Xiaoyuan.

How is the life she drew exactly like my life?

Have you ever thought...

that maybe the Lighthouse System
is not a time-travel machine,

and you didn't time travel to this world?

That's impossible. That's not true.

I have all the memories since my childhood.

My life is complete.

I can't be someone else's secondary personality
and certainly not someone else's dream.

Jiang Xiaoyuan.

Xiaoyuan.

Xiaoyuan.

Xiaoyuan, what's wrong?

Xiaoyuan.

Xiaoyuan, what's wrong?

What's wrong with you?

Come here.

Lean against here first.

How do you feel?

I'm not her.

I'm here.

I'm not her.

It's okay.

I'm not her.

Am I sick?

When people are overly stressed
or stimulated emotionally,

they tend to feel dizzy.

It can be relieved by rest.

Qi Lian.

Can you go to the laboratory with me tomorrow?

You just experienced a shock.

You should rest for a couple of days.

No.

I have to see the Lighthouse
System with my own eyes;

otherwise, I won't believe it.

I've been thinking about
how to tell you about Huo Boyu.

What happened to him?

He's dead.

How?

Before he died, he had a mental breakdown.

Later, he committed suicide in the ward,

on the day you returned to Baiyang County.

You're afraid that I'll end up like him, right?

I won't.

Before I find out the truth,
I won't let myself go crazy.

Have some warm noodles first.

You didn't tell me you were coming back.

I should have cooked something.

Thank you, Grandma.

Come on, sit down and eat.

Sit down.

Qi, it's getting late.
Why don't you stay overnight here?

Just stay overnight here.

Eat before it gets cold. I'll tidy up the room for you.

Do you mind?

Anyway, the room of Jiang Xiaoyuan's parents is empty.

I quite like this house.

Hello, Professor Lu.

Happy New Year, Qi Lian.

I've found something about Noah
that you asked me for last time.

But it was just a photo.

I'm afraid it's gonna take some time
to know his contact information.

Don't worry. I'll keep looking for it.

Can you send it to me first?

Okay, I'll send it to you now.

Noah is standing in the third position
from the right in the back row.

That's him.

Qi Lian.

You're my best friend.

I hope...

you're well.

Do you think we'll see Mr. Xu today?

I don't know.

Could Mr. Xu be the one
who almost killed me and Huo Boyu?

I don't know.

Why did they choose such a remote place
for their experiments?

It's probably to prevent experimental personnel
from contacting the outside world,

concealing their activities.

This place seems to have
been abandoned for a long time.

There are two possibilities.

One is that the Light Laboratory claimed
to have closed but is still operational.

This base was registered six years ago.

They closed it down and moved elsewhere.

What's the other possibility?

The second possibility is...

that the Light Laboratory indeed closed,

but someone intentionally continues
the experiments under their banner.

No matter which is true,
the Light Laboratory is probably not here anymore.

They moved out cleanly.

It looks like they left nothing here.

Don't you find something odd?

It seems to be too clean here.

It's not like it's been deserted for six years.

Could they have just moved out?

Xiaoyuan.

Are you okay?

Let me carry you down.

Be careful.

Be careful.

Come on.

Be careful.

How are you feeling? Does it still hurt?

Maybe I should take you back first.

No.

Since we're here, I need to find out the truth quickly.

Wait for me here. I'll be back soon.

[Light Laboratory]

Xiaoyuan.

How are you? Did you get hurt?

Come on, get up.

You've entered the Lighthouse System four times,

and it's a crucial moment for data observation.

You need to do your best to avoid getting injured.

Otherwise, the pain signals

will interfere with the memory implant module
of the Lighthouse System.

Module?

What module? I've never heard you mention it before.

Ms. Jiang.

The director is looking for you. Please go over.

How many times have I told you
not to mention the memory module to the subjects?

They only know that the Lighthouse System
is a virtual reality game

and have no idea about the true nature of the project.

If they become alert to it,
it might affect the later memory overlay.

I'll be more careful.

But isn't it against the rules
not to tell the subjects the truth?

Don't worry about that.

But I heard that the previous subjects
were fine at first,

and the painful memories were successfully erased,

but when they were disconnected
from the machine less than a year later,

those people all went insane.

Some even committed suicide by jumping.

Do you believe everything you hear?

Since we took over the Lighthouse System,

this is the first batch of subjects we've received.

Who committed suicide by jumping?

It could have happened before we took over.

I'm just worried

that there might be a bug in the memory
implant module of the Lighthouse System.

If you really think there's a bug,
then go fix it instead of overthinking.

What's wrong?

I joined this experiment
because you said it wasn't dangerous.

Tell me the truth.

What exactly is the Lighthouse System?

It's a game.

What's wrong?

It's really just a game. There's no danger at all.

I told you about it, Xiaoyuan.

I participated in creating
the dream module of this game.

It took me five years,
and I put my heart and soul into it.

I guarantee that it's not dangerous.

Didn't you always say you want to be rich?

In this game, you can experience everything.

They're looking for me. I have to go.

Xiaoyuan.

I promise you there's no problem.
It's safe and secure. Trust me.

I'm gonna go.

August 11, 2018. Cloudy.

Today is my 87th day participating
in the Lighthouse experiment.

The staff here slipped,

and I found out that the Lighthouse System
is not actually a game.

I don't know what it is.

Even Huo Boyu seems to have been kept in the dark.

I don't know if I'll go crazy,

But I can feel that the Lighthouse System
is altering my memory.

Sometimes I can't remember
what happened the day before.

[Lighthouse System]
Sometimes,

I even think of myself as the character in the game.

If one day I forget everything about myself,

I hope this diary will help me remember.

August 29th.

I sneaked into the room next to the meeting room.

If this experiment continues,

the subjects are likely to go insane within a year.

How's the condition of the subjects recently?

Not so good. There have been fainting episodes.

Jiang Xiaoyuan? What are you doing here?

Go inside.

You can't just quit the experiment.

The Lighthouse System is indeed not a game.

During the game, they kept mentioning
my past that I don't want to remember.

But for some reason,
the more they mention it, the faster I forget,

and she in the virtual world becomes more real.

Sign the disclaimer.

We looked into your background,
and your life isn't easy.

Doesn't your grandmother need the money?

Why are you thinking so much?

It could take a few months or up to a year
before those people all go insane.

Just sign it.

Even if you do go crazy,
it's better than being tormented by reality.

Sign it.

Sign it.

Accept your fate.

[Disclaimer]

In the following days,

they persuaded me to treat the Lighthouse System
as a dream machine,

where I have everything I don't have now.

Money, friends, and freedom.

It's like the opposite of my current life.

September 13th.

Can those who are used to dreaming
return to reality?

I'm gradually losing the ability to
distinguish between reality and dreams.

Maybe I'm in the dream now.

This is just a painful dream.

October 21st.

My sober time is getting shorter.

Every minute of being sober is extremely painful,

but I know if I don't get out of here now,

the dream would consume me completely.

October 23rd, 2018.

I don't accept my fate,

and I don't want to go crazy.

I have a lot of things to do and a long future ahead.

I want to live. I want to live.

Xiaoyuan.

Xiaoyuan.

Jiang Xiaoyuan!

Xiaoyuan.

Jiang Xiaoyuan, wake up.

Jiang Xiaoyuan.

They've left.

Okay. I'll take care of it.

Qi Lian.

You're awake.

I can't go back.

I might go crazy, too.

I know.

Qi Lian.

Qi Lian.

Qi Lian.

Qi Lian.

Qi Lian.

- Qi Lian.
- I'll always be here for you.

I won't leave you alone.

Since you woke up in the hospital,

I knew...

you've always been the same Jiang Xiaoyuan.

You never changed.

Yes.

She doesn't remember anything
and thinks of herself as another person.

I know her situation is uncommon,

but is it possible to help her through medical means?

Xiaoyuan!

I just want some water and accidentally hit it.

Let me do it.

I want to go home.

I want to go back to my original home.

When it's daylight,

I'll take you back.

I'll buy you something to eat.

I'm not hungry.

Have some sleep then.

I'll stay here with you.

What's on your mind?

I'm thinking about the movie Chen Fangzhou likes.

The movie?

A movie where everyone lies in sleeping pods,

treating the virtual world as the real world.

I was convinced...

that the world I was in was the virtual world,
and one day,

I would wake up from the sleeping pod
and go back to the real world.

But I never expected...

that what I thought was the real world
was the virtual world.

The luxurious life was just a dream.

From beginning to end,
there has been one Jiang Xiaoyuan.

We all wake up from a dream.

The good thing is that you're back,

right?

Do you think I'm really back?

I have so many memories related to that dream.

In the long future, I'll miss that dream.

I'll miss the world in that dream.

What's the difference between it and
trapping me in a world that doesn't belong to me?

Xiaoyuan.

I...

I've consulted some experts.

They may have a way to help you
regain your previous memories.

Do you want me to regain my old memories?

What I want...

is to minimize the impact of
the Lighthouse System on you.

I hope you won't feel painful...

because your life has deviated
from its original course.

Perhaps forgetting those things in the dream...

and turning back into the original Jiang Xiaoyuan...

will prevent you from ending up like Huo Boyu.

I don't want to forget those things,

and I don't want to turn back
into the original Jiang Xiaoyuan.

Xiaoyuan.

Whether you can remember the past or not,

you'll always be you.

It's not the same.

Even you said that we are different in your eyes.

People's memories determine who they are.

Erasing their memories is equivalent
to erasing their existence.

If one day you discover that your memories are fake,

would you be willing to forget them?

Would you let yourself become
someone you don't even know?

♫ If time were to reset ♫

♫ Would you dare to join me yet? ♫

♫ At the start of this quest ♫

♫ Would you wait for me? ♫

♫ In endless night ♫

♫ A distant beacon bright ♫

♫ Is it you guiding me right? ♫

♫ You are the only one ♫

♫ My light ♫

♫ You are the only one ♫

♫ My life ♫

♫ The mist along the way ♫

♫ Bypassed my world and turned into rain ♫

♫ Bestowing upon me a clear sky ♫

♫ You never want to look down ♫

♫ On my tiny struggles ♫

♫ Bound by naive dreams ♫

♫ You'd rather not wake me up ♫

♫ Drawing near with proud armor ♫

♫ We embrace, then mutually soften each other ♫

♫ You are the only one ♫

♫ My light ♫

♫ You are the only one ♫

♫ My life ♫

♫ Did you hear it? ♫

♫ Something melted all the deadlines
for the future ♫

♫ Before the break of day ♫

♫ You are the one I want ♫

♫ You are the one I want ♫

♫ Only you ♫

♫ In this sea ♫

♫ Your light shines brighter than the stars ♫

♫ Racing towards my yearning ♫

♫ My love ♫