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Holy Fuck.

So like a car must have crashed
into that semi or something,

a bunch of cars.

I wonder if maybe
something hit that first.

Is there two semis?

I Don't know.

You see the one on
fire there to the left there

is a big something...

I can't even
see through the smoke.

You gotta look inside
the thing and see if it

says record or not. R-E-C.

Oh Okay.

Yeah, it's going on?

- Yeah.
- Alright cool.

We were just zooming up the
highway and like I saw this like

fucking black billowing smoke
like coming out and we didn't

know what was happening, we
thought like there was a house

burning down or something...

I get panic attacks, I
get panic attacks just driving

down the road because I'm all
of a sudden back in Alabama,

it's always-

I'm there,
it's fast, and it's so scary

because that guy
hit us from behind.

And it wasn't anything I was
doing, I was just driving good

and normal down the road, right?

I didn't make any mistakes.

That guy smashed us from behind
and forever changed everything.

I think we had
something special.

I don't think that that beauty
that we could create, that art,

would just have ended.

Holy fuck you guys,
look what we did...

and then look what we did.

We were young and mean to each
other and we just were so

focused on the art at all costs.

And it cost us a lot in the end.

Hey man how's
it going, it's Ryan.

Hey Ryan,
good, how are you?

Good good, can
you hear me all right?

I can hear
you just fine.

Ok, I'm going to see if
I can make you louder here.

OK.

I'm here with Stu, who is
rejoining the band for the tour.

Oh, that's nice, yeah.

Thanks for hopping
on I appreciate it.

What are
the notes on the--

What's it like being back
together after all that time?

Um, It feels like no
time has passed and a lot of

time has passed.

I remember the idea coming
up a number of years ago.

And I don't think we
specifically thought like

a ten-year anniversary was the
way to go, we were just talking

about getting together and
doing some shows. Cause we never

really did like a last show with
Jesse or anything like that.

I have only sang two days.

I sang the very first day and
made my voice sound like this.

So I took two days off,
and I sang yesterday,

and this is the result again.

So I'll take today
off, and tomorrow.

I'm really enjoying it, I
think everybody else is too, and

you know, we wrote these songs
ten years ago, and we've all

been active musicians over the
last decade, so I kind of think

if anything we are playing the
songs better than we would have

ten years ago.

Yeah, it's nice too
cause Jesse has something about

him as a singer that's very
honest and passionate and

I don't know if I realized
how much I missed that,

but I definitely did.

awesome so, what
happened with, why did Jesse

leave and then why
did you leave Stu?

Um, I mean, there was a
lot of differences about how we

thought the band should happen
and kind of what direction we

wanted to go and he and I rubbed
each other the wrong way a

little bit on some of our
personal stuff and it was

definitely a situation where we
weren't going to really be able

to continue working together.

But, um, yeah yeah we...

I guess that's probably all
I need to say about that.

Things in the past that
might have been bumps in the

road, things that might have
caused disagreements and

arguments, everybody is just
kinder and older and wiser and

knows how to deal with these
situations a lot better now.

It had to eventually
happen, if we were more mature

we probably would have done a
little bit more and made it last

a little longer, which is one
of the reasons it's good we're

doing this tour, to revisit the
record as probably the era ended

a little prematurely.

Anything unresolved about that
doesn't really apply to these

shows you know it's not about
the split, it's about the album,

and about trying to celebrate
the time when the five of us

were a band.

It's a good band, man.

There's no disputing,
they're such a good band.

So this is a temporary
thing I take it then

or like what?

Yeah it's
just for ten shows.

Just for the ten shows?
So after this Stu you go back to

your other stuff, and Jesse goes
back and Karl's back in and...

Yep. -Yep.

No people ask
me that question every day

that I do an interview.

But it seems like it's

never really been publicized,
or has it? Cause I thought

the whole thing was like
he just left to be a teacher?

I've talked openly about
it here and there, pretty much

what I said like he had
different ideas about...

he's just real stubborn about
the way he wants things to be

handled, and that turned into
being us fighting about every

single decision, so-

Do you think that will
bother him though to see that

sort of stuff publicized?

I don't think so.
I don't think so.

Like I said we're both at a
pretty good point with it.

I don't think I threw him under
the bus with that really.

Because I don't think it's more
his fault than mine, I just

think it's more a problem that
he had with everyone in the band

than I did, cause you know my
problem was just with him so,

it's like I shouldn't
leave the band you know?

I don't know.

Hey I just wanted to
say sorry for not doing the

interview thing today.

You seemed a touch bummed or
something so I just wanted to

make sure you knew
where I was coming from.

This whole thing is super
hard on this guy's heart.

I've had a lot of fun this
week but there have been a ton

of mixed emotions throughout.
You guys really hurt

me in the past and I
likely hurt y'all as well.

I'm just not the same person as
I was back then so whole trip

has been pretty crazy.
An interview could bring

up old garbage that
I'm trying to get over.

I think you're a great dude,
an amazing dad, and one of the

greatest guitar players ever.

However, you are also someone
who nearly destroyed me.

Doing an interview might
bring up junk I don't need

to focus on. This whole thing
is insane for me and I just

want you to know that I'm
trying my best and trying to

keep everything on the up
and up. Nothin' but love.

The way that the band
ended, you know, it was bad.

And it hurt me alot.

And sort of when we started
talking about this you know

there was times when I was
really excited about doing it

and then there was other
times when I was just like,

I can't do this.
I can't revisit those emotions.

I can't revisit the past
I've kind of gotten over it.

And to come back in the mix
and be with the guys and stuff-

I knew it would be this mixed
bag of emotions, you know?

And Jesse's not even coming
in the van, he's going

in his own car. It's just
him and his girlfriend.

I'm definitely
a man of comfort.

You know my obsessive compulsive
really does control, I guess,

how I live my day-to-day
life a lot of the time.

So all of a sudden, being so
OCD and phobic of things to go

back into a van...

Shit there's gonna be
nine people in that van.

You know, my girlfriend
is gonna come along.

He's got a pretty good
hold on like, the fact that he

knows he's a little bit insane
with some of these phobias,

and he's pretty apologetic
about it and he's like "Oh I'm

sorry you guys have to put up
with me and my crazy old ways".

And when he made us move
rehearsal spaces, he was pretty

graceful about it I guess.

The ceiling in the space
is covered with plastic but you

can still see through
and see the insulation.

There is nothing falling from
the ceiling, it's sealed, but

just the fact that Jesse could
see the insulation with his

eyes, he never came back
to that jam space again.

And we ultimately practiced the
next three days without him.

You guys want to
run through one more thing on

stage or are you guys good?

Well I didn't know fiberglass,
that's kind of a new phobia

I think. We didn't really
know that was a big thing

because it used
to be duct tape.

- Adhesives.
- Adhesives, yeah.

Like, I understand why
he didn't want to be in there,

whatever, but it seriously just
roots back to touring with him

back in the day because I didn't
want to like bend over and agree

with him just because it was
something he wanted his way

you know? So like, just
on principle I was like

"fuck that, we're not moving
jam spaces, we have to hold our

ground on this sort of thing".

It might be a good thing
that I'm in here, not just

for myself, for the guys, maybe
it makes it a little bit easier

on me maybe it makes it a
little easier on everybody else.

Dude,
classic moment just now.

This dude just came up to
me and introduced himself to

me twice. And the first time
he's like "oh what's up man?

How's it going? I'm John,
whatever, I came here,

whatever," and then he's like--
and I went out in the van and

kinda like changed my shirt and
came back in and he's just like

"Yo! You're in
Misery Signals, right?

You got a twin brother,
I just met him over there."

At first, early on I
would have been like "Oh, no,

that's Branden, that's my
brother, I can't accept that"

but that conversation goes
nowhere, and like they feel

awkward and now i'm just like
"Yeah, fuck yeah, thank you."

Make some
noise for Youth Decay!

Nihilate!

And the reason why
we are all fucking here:

Misery Signals!

# This time...

# It was our summer.

# It was something, no
one could take from us! #

# Sometimes that
night, seems so close #

# Like I,could hold it

# You said alright,
we'll be fine. #

# But how
could we have known? #

# Do you remember?

# Roll down the window
let in night air. #

# I always thought
we'd be together #

# You said we've
never gone this way before #

Dude, so insane and
so awesome but like poor Ryan is

over here in the corner
shit's getting stepped on and

everything is getting unplugged.

Alright we gotta pause here
for two seconds because you

guys are fucking out of
control, and it's awesome,

but everybody's gotta take like
two steps back and you guys

gotta step down and like
everything is getting unplugged.

And I'm gonna put all my shit
back together and then we're

gonna play the next song.
Hold on.

I thought this show
would be really good but I

didn't anticipate this.

That's probably the
most technical difficulties he's

ever had, but that might
have been one of the best

Misery Signals
shows we've ever played.

I'm also informed that
there's some sprinklers up here

you've gotta watch
out for otherwise they'll

get everything wet.

That might be a bad scene.

Once again,
thank you guys so so much.

Keep enjoying yourselves.

Just please watch
old Ry's pedals here.

Tonight's gonna be nuts,
it's like the venue is maybe a

little bit too small but it will
be one of those shows where

maybe that's a good thing.

The venue is
a lot of bit too small

Yeah.

I think we could have
filled a four or five hundred

cap room in Calgary.

That's the tricky balance
man, it's a lot less fun

if half the room's half empty
cause you can feel that

difference, and for this tour
particularly I think that's

what we wanted to go for
is like a smaller room kind of

feel cause those were like...

if we're gonna do a throwback
to those times we were

playing a lot smaller places,
smaller than this even.

So as veterans,
what advice would you give

to people who are in the
early stages starting out?

The band has been
operating for ten, twelve years

now, when we sort of broke the
band and got signed and that

sort of thing we were just

touring and doing shows and it
wasn't quite as internet and

social networking
based as it seems to be.

What's up guys
we're Misery Signals.

Now, it's like, cover
a popular song and make a

cool YouTube video and
get some viral going online,

I don't really know cause
I didn't do it that way.

For us it was just get
out there and play as much

as you can and I don't think
that's gonna hurt you I still

think that's a good idea.

If you're watching
this we're already dead.

Melted away to nothingness.

We're in the desert, it sucks.

What does that sign say?

Tucson, 246 miles.

246 miles to Tucson Arizona.

So Tucson is less
than half way there.

I can remember one year,
maybe it was 2004 or 2005 that

we were on tour for
11 months of that year.

Three days off here, a week
here, you know a few days,

but like it
was just go go go go go.

We were just focused
on that and nothing else.

There wasn't really
anything else going on in

my life that mattered.

We were just really caught up
in making this thing special.

Say
something for me Jesse.

Hello.

How are you tonight?

I'm okay. Tired.

You think you want to play
in a band for your life but

all of a sudden you're on the
road for 120 days at a time,

never going home. My mother
had a son, my little brother,

he's now thirteen years old
but in those first years of

Misery Signals
he was a little boy.

And he didn't have a dad, and so
I always had this really strong

sense of obligation
to be a dad to Liam.

How do you balance touring ten,
eleven months of the year with

trying to be this father
figure to this boy?

Alright so we just arrived
in Arkansas. At the show.

When I was nineteen
through twenty one I was really

really close with my parents,
and same with like friends when

i lived in Edmonton from when
I started touring with

Misery Signals my friend
circle in Edmonton is pretty

much down to one person now.

You know the only person that
I really talk to that lives in

Edmonton is Brandon,
our merch guy.

Maybe it just seems commonplace
cause through working

with Misery Signals I've
made so many friends that

do tour, so it seems pretty

normal, but when you really
think about it it's kind of not.

Watch out for my urine.

Huh?

Watch out for my urine.

There's a cup full
of it by your feet.

Five to ten people pile
into a van where you have to put

your gear and where you have to
sleep and where it smells awful

and you drive a thousand miles
to play a show in front of

twenty people, but you don't
care cause you're playing music

you love to people that
also hopefully love it.

You don't know where you're
gonna sleep that night maybe,

but you're probably gonna end
up on like some weirdo's floor

breathing in asbestos
or something.

But it doesn't matter.

Cause you're there with
your friends. And you're there

doing what you love, and
you're experiencing something.

My foot is ruined.
Let's go to the hospital.

Here's the normal foot.
Normal foot, fat foot.

Nothing starts out great.

You have to be willing to go
through some shit and put up

with less than ideal conditions
and if you have a lot of love

for something it's not going
to matter how shitty those

conditions are.

How'd we do
in merch buddy?

Not that good.

Horribly?

Maybe like 160 bucks.

Most of these bands
don't make a shit

ton of money doing it.

It's just kind of like all they
know at this point, right?

They started doing it when they
were young so they just keep at

at cause what else
are they gonna do?

In the lean years these guys
didn't even have a trailer, we

were touring with a van with one
of those tiny cargo things on

the top of it, and all and the
merch and personal luggage was

crammed up in there and like
amps and drums and everything

were just crammed
under the back.

So our van stopped working
a little while ago and

we're gonna get it
fixed or, hopefully... but we're

sitting in San Diego, probably
missing the show. Awesome.

It's a different world.
You're moving so much.

You play one city one night and
then you move to the next city.

You don't leave any
time for anything.

You're with this traveling
group of people and it's like

your own separate universe.

You know you guys create your
own memories together but you

don't have enough time to create
relationships necessarily with

the people that live in
the city you're playing.

When you spend that much
time with your band, those

become like your family.

Those guys for almost eight
years were like my family, the

dudes that you see every day

I feel it's partly love of
the music and partly these

guys are getting to an age
where it's like really what

else do they do?

A lot of them didn't go to
school, I was kind of lucky in

the sense I guess that before
I started touring I went to

college so I had something to
fall back on when I decided

to quit. But a lot of
these guys don't, right?

So this is what they keep doing.

You
guys seen Jesse Yet?

Nope

- No he's not here yet.
- Should be here soon.

Did he drive here separately?

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

He's doing the tour
separately, in his own car.

- What?
- Yeah.

They drove out to the
wedding from Saskatchewan and

they're driving back at least
to that point, and then maybe

hopping in the van or
possibly just driving a car

on the whole tour.
It's yet to be determined.

Hopefully he
doesn't miss any shows.

Is it pretty
packed in there?

Uh, a bunch of people are
hanging out out front, it'll

be pretty packed when we play.

Doesn't seem that crowded
but it'll probably be nuts.

# How could I
justify this #

# I can make anything alright

# But what do you know

# about sacrifice

# You are no lamb

# Any man a creep

# Any man deserving

# Any man

# A victim,

# a target

Do you know the
plate number on that guy?

I have no fucking
clue what it is.

Got a text this morning, our
van and trailer were towed.

405 right?
Yep.

Two blocks down and it
says it's good from nine to

eleven, and then on the right
next to it it says "no parking

Monday through Wednesday"
and then next to it says from

seven to eight and we didn't
see that. I already called them

they said they have it,
it's 200 for the impoundment.

Sick.

Okay straight back,
straight back.

This way a little.

Keep coming, you're
on track, keep coming.

Slow, slow, little more,
this much more, Stop!

We're okay.

It'll pop in.

That sucks cause that was
actually in there that time.

The last time it happened
I don't think we had

it on there correctly.

Well, what else
could go wrong boys?

Turn left onto
15 Avenue south east.

Then turn left onto
Macleod trail south east.

We disagreed on a lot
of things back in the day.

The specifics escape me right
now which leads me to believe

they maybe weren't as
important as we thought

they were at the time.

Being in a band is
like a marriage you know?

You all have to work together
and decide on things together

and do everything together and
it always sort of seemed like

the four of us against him.

I was just sick
of losing every vote.

Whether it was as simple as
where we are going to go eat

tonight or where we're
gonna sleep tonight.

Those guys at that point
were so like party...

it's funny, straightedge guys,
but party mode, like "we're

gonna stay at these girls' house
tonight" "we're gonna eat at

this vegan restaurant today".

I just got sick of
losing everything.

We would often refer to
Kyle and Ryan as "The Bosses",

cause they would deal with the
money and the promoters and--

I think Ryan was
the leader in that band.

I think his brother would
always just basically do

whatever Ry said back then.

And Ryan and Kyle were
childhood friends.

I was this outsider.

There's these
expectations that he would have

for other people but
sort of not for himself.

In a sense of like,
he would want...

he would expect the band
to have their strings changed

for every 2nd show, but then
then he would cut a set short,

at four songs because
he's tired. But then he would

justify that with "Oh I don't
want to do a bad performance"

He would often say that
he wanted to leave the band or

he thought that he's not
coming back after this tour.

And he would say that
over the course of a

number of different tours.

"Oh I'm gonna quit the
band if this doesn't happen"

I think he was saying
that he quit cause he wanted

someone to talk him back into
staying but it was just too hard

on us to have all these tensions
and then on top of that have him

being like "Well I'm just gonna
quit, well I'm just gonna quit".

And eventually one of the
times that he said that I put

my foot down and said
"Okay, don't come back."

Milwaukee.

That's the guy's hometown.

You know, we spent
a lot of time there.

The last time we played there,
with Madball, I was on a

payphone outside and these
kids came up and they banged

on the phone booth.

So I get off the phone and I
came out and they said well we

heard that Shawn Page is taking
your spot in Misery Signals.

He's trying out next
week, after the tour.

And I was just so taken aback,
like, "What, what do you mean?"

# Awaken and destroy

# these dreams

We'd been fighting lots,
but, no from my understanding

I'm gonna be the
singer in Misery Signals.

And I didn't say anything to
Ryan, I played that show.

But from that point
on it was crumbling.

It was obvious that they
were seeking to replace me.

We did have other
options in mind or other

scenarios at least
in our subconscious.

I don't think we had acted on
them until he left the band but,

the end was in sight with
Jesse before he left.

We should have
just talked about things.

We should have just all aired
our grievances and hopefully

worked through things but
instead I just went back to my

bunk I was like "Screw you guys
you bastards" kind of thing.

I just stayed in my
own little place.

The last time I was
here, was one of the last shows

I ever played with
Misery Signals.

We played in the smaller
room with Madball.

It's a little bit
different than this.

So thank you so much for making
this so special tonight.

Thanks for making this
old guy feel cool.

And then we head south,

the next show in my head that
I remember is Dallas Texas,

that was the
last show we played.

Stage left
check check check. Hey!

Hang
on just a second.

Let's get that vocal again.

Whoa-oooo.

1 - 2 - 3 hey.

Played here a couple of
times early on with the band.

Hey check, that's good.

Oh dude, it's
exactly the same.

It's kind of smaller than I
remember, but this is exactly

how it was set up. But this
was the last place that we

played with Jesse on his
original run in the band.

So weird.

So the room where we're actually
playing tonight is where me and

Ryan went and talked after we
played here and kinda got in an

argument and that
was kind of the end.

I don't remember what
tensions were what exactly cause

there was no singular event that
ended Jesse's stay in the band

it was building tension for a
number of months if not years so

I don't think anything
specifically awful happened when

we were in Dallas the last time
but it came to a head between

the night that we played
here and the next show.

Everyone in the band was in
agreement with me from my

understanding, but I was the one
that was kinda just had had it

enough that I needed to talk
about it right then and there.

We had had
this talk before.

And we knew if we didn't stand
our ground and go through with

what we wanted to do that it
would just go back to how it was

and it would never happen.

We got to the show, we had
set up our gear on stage and

we were opening the show.

And I'm saying to the guys "What
is the point of loading in?

He is not going to do this show
after you guys tell him this

isn't gonna be a thing anymore."

They just basically
said in the van that day

'We're done. We're gonna get
you a flight home. Tonight."

And I started crying and
basically begging them

"No no no. We need to talk this
out. We need to talk this out."

It was one of the most fucking
awkward things of my life.

They told him, obviously he's
not gonna go through with the

show, so we had to go back in,
take all the gear off stage.

I was actually filling in as
tour manager at the time so I

had to like kind of explain to
the tour manager of Madball

"Look, this is what's going on.
We're dropping off the tour

cause this might not
be a band anymore."

Even though I'm sure he
could sense unhappiness in the

camp he never saw it coming.
Like he never even thought that

it would actually
come down to that.

You know, it hit
him pretty hard.

I think we tried to
settle it where we were gonna

finish out the tour, there was
like 4 or 5 days left but once

it kinda dawned on Jesse that he
wasn't gonna come back for real,

he didn't want to
do those shows.

So we had to book him a flight
home but we couldn't get

anything affordable right then
and there out of Oklahoma City.

So we drove to St Louis,
a number of hours away,

all just sitting in the van.

It was kinda similar to
when you break up with someone

and you're just kinda talking
through it with them.

"Why are you doing this?

Why are you guys
doing this to me?

I really want to do the
next record with you guys.

I want to finish the tour.
I want to still be in the band."

Jesse kept trying to
get me to stop so he could get

some alcohol and that was weird
too, cause he never drank, I

never really know him to drink.

After having something
taken away from you, to spend

the next six hours with the
people that took it from you,

I can't imagine the shit that
was going through his head.

Had to be pretty
difficult to endure.

Jesse I think took it
probably the hardest from Stu,

because Jesse you know he knew
Stu growing up through the

Edmonton scene and those bands,
and he was kinda the one that

got Stu into the band.

So you know to have Stu siding
with the other guys when it was

time for him to leave, I think
that really affected their

friendship and there was a lot
of tension in that drive just

between the two of them.
Maybe more so than anyone else.

There was this
expectation of loyalty that

I was supposed to have to
him. Like, if he was getting

kicked out of the band that I
should go with him. Fuck that.

You created a toxic environment
that nobody wanted you to be

involved in the band
anymore, it's not my fault.

They drove me to the airport,
and I remember them getting

out of the van and
waiting in line to hug me,

all four of them.

I just got out of the van
and walked into the airport.

And I didn't see them again
for about three years.

I think I was maybe the only
one that got out to say bye to

him. I just gave him a hug and
got back in the van and fuckin

huddled myself up under this
blanket and just started crying

cause I was just...

more than anything I think
I was just upset for him,

to see that something he had
built and created to cope with

his loss, he was just
kind of being ripped from.

It was a meeting of
frustrations and stubbornness

from both sides.

We were young and eager
to continue on and we wanted to

have a happy environment while
we were touring, we were doing

it so much at that point, so
we just pulled the trigger.

There was no working
through it at that point.

They didn't want to hear it.

And I can't...

I don't know if I can
blame them, you know?

It hurt, you know,
it still hurts.

It hurts that those three guys
that I created this band with-

would go behind my
back and do that.

It hurt even more that
Stuart would be party to it

and not say anything to me.

He wrote me
some fucking emails.

Some very very very aggressive

threatening emails. Like...

"If you come back to
Canada you're gonna get your

ass kicked"
or whatever or

"I'm gonna send
guys out to hurt you".

So we were...

you know he's friends
with some serious dudes.

I think I can speak for
everyone else in the band

when I say we were
legitimately afraid

that something was
gonna happen to us.

We were really bad
to each other at times.

The focus was always art,
art, art at all costs.

And we created fantastic art,
but it nearly destroyed me.

It put me in the worst
spot I was ever in.

I come home.
Girlfriend was gone.

Misery Signals was gone.

All of a sudden everybody that I
had aligned myself with in life

for four or five years was gone.

They were all gone.

Let's start
this thing off right.

We are Misery Signals
from Wisconsin.

Let's have some fun.

I think
it hurt them too.

We were on such a
climb at that point.

Misery Signals was doing
so, so well, right?

And it was like every tour
was better, better, better...

and then they kick me out,

and it took them a while I
think, four or five years later,

where maybe they were
firing on all cylinders again.

It's hard. It's a
speed-bump for sure to change singers.

Our second record was
somewhat of a sophomore slump.

But I don't know, it might
have just been the same if

Jesse was in the band too.

I think for me it was
important to try and prove

that we could still do it.

Jesse had left and that record
was starting to be celebrated

and it's like, well, I'm gonna
be stubborn and I want to make

something that's as good,
and I don't need him.

Jesse is a very
passionate person and he had

some traumatic things
happen in his life.

And Misery Signals
was his outlet.

Personally I don't think
that he ever took the time to

deal with the accident.

He's got this fucking huge
weight on his shoulders that I

don't think he ever
really spoke about.

Or even digested and
dealt with, you know?

He helped make
this band what it is.

And I think a lot of that is
evident in this anniversary tour

because I haven't seen
Misery Signals shows this

crazy in years.
And when you see Jesse on

stage he really feels
every word that he's yelling.

And don't get me wrong, fans
relate to Karl too and the band

is still obviously successful,
but who knows what could have

been if he would have, you know,
not been ousted from the band.

In "Summary and Stinging
Rain" at Braden's place,

that's all I remember.

Yeah, we've
spent a lot of time here.

It's where we did a good portion
of the writing for "Malice".

This is for surely
where I first heard

"Worlds and Dreams"
was downstairs.

"End riff to Five Years" too.
The very final.

Morgan said "C'mere!
C'mere! C'mere!"

and I went downstairs and
he said "Check this out."

Yeah "Victim" was here for
sure, I remember my guitar amp

was under the steps, and it was
so bass-y, so every time we

played the intro it was
like "this is sick!"

cause it was so big sounding.

I remember Jesse-- we
would be down here and Jesse's

on his desk right at the top
of the stairs writing lyrics--

Yeah for sure.

That's the basement here?

I don't remember the insulation
like that, it's weird.

It's still exposed,
it drives Jesse crazy.

Jesse won't go down there.

No.

Is that Stars?

No this is
Dinnwoody Lounge.

You guys were still 7 Angels.
It wasn't even Misery Signals.

It was 7 Angels 7 Plagues
featuring Jesse Zaraska.

Featuring Jesse Zaraska.

Yeah it was featuring.

Damn we were fucking
fully traveling with a car-top

carrier and no trailer.

Do you guys remember
if this was a release party?

Yeah I believe
it would have been.

It was at Megatunes on
Whyte avenue and it might have

been the release of "Malice"

The first Misery Signals
show in Edmonton, if I can

remember this correctly.

So, this is fuckin insane
actually, this story is amazing.

We used to cross into
Canada to play and not have any

of the proper documentation
or work permits.

So we would always have like
back stories, like split up and

go separate ways.

When we left for that
tour Ryan had a record so he

couldn't get across the border.

I went to get
an ID as my brother.

So I went to the DMV
and had his passport like

"Oh I lost my driver's license,
I need to get a new one."

And so it was going
to be a picture of me.

Even though we look
exactly the same.

I don't know why I was trying
to go this far cause it's

super brutally criminal thing
to do. Got all the paperwork

filled out and was
sitting in the waiting area.

And there was like 7 other
people there and they called

them up, each one, and got their
pictures taken and sent them

off, and I was the
last one sitting there.

And I started freaking out
because it was taking longer to

do mine and I was like "Oh shit,
the cops are just gonna come in

here and take me away".

And then eventually they call
me up after what seemed like 3

hours, you know it was probably
10 minutes, but they called me

up and they just handed me the
driver's license like 'Oh we

just have your file picture,
it's less than 6 months old so

it's just the same picture".

So myself, Branden
and Kyle drove in my car.

Jesse and Ryan took the van.

And Ryan got out and
got on a Greyhound.

Somewhere in like
Montana or something.

So Branden Morgan was
crossing in a van over here

and Branden Morgan was
crossing in a bus over here

in different provinces.

It was fine cause wasn't the
border crossing like some little

shack or something, and this
dude was just like "Alright."

The theory was that once
Ryan was through, the real

Branden Morgan was with us,
so there was no disputing it.

So we're like on payphones.
Like get across the border and

we're like "Yeah we did it,
we're through" and then we find

out that Jesse, because he was
Canadian and he was trying to

bring an American vehicle into
the country, they impounded the

vehicle and like held
him at the border.

You got stuck at the border,
they impounded the van and

then we had to use...

They taped
me to a chair.

No they handcuffed
me to a duct-taped chair.

And left me sitting
there for about an hour.

So we picked you up just walking
down the highway too, right?

So they impounded it.

They held him for a while
at the border. And then

they just said "Okay you can go"
and they sent him walking.

Like he just walked into Canada
from the border and we had to

drive like... we were getting
so close to Edmonton too,

I was psyched,
like we were almost home.

And we had to like detour
and go pick him up.

On like the side of the highway.
He just called and he's like

"I'll be walking
down this highway".

We're like "Okay man like we're
just gonna head towards you."

We were like hours away,
like driving down this highway

until we found him.

It was probably the most
stressful thing about the band

at that time was trying
to cross the border.

With members being
Canadian and American it was

just this constant thing of back
and forth, back and forth right?

We would literally pull apart
guitar cabs, take the back

panel off and stuff as many
shirts and hoodies into it as we

could and then screw
the back back on.

Like the cabs weighed like
80 pounds. It was so obvious.

Which is so ridiculous
cause if you had a guy, a border

guard who has any small
knowledge of musical equipment,

the minute that he would move
that cab he would be like

"This is full of drugs".

100 percent.

Stop.

You can just straighten
out a tiny little bit.

This is my hometown show.

This is the club where I first
went and saw punk rock bands

when I was 13, 14, 15 years old.

Starlite Room was sort of the
bigger club, you know it was

sort of where I hoped
we would one day get to.

Misery Signals really had good
shows here back in the day and

it's a special place.

We're gonna
actually strike the guitars.

2 2 1 2. Check.

When Misery Signals
started and Jesse being from the

city and going to the States and
joining this band it was a big

deal within the scene.

Especially when
"Malice" came out.

I feel like we were more of a
local band to Edmonton than we

were to Milwaukee you know?

It was really special
for people here, this small

Canadian city to say "Holy...

Stu Ross and Jesse are doing
something' you know. They're

having success playing in this
fairly big American band."

You know, we were just
like this champion of the

fuckin' scene for a minute.

A couple of guys from our home
town have joined this American

band and they're like touring.

And that's why I think this
show, especially tonight, it's

gonna be like ten years ago.

We're getting
pretty close to sold out.

Look at the bins.

Even thought it was a small
Canadian city, we always

had such great shows here.

I think Misery Signals and
Compromise and 7 Angels, those

bands have been very
important to this scene.

It was a special place for us
and I think we were a special

band for a lot of
the people here.

# Even though
I watched us fall, #

# fall away.

# With determination
we all carry on, #

# and with determination

# we all must live on.

# We've all learned
things from those days, #

# I know that
we all have grown, #

# even I now feel a calm

# like I have never known.

# like I have never known.

Thank you
so much Edmonton!

It's absolutely
wonderful to be home.

When Compromise
started there was no scene.

There was a heavy metal scene
here, there was a punk rock

scene, there was no
such thing as hardcore.

In our community,
they were pretty fresh.

Like there wasn't really anyone
else that sounded like them.

Like they were kinda the
first ones to do that sort

of thing in our scene.

It was a big deal that
they were taking steps and

trying to tour and like get
down to the States and they

wanted to like be a
full time touring band.

It was a big send off
when they were going to move to

Toronto when they went on that
tour with 7 Angels 7 Plagues.

That too was just like crazy,
cause all of us really looked up

to 7 Angels 7 Plagues.

So for them to be doing this
tour with them was just nuts.

Many moons ago, some
of these fellas took part in

writing what is one
of my favorite records...

Check 2, hey hello what's new?

...it's called Jhazmyne's
Lullaby by 7 Angels 7 Plagues.

Jhazmyne's Lullaby
was such a huge deal.

I remember always
listening to that record so so

much every day, that's all that
was in the van. Anytime we went

and played shows in Calgary,
anytime we went anywhere.

Is this 7 Angels?

Dan would call home
from the road and we would just

be asking him questions
about the band and stuff.

We were just so psyched on it
like for them to be touring

with was just amazing.

We're 7 Angels
7 Plagues from Milwaukee.

It was awesome meeting
those guys and getting to know

them a little bit.

Nine times out of ten
you don't really care about the

local bands or the bands that
open for you, but we liked

Compromise and
thought they were cool,

and I watched them
a number of times.

Thank you guys.

We came a long way
to be here tonight.

We're from Edmonton,
Alberta, Canada.

We were getting paid
nothing, you know it was like,

young Canadian band, we got
these odd-- it wasn't like some

amazing west coast or east coast
tour, it was like midwest and

into Alabama and stuff like this
and it was a long way for us to

go for shows where we were not
basically getting paid, maybe I

don't even know I can't even
remember we probably got paid a

hundred bucks a show or
something like that.

But Jordan was just like 'I got
us on these 7 Angels 7 Plagues

shows' and he was so so
happy to get on that tour.

They had done a couple
tours out to the east coast and

a few times in the States but I
had never played music in the

States before myself,
that was great.

We were just starting out so
everything was still fresh and

innocent we hit the road, we
had a tour, it was big, we were

young kids that just couldn't
imagine doing anything more fun.

Slow down slow down.

The plan was to do
about four weeks and then we

were gonna come to Toronto and
just try to make more waves

out on the east coast.

We were really looking forward
to those shows with 7 Angels.

The whole trip hinged upon
getting across the border.

Border crossings were
always a really serious deal for

Jordo and Jesse but I remember
we got across and everything

was cool. We went into the gas
station and Jordo just walked up

to me and punched me in the back
and just started laughing.

And I remember just-

just the sheer joy in
his face and in the punch

it was just like it wasn't...

he was so happy that
he was going to get to...

7 Angels was Jordan's Metallica,
the gods of gods to him.

It's funny now
thinking how much of a pedestal

we put those guys on and
looked up to them now that

we're all just buds.

But it would be like playing
with Bruce Springsteen or

something, I mean, they were our
heroes and they were nice people

that were really genuine and
welcoming and were nice to us

and they lived up to
everything that we thought.

We met those guys
initially in Warsaw, Indiana.

My old band the Pressure Point,
we were all on tour together.

But that show ended up
getting shut down before we got

a chance to play. So then
we moved it down the road.

And it was cool cause like
this hall show and it got

shut down and then it
moved to this barn.

And then they just set up in a
fucking barn and there was like

a giant tractor behind them
and they were just rippin' in

front of this tractor.

There is a line in
"The Year Summer Ended in June"

about that night in Detroit.

And that was kind of like when
we said goodbye to Compromise

cause they were planning to
move out east after that tour.

Knowing now what happened and
everything, those goodbyes were

so emotional at the time it was
super overwhelming as it was.

We were just saying goodbye for
a few months, like they were

gonna be coming back through
town in September, and this

would have been June.

This might sound far-fetched but
I can like still even feel the

hug that I had with Jordan.

We are at some sort
of gas station right now and we

noticed something a
little weird about it.

Compromise continued
on with us and played a

few more shows. They
were super nice kids and

we were stoked to be on tour
with them at that point.

They took a
liking to Jordo and they took

a liking to the band.

We just bonded.

There was this camaraderie
that was starting to develop

and we'd only been with those
guys six days or something.

Right here.

I remember the last
date that we played with them

was in Birmingham, Alabama.

Thank you,
we're Compromise.

It was so good, we were
accepted by this band that we

looked up to so much, and went
out and had this wonderful

dinner with them and
everything was going very well.

Everything was going so so well.

We didn't even have a show
in Savannah, we were just all

talking and they were
like "Let's go tonight,

we'll get you on the show,
don't worry about it."

"Just come with us and we'll
put you guys on the rest of the

shows, and if they say you guys
can't play then we won't play"

It was the most validating
experience, they were going to

bat for us even though they'd
only known us for a few days.

The plan was for
them to caravan with us.

We drove a few hours with them
and eventually they fell behind.

Arriving in Savannah,
we were at this house where the

show was supposed to be and
Compromise still hadn't shown up

and it started to
become a concern.

Compromise was carrying
so much shit with them cause

they were moving.

And they just had this fucking
shitty van that they had like

ram-packed with all their gear,
all their personal belongings,

all this shit just ram jammed
into like one fuckin' van.

So it was super heavy
and shitty as it was.

And our van just couldn't keep
up, they had brand new vans,

you know like those ones
and we had an old school van.

We just couldn't keep
up and then it...

and then stuff happened.

We were always worried
our van was gonna die so we

drove slower than everybody else
and they got in front of us.

And at that point I think we
were all sleeping except for

Jesse who was driving.

I remember we all filled
up with gas and that was...

I mean that's the last memory
I personally have up until

like a month or two later.

It's been a
difficult day for fans of

Edmonton's hardcore music
scene and the families of two

up-and-coming musicians
killed in a highway crash.

Trevadore Shanko has the
latest on that tragedy.

This is Compromise
performing recently on stage.

The Edmonton band's tour came
to a crashing halt Thursday

on the road in Alabama.

I fought with them so
much cause they were leaving for

six months and I didn't want
them to leave and, you know,

six months would have been a
lot better than forever.

Claire Wyrostock's close
friend is 19-year-old

Jordan Wodehouse.

He gave her these pictures of
himself shortly before he and

the other four members of
Compromise headed out on tour.

Early thursday morning outside
of Heflin Alabama, the band's

van was struck from behind by a
Nissan Pathfinder. The van lost

control and hit a tree throwing
everyone from the vehicle.

Wodehouse and 20-year-old
Daniel Langois were killed.

19-year-old bassist Braden
Sustrik remains in intensive

care with a punctured lung
and fractured vertebrae.

23-year-old singer Jesse Zaraska
received cuts and bruises.

And 20-year-old drummer Ryan
Kittlitz broke his left wrist

and right leg.

Yeah here we are.
This is after the accident,

and this would be Braden
in the hospital, Jesse who

stayed with them while
they recovered in Alabama.

This is I guess a
picture where it happened.

I never went down the
because I couldn't stomach it.

I get this phone call from the
officials down in Alabama saying

that there had been an accident
and that there had been some

fatalities and they
couldn't tell me who.

I think instinctively I knew
that Jesse was okay, but knowing

those boys as well as I knew
all those boys it was sick no

matter how. They got rear ended
by a drunk driver who pushed

them into this grove of trees
somehow and snapped the van

pretty much in half.

Junior went out the front
window, Braden went out the

front window, Jesse went out the
windshield and somehow cause

he's like fucking Iron Man,
didn't have like a fuckin,

I think he broke a rib or
something you know like...

and so he went back to the van
and he just like ran around

and found everybody.

First he found Junior,
he was awake so he picked him up

and went to look for
everyone else. But Junior

had broken his leg and
didn't know it so as soon as he

went to walk he just fell over
in pain and he was screaming.

"Jesse hang out with me"
and Jesse said

"Man I gotta find
everyone else first".

So then he looked and he saw
me next and I was laying down

and I was breathing
but I wasn't conscious.

He said it seemed like I was
alright so he left me be for a

bit and went looking and he
said at that point he saw a

semi-truck had pulled over on
the side of the highway and the

driver had got out and was
walking towards him so he

ran over. And the guy said
"I radioed for an ambulance,

they're on their way.
And I think your friend is up

there on the road and
I think he's been run over."

Jesse was just like "What
the fuck are you doing then?

Coward, what the fuck
is wrong with you?"

and had to run down the
road and pick Dan up.

I guess like we found out
later that he'd fallen out

the back window of
the van when we got hit,

or like the back door opened
and he fell out and then he

got run over by
the car that hit us.

So Jesse picked him up and like
carried him off to the edge of

the road and held him.

He said he was alive but he
was in pretty rough shape and he

didn't know what to do, but he
didn't know where Jordan was.

So he kinda set Dan down and
told him he'd be back and he ran

back down and he looked around
and the last place he went to

look was the van.

I found him.

I pulled all
that fuckin weight off him

and pulled him out of
that stupid fucking van.

And he looked untouched.

He wasn't bloody,
he wasn't messed up.

He was fine.

I thought he's okay, he's just
knocked out or something.

And the paramedics
got there pretty soon.

The woman came down and I
showed them where he was.

And she just said "He's gone.
He's gone."

It was a fucking horrible night.

As messed up as I was,
I wouldn't trade that for having

to be Jesse or deal with that
night and have that memory.

I don't know how
he got past that.

I remember I
was at my parent's house

at the time in the
middle of the night.

I just got a phone call that
there had been this accident.

They didn't really know
for sure yet what happened.

I was just running around my
house literally screaming.

Like just I didn't know
what the hell to do.

Still in shock like hoping
that it wasn't true.

We saw something
on a message board that was

kind of cryptic, and it was
about those guys and honoring

them and their memory
living on and stuff, and we

didn't really understand
what they were talking about.

Our band email had an email
I believe from Jordan's parents.

It wasn't really informing us
what happened as much as it was

them expressing to us how
much our band meant to them.

And um ...
excuse me...

how much they appreciated the
fact that their children got

to spend their
last moments doing--

spend their last moments

doing what they love to
do with their favorite band.

When I first heard about it,
I think Dan was still alive

and there was a chance
that he was going to live,

but yeah he was just
so fucked up like...

I mean the shit Jesse's told me,

I don't even want to talk
about cause it's super...

it's really graphic,
and it's fucking sad.

but...

It's fucking brutal, man.

They were two of my
best friends at the time, and

I just really looked forward
to a future getting to know

those guys. It's taken too
short, they were both only

19 years old, like, looking
back we were just babies.

It's fucking tragedy.

I try not to talk about
it unless Jesse wants to talk

about it. Some of the mothers,
like the two mothers who lost

their children, had the report -
the accident report, said

"Here you want to read it you
want to read what happened?"

and I was like "No I don't
wanna read what happened."

I can't imagine my child in the
dark with his friends around him

not with him anymore and Braden
and Junior not being able

to move, not being able to do
anything and Jesse being lost in

the dark wondering what to do.

And it just it still still still
kills me every time I think

about it, let alone sitting and
reading about somebody having to

go through that sort of thing.

So whenever Jesse talks about
it we talk about it but I don't

want the details I don't
want to know the details.

And when you listen to him sing
'The Year Summer Ended In June'

you know how he feels about it.
There's no doubt in your mind

how he feels about what
happened and that dark night.

After that tour ended that
was when Temo quit the band.

When I came home and found
out that Temo had left. As hurt

as I was from the crash, I knew
that that's what I had to do.

I said "Hey this is Jesse,
singer of Compromise, I'm more

than willing to come down
there and try out any time."

It felt like the right
thing to do, it felt like

something had
brought us together.

I think he looked at it as an
opportunity to carry on their

legacy through the band that
they love and the band that

they ended their life with.

So Jesse met up with us in
the States and came back to

Milwaukee to be the new
singer of 7 Angels 7 Plagues.

We continued to write and
rehearse for an EP that we were

working on, and we ended up in
the studio not long after that.

And that's when Jared gave
us a call to inform us that

Matt and himself were going
to be quitting the band.

There was never a point
where we weren't gonna continue

on, it was like "He quit,
okay, screw it whatever.

We're just gonna
continue on", and we did.

But at that point we had
already planned to do this

'Yesterday Was Everything'
festival.

Jordan's father thought it
was a great idea to, only a few

months after the crash, raise
awareness for drunk driving,

to celebrate his son you know.
It was an amazing idea.

And he put it together so quick.

And the city just really
really latched on to the idea.

And 7 Angels were
supposed to play, and it was

such a big fucking deal man.

Like it was the craziest shit
that they were gonna come up and

play this show and that
Jesse was gonna be singing.

Like it was like "Holy shit!

This is crazy," you know?

It was planned, we were
gonna do it and then all of

a sudden Jared just says
"I'm not gonna do it." You know.

And I'm so bummed I phoned
him and you know, begged him,

"You gotta come, you don't
know what this show is gonna

do it's gonna be healing.

It's gonna heal people.
People need us there to play

those songs,
it means the world to people."

At least come up and do this
last run of shows and then

we'll all call it quits.

But they refused.

I think at that time we had
never made a trip like that.

Like Edmonton was a place that
we had never really probably

heard of before
meeting these guys.

And it was you know a 30
hour drive from Milwaukee.

So I feel like that was just
something that was too much for

them to wrap their heads around.

Kind of spineless and a
bitch move to bail out when

there's that many people like...

it sounds like weird, but
when there's that many people

depending on you.
Because they were.

Like everybody needed like to be
consoled in a way and that show

was like a way that that was
going to happen, you know?

And luckily
Branden just stepped up.

He learned the songs
very well, very quickly.

The first time I went to
Edmonton Braden was still in

a back brace and
Junior was on crutches.

It was so soon after that the
surviving members from the crash

were still recuperating.

We roll into town and we
just have this like aura around

us automatically, just based on
who we are and our involvement

with their friends who passed
away, you know, weeks earlier.

We just immediately were
taken in like we were a

part of the family.
I just never experienced

love like that from
people I'd never met.

Yeah I mean that
band was like a...

you know they were like the flag
for healing in a weird way.

And that festival was an
extremely special time for

Jordan's family, for my family,
for Braden's family,

for all of us Compromise guys.

Just to get together and
you know, pay respects to

Dan and Jordan. You know
they gave their lives for

that music so to be able
to put on a fest where

everyone could get
together and remember them.

I didn't get to go to
either one of the funerals,

so for me on a personal level,
it was kind of like a

celebration of what
had happened, but then

kind of a celebration of the
future. I mean Jesse came back

with his new band, and there was
a lot of optimism. You know,

this really sad thing, but we
were trying to move forward.

We're 7 Angels 7 Plagues
from Milwaukee Wisconsin.

Let's have some fun.

# With plastic face designs

The fact that we were
a four-piece didn't matter.

We weren't 7 Angels in it's
original inception, but the

crowd and the emotion
behind it drove the show.

I remember being on stage, and
looking over side-stage and

seeing Stuart side-stage just
in tears while we were playing.

This is what it all was leading
up to, and we were finally here

honoring the memory
of these kids.

I thank you all,
every one of you.

Jordan thanks you all, he's
smiling big time no doubt.

I wanna know that you'll
all be here next year.

Cause you know what?

As long as I'm Jordan's dad,
this is gonna happen every year.

Yeah, through
Yesterday Was Everything Fest,

and even the formation of Misery
Signals, everything is...

not closure, but it's,
you know,

helped us all cope
with it in some way.

Good, you? What did you guys
end up doing last night?

Not much, we got out
of the club pretty late.

Oh fuck. This is crazy.

JFK, what the fuck
are you doing to me man?

What is this?
This is a joke right,

we're getting punked right
now, right? What the fuck?

We had already
decided that we were going to

break up 7 Angels
and start a new project.

So Jeff like came out,
and was in the band, they wrote

that EP, and recorded it,
and they just hit the road.

I feel like it happened in no
time, because they were in

Edmonton doing that shit in
June, and I feel like they were

on tour for the Misery Signals
EP by October or something.

It happened super fast.

And then luckily for
me Jeff quit the band.

For Misery Signals to put
out that first EP where a

lot of it dealt
with that accident,

that was a pretty major thing.

The song "The Year Summer Ended
in June" is probably one of the

most personal and touching songs
I've ever heard, because it's

written about our friends and
what we all went through.

When you're a band that
makes songs, no matter how

personal they are, once you put
em out there and they become

special to other people
for their own reasons,

they cease to be just personal.

They're still personal songs,
and they can still mean that to

you, but they mean so many
things to so many other people

that the life of the
song is beyond just

your experience with it.

I didn't necessarily write the
riffs and have that in mind, but

I know it had a feel to it, and
a texture that was definitely

drawn from the environment
that we were in emotionally

at the time. But the time
that it took it's true

form is when Jesse
wrote the lyrics.

We want to call to the
stage, our good friend,

our brother Mr. Ryan
"Junior" Kittlitz to the

play the next song with us.

This next song is likely the
most important song that we

wrote, or at least that I
wrote I feel, on this record.

This song is called The
Year Summer Ended in June.

Who knows what turn their
lives could have taken, but at

the time, all those dudes wanted
to do was tour and play music.

...and how you're
always with me.

In a weird, sad way,
without the accident happening,

and without Jordan and Dan
passing away, I don't know if I

would ever have played
guitar for Misery Signals,

or done all the touring, met
all the people that I've met.

I wouldn't have met my wife.

It changed my life.

It literally changed
the course of my life.

I feel so selfish saying it, but
without the accident happening,

all the good things in
my life might not exist.

Compromise asked me
to go on tour with them,

on that tour that the
accident happened.

Weird to think back on, had I
gone on that tour, I would have

been in that accident too, and
who knows if I would have still

been here right now.

Shit y'know, the same
thing could happen to us,

there could be another accident,
and I might not be here.

It's one of those things that's
always on your mind that it

could happen to you.

You hear that?

We will finish
earlier than planned.

9:35 to 10:30 for us roughly.

So we could be out of here by
midnight and still get a decent

amount of sleep before we have
to get up. We have nowhere set

to go in Minneapolis,
so we'll be there all day.

We could even leave at six,
if we wanted to be safe.

Jesse's car broke down.

They are four and a half hours
away, which is an hour later

than we're supposed to play.

We don't want to leave
an hour between Waster and us

with the kids waiting.
So we should realistically

try and plan for a 10:30
stage time, maybe even 11:00.

Which sucks for a Monday night.

Wanna know what I really think
happened? They probably just

left their house super late,
that's what I think.

They stayed at
their own house.

These are the new times.

Doors at 7:15, we'll just
push the opener back to 8:15,

to 8:45, and then 20
minute changeover for them,

with a half hour set, give
us a half hour changeover,

that puts us on at 10:00.

And we can stall from
there if we have to?

I was
thinking about this,

we can't really go past 10:45.
10:30 is usually where we cut

it on weekdays, so fifteen
minutes late as it is.

We just had a situation.

Our singer is traveling
separately, and had car trouble.

So he's actually roughly
four hours away still.

- Really?
- Yeah

Oh my god.

We could get on by
10:00 at the earliest.

Okay.

So, is there a curfew,
is the curfew 11:00?

- Yeah, yeah it is.
- Okay.

So I guess the best that
we could hope for is, if he

arrives before 10:00 then we'll
go on as soon as he gets here.

Are we sure he's not
exaggerating like "oh dude I'll

be there at 10:00, no problem."

He said he's four hours
away about 45 minutes ago, and

it's 6:23 right now so...

I'm just gonna have him keep
me updated as time goes on.

I don't know what
else we can do really.

If we have to
play half the album

and that's it,
then so be it.

If he goes past 10:00
O'clock we're cutting songs,

and cutting time
off the set, so-

And cutting songs from
a set of nine shows for

a ten-year anniversary
of a record.

Right.

It's not just like a
regular show, y'know?

Right, it's not like
we'll be back in two months.

Out of ten shows, it was
bound to happen that their car

would break down at some point.

So it's just no surprise.

I mean there's shit back
in the day where like,

we'd be on stage, ready to play.

And the tour manager from the
other band would be like "Start!

You guys are fuckin five
minutes over already, start!"

And we'd just start without him.

...your name, the band, and

"You're listening
to Radioactive Metal."

Can I just get you to say that.

Okay.

You ready for it? Whenever?

Yup, whenever.

Hey what's up, this is
Ryan from Misery Signals and

you're listening to
Radioactive Metal.

Excellent.

So the band
before you is going on now?

Yes

We've dealt with this
shit with Jesse forever.

We've known about all
these things. Whatever.

My goal from the start was just
to try and get this thing to

actually happen, and I knew that
there would be some sacrifices

because Jesse is just
out of his mind in ways.

I couldn't do this with
Jesse on a regular basis.

Nobody would want to deal
with the stress that comes

along with it. Doing it like
this, ten shows, it's great.

It's fun.

The bullshit doesn't really have
a negative impact on me at all.

I know that it's not my
life anymore, that it's just

a one-time thing.
And when we finish the tour on

the 23rd in Toronto, that's
that, y'know, it's over.

We've got a line check,
so you've got a minute...

- Is there a bathroom down here?
- Yeah there's two there.

It's 9:57

Good evening Winnipeg.

We're running a little
behind today, so we're just

going to line check B-Ball's
drums and get the support bands

up. Doors are at six and it's
twenty after five right now.

Had a little hang up at the
border, probably could have left

a little earlier this morning,
but y'know, these things happen.

This is the way of the road man.

Last night was the first kind
of, taste of reality I guess.

The reality that not all the
shows are going to go as

perfect as the other ones.

I'm glad last
night was kinda how it was.

Sort of a good reality
check for the band.

It was a little slower.

It was kind of a
dip in the energy.

By any other standards,
it was great. It was just

juxtaposed with some shows
that were totally off the hook.

I think it's just healthy for
everyone's mindset to have a

show like that every
once in awhile.

Especially in this situation,
because if the whole tour was so

sick all the way through, it
might be one of those things

like "oh dude, we gotta get the
band back together and do it

like this all the time" or
something. But it wouldn't be

like this all the time unless
it wasn't a special thing.

It's a cool note to end a
chapter on, to do a bunch of

really cool shows that are
really well attended and

people are going crazy.

But it's also gotta have a
dose of reality in it because,

it's over after this, y'know?

I have mixed feelings about
touring after doing it for so

long and after having the
life that I have now with

home and family.
I miss lots about it.

Never tiring of a place because
you're in a new spot all

the time. You're out there doing
it, you have one goal a day,

and that's get to the show,
get everything set up and

do the show. And
that's very singular.

And outside of that you just
wander and do what you want,

and look for your own fun,
and your own relaxation.

That's awesome because things
are complicated when you're at

home, and it's not as focused,
and you have to micro-manage all

these decisions and build
something to work towards.

It's hard for me sometimes to
manufacture those things when

I'm used to just focusing
on the band and the show.

Going in there and getting it
done, and as soon as you take

your amp of stage, that goal
is done, it's checked off.

Let's go to the next
city and do it again.

The flip side of that coin of
course is that I have to be

away from my family.

I have to be away from my
home like that I'm working on

building up, and it's
harder and harder to do.

In a way this is a throwback
to all the great shows

we did over the years, and even
the smaller, fun shows we did

back when Jesse was in the
band and we were doing

the "Malice" songs
on that record.

But i a way I've done
all these shows before.

If I were doing it just as
something I was still doing,

I think it would make me sad.

# It was the last time

# We lost a fight without you

# And finally now

10010 is the ZIP.

Got it.

Calculating route.

Two and a half hours,
plus traffic.

Yeah their van
broke down about 4:00 AM

last night in Cleveland.

Yeah, brutal.

Especially since they
were only on four shows.

This is probably
gonna be the best one.

So do you want to
keep on schedule,

or do you want to move it up?

So our set time will probably
be the same regardless.

It's been
a lot of stuff man.

I mean, I'm kind of getting to
the point where I'm thinking a

lot about home and just
reacclimating to real life.

There's kind of a lot of stuff
hanging over my head back home

that I have to deal with.

It's been convenient to have a
tour to just escape from it and

not really think about it.

The whole thing has
been this constant roller

coaster of happy sad, y'know.

I think this whole thing has
been positive overall, but it's

mixed at times and it's been
crazy delving into the past.

It all happened.

The story is heavy, and I think
that the lyrics are heavy, and

why has this been so successful?
It's because people experience

heavy things in life and
they relate to those lyrics.

I don't think we could do this
without, at times, touching on

heavy things and getting sad,
getting mad,

whatever the case may be.

That record is sad, and it is
mad, but it's about catharsis.

It's about getting past all that
garbage, you know what I mean?

I think that's what those songs
have done for kids, that's what

that record did for me.
As dark as it is, it's not all

"oh I hate life, this sucks,"
you know what I mean?

It's like "this is bad, but
we're working through it."

We gotta get an O.G.
Misery Signals lineup picture.

Would I
do something more?

At the beginning of this,
I would have said no way.

But I cannot deny
what has happened.

I cannot deny what I see in
the kids' faces every night.

I cannot deny the
things they say to me.

We created fantastic
art together.

And--

I don't want it to end.

I don't want it to be over now.

I don't know what that means, I
don't know what that looks like,

I don't know what-
how we proceed.

But if Karl leaves, or if we
can extend this in any way,

I'm willing.

It's been sort of a long
time coming with Karl that he

hasn't contributed much to
the band, and it's decreased

as time has gone on.

After coming back and playing
these shows with Jesse, and

seeing the side of the coin
where the singer's enthusiastic

and passionate, and has
something on the line, like

Jesse is nervous before the
show and he has an emotional

attachment to it. That's what
I think a singer's main job is,

to be the gateway between
the audience and the songs.

And now that we've gone back and
done great shows and had both

sides of that,
I don't want to go back.

I think it would be a lot
more exciting instead of getting

"New Guy X" to sing for the
band to bring Jesse back.

That's exciting, that's
familiar, that's something

people have wanted
for like ten years.

You know, bring back the guy
that wears his heart on his

sleeve and probably cared about
being in that band more than

anyone at the beginning.

I think what a lot of
people would like to come out of

this is a reformation of that
original lineup, and maybe more

music from those guys because
'Malice' was such a special

album but at this point it
doesn't seem like it's possible

to happen right, like they've
had three albums since

with Karl. Misery Signals
is something else now.

Stu's not in the band,
Greg's in the band.

People maybe just have
to accept that it was a

really special thing for the
time it came out and just sort

of cherish it for that.

I don't think that
there's really much potential

for anything else, as far as
Jesse's involvement beyond this

point with us.

I know that it's kind of an
unfair gauge to work off of,

because it is a special
event every night.

He hasn't had the last
six or seven years of slugging

it out. Not just coming
in and killing it at

these shows that have
been just like home runs.

He has Misery Signals shows
seven years ago, and then he has

this reunion tour which has
been like a smash success.

Me, Brandon, and Kyle, and to
an extent Stu have had years

and years of these ups and
downs and Winnipeg every night

for a whole tour.

It kind of gives you a
false sense of accomplishment

in a way. Beyond this I
don't think that they would

continue to be like this.

I think that you know you can
ride the hype for a little

while, but once it's said and
done and kids kind of see what

they've been waiting to see for
years, it'll just go back to a

different version of what we
have now; no better, no worse.

Stu's offered to me
that maybe including him on the

writing of something
else would be sweet.

I don't know if it'll
happen or not. I don't know

if he he wholeheartedly
means what he's offering.

If it came to pass, I don't know
how into it he'd be and if he

would just get back to the place
he was at when he quit the band

initially, and just bail.
Because that would hurt a lot,

and I don't know if I'm
willing to risk that.

But also to me the band's in a
weird spot where it might just

be done too, so like what's
to risk really, you know?

# How could I

# justify this

# I can make anything alright

# But what do you know

# about sacrifice

# You are no lamb

# Any man a creep

# Any man deserving

# Any man A victim,

# a target

Thank you New York City,

it is absolutely
wonderful to be back.

I don't know all the
levels that it's happening on,

but something- something
really good is happening here.

I was on stage in New York
last night and it was so good,

the show was so great. And
they had to keep the lights on

for the audience just as
safety measure for that club,

and I could see
everyone in the crowd.

There were so many people
singing along and going crazy

and I was just grinning.

I don't know if it's because I
feel like it's run it's course

in a way and it's almost over,
this is one of the last great

awesome moments, but I
could feel like the totality

of the band in a way.

It feels really
good to have done this tour.

I'm really happy with how it
went, and not just on a like

level of the shows were
good and people came out

and went crazy, which they did,
and that made it a lot of fun.

But as far as getting to spend
time with these dudes and see

all the old friends.

I'm not really sure I'm
consciously aware of everything

that has happened but there's
something therapeutic about

having done this whole thing.

I think we are on
that path to redemption.

It's been a healing process.

But it's not going to all of a
sudden "oh we did ten shows or

nine shows, everything is better
guys, everything is good."

We're brothers though right?

I can still be pissed
about what they did.

But I don't judge the men now by
what the boys did in the past.

I know there's been some
gripes, and despite our

differences, I really have
a lot of respect for Jesse.

I think he's a really good dude,
and I definitely can recognize

from where I'm standing now what
conflicts were there and what

differences we both have
as our personalities.

The things that sort of
caused problems with the band

are also the things that
are good about Jesse.

He's a really principled guy,
and he really sticks to his guns

on a lot of things
and that's cool because

the things that he values
are usually on point.

He really values friendship,
and he's all about doing the

right thing, and he sticks
to that once he's decided

what the right thing is.

I wish I was more like that,
and I admire him for that.

At the same time, that's some of
the stuff that was frustrating

for us when we were doing the
band before, because he would

stick to his guns so much.
I would too to an extent,

but I can appreciate
it a lot more now.

It would be amazing if
after Toronto we could go out

back behind the Opera House and
air our grievances and talk and

everyone ends with a big
hug and everything is okay.

I don't know if
that's how it'll be.

But we've taken some really
large steps to becoming friends

again, to healing what happened.

I love you, brother.

I do wish that I was
more mature back then and we

could have worked those
things out in a better way.

But I also believe that
our time as that group of guys

had to end. And I feel
good about where it's at now.

- What's up?
- Just waiting on Jesse.

One last time.

Yesterday we got in a cab
to go get some food in New York

and I had a good little
heart-to-heart moment with Jesse

where he was like "I'm really
really glad we did this."

And he even sort of said
something along the lines of

"if we were considering doing
more shows like this he would

be into it, and even if Karl
were leaving the band for

whatever reason he would
consider coming back.

That puts a lot of things to
rest for me about how he feels

about the band and
what we did together.

And interpersonally between
us, if he's willing to do that

that's basically forgiveness,
it's reconciliation.

Well that's it,
we have one song left.

This might be the last
time that us five ever

play music together again.

Ryan Morgan, I love you.

Branden Morgan I love you.

Kyle Johnson I love you.

Stuart Ross I love you.

This whole thing--

This whole thing
meant the world to me.

For eight years I dreamt
about playing these shows.

I sure hope this isn't the
last time that we do this.

Thank you for sharing
this night with us you guys,

thank you so much.

# I've seen it in your eyes

# Looks like your
sneaking and all your lies #

# They did catch
up to you this time #

# I swear I heard you say

# Blood is forever
Love is forever #

# I can fool myself
all that I want #

# But I saw the room,
I heard your voice, #

# I saw your eyes

# The truth will always get
the best of you inside or out #

# It took me two years
to find that I wasted #

# five years of my life

# Felt the truth within
you and I saw red #

# I guess we are,
we are the long goodbye #

What wasted time

# I always hoped somehow
it never happened to us #

# But it is something that did

# That I can't forget

# And after all of our times

# You fucking
did what you did #