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All of these are memories.
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-Oh shit, can we fix this?
-Okay, I know how to do this.
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No.
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You're doing really well.
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Small, stupid and good memories.
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Wait, I'm in the middle
of a very interesting thought.
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Okay.
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We're going to Montreal!
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Oui! Très exciting.
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Our relationship is full of them.
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The special occasions.
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Or in everyday stuff.
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Doing fun things together.
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This has been restored,
but it's really still legit, the same.
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This one is really cool too.
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Trying to make each other enthusiastic
about what you find cool.
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-No way.
-Yes, he cut in it and everything.
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Give me more.
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Long nights with friends, in bars,
with too much beer.
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-Oh, sweetie.
-Anne.
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Sorry.
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Sundays with hangovers.
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That was very fun.
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Making big announcements.
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That you're starting
something new together.
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Will you say it?
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-Dad, Mom.
-Yes?
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I've got news. It's something good.
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I'm going to Montreal.
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-Did you get the job?
-Yes.
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-Sure?
-And Anne is coming.
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Yes, I'm flying there
a couple of months later.
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-Really?
-You've found love and a career.
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I'm also proud of you.
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And then persevere.
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We'll be together in a couple of months.
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But I'm going to miss you until then.
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No matter how stressful that can be.
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I love you!
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I love you too!
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Leave familiar places behind,
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and make new memories.
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Change is just good.
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Anyway, back to the present.
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-Hi.
-Hi, come on in.
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Yes, thank you for letting me have a look.
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It's nice to get
a sense of the space, you know?
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Yes, definitely.
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-Can I…
-Yes. Go ahead.
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Okay.
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Yep. There goes my lovely home.
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Wonderful, a new house like this.
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Hi, can I have three beers,
three gin and tonics and a mojito, please?
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Yes.
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Hi, sweetie.
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Hi.
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-Do you want a beer too?
-I could use one after today.
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What? What did you say? I can't hear you.
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Where are you?
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I can't understand you.
Sorry, there's a lot of people here.
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-Never mind.
-What?
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I'll call you later.
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I… Okay. Yes. Right, love you.
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SORRY, I REALLY COULDN'T HEAR YOU!
LOVE YOU!
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-Hi, can we have two more Salmaris?
-Oh no, Max.
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Yes, you're drinking way too slowly.
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While you're still in Amsterdam,
we're drinking at the Amsterdam pace.
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-I have to get up really early tomorrow.
-Cut it out, will you? Thanks.
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There, cheers and thanks.
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-Yes.
-Cheers.
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Guys, come watch this,
this is fucking awesome.
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Huh? Jip, hello. Take some.
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Oh my God!
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Who is that?
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-That's Lou.
-Who?
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Lou!
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Close your mouth. You're drooling.
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Hot, right?
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-Hot!
-Yeah.
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Yes. I really want to wear that.
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Come here for a second.
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Hey, are you coming with me?
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-Where to?
-To Jip's.
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Guys. Come on. Come. Are you coming?
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-Where to?
-To Jip's.
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No, I have a very important meeting
with my publisher tomorrow.
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Then you have plenty of time.
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No.
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-Baby!
-Are you all going?
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-What in God's name are you doing?
-French, or I'll lose my day streak.
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Darling, Canadian French is something
completely different from French French.
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Yes, French is French. I don't have money
for expensive language courses.
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Yeah, says the girl who just spent
70 bucks on beer.
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Okay, guys, off to Jip's at full trot.
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And if I want to hear bleating,
I'll buy a goat.
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Yes, got it!
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THE RELATIONSHIP WITH MY TITS
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THAT'S NOT HOW IT SHOULD GO
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Soon you'll be hanging here too, An.
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Yeah, there are some truly
very beautiful pieces in here.
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And sharp too.
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But I have the feeling
that you lost your way a little bit.
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What do you mean?
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Well, what I mean is that when you sent us
those first chapters back then,
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we were truly very enthusiastic…
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Yes.
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…and impressed with the personal
and authentic nature of it,
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but you seem to have lost that a bit
on the way.
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It has--sorry--become a bit uninteresting.
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It also reads as if you lost
yourself a bit, is that correct?
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Well…
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Well, no, I don't actually think so.
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But the character
is also searching, right?
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Yes, I get that and that is fine,
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but in its current state,
we cannot publish it.
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And also, I don't think it's a bad idea
to make some major improvements, right?
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I mean, the book is already
in our catalog.
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Sorry, but the searching theme
of the book is fine, isn't it?
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That is also part of… It's one of
the characteristics of the main character.
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Yes, but your main character has no goal.
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I mean, she doesn't want to find out,
it seems, what she is searching for.
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What does she want
and how does she get there?
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And is she really the hero of the story?
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Such bullshit.
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Okay.
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But I…
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Okay.
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I know a very nice writing coach.
I'll put you in touch with her.
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And I think it'd be good, Anne,
for you to ask yourself,
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"What do I really want to say?"
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You need to start
making some clear choices.
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So what do you,
Anne Verbeek, have to tell the world?
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Hey, sweetie.
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Hey, sweetie.
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Oh shit, our timing hasn't been
very good lately, has it?
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No, man, shit.
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What time is it there?
Don't you have work in the morning?
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It is fucking early,
but we landed a mega big contract,
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so we have the morning off.
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Cool, congrats.
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Thanks. By the way,
I've finally fully decorated our home.
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Do you want to see it?
See, the little kitchen.
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-Hi.
-And so…
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This lamp!
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Do you remember it in that magazine,
you know, of that Italian designer?
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I said to you back then,
"This lamp is super expensive."
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-Hello.
-Hello.
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Who was that?
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I'm just going to go to a quiet spot.
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Okay. Yeah, I originally wanted
to tell you this tomorrow afternoon,
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my time,
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but, yeah, then this happens
and now we're talking anyway,
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so I want to get it off my chest.
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I've started flirting with someone.
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And that was her just now. Zoey.
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That's very fast.
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An?
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Sorry, you froze.
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Where do you know her from?
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She's a friend of a colleague.
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Nice.
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Yes.
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Yes, no, yes, nice, she looks cute.
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-Quite a different type.
-Yes.
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Hey, are you okay? 'Cause…
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If you don't feel comfortable, you know…
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I mean, you know
what we agreed upon, right?
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Yes, no…
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…talk about it later. But in good time.
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Yes, that's fine.
Yes. No, I'm completely fine.
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Just go… Sweetie, just go celebrate.
Really, just go.
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Okay.
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An, I love you, right?
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You are my everything.
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I love you too.
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Okay. This is fine.
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This is our agreement.
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What?!
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Is that the big radio celesbian Jip?
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Yes!
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How are you?
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Yeah, well, stuff.
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We'll talk later.
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Sure? You know you can always
talk to me about stuff, right?
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No, it's really okay.
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Hello! We're going
to celebrate your success.
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-Yas.
-Yas. How are you?
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Yeah, good. I'm peaking at the moment.
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I know another cishet woman.
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-Maybe you know her.
-It's possible.
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It's fine as long as it's not in my face.
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Okay. Yes. I love you.
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Gay rights and stuff. Love is love.
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"Gay rights and stuff."
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-Yes, Daan, the true ally.
-Well.
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Dear sweethearts,
I want to toast to this amazing woman,
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my woman, because she is getting
her own fucking radio show!
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Cheers!
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-Look each other in the eye.
-Bad sex otherwise, yes.
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Yes, we don't want that.
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Hey, but seriously, I hope you'll
listen to all the fucking episodes,
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because I plan to become
a fucking big platform for young artists,
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queer artists, artists of color
and just fucking awesome music.
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I have already let everybody know,
I stopped just shy of calling the king.
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No, but seriously,
the first show will be really hard
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and Nana Adjoa is doing a live session…
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-Yes, darling. Very cool.
-And Lionstorm wanted…
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I am really fucking proud of you, Jippie.
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-Yes?
-Yes, really.
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And you? How was the meeting
with that publisher? Do tell.
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Oh, right.
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Yeah, fine.
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I still have to do some rewriting
and make some adjustments.
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-Can we read it soon?
-Almost.
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We're doing something like a goodbye
slash the-book-is-done party, right?
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Oh my God, you're almost leaving.
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Well, there's still a few weeks.
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Doesn't sound very enthusiastic, An.
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Yes, I am,
but I just have to arrange some things.
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Okay, like what?
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Okay. Just stuff.
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-You're still going, right?
-Yes, of course, hello. Yes.
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-I'm calling it. She's not going.
-No?
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Okay, Jesus, guys. I'm just not
super excited for a moment.
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I don't have to be like that all the time.
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I'm just tired, so chill out.
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Okay, sorry.
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It's just annoying that you act
like there's something wrong
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or that I don't finish stuff.
Have a little faith in me.
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-It's going well. Just fine. Really.
-Okay.
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Hey, who wants something to eat?
Shall I get a snack?
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Are you gonna get that
for us, sweetie? Really?
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-Can I have beet balls?
-Beet balls?
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-Cheese platter?
-Yes, cheese platter.
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Yes. A cheese platter, I heard.
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I'LL REALLY MISS MY FAM
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LET'S CONTEMPLATE
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THIS WOMAN
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LE_LOUP IS FOLLOWING YOU
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LE_LOUP LIKES YOUR POST
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LOU - ACTIVIST - DRAG KING (THEY/THEM)
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Yeah, what does the main character want?
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Right? What is she working towards?
Is there an antagonist?
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It isn't very eventful. It…
Yes, it meanders.
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And there is a whole lot of talking,
really quite a lot of talking.
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And it's interesting, but because of that
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it stays somewhere between plot driven
and character driven.
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I do think that you need to…
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Does she like women?
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Would Saar be jealous
if I did stuff with her?
253
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We can also quickly… You and me…
254
00:18:45,240 --> 00:18:46,320
Fuck it.
255
00:18:56,440 --> 00:18:57,640
Anne?
256
00:18:59,080 --> 00:19:01,200
-What?
-Are you listening?
257
00:19:01,720 --> 00:19:07,280
Yes, meanders. It meanders.
258
00:19:12,400 --> 00:19:14,120
Should I send Lou a message?
259
00:19:14,880 --> 00:19:17,840
Yes, of course.
If Sara's got a girl in Montreal,
260
00:19:17,920 --> 00:19:19,880
then you should also be allowed
to DM someone.
261
00:19:19,960 --> 00:19:22,640
-Yes, right? Yes.
-Yes.
262
00:19:25,720 --> 00:19:27,960
Oh, here we go again.
263
00:20:14,040 --> 00:20:16,480
Hey, well, what should I send her?
264
00:20:16,560 --> 00:20:21,120
Or, wait… "them."
It says "they them" in their bio.
265
00:20:22,760 --> 00:20:24,360
Yeah, just send something like,
266
00:20:24,440 --> 00:20:26,720
"Hey, would you like to go out
for a drink some time?"
267
00:20:26,800 --> 00:20:29,120
"My girlfriend is seeing someone
and I want that too
268
00:20:29,200 --> 00:20:30,920
because otherwise the balance is off."
269
00:20:31,000 --> 00:20:32,040
Please…
270
00:20:32,120 --> 00:20:34,200
"And I would rather date someone else too
271
00:20:34,280 --> 00:20:36,520
than talk about it
with my girlfriend. Bye, Anne."
272
00:20:36,600 --> 00:20:37,600
Stop it.
273
00:20:42,800 --> 00:20:44,400
I will just send something like,
274
00:20:45,160 --> 00:20:47,920
"Hey, how was your weekend?"
275
00:20:49,000 --> 00:20:52,880
Very nice. That makes me very horny.
276
00:20:52,960 --> 00:20:56,120
-Lil, seriously.
-Yeah, that's fine. Just send that.
277
00:20:56,640 --> 00:20:57,480
Okay.
278
00:21:00,360 --> 00:21:04,280
Yes, I still have to arrange a few things.
I'm getting my passport this week.
279
00:21:04,960 --> 00:21:08,560
An, how you do everything last minute,
really, I couldn't do that.
280
00:21:10,320 --> 00:21:11,600
I know, just let me be.
281
00:21:14,360 --> 00:21:15,800
How's it going with…
282
00:21:17,400 --> 00:21:18,440
-With Zoe?
-Yes.
283
00:21:19,600 --> 00:21:23,560
Yes, good. Fun. We see each other
once a week or something like that.
284
00:21:25,240 --> 00:21:26,480
She wants to meet you.
285
00:21:28,600 --> 00:21:32,280
Is that okay with you
or would you rather not do that at all?
286
00:21:33,560 --> 00:21:37,080
Yes, no, yes, that's… Yes, fun. We can…
287
00:21:37,160 --> 00:21:38,640
we can FaceTime sometime.
288
00:21:38,720 --> 00:21:40,200
An, really?
289
00:21:40,280 --> 00:21:42,960
Really? Yeah, fun. I will tell her.
290
00:21:44,120 --> 00:21:48,120
And how are you doing? And your book?
Did you hand everything in?
291
00:21:49,000 --> 00:21:50,000
Shit.
292
00:21:51,720 --> 00:21:53,440
Yes, it's fine.
293
00:21:53,520 --> 00:21:57,560
Still some minor rewrites to do,
some fine-tuning and stuff.
294
00:21:59,120 --> 00:22:02,960
I'm so proud of you.
You just wrote your first novel. So cool.
295
00:22:03,480 --> 00:22:04,360
Yes.
296
00:22:09,480 --> 00:22:12,920
Hey, if there's something wrong,
you need to tell me, okay?
297
00:22:14,120 --> 00:22:16,360
Or if you don't feel comfortable?
298
00:22:16,880 --> 00:22:18,240
No, everything's fine.
299
00:22:22,920 --> 00:22:23,880
I love you, right?
300
00:22:26,200 --> 00:22:27,120
I love you too.
301
00:22:49,320 --> 00:22:50,160
So…
302
00:22:52,360 --> 00:22:56,600
We can only date another person
if we both feel good about it.
303
00:23:02,440 --> 00:23:03,320
Yes.
304
00:23:06,160 --> 00:23:07,880
And do we want to know everything?
305
00:23:09,360 --> 00:23:12,880
I mean, maybe not if it's only sex,
but what if it turns into dating?
306
00:23:13,840 --> 00:23:14,760
Well…
307
00:23:16,480 --> 00:23:19,680
Yes, I don't know.
Just continue to communicate, right?
308
00:23:20,200 --> 00:23:23,920
Yes, can I have that in writing?
That you will continue to communicate?
309
00:23:25,480 --> 00:23:29,320
No, I'm joking.
No, but seriously, that sounds good.
310
00:23:29,400 --> 00:23:30,360
Yes.
311
00:23:31,280 --> 00:23:36,200
And also, keep voicing
doubts and boundaries.
312
00:23:37,640 --> 00:23:39,080
Yes.
313
00:23:39,160 --> 00:23:40,760
And also give each other freedom
314
00:23:40,840 --> 00:23:44,320
because that is the idea
behind a polyamorous relationship, right?
315
00:23:44,400 --> 00:23:45,280
Yes.
316
00:23:46,560 --> 00:23:50,320
Yeah, I think it is so good
and healthy that we're doing this.
317
00:23:51,000 --> 00:23:55,080
-Right? Look at us.
-Yes.
318
00:25:04,880 --> 00:25:06,640
Yeah, great. Looks good.
319
00:25:09,920 --> 00:25:12,480
No, this was still in there.
320
00:25:12,560 --> 00:25:14,360
Yeah. No problem.
321
00:25:15,240 --> 00:25:17,800
-It's 40, right?
-Yes, 40.
322
00:25:36,720 --> 00:25:38,240
Oh God, how do you do this again?
323
00:25:44,720 --> 00:25:45,600
Okay.
324
00:25:46,560 --> 00:25:47,400
Hey.
325
00:25:49,960 --> 00:25:51,320
-Nice.
-Yes.
326
00:25:51,840 --> 00:25:54,000
What are your pronouns?
327
00:25:55,360 --> 00:25:56,360
She/her.
328
00:25:57,040 --> 00:25:59,760
Okay, cool. Mine are they, them and their.
329
00:25:59,840 --> 00:26:01,240
I knew that from your Instagram.
330
00:26:01,320 --> 00:26:02,440
Great.
331
00:26:03,080 --> 00:26:06,040
Just like how pretty much
all my exes like your photos.
332
00:26:07,000 --> 00:26:10,200
It is such a nice feeling, right,
when you walk onto the stage
333
00:26:10,280 --> 00:26:12,320
and you hear everyone going like…
334
00:26:13,320 --> 00:26:16,320
I don't think I could ever do that,
be a drag king.
335
00:26:16,400 --> 00:26:17,360
Why not?
336
00:26:18,480 --> 00:26:21,160
Yeah, being on that stage
with everybody watching.
337
00:26:21,240 --> 00:26:23,400
And then acting all sexy.
338
00:26:23,480 --> 00:26:26,440
-Do you find it difficult to feel sexy?
-Me?
339
00:26:32,680 --> 00:26:36,680
I don't know. Well, I'm not really
actively thinking about it, I guess.
340
00:26:37,720 --> 00:26:41,280
Okay. When do you feel the most sexy?
341
00:26:44,720 --> 00:26:46,480
When I'm confident, I think.
342
00:26:48,160 --> 00:26:52,600
Yes, I'm not really into sexy clothing
or lingerie and stuff, that…
343
00:26:53,480 --> 00:26:55,960
No, I actually never
really feel sexy sexy.
344
00:26:56,680 --> 00:26:58,440
Whatever that means, but--
345
00:26:58,520 --> 00:27:01,760
No, I can think,
"I'm looking good," but sexy?
346
00:27:01,840 --> 00:27:02,680
That's…
347
00:27:03,440 --> 00:27:04,320
No.
348
00:27:05,040 --> 00:27:07,240
Sexy is quite a broad concept, right?
349
00:27:07,320 --> 00:27:11,120
It's just not all about
sexy clothing or lingerie.
350
00:27:11,200 --> 00:27:14,720
-It's something different for everyone.
-Yes, exactly, I think so too.
351
00:27:16,960 --> 00:27:18,680
My girlfriend, Sara, for instance,
352
00:27:18,760 --> 00:27:21,240
she likes to wear
pretty lingerie and stuff, but…
353
00:27:22,400 --> 00:27:25,760
but that actually does very little for me.
354
00:27:26,400 --> 00:27:31,080
No, I find her very sexy, really,
but just when she's feeling good,
355
00:27:31,160 --> 00:27:33,400
when she's making coffee
in her underwear,
356
00:27:34,320 --> 00:27:37,920
when she's in total work mode
on a Zoom call
357
00:27:38,000 --> 00:27:40,680
with colleagues from all over the world.
That is sexy.
358
00:27:43,680 --> 00:27:44,560
But anyway, yeah.
359
00:27:46,480 --> 00:27:47,640
You have a girlfriend?
360
00:27:51,080 --> 00:27:52,200
Yes.
361
00:27:53,800 --> 00:27:56,080
Yes, but we are open, poly.
362
00:27:57,120 --> 00:27:59,080
Hey, but wait a minute, right?
363
00:27:59,160 --> 00:28:04,200
You're writing a book and then you're off
to the other side of the world? Why?
364
00:28:05,320 --> 00:28:06,800
Well, that's just the plan.
365
00:28:08,720 --> 00:28:09,960
Weird plan.
366
00:28:11,360 --> 00:28:12,200
Yes.
367
00:28:13,040 --> 00:28:14,000
-Yes.
-Yes.
368
00:28:16,240 --> 00:28:18,520
I just want to write a kick-ass book.
369
00:28:20,240 --> 00:28:21,440
But then…
370
00:28:23,880 --> 00:28:26,360
My publisher asked me
what I actually have to say.
371
00:28:28,400 --> 00:28:29,280
Yes.
372
00:28:30,160 --> 00:28:34,240
So now I'm thinking the whole time,
"What actually is my life experience?"
373
00:28:34,320 --> 00:28:39,040
"Why do I have to write a book?
Is that what the world is waiting for?"
374
00:28:40,200 --> 00:28:42,040
What do you want to write about?
375
00:28:42,840 --> 00:28:48,080
About friendship and relationships
and love and identity.
376
00:28:48,960 --> 00:28:52,200
Gender, expression, about being queer.
377
00:28:52,800 --> 00:28:56,240
Okay. What does being queer mean to you?
378
00:28:57,200 --> 00:28:58,120
I don't know.
379
00:28:58,760 --> 00:29:00,480
Or, well, I actually do know.
380
00:29:01,160 --> 00:29:05,400
Being lesbian, or being queer,
and coming out
381
00:29:05,480 --> 00:29:08,080
has completely shaped me
into who I am now.
382
00:29:09,160 --> 00:29:11,560
So yeah, I would never want it differently
383
00:29:11,640 --> 00:29:15,760
because it's such a big part
of my identity. It's really my whole life.
384
00:29:17,240 --> 00:29:20,640
But as a queer person,
I live in a heteronormative society,
385
00:29:20,720 --> 00:29:23,840
so then you approach everything
automatically from you being queer.
386
00:29:23,920 --> 00:29:27,400
And I think,
"Yes, I just want to tell that story."
387
00:29:29,440 --> 00:29:31,760
Show how fun it is to be queer.
388
00:29:32,760 --> 00:29:36,080
And bring people into that world
because being queer is just fun
389
00:29:36,160 --> 00:29:39,400
and exciting, and complicated.
390
00:29:40,840 --> 00:29:44,960
And real and loving.
391
00:29:45,480 --> 00:29:48,360
And everything.
392
00:29:49,960 --> 00:29:52,640
Being queer is just everything. Yeah…
393
00:29:57,240 --> 00:30:00,560
Yeah, it's so much more than I imagined
when I was in the closet.
394
00:30:01,560 --> 00:30:02,440
Yes.
395
00:30:03,680 --> 00:30:05,960
Well, I'm also just happy that now I…
396
00:30:07,840 --> 00:30:11,560
That I can now be proud of something
that I used to be ashamed of for so long.
397
00:30:12,160 --> 00:30:14,520
So I want to just show that and…
398
00:30:14,600 --> 00:30:17,600
Yeah, that I feel
so much more comfortable now.
399
00:30:19,400 --> 00:30:20,600
And why is that?
400
00:30:21,280 --> 00:30:23,000
That I feel more comfortable?
401
00:30:26,880 --> 00:30:28,120
Because of time.
402
00:30:29,280 --> 00:30:32,320
Yeah, things just take time, right?
403
00:30:32,840 --> 00:30:35,720
Yeah, and I've also become
very mature, of course.
404
00:30:40,200 --> 00:30:41,240
Yes.
405
00:30:41,320 --> 00:30:43,440
YOU'VE SKIPPED
YOUR FRENCH LESSON FOR 3 DAYS
406
00:30:43,520 --> 00:30:46,640
But you have to keep doing it,
you have to keep trying,
407
00:30:46,720 --> 00:30:48,840
and not avoid it just because it's easier.
408
00:30:48,920 --> 00:30:53,240
Talking works, patience works, must talk…
409
00:30:53,320 --> 00:30:56,240
Okay, I sometimes take them… Stop it.
410
00:30:57,200 --> 00:30:59,920
I take them to queer lectures
or films or something.
411
00:31:00,000 --> 00:31:02,080
Bring them into my world for a bit.
412
00:31:03,080 --> 00:31:07,000
Yeah, okay, but I really don't see
that happening with my parents.
413
00:31:07,080 --> 00:31:08,800
Why not? Just do it.
414
00:31:08,880 --> 00:31:11,160
Yes, Lou, I'm happy for you
and your parents,
415
00:31:11,240 --> 00:31:12,920
but my process is just different.
416
00:31:13,000 --> 00:31:14,240
Oh, sorry.
417
00:31:16,200 --> 00:31:20,960
But anyway, tell me your political story.
418
00:31:22,920 --> 00:31:24,000
-Yeah?
-Yeah.
419
00:31:24,520 --> 00:31:26,320
-Are you sure?
-Throw it at me.
420
00:31:27,800 --> 00:31:29,040
Okay, here it is, right?
421
00:31:29,120 --> 00:31:31,840
Well, we divide the world
into two categories.
422
00:31:31,920 --> 00:31:33,800
That determines how we treat each other.
423
00:31:33,880 --> 00:31:36,560
Men are not allowed to cry,
women can't do DIY,
424
00:31:36,640 --> 00:31:40,120
and women are actually
totally subordinate anyway, right?
425
00:31:40,200 --> 00:31:42,600
That's a bizarre system
when you think about it.
426
00:31:42,680 --> 00:31:44,760
That was invented by all of us together.
427
00:31:44,840 --> 00:31:50,680
Yeah, there is so fucking little freedom
in what being a woman can look like.
428
00:31:51,520 --> 00:31:54,560
Exactly,
and we invented everything anyway.
429
00:31:54,640 --> 00:31:57,720
Money, we invented that,
we just print it like that. Bam, bam!
430
00:31:58,640 --> 00:32:00,720
The internet was invented by us.
431
00:32:00,800 --> 00:32:05,320
Language, photography, art, politics,
gender constructs.
432
00:32:05,400 --> 00:32:06,440
We invented that.
433
00:32:06,520 --> 00:32:10,840
So why can we not keep inventing?
Or re-inventing?
434
00:32:10,920 --> 00:32:15,080
Why is being nonbinary and wanting
to break free from invented constructs
435
00:32:15,160 --> 00:32:16,920
not done for so many people?
436
00:32:17,880 --> 00:32:18,840
Yes.
437
00:32:18,920 --> 00:32:20,120
And just like language,
438
00:32:20,200 --> 00:32:24,040
it keeps renewing
and that is actually the beauty of it.
439
00:32:25,000 --> 00:32:30,680
So what's the matter, tell me,
with they, them and their pronouns?
440
00:32:32,520 --> 00:32:35,280
Yes, completely.
441
00:32:35,360 --> 00:32:37,280
Yeah, well, exactly that.
442
00:32:37,880 --> 00:32:39,080
Well, you got me.
443
00:32:52,040 --> 00:32:54,000
-Hey, Jippie.
-Yo, An.
444
00:32:54,880 --> 00:32:56,640
Hey, are you still talking to Saar?
445
00:32:59,080 --> 00:33:01,920
-Why?
-Well, I got a text.
446
00:33:02,720 --> 00:33:05,920
A text from her, that she hasn't
spoken to you in a few days
447
00:33:06,000 --> 00:33:07,680
and also can't get hold of you.
448
00:33:07,760 --> 00:33:08,760
Fuck.
449
00:33:09,960 --> 00:33:11,640
I don't even have her new number.
450
00:33:12,240 --> 00:33:15,080
I never text with her,
but apparently she felt the urge
451
00:33:15,160 --> 00:33:17,760
to send me a text to get hold of you.
452
00:33:17,840 --> 00:33:19,840
Yes, shit.
453
00:33:20,640 --> 00:33:24,240
What are you actually doing, man?
Just talk to her.
454
00:33:26,840 --> 00:33:27,720
Yes, I know.
455
00:33:29,520 --> 00:33:31,640
Is everything else okay with you?
456
00:33:31,720 --> 00:33:34,040
Yeah, no, yeah, it's fine.
457
00:33:34,760 --> 00:33:37,280
I should really just talk to Saar.
You're right.
458
00:33:38,080 --> 00:33:39,760
Yes, I am right.
459
00:33:41,840 --> 00:33:44,840
Well, sort it out, girl.
460
00:33:47,520 --> 00:33:50,520
And let's grab a beer soon.
461
00:33:51,600 --> 00:33:56,400
-We don't see each other enough, man.
-Yeah, you're right. I'll text you.
462
00:33:56,480 --> 00:33:57,760
All right. Bye.
463
00:34:09,680 --> 00:34:10,560
There you go.
464
00:34:11,080 --> 00:34:12,520
-Oh my God, sweetie.
-What?
465
00:34:12,600 --> 00:34:13,840
We got the house!
466
00:34:14,760 --> 00:34:17,520
Oh my God, sweetie. Our dream house?
467
00:34:17,600 --> 00:34:19,880
I know, look,
with those beautiful stairs outside!
468
00:34:19,960 --> 00:34:21,280
-Yeah.
-Oh my God.
469
00:34:22,760 --> 00:34:24,240
Okay, I'm going to reply now.
470
00:34:25,200 --> 00:34:26,200
-Okay.
-Yes.
471
00:34:31,720 --> 00:34:32,640
Yes.
472
00:34:48,840 --> 00:34:54,480
HEY, SWEETIE. EVERYTHING ALL RIGHT?
473
00:35:04,840 --> 00:35:05,960
How about this one?
474
00:35:07,040 --> 00:35:08,080
Try this one on.
475
00:35:08,160 --> 00:35:10,000
So what you're doing now
is called blending.
476
00:35:10,080 --> 00:35:13,400
I'm actually making all the lines
that I've just applied softer.
477
00:35:14,520 --> 00:35:17,280
No, this seems too much… Yes.
478
00:35:18,320 --> 00:35:22,320
Drag is more than a fun fancy-dress party.
479
00:35:22,400 --> 00:35:25,280
It is a way to rebel against the norm.
480
00:35:28,800 --> 00:35:30,280
Oh my God!
481
00:35:31,840 --> 00:35:32,880
Maxie.
482
00:35:32,960 --> 00:35:36,240
-My God, you look so good.
-Thanks.
483
00:35:36,320 --> 00:35:39,520
Yeah, and drag came from protest.
484
00:35:39,600 --> 00:35:41,360
That is what we owe all of this to.
485
00:35:41,440 --> 00:35:43,840
Look at the Stonewall riots, for instance.
486
00:35:43,920 --> 00:35:47,640
Drag artists and trans women of color
were on the frontlines there.
487
00:35:47,720 --> 00:35:49,760
And it's just very important
488
00:35:49,840 --> 00:35:53,120
to always remember what we owe pride to,
but also drag.
489
00:35:53,200 --> 00:35:57,200
Yeah, I love it. Can we take a picture?
I'm totally fangirling.
490
00:36:00,640 --> 00:36:01,640
Very nice, look.
491
00:36:03,160 --> 00:36:04,400
-How beautiful.
-Cute!
492
00:36:04,480 --> 00:36:05,720
Darling of mine.
493
00:36:10,080 --> 00:36:12,000
You have a naturally strong jaw line.
494
00:36:12,080 --> 00:36:13,520
-Yeah?
-Yes, really.
495
00:36:14,880 --> 00:36:17,320
Would you maybe
like some facial hair or something?
496
00:36:17,400 --> 00:36:19,200
A beard would be pretty cool.
497
00:36:23,360 --> 00:36:25,840
-Whoa, Lil, looking good.
-Thanks.
498
00:36:25,920 --> 00:36:27,000
Nice dick you got there.
499
00:36:29,960 --> 00:36:32,840
-Well, gorgeous…
-What?
500
00:36:32,920 --> 00:36:34,880
-And what is your name?
-Jennifer.
501
00:36:35,920 --> 00:36:38,320
Okay, everyone get together for a moment.
502
00:36:39,560 --> 00:36:41,360
All right, yes.
503
00:36:41,440 --> 00:36:43,440
Join us.
504
00:36:44,560 --> 00:36:48,080
Drag is about reclaiming your space.
505
00:36:48,160 --> 00:36:49,440
Claiming space.
506
00:36:49,520 --> 00:36:52,440
Yeah, as a queer person,
you're always being looked at
507
00:36:52,520 --> 00:36:55,800
and this is a way to turn that
into something positive.
508
00:36:56,400 --> 00:36:58,520
Dare to take that space.
509
00:36:59,240 --> 00:37:00,080
-Yeah?
-Yeah!
510
00:37:00,160 --> 00:37:01,080
-Yeah?
-Yeah!
511
00:38:59,560 --> 00:39:01,400
This is so nice.
512
00:39:08,160 --> 00:39:09,240
An, what's wrong?
513
00:39:11,960 --> 00:39:12,880
Nothing.
514
00:39:17,200 --> 00:39:18,800
I just love you.
515
00:39:18,880 --> 00:39:20,080
Are you nice and drunk?
516
00:39:22,440 --> 00:39:23,560
No, but really.
517
00:39:25,320 --> 00:39:27,360
What am I supposed to do without you?
518
00:39:27,440 --> 00:39:29,800
Yeah, nothing. Without us you are nothing.
519
00:39:29,880 --> 00:39:30,880
No!
520
00:39:31,960 --> 00:39:33,400
We love you too, Annie.
521
00:39:34,760 --> 00:39:36,240
Guys, stop for a moment!
522
00:39:36,840 --> 00:39:38,000
Anne is emo!
523
00:39:39,040 --> 00:39:40,680
What is it, darling?
524
00:39:41,560 --> 00:39:44,280
What is it? No!
525
00:39:45,200 --> 00:39:46,800
Come here.
526
00:39:47,880 --> 00:39:50,560
Join us. We love you, Annie.
527
00:39:50,640 --> 00:39:52,400
Hey, darling!
528
00:39:52,480 --> 00:39:53,880
Don't cry.
529
00:39:53,960 --> 00:39:57,120
Goddamn, I love you so much too.
530
00:40:04,120 --> 00:40:07,760
Two cheese snacks, one vegetable what?
531
00:40:07,840 --> 00:40:09,680
-A vegetable croquette.
-Croquette.
532
00:40:09,760 --> 00:40:10,800
-Veggie?
-Veggie.
533
00:40:11,320 --> 00:40:14,480
Yes, a vegetable croquette, and Lil?
534
00:40:14,560 --> 00:40:17,360
-Deep-fried noodles.
-Gross, seriously?
535
00:40:17,440 --> 00:40:19,720
-Deep-fried noodles.
-And deep-fried noodles.
536
00:40:20,480 --> 00:40:22,120
-Of course, coming up.
-Thanks.
537
00:40:24,840 --> 00:40:27,520
Hey, Lou is really super fun, right?
538
00:40:27,600 --> 00:40:30,480
-Yeah, she is so freaking fun.
-They.
539
00:40:31,240 --> 00:40:32,640
Yes, sorry.
540
00:40:32,720 --> 00:40:34,680
And yeah, so true, right?
541
00:40:35,320 --> 00:40:37,200
Have you licked and stuff yet?
542
00:40:39,920 --> 00:40:42,800
-No.
-Why?
543
00:40:43,320 --> 00:40:45,480
Well, no,
I don't know if I should do that.
544
00:40:46,280 --> 00:40:48,160
-You like them, right?
-Yes.
545
00:40:49,120 --> 00:40:52,240
-And you're in a poly relationship?
-Yes.
546
00:40:52,320 --> 00:40:54,720
-And you're almost going to Montreal.
-Yeah.
547
00:40:55,880 --> 00:40:56,720
No.
548
00:41:05,160 --> 00:41:06,360
Does Sara know that?
549
00:41:07,480 --> 00:41:08,400
No.
550
00:41:09,160 --> 00:41:10,720
What a vibrant conversation.
551
00:41:10,800 --> 00:41:13,240
No, but wait,
you're not going to Montreal?
552
00:41:13,320 --> 00:41:15,160
Yes.
553
00:41:16,720 --> 00:41:17,680
No.
554
00:41:18,600 --> 00:41:20,120
Oh, guys, I don't know.
555
00:41:20,960 --> 00:41:23,440
I just don't know.
556
00:41:25,200 --> 00:41:28,840
I have to emigrate in two weeks.
What the fuck?
557
00:41:29,840 --> 00:41:31,720
And I have to give up my home.
558
00:41:31,800 --> 00:41:34,000
And I still have to rewrite
my entire book.
559
00:41:38,480 --> 00:41:39,840
Come crash at my house.
560
00:41:41,880 --> 00:41:45,600
-Seriously?
-Yes. It'll be fun, right?
561
00:43:17,240 --> 00:43:18,200
Yes…
562
00:43:19,600 --> 00:43:20,520
What now?
563
00:43:33,400 --> 00:43:37,880
Everything okay?
You seem a bit distracted or something.
564
00:43:38,800 --> 00:43:41,040
Oh, no, it's fine.
565
00:43:42,960 --> 00:43:43,800
Really?
566
00:43:47,840 --> 00:43:51,120
I've had a lot on my mind,
but don't worry.
567
00:43:52,480 --> 00:43:55,600
You know you can tell me anything, right?
Talk to me.
568
00:44:01,200 --> 00:44:03,720
Okay, come on. Let's get a drink.
569
00:44:07,200 --> 00:44:09,160
What was your first impression of me?
570
00:44:12,960 --> 00:44:13,960
Sweet.
571
00:44:15,400 --> 00:44:16,400
Complicated.
572
00:44:19,120 --> 00:44:21,320
Listens well, talks badly.
573
00:44:23,080 --> 00:44:25,600
Yeah? All of that from the first meeting?
574
00:44:25,680 --> 00:44:29,120
-I'm a good judge of character, right?
-Sure.
575
00:44:29,840 --> 00:44:32,240
Attractive, of course.
576
00:44:33,160 --> 00:44:34,600
I was gonna say.
577
00:44:38,280 --> 00:44:40,440
And you? Of me?
578
00:44:43,360 --> 00:44:44,760
Very attractive too, of course.
579
00:44:45,640 --> 00:44:47,800
And smart.
580
00:44:49,000 --> 00:44:51,680
And interesting and honorable.
581
00:44:51,760 --> 00:44:54,760
-Honorable?
-Yes. Sorry.
582
00:44:54,840 --> 00:44:57,800
No, yes, well, yes, actually, yes.
583
00:44:57,880 --> 00:45:00,080
I immediately felt at ease with you.
584
00:45:01,200 --> 00:45:05,880
Like I, yeah, could say
anything without being judged.
585
00:45:06,400 --> 00:45:07,360
Yeah.
586
00:45:08,080 --> 00:45:09,200
I feel the same way.
587
00:45:12,960 --> 00:45:15,640
-I think it's a generational thing too.
-Yeah?
588
00:45:15,720 --> 00:45:17,040
Yeah, for our parents
589
00:45:17,120 --> 00:45:19,960
everything was just
nicely mapped out and obvious.
590
00:45:20,560 --> 00:45:23,640
-Not many uncertainties.
-Yeah.
591
00:45:23,720 --> 00:45:26,400
I think they just never learned
to talk about anything.
592
00:45:27,120 --> 00:45:29,040
No, well, mine certainly didn't.
593
00:45:30,680 --> 00:45:33,240
Yeah, and they never
understand our problems, right?
594
00:45:33,320 --> 00:45:37,120
Because they think,
"Hey, I was young once, just like you.
595
00:45:37,200 --> 00:45:38,640
-You've heard that?
-Yeah.
596
00:45:38,720 --> 00:45:40,840
"And I've made it this far
without any fuss,
597
00:45:40,920 --> 00:45:42,520
so you should also be able to."
598
00:45:42,600 --> 00:45:46,120
Yes. That's exactly
what my parents are like.
599
00:45:47,760 --> 00:45:50,360
They just don't understand. That's it.
600
00:45:50,440 --> 00:45:52,640
No, they really don't.
601
00:45:52,720 --> 00:45:53,880
No.
602
00:45:53,960 --> 00:45:55,720
Yeah, I'm doing things differently.
603
00:45:56,600 --> 00:45:58,560
-I won't remain silent.
-No.
604
00:45:58,640 --> 00:45:59,840
No.
605
00:45:59,920 --> 00:46:01,840
I also just want a family
606
00:46:01,920 --> 00:46:04,120
and I want my kids to have the feeling
607
00:46:04,200 --> 00:46:06,920
that they can tell me
and each other anything.
608
00:46:07,440 --> 00:46:12,600
That there isn't always some sort
of weird tension about a certain topic,
609
00:46:12,680 --> 00:46:14,600
that nobody has to bottle shit up.
610
00:46:15,600 --> 00:46:18,320
I just want there to be true love.
611
00:46:18,400 --> 00:46:20,280
Just honest love.
612
00:46:20,360 --> 00:46:24,360
No fuss, no drama, just openness.
613
00:46:28,280 --> 00:46:29,200
What?
614
00:46:30,320 --> 00:46:31,320
Come here.
615
00:47:26,560 --> 00:47:30,280
Anyway, you were talking
about something very serious?
616
00:47:31,320 --> 00:47:35,720
Yeah. I just need to recover
from this ambush.
617
00:47:44,240 --> 00:47:45,560
You're a good kisser.
618
00:47:46,280 --> 00:47:48,160
Well, that's a relief.
619
00:47:50,000 --> 00:47:52,320
You really turn everything
into a joke, right?
620
00:47:54,160 --> 00:47:56,120
Oh, well…
621
00:47:56,200 --> 00:47:57,120
Maybe.
622
00:47:57,200 --> 00:47:58,520
Yes, maybe.
623
00:47:58,600 --> 00:48:02,400
Yeah, I mean as a kind of distraction
or something, right?
624
00:48:02,480 --> 00:48:04,440
Then you don't have to be vulnerable.
625
00:48:08,240 --> 00:48:09,800
But it's also kind of sweet.
626
00:48:32,000 --> 00:48:33,920
You really are fucking sexy.
627
00:48:37,400 --> 00:48:38,640
I mean it.
628
00:48:40,440 --> 00:48:41,520
Look at you.
629
00:49:14,000 --> 00:49:14,880
Beautiful, right?
630
00:49:18,800 --> 00:49:19,720
Yes.
631
00:49:40,160 --> 00:49:41,320
Can I fuck you?
632
00:49:43,400 --> 00:49:44,600
Aren't we…
633
00:49:46,880 --> 00:49:48,720
Yeah, I mean with a strap-on.
634
00:49:53,240 --> 00:49:55,160
I've never really done that before.
635
00:49:55,680 --> 00:49:56,640
You haven't?
636
00:49:57,880 --> 00:50:00,120
We don't have to if you don't want to.
637
00:50:04,480 --> 00:50:07,080
Yes. I want it.
638
00:50:07,160 --> 00:50:08,080
Yes?
639
00:51:13,000 --> 00:51:14,120
Is this okay?
640
00:51:15,280 --> 00:51:16,160
Yeah?
641
00:51:16,800 --> 00:51:17,720
Okay.
642
00:52:06,360 --> 00:52:07,720
I want to be on top of you.
643
00:52:20,320 --> 00:52:21,360
-Fuck.
-Yeah.
644
00:52:31,880 --> 00:52:32,800
Yeah.
645
00:52:55,160 --> 00:52:56,400
Oh my God.
646
00:53:04,000 --> 00:53:06,240
Oh my God.
I really feel like a teenage boy.
647
00:53:07,200 --> 00:53:08,760
I've never come that quickly.
648
00:53:09,880 --> 00:53:11,200
It's lovely, isn't it?
649
00:53:21,160 --> 00:53:22,840
That was really very hot.
650
00:53:24,320 --> 00:53:25,720
You are hot.
651
00:53:25,800 --> 00:53:26,800
You too.
652
00:53:38,120 --> 00:53:41,880
I've been wanting to try that
for a very long time, but I never did.
653
00:53:42,840 --> 00:53:43,720
Why not?
654
00:53:47,040 --> 00:53:48,240
I don't know.
655
00:53:51,560 --> 00:53:54,520
I had a perfectly fine sex life with Sara.
656
00:53:58,240 --> 00:54:00,200
People miss out on so much
657
00:54:00,920 --> 00:54:04,120
by not sharing their fantasies
and feelings with each other.
658
00:54:05,120 --> 00:54:06,600
Yeah, so it turns out.
659
00:54:13,120 --> 00:54:16,200
The moment you entered me
I almost couldn't take it anymore.
660
00:54:16,880 --> 00:54:18,000
I could feel it.
661
00:54:18,960 --> 00:54:19,840
Yeah?
662
00:54:20,760 --> 00:54:22,600
Yeah, you completely relaxed.
663
00:54:24,760 --> 00:54:26,160
You fully surrendered.
664
00:54:36,320 --> 00:54:37,320
Thank you.
665
00:54:39,080 --> 00:54:40,120
For what?
666
00:54:42,600 --> 00:54:47,160
For, well… for the sex, I think?
667
00:54:49,880 --> 00:54:52,560
No one's ever thanked me for sex before.
668
00:54:54,240 --> 00:54:56,440
Yeah. How silly.
669
00:54:58,440 --> 00:54:59,280
Sorry.
670
00:55:01,160 --> 00:55:02,760
This was just really…
671
00:55:30,040 --> 00:55:34,320
SARA MATOUK -TODAY
5 MISSED CALLS
672
00:55:34,400 --> 00:55:37,840
HEY, SWEETIE. I'M IN AMSTERDAM.
CAN WE MEET THIS AFTERNOON?
673
00:55:42,480 --> 00:55:43,480
Oh my God.
674
00:55:44,840 --> 00:55:45,760
What?
675
00:55:49,000 --> 00:55:50,360
Sara is in Amsterdam.
676
00:55:51,840 --> 00:55:54,240
-I didn't know she was coming.
-No, neither did I.
677
00:55:57,480 --> 00:55:59,560
-Right…
-Fuck.
678
00:56:01,680 --> 00:56:03,120
You are going to her, right?
679
00:56:03,200 --> 00:56:05,280
I don't know.
680
00:56:05,360 --> 00:56:09,160
Get a grip, you're going.
I think you two have enough to talk about.
681
00:56:11,320 --> 00:56:13,200
No, can't I hide with you?
682
00:56:13,280 --> 00:56:15,280
Anne, fuck you. It's your girlfriend.
683
00:56:15,360 --> 00:56:18,000
I don't want you to avoid her
by being with me.
684
00:56:18,640 --> 00:56:20,080
-Here.
-That was a joke.
685
00:56:20,160 --> 00:56:21,200
Yeah, funny.
686
00:56:21,920 --> 00:56:22,760
Come on.
687
00:56:29,040 --> 00:56:30,280
Just say what you feel.
688
00:56:31,840 --> 00:56:32,720
Yes.
689
00:57:09,680 --> 00:57:10,880
-Hey.
-Hey.
690
00:57:45,120 --> 00:57:47,680
-I love you, right?
-I love you too.
691
00:57:51,560 --> 00:57:53,760
Okay. I don't want to go to Montreal.
692
00:57:59,160 --> 00:58:00,400
You seemed to…
693
00:58:01,640 --> 00:58:03,800
Oh, did I not say that out loud?
694
00:58:06,600 --> 00:58:07,880
Come on, An.
695
00:58:07,960 --> 00:58:08,920
Anyway…
696
00:58:11,000 --> 00:58:12,680
I need to rewrite my book.
697
00:58:15,160 --> 00:58:16,120
Yes.
698
00:58:17,000 --> 00:58:19,080
They actually thought it was terrible.
699
00:58:19,680 --> 00:58:21,960
What the hell? Your book is brilliant.
700
00:58:22,040 --> 00:58:24,000
Yeah, well, they had some good points.
701
00:58:24,080 --> 00:58:26,160
Also in terms of content
and style and stuff.
702
00:58:26,760 --> 00:58:28,200
I really think it's nonsense.
703
00:58:29,520 --> 00:58:31,320
Yes, but it's not.
704
00:58:32,160 --> 00:58:33,080
Okay.
705
00:58:36,520 --> 00:58:38,720
I have to stay
in Amsterdam a little longer.
706
00:58:46,080 --> 00:58:47,760
To rewrite my book.
707
00:58:48,520 --> 00:58:49,400
Yeah.
708
00:58:55,560 --> 00:58:56,520
You okay?
709
00:58:57,200 --> 00:58:59,760
Yes, I'm just tired. Jet lag.
710
00:58:59,840 --> 00:59:00,760
Yeah.
711
00:59:06,720 --> 00:59:09,200
I came all the way here for you.
712
00:59:09,280 --> 00:59:11,280
Yeah, to come and get me.
713
00:59:14,360 --> 00:59:16,560
I don't think you're here just for me.
714
00:59:17,920 --> 00:59:22,080
There's a bump in the road of your plan,
and I'm your bump.
715
00:59:22,160 --> 00:59:23,600
You are not my bump.
716
00:59:25,320 --> 00:59:26,360
Yes, I am.
717
00:59:27,680 --> 00:59:29,520
Sweetie, you are not a bump at all.
718
00:59:30,400 --> 00:59:32,440
Don't be so silly.
Where did you get that idea?
719
00:59:34,960 --> 00:59:37,240
Sorry. I don't really know.
720
00:59:53,840 --> 00:59:55,000
I've missed you.
721
00:59:57,520 --> 00:59:58,920
I missed you too.
722
01:02:15,480 --> 01:02:17,120
Why is this so difficult?
723
01:02:23,640 --> 01:02:25,280
NOW
APPLY FOR PASSPORT AT CITY HALL
724
01:03:19,440 --> 01:03:20,720
What's going on?
725
01:03:23,160 --> 01:03:24,320
Shit, man.
726
01:03:50,040 --> 01:03:51,320
She's already asleep.
727
01:03:52,520 --> 01:03:53,600
Not now.
728
01:03:55,800 --> 01:03:57,520
But when will you do it then?
729
01:04:01,360 --> 01:04:02,360
Not now.
730
01:04:05,600 --> 01:04:06,680
Or should I?
731
01:04:11,960 --> 01:04:12,920
Okay, An.
732
01:04:17,960 --> 01:04:19,720
Just say what you feel.
733
01:04:23,240 --> 01:04:24,320
Saar.
734
01:04:33,200 --> 01:04:34,120
Saar? Can we…
735
01:04:34,880 --> 01:04:36,120
-Yes?
-Talk?
736
01:04:38,160 --> 01:04:39,120
Now?
737
01:04:41,760 --> 01:04:42,680
Yes.
738
01:04:47,840 --> 01:04:49,160
Wow, okay.
739
01:04:52,600 --> 01:04:53,440
Okay.
740
01:04:56,080 --> 01:04:57,080
I love you
741
01:04:57,600 --> 01:05:01,680
and you're sweet and pretty
and smart and sexy and…
742
01:05:04,200 --> 01:05:06,520
But I don't want to go to Montreal yet.
743
01:05:11,920 --> 01:05:12,760
Okay.
744
01:05:13,920 --> 01:05:18,600
And I just don't know
if I want to go at all.
745
01:05:22,200 --> 01:05:25,400
You want a long-distance relationship?
746
01:05:27,080 --> 01:05:28,160
No.
747
01:05:35,880 --> 01:05:36,800
Yes.
748
01:05:39,760 --> 01:05:42,160
I don't know.
I just don't think I can do it.
749
01:05:43,680 --> 01:05:45,000
Are you breaking up with me?
750
01:05:48,840 --> 01:05:50,720
Yes. I think I am.
751
01:05:51,760 --> 01:05:54,160
You think? If you are,
you should know for sure.
752
01:05:56,760 --> 01:05:58,160
I know for sure.
753
01:06:07,560 --> 01:06:08,800
But… Okay…
754
01:06:10,440 --> 01:06:12,520
Sorry, I don't understand.
755
01:06:14,880 --> 01:06:18,080
We had a plan. Everything was going well.
756
01:06:18,160 --> 01:06:21,080
No, Saar, you had a plan.
I just had to go along with it.
757
01:06:21,160 --> 01:06:22,240
What?
758
01:06:25,960 --> 01:06:27,240
And I also met someone.
759
01:06:27,840 --> 01:06:29,400
Not that that matters.
760
01:06:29,480 --> 01:06:32,600
-Do you want to be with her?
-No, them, no.
761
01:06:33,400 --> 01:06:35,320
And that doesn't matter either!
762
01:06:37,800 --> 01:06:39,840
Okay. I just have the feeling
763
01:06:39,920 --> 01:06:44,000
that I only go along with things for you
764
01:06:44,080 --> 01:06:46,800
and that I don't think at all
about what I want myself.
765
01:06:46,880 --> 01:06:49,800
So you just break up with me
without talking about it first?
766
01:06:49,880 --> 01:06:51,920
I am not just breaking up with you, Saar.
767
01:06:52,000 --> 01:06:54,640
I have really been having doubts
for a very long time.
768
01:06:54,720 --> 01:06:56,080
Then say something.
769
01:06:56,160 --> 01:06:57,160
Yes.
770
01:06:58,600 --> 01:07:00,360
Saar, you can look at me like that,
771
01:07:00,440 --> 01:07:03,000
but you're not the easiest
to talk to, you know.
772
01:07:03,080 --> 01:07:05,280
No, really. There's no space for it.
773
01:07:05,360 --> 01:07:08,440
You ask about it,
but you pay zero attention to the answer.
774
01:07:08,520 --> 01:07:09,640
Jesus.
775
01:07:13,880 --> 01:07:16,160
Saar, sweetie, Saar, sorry, all right?
776
01:07:24,960 --> 01:07:25,880
It's just…
777
01:07:28,280 --> 01:07:29,640
I just don't want this.
778
01:07:32,000 --> 01:07:33,640
I don't want to go to Montreal.
779
01:07:34,320 --> 01:07:36,360
I don't want a polyamorous relationship.
780
01:07:37,800 --> 01:07:41,840
Yes, you do, and that is fine,
but I just can't right now.
781
01:07:41,920 --> 01:07:44,800
You were fine to be with me
and whatever she...
782
01:07:44,880 --> 01:07:45,720
they are called.
783
01:07:45,800 --> 01:07:48,520
Really? You think
I was more than fine with that?
784
01:07:48,600 --> 01:07:51,600
I think you were enjoying it,
more than with me at least.
785
01:07:52,120 --> 01:07:54,560
Yeah, at least with them
I could talk, yes.
786
01:07:54,640 --> 01:07:57,320
Yes. I had really good conversations.
787
01:07:57,400 --> 01:08:00,000
-Super, An, this is really great, thanks.
-Yeah.
788
01:08:01,880 --> 01:08:04,520
And since when
are you against poly relationships?
789
01:08:05,440 --> 01:08:09,600
I have nothing against poly relationships.
I have something against this one.
790
01:08:10,720 --> 01:08:13,920
Saar, it was a last resort for us.
That's not healthy, right?
791
01:08:14,840 --> 01:08:16,120
I never wanted it.
792
01:08:16,200 --> 01:08:19,360
Why didn't you say so?
We've had major conversations about this.
793
01:08:19,440 --> 01:08:20,640
You don't listen.
794
01:08:20,720 --> 01:08:23,160
You don't want to hear it.
I can't talk to you.
795
01:08:23,240 --> 01:08:26,800
Talking would be a lot easier
if you learned to communicate better.
796
01:08:26,880 --> 01:08:30,000
How fucking difficult is that really?
I can't smell what you think.
797
01:08:30,080 --> 01:08:32,440
What a poor excuse
to not have to take responsibility.
798
01:08:32,520 --> 01:08:35,120
-Really, sometimes, Saar…
-Yes?
799
01:08:35,200 --> 01:08:39,200
Sometimes you have to put in more effort
to have a conversation.
800
01:08:39,280 --> 01:08:40,920
Sometimes you have to observe.
801
01:08:41,520 --> 01:08:44,400
Just look at someone.
Yeah, like that, good.
802
01:08:44,480 --> 01:08:46,560
I am alone in this relationship.
803
01:08:47,440 --> 01:08:50,160
What? Sorry, what kind of melodramatic--
804
01:08:50,240 --> 01:08:53,320
No, what have you contributed to us?
Seriously, name it.
805
01:08:53,400 --> 01:08:55,120
What are you talking about?
806
01:08:55,200 --> 01:08:57,480
Of course I make plans
because you do nothing.
807
01:08:57,560 --> 01:09:00,400
No, because you don't ask what I want!
808
01:09:00,480 --> 01:09:01,880
Saar, that's why not!
809
01:09:01,960 --> 01:09:04,920
You only came here to pick me up.
Really, I swear.
810
01:09:05,000 --> 01:09:07,200
You haven't come here
to solve things, really.
811
01:09:07,280 --> 01:09:10,480
You're only imposing your own plan on me.
You're fucking egotistical.
812
01:09:10,560 --> 01:09:13,040
That's what you are.
You never think about what I want.
813
01:09:13,120 --> 01:09:16,040
You are such a defeatist, An.
814
01:09:16,640 --> 01:09:20,200
You think the entire world is against you.
How rough you've had it.
815
01:09:20,280 --> 01:09:22,440
What the fuck do you have
to complain about?
816
01:09:22,520 --> 01:09:25,160
You can be
such a spoiled little white girl.
817
01:09:25,240 --> 01:09:26,120
Fuck you, Saar.
818
01:09:26,200 --> 01:09:30,280
There are worse things than a failed book
and a failed relationship.
819
01:09:34,040 --> 01:09:35,520
Our relationship failed?
820
01:09:35,600 --> 01:09:36,840
This is what I mean!
821
01:09:36,920 --> 01:09:39,240
Is that what you took
from that conversation?
822
01:09:39,320 --> 01:09:41,480
Oh my God, this girl, seriously.
823
01:09:41,560 --> 01:09:43,280
Do you call this a conversation?
824
01:09:45,480 --> 01:09:48,880
We're here in the middle of the night
fucking yelling at each other.
825
01:09:50,600 --> 01:09:51,520
Yeah?
826
01:09:52,920 --> 01:09:54,480
Okay, we're done. Good.
827
01:09:55,400 --> 01:09:58,440
This is so fucking cowardly of you,
but I'm used to that by now.
828
01:09:58,520 --> 01:10:00,280
Fine, Saar.
829
01:10:00,360 --> 01:10:02,200
That's great, call me a coward.
830
01:10:03,280 --> 01:10:04,560
Just call me a coward.
831
01:10:06,280 --> 01:10:08,920
I just feel that I'm never enough for you.
832
01:10:09,520 --> 01:10:13,040
I'm not smart enough,
not ambitious enough, not sexy enough.
833
01:10:13,120 --> 01:10:16,880
That's news to me.
Not sexy enough? Since when?
834
01:10:16,960 --> 01:10:19,720
-I find you very sexy.
-Well, you never say it.
835
01:10:19,800 --> 01:10:22,760
And your new love surely does?
God, she meets one person
836
01:10:22,840 --> 01:10:26,080
and she compares our entire relationship
with that. I should have known.
837
01:10:26,160 --> 01:10:28,080
-Lou is not my love.
-Lou.
838
01:10:28,160 --> 01:10:29,760
Yes, Lou, yes.
839
01:10:30,360 --> 01:10:31,200
Nice name.
840
01:10:31,280 --> 01:10:33,800
I just realized how horrible I can feel
when I'm with you.
841
01:10:38,280 --> 01:10:39,520
An, I'm not doing this.
842
01:10:40,400 --> 01:10:43,800
-I won't be accused of all this.
-Well, I just felt like shit.
843
01:10:43,880 --> 01:10:46,600
Maybe that's not because of me,
but because of you!
844
01:11:22,480 --> 01:11:23,400
An?
845
01:11:26,600 --> 01:11:27,440
An.
846
01:11:31,760 --> 01:11:34,320
You are the first girl
I fell in love with.
847
01:11:36,920 --> 01:11:39,760
The first girl I introduced to my parents.
848
01:11:41,600 --> 01:11:44,240
I want to spend
the rest of my life with you.
849
01:11:46,640 --> 01:11:47,720
Anne…
850
01:11:58,960 --> 01:12:02,680
You want to be with me
as long as it's on your terms, Saar.
851
01:12:02,760 --> 01:12:04,080
No, goddammit.
852
01:12:04,160 --> 01:12:08,000
Yes, really, Saar. It doesn't work.
I don't want this anymore.
853
01:12:28,640 --> 01:12:29,920
I'm leaving.
854
01:12:35,320 --> 01:12:36,160
Yes.
855
01:12:36,680 --> 01:12:37,560
Okay.
856
01:12:59,960 --> 01:13:02,200
I hope you'll be a little happier, An.
857
01:13:03,800 --> 01:13:07,200
With yourself
and with the world around you.
858
01:15:09,600 --> 01:15:10,640
Hey.
859
01:15:12,120 --> 01:15:13,280
Maybe grab a shower?
860
01:15:15,080 --> 01:15:16,120
No, never mind.
861
01:15:36,080 --> 01:15:37,080
Come on, darling.
862
01:15:40,440 --> 01:15:41,760
-That quickly?
-Yeah.
863
01:15:45,360 --> 01:15:46,280
Yes.
864
01:16:39,520 --> 01:16:42,120
Yeah, a sad night in a bar
865
01:16:42,200 --> 01:16:44,720
and a special encounter with drag queens
866
01:16:44,800 --> 01:16:47,320
meant the beginning
of Christine and the Queens.
867
01:16:47,840 --> 01:16:52,160
A beautiful first album, for everyone
who could use some Chaleur Humaine.
868
01:17:05,840 --> 01:17:06,800
Annie!
869
01:17:08,000 --> 01:17:08,880
Hey, Dad.
870
01:17:18,040 --> 01:17:19,120
Well…
871
01:17:24,560 --> 01:17:26,440
Does this call for tea or whiskey?
872
01:17:29,120 --> 01:17:29,960
Whiskey.
873
01:17:38,800 --> 01:17:39,880
Here you go.
874
01:18:13,720 --> 01:18:15,720
Are you still lying on the couch?
875
01:18:18,200 --> 01:18:20,240
I went to the toilet a few times,
876
01:18:20,320 --> 01:18:22,640
and I made lunch, washed the dishes.
877
01:18:23,480 --> 01:18:27,400
Okay, Annie, a different approach.
Tomorrow we'll go for a walk.
878
01:18:35,200 --> 01:18:36,040
Dad!
879
01:18:37,160 --> 01:18:38,120
Come on, Annie.
880
01:18:39,960 --> 01:18:42,040
Sometimes you just have to flip a switch.
881
01:18:42,800 --> 01:18:44,440
Or you'll never get anywhere.
882
01:18:46,040 --> 01:18:48,760
-You're one to talk.
-What do you mean by that?
883
01:18:51,720 --> 01:18:54,320
Since the divorce
you're no ray of sunshine.
884
01:18:55,040 --> 01:18:56,480
You never talk about it.
885
01:18:56,560 --> 01:18:58,640
Some things are difficult to talk about.
886
01:18:58,720 --> 01:19:02,360
Yeah, I know, Dad. You raised me
never to talk about anything.
887
01:19:02,440 --> 01:19:03,600
Hey, Annie.
888
01:19:04,920 --> 01:19:06,040
Well, think about it.
889
01:19:06,800 --> 01:19:10,280
When do we ever talk about feelings
or about deeper things?
890
01:19:12,120 --> 01:19:14,080
Why do we never talk about the divorce?
891
01:19:17,160 --> 01:19:19,800
Why does everything
always have to be jovial?
892
01:19:21,320 --> 01:19:24,440
Why do I always feel
that I'm saying the wrong things?
893
01:19:24,520 --> 01:19:26,640
Or that I can never quite be myself?
894
01:19:27,560 --> 01:19:30,120
Because you never taught me
to talk about things.
895
01:19:32,160 --> 01:19:33,360
That's enough, Anne.
896
01:19:33,440 --> 01:19:36,000
You can't pin everything
on your upbringing.
897
01:19:36,080 --> 01:19:38,320
You're an adult. Start acting like one.
898
01:19:40,200 --> 01:19:42,520
-You're in control, you know?
-Oh, really?
899
01:19:42,600 --> 01:19:46,160
I'm sorry if we used to talk very little
about certain things.
900
01:19:46,240 --> 01:19:48,600
If you want to change things, change them.
901
01:19:49,760 --> 01:19:52,720
It's not always your environment.
Sometimes it's you.
902
01:19:52,800 --> 01:19:54,680
You are the cause of your own problems.
903
01:19:55,880 --> 01:19:59,600
And yes, that's unpleasant
and vulnerable to admit,
904
01:19:59,680 --> 01:20:01,400
but that's what we should do.
905
01:20:05,000 --> 01:20:06,400
Are you walking away now?
906
01:20:07,120 --> 01:20:10,520
-Well, that is very mature.
-No, I fancy a drink.
907
01:20:10,600 --> 01:20:13,600
Fine, you go have a drink. I'm going home.
908
01:20:24,520 --> 01:20:26,720
EVERYTHING OKAY?
909
01:20:49,600 --> 01:20:51,840
Sorry, Annie.
I shouldn't have walked away.
910
01:20:56,520 --> 01:20:57,720
I'm sorry too.
911
01:21:01,080 --> 01:21:01,960
How do you feel?
912
01:21:02,040 --> 01:21:04,880
Dad, we don't
have to suddenly talk about feelings.
913
01:21:04,960 --> 01:21:08,360
No, I mean it.
You're clearly down in the dumps.
914
01:21:08,440 --> 01:21:09,800
What can I do?
915
01:21:13,480 --> 01:21:14,400
Nothing.
916
01:21:14,920 --> 01:21:16,880
Okay, but what can you do yourself?
917
01:21:17,400 --> 01:21:20,120
What makes you happy or relaxed?
How do you unwind?
918
01:21:21,560 --> 01:21:23,400
Writing, I think.
919
01:21:25,360 --> 01:21:26,480
Do that, then.
920
01:21:27,320 --> 01:21:31,560
Yes, I'm doing that already.
I'm rewriting my entire book.
921
01:21:31,640 --> 01:21:33,160
Well, continue doing that.
922
01:21:33,920 --> 01:21:34,880
Yes.
923
01:21:39,040 --> 01:21:41,000
Would you like to read a bit soon?
924
01:21:44,280 --> 01:21:45,840
I'm curious what you think.
925
01:21:46,480 --> 01:21:48,120
Yes, I would love to.
926
01:21:54,960 --> 01:21:56,440
Who's in it then?
927
01:21:57,400 --> 01:21:59,080
Well, everybody, basically.
928
01:21:59,680 --> 01:22:03,080
But with different names
and it has been dramatized a bit.
929
01:22:04,040 --> 01:22:05,040
Sounds fun, man.
930
01:22:07,360 --> 01:22:08,840
So your friends as well?
931
01:22:09,640 --> 01:22:11,320
What am I like in it?
932
01:22:12,920 --> 01:22:16,200
You are the best friend
933
01:22:16,280 --> 01:22:19,960
and the main character doesn't
pay her the attention she deserves
934
01:22:20,040 --> 01:22:22,000
because she's always there for her.
935
01:22:22,080 --> 01:22:24,960
And for that
the main character should apologize.
936
01:22:27,200 --> 01:22:28,360
Are you apologizing?
937
01:22:31,640 --> 01:22:32,480
Yes.
938
01:22:34,120 --> 01:22:35,080
Sorry.
939
01:22:36,520 --> 01:22:38,720
Thanks. It's okay.
940
01:22:39,600 --> 01:22:41,560
You were there for me
when I wasn't doing well
941
01:22:41,640 --> 01:22:43,920
and I'm here for you.
942
01:22:47,040 --> 01:22:48,440
Love you, Jippie.
943
01:22:48,520 --> 01:22:50,880
All right. I love you too.
944
01:23:00,440 --> 01:23:01,320
And…
945
01:23:03,600 --> 01:23:04,440
Us?
946
01:23:05,880 --> 01:23:06,720
Yes.
947
01:23:07,240 --> 01:23:09,840
It was fun, right?
948
01:23:11,840 --> 01:23:13,240
Yes.
949
01:23:14,040 --> 01:23:18,000
Yeah, I'm not looking
for anything romantic.
950
01:23:18,600 --> 01:23:21,640
I think you're great
and fun to hang out with,
951
01:23:21,720 --> 01:23:24,360
but I'm just not looking
for anything more right now.
952
01:23:28,640 --> 01:23:29,480
Yes.
953
01:23:30,560 --> 01:23:32,000
No, same here, I think.
954
01:23:34,960 --> 01:23:37,600
Sorry, I think it is so chill
how direct you are.
955
01:23:37,680 --> 01:23:40,040
I would've beaten
around the bush for weeks.
956
01:23:40,120 --> 01:23:42,680
I know. That's why I said it.
957
01:23:48,560 --> 01:23:52,320
And I just found out
that I was lost myself,
958
01:23:52,400 --> 01:23:56,280
and that I could not entirely be myself
in my relationship with my ex
959
01:23:56,360 --> 01:23:58,280
and also with my parents and stuff.
960
01:23:58,960 --> 01:24:01,760
And there are a lot
of positive things in there as well.
961
01:24:01,840 --> 01:24:05,600
It's very personal.
I mean, all my friends are in it.
962
01:24:05,680 --> 01:24:07,040
It's super queer.
963
01:24:07,920 --> 01:24:11,800
It has actually become
kind of a collection of memories.
964
01:24:13,160 --> 01:24:16,760
And you were right about the searching
and who was the hero of the story.
965
01:24:17,880 --> 01:24:23,240
Well, I have just been
subconsciously sabotaging my own life.
966
01:24:24,360 --> 01:24:27,600
I have taken everything for granted.
967
01:24:30,280 --> 01:24:33,720
But, okay, yes, I'm behind this book 100%,
968
01:24:33,800 --> 01:24:37,880
so if you don't like it,
then I just don't know what to do anymore.
969
01:24:37,960 --> 01:24:39,560
Then it's over.
970
01:24:40,480 --> 01:24:41,400
Anne.
971
01:24:42,320 --> 01:24:43,800
I really liked it.
972
01:24:46,560 --> 01:24:47,480
-Really?
-Yes.
973
01:24:47,560 --> 01:24:50,040
It's still searching, but with a goal.
974
01:24:50,720 --> 01:24:54,320
And you feel how personal it is,
but it's also very relatable.
975
01:24:55,440 --> 01:24:56,880
You've found your story.
976
01:24:58,320 --> 01:25:00,320
Well, I'm glad.
977
01:25:01,040 --> 01:25:02,880
-And the title?
-Yes.
978
01:25:03,680 --> 01:25:07,480
It's about who the main character is
in relation to the people around her.
979
01:25:08,280 --> 01:25:09,520
Hence the…
980
01:25:09,600 --> 01:25:10,640
I understand.
981
01:25:22,400 --> 01:25:23,920
Hey! Hi.
982
01:25:28,480 --> 01:25:29,760
Annie!
983
01:25:32,640 --> 01:25:34,960
-Hey. Shantay, you stay, dick.
-Yes.
984
01:25:35,040 --> 01:25:36,320
What's all this then?
985
01:25:36,400 --> 01:25:40,000
Yeah, well, we had originally organized
a going-away party for you, but…
986
01:25:40,600 --> 01:25:42,880
So now it's an Anne-is-staying-here party.
987
01:25:42,960 --> 01:25:45,320
And hopefully
an Anne-finished-her-book party.
988
01:25:45,400 --> 01:25:47,640
Oh God, I love you so much.
989
01:25:47,720 --> 01:25:49,080
And your book?
990
01:25:49,680 --> 01:25:51,640
Yes, my book is being published!
991
01:25:53,680 --> 01:25:54,520
Cheers.
992
01:25:56,080 --> 01:25:58,160
To you, dear An, and to your book,
993
01:25:58,240 --> 01:26:02,320
which you, of course, owe entirely to us
because, well, we are all in it.
994
01:26:02,400 --> 01:26:03,680
Yes, well, yeah.
995
01:26:03,760 --> 01:26:05,800
-Cheers!
-Cheers!
996
01:26:06,880 --> 01:26:07,960
Thanks, darlings.
997
01:26:08,040 --> 01:26:09,120
I've made skewers.
998
01:26:09,200 --> 01:26:10,320
No, you didn't…
999
01:26:21,920 --> 01:26:22,920
Dear Saar,
1000
01:26:24,520 --> 01:26:28,320
our last night together
has become a bad memory
1001
01:26:28,400 --> 01:26:29,520
and I don't want that.
1002
01:26:32,720 --> 01:26:35,800
I want to hold on
to our beautiful memories so badly.
1003
01:26:39,760 --> 01:26:43,040
But I also think
different things make us happy.
1004
01:26:43,640 --> 01:26:45,040
And that's okay.
1005
01:26:46,800 --> 01:26:48,160
I'm happy now.
1006
01:26:49,760 --> 01:26:50,920
At home,
1007
01:26:51,000 --> 01:26:52,120
in Amsterdam,
1008
01:26:52,640 --> 01:26:53,720
with my friends.
1009
01:26:57,520 --> 01:27:00,880
I hope that you are too.
1010
01:27:02,280 --> 01:27:04,840
And sorry for the things I said,
1011
01:27:05,400 --> 01:27:07,880
or maybe didn't say.
1012
01:27:07,960 --> 01:27:10,240
I know how frustrating I can be.
1013
01:27:12,680 --> 01:27:15,280
I have become better at it, at talking.
1014
01:27:16,640 --> 01:27:19,800
I mean, I'm still bad at it, but better.
1015
01:27:21,280 --> 01:27:25,840
I hope that you're also busy
investing in new memories.
1016
01:27:27,520 --> 01:27:31,800
My mom said that recently,
that the best investment that you can make
1017
01:27:31,880 --> 01:27:33,240
is in memories.
1018
01:27:36,000 --> 01:27:37,520
So that's what I'm doing.
1019
01:27:44,200 --> 01:27:46,000
Three, two, one…
1020
01:27:47,880 --> 01:27:49,840
No!
1021
01:27:50,680 --> 01:27:52,440
And I really am feeling better.
1022
01:27:53,960 --> 01:27:55,520
I rewrote my book.
1023
01:27:56,480 --> 01:27:58,440
And yes.
1024
01:27:59,920 --> 01:28:02,680
You are inevitably in it.
1025
01:28:18,160 --> 01:28:19,600
I hope that you like it
1026
01:28:20,520 --> 01:28:24,200
and also recognize our fun
and nice moments in it.
1027
01:28:25,360 --> 01:28:28,680
-Hey. Wow, so nice that you're here.
-Yeah, congratulations.
1028
01:28:30,760 --> 01:28:34,560
Anyway, read it or don't.
1029
01:28:38,880 --> 01:28:40,760
I hope you're doing well.
1030
01:28:43,240 --> 01:28:44,240
Much love.
69888
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