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I don't think you've met Nandi Shesi,
she's a member of our board of governors.

I'm also called as mum.
I just wanted to congratulate you.

It can't have been easy taking over after
the unfortunate departure of Mr. Smythe.

Fortunately, Jason and Maxi gave
me a hundred and a half percent.

International quality.

You know, I remember when I was the
lead in my school play right here. It was.

The first time I kissed?

He's not the whole story, no.

It was. You listened to Smooch's Backstage.

Don't give Jason ideas.

I don't need your ideas,
I've got enough of my own.

Go on.

Kids, get your stuff.
We've booked a table at a silver bench.

We are celebrating.

Oh, and Max, they've got a
whole banding menu so you can

stick to your diet without
having to resort to salad.

Since Pranamana died, I thought we
agreed you were going to try a low-carb.

No, you agreed.

I'm going to have some on my phone.

Are you ready? We're good.
I'm in store material.

I couldn't keep my eyes off you.

It would have been nice if my
dad was here, but, yeah, whatever.

That's his loss.

My game.

A great play, Miss Bellard. You really
are a welcome addition to the school, eh?

Men aren't allowed in
the cost-changing rooms.

Gary Caden will tell you he's allowed
to be wherever he wants to, Miss B.

You two seem close.

Yeah, he's good to me.

Are you spying on me, Miss B?

I'm just looking out for you, Lexi.

Enough to worry about me.
I can take care of myself.

To something that was pure.

You might as well have
created a sickness with no cure.

You should tell her you're thankful now.

You should tell her you're thankful now.

It doesn't mean she wants this.

She doesn't know you love it.

She can't be stupid.

Stupid bitch!

You're a cockatoo!

For the monster I can see
is inside me, is inside me.

There's a place down by the lake,
down by the lake, down by the lake.

What are you doing?

Putting everything back.

You... Where it belongs.

You can't!

It's not healthy, Jo.

She was our daughter.

And I miss her every
day, but you can't wallow.

Wallow?

You're behaving as if she left us.

It's been 19 years.

I know how long it's been.

You have to let it go,
otherwise it will destroy us.

I think it already has.

I think I already knew.

You see how cockier when
your fucking family goes down?

Piece of shit.

You know this is our spot.

We'll find a new spot, I like it here.

Why the hell are you so hectic?

Why the hell are you so triggered?

Do you even know who Megan's parents are?

You know what? They're Clayton's. The
ones that think they own the bloody school.

They kind of do.

Okay babe, I'm going to swap out for you.

Megan's mom planted this tree
here when she was hardcore.

Okay, so technically
this tree belongs to us.

That one fits with the one
that has someone else's hand.

Sorry? Is it a Clayton thing
to be all up in people's faces?

I just want to put these
down before chapel.

Well you just don't
always get what you want.

You wait for me to
finish then you can leave.

Why can't you just move?
You're not even doing anything.

Listen here, Megan.
You don't own this quad.

Actually, there's a recent
land claim that shows that

this land was forcibly
removed by the school founders

from community members that stay in mudhuts
with no running water or electricity.

They pay rent for their own land.

Are these people your family?

No.

So then you don't own the quad either.

Hello.

Hello.

Hey.

What happened to you?

I ran into this adorable
boy that hung his saddle.

One of them took offense
at something I said.

Ah, did you perhaps imply that his
girlfriend was a goat by any chance?

Sheep. Barely he didn't like that.

I think I know the end of the story though.

Right.

So, no time to clean up that footage then.

80% of this footage it's missed.

But I'm still downloading the program.
It's a beast.

So, we'll see.

But it's something else there.

Yeah.

I found this at the entrance
to the Old Mill House.

Completely forgot to mention it.

Do you remember if anyone was
wearing a shirt with cufflinks that night?

Gary Clayton.

Seems to be a cufflink-wearing kind of guy.

How can you see?

His hand was all fucked
up like he'd been in a fight.

What are you saying?

I'm saying that someone's
behind this cover up and Gary

Clayton's got the money
and the power to pull it off.

We need a lot more than we
have to make a case on Gary.

Yeah.

And once I'm finished with that
footage you might have what we need.

Mm-hmm.

You know, Dylan.

Dylan's taking a lot of
photographs that night.

That's a bloody long shot, but I
think those are worth looking at also.

I'll go talk to him now.

You hang on to that.

Take care of yourself.

Okay. Well, thanks for letting us know.

We love you, sir.

That was Maurice from the station.

Sir?

So, he's pressing charges against you.

Crimin and jurea.

What's that?

It means you could go to jail, Gary.

Little bitch.

I mean, here's someone who
incites violence on a daily basis.

Then as soon as somebody retaliates...
No, he goes running to the cops.

He didn't have to go
running to anyone, Gary.

The whole country has seen the video.

Careful, all right?

He's a little bitch, okay? This is a...

Mr. Tough Guy, huh?

Okay, fine.

Fine, I'll sort this out.

I'll sort this out.

Hey!

Do you have a zero
tolerance policy for bullying?

Whatever!

Are you okay?

I found that they're
just salty about my dad.

How much for death?

Yeah, but they don't know that.

It'll blow over, mate.

That's easy for you to say. You're
not the one being shoved into lockers.

I'm no good in this ballot.
I'm gonna get advice.

No, no, no, no, please.

I mean, she's just using
this for information, right?

So, she doesn't care about you.

Oh, you do.

Or you're just trying to protect yourself.

In case she finds out what you did.

I'm not the only one
with secrets here, Megan.

You were there at that,
and you agreed to the plan.

I'm not gonna go down for this alone.

Well, there it is.

What?

The threat.

You only care about your reputation, Jane.

If this whole school had to turn
against me, you wouldn't give a damn.

Oh my God. No, wait, Megan.
No, that's not true.

What I'm saying is that we can deal
with this whole school situation ourselves.

Look, it's me and you.
We need to stick together on this.

Kate.

What can I help you with?

Do you think I can have a look at the photos
that you took the night that Lexi died?

Yes, of course. What's this for?

I'm putting together a photo
essay of Lexi for her mum.

Well, that Lexi was only
there for a minute or two.

I know, it's fine.

I want to include pictures
of her friends as well.

I'd be happy to pick the best ones
if I could just get the lot from you.

Sure. I'll drop them off once I've
transferred the files to a hard drive.

Sorry. Hello?

Sorry, who is this?

You have got to be kidding me.

Sorry.

Lose the docket.

My boss has bosses of eyes on this.
That docket disappears. My career is over.

Fuck it, man. This is
a storm in a teacup.

Do you know that those
charges are bullshit?

So reach out to Hvala's lawyer.
See if you can talk him out of it.

Oh, I didn't give him what he wants.
To see me crawl.

That's your own job, Ababa.
Me, I'd crawl to stay out of court.

Plus, the press is going to crucify you.

Yeah, well, let them try.

They won't have to Gary.
This kind of story writes itself.

Remember, Momburg?

Cuts her bottles.

Fuck it. I will not be bullied.

Here's what I'm going to do.

I'll wrap everything in the red type,
give you a few days to think it through.

That's the best I can do.

Yeah, well, listen, I'm not going
to change my decision, Maurice.

Gary, keep your nose clean.
You get nailed for anything else.

I won't be able to fix it.

Thanks.

And you don't understand what it's
like to be a prisoner in your own home.

I told you, ma'am, you can't
drive when you're like this.

Well, if you'd visited me,
then you could have taken me.

I'm going to die at my school.
Sorry, I've been a bit preoccupied.

Miss Bella, what the
hell are you doing here?

I'm here. I'm some private business.

Private business?
What sort of private business?

Don't you have enough to
worry about, right? I must okay.

I must do a fucking question.

Is that funny, huh? You think it's funny?

Excuse me?

Fine. Well, we will discuss this later.

Who is that asshole?

Hello. Thank you, class.
We've been missed this.

Jenna, why did you wake up?

I am Miss Bella.

Jenna, what is going on?

I need to get to my dorm, please.

Come on, come on.

Will you share a special
bond with the Clayton Center?

There was Megan's 16th.

Mr Clayton went all out, Edward.

It was cool.

Do you know that I'm a scholarship kid?

That must be good.

So, my books and my
tuition is all paid for, but...

That doesn't cover the excursions
and the camps and the sporting gear.

My parents can't afford that.

Clayton's helped you out.

More than that. They pay for everything.

Miss Clayton, she even
buys me clothes, nice clothes.

It's very generous.

Do you know what that means to me?

That means that I fit in around you.

Never asked for anything in return.

No, they haven't asked me for anything.

Not even Carrie?

No.

Jenna, if Carrie was ever
inappropriate with you, or with Lexvie,

you can tell me.

Miss Ballard, Lexvie's
death was an accident.

Why are you asking me all these questions?

Because you're hiding something.

I promise you, you're going to feel a
lot better once you tell me what it is.

I'll feel much better once I
get some rest, Miss Ballard.

If you don't mind.

Have you spoken to your mum, Jen?

No. She'll just freak out. She'll make
me drop some extra murals or something.

Maybe you should, Jen.

Quidders don't become head girl, Megan.

Guys, hang on.

Here.

Full of panic attacks.

Don't these make you really sleepy?

Guys, I need to study.

Jason's going to get some uppers, and
they'll help you stay focused and stay awake.

Guys, if they catch me with the
stuff, they're going to expel me.

You could just go to the school
nurse, Jane. Get a prescription.

No, they'll just make me look weak.

Okay, well then, this is it.

I checked my mum's books.

You should do it.

Jen, I'll keep the tablets so you don't
have to worry about getting caught.

Oh, gosh, thank you.

Sorry, Megan.

It's okay. I got your nurse.
You said you wanted to speak to me?

Yeah.

I just wanted to check up on you.

How are you holding up?

Well, everyone's avoiding me, so...
You know, grief can scare people away.

They feel out of their depth.

It's not just that.
It's the stuff with my dad as well.

He was angry at the memorial.

He wasn't angry. He was sad.

I mean, he loved Lexi too,
and now no one sees that,

and they just think he's this angry jerk.

Well, Lexi and your family are very close.

Lex was like my mum's favourite daughter.

Must have hurt?

No. No, everybody loved Lexi.

I mean, that's just how it was.

So, your dad and Lexi... I know
you think that he ruined the memorial,

but Lexi would have hated it anyway.

I mean, she would have preferred
if we had danced around like crazy

to her favourite song in
the chapel or something.

Right.

In fact, I wanted to make it up to her.

Wow.

Well, Lexi loved poetry.

I mean, poetry is so boring,

but she made it seem so cool.

Have you written her a poem?

No, don't be crazy.

So, yeah, I want to recite one of her
favourite poems at the cultural evening.

That is an amazing idea.

Although I didn't peg you for
somebody who... To have the confidence.

Yeah, well, I don't.

So, that's where you come in.

I was hoping that you would
train me like you did for Lexi.

Of course.

Yeah. Do you know which poem then?

Well, she had a few favourites.

I need to choose one.

Can I have a look tonight and
then come tomorrow morning?

Sounds good.

Thank you.

Cool.

Sorry.

So, what do you see?

This does not look good.

I just see darkness.

So much darkness.

It's a seat.

Trail.

I'm kidding.

I'm afraid.

We're stuck with each other for good.

But what do you really see?

Happily of afters.

Everything we ever wanted.

It makes you move to Joburg,

open your own writing school.

You're super successful.

What about me?

Okay, so you came to that fancy American
university that you sort of searched for.

Colombia.

Uh-huh.

What about you, Lex?

After winning an Oscar
at the age of 22, obviously.

Jason and I moved back here.

He runs the farm and I
write a award-winning poetry.

Every series, John and I live on the farm.

Hey, I'm not just living on the farm.

I'm a poetry.

Please, Lex.

You've got crazy being
stuck all the way out here.

Not stuck if you choose it.

And you know, that way, wherever
you guys are in the world of fear,

sad or... I'm scared.

You'll know where I'm at.

I told you I'd see you again.

What the fuck are you doing here, Carrie?

What are you doing at the police station?

You're telling people about
what we were up to the other night.

Up to them.

You attacked me.

Oh, please don't change
the facts to suit your case.

There was a reason you were there.

He snuck out for a drink.

You were sending me
signals the whole night.

Oh, tell me.

What happened after I left you squirming?

Did you see Lex?

Exactly what you were asking me.

Why was your hand bloody?

Because I punched a wall
after you blue-balled me.

Or did you take what I wouldn't
give you from someone else?

Like Lex?

Are you saying I killed her?

She's her kid.

What kind of fucking monster do
you think I am and I would hurt her kid?

Fucking monster would
force themselves on a woman.

I saw you after the play.

I told her to call you, holding her close.

I was comforting her, you stupid bitch.

Her father is a piece of shit.

He promised her that he'd be
there, but then he skipped out on her.

I was there telling her that I was
proud of her, that I was there for her.

You saw a vulnerable kid with
fucking daddy issues and what?

You went for it.

He's got a fucking daughter's age!

And one day, your daughter will be my age.

And that didn't stop you from
showing your tundra on my throat.

I thought you were interested.

You were the one that said
we should leave the wall.

I'm sorry, Kate.

It's... You know,
I lose my mind.

I know, I know, okay.

I lose my temper, but...

I'm a good dad, okay?
I'm a fucking good dad!

It's my stop.

Get... I'm sorry.

Off!

My stop, Gary.

Jesus.

It's Miss Bellamy.

We were supposed to
meet, but she hasn't pitched.

How are you, ma'am?

When someone dies, you don't have
to be brave all the time, you know?

It's okay to be angry and sad and lost.

Death unwords you, it blows you about.

You don't know which direction
you're supposed to go in.

Look, something's missing.

I'm sorry you can never get back.

But God's always there for us.

You know, sometimes I
feel Him right beside me.

I wish I felt like that.

Sometimes in chapel I feel...

Nothing.

God doesn't only live in churches.

He lives inside of you, in your heart.

You just need to know
how to hear His voice.

And that's what my
worship group's all about.

It's about finding God in
here, making Him your home.

Come with me.

My group starts in 15 minutes.

You may hate it, but you'll get
something out of it, I promise.

Even if it's just the biscuits at the end.

Okay.

You're the head girl, Koba.

I need you to calm the situation.

Racial tensions are escalating.

I know.

But what are you asking me to do?

Talk about it.

Bring the issue out into the open.

I didn't think that you liked it
when things were out in the open.

Then what exactly are you eluding?

This.

Us.

The stolen moments in your office.

I just want to be able to
go to the mall with you.

A restaurant.

I don't know.

Walk in the corridor
and not have to pretend.

I'm doing this for your
good as well, you know that.

Okay.

You are not every breath that I take.

Every morning I'm away.

The photos.

I'm Dylan.

Good morning to you too.

Oh, rough night.

Yes.

Not like you think.

Can we just look at the photos, please?

Is there some guy I don't know about?

Jesus, just drop it, Shane.

Fine.

Touchy.

Feeny.

Yeah.

It looks like he's hurting her.

I didn't see Clayton look at
her with that amount of hatred.

Are you defending Gary fucking Clayton?

No.

I'm just saying we're very fixated on him.

We might be missing
what's right in front of us.

We found the cufflink
at the old mall house.

We know he was there the night next to God.

We don't know that it was his.

He'd buy you off, Clayton.

Don't be a fucking douche.

Well, I don't get it because yesterday
you were ready to string him up.

Whitaker looks ready to kill.

We cannot ignore that, Shane.

We need to find out what Lexi did to him.

So, how'd that make you feel?

Good, actually. Really good.

I could tell that God's
voice was in your heart.

You looked peaceful.

Happy.

Radiant, even.

I did.

What?

What?

I can't even.

Hey.

Mind if I bum one?

Yeah, Mr Whitaker
doesn't know that I smoke.

Well, technically, I've quit.

As far as I'm concerned, this
conversation never happened.

Hey, look, I don't even
know what a cigarette is.

Must be really hard for you guys right now.

Everything that's going on.

You have no idea.

Well, Chris, cool as a cucumber, as usual.

I haven't seen this teen since the
whole Macon Clayton debacle, so...

I haven't heard.

That's a bit before your time.

They caught her with drugs.

Macon?

No.

I didn't think she was the type.

No one did.

Whitaker was said to expel her.

And then Mr Clayton got involved.

Actually, no.

Lexi went to see him.

And then when she came out
of his office, he was like a poof.

The whole thing magically gone.

Yeah.

What the hell are you looking at?

Oh, no, nothing.

I wouldn't want you to
go and get one of Daddy's

little friends to murder
me on that farm.

Sorry, what?

You know, Mr Clayton's right.

Your dad is the reason
why half of us are scared

to death every minute
of every day on our farms.

Why the hell are you so triggered?

My family was held up at
gunpoint less than a month ago.

Five men with assault rifles.

Did you know that?

Yeah.

Neighbor's land was invaded, too.

And if you're so scared, why
doesn't your family give our land back?

My parents own that land legit.

No.

Be with.

Yeah, go and walk away.

Don't you feel responsible for
my mother being held at gunpoint?

You need to calm down.

Calm down?

I'm not the one instigating.

Yeah, and neighbor is my bunny.

Yeah.

Of course you'll stand up for her.

My bunny.

My bunny.

You need to apologize, ma'am.

Apologize for what?

These girls are accusing
my father of farm murders.

Look, I know.

But we cannot let the politics
from outside drive us apart in here.

We need to stick together as a school.

Then they need to stop instigating.

We are not wrong, and I'm sick and
tired of always having to back down.

I know.

But you need to- By what?

The wife's are upset now.

You're a salat, Khayra.

Do you know that?

No.

Great.

Basic bitch number three.

Who are you with?

I don't know what you mean.

Sure, it's inside out, babe.

Who are you with?

She was the sexiest guy in the world.

Do you wanna smoke?

I'm not gonna tell if you don't.

Come on.

I thought this place was off limits.

So who's your babe?

Someone.

From St. Ambrose.

And you?

I thought you and Jason were over.

Oh, God.

My days of school boys are long over.

This one's way more exciting.

I lied about the tree, you know.

Megan's mum didn't plant us.

Bitch.

Sorry.

Thanks.

Megan, I am so sorry about
this morning I overslept.

Oh, it's okay.
I went to Mr. Nickman's pre-group.

You know, I do still want to
do this poetry thing for Lexi.

I'm too.

Good. I'm glad.

Can I ask you something?

How did Lexi stop
Mr. Whittaker from expending?

I, um, Lexi said that she'd
take the blame for me.

She said that Mr. Whittaker
couldn't touch her.

You know, because I knew it was all over.

Do you think she was blackmailing him?

I don't know why.

I've seen his father.

Thanks. I might as well do. Let's go.

Why?

I didn't tell her anything.

You're going to be pleased.

I don't want to still fight anymore.

I'm not fighting.

You know that I love you, right?

I'm freaking out here.
I'm sorry that I'm trying to

leave everything on you,
but you are my best friend.

And I do love you.

I don't think you do, Jen.

I don't even think you really like me.

I get me.

Lexi was the only thing we had in common.

She's gone now.

What can I do for you, Miss Bernard?

Why do you hate her, Mr. Whittaker?

What does she have on you?

I'm telling you to drop this, now.

How did she stop you from expending, Meg?

Sit down.

It appears you have a
conspiracy theory that Lexi

was murdered and that
I killed her, am I correct?

She was about to make a scene in front
of the Clayton's and I restrained her.

I lost my cool.

How did she convince you not to expel Meg?

She didn't convince me.

How did you come up with that nonsense?

People say that after she spoke
to Megan Godoff-Scott Tree.

Oh, she tried.

Lexi could be a little
snake, always turning

one person against the
other for her own ends.

But no.

The Clayton's got wind of
Megan's drug dealing and...

...certainly, they made
the problem go away.

The Clayton's?

Don't be naive.

What I'm about to tell you
is for context, not sympathy.

Nineteen years ago, my three-year-old
daughter was killed in an accident.

Losing a child...
...devastates you.

No matter how flawed you think I
am or however much you may hate me,

know that I could never bring
that pain on another parent.

Lexi's death was a tragic accident.

I understand your impulse to try and
find someone to blame, but there is no one.

And if you continue to cause
trouble, I would be forced to let you go.

Consider this a final warning.
Are we clear?

Yes, sir.

Thank you.

Is there anything you want to tell me, OK?

I lied about the cuffling.

Was Gary's? I ripped it off.

Why?

What were you doing there?
Why the fuck didn't you tell me?

OK.

We had emptied his hip flask,

and we were looking for more booze
when he shoved his tongue down my throat.

And I ripped his sleeve trying to get
away, and I thought that was the end of it.

Jesus.

Why didn't you say anything?

Because I fucked up.

I was supposed to be
meeting Lexi that night, but

instead I was on a booze
run with Gary fucking Clayton.

That's OK.

So Gary was there, at the old millhouse,
pretty much the same time Lexi died.

And you think Whittaker did it?

I don't know who did it, Shane.

No one seems to have a motive.

And everyone seems to have one.

And all I keep doing is barking
up the wrong fucking tree

like there is even a tree
to bark up in the first place.

No, there's a tree all right.

Just look at all the secrets
coming out the wrong way.

Do you have any?

What?

No.

And you? Is there anything
else that you're keeping back?

No.

I swear.

The truth from now on.

Yeah.

The truth.

Megan, wait.

Look, I know you're not
your father and I'm not mine.

I'm sorry about yesterday before chapel.

It's just there's no monopoly on grief, OK?

Lexi was my friend too.

Since when?

You didn't have all the tea on Lexi.

And you still don't.

Dark into my head.

Night star gazing.

Hey.

What's the star?

Turn out the lights.

Switch off your phone.

Follow the signs.

Follow me home.

Reach for the things you love.

And I'll go on.

Oh, we have this time.