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>> I remember one day realizingsomething that shocked me.
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I would wake up in the morning,and I'd have quiet time
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before I went to work.
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And I'd be drinking coffeeand reading the newspaper,
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and I wasn't there.
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Where was I?
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I was at work.
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I was in fictitiousmeetings that, by the way,
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never happened.
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And my boss would
ask me a question,
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and I'd come up with
a brilliant answer.
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And I would play
this out in my mind,
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because I was thinking aboutthe past and the future.
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And I realized the vast
majority of my day,
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my body would be right here,my life would be right here,
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and I was here, or I was here.
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It was like a
light bulb went on.
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[music playing]
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In some part of your lifetime,there's a point where you say,
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there has to be more
to life than what
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I'm experiencing here.
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And that's the very momentyou start to look for more.
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The reason you're in this bodyis to experience that ongoing--
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that underlying reality
of everything you.
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Not to think about it,
not to read about it,
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but to actually move intoa direct experience of it.
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It's the same thing with
peace and stillness.
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Taste it, experience it, stopgrinding and thinking on it.
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You can think about it, thinkabout it, think about it,
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and then you're going to die.
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Or you can say, how
do I bathe in peace
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and absolute pristine
stillness forever.
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How do I do that?
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And how do I do it soon?
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That's your choice.
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[music playing]
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>> It wasn't far
from here, actually,
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quite a few years ago that Iwas skiing with a bunch of mates
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back country.
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It was a beautiful day.
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We were skiing down a slope.
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It was just the[? serendest ?] explosion.
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We got caught in an avalanche,and next thing, I'm under.
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The surprising thing was
that when I went under,
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I just had thisoverwhelming sense of peace.
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I was aware that I was underthe snow, that I was trapped.
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I couldn't breathe.
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My legs couldn't move.
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My arms couldn't move.
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But there was
absolutely no panic.
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It was like this awarenessof this endless ocean
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of peace and stillness.
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God knows how long I was inthere for, but at some point,
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I was thrust out, as
if I was on the leading
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edge of this avalanche.
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And it was then that
the panic kicked in,
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because I was just tryingto suck as much oxygen
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in as I could, you know?
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The fear that I'd go
back and the possibility
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that I could die just--
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that really cranked
up the panic.
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And I went back under.
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And after a short time,
I was thrust out again.
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And the avalanche come
to an abrupt halt.
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When I got out, fortunately,everyone else was out as well.
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When we regrouped, I
thought, man, you know,
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that was an amazing experienceof extended silence and peace.
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If I could experience
that under the snow,
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surely I could have it
in my day to day life.
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Then I thought, the
only way, I think,
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practically I can even do thisis to make a lot of money,
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make it quickly, retireearly, and head to a beach.
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I made a choice.
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So I did.
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I cranked it up.
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I was already in business, butI moved it up to the next level.
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But what I actually
found was that I
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was moving further away
from what I was after.
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I started to experience moreworry, more stress, more
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frustration.
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I developed a habit
of insomnia at night.
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I looked in the mirror
and just was like, mate,
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what are you doing.
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You look so unhappy.
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And I thought, I've
got to change this.
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I've got to change my
paradigm, if you like.
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But life just keptthrowing big things at me.
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My wife and I separated.
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Not that much later,
I was diagnosed
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with a tumor inside
my head that required
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six weeks of radiotherapy.
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And there was just anongoing series of events,
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as if they were
trying to wake me up.
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Sort of get on with it,
get on with the job.
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>> [non-english speech]
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[music playing]
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>> I was 15.
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Up until that moment, I didn'tknow that another kind of life
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or another kind of realityexisted, because I was coming
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from a beautiful love bubble.
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My dad, my friends--
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I mean, it was beautiful.
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I was just about to
go to high school
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with some friends thatstayed overnight in my house.
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A few guys with guns
came into my house
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and tried to kidnap me.
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I was able to run away
and I was able to hide
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from the kidnappers.
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And in the middle of that,my dad, also the gardener,
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and my grandfather
tried to defend me.
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There was shooting and,
of course, killing.
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I was able to seeeverything from the distance
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and from the window.
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And I just heard like
in the background
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a truck like spinning the wheel,like [makes noise], you know?
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So I just ran back to theplace that all the fighting
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was happening.
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I saw the gardener gone.
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It was an impactful
experience when
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you see that the body is there,but there's no one there.
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And then I saw my dad in
the stairs still moving.
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He was still alive.
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But he was unable totalk, because the bullets
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went through those lungs.
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When I look into
his eyes-- well,
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that was one of the mostamazing experience I ever had.
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He just-- so much depth, wisdom,love, service, giving, purpose.
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It was strange in themiddle of so much darkness.
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It was like he was telling me alot of things through the eyes.
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It was like a mental connection.
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I could hear everything, like--
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everything.
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And then, suddenly
he died in my arm.
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The feeling of purpose, thefeeling of destiny, the feeling
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of love, the feeling of
consciousness, really--
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I mean, that was even a
million times stronger
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than the experience of death.
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That was more shocking,because I was like, how come--
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how come I can see thispotential love, or destiny,
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or divine destiny,
actually-- like
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I just put that word-- thedivine destiny be stronger
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than the passing
away of a loved one.
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And that just stuck me
in my head all my life.
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It's like, what's that.
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>> [non-english speech]
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>> There's a place within us--this still, silent place--
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which never comes and goes.
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It's permanent.
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And you can call that god,you can call that light,
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you can call that truth, you cancall it the underlying reality
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of everything.
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But there's one
thing that exists.
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And to move into that as anexperience from a concept,
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you need to dissolve a senseof an individual intelligence,
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an individual me, through justbathing in this sea of silence
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that's within us.
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The sea of peace and
the sea of silence,
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it's been there forever.
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Some of us know it orhave known it as a child.
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We've been able to touch thatplace, and it felt like home.
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It's always been.
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And in fact, it's the onlything in our existence
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that's always been there.
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[music playing]
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It was the late '80s,
start of the '90s.
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And it was the big upsurge ofthe ecstasy nation in the UK.
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There was raves everywhere.
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It was the generation
thing to do.
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Almost everybody was into it.
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Yeah.
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Using the drugs, thepartying, the whole experience
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of that time in my life
was giving everybody
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this sense of connection.
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Everybody seemed to dropall of their judgments, all
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of their differences.
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It was amazing.
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It was so much different
to being just drunk.
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The whole movement,
the whole generation,
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was just into dancing andjust loving each other.
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It went kind of off the
rails, you could say.
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I ended up getting into alot of trouble with the law
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and looking at a rather
large prison sentence.
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My dad came to see me
while I was on remand.
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He said, are you due to get out.
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And I said, no.
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And he said, good.
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He said, it's the best
place you could be.
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He was absolutely--
he was over the moon
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that as bad as it could
have looked for me,
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I wasn't going to die.
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The wake up call for me
from that way of life
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was when I was about
25, I'd had a son.
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And so I decided that that wayof life wasn't going to work,
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because I understood
the responsibilities
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of raising a child.
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I quit everything, and Idecided to work full time
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and get back into a normal
life, as far as what
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I could remember one was.
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But it never really
seemed enough for me.
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It felt like a poor excusefor being very happy.
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I decided that I really
needed to experience
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that fullness,
that connectedness,
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that same experience.
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But I knew I couldn't
do it through drugs.
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So I looked into the successof rehabilitation and therapy.
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And it turned out that therehabilitation unit I was in
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had been going
for like 10 years.
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And the success rate
was 2% of all the people
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who came through.
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What I found amazing wasthe statistics the people
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who don't bother going throughrehabilitation-- for them who
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do it are 2%.
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What became really apparentwas that the change only
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happens at the point when youare sick enough of the behavior
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that you're doing which iscausing you the problems.
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I didn't know how I
was going to do it,
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but that choice in and ofitself made so many other things
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available to me.
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It just immediately changed mywhole take on my whole life.
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[music playing]
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Got a good woman for mysoul, got whiskey for my sin.
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Pray I got both when I leavethis bar in a car or a coffin.
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And I'll ride this road
'til it takes me home.
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Or I'll ride this
dirty road 'til I die.
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>> In Mexico, teachers like[? modavi ?] are introducing
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a new phase of rehabilitationteaching ascension in prisons
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to those who are ready
to embrace change.
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[music playing]
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There ain't one
way to sing a song.
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>> And the cool thing is that25% of the people in this
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facility, which housesjust under 2,000 prisoners,
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meditate.
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>> [non-english speech]
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>> It's something that's notbeen done very often around
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the world.
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So we appreciate your opennessto introduce this program
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into the prison.
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[music playing]
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My feet are worn,
my lungs are hard,
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and my heart's as cold as steel.
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>> [non-english speech]
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>> After my dad died, starteddrinking, drugs all day,
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every day, for months, andmonths, and years non-stop.
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And I was looking
for the experience
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I experienced when my dad died.
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And nothing gave
me that-- nothing.
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So I would just keep on looking.
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Where is that?
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Where is that?
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Where is that?
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And I remember once
I was in my house,
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alone in my father's bedroom.
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And I remember just crying.
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I couldn't handle it anymore.
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A friend of my
called me, and she's
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like, Maghava, there's somemeditation course this weekend.
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Why don't you come with us?
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And I'm like, OK, I'll go.
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There's nothing to lose.
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When I arrived, I
saw the teachers.
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And their presence-- theyhad something that I never
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experienced before.
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Suddenly, they started toexplain the meditation--
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[inaudible]
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And I'm like, what's this.
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And my heart's just like
[makes beating noise]..
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And soon as they started
to explain the game,
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everything started to becomereally clear within myself.
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I just knew that I found
what I was looking for.
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Immediately I
started to experience
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clear silence, awareness.
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As soon as I started to playwith what the teachers were
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telling me, I knew I needed toactually let go of the seeking.
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I actually needed to let goof that idea of searching.
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That's worth everything.
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There's a lot of ideas
about spiritual journeys
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or meditation.
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One is like, let's
put the mind in black
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or have no thoughts--
have no emotion.
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And that's not true.
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We are not going against whatthe natural flows of life are.
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There are emotions.
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Of course there is emotions.
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But I'm not [? calling ?] them.
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I don't make a
story around them.
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I don't make them personal.
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I just watch them back.
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The same as thoughts.
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They don't take
all my attention.
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They are just part of
the whole experience.
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Then, of course, if
I live like that,
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automatically there's peace--
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automatically.
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[music playing]
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>> I remember when Ifirst learned to meditate,
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the realization of
what I'd been doing--
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I was quite shocked,
because, actually,
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the point at which I
learned to meditate,
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I was grinding my teeth--breaking teeth at night.
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I never woke up
feeling refreshed.
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I was exhausted.
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Two relatively young
children, trying
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to be the perfect mother,the perfect housewife,
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the perfect neighbor,
the perfect teacher,
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the perfect
everything, you know?
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And I used to describe
the experience
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as meeting myself coming back.
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You know, going round in
ever decreasing circles.
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I was exhausted.
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Once I heard the explanationand the background
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for what meditation
is-- because,
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really, this is the areathat meditation addresses.
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We're living all the
time in the past.
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I recognized how many timesI rehashed conversations
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with people to try
and get it right.
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It's like madness, isn't it?
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For the last 12, 13
years, I've had cancer.
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It started as breast cancer.
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Now I've had treatment.
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It's slowly developed.
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And I now have secondariesin the liver and in my spine.
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And yet, thanks very much tothe meditation skills that
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I've learned, just beingable to accept everything--
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even something as extremeand challenging as that--
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has enabled me just to befully present now and back
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to this moment again and again.
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Really, it's a verysimple thing, meditation.
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It just allows you to live openand allowing in this moment.
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That has been
absolutely key to my
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being able to live joyfullyand peacefully no matter
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what's happening to the body.
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You know, my body's goingto do what it's going to do.
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I can take a lot of actions, alot of strategies to assist it.
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But ultimately,
I'm not in control.
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And a lot of what we callstress is because we think
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we're in control, and we thinkwe know what's going to happen,
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and it doesn't.
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And we find that distressing,or frustrating, or annoying,
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or painful, or whatever,because we're resisting what is.
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[music playing]
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The judgment day shall come.
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>> Slowly but surely I wasstarting to experience a bit
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of respite from the stress.
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I worked less.
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I actually developed
a new relationship.
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And I found I recreated the samedynamic I had in my marriage,
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where I was just so judgmentalthe relationship failed.
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And I was overwhelmed witha sense of loss, you know?
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Bitching and moaning
all the way through it.
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But once she's gone, the
whiny voice in my head
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couldn't deal with it.
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I got to see that I need someway to let go of that judgment
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and let people be who
they are, rather than me
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trying to control or want themto be something different.
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That was the major catalyst forme to commit to myself 100%--
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just to go for that piece,go for their internal love.
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I had to establish
that before I was
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able to get close to havinga relationship again.
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>> I was stressed.
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I always seemed to be inthis fight or flight mode,
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looking for the next
thing to go wrong,
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trying to control
everything in my life.
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And I didn't want
to do it anymore.
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But I didn't know
what to do, really.
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The great thing, too,about going out with Greg
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was that that showed
me how dysfunctional I
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was in a relationship.
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And I wanted that to change.
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Like, I did.
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I saw that I was
very close to love.
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I was very afraid of love.
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I suppose my little subconsciousmantra was that love hurts.
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Don't let someone
get too close to you,
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because you might lose
them or it'll just
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hurt if they reject you.
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And I got to understand thatthat came from my brother
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dying when I was
9 or 10 years old.
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And that one minute,
I'm this happy kid
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who's living in a kind
of a fantasy world,
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still feeling thatconnection to everything,
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and then suddenly, it was likelife was turned upside down.
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Like, whoa, your
life isn't safe.
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[music playing]
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>> If, for example, you couldthink about real wonderful
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moment in your life,
do you remember it?
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Do you remember how
little self-absorption
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there was in that moment?
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Do you remember how
perfectly it unfolded?
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That even in
retrospect, everything
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played out in the
most wonderful moment
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in the most miraculous
kind of way.
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That there was nothing aboutthe moment we would change.
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It was ideal.
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We very often weren't evenresponsible for the moment.
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We were just able to
experience the moment.
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We were present for theunfoldment of that moment.
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And do you remember how
alive that moment was?
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How alive you felt
in that moment?
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And I will suggest
to you that moment
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was the most alive
moment of your life.
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And I will say to you,
with the exception
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of the intensity of your
most wonderful moment,
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you're meant to live
that kind of life--
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that alive, with just
an absolute sense
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of wonder and awe.
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That is your right to livethat kind of life continuously.
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And we don't.
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We just forgot.
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[music playing]
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>> Every weekend, we hear thissort of crazy variety from
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American dance band, torock and roll, to mariachi.
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I was a seeker from the time Iwas a young girl-- very young.
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I learned how to meditate
when I was in college
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and really had my first
tastes of stillness--
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had my first taste ofthe voices quieting down.
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And of course, once that
happens, you want more.
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And the way most of us
got more during that era
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was to smoke, or
take psychedelics,
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or anything that we could doto duplicate that experience.
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Occasionally, I felt
like I got lucky.
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It was grace.
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But in terms of having thatstillness permeate my life,
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that wasn't happening.
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I knew it was
there, but it always
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seemed just out of reach.
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We came to San Miguel,and I couldn't believe it.
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I was given a tool that
allowed me to sustain
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that state with no drugs.
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And it happened
very, very quickly,
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which was the unexpected part.
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You know, I thought I wasgoing to kind of get back
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into the drudgery of meditationand have some support
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to do that.
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But all of a sudden,
it was accessible.
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And the thing that really wasdifferent with this particular
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practice was that
it was something
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that I could do with my eyesopen as well as my eyes closed.
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It had a huge effect
on me creatively,
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because it was hit and
miss when I was working,
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when I was writing.
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Sometimes I'd be
listening to the voices
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in my head, which isnever a good thing to do.
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The voices in my head--
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I don't think the voices
in any of our heads
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are ever saying kind things.
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They're always saying
really mean things.
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00:36:20,917 --> 00:36:23,572
I once said to somebody, ifI sat in a restaurant next
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to a couple who were talkingto each other the way
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my mind talks to me, I wouldget up and leave the restaurant.
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When you're creating, youwant to be in that flow.
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That's the whole goal.
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That's why you do it,
because that's the rush.
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That's the fun.
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But the minute those voicesstart, they just pull you out.
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So all of a sudden, here I was.
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I had a tool that allowedme to return to that flow
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so that I could look at the pageafter I'd been working and go,
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wow.
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Where did that come from?
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What a surprise.
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That is so amazing.
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And know with every inch ofmy being that I didn't do it.
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And that is-- that's gold.
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That is just gold.
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The practice allowed me toreturn to the state, which
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is only presence.
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I mean, it's not what
I thought, especially
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after so many years of beliefpractice on top of belief
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on top of belief.
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I was waiting for Thus
Spake Zarathustra.
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I was waiting for John PhilipSousa and fireworks in the sky.
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And it wasn't about that.
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It was just about being sofully present that I was here.
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It changed everything.
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It had a huge effect on
every aspect of my life.
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[music playing]
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>> He says, watch your back.
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You'll get lost out there.
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There's a million ways to go.
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And we don't know
our way back home.
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>> I've definitely seen acore belief that relates
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to addiction.
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00:38:20,428 --> 00:38:22,778
And it is definitely
being the core belief
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that I am not good enough.
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[music playing]
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>> --alone.
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And we don't know
our way back home.
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>> The differences in
my life now are just--
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they're just amazing.
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And it's funny, because Idon't feel that far away
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from who I actually was.
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I just feel the only
problem there ever
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was was that non-acceptancethat I am not good enough.
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And yet, to step out
and make the decision
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to go and actually
make the new choice
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and to gain some awarenesson who you are, why you are,
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what you are is priceless.
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My son is 20 now.
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And yeah, he's an amazing guy.
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We have an amazing relationship.
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00:39:04,951 --> 00:39:06,300
We're just the best of friends.
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He's had choices to go
out with his friends,
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he's had choices
to take drugs, he's
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had choices to do all thethings that all kids do.
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And I've never taken any ofthose choices away from him.
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So his general state
of natural peace
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has never really
been questioned.
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And so yeah, he
makes good choices.
509
00:39:22,142 --> 00:39:23,752
We have a very
cool relationship.
510
00:39:23,883 --> 00:39:24,492
Yeah.
511
00:39:24,623 --> 00:39:26,015
[music playing]
512
00:39:26,146 --> 00:39:30,237
>> And he says watch your back,you'll get lost out there.
513
00:39:30,368 --> 00:39:33,066
There's a million ways to go.
514
00:39:33,196 --> 00:39:37,549
And we don't know
our way back home.
515
00:39:44,860 --> 00:39:45,470
Cool.
516
00:39:53,565 --> 00:39:57,525
>> Another very key thing,particularly with critical life
517
00:39:57,656 --> 00:40:01,399
diagnoses, is that you
face your mortality,
518
00:40:01,529 --> 00:40:02,617
maybe for the first time.
519
00:40:05,490 --> 00:40:10,146
It does become very obviousthat our well-being is created
520
00:40:10,277 --> 00:40:12,975
very much by what we
put our attention on
521
00:40:13,106 --> 00:40:13,672
and that we have choice.
522
00:40:17,066 --> 00:40:17,980
It's empowering.
523
00:40:18,111 --> 00:40:19,765
It's exciting.
524
00:40:19,895 --> 00:40:22,289
And I can choose what
I put my attention on.
525
00:40:22,420 --> 00:40:23,508
And that's not about denial.
526
00:40:26,467 --> 00:40:28,556
I will do what my
body says it needs.
527
00:40:28,687 --> 00:40:30,340
That may be going to bed.
528
00:40:30,471 --> 00:40:31,951
It may be going
to have a massage.
529
00:40:32,081 --> 00:40:34,562
It may be going back
to the consultant.
530
00:40:34,693 --> 00:40:36,172
I mean, who knows, you know?
531
00:40:36,303 --> 00:40:38,261
It's not about denial.
532
00:40:38,392 --> 00:40:41,874
But it's about knowingthat there's so much more.
533
00:40:42,004 --> 00:40:44,180
What's going to happen
is going to happen.
534
00:40:44,311 --> 00:40:46,748
And there's a ease and afluidity with just accepting
535
00:40:46,879 --> 00:40:47,706
everything.
536
00:40:54,103 --> 00:40:58,847
Once you recognize that youwant something more, it comes.
537
00:40:58,978 --> 00:40:59,631
It just comes.
538
00:40:59,761 --> 00:41:00,501
I really do believe that.
539
00:41:18,606 --> 00:41:20,303
>> [non-english speech]
540
00:46:42,190 --> 00:46:44,845
>> An authentic path,
of which there are very,
541
00:46:44,976 --> 00:46:49,241
very few in the world, arethose that lead, ultimately,
542
00:46:49,371 --> 00:46:53,680
to oneness, to an unbrokenawareness of silence,
543
00:46:53,811 --> 00:46:56,683
which is the gateway
to enlightenment--
544
00:46:56,814 --> 00:46:57,640
the gateway to freedom.
545
00:47:02,123 --> 00:47:03,821
I was one of those
guys who said,
546
00:47:03,951 --> 00:47:05,170
I don't have time to heal me.
547
00:47:05,300 --> 00:47:06,432
You know, there's a worldthat's in a dilemma here.
548
00:47:06,562 --> 00:47:07,737
Let's get on with
helping others.
549
00:47:07,868 --> 00:47:09,000
Let's heal the world.
550
00:47:09,130 --> 00:47:11,002
And unfortunately, it
doesn't work that way.
551
00:47:11,132 --> 00:47:13,047
You know, you have to do
the inner work yourself.
552
00:47:19,401 --> 00:47:22,230
And it basically comes
down to two paths.
553
00:47:22,361 --> 00:47:24,667
One path is a path of comfort.
554
00:47:24,798 --> 00:47:27,279
And it's the path that
most humans are on.
555
00:47:27,409 --> 00:47:31,022
And it's a path that, ifyou're looking at a mountain
556
00:47:31,152 --> 00:47:34,025
and climbing to the top of themountain to experience oneness,
557
00:47:34,155 --> 00:47:36,114
it's a windy path
up this mountain.
558
00:47:36,244 --> 00:47:38,899
And it just keeps going,
and going, and going.
559
00:47:39,030 --> 00:47:40,248
It's not that it's a bad path.
560
00:47:40,379 --> 00:47:43,034
It's just a very long path.
561
00:47:43,164 --> 00:47:44,557
There's another path.
562
00:47:44,687 --> 00:47:47,821
And it's like walking straightup the side of Mount Everest.
563
00:47:47,952 --> 00:47:50,519
And it's the path-- it'scalled the path of the sages
564
00:47:50,650 --> 00:47:51,999
in some traditions.
565
00:47:52,130 --> 00:47:56,612
It's also known as
the path of heroes.
566
00:47:56,743 --> 00:47:59,833
It's the path that
says, I'm willing to do
567
00:47:59,964 --> 00:48:01,139
whatever it takes to wake up.
568
00:48:01,269 --> 00:48:03,010
I'm willing to do
whatever it takes.
569
00:48:03,141 --> 00:48:03,750
Let's do it.
570
00:48:03,881 --> 00:48:05,186
Let's bring it on.
571
00:48:05,317 --> 00:48:08,059
I want to experience everything.
572
00:48:08,189 --> 00:48:10,452
I want to experience
wholeness, completeness.
573
00:48:16,894 --> 00:48:20,810
The path of comfort, ironically,it's not a comfortable path.
574
00:48:20,941 --> 00:48:22,334
It is the funniest thing.
575
00:48:22,464 --> 00:48:24,684
It's called the path of comfort,not because it's comfortable,
576
00:48:24,814 --> 00:48:25,772
because most of
humanity's on it,
577
00:48:25,903 --> 00:48:27,382
and they're not comfortable.
578
00:48:27,513 --> 00:48:29,689
It's called the path ofcomfort because the decisions
579
00:48:29,819 --> 00:48:32,431
we make on that
path are decisions
580
00:48:32,561 --> 00:48:34,520
that we're comfortable with.
581
00:48:34,650 --> 00:48:35,260
They don't push us.
582
00:48:35,390 --> 00:48:38,176
They don't stretch us.
583
00:48:38,306 --> 00:48:39,917
And so it's a comfortablepath, but there's
584
00:48:40,047 --> 00:48:40,874
no growth in that path.
585
00:48:41,005 --> 00:48:45,052
That's why the
growth is so slow.
586
00:48:45,183 --> 00:48:47,446
There's a point
where you say, there
587
00:48:47,576 --> 00:48:52,146
has to be more to life thanwhat I'm experiencing here.
588
00:48:52,277 --> 00:48:54,061
And that's the very momentthat you're very blessed,
589
00:48:54,192 --> 00:48:56,585
because you start
to look for more.
590
00:48:56,716 --> 00:49:00,198
And when you do, very quickly ifyou have passion towards that,
591
00:49:00,328 --> 00:49:02,417
you start to move towardsthe path of heroes.
592
00:49:08,075 --> 00:49:09,250
Amazing.
593
00:49:09,381 --> 00:49:09,990
Thanks.
594
00:49:26,354 --> 00:49:28,530
>> I had the
opportunity to teach--
595
00:49:28,661 --> 00:49:31,664
I don't know-- 200 prisoners.
596
00:49:31,794 --> 00:49:34,493
And the first thing that cameout of my mouth was, what will
597
00:49:34,623 --> 00:49:37,626
you even listen to
[? on ?] a 22-year-old?
598
00:49:37,757 --> 00:49:39,237
And everybody was
like, yeah, actually.
599
00:49:39,367 --> 00:49:40,673
Why?
600
00:49:40,803 --> 00:49:41,848
And the first thing
that came to my mouth
601
00:49:41,979 --> 00:49:45,678
was, probably, because
one of the person that
602
00:49:45,808 --> 00:49:48,986
actually tried to kidnap andkilled my dad probably is--
603
00:49:49,116 --> 00:49:51,249
might be sitting
here in this room.
604
00:49:51,379 --> 00:49:51,989
And everybody just like--
605
00:49:55,035 --> 00:49:56,558
not easy.
606
00:49:56,689 --> 00:49:58,299
And they pay attention.
607
00:49:58,430 --> 00:50:00,388
And I share with them
what I went through,
608
00:50:00,519 --> 00:50:02,782
what have I discover,
and why am I
609
00:50:02,912 --> 00:50:06,960
doing what I'm doing right nowto help people to find peace,
610
00:50:07,091 --> 00:50:08,135
no matter the background.
611
00:50:15,490 --> 00:50:17,840
When I think about my
dad and that experience,
612
00:50:17,971 --> 00:50:19,016
the greatest gift
that experience
613
00:50:19,146 --> 00:50:21,279
gave me was to
look for something
614
00:50:21,409 --> 00:50:23,629
that would give me peace.
615
00:50:23,759 --> 00:50:26,806
And probably now I feel my dadcloser than when I was a kid
616
00:50:26,936 --> 00:50:28,112
and I was unconscious.
617
00:50:41,603 --> 00:50:44,258
It's tricky to say, becauseI don't experience my dad
618
00:50:44,389 --> 00:50:47,522
as a human being with
a body, with a mind,
619
00:50:47,653 --> 00:50:49,829
with a personality.
620
00:50:49,959 --> 00:50:53,615
I experience my dad everywhereall the time, as love,
621
00:50:53,746 --> 00:50:56,662
as presence.
622
00:50:56,792 --> 00:50:58,316
In many, many locations.
623
00:51:11,590 --> 00:51:15,942
>> As improbable as it wasthat I was going to find peace,
624
00:51:16,073 --> 00:51:19,076
I was in a cafe, and there wasa brochure on the wall that was
625
00:51:19,206 --> 00:51:21,208
promoting a meditation course.
626
00:51:21,339 --> 00:51:24,472
And the brochure
said, ascension as
627
00:51:24,603 --> 00:51:27,910
taught by the Ishayas
of the bright path.
628
00:51:28,041 --> 00:51:33,307
And I thought, mate, whatthe hell is this, you know?
629
00:51:33,438 --> 00:51:34,482
It's wacky.
630
00:51:34,613 --> 00:51:36,658
But what they weresaying resonated with me.
631
00:51:36,789 --> 00:51:38,965
It resonated with me
with the experience
632
00:51:39,096 --> 00:51:40,532
I had had in the avalanche.
633
00:51:40,662 --> 00:51:44,013
And it also-- itresonated with me, which--
634
00:51:44,144 --> 00:51:46,929
that I realized I needed to findthat peace and love within me.
635
00:51:50,107 --> 00:51:52,805
The first thing they
asked was, what's
636
00:51:52,935 --> 00:51:56,461
the one thing you want more thanabsolutely anything in life.
637
00:52:00,465 --> 00:52:03,642
No one had ever asked me thatquestion, but it was obvious.
638
00:52:03,772 --> 00:52:04,817
I wanted peace.
639
00:52:04,947 --> 00:52:07,080
I wanted unbroken peace.
640
00:52:07,211 --> 00:52:09,474
I wanted to experience love--
641
00:52:09,604 --> 00:52:11,563
love within myself
and the ability
642
00:52:11,693 --> 00:52:16,002
to love someone else
unconditionally.
643
00:52:16,133 --> 00:52:18,004
And I wanted to be happy.
644
00:52:18,135 --> 00:52:22,574
Not just moments of happiness,but I wanted it all the time.
645
00:52:22,704 --> 00:52:24,750
And the surprising
thing for me was
646
00:52:24,880 --> 00:52:27,535
that all the other participantswanted exactly the same thing.
647
00:52:37,632 --> 00:52:40,374
The beautiful thing was that allthe negative aspects of my life
648
00:52:40,505 --> 00:52:42,550
fell away.
649
00:52:42,681 --> 00:52:45,684
I was sleeping much better.
650
00:52:45,814 --> 00:52:51,037
My frustration and my stressfell away very quickly.
651
00:52:51,168 --> 00:52:53,735
And I was able to use thesetechniques with my eyes open.
652
00:52:56,564 --> 00:52:58,871
I'd been given a
tool that allowed
653
00:52:59,001 --> 00:53:03,615
me to disengage the chatterin my head and reveal peace.
654
00:53:03,745 --> 00:53:07,836
And I knew that I was
onto the right thing.
655
00:53:07,967 --> 00:53:10,491
>> Greg suggested I learnsome meditation techniques.
656
00:53:10,622 --> 00:53:12,580
Meditation wasn't
something I did.
657
00:53:12,711 --> 00:53:16,367
I thought it was for
hippies and not for me.
658
00:53:16,497 --> 00:53:18,673
And I thought, well, I have--there's nothing to lose.
659
00:53:18,804 --> 00:53:20,588
I might as well go alongand see what this is about.
660
00:53:27,204 --> 00:53:29,815
What I found was
that I'd been looking
661
00:53:29,945 --> 00:53:32,905
for all those wonderful thingsin life in the wrong places.
662
00:53:33,035 --> 00:53:35,212
You know, the person I'mwith should make me happy.
663
00:53:35,342 --> 00:53:36,778
My job should make me happy.
664
00:53:36,909 --> 00:53:40,086
You know, I didn't take anyownership for my own happiness.
665
00:53:40,217 --> 00:53:43,655
And once I started to dothat and use these techniques
666
00:53:43,785 --> 00:53:47,746
to rest inward, that's
where I found that it
667
00:53:47,876 --> 00:53:49,965
started to reveal the real me.
668
00:53:50,096 --> 00:53:53,012
You know, and the realme was happy, was joyous,
669
00:53:53,142 --> 00:53:57,495
was free to live fully.
670
00:54:10,943 --> 00:54:13,989
The purpose of us
making this documentary
671
00:54:14,120 --> 00:54:19,952
is to show people that peaceis possible and very much
672
00:54:20,082 --> 00:54:22,650
to show them that it's
a personal choice.
673
00:54:22,781 --> 00:54:24,870
If peace is possible
for the individual,
674
00:54:25,000 --> 00:54:27,438
then we want to show thatit is possible for a group.
675
00:54:27,568 --> 00:54:30,397
And if that's
possible, then it could
676
00:54:30,528 --> 00:54:31,572
be possible for countries.
677
00:54:31,703 --> 00:54:33,705
It could be possible
for humanity as a whole.
678
00:55:01,515 --> 00:55:03,474
>> There are two
institutions in town.
679
00:55:03,604 --> 00:55:06,520
We started about 20
years ago with the idea
680
00:55:06,651 --> 00:55:12,787
of provide boys between the agesix, seven to 21, 22 years old
681
00:55:12,918 --> 00:55:15,268
a possibility of becomingsomebody in life-- to provide
682
00:55:15,399 --> 00:55:17,879
them with a future.
683
00:55:18,010 --> 00:55:22,275
They have families, of course--all of them or most of them.
684
00:55:22,406 --> 00:55:26,540
But in all cases, they haveeither a father in jail,
685
00:55:26,671 --> 00:55:29,151
they have a mother with
prostitution problems,
686
00:55:29,282 --> 00:55:31,502
with addiction
problems, you name it.
687
00:55:31,632 --> 00:55:33,373
And the idea is
instead of having
688
00:55:33,504 --> 00:55:36,420
these kids in the streets,to provide them with a home--
689
00:55:36,550 --> 00:55:38,770
a place for them to
stay, a place where
690
00:55:38,900 --> 00:55:42,034
they can be safe, where
they can attend school,
691
00:55:42,164 --> 00:55:44,819
to give this kids a chance ofbeing somebody in the future.
692
00:55:48,910 --> 00:55:51,348
>> [non-english speech]
693
00:56:24,816 --> 00:56:27,253
>> Thank you for thewelcome that you gave us.
694
00:56:27,384 --> 00:56:30,387
>> [non-english speech]
695
00:56:30,517 --> 00:56:33,172
>> And the wonderful
shirts, we love them.
696
00:56:33,302 --> 00:56:35,217
>> [non-english speech]
697
00:56:35,348 --> 00:56:37,176
>> So it's good we've
got three tables,
698
00:56:37,306 --> 00:56:38,133
because we have three balls.
699
00:56:46,141 --> 00:56:47,665
Can you find New Zealand?
700
00:56:55,716 --> 00:57:02,593
>> It's the other
side of the world.
701
00:57:02,723 --> 00:57:06,292
>> Since we startmeditating with the kids,
702
00:57:06,423 --> 00:57:09,817
the violence has been reduced.
703
00:57:09,948 --> 00:57:18,086
They also have differentways to fix their problems.
704
00:57:18,217 --> 00:57:20,001
They are more in peace.
705
00:57:20,132 --> 00:57:21,829
We can feel it.
706
00:57:21,960 --> 00:57:28,314
So we have a different way totalk, a different way to play,
707
00:57:28,445 --> 00:57:31,360
a different way to doall the things we do here
708
00:57:31,491 --> 00:57:32,231
in every moment.
709
00:57:43,982 --> 00:57:46,288
>> [non-english speech]
710
00:58:03,784 --> 00:58:07,701
>> All the people who
comes here tells me,
711
00:58:07,832 --> 00:58:10,748
here we can feel peace.
712
00:58:10,878 --> 00:58:13,011
We can feel happiness.
713
00:58:13,141 --> 00:58:17,363
And that's the most
beautiful thing
714
00:58:17,494 --> 00:58:20,714
I have received from meditation.
715
00:58:25,023 --> 00:58:29,157
We want to give them
all the opportunities
716
00:58:29,288 --> 00:58:34,075
to be empowered with
love, with compassion.
717
00:58:34,206 --> 00:58:37,905
This will make a
change in their lives.
718
00:58:38,036 --> 00:58:40,604
And that's the great
power they will have,
719
00:58:40,734 --> 00:58:43,258
because nobody can
take it from them.
720
00:58:50,352 --> 01:08:06,343
>> [non-english speech]
721
01:08:06,473 --> 01:08:09,085
>> It's been a really powerfuland uplifting day for us.
722
01:08:09,215 --> 01:08:11,348
Got to meditate
with 200 inmates.
723
01:08:11,478 --> 01:08:14,612
It's more people thanI've ever meditated with.
724
01:08:14,742 --> 01:08:17,832
And the stillness and the
peace in that facility
725
01:08:17,962 --> 01:08:21,619
was palpable as a consequence.
726
01:08:21,749 --> 01:08:41,160
[music playing]
727
01:08:41,291 --> 01:08:44,946
>> The fascinating thing is thateveryone on the planet wants
728
01:08:45,077 --> 01:08:47,688
exactly the same thing.
729
01:08:47,818 --> 01:08:51,866
We all want to experienceunbroken peace, inner peace,
730
01:08:51,996 --> 01:08:56,871
contentment, and happiness, yetwe seldom make it a priority.
731
01:09:02,006 --> 01:09:04,531
And I say to people who arenot interested in learning
732
01:09:04,662 --> 01:09:09,710
to meditate, just spend moretime doing what you love doing,
733
01:09:09,841 --> 01:09:13,584
because the things we love doingreveal peace and contentment.
734
01:09:16,848 --> 01:09:20,808
All that's required
is to make a choice.
735
01:09:20,939 --> 01:09:22,680
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