All language subtitles for SAS.Australia.S02E03.Control.WEBRip.7plus.en

BILLY: Short step, there you go.
Just walk normal.

Sit.

NARRATOR: Selection for the SAS...

..is a test like no other.

I do not care
who these celebrities are.

They're in our world
and they will follow our commands.

Go!

This is it.
Let's (BLEEP) go!

A new group of celebrity recruits
have volunteered

to put their privileged lives behind.

I surf the biggest waves
and I go harder than one.

(EXHALES HEAVILY)

I'll beat you.

Yeehaw!
Cut that shit out.

ANT: Go! Fight, fight, fight!

They'll be put through a tougher...

MAN: Aggression.
Stop!

..more intense selection course
than ever before.

Your place is questionable
on this course! (ECHOES)

Chief Instructor Ant Middleton...

Let's go!

..and his team of directing staff...

Move!
Fast as you can!

..will make no exceptions.

Yes!

ANT: They will come face-to-face
with their true selves.

(YELLING)

What the (BLEEP) just happened?

Welcome to death by drowning.

A harrowing drowning test...

..will force one recruit to quit.

Are you sure
you want to give me your number?

Then...

ANT: Move!

The recruits think
they're doing an assault course...

MAN: Catch cup! Hurry up!

..that's not what it's about.

BILLY: Come on, grandma!

But one of these stations
of DS won't be around.

I'm not a cheater.

Guess what?

We're (BLEEP) watching you.

Ooh!
Whoa, whoa, whoa...

..a cheat will be exposed.

Ooh, just a dead man walking.

You're all going to suffer

'cause you've got a (BLEEP)
that you can't trust.

Make sure you get on top
of all these (BLEEP) (INDISTINCT)

around your bed spaces.

A little bit
of an infestation of mice

and we don't want
the mice biting you.

It's almost midnight on day three
on SAS selection...

Make sure your respirators
stay somewhere close

to the top of your bergen.

..and DS Billy is conducting
a random dorm inspection

to ensure the 16 remaining recruits
are on high alert

at all times.

Remember if you ever hear the word,
"Gas, gas, gas."

What do we do?

We put our mask on, staff.

You (BLEEP) drop to the ground.

You rip it out
and you stick it on.

Right, sort your shit out,
keep your noise down.

Keep it (BLEEP) clean and tidy
and get some sleep.

Imagine waking up to gas.
Wouldn't that be the real deal?

I was going to go and ask them
if they're going to gas us?

I passed out last time, like,
I'm sure I did.

I just want to be
over (BLEEP) it.

In the special forces
everything is about control.

Your emotions, your strengths,
your weaknesses,

your stress levels, anxiety.

You have to be able
to control yourself.

I've got massive anxiety.

I don't need any more.

MAN: Leave man.

It's only putting someone
in a compromising situation.

In a situation,
they've never been in before...

..to see how they deal with
controlling themselves.

Panicking at the thought
of a possible gassing.

Number one, Emma Husar,
wants to quit the course...

Staff.

..but first...

Staff.

..she will need to wake the DS.

Come on...

(CRIES)

The thinking soldier
that we're looking for

will learn exactly
how to manage their emotions.

And then we will watch them
to see if they can control it

the next time.

If they can't, they're gone.

(DOOR SQUEAKS, SLAMS)

Nah, nah, that's alright.

Nah, I was going that's it,
like,

you guys are gassing us,
I'm out, I'm done.

Just take it. I'm done.
I can't do that again.

I think you're just a bit fatigued.
(LAUGHS)

(EXHALES HEAVILY)

After a sleepless night
of being on alert

the exhausted recruits
will now face an extreme test

of emotional control.

KOBY: Hello boys.

BILLY: Out!
BONNIE: Out.

BILLY: Let's go!

As soon as you've got your bergen
on your back come to me.

Alright, limp with speed, alright.
Yes, staff.

ANT: Come on, let's go.
Everyone in.

Come on, get up here.

Nursing a painful leg injury...

Number one, right on my arse.

I'm not having your (BLEEP)
limping winging.

..Recruit number one, Emma Husar,
is still rattled

by last night's panic attack.

I think that my body has been tested

in terms of dealing
with intense stress and fear

and anxiety and panic.

Yeah, you can do it.
Don't push her.

Leave her alone.

But life throws shit
at you constantly.

And if you haven't learned to adapt
and overcome

then you really haven't developed
any sense of resilience.

Move around this way!

Face me.

Bergens off, all of you.
Sit on them.

Listen in very, very carefully
to this

'cause I'm going to tell you it once
and once only.

I'm just about to introduce to you

something that's called
death by drowning -

not being able to (BLEEP) breathe.

It's all about controlling this

and executing simple orders

whilst your world is falling apart.

I will talk you
through the drill once,

and it's over to you.

Stand up, turn around.

In the special forces
we operate in many vehicles,

whether it's helicopters,
road vehicles.

A lot of the time,
they end up (BLEEP) going down

and the safest place to go down
is in water.

There's a DS in the vehicle
right now -

that will be you.

Seatbelt on,
hands-on steering wheel.

You'll be lowered into the water.

Coldwater shock's going to kick in.

Panic is going to kick in.

That vehicle will (BLEEP) fill up
very quickly.

You're going to be under there
for a (BLEEP) long time.

If you start
taking your seatbelt off

whilst it's going down,

you're going to end up
disorientated, upside down,

pinned to the (BLEEP) roof,
sucking in water into your lungs.

The average human
can hold their breath

40 to 50 seconds

and you're going to need
all of that.

One of the DS will squeeze you
on the shoulder,

then you go into your drill.

You unclip with one hand,
disregard with the other.

Once you've done that,

make your way out
of the back of the vehicle.

When you surface
you will put your thumb in the air

to let me know that you're OK
and shout your number -

17, OK.

Right, everyone turn back around,
sit on your bergens.

A lot of people
will shit themselves,

they will (BLEEP) this up royally.

But can you stay composed enough
to get out of that vehicle?

Let's just put your life
on the line.

If you (BLEEP) this up,

we will be dragging your carcasses
out the water,

(BLEEP) pumping the water
out your lungs -

fact.

Once you get into that vehicle

and the DS puts that seatbelt
on you

that whole process will not stop.

If you panic

you're going to stay under there
a lot longer.

You haven't even tried it,
number six, have you?

I know.
You know?

Yeah.
But how do you know?

Can you hold your breath?

I'm giving you my number, staff.

You sure?
Yeah.

Are you sure
you want to give me your number?

Yes, staff.
Come and give it to me.

Thank you, staff.
Grab your bergen.

Make your way back
over to the vehicles.

Thank you, staff.

Listen,
keep the (BLEEP) noise down,

you're going to need the oxygen.

And grip yourself, number 12.

Overcome by fear,

celebrity chef Manu Feildel
is the third recruit

to voluntarily withdraw
from the course.

MANU: I came on this course
to prove something to myself

and I just realised
I don't need to prove anything.

Look, I've got a (BLEEP) good life.

I'm got a (BLEEP) good life
and I want it back.

BONNIE: Excuse me, staff,
I can't do it either.

ANT: You're not even
going to try it?

BONNIE: Nah, I'm too scared.
You're too scared?

How do you know?
It's just frightening.

Can you hold your breath
for (BLEEP) 40 seconds?

I just...
Can you hold your breath

for 40 seconds?
Yes.

Yes.

What have I taught you up to now?

To ignore the distractions 'cause
you need to focus on the task.

What is the task?

Holding your breath.
(CRYING) Sorry.

ANT: Holding your breath...
Just do it. Do it.

..staying calm
and staying in charge of this.

Oh, (BLEEP)!

It's about trusting yourselves,

controlling your bodies
through your minds.

Go.

The shaken recruits
now move into position

as they attempt to compose themselves
for what lies ahead.

Oh, man.

Hey guys, it's six minutes
until you're dead, yeah?

About that.

You got it, no worries.
Even if you pass out, you're good.

BILLY: Number one.
ANT: Come on, number one, off it.

Move, with your gammy leg.
Let's go.

First to be put to the test
is former politician Emma Husar.

OK, you alright?

No, I'm worried about my leg,
staff.

You're worried about your leg?
Yes, staff.

Why are you worried about your leg?
You don't need it.

You're going to be a (BLEEP) fish
right now.

What you need to be worried
about now is where's your inhaler?

I want to see
what the insides like, staff.

(BLEEP) get in.
What's inside.

Get in.

When I was going through
being called a slut,

and I was having
the most grand panic attacks

that I have ever experienced
in my life

that literally rendered me
on the floor useless

for hours at a time.

OK, so, staff.

Right let me talk to you,
don't panic. Sit, sit in.

I had to use a breathing technique
that I learned

to actually be able to survive
what had happened.

When you get into the water.

You'll feel the cold,
it'll take your breath away.

Hold your breath.
Yeah, yep.

Listen, listen.
Just stay calm.

(EXHALES FULLY)

There was one on the floor
in my parliamentary office.

Away you go.

EMMA: There was one on the floor
in my lawyer's house.

So when you are under
such intense trauma,

your body starts to shut down.

And I went to a hospital

and my body had started to feign
a death response.

Calm your mind.

My body had just taken
such a battering

that it was almost like,
"OK, we're done."

And that was pretty terrifying.

Imagine where you're going to take
that last breath, yeah?

When it hits your legs
or when it hits your chest

'cause that's where people (BLEEP)
up with this sort of shit.

Wait for it to stop moving.

With DS Foxy standing by,

number one, Emma, will need
to hold her breath for 40 seconds

and remain calm

until he signals her
to exit the car.

(MOANING)

But the immediate shock of cold water
causes her to instantly panic

and she rushes to exit the vehicle.

Number one OK, staff.

BILLY: Don't panic,
keep your head above.

You're OK now. Calm down.

KOBY: What happened?
I don't think she's completed it.

Drag your sorry carcass
out of the water.

Move, move, move.
Right in front of me, let's go.

What the (BLEEP) happened there?

I closed my eyes, staff.

You (BLEEP) panicked, didn't you?
Yes, staff.

What about if there's (BLEEP) two,
three of you in that vehicle?

We all die.
You all (BLEEP) die.

I didn't think
my leg would make it out, staff.

It's got nothing to do
with your leg.

All you have to do is stay calm,
be in control of this

and get out the vehicle.
Yes, staff.

You've undone your seatbelt,

you (BLEEP) panicked,
you flacked.

You (BLEEP) clogged up
the whole team,

the whole team is (BLEEP) dead

because one person
cannot follow simple instructions.

Yes, staff.

Go and grab your bergen
and have a serious think

about what the (BLEEP)
you're doing here.

(BLEEP) off.

BILLY: 17.

ANT: Let's go 17, move.

Tennis player, Alicia Molik is next
to be submerged.

I ain't going to lie to ya
'cause you're tall,

you're a little bit more of a risk
than the rest of them, OK?

You've got more to get caught on,
get stuck on

but you're not going to do that
as long as you stay calm

and just carry out the drill,
alright.

Yeah.
OK, so get in, buckle up.

Don't panic.

Don't do anything till the diver
gives you that indication, alright?

Yeah.

There's a lot of times
in my tennis-playing life

where I thought
I'm not sure I can do this.

There is fear, self-doubt, nerves.

I can't say
I've been in a crisis

but I feel like
I can get clarity under pressure.

Self-control is probably
one of the most important attributes

that you can have
as a special forces soldier.

You cannot afford
to lose your head

when you're in
the middle of a gunfight

or in the middle of something
going wrong.

Ignoring DS Foxy's signal
to remain seated,

number 17 panics
and escapes the vehicle.

OLLIE: She (BLEEP) up.

BILLY: Swim.

You have to be able
to control your emotions

in situations
that are extremely stressful.

What happened?

I saw the staff's hand come out.

I expected the touch,
it didn't come

and I panicked.

You needed to wait
a couple more seconds...

Damn, I know, (BLEEP).
..and you (BLEEP) it up.

Get your bergen, (BLEEP) off.
Move, go!

Move!

Hurry up.

Just looking at that
gives me nightmares.

Just don't do it
if you don't want to do it.

I'm not.
I don't think I am.

It's just mind over matter mate.
Yeah, we'll be alright.

You can't even tell yourself
it's going to be bad.

Don't bra, don't worry.

Suffering from an intense dislike
for the water,

number 14, John,

is also struggling
to control his anxiety.

I'm not a massive fan of water.

I'm not a massive fan of drowning,
like, I know you can drown.

You've got to respect the ocean,
respect the water

that can bite you
in a second.

Before you know it, you're dead.

Can you swim?
Nah, Nah, I can swim

but I don't like it, staff.

Why don't you like it?

The cold water.

Have you had any issues
with the water before?

Are you all cool with it?

I had a couple issues
but we'll get there, staff.

I was swimming
at Bondi Beach one time

and I got caught in a rip,

it eventually spat me out
back on the beach.

And from that day I was like,
nah, I see what's going on here.

So, I don't actively seek to go out
in large bodies of water,

'cause I'm increasing my risk
to something going wrong.

Man, it's terrifying as...

Trying to remain as calm
as possible...

..number 14 finally
receives a signal to exit...

Yes, let's go!

..and revels in taking control
of his fear.

(CHUCKLES)
ANT: Shut the (BLEEP) up, just swim.

I know I can do it.
I'm just (BLEEP) scared of it.

I know, but I'll panic.

DAN: You won't.
Just don't say the word.

Just don't, don't... OK.

Meanwhile, number 12, Bonnie

is still on the edge
of voluntarily withdrawing.

Your brain just wants you to be safe
no matter what.

You've got to say,
"Thank you very much,

"but I'm going to grow today.
I'm going to (BLEEP) rock this."

Yeah?
Yeah.

Imagine having (BLEEP) three kids

and your wife
(BLEEP) your best mate and shit,

you know what I mean?
This shit happens every day.

BONNIE: I know, I know.
This shits (BLEEP) games.

ANT: Number 12, get here.

Move.

BONNIE: No, I'm too scared.

ANT: So what?
I am.

Listen. Listen,
this is what you're going to do.

You're going to get
in that vehicle first.

You're going to sit in there,
feel it

and you might change your mind.

I'm not usually a quitter.

I feel like if I quit

that's when I'll be disappointed
in myself.

Stop complicating things up here.

You have (BLEEP)
horrible tendency of doing that.

Mm.
Go.

You good?

Yeah.
You're going to smash this.

Oh, it's so emotional. (CRYING)
No, no.

Look at me.

You, you little (BLEEP).
You're going to do it.

You are going to do it.

Come here, sit in the car.

KOBY: She's doing it, look,
she's going to go.

WOMAN: Oh, good on her.

(DOOR SLAMS)
You got this.

Calm your mind.

Remember, wait for the squeeze
in the shoulder.

Oh, she's going. She's off.

Stop.
Just breathe.

OK.

Go!

(BLEEP) hell.

Coming up...

Welcome to the combat fitness test.

ANT: Go!

..an assault course...

ANT: Faster, faster. Let's go.

..but also a trap.

It gives the recruits
an opportunity to cheat.

I'm not a cheater
and I'm not a quitter.

You've got (BLEEP) wits amongst you
that you can't trust.

In the ultimate test
of emotional control...

Calm yourself down.

..panic-stricken Bonnie Anderson...

Stop.
Just breathe.

..is about to be fully submerged

as part of a simulated
drowning drill.

Hold your breath

and wait for the squeeze
in the shoulder.

Easy.

She needs to remain seated
for 40 seconds

without losing her nerve.

Getting the all-clear to exit,

number 12, Bonnie,
has managed to control her fear

and successfully completes the task.

Number 12, OK.

BILLY: OK? Yeah.
SAM: She did it.

BILLY: Swim to the side.
Well done.

Good girl.

Not over yet.

Do you trust yourself now?
Yes.

Do you have a little bit
of more faith in yourself?

Yes, staff.

Oh, that was so scary.

Listen, it wasn't hard, was it?
Thank you.

Start... (BLEEP) don't thank me.
I haven't done (BLEEP) all.

You've done it.

It's over to you.
Keep doing it.

Don't talk to the others.
Grab your bergen.

Go, go, go!
Thank you.

BILLY: Number two.

ANT: Let's go, number two, move.
Let's go.

No stranger to water...
ANT: Let's go.

..is big wave surfer
and a very confident Koby Abberton.

In the water, I'm pretty good.

You're not really going to scare me
in the water.

Can you hold your breath
for a short while?

A little while, yeah.

Sure?
Yes.

Any experience of that?
Yes, sir.

What have you done? Diving?

No, just surf big waves
and I've been held down a lot.

What do you mean held down a lot?

Oh, when you fall off,
you get held underwater.

Show me the benefits
of your experience.

One time I nearly drowned
surfing big waves

and it's those ocean waves,
they come inland on a reef

but then the reef finishes.

(MIMICS ENGINE STARTING)

When I got down there
at about 10m,

the next wave hit.
(MIMICS SWOOSHING)

It washed me over the ledge
and went down another level.

I was down deep, it held me down
and it threw me around,

and the power of that 20-foot wave
busted my knees,

busted my shoulder...

(EXHALES FULLY)

..popped my eardrums,

my eyes were bleeding
for some reason.

But yeah, I got to the surface
and I survived that one.

So I thought
I was looking at heaven

but it was the sky.

Comfortably clearing 40 seconds,

number two, Koby, makes his way out
of the vehicle.

But upon surfacing...

ANT: Oi, how about giving the OK?

..fails to raise his arm
and call his number

to signal he's OK.

Number two, "Number two, OK."
It's the small attention to details

that (BLEEP) you up
at the moment, number two.

OK?

You're strong,
you're (BLEEP) capable

just remember the small things.
Yeah.

Discipline.
Yep.

Yes, staff.
Yes, staff.

Go!

BILLY: 16!

The submerged vehicle.

It's one of the most extreme tasks
where we look for self-control.

Because, ultimately,
it's a very, very scary situation

to be in.

OK, on a serious note,
you are (BLEEP) obviously a big lad.

Yeah.

The last time this happened with me,

I'm in a helicopter
in the Falkland's.

18 went down, only two lived.

So, don't go into a mad frenzy
and a (BLEEP) panic, just stay calm.

Listen, good luck.

Whether it's a helicopter,
a car, a truck,

a plane that's been ditched
into the sea or into a lake.

Once you're submerged underwater,
you can't breathe.

You are going to
lose control quickly

if you haven't got a lid on it.

We need to move up a bit now.

ANT: I'm surprised he got his head
through the back window.

I've been in situations
where I've nearly died.

I've found myself
underwater at about 5m

caught on something

and not being able
to make it to the surface.

Go.

I'm panicking and I've got
to compose myself,

and then in the darkness,
feel around,

work out what had happened,
remedy that.

Unclip myself, make sure
I was free of the snag

and make it to the surface.

(BLEEP) swallowed some water
there didn't you, number 15?

(COUGHS)

Very much out of breath.

It's about carrying out
the right actions

in a very stressful situation.

Nine, OK, staff.

Bottom line is,
they could actually drown.

Don't (BLEEP) this up,
number eighteen.

Last to be submerged
is Jessica Peris.

Daughter of Olympic
sprinting legend Nova Peris.

My mother's daughter.

I'm confident running on the ground

but I wouldn't say that
I'm an overly confident swimmer.

Obviously (BLEEP) vehicles
are death traps.

Yes, staff.

This shit happens
and happens for real.

You know I would, guess I'll just
try my hardest not to panic.

Think about what
you've got to do, stay calm,

let everything just happen
to a point where you have control.

Yes, staff.

'Cause, God forbid,
you just don't know, do you?

Yes, staff.
OK.

Thank you, staff.

When my mum and father separated,

my mum formed a relationship
with my stepfather.

He was the father
of my brother and sister,

to Sydney and Jack,
and he grew me up

and he was the father figure
in my life.

And in 2012, he flipped his car
down the Arnhem Highway

travelling more than 200km an hour.

That was devastating, you know?

It was heartbreaking.

It had a massive impact
on my family.

I guess I kind of
shut down emotionally

and that's something that I've been
trying to work on in my life.

(TAKES DEEP BREATHS)

Instantly panicked,
number 18 Jessica

has lost all control
and immediately escapes for air.

Oi, oi.

(COUGHS)

Don't panic,
keep your head above you.

You're OK now, calm down.

Move, number 18.

Get here.

Get here.

Get a (BLEEP) grip of yourself.

What the (BLEEP) was all that about?

My stepdad died
in a car accident, staff,

and I was thinking about him
and I shouldn't have.

Yeah, you should have
done it for him then.

No bullshit excuses.
I don't want to hear it.

You should draw strength from that
and get the (BLEEP) job done.

Quit that victim mentality.

Yes, staff.
No (BLEEP) victims.

Yes, staff.

What's done is done now.

It's the (BLEEP) past.
Yep.

Can't change it, can ya?
Nah.

OK, what we can do, we can make
a difference in the now.

Yeah.

(BLEEP) off, go, move.

My body just kind of shuts down
a little bit, you know,

in a highly stressful situation.

I think that this is going to be
an awesome opportunity

for me to be able to go and put
everything and leave it out there.

Number one, number 17
and number 18.

Classic example of how not to do it.

If you panic, the drill
goes out the window

'cause you can't control your minds.

The only mind games
you play are on yourself,

especially you, number 18.

You should be drawing strength
from that.

Everything else,
we leave in the past.

And remember you've
entered our world

and the authentic experience
will not stop.

We will not waver.

But also, we will not waste our time
on people that don't deserve it.

I've been through a lot of
traumatic experiences in my past.

Jessica's devastating admission.

The last thing I
sort of remember about that

is being carried out of
my mother's house

by paramedics to a hospital.

What, why?

At base camp, number six Manu

who withdrew from the course earlier

makes an emotional call home
to his family.

Hi.

Hello.

Hello.

Listen.
Hi.

I'm done.

Why, what happened?

I don't need to be here anymore.

I'm meant to come home.

OK, darling. That's good bubba.

It's OK.

I know.
You're good.

As long as you're good, my love.

I miss you more than this.

Don't cry. Bubba's coming home.

Bubba's coming home, bubba, OK.

Alright.

As long as you're good, bubba.
I'm fabulous.

I love you.

I love you too.

Ahh, I don't like the word 'regret'
as such,

but yeah, in a sense

I wish I could have got my head
in the game mentally

but do I need to prove anything
to myself to move forward in life?

The answer is no.

As Manu Feildel departs base
for the last time,

back in the dorm,
sprinter Jessica Peris

is still shaken from the task.

Let's move, 18. Let's go.

And she's now being summoned
for questioning.

Yes, staff.
Yes, staff.

To discuss her loss
of emotional control.

Put your hands up against the wall.

I come from a bloodline
of strong black women.

Strong aboriginal women.

So when I reflect upon pain,

I think about my grandmother
and my great-grandmother,

how they were part of
the stolen generation

when they were taken away
from their mothers.

So I guess things that I've had
to overcome, challenges in life.

You know, seem quite small
in comparison.

I draw a lot of strength from that.

The reason I want
to talk to you

was because when we did
the task this morning

and when you stepped into that car.

You were like in a different world.

Do you agree with that?

Yeah, I do staff.
You do?

Yeah.

Do you want to tell us
about that?

Um...

What was going on?

Well, my stepdad, my stepfather

who's the father of
my brother and sister.

He passed away in a tragic
car accident in 2012.

Um...

Yeah, so that affected me.

I thought that my head
was strong going into that,

and I know that I was
capable of doing it

but just that split second

of just a reminder,
like an image of him,

and mentally, I crumbled.

Makes sense to me now.

So obviously you had
a bit of a flashback.

Yeah, I just had a flashback.

Like, I've been through a lot of

traumatic experiences in my past.

I grew up in a pretty...

A household where there was
a lot of violence.

So I guess I carried on
certain traits

throughout my adult life.

It's been pretty tough

living in my mum's shadow,

in her footsteps,
a lot of pressure to carry.

I wasn't overly interested in sport
growing up as a kid,

then I found a love
for my own sport with athletics

and I wanted to go
and have a crack and pursue that

and, yeah, then that sort of,

that, sort of, crumbled as well.

There was an incident...

I had to withdraw from

the 2018 commonwealth games trials

due to an issue
with a drug test.

You know that was
absolutely heartbreaking.

It was all over every newspaper,

every television station
in the country and it was,

"Nova Peris' daughter test positive
for banned substance."

You know, when...

Um...

That was, that was, that was hard,

really hard.

So I'm still fighting
for justice in that.

So that's still ongoing

and I guess that's just really

severely impacted my mental health
and, yeah...

The last thing I sort of
remember about that

is being carried out
of my mother's house

by paramedics to a hospital.

What... Why?

Just I felt as if
I had no way out.

So were you trying to kill yourself
or was it just a...

I didn't want to be here anymore.

It's definitely one of
my biggest regrets in life

because, you know,
what if I didn't wake up?

My son wouldn't have a mother,
you know,

my mum wouldn't have a daughter.

So...

But that's what it pushed me to.

Suicide is a (BLEEP)
dark place to be.

When you're contemplating it
and I've been there.

You feel like there's
no point going on.

A lot of people
that don't understand it,

feel that it's selfish.

But you're not thinking
in a selfish way,

you're actually thinking about
other people.

You don't think that
you're any use to anyone else

and to be at that point
has got to be really low.

You panicked, which I get,

but ultimately you seem to be,
sort of, like sat in the past.

'Cause at the moment, yeah,
bad things have happened.

Whether that's self-inflicted
or not but it's in the past.

As soon as the car hits the water,
you're panicking

'cause you're thinking of something
that didn't even happen to you.

Yes, it was a horrible thing
to of happened

and you were to be experiencing
something from that.

But ultimately, to find yourself,
you've got to look forward.

My journey to contemplating suicide

was, I was medically discharged
from the special forces with PTSD,

and my life unravelled after that.

I was failing as a father,
as a partner.

I figured the best way for me
to deal with that was to be,

take myself off this planet.

Your, sort of, brush with suicide,

it is an upsetting thing to think
about but it's done now.

And it's a turning point

and it's something that you can
actually move forward from

in a more positive way.

Yep.

What do you personally
want to get out of this?

I guess for me
it's a learning experience

but it's more for self-growth,

to let go of past traumas.

You've just said it yourself.
So you know it.

Yep.

So now it's time
to (BLEEP) do it.

Step up to the plate and go,
"You know what,

"I can't change the past but I can
certainly shape the future."

And this bit of the future,

this opportunity
you've been given now

will teach you so much about you.

Your potential
and who you really are.

Mm-hmm.

But if you want to let the (BLEEP)
pity party drag you back,

you won't get over
the start point, will ya?

No, staff.
Do you agree with me?

I do, staff.

Stop living in the shadows
of other people.

Mm-hmm. Yes, staff.

You, let's go, let's do this.
Yep.

Guard!

I do see this as an opportunity
to redemption.

For me, you know,
it's to be able to show people

who I am as a person,

to see how physically
and mentally strong I am.

I'm proud of myself
that I'm still here today

despite everything
that I've been through.

I refuse to quit,

I'll push myself until
I have nothing else to give.

Move, move.

BILLY: Only up.

Come on, then, all the (BLEEP) way!

After several recruits failed
their task on emotional control...

Welcome to the combat fitness test.

..the DS plan to push them
even further

in a test of physical discipline.

The special forces teams
operational effectiveness

stems from self-discipline

to main physical and mental peak
performance.

Today we are going to test

the physical element
of that discipline.

ANT: Go!

The recruits are going to be asked
to do a fitness test.

Run!

BILLY: Hurry up, go. Faster.

With five different stations

where they've got to do certain
exercises at each station.

All the way in!

The course begins
by flipping a 55kg tyre.

(BLEEP) bicycle tyre,
a piece of piss.

You will do 30 flips.

Let's go!

They will then lift 15kg sandbags...

Then 30 above the head.

..followed by 30 press-ups...

That's one.

..30 log squats,
and to finish...

Chest to the floor,
feet off the floor.

..30 gruelling burpees.

ANT: Let's move!

This course is unforgiving,

it's ruthless and it's designed

to see what they can handle.

Come on, fast as you can then.

To physically challenge the recruits
even further...

Move!
OLLIE: Over the wall.

..they will sprint between
the stations across obstacles.

Big drop, big drop, watch out.

And through punishing terrain.

Move it!

(BLEEP) hell.

It's like walking behind
a geriatric cricket.

Get a move on.

As a special force's operator,

if you are not up there up
physically from day one,

you are going to struggle
and you are going to suffer.

Catch up, hurry up.

(GRUNTS)

Number one, move, move.

So do not waste our time.

We haven't even started yet!

'Cause we will simply
(BLEEP) you off.

(PANTING)

Straining under the pain
of an ongoing calf injury...

Come on.

..number one Emma
is buckling under pressure.

We're waiting for you, hurry up.

Having fallen way behind.

Go! (BLEEP) hell.

Chief instructor Ant
gives a word of warning.

Right, just from
that little run through,

it's (BLEEP) obvious that
a few of you shouldn't be here.

Now before we do this,

you make a complete (BLEEP)
tit of yourselves.

Does anyone want to do
the right thing?

Yes, staff.

I promised my team that if
I wouldn't be able to keep up,

if my injury would hold me back...

Good.

..that I would go home.
Good.

I'm going to keep my word, staff,
to my team.

Good. Do you know what?
Right choice.

Thank you, staff.

You would of made yourself
look like a right tit then.

Listen, enough is enough.

You've gone far enough.

Duty of recruit handbook, staff.

Listen, good effort.

Thank you, staff.

Well done for being honest with
yourself and honest with the others.

Make your way to the DS.

Thank you for the opportunity.

You're welcome, anytime.

Do me proud, guys. Do me proud.

Left with no choice,

number one Emma Husar

is the fourth recruit to voluntarily
withdraw from the course.

What's the matter?

(CRYING)

What's up?

I don't want to go home.

Pardon?

I don't want to go home.

Then why did you
stop doing that?

'Cause I know that my legs
not going to keep up.

If I go out because I can't hack it,

then I will have, I guess,
achieved what I set out to do

which was to really test
my determination and resilience.

It's been developed under,

God knows what
experiences over my life.

If it was just about me,
I would have crawled through it,

but there are 15 others
to think about.

If I've got to go out
on the count of a medical VW,

I'm not going to be happy about it.

Thank you.

Alright, listen in.

I want you to line up
in your perceived rank

of physical ability

with the strongest at that end
and your weakest at this end.

Go.

Move, hurry up!

KOBY: I want to be up the front.

Yeah, let's go, go.

(CROSS-TALKING)

Full of confidence, number two Koby

has identified himself
as the strongest recruit.

OK, number two, stand by.

..and will therefore
be first to tackle the course.

Go!

Go, number two. Let's move,
move, move, move.

Let's move.

I'm surprised I didn't see you there
number seven at the front.

He asked to go to the front.

You'll catch 'em though, won't ya?

I'll do my best, staff.

Push-ups?

Yep, good effort.

30, huh?

Always 30.

Ten.

I'm a confident man.

I'm good looking, strong.

30.

I'm in this fit stage,

I'm walking around with a six-pack,
all ripped and feeling great.

Number seven, stand by.

Go!

Alright, I'll catch you,
number seven. Let's go.

Let's go, let's go, let's go.
All the way around, let's go.

If I've got someone there
who can push me...

Move it!

..I will definitely better myself.

Faster, faster, let's go.

As Iron Man Jett
closes in on Koby...

You can move faster than that!

..the next strongest recruits...

Go!

Move, number 15,
catch the man in front. Let's go.

..AFL player Heath Shaw...

Go. Let's go, big boy, move, move.

..and NRL player Sam Burgess
set off.

All the way in,
you know the route back.

Meanwhile Koby Abberton...

Route back to see
what the next detail is.

..has managed to stay well in front
of number seven Jett.

Come on, (INDISTINCT). Let's go.

But despite his best efforts,
Iron Man Jett is exhausted...

Move, number seven, move!

Yes, staff, yes.

..failing to catch his rival
and finishes disappointed.

Hurry up!

Moving sluggishly,

is the oldest male recruit,
musician Pete Murray.

I'm 51 now.

I'll see how far my body will go.

So my body will be sore
and I will be sore.

It's not as fresh
as the other guys here.

There will be sore knees,

they're going to be
screaming me at me

and going, "Stop."

Keep running, number five.

Do not walk on my shift, never!

Number five, come here.

Staff, just seeing whitewashes.

Look at me.

Do not (BLEEP) walk on that course,
do you understand me?

Yes, staff.

Get back in, get some water
down your neck.

Number four. Go!

I've had four kids so having my body
go through being an elite athlete

to being a mum, meant that
I need a goal to train.

Do you ever ask yourself
why you're here, number four?

I'm intrigued.

To test myself, to learn more.

OK.

Let me know when
you feel like doing that.

I think I'm tough but, you know,
I had a baby six months ago

so I'm fighting that postpartum,
you know, after pregnancy body.

All the way in. Let's go,
let's go, let's go.

Let's go.

(PANTING)

Do you need water?

He said we can fill our waters
back over there...

I've wrecked myself so probably
just stay away from water.

(PANTING)

I probably couldn't hold it.

Oh, how embarrassing.

Alright, if anyone needs a piss,
go and piss now, go on.

Hurry up.

I'm so sorry.

It's alright, if you need to piss,
you need to piss.

It's fine. I don't mind.

That is (BLEEP) natural.

Thank you.

Did any of you piss
in the water today?

No, but I just pissed myself
on that run

so the was embarrassing enough.

It's not intentional but
women at home need to know

that after you have a baby,
you don't have a good pelvic floor,

if you try hard.

So I'm...

Too much information,
number four.

Sorry.

I do not want to know about
your pelvis movements.

I'm just embarrassed.

Number 11, you're next.

Go!

Let's go, move, move.

Sprint!

The recruits think they're doing
an assault course,

a physical thrashing...

The machine from 'Home and Away'.

What are you doing here anyway?

Trying to become a better
version of myself.

Can you get any better?

(BLEEP) yes, staff.

..but that's not what it's about.

Staff, I've lost focus.

I think that's 30.
I think I might have done more.

What are you asking me for?
You were told what to do.

This is all about integrity.

(BLEEP) hell.
(YELLS)

There is a number of stations
where the DS won't be around

so it gives the recruits
the opportunity to cheat.

Those stations will be filmed
with a hidden camera.

Guess what?

We're (BLEEP) watching you.

I'm not a cheater
and I'm not a quitter.

We're going to see if
they're an integral individual.

Come on, grandma, move!

(BLEEP) hell, the stopwatch
has run out of numbers.

I want you to disappear
to the accommodation

as quick as you can
and use your time wisely.

We will get back to you
with the results.

Go, move, move!

If you cut corners in training,

then you're going to cut corners
on the battlefield...

..and that is something
that will get you killed.

JESSICA: Oh, (BLEEP),
that was awful.

What a freaking beat down
we just had.

BONNIE: Oh, my (BLEEP).

As the recruits rest
and recuperate,

the DS meet to review
the hidden camera footage

to uncover who, if anyone,
has cheated.

OLLIE: Integrity is a massive part
of the special forces world.

Let's find out

who's been trying
to pull the wool over our eyes.

So we'll be analysing that footage

to see if they've done the correct
number of each exercise.

There will be people
that try and cheat.

And you can't have a cheat
within the team.

Right, number nine.

Oh, number nine's (BLEEP).

Bimbling in.
See, the DS aren't there.

And no jump.

That's typical of him though, innit?

Because there's no DS there.

He doesn't have to perform.

Recruit number five.

Oh, he's just walking in,
there we go.

He's not in a good place right now.

No, I'm surprised he even got there.

He's not even contemplating
doing one, is he?

I just had these white,
you know, blotches.

Yep.

And I was kind of waiting for them
to go away and it wasn't.

He's still cracking on though,
to be fair.

FOXY: Yeah.

BILLY: He's trying.
Yeah, he is trying.

OLLIE: Number four,
her timing on that today.

BILLY: She's strong, mate.
FOXY: She's an ox.

She's strong.
She's a robust women, she is.

JANA: I couldn't hold my bladder
for the last 100m of the run.

ISABELLA: That's alright,
I was thinking about...

Oh, who cares, babe?

DAN: You finished it.

Who cares? You're a momma.
It's embarrassing.

And then I should have just kept it
to (BLEEP).

But for some reason...

Nah, we're all family now.

BONNIE: You kept going though,
what an animal.

She's doing it correctly though.

FOXY: Yeah, yeah,
he's doing that in stages.

BILLY: Half-hearted.

It's the way they stroll in as well
'cause there's no DS there,

they just stroll in.

Yeah, they don't think
we're watching

but we're always watching.

Keeping an eye out
for those who did not complete

30 repetitions at each station...

Look at this last one.

..there's still one recruit
left to review.

Three, four, five, six,

seven, eight, nine, ten,

11, 12, 13, 14, 15.

Whoa, whoa, whoa.

Mate that's not a miss count.

No, unbelievable.

That's an integrity thing, that.

Yeah, that's blatant.

ANT: Let's have a look
at this last one.

So this is the press-ups.

The DS are reviewing
hidden camera footage of the recruits

on a physical assault course,

but the unaware recruits are actually
being tested on their integrity.

Three, four, five, six, seven...

If they didn't complete
30 repetitions of each exercise,

they are branded a cheat
and will suffer the consequences.

..nine, ten, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15.

Unbelievable.

Mate, that's not a miscount.
No.

And that's not (BLEEP),
that's an integrity thing that.

Yeah, that's blatant.

Right, let's go and give 'em
the good news.

Yea.

Having caught Koby Abberton
red-handed...

Get on the parade square now.

..the DS will now reveal
their findings to the group.

(BLEEP) move.

Move!

Do not (BLEEP) try and pull
the wool over my eyes.

That is something
that (BLEEP) infuriates me.

I want you back in the positions
for the combat assault course.

Go, move.

We asked you to do a job.

Now what you thought was a combat
assault course, wasn't.

It was the combat integrity course.

Surveillance cameras
hidden around each stance.

If you didn't complete...

..and do all the repetitions
per stance

on each and every exercise...

..step forward.

I've just been watching
this (BLEEP) raging.

You're so (BLEEP) blatant,
it's embarrassing.

'Cause you think you're being timed,
you think you can cut corners,

well, guess what,
bullets don't (BLEEP) cut corners.

No shortcuts on the battlefield.

Number 16, step back.

You can give or take one or two
that you might forget

'cause you're digging out blind.

You two, step back.

Yes, sir.

You two, step back.

Anyone else, wants to step forward?

It's your one opportunity,
own up to it.

Be integral and go, "I (BLEEP) up."

There's very few people
that get to the end of selection

if they've lied
on an integrity shout.

Anything you want to tell me,
number two?

No, I might have done more, staff.

You sure about that?

Yes I am.

You see it happen to people
and you're like,

oh, just a dead man walking.

And you're like,
thank (BLEEP) that wasn't me.

All of you can stand by

'cause all of you
are going to suffer

because you've got (BLEEP) wits
amongst you that you can't trust.

Give you a bit of (BLEEP) slack.

You go and take the piss.

Go, disappear, (BLEEP) off!

SAM: What do you reckon?

Oh, I think,
I'm sure I did all of mine

but you never know when you're...

KOBY: He kept looking at me,
but I think I did mine.

(BLEEP), he's going to,
they're going to smash us tonight.

They were pissed off.

It wasn't you, I'm assuming?

No.

I suppose just don't know,
do you?

Like, I'm thinking, I certainly
wouldn't have never did it,

wouldn't have done it on purpose.

Mate, now I think I should have...
I know I've done the reps, mate.

I know I've done the reps,
I did extra.

I think if you cheated,
you would know.

Who actually knows that they did,
they, they cheated?

I would never do
something like that.

Hell, no way, never, never.

No, he would have...
Never.

But I'm saying where he counted,
might of been when burpees,

when you're disorientated
and you're trying to count,

lost one number.

DAN: It's more so,
yeah, lack of concentration

rather than integrity
but I can understand how they.

He was looking at me,
he was fully looking at me,

but I don't, I really don't believe
I, I missed any.

PETE: There was a couple of times
I, I lost count

but I, I didn't know
where I was but...

I think he should just tell us.

It's just as embarrassing
just getting called you're a cheat.

JANA: Alright, guys,
let's all get together in a group.

We've got to discuss this.

Did anyone else do it

or unintentionally put,
like I can put my hand up and say,

I don't think, I'm almost
100% certain I did all of them.

SAM: I think there's only one step,
so I stepped forward.

The first tyre flip I lost my count,
but I did the extras.

KOBY: I did the same as that.
MARK: That was the same with me.

SAM: I just didn't risk it,
that's why I stepped forward.

When you count that many, everyone
gets mixed up but I don't know.

But I thought I did extra,

I was counting
and I just kept on doing a few more.

I would rather step forward...

That's what I did.

It's not the guys
who stepped forward.

He was looking at, like it was me
but I don't think it was me.

He could of called you out
knowing full well it was me

'cause I missed one.

KOBY: He semi put me on the spot,
I didn't like that.

I think I done mine.

SAM: Yeah, well then that's it,
stand by what you think.

Just mentally prepare
for whatever may come.

BILLY: Number two.

Still failing to confess
he has cheated...

Stand up there,
put your hands against the fence,

there you go.

..the DS now take matters
into their own hands

as they haul in number two
for questioning.

Number two, I'm going to ask you
a simple question.

Number two, I'm going to ask you
a simple question.

Do you think we're (BLEEP)?

No.

No, no.
Do you think we're fair people?

Yeah, I think so.

I think we're fair,
I think we're honest,

I think we're brutally honest,
that's what makes us who we are.

We're certainly not (BLEEP).

So, please stop
treating us like one.

I asked you a question
out on the parade square.

Hmm-mm.

A question of integrity.

Let me ask you, has your integrity
ever been questioned?

Everyday.

People are always asking me
if I'm up to no good

or you know, treated me
like I'm up to no good.

Why?

I was raised with,
with um, drug addict mother.

Right.

So it was obviously passed onto me.

Passed onto,
so, you're a drug addict?

No, like passed onto me as in,
I was the, you know the bad...

The rep?

Yeah, the...
The reputation?

Yeah.

You think you deserve
that reputation?

No, no.
No?

When, when I was, you know,
sometimes, for sure, yeah.

You know, I was raised
in a harsh environment

and sometimes I was a prick but,
but no, I don't,

I didn't deserve it.

So when I asked you out there
about the exercise that you'd done.

Hmm-mm.

You told me you think
you've done them all.

I looked you in the eye
and I said, "Be honest with me."

You told me you'd done it.

I was hoping you'd (BLEEP)
step forward,

because what I've got on this laptop
which I'm about to show you...

..it's so obvious, so blatant,

that you're integrity
is brought into question with us.

How many were you told to do?

30.

Tells me you're not (BLEEP) stupid.

This is you.

There you ask the DS
how many you should do

and then he walks off.

30, yeah?

Always 30.

Yeah, I know.

I want you to count.

One, two, three,
four, five, six, seven...

I'm just tired, I didn't,
I didn't, I didn't...

..eight, nine, ten, 11, 12,
13, 14, 15.

Boom, you're gone.

Hey, I just (BLEEP) up.
15.

So you've done half
the exercise there.

Now that's a (BLEEP)
huge difference.

So when I'm seeing that,

I am bringing your integrity
into question.

Yep, I totally understand.
Every single time.

I didn't mean it.

No way.

I just wouldn't have cheated...

But, but, but you did...
You want me to...

100%...
'Cause the evidence is there.

The evidence is there,
I'll take full responsibility...

And do you know what,
a couple of them, there's 28, 29.

I can go, do you know what,
I can get away with that.

Yeah, that was just stupid...
Not with, not with (BLEEP) 15.

Not with halfway.
Nah, I don't know what...

Listen to me, listen to me,
this is what's going to happen.

Listen to me,
this is what's going to happen.

You're going to (BLEEP)
take it on the chin

because it's there.

If you would of stepped out
I would have said enough is enough.

But now you can stand by for a
(BLEEP) thrashing because of you.

And guess what,
you're going to go back

and tell everyone
it's because of you...

Yeah, sure, yeah, no worries.

..that they are going to suffer.

Well, you're all going to suffer.
Yep.

Because if you would have
stepped forward

none of this would be
(BLEEP) happening.

And you can all stand by tonight.

Guard!

He's a strange one, ain't he?

I like him, but then like,

his (BLEEP) chippiness
pisses me off.

This is where you're going.
Thank you, staff.

Hey, guys.

This is where you're going.
Thank you, staff.

Hey, guys.

Hey, uh, you're getting tortured
because of me tonight.

I was supposed to do 30 push-ups
and I did 15.

I don't know how I did it,

but that's why we're getting
tortured tonight.

SAM: Did he show you it?

He showed me it, yeah,
but I don't know how I did it.

But youse are getting tortured,
I'm a part of it.

Sorry, gang.

It's just what it is.

HEATH: 15.

Do you need to piss?

Yeah.
No prob, I'll take ya.

I don't know
how I did what I did, aye.

It was just like
right in the cameras face.

It's like right there.

Don't.
And I'm like bang, bang, bang.

These guys want detail.

If they say 20 reps, you do 20 reps.

Like, it's detail,
they keep telling us.

That's heavy that I got pulled out.

I knew he was saying it to me.

Hey?

I knew he was saying it to me
and I could have like said,

"Oh, yeah, it was me,"

but I really didn't think it was me.

I (BLEEP) up.

Oh, we're going to get
hammered tonight.

It's so cold.

(BLEEP).

This has got me rattled.
Me too.

But he said blatant so.

That was blatant, 15 instead of 30.

Yeah.

And that's like, I've like...

But he was like...

I can't believe you missed by 15.

Oh, I missed it,

I don't know
what I could've done wrong,

like, I'm in the camera's face.

JANA: I wonder
what they're going to do.

JOHN: Man, that fire,
I reckon we should put more,

more sticks in there.

JETT: I reckon we crank it up
when we get back.

Alright...
We could, we could be out...

..we could be out there
for two hours.

Despite everyone being on edge
over looming punishment...

Just ready, stay awake.

KOBY: I don't know how I um,
I'm not honest,

I'm not that honest at all.

But I didn't do that.

..Koby still refuses to admit fault
and hits a few raw nerves.

Cheating and lying
is just the bottom of the barrel.

He's too busy trying to win.

Yeah, I'm not even pissed off
that I (BLEEP) up.

I'm pissed off that we...
I, I am.

When you have a group
with a lot of positive people,

and then someone
with a negative attitude

gets thrown in the middle
of that group they do stand out

and it's hard
to be around that person.

Just have a lie down
for a little while, guys.

You go sleep now, we,
I won't be sleeping now.

He's (BLEEP) given me
(BLEEP) anxiety.

Exhausted and unable to sleep...

MARK: Sleep with your boots on,

'cause in time
we're going to have to...

JETT: Yeah.

..the recruits go to bed
dressed in full kit,

remaining on high alert
for the impending beasting.

Hey, guys,
I feel like I'm like,

you know, I feel pretty bad
about this whole situation

but I want youse to know is,

they're basing my whole integrity
on 15 push-ups

in front of the camera

and I promise you I can do as many
push-ups as all of you together.

I just fucked up, I counted wrong
and I just didn't keep counting,

but I want youse to know
that I didn't mean to do that,

but I promise you
I did that time trial

faster than every one of youse,
especially you, yeah?

And I didn't go there not trying,
I just want youse to know that.

That's why you don't base integrity
off 15 push-ups.

A threat of a thrashing can be
worse than the thrashing itself.

So sleep tight, recruits,
sleep tight.