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(DRAMATIC MUSIC)

NARRATOR: Deep in remote bushland,

17 celebrities leave behind
their comfort and security

to embark
on a life altering experience.

For the next 14 days,

they'll take part
in a condensed version

of the SAS Selection course.

Some are here
with a point to prove.

Some to face their inner demons.

And some are here
to fight for redemption.

I hope the public know me
from uh playing AFL footy

but they might just know me
from the affair

with the wife of my teammate
at the time.

I'm not trying to prove
anything to the public,

it's to myself
and that's why I'm on the course.

Many people know me
from the song 'Read My Lips'

from E Street

and most recently
the 'Housewives of Sydney'.

I'm sitting here terrified,
I'm not gonna lie to you.

I can't say to you,
"I'm gonna be fabulous and, yeah,

"I'll be fine, don't worry!"

I don't know.

I honestly don't know.
I'm terrified.

We don't care who they are.

We don't care where they're from
or what they've done.

Titles, labels, brands

means absolutely nothing
on the battlefield.

This is a course where you will be
fully exposed for who you truly are.

I'm known

for going on 'The Bachelor'

and meeting my know hubby
Tim Robards.

I think people think
that I'm quite delicate

and that I wouldn't like
getting bruises or scratches.

They're gonna think
that I'm not going to give 100%

but they are so wrong.

I used to be
a professional swimmer.

I won multiple Olympic medals

and broken many world records
over my career.

I think that being able to deal
with those pressures

and those circumstances

is gonna help me
get through the course.

Move! Let's go!

Hurry up!

To pass selection...
Move!

..the recruits
will need strength,

courage and commitment.

Hurry up!
But they'll also need each other.

Hurry up!

Get a move on you two.

Urgency in everything that we do,
listen in very carefully.

Stop moving!

First of all, welcome.

You should be proud
you've taken that initial step

to where you are now.

Whatever you've done in the past,
it doesn't count here.

Everything is wiped clean.

Probably would know me

from playing rugby league
in the NRL.

I played for 15 seasons
uh for the Broncos,

the Dragons and the Knights.

I'm someone that only does things
that I'm good at normally.

I'm doing this to prove to myself
that I can do something

that's well out of my comfort zone
and overcome those barriers.

We're going to strip

anything negative
that you possess...

and help you flip them
into a positive.

I think everyone perceives me
the way I played football,

my physicality on the field
and some of my wrong doings.

I'm probably totally different now

but I haven't been
in a competitive environment for,

you know, quite a long time
so it's going to be interesting

to see how I go with that.

You will need
to throw yourself in the deep end

with everything that you do.

It will be an experience
of a lifetime

and it starts right now.

I'm an NRLW player
for the Brisbane Broncos.

And I've also represented Australia
in Rugby League and Rugby Union.

I just don't see myself quitting.

I'm just about to put you...

to the recesses of hell.

(INTENSE MUSIC)

You're going to be set on fire.

This isn't some yoga retreat
where you find yourself.

It's going to be a harsh
and brutal lesson from day one.

What doesn't kill you makes you.

Go, let's go!

Remain calm.
Do not panic!

Get a fucking grip of yourself.

Chief instructor Ant Middleton.

You are meant to be
a fucking ox.

And his international team
of Special Forces soldiers.

With two new elite commanders.

Navy Seal Clint Emerson.

He served 20 years
in the US Unit

that took out Osama Bin Laden.

Nothing will get in our way.

Special Boat Services Dean Stott.

I served 16 years in the military.

I trained alongside Prince Harry

and I've been trusted
to protect his life.

This is my new mission.

Get a grip of your team!

Will push them!

(YELLS)

What happened?

Give me your number
and you can go!

Why would I go, I just pulled

that cunt off the cliff.

You call me cunt again

and I'll smash you
in the fucking face.

And beyond!

SAS is so far
out of my comfort zone.

I will not get through this course
without self-belief.

Yes!

I want this to be
the hardest most brutal thing

I can think of.

Fail!

You're just about to be kidnapped.

Get in the fucking car now,
fuck.

Look at me, look at me.

Listen, look at me, look at me.

Your strengths will fucking prevail.

I slept with my teammate's wife.

What are you fucking playing at?

Right, get outside!

No other test asks as much...

Stand up, stand up number six.

..or means as much...

It's not being
in my girl's life every day

is probably the biggest thing
that I'm ashamed of.

..to the few
who make it through.

This first task is going to see

if you've got the survival instincts
to last fucking another day.

If you do not move quickly enough

you will literally fucking burn
and burst into flames.

Recruit on fire is to see

how they cope when their world
is falling apart around them

and you need guts.

Guts is something that you will have
to bring to the forefront

of this course.

If you don't,
you'll be gone before you know it.

First to face
the terrifying flames

is reality TV star Locky Gilbert.

I've done 'Survivor'
and then done 'The Bachelor',

two completely different shows

but this is something new
and I'm excited for it.

I want this course to be
the hardest thing I have ever done.

I want this to prove to everyone
that I am this tough alpha male.

I want it to be fucking hard.

Light me the fuck up.

Move faster!

Let's go all the way in.
Do not touch me.

See that tree in front of you,
the last tree.

Yes, staff.

And the log
to the right hand side.

Between that is your point of entry
into the water.

Do not dive
and fucking snap your neck.

Just get in waist height,

fucking fast as you can
and flop forward.

Do you understand me?
Yes, staff.

When I set you on fire
I'm gonna to step back,

maintain eye contact
until I give you the command go.

Yes, staff.
What do you do?

I've been
a couple of reality TV shows, but.

Oh, you're one of them fuckers
are you?

Oh, I work as an adventure guide.

Shut the fuck up,
I don't want to know anyone.

I don't fucking want to know.
You're fucking boring me.

Fuel!

So, I'm an egotistical fame whore.

I mean I've done three TV shows,

this is my fourth TV show.

Of course like fame and notoriety
is what some people live for.

I don't hide it. It's fun.

It's exciting. It's what drives me.

This isn't a fucking reality show,
get that into your fucking head.

Do you understand me?
Yes, staff.

(TENSE MUSIC)

Go!

I think Australia
just wants to see

a bit of humility from me,
but selfishness has got me here.

That's what I'm pissed off about.

They're like,
"Oh, you need to change,

"you need to change."

I'm like fuck.

I've had
a pretty good fucking life

so (LAUGHS) do I?

Oh, my fucking god!

Come on,
we can play mermaid later.

Let's go, let's go.

I can't run that fast.

You can, you can.
Don't say you can't.

Being set on fire right off the bat

you get to find out who's nervous,

who's jittery, who's scared,

who's allowing fear
to turn into panic.

Stand there.

Have you ever experienced
anything like that before?

Not quite that.

Stand behind your Bergen,
facing out towards the water.

So, recruit on fire
is to really test the...

the guts of the recruits.

Yes.
Disappear.

A lot of people have phobias.

You know, maybe heights,
maybe water, some will be fire.

Oh, my god.

I'm a world title contender,
professional boxer.

You might know me as the girl
that weights in in lingerie.

I'm pretty popular for that.

Despite her tough exterior,
boxer Ebanie has one very real fear.

Yeah, it is.

My biggest fear
is fire and burns, um, by far.

Move! Faster!

It's pretty intense.

You know, I won't sit
around bonfires with my friends.

I mean, I like to cook
on gas stoves.

Fuel up.

The way that I feel around fire.
I get really anxious.

My heart will start pounding.

If I feel any kind of heat,
like I do panic.

When you get in there,
you get into waist height

and then you flop forward.

Do not fucking dip
cause it will fucking burn

all your fucking hair off.

She hates fire,
she can't even stand

being near barbecues apparently.

I'm gonna have to find
a way to block it out

'cause I'm not gonna let my fear
stop me from,

you know,
getting through to selection.

Go!

Faster, move.

Fast as you can!

Faster!

Move faster than that Doris,
let's go!

The third recruit to be set
on fire is model Simone Holtznagel.

Some of the girls
might know me

from Guess campaigns
working with major lingerie brands.

I think some guys
might recognise me

from the cover of playboy.

That's usually how it goes.

You need to fucking shift,
faster than that.

OK. Yes, staff.

'Cause I'll just keep you here
and trust me you will move

when I set you on fire.

A lot of people
are used to seeing me in lingerie

so I'm excited

to actually be wearing clothes
for once.

This nervous energy
right here, keep it,

'cause you're gonna need it.

Yeah, I'm a pyromaniac.

I love fire. I love it!

But prefer to not be in a situation

where I was about to die.

Go!

Faster!

I don't know
if I can do this, guys.

If we can all do it.
You can 100% can.

OK.
OK?

Yep.

It doesn't matter
if you're an athlete.

It doesn't matter if anything.
Hurry up!

I haven't got all day.

AFL commentator, Wayne Carey,
is next to feel the hit.

Fuel!

We're applying fuel to now,
you are going to feel extreme heat.

Yes, staff.

The affair, it's the biggest regret
of my life as an adult.

I've done a lot of work
of trying to overcome it.

Go! You better move.

You better move, big boy!

People say people don't change.

You haven't lived in my shoes
if you say people can't change.

People can change. They evolve.

And I'm a perfect example
of someone

that's been able to evolve.

Olympic swimming legend
Geoff Huegill

will now be set alight.

We finished Sydney Olympics
and I struggled really hard.

I was definitely partying
and drinking more,

and put on 50 kilos.

Listen in to the details
very carefully.

Yes, staff.
Do not fuck this up.

Fuel up.

When I set you on fire,
I will set you on fire.

I will step back.
Eye contact at all times.

When I give you the command, go!

You will switch your eye contact
from me to your point of entry

and you will move at a speed
of 1,000 gazelles.

I got arrested at the races
in Sydney for cocaine possession

and in basically the blink of an eye
my whole world had changed

just like that.

Look at me, eye contact.

Go!

Shift, big fella, shift!

I am here because I believe
that once you take

ownership of mistakes,

then you can go out there
and hopefully conquer

whatever it is that you need to do.

Get over here now, move!

Despite making it to safety,

Geoff missed one critical detail
from Ant's brief.

Come on then,
where did you fuck up?

Entering the water?
No, eye contact!

I want to see your eyes,
so I can tell you what to do.'

Cause guess what?

You've got to trust me,
'cause you're on fire.

Attention to detail.

It's the small things
that can get you killed.

Do not let it happen again.

Away you go, back over to the DS.
Move!

Recruit on fire
is a simple test of nerve.

Staying completely calm

when you're in a life
or death situation.

Go!

And it's something
that will tell us a lot

about the recruits from day one.

Faster! Are they gonna stay calm?

Are they gonna panic?

What are they gonna do?
Where is their head going to be at?

And can they ultimately take
that split second,

whilst they're on fire
to look around to use

what they have at their disposal

to keep themselves alive?

Hurry up, move!

The oldest female recruit,
singer and actor Melissa Tkautz,

will need to muster all her courage
to complete the task.

If you move like that
you are going to burn.

I always knew I had
low self-esteem

from a very young age,

so I am doing this purely
for myself

and my inner saboteur.

Hurry up! Get here!

I would expect that you're gonna be
the first to go!

Prove me wrong, OK?

Prove me wrong.
Prove yourself wrong.

Calm yourself down.

This industry can make you
very self-conscious of yourself.

So, you're constantly being told
what's wrong about you.

I think it would give anybody,

you know,
self-doubt about themselves.

Calm yourself down.

Move a lot faster
than you just moved there.

I can't run very fast staff.
Listen, listen, listen.

You can! And you're going to.

This is all about seeing

if you can survive to fight
another day.

You understand me?
Yes, staff.

You move! Fuel up.

When I set you on fire,
look at me, look at me.

Calm yourself down.

Calm yourself down.

When I set you on fire...
Look at me.

I will give you the command go,
on that command you move!

Simple as that.
That's all I want you to do.

The worst thing a recruit could do
is completely panic.

The mind will malfunction.

You won't be able to see
and think clearly.

Right get a grip of yourself.
Yep.

Yes, staff.
Yes, staff.

Wait for it.

You must stay calm
and do it correctly.

Anything else, any other mistakes,
you're gonna die.

Go!

That's it, quicker, move!

Fast as you can.

Faster!

You better move quicker!

I want to challenge myself.

I want to put myself
out there again.

If I get through one day

that is gonna be a huge step for me.

The last recruit to face

the daunting task
is comedian Pauly Fenech.

Hurry up!

My private life is probably

not as much fun as my TV life.

On TV it's, you know,
it's wild and crazy.

I'm, you know,
throwing thongs at police

and, you know, having threesomes
with uh strippers

and all the rest of it.

At home,
there's a lot less threesomes,

let's just say that.

Fuel! Fucking move quick!

I joined the Army Reserves
when I finished school.

I thought the Army
would somehow train me

to be like Rambo.

What I didn't realise is that
you don't get to be Rambo

in the first minute.

Go!
You better move, you better move!

You better move quicker!

I think
that's one of the great lessons

I got out of the Reserves,
was personal discipline.

Part of my interest in this course
is actually testing my discipline.

Strip everything down
to your underwear.

You're gonna put everything
in the bin, OK,

and then you're gonna check in
with staff.

Go!

You know, when you do
stand-up comedy,

you have to have absolute
confidence or you will fail.

So, after years and years
of all this stuff, I have no shame.

Fuck me,
we've got a streaker.

Right, quick as you can!

Right, stand there.

Clearly a confident individual.

Must be hung
like an Afghan yak, or not.

Happy with your experience?
100%.

OK, disappear.
Thank you, staff.

Holy shit.
I thought you said it wasn't cold.

I don't feel the need
for underwear, staff.

Clearly.

True commando.
I see you're happy with that.

No helmet required.

You have five minutes
to get in your clothing,

put your boots on
and get your bergens on your back.

Special Forces selection
does not care who you are...

where you are from,
what you've done,

it is designed
to test you physically

and psychologically
to breaking point.

OK, then as a group
you're gonna follow me.

Let's go.

Keep it together.

Keep up with me.

It's designed for you to fail.

We want to see
how reactive you are.

How proactive you are.

And how you can flip your mindset
to any given situation

and make it work for you.

Coming up...

Clockwise you have the latrine.

DS Clint exposes
the harsh realities of camp.

The toilet situation
is like freaking me out.

Geoff reveals all.

I was arrested
for cocaine possession.

And I had to make the call
to leave my family.

This drill is fucking horrible.

And DS Stotty's
terrifying new task.

You panic,
you lose control, you die.

I'm so scared!

The 17 celebrity recruits
arrive at base camp,

an abandoned outpost,

that will act
as their basic accommodation

while on the selection course.

OK, keep up.

Let's go, let's go.

Come on then!

Hopefully you realise
where you are right now.

And you realise this isn't a game.
This isn't a joke for us.

Let me introduce you
to my new team.

Clint Emerson.

He's a former US Navy Seal.

Seal Team Six.

They carry out
the US's most dangerous missions.

Seal Team Six is responsible
for taking down Bin Laden.

Stotty.

Served 16 years in the military.

He served multiple tours
alongside myself.

He finished his career

in the United Kingdom
Special Forces.

He also worked very closely
with the British Royal Family.

Ollie.

The amount of knowledge
and experience

that he has as a former
UK Special Forces operator

is unrivalled.

We are here to give you

an authentic Special Forces
selection process experience.

We will invest our time,
our knowledge and experience

into you if you want it.

We will live and breathe
every moment with you.

We will go on this journey
with you.

All we want you to do
is to adapt a military mindset.

Right listen in.

You will now be issued
your numbers.

I make no apologies for your names

'cause I don't even know
who the fuck you are.

Bridges, Ebanie.

Huegill, Geoff.

You have got a head
like a sniper's dream.

Buttrose, Richard.

I'm the nephew
of Ida Buttrose.

In February 2009 I was arrested
for cocaine supply

and was convicted and sentenced
to prison for nine years.

Carey, Wayne.

At the time I had
six kilos of cocaine

and $1.3 million cash in a box
under my bed.

Hall, Barry.

Melissa Wu.

You know, in many ways
going into the SAS course

is exactly like going into prison.

Fenech, Paul.

It doesn't matter
what are background is,

it doesn't matter who we are.

Boyd, Darius.

Gilbert, Locky. Pledger, Orpheus.

We're all gonna be
stripped down

and we're all gonna be wearing
the same clothes

and we're all gonna be sleeping
in the same type of bed.

Holtznagel, Simon.

We're all gonna be the same.

Alright, listen in.

You've got numbers now.

You will be known as that number
from this moment onwards.

If you do not want to be here,
simply take your number off

and hand it to one of the DS.

VW.

Voluntarily withdraw yourself
from the course.

If we think
you're not up to scratch,

we will get rid of you.

As simple as that.

You belong to us four DS now.

Fucking embrace it.

There's no other way. Turn around.

Let's go.

In order to acquaint
the recruits with camp life

and the rules to go with it,

former Navy Seal DS Clint
gives them a tour of the base.

The base certainly emulates
a prison camp.

It's loosely connected
to plenty of places

that I've personally stayed at.

You know, safe sights
or safe houses

are usually the worst place
you can think of.

Line up right here,
shoulder to shoulder.

This is our home. All of us right.

We're staying just beyond
the fence line over there,

along with medical over there.

As you come inside the fence line
you have the recruit rock.

OK, this rock is the only place
where you will communicate from

and you will only use
the word 'Staff'

to get our attention
so that we can come

and help you with whatever it is
you think you need help with.

Alright?

Clockwise you have the latrines, OK.

They have pans underneath,
pans have to be changed.

I recommend
you change them regularly.

The toilet situation
is like freaking me out, no, no.

I just don't even want to talk
about it.

To the left of that,

right behind you guys,
is your shower OK?

It's a pale with holes in it.

Getting naked at base,
I don't know whether I'll be naked.

(LAUGHS)

As long as I've got
a full brief on or a,

you know a sports bra
I'll... I'll be OK.

Don't be sneaking over
into the latrine

thinking you're gonna be taking
a shower over there, alright?

When I got naked on 'Survivor',

after that episode aired.

I was on about like
20 different gay Instagram sites

and I then I was like, I made it.

Let's follow on in here.

The recruits are really just put in
an environment

where they have to get comfortable
being uncomfortable.

And once you do that then it makes
getting through

anything else in life
so much easier.

Alright starting from the rear,

you see drying racks right
so you're probably gonna get wet

from time to time
that's where you'll hang your stuff.

Once again,
the racks stay where they're at.

There's a fire,
the fire obviously keeps going

24/7 to dry everything
you've got in here

and to keep you warm.

Prison,
they're really horrible memories

but I don't think there's anything

that can be presented to me
that I haven't seen before.

Whatever they serve up on day one,
I'm prepared for.

I just know
that if I'm wet and cold,

the person next to me
is wet and cold.

Alright,
so duty recruit falls on you.

Everyone will feed
their questions concerns,

whatever it is you have
through her, OK?

ALL: Yes, staff.

OK, you have this moment
for yourselves.

We'll be back.

Can we go to the bathroom?

I'll come with you.

As the recruits settle
into their new reality,

number 11, model Simone,

is already struggling
with military life.

It's...

Everything's so confusing
as well...

I know, but it's day one.
..like with the bags and stuff...

..'cause you're like...

I know, it's day one though
and I know it's hard

cause no one's, we're all learning
together but it's day one, OK?

But number 15,
NRLW player Millie Boyle,

tries to lift the spirits
of her fellow recruit.

Today is a hard day
and it's new,

we've been up
for fucking ten hours already.

I know.

Like I know on our watches.

Lucky I do 24 hour time.
(LAUGHS)

I can't even, do you know what?
(LAUGHS)

I'll be able to tell
24 hour time by the end of this.

You just minus,
so 13 minus two is 11

which means one.

So, you just get rid of that fi...

That means nothing to me.
(LAUGHS)

13 minus two.

So, yeah, like if it's like
22:00 hours, minus two is what?

Minus two, 20 hours?

OK, I did a hard one.
21:00 hours would be ten.

So, 20.

20 which would be ten.

If you think about it,
like you've got

after 12 it goes 13, 14, 15, 16.

So, like you just think of it
like that.

So, if it's 14, just think minus two
off the last number

and that's the time.

So, minus two off the second number.
I'll just go, 12.

No that takes ages.
13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19.

(LAUGHS)
7:00.

That's what I'm gonna end up doing.

Oh, dear.

Well, you can just ask me
and I'll just tell you.

Coming up...

Where you think up is,
where you think down is,

everyone is disorientated.

An epic task of pure panic.

I know, can you wait for me?

Oh, my god, this is disgusting.

(GROANS)

As number 11,
model Simone, adapts to base life.

I can't wee.

This is the worst.

Other recruits want to gossip
on TV personality

Anna Heinrich's time
on 'The Bachelor'.

'Cause I was kind of always
that single girl

amongst my friends
and my friend put me forward.

He didn't do what Locky did

and tell two girls
that he loved them. (LAUGHS)

No.

Are you still
with that chick then, Lock?

Yeah.

There's still another 18
to pick from right?

Playing the numbers game.

(LAUGHS)

After I got divorced,
I got asked to go on 'The Bachelor',

to be 'The Bachelor.'

To be 'The Bachelor'.

To be 'The Bachelor'
and I was like that...

that is just not the right example
to set to my daughters.

(LAUGHS)

Outside of the pool,

the other proudest moments
of my life

is actually just being a dad.

I'm very lucky I have
two beautiful girls with my ex-wife.

I uh, I love just being a dad.

Number five!

Having drawn attention to himself

for not following instructions
during the task,

Geoff is summoned for questioning.

The Special Forces is about
what you possess up here.

Do not think that you can hide
what goes on in your head

with you exterior
because what we will do,

we will chip away at all of that

and really get inside your head

and find out
what you're truly about.

Stand right there.

What's going through your head?

What was going through your head
this morning

when you just decided
to fucking not listen

to simple instruction?

Eye fucking contact.

Yes, staff.
Eye contact!

I want to fucking see your eyes

so I can tell you what to do!

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

So, what are you doing here?

Why are you on this course?

To push myself.

I haven't had the opportunity
to step out

of this comfort zone

since I retired from sport
over ten years over.

Talk to me
about your sport first.

I was a swimmer.

So, I had two parts of my career.

I finished the first part
of my career,

um, Olympic silver and bronze.

Eight world records.

Well, five Commonwealth gold,
six world championship gold.

After 2004 I retired.

I put on 50 kilograms.

Fucking hell, mate,
what were you doing?

Just enjoying life.
Yeah, yeah.

Kebabs for breakfast,
pizza, alcohol.

Yeah, yeah.

I am an emotional eater.

For a large part of my life,

I had to be so strict
and regimented

and follow diets and eat healthy

and live a strict lifestyle
that in order to deal

with my emotions at times...

I would find comfort
in things like food or booze.

I lost 45 kilos. (LAUGHS)

I got back behind the blocks again.

I won a couple of medals
at the Commonwealth Games

but in 2014, I was arrested
with my ex-wife

at the races for cocaine possession.

Yeah, we, you know,
we got pulled aside,

we were just pulled aside
by the police

and I was searched

and basically in the blink of an eye

our life turned upside down.

You know, the rest is history.

I was carrying a lot of shame
and a lot of guilt

that I put my family
through that whole process

and it led me to get to a point

where I had to make the call
to leave my family.

I definitely have the regret.

My biggest one would be
not being in my kid's lives

on a daily basis

because of our,
the marriage separation.

Like that's been a big,

that's been a big eye opener right
because life gets taken,

as you guys know,
life gets taken away from you

in the blink of an eye.

It's OK. Listen, it's all good.

Yeah, I think...

when I retired from sport
the second time around...

.. yeah, that's it,

the only thing I ever cared
for was family.

(SOBS) Fuck.

The only thing I
ever lived for after swimming

was just be a dad,
right.

It's something that I loved,
I wanted to be.

It hurts me to be in a position

where I don't get to live
with my girls

on a day to day basis.

The last time I got to hold them
was 18 months ago.

I lost my family basically.

And everything just changed
in the blink of an eye.

Yeah.

That one night out

fucked a lot of things up for you.

You know, you are probably looking
for a little thing

to redeem yourself.

You've still got
a whole other life to live.

Say you lived
to you're fucking 90.

You've got another life to live.

Don't ever underestimate
fucking time on earth.

And we're always learning,
we're always worrying, we're always,

you know, and as long
as we can continue on that process

then all of that will fucking go

but the moment you stop

and you let that define you
or you let that take charge of you

then you will be known
just for that.

Yeah.
So, get back in the game.

Yeah.
Fucking listen.

The past
is the fucking past my man.

Yeah.
Crack on.

Guard!

I've had times
where I sat there

and thought there would be
an easier way out.

But I'm very proud of the fact
that I've been able to pull myself

out of some pretty dark times.

Step to your right.

Turn, hands out,
thumbs up, let's go.

Stop there.

After all he's done
and then people remember that.

If there's ever a message
that I want to share with my kids,

is to get them to understand
and recognise

that life is not going to be easy.

The most important thing
is how we pick ourselves up

and how we dust ourselves off.

Oh, my god,
my foot looks like a corpse.

(GROANS)

It's only half a day
into the course

and some of the recruits

are already tending
to their war wounds.

Oh, god, I did it again.

I think the Australian public
probably perceives me

to be a bit of an airhead.

You can do it,
it's super easy to do

with your fingers.

There you go.

You just grab it like, (MUMBLES).

I think
I would like to prove

to other people
that you cannot judge

a book by its cover.

Oh, no.

Because I would like to think
that I'd make a great soldier.

Don't pull it too tight,

cause that you can move.

Ooh, no, I can't.
Yeah.

Fuck!

But I don't know.

(LAUGHS)

I don't really do anything
that warrants blisters

anywhere else
(LAUGHS) besides high heels.

(LAUGHS)

Duty recruit!

Duty recruit!

Yeah, I reckon
we could probably get

two scoops out everyone.

So, yeah.

Alright duty recruit,
do you not hear me

shouting down there?

No.
Right.

Come here.

13:50 at full kit.

Yes.
Ready to go.

Get in the transport.
Yes, staff.

All clear?
Yes, staff.

Cheers.

Guys, just listen in
for a second please.

So, I've just been
told that at 1:50

we all need to be out there
without full kits.

OK? Bags, everything.

Go, move!

Faster, let's go!

Very long, long afternoon.

With their injuries patched,

the recruits are about to be thrown
into another brutal task.

I don't know
what we're gonna face now.

Designed to test their composure
under extreme pressure.

Get out! Hurry up!

Get your bergens.

Let's go!

First man on me,
let's go number two stand here.

One line. Right up to me.

Do not fucking walk.

Face that way.

Face my way.

Let's go.
Shoulder to shoulder.

Who you fucking waiting for?

Who you waiting for?

Get a grip of yourself.

Listen in.

You're going to see
a demonstration.

You're going to conduct
this drill in pairs.

Keeping each other alive.

Using absolutely
every single psychological resource

you have to stop yourselves

and your partners
from fucking drowning.

I'm gonna run you through the drill
once and once only.

Take in everything you can.

Process everything you can.

The aeroplane down drill
is designed

to test you psychologically
and physically

to your limits
for when you're going down.

Bang you hit the water,
breathe naturally.

If you start to hyperventilate
and you start to panic,

calm down, it's coming.

Fuck all you can do about it.

This drill is so important

but it requires nerves of steel
to get out of there

and live to fight another day.

Breathe naturally
and natural fill of the lungs.

When you start to go over
you will flip all the way over.

You will not move out
of your seatbelts

until the aircraft comes to a stop.

(TENSE MUSIC)

I'm going to endanger
the life of someone else.

I can't do it.

Stay there, stay there.

Wait I will finish my brief.

OK, sorry, staff. Sorry.

If you can't do it,
that's absolutely fine.

You will know
when you're upside down

and then whoever is on the left,

they will undo their seatbelt
and with their arm,

they will push themselves
towards the back of the aircraft.

Once they're free,
the right hand seat

will undo their seatbelt

and push off the back of the chair.

You will make your way
out of that big fucking hole

at the back of the aircraft.

Do not climb through those windows
unless your life depends on it.

If you carry out the drill correctly

and you use each other
you will pass.

So, that's why you need each other.

If one of you fucks up.

Both of you fail.
It's as simple as that.

This drill is horrible

and you will feel like
you're drowning.

Save those tears.
Sorry.

Save them.

That's energy.

That's emotion. That's fear.

It's a driving factor right there
that you're wasting.

Anyone not happy with this drill?

The rest of you go
and dress behind your bergens, move!

What's wrong number three?

I'm just scared.
Listen.

I'm gonna endanger
the other person

that I'm there with them
and I can't do, I can't do that.

I'm gonna panic. I know I am.

It means calm yourself down.

Can you hold your breath
for 30 seconds?

I can't even tread water
for 16 seconds.

I'm no good in the water?

Are you gonna give it a go?

I don't know I'm terrified.

Right when I say go.

Dress behind your Bergen,
think about it, go, move, move!

OK. Thanks, staff.

Left arm, right arm,
thumbs up, three things.

Cool as a cucumber.
Simple, simple, simple is good.

We'll see
how we go in the water.

Yeah, yeah, it's the same thing!

We're just under water.
We'll be fine.

I'm just (MUMBLES). I'm a comedian.

(LAUGHS)
I need a laugh right now.

It's going to (MUMBLES).

Number two Pauly Fenech
and number six, Melissa Wu

are the first pair to attempt
the heart pounding drill.

Monitoring their performance
inside the aircraft is DS Stotty.

I've stared death in the face
on a number of occasions

serving
with the special boat service.

The aeroplane down
is testing recruits

in how they cope with fear.

It's over to you.

Key to success in this
is do not panic.

If you panic,
you lose control, you die.

While DS Clint checks
that the recruits exit

the fuselage correctly.

As a Seal you'll find
yourself in plenty of situations

where you think
you're just gonna drown

right then and there.

It's a very complicated
and dangerous world

once you're underwater.

You can die

even with all of the greatest
safety gear on.

Get the fucking job done.
You two get into position.

I do worry
about holding my breath

because it's something that I have
never really had experience doing.

As a diver,
really you're just under the water

for that split second.

And you, you literally just take
a little dip and come back out

so there's definitely
no breathe holding in diving.

I'm not particularly good at that.

I've never had to do that.

Right here we go!
Here we go.

I have never really even tested
how long I could swim for, how far,

cause I generally don't go beyond

where I can't touch the bottom

because I do have
a bit of fear around that.

Fuck me.

Waiting for the plane
to come to a complete stop...

Pauly unclips and starts to exit
as does Melissa.

I feel like I'm gonna be sick.

But the pair become
disorientated,

not knowing which way to leave.

That's a while.

And Pauly incorrectly exits
through the window.

But Melissa is nowhere to be seen.

Fuck where's his partner?

Shit, shit, oh fuck.

Oh, shit.

She had to come out with the diver.

There we go.

Get here you two, move,
hurry up, hurry up.

Come on then, fast as you can.

Where the fuck
did you come out of?

The window, staff.

The fucking front window?

Do you think
it's gonna be there on the day?

No, staff.

And where the fuck was you?

I went out the window.
A different window, staff.

You went out
a fucking different,

so you both fucked up?

Completely, staff.

You're both fucking dead right now.

Not even one of you
could drag each other through.

Don't fucking nod
you're fucking head.

Sorry, staff.
Don't be fucking sorry.

You're going back
to her fucking family

and fucking tell her that
you're a fucking useless cunt

and you can't fucking get her out
and vice versa.

This is how fucking serious it is.

I expected one of you
to hold it together.

Right, grab your bergens
and fuck off, both of you.

I'm not gonna do it, babe.
I'm not gonna do it.

I really don't want to do it.

(MUMBLES)
I'm with you alright?

I'm with you.

Staff.

OK, staff,

and I'll help you get
all the way back.

We got this, this is simple.
We got this.

We got this.

Focused on the task
are number ten

reality TV star Locky

and number fourteen
Rugby seven's player, Ellia.

Right, let's go.

I'm known for my contribution
to Australia Rugby sevens.

My team winning gold
at the Rio Olympics.

Don't fuck this up, you two.

Finding out
that I hadn't been picked

for Tokyo Olympics,
I was completely heartbroken.

Shattered.

Even just thinking about it now.

I feel so disappointed in myself.

Nearly there.

I'm here to prove
that I'm not a failure.

I'm not a strong swimmer.

I'm pretty terrified of the water.

Ready?

The water scares me a lot.

I think with everything in my past
will make me a better person.

Will make me feel strong

to make up for the weakness
in my head.

Much better.
She's out.

With number fourteen
clear of the plane.

Number ten makes his escape.

Passing the task with ease.

Good. Good.

So, three and five.

You're not doing it by yourself.
Alright let's go you two.

Come on, let's go.

Get yourself down there,
get into position.

Let's go, let's go.
Small commitments.

Commit to this, commit to your seat,
commit to getting into the air.

The hardest thing
I will ever do

is going through this course.

A 100%. (LAUGHS)

It might be horrible.

But it might be something amazing.

It might do
something amazing for me.

See that form of communication.

Yes. Yes.
And that touch.

That's it.
OK, that squeeze on the shoulder.

That's the form of communication
saying do you know what?

No matter what happens
I'm in it with you.

We will go through this together.

It's exactly what happens

when we're at the fucking door
of a compound.

I'm just about to fucking go
raging through it.

My pals behind me
and he's squeezing my shoulder,

on the shoulder saying,
"Don't worry.

"And we fucking
go through this together."

It's exactly what needs to happen.

Alright in you go.
One, two, three, right.

One.
Let's go.

I just want to find
that strength again.

I just want to say,
"Well, look, I did it."

You know?

"OK, I sucked at it",
or, "I wasn't great",

or, "I was fabulous",

but I literally I'm in the tunnel

and it's...
it's... it's like I just...

I need to do this one thing
for myself

and that's what it's about.

Good, calm yourself down.
(LAUGHS)

Breathe.
Yeah.

You need to get a grip
of yourself

and prove every fucker wrong
that expects you to go on day one.

OK.

Get a fucking grip of yourself.

Alright, arm around me.

Alright. It's alright.

I'm so scared.

You're alright, breathe,
I want you to breathe.

OK.

Don't stress.
I'm with you. Breathe.

Look in the horizon
and stay relaxed.

Oh, my god, OK.

Yeah, look out on the horizon.
Yeah.

One, two, three, stay relaxed.

It depends on it.

In a task designed to test
the recruits courage and resolve.

Oh, my god.
I'm here, I'm here.

Each pair must work together

to escape a rapidly sinking plane.

Number five Geoff Huegill

and number three Melissa Kautz

are fully submerged
in the cold water.

I feel really sick.

It's fucking scary.

With the fuselage still rotating
both Melissa and Geoff panic,

ignoring instructions,
they hastily exit the aircraft.

Oh, she did it.

Good on her.

Nice, Mel, well done, Mel.

(MUMBLES)

That's impressive.

She even looks like she's smiling.

Number five, you stand there.

Right you took the lead didn't you?

Yes, staff.

I could see you panicking
from the moment

your fucking feet
started getting wet.

Yes, staff. I did.

OK, alright.
That's a fail but you did alright.

You worked well as a team.

It was a good effort.

Straight down there to your bergens.

Let's go.

Despite the fail.

Melissa is proud of her effort.

Fear is a big thing for me.

But I tell you what,
if you can overcome it.

It makes you so mentally strong.

It's an incredible strength
that you hold.

(INAUDIBLE)

(LAUGHTER)

Head up. Don't cry.

I just can't believe I did it.

They're happy tears,
they're not, they're not...

They're tears of joy.

We got out.

Aeroplane down drill
is designed to keep you alive.

You must go into your drills.

Army breathing, just...

Crashing into the water,

you don't know if you've got
a good breath or not.

You immediately start
to question yourself.

The water isn't exactly warm.

In fact, it's cold enough to take
that breath away from you

if you don't control yourself

and at the same time
you have to keep track

of where's that door?

It's fear that fuels us,
but if you let it take over.

If you let it turn into panic,
then it will sure as hell kill you

just as fast
as it can save your life.

Oh, my god,
I'm gonna throw up.

Next to face the treacherous task

is NRLW player number 15, Milly.

Our ride's here.

And number one, pro-boxer Ebanie.

Alright get in, let's go.

Stick to your side OK
and then go up.

I'm quite a competitive person
in nearly everything that I do.

I'm here because I want to see
how I deal with having guts,

giving something a go
and not to automatically go

into that fight or flight response,

to see how hard
I can really test myself.

When you enter the water,
there's gonna be that sudden shock.

Everyone's disorientated.

Where you think up is,
where you think down is,

it's, it's totally different.

So, just remain calm
and just don't rush, don't panic,

so it's crucial you are a team.

But desperate to get out,

Millie clamours
over her partner Ebanie.

Oh, my god.

So, you panicked
and you thought,

"Fuck it, I don't care
about anyone else.

"I'm gonna just dance

"straight across her face
and get out."

I'm sorry, staff.

Fuck off.

Along the waterline.

As fast as you can.

Move! Shift!

One of you panics, guess what?

Fucking fail.
Fucking get out my sight.

Yeah, we'll be fine.

Yeah. I think I'll be OK.
We're gonna do well.

Also struggled with fear

is number 11 model,
Simone Holtznagel.

Oh, sorry, staff.

Don't be sorry,

just fucking get the job done,
alright?

Who is partnered with number 16

AFL great, Barry Hall.

You're good a partner, Baz.

You're very cool,
calm and collected.

(LAUGHS)

I'm putting a brave face on, mate.

Right you two make your way
to the aircraft.

Enter
via where you're going to exit.

Oh, gosh.
Let's go.

I am most worried
about doing things with water.

Fucking see you
on the other side.

I distinctly remember
being terrified

when my father
took eight-year-old me

and put me on a boogie board
and went to like send me in

on this huge set and I got pumped.

OK?

And I was under the water

and as soon as I like scrambled up
to the top

and another huge wave,
came down on top of me.

I didn't know which way was up
and just flailing,

finally gasping for air just to have
another huge wave

land on top of me

and just intake heaps more water.

It scarred me for life.

But Simone immediately panics,
struggling to free herself.

Come on, quick as you can.

Right you took the lead, yeah?

Yes, staff.
Right.

What happened?

I panicked as soon as.

You panicked, you went too early.
Yeah.

You had no fucking guts,
did you?

No, staff.
No. Down there.

Go back to your bergens.

Alright, listen in to a debrief.

Right,
the amount of fucking panic there

was fucking ridiculous.

Panic will kill more fucking people
than anything.

Not just you, your mockers.

Unfold your arms.

Some people with lack of confidence,

you need to start thinking
about that fucking panic.

It's breathing.

As soon as you start
erratic breathing,

cortisol starts to increase.

You start fucking flapping.

You can't think straight.
You're like that, "fuck it.

"I don't care about anything else."

As fast as you can. Go!

Let's get in the transport!
Go, go, go!

Next...

You're fighting some demons
in that head of yours.

..Melissa digs deep for answers.

I was sort of thrown
into this world of acting

and exposed to drugs and sleazy men

and I just can't love myself
and I don't know why.

I just...

I am literally
never going in the water again

after this.

I'm never swimming,
never going to the beach.

When I got
into the water I was...

I stopped and I'm just like...

What am I doing?

I can't believe
I just got lubed up and burnt.

(LAUGHS) Yeah, I know!

After a punishing first day,

the recruits are debriefing

about the brutal tasks
and life on base camp.

How good
are our sleeps gonna be but?

I'm fucking dreading them,

'cause I'm waiting for them
just to barge in...

I know.

..just to turn on us
and get up and he was angry.

Huh?
He's always angry.

Yeah, that's good,
that's how he should be.

What do you want him to do?
Fucking tickle your balls?

Nah but (LAUGHS).
(LAUGHS)

Like fucking hell.

It's gonna be interesting on base.

This is where
we're really gonna see

the recruits come together.

This is where they can bond.

Barbed wire fence, mate,
I just (LAUGHS),

straight back to prison.

For number 13,
convicted drug dealer Richard,

the new surrounds
are all too familiar.

What's like the routine of the day?

Is it just?

Mate, I got
into physical fitness so wake up,

cell door opens, burpees,
sit-ups, pushups, lunges, chinups.

Then I'd have a shower, go to work,
'cause I work for a screw.

Then I do the work I had to do
for the screw

and then I do my uni work
and then bedtime was 3pm.

We get locked back in at three,
Dinnertime, dinner's at 3:00.

Oh, really.
Cell door locks at 3:00.

Fuck.

And then that's...
that's the end of the day

so, you know, I had a cell on my own

for about four years in a row,

which was good

because then the stress of the yard,
the minute the door locks,

it's like, you know.

You get...
you get a moment of relief.

You know what I went through
was really hard,

it was really tough.

It was, you know, nine years

which is 3195 days

of pretty much living
in constant fear.

Is it as kind of like

I don't know volatile and dangerous

as what you might, you know?

Is it dangerous?
Yeah.

Oh fuck yeah.

Just because the fights
are, you know,

the fights go all the fucking way.

You know, and they're brutal.

Yeah, people caving
peoples' heads in

and all that sort of shit.

Over nothing,
over fucking nothing.

It's never anything serious.

It was tough
and I think this is an opportunity

to show that I do have
the physical and mentally toughness

to get through
this sort of challenge.

Staff.

As the duty recruit,
number one Ebanie,

must act as the mouthpiece
for her fellow recruits.

Sorry, staff.

Number three thinks
she doesn't have socks.

She hasn't got a set of dry socks?

Dry socks.

So, have you put on there,
"Number three needs socks?"

Socks, yes, staff.
Alright, OK.

Alright lovely.
Thanks, staff.

How's morale?
Yeah, good, good.

Yeah.
Yeah, I mean, I think it's good.

Everyone seems to be going good
I think.

You know, they should be proud
of themselves.

Yeah, I mean.
Good.

Keep everyone together.

Don't let anyone
fucking throw their tits in.

No, I'm trying not to.

It's your responsibility.
Yeah.

If they go it's your fault.
Yes, yes, staff.

Alright?
No worries.

I have a pimple.
I've been here one fucking day.

Don't look...

(LAUGHS).
..don't do it.

(GROANS)

If anyone pulls out,
it's my fault.

Your fault?

Yeah, he said
if anyone quits, it's my fault.

Why?

Because I have to be the motivator.

Shut up.

I love motivating
other people

and I love other people
seeing their potential.

Guys, you got to understand
that these first few days

is the shock to the system.

Alright?

Because we haven't done this stuff

so at first it is gonna be
a big shock,

it's gonna be really hard,

and it's gonna take
a couple of days to adjust,

to realise that we're gonna be
working all fucking day.

So, if I'm in a team,
like I will sit there

and I motivate them, you know,

like a trainer almost, like,

"Come on, guys",
like, "You can do it", like,

you know, because I want everyone
to do well.

We're gonna get shocked,
we're gonna get surprises.

Everyone who's feeling like
they're not strong

or they're not gonna make it through
just keep pushing,

take every step,
literally take it step by step

and if anyone actually
feels like they want to pull out

then come and talk to me, you know.

My foot looks
fucking mummified

after one day, it's disgusting.

Dinner's ready, guys.

Dinner is ready and I just brushed
my hair with my fork.

What am I doing with my life?

Each day, the DS take
the opportunity

to share their thoughts
on the recruits,

tracking their progress,

assessing the strong
from the weak.

Right, gents, day one,
we've still got everyone,

which is a shock to be honest.

I think this morning it was the case
of a softer sort of introduction

to get them in,
straight into being lit on fire.

Great way to introduce the pressures

of a Special Forces operator.

For people
that highlighted themselves

when I set them on fire
was number three,

obviously she was worried,
she couldn't run.

She was concerned
that she wouldn't make it

to the water's edge,
she was just a bag of nerves.

And a couple of them
didn't hold eye contact,

one being number five,
the big fella.

I want to see your eyes,
so I can tell you what to do!

To aircraft down.

This for number three and number 11
was their ultimate fear.

Crashing in an aircraft in water.

Number three, shaking,
like violently.

Number 11 in tears.

Number three, I was shocked
that she got into the water.

I was shocked
she even got in the aircraft.

She had a go, she had a go.

I think we bring her in.

That fucking self-doubt.

I'm not looking forward
to being cold again.

Number three!

Number three? They want me?

Yes, go.
Shit, in my dry clothes?

Just go how you're going, it's fine.

Coming.

Although overcoming
her crippling fears

and surviving day one...

Place your hands
against the tree.

Yes, staff.

..recruit number three,

Melissa Kautz's lack of confidence

has caught the attention of the DS

so they call her in for questioning.

Thank you, staff.

Calm yourself down.

Fucking use your fucking brain.

Pull your chair in, number three.

Relax. Breath.

The first time you've had
a fucking black bag

over your head?

Yes, staff.
Not very nice, is it?

No, staff.

Calm down.

All I've seen from you today
is tears.

You're fighting
some fucking demons

in that head of yours.

I have many.

Why?

(SOBS)

Because I'm so hard on myself.

I'm my own worst enemy.

I always have been ever
since I was little.

Why?
I don't know.

I think just being in the industry
when I was young.

What industry?

Sorry,
being in the acting industry

when I was young.

So, you're an actor?

And a singer
and being criticised constantly.

Wait, wait, wait, wait...

Press pause for two seconds.

Take a deep breath.

You say you're an actor
and a singer?

Yes.
When did that start off?

I started acting
when I was about 12 years old.

12 years old
when you started out?

Yes.
Oh, so young.

Young.
You've been in it for?

Yes.
How old are you now?

47.

My career sort of,

I was really big
around the age of 18.

I was acting in a very high rated,
very popular show

and I released music, I released.

Cool, cool.

Tell me more,
I want to know about you.

OK, so it was called,
a show called 'E Street'

and it was just huge
and my character,

I played like
a bit of a tough sort of girl

with a leather jacket
and everything and Australia just,

all the kids just loved
this tough character.

And it was an amazing experience.

I did it for about three years
and during the show

I released my first single
and did very, very well.

Which was?

'Read My Lips'.
Right.

And I toured
all of Australia with that.

It was a good time
but I was sort of thrown

into this world of acting

and, you know,
night clubs and exposed to drugs

and, you know,

things that
I had to fend off constantly

and sleazy men and...

Did you indulge
in drugs and alcohol and...

No, I've never had
a big headline in the paper

that I've done anything wrong
or anything like that.

I'm a pretty good person.

I've got really good morals and I,

but I just,
I just constantly (SOBS) get

in my head and I've got
so much love for people

and I've got so much love
for my kids and my husband

and I just, I just can't love myself
and I don't know why.

I just, I don't know
why I constantly have to battle

with it and why I...

It's not that I hate myself
but it's just like,

I just can't find
any kind of love for myself.

I've got such...

low self-esteem.

It's just so bad.

If you would have told me
this morning I would've done

what I had done today.

I wouldn't of believed you.

Not, not in a billion years.

And I, I know I'm slow and...

I don't want to hold anyone back.

But you're capable.

I...

You've done everything
we've asked of you today,

apart from fucking your tears

and your constant stressing
and worrying and...

Do you agree?
Right.

You have proven
you're very capable.

Absolutely.

But you default
to this like weak shell.

Yeah.

Right.
Yeah.

And then once he wakes you up,

then all of a sudden
you're in the game.

But tasks today,

each and everyone
starts with you shaking,

crying and having issues.

Now, that's all anchored
to something.

What is it anchored to?

Just years and years
and years of being told

you're either too fat,
you're too skinny,

your hair's not right,
your face isn't right,

just constant, you know,
this constant putting you down.

"You're not a good enough singer,
you're not a good enough actress,

"you're just not,
never good enough."

What have you proven today?

Not to us, to yourself?

What have you proven
to yourself today?

That I'm so much stronger.

Fucking right you are.

Than what I give myself credit for.

I might be slow but I'm...
Fucking sort your head.

Sort your fucking head out.

You've just proven to us
that you're capable.

Yeah, you might be a bit slow
physically you're gonna suffer.

It's obvious, right?

It's all fucking psychological.

So, fucking rid of the self-doubt.

I know.

Because you've committed
to your biggest fear

and you took a layer off.

You exposed it and you went boom,
fucking done.

And I'm so grateful to you.
I'll never ever forget today ever.

It doesn't matter
what happens tomorrow.

But what I did today

will already change something

in that brain of mine
to do something

different with my thought pattern.

You have... You have no idea.

Use it to your advantage,
do you understand me?

Yes, staff.

Guard!

Start believing in yourself
like we believe in you.

Thank you. Thank you, staff.

Just that,
someone believing in her...

it's a fucking powerful thing right?

Right.

Keep fighting,
number three, yeah?

Now, she just needs to embrace it.

Yeah.
She'll be good to go.

Number three's efforts
have not gone unnoticed

by fellow recruit
and long-time friend,

number two, Pauly.

Nah,
I'm really proud of you, you know.

Thanks, darling.

As a person, as a friend, you know?

Like to get through that,
no really like...

I appreciate that.
..you blew my mind.

The plane, it blew my mind.
It actually blew my mind.

I was like, "fuck me dead
she really..."

Oh. Thanks, darling.
I appreciate that a lot.

Yeah.
I really do.

It's... it's great,
it's so great that you, you know,

you do, they say you take
something away from this,

you know, and it's so true.

Yeah. Knuckles to you, mate.

Thanks, baby.