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Welcome to your first
Commitment Ceremony. Previously...

I've never imagined liking
somebody this much.

..while some marriages flourished...

She's not just my wife,
but she's like my best friend.

..Rozz and Thomas hit a crisis.

We did consummate
the marriage last night.

Nothing in my heart changed.

Today, you haven't even
looked at me.

But theirs wasn't
the only marriage in turmoil...

Do you even fancy me?
Like, am I your type?

I don't know.

..as the conflict between
Porsha and her husband...

TEARFULLY: I felt so abandoned.

I felt this big.

..pushed Terrence to a
drastic decision.

It's all about Porsha, and Porsha
can be a bit of a diva sometimes,

I have to say I'm leaving.

Tonight...

You don't give anything.

..there's an emotional showdown
for Rozz and Thomas.

I feel sad that I would make
someone feel like that.

And...

It's Confessions Week! Oh, no!

..while the first task of the season
strengthens some marriages...

You're open, caring.

I can see myself falling for you.

..the brutal honesty of
their challenge...

Do you think we have
the same level of maturity?

No.

..sends the experiment's
golden couple reeling...

He grabbed me,
to tell me he could see

cracks forming in your relationship.

Why do you need to tell people this?
What are you getting out of this?

..leading the group
to question the marriage.

Is it love? Or is it lust?

Red Buzzer. Lust. Lust.

THEY GIGGLE

Love you. Love you.

It's the morning after
the first Commitment Ceremony.

Babe, do you think this will be
big enough for all of our shoes?

You have big feet, that'll about
two pairs of your shoes.

HE CHUCKLES

THEY LAUGH

Why do I get shy?

And that's not the only first
being marked by one couple.

I feel like we're proper
husband and wife now,

done the whole shebang.

Me and my husband
consummated our marriage.

Shall we say...

..it was a very long night.

SHE LAUGHS

It has definitely brought us
closer together now.

It's nice, I'm happy. Yeah.

Even though my face looks moody
all the time, I am happy.

You wasn't moody last night, so...

Waking up this morning,

I actually can't believe
I'm still here.

It's a less positive start to
the day for Porsha and Terrence.

Yesterday, I had my
suitcases packed.

I was ready to go.

I'm still kind of sceptical.

Is it really going to work out?

Having agreed to work on their
marriage for another week...

Hello. All right.

..the couple is having a
session with Mel.

Terence and Porsha,
you need a little bit of help.

We need to touch on what has
actually brought you guys

to this point of conflict,
before we can resolve it.

Is that OK?

Why don't we start with you,
Porsha?

For me, the problem started
being called "childish".

That's where I think, for me,
the issues lie.

It was a gamechanger for me.

A huge boundary for me is insult.

OK.

But from my point of view...

..it started before that.

I think there was times on
the honeymoon where I felt like,

if I say something negative
towards Porsha,

she does not take it well,
that's how I felt.

So, it was easier for me
to just be like,

"Keep quiet, go with the flow,
do it on Porsha's terms."

It actually damaged the
whole honeymoon.

OK. So, that's how I felt.

We're really getting to
the heart of the matter here,

because what we're seeing here
is a pattern that you've developed

very early, where you speak up,

you have a reactive response
that you don't like,

so you withdraw.

Terrence needs to know that
if he addresses something with you,

that you're not going
to get emotive,

because what that can often lead
to is Terrence getting confused

and withdrawing.

Is that making sense?

Yes and no.

Mm-hm.

In terms of conflict resolution,

that's not how I usually
deal with conflict.

Yeah, it was more about the insult
and me wanting an apology.

Unless there's an instant apology,

it's a goodbye from me.

Have you received one?

No.

Terence.

Porsha, I apologise for
calling you childish.

And that's a sincere apology.

I didn't know because,
even when it keeps coming up,

I didn't know it affected you,

or you felt a particular way
about it that deeply.

So, I sincerely apologise for
calling you childish.

I accept your apology.

Great. Great.

That really needed to happen,
didn't it?

Yeah. Yeah.

This is a really good
line in the sand.

So, to set up
a healthier dynamic here,

when you get into an argument,

you talk about the issues,
not about the person.

Can you see that?
Yeah, I can see that. Yeah.

Actually, going forward,

what do you need from
Porsha this week?

I feel like...

..just show me the real you.

Just let me in a little bit,

then at least I know where
I stand with you,

because I'm always second-guessing.

OK. What about you, Porsha?

The more I feel safe,

that this is a safe space for me
to be vulnerable,

the more you'll see that.

So, be patient with me.

For me, it's nice hearing that,

because we're actually on
the same page. OK.

Definitely feel it's been
a breakthrough.

I think time is the most important
thing for me and Porsha right now.

It'll take time for Porsha
to trust and open up,

it's also going to take time for me
to trust what Porsha's saying,

if she's being real,
or where the situation is at.

My sense is the two of you
have arrived at this

more common ground. Yeah.

I appreciate the fact that
he did apologise,

so it's definitely given me
some hope.

Consistency in Terence's behaviour
going forward will definitely

show me that his apology is genuine.

I really do see potential here.

I agree - for this week.

That is fantastic.

Yeah. Brilliant. Yeah.

What's going on?

So, me and Paul...

..took it to the next level!

Yay! I knew it, I knew it!

She's done the deed!
She's done the deed.

Spill the tea, was it good?

Straight in...
Did you enjoy yourself?

Oh, I had a whale of a time.
Did you? Fantastic.

Lovely. Do you feel more connected,
now that you've done it?

Yeah, definitely. Do ya?

Straight away, he pulled me
towards him, he wanted a cuddle.

Like, everything feels different.

Yeah. Like it's taken a shift,
but in the right... Direction.

What about you?
How's your 'gina doing?

Oh, I'm having a great time.

Do you both feel
sexually compatible?

Yeah. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah.

It's really nice to hear that

the girls are having this
amazing time.

But for me,

it's a bit shit.

That's where I wanted to be.

And I'm nowhere near it cos,
like, I can't even get a kiss

out of my husband.

I feel like I'm questioning,
"Am I beautiful?

"Am I pretty enough?
Is there something wrong with me?"

And I'm in a place
that I never thought I'd be.

"Does my husband fancy me?
Does he really?"

Because he didn't know
the other day if he did.

Very proud of you.
Well done. High five.

Yeah! Gimme some. Thank you.

Ooh! What? We've got a delivery.

Ella? Yeah?

We've got mail.

I just love seeing our names
together. That's cute.

Good vibes for the envelope.

THEY EXHALE
Go ahead.

"Dear Ella and Nathanial...

"It's Confessions Week!" Oh, no!

Ohh! Yes! Yes!

It's time for our couples
to get deep very quickly -

faster than they ever would
in the outside world.

I'm already terrified.

We've devised a selection of
tasks to accelerate

our couples' relationships.

"For this task, we want you to delve
deep and ask each other anything.

"Today, you will each be given
a list of values,

"and you will have
to individually rank them."

It's a vital part of the process
to allow them to develop

deeper levels of communication.

I've got heart palpitations.

"Today's task is for you, Nathanial,

"to write a letter to Ella sharing
something that she doesn't

"already know about you."

I'm really glad that,
out of the two of us,

Nathanial has been given this task.

I don't know if I would find this
as hard as you would,

cos I am quite an open person. Yeah.

I think I need this right now,

I'm the one that's struggling
with where his head is at.

Best go get writing this letter.

He's not actually trying very
hard to invest in me,

and it's just frustrating me.

It would take someone nearly
probably five years to get

to know me, to really know who I am.

Ella is so fast-paced.

We're going at different speeds.

I just hope I can catch up.

After the Commitment Couch,

I feel like we're just stuck.

But I don't feel like everything
had been resolved.

He is attractive,

but we have been struggling
when it comes to intimacy.

I thought having sex would
ignite a spark.

I'm trying to do things.

You know, I want this to work.

Thanks for emptying the dishwasher.

No worries. Happy to help.

To kick start Rozz and Thomas's
Confessions Week...

Surprise. Oh! Hello!
Hello! You all right?

..Paul is paying them a visit.

I really wanted to come, OK?

Because when we were
at the Commitment Ceremony,

there was a lot of tension.

So, we did consummate
the marriage last night.

And then, today,
I just felt totally ignored.

You haven't even looked at me.

I thought inside,
I'd feel something,

but I do regret that
I don't feel anything.

No, but sex with me isn't a test.

What I want you to do is,
we'll break apart,

and I want you to spend time
thinking about things...

OK. ..that you want to say.

And, when you're
writing these things,

I want you to include your
feelings around it.

Rozz, you now go into the bedroom.
Thank you.

Thomas, I give you this spot
right here. Thank you. OK?

In the past, I've struggled to be
honest with her about how I feel.

And so, this is a good opportunity
to be heard myself,

so she doesn't feel it's an attack.

Just me communicating.

All right, Thomas, you go first.

"Why did you consummate
the marriage?"

It made me feel like...
I could let my drawbridge down.

It's just...messed me up a bit.

Why...did you want to do that?

I thought maybe something
would change inside.

You know, maybe if we had physical
contact, would something ignite?

And I was truly gutted when...
it didn't.

It makes me feel alone and isolated.

I'm struggling with
building anything.

I feel stuck.

I'm trying, but obviously,
I'm not giving enough for you.

It's not that you're not giving
enough, you don't...

..give anything.

And I feel like you are
taking advantage of me,

and use sex as a tool
to validate your feelings.

I do feel used.

TEARFULLY: I just feel sad,

because I would never want
to make anyone feel how you do.

I am trying, and I feel...

..like I've taken on board
what you've said,

and I hate that I made you
feel this way,

and that's why it hurts my heart.

So, do you not feel like you've
been doing what I've been saying,

do you think that's not true?

I don't know, I feel sad that
I would make anyone feel like that.

SHE SOBS

So, do you not feel like you've been
doing what I've been saying,

do you think that's not true?

I don't know, I feel sad that
I would make anyone feel like that.

SHE SOBS

I feel like you do just see
the negatives in me,

and I can't be perfect all the time.

I'm so sorry I've made you feel
lonely and isolated.

Thank you.

Now, Rozz, you'll go next.

I feel like...

I feel like sometimes,
maybe your past relationships

have caused insecurities,

and I feel like you're just
putting your insecurities

on to me sometimes.

I do have a tendency to overthink
situations that I don't need to,

and make them bigger than they are,
to effectively protect myself,

because I've just had a lot of
experiences in the past

that I just don't want
to happen again.

So, I do take that on board,

and I will make an effort
to be more positive with you.

So, can we say that,
if there's an incident that happens

between the two of you,

that either one of you
feels is hurtful,

that you'll both set time aside to
come together and talk about that?

That's something that can be done,
that can change how we're feeling.

And as long as you're doing that,
that's a relationship.

Yeah. That's ultimately what
a relationship is.

I get where Thomas is coming from.

I know you shouldn't have
intercourse just to see

if there's a spark.

I feel terrible that
I've made him feel that way.

But I am going to make
a conscious effort.

I want this to work.

You were both very vulnerable
in that exchange,

so I appreciate that.

Whenever you're having these
conversations, remember,

keep the focus on feelings
and behavioural changes. Right.

I feel better.

Paul really helped.

Thank you so much, Paul.
Your help is amazing.

Guys, take care. See you soon.
See you, bye-bye. Bye! Bye.

I'm sorry for my lack
of communication,

because I have to take
responsibility for that.

It hurt me to see you
feel that way.

And same for me, like,
I'm sorry for everything, too.

So, thank you for listening to me
and hearing my points.

Of course. I'm here for you,
I do care about you.

Brilliant, that's good.

I feel a lot better.

Like, the atmosphere has lifted.

It's going to be better, cos at
least we're sorting the cracks.

You know, hopefully.

Go and write some questions down.

It's going to take me a while,
I've gotta proper think about it.

Yeah, think about it,
write some down.

Jay and Luke, and Shona and Brad...

These are maybe things that'll need
to come to the surface anyway. Yeah?

..have been given
the Ask Me Anything task.

"Question number one,
what do you like about me?"

I like that you're open. Yeah?

You've got a good sense of humour,

and you've got a caring side
about you, which is really nice.

OK, good answer.

It's my turn.

All right, go on, grill me.

"I want to know if you...
like, love yourself."

If you asked me about 2-3 years ago,
I would've said "no".

But now I do.

Sometimes I think you question
if you think you're good enough.

Yeah, I do,
I don't think I'm good enough.

That's one of my issues.

Because I just never have.

OK. Well, you are good enough.

Thanks.

The more conversations
I'm having with him,

the more I'm opening up.

I think we're heading in
the right direction, hopefully.

You know, fingers crossed.

Love you. Love you.

Bye, Bradley. Bye-bye.
SHE GIGGLES

There's questions that me and Shona
both need to ask each other,

I'm a little bit apprehensive about
how mine and Shona's conversation

will go today, because we've been
on cloud nine the whole time.

We're definitely in a position
where we need to be delving deeper

and find out more about each other.

Since a blissful wedding...

I'm feeling this. Yeah? Yeah!
LAUGHTER

Shona and Brad!

..things have moved fast
for Shona and Brad...

We did hear you talk to the group
about the fact that you've both

used the word "love"?

Genuinely, from the bottom
of my heart,

I have never felt this before.

..with them both declaring
their love after just

a few weeks of marriage.

I love you, and like...
I love you too, baby.

..yeah, it's just the best
feeling in the world.

Are you excited? Yeah.
Do you not feel nervous?

No, why, would I? Come sit down.

Why do you not get nervous
about anything?

HE CHUCKLES

Believe in the universe babe,
that's why. I know.

Cos I always go first
with everything,

shall I just go first. Do ya?

Yeah. OK, yeah, that's fine.

"Name three things you would
change about me."

Probably...to be more aware.

When we were coming
through the airport,

we were about to get on a flight,
and you were losing your passport

and your bag and that, like,
"Where's your head at?"

Maybe to be more considerate.

You don't actually ask me things.

"What you want to watch?
What do you want to do?"

You actually just, like, you'll
make a plan and expect me to

want to go along with it.

And then, just the cleanliness,
maybe like being a little bit tidy.

You know, your shoes, if they're
just kicked off on the floor,

and just maybe putting away all
the pots. You know what I mean?

OK.

"Do you think we have
the same level of maturity?"

No. I don't.

I think that,
where maturity is concerned,

it's very different. Mm-hm.

In the past, I've always been
with people that's been, like,

really strong within,
holding herself up,

and understanding that not
everything's the end of the world.

They've been more mature
in that respect,

do you know what I mean?

I had no idea he felt this way.

It was like, bam, bam, bam,
loads of different things.

I wish I'd asked him
something different now.

I wish I'd just said,
"What do you love about me?"

I wish I'd done that.

OK cool. Ready?

Right.

"What is your biggest goal in
your life's journey?"

Hm.

I want to make my life
full of travelling,

and being spontaneous, and free.
Yeah.

Love the idea of living abroad
in a hot country,

and not having to wear shoes,
and stuff.

I wouldn't want to be away from
my son for that long.

No, I understand that,
I wouldn't expect that.

But that's where it'll test
the stability with us, you know?

Erm...OK.

"What's your biggest responsibility
that you've ever had?"

OK.

I guess, my house now.

My dog.

There's something there, like,
that we're both different on.

You know, when you can't find things
and you're huffing and puffing,

and that, I'm like,
"Is that a big deal? No?"

I can be responsible, like,
I have a house, I have a dog,

but just because I'm forgetful,
I think that's a difference.

No, but... I don't know.

No, but listen, at the end of
the day, we're different because

you haven't had a child.

Meaning that when, you know,
when you you're raising a child,

you have to make them aware
of these things.

You know, make sure they know
how to clean up, their please and

thank-yous, manners and
things like that. Yeah.

Because there is definitely
a difference between us. Yeah.

And I don't know if
maybe that's why.

There's been a couple of red flags
that have popped up for me.

We are two different people from
two different parts of life.

Just certain responsibilities
with having a child

forces you to adapt and,

because maybe she's not got
that responsibility,

I feel like that's where we're sort
of missing each other a little bit.

So, yeah, you answered them
very thoroughly.

Yeah.

It feels like a huge 360.

We both sat on that couch
last night, beaming.

Now I'm a bit like, "OK what do
you like about me now?"

Well done. Thank you.
You passed the test.

OK.

Expert teamwork.

Smashed it.

Last night, some of the group
gathered for a drinks party.

It was just, like,
everyone going crazy.

A few drinks turned into
a lot of drinks.

And for one couple,
things took a turn for the worse.

Woke up this morning,

and me and Shona have stayed
in separate rooms.

We had a bit of a dispute.

My mindframe's a little bit off,
a little bit on-edge.

This may hinder our relationship
moving forward.

Hello, baby. Laura, baby!

Oh, honey. I wanted to see you,
I'm so glad you're here.

Having spent her first night alone
since her wedding day,

Shona has come to speak to Laura.

I'm so hungover.

Confessions Week,
for us as a couple,

a lot of things came to the surface.

What is going on
with you and Brad now?

Talk to me.

Brad and I, we made it really clear
that we were going to keep our,

like, chats about ourselves
and our intimacy private.

But last night, Brad shared
everything about us,

on all levels with everyone.

And I just felt betrayed by that.

Last night, I was like,
"We are not going to be OK."

It was like a 360.

I felt so sad because we've gone
from such a good place,

living in this amazing love bubble,

to going to this horrible place.

Yesterday, we had this disagreement.

He said, "Let's not tell anybody,"

and then, went and told everyone.

He told everyone intimate
things about us.

I saw a different side
to Brad last night.

He grabbed me to tell me
he could see cracks forming

in your relationship.

He's never said that to me.

Can you just tell me exactly what
he said to you in that chat?

You ready?

I'm ready. OK.

"Shona's immature.

"Shona's childish.

"Shona's naive.

"Shona lives in her own head,
and she just coasts through life,

"and nothing negative has ever
happened to Shona,"

not like it has for him.

Oh, fuck's sake, man.

Why do you need to tell people this,

what are you getting out of this?
Yeah.

Now, I just feel like...

SHE SIGHS

I just feel like I've been
really emotional all day.

I just feel like,
I don't know, just, argh!

I've just got loads of thoughts
running through my head right now,

loads of apprehension.

All of these things about me
not having much responsibility

being forgetful -
he has aired it with me,

but it's still bothering him,

and that worries me, cos it's
bigger than I thought it was.

I've seen now a peek behind the red
velvet curtain of your relationship,

and I really wish I hadn't.

Last night was too much.
It was really painful.

Red flags? Yeah, huge red flags.

And now I'm like,
"Oh, my gosh. Honeymoon period.

"Was this just like a magic bubble?
And has it popped?"

I'm very intrigued
to see what you've written,

and how you've ranked them. Yes.

For Confessions Week,
Porscha and Terence...

Three, two, one.

..and Laura and Arthur
have been given the Values Task,

in which they must rank the same
set of values in order of priority.

Nah, you know what?
That's not far off, y'know?

Our top five - we've got four out
of five in our top five.

OK! OK.

That's not bad at all.
It's impressive.

Yeah, that's actually quite a lot.
It's impressive.

One - I've got intelligence.

One - I've got honesty.

Right, OK,
intelligence and intellect,

I've literally been so
honest about this.

Mm-hm, it's funny because I spelt
intelligence wrong, as well.

You spelt intelligence wrong?
Yeah. OK.

Well, let's move on.

THEY LAUGH

You ready? I'm ready if you are.

Peggy and George have also been
tasked with comparing their values.

I don't know why
I'm looking at mine!

HE LAUGHS
I am looking at yours, don't worry.

I was hoping children would be
a lot higher.

This has always been dependent
on my partner.

Do you want children or not?

Do you physically, Georges?

It hasn't crossed my mind
for a very long time

But now I know this,
and this has been a conversation,

I do feel that this would
easily move up the list,

if you get what I'm saying?

I want children. OK.

Because I just, like, that,
to me, is like a family unit.

I want a mini-human
to call me "Mummy".

That's cute.

I'm desperate for children,
and what George put today -

it's not ideal by any means,

but I want to see past this,
because I want this to work.

How are you feeling about
the sex thing, then?

Because I put sex right
at the bottom.

I mean...the sex thing...

Does it frustrate me?

No, it doesn't frustrate me,
it concerns me.

For me, it's something
where you physically connect.

Sex, to me, just isn't a priority.

I get that. Yeah.

She's obviously disappointed
with the children thing,

and I'm obviously disappointed
with the sex thing.

But we've both made it very clear
we're falling for each other.

I'm a fast learner,
things will change.

I'm glad you put humour above looks.

That's one thing I am glad about.

You are very funny, and...

Looking, yeah?

THEY CHUCKLE

And you make me laugh.
You make me laugh.

ALL: Cheers!

With Confessions Week
reaching the halfway point...

What did you guys do?

We had to write questions that
we have to honestly ask each other.

Nice! Oh, I like that one.

..some couples have gathered
to compare notes.

Guys, last time we saw you,

you were separated on the couch...
You'd have been sat there,

and you'd be sat there.
..but with different vibes.

We had to rank values.

And surprisingly, four out of five
were the same of our top five.

Oh, amazing! Yeah. That's good.

So, you have so much in common?
Surprisingly! Shocking, right?

Yeah, we both sort of looked
at each other, like, "Oh, OK."

Maybe the experts do know
what they're doing? Yeah.

I wonder how the other couples
have got on?

What do we think? Who do we think
has had a challenge?

The biggest challenge, I think,

from an outsider point of view,
is Arthur and Laura.

Arthur and Laura, you think?
Really? Yeah.

I'll be honest, like,
listening to her on the sofa

when someone says "Chelsea boy",

it makes me feel that
they're a bit of a gold digger.

If you knew her and knew her story,

that's not what you'd think
of her at all.

For sure, she's nowhere
near a gold digger.

I don't think they're actually
a good match, if I'm honest.

I don't think they match at all.

This is cute. Very cute.

Nathanial has taken Ella on a date

to read her his
Confessions Week letter.

You picked a bougee place.

It feels so nice to be on a date.

I'm just nervous for him.

This will take him out
of his comfort zone.

So, I know right now,
he's going to be bricking it.

Cheers... Cheers.
..to getting out the apartment.

To our first date. I know.
Even though we're now married.

Do you know what? All I've wanted
is just to have a date.

This is what we came here for.

So, I'm really hoping he does use
this opportunity to be open,

and hopefully, it'll make the
relationship blossom.

Can I hear this letter?

Oh, am I going to need tissues?

No, I don't think so.
OK. Right. Go on, then.

OK.

"Ella, you know this is hard for me
to open up and let people in,

"but in this process,
you've been accepting.

"You made me feel safe,

"and you never make me feel ashamed

"for who I am, or what I've been.

"You're like a really great light
in this experience.

"And that's what
I really love about you."

One thing I have to address
is that...

..I need depth in conversation.

My soul and mind is not
being tested, I'm not learning,

and I'm not learning about you.

I need to you know what
makes Ella tick.

And if we have a future together,

because I'm looking for my
forever person here,

and obviously, I don't want to get
into anything if it's less.

I just thought the task was for you

to tell me something about yourself
that I didn't know.

What do you want? I don't quite
know what I thought you

were going to say. I just...

But I didn't expect that.

That's probably the one thing
I haven't told you,

which I know I need for me
to grow with us.

I've got needs, I've got wants.

There's two of us in this marriage.
And that's why we're here.

Cos you've never said this before.

I didn't know it was something
that you were thinking.

I didn't realise I was thinking.

That's why I've been
caught off guard. Babe...

..I want to know what
makes you tick.

What makes you happy?

I think that's something
that you need to go...

..and actually think about,
because if you don't know,

we're never going to align.

God.

I do know what I want,
but it's just...

..you've not really ever
asked me these things,

that's why I am taken aback.

OK, I disagree, but...

Cos you've never asked me about my
aspirations or where I want to be,

or any of that stuff.

I'll be honest,
it feels a bit backwards.

I have needs, and we both need
to meet in the middle,

so I'm willing to compromise,

but what's he doing to adapt to me?
Nothing.

I would like to know more.
All right.

I don't feel like
I know you enough.

I'm shocked, cos I didn't think
that I wasn't open,

I feel like I am.

Nathanial and Ella,

I think they've got some difficult
compromises to make.

Nathanial needs to compromise,
as well, and understand

where Ella's coming from.

He's still trying to get
to know her.

What is he doing to try,
can you just explain that to me?

Could anyone explain what
Nathanial's doing to try, please?

Other than give it time.

The only way it'll work -
if they go at Nathanial's pace.

Yeah, for sure.

NATHANIAL: I just want to know
more about you, that's all.

And that's what it comes down to.

And if I didn't want
to know you more,

I shouldn't be here,
d'you know what I mean?

OK, yeah.

I just didn't know it was a thing.

I didn't know it was a thing
until this challenge was set.

I really hope, moving forward,
this will be a good thing for us,

a bit more communication
an understanding of each other

and where each other
are coming from.

Now I'm thinking, right,
I need to work on me,

I need to answer those questions
and also figure out what

I want from you, in that sense.

It isn't what I expected.

I've been nothing but real
and open with him.

This has really got me
questioning whether I will ever

be enough for Nathanial.

OK. Yeah.

Brad and Shona.
What do we think about them?

I see them as one of
the weakest couples.

I see them as the weakest couple.
For sure.

50 shades of shit.

Honestly, it is though!

It seriously is! No fucks given,
does she? It's like...

I mean, some of the stuff it sounds
like they get up to is madness.

Brad, he's been talking about
what's going on in bed

in front of everyone.

I'm not kink-shamer, but...

..the way he's saying it so openly,

I feel that it's the
biggest sign of disrespect.

As a woman you'd feel completely
uncomfortable and exposed

when that trust is broken, and the
guy's then gone and told people.

I think it's going to stir.

This week will be telling,
if I'm totally honest,

because there'll be certain bits
of conversation that'll come out.

I always think when things burn
too brightly, too quickly,

it will set on fire and fizzle out.
It's true. 100%.

Is it love, or is it lust?

Red buzzer. Lust.

Pick me up. I got you, babe.

Wahh!
LAUGHTER

For their Confessions Week,

Tasha has been given the task of
writing a letter to Paul.

I have to sit and write how I feel,
and talk about whatever.

It was hard. It was a lot. Yeah.

So, I've got my letter in my pocket

and I know what's coming.

My heart is pounding.

This is a lot for me.

I always keep everything bottled up.

I hate feeling vulnerable,

but I need to open up
and express myself to Paul.

We're not a very
lovey-dovey family.

We don't talk about feelings
and stuff like that.

I struggle so much
expressing my emotions.

Can you tell me about
your previous relationships?

Very toxic, very fast.

That's my downfall.

I...

..always believe someone
will do better.

What do you believe is your
biggest fear?

Having to learn to put
my guard down.

Trusting someone again is scary.

SHE SNORTS

Fucking hellfire.

"To my gorgeous husband.

"This is very hard for me to do.

"As you know, opening up and
being emotional is not my thing.

"And I want to explain why.

"In all my past relationships,
I let my guard down way too quickly,

"and it was a massive mistake.

"I used to let people get into
my head and control me,

"which not only took all
my emotion away,

"but it took Tasha away.

"From this, I've struggled
to trust anyone who's said

"they love me or cared about me.

"How can you trust someone after
the damage they've caused?

"I fear that I will begin
to freak myself out

"and have doubt in my mind,
as everything is going so well.

"And this is not what I'm used to.

"To this day, I'm not over the
emotional trauma I've been through.

"However, with you by my side,
the days become easier,

"and my view on being able to trust
people is well and truly changing."

That was really good.

C'mon, gimme a hug.

That was good.

It's not that I don't trust you.

I just feel I can't trust anyone,
like, someone telling me

they love me, but putting me through
the rubbish that I've been through.

How can you love someone, but still
treat them the way I've been tret?

You are so nice.

I was questioning, like,
is this an act?

Like, I'm not used to it. Yea.

Because to me, it's just like,
this can't be real.

And this is what I need
to break out of.

There's generally nothing I could
think I would change about you.

And, like, you as a whole
is who I'm falling for.

I can see myself falling for you.

I felt so proud of her,
and I felt so grateful that she felt

comfortable enough that she could
express how she truly was feeling

from the heart to me.

SHE EXHALES
C'mon, gimme a kiss.

Hey, Bradley. Hey, babe.
You all right? I'm good.

After spending the night apart,

Shona has come to speak to Brad.

So, I feel like we do need to talk.

Brad did betray my trust.

There is a massive part of me
now feeling like,

have I made a huge mistake?

I am feeling,
like, really rubbish today.

I saw you talking to Laura... Yeah.

..and I thought you guys were
having a good chat.

So, then to hear that my husband
was just kind of, like,

ripping into me,
that's what it felt like.

It was hurtful for me
to hear you saying, like,

"Shona's naive about life."

"She's selfish or, like, childish.

"She's 31, but, like,
she's forgetful," and du-du-du.

Like, you sat and told people
intimate thigs about us.

I feel so flat.

I feel like we have gone from here,

this amazing, gorgeous
love bubble... Yeah.

..to here.

It was more of a case of just
venting to people.

Obviously there was just things
that I was noticing a lot,

that I mentioned to you in the past,

that was continuing to happen. Mm.

You know, sometimes it's nice
to speak to friends about things.

Just not everyone in the room.

I can understand where you're coming
from, in respect of, you know,

like, you don't want everybody
to know our business,

and I'll take that on board.

Because I didn't know that
that was something

you'd be uncomfortable with.

I think because we said we weren't
going to say anything. Yeah.

I apologise for ever
making you feel a certain way,

negatively, because I never
want to do that.

I feel like you just have to,
kind of, start to try and

love my imperfections a bit.

OK. Don't get so irritated by them.

And I will try too not be
forgetful and slow...

You're right in what you say,
maybe I need to learn to love the -

they're not imperfections,
but the way I feel about you,

like, that's more important
to me than all of that.

It is healthy that I know all
this now, and we have -

this feels really good.
Yeah, definitely.

I felt hurt, I did panic
and think, "Oh, my God."

But it is working, like,
we are going to bash heads.

Communication between Brad and I's
getting better and better.

That conversation was just
what I wanted.

I do feel like the bounce back
is very much stronger.

Like, the way I feel it. Do you?

Not yet. No, I do. I feel it.

It's brilliant to be able
to talk to Shona.

It's going to help us
massively moving forward,

cos now I can just directly
speak to her,

and I won't need to vent it
to other people.

I really, really like Shona,

and I'm really wanting it to keep
moving forward at the rate that

it's been doing.
I feel so much better,

and the weight's been lifted
off my shoulders.

Good progress, isn't it?

Next time...

PEGGY: Are you comfortable with the
physical side of our relationship?

..the Honesty Box is back.

No, I'm not.

As the couples face
uncomfortable truths...

Do you see us being intimate again?

Erm...

..the group's continued scrutiny...

Me and Shona, she loves me,
and I love her.

We call that bullshit straight away.

..takes its toll on
Shona and Brad.

I'm fuming that people don't see
the love we have for each other.

Shut up!

Relax, let it go.

Ugh!

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