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♫ The dusk awakens ♫

♫ The slumber of the whales ♫

♫ Swimming towards the galaxy ♫

♫ It docks at the blue shore of my heart ♫

♫ I hear the poems coming from afar ♫

♫ Happiness and sorrow come and go ♫

♫ As my memories dance along the clouds ♫

♫ I still remember ♫

♫ Please wait for me at the horizon ♫

♫ We'll watch the sunset together ♫

♫ Whose dream hasn't been beautiful ♫

♫ When have I ever been myself ♫

♫ Wait for me at the end of the daydream ♫

♫ Who has wandered within it ♫

♫ Life is nothing more than fantasy ♫

♫ I am still me ♫

[You Are Desire]

[Episode 20 Can't I Decide My Own Life]

You've must have noticed it, right?

Your first shot took too long to
hit the target.

You only had eight seconds to shoot,

yet you took almost three seconds to aim.

This resulted in the rest of your shooting
being disrupted,

and you lost stability.

Why?

It's been six weeks.

And you still can't solve this problem.

I used the initial trigger stop.

It took longer than firing on the move.

Besides, I used a model gun.

I also have to simulate
the recoil after firing,

keeping it within the normal sight picture.

Nonsense!

You should consider recoil
when using a model gun.

Why is your first shot slow to aim?

You know it better than anyone else.

You haven't let go of your past.

If you want to
overcome your fears with techniques,

you must practice a lot

to form muscle memory.

So why can't you do it now?

It proves you haven't practiced enough!

Coach, I want to use a real gun.

Coach, coach!

There's not much time left
for the National University Games.

Are you sure?

You haven't solved your problems.

Are you really going
to use up those five bullets?

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight.

Two, two, three, four,

- five, six, seven, eight.
- Captain!

Why are you late?

I left my sleeve guard at the training ground.
I just went back to get it.

You're always forgetful.

Captain, don't scold him.

There's still one person missing.

I don't know where he has been.

You mean Shen Juan?

It's normal for him not to want to come.

It's been six weeks,
yet he hasn't touched a real gun once.

He spent all day messing with that model gun.

How can he possibly get good results?

If you ask me,

it's a miracle that he's managed

stick it out until now.

What nonsense are you talking about?

Shen Juan would never give up halfway.

Captain,

if you were to simulate

the recoil after firing during practice

and still controlled it
within the fourth quadrant,

can you do it?

In theory, yes.

Why do you ask?

When I went to get my sleeve guard,

I heard Shen Juan talking to the coach.

He always had to simulate
the recoil after firing during practice

while keeping it steady.

The coach told him that
this technique is the basic.

Shen Juan?

That can't be!

Is he some sort of gyroscope sensor module?

It's just that you guys can't do it.

But Shen Juan is different.

He had practiced to the maximum level
and then started all over,

so he still got his old tricks.

You're just bragging!

It's just a pair of earmuffs.
Why do you have to make a fuss about it?

You know nothing.

It's called well-prepared.

Bye!

Shen Juan,

I heard that Coach Lei
won't let you use a real gun.

This is only temporary.

You'll definitely be able to participate
in the National University Games in March.

I know what to do.

Shen Juan.

- I'll be leaving then.
- Okay. Bye.

I saw you were busy,
so I came straight to you.

Yes, the coach told me,

to facilitate my training,

he asked me to move
to the shooting team's dormitory.

That's great.

We can see each other more often.

Shen Juan,
I've been looking forward to your return.

I helped you make your bed.

Thanks a lot.

Captain.

Don't you have class today?
You came back so early.

Since you're here, let's have dinner together.

After all, we're going to live here
for two years as a team.

Two years, huh?

I think someone should just
try to get through this training camp first.

There's no need to quarrel.

I didn't come back this time

to prove myself to anyone.

Shen Juan,

I saw our captain's resume before.

He seemed to have also participated

in the National Youth Shooting Championship.

Really?

I don't remember that.

You didn't give him the gift.

No. The timing was not right.

Timing? Is that even necessary?

You made it even more troublesome
than writing my thesis.

How long have you been writing your thesis?

What's wrong? Are you stuck?

I just have this feeling, you know?

The more I learn, the more stupid I've become.

I think I'm drowning in these documents.

Don't you know

how to ask for help?

Lin Yujing,

sometimes, your words really make sense.

Mr. Fu, I need some advice.

I'm writing a thesis on jurisprudence.

I have decided on the subject,
but I don't know where to start.

I'd like to ask for your advice.

I'm still busy.

Go ahead. I'll give you two minutes.

Well, it's…

Captain,

I was busy with my department's affairs today.

I had asked Coach Lei for a leave.

I'll make up for
this morning's physical training

at the sports field right now.

The captain was watching you just now.

Coach Lei agreed to let you use a real gun?

Great! I knew it!

When you simulated the recoil after firing,

Coach Lei must have been very satisfied

even though he didn't say anything.

It's just an empty gun without bullets.

Coach Lei only agreed to let me

practice the initial trigger stop.

Why doesn't he agree to
let you use the bullets?

If you keep going like this,
you can't get a good result in the match.

There's a big difference
between an empty gun and live ammunition.

Just focus on yourself.

Well, I'll go running.

Keep going, Shen Juan.

Bye.

See you at the cafe at ten o'clock tonight.

Over here!

Sorry.

The training ran a little late.

I haven't been here long, either.

I took these physics notes for you.

Take a look.

You went to sit in again?

When did you go?

It didn't take much time.

I got these from Sun Mingchuan.

This information

is quite useful for me.

But I'm just afraid
it will bother your revision.

No, it won't.

Trust me.

I can manage my own time.

Besides,

freshman physics questions
are pretty easy for me.

After the exam,

I'll spend more time with you.

Check it.

No rush.

[Wishing all students good results
in the final exam]

Finally! The exam is over!

I just hope I wouldn't fail any of my courses.

Yeah, that's all we ordinary students hope for.

We don't need to be as ambitious as Master Lin.

What's wrong?

You didn't do well on the exam?

One of my elective courses is a bit tricky.

Tricky?

What is that supposed to mean
to a top student like you?

Not getting a perfect score?

I've been taking notes for Shen Juan recently.

So I missed a few classes.

I'm definitely going to lose some points.

Oh, so it's just an elective course.

You can make up the scores next semester.

By the way,

do you think the delivery
can arrive in two days?

Are you still shopping online?
The holiday is just around the corner.

The delivery probably won't arrive
after you go home.

My family bought a new house
in Pucheng this year.

According to tradition,
we should celebrate the New Year here.

My parents will be here in two days.

I need to buy some daily necessities first.

What are you and Shen Juan
planning for the holiday?

Never mind, don't answer me.

Your affection is probably too much for me.

What affection?

He's busy training.

I better not disturb him.

Come on. Gather around.

The National University Games is in March.

We have limited time and heavy tasks.

So, no winter vacation.

But I will give each of you
five floating holidays.

During the holidays,

you must do basic training every day,

as well as twenty sets of
weightlifting with a gun.

You must record a video of
your training and send it to me.

- Understand?
- Yes, sir!

Dismissed.

Coach,

I want to

apply for that floating holiday.

You're already falling behind.
And now you still want to take a leave?

I will make up

for the missed training indicators doubly.

Please approve my leave.

During your leave,

you can't miss a single day of training.

I won't.

Thank you, coach.

Go ahead.

Coach,

I've made up my mind.

I want to use that magazine clip.

Get ready.

I'm sorry, coach.

You can go now.

Starting from tomorrow,

you'll practice with live ammunition.

What are you waiting for?

Honestly, I am already impressed

that you managed to hit three targets.

I can train your skills, reactions,

and fitness.

But you have to overcome your past on your own.

You can even bear the pressure of
quitting if you can't prove yourself.

So, I believe

you can coexist with
that hurdle from four years ago.

And one day, you will turn it into
your motivation to go forward.

Face it, and break through it.

You are still that Shen Juan
who makes everyone proud.

You're finishing early today.
No extra training?

Yeah.

I brought you a gift.

Open it.

I hope it can accompany you
whenever you need it.

May it bring you a good result.

Thank you,

I really like it.

I used live ammunition

in my training today.

I didn't expect a magazine clip
to have such a deep meaning.

Coach Lei is so amazing.

He is.

How many days can you rest this time?

Isn't the competition in March?

Anyway, it's enough for us to enjoy a trip.

Where do you want to go?

I'm okay with anything. It's up to you.

Alright.

Then close your eyes.

You'll choose where we're going.

Wherever your finger lands, we'll go there.

Okay.

Well, here it is.

It's a nice place!

Xu Ruyi said her parents are working there.

The sunset by the sea is so beautiful.

Alright.

Whatever you say.

Da Huang!

Stop right there!

Stop!

I'm telling you,

if you weren't Professor Zhou's darling,

you wouldn't be in this cage now,

you'd be in a pot, got it?

You'd better learn from your mistake!

You did well on the old exam this time.

It seems that your practice actually works.

Keep it up every day, okay?

Keep going!

Ah, love!

[Tickets from Pucheng to Macau are ready]

Lin Yujing, can you help me out?

I'm trying to grab a train ticket to Xiamen.

Do you need more help?

Yes, of course!

I'll find someone to help you.

He,

Xu Ruyi is trying to
grab a train ticket to Xiamen.

Now it's your chance!

Thank you so much!

I heard from Lin Yujing that
you're trying to grab a train ticket.

Send me your ID info. I'll try to help.

No need. I can do it myself.

I often play games.
I'll be faster if I try to buy the ticket.

More help will bring more chances, right?

Alright. If you get the ticket,
I'll treat you to dinner.

No need. A coffee is enough.

By the way,
I don't have much to do after the exam.

Do you where I can go to have some fun?

I'll go there.

But I'm not very familiar with your city.

Have fun?

There's a bay nearby.

Alright. If I help you get the ticket,

we'll go there together.

See you then.

Alright.

Okay, bye.

He.

Professor Zhou.

You're watching this tomato plant every day.

I'm really afraid you'll go crazy.

I planted three before,
and they finally bore fruits.

But they were all ruined

by your precious chicken.

Fortunately, I managed to

save this one last plant.

That indeed sounds tough.

Since this is the only one left,

why did you dig it out?

Thank you for coming out with me today.

Now this is what holidays should be like.

And thank you for helping me grab the ticket.

You're welcome.

You helped me with my English.

And during the exam,

I could finally answer more questions.

I should thank you.

It's all because of your hard work.

Are you going to Xiamen for a holiday?

My family is in Xiamen.

I want to go back and celebrate
the Chinese New Year with them.

But I couldn't get the ticket no matter what.

How did you manage to get me a ticket?

It's all about speed and patience.

As long as you need it, I'll do it anyway.

Here,

try this.

How is it?

It tastes exactly like what I ate
when I was a kid.

Where did you buy it?

I grew it.

You told me before

that when you were little,
the tomatoes that your family grew tasted good.

So I wanted to try it.

Luckily, it bore fruit this time.

I didn't expect

that you can still remember
what I casually mentioned before.

It has been a long time.

Actually, I wasn't very sure either.

I was worried it wasn't the variety you liked.

But seeing you like it now,

I'm also very happy.

There's something I want to ask you for help.

What is it?

Now I'm

giving it to you.

Would you

take care of it with me?

If you remain silent, I'll take it as a yes.

I sent Orange to Wang Yiyang.

He can definitely take good care of it.

Shen Juan, look.

Well, it took him a long time
to get what he wanted.

But the result is great. They're a couple now.

That's true.

He,

when did you and Xu Ruyi…

When did this happen?

You really let me down, you know.

I'm the only single one left in the group.

This is too much. Too much!

I don't care. You have to treat us.

You lost.

You lost.

It's about time.

Let's head to the airport.

It's almost time for boarding.

I didn't expect my mom to
call me back to Huaicheng suddenly.

It's ok.
I'll go back and let Coach Lei cancel my leave.

We can go to Xiamen when you come back.

Remember to let me know when you arrive.

I'll contact you as soon as I land.

You might be too engrossed
in your training by then

and forget about me.

Give me the phone number of your home.

Well, well. You're so thoughtful.

Just in case, you know.

I don't want to lose contact with you
for any reason.

All done.

I'm leaving.

Okay.

Bye.

Bye.

Lin Yujing!

Wait for me to come back, okay?

Okay.

I'm leaving.

Bye.

Bye.

I'm home.

I'll call you in a bit.

Okay.

I'm back.

School is already on break.
Why did you come back so late?

Sit.

The school sent me this. Take a look.

Why is your GPA so low?

I missed a few elective classes.

But I can make it up the next semester.

Is that the point?

Have you forgotten what you promised me

when you wanted to go to Pucheng University?

Is this how you are
responsible for your actions?

Shen Juan.

He was your deskmate, right?

I've seen him.
He sent you home on New Year's Eve.

Are you dating him?

Is that the reason that
you got such a poor grade?

Is he the reason why you were
in such a hurry to go back to Pucheng?

Yes.

I'm dating Shen Juan.

But my absence wasn't his fault. It was mine.

There won't be a next time.

I've already sent someone to
investigate your school.

According to their tutoring plan,

every April,

there will be an opportunity to apply for
exchange at a foreign university.

You should start preparing for it.

I've told you before.
I don't want to go abroad.

Lin Yujing,

all the plans I've made for you
are well thought out.

They're all for your best interest.

I once thought that after I started university,

you would treat me
as an independent human being.

But now?
It seems like you haven't changed at all.

Have you ever respected me?

Haven't I ever respected you?

Didn't I agree to
let you go to Pucheng University?

And what did you get? This!

This is what you got!

Are you still responsible for your promise?

It's settled.

You should get prepared.
Now, go back to your room.

Is that why you called me back?

Just for your lecture?

Meng Weiguo even treated me to a meal
when he asked me to come back.

What did you just say?

What's the matter?

Did I touch a nerve by mentioning
your only failure in life?

Or am I also a failure, just like my dad?

Is that why you desperately
trying to make me into another you?

Lin Yujing!

Did I say something wrong?

Do you remember this bracelet?

Do you remember when you taught me
how to write when I was little?

That memory is my only comfort

whenever you disappointed me.

I've told myself countless times

to obey you one more time.

Just one more time.

And then, you'll love me again.

But now I realize,

you've treated me like a robot since then.

I'll never expect anything from you again.

And I'm not going abroad.

Just give up.

Give it to me!

Give it to me!

Contact me if you need anything.

I'll wait for you.

Do you remember this bracelet?

Do you remember when you taught me
how to write when I was little?

Lin Yujing!

We'll talk about it when we get back.

You can sleep here tonight.

I've changed the bed sheets
and the duvet cover for you.

What about you?

I'll sleep on the couch outside, of course.

So, if I sleep in your bed,

do I have to be responsible?

I mean be responsible for washing your sheets.

You really are running a fever.

It's okay. Do you have any medicine at home?

I'll take it and have some sleep.
I'll be fine in the morning.

Take the medicine and go to sleep.

Sleep tight.

Good night.

Good night.

I'm a little scared.

Reality has shattered me.

Dreams have always been illusions.

What should I do?

You told me before.

Don't be afraid

and don't hide from it.

It will be fine.

I'm with you.

And I'll protect you.

♫ Love sprouts in my palm ♫

♫ Yet worried linger within my eyes ♫

♫ Our story hasn't ended ♫

♫ So where are we now ♫

♫ I want to hug you so badly ♫

♫ I want to become better with you ♫

♫ The youth we shared ♫

♫ Turned into a rainbow within my heart ♫

♫ I really want to warm you ♫

♫ I want to share with you ♫

♫ The beauty of the world ♫

♫ We promised ♫

♫ To never be apart ♫

♫ Do you want to hear me sing ♫

♫ The wind chime swaying in my heart ♫

♫ Is a wish ♫

♫ I secretly made for you ♫

♫ I want to plant ♫

♫ A red maple forest ♫

♫ To dye the whole mountain red ♫

♫ The sky after the rain ♫

♫ Was painted by our brilliant dreams ♫

♫ Time is a flower of dream ♫

♫ You've already collected it ♫

♫ When we all become better ♫

♫ We'll see the best of the world together ♫