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(ethereal music)
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Peter Kevoian:
We were sitting at the pool
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just sunbathing and talking.
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I was a young gay man who was
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questioning
all kinds of things.
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We talked about being gay
in Hollywood
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and how difficult
it was to have a career.
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And I asked him how he knew
that he was gonna make it,
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because I wasn't sure
that I ever would.
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And he told me about
a dream that he had.
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He dreamt that there was
a perfectly cut diamond
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sitting on velvet
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in a room that was lit
with pin spots.
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And every one of the lights
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were pointed into the center
of the diamond.
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♪♪
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He thought he was the diamond.
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He said, "That's the dream
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"that made me believe
that I could do this.
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That's how I knew
I was gonna be a star."
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(dramatic music)
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-Your name is Roy Fitzgerald?
-That's right.
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Well, come up on
our stage, young man.
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This is your life!
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Come along here.
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-(laughing)
-♪ fanfare playing ♪
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Hey!
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You see, folks, this young man,
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whose name really is
Roy Fitzgerald,
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is known to you
and to movie fans
all over the world as...
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Narrator: Rock Hudson.
Was he the cat's pajamas!
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Pleased to make
your acquaintance, ma'am.
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Kevoian:
Well, Rock was an icon.
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Alan Shayne:
You couldn't take your eyes
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off Rock on the screen,
you really couldn't.
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Robert Hofler:
Not only was he
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the biggest star
at Universal,
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he was by far
the biggest star
in Hollywood.
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Ken Maley:
There was that period
where he was the king.
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Carole Cook:
The Tom Cruise of his day.
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Maley:
Women were swooning,
men were swooning.
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Armistead Maupin:
Rock was everybody's type.
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Howard McGillin:
(laughing) You couldn't
invent a name
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that was better
for a heterosexual leading man
than Rock Hudson.
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Maley:
Not only did women say,
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"That's the man I want
to marry,"
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many men said,
"That's the man
I'd like to be."
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McGillin:
He was like a granite facade,
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just impenetrable.
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Alice Waier:
He was a great performer,
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not only in acting,
but in life.
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Why aren't you married, Jordan?
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Maley:
He had more than one world.
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He had the studio world.
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He had this gay world.
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-You'll come?
-I'd be delighted.
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Well, good-o, sport!
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Maupin: I thought I was
the last man in California
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to go to bed with Rock Hudson
when I finally did.
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He was a sort
of sexual gladiator.
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The lash for you,
betrayer of women.
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David Thomson:
He was closeted,
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but there was every reason
to be closeted back then.
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If the truth had come out,
that would've been
the end of his career.
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It's as simple as that.
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Kevoian:
The public perception of Rock
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was so very masculine
and straight.
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Privately, he was very free.
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Carol Burnett:
He loved to laugh.
He was also a bit of a devil.
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Ken Jillson:
The people that
he had around him
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were very trusted friends.
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I think maybe that's the key.
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Shayne:
People loved him, you know?
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He was just a decent,
wonderful guy.
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And that's unusual
in Hollywood.
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I hate to say that,
but it's true.
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He was a quiet man.
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I think the thing
I most remember him for
were his silences.
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It was...
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(contemplative music)
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...as if he were always
listening to something inside.
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Some voice.
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He never
talked about it, so...
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I never knew what it was.
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Oh, he was a good man.
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He lived as if he were
a stranger here.
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I mean, he never let
anything touch him.
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Became absorbed in things.
His job mostly.
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He worked hard, he...
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always a look around
his eyes as if he were
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trying to say something.
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I don't know what...
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protest against what
he'd surrendered his life to.
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♪♪
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I never knew
what he wanted...
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-(distant clatter)
-...and I don't think
he ever knew.
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♪♪
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Well, I...
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guess I can't tell you
much more. Enough?
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(contemplative music continues)
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Rock Hudson:
Should be going.
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Reporter 1:
Rock Hudson died peacefully
in his sleep from AIDS,
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the first well-known person
to publicly acknowledge
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his struggle
with that fatal disease.
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Norman Sunshine:
He signaled this catastrophe
called AIDS,
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but Rock was an activist
without knowing it.
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Reporter 2: Since AIDS
is primarily a disease
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associated with homosexuals,
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talk of Hudson's lifestyle
has surfaced.
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Maupin:
They needed someone
to say that he was gay,
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and the story would be told,
and I didn't want it to be told
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in the way that the people
in Hollywood wanted it told.
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Ronald L. Davis:
This is an interview
with actor Rock Hudson
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taped in his home
in Beverly Hills, California,
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on August 24th, 1983.
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Well, I'm wondering,
first of all,
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how an Illinois boy
like yourself
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became interested in acting.
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Hudson: I wanted to be
an actor all my life.
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That has always
hypnotized me.
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Davis: Did you have
acting training as a boy?
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Hudson:
No. I could never freely say,
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"I'm going to be an actor
when I grow up."
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Davis:
Yeah.
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Hudson:
Because that's sissy stuff.
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You oughta be a policeman
or a fireman.
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So I never said anything.
Kept my mouth shut.
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Nor did I enter in
the drama society
or anything like that.
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I had to work all the time,
so I couldn't do
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any form
of extracurricular activity.
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I had to make
a living for myself.
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And then I went in the Navy
in World War II
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and went back home
for a summer,
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and I thought,
"This place is not for me.
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Now is the time
to do what I want to do."
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(mellow jazz music)
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I did know one person
in Los Angeles,
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my father.
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My parents divorced,
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and so he was living out here.
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So I came out
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and stayed with him.
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It was very difficult for me
to make friends out here.
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Then I got to know
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a guy who was
an older brother
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of a guy
I was overseas with.
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And it was one of those things,
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"If you're ever in Los Angeles,
look me up."
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So I called him and he said,
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"Come on up
for Sunday dinner."
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So I did, met his brother,
who lived in Long Beach,
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who used to be a radio
producer.
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He began inviting me down
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to his place down in Long
Beach.
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We became best friends.
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Richard Hodge:
Kenneth Hodge was my uncle.
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A man of the arts.
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Somebody that really loved
to help people.
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It was never, ever spoken of
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that, you know,
he might be gay.
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I'd never heard that word
at that point in time.
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Being gay was considered,
you know, a neurosis.
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It was just a subject that,
uh, that was off the table.
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Rock was just getting
out of the Navy
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and hadn't been
into the pictures yet.
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So Kenneth was really
enthralled with him
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and was sort of
"love at first sight,"
I think for, for Ken.
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They were very much lovers.
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Kenneth had
a big Hollywood job.
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He was a director in radio,
and he had a good network.
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He had plenty of people
to introduce Rock to,
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and he helped facilitate
some of Rock's early career.
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Hudson: He suggested that
I get some pictures taken
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and send them
around to agents.
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I said, "What's an agent?"
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Now I'm Midwestern hick.
Please understand.
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Not knowing anything at all.
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Anyway, I had one response,
that's all.
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And that was Henry Willson.
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Davis:
Is that right?
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Hodge:
Rock was very ambitious.
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He got scooped up
with a big-time agent
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who really
accelerated Rock's career.
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And from what I know is,
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he kind of dropped Ken
on the spot.
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I think it ended
really abruptly.
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I never really saw my uncle
in love again.
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And I think Rock
broke his heart.
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(audience applauding)
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(indistinct chatter)
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And the fella sitting
next to you in the audience
down there,
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there's the man
who gave you that name,
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your good friend
and personal manager,
Mr. Henry Willson.
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Henry, stand up, please,
let the folks see you.
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(Rock laughing)
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Matter of fact, uh,
Henry discovered Rock
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and fostered
his rapid rise in pictures.
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Hudson:
Mm-hmm.
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Hofler: In the '40s,
Henry Willson went to work
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for David O. Selznick
right after David O. Selznick
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finished
"Gone With the Wind."
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Henry and Rock met at a party
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that this boyfriend-agent
of Rock's took him to.
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Rock realized,
"I'm going with the guy
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who's the head of talent
for Selznick Studios!"
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So Rock was
one of his first clients,
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and there were dozens
of other men
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who have been
completely forgotten,
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who had crazy names
like "Race Gentry."
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You only have to look
at the silent movies,
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where you would have
these men like Ramon Novarro
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or Rudolph Valentino.
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And they were considered
way too effeminate
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by the late '30s.
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As we come out
of World War II,
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our icons,
particularly in the movies,
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become more butch.
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A more masculine man
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in the stereotypical way
took over.
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There were
all these photographs
of soldiers and sailors.
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And so that kind of
upped the ante of
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this macho quality
that people wanted
in a movie star.
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And so the physique
became more important
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and you had more
taking off of the shirt.
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And that's where
Henry Willson
really came in.
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He groomed the male stars
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to be more butch, frankly.
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And he did it with,
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you know,
a number of these guys
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who were ex-soldiers
and sailors,
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and Rock Hudson
was one of them.
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-Actress: You are divine.
-I know, but I'm in training.
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(women laughing)
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Hudson:
So then I started
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going to class
and going to diction lessons,
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learning how
to lower my voice,
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learning how
to horseback ride,
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learning anything I could,
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'cause something
within this Midwestern
hick stupidity of mine
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told me that if you're
gonna do something, do it,
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and do it the best you can
and learn.
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I knew that, at least.
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Mark Griffin: Henry Willson
was very shrewd in knowing
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that if there is even
a trace of effeminacy,
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whether it's a giggle
or a flutter,
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that that's going
to read on screen.
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Hofler:
He showed them how
to do their hair,
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what to wear, all of that.
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You know, he was a real
grooming school.
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He taught them
how to be heterosexual.
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(jazz singer vocalizing)
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Griffin: So, Kathleen,
I wanted to begin by asking
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about the screen test
that you appeared in with Rock.
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-Kathleen Hughes: Oh, yes.
-(knocking)
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Griffin: I was just wondering,
had you met Rock
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prior to appearing
in the test with him?
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Hughes:
No, I hadn't.
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Griffin: What was your
initial impression of him?
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Hughes: Well, he was
certainly very handsome...
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(laughs)
...no question of that.
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And he was very pleasant,
very nice.
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Honey, I'm gonna
tell you something.
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You can believe it or not,
but it's the truth.
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The last winter of the war
over in Germany...
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Hughes:
He did not appeal to me
as a man or as a date.
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He was very nice, but I...
there was no spark.
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-(peaceful piano music)
-Director: Cut!
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Hudson:
I was under contract
with Universal Pictures.
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And then I was with them
17, 18 years.
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Universal in those days,
it was a wonderful studio.
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They took care of everything
for the actor.
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The house you live in,
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the shopping,
your meals, a cook.
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It was all done for you.
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So that the only thing you
had to be concerned about
was your performance.
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♪♪
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Piper Laurie:
See that little glint of fear
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in his eyes, the insecurity?
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Rock and I had both been signed
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to be under
contract to Universal.
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One of the things
that we had to do
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after we were
all under contract was
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be a part of
a theatrical presentation
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for all the studio heads
and producers and agents.
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And he'd never been
on the stage before.
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And, and I saw that he was
physically out of control.
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He was just, he
was very much like a child
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and just shaking visibly
and perspiring
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and looked like he
couldn't stand on his feet.
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And I embraced him,
and I held him
like I was his mother
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and tried to infuse
some strength in him, courage.
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But he was so frightened.
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Hughes:
My best friend at the time,
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who was also under contract,
Susan Cabot.
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Well, she was always telling me
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how madly
in love with him she was.
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And she told me
that he took her home
to meet his mother once.
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She was really hoping
to end up with him.
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And I had already heard
that he was gay.
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And I said, "Um, I don't
think it's gonna happen."
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"Oh, yes, yes.
It's just got to happen."
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Well, it didn't happen.
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I can't marry you.
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Why not, darling?
Why not?
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For a moment,
I, I forgot what I am.
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(mellow jazz music)
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Hofler:
There's a womanizer
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and Henry Willson
was a manizer.
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And he was pretty
straightforward about,
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"Well, I'll sign you
and you'll sleep with me,"
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and there was even kind of
negotiations that went on,
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and he quickly
gained a reputation for it.
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And young, good-looking men
went to him
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using their sex
to be signed by him.
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They knew what they were doing.
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I don't think,
when it came to sex,
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Rock was ever innocent
by the time he arrived
in Hollywood.
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Actress:
The next time we saw Roy
was over a week later,
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only you wouldn't know
it was the same man.
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Hello.
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Griffin:
In 1951, Henry Willson
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introduces his most
promising client,
Rock Hudson,
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to an aspiring actor
named Bob Preble.
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Soon these two
eligible bachelors
are living together
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in a one-bedroom house
off Mulholland Drive.
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(cool jazz music)
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"Photoplay" magazine
publishes this article,
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and we're allowed
to peek through the window,
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as it were, into Rock
and Bob's private sanctuary.
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♪♪
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What's being depicted
is almost sort of like
this marital intimacy.
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And yet every effort is made
to portray Rock and Bob as like
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wholesome all-American boys.
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Preble later admitted
to some quote, unquote,
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"experimenting"
with Rock
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when they were roommates.
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But "Photoplay" magazine
would have us believe
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that the only reason
these two hunks
are living together
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is to save a buck.
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Look, baby,
there's no strings on me.
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I do what I like.
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And the same thing
goes for you.
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And we got music.
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00:16:43,670 --> 00:16:47,674
(contemplative music)
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Griffin: In 1951, Rock meets
fellow actor George Nader
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and Nader's long-term partner,
Mark Miller.
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And for the next 34 years,
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this trio
is virtually inseparable.
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The bond is forged through,
you know, things like
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a similar sense of humor
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and this tendency
towards mischief.
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There's also this shared
misery of the closet.
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There are countless lovers,
short-term boyfriends,
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and weekend flings that pass
through Rock Hudson's life.
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But the friendship with Nader
and Miller endured.
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Ain't he the sweetest
player you ever saw?
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He is not.
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Thomson: I think
that Hudson was regarded
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as a big, strong,
handsome guy.
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And the natural instinct
was to put him
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in a lot of cheap
adventure films.
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It took time
for the studio to see
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that what they really had there
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was a subtler actor
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than they ever guessed.
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Johash! The horses!
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(band playing
"Has Anybody Seen My Gal")
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Narrator:
Yes, here they are,
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those wild
and wonderful '20s,
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the years of speakeasies
and hot jazz.
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(upbeat jazz music)
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(speaking German)
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-Will I see you tonight?
-You bet, Millie, 8 o'clock.
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-There's a good-- Yes, sir.
-A double bromo.
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One double bromo.
There's a good movie...
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Laurie: I personally felt
that part was beneath him.
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I thought he was miscast.
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You know,
he was a 6'4" hunk,
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and to be playing lines
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that belonged
in a teenager's mouth.
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Watch me!
One strawberry surprise.
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Laurie: I just thought
it was beneath him,
and he was a good sport.
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Did you know that
in the drugstore scenes, uh...
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Griffin:
Is it the young Jimmy Dean?
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Laurie: Yeah, yeah.
He was sitting
at the counter.
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Nobody paid any attention,
nobody knew him then.
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Two scoops
of vanilla ice cream,
one mixed up with the rest.
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And, uh, one floating.
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(moody jazz music)
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(Sirk speaking German)
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Announcer:
Film producer Ross Hunter,
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who not only is one
of the most successful
producers in town,
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but one of the best liked.
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I believe in, you know,
authenticity, real flowers
and real paintings.
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And there's
a million dollars' worth
of jewels here tonight.
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Ross Hunter: The studio asked,
"What would you like to do?"
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And I said, "Well,
I would like to do something
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00:20:15,799 --> 00:20:18,301
"that I believe is very much
needed in this industry,
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and that is
to bring back glamor."
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00:20:19,678 --> 00:20:22,347
So I said,
"Let's do some love stories."
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00:20:22,389 --> 00:20:25,350
(expansive symphonic music)
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Douglas Sirk: I only can say
I smelled something
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interesting in the film.
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00:20:37,737 --> 00:20:41,783
Something which
I would call metaphysical.
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00:20:41,866 --> 00:20:45,203
You know, it's very strange
knowing you only like this.
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00:20:45,245 --> 00:20:47,580
So well,
it seems, and...
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00:20:47,664 --> 00:20:49,457
and yet...
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I've never seen
your face.
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Hunter:
The studio thought
my ideas were crazy.
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I told them that
I believe strongly
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in a man called Rock Hudson.
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And I would like to be able
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to use him as the young man
in "Magnificent Obsession."
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00:21:05,724 --> 00:21:09,102
He's a good-looking,
clean-cut man
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that young people
all over the world
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will fantasize about.
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00:21:14,649 --> 00:21:17,402
Oh, I'm so glad
you're here.
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00:21:17,444 --> 00:21:19,696
You must have known
how much I need you now.
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Darling.
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Griffin:
Ross Hunter is kind of
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the one that clues
into the fact
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that Rock is Prince Charming.
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00:21:27,412 --> 00:21:30,123
You know,
let's put him in some
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glossy romantic melodramas.
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00:21:32,917 --> 00:21:35,378
That proved to be
the winning formula
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for the beginning
of Rock's career.
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I love you,
and I wanna marry you.
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00:21:41,259 --> 00:21:43,261
Hunter:
Oh, the picture was probably
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one of
the biggest moneymakers
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that Universal had ever had.
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Sirk:
Rock Hudson became a star,
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just on account of this film.
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Announcer:
Based on votes of moviegoers
all over the nation,
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most popular actor
of the year.
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(fans chanting "We want Rock!")
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Rock, take another bow.
Take another bow.
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Take a bow, just take a bow.
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(Latin jazz music)
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00:22:09,245 --> 00:22:12,123
-Aren't you Mrs. Ricky Ricardo?
-Yeah-- Yes.
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00:22:12,207 --> 00:22:13,917
-Well, I'm Rock Hudson.
-Oh, yeah.
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00:22:13,958 --> 00:22:16,544
-Well, I know that.
-(audience laughing)
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Announcer:
W ell, this is the second
year in a row
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that Mr. Hudson has been
picked by "Modern Screen"
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as most popular actor.
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00:22:23,635 --> 00:22:25,637
Top honors for a top star.
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00:22:25,720 --> 00:22:28,890
(spirited jazz music concludes)
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00:22:28,932 --> 00:22:31,017
(sweeping romantic music)
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00:22:39,317 --> 00:22:42,529
But I'd be running away
if I turn my back
on everything I've known.
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00:22:42,612 --> 00:22:45,699
Ron. Isn't it enough
that we love each other?
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No, Cary, it isn't.
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Illeana Douglas:
Sirk is German.
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He's making these movies
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as an outsider
about our American values
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and kind of poking holes
in them.
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Narrator:
Their lives were worlds apart.
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Cary's world was bound
by the country club set,
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their smug pretensions
and their spiteful gossip.
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00:23:21,693 --> 00:23:23,695
Ron's world was boundless.
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The great outdoors,
the things that grow
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and real people
who give and take
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all that heaven allows
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of love and happiness.
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(upbeat piano
and accordion music)
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Douglas:
Sirk created a signature style,
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which is, it's so beautiful,
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but if you look underneath
the surface,
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under the white picket
fences,
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you're gonna see how torrid
and ugly everything is.
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00:23:51,973 --> 00:23:54,059
-Howard, you're drunk.
-Why, Cary!
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-(glass shatters)
-Isn't one man enough for you?
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Maybe you'd better stay
right where you are.
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Douglas:
Rock Hudson is just a...
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a perfect example
of a male Adonis,
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00:24:06,571 --> 00:24:11,242
but he's also sensitive,
well-rounded guy.
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You know, he's not strictly
a sex object for Jane Wyman.
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00:24:16,790 --> 00:24:22,504
He was the perfect man
for women of that era
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that maybe were trapped
in lonely marriages
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with insensitive,
unfeeling men.
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00:24:30,762 --> 00:24:33,598
Look, Mick, I told her
that I love her.
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00:24:33,682 --> 00:24:35,642
I asked her to marry me.
I can't force her.
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00:24:35,725 --> 00:24:37,143
She has to make up
her own mind.
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00:24:37,227 --> 00:24:40,397
She doesn't wanna make up
her own mind, no girl does.
486
00:24:40,438 --> 00:24:42,107
She wants you
to make it up for her.
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00:24:42,148 --> 00:24:43,817
Come on, let's go.
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00:24:44,275 --> 00:24:51,032
Douglas:
Rock Hudson is playing
a man called Rock Hudson,
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who is the personification
of Americana.
490
00:24:57,372 --> 00:25:01,459
(contemplative music)
491
00:25:01,543 --> 00:25:04,254
The identity
was given to him...
492
00:25:04,295 --> 00:25:06,381
♪♪
493
00:25:06,464 --> 00:25:10,802
...and he slipped into it
and he played it
for the rest of his life.
494
00:25:10,844 --> 00:25:13,013
(contemplative music continues)
495
00:25:20,145 --> 00:25:22,647
Actor:
This is the biggest thing
that's ever happened to you.
496
00:25:22,731 --> 00:25:24,274
-Yeah?
-Yeah.
497
00:25:24,315 --> 00:25:26,609
That's why it was such a hurry
for me to get over here
498
00:25:26,651 --> 00:25:27,777
and clean up your image.
499
00:25:27,819 --> 00:25:29,821
What's wrong
with my image?
500
00:25:29,863 --> 00:25:32,490
You make it sound like
I've just been named
Leper of the Year.
501
00:25:32,574 --> 00:25:34,117
Well, you know
the mentality of that board,
502
00:25:34,159 --> 00:25:35,994
they're hipped on the idea
of a corporate image,
503
00:25:36,036 --> 00:25:38,913
solid American gentry,
family respectability.
504
00:25:38,997 --> 00:25:41,750
For their top executives,
there are not 10 commandments,
only one:
505
00:25:41,833 --> 00:25:44,627
"Thou shalt be married,
happily and respectably
married."
506
00:25:44,669 --> 00:25:46,671
-Whether you like it or not.
-That's right.
507
00:25:46,713 --> 00:25:48,340
From now on you're gonna
have a new look.
508
00:25:48,381 --> 00:25:50,008
No more gay married bachelor.
509
00:25:50,091 --> 00:25:52,677
It's got to be Carter Harrison,
family man.
510
00:25:53,470 --> 00:25:55,680
Male Chorus:
♪ Maybe I'm right ♪
511
00:25:55,722 --> 00:25:59,351
♪ And maybe I'm wrong ♪
512
00:25:59,434 --> 00:26:01,811
♪ Maybe I'm weak ♪
513
00:26:01,853 --> 00:26:04,439
♪ And maybe I'm strong ♪
514
00:26:04,522 --> 00:26:06,733
♪ But nevertheless ♪
515
00:26:06,816 --> 00:26:09,861
♪ I'm in love... ♪
516
00:26:09,903 --> 00:26:12,322
Griffin: By the late 1950s,
517
00:26:12,405 --> 00:26:14,741
Rock Hudson
had really arrived.
518
00:26:14,824 --> 00:26:17,869
Rock's great popularity
as a matinee idol
519
00:26:17,952 --> 00:26:20,205
poses this significant problem
520
00:26:20,246 --> 00:26:22,707
for his handlers
and studio executives.
521
00:26:22,791 --> 00:26:25,335
On the screen,
he's wooing women
522
00:26:25,377 --> 00:26:27,170
like Jane Wyman
and Piper Laurie
523
00:26:27,212 --> 00:26:29,839
and the fans are really
eating it up.
524
00:26:29,881 --> 00:26:32,050
But he's nearly 30 years old
525
00:26:32,133 --> 00:26:34,803
and he's sort of
suspiciously unmarried.
526
00:26:34,886 --> 00:26:36,721
♪ ...with you ♪
527
00:26:36,805 --> 00:26:39,224
Griffin:
In the days when you
were working with Rock,
528
00:26:39,307 --> 00:26:41,518
the fan magazines
like "Photoplay"
and "Modern Screen"
529
00:26:41,559 --> 00:26:42,727
started to print articles
530
00:26:42,811 --> 00:26:44,729
in which Betty Abbott
was described
531
00:26:44,813 --> 00:26:46,481
as "Rock Hudson's best girl."
532
00:26:46,564 --> 00:26:47,691
Betty Abbott Griffin:
Oh, I know.
533
00:26:47,732 --> 00:26:49,401
We would laugh our heads off.
534
00:26:49,442 --> 00:26:51,903
-(Griffin laughs)
- Abbott Griffin :
I mean, it was publicity.
535
00:26:51,986 --> 00:26:55,198
I mean, we knew
what they were trying to do
536
00:26:55,240 --> 00:26:56,991
and we'd
sit there and laugh it off.
537
00:26:57,075 --> 00:26:59,077
♪ A life of regret... ♪
538
00:26:59,119 --> 00:27:02,580
Hofler: No one cared what
you really did in Hollywood.
539
00:27:02,622 --> 00:27:05,917
It's just as long as you
played along
540
00:27:05,959 --> 00:27:09,921
and you presented a facade
to the public.
541
00:27:10,005 --> 00:27:14,884
So living with another man is
not kind of playing the game.
542
00:27:14,926 --> 00:27:18,221
Playing the game
is getting married.
543
00:27:18,263 --> 00:27:20,724
♪ But nevertheless ♪
544
00:27:20,765 --> 00:27:23,476
♪ I'm in love ♪
545
00:27:23,560 --> 00:27:25,270
♪ With ♪
546
00:27:25,353 --> 00:27:29,107
♪ You ♪
547
00:27:29,149 --> 00:27:31,109
It's about time
you got hitched, isn't it?
548
00:27:33,236 --> 00:27:34,612
No, I...
549
00:27:34,654 --> 00:27:36,906
I have trouble enough
finding oil.
550
00:27:36,990 --> 00:27:37,907
(chuckles)
551
00:27:37,949 --> 00:27:40,702
Griffin:
Enter Phyllis Gates.
552
00:27:40,785 --> 00:27:43,621
Not only is she
Henry Willson's secretary,
553
00:27:43,705 --> 00:27:45,957
but she's really
heaven sent.
554
00:27:46,041 --> 00:27:48,460
It's like direct
from central casting
555
00:27:48,543 --> 00:27:50,462
to play Mrs. Rock Hudson.
556
00:27:50,545 --> 00:27:53,423
In November of 1955,
557
00:27:53,465 --> 00:27:55,050
Rock and Phyllis are married
558
00:27:55,133 --> 00:27:57,802
at the Biltmore Hotel
in Santa Barbara.
559
00:27:57,886 --> 00:28:00,764
The ceremony took place
only eight days
560
00:28:00,805 --> 00:28:03,308
before Hudson's
30th birthday.
561
00:28:03,350 --> 00:28:05,935
And not surprisingly,
Henry Willson,
562
00:28:05,977 --> 00:28:08,980
the omnipresent,
tended to every detail.
563
00:28:09,022 --> 00:28:11,649
Though he does stop short
of joining the newlyweds
564
00:28:11,691 --> 00:28:13,943
when they honeymoon
in the Caribbean.
565
00:28:13,985 --> 00:28:16,780
I tend to believe
that it was arranged,
566
00:28:16,863 --> 00:28:20,158
that Henry Willson paired off
an essentially gay man
567
00:28:20,200 --> 00:28:23,995
and a woman rumored to be bi
or gay herself.
568
00:28:24,079 --> 00:28:26,456
Both participants may have
agreed to play house
569
00:28:26,498 --> 00:28:30,251
in the name of keeping
Hudson's career blazing.
570
00:28:30,335 --> 00:28:32,921
Hofler: Oh, it was totally
engineered by Henry.
571
00:28:32,962 --> 00:28:37,967
You know, and the, the thing
that was such a joke about it
572
00:28:38,009 --> 00:28:41,096
is that Rock didn't look
any further
573
00:28:41,179 --> 00:28:43,139
than his agent's
secretary.
574
00:28:44,182 --> 00:28:48,687
Griffin: In some ways,
Rock is the most
successful creation
575
00:28:48,770 --> 00:28:50,939
of that golden age of
Hollywood,
576
00:28:51,022 --> 00:28:54,859
the last of those
really manufactured stars
577
00:28:54,943 --> 00:28:56,069
where every aspect
578
00:28:56,152 --> 00:28:59,739
of what we think
to be their private life
579
00:28:59,823 --> 00:29:03,368
has been built
by other people.
580
00:29:09,708 --> 00:29:11,042
(crowd cheering)
581
00:29:11,084 --> 00:29:13,753
Hudson:
I like to lean upon
a director,
582
00:29:13,837 --> 00:29:17,841
and if I can't lean on him,
I'm rather lost.
583
00:29:17,882 --> 00:29:19,968
And I am forced to rely
on myself.
584
00:29:20,051 --> 00:29:22,846
And that's not
a comfortable feeling.
585
00:29:22,887 --> 00:29:25,306
(expansive orchestral theme)
586
00:29:29,519 --> 00:29:32,230
Interviewer:
When the opportunity came
for you to work
587
00:29:32,272 --> 00:29:33,898
with George Stevens,
what was your...?
588
00:29:33,940 --> 00:29:36,192
Hudson: Oh, well,
scrape me off the ceiling.
589
00:29:36,234 --> 00:29:38,403
I mean, the thrill
of a lifetime for me.
590
00:29:38,486 --> 00:29:40,613
But it was really
true what everybody said,
591
00:29:40,697 --> 00:29:43,575
make yourself a piece of putty
and put yourself in his hands
592
00:29:43,616 --> 00:29:45,201
and rely on him.
593
00:29:46,119 --> 00:29:49,414
Allison Anders:
George Stevens
is one of those classic
594
00:29:49,497 --> 00:29:51,249
American filmmakers,
595
00:29:51,332 --> 00:29:54,002
and no story I know is
as big as "Giant."
596
00:29:54,085 --> 00:29:56,171
It spans so many decades.
597
00:29:56,254 --> 00:29:59,299
It spans
so many sensibilities.
598
00:29:59,382 --> 00:30:04,971
Just the photography alone
is so magnificent.
599
00:30:05,055 --> 00:30:08,892
I've probably seen "Giant"
hundreds of times.
600
00:30:09,434 --> 00:30:11,436
I lost one friend
I had in this place
601
00:30:11,519 --> 00:30:13,104
and I know it too.
602
00:30:13,188 --> 00:30:15,315
So I quit. I'm dead quit.
603
00:30:15,398 --> 00:30:17,108
Don't have to say
another word to me.
604
00:30:17,150 --> 00:30:18,735
Nobody's firing you, Jett.
605
00:30:18,777 --> 00:30:21,446
Davis:
What kind of memories
do you have of James Dean?
606
00:30:21,488 --> 00:30:25,283
Hudson:
George used Jimmy because
Jimmy was new and hot.
607
00:30:25,367 --> 00:30:27,494
-Davis: Mm-hmm. Yes.
-Hudson: Hot-hot.
608
00:30:27,577 --> 00:30:30,747
I didn't particularly
like him, personally.
609
00:30:30,789 --> 00:30:32,123
-Would you excuse me?
-Davis: Sure.
610
00:30:32,207 --> 00:30:33,958
Hudson: I'm wanna go
get a pack of cigarettes.
611
00:30:35,752 --> 00:30:36,961
(men clamoring)
612
00:30:37,003 --> 00:30:38,505
Griffin:
According to some accounts,
613
00:30:38,588 --> 00:30:42,342
James Dean was
rather disdainful of Hudson.
614
00:30:42,884 --> 00:30:45,053
Dean considered it
hypocritical
615
00:30:45,136 --> 00:30:48,640
that Rock was maintaining
this hetero facade in public
616
00:30:48,723 --> 00:30:51,059
while privately
hitting on Dean,
617
00:30:51,142 --> 00:30:53,019
if we're to believe
the rumor mill.
618
00:30:53,103 --> 00:30:56,690
Some might say that that's
a case of the pot calling
the kettle black.
619
00:30:56,773 --> 00:31:00,402
You know, it's pretty
well documented that
early in his career,
620
00:31:00,485 --> 00:31:04,030
James Dean was kept
by a gay radio executive
621
00:31:04,114 --> 00:31:07,575
who was indeed friends with
Rock's agent, Henry Willson.
622
00:31:07,659 --> 00:31:10,328
If you're talking
about shrouded sexuality,
623
00:31:10,412 --> 00:31:12,330
they weren't
all that different.
624
00:31:12,372 --> 00:31:14,416
Davis:
While we're talking
about James Dean,
625
00:31:14,499 --> 00:31:16,668
I don't know whether
you had anything else
you wanted to...
626
00:31:16,710 --> 00:31:19,713
Hudson:
As I say, I didn't like
the fella too much.
627
00:31:19,796 --> 00:31:22,132
I don't know as
I should say any more.
628
00:31:22,173 --> 00:31:24,342
Uh, Jimmy was dead
before the picture was over.
629
00:31:24,384 --> 00:31:27,262
-Davis: Yes.
-Hudson: I don't like to talk
against anybody.
630
00:31:27,345 --> 00:31:29,305
And I don't like to talk
against the dead.
631
00:31:29,347 --> 00:31:31,516
-Davis: Mm-hmm.
-Hudson: So I think
I should shut up.
632
00:31:31,599 --> 00:31:33,351
-Davis: Yeah, all right. Okay.
-(Rock laughs)
633
00:31:33,435 --> 00:31:35,979
Hudson:
Where do you think you're
going with my automobile?
634
00:31:36,021 --> 00:31:37,856
-(engine stops)
-Just hold on.
635
00:31:37,939 --> 00:31:42,444
Griffin:
Hudson has definite negative
feelings about James Dean,
636
00:31:42,527 --> 00:31:45,363
but those feelings
are sharply contrasted
637
00:31:45,447 --> 00:31:49,659
with how much he loved
and cherished leading lady
Elizabeth Taylor.
638
00:31:49,701 --> 00:31:51,327
I'm a tough Texian.
639
00:31:51,369 --> 00:31:54,039
Anders:
It never ceases to amaze me
about Rock Hudson,
640
00:31:54,122 --> 00:31:56,041
how fully he gives himself
641
00:31:56,082 --> 00:31:58,793
to these heterosexual
romances.
642
00:31:58,877 --> 00:32:00,587
(cattle bellowing)
643
00:32:00,670 --> 00:32:04,132
I mean, that scene when
they wake up on the train,
644
00:32:04,215 --> 00:32:07,218
they've been fucking
from Maryland
all the way, you know,
645
00:32:07,302 --> 00:32:10,513
to Texas, and I believe it!
646
00:32:11,181 --> 00:32:12,974
What's that? A wolf?
647
00:32:13,516 --> 00:32:17,729
No, honey, just
a little old coyote.
648
00:32:17,812 --> 00:32:19,522
(sighs)
649
00:32:19,564 --> 00:32:21,066
(contemplative music)
650
00:32:21,149 --> 00:32:23,860
Griffin: It's no secret that
throughout her whole life,
651
00:32:23,902 --> 00:32:28,490
Elizabeth Taylor
had many close friendships
with gay men.
652
00:32:29,240 --> 00:32:32,410
Echoing her role in "Giant,"
Taylor often gravitated
653
00:32:32,452 --> 00:32:35,872
toward social outcasts
or misfits.
654
00:32:35,914 --> 00:32:38,083
Hudson:
We became close friends.
655
00:32:38,124 --> 00:32:39,584
We are close friends today,
656
00:32:39,626 --> 00:32:42,045
and I think she is
one of the best people.
657
00:32:42,712 --> 00:32:45,382
Griffin: That kind
of loving bond between them,
658
00:32:45,423 --> 00:32:47,217
the soulmate connection,
if you will,
659
00:32:47,258 --> 00:32:50,595
becomes all the more important
later in life.
660
00:32:51,554 --> 00:32:55,558
Anders: George Stevens
had complicated characters
661
00:32:55,600 --> 00:33:00,146
and he cared about
those characters
within society
662
00:33:00,230 --> 00:33:02,982
in a way that's different
from how Sirk did.
663
00:33:03,900 --> 00:33:05,694
Now look here, Sarge.
664
00:33:05,777 --> 00:33:09,239
I'd sure appreciate it
if you were a little more
polite to these people.
665
00:33:09,280 --> 00:33:11,199
Oh, you would, would you?
666
00:33:11,282 --> 00:33:12,951
Anders:
By the end of that movie,
667
00:33:13,034 --> 00:33:15,036
Rock Hudson
is our American hero
668
00:33:15,120 --> 00:33:19,290
because he's inclusive
and he's a feminist,
669
00:33:19,332 --> 00:33:22,127
and then he's got grandkids
that are mixed.
670
00:33:22,210 --> 00:33:24,879
Hudson: Those kids
in their infinite wisdom
671
00:33:24,963 --> 00:33:26,297
are smarter than we are.
672
00:33:26,381 --> 00:33:28,174
Anders:
That's America,
you know, to me.
673
00:33:28,258 --> 00:33:30,218
So he is America.
674
00:33:30,260 --> 00:33:31,302
(lowing)
675
00:33:31,344 --> 00:33:33,805
Sure, even the calf's
got my number.
676
00:33:33,847 --> 00:33:35,640
(cool jazz music)
677
00:33:35,724 --> 00:33:38,435
Narrator:
In Hollywood, a new high
for glamor is reached
678
00:33:38,476 --> 00:33:42,564
as Warner Bros. premieres
George Stevens' production,
"Giant."
679
00:33:42,647 --> 00:33:44,649
Rock Hudson
and his charming wife Phyllis
680
00:33:44,733 --> 00:33:47,777
expressed their happiness
about the brilliant premiere.
681
00:33:47,819 --> 00:33:49,362
-Hey, Sugar!
-Yes?
682
00:33:49,446 --> 00:33:51,573
Here is a guy that's
as big as Texas in "Giant."
683
00:33:51,656 --> 00:33:53,950
-It's such a performance.
-Host: Rock Hudson.
684
00:33:53,992 --> 00:33:55,744
Hello. How are you?
Nice to see you again.
685
00:33:55,827 --> 00:33:58,496
-Nice to see you again.
-I wanna meet your wife. Hello.
686
00:33:58,538 --> 00:34:02,083
So nice to meet you, Phyllis.
You wanna step in here?
687
00:34:02,167 --> 00:34:03,960
I never heard such screams
in my life
688
00:34:04,002 --> 00:34:05,837
as when you
got outta the car tonight.
689
00:34:05,879 --> 00:34:07,422
Davis:
Well, you received
690
00:34:07,505 --> 00:34:09,382
an Academy Award nomination
for the film.
691
00:34:09,466 --> 00:34:11,009
Hudson:
Mm-hmm, so did Jimmy.
692
00:34:11,051 --> 00:34:12,969
Davis:
Is that right? I'd forgotten.
693
00:34:13,011 --> 00:34:15,554
The nominees
for best actor are:
694
00:34:15,638 --> 00:34:18,141
Yul Brynner in
"The King and I,"
695
00:34:18,183 --> 00:34:20,310
Rock Hudson in "Giant,"
696
00:34:20,351 --> 00:34:22,437
James Dean in "Giant,"
697
00:34:22,520 --> 00:34:24,688
Kirk Douglas
in "Lust for life,"
698
00:34:24,731 --> 00:34:28,735
and Sir Laurence Olivier
in "Richard III."
699
00:34:28,818 --> 00:34:32,697
The winner is Yul Brynner.
700
00:34:34,866 --> 00:34:40,871
Anders:
Boy, it is really sad
to me that he lost
701
00:34:40,914 --> 00:34:45,043
because it's such
a tour de force performance.
702
00:34:45,627 --> 00:34:49,672
When do you get
that chance again?
703
00:34:49,714 --> 00:34:51,549
He did not.
704
00:34:52,842 --> 00:34:55,469
(contemplative music)
705
00:34:55,553 --> 00:34:58,056
Lee Garlington:
I wanted to be
a Western movie actor.
706
00:34:58,139 --> 00:35:03,311
So I landed
in Hollywood in 1961
707
00:35:03,395 --> 00:35:07,023
and realized
that I was kind of pretty,
708
00:35:07,065 --> 00:35:09,359
but, uh, what I didn't
realize was
709
00:35:09,401 --> 00:35:11,236
I didn't have any talent.
710
00:35:11,277 --> 00:35:15,365
Fortunately, when I
finally got with Rock,
711
00:35:15,407 --> 00:35:17,534
I realized I really
didn't want to be an actor.
712
00:35:17,575 --> 00:35:19,911
I didn't want any part
of that business.
713
00:35:19,953 --> 00:35:21,955
♪♪
714
00:35:22,038 --> 00:35:24,666
(Stephen Kijak speaking)
715
00:35:26,084 --> 00:35:27,377
(Garlington laughs)
716
00:35:27,419 --> 00:35:30,213
Uh, yes.
I remember very well.
717
00:35:30,255 --> 00:35:31,589
(Kijak chuckles)
718
00:35:31,631 --> 00:35:35,093
Garlington: I got a job
at Universal Studios,
719
00:35:35,176 --> 00:35:37,721
and I wanted to see
what he looked like.
720
00:35:37,762 --> 00:35:41,391
So I went over
beside his cottage,
721
00:35:41,433 --> 00:35:45,437
and he walked out
and walked down the street,
722
00:35:45,478 --> 00:35:48,023
and he turned
and looked back.
723
00:35:48,106 --> 00:35:50,525
And, of course, I was...
whew!
724
00:35:51,818 --> 00:35:53,611
He was incredible.
725
00:35:53,695 --> 00:35:58,158
He made a big splash,
let's put it that way.
726
00:35:58,783 --> 00:36:03,788
And I got a phone call
from someone on his staff.
727
00:36:03,830 --> 00:36:07,834
Did I want to come up
and visit with Rock Hudson?
728
00:36:07,917 --> 00:36:09,544
And...
729
00:36:10,378 --> 00:36:13,256
I wasn't gonna say no.
730
00:36:13,298 --> 00:36:15,383
(cool jazz music)
731
00:36:19,429 --> 00:36:21,765
What is there
to talk about,
my dear husband?
732
00:36:21,806 --> 00:36:23,641
Judith, please.
You're in no condition...
733
00:36:23,683 --> 00:36:26,603
Divorce.
That's what you wanna
talk about, isn't it?
734
00:36:26,644 --> 00:36:28,646
Well, let me tell you
right now,
735
00:36:28,688 --> 00:36:31,983
my gallant, silent
suffering spouse,
you'll never get one!
736
00:36:32,025 --> 00:36:35,111
Our marriage was a mistake.
Yours as well as mine.
737
00:36:35,153 --> 00:36:38,740
Was it? You didn't think
so when you thought I could
make a gentleman out of you.
738
00:36:38,823 --> 00:36:42,786
Well, you married me
and you're going
to stay married to me.
739
00:36:42,827 --> 00:36:45,997
So sneak around
back alleys if that's
the kind of man you are.
740
00:36:46,039 --> 00:36:47,832
I doubt that I
could stop you.
741
00:36:47,916 --> 00:36:50,502
(somber music)
742
00:36:50,585 --> 00:36:52,462
Griffin:
When he was on location
743
00:36:52,504 --> 00:36:56,174
for the epic remake of
"A Farewell to Arms,"
744
00:36:56,257 --> 00:36:59,511
Rock's marriage
to Phyllis began to fall apart.
745
00:37:02,681 --> 00:37:04,474
You're going down to town
tomorrow
746
00:37:04,516 --> 00:37:06,559
and find yourself
some gay young playmate.
747
00:37:06,643 --> 00:37:09,688
-I don't wanna be
with anybody else, I tell you.
-Yes, you do.
748
00:37:10,355 --> 00:37:12,357
Griffin:
Three years
after she exchanged
749
00:37:12,440 --> 00:37:14,192
marriage vows with Rock,
750
00:37:14,275 --> 00:37:16,528
Phyllis files for divorce.
751
00:37:16,569 --> 00:37:18,655
Phyllis complained
that he was always away.
752
00:37:18,697 --> 00:37:20,865
Well, hello.
You're married to
a major movie star
753
00:37:20,949 --> 00:37:24,119
who's shooting films
in exotic locations.
754
00:37:24,202 --> 00:37:27,539
Garlington: She really
took him to the cleaners
when she divorced him.
755
00:37:27,622 --> 00:37:29,374
He lost
practically everything.
756
00:37:29,416 --> 00:37:32,544
He had a sailboat
that was his pride and joy,
757
00:37:32,585 --> 00:37:34,879
and he had to sell that
to pay her off.
758
00:37:34,921 --> 00:37:37,632
And, uh, he was really
angry about that.
759
00:37:37,716 --> 00:37:41,386
Griffin:
In a memoir published
two years after Rock's death,
760
00:37:41,469 --> 00:37:43,221
Phyllis claimed that
761
00:37:43,304 --> 00:37:45,223
she was
entirely duped,
762
00:37:45,306 --> 00:37:47,350
manipulated
into participating
763
00:37:47,392 --> 00:37:49,436
in this sham marriage
with Rock.
764
00:37:49,519 --> 00:37:53,481
And she claims
she had no idea
that Hudson is gay,
765
00:37:53,565 --> 00:37:56,067
which is
really hard to swallow,
766
00:37:56,109 --> 00:38:00,071
given the fact that virtually
every bit player, makeup man,
767
00:38:00,113 --> 00:38:02,198
assistant gofer at Universal,
768
00:38:02,240 --> 00:38:05,368
knew the score
about Rock Hudson.
769
00:38:05,410 --> 00:38:07,704
How did she possibly
miss the memo?
770
00:38:07,746 --> 00:38:10,915
It's just kind of
inconceivable.
771
00:38:10,999 --> 00:38:13,418
(mellow jazz music)
772
00:38:13,501 --> 00:38:16,379
(telephone ringing)
773
00:38:22,218 --> 00:38:23,595
Colonel Farr.
774
00:38:23,636 --> 00:38:25,513
I thought we could
get together,
775
00:38:25,597 --> 00:38:27,515
have a cup
of coffee, maybe,
776
00:38:27,599 --> 00:38:29,184
uh, get acquainted.
777
00:38:29,267 --> 00:38:31,978
We might find we have
a lot in common.
778
00:38:32,062 --> 00:38:33,438
I'm on my way.
779
00:38:37,525 --> 00:38:40,028
Doris Day:
♪ Pillow talk ♪
780
00:38:40,111 --> 00:38:41,821
♪ Pillow talk ♪
781
00:38:41,905 --> 00:38:44,199
♪ Another night
I hear myself ♪
782
00:38:44,282 --> 00:38:45,533
♪ Talk, talk, talk, talk ♪
783
00:38:45,617 --> 00:38:47,702
Look, I don't know
what's bothering you,
784
00:38:47,786 --> 00:38:50,121
but don't take
your bedroom problems
out on me.
785
00:38:50,163 --> 00:38:51,664
I have no bedroom problems.
786
00:38:51,748 --> 00:38:54,125
There's nothing
in my bedroom
that bothers me.
787
00:38:54,167 --> 00:38:56,252
Oh, that's too bad.
788
00:38:56,294 --> 00:38:57,879
"Pillow Talk"
seems very tame now
789
00:38:57,962 --> 00:39:02,467
by comparison with,
um, today's more
explicit standards.
790
00:39:02,509 --> 00:39:05,887
We almost didn't do it
because it was too dirty.
791
00:39:05,970 --> 00:39:09,140
(cool jazz music)
792
00:39:09,182 --> 00:39:12,477
Hudson:
So that's the other end
of your party line.
793
00:39:12,936 --> 00:39:15,814
Hunter:
It was fun and, and,
and it was fluff,
794
00:39:15,897 --> 00:39:19,275
and it was wonderful
to look at, and you laughed.
795
00:39:19,317 --> 00:39:21,444
I'm so sick of seeing
the ugliness.
796
00:39:21,486 --> 00:39:22,862
We all know it's there.
797
00:39:22,946 --> 00:39:24,447
I don't hide my head
in the sand
798
00:39:24,489 --> 00:39:25,949
and say that it's not there.
799
00:39:25,990 --> 00:39:29,452
But I believe that motion
pictures are an escape.
800
00:39:29,494 --> 00:39:32,330
(couple laughing)
801
00:39:32,414 --> 00:39:35,000
Day:
What a marvelous-looking man.
802
00:39:35,083 --> 00:39:37,794
I wonder if he's single.
803
00:39:39,421 --> 00:39:43,174
Hudson:
I don't know how long I can
get away with this act.
804
00:39:44,884 --> 00:39:45,885
(chuckles)
805
00:39:45,969 --> 00:39:48,471
Tom Santopietro:
You know, the deception
806
00:39:48,513 --> 00:39:51,474
is an interesting artifact
of the times.
807
00:39:51,516 --> 00:39:55,854
You have a gay actor
playing a straight man
808
00:39:55,895 --> 00:39:58,481
impersonating
a possibly gay man.
809
00:39:58,523 --> 00:39:59,649
It's a house of mirrors.
810
00:39:59,691 --> 00:40:01,860
Tell me about your job.
811
00:40:01,901 --> 00:40:04,362
Must be very exciting
working with
812
00:40:04,404 --> 00:40:07,365
all them colors
and fabrics and all.
813
00:40:07,449 --> 00:40:09,534
(cool jazz continues)
814
00:40:09,617 --> 00:40:11,619
Maupin:
In those Doris Day movies,
815
00:40:11,703 --> 00:40:13,705
he's always
pretending to be gay
816
00:40:13,788 --> 00:40:16,207
in order to get Doris
into bed.
817
00:40:16,249 --> 00:40:18,460
That's the joke always.
818
00:40:18,543 --> 00:40:20,920
Why can't you get married?
819
00:40:21,755 --> 00:40:23,214
That's the sort
of thing a man
820
00:40:23,256 --> 00:40:25,467
doesn't discuss
with a nice woman.
821
00:40:25,550 --> 00:40:27,093
Maupin:
That was almost a device
822
00:40:27,177 --> 00:40:29,220
to keep anybody from asking
questions about him.
823
00:40:29,304 --> 00:40:31,514
Ye gods,
you've got cold feet!
824
00:40:31,556 --> 00:40:33,767
Complaints,
complaints, nothing
but complaints!
825
00:40:33,850 --> 00:40:36,019
Maupin: It was kind of
an evil gag, actually.
826
00:40:36,061 --> 00:40:39,814
And I hold Ross Hunter
largely responsible for that,
827
00:40:39,898 --> 00:40:41,399
the producer of those films.
828
00:40:41,483 --> 00:40:44,069
I know for a fact
that Ross Hunter was gay.
829
00:40:44,110 --> 00:40:46,654
(dramatic jazz music)
830
00:40:46,696 --> 00:40:48,323
Linus!
831
00:40:48,406 --> 00:40:50,575
What are you doing here?
832
00:40:51,076 --> 00:40:53,578
Where am I?
833
00:40:54,662 --> 00:40:57,707
Why, this is
Jerry Webster's apartment!
834
00:40:57,749 --> 00:41:00,251
Day:
Nothing was ever talked about
835
00:41:00,335 --> 00:41:02,087
as far as his private life.
836
00:41:02,170 --> 00:41:03,546
(groans)
837
00:41:03,588 --> 00:41:06,466
Day:
Many, many people
would ask me,
838
00:41:06,549 --> 00:41:08,927
you know,
"Is Rock Hudson really gay?"
839
00:41:08,968 --> 00:41:13,556
And I said, "It's something
that I will not discuss."
840
00:41:13,598 --> 00:41:17,811
I mean, first of all,
I know nothing
about his private life.
841
00:41:17,894 --> 00:41:20,021
And if I did,
I wouldn't discuss it.
842
00:41:20,105 --> 00:41:21,231
Look at me.
843
00:41:21,272 --> 00:41:24,984
I can't.
I'm too ashamed.
844
00:41:25,068 --> 00:41:26,653
Forget me, Carol.
845
00:41:26,736 --> 00:41:30,699
You deserve a man,
not a mass
of neurotic doubts.
846
00:41:31,324 --> 00:41:35,328
Day: So I can't tell you
one thing about him except
that he is a nice man.
847
00:41:35,787 --> 00:41:37,580
You're tearing
yourself apart!
848
00:41:37,622 --> 00:41:39,040
Mr. Allen.
849
00:41:39,124 --> 00:41:42,127
Let's try to be adult
about this and work out
850
00:41:42,168 --> 00:41:43,878
some sort of schedule
where I can...
851
00:41:43,962 --> 00:41:46,172
Jillson:
It's funny when I see him
852
00:41:46,256 --> 00:41:47,507
smoking in that movie,
853
00:41:47,590 --> 00:41:49,801
it was so him,
because he chain smoked.
854
00:41:49,843 --> 00:41:52,470
It's like he's
not even acting.
855
00:41:52,512 --> 00:41:55,724
(perky jazz music)
856
00:41:55,807 --> 00:41:57,475
Jillson:
Mark and George were
857
00:41:57,559 --> 00:41:59,310
really good friends with me
858
00:41:59,394 --> 00:42:01,104
and my partner, Al Roberts,
859
00:42:01,146 --> 00:42:02,605
and that's how I met Rock.
860
00:42:02,647 --> 00:42:05,191
And we, we just really
861
00:42:05,275 --> 00:42:06,735
hit it off because
862
00:42:06,818 --> 00:42:09,195
I didn't treat him like
a movie star.
863
00:42:09,279 --> 00:42:11,906
I-- We were just cool friends.
864
00:42:12,824 --> 00:42:15,660
Our social life with him
was very private.
865
00:42:15,744 --> 00:42:18,663
I mean, we didn't
go out to restaurants.
866
00:42:18,705 --> 00:42:20,832
We would go to Rock's house.
867
00:42:20,915 --> 00:42:23,418
It was called "The Castle."
868
00:42:23,501 --> 00:42:24,753
It was breathtaking.
869
00:42:24,836 --> 00:42:27,297
It looked like a hacienda.
870
00:42:27,339 --> 00:42:31,634
You just felt so welcome
when you came to that home.
871
00:42:31,676 --> 00:42:34,721
The house was very casual.
872
00:42:34,804 --> 00:42:38,308
It wasn't stiff.
And that's how he was.
873
00:42:38,350 --> 00:42:40,352
He was very, very casual.
874
00:42:40,435 --> 00:42:44,356
And then, of course,
when he'd come to Laguna,
it was really, really fun too.
875
00:42:45,106 --> 00:42:48,526
I think he could breathe
a lot easier in Laguna.
876
00:42:48,610 --> 00:42:53,365
And because Mark
and George had a home here,
he did come down a lot.
877
00:42:54,157 --> 00:42:58,078
The gay beach
was to the left
of the lifeguard tower.
878
00:42:58,161 --> 00:43:02,791
And it was magical
because you could play
volleyball on the beach
879
00:43:02,874 --> 00:43:04,417
and just without a shirt on,
880
00:43:04,501 --> 00:43:06,169
just step up into the bar
881
00:43:06,211 --> 00:43:08,213
on a hot summer Sunday
882
00:43:08,254 --> 00:43:09,714
and have a beer,
883
00:43:09,756 --> 00:43:12,717
and it was very erotic.
884
00:43:12,801 --> 00:43:15,512
Yeah, I mean, like big time.
885
00:43:15,553 --> 00:43:16,638
Yeah.
886
00:43:16,721 --> 00:43:20,100
(relaxing jazz music)
887
00:43:20,183 --> 00:43:21,685
Do you love me,
Mitch?
888
00:43:21,726 --> 00:43:23,269
Like a brother.
889
00:43:25,563 --> 00:43:27,440
I don't want you
as a brother.
890
00:43:27,524 --> 00:43:29,901
Can't be any other way,
Marylee.
891
00:43:32,404 --> 00:43:34,948
Don't... please don't...
892
00:43:35,031 --> 00:43:38,410
waste your life away
waiting for me.
893
00:43:42,872 --> 00:43:45,125
Griffin: You have
the movie magazines
894
00:43:45,208 --> 00:43:46,751
propping up this fantasy
895
00:43:46,793 --> 00:43:49,963
that everyone is straight
and looking for love
and marriage,
896
00:43:50,046 --> 00:43:53,717
while the tabloids
are obsessed
with homosexuals
897
00:43:53,758 --> 00:43:57,303
and trying to dig up
as much dirt as they can.
898
00:43:57,387 --> 00:44:00,640
This, of course, was during
the era of J. Edgar Hoover.
899
00:44:00,724 --> 00:44:04,602
So there's
an obsessive interest
in anything homosexual.
900
00:44:04,644 --> 00:44:06,604
Policy of the department is
901
00:44:06,688 --> 00:44:09,149
that we do not employ
homosexuals knowingly.
902
00:44:09,232 --> 00:44:12,736
And that if we discover
homosexuals in our department,
we discharge them.
903
00:44:13,903 --> 00:44:17,490
Griffin: Given all that was
going on in Rock Hudson's
private life,
904
00:44:17,574 --> 00:44:22,370
it's not surprising
that the FBI was keeping
a close watch.
905
00:44:22,454 --> 00:44:25,623
The lieutenant wants
to ask you some questions.
906
00:44:26,458 --> 00:44:29,085
Like where you've
been spending
your evenings lately,
907
00:44:29,127 --> 00:44:31,171
staying out till three
and four in the morning.
908
00:44:33,631 --> 00:44:35,133
Griffin:
There was this catchphrase
909
00:44:35,216 --> 00:44:36,843
about "Confidential"
magazine:
910
00:44:36,926 --> 00:44:40,722
"They trade in nymphos,
pinkos, winos and homos."
911
00:44:40,805 --> 00:44:42,599
And it's got
a subscription base
912
00:44:42,640 --> 00:44:44,351
of three million
at that point.
913
00:44:44,434 --> 00:44:46,227
It's got a huge readership.
914
00:44:46,311 --> 00:44:50,732
"Confidential" started
to move in on Rock Hudson
915
00:44:50,815 --> 00:44:53,818
and Henry Willson certainly
did not wanna lose
916
00:44:53,860 --> 00:44:55,111
this golden goose.
917
00:44:55,153 --> 00:44:57,238
They say that there
was this tradeoff
918
00:44:57,322 --> 00:44:59,032
where Tab Hunter,
who was indeed
919
00:44:59,115 --> 00:45:01,493
a Henry Willson client,
was offered up
920
00:45:01,534 --> 00:45:02,869
sacrificially
921
00:45:02,952 --> 00:45:04,829
to save Rock Hudson.
922
00:45:04,913 --> 00:45:07,123
"Confidential"
printed a story
923
00:45:07,165 --> 00:45:08,833
about Tab Hunter
being arrested
924
00:45:08,875 --> 00:45:12,128
at what was called
an "all-male pajama party."
925
00:45:12,170 --> 00:45:14,214
That kind of salacious exposé
926
00:45:14,297 --> 00:45:17,092
could wipe out
an entire career.
927
00:45:17,884 --> 00:45:19,678
We being followed?
928
00:45:19,719 --> 00:45:20,970
Probably not,
929
00:45:21,012 --> 00:45:23,348
but the general always
goes on that assumption.
930
00:45:24,057 --> 00:45:27,102
Griffin:
It really is a miracle
that Rock Hudson
931
00:45:27,185 --> 00:45:30,480
never got
caught by the tabloids.
932
00:45:33,566 --> 00:45:35,610
Well, you know,
I never met Rock.
933
00:45:35,694 --> 00:45:37,987
Uh, he died in October of '85,
934
00:45:38,029 --> 00:45:41,241
and I came into Lee's life
in May of '86.
935
00:45:41,324 --> 00:45:45,120
Lee Garlington:
Rock took that photo
in the early '70s.
936
00:45:45,203 --> 00:45:47,956
That's completely
in a different era.
937
00:45:48,039 --> 00:45:51,876
We enjoyed
traveling together.
938
00:45:51,918 --> 00:45:55,380
(Latin jazz music)
939
00:45:55,463 --> 00:45:59,426
He drove the management
at Universal crazy
940
00:45:59,509 --> 00:46:02,429
by taking off, he and I,
941
00:46:02,512 --> 00:46:05,557
without telling them
where he was going.
942
00:46:05,640 --> 00:46:08,184
And they really got upset,
943
00:46:08,226 --> 00:46:11,855
and he just said,
"Screw it, I'm gonna do
what I'm gonna do."
944
00:46:11,896 --> 00:46:15,400
(Latin jazz continues)
945
00:46:20,780 --> 00:46:24,075
We spent some time
in New Orleans
946
00:46:24,159 --> 00:46:27,037
and the Ford Motor Company
lent him
947
00:46:27,078 --> 00:46:29,956
a brand-new convertible.
948
00:46:30,040 --> 00:46:32,417
And we had a blast in that car.
949
00:46:32,500 --> 00:46:35,128
♪♪
950
00:46:37,630 --> 00:46:40,008
We were in Pat O'Brien's
951
00:46:40,091 --> 00:46:43,303
where they have a special
drink, the Hurricane,
952
00:46:43,386 --> 00:46:48,099
and somebody came by
and snapped a picture of us.
953
00:46:49,601 --> 00:46:52,771
Then they offered the picture
for sale, of course,
954
00:46:52,812 --> 00:46:59,819
and we got it because
this was the only picture
of both of us together.
955
00:46:59,903 --> 00:47:02,322
We were ordered
by Henry Willson,
956
00:47:02,405 --> 00:47:04,783
that evil agent of his,
957
00:47:04,824 --> 00:47:07,952
never to have our picture
taken together
958
00:47:08,036 --> 00:47:10,622
because somebody would see it
959
00:47:10,663 --> 00:47:14,334
and know that we were gay.
960
00:47:15,710 --> 00:47:18,046
(Kijak speaking)
961
00:47:24,135 --> 00:47:26,471
Yes, that was a lot
of sneaking around.
962
00:47:26,513 --> 00:47:28,306
We'd drive up to a motel.
963
00:47:28,348 --> 00:47:31,017
I would go in and ask
if there was any rooms.
964
00:47:31,101 --> 00:47:34,229
Paul Garlington:
Did you get, let's say,
two single beds
965
00:47:34,312 --> 00:47:37,649
or one... queen-size bed,
pardon the pun?
966
00:47:37,691 --> 00:47:39,234
Or...
967
00:47:39,317 --> 00:47:40,944
Don't remember.
968
00:47:40,985 --> 00:47:42,737
Uh, but, uh...
969
00:47:42,821 --> 00:47:46,074
it ended up
by being one bed.
970
00:47:47,534 --> 00:47:49,035
(Kijak speaking)
971
00:47:59,170 --> 00:48:03,216
There should have been,
but there wasn't.
972
00:48:03,299 --> 00:48:07,137
There was a part of him
that was very straitlaced
973
00:48:07,178 --> 00:48:11,182
and understanding
of the previous generation.
974
00:48:11,266 --> 00:48:13,852
He never mentioned,
"Gee, wouldn't it be nice
975
00:48:13,935 --> 00:48:16,980
if we could just
hold hands in public?"
976
00:48:17,022 --> 00:48:21,776
He was so inured of, uh...
977
00:48:21,860 --> 00:48:23,987
being closeted
978
00:48:24,029 --> 00:48:26,698
that he never mentioned it.
979
00:48:29,576 --> 00:48:31,870
Forget for a moment
that I'm your doctor
980
00:48:31,911 --> 00:48:34,789
and, uh, let me give you
some advice as a friend.
981
00:48:34,873 --> 00:48:36,666
Marry him.
982
00:48:37,208 --> 00:48:40,545
So, what good was
your noble sacrifice?
983
00:48:40,587 --> 00:48:43,381
If you'd loved him,
you'd have gone to him.
984
00:48:43,465 --> 00:48:46,676
Let's face it, you were
ready for a love affair,
985
00:48:46,718 --> 00:48:48,553
but not for love.
986
00:48:48,636 --> 00:48:50,597
(romantic piano music)
987
00:49:01,900 --> 00:49:04,861
Oh, my darling!
Oh, my darling.
988
00:49:04,903 --> 00:49:06,488
Are you having
another nightmare?
989
00:49:06,571 --> 00:49:07,822
Uh, no, I, I...
990
00:49:07,906 --> 00:49:09,449
Hudson:
I'm sort of, I don't know.
991
00:49:09,532 --> 00:49:12,243
We have to talk about
that thing called image, uh,
992
00:49:12,285 --> 00:49:14,204
whatever that is, uh...
993
00:49:14,245 --> 00:49:15,830
and I sort of represent
994
00:49:15,914 --> 00:49:17,499
a comedy image
995
00:49:17,582 --> 00:49:20,085
in dinner jacket or something,
you know?
996
00:49:20,126 --> 00:49:21,920
It might be a lot of fun
to do a horror story.
997
00:49:22,003 --> 00:49:23,505
I'd love to.
998
00:49:23,588 --> 00:49:25,048
(eerie organ music)
999
00:49:25,090 --> 00:49:27,133
Narrator:
Bold.
1000
00:49:27,759 --> 00:49:30,053
Bizarre.
1001
00:49:31,137 --> 00:49:33,473
Terrifying.
1002
00:49:35,308 --> 00:49:38,603
Rock Hudson, in
an astonishing change of pace,
1003
00:49:38,645 --> 00:49:41,564
stars in "Seconds."
1004
00:49:42,315 --> 00:49:46,277
Hudson: It's certainly, uh,
a different type of picture
1005
00:49:46,319 --> 00:49:49,656
and certainly
a different role for me.
1006
00:49:49,739 --> 00:49:52,033
It's almost a horror movie,
1007
00:49:52,117 --> 00:49:54,202
certainly a suspenseful movie,
1008
00:49:54,285 --> 00:49:56,579
and certainly very dramatic.
1009
00:49:56,621 --> 00:50:01,084
Narrator: Rock Hudson as
a man who buys for himself
a totally new life,
1010
00:50:01,126 --> 00:50:03,336
a chance to begin again.
1011
00:50:03,420 --> 00:50:07,090
Every man's dream
since time began.
1012
00:50:07,132 --> 00:50:09,467
Doctor:
Bandages are removed.
1013
00:50:09,509 --> 00:50:12,095
I think you'll be
more than pleased.
1014
00:50:12,137 --> 00:50:17,017
In fact,
I expect you to be prancing
around here like a stud bull.
1015
00:50:18,476 --> 00:50:19,894
Good work.
1016
00:50:19,978 --> 00:50:22,564
Griffin: Well, I tend to think
that Rock Hudson understood
1017
00:50:22,647 --> 00:50:27,152
that in some ways this film
was reflecting the whole
Hollywood star trip
1018
00:50:27,235 --> 00:50:29,320
and how he had been
completely transformed
1019
00:50:29,404 --> 00:50:31,489
and marketed for the public.
1020
00:50:31,573 --> 00:50:34,200
Uh, that couldn't
have been lost on him.
1021
00:50:34,284 --> 00:50:38,496
Anders: There's never a time
that I don't feel at home
1022
00:50:38,580 --> 00:50:43,668
in a performance by Rock Hudson
except "Seconds." (laughs)
1023
00:50:43,710 --> 00:50:45,337
Doctor:
All right, son.
1024
00:50:45,378 --> 00:50:47,505
Anders:
He's so uncomfortable.
1025
00:50:47,589 --> 00:50:52,344
There is a real shadow side
here that he's playing.
1026
00:50:52,969 --> 00:50:54,637
(inhales sharply)
1027
00:50:54,679 --> 00:50:56,681
The years I've spent
1028
00:50:56,765 --> 00:50:58,683
trying to get all the things
1029
00:50:58,725 --> 00:51:01,895
I was told were important,
1030
00:51:01,978 --> 00:51:05,940
that I was supposed to want...
1031
00:51:06,024 --> 00:51:09,027
and California was the same.
1032
00:51:09,110 --> 00:51:10,403
They...
1033
00:51:10,487 --> 00:51:12,697
made the same decisions for me
1034
00:51:12,781 --> 00:51:13,948
all over again.
1035
00:51:14,032 --> 00:51:16,826
And they were
the same things, really.
1036
00:51:18,161 --> 00:51:21,956
Hey, John, why are they
staring at me like that?
1037
00:51:22,040 --> 00:51:23,500
They know.
1038
00:51:23,541 --> 00:51:27,337
Hudson: (laughing, slurring)
They know what?
1039
00:51:27,379 --> 00:51:30,006
John:
They're like you.
1040
00:51:30,048 --> 00:51:32,717
(screaming) Oh, Nora!
1041
00:51:33,343 --> 00:51:35,804
Douglas: Hudson's performance
is astonishing.
1042
00:51:35,887 --> 00:51:40,016
Is Rock Hudson kind of
decoding himself on screen?
1043
00:51:40,058 --> 00:51:42,185
Yeah, it certainly
looks like it.
1044
00:51:42,227 --> 00:51:46,564
Anders:
It's a weird thing
to make your living
1045
00:51:46,648 --> 00:51:48,400
creating characters.
1046
00:51:48,441 --> 00:51:51,736
It's weird from my side
of the camera
1047
00:51:51,820 --> 00:51:54,823
and it must be even weirder
on the other side
1048
00:51:54,906 --> 00:51:57,909
because I think there is
always a sense of like,
1049
00:51:57,992 --> 00:51:59,911
"Who am I really?" You know?
1050
00:51:59,953 --> 00:52:01,621
(rain falling)
1051
00:52:01,705 --> 00:52:03,915
Somewhere in the man,
1052
00:52:03,957 --> 00:52:07,460
there is still a key
unturned.
1053
00:52:08,044 --> 00:52:10,630
Griffin:
In order to become Rock Hudson,
1054
00:52:10,714 --> 00:52:15,301
he really had to destroy
Roy Fitzgerald,
1055
00:52:15,385 --> 00:52:19,764
the gay boy with
an inferiority complex
from Winnetka.
1056
00:52:19,806 --> 00:52:23,768
But even if millions of fans
are believing the lie,
1057
00:52:23,852 --> 00:52:28,606
Roy Fitzgerald still knows
the truth about Rock Hudson.
1058
00:52:28,690 --> 00:52:32,610
Wait a minute,
what's happening?
1059
00:52:32,652 --> 00:52:36,448
Douglas:
When "Seconds" first
came out, it was trashed.
1060
00:52:36,531 --> 00:52:39,993
Nobody wanted to see
Rock Hudson depressed.
(laughs)
1061
00:52:40,076 --> 00:52:42,287
Griffin:
What's really sad to me
about Rock's career
1062
00:52:42,328 --> 00:52:43,580
is that the audiences
1063
00:52:43,621 --> 00:52:46,249
don't like it when
Rock Hudson steps out of,
1064
00:52:46,291 --> 00:52:48,918
kind of, the way
that they prefer to see him.
1065
00:52:48,960 --> 00:52:52,756
They don't want to see him do
anything radically different.
1066
00:52:52,797 --> 00:52:55,675
(Rock screaming)
1067
00:52:56,301 --> 00:52:58,970
(somber music)
1068
00:52:59,012 --> 00:53:00,638
Hudson:
Being an actor,
1069
00:53:00,680 --> 00:53:03,975
there are so many
disappointments
and frustrations,
1070
00:53:04,059 --> 00:53:06,895
and you think, "Hell,
what am I doing all this for?
1071
00:53:06,978 --> 00:53:09,314
I'm gonna hop the next freight
out of town," or whatever.
1072
00:53:09,356 --> 00:53:12,150
You get blue
and you get whatever.
1073
00:53:12,233 --> 00:53:14,194
And I think that
because of that,
1074
00:53:14,277 --> 00:53:17,447
I think "this too shall pass"
works for me.
1075
00:53:18,073 --> 00:53:21,618
Host:
"This too shall pass"
is a great consolation,
1076
00:53:21,659 --> 00:53:25,997
I mean, in terms of what,
crises or adverse reviews
or anything?
1077
00:53:26,081 --> 00:53:29,459
Yes, anything negative.
Any, you know...
1078
00:53:30,877 --> 00:53:33,088
(upbeat jazz music)
1079
00:53:33,171 --> 00:53:35,507
Joe Carberry:
I was born in Iowa,
1080
00:53:35,548 --> 00:53:38,677
and then I came to
Los Angeles and never left.
1081
00:53:38,718 --> 00:53:39,969
Why?
1082
00:53:40,011 --> 00:53:42,555
Well, I went
to my first gay bar.
1083
00:53:42,639 --> 00:53:46,393
It was in, uh,
Long Beach at a drag bar.
1084
00:53:46,476 --> 00:53:49,145
I didn't particularly like
the drag queens,
1085
00:53:49,187 --> 00:53:53,900
but I sure liked the fact
that there was somebody
in this world
1086
00:53:53,983 --> 00:53:55,360
that was gay besides me .
1087
00:53:55,402 --> 00:53:57,362
(jazz music continues)
1088
00:53:57,445 --> 00:54:00,198
Kijak:
How did you meet Rock Hudson?
1089
00:54:00,281 --> 00:54:01,908
Carberry:
I don't know
what year it was,
1090
00:54:01,991 --> 00:54:06,204
but one of my best friends
brought him over for dinner.
1091
00:54:06,246 --> 00:54:09,582
We played bridge
all the time.
1092
00:54:09,666 --> 00:54:12,711
We, uh, did a lot
of things together.
1093
00:54:12,794 --> 00:54:16,798
I took trips with him
and we went skiing.
1094
00:54:16,881 --> 00:54:21,219
I watched "Giant" more times
than I care to remember.
1095
00:54:21,261 --> 00:54:22,554
(Turner chuckles)
1096
00:54:22,637 --> 00:54:26,349
Those were good times
that can't be repeated.
1097
00:54:26,391 --> 00:54:29,561
I felt closer to him
than anybody else.
1098
00:54:29,644 --> 00:54:31,563
If you say,
"Who's your closest friend?"
1099
00:54:31,646 --> 00:54:34,941
I mean, his name
would come out first,
I think.
1100
00:54:35,567 --> 00:54:37,902
Tab Hunter was
a good friend of mine,
1101
00:54:37,944 --> 00:54:39,487
but he wasn't very social.
1102
00:54:39,571 --> 00:54:41,573
He didn't like a crowd,
1103
00:54:41,614 --> 00:54:43,908
but it didn't bother Rock.
1104
00:54:44,576 --> 00:54:47,287
At that time,
nobody lived openly.
1105
00:54:47,370 --> 00:54:49,205
He wanted to.
1106
00:54:49,247 --> 00:54:52,417
I ran a hospital laboratory,
you know.
1107
00:54:52,459 --> 00:54:55,545
I can walk into any place
and nobody knows who I am,
1108
00:54:55,587 --> 00:54:58,423
but he couldn't do
any of that.
1109
00:54:58,506 --> 00:55:00,800
Yeah.
That bothered him.
1110
00:55:00,884 --> 00:55:02,594
(Kijak speaking)
1111
00:55:04,929 --> 00:55:06,264
Well, he had boyfriends.
1112
00:55:06,348 --> 00:55:10,185
They were mostly young
and pretty,
1113
00:55:10,268 --> 00:55:13,938
and showed huge baskets.
1114
00:55:14,773 --> 00:55:18,401
I don't recall him
ever having a very
long relationship
1115
00:55:18,443 --> 00:55:20,779
with anybody,
1116
00:55:20,862 --> 00:55:22,989
other than friends.
1117
00:55:24,032 --> 00:55:25,617
(Kijak speaking)
1118
00:55:25,700 --> 00:55:28,119
-Yeah.
-Kijak: Oh, okay.
1119
00:55:28,203 --> 00:55:32,290
Rock had a sizable dick,
1120
00:55:32,374 --> 00:55:35,126
but he tried to put
that thing up my ass
1121
00:55:35,210 --> 00:55:37,212
and I couldn't do it.
(laughs)
1122
00:55:37,295 --> 00:55:40,674
(mellow jazz music)
1123
00:55:40,757 --> 00:55:42,842
For a while, you had
the whole field to yourself.
1124
00:55:42,926 --> 00:55:44,886
-For a while you were the...
-I did?
1125
00:55:44,969 --> 00:55:46,137
-Oh, yes.
-Did I?
1126
00:55:46,221 --> 00:55:48,014
Oh, yes, yes.
Am I right?
1127
00:55:48,098 --> 00:55:50,642
There was only, you know,
Rock Hudson, pant-pant...
1128
00:55:50,725 --> 00:55:52,811
-(audience applauding)
-And a lot of "ugs."
1129
00:55:52,894 --> 00:55:55,689
You know, the Pacinos
and the strangies were
coming up, and then...
1130
00:55:55,772 --> 00:55:58,108
-(laughter)
-Well, you know
what I'm saying.
1131
00:55:58,149 --> 00:56:01,569
You don't say my, you know,
"I wanna be on a desert
island with Al Pacino,"
1132
00:56:01,653 --> 00:56:03,822
you know, we'll talk,
but, um...
1133
00:56:03,863 --> 00:56:06,991
Does it ever upset you
when you're in something
like the "Enquirer"?
1134
00:56:07,075 --> 00:56:08,493
Uh, no.
I don't read it, so...
1135
00:56:08,535 --> 00:56:10,328
I read it all the time.
You're always in it.
1136
00:56:10,412 --> 00:56:12,247
-Am I?
-Yeah.
1137
00:56:12,330 --> 00:56:13,998
First, I had asked him
whether the press
1138
00:56:14,040 --> 00:56:17,085
had ever really hurt him,
and it was interesting.
1139
00:56:17,168 --> 00:56:19,796
He said, "Yes, it was a terrible
review I received in London."
1140
00:56:19,838 --> 00:56:22,257
I said, "You mean
that was the worst thing
1141
00:56:22,340 --> 00:56:24,843
that the press has
ever done to you, Rock?"
1142
00:56:24,926 --> 00:56:26,845
And he said, "Yes,"
and I remember
1143
00:56:26,928 --> 00:56:30,473
it was very difficult for me
to face, look into his eyes.
1144
00:56:30,515 --> 00:56:34,602
And I said,
"Could you explain to us
1145
00:56:34,686 --> 00:56:38,690
what happened between you
and Mr. Jim Nabors?"
1146
00:56:39,524 --> 00:56:42,235
Griffin:
In 1971,
1147
00:56:42,318 --> 00:56:43,820
a couple of gay guys said,
1148
00:56:43,862 --> 00:56:48,366
"Wouldn't it be fun if
we sent out these invitations
1149
00:56:48,450 --> 00:56:50,535
"to a fabricated wedding
1150
00:56:50,577 --> 00:56:54,789
between Rock
and 'Gomer Pyle'
star Jim Nabors?"
1151
00:56:54,873 --> 00:56:59,002
And the tipoff that this
is like an over-the-top
gay Fantasia
1152
00:56:59,044 --> 00:57:02,547
is that Truman Capote
would be officiating
1153
00:57:02,630 --> 00:57:04,674
and Liberace
would be providing
1154
00:57:04,716 --> 00:57:06,760
the musical accompaniment.
1155
00:57:06,843 --> 00:57:09,929
And the story starts
to spread like wildfire.
1156
00:57:10,013 --> 00:57:12,807
The story
lands on the front page
1157
00:57:12,891 --> 00:57:14,893
of the "National Examiner."
1158
00:57:14,976 --> 00:57:16,561
Now I've read some pretty
weird things about you
1159
00:57:16,644 --> 00:57:18,563
in the fan magazines.
1160
00:57:18,646 --> 00:57:21,441
Uh, have you ever filed
a libel suit for anything
1161
00:57:21,524 --> 00:57:24,861
that's ever been written
or said about you?
Have you wanted to?
1162
00:57:25,945 --> 00:57:28,073
And why didn't you?
I've always wondered.
1163
00:57:28,114 --> 00:57:30,825
Because it calls
attention to it
and only makes it worse.
1164
00:57:30,909 --> 00:57:34,496
Aside from the McCarthy era
nonsense that went on
in the '50s,
1165
00:57:34,579 --> 00:57:37,457
I think that this was
one of the worst stories
1166
00:57:37,540 --> 00:57:39,793
that ever emanated
from a community.
1167
00:57:39,876 --> 00:57:42,921
He has never done
a bad thing to anyone.
1168
00:57:42,962 --> 00:57:45,590
It would be terrific
to say the guy is
1169
00:57:45,674 --> 00:57:47,926
"you know what,"
but he is not.
1170
00:57:48,760 --> 00:57:51,846
Griffin:
What's funny is tabloids
aren't leaking a story
1171
00:57:51,930 --> 00:57:55,100
about one of Rock's
real gay relationships.
1172
00:57:55,141 --> 00:57:58,561
They're leaking it
about a completely fabricated
1173
00:57:58,603 --> 00:58:01,398
and fantasized one.
1174
00:58:01,439 --> 00:58:04,526
-(line ringing)
-Friend: March 1st, 1974.
1175
00:58:04,609 --> 00:58:06,945
-Rock, how are you?
-Hudson: I'm fine.
1176
00:58:06,986 --> 00:58:08,863
Friend: Haven't talked to you
in a very long time.
1177
00:58:08,947 --> 00:58:10,615
Hudson:
I know it. I know it.
1178
00:58:10,657 --> 00:58:12,659
-Friend: And you've been busy.
-Hudson: Yeah.
1179
00:58:12,742 --> 00:58:16,329
Friend: My friend would like
very much to meet you
one of these days
1180
00:58:16,413 --> 00:58:17,664
if you have some free time.
1181
00:58:17,747 --> 00:58:19,207
Hudson:
Tell me about him.
1182
00:58:19,290 --> 00:58:21,876
Friend :
He works at Paramount
and he's, uh...
1183
00:58:21,960 --> 00:58:25,088
-oh, 6'2", I guess,
something like that.
-Hudson: Yeah.
1184
00:58:25,171 --> 00:58:28,258
Friend : And he works out,
just an all-round good boy,
you know?
1185
00:58:28,299 --> 00:58:31,928
-Hudson: Uh-huh.
-Friend: So I just thought
I'd drop you the note
1186
00:58:31,970 --> 00:58:34,973
and see if you
did want to say hello
to him, because, uh...
1187
00:58:35,056 --> 00:58:39,144
-Hudson: Yeah. Well...
-Friend: He's just a damn
fun boy, you know?
1188
00:58:39,185 --> 00:58:40,520
Hudson:
Mm-hmm.
1189
00:58:40,603 --> 00:58:42,605
Uh-huh.
1190
00:58:42,647 --> 00:58:44,983
How's the equipment?
(chuckles)
1191
00:58:45,025 --> 00:58:47,485
Friend:
Well, the equipment
is about, oh,
1192
00:58:47,527 --> 00:58:49,195
about nine inches, I guess.
1193
00:58:49,279 --> 00:58:52,365
And he's, he's, uh, very good
1194
00:58:52,449 --> 00:58:55,493
-in that department too.
-Hudson: Yeah.
1195
00:58:55,577 --> 00:58:58,663
-Friend: When's coming
some free time for you?
-Hudson: Well, most any day.
1196
00:58:58,747 --> 00:59:01,875
Friend: Well, my friend,
I'll get on the horn
and give him your number.
1197
00:59:01,958 --> 00:59:03,960
-Hudson: Okey-doke.
-Friend:
And nice talking to you.
1198
00:59:04,002 --> 00:59:05,628
-Hudson: All right, thank you.
-Friend: Bye-Bye.
1199
00:59:05,670 --> 00:59:07,339
(phones click)
1200
00:59:07,380 --> 00:59:09,924
Interviewer:
Mr. Maupin, you are, um,
1201
00:59:10,008 --> 00:59:13,053
a well-known writer here
in this, uh, Bay Area.
1202
00:59:13,136 --> 00:59:16,681
You have written, um, regular
columns for the newspapers.
1203
00:59:16,765 --> 00:59:18,516
Your books
have been published.
1204
00:59:18,600 --> 00:59:20,727
I guess you'd call yourself
a gay writer.
1205
00:59:20,810 --> 00:59:22,771
Maupin:
I'm a writer who is gay.
1206
00:59:22,854 --> 00:59:25,190
My ability to write,
for instance,
1207
00:59:25,231 --> 00:59:26,441
about a heterosexual romance
1208
00:59:26,524 --> 00:59:29,986
increased considerably after
I was willing to acknowledge
1209
00:59:30,028 --> 00:59:32,947
the nature
of my romantic involvements.
1210
00:59:33,031 --> 00:59:35,367
I met Rock when he came
to San Francisco.
1211
00:59:35,408 --> 00:59:37,035
(funky music)
1212
00:59:37,077 --> 00:59:39,204
He was up doing something
with "McMillan & Wife:...
1213
00:59:39,245 --> 00:59:41,122
(gun firing)
1214
00:59:44,834 --> 00:59:46,753
...and he invited
a bunch of us
1215
00:59:46,836 --> 00:59:48,922
to come up
to his suite at the hotel.
1216
00:59:49,005 --> 00:59:52,509
And at a certain point,
he rose and said,
1217
00:59:52,550 --> 00:59:54,135
"I have a little reading
I want to do."
1218
00:59:54,219 --> 00:59:58,139
And he read the first chapter
of "Tales of the City"
1219
00:59:58,223 --> 01:00:00,725
to the assembled crowd.
1220
01:00:00,767 --> 01:00:03,978
It was Mary Ann,
the newcomer in town,
1221
01:00:04,062 --> 01:00:06,856
telling her mother
that she was gonna
live in San Francisco.
1222
01:00:06,898 --> 01:00:09,150
And her mother freaks out
and says,
1223
01:00:09,234 --> 01:00:10,902
"Well, you can't,
but I was just watching
1224
01:00:10,944 --> 01:00:12,404
"'McMillan & Wife'
last night,
1225
01:00:12,445 --> 01:00:15,407
and the place is running over
with serial killers."
1226
01:00:16,241 --> 01:00:18,827
-You all right, Commissioner?
-Yeah, I'm fine.
1227
01:00:20,286 --> 01:00:21,413
Is this the gun he used?
1228
01:00:21,454 --> 01:00:23,039
Maupin:
That was so bizarre.
1229
01:00:23,081 --> 01:00:27,002
You can imagine,
McMillan himself
was reading this to me.
1230
01:00:27,085 --> 01:00:29,379
You know, he could have been
a little less drunk
1231
01:00:29,421 --> 01:00:30,588
when he read the thing,
1232
01:00:30,672 --> 01:00:33,174
but, uh, he was
somewhat slurred,
1233
01:00:33,258 --> 01:00:37,846
but it was
Rock Hudson reading my work.
1234
01:00:37,929 --> 01:00:40,807
I think he sort of expected it
to charm the pants off of me.
1235
01:00:40,890 --> 01:00:43,685
And, uh, it more or less did.
1236
01:00:43,768 --> 01:00:45,395
(cool jazz music)
1237
01:00:45,437 --> 01:00:48,940
We got up
to the Fairmont Hotel,
the Diplomat Suite,
1238
01:00:49,024 --> 01:00:52,777
and Rock led me
into the living room
1239
01:00:52,861 --> 01:00:55,196
and we're sort of
at each other right away.
1240
01:00:55,280 --> 01:01:00,076
And, uh, every movie
I'd ever seen him in was
playing before my eyes.
1241
01:01:00,118 --> 01:01:04,748
You know, I really
was not up to the task.
1242
01:01:04,789 --> 01:01:06,750
I think that's
the best way to put it.
1243
01:01:06,791 --> 01:01:09,627
In an effort to console me,
he said,
1244
01:01:09,711 --> 01:01:12,380
"You know, I'm just
a normal guy like you."
1245
01:01:12,422 --> 01:01:14,966
And I said,
"And I'm Doris Day."
1246
01:01:15,050 --> 01:01:17,927
(laughs) I saw him
off and on after that
1247
01:01:17,969 --> 01:01:21,139
from times he would come
and visit in San Francisco,
1248
01:01:21,222 --> 01:01:23,975
or he'd invite me down
to "The Castle,"
as they called it.
1249
01:01:24,059 --> 01:01:26,353
And, uh,
the friendship kind of grew
1250
01:01:26,436 --> 01:01:28,855
over that period of time.
1251
01:01:28,938 --> 01:01:31,816
But I never considered him
boyfriend material
1252
01:01:31,858 --> 01:01:33,693
or he me, for that matter.
1253
01:01:33,777 --> 01:01:35,445
We were playmates.
1254
01:01:35,487 --> 01:01:38,448
And that was fine with me,
just the way that worked.
1255
01:01:40,658 --> 01:01:42,369
I had a bee in my bonnet
at the time.
1256
01:01:42,452 --> 01:01:44,829
I said, "You need
to come out of the closet,
1257
01:01:44,871 --> 01:01:46,539
and I'm the guy that can help
you with that.
1258
01:01:46,623 --> 01:01:50,752
I'll know how to do that,
not in a sensationalist way."
1259
01:01:50,835 --> 01:01:54,673
And Rock listened.
He was really listening to me.
1260
01:01:54,714 --> 01:01:57,842
Um, but... (chuckles)
1261
01:01:57,926 --> 01:02:00,470
Tom, his partner at the time,
1262
01:02:00,512 --> 01:02:03,431
said,
"Not until my mother dies."
1263
01:02:04,099 --> 01:02:07,560
Um... and I thought,
"What an odd thing to say."
1264
01:02:07,644 --> 01:02:09,354
If I was fucking Rock Hudson,
1265
01:02:09,437 --> 01:02:12,691
I would want my mother
to know immediately. (chuckles)
1266
01:02:12,732 --> 01:02:16,611
Oh, it's you!
I, I wasn't sure.
1267
01:02:16,695 --> 01:02:20,073
Hiding in closets
isn't going to cure you.
1268
01:02:20,699 --> 01:02:22,200
(serene music)
1269
01:02:22,283 --> 01:02:24,202
Maupin:
Mark and George and Rock,
1270
01:02:24,244 --> 01:02:27,664
and Tom I guess, they were
slightly ridiculous to me.
1271
01:02:27,706 --> 01:02:30,834
The pride
they took in hiding.
1272
01:02:30,875 --> 01:02:35,088
I felt like I was a member
of a new generation
that wanted to show them,
1273
01:02:35,171 --> 01:02:37,716
it doesn't have
to be that way.
1274
01:02:37,757 --> 01:02:39,384
(contemplative music)
1275
01:02:39,426 --> 01:02:42,762
In the book, I depicted a guy
that was kind of fascinated
1276
01:02:42,846 --> 01:02:44,431
by the idea of gay liberation,
1277
01:02:44,514 --> 01:02:46,016
but couldn't quite do it
himself.
1278
01:02:46,057 --> 01:02:48,727
I tried to capture his
humanity,
1279
01:02:48,810 --> 01:02:51,521
his big, sweet, loving heart.
1280
01:02:51,563 --> 01:02:53,106
And I think I did.
1281
01:02:53,189 --> 01:02:55,233
I often did that, uh,
with "Tales of the City."
1282
01:02:55,316 --> 01:02:59,029
I sometimes put
real people into it
with their permission.
1283
01:02:59,070 --> 01:03:01,656
I knew he wasn't
gonna give me my permission,
1284
01:03:01,740 --> 01:03:04,367
so I just did it
and blanked out the name
1285
01:03:04,451 --> 01:03:06,244
in the Victorian tradition.
1286
01:03:06,578 --> 01:03:08,788
I'm so glad I did, actually,
1287
01:03:08,872 --> 01:03:12,292
because I established
that character in the books
1288
01:03:12,375 --> 01:03:17,088
before Rock died,
saying, this person exists,
1289
01:03:17,130 --> 01:03:19,257
but he can't show you
who he is
1290
01:03:19,299 --> 01:03:22,093
because his life
is shut off in this way.
1291
01:03:22,177 --> 01:03:26,264
Hudson:
Hey, Freddy, you're really
gonna love San Francisco.
1292
01:03:26,306 --> 01:03:27,557
Yeah?
1293
01:03:27,599 --> 01:03:30,518
I want you to know you can
change your mind at any time.
1294
01:03:30,602 --> 01:03:32,354
Ah, don't worry
about me, baby.
1295
01:03:32,437 --> 01:03:35,190
I've been missing the ring.
I'm ready for a little action.
1296
01:03:35,273 --> 01:03:37,233
Masseur:
That about does it,
Commissioner.
1297
01:03:37,275 --> 01:03:39,944
Yeah, sure does.
1298
01:03:39,986 --> 01:03:42,447
-Thanks.
-You're welcome, sir.
1299
01:03:42,489 --> 01:03:45,450
-See you in the shower.
-Freddy: Okay, baby.
1300
01:03:50,914 --> 01:03:54,376
(Kijak speaking)
1301
01:03:55,210 --> 01:03:57,754
Maley: I probably wasn't
wearing a bathing suit.
1302
01:03:57,796 --> 01:03:59,172
(Kijak and Maley laughing)
1303
01:03:59,255 --> 01:04:02,550
Maley:
I was working a lot
all through the '70s
1304
01:04:02,634 --> 01:04:04,719
in various gay rights issues.
1305
01:04:04,803 --> 01:04:06,846
And I was the point person
1306
01:04:06,930 --> 01:04:08,598
for international
and national media
1307
01:04:08,640 --> 01:04:14,104
who came to San Francisco
to do stories
about gay rights.
1308
01:04:15,146 --> 01:04:19,192
Fairly early on in having
met Rock, I suggested that,
1309
01:04:19,275 --> 01:04:23,988
"Maybe you'd like to go out
and to a sex club."
1310
01:04:24,030 --> 01:04:25,949
"Oh, well, of course."
(laughs)
1311
01:04:25,990 --> 01:04:27,325
There was no hesitation.
1312
01:04:27,367 --> 01:04:30,495
Like, "Are you sure?
No, I shouldn't--" No.
1313
01:04:30,537 --> 01:04:33,498
So there was this place
down on Sixth Street
1314
01:04:33,581 --> 01:04:34,916
called The Glory Holes.
1315
01:04:35,000 --> 01:04:37,752
And so we go in
and we walk around
1316
01:04:37,794 --> 01:04:40,672
and sort of explain
how it all works.
1317
01:04:40,714 --> 01:04:43,174
And there was a balcony
1318
01:04:43,258 --> 01:04:45,760
that you could go up above
1319
01:04:45,844 --> 01:04:49,014
and look out over
the whole enterprise.
1320
01:04:49,097 --> 01:04:52,517
You can see all the traffic
around the aisleways.
1321
01:04:52,559 --> 01:04:57,689
And so we watched Rock
walk around and go in a booth
1322
01:04:57,772 --> 01:04:59,858
and you could hear
this scream,
1323
01:04:59,941 --> 01:05:02,360
"Oh, my God,
it's Rock Hudson!"
(laughs)
1324
01:05:02,444 --> 01:05:04,946
And it went
all throughout the place.
1325
01:05:04,988 --> 01:05:07,449
It obviously didn't bother him
because we didn't leave,
1326
01:05:07,532 --> 01:05:10,577
and we stayed,
stayed quite a while.
1327
01:05:11,578 --> 01:05:16,958
I think he became so
comfortable
with the dual life,
1328
01:05:17,042 --> 01:05:20,712
but I think
that he found a way to be
comfortable with both lives.
1329
01:05:20,754 --> 01:05:23,882
-You've gotta
tell them the truth.
-Do you know what'll happen?
1330
01:05:23,923 --> 01:05:25,842
I know it'll mean
you'll lose your job
1331
01:05:25,884 --> 01:05:27,552
and your customers
and everything, but...
1332
01:05:27,594 --> 01:05:28,970
you've got to do that.
1333
01:05:29,054 --> 01:05:30,847
Once you start fooling people,
you have to go on
1334
01:05:30,889 --> 01:05:33,266
and keep on fooling them
and, and...
1335
01:05:33,350 --> 01:05:37,562
you're too nice a guy
to, to, to be a phony
1336
01:05:37,604 --> 01:05:39,898
and keep on being a phony.
1337
01:05:39,939 --> 01:05:41,691
(sighs)
1338
01:05:42,650 --> 01:05:45,236
You know, Hollywood at night
can be a fascinating place,
1339
01:05:45,278 --> 01:05:48,448
but Hollywood in the daytime
can be a lot of fun too.
1340
01:05:48,531 --> 01:05:51,368
Come on, follow me
and I'll show you what I mean.
1341
01:05:51,409 --> 01:05:52,243
(cool jazz music)
1342
01:05:52,327 --> 01:05:54,537
Maupin:
Rock had a contact.
1343
01:05:54,579 --> 01:05:56,790
Somebody in West Hollywood
that could round up
1344
01:05:56,873 --> 01:05:59,751
gorgeous men
at a moment's notice.
1345
01:05:59,834 --> 01:06:02,837
Wes Wheadon:
I knew a lot of folks
in the community.
1346
01:06:02,921 --> 01:06:04,130
I had a lot of friends.
1347
01:06:04,214 --> 01:06:05,715
And so I would
just call up, you know,
1348
01:06:05,757 --> 01:06:08,343
whoever I'd get my hands on
that was available
1349
01:06:08,426 --> 01:06:10,261
and say, "Here's the deal,
here's the address,
1350
01:06:10,345 --> 01:06:12,013
"show up,
it'll be a lovely time,
1351
01:06:12,097 --> 01:06:14,933
"and you can have a nice day
swimming and carrying on
with drinks,
1352
01:06:14,974 --> 01:06:16,935
and you'd get to meet Rock."
1353
01:06:17,018 --> 01:06:20,563
Maley: Then it would just be
chaise lounges
1354
01:06:20,605 --> 01:06:23,149
and boys in the pool.
1355
01:06:23,233 --> 01:06:25,443
It was clothing optional.
1356
01:06:25,485 --> 01:06:28,947
And a lot of 'em, fortunately,
did take the option.
1357
01:06:28,988 --> 01:06:30,448
(chuckles)
1358
01:06:30,490 --> 01:06:34,285
Maupin: You know, even for
an ordinary gay man like me,
1359
01:06:34,327 --> 01:06:36,204
that was an amazing thing
to see
1360
01:06:36,287 --> 01:06:37,872
all these beauties
gathered around the pool.
1361
01:06:37,956 --> 01:06:40,333
Wheadon:
If you're gonna have a party
with a bunch of young men,
1362
01:06:40,417 --> 01:06:42,419
you want to bring up
the eye candy, if you will.
1363
01:06:42,460 --> 01:06:45,547
Maley:
It was a lot of beefcake,
1364
01:06:45,630 --> 01:06:48,550
and it would last
all afternoon.
1365
01:06:48,633 --> 01:06:51,177
Endless, you know,
food and drink,
1366
01:06:51,261 --> 01:06:55,098
and Rock sort
of just strolling through.
1367
01:06:55,140 --> 01:06:56,224
It was theater.
1368
01:06:56,307 --> 01:07:01,146
(upbeat jazz music)
1369
01:07:01,187 --> 01:07:02,731
(sign creaking)
1370
01:07:02,814 --> 01:07:06,109
(peaceful music)
1371
01:07:06,151 --> 01:07:10,864
Kevoian:
In 1976, I was cast in a play
called "John Brown's Body."
1372
01:07:10,947 --> 01:07:14,784
It starred Rock Hudson,
Claire Trevor,
and Leif Erickson.
1373
01:07:14,826 --> 01:07:20,665
It was a really beautiful mix
of music and dance and vocal.
1374
01:07:20,707 --> 01:07:24,544
So that's, you know, that's
how I came to meet Rock Hudson.
1375
01:07:24,627 --> 01:07:28,465
Hudson:
Armies of shadows
and the shadow-sound.
1376
01:07:28,506 --> 01:07:32,177
Male Chorus:
♪ Captain Ball
was a Yankee slaver ♪
1377
01:07:32,260 --> 01:07:33,553
♪ Blow, blow... ♪
1378
01:07:33,636 --> 01:07:38,183
He really showed
a lot of people something new,
1379
01:07:38,224 --> 01:07:42,020
and it felt good to him
as a performer on stage.
1380
01:07:42,103 --> 01:07:44,981
He was really happy.
1381
01:07:45,023 --> 01:07:48,318
It was supposed to be
a fabulous big tour,
1382
01:07:48,360 --> 01:07:52,197
and we had
a lot of cities set,
1383
01:07:52,280 --> 01:07:57,744
but, um, some people started
to cancel the production.
1384
01:07:57,827 --> 01:08:01,414
I think the people that
wanted to see Rock Hudson
1385
01:08:01,498 --> 01:08:04,751
wanted to see "McMillan"
or "Pillow Talk,"
1386
01:08:04,834 --> 01:08:08,713
and the people that wanted
to see "John Brown's Body,"
1387
01:08:08,755 --> 01:08:12,801
because it was so lyrical
in its speech,
1388
01:08:12,884 --> 01:08:15,220
wanted Laurence Olivier.
1389
01:08:15,261 --> 01:08:16,720
(mellow jazz music)
1390
01:08:16,763 --> 01:08:20,392
We remained friends
for several years afterwards.
1391
01:08:20,433 --> 01:08:22,560
He helped me start
a television career
1392
01:08:22,644 --> 01:08:27,357
on the last season
of "McMillan" in 1976
1393
01:08:27,399 --> 01:08:30,026
and changed
the trajectory of my life.
1394
01:08:30,068 --> 01:08:32,112
Man (on radio):
You got Big Smokey there?
1395
01:08:32,194 --> 01:08:34,072
Uh, here beside me.
1396
01:08:34,154 --> 01:08:35,740
"Big Smokey"?
1397
01:08:35,823 --> 01:08:37,742
That's you, sir.
It's CB talk.
1398
01:08:37,826 --> 01:08:41,287
Kevoian:
And he didn't cast me
from a casting couch.
1399
01:08:41,371 --> 01:08:43,915
There was only one time
that he ever,
1400
01:08:43,997 --> 01:08:47,585
um, asked me to possibly
be intimate.
1401
01:08:47,627 --> 01:08:52,006
And I, I chose,
um, the different path.
1402
01:08:52,090 --> 01:08:53,966
(chuckles)
1403
01:08:54,050 --> 01:08:57,429
I was 23 and a lot cuter.
1404
01:08:58,971 --> 01:09:01,265
He was fun
and then he was elegant,
1405
01:09:01,349 --> 01:09:07,063
and, you know, I only saw him
pee in the bushes once.
1406
01:09:07,104 --> 01:09:09,441
(chuckling)
1407
01:09:11,151 --> 01:09:14,738
Hey! What's going on here?
1408
01:09:14,779 --> 01:09:16,531
(wolf whistle)
1409
01:09:16,613 --> 01:09:18,116
Observe.
1410
01:09:18,198 --> 01:09:20,743
Hmmph!
1411
01:09:20,785 --> 01:09:22,578
(lyrical music)
1412
01:09:22,620 --> 01:09:26,875
McGillin:
I was one of the members
of the last dying gasp
1413
01:09:26,957 --> 01:09:28,335
of the studio system,
1414
01:09:28,417 --> 01:09:30,377
which was Universal Studios.
1415
01:09:30,462 --> 01:09:33,548
I'll never forget this great
head of the talent department.
1416
01:09:33,631 --> 01:09:37,301
She's on the phone, "Darling,
are you sitting down?"
1417
01:09:37,385 --> 01:09:39,679
And I said,
"Yes, I'm sitting down."
1418
01:09:39,763 --> 01:09:44,309
She says, "Rock Hudson,
you're going to be
playing his son."
1419
01:09:44,350 --> 01:09:47,604
(upbeat theme playing)
1420
01:09:47,645 --> 01:09:50,774
It was a 10-hour
epic mini-series
1421
01:09:50,814 --> 01:09:53,484
that they were doing
tons of at that time.
1422
01:09:53,568 --> 01:09:57,197
And Rock plays a designer
of automobiles in Detroit.
1423
01:09:57,280 --> 01:09:59,616
Dad, I'm telling you,
I can handle this by myself.
1424
01:09:59,657 --> 01:10:01,076
I know you can.
1425
01:10:01,159 --> 01:10:02,494
I'm proud that
you want to.
1426
01:10:02,535 --> 01:10:04,746
McGillin: Even though
you knew the rumors,
1427
01:10:04,829 --> 01:10:08,541
you still couldn't
erase the false narrative
1428
01:10:08,625 --> 01:10:10,460
of that straight leading man.
1429
01:10:10,502 --> 01:10:13,421
That was the message
that was given to all of us
1430
01:10:13,505 --> 01:10:15,048
growing up in that time,
1431
01:10:15,131 --> 01:10:19,302
young men,
and certainly young men
who aspired to be actors.
1432
01:10:19,344 --> 01:10:21,346
For gay men like me,
1433
01:10:21,429 --> 01:10:25,350
there was absolutely
zero permission to be gay.
1434
01:10:25,392 --> 01:10:27,936
It was just not going
to be allowed.
1435
01:10:28,019 --> 01:10:30,480
So I carried that with me.
1436
01:10:32,399 --> 01:10:35,777
Well, the time has come.
You've seen the map.
1437
01:10:35,860 --> 01:10:38,363
Reagan is our
projected winner.
1438
01:10:38,405 --> 01:10:41,074
A sports announcer,
a film actor,
1439
01:10:41,157 --> 01:10:42,575
a governor of California.
1440
01:10:42,659 --> 01:10:45,328
We have projected
Ronald Reagan the winner.
1441
01:10:45,370 --> 01:10:47,831
Did you ever think
a few years ago
1442
01:10:47,872 --> 01:10:50,500
that Ronald Reagan,
fellow actor,
would be president?
1443
01:10:50,542 --> 01:10:52,544
I mean, is that,
an actor being president?
1444
01:10:52,585 --> 01:10:54,671
-No, I, I didn't.
-Pretty amazing, huh?
1445
01:10:54,713 --> 01:10:56,798
Yeah, it's terrific,
as a matter of fact.
1446
01:10:56,881 --> 01:10:58,758
Lee Garlington:
Well, Rock was a Republican.
1447
01:10:58,842 --> 01:11:00,802
I can't believe it,
but he was.
1448
01:11:00,885 --> 01:11:03,722
Yeah, but that was a different
generation Republican.
1449
01:11:03,763 --> 01:11:05,223
Yes.
1450
01:11:05,306 --> 01:11:08,601
Uh, he was a Republican
primarily because
1451
01:11:08,685 --> 01:11:11,062
he was friends
with Nancy Reagan.
1452
01:11:11,146 --> 01:11:12,939
Apparently pretty
close friends.
1453
01:11:13,023 --> 01:11:17,777
But she couldn't get Reagan
to say anything about AIDS
1454
01:11:17,861 --> 01:11:22,782
until finally
at one point he gave in.
1455
01:11:22,866 --> 01:11:24,743
But that was after...
1456
01:11:24,826 --> 01:11:28,204
-That was after he died,
I think, right?
-After he died.
1457
01:11:28,246 --> 01:11:29,664
The Centers
for Disease Control
1458
01:11:29,748 --> 01:11:32,125
reports that six gay men
in Los Angeles
1459
01:11:32,208 --> 01:11:35,086
have fallen ill from a strange
and mysterious pneumonia.
1460
01:11:35,128 --> 01:11:39,174
Scientists at the National
Centers for Disease Control
in Atlanta today
1461
01:11:39,257 --> 01:11:40,884
released the results
of a study,
1462
01:11:40,925 --> 01:11:44,763
which shows that the lifestyle
of some male homosexuals
1463
01:11:44,804 --> 01:11:47,807
has triggered an epidemic
of a rare form of cancer.
1464
01:11:47,891 --> 01:11:49,642
Reporter:
Researchers are now studying
1465
01:11:49,726 --> 01:11:51,394
blood and other
samples from the victims,
1466
01:11:51,436 --> 01:11:53,396
trying to learn
what is causing the disease.
1467
01:11:53,438 --> 01:11:55,774
So far,
they have had no luck.
1468
01:11:55,815 --> 01:11:58,485
Rock, can you believe
the things that are
happening today?
1469
01:11:58,568 --> 01:12:00,653
(chuckles) Oh, it's
pretty crazy, all right.
1470
01:12:00,737 --> 01:12:03,865
I mean, the way everyone
dresses, the lifestyles,
1471
01:12:03,948 --> 01:12:05,200
the, the new morality.
1472
01:12:05,283 --> 01:12:07,577
Yeah. Maybe we're
getting old.
1473
01:12:07,619 --> 01:12:10,288
Look, Rock, if you
can't say anything
constructive...
1474
01:12:10,372 --> 01:12:12,665
-(audience laughs)
-Okay...
1475
01:12:12,749 --> 01:12:13,541
I'm getting old.
1476
01:12:13,625 --> 01:12:14,959
That's constructive.
1477
01:12:15,043 --> 01:12:16,294
(laughter)
1478
01:12:16,920 --> 01:12:20,715
Griffin:
When you consider Rock Hudson's
lifestyle choices:
1479
01:12:20,799 --> 01:12:23,968
overwork, stress,
chain smoking,
1480
01:12:24,052 --> 01:12:25,428
the alcohol intake...
1481
01:12:25,470 --> 01:12:27,430
-You wanna smoke
a cigarette?
-Yes.
1482
01:12:27,472 --> 01:12:29,099
Why do you wanna
smoke a cigarette?
1483
01:12:29,140 --> 01:12:31,559
It's not good for you,
but you can smoke
a cigarette.
1484
01:12:31,643 --> 01:12:32,811
-You want a lecture?
-Yeah.
1485
01:12:32,894 --> 01:12:35,271
-Okay. You got it.
-I'm thinking of quitting.
1486
01:12:35,313 --> 01:12:36,981
-And then you'll do it?
-I have to quit.
1487
01:12:37,065 --> 01:12:41,027
Griffin: All of that results
in quintuple bypass surgery
1488
01:12:41,111 --> 01:12:42,821
in 1981.
1489
01:12:42,862 --> 01:12:45,115
I don't know if I could ask
everybody to let us see
your scar.
1490
01:12:45,156 --> 01:12:47,867
-But I don't think that's
the right thing to do.
-(laughing)
1491
01:12:47,951 --> 01:12:50,495
You're looking really terrific.
When are you going back
to work?
1492
01:12:50,537 --> 01:12:52,330
I think around mid-January.
1493
01:12:52,831 --> 01:12:55,041
Dr. Michael Gottlieb:
By 1982,
1494
01:12:55,125 --> 01:12:56,626
we saw how devastating
1495
01:12:56,668 --> 01:12:58,837
AIDS could be for a person,
1496
01:12:58,920 --> 01:13:00,130
how people developed
1497
01:13:00,171 --> 01:13:03,049
one infection after another
1498
01:13:03,133 --> 01:13:05,260
and kind of just
wasted away,
1499
01:13:05,343 --> 01:13:06,761
in front of us.
1500
01:13:06,845 --> 01:13:08,555
And it was very frightening.
1501
01:13:08,638 --> 01:13:10,265
There was little happening
1502
01:13:10,348 --> 01:13:12,434
in the way of
a public response.
1503
01:13:12,517 --> 01:13:15,812
There was no money available
to do research.
1504
01:13:15,854 --> 01:13:18,148
Jane Pauley:
You are raising the possibility
1505
01:13:18,231 --> 01:13:21,568
that people are dismissing it
because it strikes mostly
the gay community?
1506
01:13:21,651 --> 01:13:24,779
There is no question in my mind,
if this were happening to you
1507
01:13:24,863 --> 01:13:26,948
and the white, straight,
middle-class community,
1508
01:13:27,032 --> 01:13:29,784
it would've been
attended to a long time ago.
1509
01:13:29,868 --> 01:13:34,164
Gottlieb:
There was all this conservative
religious overtones
1510
01:13:34,205 --> 01:13:35,540
in the Reagan administration
1511
01:13:35,623 --> 01:13:39,544
where evangelicals
had elected Ronald Reagan
1512
01:13:39,627 --> 01:13:42,130
and in his cabinet were people
1513
01:13:42,213 --> 01:13:43,923
who essentially said,
1514
01:13:44,007 --> 01:13:45,550
"Do nothing."
1515
01:13:48,303 --> 01:13:51,014
Griffin:
By this time, Rock
had made a lot of money
1516
01:13:51,056 --> 01:13:52,557
working in television.
1517
01:13:52,599 --> 01:13:54,476
He was loaded.
1518
01:13:54,559 --> 01:13:57,771
But old friends Mark
and George, not so much.
1519
01:13:57,854 --> 01:14:00,899
George Nader had glaucoma
and had stopped acting.
1520
01:14:00,982 --> 01:14:04,903
So Rock hired Mark Miller
to be his personal secretary.
1521
01:14:04,986 --> 01:14:07,489
That not only rescued
Nader and Miller financially,
1522
01:14:07,572 --> 01:14:12,911
but it would also guarantee
that his closest friends
would remain close.
1523
01:14:12,952 --> 01:14:16,581
And of course,
through all of this, Nader
is keeping his diaries,
1524
01:14:16,664 --> 01:14:19,084
which are
a veritable gold mine
1525
01:14:19,167 --> 01:14:22,796
of eyewitness accounts.
1526
01:14:22,879 --> 01:14:27,133
Voiceover as Nader:
Thursday, May 31st, 1984.
1527
01:14:27,217 --> 01:14:29,260
Mark called at 7 a.m.
1528
01:14:29,344 --> 01:14:30,845
Something seriously wrong!
1529
01:14:30,929 --> 01:14:33,264
Nancy Reagan sent photos
from the dinner party
1530
01:14:33,348 --> 01:14:35,975
with a note saying that
Rock must have that pimple
1531
01:14:36,059 --> 01:14:37,477
on his neck checked.
1532
01:14:37,560 --> 01:14:39,104
It showed up in the photos.
1533
01:14:39,187 --> 01:14:41,773
Otherwise, the photos
are great of Nancy, Ronnie,
1534
01:14:41,815 --> 01:14:43,316
and Rock at the dinner.
1535
01:14:43,400 --> 01:14:45,402
Rock back to Beverly Hills.
1536
01:14:45,443 --> 01:14:46,903
Mark insisted that Rock
1537
01:14:46,945 --> 01:14:48,947
go to see the doctor
immediately.
1538
01:14:48,988 --> 01:14:51,741
He agreed.
Mark made an appointment.
1539
01:14:51,783 --> 01:14:54,369
Let me begin with the latest
figures from Los Angeles County.
1540
01:14:54,452 --> 01:14:57,706
Today they show
56 new cases of AIDS
1541
01:14:57,789 --> 01:14:59,874
diagnosed here
locally last month.
1542
01:14:59,958 --> 01:15:03,420
That brings the national total
now to about 10,000 cases
1543
01:15:03,461 --> 01:15:05,672
cases of AIDS.
1544
01:15:05,755 --> 01:15:08,842
Voiceover as Nader:
Tuesday, June 5th, 1984.
1545
01:15:08,925 --> 01:15:12,554
Mark called and asked me
to note the time and date
1546
01:15:12,637 --> 01:15:14,305
of all of the following:
1547
01:15:14,389 --> 01:15:18,476
At 2:25 p.m., driving Rock
home from the doctor's,
1548
01:15:18,518 --> 01:15:23,773
he was told by Rock
that Rock has AIDS
and possible cancer.
1549
01:15:23,815 --> 01:15:27,569
A lymph gland in his neck
had just been removed.
1550
01:15:27,652 --> 01:15:29,821
Around 6:30 p.m.-ish,
1551
01:15:29,863 --> 01:15:31,990
I dialed Rock
at The Castle and said,
1552
01:15:32,073 --> 01:15:35,118
if there was anything at all,
let me know.
1553
01:15:35,160 --> 01:15:38,079
He said,
the only thing was silence.
1554
01:15:38,163 --> 01:15:40,999
I said, "Of course,"
and thought,
1555
01:15:41,082 --> 01:15:43,501
"Who in the hell
am I gonna call
and talk about it to?'"
1556
01:15:43,543 --> 01:15:46,588
Interviewer:
Are you the big macho type
that nothing's gonna get?
1557
01:15:46,671 --> 01:15:48,298
No, not at all.
Not at all.
1558
01:15:48,340 --> 01:15:52,385
I am, I have, like everybody
else, weaknesses and strengths.
1559
01:15:52,469 --> 01:15:54,179
But...
1560
01:15:54,262 --> 01:15:58,683
one of the strengths,
I suppose, perhaps stupidly so,
1561
01:15:58,767 --> 01:16:01,102
is that I will not be sick.
1562
01:16:01,186 --> 01:16:03,730
I will not be dependent
upon anybody else,
1563
01:16:03,813 --> 01:16:06,358
and I simply won't have it.
1564
01:16:06,399 --> 01:16:08,443
Gottlieb:
In 1984,
1565
01:16:08,526 --> 01:16:10,195
I was asked to see
1566
01:16:10,278 --> 01:16:12,072
a celebrity patient,
1567
01:16:12,155 --> 01:16:16,034
Rock Hudson,
and determined in fact
that he did have AIDS.
1568
01:16:16,076 --> 01:16:20,580
I guided him as best I could
and sent him to France
1569
01:16:20,663 --> 01:16:24,709
to participate
in a clinical trial
of an antiviral drug.
1570
01:16:26,836 --> 01:16:30,131
Most people are born gulls
and judge a man by his dress.
1571
01:16:30,215 --> 01:16:32,550
We live in a world
of phantasmagoria,
1572
01:16:32,634 --> 01:16:34,678
false forms and false faces.
1573
01:16:34,719 --> 01:16:37,389
Each man wears a mask
against his fellows.
1574
01:16:37,472 --> 01:16:39,432
Well, have you nothing
to say?
1575
01:16:39,516 --> 01:16:41,685
Aye, gimme a light.
1576
01:16:42,102 --> 01:16:45,563
Esther Shapiro:
Rock Hudson was
in a different league.
1577
01:16:45,605 --> 01:16:48,233
I always liked him.
1578
01:16:48,316 --> 01:16:52,445
He seemed to fulfill
all the dreams that,
you know,
1579
01:16:52,529 --> 01:16:55,490
I would have for a star.
1580
01:16:55,573 --> 01:16:57,742
When the time came to find
1581
01:16:57,826 --> 01:17:00,912
a person to play
opposite Linda Evans,
1582
01:17:00,954 --> 01:17:03,081
I thought about Rock Hudson.
1583
01:17:03,123 --> 01:17:08,503
So I and my publicist,
we flew to Paris to meet him.
1584
01:17:08,586 --> 01:17:11,006
I hadn't seen him
for a few years.
1585
01:17:11,089 --> 01:17:13,925
He might have been
five pounds thinner,
I don't know.
1586
01:17:13,967 --> 01:17:17,095
But he seemed incredible.
1587
01:17:17,137 --> 01:17:21,224
When he turns on that smile,
it's unbelievable.
1588
01:17:21,933 --> 01:17:24,769
He met us
and I had the script.
1589
01:17:24,811 --> 01:17:27,731
I just wanted him to read
the script and say yes.
1590
01:17:27,772 --> 01:17:31,568
And then he said, "Well,
why don't we have dinner?"
So I said, "Okay."
1591
01:17:31,609 --> 01:17:33,278
So we went with him,
1592
01:17:33,319 --> 01:17:35,989
and it was
the most marvelous night.
1593
01:17:36,072 --> 01:17:39,951
He was so energetic
and he went from restaurant
1594
01:17:39,993 --> 01:17:41,911
to bar to restaurant.
1595
01:17:41,953 --> 01:17:44,122
He kept drinking
more and more vodka
1596
01:17:44,164 --> 01:17:46,458
and he got bawdier
and bawdier.
1597
01:17:46,541 --> 01:17:49,586
And I thought, "Oh, my God,
is this ever gonna end?"
1598
01:17:49,627 --> 01:17:51,880
He held out that whole night.
1599
01:17:51,963 --> 01:17:54,674
I mean, you have no idea
what it was like.
1600
01:17:55,884 --> 01:17:58,887
And at 2:30 in the morning,
he said,
1601
01:17:58,970 --> 01:18:02,265
"I read the script
and I loved it
and I will do it."
1602
01:18:02,766 --> 01:18:07,187
Reporter: This winter
finds Hudson on location
with ABC's "Dynasty."
1603
01:18:07,270 --> 01:18:10,023
You've said before
that you really didn't have
any interest
1604
01:18:10,106 --> 01:18:12,150
in coming back to doing
series television.
1605
01:18:12,233 --> 01:18:15,028
What did "Dynasty" offer
that made you reconsider that?
1606
01:18:15,111 --> 01:18:17,072
Well, I'm not on every week,
1607
01:18:17,155 --> 01:18:20,408
and, uh, uh...
1608
01:18:20,492 --> 01:18:22,160
it's a good show, obviously.
1609
01:18:22,202 --> 01:18:26,373
I mean, it's, uh, very popular
all over the world,
1610
01:18:26,456 --> 01:18:30,168
so why not to do
six or so shows?
1611
01:18:30,251 --> 01:18:34,339
Reporter: So,
for six or so shows, nobody's
saying exactly how many,
1612
01:18:34,381 --> 01:18:37,050
Rock Hudson is playing
the role of Daniel Reece,
1613
01:18:37,133 --> 01:18:39,844
a sophisticated horse breeder
with romantic designs
1614
01:18:39,886 --> 01:18:41,554
on Krystle Carrington.
1615
01:18:41,638 --> 01:18:43,515
I think he's a divine actor.
1616
01:18:43,556 --> 01:18:45,350
He's wonderfully romantic.
1617
01:18:45,433 --> 01:18:47,185
He's a lovely man.
1618
01:18:47,769 --> 01:18:49,979
Well, they told us they had
1619
01:18:50,021 --> 01:18:53,692
some superstars they were
gonna have on the show,
1620
01:18:53,775 --> 01:18:57,862
which we thought, great,
this is fun. (laughs)
1621
01:18:57,946 --> 01:18:59,864
I, of course, was thrilled
1622
01:18:59,948 --> 01:19:02,283
because I did
a "McMillan & Wife."
1623
01:19:02,367 --> 01:19:04,369
Aquarius.
How do you do, Commissioner?
1624
01:19:04,452 --> 01:19:05,787
Nicole, what a lovely name.
1625
01:19:05,870 --> 01:19:08,498
Linda Evans:
And I thought, how fantastic
1626
01:19:08,581 --> 01:19:11,376
to be able to work
with him again.
1627
01:19:11,418 --> 01:19:13,128
But he was so much thinner
1628
01:19:13,211 --> 01:19:16,881
and didn't look like
he felt good.
1629
01:19:16,965 --> 01:19:20,010
I think he even said
he'd been traveling a lot
1630
01:19:20,051 --> 01:19:22,095
and he inferred that,
you know,
1631
01:19:22,178 --> 01:19:23,847
"We've all been
away on a trip
1632
01:19:23,888 --> 01:19:25,807
and caught something
somewhere."
1633
01:19:25,849 --> 01:19:29,394
So I went, "Oh, you know,
life does that to us."
1634
01:19:29,477 --> 01:19:33,815
And, uh, that's about as much
as I thought about it.
1635
01:19:35,650 --> 01:19:38,903
Voiceover as Nader:
Wednesday,
December 19th, 1984.
1636
01:19:38,945 --> 01:19:41,489
"Dynasty." Rock's debut.
1637
01:19:41,573 --> 01:19:44,534
Merry Christmas, Krystie,
it's good to see you.
1638
01:19:44,576 --> 01:19:46,995
Voiceover as Nader:
Did well, but looked bad,
1639
01:19:47,078 --> 01:19:48,788
very bad
in a couple of shots.
1640
01:19:48,872 --> 01:19:50,915
I'm here to return this.
1641
01:19:52,459 --> 01:19:56,087
How dare you come
back into my life
after what you did.
1642
01:19:57,088 --> 01:19:59,674
Voiceover as Nader:
Cameraman could have helped
more with lighting,
1643
01:19:59,758 --> 01:20:02,427
I think,
but perhaps no time.
1644
01:20:09,934 --> 01:20:13,480
Tuesday, February 5th, 1985.
1645
01:20:13,563 --> 01:20:15,023
Tonight "Dynasty,"
1646
01:20:15,106 --> 01:20:18,193
and we get to watch Rock
give Linda Evans a dose
1647
01:20:18,276 --> 01:20:20,945
of some virus
in a kissing scene.
1648
01:20:21,029 --> 01:20:22,947
I will tape
the fateful footage,
1649
01:20:22,989 --> 01:20:25,116
if not too frozen in horror,
1650
01:20:25,200 --> 01:20:28,036
akin to watching someone
receive a possible
lethal injection.
1651
01:20:28,119 --> 01:20:29,579
You look more frightened
than I was...
1652
01:20:29,621 --> 01:20:32,582
Voiceover as Nader:
Morally, how guilty are we
1653
01:20:32,624 --> 01:20:37,212
for not having said something
to someone, anyone?
1654
01:20:39,798 --> 01:20:42,467
Rock returned from work
the day they shot
the kiss scene
1655
01:20:42,509 --> 01:20:45,637
and said to Mark,
"This has been
the worst day of my life.
1656
01:20:45,679 --> 01:20:49,474
"I used every possible type
of mouthwash known to man.
1657
01:20:49,516 --> 01:20:51,142
An awful day.'
1658
01:20:51,226 --> 01:20:55,522
He also said,
"I kept my mouth closed
and so did she."
1659
01:20:56,564 --> 01:21:01,027
Evans:
When we had that scene
we had to do with the kiss,
1660
01:21:01,111 --> 01:21:03,196
that was a pivotal moment.
1661
01:21:03,279 --> 01:21:06,491
We showed up that day
and shot that scene
1662
01:21:06,574 --> 01:21:10,161
and it didn't turn out
like they wanted.
1663
01:21:10,203 --> 01:21:14,165
Nobody quite knew what to do.
1664
01:21:14,207 --> 01:21:17,168
I mean, I knew he could
deliver that kiss.
1665
01:21:17,252 --> 01:21:19,713
It's not up to me
to say anything.
1666
01:21:19,796 --> 01:21:22,298
And I let
the director handle it,
1667
01:21:22,340 --> 01:21:24,592
and we did it over
and we did it over.
1668
01:21:24,676 --> 01:21:27,887
And he did it consistently.
1669
01:21:27,971 --> 01:21:30,682
(Evans weeping off-screen)
1670
01:21:30,765 --> 01:21:35,812
It makes me cry because
I know he was protecting me.
1671
01:21:35,854 --> 01:21:37,897
I mean, I didn't know that
at the time.
1672
01:21:37,981 --> 01:21:39,983
I was confused at the time.
1673
01:21:40,025 --> 01:21:41,860
But in thinking back,
1674
01:21:41,901 --> 01:21:45,405
part of the reason
that I get so upset
1675
01:21:45,488 --> 01:21:50,035
is that he was doing
everything he could do
1676
01:21:50,118 --> 01:21:52,037
to make it all right
for me, in case.
1677
01:21:52,120 --> 01:21:55,498
'Cause nobody knew
in those days about that.
1678
01:21:55,540 --> 01:21:57,292
Touches my heart.
1679
01:21:57,375 --> 01:21:59,461
Even now,
when I think about it.
1680
01:22:01,421 --> 01:22:04,466
Voiceover as Nader:
Saturday, April 6th, 1985.
1681
01:22:04,549 --> 01:22:07,218
The three of us drove
through Joshua Tree
1682
01:22:07,302 --> 01:22:09,596
where Rock
had never been before.
1683
01:22:09,679 --> 01:22:13,308
On the way there,
the old song
"Mockin' Bird Hill" came on.
1684
01:22:13,433 --> 01:22:17,312
♪ Tra-la-la
twittle-dee-dee-dee,
it gives me... ♪
1685
01:22:17,395 --> 01:22:19,189
Voiceover as Nader:
We all roared with laughter.
1686
01:22:19,230 --> 01:22:22,442
Thirty years before,
the song had been
our favorite,
1687
01:22:22,525 --> 01:22:25,111
and we sang it in unison
with the singer on the radio.
1688
01:22:25,195 --> 01:22:27,739
♪ Tra-la-la
twittle-dee-dee-dee ♪
1689
01:22:27,822 --> 01:22:30,408
♪ There's peace
and goodwill ♪
1690
01:22:30,450 --> 01:22:33,328
♪ You're welcome
as the flowers ♪
1691
01:22:33,411 --> 01:22:36,539
♪ On Mockin' Bird Hill... ♪
1692
01:22:36,581 --> 01:22:38,583
Voiceover as Nader:
By the time we finished
the song,
1693
01:22:38,625 --> 01:22:39,751
we were all in tears.
1694
01:22:39,834 --> 01:22:41,628
Mark and I knew for sure
1695
01:22:41,711 --> 01:22:46,049
Rock had come
down to the desert
on Easter to say goodbye.
1696
01:22:46,091 --> 01:22:49,469
Even if we see him again,
this is still it.
1697
01:22:49,552 --> 01:22:51,388
A farewell.
1698
01:22:51,471 --> 01:22:54,557
♪ song ends ♪
1699
01:22:54,599 --> 01:22:56,893
(telephone rings)
1700
01:22:56,935 --> 01:22:58,395
Hello.
1701
01:22:58,436 --> 01:22:59,813
I love my roses!
1702
01:22:59,896 --> 01:23:01,231
Well, hiya.
1703
01:23:01,272 --> 01:23:04,109
I am thrilled that you
are gonna do my show.
1704
01:23:04,192 --> 01:23:06,277
-I am too.
-You're my first guest.
1705
01:23:06,319 --> 01:23:08,113
-Is that right?
-Very first one.
1706
01:23:08,196 --> 01:23:09,781
'Cause you're
a very special guest.
1707
01:23:09,823 --> 01:23:11,616
Well, I am delighted
about that.
1708
01:23:12,951 --> 01:23:14,911
Maley:
The public started seeing
1709
01:23:14,953 --> 01:23:18,540
a major decline
in his appearance.
1710
01:23:18,623 --> 01:23:22,919
That's when we began
to understand what it was.
1711
01:23:22,961 --> 01:23:25,422
Even we thought it was AIDS.
1712
01:23:25,714 --> 01:23:27,674
All right,
how did you know?
1713
01:23:27,757 --> 01:23:29,592
I saw his hand.
1714
01:23:30,218 --> 01:23:32,887
-What did you see?
-The beginning of a lesion.
1715
01:23:32,971 --> 01:23:34,472
Discoloration.
Softness of tissue.
1716
01:23:34,556 --> 01:23:37,100
That could
have been anything--
yaws, psoriasis,
1717
01:23:37,142 --> 01:23:39,310
the beginning of any
ordinary skin rash.
1718
01:23:39,394 --> 01:23:41,104
What made you
so certain?
1719
01:23:41,146 --> 01:23:43,148
I just knew, that's all.
1720
01:23:43,231 --> 01:23:46,651
-You mean you guessed.
-No, I knew.
1721
01:23:46,735 --> 01:23:48,111
Hmm.
1722
01:23:48,153 --> 01:23:51,531
Voiceover as Nader:
Thursday, July 18th, 1985.
1723
01:23:51,614 --> 01:23:55,994
Rock exhausted
and really downhill
and a mess.
1724
01:23:56,036 --> 01:23:57,871
"He looks awful," Mark says.
1725
01:23:57,954 --> 01:23:59,831
Mark broached
subject of Paris,
1726
01:23:59,873 --> 01:24:01,875
got Rock to listen.
1727
01:24:01,958 --> 01:24:03,543
Rock heaved a sigh and said,
1728
01:24:03,626 --> 01:24:07,172
"Well, okay,
I guess I'd better
go back over there."
1729
01:24:07,255 --> 01:24:09,507
Reporter:
Just what is wrong
with Rock Hudson?
1730
01:24:09,549 --> 01:24:11,384
Tonight,
the 59-year-old actor
1731
01:24:11,468 --> 01:24:13,720
remains in a Paris hospital
undergoing tests,
1732
01:24:13,803 --> 01:24:16,306
but the nature of his illness
has become clouded
1733
01:24:16,348 --> 01:24:17,932
in mystery and confusion.
1734
01:24:17,974 --> 01:24:19,392
Yesterday, it was reported
that Hudson
1735
01:24:19,476 --> 01:24:21,394
had liver cancer
and possibly AIDS,
1736
01:24:21,478 --> 01:24:24,105
but today the hospital
denied the cancer story
1737
01:24:24,189 --> 01:24:26,358
and said nothing
about the AIDS rumor.
1738
01:24:26,399 --> 01:24:28,651
A spokesman just said
Hudson was tired.
1739
01:24:29,444 --> 01:24:31,363
Maupin: At that point,
I don't know what degree
1740
01:24:31,446 --> 01:24:33,907
Rock was actually
making decisions,
1741
01:24:33,990 --> 01:24:37,369
but Ross Hunter
was still saying
1742
01:24:37,410 --> 01:24:42,499
Rock had anorexia
and a lot of feeble excuses.
1743
01:24:42,540 --> 01:24:43,917
(siren wailing)
1744
01:24:44,000 --> 01:24:46,419
Griffin:
After collapsing at the Ritz,
1745
01:24:46,503 --> 01:24:49,964
Hudson is rushed to
the American Hospital
of Paris.
1746
01:24:50,048 --> 01:24:52,509
And at that point,
it's determined
1747
01:24:52,550 --> 01:24:54,469
that Hudson could be
better cared for
1748
01:24:54,552 --> 01:24:57,180
at a nearby
military hospital.
1749
01:24:57,263 --> 01:25:00,141
So Rock's publicist,
Dale Olson,
sends a telegram
1750
01:25:00,225 --> 01:25:01,893
to Reagan's press secretary,
1751
01:25:01,976 --> 01:25:05,313
in which he explains
that time is running out
for Rock.
1752
01:25:05,397 --> 01:25:08,274
And Percy Hospital
will not admit him
1753
01:25:08,358 --> 01:25:10,777
because Hudson isn't
a French citizen.
1754
01:25:10,860 --> 01:25:14,906
Would the White House
be willing to intervene?
1755
01:25:14,948 --> 01:25:17,242
Nancy Reagan declines.
1756
01:25:18,576 --> 01:25:21,204
You know, I think
that non-responsiveness
1757
01:25:21,246 --> 01:25:23,540
to the personal plea
from the publicist
1758
01:25:23,581 --> 01:25:27,085
encapsulates the entire
Reagan administration's
1759
01:25:27,127 --> 01:25:29,796
non-responsiveness
to the epidemic.
1760
01:25:29,879 --> 01:25:34,926
Man: His hands
will be stained forever
with innocent blood.
1761
01:25:36,886 --> 01:25:38,013
(breaks glass)
1762
01:25:38,096 --> 01:25:39,639
(Reporter speaking)
1763
01:25:39,723 --> 01:25:42,100
Nothing. He looks wonderful,
I must say.
1764
01:25:42,183 --> 01:25:43,893
-Reporter: Did he talk to you?
-Yes, he did.
1765
01:25:43,935 --> 01:25:46,521
-Reporter: What did he say?
-He said, "How are you?"
1766
01:25:46,604 --> 01:25:48,773
I said, "I'm fine."
(laughs)
1767
01:25:49,315 --> 01:25:53,028
Voiceover as Nader:
Thursday, July 25th, 1985.
1768
01:25:53,111 --> 01:25:55,780
Big day in Paris, France.
1769
01:25:55,822 --> 01:25:59,617
The orchestrated ruination
of Rock Hudson's life.
1770
01:25:59,659 --> 01:26:01,953
(somber music)
1771
01:26:02,037 --> 01:26:03,872
Yanou Collart:
I was sent to his room
1772
01:26:03,955 --> 01:26:06,207
to read the statement
and have his approval.
1773
01:26:06,291 --> 01:26:10,128
And that's one of
the weirdest things
I did in my life,
1774
01:26:10,170 --> 01:26:14,007
because I know that if Rock
would've been strong enough
1775
01:26:14,090 --> 01:26:17,886
to decide not to tell
the world that he had AIDS,
he would do it.
1776
01:26:18,595 --> 01:26:23,975
He looked at my eyes and,
uh, he say,
1777
01:26:24,017 --> 01:26:25,643
"That's what they want,
Yanou.
1778
01:26:25,685 --> 01:26:28,480
Go and give that
to the dogs."
1779
01:26:28,521 --> 01:26:32,484
Mr. Rock Hudson has Acquired
1780
01:26:32,567 --> 01:26:35,028
Immunodeficiency Syndrome...
1781
01:26:35,111 --> 01:26:36,321
(camera shutters clicking)
1782
01:26:36,404 --> 01:26:38,656
...which was diagnosed
1783
01:26:38,740 --> 01:26:40,784
over a year ago
1784
01:26:40,825 --> 01:26:42,452
in the United States.
1785
01:26:42,535 --> 01:26:45,330
Voiceover as Nader:
Mark watched
and listened from a lounge
1786
01:26:45,413 --> 01:26:48,500
and sobbed all the way
through Yanou's statement.
1787
01:26:48,541 --> 01:26:52,128
When it was over,
he went up and told Rock.
1788
01:26:52,212 --> 01:26:56,007
Rock said, "God, what a way
to end a life."
1789
01:26:56,758 --> 01:26:59,094
Hudson:
Is this what you call news?
1790
01:26:59,177 --> 01:27:01,179
You know what I call it?
1791
01:27:01,221 --> 01:27:03,390
I call it the dead facts.
1792
01:27:03,473 --> 01:27:05,266
The dead facts
strung together
1793
01:27:05,350 --> 01:27:07,769
by a deaf-dumb-blind
editor!
1794
01:27:07,852 --> 01:27:09,521
Reporter 1:
After three days of confusion
1795
01:27:09,604 --> 01:27:11,481
at the American Hospital
in Paris,
1796
01:27:11,523 --> 01:27:14,025
a spokesperson
for Rock Hudson...
1797
01:27:14,067 --> 01:27:15,735
...American actor
Rock Hudson...
1798
01:27:15,819 --> 01:27:18,321
Reporter 2:
...American Hospital
in Paris, France,
1799
01:27:18,363 --> 01:27:20,657
for treatment of
an inoperable liver cancer...
1800
01:27:20,699 --> 01:27:24,369
I've got the story.
I've got it in my aching heart,
1801
01:27:24,411 --> 01:27:26,371
and you want to know
how I got it?
1802
01:27:26,413 --> 01:27:29,749
By crawling through
dirt and filth
1803
01:27:29,833 --> 01:27:31,543
and muck and smut.
1804
01:27:31,584 --> 01:27:33,211
By finding truth and beauty
1805
01:27:33,294 --> 01:27:35,130
where you'd
never expect to find it.
1806
01:27:35,213 --> 01:27:36,756
Another case of AIDS
has been confirmed,
1807
01:27:36,840 --> 01:27:39,175
affecting the most
well-known victim yet.
1808
01:27:39,217 --> 01:27:41,344
He forsook all
earthbound vanities,
1809
01:27:41,386 --> 01:27:43,972
home, family and love.
1810
01:27:44,055 --> 01:27:45,223
Why?
1811
01:27:45,306 --> 01:27:47,392
Because deep down he knew
1812
01:27:47,475 --> 01:27:49,394
that a man without blood
in his veins
1813
01:27:49,436 --> 01:27:52,480
has got to fall down
sooner or later.
1814
01:27:52,564 --> 01:27:54,524
Actor Rock Hudson has AIDS,
1815
01:27:54,566 --> 01:27:56,735
Acquired
Immunodeficiency Syndrome.
1816
01:27:57,944 --> 01:27:59,571
I feel empty.
1817
01:28:00,905 --> 01:28:02,073
Dead.
1818
01:28:02,157 --> 01:28:03,700
I just feel dirty.
1819
01:28:03,742 --> 01:28:04,909
I feel unclean.
1820
01:28:06,161 --> 01:28:08,705
Filthy business we're in.
1821
01:28:11,041 --> 01:28:13,043
Time will wash it clean.
1822
01:28:13,626 --> 01:28:15,962
Who knows how much time
there is left?
1823
01:28:18,757 --> 01:28:21,718
McGillin:
I do remember, uh, when
I first came to New York,
1824
01:28:21,760 --> 01:28:23,928
I was walking through
Greenwich Village
1825
01:28:24,012 --> 01:28:27,390
and I passed a newsstand
and the headline said,
1826
01:28:27,432 --> 01:28:29,392
"Rock Hudson has AIDS."
1827
01:28:29,434 --> 01:28:33,313
And it... I absolutely,
I stopped breathing.
1828
01:28:33,396 --> 01:28:36,358
I will never, ever,
ever forget that moment
1829
01:28:36,441 --> 01:28:39,819
of just, this can't be.
1830
01:28:39,903 --> 01:28:43,490
It was everything
kind of wrapped up in one.
1831
01:28:43,573 --> 01:28:46,117
It was Hollywood and the closet
1832
01:28:46,201 --> 01:28:48,286
and the fact that Rock
1833
01:28:48,370 --> 01:28:50,288
had lived his life not able
1834
01:28:50,330 --> 01:28:52,374
to express who he was.
1835
01:28:52,457 --> 01:28:53,792
And it had come to that.
1836
01:28:53,875 --> 01:28:56,252
It scared
the shit out of me.
1837
01:28:56,294 --> 01:28:58,755
It made me terrified
1838
01:28:58,797 --> 01:29:02,926
of contemplating
being out in the gay world,
1839
01:29:02,967 --> 01:29:09,724
and, um, that, I think,
delayed my coming out.
1840
01:29:09,808 --> 01:29:11,851
Announcer:
What's the shocking reason
1841
01:29:11,935 --> 01:29:13,812
Rock Hudson
hid his tragic illness?
1842
01:29:13,853 --> 01:29:16,314
Why has the news terrified
his "Dynasty" costars?
1843
01:29:16,398 --> 01:29:18,692
-Inquiring minds want to know.
-I want to know.
1844
01:29:20,110 --> 01:29:23,446
Evans:
There were, to my shock,
1845
01:29:23,488 --> 01:29:25,323
people on the set
1846
01:29:25,365 --> 01:29:28,493
who wouldn't come into
the makeup room
when I was there.
1847
01:29:28,576 --> 01:29:29,953
There were people
1848
01:29:29,994 --> 01:29:31,496
who wouldn't work with me,
1849
01:29:31,579 --> 01:29:33,373
and so they had
to change scenes
1850
01:29:33,456 --> 01:29:36,126
because I might have AIDS.
1851
01:29:37,168 --> 01:29:39,754
I had personal friends
1852
01:29:39,838 --> 01:29:42,257
who wouldn't come over
to dinner.
1853
01:29:42,340 --> 01:29:44,426
I mean,
people went into fear.
1854
01:29:44,509 --> 01:29:46,594
Tremendous fear.
1855
01:29:46,678 --> 01:29:48,680
I was never afraid
I would have AIDS,
1856
01:29:48,722 --> 01:29:52,017
no matter what they printed,
what science they told me.
1857
01:29:52,058 --> 01:29:55,186
I thought, "Where's
your humanity or where's
your compassion?
1858
01:29:55,270 --> 01:29:58,189
You know, what's wrong
with this world right now?"
1859
01:29:58,273 --> 01:30:00,108
(frightful fanfare)
1860
01:30:00,191 --> 01:30:01,651
(masked figure laughing)
1861
01:30:01,693 --> 01:30:04,779
(crowd laughing, blowing horns)
1862
01:30:09,826 --> 01:30:12,162
Collart:
The moment it was announced
1863
01:30:12,203 --> 01:30:13,913
that Rock had AIDS,
1864
01:30:13,997 --> 01:30:17,250
the hospital had only
one concern:
1865
01:30:17,334 --> 01:30:19,711
get him out of the hospital.
1866
01:30:19,794 --> 01:30:23,131
They didn't want to have
any connection,
the hospital, with AIDS.
1867
01:30:23,214 --> 01:30:24,841
It was terrible, you know.
1868
01:30:24,883 --> 01:30:28,720
The only concern was,
"He must go out of here."
1869
01:30:29,387 --> 01:30:32,307
And I start
to call the airline
1870
01:30:32,390 --> 01:30:34,225
to book to fly back to LA.
1871
01:30:34,309 --> 01:30:37,979
And as soon I was giving
the name of the traveler,
1872
01:30:38,063 --> 01:30:41,983
the answer was, "We don't
take AIDS people on board."
1873
01:30:42,067 --> 01:30:46,154
And that's why
I had to rent a plane,
1874
01:30:46,237 --> 01:30:50,450
a 747, for $250,000.
1875
01:30:50,533 --> 01:30:55,663
It was his money,
and it was the only way
to bring him back home.
1876
01:30:57,415 --> 01:31:01,961
I was made so aware
of the silence,
1877
01:31:02,045 --> 01:31:05,882
this huge, loud silence
regarding AIDS,
1878
01:31:05,924 --> 01:31:07,717
how no one
wanted to talk about it,
1879
01:31:07,759 --> 01:31:10,011
no one wanted
to become involved.
1880
01:31:10,095 --> 01:31:14,182
Uh, certainly no one wanted
to give money or support.
1881
01:31:14,265 --> 01:31:20,146
And it so angered me that
I finally thought to myself,
1882
01:31:20,230 --> 01:31:23,233
"Bitch, do something yourself."
1883
01:31:24,150 --> 01:31:28,363
Bill Misenhimer:
I started work with Elizabeth
in June of 1985
1884
01:31:28,446 --> 01:31:30,490
for the Commitment
to Life event.
1885
01:31:30,573 --> 01:31:32,784
When Rock Hudson
announced his illness,
1886
01:31:32,826 --> 01:31:35,036
the demand for tickets
1887
01:31:35,120 --> 01:31:36,329
skyrocketed.
1888
01:31:36,413 --> 01:31:37,664
He made
1889
01:31:37,747 --> 01:31:40,625
an incredible difference
1890
01:31:40,667 --> 01:31:42,210
in our ability to raise money.
1891
01:31:42,293 --> 01:31:44,129
Reporter:
Once his condition
became public,
1892
01:31:44,212 --> 01:31:46,798
the Hollywood community
rallied around
one of their own
1893
01:31:46,840 --> 01:31:49,134
and they turned out
for a benefit to raise money
1894
01:31:49,175 --> 01:31:50,468
with which to combat AIDS.
1895
01:31:50,552 --> 01:31:52,387
A personal message
from Hudson was read
1896
01:31:52,470 --> 01:31:53,805
by actor Burt Lancaster.
1897
01:31:53,847 --> 01:31:56,975
"I'm not happy
that I have AIDS,
1898
01:31:57,017 --> 01:31:59,144
"but if that is
helping others,
1899
01:31:59,185 --> 01:32:01,896
"I can at least know
that my own misfortune
1900
01:32:01,980 --> 01:32:04,649
has had some positive worth."
1901
01:32:05,150 --> 01:32:07,819
Reporter: Just last week,
Hudson himself contributed
1902
01:32:07,861 --> 01:32:10,155
$250,000 of his own money
1903
01:32:10,196 --> 01:32:12,240
to start a new foundation
for AIDS research.
1904
01:32:12,323 --> 01:32:15,660
Misenhimer: It's tragic
when anybody gets sick,
1905
01:32:15,702 --> 01:32:17,662
but his announcement was
1906
01:32:17,704 --> 01:32:19,956
the most profound thing
1907
01:32:19,998 --> 01:32:22,500
that had happened
at that point.
1908
01:32:22,584 --> 01:32:25,253
He put a face to it.
1909
01:32:25,295 --> 01:32:27,630
He made
a lot of people realize
1910
01:32:27,672 --> 01:32:29,883
that anybody could get this.
1911
01:32:29,966 --> 01:32:32,344
It helped destigmatize
a disease.
1912
01:32:32,427 --> 01:32:33,845
It's hard to say
1913
01:32:33,887 --> 01:32:37,599
that he saved anyone
because no one was saved.
1914
01:32:37,682 --> 01:32:39,851
Everybody died.
1915
01:32:39,893 --> 01:32:42,645
I'll tell you one thing
Rock Hudson's announcement
did do,
1916
01:32:42,687 --> 01:32:44,439
it gave people hope.
1917
01:32:44,522 --> 01:32:47,359
Because they were hopeless.
1918
01:32:47,400 --> 01:32:51,654
(peaceful flute music)
1919
01:32:53,531 --> 01:32:55,784
Garlington:
He got the diagnosis.
1920
01:32:55,867 --> 01:32:58,203
I was totally shocked.
1921
01:32:58,286 --> 01:33:01,581
Famous people don't get sick,
1922
01:33:01,664 --> 01:33:06,878
uh, in my world of fantasy.
1923
01:33:06,961 --> 01:33:09,798
♪♪
1924
01:33:09,881 --> 01:33:11,800
I called up there and said,
1925
01:33:11,883 --> 01:33:15,679
"I want to come see Rock
before he passes."
1926
01:33:15,720 --> 01:33:18,723
And I was told, uh,
1927
01:33:18,765 --> 01:33:23,687
"Rock is not capable
of knowing who you are
1928
01:33:23,728 --> 01:33:27,232
"and you are better
remembering him
1929
01:33:27,273 --> 01:33:29,234
in a better time."
1930
01:33:30,402 --> 01:33:32,904
And in a sense, that was true.
1931
01:33:34,823 --> 01:33:38,785
(contemplative music continues)
1932
01:33:42,747 --> 01:33:47,293
So I did not go see him,
uh...
1933
01:33:47,377 --> 01:33:50,046
And I wish I had.
1934
01:33:50,088 --> 01:33:53,425
I feel very guilty
for not going up
1935
01:33:53,508 --> 01:33:57,220
and holding his hand
one last time.
1936
01:34:02,767 --> 01:34:05,228
What is it you think
we saw, Captain?
1937
01:34:05,270 --> 01:34:10,358
The face of the devil?
A lost soul? The sinner?
1938
01:34:10,442 --> 01:34:12,235
That's the word,
isn't it?
1939
01:34:12,277 --> 01:34:13,611
No, I didn't mean that.
1940
01:34:13,653 --> 01:34:14,904
Why not?
1941
01:34:14,946 --> 01:34:16,990
Let's call a sinner
a sinner.
1942
01:34:17,073 --> 01:34:19,451
We're all sinners,
aren't we, Captain?
1943
01:34:19,534 --> 01:34:22,203
Sinner or saint,
isn't that the choice?
1944
01:34:24,706 --> 01:34:26,833
Reporter:
AIDS is primarily a disease
1945
01:34:26,916 --> 01:34:28,418
associated with homosexuals.
1946
01:34:28,460 --> 01:34:29,753
Talk of Hudson's lifestyle
1947
01:34:29,794 --> 01:34:31,129
has surfaced.
1948
01:34:31,171 --> 01:34:32,964
Hollywood columnist
Rona Barrett.
1949
01:34:33,006 --> 01:34:34,883
At no time did Rock Hudson
1950
01:34:34,966 --> 01:34:38,845
ever flaunt his alleged
homosexuality.
1951
01:34:39,679 --> 01:34:41,723
♪♪
1952
01:34:41,806 --> 01:34:43,266
Maupin:
Rock was going
1953
01:34:43,308 --> 01:34:44,768
to die of AIDS, and then
1954
01:34:44,809 --> 01:34:46,478
the story would be told,
1955
01:34:46,519 --> 01:34:47,812
and I didn't want it
1956
01:34:47,854 --> 01:34:50,648
to be told
in the way that the...
1957
01:34:50,732 --> 01:34:53,485
the people in Hollywood
wanted it told.
1958
01:34:53,985 --> 01:34:56,488
So they think
I'm a traitor.
1959
01:34:56,571 --> 01:34:58,907
I told you I'd be
better off dead.
1960
01:34:58,990 --> 01:35:02,577
No man is better off dead,
my friend.
1961
01:35:02,660 --> 01:35:05,455
Maupin:
They needed someone
to say that he was gay.
1962
01:35:05,497 --> 01:35:07,707
Nobody would say he was gay,
1963
01:35:07,791 --> 01:35:09,125
which was interpreted
1964
01:35:09,167 --> 01:35:11,044
at the time,
amongst gay men,
1965
01:35:11,127 --> 01:35:12,921
as a sign of loyalty
to someone.
1966
01:35:13,004 --> 01:35:14,756
But it wasn't for me.
1967
01:35:14,798 --> 01:35:18,093
I had to make the decision
at that point in my life.
1968
01:35:18,176 --> 01:35:21,471
Uh, I'm supposed
to tell the truth about this.
1969
01:35:21,513 --> 01:35:24,432
So I did
an interview saying,
1970
01:35:24,516 --> 01:35:25,684
"Of course, he was gay.
1971
01:35:25,725 --> 01:35:27,435
"Everybody in Hollywood
knew it
1972
01:35:27,519 --> 01:35:29,604
"and it has to be said.
1973
01:35:29,688 --> 01:35:31,314
And he was a lovely guy."
1974
01:35:31,356 --> 01:35:33,608
I stressed that.
1975
01:35:33,692 --> 01:35:36,528
"And anybody who acts
shocked by this
1976
01:35:36,569 --> 01:35:38,405
"should just
get over themselves
1977
01:35:38,488 --> 01:35:41,282
"because many, many people
have died already
1978
01:35:41,366 --> 01:35:42,701
who were lovely guys."
1979
01:35:43,368 --> 01:35:46,246
Everybody had to learn
at that point in history.
1980
01:35:46,329 --> 01:35:48,748
People had to learn how
to behave about this subject.
1981
01:35:48,832 --> 01:35:50,834
Like grownups, you know.
1982
01:35:52,377 --> 01:35:54,462
This lamp isn't working now.
1983
01:35:54,546 --> 01:35:56,589
It's cold and it's dark.
1984
01:35:56,673 --> 01:35:57,799
All the parts are there.
1985
01:35:57,882 --> 01:35:59,300
It's a perfect light, but...
1986
01:35:59,384 --> 01:36:00,802
It's just not turned on.
1987
01:36:00,844 --> 01:36:05,306
Right. But if I turn the switch
and establish contact,
1988
01:36:05,390 --> 01:36:08,268
the bulb will draw power
from the powerhouse
down at the dam
1989
01:36:08,351 --> 01:36:11,312
and it'll do what it was meant
to do, which is to make light.
1990
01:36:11,396 --> 01:36:14,899
All right, so you're saying
that people have a sort
of powerhouse too.
1991
01:36:14,983 --> 01:36:16,985
Right. And when you establish
contact with that,
1992
01:36:17,068 --> 01:36:18,611
you can do
what you're meant to do.
1993
01:36:18,695 --> 01:36:20,697
You can fulfill your destiny.
1994
01:36:21,573 --> 01:36:25,076
The knowledge that this man,
this beautiful, handsome man
1995
01:36:25,118 --> 01:36:28,079
that everyone had loved,
had AIDS,
1996
01:36:28,163 --> 01:36:29,914
changed things completely.
1997
01:36:29,998 --> 01:36:33,001
It's when I approached him
about coming out, uh,
1998
01:36:33,084 --> 01:36:35,628
six or seven years earlier,
1999
01:36:35,712 --> 01:36:39,924
I said, "You'll make
a difference in how people
perceive gay people."
2000
01:36:41,384 --> 01:36:44,304
Well, goodbye,
and thanks for everything.
2001
01:36:44,929 --> 01:36:47,724
(somber music)
2002
01:36:47,766 --> 01:36:49,601
(door closes)
2003
01:36:49,642 --> 01:36:53,646
♪♪
2004
01:36:53,730 --> 01:36:56,816
Robert MacNeil:
Actor Rock Hudson
died today at age 59
2005
01:36:56,900 --> 01:36:59,361
after a year's struggle
against AIDS disease.
2006
01:36:59,444 --> 01:37:02,030
His staff said he passed away
peacefully in his sleep
2007
01:37:02,113 --> 01:37:04,282
at his home in Beverly Hills.
2008
01:37:05,283 --> 01:37:06,451
So he's dead.
2009
01:37:06,493 --> 01:37:08,953
Yes, we tried everything.
2010
01:37:11,790 --> 01:37:15,085
(soft, indistinct chatter)
2011
01:37:15,126 --> 01:37:17,629
It's just a very sad day.
2012
01:37:17,712 --> 01:37:20,632
Hudson:
Don't be afraid.
2013
01:37:21,257 --> 01:37:23,885
Think of life
as a shadowy place,
2014
01:37:23,968 --> 01:37:27,055
crowded with people
who can't see
each other very well.
2015
01:37:27,138 --> 01:37:29,349
-Don't block this.
Get outta here.
-Hunter: Get outta here.
2016
01:37:29,432 --> 01:37:31,226
Get outta here.
What kind of people are you?
2017
01:37:31,309 --> 01:37:33,228
Don't you have family
that you love?
2018
01:37:33,311 --> 01:37:35,605
Would you like this to happen
to them or to you?
Get outta here.
2019
01:37:35,647 --> 01:37:38,983
Hudson:
Think also of a door,
just beyond.
2020
01:37:40,568 --> 01:37:42,362
When that door opens...
2021
01:37:43,738 --> 01:37:45,031
we pass through
2022
01:37:45,115 --> 01:37:48,201
into a wonderful brightness.
2023
01:37:49,202 --> 01:37:50,662
Reporter:
When did he go, roughly?
2024
01:37:50,704 --> 01:37:51,871
Early this morning.
2025
01:37:51,955 --> 01:37:53,665
I'd say about 8:30,
9 o'clock.
2026
01:37:53,748 --> 01:37:55,834
I've gotta go.
Please let me go.
2027
01:37:55,917 --> 01:37:59,004
Just a gentle step
from darkness to light.
2028
01:38:00,088 --> 01:38:03,008
From darkness to light.
2029
01:38:04,634 --> 01:38:08,471
Reporter:
Have you anything
to say for the fans?
2030
01:38:08,513 --> 01:38:11,558
Just that he was
the best friend
I ever had in the world
2031
01:38:11,641 --> 01:38:14,602
and we sort of grew up
in this business together.
2032
01:38:15,478 --> 01:38:16,855
He... I can't.
2033
01:38:16,896 --> 01:38:18,690
Reporter:
Oh, it's very important, sir.
2034
01:38:23,361 --> 01:38:26,031
And the wind came
from the wilderness...
2035
01:38:28,033 --> 01:38:33,955
and it carried me where man
can never reach alone.
2036
01:38:40,670 --> 01:38:44,132
(somber violin music)
2037
01:38:46,885 --> 01:38:48,762
Jillson:
We lost a lot of friends.
2038
01:38:48,845 --> 01:38:51,139
I would say 150,
2039
01:38:51,222 --> 01:38:53,058
200, um, friends.
2040
01:38:53,099 --> 01:38:55,352
It was horrifying.
2041
01:38:55,393 --> 01:38:58,104
Carberry:
Oh, it was terrible.
2042
01:38:59,439 --> 01:39:03,568
All we did do is go
to funerals and fundraisers.
2043
01:39:06,196 --> 01:39:08,073
Reporter:
Government funding
of AIDS research
2044
01:39:08,114 --> 01:39:09,824
has increased $70 million
2045
01:39:09,908 --> 01:39:11,993
in the year
since Hudson's death
2046
01:39:12,035 --> 01:39:14,829
and private fundraising
for all AIDS organizations
2047
01:39:14,913 --> 01:39:16,706
has tripled.
2048
01:39:19,125 --> 01:39:23,088
Kevoian: His passing was
incredibly profound for me.
2049
01:39:23,129 --> 01:39:25,924
And when I got home to LA,
2050
01:39:25,965 --> 01:39:29,094
I went to the Gay Men's
Health Clinic
2051
01:39:29,177 --> 01:39:31,971
and I tested positive.
2052
01:39:33,014 --> 01:39:36,559
I was alone
2053
01:39:36,601 --> 01:39:38,228
and scared
2054
01:39:38,269 --> 01:39:41,106
and didn't know
how to process it,
2055
01:39:41,189 --> 01:39:46,027
in 1985 when everybody,
2056
01:39:46,111 --> 01:39:48,363
all of my peers, you know,
2057
01:39:48,446 --> 01:39:51,282
people were passing constantly,
2058
01:39:51,366 --> 01:39:57,747
and of course I felt like
I was going to pass as well.
2059
01:39:57,831 --> 01:40:02,627
But I started
to live my life in a way
2060
01:40:02,669 --> 01:40:06,256
that I would say...
2061
01:40:07,966 --> 01:40:11,219
live life as fully
as possible.
2062
01:40:11,302 --> 01:40:14,222
And I don't know how
I survived or why I've survived.
2063
01:40:14,305 --> 01:40:16,808
And I keep asking God
every day, you know,
2064
01:40:16,850 --> 01:40:18,101
what do you want me to do?
2065
01:40:18,143 --> 01:40:21,938
What, what is there left
for me to do before I leave?
2066
01:40:21,980 --> 01:40:25,650
And I'm waiting to find out.
2067
01:40:25,734 --> 01:40:27,569
♪♪
2068
01:40:27,652 --> 01:40:30,947
Interviewer:
Is there anything you fear
in this life at all?
2069
01:40:30,989 --> 01:40:34,117
(laughing)
Or the next one, I suppose?
2070
01:40:36,202 --> 01:40:38,246
I don't think so.
2071
01:40:41,041 --> 01:40:43,126
I used to, but I don't anymore.
2072
01:40:43,168 --> 01:40:48,173
And it's a very comforting
feeling to not be afraid.
2073
01:40:49,758 --> 01:40:52,302
He died the death of a hero
2074
01:40:52,344 --> 01:40:55,055
and he deserves our tears.
2075
01:40:56,014 --> 01:40:59,684
So throw the dirt gently
into his grave.
2076
01:41:01,603 --> 01:41:03,271
Take off your hat,
2077
01:41:04,189 --> 01:41:05,815
bow your head...
2078
01:41:07,108 --> 01:41:10,695
and read kindly his epitaph.
2079
01:41:10,737 --> 01:41:14,532
(contemplative music)
2080
01:41:14,574 --> 01:41:18,161
Reporter 1: He was seen
as the All-American boy.
2081
01:41:18,203 --> 01:41:19,871
When the All-American boy
gets AIDS,
2082
01:41:19,913 --> 01:41:22,665
it's really changed
a lot of people's attitudes.
2083
01:41:22,707 --> 01:41:25,794
Reporter 2: When he died,
longtime friend
Elizabeth Taylor prayed
2084
01:41:25,877 --> 01:41:28,171
that he had not died in vain.
2085
01:41:28,713 --> 01:41:32,258
Elizabeth Taylor:
Art lives on forever.
2086
01:41:32,342 --> 01:41:36,096
Unless we find
a cure for AIDS,
2087
01:41:36,179 --> 01:41:39,766
there will be no forever.
2088
01:41:39,849 --> 01:41:41,393
And we will find it.
2089
01:41:41,476 --> 01:41:44,145
We will find it together.
2090
01:41:46,064 --> 01:41:48,900
Maupin: He pretty much
did change the course
of history around AIDS.
2091
01:41:48,942 --> 01:41:50,652
He didn't intentionally
do it,
2092
01:41:50,735 --> 01:41:55,115
but there was no other star
that made that kind
of impact before.
2093
01:41:55,198 --> 01:41:57,742
There hasn't been
one since, really.
2094
01:41:57,784 --> 01:42:00,036
♪♪
2095
01:42:00,078 --> 01:42:04,624
Actress:
It is beyond your power
to change the face of destiny.
2096
01:42:04,708 --> 01:42:07,711
Outside this place,
there's a great evil.
2097
01:42:07,752 --> 01:42:11,756
Men speak of hatred
and sharpen the knives.
2098
01:42:11,840 --> 01:42:14,384
I will make you well
2099
01:42:14,426 --> 01:42:18,221
and perhaps your life
will find a new sweetness.
2100
01:42:20,015 --> 01:42:23,977
Actor:
You don't have to prove
anything anymore.
2101
01:42:24,060 --> 01:42:28,189
You are accepted.
2102
01:42:28,273 --> 01:42:32,986
You will be in your own
new dimension.
2103
01:42:33,069 --> 01:42:35,405
♪♪
2104
01:42:35,447 --> 01:42:39,034
Hudson:
You'll have to go on
asking yourself,
2105
01:42:39,117 --> 01:42:40,869
what's your dream?
2106
01:42:42,746 --> 01:42:44,873
What's your dream today?
2107
01:42:48,376 --> 01:42:50,211
There's an old saying:
2108
01:42:50,295 --> 01:42:53,423
"Nobody really dies
till he's forgotten."
2109
01:43:06,728 --> 01:43:09,898
♪ Barry McGuire
playing "So Long, Stay Well" ♪
2110
01:43:13,943 --> 01:43:17,989
♪ Little boy, go ride
the pale horse in the park ♪
2111
01:43:18,073 --> 01:43:19,491
♪ Count
the golden butterflies ♪
2112
01:43:19,574 --> 01:43:21,409
♪ Stay out till dark ♪
2113
01:43:21,493 --> 01:43:25,163
♪ Never mind the grownups
who sing their old song ♪
2114
01:43:25,246 --> 01:43:26,998
♪ So long ♪
2115
01:43:27,040 --> 01:43:29,292
♪ Stay well ♪
2116
01:43:29,334 --> 01:43:32,337
♪ Love was here ♪
2117
01:43:32,379 --> 01:43:36,007
♪ And gone ♪
2118
01:43:36,091 --> 01:43:39,928
♪ Little boy, you're older,
keep life while you can ♪
2119
01:43:40,011 --> 01:43:43,848
♪ Happy days and holidays
so soon escape man ♪
2120
01:43:43,890 --> 01:43:47,352
♪ Soon you'll be a grownup
and sing your own song ♪
2121
01:43:47,394 --> 01:43:49,312
♪ So long ♪
2122
01:43:49,354 --> 01:43:51,272
♪ Stay well ♪
2123
01:43:51,356 --> 01:43:54,818
♪ Love was here ♪
2124
01:43:54,859 --> 01:43:58,029
♪ And gone ♪
2125
01:43:58,071 --> 01:44:02,450
♪ Some other autumn
will right all the wrongs ♪
2126
01:44:02,534 --> 01:44:05,912
♪ So long ♪
2127
01:44:05,995 --> 01:44:09,958
♪ Stay well ♪
2128
01:44:10,041 --> 01:44:13,336
♪ Love was here ♪
2129
01:44:13,378 --> 01:44:15,213
♪ And gone ♪
2130
01:44:15,296 --> 01:44:17,549
♪♪
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