All language subtitles for Best.Interests.S01E04.WEB

I couldn't see her any more.
I couldn't see the...

..things that made her HER.

They want to switch off her
machines,

and we want to keep them on.

They say she's in a lot of pain!
She is still your child!

Yes! Yes, she is!

So you just left her and me?

That makes it
sound like I abandoned you.

Yeah, cos you did.

However you feel about what your
parents are doing, it's not about

picking sides.
Of course it is.

And I'm on Marnie's side.

We believe we can suggest a bias in
the treatment Marnie has received

from Samantha Woodham.

She perforated an artery.

It sounds pretty deadly to me.

Marnie, she's complicated.

But...you know, she's, er,
she's joyous.

I really miss you.

Do you think you'll win, Nicci?
Any change in her condition?

Can I just go and see my daughter?

Can't we do better than this?

This programme contains some strong
language and some scenes which
some viewers may find upsetting

BABY GURGLES
Yeah! You like that, do you?

HE CHUCKLES

Hey.

She finds wallpaper funny.

Does she? Are you sure that's OK?

The steam and...

Ah, I think it's fine.

Yeah? Yeah.

Should have probably done
it before she got here.

She loves it.

Look at that smile.
I was thinking maybe a picnic.

Ah, it's a bit cold.

Yeah, we'll just wrap up, won't we?
We'll wrap up.

You going to make sandwiches?

I'm not going to make sandwiches,
sexist!

We'll buy sandwiches. Ah.

I'll get you a sausage roll
if you're lucky.

Oh, I'm in!
THEY LAUGH

BABY GURGLES
Ah! She finds that funny too.

Ah, no, no! Ah!

RADIO: ..factors at play

when the life of a young
child is at stake.

Looking at the papers this morning,

this makes the front page

on nearly every single...

ANDREW SIGHS

Ready?

Yeah.

It's going to be OK.
Yeah, yeah.

Mint?
Ah, I just brushed my teeth.

You need a mint, mate.

You keep them.

Nicci! Nicci! Nicci! Nicci!

REPORTERS CLAMOUR

We're just going to go straight in,
thank you very much.

Pre-match huddle?

Yeah. OK.

A rundown of who's here.

Francesca Camara, representing the
hospital and Dr Samantha Woodham.

She's very good.
Beatrice Shrigley, working with

Greg Richardson and the Children
and Family Legal Services team.

Representing Marnie.
Yeah, we met Mr Richardson.

Good lawyers, but so are we.

We're going to save Marnie's life,
Mrs Lloyd.

We're going to do something
special here today.

Yeah, good.

How long have you been Marnie's
paediatric consultant?

I have observed Marnie in PICU
for close to seven years.

She's a patient I know very well.

And will you tell us what you think
the best treatment is for her now?

I am sorry to say that I think
we should stop all treatments.

I believe the life-sustaining
treatments we are currently

giving are causing her to suffer
without any prospect of helping her.

How would you describe Marnie's
current interaction with the world?

She will never,
in my medical opinion,

leave ventilated breathing support.

She shows little response to stimuli

and her brain scans show
irreversible damage.

So her conscious experience?

In my judgment,

right now, she has very little,
if any, conscious experience.

No further questions.

How many children have you
treated like Marnie?

No case is alike, but I have treated

maybe 20 or 25 children with
severe muscular dystrophy.

How many end up in a situation
where, in your opinion,

treatment can no
longer be of use?

I couldn't tell you that exactly.

How many have died in your care?

Six.

The deterioration in each case was
similar to what we've seen

with Marnie?

No cases are alike. And Marnie's
specific condition is unique.

In fact, as you say,
it is as yet undiagnosed.

As happens frequently with
neuromuscular disorders.

But as it is undiagnosed,
how can you be 100% sure that

continuing treatment is futile?

I am as certain as I can be.

And if I were to tell you

that there are doctors who believe
they can treat Marnie?

Marnie's conscious experience,
another complicated area, is it not?

Yes.

Have there been examples,

to your knowledge, of children with
severe brain damage who recover?

I do not believe it is likely
there will be any

miracle improvement.

Of course, you must have
your beliefs.

Let us discuss pain.

Ventilation itself isn't painful,
is it?

No, but suctioning is
very unpleasant.

And how often does that happen?

Several times a day.

And if Marnie has very little,
if any, conscious experience,

in your opinion,
how would she feel pain

in these isolated
suctioning incidents?

There are autonomic
responses from Marnie

that do, I'm afraid, suggest pain.

You cannot have it both ways,
Dr Woodham.

Either she doesn't have
a conscious experience,

in which case she isn't in pain,
or she does.

You're wrong.

We have seen a series of reactions,
from spasms to

changing heart rates, which do
suggest that while her conscious

experience is extremely limited,
her pain response is still there.

Let me take you back to
2016, if that's OK?

Sure.

May 24th.

Marnie presented with an infection.

Yes. Um, I would need
to consult my notes.

You had to put in a
central venous catheter.

A central line.

Yes. And it went wrong.

You perforated an artery.

Which led to distal ischemia.
Yes.

You needed to call in a vascular
surgeon to repair the damage.

This incident was referred up to the
consultants' group and it was seen

to be an unfortunate complication of
a competently performed procedure.

"Competently performed"?

How can something be
"competently performed"

when it almost leads to ischemia?

That is what they concluded.

We are human beings.

And...I am sorry it happened...

..and I am grateful there was no
damage to Marnie in the long term.

What do you know of unconscious
bias in the medical profession?

Well, it's something that we're
all concerned with.

A doctor in a raft is told only
seven people can

survive on the rations they have.

He has to make a decision as to
who to save.

He or she. I do beg your pardon,
Dr Woodham.

How does he or she
make the judgment?

We do not ration care
in this country.

You're denying that during Covid
there was rationing of care

for disabled people?
There was a prioritisation.

Who do you prioritise?

Now, we happen to have
some correspondence

that was passed to us
at very late notice.

My Lady!

I apologise enormously, My Lady.
It was this morning.

I emailed the court as soon as
I received it.

I received no email.

Do you have copies for the others?
Yes, My Lady.

My Lady, we have no means
of verifying this document.

We can ask the witness.

Did this email come from you?

How did you get this?

Yes.

Then I'll allow it.

This is a correspondence between
you and a bed manager about

how to move people out of PICU in
preparation for the Covid outbreak.

Dated February 2020.

They ask you what they should do
about bed 16 and you reply,

"Bed 16 shouldn't be there,

"the parents have been clinging to
hope without there being any."

I was expressing a medical opinion.

I...regret how it sounds.

Do you believe that sometimes, for
patients, as a doctor, that the best

thing to do is to let them die?

That was another child
and another set of circumstances.

It was a busy time.

Lots of people to save?

Yes.

How irritating, then, to have a bed

taken up with this disabled child
which determined parents

are there to protect.

I do think the sanctity of life
is important.

But sometimes, as doctors, we're
unable to preserve a meaningful

life, and in that case it is cruel
to prolong the dying process

with treatments that
do not benefit them.

Where is that stated? Is that in the
good medical practice guidelines,

as laid out by the GMC?

My Lady!

Mr Frederick, your questioning
here is inappropriate,

as I believe you're well aware.

Dr Woodham, you do not need to
answer but you may if you wish.

Mm.

Marnie is in pain.

She's unable to communicate,

and I am no longer helping her.

I am just prolonging her death.

When the other doctors decided
that you had had

an unfortunate complication
in perforating Marnie's artery

and almost leaving her with
another disability,

on what grounds did they do so?

Sorry?

On what grounds did they make
their judgment on you?

The grounds of, um...

I'm sorry, I...

They gave you the benefit
of the doubt, Dr Woodham.

Just as you have failed to give
Marnie the benefit of the doubt.

No. In fact, and instead,
what Marnie has faced

every day in your care is your
prejudice that this little girl

and her little life are taking up
space in your precious PICU.

No.

I am sorry that you're
getting emotional.

That was not my intention.

But there is, of course, a lot of
emotion attached to this case.

She is my patient and I have always
given her the finest care.

In your opinion.

No further questions.

You doing OK?

Great.

You've had no further trouble?

I'm fine.

That was a good morning for us.

I'm sure it feels like that.

PHONE BUZZES

Hey.

Hey there.

Mind if I...?

Uh, no. Not at all.

Is it allowed?

It's allowed.

How do you think it's going?
Honestly? Yeah.

Horribly.

These things are usually...

..not collegiate, but there's
a certain level of respect.

However this turns out,
look after yourself, OK?

Ah, yeah, it's just an egg stain.

Sorry?

On the tie. It's just an egg stain.

I know what drinking looks like.

I know what drinking smells like.

Have you got any lunch?

Er, no.

OK. I can get some more.

What? No, no, no, no.
You can, and you will.

My favourite flavour.
Cheese and onion.

My favourite. Good.

Mr Lloyd.

Would you consent to a few
questions from me?

I've...
CLEARS THROAT

I've nothing to hide.
Thank you.

Your wife gave up her job
when Marnie was diagnosed?

And I'm very grateful for that.

Rather she kept herself
focused on Marnie.

Well, her job wasn't
very understanding.

You kept working?

Yes. Uh, we needed the money.

Do you remember who was earning
more when Marnie was born?

Your wife or yourself?

Er, she was.

So, a better economic decision might
have been for you to give up

your job and for your
wife to keep on going.

You're right.

Can you explain why, then, you were
the one to keep your job?

To be honest,
the question wasn't asked.

What sort of hours do you work,
Mr Lloyd?

9.30 till 6.00 most days.

And your business, accountancy,
has grown since Marnie was born?

Yes.

So, occasionally you have meetings
in the evenings, at weekends?

I...have always...um...

..have made a lot of time
for my family.

So any suggestion you've buried
yourself in work...

My Lady! I am not here to represent
Mr Lloyd, but as he's

representing himself and perhaps
unused to the court situation,

I do feel obliged to say
these questions do feel

unnecessarily intrusive.

Agreed.

Would you consider yourself
a good father, Andrew?

I'd hope...that I'm a good dad.

I don't believe this
line of questioning is fruitful.

I'm not going to be helped by
intrusive questions of Mr Lloyd.

If you have any questions
about Marnie's quality of life,

please ask them.
Apologies, My Lady.

I'm not looking to be intrusive,
just drawing a picture

as to the family dynamic,
so as to

get a...a better sense of who might
best represent Marnie's interests.

Mr Frederick, I have no doubt that
everyone involved in this case

firmly believes that they are

putting Marnie's best interests
first. It's not a competition.

Parenting a child with Marnie's
needs must be extremely trying.

There are difficulties but, er...

..immense pleasures, too.

She's a beautiful girl.

Has the pressure ever
overwhelmed you?

Frequently.

There have been moments

when you have made mistakes looking
after her, haven't there?

The time that Marnie was left alone
with her temperature rising

while you were in
your garden, drinking.

Um...

I had...

I had a couple of beers, sure,

but I had the monitor with me
and I couldn't anticipate...

Was it a COUPLE of beers?

I... Um...

Perhaps four or five.

Were there drugs involved?

Maybe I'd smoked some weed.
I do occasionally.

It doesn't impact my judgment.

To be clear, at that moment
she required hospitalisation.

I...

I think we've both made mistakes,
haven't we, Nicci?

Is this another mistake, Mr Lloyd?

You're aware that if you do this,
there is no coming back?

Am I aware that my daughter
will be dead?

Yes. I'm...aware of that.

I don't want to make
this decision. I...

I just...um...

I feel obliged to.

No further questions.

Where does that obligation
come from?

The obligation to
make that decision?

I looked at her and, um...

..I, um...

It's a difficult thing,
watching your child in pain,

especially when you believe
she won't get better.

That is supposition on the basis
of no medical training.

But I have studied. My wife and I
both have. We're specialists.

You know, I believe one thing
and she believes another, and

I believe that hers is on the basis
of a wish that I wish I shared.

The obligation comes from love.

And if that doesn't sound...

Well, look, I don't really care how
it sounds.

No further questions.

Uh, I'm going to catch
the bus home, OK?

Oh. Well, Grandad was going to
give us a lift.

Er, yeah, I'm going to catch
the bus.

Just need some space.

OK.

I'm so sorry this is
so late in the day. Oh, that's OK.

I'm just pleased to finally be
getting to talk to you.

I think I can help you.

Great.

So, what's your opinion on what's
best now, for Marnie?

Marnie needs time.
We need to be able to chart

whether any recovery from the
hypoxic brain damage is possible.

We need to see what treatment might
be best for her condition.

So, I say we give her that time
and get her tracheostomised

and supported.

I can't, er...

I can't tell you how good it feels
to hear a doctor say it.

Medicine's an observational sport.

Too many give up on that
observation too quickly.

There are many that believe that
risdiplam might have

an impact across a spectrum
of neuromuscular disorders.

Yeah, I said...
I said the same.

And the important thing
from the court's perspective is not

that such a thing is probable,
but that it's possible.

But you've had success
with children like Marnie?

Mrs Lloyd, I've had success
with all kinds of children

that medical science
would otherwise have discarded.

What's in the picnic basket?

I don't know yet,
cos it's in the shop.

Got it.

CAR ENGINE STARTS

You look like a fucking statue.

Yeah.

You want to talk about it?

I had...

I had thoughts.
I had thoughts things...

..would be easier without her.

I had those thoughts.

Of course you did. You knew
how hard it was with me.

No. That's not true.

I loved being your big brother.

I quite liked being
your little brother.

MUSIC: Animal Nitrate
by Suede

Dance with me.

No! Come on. Dance with me.

Fuck off! No, dance with me.
Come on.

# Like his dad,
you know that he's had

# Animal nitrate in mind

# Oh, in your council home
he jumped on your bones

# Now you're taking it
time after time

# Oh, it turns you on, on... #

SIREN WAILS

I'm guessing you'll
be sleeping here.

Thanks, yeah.

I'll bring you in
a cup of tea at seven.

Once upon a time...

..there was a button...

..called Little Button...

..and she lived with her mum...

..Mummy Hat...

..and her dad, Daddy Shirt...

..and her sister...

..Sister Shoe...

..in a room above a factory.

One day...

One day she went to the beach...

..and she...

SHE CRIES

You wait there, OK, sweetheart?

OK, I'll, er...
I'll finish it off.

I've got this.

You take your time and then, er,
then we'll climb up the hill, OK?

I'm sorry. It's all right, darling.
It's all right. It's all right.

Hello! Hello, sweetheart!

You're OK.

You know, I've even got
a story about Sister Shoes.

I have.

It's OK.

Could you explain to us
why the doctors are wrong?

Marnie has a congenital
muscular dystrophy.

Her specific form has never
been diagnosed,

it's hard to diagnose,
and therefore hard to treat,

but I believe that
treatments are possible.

For instance,
an experimental treatment

called risdiplam
might have an impact.

My Lady, that drug

is not licensed for use by NICE,
the FDA, or the EMA

for Marnie's condition.

Er, right now it isn't,
but drug use changes

all the time.

We're not here to guess as to what
treatments might work.

I agree. Please refrain
from guesswork, Dr Pankerman.

We're here to establish facts.

My point is not that a cure
is available,

my point is that it
might be available.

We will investigate
and make cases for treatments.

And while we do so,
we'll keep Marnie alive.

No further questions.

Talk me through your qualifications
in PICU.

15 years qualified.

I'm an attending physician
that works mainly in neurology.

Sorry, you misunderstand me.

I know it's another country's
medical system, so it's complicated,

but paediatric medicine,
what is your specialism there?

Unlike Dr Woodham, who is
a generalist, I'm a neurologist.

I work with all ages.

I can understand the brain.

Have you examined Marnie's brain?

I haven't been to examine
her face-to-face

but I have looked at the scans.

So this is just an opinion
based on no direct examination?

Your medical system has prevented me
from examining Marnie.

As such, my opinion is provisional.

It is far from categoric but I do
think the possibility exists.

To be clear to the court, a second
opinion was sought and given.

The consultant asked a friend
of hers from a neighbouring

hospital to examine the girl.

Unsurprisingly,
she agreed with the consultant.

Are you claiming that
Professor Bradbury

has not complied with her
duty to the court?

That's an extremely serious
allegation to make.

What is your evidence for it?

No, I'm not saying that,
I'm just saying that often

colleagues support each other.

Tell me, you have appeared in other
proceedings concerning

medical treatment for minors,
have you not?

Yes. How many cases where there
is a decision to be made

about the future care of a child?

I don't know, maybe three.

Well, this was just a simple
Google search.

We found evidence of you
contributing to seven trials

on this basis.
Why do you think that is?

I'm happy to help.

To go against the establishment.
Not many are, in my profession.

A bit of aggression from them
helps us, to be honest.

What did you recommend,

in all those cases,
for the child involved?

Have you ever recommended that
ventilation should cease?

No.

I found evidence they should live.

No further questions.

KATIE: Hey.

I followed you.

Oh.

Well, that's kids for you.

One day they don't want to know,

next day they're following you
to church.

Go ahead, Mum. Pray.
I'm just...just here.

No, it's OK.

Maybe you'll have a thunderbolt
moment and start believing in God.

Yeah? Maybe I can be saved.

You know they're only doing what
they need to do to win this?

Yeah, I understand that.

I mean, what they're doing,
they're... Dad doesn't...

Mum...that's not my problem.

Was he the best they could do?

SHE SIGHS

I thought...

Would you trust him with Marnie?

No.

I don't think she'd want this.

Sorry.

I don't.

You're a brave girl.

You're always so brave.

Mrs Lloyd,

tell me why you oppose
the hospital in this action.

Because I believe my daughter
should live.

Even though she's in pain?

I don't believe that.

You've seen the reports.
You've been present

at Marnie being suctioned,
where it's claimed a clear pain

response has been present.

I've never seen that pain.

My Lady...
If I'd have seen that pain...

..we wouldn't be here now.

I believe we can allow Mrs Lloyd
to have her own

version of events, counsel.

Why do you think the hospital
disagrees with you?

Um...

Er, that's a big question.

Take your time.

I can't...um...

I can't tell you the amount of times
that you are encouraged,

as a parent of a disabled child,

to just...

..to just give up.

We had it all through
this...pandemic.

I had friends told that their kids
wouldn't get machines.

And I always knew I had to keep
Marnie safe because if she did get

the damn thing, I didn't know
that she would survive it because...

..I didn't know that she
would get the help...

..to survive.

And then we made it out
the other side and...

..and suddenly...

My point is that, um...

..people say that they care about
disabled people, but...

..always, all the time...

..I see different.

Marnie's my, er...

Marnie's my beautiful child and
it's an honour to be her mother.

So I've learned
to put my shoulder down.

I just put my shoulder down
and I just...

..I just keep charging.

Ready?

You know what you used
to say to me any time

I had something difficult to do?
No.

Mum would tell me to try to be
brave. You told me

I didn't need to try,
I was already brave.

Well, I'm not you.

You want me to come?

You don't like crowds.

I will, though, if you want me to.

I can do this on my own.

Are you all right?
Yeah.

Hi. Hi.

I like the smart threads.

New?

Yeah, well...ish.

We're here for you both.

Yeah. Well, we better go in.

All rise.

These cases are clearly never easy.

This case particularly so.

I recognise that the strong
presumption in favour

of a course of action that will
prolong life

is not an irrebuttable one.

It reflects the position that life,
as precious as it is,

cannot be,
and indeed should not be

preserved at all costs in the face
of its natural conclusion.

But equally I recognise that

Marnie Lloyd is clearly
an exceptional, bright,

happy and well-loved child.

And it is plain from Dr Woodham's
evidence, and the evidence

given by Mr and Mrs Lloyd,
that Marnie's parents have been

doughty defenders of their
daughter's best interests

over many years,
to her undoubted benefit.

The position adopted by Mrs Lloyd

before the court is
eminently reasonable

and wholly understandable.

It represents a continuation
of the love and dedication

that she and her family have
shown to Marnie throughout her life.

This is a case of huge complication
and immense difficulty.

I'm going to break my thinking
into four areas.

HE BREATHES RAGGEDLY
So we begin with the evidence...

It's a panic attack. It'll pass.

GASPING: It's just a panic attack.
It'll pass.

I've had them before.

Is he all right?
It's all right.

He's just having a panic attack.
He's had them before. Thank you.

ANDREW SOBS

All right. Deep breaths, come on.

You're OK. It's all right.

And so, for all those reasons,

I will make the declaration
sought by the hospital...

NICCI GASPS, SOBS

...that the continuation
of life-sustaining treatment

is not in Marnie's best interests.

NICCI SOBS

INDISTINCT CHATTER

We'll sort it with Derek and talk
about a potential appeal. Derek?

Yes, absolutely.

Look, it's hard now, I know, but...

INDISTINCT CHATTER

Can we go? Let's just go.

HE EXHALES

DOORBELL

No, I'll get it.

Hello.
Hi, Tom.

Is, um...?

Hello.
Hi.

I was just...writing to you.

Saying what?

Sh...shall I leave?

Well, no. We'll just...
We'll go for a walk.

I always like a walk.

All right? Yeah.

OK.

They want me to appeal.

Of course they do.

I shouldn't have told them
about your drinking.

I'm ashamed that I did that.
I should... You needed to win.

You-you were...

You ARE an excellent dad.

I'm not saying you're right,
and I'm not...

But I'm...

But I'm-I'm stopping it.

You're sure?

Morning!

This is an unexpected bounty.

Yeah, well, they're mostly
ones you've sold us.

What's brought this on?

Um, well, you won't be seeing us
again for a while.

She's a smasher, your Marnie.

I don't want her to die here.

Um...

I'm afraid, as I understand it,
she has to.

Oh.

I, um... I asked the same thing,

back at the beginning, I asked
whether we could, you know,

get her home, and I was told that
she'd die in the ambulance.

Right.

What they have said is once they've
turned off all the machines and,

you know, let her...go...

..um...

..they can put
her in an ambulance for us

and we can get her home then
and put her to bed.

She'd be, er...

She'd be dead.

Or, um, well, we could explore
the, um...the transplant option.

Right.

What do you think?

I decided I'd leave that
question to you.

Oh.

Well, thank you for researching it

but...I want us to decide together.

Yeah. Um...

I mean, I genuinely...

I'm not sure on this. Um...

I think Marnie would quite like to

be back in her own bed...

..and, um...

..and I think Marnie would quite
like to be useful, you know,

to other people.

Katie?

Me?

Yes, please.

Um...

I think...

I think transplant.

Could they do it quickly?
They could make that happen, yeah.

Well, let's make it happen.

Will we hear it?

Will we hear it when she dies?

There might be some breathing.

But will it sound like
she's in pain?

That's unlikely.

Chances are she'll just pass.

Can we call it dying? Not letting
go or passing on, just...

..just dying.

With the morphine she's on,

I don't believe she'll
feel any pain.

Have you got anything you want
to say to her?

I think she knows how I feel.

I love you, Marnie.

I love you, too.

I love you so much.

I've got something I want to say.

OK.

KATIE WHISPERS

Are you ready?

Are the transplant team ready?

Yes.

Um, so, um...what will happen?

Once we've taken out
the breathing tube,

we'll let her breathe on her own.
She may take a few breaths.

You will have a little
time to hold her.

Then her heart will slow
and then it will stop.

When that happens, we need to get
her next door, straight away.

OK.

Then I-I think we're ready.

OK.

SOFT BEEPING

SNIFFLING

There we go.

There we go, lamb.

Goodnight. Sleep tight.

I love you. I love you. I love you.

Was that the wrong thing to say?

No.

LIGHTER IGNITES

Well, I'll, um...

Get in the van.

I don't know where we're going
but we're going there together.

Right?
I agree with her.

OK. Thanks.

I'm going to miss her...so much.

You know I will too, right?

You even thinking you need
to say that just...

..makes me feel like such
an arsehole.

We made her happy and...

..and that's...

Well, she made us happy, too.
She really did.

REAR DOOR OPENS

So, where to?

I could be hungry.

You could? Mm.
Well, that's shocking.

That's a great idea. Um...

..the Italian place by the library?

Yeah. Good.

Music? You want some music?

Oh. I, er...

Your dongle, it's, uh...it's busted.

You broke my dongle?

Yeah. Yeah, I snapped it.
I snapped it in anger.

Well, shall I sing something, then?

KATIE CHUCKLES

Uh... I've got my music.

Oh, she's got her music.

Let's hear it, then.
All right.

MUSIC: 20/20
by Rimon

# Whoa, whoa
Woo, ooh

# Whoa, whoa
Woo, ooh, ooh

# Whoa, hmm

# I see your sunlight through
the window, it's magic, uh

# My thoughts and body were just
caught by this traffic, uh

# You watched time pass while
I kept myself distracted, uh

# Will you forgive now
that I'm paying attention?

# Uh, I see your sunlight through
the window, it's magic, uh

# My thoughts and body were just
caught by this traffic, uh

# Where did our time go?

# Encounters beautiful

# Only you are the one
to break the shackles of my burden

# Are the one to show me
glory in the moment

# Cannot pay you back

# Even if I could, I can
only fall on my knees

# Show my gratitude for your deeds

# I see your sunlight through

# The window, it's magic, uh

# My thoughts and body were just

# Caught by this traffic, uh

# You watched time pass while

# I kept myself distracted. #