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♪ everybody wants to live ♪

♪ like they wanna live ♪

♪ and everybody
Wants to love ♪

♪ like they wanna love ♪

♪ and everybody
Wants to be ♪

♪ closer to free ♪

A family album.

I got the script,
Like any other,

Sort of, audition,
Um, and read it

And had a reaction to
This particular script,

Like, I'm sure,
Everyone who read it,

Where, um,
I turned to the girl

That I was with
At the time,

I put it down,
And I just sort of
Had tears in my eyes,

And I said,
"I have to do this."

We saw him the first--
The first day--

Sec--he was, like,
The second or third actor,

And we both said, um,
Yep...That's it.

Shh.

Listen. Just to keep you
Up to date--

And don't take this
The wrong way--

But I'm going crazy here.

So unless I come up with
Some kind of nanny soon,

I'm gonna have
To sell you off
To white-slave traders.

Now, I know that's not
How you pictured yourself
Growing up,

But, hey...
Welcome to the club.

The next 2 people
We cast, uh, were,

Uh, lacey--claudia--
And matthew, as charlie,

And we cast both of them
Off a videotape
From new york,

Which is a terrible way
To cast people.

You're eating
Your lunch, and you're
Fast-forwarding

Through the tapes,
And everyone's going,

"That's bad." "Oh,
That's the wrong look."
"There's a blonde."

Scene 2.

Guess what. I'm gonna
Be a screaming girl
In the crucible.

No kidding, claud.
A screaming girl?

Sounds like
A great part.

Yeah. Well, I don't
Actually have any lines.

I just scream a lot.

Wanna see?

Aah!

Stop it! Stop it!

God, you're good...

There was so much, sort of,
Sunshine in her face.

And she was so--

It wasn't exactly
How she did the scenes.

It was just
An essence of her.

What do you mean,
You pawned it?

I had no choice.

Look, I mean, lessons
Are real expensive,

And we're kind of
Strapped right now.

Owen has no one
To take care of him.

I guess I had to choose
Between my violin

And a nanny
For my baby brother.

Sorry, ross.

I'm sorry.

We were having
A very difficult time
With the role of charlie.

I was hurtin'.
I needed a job.

I was studying
In new york, um,

And just doing whatever
I could do to get by.

And, uh, went into
An audition in new york,

Went on tape.

I remember with matthew,
We were sitting
And looking at him,

And he was
Kind of green--

It was
Very bad lighting,
Very bad sound--

And somebody said...

Quiet! Wait a second.
Look at this guy.

And we all stopped and looked
At matt's--matthew's tape.

And we went, "Oohh..."

10 seconds later,
We would have gone
Through that tape,

And we would never
Have seen matthew.

And I think I was
The one who said,

"I don't know if he's
Attractive enough."

Matthew, on the back
Of his headshot--
We joke about it--

It said, "Can operate
Farm equipment."

I'd grown up in wyoming
My whole life.

That's the guy
We got to have.

That's the kind
Of flexibility you need.

Most likely
To appear on hee haw.

We flew him out...

To read with scott,
Who'd already been cast.

Well, matthew was
The first, uh...Person

I really talked to
Of the rest of the cast,

Actually,
At his audition.

We were walking
Down the hallway,

And it was just one
Of those awkward moments

When 2 people are just
Getting to know each other.

And I was trying to find
Some sort of common ground
Or something.

And I turned
To him and said...

"It's funny.
You know, uh...

Wolf, fox."

Fox, wolf--you know.

I said..."Yeah."

Kind of strange.

That was kind of--

That was our first
Heart-to-heart.

You let everyone think
You're this great guy...

Just trying to hold
His family together.

You're just like
A father to us.

Even if we know
It's a lie.

In trying to cast julia,

We were looking
For a 15-year-old.

And we couldn't
Find anybody.

And we had gone
Through everyone
In los angeles

And a lot of other
Cities as well.

And every time
We went to the network,

They kept, um, they kept
Sending us back out

And saying,
"Please find someone

A little more mature,
A little more--"

I hate to use the word "Sexy"
For a 15-year-old,

But essentially that's
What we were looking for.

Neve came in,
Read, walked out,

And I remember all of us
Turning to susan edelman,
Who was our casting director,

And saying, "Why are
You just sitting here?
Get on the phone!"

I really liked this guy,
And he dumped me, bailey.

And you don't know
What to say

'cause you don't know
How that feels.

And you can't tell me
That it's gonna be ok

'cause you don't know
That it is.

God, there's no one.

You know, there's no one
To tell me what to do.

Please, bailey...

Please just go away.

Ok?

And finally, they brought us,
Um, you know, to fox
And to columbia,

And they paired us up,
You know, as a family,

And it was really special.

All of us were waiting
In the waiting room,

And then they invited
Lacey, neve, scott,
And I into the room.

Like, well,
"Should we tell them?
Should we tell them?"

And I thought it was
Definitely bad news.

And they told
Them that, you know,
Guess what, you know,

You guys are our family,
Our salingers and...

Congratulations.
You're the salingers.

We got it. It was great.
It was very, very exciting.

Salinger, party of 5.

We just went nuts,

And we're hugging
Each other,

And we all just
Sort of huddled up

And just, sort of,
Were looking around,

Just looking at
Each other's eyes.

And everyone was
Sort of short of breath

And excited.

But you could

Sense right there
That this was gonna
Be something

That was--was
Very special.

You knew that we were
Going someplace.

Kids and dogs,

Which has presented
Problems throughout
The course of the show.

Assistant director:
Take 7.

One of the funniest things
That I remember was,

Uh, we were
Doing the pilot,

And it was
The first scene we shot.

And I think
It might have been

The first scene...

In--shot, ever,
Of party of five.

And neve had
To hold the baby...

And this baby
Is just crying--
Screaming and crying.

Shh shh shh...

Party take one...

This baby
Just does not want
To be changed,

Doesn't want
To be on the set,

Just is not interested
In anything, and
She has to hug him.

28-david,
Take 6, pickup lines.

Don't start.

Just the look
On her face--I felt
So badly for her.

Waaaaah!

I even offered
At one point--

I was, like, "Bailey
Can change the baby
In this scene."

But she was just
Struggling through it.

And that was, like,
Our first taste

Of what it was gonna
Mean to be working
With babies...

And with dogs.

I used to get all
The scenes with him.

Not that I didn't like him,

But he was always
Slobbering on me,
And he was fat.

He's sweet, though.

Come on.
Be a real dog for once.

We have this phrase, uh--
"Just look at the dog."

And it came from the pilot,
Because--

It was about mid--
It was maybe, like,
12:30 at night.

And because of the permits
They had at this house,

We had to get this shot
And move on.

And, literally,
Guys are running in
With stands and lights--

Running--and things are
Wobbling and they're--

"Rolling! Rolling!
Let's go!"

And someone leans in--
The director leans in
And says,

"At the end of the shot,
Look at the dog."

And, you know, of course,
Being, you know, actor boy,

I kind of said, "Why?"

And about 8 people
Turned and just went,
"Just look at the dog!"

So that became
Our little slogan

For "Don't ask questions.
Just do what we need you
To do."

I think we had 3 weeks
To shoot the pilot

And to create a family
And to make these brothers
And sisters believable.

You missed dinner,
You know.

It's ok.
I'll grab something.

You know
What I mean, julia.

You missed dinner.

So what? It's not
The end of the world.

It's the one thing
We agreed to do together.

This is 6 months after their
Parents have passed away.

And there's, sort of,
All these strange
Dynamics going on.

Ok. So tomorrow
We go to mr. Graham

And we ask him
For an advance.

No.

Why not?
It's an emergency.

Because we've got
To seem in charge!

We've got to seem
Like we can handle
Everything ourselves,

Like a normal family,

Or else they
Have an excuse
To split us up.

Great, charlie.

Thanks.

Thanks a lot.

Towards the end
Of the episode,

The most important thing
Turned out to be
The family

And their relationships
And connections
With each other.

Julia, I figure there is
So much that I don't know

That all I can do...

Is grab on to the stuff
That I'm sure of.

You know, like,
The five of us,

The five of us
Have to stay together
As long as we can.

It just feels right,
Doesn't it?

It's the same thing
With this dinner thing.

It's just--I know we
Have to keep that going.

Why?

Because it matters.

It matters to me.

It matters
To the others.

And I know it would have
Mattered to mom and dad.

I don't think people
Tuned in at that point,

And to this point,

To see a group of actors

Pretending
To love each other.

You actually see
A group of people

Who care about each other.

How about that?

We just might manage.

So what's
Everyone having?

Shove over, charlie.

Glad you made it.

Too bad kirsten couldn't
Come tonight, huh, bay?

Kirsten? Who's kirsten?

She's our new nanny.

Oh, yeah?

Where's the sourdough?

He's got it.

So you finally
Hired someone?

Yeah. We have a new nanny.

I want the sourdough.

Fine.
It's yours.

Eww, gross! You took
A bite out of it.

So what's
This kirsten like?

She--she's
Very professional.

Yeah...

Do I need
A number 2 pencil

For the test?

Sarah.

"My darling sarah..."

You're sarah, too?

She's my namesake.
Go on.

Whoo-hoo!

I passed! Ok?

I got my cat, um...

I have no idea.

I--do I have a cat?!

You're giving me a cat?

I didn't even know
I had a cat, I swear to god!

I have a cat?!
When did I get a cat?

Ok. So I guess
This is kind of like

A consolation prize,
Right?

Lose a mother,
Gain a pet?

Hey...

What episode
Did that happen in?

Was that my adoptive parents?
Did they give me a cat?

So I was wondering
If you wouldn't mind
Keeping an eye on her,

You know, while I'm gone?

The cat! I remember that.

I had a cat for one episode,

And he was in a cage

Because he didn't want to
Be held during the scene.

Now I remember.
It's an orange cat.

I remember the cat. Ok.

All right.

I did have a cat.

The, uh--tshh--I didn't even
Know I had a cat,

So that ques--trigger.
I have no idea.

Barney. I don't know.
What was the cat's name?

Well, amanda just hates
Traveling with me.

I mean, stuck
In that box all day,
Who can blame her?

The cat really--ok.

All right. Good.

Coming up,
The salingers' most
Dramatic thanksgiving...

And how the party almost ended
Before it began

A family album continues.

Dinner is served.

Bailey made dinner?

Can you believe
They only give you
6 meatballs in a can?

Is that a ripoff?

Gosh, we must have done
6 or 7 episodes before
It even started airing.

And it was
Doing really bad
In the beginning.

You think it's always
Gonna be like this for us?

No.

Maybe these are
The good old days.

I remember that,
In the beginning,

I was a little bit
Frustrated and--and,

Like, you know,
"Why aren't people
Catching on to this?"

There's a way
To handle these people.

Not that I have
The slightest clue
What it is.

All I could do
Was keep working,

Keep going to work
And hoping we weren't

Gonna get told that morning
That we were done.

What do you got?
Nothing!

What do you got? Nada!

What do you got? Zilch!

And for a while,
Our first season,
That's what it was like.

You know, we'd come to work
And just really hope

That this wasn't gonna
Be the day where they say

We couldn't do it anymore.

Walter alcott was released
From prison last week.

He wants to see you.

The thanksgiving episode
In the very first season

Was one of my favorites,

When they deal
With the drunk driver

Who killed their parents.

Are you saying
You want to see him?

I'm not sure.

Forget it.
He can shove his apology.

It doesn't do me any good.

It was one of the first

More really, really dramatic
Episodes that we had--

Well, they're all
Pretty dramatic.

But, uh, you know,
A really big episode

That we had done together.

I'm claudia salinger.

I'm their youngest daughter.

I just wanted to see
What you look like.

My brother,
He's gonna walk soon,

And they're not gonna
See it because of you!

Because you had
A few drinks!

And you got in your car,
And you went through
That intersection,

And you killed them!

The only thing
I can do for you...

Is tell you that
We're gonna be ok.

Go see him, charlie.
It'll help.

Yeah, him.

No, us!

I'm telling you,
It's hard.

But it's not
The hardest thing
In the world

To say, "I forgive you."

Yes, it is.

Out of these sad,
Hard moments

Come these revelations,
And you see

These characters
Go through that

And come out better
Or smarter or, um,

Or just, you know,
Wise, more wise.

Hey, how come
Some of the headstones

Have stones on them?

Some people like to leave
Something behind,

Kind of as a way
Of showing they were here.

I think the one thing
About party of five

And the salinger family
Are the issues
They face

Are timeless.

It doesn't matter
Whether you're living
In the 1930s,

The 1970s, or the 2010s.

The issue of family

Getting along
With one another,

Loving one another,
Frustrating one another,

The issue of family
Helping one another

Are issues that have
Always existed

And will always exist.

Pez?

Ha ha! Sure.

Why not?

That's a good idea.

Hey, you know what, claud?

You're it.

What? Hey, no fair.

Hey, no fair!

During the period
Of time where it looked

Like we were going
To get canceled

And they started
These letter-writing
Campaigns

And these, uh,
Save-our-show campaigns,

And we--people
Really responded well
To the show,

And had a lot to do
With keeping us around.

The response
We got was over--
I mean, really,

Like buckets and buckets
And buckets of fan mail,

And not the fan mail
That you'd think.

We'd get these petitions
From law firms

Signed by lawyers
And, uh, paralegals

And secretaries and
The janitorial staff.

I mean, everyone
Would sign these big--
Big petitions.

Yeah. I remember we got--
We got one petition,

Uh, with something
Like 300 names,

Um, all written in exactly
The same handwriting.

That small,
Loyal audience
That we did have

Is what made us
Stay on the air.

I, uh,

Had an imaginary friend
When I was a kid.

No kidding?

That's supposed
To be a sign
Of real sensitivity.

Trivia.

What was the name of
The imaginary friend

You made up
To impress kirsten?

Uh, ha ha ha!

What is his name?
Does it start
With a "H"?

Damn.

Uh, there's
A middle initial,
Isn't there?

Um...

How am I doing?

Could be wolfman--

What's the first one?

Lloyd.

Lloyd l. Loomis.

Lloyd. W. Loomis.

Lloyd w. Loomis.
Lloyd w. Loomis.

Oh, man. It could've
Been--I...

Uh, 900.

Well?
Well?

900.

Yes!

Uh,

What college
Did I want to go to?

Uh...

Boston university?

You got into college?

Hampshire state?

How can clau--oh!

My no--oh!

My dimples do something.

It's the dimples.

What?

My dimples quiver
Or something.

When something's
Going on,

They...

Pulse.

They pulse.

How old was bailey when
He had his tonsils removed?

Oh, that's a recent one.

Say ahh.

Ahh.

That was just
From last episode.

Ahh, you had them out
When you were 12?

Is it my tonsils,
Dr. Bob?

You don't have
Any tonsils, fella.

Took 'em out
When you were 8.

8.
Damn.

Love is in the air...

But marriage isn't...

A family album returns.

So,

School starts tomorrow.

Would you believe it?
Where did the summer go?

Who knows, you know?

Maybe it'll be
A great year.

Maybe.

I don't think
I was really

What they had in mind
Originally for sarah.

When I was sitting
In the waiting room
Full of--

Full of girls
With tons of makeup on,

And, you know,
Like these--these
Great figures

And bombshell-looking,
And, um,

They were older.
They were probably, you know,

Like, mid 20s,
And I was 16.

I'm not her, bailey.

I'm not jo.

I came around,
And I'm kind of--

Kind of goofy and nerdy,

And so sarah
Became that, too.

I was trying
To figure out something
To say to you--

Something helpful--

And all I could
Think of is...

Oy.

That pretty much
Sums it up.

Oy.

Yeah.

Somehow, the two of us

Have a chemistry
Or I don't know what.

You know, there's a lot
Of different words for it.

What?

Do I have something
On my face?

We're here.

Oh.

Well, thanks
For the lift.

Thanks for all
The lifts this summer.

Sure.

Oh. Here.
You gotta...

Jiggle it.

There you go.

Thanks.

Good night.

Scott came on a show
That I was doing

Called kids incorporated.

I was 12,
And I remember,
Like, being

Oh, my gosh,
This guy is
The older guy,

And here he comes,
And he's so cute,
And he's got dimples,

And he's going to be
On our show.

Aren't you just dying
To see him? I mean,

You know, he'll
Probably have an accent.

He'll probably say,
"Hello, darling, it's me."

When I saw him
The first day,

Um, my first day
On party of five,

It was very weird,
'cause I didn't think
He'd remember me,

And he did.

Being a new cast member,
I can--I can imagine

How exciting
It must be for them,

You know,
Being on the show,

Before I'd--scott being
The hunk that he is!

Um...

So I was pretty nervous,
And I remember it
Just kind of, like,

Walking, walking
On the lot, going,

"Ok, I'm going
To go in there.

I'm going to try
Not to be a dork.

Let's hope
This goes well

And they don't fire me
My first day."

Originally, jennifer
Was supposed to be on
The first 9 episodes,

But after 2 hours
Of working with her,

You saw what
A marvelous, marvelous,

Incredible talent she was.

Once we recognized what kind
Of a wonderful talent

We had in jennifer,
We would've been fools

Had we let her go.

What a woman, huh?

If I were you,
I'd marry her.

Hey, kirsten,
Teach me
How to do that.

I thought
The wedding episode

Where charlie,
Uh, backs out

Of his marriage
With kirsten

Was, uh, was beautiful,

And matthew did
Some beautiful work
In that episode.

I want to get married.

I want to marry you.

Ha! That's a good thing,
Because 9,000 bucks says

There's a wedding
In our immediate future.

No. You don't understand.

I want to spend
The rest of my life
With you, kirsten.

I know that. I do.

Only, I'm not ready.

I'm not ready
For the rest of my life

To start today.

I think
That his experience

Through his relationship
With kirsten--

You know, he learned
A lot from that...

Give bailey
A little room there.

Here we go.

He learned a lot
About himself.

Little closer in.

Now, everybody say

Forever!
Forever!
Forever!
Forever!

The wedding
Was really--ha ha!

That was, uh, uh,

F-for me that
Was really great
As an actress

To play
What happened
To that couple.

Charlie, where
Have you been?

Nowhere.

Just...

Driving.

Just driving and--
And--and thinking

And trying to
Figure it all out.

And, ok!

Ok?

I love you.

And--and I'm sorry.

And--yeah.

Yes. I'm saying yes.

'cause saying no is
Pretty much saying
Good-bye, right?

And I don't want
That, kirsten.

I don't.

So.

So let's do it, ok?

Let's just do it.

The truest part
Of that episode

And the hardest to feel,

Because it was so hard,

Was when she--

She knew
She couldn't marry him

Because she didn't
Believe him anymore.

I'm afraid to marry you.

I'm afraid of the day

You're going to walk
In that door and say,

"I don't want you
Anymore."

I won't say that.

I don't believe you.

I love you,

But I don't
Believe you,

And I can't
Take that chance,

Because I would die, charlie.

That's why
I'm going to walk
Away from you.

And from these
Children who I love.

I believe in
Happily ever after.

To be honest
With you,

I still want
Charlie and kirsten together.

I want them
Together. I mean,

Other people come
Up to me and say

They want them
Together. I want
Them together.

I want them
To find their way
Back to each other.

I don't know that--
If that'll happen.
We'll see.

The nominees for best
Television series drama are...

And the winner is

Party of five.

♪ everybody wants to be... ♪

One evening full
Of all this, so exciting.

I watched the tape,

And I, like,
Jumped up on my chair.

I'm, like,
Such an idiot.

But I was so shocked.

I was just, like,
Glued to the television
Watching them,

And I was so
Incredibly happy
And proud

And just amazed.

Lacey and scott
And neve and matthew
And paula

Like, all jumping up and down
In their chairs,

Tears falling
Down their face,

And they were
Going to the stage
With chris and amy,

And I was bawling.

I mean, the show
Was kind of lingering.

Is it gonna go?
Is it not?

I think
The golden globe really

Kind of gave us
A push, and I think

A lot more people started
Watching it, actually,

Because of that exposure.

Here we go.

Uh...

His almost-wedding
With kirsten.

God, are you
Handsome, charlie.

And a potential
Furniture design job
In seattle.

He shaved?

Charlie?

One for one.

$32,000 a year?

$65,000!

Ha ha! Can you say
Rich, owen?

Wow.

Oh, man.

That's a tough one.

How many women
Have you slept with?

I have no idea.

30.

Do you even remember
All their names?

I'm not 100% sure
I knew them all
To start with.

This is horrible.
Well, I've failed.

Coming up,
We go behind the scenes

With jeremy london
And jennifer aspen...

Plus scenes from the landmark
Intervention episode,

A family album continues.

The show
Couldn't have been

As successful
As it's been

Without great casting,

And not only did that mean
Getting the family intact,

But also all the people
That they've brought in,

The love interests
And the people

That have really become
Part of the family

Are all just
Such great actors
And great people.

♪ solid gold ♪

Hey, scott,
Would you make me
A sandwich, please?

What do you need?

Uh, peanut butter
And spinach.

I get to wear, like,
The coolest threads ever.

Look at these pants.

Milk?

It's time to get naked.

Shut up, jeremy.

Heh heh!

You're gonna get me
In trouble.

Yeah.

They're airing this,
You know.

I have a boyfriend
Who's going to be
Watching, going--

Oh, come on.

Oh, my god!

These guys are so after
My hottie girlfriend.

You can tell him
About us. It's ok.

Shut up!

That's how rumors
Get started,
You dummy!

I really don't mind.
Shut up.

I'll take him on.
Shut up.

Where is he?
Who is he?

Shut up!

I'll beat his ass. Pfft!

♪ fillin' up my life ♪

♪ with music ♪

How much fun
Do you guys have

On this show?

Whenever jennifer
Actually really
Does get naked,

We have
A lot of fun,
But besides that--

Jennifer, shrieking:
Jeremy, stop it!

It's, like,
The best to be daphne

And to be, like,
This free spirit

And to be able
To be goofy and dorky.

It's so much fun.
You have no idea.

You should all
Try it at home.

All I need is
For you to get the hell
Out of my way.

Bay--
I mean it, charlie.

No!
Get out of my way!

No!
Come on.

You son of a bitch!

Aah!
Oh, my god.

Bailey!

The most gratifying thing
For me, personally,

Was the--
The story revolving--

My character's alcoholism.

Claudia on answering machine:
It's me.

When are
You coming home?

Call. Bye.

Gonna need
Another pitcher first.

Give me
Another pitcher, please.

I gotta cut back
On the partying.

Can we get another?

You are all
My witnesses.

I am swearing off
All forms of partying

Until I write 10 pages
On a poem about
A guy named...

Prudence.

This was just
A bonus beer

For setting a new
Personal record--

180 minutes
Of consecutive studying.

They basically
Built the story

Over an entire year.

♪ happy birthday to you ♪

Whoo! Whoo!

Well, that
Pretty much sucked.

Blow it out, sweetie.

Yeah.

Whoo!
Uhh.

Bailey.

W-who the hell
Put that there?

What's goin' on?

He's ripped.

Oh, my god.

He's what?
Drunk.

Really drunk.

Ok, so it's
A little messed up,

But it's more fun
That way, right?

Hey, what did you expect?
I never done this before.

You expect a first-time clown
Not to make any mistakes?

Huh?!
I want my mommy.

Oh, god, don't cry.
He's crying.

Hey, come on.
Let's get out of here.

I'm talking
To my friend here.

I'm teachin' him
How to be a man.

Bay, I said come on.

I said I'm talk--

Charlie!

Oh, my god.

If I had to pick
Like a--a scene that
Would be my favorite,

It's probably the scene
Where scott sort of
Loses it with everybody.

God, do you--

What? What, now you want
To give me a lecture
On screwing up?

Talk about hearing it
From the master.

I got a better idea, charlie.

How about we talk
About you instead?

Actually--actually,
You know what?

I bet some of this
Would be educational
For grace.

Bailey--
I don't wanna hear it.

Sure you do.
Of course you do.

I mean, how much do you
Actually know

About charlie's
Sexual history?

Stop it, bailey.

Has he cheated
On you yet?

Give it time. He will.

He's cheated
On every other girl he's
Been with. Why not you?

Shut the hell up, bailey!

Yeah, the whole episode
She's struggling with--

She feels like she's
Betraying her brother

By, you know,
Ganging up against him,

And--and--yet inside,
She knows she's actually
Helping him.

Has anyone seen my coat?

That's it?

Yeah, claud, that's it.

No.

No, no, no,
No, no, no.

No, no, I can't
Take this, bailey.

I mean, you can't
Do this anymore.

Claudia--

No, bailey, I mean it.
That's it. That's it.

I mean,
If--if you don't--

If you don't get help,
I don't wanna see you.

You can't talk
To me, and--and...

And you can't
Talk to owen,

And you can't
Come over to the house,

And I'm not gonna
Come see you,

And I'm not
Gonna call you, and...

I'm not even gonna
Think about you.

Claudia, just--
No!

I love you...

More than anyone else.

I love you the best.

You know that.

This is the only thing
That I have that I can
Take away from you...

To make you stop.

Either you get help
Right now...

Or get out of here.

In that scene,
He was so--

He was so angry and so sad
And so vulnerable,

And it's amazing to me

The things that--
That he pulls out of--
He pulls out of himself

And out of his heart
And his soul.

Grant me the serenity
To accept the things
I cannot change,

The courage to change
The things I can,

And the wisdom
To know the difference.

Coming up...

Highlights
From last season...

And lacey chabert
Takes her trivia challenge,

A family album returns.

Oh, gosh. I mean,
This is really
Making me nervous.

Oh! I know this. Um...

Whitman or something
Or waltman or...

Some poet or something.

Oh, what is it?

Whitman. Walt whitman.

The teacher...

Even one of whitman's
Most popular teachers.

Ding ding ding!

Very good.

The incredi-bra.
Yes, that's right.

I can't believe
I remembered that.

Uh, which of those?

Claudia has avoided,
Uh, gambling and swearing.

Right, and that's
Why you're acting
Like such a bitch.

Don't say, "Bitch"!

Oh, no.

Charlie,
What happened to you?

How long am I
Gonna be stuck in here?

How are
You feeling?

Ok.

Any soreness
In the throat?

A little.

Owen and claud ok?

Yeah.
They're fine.

Owen's at home
With sarah.

Difficulty
Swallowing?

Mm-hmm. Some.

Loss of appetite?

Yes.

Fatigue?

Yes.

Wanna take a minute?

Nausea? Vomiting?

Charlie.

Yes.

Ok. You know the drill.

Lots of shows have done
Stories about ill--illness,

And they've done it
Incredibly well.

We thought, how can we tell
A story about illness

That is specific
To this family?

I mean, guys...

Take a look at me.
I'm...

When I'm feelin'
Like this,

Which is more every day,

I can't--I can't cook,

I can't eat,

I can barely move.

I mean, how am
I supposed to take care
Of claud and owen?

What happened to the family

When the person
Who's in the position
Of responsibility

Becomes the person
Who needs the care?

You guys are great
When I feel like hell,

When I'm flat
On my back, or I've got
My head in the toilet.

You make me dinner.

You bring me
The cold washcloth,

Tuck me in by the tv.

But let me feel ok
For one day,

Let me want
To do something else
Besides being sick--

Wait. I-is this
About that fishing trip?

What, are you mad that
We didn't want you to go,

We didn't
Want you wading around

In freezing cold water
In the middle of nowhere?

You--you made me afraid
To take a chance.

You could have
Gotten sick.

Heh. Claudia,
I am sick.

But staying in that bed

With the covers
Pulled up to my chin

And the two of you
Spoon-feeding me
Chicken soup...

I mean, maybe if
I got out of here
Once in a while

And lived a little bit,

Maybe that'd
Be what makes
The difference.

All of the time
That we've seen charlie,

He's always been this person
That sort of felt like...

Fate was against him.

And if
Any phone call were to ring
In the middle of the night,

It was gonna be bad news.

How's the patient?

Does that answer
Your question?

Well...

The congestion's
Loose.

That's a good sign.

How long am
I gonna be stuck in here?

Well, ahh,
What can I tell you?

Um, your
Color's got room
For improvement.

But it's not--

Is it that serious?

No. He--he's just
Got a ways to go

Before
The infection's gone.

But...

Judging
From his energy

And the fact
That he's alert,

I'd say it looks,
You know...

Not that bad.

I'm sorry.
Could you, um...

Could you say that again?

No, it's just, um...

Right.

Could you give...

I'm sorry, could you just
Give me a second here?

When he found out
That he was in remission
And that he was fine,

That was really the first time
That we've seen him

That he felt like, "My god,"

You know,
"I got a second chance here."

I'm back.

Coming up,
Lacey chabert and
Claudia salinger

Both grow up

And a very special
Thank-you to the fans,

A family album returns.

Salinger, claudia.

Size?

Um...

Medium?

How about
Extra-small?

Um, small's fine.

I guess.

Locker 38.
Suit up.

Ok.

Burgess, kate.

Ooh! Sorry. Sorry.

Lacey, obviously,
Is the--the one
Of the four of us

Who has changed the most
Since we began.

It's just unbelievable.

What is this, claud,
Like some big emergency
Or something?

Yeah, it is.

I just got my period.

Oh.

These have wings.

Wings?

What is that about, huh?

Uh, I don't think
These are right. Here.

It's a little strange, you know,
Growing up in real life

And on television,
Knowing that all these people

Are watching you and kind of
Monitoring, you know...

Monitoring what
You look like every week
And how you're changing.

Why is it so impossible
That I could have feelings
About--about...

You know, guy stuff?!

I mean, just because,
I don't know, I mean,
I may be small for my age--

Well, I do, ok?! I mean,
I--I do have those feelings.

So you better
Just get used to it.

I remember
When I was 13, you know,

I was--I wouldn't
Have been able to handle
All what she handles.

Ay, claudia.

Sometime, the heart
Do what it want

Without asking the head.

I had never
Kissed anyone before,

And I hadn't had
A boyfriend or anything yet,

And so, you know, I read
The script and went, "Ok."

You know, I had no idea,
Like, what to do.

It was really
Nervous, you know?

I was pretty nervous on set.
I'd never done this before.

And even knowing
It's fake, you know,

It was still--
There was some part of me

That, you know,
Felt it was real.

Doing a--a show like this

Is the--one of the few chances
We get to actually sort of...

Talk directly
To the audience.

Oh, my god!

My god!

If they hadn't
Stuck with the show,

There may not have been
The second season

For my character
To even exist,

Um, so I owe them
An especially huge thank-you.

Our fans have really...

You know, they've
Been so supportive
Of our show,

And I believe
They're a huge reason,

You know,
Why we're still on.

And it's great to know
That they're supportive

Because
They--they really care
About the characters.

Thank you. Heh heh.

I would say
Just thank you,

And we're glad that,
You know, we're glad
That they're there.

Everybody that comes up
To me on the street

And, you know,
Says something
About the show

Is always so positive.

Hey, matthew!

I've never had
People come up to me
And say bad stuff,

Which is really nice.

Stage announcer:
Jennifer love hewitt!

I would just say thank you,

And I'd give them all
A big hug if there was time,
But there's not.

Neve campbell
And paula devicq!

And scott wolf
And lacey chabert!

I hope that, uh...

That everybody out there
Who is a fan of the show

And has been
A fan of the show

Knows how grateful
We are for your...

For how loyal you guys are.

And you, first of all,
Had a lot to do

With keeping us on the air
In the first place,

And we've tried to continue
Working hard here

To give you
The best show we can,

And I hope you're
Still enjoying it.

From the bottom
Of my heart, thank you.