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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:06,130 --> 00:00:08,100 [ knocking on door ] 2 00:00:08,140 --> 00:00:11,210 ♪♪♪ 3 00:00:11,240 --> 00:00:14,450 ♪♪♪ 4 00:00:14,480 --> 00:00:17,220 [ dog barking ] 5 00:00:17,250 --> 00:00:21,230 ♪♪♪ 6 00:00:21,260 --> 00:00:23,470 LIBBY: Toby Fleishman awoke in the middle of the night 7 00:00:23,500 --> 00:00:25,440 to the sound of knocking at the door. 8 00:00:25,470 --> 00:00:29,610 [ barking and knocking continue ] 9 00:00:29,650 --> 00:00:31,420 TOBY: Bubbles, keep it down. 10 00:00:34,260 --> 00:00:35,790 Hey, who is it? 11 00:00:35,830 --> 00:00:39,600 LIBBY: It's me. Open the door. 12 00:00:39,630 --> 00:00:40,700 What's going on? What time is it? 13 00:00:40,740 --> 00:00:42,240 I have to talk to you. What? 14 00:00:42,270 --> 00:00:43,780 Did you, like, not go home or something? 15 00:00:43,810 --> 00:00:45,180 No, I have to talk to you. Your phone was off. 16 00:00:45,210 --> 00:00:46,610 Sorry, keep it down. The kids are sleeping. 17 00:00:46,650 --> 00:00:48,580 I saw her. Who? I don't understand. 18 00:00:48,620 --> 00:00:50,560 I saw Rachel. You -- 19 00:00:50,590 --> 00:00:51,620 Yeah. 20 00:00:51,660 --> 00:00:53,560 What? 21 00:00:53,590 --> 00:00:55,900 You did? Jesus. 22 00:00:55,930 --> 00:00:58,640 After I -- After I left here, 23 00:00:58,670 --> 00:01:01,210 I went downtown, just to -- 24 00:01:01,240 --> 00:01:03,780 I don't know, to, like, walk around, and I saw her. 25 00:01:03,810 --> 00:01:06,590 Just -- Just, like, sitting there on a park bench. 26 00:01:06,620 --> 00:01:08,760 Hm. I'm surprised, honestly -- 27 00:01:08,790 --> 00:01:10,760 And so I told him what happened. 28 00:01:10,800 --> 00:01:13,770 I told him about Rachel, where she was, where she'd been. 29 00:01:13,800 --> 00:01:16,210 It was like seeing a ghost. 30 00:01:16,240 --> 00:01:20,820 I'd left her that evening with her sleeping 31 00:01:20,850 --> 00:01:23,720 and a doctor's appointment scheduled for the next morning. 32 00:01:23,750 --> 00:01:27,290 ♪♪♪ 33 00:01:27,330 --> 00:01:30,840 ♪♪♪ 34 00:01:30,870 --> 00:01:32,610 Hm. 35 00:01:34,780 --> 00:01:36,810 So that's it? 36 00:01:36,850 --> 00:01:38,820 That's it? 37 00:01:38,850 --> 00:01:40,590 Yeah. 38 00:01:40,620 --> 00:01:42,890 I have work in a few hours, Lib. 39 00:01:42,930 --> 00:01:44,730 Sorry, did you hear what I just said? 40 00:01:44,760 --> 00:01:46,200 Mm-hmm. 41 00:01:46,230 --> 00:01:47,940 That I saw Rachel and she was in the park and -- 42 00:01:47,970 --> 00:01:49,770 No, I heard you, yeah. But we all knew she was around. 43 00:01:49,810 --> 00:01:51,540 I mean, she was napping in the park. 44 00:01:51,580 --> 00:01:52,850 She was fucking her best friend's husband. 45 00:01:52,880 --> 00:01:54,650 She was bound to turn up. It's a small town. 46 00:01:54,680 --> 00:01:57,620 No, Toby, she had a nervous breakdown. 47 00:01:57,660 --> 00:01:59,630 I know. It sounds stressful. 48 00:02:01,360 --> 00:02:02,770 Okay, alright. 49 00:02:02,800 --> 00:02:04,240 I gotta get the kids to camp in the morning. 50 00:02:04,270 --> 00:02:06,270 I also have a new boss and a patient 51 00:02:06,310 --> 00:02:07,840 that's going off life support today, so -- 52 00:02:07,880 --> 00:02:10,780 I'm sorry, what is -- what is happening right now? Huh? 53 00:02:10,820 --> 00:02:12,920 She had a nervous breakdown. 54 00:02:12,950 --> 00:02:14,620 That's where she's been. 55 00:02:14,660 --> 00:02:16,860 She didn't abandon her kids. 56 00:02:16,890 --> 00:02:18,730 Yeah, of course she did. Where is she? 57 00:02:18,760 --> 00:02:20,840 I mean, she's not here. I don't see her, do you? 58 00:02:20,870 --> 00:02:22,810 Sure, but she had a nervous breakdown. 59 00:02:22,840 --> 00:02:24,610 Yeah, I know! I heard you! 60 00:02:24,640 --> 00:02:25,850 She had a nervous breakdown. You don't have to say it again. 61 00:02:25,880 --> 00:02:27,310 She needs help, Toby. 62 00:02:27,350 --> 00:02:28,350 She can hire help. 63 00:02:28,380 --> 00:02:30,920 She -- Wh--Who are you? 64 00:02:30,960 --> 00:02:32,860 Seriously, who am I talking to right now? 65 00:02:32,890 --> 00:02:34,800 Th-This is the mother of your children. 66 00:02:34,830 --> 00:02:37,570 Yes, exactly, but she is not my wife anymore, okay? 67 00:02:37,600 --> 00:02:39,210 She has, like, no relation to me. 68 00:02:39,240 --> 00:02:40,780 I don't have to care about her. She's, like, not my problem. 69 00:02:40,810 --> 00:02:42,340 She's not your problem? No. 70 00:02:42,380 --> 00:02:43,680 Oh, my God. 71 00:02:43,710 --> 00:02:44,880 Remember, it's divorce that means 72 00:02:44,920 --> 00:02:46,320 never having to say you're sorry. 73 00:02:46,350 --> 00:02:47,990 That was funny. Yeah. 74 00:02:48,020 --> 00:02:49,590 What? You know what? 75 00:02:49,630 --> 00:02:50,630 I've been through her breakdowns, Libby. 76 00:02:50,660 --> 00:02:52,230 Do not worry about her, okay? 77 00:02:52,260 --> 00:02:53,730 She'll make it work for her. 78 00:02:53,770 --> 00:02:55,240 She'll -- She'll come back monetizing the whole thing. 79 00:02:55,270 --> 00:02:56,870 She'll run a bank by the time she's done with this. 80 00:02:56,910 --> 00:02:59,310 I don't think that you understand, okay? Yeah. 81 00:02:59,350 --> 00:03:00,980 She's lost time. 82 00:03:01,020 --> 00:03:02,650 Like, full weeks. 83 00:03:02,690 --> 00:03:04,920 She's lost everything. She didn't lose anything. 84 00:03:04,960 --> 00:03:06,390 She lost, like, a client, 85 00:03:06,430 --> 00:03:08,000 and she spent a few extra days at a spa 86 00:03:08,030 --> 00:03:10,270 when her best friend's husband decided to stop fucking her. 87 00:03:10,300 --> 00:03:12,240 You know what? You're right. Sorry. I'll make her a lasagna. 88 00:03:12,270 --> 00:03:13,880 Toby, Jesus! 89 00:03:13,910 --> 00:03:15,780 Hey, you were supposed to be on my side, okay? 90 00:03:15,810 --> 00:03:18,250 You were supposed to be my friend. I am your friend! 91 00:03:18,280 --> 00:03:19,690 Yeah? Well, you're waking me up in the middle of the night 92 00:03:19,720 --> 00:03:20,920 to tell me this now that I finally found a way 93 00:03:20,960 --> 00:03:22,930 to move on with, like, my sad, broken children. 94 00:03:22,960 --> 00:03:24,900 Because she had a nervous breakdown! 95 00:03:24,930 --> 00:03:26,370 Hey! Yeah, I said stop saying that! 96 00:03:26,400 --> 00:03:28,040 Okay, fine, I won't use that word, okay? 97 00:03:28,070 --> 00:03:30,010 What do you want me to say? She can't handle her life. 98 00:03:30,040 --> 00:03:31,840 She's -- She's -- She's collapsed. 99 00:03:31,880 --> 00:03:33,710 She can't take care of her own children 100 00:03:33,750 --> 00:03:35,650 because she needs to put her own fucking oxygen mask on first. 101 00:03:35,690 --> 00:03:37,820 Actually, actually that thing about oxygen masks 102 00:03:37,860 --> 00:03:39,030 is about airplanes, alright? 103 00:03:39,060 --> 00:03:40,700 It's really about adult tolerance 104 00:03:40,730 --> 00:03:42,900 for oxygen deprivation. It's not, like, a metaphor. 105 00:03:42,930 --> 00:03:44,400 It's not supposed to be, like, a lifestyle. 106 00:03:44,440 --> 00:03:45,840 I'm so s-- I'm just, like, shocked right now. 107 00:03:45,870 --> 00:03:48,240 I am not gonna be the prisoner of my mistakes. 108 00:03:50,850 --> 00:03:54,760 This is what our ancestors died for, the right 109 00:03:54,790 --> 00:04:00,300 for us to be middle-aged and bored and miserable. 110 00:04:02,340 --> 00:04:04,780 Yeah, and shocked. Okay. 111 00:04:07,880 --> 00:04:09,490 I'm going back to bed. 112 00:04:12,090 --> 00:04:13,860 Go home, Libby. 113 00:04:19,770 --> 00:04:24,820 ♪♪♪ 114 00:04:24,850 --> 00:04:29,860 ♪♪♪ 115 00:04:29,890 --> 00:04:34,940 ♪♪♪ 116 00:04:34,970 --> 00:04:37,370 I could tell you what happened to Toby then. 117 00:04:37,410 --> 00:04:39,380 I could tell you that the next morning, 118 00:04:39,410 --> 00:04:40,880 when he arrived back at the hospital 119 00:04:40,920 --> 00:04:42,420 to meet with the committees 120 00:04:42,450 --> 00:04:44,060 over Karen Cooper's brain activity 121 00:04:44,090 --> 00:04:46,830 and to help David Cooper move toward a decision, 122 00:04:46,860 --> 00:04:49,800 he was full of remorse for his anger at the poor guy. 123 00:04:51,870 --> 00:04:54,780 What had happened to Toby to make him so cold-hearted 124 00:04:54,810 --> 00:04:56,350 that he would lash out at a man 125 00:04:56,380 --> 00:04:59,820 who had just effectively lost his wife? 126 00:04:59,850 --> 00:05:02,930 All he could think was that he was never like that before. 127 00:05:02,960 --> 00:05:07,470 But also, he had to leave room for the fact that maybe he was. 128 00:05:07,500 --> 00:05:09,910 Maybe, like the Wilson's itself, 129 00:05:09,940 --> 00:05:13,750 everything we are is dormant and inside us all along. 130 00:05:13,780 --> 00:05:18,460 ♪♪♪ 131 00:05:18,490 --> 00:05:23,100 ♪♪♪ 132 00:05:23,130 --> 00:05:24,770 What I could tell you is that 133 00:05:24,800 --> 00:05:27,740 Toby was always reactive and angry 134 00:05:27,780 --> 00:05:30,750 and ready to blame everyone else for his problems. 135 00:05:30,780 --> 00:05:34,860 ♪♪♪ 136 00:05:34,890 --> 00:05:38,970 ♪♪♪ 137 00:05:39,000 --> 00:05:41,040 And he was also someone who held even 138 00:05:41,070 --> 00:05:44,410 the unpreventable failures in his heart, 139 00:05:44,440 --> 00:05:46,450 and who did not ever let a basic 140 00:05:46,480 --> 00:05:48,880 and consistent fact of his job, 141 00:05:48,920 --> 00:05:51,790 which was death, become regular to him. 142 00:05:51,820 --> 00:05:55,030 ♪♪♪ 143 00:05:55,060 --> 00:05:57,070 [ sobbing ] 144 00:05:57,100 --> 00:06:01,810 ♪♪♪ 145 00:06:01,840 --> 00:06:06,420 ♪♪♪ 146 00:06:06,450 --> 00:06:11,000 ♪♪♪ 147 00:06:11,030 --> 00:06:13,500 I could tell you that in his darkest recesses, 148 00:06:13,530 --> 00:06:16,170 Toby had some relief that he got to keep his job 149 00:06:16,210 --> 00:06:18,080 the way that it was, 150 00:06:18,110 --> 00:06:19,950 that he fundamentally didn't understand 151 00:06:19,980 --> 00:06:22,020 why you would have to stop doing what you loved 152 00:06:22,050 --> 00:06:23,920 in order to get ahead 153 00:06:23,950 --> 00:06:26,030 when it felt like it was ahead to do what you loved. 154 00:06:26,060 --> 00:06:27,460 Hi, how are we all doing today? 155 00:06:27,490 --> 00:06:29,200 Alright, Dr. Fleishman. 156 00:06:29,230 --> 00:06:32,610 [ indistinct conversation ] 157 00:06:32,640 --> 00:06:34,810 I could tell you that Toby was focusing 158 00:06:34,840 --> 00:06:37,480 on making good on his promises to his children. 159 00:06:37,520 --> 00:06:38,990 And so... Mm-hmm. 160 00:06:39,020 --> 00:06:41,060 ...the way the world looks is different 161 00:06:41,090 --> 00:06:43,030 depending on how you look at it. Mm-hmm. 162 00:06:43,060 --> 00:06:45,870 The electron cloud is uncertain, 163 00:06:45,900 --> 00:06:48,540 but the nucleus is always fixed. Right. 164 00:06:48,570 --> 00:06:50,540 Which means it's always in the same place. 165 00:06:50,570 --> 00:06:52,580 It's the things around it that move around. 166 00:06:52,610 --> 00:06:54,880 Now, sir, please look into the stereoscope. 167 00:06:54,920 --> 00:06:56,120 Okay. 168 00:06:56,150 --> 00:06:57,660 There are two realities. 169 00:06:57,690 --> 00:07:00,490 There's the cloud of electrons surrounding the nucleus, 170 00:07:00,530 --> 00:07:02,630 which is the solution of the Schroedinger equation. 171 00:07:02,670 --> 00:07:04,170 That's the box they're in. 172 00:07:04,200 --> 00:07:07,140 There's the physical locations of each individual electron, 173 00:07:07,170 --> 00:07:09,010 which can only be determined by measuring them 174 00:07:09,040 --> 00:07:11,250 directly by opening the box, 175 00:07:11,280 --> 00:07:14,620 and both things are true. 176 00:07:14,660 --> 00:07:17,190 And that is what I want to say about superposition. 177 00:07:18,700 --> 00:07:20,900 That is so good. 178 00:07:20,940 --> 00:07:22,140 That is so good. 179 00:07:22,170 --> 00:07:23,940 Do you think I'll win? 180 00:07:23,970 --> 00:07:26,680 I can't imagine anyone has anything better thought out 181 00:07:26,710 --> 00:07:29,590 or a smarter, harder-working son. 182 00:07:31,990 --> 00:07:34,630 That is excellent work. 183 00:07:34,660 --> 00:07:37,070 Oof, Jesus. 184 00:07:37,100 --> 00:07:40,270 I could tell you that he never got the blinds fixed, 185 00:07:40,310 --> 00:07:43,650 and despite three separate calls to the super, 186 00:07:43,680 --> 00:07:47,090 the air conditioner was still broken. 187 00:07:47,120 --> 00:07:49,060 Dad, we're gonna be late! 188 00:07:49,090 --> 00:07:51,300 What? For what? Oh, crap. Solly, here. 189 00:07:51,330 --> 00:07:52,670 Solly, come on. We have to go. 190 00:07:52,700 --> 00:07:54,700 Come on. Come on. Okay. 191 00:07:58,010 --> 00:07:59,040 [ indistinct conversation ] 192 00:07:59,080 --> 00:08:01,180 RABBI TURKO: Sorry I'm late. 193 00:08:01,220 --> 00:08:03,090 Class went over a few minutes. 194 00:08:03,120 --> 00:08:05,930 No, of course. Of course. Thank you. 195 00:08:05,960 --> 00:08:08,100 Hannah, how are you doing with your haftarah? 196 00:08:08,130 --> 00:08:10,940 Cantor Timberman says you're doing very nicely on it. 197 00:08:10,970 --> 00:08:12,640 Oh, yeah, she's been studying every day. 198 00:08:12,670 --> 00:08:13,940 Really? Mm-hmm. 199 00:08:13,970 --> 00:08:16,250 You don't hear that a lot. 200 00:08:16,280 --> 00:08:19,690 So what we can do is just go over some logistics. 201 00:08:19,720 --> 00:08:23,560 I know that you're going to want to bestow honors on your family, 202 00:08:23,590 --> 00:08:28,700 opening the ark, aliyah to the Torah, etcetera. 203 00:08:28,740 --> 00:08:30,210 I know you're planning on speaking? 204 00:08:30,240 --> 00:08:31,580 Mm-hmm. 205 00:08:31,610 --> 00:08:33,250 And Rachel, too, I presume? 206 00:08:34,150 --> 00:08:36,320 That is still a question. 207 00:08:36,350 --> 00:08:39,260 Okay. 208 00:08:39,290 --> 00:08:43,170 Hannah, do you understand that you are engaging 209 00:08:43,200 --> 00:08:46,710 in a tradition that goes back thousands of years? 210 00:08:46,740 --> 00:08:50,110 You are accepting the yoke of responsibility 211 00:08:50,150 --> 00:08:52,950 for your family and your community 212 00:08:52,990 --> 00:08:55,220 and all the commandments of the Torah, 213 00:08:55,260 --> 00:08:57,060 and you're taking it upon yourself 214 00:08:57,090 --> 00:09:01,200 that it is your turn to try and fix this world. 215 00:09:01,240 --> 00:09:03,970 The world is upside down right now, 216 00:09:04,010 --> 00:09:08,780 and we need all the smart, thinking girls to help fix it. 217 00:09:08,820 --> 00:09:10,250 Right, okay. 218 00:09:10,290 --> 00:09:11,790 And you're gonna carry this torch 219 00:09:11,820 --> 00:09:13,760 for all of the Fleishmans 220 00:09:13,790 --> 00:09:15,800 and all of the Jewish people. 221 00:09:15,830 --> 00:09:17,370 TOBY: Mm-hmm. 222 00:09:17,400 --> 00:09:19,970 Right. 223 00:09:20,010 --> 00:09:21,980 Well, then, I think we're set. 224 00:09:22,010 --> 00:09:25,320 I think I'm not gonna do this. 225 00:09:25,350 --> 00:09:28,190 Hm? Hannah? 226 00:09:28,220 --> 00:09:30,030 I don't think I should do this. 227 00:09:30,060 --> 00:09:32,030 Hannah? 228 00:09:32,060 --> 00:09:33,770 Let's -- Let's just take a minute. 229 00:09:33,800 --> 00:09:35,270 Yeah, yeah. I'm just not doing it, the bat mitzvah. 230 00:09:35,300 --> 00:09:37,170 Can we go? Hannah, stop. 231 00:09:37,210 --> 00:09:38,740 She did the study-- She did all the studying. 232 00:09:38,780 --> 00:09:40,780 I'm sorry. I don't know what this is. Hannah? 233 00:09:40,810 --> 00:09:42,380 I'm gonna go. 234 00:09:42,420 --> 00:09:44,790 Thank you, Rabbi, and I'm sorry it didn't work out. 235 00:09:44,820 --> 00:09:47,060 Uh -- I am so -- This -- 236 00:09:47,090 --> 00:09:48,700 This came as a complete surprise to me. 237 00:09:48,730 --> 00:09:50,670 I know your family has been going through a lot. 238 00:09:50,700 --> 00:09:51,800 I -- Yeah, let me go speak with her. 239 00:09:51,840 --> 00:09:53,170 Is that -- Okay. Yeah, that's fine. 240 00:09:53,210 --> 00:09:55,080 I'm so sorry. Solly, can we go now? 241 00:09:58,820 --> 00:10:00,690 TOBY: Hannah, hey. 242 00:10:00,720 --> 00:10:03,190 W-What's going on? 243 00:10:03,230 --> 00:10:06,030 I wanted to see what it would be like up here. 244 00:10:06,070 --> 00:10:08,240 You'll have another chance in November. 245 00:10:08,270 --> 00:10:10,670 Dad, I'm not doing it. For real. 246 00:10:11,780 --> 00:10:13,150 Is this about what happened at camp? 247 00:10:13,180 --> 00:10:15,220 Because I can promise you that by the time 248 00:10:15,250 --> 00:10:18,690 November rolls around, like, no one will remember it. 249 00:10:18,720 --> 00:10:21,100 It's not. 250 00:10:21,130 --> 00:10:22,200 Is it about your mother? 251 00:10:22,230 --> 00:10:24,800 It's not that. 252 00:10:24,840 --> 00:10:27,780 Listen, I know it's been hard with her gone, but -- 253 00:10:27,810 --> 00:10:30,410 but we're still Jews, and this is what we do. 254 00:10:30,450 --> 00:10:32,690 But why? Why do we do it? 255 00:10:32,720 --> 00:10:36,360 I -- I don't even know if I believe in God. 256 00:10:36,390 --> 00:10:38,430 Yeah, well, that's actually not what this is about. 257 00:10:38,460 --> 00:10:40,230 This is about becoming an adult in your community. 258 00:10:40,270 --> 00:10:42,270 This is about taking on my traditions as yours. 259 00:10:42,300 --> 00:10:44,280 You can pass them along to your family. 260 00:10:44,310 --> 00:10:47,750 I -- I guess I just don't understand why I would do it. 261 00:10:50,420 --> 00:10:54,330 We do it because that's what we do. 262 00:10:55,500 --> 00:10:58,370 We're the Fleishmans and we're Jews. 263 00:10:58,400 --> 00:11:00,240 It doesn't seem smart to me. 264 00:11:01,910 --> 00:11:03,310 What has it given us? 265 00:11:03,350 --> 00:11:07,190 How -- How has it even helped the world? 266 00:11:07,220 --> 00:11:08,390 We're a mess, Dad. 267 00:11:08,420 --> 00:11:10,730 The Fleishmans are a mess. 268 00:11:10,760 --> 00:11:13,300 You -- You're being too literal, I think. 269 00:11:13,330 --> 00:11:14,740 No, no, I'm not. No? 270 00:11:14,770 --> 00:11:16,410 You always tell me to think for myself 271 00:11:16,440 --> 00:11:18,410 and not to be corrupted by other people around me, 272 00:11:18,440 --> 00:11:21,420 but I want my own traditions. 273 00:11:21,450 --> 00:11:23,150 I want my own life, 274 00:11:23,190 --> 00:11:25,890 and I want to make my own decisions. 275 00:11:25,920 --> 00:11:27,460 I don't want to have to fix anything. 276 00:11:27,490 --> 00:11:30,230 I haven't even broken anything. 277 00:11:30,270 --> 00:11:31,870 I'm only 11. 278 00:11:36,250 --> 00:11:37,880 I could tell you that Toby looked at his daughter 279 00:11:37,920 --> 00:11:40,860 just then, his wise, beautiful daughter 280 00:11:40,890 --> 00:11:43,390 who had been put through too much recently, 281 00:11:43,430 --> 00:11:45,360 and realized that she was right. 282 00:11:47,540 --> 00:11:49,240 You know, another great tradition is forging 283 00:11:49,270 --> 00:11:52,140 your own path and being better than your parents. 284 00:11:54,210 --> 00:11:55,250 Here, come here. 285 00:11:55,280 --> 00:11:56,890 Come here, my sweet girl. 286 00:11:59,490 --> 00:12:01,200 There, stand here. 287 00:12:01,230 --> 00:12:04,870 And if a bat mitzvah is also a coming of age, 288 00:12:04,900 --> 00:12:06,440 then he had to agree that Hannah 289 00:12:06,470 --> 00:12:10,180 did not need a ceremony to do that. 290 00:12:10,210 --> 00:12:12,220 She'd grown up right in front of him, 291 00:12:12,250 --> 00:12:15,460 slowly and then all at once. 292 00:12:15,490 --> 00:12:17,930 Eilecha vichuneka. 293 00:12:17,960 --> 00:12:20,940 Yisa Adonai panav eilecha 294 00:12:20,970 --> 00:12:24,480 v'yasem lecha shalom. 295 00:12:24,510 --> 00:12:27,950 May God make you like Sarah, Rebecca, Rachel, and Leah. 296 00:12:29,320 --> 00:12:32,320 May God bless you and protect you. 297 00:12:32,360 --> 00:12:35,260 May God show you favor and be gracious to you. 298 00:12:35,300 --> 00:12:37,800 [ crying ] 299 00:12:37,840 --> 00:12:39,840 May God -- 300 00:12:39,870 --> 00:12:42,440 May God show you kindness -- 301 00:12:42,480 --> 00:12:44,880 Hey -- and grant you peace. 302 00:12:44,920 --> 00:12:46,920 [ crying continues ] 303 00:12:53,970 --> 00:12:58,510 ♪♪♪ 304 00:12:58,540 --> 00:13:03,320 ♪♪♪ 305 00:13:03,350 --> 00:13:07,960 ♪♪♪ 306 00:13:08,000 --> 00:13:12,510 ♪♪♪ 307 00:13:12,540 --> 00:13:15,510 I could tell you that after weeks of starts and stops, 308 00:13:15,540 --> 00:13:17,920 that was the moment that the Fleishmans understood 309 00:13:17,950 --> 00:13:20,420 that a divorce was an earthquake for two people 310 00:13:20,450 --> 00:13:22,530 who used to be in love, 311 00:13:22,560 --> 00:13:24,860 but it was a chronic condition for the children 312 00:13:24,900 --> 00:13:26,500 who had to somehow survive it. 313 00:13:29,370 --> 00:13:31,940 Man: ♪ Kmo sirat ets ♪ 314 00:13:31,980 --> 00:13:34,450 ♪ Merupetet ♪ 315 00:13:34,480 --> 00:13:39,490 ♪ Sheyotseret gal veretet ♪ 316 00:13:39,530 --> 00:13:42,030 ♪ Kmo shemila achat ♪ 317 00:13:42,060 --> 00:13:44,900 ♪ Lev ee potachat ♪ 318 00:13:44,940 --> 00:13:46,540 ♪ Yesh li sach akol gafrur ♪ 319 00:13:46,570 --> 00:13:49,980 ♪ Az avhir takalachat ♪ 320 00:13:50,010 --> 00:13:52,620 ♪ Vehamilim shenivlehu ♪ 321 00:13:52,650 --> 00:13:55,420 ♪ Vebemochi hen itpakhu ♪ 322 00:13:55,460 --> 00:13:57,560 ♪ Etsak otan chazak hayom ♪ 323 00:13:57,600 --> 00:13:59,970 ♪ Hatishmehu otan pitom? ♪ 324 00:14:00,000 --> 00:14:02,610 ♪ Ze shir hafite sheli ♪ 325 00:14:02,640 --> 00:14:05,310 ♪ Achshav echye kuli ♪ 326 00:14:05,340 --> 00:14:10,350 ♪ Emtsa ma tov li ♪ 327 00:14:10,390 --> 00:14:12,630 ♪ Lo evater li ♪ 328 00:14:12,660 --> 00:14:15,300 ♪ Meachshav e'afsher li ♪ 329 00:14:15,330 --> 00:14:17,400 LIBBY: I could tell you that the Fleishmans found themselves 330 00:14:17,430 --> 00:14:19,040 again at the Vantablack exhibit, 331 00:14:19,070 --> 00:14:20,970 which was in its last days. 332 00:14:24,310 --> 00:14:26,090 They decided to go in and see it, 333 00:14:26,120 --> 00:14:29,530 to really, finally face the void together. 334 00:14:29,560 --> 00:14:31,530 Ready? 335 00:14:31,560 --> 00:14:34,330 Man: ♪ Li kulam hem doagim ♪ 336 00:14:34,370 --> 00:14:36,340 ♪ Ma itcha ♪ 337 00:14:36,370 --> 00:14:38,340 ♪ Ve'epatach ♪ 338 00:14:38,380 --> 00:14:40,950 ♪ Ze shir hafite sheli ♪ 339 00:14:40,980 --> 00:14:43,590 ♪ Achshav echye kuli ♪ 340 00:14:43,620 --> 00:14:48,660 ♪ Emtsa ma tov li ♪ 341 00:14:48,700 --> 00:14:54,410 ♪ Ki yesh bi adayin amon fite betochi ♪ 342 00:14:56,580 --> 00:14:59,050 LIBBY: But I could not tell you what Toby did next. 343 00:14:59,080 --> 00:15:00,990 [ birds chirping ] 344 00:15:03,060 --> 00:15:04,600 I had my own shit going on. 345 00:15:04,630 --> 00:15:07,070 [ cellphone buzzing ] 346 00:15:13,610 --> 00:15:17,050 ♪♪♪ 347 00:15:17,090 --> 00:15:18,660 What had happened to me 348 00:15:18,690 --> 00:15:20,460 was that at the beginning of the summer, 349 00:15:20,490 --> 00:15:22,100 before Toby called me, 350 00:15:22,130 --> 00:15:23,570 I was heading into my second year 351 00:15:23,600 --> 00:15:25,340 of being a stay-at-home mom 352 00:15:25,370 --> 00:15:27,110 and my 13th year of marriage 353 00:15:27,140 --> 00:15:31,520 and my 5th year in a suburb and my 41st year of life, 354 00:15:31,550 --> 00:15:34,450 but none of that changed who I essentially was, 355 00:15:34,490 --> 00:15:38,060 which was a magazine writer with no assignment. 356 00:15:38,100 --> 00:15:40,000 That didn't stop me from pontificating 357 00:15:40,030 --> 00:15:41,440 all over the suburbs. 358 00:15:41,470 --> 00:15:42,710 You know what I think? 359 00:15:42,740 --> 00:15:44,580 I think that the men of this generation, 360 00:15:44,610 --> 00:15:46,750 they're all, like, really good feminists, 361 00:15:46,780 --> 00:15:48,420 but they haven't actually thought 362 00:15:48,450 --> 00:15:50,550 about what it means to be equal, 363 00:15:50,590 --> 00:15:52,160 so they're so fragile all the time. 364 00:15:52,190 --> 00:15:55,160 We have to spend all of our time on reassuring 365 00:15:55,200 --> 00:15:58,370 and fellating every insecurity out of them. 366 00:15:58,400 --> 00:15:59,570 Do you ever think that 367 00:15:59,610 --> 00:16:01,680 those "The future is female" shirts, 368 00:16:01,710 --> 00:16:04,410 they're like, "Free beer tomorrow"? 369 00:16:04,450 --> 00:16:07,190 You know, 'cause the future is always in the future. 370 00:16:07,220 --> 00:16:09,060 I mean, like, do you really think 371 00:16:09,090 --> 00:16:12,060 that they would let us wear those shirts if it were true? 372 00:16:13,730 --> 00:16:15,170 I think it's just a shirt, Lib. 373 00:16:15,200 --> 00:16:17,440 Yeah. 374 00:16:17,470 --> 00:16:19,410 I gotta go make dinner. 375 00:16:19,440 --> 00:16:20,610 Yeah, me too. 376 00:16:20,650 --> 00:16:23,190 Am I riding with you? Okay. 377 00:16:23,220 --> 00:16:27,460 And then into that morass, I bumped into Michelle. 378 00:16:28,560 --> 00:16:31,200 Libby, hi! 379 00:16:31,230 --> 00:16:34,070 Michelle, oh, my God. Look at you. 380 00:16:34,110 --> 00:16:35,210 You look amazing. 381 00:16:35,240 --> 00:16:39,080 Yeah, well, I'm getting a divorce. 382 00:16:39,120 --> 00:16:40,520 What? Yeah. 383 00:16:40,550 --> 00:16:41,690 Oh, my God, that's crazy. 384 00:16:41,720 --> 00:16:43,060 Wh-What happened? 385 00:16:43,090 --> 00:16:46,070 It's a long story, but it's good. 386 00:16:46,100 --> 00:16:49,610 I'm actually seeing someone -- my boyfriend from college. 387 00:16:49,640 --> 00:16:51,180 What? 388 00:16:51,210 --> 00:16:52,710 We reconnected on Facebook. 389 00:16:52,750 --> 00:16:54,210 I know, what a cliché, right? 390 00:16:54,250 --> 00:16:56,620 I'm gonna move to the city, Jonathan will stay here, 391 00:16:56,650 --> 00:16:59,160 and we'll take turns staying with the kids. 392 00:16:59,190 --> 00:17:01,100 I'm just so -- I'm so surprised. 393 00:17:01,130 --> 00:17:03,670 You guys -- You always seemed so happy. 394 00:17:03,700 --> 00:17:06,710 We were just very good friends, you know? 395 00:17:06,740 --> 00:17:08,240 Yeah. 396 00:17:08,280 --> 00:17:09,750 Yeah. 397 00:17:09,780 --> 00:17:11,250 God, okay. I'm sorry. 398 00:17:11,280 --> 00:17:12,720 I-I want to understand, like, all of this. 399 00:17:12,750 --> 00:17:15,460 Please start from the beginning. 400 00:17:15,490 --> 00:17:17,630 So we had just come back from this amazing vacation -- 401 00:17:17,660 --> 00:17:20,800 It was the third divorce I'd heard about in a month. 402 00:17:20,830 --> 00:17:24,170 I started thinking about divorce all the time. 403 00:17:24,210 --> 00:17:27,780 Not "divorce," but clean slates and new starts. 404 00:17:27,820 --> 00:17:29,890 I feel like I'm me again. 405 00:17:29,920 --> 00:17:31,890 We're gonna get a place on the Upper West Side, near -- 406 00:17:31,920 --> 00:17:33,630 "Me again." 407 00:17:33,660 --> 00:17:38,740 ♪♪♪ 408 00:17:38,770 --> 00:17:43,850 ♪♪♪ 409 00:17:43,880 --> 00:17:49,190 ♪♪♪ 410 00:17:49,220 --> 00:17:54,500 ♪♪♪ 411 00:17:54,540 --> 00:17:59,650 ♪♪♪ 412 00:17:59,680 --> 00:18:04,760 ♪♪♪ 413 00:18:04,790 --> 00:18:09,900 ♪♪♪ 414 00:18:09,930 --> 00:18:13,270 I'd somehow fallen for it, some dream of safety 415 00:18:13,310 --> 00:18:16,880 that I hadn't understood would never reconcile with who I was, 416 00:18:16,910 --> 00:18:20,520 which was a free and independent person. 417 00:18:20,550 --> 00:18:22,830 I'd taken all my freedom and independence 418 00:18:22,860 --> 00:18:25,160 and pushed them across the poker table and said, 419 00:18:25,200 --> 00:18:28,600 "Here, take my jackpot. Take it all. 420 00:18:28,640 --> 00:18:31,680 I don't need it anymore. I won't miss it ever." 421 00:18:31,710 --> 00:18:34,850 ♪♪♪ 422 00:18:34,880 --> 00:18:38,190 ♪♪♪ 423 00:18:38,220 --> 00:18:39,760 [ sighs deeply ] 424 00:18:43,600 --> 00:18:46,540 God, how hot I used to be for life. 425 00:18:55,260 --> 00:18:58,630 ♪♪♪ 426 00:18:58,660 --> 00:19:01,870 ♪♪♪ 427 00:19:01,900 --> 00:19:05,210 Larry Feldman was the first guy I ever kissed. 428 00:19:05,240 --> 00:19:09,320 ♪♪♪ 429 00:19:09,350 --> 00:19:11,990 He was the first guy I ever -- a lot of things. 430 00:19:12,020 --> 00:19:17,740 ♪♪♪ 431 00:19:17,770 --> 00:19:23,280 ♪♪♪ 432 00:19:23,310 --> 00:19:27,190 ♪♪♪ 433 00:19:40,850 --> 00:19:42,780 [ dog barking in distance ] 434 00:19:51,330 --> 00:19:52,770 [ computer dings ] 435 00:19:53,940 --> 00:19:58,920 ♪♪♪ 436 00:19:58,950 --> 00:20:03,930 ♪♪♪ 437 00:20:03,960 --> 00:20:05,900 Oh, my God. 438 00:20:05,930 --> 00:20:08,400 LARRY: Libby Slater? Wow. 439 00:20:08,440 --> 00:20:11,980 ♪♪♪ 440 00:20:12,010 --> 00:20:15,750 ♪♪♪ 441 00:20:15,780 --> 00:20:17,820 How much I used to feel, 442 00:20:17,860 --> 00:20:19,830 how much I didn't feel anymore. 443 00:20:22,000 --> 00:20:25,400 LIBBY: Larry Feldman! 444 00:20:25,440 --> 00:20:27,370 What is going on with you? 445 00:20:27,410 --> 00:20:31,750 ♪♪♪ 446 00:20:31,780 --> 00:20:33,990 I just remembered you and realized 447 00:20:34,020 --> 00:20:36,290 that I didn't know what became of you. 448 00:20:36,320 --> 00:20:41,670 ♪♪♪ 449 00:20:41,700 --> 00:20:45,440 You know, I remember you very often. 450 00:20:45,480 --> 00:20:47,380 Oh, yeah? That's funny. 451 00:20:47,410 --> 00:20:49,450 I just saw that you're friends with everyone from school, 452 00:20:49,480 --> 00:20:52,820 and I don't know how I missed being a part of that. 453 00:20:55,760 --> 00:20:58,470 I remember when you and I were in that basement 454 00:20:58,500 --> 00:21:01,070 at Melissa Cooperman's bat mitzvah after party, 455 00:21:01,110 --> 00:21:03,450 and I think about when you let me put my -- 456 00:21:07,890 --> 00:21:10,330 Ugh, God. Gross. 457 00:21:15,800 --> 00:21:18,110 [ cellphone buzzing ] 458 00:21:18,140 --> 00:21:21,420 LIBBY: And into that extra morass, I heard from a friend 459 00:21:21,450 --> 00:21:23,990 I hadn't spoken to in a dozen years. 460 00:21:24,020 --> 00:21:25,990 Toby Fleishman? 461 00:21:26,020 --> 00:21:27,330 TOBY: Elizabeth Slater. 462 00:21:28,760 --> 00:21:29,970 Epstein. 463 00:21:30,000 --> 00:21:33,370 It's Epstein now, yeah, but yes, hello. 464 00:21:33,410 --> 00:21:35,880 It was so nice to be back with people 465 00:21:35,910 --> 00:21:38,980 that I never had to explain who I was to. 466 00:21:39,020 --> 00:21:40,720 I'd been trying to return 467 00:21:40,750 --> 00:21:42,460 to the most authentic version of myself, 468 00:21:42,490 --> 00:21:45,860 but it wasn't that dipshit horndog Larry Feldman 469 00:21:45,900 --> 00:21:49,870 who knew me when I was most myself, it was Toby. 470 00:21:49,910 --> 00:21:52,480 I began to feel less unmoored, 471 00:21:52,510 --> 00:21:55,050 but I was living this life 472 00:21:55,080 --> 00:21:59,020 that wasn't mine anymore, 473 00:21:59,060 --> 00:22:02,770 and then I was living a life that hadn't ever been mine. 474 00:22:02,800 --> 00:22:06,670 Toby Fleishman, hot damn. 475 00:22:14,190 --> 00:22:17,030 I did finally go home that night 476 00:22:17,060 --> 00:22:19,930 after I went to Toby's house to tell him about Rachel... 477 00:22:22,100 --> 00:22:23,940 ...after I hadn't been in contact 478 00:22:23,970 --> 00:22:25,740 with my own family for days. 479 00:22:25,780 --> 00:22:30,790 ♪♪♪ 480 00:22:30,820 --> 00:22:35,860 ♪♪♪ 481 00:22:35,900 --> 00:22:40,910 ♪♪♪ 482 00:22:40,940 --> 00:22:45,950 ♪♪♪ 483 00:22:45,980 --> 00:22:51,030 ♪♪♪ 484 00:22:51,060 --> 00:22:56,070 ♪♪♪ 485 00:22:56,100 --> 00:23:01,150 ♪♪♪ 486 00:23:01,180 --> 00:23:03,450 LIBBY: [ whispers ] Hi. 487 00:23:05,490 --> 00:23:06,890 I'm sorry. 488 00:23:06,930 --> 00:23:12,100 ♪♪♪ 489 00:23:12,140 --> 00:23:17,480 ♪♪♪ 490 00:23:17,510 --> 00:23:22,860 ♪♪♪ 491 00:23:22,890 --> 00:23:24,230 Mom, you're making breakfast? 492 00:23:24,260 --> 00:23:25,900 Hi. 493 00:23:25,930 --> 00:23:28,970 I have been helping a friend with something, 494 00:23:29,000 --> 00:23:31,010 but I'm back. 495 00:23:31,040 --> 00:23:33,880 I made pancakes. I want to hear everything. 496 00:23:33,910 --> 00:23:35,050 I don't eat breakfast anymore. 497 00:23:35,080 --> 00:23:37,250 What does that mean? 498 00:23:37,290 --> 00:23:39,830 ADAM: Well, that's why we get you lessons, bud. 499 00:23:39,860 --> 00:23:42,230 MILES: I'm never going to pass. I'm not going. 500 00:23:42,260 --> 00:23:43,600 What's going on? 501 00:23:43,630 --> 00:23:45,170 I'm not taking the swimming test. 502 00:23:45,200 --> 00:23:46,810 Miles, you can't learn this stuff 503 00:23:46,840 --> 00:23:48,580 unless you learn this stuff. 504 00:23:48,610 --> 00:23:49,980 What's the problem? You have to take the swimming test. 505 00:23:50,010 --> 00:23:51,980 I got this. I'm not going. 506 00:23:52,020 --> 00:23:54,050 I'm not taking any more lessons. 507 00:23:54,090 --> 00:23:55,860 Okay, Miles, I know you don't want -- 508 00:23:55,890 --> 00:23:57,860 I got this. Well, it kind of seems like you don't. 509 00:23:57,890 --> 00:23:59,500 SASHA: We're gonna be late. 510 00:23:59,530 --> 00:24:01,270 I made breakfast for everybody. 511 00:24:01,300 --> 00:24:03,010 We get breakfast on the way now. 512 00:24:03,040 --> 00:24:04,610 I already called in an order at the bagel place. 513 00:24:04,640 --> 00:24:06,580 I got court today. Come on, we're late. 514 00:24:06,610 --> 00:24:08,880 We're late, let's go. 515 00:24:08,920 --> 00:24:09,990 Bye. 516 00:24:10,020 --> 00:24:12,090 [ door opens ] 517 00:24:12,120 --> 00:24:13,660 [ door closes ] 518 00:24:15,060 --> 00:24:19,140 ♪♪♪ 519 00:24:19,170 --> 00:24:23,280 ♪♪♪ 520 00:24:23,310 --> 00:24:25,620 It went on like that for a while. 521 00:24:25,650 --> 00:24:27,960 Me, doing penance. 522 00:24:27,990 --> 00:24:30,860 Me, staring out into the Vantablack, 523 00:24:30,890 --> 00:24:33,070 wondering how this would get resolved. 524 00:24:33,100 --> 00:24:36,640 ♪♪♪ 525 00:24:36,670 --> 00:24:40,150 ♪♪♪ 526 00:24:40,180 --> 00:24:42,680 I wasn't speaking to Toby anymore. 527 00:24:42,720 --> 00:24:45,190 Seth wasn't speaking to either of us, 528 00:24:45,220 --> 00:24:47,330 and I was trying to wedge myself back into my life 529 00:24:47,360 --> 00:24:49,600 before anyone noticed I'd been gone. 530 00:24:53,670 --> 00:24:55,640 MAN ON RADIO: Republican national security officials 531 00:24:55,680 --> 00:24:58,280 have published a letter... 532 00:25:02,260 --> 00:25:03,660 [ indistinct conversations, cheering ] 533 00:25:03,690 --> 00:25:05,900 Sasha, what are you doing? 534 00:25:05,930 --> 00:25:07,200 Hi, Mom. 535 00:25:07,230 --> 00:25:09,140 Is this a party? 536 00:25:09,170 --> 00:25:10,940 No, it's a barbecue. 537 00:25:10,970 --> 00:25:12,340 Dad's in the back. 538 00:25:12,380 --> 00:25:13,710 Dad's in the back? 539 00:25:13,750 --> 00:25:16,050 Yeah. 540 00:25:16,080 --> 00:25:20,230 [ music playing ] 541 00:25:20,260 --> 00:25:23,030 ANNIE: I need 10 kids, but so far, I have 3. 542 00:25:23,060 --> 00:25:24,670 Wait! 543 00:25:24,700 --> 00:25:26,970 ALLISON: [ gasps ] Maybe Libby will do it. 544 00:25:27,010 --> 00:25:29,140 Wow, look who came out of the woodwork. 545 00:25:29,180 --> 00:25:30,680 Libby? Hey. 546 00:25:30,710 --> 00:25:32,050 Hi. I thought you couldn't make it. 547 00:25:32,080 --> 00:25:33,950 Adam said you couldn't make it. 548 00:25:33,990 --> 00:25:37,630 Oh, uh, I-I-I think we just got our signals crossed. 549 00:25:37,660 --> 00:25:39,700 Hey. Thank you. 550 00:25:39,730 --> 00:25:42,170 I was thinking of doing that one-week drama camp 551 00:25:42,200 --> 00:25:43,610 for the girls before school. 552 00:25:43,640 --> 00:25:45,710 Do you think Sasha would want to? 553 00:25:47,750 --> 00:25:50,390 I don't actually know if she's still into doing drama. 554 00:25:50,420 --> 00:25:53,330 I have to ask her. I'll ask Adam. 555 00:25:53,360 --> 00:25:57,030 I went down a total rabbit hole reading about it. 556 00:25:57,070 --> 00:25:58,400 Vantablack? Vantablack. 557 00:25:58,440 --> 00:26:00,140 Uh, sorry. 558 00:26:00,170 --> 00:26:01,710 Can you just -- Can I -- I'll be right back. 559 00:26:01,740 --> 00:26:04,080 One second. ...laboratory for the military. 560 00:26:04,110 --> 00:26:06,320 It's so dark that it's dangerous, you know? 561 00:26:06,350 --> 00:26:08,960 People, they see it and they freak out. 562 00:26:08,990 --> 00:26:10,190 They freak out and run screaming? 563 00:26:10,230 --> 00:26:12,300 Yes. I tell you, it's -- 564 00:26:12,330 --> 00:26:14,070 They -- They -- They have to leave... Adam. 565 00:26:14,100 --> 00:26:15,240 'cause they, like, lose their footing. 566 00:26:15,270 --> 00:26:16,710 Oh, hey, Libby. Hi. 567 00:26:16,740 --> 00:26:18,010 Hi. 568 00:26:18,040 --> 00:26:20,750 Um, did we talk about this? 569 00:26:20,780 --> 00:26:22,250 About this barbecue? Yeah. 570 00:26:22,280 --> 00:26:25,160 I don't know. It was in the family calendar. 571 00:26:25,190 --> 00:26:28,230 Sure, but I mean, this morning when we were talking, 572 00:26:28,260 --> 00:26:29,800 did we talk about this? 573 00:26:29,830 --> 00:26:32,270 I don't know, Libby. I can't keep track of you. 574 00:26:32,300 --> 00:26:33,710 Okay, I've been home. 575 00:26:33,740 --> 00:26:37,250 That's not...fair. 576 00:26:37,280 --> 00:26:38,780 Adam, you coming over later for the game? 577 00:26:38,820 --> 00:26:40,050 You know it. 578 00:26:40,090 --> 00:26:41,190 Ah, better bring that queso. 579 00:26:41,220 --> 00:26:42,260 Ha ha. [ chuckles ] 580 00:26:42,290 --> 00:26:44,190 What game? 581 00:26:44,230 --> 00:26:47,200 We're, like, people who watch the game now? 582 00:26:47,230 --> 00:26:48,300 Uh... 583 00:26:48,340 --> 00:26:50,270 You eat queso? 584 00:26:50,310 --> 00:26:54,110 He makes the best queso I've ever had. 585 00:26:54,150 --> 00:26:55,750 You made queso? 586 00:26:55,780 --> 00:26:57,020 Yeah. 587 00:26:57,050 --> 00:26:58,760 I made queso. 588 00:27:01,830 --> 00:27:03,030 Excuse me. 589 00:27:04,870 --> 00:27:06,300 Can I talk to you for a second please? 590 00:27:06,340 --> 00:27:08,310 Yeah, now's, uh -- now's not good. 591 00:27:08,340 --> 00:27:10,710 Oh, now's not good? Wow, okay. 592 00:27:10,750 --> 00:27:12,120 We're at a fucking barbecue. 593 00:27:12,150 --> 00:27:13,320 Oh, my God, can you please just stop being 594 00:27:13,350 --> 00:27:14,450 so fucking passive about everything? 595 00:27:14,490 --> 00:27:16,120 Please, please, please. 596 00:27:16,160 --> 00:27:17,790 I just want to have, like, a regular conversation. 597 00:27:17,830 --> 00:27:19,100 You are incapable of that. 598 00:27:19,130 --> 00:27:21,170 Just a regular conversation, please. 599 00:27:21,200 --> 00:27:25,080 ♪♪♪ 600 00:27:25,110 --> 00:27:28,820 ♪♪♪ 601 00:27:28,850 --> 00:27:30,290 ADAM: Hi. 602 00:27:33,160 --> 00:27:36,870 Okay, I know I'm terrible. 603 00:27:36,900 --> 00:27:38,500 Okay? 604 00:27:38,540 --> 00:27:40,070 I'm sorry. 605 00:27:40,110 --> 00:27:43,180 So just please talk to me. 606 00:27:43,210 --> 00:27:45,320 About what? There's nothing to talk about. 607 00:27:48,190 --> 00:27:49,390 You do whatever you want, 608 00:27:49,420 --> 00:27:51,130 and I could not be 609 00:27:51,160 --> 00:27:53,800 a more thoughtful, considerate husband to you. 610 00:27:53,830 --> 00:27:56,100 You are merciless lately -- 611 00:27:56,140 --> 00:27:59,180 miserable all the time, sarcastic. 612 00:27:59,210 --> 00:28:00,880 What do you think it means to me, 613 00:28:00,910 --> 00:28:03,520 to the kids that you walk around so unhappy? 614 00:28:03,550 --> 00:28:06,790 I have no idea what's happened to you lately. 615 00:28:06,830 --> 00:28:08,260 [ sighs ] Oh, God. 616 00:28:08,290 --> 00:28:09,400 I didn't want to get into this. 617 00:28:09,430 --> 00:28:11,430 Okay, look. 618 00:28:11,470 --> 00:28:13,270 You're right. 619 00:28:13,310 --> 00:28:14,840 I have been terrible. 620 00:28:14,880 --> 00:28:17,850 You are wonderful. 621 00:28:17,880 --> 00:28:19,450 I don't know what's wrong with me. 622 00:28:19,480 --> 00:28:23,130 I keep trying to figure it out. 623 00:28:23,160 --> 00:28:25,430 I feel like I'm -- 624 00:28:25,460 --> 00:28:28,240 like I'm not alive anymore. 625 00:28:28,270 --> 00:28:29,870 Well, you know what? 626 00:28:29,910 --> 00:28:31,470 I'm happy, okay? 627 00:28:31,510 --> 00:28:33,180 We have friends. We have -- 628 00:28:33,210 --> 00:28:35,150 Okay, these are not our friends, though. 629 00:28:35,180 --> 00:28:36,280 Like, they're not. 630 00:28:36,320 --> 00:28:37,790 I can't talk to any of these people. 631 00:28:37,820 --> 00:28:40,230 They treat me like I'm a fucking oddity. 632 00:28:40,260 --> 00:28:42,860 They just talk about their kids and their houses all the time. 633 00:28:42,900 --> 00:28:45,300 We have two wonderful children. 634 00:28:45,340 --> 00:28:48,240 We have income and safety and health 635 00:28:48,270 --> 00:28:50,550 and the enormous privileges of our class. 636 00:28:50,580 --> 00:28:54,860 We are the kinds of people who are invited to barbecues, 637 00:28:54,890 --> 00:28:56,560 and if you gave these people a chance, 638 00:28:56,590 --> 00:28:58,260 you would find they are filled 639 00:28:58,290 --> 00:28:59,570 with the same kind of ambivalence that you have. 640 00:28:59,600 --> 00:29:02,240 No, they're not. I promise you they're not. 641 00:29:02,270 --> 00:29:05,210 No, no. They are, okay? 642 00:29:05,240 --> 00:29:08,150 They are all trying to figure it out just like you. 643 00:29:08,180 --> 00:29:09,450 Just like me, if you wanted to know. 644 00:29:09,480 --> 00:29:10,950 Oh, my God. That's not true! 645 00:29:10,990 --> 00:29:12,590 It's not true, though, Adam. They love it here. 646 00:29:12,620 --> 00:29:14,930 All they talk about is how wonderful it is all the time. 647 00:29:14,960 --> 00:29:17,470 It's like we've died and these houses are our headstones. 648 00:29:17,500 --> 00:29:20,570 We chose this, Libby! You chose it! 649 00:29:20,610 --> 00:29:22,510 Marriage, children, 650 00:29:22,540 --> 00:29:26,220 every single bit of it, we chose it. 651 00:29:26,250 --> 00:29:27,950 I know. I know. I know. 652 00:29:27,990 --> 00:29:29,490 I don't know, though, because honestly, 653 00:29:29,520 --> 00:29:33,370 I feel like a few years ago, I was a person, right? 654 00:29:33,400 --> 00:29:35,500 And then I looked up and I just -- 655 00:29:35,540 --> 00:29:38,980 I have no idea when everything started to feel so the same. 656 00:29:39,010 --> 00:29:41,210 Don't -- don't talk to me about your burdens. 657 00:29:41,250 --> 00:29:43,490 The kids are always with the babysitter lately, 658 00:29:43,520 --> 00:29:45,390 and you barely even look at me anymore. 659 00:29:45,420 --> 00:29:46,960 I know. I know. Okay, okay. 660 00:29:46,990 --> 00:29:48,500 I am trying to figure it out, though. I really am. 661 00:29:48,530 --> 00:29:50,970 You -- You could bother looking at me 662 00:29:51,000 --> 00:29:52,370 while you try to figure it out, right? 663 00:29:52,400 --> 00:29:54,610 I -- I could be a part of your figuring it out. 664 00:29:54,640 --> 00:29:56,510 Why is this about you all of a sudden? 665 00:29:56,550 --> 00:29:58,880 It's so not about you, Adam. 666 00:30:00,650 --> 00:30:03,490 Are you sleeping with Toby? Am I what? 667 00:30:03,530 --> 00:30:05,260 You slept over at his fucking house! 668 00:30:05,300 --> 00:30:07,300 Oh, my God. Of course I'm not sleeping with Toby! 669 00:30:07,330 --> 00:30:09,610 Are you crazy?! That's all you have to say? 670 00:30:09,640 --> 00:30:11,610 No, I don't even know why I did that, okay? 671 00:30:11,640 --> 00:30:13,950 You expect me to know everything and have all of these answers. 672 00:30:13,980 --> 00:30:15,620 I don't have the answers. I don't have them. 673 00:30:15,650 --> 00:30:17,550 No, I expect you to, like, come home at night. 674 00:30:17,590 --> 00:30:19,390 Is that so crazy? 675 00:30:23,500 --> 00:30:26,200 I have to go. 676 00:30:26,240 --> 00:30:27,640 Sorry, you have to go? Yes. 677 00:30:27,670 --> 00:30:30,310 I was asked to peel the corn at this barbecue, 678 00:30:30,350 --> 00:30:33,650 which you knew about and which was in the family calendar, 679 00:30:33,690 --> 00:30:35,320 and when I say I'm gonna be somewhere 680 00:30:35,360 --> 00:30:37,290 and do something, I do it. 681 00:30:37,330 --> 00:30:41,030 [ Free Bird playing ] 682 00:30:41,070 --> 00:30:45,380 ♪ If I leave here tomorrow [ sighs ] 683 00:30:48,380 --> 00:30:53,220 Would you still remember me? 684 00:30:56,060 --> 00:31:01,470 ♪ 'Cause I must be traveling on now ♪ 685 00:31:03,610 --> 00:31:07,320 ♪ There's too many places I've got to see ♪ 686 00:31:07,350 --> 00:31:09,360 JOHN: You can't do that in Brooklyn. 687 00:31:09,390 --> 00:31:11,360 ANNIE: Did you get a French drain? 688 00:31:11,390 --> 00:31:13,470 ALLISON: No, actually, we just pushed the soil 689 00:31:13,500 --> 00:31:14,640 so there's no flooding. 690 00:31:14,670 --> 00:31:16,040 Well, your house is on top of that hill. 691 00:31:16,070 --> 00:31:17,540 That makes sense. 692 00:31:17,570 --> 00:31:20,310 [ indistinct conversations ] 693 00:31:20,350 --> 00:31:24,490 ♪ Things just wouldn't be the same ♪ 694 00:31:27,630 --> 00:31:29,500 ♪ 'Cause I'm as free 695 00:31:29,530 --> 00:31:33,570 ♪ As a bird now 696 00:31:35,510 --> 00:31:37,350 ♪ And this bird 697 00:31:37,380 --> 00:31:43,330 ♪ You cannot cha-a-a-a-nge 698 00:31:43,360 --> 00:31:48,340 ♪♪♪ 699 00:31:48,370 --> 00:31:53,480 ♪♪♪ 700 00:31:53,510 --> 00:31:58,620 ♪♪♪ 701 00:31:58,660 --> 00:32:02,460 ♪♪♪ 702 00:32:04,770 --> 00:32:07,610 [ door opens ] 703 00:32:07,640 --> 00:32:09,440 ADAM: Get in the shower and then bed. 704 00:32:09,480 --> 00:32:10,650 Hurry up. Go. 705 00:32:10,680 --> 00:32:13,120 [ door closes ] 706 00:32:13,150 --> 00:32:15,620 [ footsteps approaching ] 707 00:32:17,490 --> 00:32:22,570 ♪♪♪ 708 00:32:22,600 --> 00:32:28,150 ♪♪♪ 709 00:32:28,180 --> 00:32:33,660 ♪♪♪ 710 00:32:33,690 --> 00:32:39,370 ♪♪♪ 711 00:32:39,400 --> 00:32:42,510 ♪♪♪ 712 00:32:42,540 --> 00:32:44,200 ♪♪♪ 713 00:32:51,460 --> 00:32:53,600 [ birds chirping ] 714 00:32:53,630 --> 00:32:55,770 [ toothbrush clinks ] 715 00:32:57,640 --> 00:32:59,410 [ water turns off ] 716 00:33:05,720 --> 00:33:07,530 You just staying in bed today? 717 00:33:09,630 --> 00:33:10,830 My alarm. 718 00:33:10,870 --> 00:33:13,510 I forgot to set it. 719 00:33:13,540 --> 00:33:15,180 I just had the craziest dream. 720 00:33:15,210 --> 00:33:16,810 I guess I'm taking the kids to camp. 721 00:33:16,850 --> 00:33:18,420 Kids? 722 00:33:18,450 --> 00:33:19,720 Kids, come on. We're gonna be late. 723 00:33:19,750 --> 00:33:20,750 Let's go. Okay. 724 00:33:20,790 --> 00:33:22,720 Come on, let's go! 725 00:33:24,490 --> 00:33:25,830 SASHA: Miles, hurry up. 726 00:33:25,860 --> 00:33:29,670 [ cellphone rings ] 727 00:33:29,700 --> 00:33:32,510 Glenn? Hi. 728 00:33:32,540 --> 00:33:33,710 GLENN: Hey. I thought you'd want to know -- 729 00:33:33,750 --> 00:33:35,620 Archer died. 730 00:33:39,120 --> 00:33:41,560 Wait, what? 731 00:33:41,600 --> 00:33:43,600 No, that's -- that's so crazy. 732 00:33:43,630 --> 00:33:46,400 I just -- I like, literally just had a dream about him. 733 00:33:46,440 --> 00:33:47,810 What happened? 734 00:33:47,840 --> 00:33:51,720 ♪♪♪ 735 00:33:51,750 --> 00:33:55,690 ♪♪♪ 736 00:33:55,720 --> 00:33:58,630 LIBBY: In my dream, I'd been asking Archer for advice. 737 00:33:58,660 --> 00:34:00,470 I can't remember on what, 738 00:34:00,500 --> 00:34:04,740 but he kept asking if we'd ever slept together. 739 00:34:04,770 --> 00:34:07,480 Like in life, I kept reminding him who I was 740 00:34:07,510 --> 00:34:10,590 and how much I admired him, 741 00:34:10,620 --> 00:34:13,860 and his response to that was, 742 00:34:13,890 --> 00:34:17,130 "What does that have to do with me?" 743 00:34:17,170 --> 00:34:19,770 ♪ I get up in the evening 744 00:34:21,810 --> 00:34:25,580 ♪ And I ain't got nothing to say ♪ 745 00:34:25,620 --> 00:34:28,490 ♪ Come home in the morning 746 00:34:29,860 --> 00:34:34,200 ♪ Go to bed feeling the same way ♪ 747 00:34:34,230 --> 00:34:36,710 ♪ I am nothing but tired 748 00:34:39,310 --> 00:34:43,690 ♪ Just tired and bored with myself ♪ 749 00:34:43,720 --> 00:34:45,120 ♪ Hey, man 750 00:34:47,860 --> 00:34:50,800 ♪ I could use just a little help ♪ 751 00:34:50,830 --> 00:34:52,900 SETH: Hey, can we pretend we talked all this through 752 00:34:52,940 --> 00:34:54,570 and just move on? 753 00:34:54,610 --> 00:34:56,180 I'm having a party on Saturday. 754 00:34:56,210 --> 00:34:57,710 It's really important to me that you come. 755 00:34:57,750 --> 00:34:59,550 Dress nicely, please. 756 00:35:01,890 --> 00:35:03,760 The three of us are having a slumber party, 757 00:35:03,790 --> 00:35:04,930 but we're gonna tell Sophie 758 00:35:04,960 --> 00:35:06,260 that she has to start using deodorant. 759 00:35:06,300 --> 00:35:07,570 Oh. The situation 760 00:35:07,600 --> 00:35:08,670 has gotten out of control. 761 00:35:08,700 --> 00:35:10,140 Puberty, man. 762 00:35:10,970 --> 00:35:13,580 I'm gonna call Susannah, see if she can watch them 763 00:35:13,610 --> 00:35:14,720 on Saturday night. 764 00:35:14,750 --> 00:35:16,550 Why? I'll be home. 765 00:35:16,590 --> 00:35:18,760 No, uh, Seth. 766 00:35:18,790 --> 00:35:21,260 He's asked us to a party. 767 00:35:21,290 --> 00:35:22,860 He's having a party. 768 00:35:27,970 --> 00:35:29,850 I can't not go. 769 00:35:29,880 --> 00:35:31,720 He specifically said 770 00:35:31,750 --> 00:35:33,790 that it was important to him that -- 771 00:35:33,820 --> 00:35:36,520 that I be there, so... 772 00:35:39,260 --> 00:35:41,230 Um...[ clears throat ] 773 00:35:41,270 --> 00:35:42,670 I hope you have a good time. 774 00:35:50,950 --> 00:35:53,220 ♪ This is how it works 775 00:35:53,260 --> 00:35:55,600 ♪ It feels a little worse 776 00:35:55,630 --> 00:35:57,900 ♪ Than when we drove our hearse ♪ 777 00:35:57,930 --> 00:36:00,570 ♪ Right through that screaming crowd ♪ 778 00:36:00,610 --> 00:36:02,780 ♪ While laughing up a storm 779 00:36:02,810 --> 00:36:04,680 ♪ Until we were just bone 780 00:36:04,710 --> 00:36:07,350 ♪ Until it got so warm 781 00:36:07,390 --> 00:36:09,690 ♪ That none of us could sleep 782 00:36:09,720 --> 00:36:12,230 ♪ And all the Styrofoam 783 00:36:12,260 --> 00:36:14,600 ♪ Began to melt away 784 00:36:14,630 --> 00:36:17,010 ♪ We tried to find some worms 785 00:36:17,040 --> 00:36:19,310 ♪ To aid in the decay 786 00:36:19,340 --> 00:36:21,580 ♪ But none of them were home 787 00:36:21,620 --> 00:36:23,890 ♪ Inside their catacomb 788 00:36:23,920 --> 00:36:26,020 ♪ A million ancient bees 789 00:36:26,060 --> 00:36:28,700 ♪ Began to sting our knees 790 00:36:28,730 --> 00:36:30,830 ♪ While we were on our knees 791 00:36:30,870 --> 00:36:33,570 ♪ Praying that disease 792 00:36:33,610 --> 00:36:35,710 ♪ Would leave the ones we love 793 00:36:35,740 --> 00:36:36,880 ♪ And never come again 794 00:36:36,910 --> 00:36:38,380 Hi. What can I get you? 795 00:36:38,410 --> 00:36:40,320 Um, a Negroni, please. 796 00:36:40,350 --> 00:36:41,650 You've got it. 797 00:36:43,660 --> 00:36:46,830 [ sighs ] 798 00:36:46,870 --> 00:36:49,670 You know what's going on here, right? 799 00:36:51,840 --> 00:36:53,650 [ laughs ] 800 00:36:53,680 --> 00:36:56,650 Oh, goddammit. Yeah. 801 00:36:56,690 --> 00:36:58,350 I never thought I would see this day. 802 00:36:58,390 --> 00:37:00,330 I know. What a fucking idiot. 803 00:37:00,360 --> 00:37:02,030 What a stupid dipshit. 804 00:37:02,060 --> 00:37:03,700 ♪ This is how it works 805 00:37:03,730 --> 00:37:05,070 [ glass clinking ] Oh, God. 806 00:37:05,100 --> 00:37:07,870 SETH: Can I have everyone's attention? 807 00:37:07,910 --> 00:37:09,310 Just for a moment. Thanks. 808 00:37:09,340 --> 00:37:10,980 Thank you. Thank you for coming. Thank you. 809 00:37:11,010 --> 00:37:14,650 Uh, I just wanted to say that I've had a lot of parties 810 00:37:14,690 --> 00:37:19,660 throughout the years, and I used to have theme parties 811 00:37:19,700 --> 00:37:21,430 that I would call "learning parties." 812 00:37:21,470 --> 00:37:24,070 And we would dress up as historical figures 813 00:37:24,110 --> 00:37:28,950 or, um, have somebody come and give a math lecture. 814 00:37:28,980 --> 00:37:30,750 Really, they were just excuses to get drunk, 815 00:37:30,790 --> 00:37:34,790 but I was always trying to make sense of the world, 816 00:37:34,830 --> 00:37:37,870 understand it, and make peace with it. 817 00:37:37,900 --> 00:37:41,640 And I thought if I could just do that, 818 00:37:41,680 --> 00:37:44,350 then I could start to live my life. 819 00:37:44,380 --> 00:37:47,950 Uh, today I'm here to tell you, 820 00:37:47,990 --> 00:37:50,090 I give up. 821 00:37:50,120 --> 00:37:53,430 I will never understand it. 822 00:37:53,460 --> 00:37:56,840 And so I should do 823 00:37:56,870 --> 00:38:02,680 what every part of my body is telling me to do, 824 00:38:02,720 --> 00:38:05,720 and that is to ask the prettiest girl in this room 825 00:38:05,760 --> 00:38:07,730 if she would marry me. 826 00:38:07,760 --> 00:38:10,930 [ guests murmuring ] 827 00:38:10,970 --> 00:38:12,900 It's all a lot simpler than I ever thought it would be. 828 00:38:12,940 --> 00:38:16,040 I -- I just want to wake up every day 829 00:38:16,080 --> 00:38:18,310 and see her face. 830 00:38:25,730 --> 00:38:28,430 What do you say, Vanessa Lipschitz-Finkelstein? 831 00:38:28,470 --> 00:38:29,840 Can I make you 832 00:38:29,870 --> 00:38:31,470 Vanessa Lipschitz- Finkelstein-Morris? 833 00:38:34,780 --> 00:38:36,380 Yes. Yeah? 834 00:38:36,420 --> 00:38:37,920 [ guests cheering ] 835 00:38:50,010 --> 00:38:51,750 I told her we were here for my mother's birthday. 836 00:38:51,780 --> 00:38:54,960 ♪♪♪ 837 00:38:54,990 --> 00:38:58,130 ♪♪♪ 838 00:38:58,160 --> 00:38:59,800 Are you crying? 839 00:39:03,070 --> 00:39:05,440 I just -- How can -- Ugh. 840 00:39:05,480 --> 00:39:07,750 How could he possibly think that this is a good idea 841 00:39:07,780 --> 00:39:09,920 after spending the entire summer listening to us? 842 00:39:09,950 --> 00:39:11,420 I know. I know. 843 00:39:11,450 --> 00:39:13,490 I guess in Seth's story, we're just the co-stars 844 00:39:13,530 --> 00:39:16,830 who help him make this big decision. 845 00:39:19,000 --> 00:39:20,370 I'm sorry, Libby. 846 00:39:24,510 --> 00:39:26,920 I am too. 847 00:39:26,950 --> 00:39:29,420 I really th-- [ scoffs ] 848 00:39:29,460 --> 00:39:30,560 You know what? It doesn't even matter. 849 00:39:30,590 --> 00:39:33,500 I'm -- I'm sorry, too. 850 00:39:36,100 --> 00:39:37,570 [ sighs ] 851 00:39:39,580 --> 00:39:41,780 Well, that's it. 852 00:39:41,820 --> 00:39:44,090 Our boy is finally a man. 853 00:39:52,940 --> 00:39:54,510 LIBBY: What can I say? 854 00:39:54,540 --> 00:39:56,140 Life is a process in which you collect people 855 00:39:56,180 --> 00:39:58,880 and prune them when they stop working for you. 856 00:39:58,920 --> 00:40:03,160 The only exceptions are the friends you make in college. 857 00:40:03,190 --> 00:40:04,960 Hi. Hey. 858 00:40:04,990 --> 00:40:07,500 Hey, congratulations. 859 00:40:07,530 --> 00:40:09,170 I'm really happy for you. 860 00:40:09,200 --> 00:40:11,980 So glad you came. 861 00:40:12,010 --> 00:40:14,050 I'm sorry that we fought, Seth. 862 00:40:14,080 --> 00:40:16,080 I take you very seriously. 863 00:40:16,120 --> 00:40:17,790 You are a real person. 864 00:40:17,820 --> 00:40:18,960 TOBY: Yes, you are extremely real. 865 00:40:18,990 --> 00:40:20,230 I feel like I could touch you. 866 00:40:20,260 --> 00:40:22,230 I bet you have a Social Security Number. 867 00:40:22,260 --> 00:40:24,530 Don't actually -- Don't actually -- Don't actually -- 868 00:40:24,570 --> 00:40:26,940 [ laughs ] 869 00:40:26,970 --> 00:40:29,140 Do you think I'm an idiot for doing this? 870 00:40:31,580 --> 00:40:34,090 No. No. 871 00:40:34,120 --> 00:40:37,060 I think maybe marriage is like that quote 872 00:40:37,090 --> 00:40:38,560 about democracy, you know? 873 00:40:38,600 --> 00:40:39,930 "It's the worst form of government in the world 874 00:40:39,960 --> 00:40:42,070 except for all the other forms." 875 00:40:42,100 --> 00:40:43,200 You know? 876 00:40:43,240 --> 00:40:45,110 Nice. Listen, we love you. 877 00:40:45,140 --> 00:40:46,240 We're here for you. 878 00:40:46,280 --> 00:40:48,010 It's gonna be great. Mm-hmm. 879 00:40:48,050 --> 00:40:50,020 Well, that's a rare nice thing you just said to me. 880 00:40:50,050 --> 00:40:51,590 Thank you. TOBY: Yeah, no, I'm happy for you. 881 00:40:51,620 --> 00:40:53,990 We're both very happy for you. 882 00:40:54,030 --> 00:40:56,100 Yes. 883 00:40:56,130 --> 00:40:58,100 May your... Okay. 884 00:40:58,130 --> 00:41:03,550 May your most -- most virile sperm... 885 00:41:03,580 --> 00:41:05,120 Mm-hmm. 886 00:41:05,150 --> 00:41:08,990 ...make the odyssey through her fallopian tubes 887 00:41:09,020 --> 00:41:14,030 and conquer her ovaries, bringing you sons. 888 00:41:14,070 --> 00:41:15,570 Oh, sons. Sons! 889 00:41:15,600 --> 00:41:17,140 I like conquering the ovaries. 890 00:41:17,170 --> 00:41:18,980 Did you even take freshman bio? 891 00:41:19,010 --> 00:41:20,250 Wait, is that not how it -- is that not how it works? 892 00:41:20,280 --> 00:41:21,980 No. 893 00:41:22,020 --> 00:41:23,620 May your sons marry the daughters of finance bros, 894 00:41:23,650 --> 00:41:26,320 and, uh, with ever-greater dowries 895 00:41:26,360 --> 00:41:29,130 and stock options in Tesla and Apple. 896 00:41:29,160 --> 00:41:32,040 You know, everything the beggar woman said came true. 897 00:41:32,070 --> 00:41:34,870 She said you were never gonna be happy with what you were given, 898 00:41:34,910 --> 00:41:37,980 you were gonna always want something different. 899 00:41:38,010 --> 00:41:40,990 She said you were gonna heal the world. 900 00:41:41,020 --> 00:41:42,860 But that was only when I had money to give her. 901 00:41:46,660 --> 00:41:49,200 We're all good, right? 902 00:41:49,240 --> 00:41:50,910 I feel like something's ending. 903 00:41:50,940 --> 00:41:52,910 I can't take an ending right now. 904 00:41:52,940 --> 00:41:54,910 No, it's not. It's not. We're good. 905 00:41:54,950 --> 00:41:56,980 Yeah, we're good. VANESSA: Seth! 906 00:42:00,220 --> 00:42:02,030 Gotta go. 907 00:42:02,060 --> 00:42:03,200 My fiancée's calling. 908 00:42:03,230 --> 00:42:06,200 LIBBY: Ohh. Ooh. 909 00:42:06,240 --> 00:42:07,270 Hi. 910 00:42:07,310 --> 00:42:10,910 ♪ Now the final frame 911 00:42:10,950 --> 00:42:12,320 I heard Archer Sylvan died. 912 00:42:12,350 --> 00:42:15,160 Yeah. Yeah. 913 00:42:15,190 --> 00:42:16,960 He died as he lived, 914 00:42:16,990 --> 00:42:20,030 practicing auto-erotic asphyxiation 915 00:42:20,060 --> 00:42:21,940 in a hotel in Thailand. 916 00:42:21,970 --> 00:42:24,170 Oh, boy. Surrounded by prostitutes. 917 00:42:24,210 --> 00:42:25,680 Really? Yeah. 918 00:42:25,710 --> 00:42:27,710 Yeah, oh, it was very, very weird, though. 919 00:42:27,750 --> 00:42:30,350 I had this dream about him, 920 00:42:30,380 --> 00:42:32,690 and then my editor called me 921 00:42:32,720 --> 00:42:34,730 and he told me that he died. 922 00:42:34,760 --> 00:42:36,970 That's crazy. Yeah. 923 00:42:37,000 --> 00:42:38,370 Took 'em, like, a week to find the body. 924 00:42:38,400 --> 00:42:40,210 Oh, that's terrible. What, the smell -- 925 00:42:40,240 --> 00:42:42,040 No, no, no. He was on a story, 926 00:42:42,080 --> 00:42:46,050 and he was late -- or later than usual, so... Oh. 927 00:42:46,080 --> 00:42:48,660 The magazine's paying for the funeral and everything, 928 00:42:48,690 --> 00:42:50,730 'cause he didn't have anybody. 929 00:42:50,760 --> 00:42:53,060 Oh, no, that's so sad. Yeah. 930 00:42:53,100 --> 00:42:55,070 We're lucky we have people. 931 00:42:55,100 --> 00:42:56,140 You're lucky. 932 00:42:56,170 --> 00:42:58,010 You know that, right? 933 00:42:58,040 --> 00:42:59,380 I think so, yeah. Okay. 934 00:42:59,410 --> 00:43:02,680 I just -- I'm just lost. 935 00:43:02,720 --> 00:43:04,390 I don't know. I'm, like -- 936 00:43:04,420 --> 00:43:06,090 I don't know what I'm doing with my life. 937 00:43:06,120 --> 00:43:07,730 What do you mean, what you're doing with your life? 938 00:43:07,760 --> 00:43:10,970 It's done. You are -- You're loved, Elizabeth. 939 00:43:11,000 --> 00:43:13,240 Please, please tell me you understand how special that is. 940 00:43:13,270 --> 00:43:16,240 I guess I just don't -- 941 00:43:16,280 --> 00:43:17,980 I guess that's just not enough for me. 942 00:43:18,010 --> 00:43:20,080 Oh, God. Okay. I know. 943 00:43:20,120 --> 00:43:24,090 Honestly, it might not be enough for you either, so... 944 00:43:24,130 --> 00:43:26,100 No, no, no. It would be. It definitely would be. 945 00:43:26,130 --> 00:43:28,370 I know you fantasize that it would be 946 00:43:28,400 --> 00:43:31,040 because you have had such a struggle all these years, 947 00:43:31,070 --> 00:43:33,280 but you really have no idea how you would feel 948 00:43:33,310 --> 00:43:36,120 if you got the thing that you wanted. 949 00:43:36,150 --> 00:43:37,420 You don't. 950 00:43:37,450 --> 00:43:40,120 Contentment breeds quiet, 951 00:43:40,160 --> 00:43:42,060 which breed complacency, 952 00:43:42,100 --> 00:43:44,230 which breeds unrest. 953 00:43:46,170 --> 00:43:49,240 You should go back to work. 954 00:43:49,280 --> 00:43:51,750 Yeah, I think I might. 955 00:43:51,780 --> 00:43:53,420 I think I might write a book. 956 00:43:53,450 --> 00:43:55,260 A book? Mm-hmm. 957 00:43:55,290 --> 00:43:57,460 That's good. About what? 958 00:43:57,490 --> 00:44:01,270 It's about life and, um, 959 00:44:01,300 --> 00:44:04,140 marriage and money 960 00:44:04,170 --> 00:44:07,310 and dissatisfaction and lifelong friendship 961 00:44:07,350 --> 00:44:09,320 and, like, how all these things coalesce 962 00:44:09,350 --> 00:44:12,020 in middle age, right, and make you -- 963 00:44:12,060 --> 00:44:14,760 make you miserable right at the exact point 964 00:44:14,790 --> 00:44:16,830 that you're supposed to have everything set. 965 00:44:16,860 --> 00:44:19,800 Okay. Yeah. 966 00:44:19,840 --> 00:44:21,310 Yeah, it'll be about everything. 967 00:44:21,340 --> 00:44:23,810 Everything? Everything. 968 00:44:23,850 --> 00:44:26,220 Mm. That's heavy. 969 00:44:26,250 --> 00:44:28,020 Maybe. 970 00:44:28,050 --> 00:44:30,160 Or maybe what's the point of writing about anything 971 00:44:30,190 --> 00:44:31,490 if it's not gonna be about everything? 972 00:44:31,530 --> 00:44:33,770 Yeah. That's what Archer did. 973 00:44:33,800 --> 00:44:35,200 That's good. No, you should -- 974 00:44:35,230 --> 00:44:37,340 You should go be like Archer. 975 00:44:37,370 --> 00:44:39,210 Yeah. 976 00:44:39,240 --> 00:44:42,220 Maybe I'll be better than Archer, you know? 977 00:44:42,250 --> 00:44:43,790 I'll tell a really good story, 978 00:44:43,820 --> 00:44:45,790 but I'll tell all the other sides of it, too, 979 00:44:45,820 --> 00:44:48,190 not just the ones that I like. 980 00:44:48,230 --> 00:44:50,360 Alright, so what -- what happens in the book? 981 00:44:52,240 --> 00:44:56,040 Well, um, a newly divorced man 982 00:44:56,080 --> 00:44:58,180 wakes up one morning 983 00:44:58,210 --> 00:45:01,350 to find that his ex has dropped off the kids 984 00:45:01,390 --> 00:45:04,330 and does not appear to be coming back. 985 00:45:04,360 --> 00:45:06,100 Okay. 986 00:45:06,130 --> 00:45:08,100 And so then he's left to figure out where she is 987 00:45:08,130 --> 00:45:11,770 and why life seems to have gone so wrong for him. 988 00:45:13,510 --> 00:45:15,110 I hate this story. Yeah. 989 00:45:15,150 --> 00:45:16,520 No, but sorry. How are you gonna write it, though? 990 00:45:16,550 --> 00:45:18,220 I mean, it has -- it has no ending. 991 00:45:18,250 --> 00:45:20,090 Yeah, I don't know. There's no ending yet. 992 00:45:20,120 --> 00:45:22,100 Maybe this -- this is the ending. 993 00:45:22,130 --> 00:45:24,370 Oh, this, okay. Well, imagine that. 994 00:45:24,400 --> 00:45:25,870 No, don't end it here. This is not a good ending. 995 00:45:25,900 --> 00:45:27,370 Engagements are not good endings. 996 00:45:27,410 --> 00:45:29,210 Weddings, weddings are worse, but engagements are not. 997 00:45:29,240 --> 00:45:31,210 Okay, then maybe -- maybe it ends 998 00:45:31,250 --> 00:45:33,250 with her returning. 999 00:45:33,280 --> 00:45:34,390 You know, like, the whole thing 1000 00:45:34,420 --> 00:45:36,220 was just this terrible blip. 1001 00:45:36,260 --> 00:45:38,360 So she just comes back? 1002 00:45:38,390 --> 00:45:40,400 Maybe. 1003 00:45:40,430 --> 00:45:43,240 Why? Why does she come back? 1004 00:45:43,270 --> 00:45:46,280 She comes back because she was always gonna come back. 1005 00:45:46,310 --> 00:45:50,120 I mean, for a while, she wasn't sure, 1006 00:45:50,150 --> 00:45:52,290 because being sure would have made the whole thing 1007 00:45:52,320 --> 00:45:53,860 feel, you know, less dangerous. 1008 00:45:53,890 --> 00:45:55,290 It is possible that, like, a person needs 1009 00:45:55,330 --> 00:45:57,300 a little bit of danger 1010 00:45:57,330 --> 00:45:59,840 in order to feel like she knows what matters. 1011 00:46:01,610 --> 00:46:03,280 That doesn't sound like Rachel. 1012 00:46:03,310 --> 00:46:05,180 She's aware she behaved terribly, 1013 00:46:05,210 --> 00:46:07,150 but it's like she's -- 1014 00:46:07,190 --> 00:46:09,260 it's like she was outside her body, you know? 1015 00:46:09,290 --> 00:46:11,930 Like, watching herself the whole time. 1016 00:46:11,960 --> 00:46:15,570 And -- And the problem wasn't even her marriage, you know? 1017 00:46:15,600 --> 00:46:18,910 It was just like, her marriage was a witness 1018 00:46:18,940 --> 00:46:23,280 to all of her other failures, like a comorbidity 1019 00:46:23,320 --> 00:46:26,590 to how she was just getting old. 1020 00:46:26,620 --> 00:46:27,590 Hmm. 1021 00:46:27,630 --> 00:46:32,440 ♪♪♪ 1022 00:46:32,470 --> 00:46:34,540 And so then, in the end, when she comes home... 1023 00:46:36,640 --> 00:46:38,350 ...she realizes she really, really needs 1024 00:46:38,380 --> 00:46:40,150 to figure out her life. 1025 00:46:42,620 --> 00:46:44,360 Because, yeah, her marriage is not perfect, 1026 00:46:44,390 --> 00:46:47,570 but, like... 1027 00:46:47,600 --> 00:46:49,200 It's not like not being married 1028 00:46:49,240 --> 00:46:51,010 is ever gonna make her young again. 1029 00:46:53,480 --> 00:46:55,920 Nothing could make her unmake the choices 1030 00:46:55,950 --> 00:46:57,490 that she made. 1031 00:46:57,520 --> 00:46:59,460 She just didn't know when she was making the choices 1032 00:46:59,490 --> 00:47:01,360 that they were gonna limit all the other choices 1033 00:47:01,390 --> 00:47:03,300 that she could make in the future. 1034 00:47:05,640 --> 00:47:07,470 It's not even her decisions, like... 1035 00:47:11,410 --> 00:47:13,350 It's just, how can you live 1036 00:47:13,380 --> 00:47:17,260 when you used to have unlimited choices 1037 00:47:17,290 --> 00:47:19,230 and you don't have them anymore? 1038 00:47:22,540 --> 00:47:24,340 Sorry. 1039 00:47:24,370 --> 00:47:26,380 No, no, no, no. Please, continue. 1040 00:47:26,410 --> 00:47:29,350 So, sorry, what happens? So she comes back? 1041 00:47:29,380 --> 00:47:30,520 She comes back 1042 00:47:30,550 --> 00:47:32,620 and it turns out it was just a mistake? 1043 00:47:32,660 --> 00:47:34,530 Like, it was just like a misunderstanding 1044 00:47:34,560 --> 00:47:36,400 or something? Yeah, maybe she just, like -- 1045 00:47:36,430 --> 00:47:39,940 She just -- she just appears. 1046 00:47:39,970 --> 00:47:41,210 She just appears. 1047 00:47:41,240 --> 00:47:43,650 Okay, and then what? 1048 00:47:43,680 --> 00:47:45,380 It's raining. It's raining. 1049 00:47:45,410 --> 00:47:48,990 It's a rain that breaks this terrible heat wave. 1050 00:47:49,020 --> 00:47:50,530 [ chuckles ] 1051 00:47:50,560 --> 00:47:52,500 And you're at home in your apartment and you're -- 1052 00:47:52,530 --> 00:47:53,970 you're thinking about your life and you're -- 1053 00:47:54,000 --> 00:47:56,070 you're thinking about moving on, right? 1054 00:47:58,070 --> 00:48:00,010 But then you hear the key in the lock. 1055 00:48:00,040 --> 00:48:01,510 Okay. 1056 00:48:01,550 --> 00:48:03,280 And the creak of the hinge. 1057 00:48:03,320 --> 00:48:05,290 That's nice. 1058 00:48:05,320 --> 00:48:09,560 And then you turn around and suddenly she's just... 1059 00:48:09,600 --> 00:48:12,540 there in the doorway. 1060 00:48:12,570 --> 00:48:14,340 And then? 1061 00:48:16,440 --> 00:48:19,550 And then the book ends. 1062 00:48:19,580 --> 00:48:23,360 Yeah, but I mean, like, what happens after that? 1063 00:48:26,730 --> 00:48:28,540 I don't know. 1064 00:48:28,570 --> 00:48:32,310 I really don't think I have the imagination for that. 1065 00:48:33,340 --> 00:48:34,510 It's okay. 1066 00:48:37,490 --> 00:48:40,060 I love you so much. 1067 00:48:40,090 --> 00:48:41,390 You know that, right? 1068 00:48:45,500 --> 00:48:47,970 I haven't been a good friend to you lately. 1069 00:48:50,340 --> 00:48:52,050 It's okay. 1070 00:48:52,080 --> 00:48:54,620 You've been going through a lot. 1071 00:48:54,650 --> 00:48:57,330 But I want you to know... [ sniffles ] 1072 00:48:57,360 --> 00:48:59,530 ...you are still you. 1073 00:49:01,670 --> 00:49:02,740 I can see it all. 1074 00:49:02,770 --> 00:49:05,070 I can see your darkness. 1075 00:49:05,110 --> 00:49:07,510 I can see your goodness. 1076 00:49:07,550 --> 00:49:10,480 It is still there, like the day we met. 1077 00:49:10,520 --> 00:49:13,360 Okay? 1078 00:49:13,390 --> 00:49:18,500 ♪♪♪ 1079 00:49:18,530 --> 00:49:23,710 ♪♪♪ 1080 00:49:23,750 --> 00:49:25,480 [ sighs ] 1081 00:49:25,520 --> 00:49:27,750 It's okay. 1082 00:49:27,790 --> 00:49:29,560 Thank you. 1083 00:49:32,800 --> 00:49:35,400 May God grant them happiness. 1084 00:49:35,430 --> 00:49:41,080 ♪♪♪ 1085 00:49:41,110 --> 00:49:42,750 May God grant them happiness. 1086 00:49:42,780 --> 00:49:45,490 ♪ I'll be there 1087 00:49:45,520 --> 00:49:48,460 ♪ By your side 1088 00:49:50,400 --> 00:49:52,770 You want to walk back uptown together? 1089 00:49:52,800 --> 00:49:54,140 Sure. 1090 00:49:54,170 --> 00:49:55,510 Alright, I'm just gonna run to the bathroom. 1091 00:49:55,540 --> 00:49:56,640 Okay, I'll be outside. 1092 00:49:56,680 --> 00:50:02,160 ♪♪♪ 1093 00:50:02,190 --> 00:50:07,630 ♪♪♪ 1094 00:50:07,670 --> 00:50:13,140 ♪♪♪ 1095 00:50:13,180 --> 00:50:15,710 ♪♪♪ 1096 00:50:22,700 --> 00:50:24,500 [ horns 1097 00:50:24,530 --> 00:50:26,270 [ indistinct conversations ] 1098 00:50:37,560 --> 00:50:41,230 ♪♪♪ 1099 00:50:41,270 --> 00:50:45,110 ♪♪♪ 1100 00:50:45,140 --> 00:50:48,750 ♪♪♪ 1101 00:50:48,780 --> 00:50:52,590 ♪♪♪ 1102 00:50:52,620 --> 00:50:56,260 ♪♪♪ 1103 00:50:56,300 --> 00:51:00,100 ♪♪♪ 1104 00:51:00,140 --> 00:51:03,810 ♪♪♪ 1105 00:51:11,260 --> 00:51:13,600 Hi. 1106 00:51:13,630 --> 00:51:15,600 Uh, can you take me to New Jersey? 1107 00:51:15,640 --> 00:51:18,680 I'll pay double the meter. MAN: Sure. 1108 00:51:18,710 --> 00:51:22,220 LIBBY: Hey, sorry, I found a cab so I'm gonna head home. 1109 00:51:22,250 --> 00:51:24,850 [ Text message whooshes ] 1110 00:51:24,890 --> 00:51:26,690 [ sighs ] 1111 00:51:26,720 --> 00:51:28,530 [ cellphone rings ] 1112 00:51:28,560 --> 00:51:32,300 ♪♪♪ 1113 00:51:32,330 --> 00:51:36,140 ♪♪♪ 1114 00:51:36,180 --> 00:51:37,880 [ horns honking ] 1115 00:51:37,910 --> 00:51:40,280 [ indistinct conversations ] 1116 00:51:50,610 --> 00:51:55,310 ♪♪♪ 1117 00:51:55,350 --> 00:52:00,260 ♪♪♪ 1118 00:52:00,290 --> 00:52:03,200 We fall in love and we decide to marry 1119 00:52:03,230 --> 00:52:05,840 in this one incredible moment. 1120 00:52:07,940 --> 00:52:10,310 What if everything that happens after that 1121 00:52:10,340 --> 00:52:12,880 is about trying to remember that moment? 1122 00:52:14,850 --> 00:52:16,190 ADAM: Yeah. LIBBY: What? 1123 00:52:16,220 --> 00:52:18,190 It's true. 1124 00:52:18,230 --> 00:52:19,860 Were you listening? 1125 00:52:19,900 --> 00:52:21,770 Maybe that's what all these divorces were about. 1126 00:52:23,910 --> 00:52:26,780 We watch ourselves and our spouses change 1127 00:52:26,810 --> 00:52:29,220 and the work is to constantly recall 1128 00:52:29,250 --> 00:52:32,620 the reasons why you did this in the first place. 1129 00:52:32,660 --> 00:52:36,730 You mistake the person closest to you for your misery. 1130 00:52:36,760 --> 00:52:41,240 You think, "Maybe if I excised this thing, I'd be me again." 1131 00:52:43,810 --> 00:52:45,680 But you're not you anymore. 1132 00:52:48,390 --> 00:52:51,330 You haven't been you in a long time. 1133 00:52:51,360 --> 00:52:53,600 It's not his fault. 1134 00:52:53,630 --> 00:52:55,270 It was always going to happen. 1135 00:52:58,940 --> 00:53:01,250 And what were you gonna do with the fact that time 1136 00:53:01,280 --> 00:53:03,620 was going to march on anyway? 1137 00:53:03,650 --> 00:53:04,920 What were you gonna do with the fact 1138 00:53:04,950 --> 00:53:07,630 that you couldn't win this fight? 1139 00:53:07,660 --> 00:53:09,360 That was the problem. 1140 00:53:09,400 --> 00:53:12,340 You were not ever going to be young again. 1141 00:53:12,370 --> 00:53:13,910 Come here. 1142 00:53:13,940 --> 00:53:15,370 You were only at risk for not remembering 1143 00:53:15,410 --> 00:53:17,410 that this was as good as it would get 1144 00:53:17,440 --> 00:53:19,650 in every single moment, 1145 00:53:19,680 --> 00:53:23,790 that you are right now as young as you'll ever be again. 1146 00:53:25,700 --> 00:53:26,960 ADAM: I can't tell anymore. 1147 00:53:27,000 --> 00:53:29,270 I got him, I got him. 1148 00:53:29,300 --> 00:53:30,710 And now. Yech. 1149 00:53:32,810 --> 00:53:33,940 And now. 1150 00:53:35,450 --> 00:53:37,250 And now. 1151 00:53:37,990 --> 00:53:39,360 And now. 1152 00:53:39,390 --> 00:53:41,290 Pay attention. 1153 00:53:41,330 --> 00:53:42,430 And now. 1154 00:53:42,460 --> 00:53:44,430 [ indistinct conversation ] 1155 00:53:44,470 --> 00:53:46,000 And now. 1156 00:53:47,300 --> 00:53:49,640 And now. You know what I mean. 1157 00:53:49,680 --> 00:53:51,380 And now. 1158 00:53:51,410 --> 00:53:53,990 And now. 1159 00:53:54,020 --> 00:53:55,860 And now. 1160 00:53:55,890 --> 00:53:58,060 [ yelling indistinctly ] And now. 1161 00:53:58,090 --> 00:54:00,700 And now. 1162 00:54:00,730 --> 00:54:02,300 And now. 1163 00:54:02,330 --> 00:54:03,940 And now. 1164 00:54:03,970 --> 00:54:05,940 And now. 1165 00:54:05,980 --> 00:54:07,710 And now. 1166 00:54:07,750 --> 00:54:11,350 And now and now and now and now and now. 1167 00:54:12,490 --> 00:54:14,060 And now. 1168 00:54:19,400 --> 00:54:20,770 Oh, my God. 1169 00:54:20,810 --> 00:54:22,740 Ahh. Whoo. 1170 00:54:22,780 --> 00:54:24,010 I'm so cold! 1171 00:54:32,900 --> 00:54:38,470 ♪♪♪ 1172 00:54:38,510 --> 00:54:42,050 ♪♪♪ 1173 00:54:42,080 --> 00:54:43,680 And now. 1174 00:55:31,550 --> 00:55:33,380 [ stairs creaking ] 1175 00:55:35,960 --> 00:55:41,170 ♪♪♪ 1176 00:55:41,200 --> 00:55:46,580 ♪♪♪ 1177 00:55:46,610 --> 00:55:52,460 ♪♪♪ 1178 00:55:52,490 --> 00:55:57,600 ♪♪♪ 1179 00:55:57,630 --> 00:56:03,010 ♪♪♪ 1180 00:56:03,040 --> 00:56:08,190 ♪♪♪ 1181 00:56:08,220 --> 00:56:13,430 ♪♪♪ 1182 00:56:13,460 --> 00:56:18,570 ♪♪♪ 1183 00:56:18,610 --> 00:56:24,150 ♪♪♪ 1184 00:56:24,190 --> 00:56:28,590 ♪♪♪ 1185 00:56:28,630 --> 00:56:33,000 ♪♪♪ 1186 00:56:33,040 --> 00:56:36,510 [ breathes deeply ] 1187 00:56:36,540 --> 00:56:38,780 You're home. 1188 00:56:40,890 --> 00:56:42,490 I ran home. 1189 00:56:44,560 --> 00:56:47,900 Because I love you so much, I think I'm gonna die from it. 1190 00:56:49,040 --> 00:56:51,870 [ sighs ] 1191 00:56:51,910 --> 00:56:53,480 I'm sorry I'm late. 1192 00:56:53,510 --> 00:56:58,020 ♪♪♪ 1193 00:56:58,050 --> 00:57:00,960 It's okay. 1194 00:57:00,990 --> 00:57:02,260 You always come back. 1195 00:57:02,290 --> 00:57:07,540 ♪♪♪ 1196 00:57:07,570 --> 00:57:13,150 ♪♪♪ 1197 00:57:13,180 --> 00:57:18,490 ♪♪♪ 1198 00:57:18,530 --> 00:57:23,670 ♪♪♪ 1199 00:57:23,700 --> 00:57:29,050 ♪♪♪ 1200 00:57:29,080 --> 00:57:34,560 ♪♪♪ 1201 00:57:34,590 --> 00:57:40,040 ♪♪♪ 1202 00:57:40,070 --> 00:57:42,110 ♪♪♪ 1203 00:57:42,140 --> 00:57:44,050 [ thunder rumbling ] 1204 00:57:44,080 --> 00:57:46,680 [ siren wailing ] 1205 00:57:46,720 --> 00:57:48,950 [ thunder crashes ] 1206 00:57:53,700 --> 00:57:56,100 Toby Fleishman headed home that night and waited 1207 00:57:56,140 --> 00:57:58,570 for the panic to rise in him again... 1208 00:58:00,980 --> 00:58:03,120 ...the same panic that washed him in sweat 1209 00:58:03,150 --> 00:58:05,690 every time he contemplated the future. 1210 00:58:08,760 --> 00:58:11,570 But it didn't. 1211 00:58:11,600 --> 00:58:13,200 He was healing. 1212 00:58:16,010 --> 00:58:17,110 Hi. FAITH: Hi. 1213 00:58:17,140 --> 00:58:18,680 Hi, how were they? They were fine. 1214 00:58:18,710 --> 00:58:20,020 Yeah? Solly won Monopoly. 1215 00:58:20,050 --> 00:58:22,290 Oh, no. 1216 00:58:22,320 --> 00:58:24,190 Thank you so much, Faith. Thank you. 1217 00:58:24,230 --> 00:58:26,030 Yeah, great. It's really pouring. 1218 00:58:26,060 --> 00:58:27,260 You have an umbrella or something? I got one. 1219 00:58:27,300 --> 00:58:28,570 Okay, great. Thanks, have a good night. 1220 00:58:28,600 --> 00:58:30,170 Yeah, you too. 1221 00:58:31,170 --> 00:58:32,740 [ sighs ] 1222 00:58:37,280 --> 00:58:42,960 ♪♪♪ 1223 00:58:43,000 --> 00:58:45,130 How could you be so desperately unhappy 1224 00:58:45,170 --> 00:58:49,180 when you were so essentially happy? 1225 00:58:49,210 --> 00:58:50,710 How could you know so much 1226 00:58:50,750 --> 00:58:53,580 and still be this baffled by it all? 1227 00:58:53,620 --> 00:58:57,660 ♪♪♪ 1228 00:58:57,690 --> 00:59:01,000 The heat wave in Manhattan was finally broken. 1229 00:59:01,030 --> 00:59:03,100 Toby would survive this. 1230 00:59:03,140 --> 00:59:07,280 In a hundred different ways, he already had. 1231 00:59:07,310 --> 00:59:10,250 He would start looking for a new apartment tomorrow, 1232 00:59:10,280 --> 00:59:13,990 one where everything worked. 1233 00:59:14,020 --> 00:59:17,200 He looked out the window and saw his reflection, 1234 00:59:17,230 --> 00:59:19,300 but then he also saw beyond himself. 1235 00:59:19,340 --> 00:59:22,070 He saw the people in the windows in the city, 1236 00:59:22,110 --> 00:59:26,080 all living their own, separate, distinct lives. 1237 00:59:26,120 --> 00:59:30,020 God, he thought, you could die of the loneliness, 1238 00:59:30,060 --> 00:59:32,230 but you could die of hope, too, 1239 00:59:32,260 --> 00:59:35,100 the way it blinded you a little, 1240 00:59:35,130 --> 00:59:38,810 the way it led you to try again, despite what you knew. 1241 00:59:39,510 --> 00:59:44,290 Time would move forward, but tonight, briefly, 1242 00:59:44,320 --> 00:59:49,060 he had logged some optimism into his block universe. 1243 00:59:49,090 --> 00:59:50,800 It would stay there forever. 1244 00:59:50,830 --> 00:59:53,700 ♪♪♪ 1245 00:59:53,740 --> 00:59:55,780 [ door opens ] 1246 00:59:55,810 --> 00:59:59,350 ♪♪♪ 1247 00:59:59,380 --> 01:00:02,050 [ hinges creak ] 1248 01:00:02,090 --> 01:00:07,800 ♪♪♪ 1249 01:00:07,830 --> 01:00:10,040 ♪♪♪ 1250 01:00:13,880 --> 01:00:16,080 ♪ Turn around 1251 01:00:16,120 --> 01:00:19,790 ♪ Every now and then I get a little bit lonely ♪ 1252 01:00:19,820 --> 01:00:22,130 ♪ You're never coming 'round 1253 01:00:22,160 --> 01:00:24,200 ♪ Turn around 1254 01:00:24,230 --> 01:00:28,070 ♪ Every now and then I get a little bit tired ♪ 1255 01:00:28,110 --> 01:00:32,210 ♪ Of listening to the sound of my tears ♪ 1256 01:00:32,250 --> 01:00:35,790 ♪ Every now and then I get a little bit nervous ♪ 1257 01:00:35,820 --> 01:00:40,360 ♪ The best of all the years have gone by ♪ 1258 01:00:40,400 --> 01:00:44,410 ♪ Every now and then I get a little bit terrified ♪ 1259 01:00:44,440 --> 01:00:48,210 ♪ Then I see the look in your eyes ♪ 1260 01:00:48,250 --> 01:00:50,320 ♪ Bright eyes 1261 01:00:50,350 --> 01:00:54,490 ♪ Every now and then I fall apart ♪ 1262 01:00:54,530 --> 01:00:56,730 ♪ Bright eyes 1263 01:00:56,760 --> 01:01:00,370 ♪ Every now and then I fall apart ♪ 1264 01:01:00,400 --> 01:01:04,250 ♪ And I need you now tonight 1265 01:01:04,280 --> 01:01:08,290 ♪ And I need you more than ever ♪ 1266 01:01:08,320 --> 01:01:12,390 ♪ And if you only hold me tight ♪ 1267 01:01:12,430 --> 01:01:16,270 ♪ We'll be holding on forever ♪ 1268 01:01:16,300 --> 01:01:20,410 ♪ And we'll only be making it right ♪ 1269 01:01:20,440 --> 01:01:22,880 ♪ 'Cause we'll never be wrong 1270 01:01:22,920 --> 01:01:26,890 ♪ Together we can take it to the end of the line ♪ 1271 01:01:26,920 --> 01:01:31,200 ♪ Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time ♪ 1272 01:01:33,200 --> 01:01:37,210 ♪ I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark ♪ 1273 01:01:37,240 --> 01:01:39,320 ♪ We're living in a powder keg 1274 01:01:39,350 --> 01:01:43,290 ♪ And giving off sparks 1275 01:01:43,320 --> 01:01:47,130 ♪ I really need you tonight 1276 01:01:47,160 --> 01:01:51,170 ♪ Forever's gonna start tonight ♪ 1277 01:01:51,210 --> 01:01:54,950 ♪ Forever's gonna start tonight ♪ 1278 01:01:54,980 --> 01:01:59,190 ♪ Forever's gonna start tonight ♪ 1279 01:01:59,220 --> 01:02:03,330 ♪ Forever's gonna start tonight ♪ 1280 01:02:05,870 --> 01:02:09,810 ♪ Once upon a time I was falling in love ♪ 1281 01:02:09,840 --> 01:02:13,780 ♪ Now I'm only falling apart 1282 01:02:13,820 --> 01:02:15,860 ♪ There's nothing I can do 1283 01:02:15,890 --> 01:02:18,530 ♪ A total eclipse of the heart 1284 01:02:22,000 --> 01:02:27,510 ♪ Yeah, a total eclipse 1285 01:02:27,550 --> 01:02:31,320 ♪ Of the heart 1286 01:02:33,620 --> 01:02:35,460 [ applause ] 92078