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Previously on
"Grey's Anatomy"...

What if it wasn't
- ridiculous?
- What?

What if you try to cure
Alzheimer's?

Should I anticipate any
- goodbye e-mails from you?
- I don't know.

Tessa's like Seattle royalty.

Man, I grew up
on her stories.

I do have
another story to tell.

"Tessa and the Rising Sun."

I'm sorry. I can't.

You don't consider me
part of your life.

Of course you're
part of my life.

You took the Boston job
without even talking to me.

I love cardio.
But I love you more.

Guess I'm not sure
that I respect that.

♪ I'm up, I'm here,
I'm out the door ♪

One of the greatest
frustrations surgeons have

are the unrealistic
expectations of our patients.

Whoa.

♪ Don't you wanna go with me

Whoa! Whoa!

No!

No. No, no, no!

Whether they're acutely ill or
they've been sick for years...

No, no, no, no, no.

No, no.

Oh, my God. No.

...by the time they're
on the surgical table,

they're hoping for a miracle.

- Thanks for the ride.
- Get out.

I'm late.
So am I.

But often, surgery is just
the beginning of the healing,

rather than an end.

Because for weeks
or months post-op,

people have to learn
how to live

without the part of their
body we've just removed.

- You're late.
- Not as late as you.

And that's not always easy
and it's never painless.

So, surgery is not
the happily ever after

our patients hope it will be.

Like everything else in life,
it's an evolution.

Now, remember what
I said to you.

You're going to take
these gifts

and go visit your
old daycare teachers.

They're gonna be
very excited to see you.

Do you remember
where you're going?

- Mom, I'm not a baby.
- Same, Mom.

Okay.

Hey!
Look who's here!

Hi.
Big last day.

Yeah, we're
trying to forget

all that and act
like everything

- is super normal.
- How are we doing?

Not great.

- How's the new place?
- It is great.

It is weird to live alone
when I don't have Scout,

but I feel
very grown up.

Do you have any surgeries
- I can watch today?
- Zola--

I might have
a very excellent one

with Uncle Winston in O.R. two,
if your mom says it's okay.

Mom, please?

Okay, if anyone asks,
I don't know where you are.

Link!
Hi. Hey.

Do you, uh-- Do you have
- a busy schedule today?
- Actually, no.

I've carved out my whole day
to catch up on charting.

I am buried in--I need you to pick up
a cake by noon.

- This bakery's across town.
- It's for Meredith.

Does she like
faraway cake?

It's her favorite.

It's the triple berry
with the buttercream.

I would do it myself,

but the baby
that I delivered

two weeks ago with
the malformed heart,

he's having
heart surgery today,

and his parents are very
attached to me, and--

and-- and you love me,
so please help.

That is true.

I do love you.
Thank you.

You're all rounding with
Doctors Ndugu and Pierce.

They are breaking new
surgical ground,

and it is a privilege
that they have invited--

Sorry.
My car broke down.

Had to get a ride
with my sister.

Yeah, my car got towed
and it's also my house.

Do you know who else
wasn't punctual?

Taryn Helm
wasn't punctual,

despite being
an excellent surgeon,

and now you can find her
throwing her life away

bartending
across the street.

There's a surgeon
bartending at Joe's?

Why?

Because she burnt out,
that's why.

So, hydrate and sleep
and lean on your friends,

and take a break
and get a good therapist.

And be on time,

unless you
want to wind up like Helm,

wasting your talents,

your family's investment,
and your futures.

Does she know you're throwing
shade behind her back?

Woman over PA:
Dr. Joseph to L

Dr. Earl Joseph to L

Meadow, Will.

Um, we're
a teaching hospital,

and these
are our first years.

Is it okay
if they stay?

You can say no.

Uh, i-it should be okay.

Baby?

Dr. Kwan.

Arlo Fischer, delivered by
Dr. Wilson two weeks ago,

and diagnosed with
truncus arteriosus and VSD.

He's been listed for
a transplant for heart failure,

and he was placed
on ECMO a week ago.

Arlo's deterioration is
sending him into organ failure.

We got a call from UNOS last
night that there is a match,

but the procurement team reported

that the donor heart muscle
is weak

and not suitable
for transplantation.

But Dr. Pierce
and I believe

that we can still
make use of the heart

if we transplant only
the two major arteries.

So, it's a partial
heart transplant?

Has that ever
been done before?

No, this
will be the first.

I don't understand.

Why can't we just wait
on another heart?

Meadow, it could take months
to find another match.

Arlo cannot stay on ECMO
for that long.

Baby, she's saying partial
is better than nothing.

We know this is frightening,
but if this works,

these valves will grow with him
for the rest of his life,

and he won't need
a heart transplant

or any other
additional surgeries.

If this works.
What if it doesn't work?

He dies?
My baby dies?

We're gonna give you
some time to think about it.

We really do believe
that this is

Arlo's best option
at this point.

Can you...
I can stay.

Yes, Of course.

- Thank you, Doctor.
- Yeah.

Come in.

Hey.
Hi.

Heard it's your
last day.
It is.

Thanks for coming.

I went by the house.

It's nice to see
it's still standing.

There's a giant hole
where the attic used to be.

They've spent the last two weeks
stabilizing the place,

but everything
still reeks of smoke.

It's...
How are the kids?

Zola's excited to start
at her new school.

I think Bailey and Ellis
are sad to leave.

I called, you know?

I know.

This has been a lot.

A fire,
living in a hotel, moving.

No, I know it's been a lot,
but what-- what was your plan?

You were just gonna leave
and not call me back?

And you're gonna move
across the country

without a conversation?

I-I-I-I don't get that.
I don't.

I didn't know
what to say.

I moved here
to be with you.

Yes, I took a job,
but I moved here

to be with you.

You didn't say it back.

I didn't
say what back?

You s--

What?

I said, "I love you."

You were standing
exactly in that spot

where you are
right now.

I said, "I love you."

You didn't say it back.

You had just taken a job
at my hospital.

I thought--
I had hoped

that we were
gonna pick it up

right where we left off.

But you seemed to want
to take it slow.

So, it did not
occur to me

to confer with you
about me moving.

Okay, so wait, wait, wait,
wait, wait, whoa.

This--
So, this is on me?

This whole thing,
it's my fault?

That is not
what I just said.

I-I didn't do and say
exactly what you thought

I should do and say
on exactly your timeline,

so this whole mess
is my fault.

That's what
you're saying?
That is not
what I said.

No, no. Nope.

I can't.

So essentially, we will
take out the truncus

and the malformed artery,

replace it with the donor
aorta and pulmonary trunk,

and then use their walls
to close the VSD.

So it's like gutting
the inside of a house

without
disturbing the frames.

Can you not use the word
"gutting" when talking

about a tiny baby heart?

Mm, cosign.

I don't like the verbiage,
but it is a pretty apt metaphor.

Do we
get to scrub in?

There will only be room
for one of you at the table.

We are operating on a heart
the size of a strawberry.

The vessels are
half a centimeter wide.

My hands
are the smallest!

You will not be stitching.
You will be observing.

But whoever does the best
vascular anastomosis

in the skills lab
wins the spot.

Dr. Kwan.

Yeah?

Uh, don't do your finger
agility exercises

in front of the patients, alright?

Oh, it's a technique
I use to disengage

from the emotionality.

To stay neutral.

Y-You know, when--
when the mother

started crying,
I was...

It's smart. You just can't
let them see it, Kwan.

Understood.

Richard!

Just curious
how it's going.

The search
for the new chief.

It was easy
a few years ago

when we were
at the top of our game. Right.

But we've got a lot
of interesting applicants

we're sorting through, yeah.

I mean, Grey-Sloan
is not an easy place

just to step right into.

It's got its own history,
its-- its own quirks,

its own personality.

Well, that it does.

Yeah. I mean, it-- it wouldn't
be the-- the worst idea

to look closer to home.

Someone who's been here,

who-- who understands
our history,

the issues, and-- and our past
and our needs.

Altman, I think
you're onto something.

T-There's no
extra pay involved,

but there's lots
of free pastries

and we could use
your expertise.

I-I'm sorry,
there's no extra pay?

No, the search committee
is voluntary.

But we'd love to have you.

We're meeting in the second
floor conference room

from 4:00 to 6:00
on Monday.

Okay, got it.
Thank you.

I will...

join.
Great.

Yeah.
Thank you.

Okay.

Meadow, I got a page.
Is everything okay?

I can't do it.

I-I can't
kiss him goodbye

for what
might be forever.

She wants to wait.

W-We want to wait
for a whole heart.

An infant donor heart
could take up to six months

to find a match.

But we got this one.

This one was a match
and it came in days.

- But it was damaged.
- I know.

But we could get
another match

in the next
couple of days.

It could happen.

I know that it's hard,
and I know that it's scary,

but Dr. Pierce
is as good as it gets

and she is not
a risk taker.

She doesn't do
experimental surgeries

for practice or for glory.

She is suggesting this
because she believes

that she can
save Arlo's life.

I don't know
how to love my son this much

and send him in
for an experimental surgery

that might kill him.

I-I can't do it.

If he dies
in that surgery,

I won't ever
be okay again.

Tell Dr. Pierce
thank you, but no.

The surgery is off.

Ow! Damn it.

You know what?

Screw this.

What? Should I
go after her?
Shh.

Some of us
are trying to win.

I hate this stitch.

Oh, you have to kinda twirl
your wrist like, um...

Here.

Right.

Yeah.

- Oh, no.
- It's Tessa Hobbes.

Who?

I have no idea.

Done.

Tessa.
What happened?

I'm so sorry.

She came in with severe
abdominal pain.

She's a bit hypotensive.
Take her to CT.

I-I picked up
my groceries.

Tessa, we said no heavy
lifting, three months.

It was just
a grocery bag,

and I was feeling so great.

And then there
was this sharp pain,

like something tore.

And then she drove
herself here.

Wh-- You
drove yourself?

Well, in retrospect,
I can see

that might have been
a bad idea.

Tessa, which area
hurts exactly?

All of it.
The entire abdomen hurts.

Here--
touch right there.

- Ow!
- She's tachycardic.

We should take her
straight to the O.R.

No, her blood pressure's
holding.

Get her to CT first
and then call the O.R.

to be on standby.

Skip the line.
I'll call ahead.

I really think we
should just take her

straight to the O.R.Go! I'll call Marsh.

Someone page Chief Grey!

♪ Hey, love

- Are you Dr. Hellum?
- Who's asking?

Mika Yasuda, first year
surgical resident.

It's Helm, and I'm
no longer a doctor.

Cool, 'cause
I'm barely a doctor

and I'm desperate
for a win.

Could you
possibly teach me

how to do a perfect
microvascular anastomosis?

There's a contest and if I win
I get to scrub in

on a partial heart transplant
on a newborn.

A partial heart transplant
doesn't exist.

I know, but it is about to,
and I-I need this.

I need a win
because I, uh--

I don't have anywhere
to sleep tonight,

and Seattle is
outrageously expensive,

and being a surgical
resident is exhausting...

...to the point
of nearly impossible,

and I just really need to give
myself a reason to keep caring.

And if Blue wins,
I cannot take the gloating.

Blue?
Like the ribbon.

And this is a nickname
he perpetuates.

Wow.
That is arrogant.

Right?

20 bucks.

My house was towed this morning,
so I don't have 20 bucks.

But if I win
this contest,

I will barback for you
on Friday night for free.

You've been a barback?

No, but I've been
a cater waiter

and I'm excellent
at chopping limes.

Give me it.

♪ I love you far

♪ You know I'm never right

I was treating myself
to champagne and fruit salad

because that's what
I was craving,

and I had plenty
to celebrate.

Now, okay, wait, wait.

And then
the groceries came.

They left them
on the front stoop.

It didn't even o-occur to me

not to bend over
and pick them up.

It's routine.

It's muscle memory.

Dr. Griffith, the ring
around your necklace--

are you engaged?

I-I was.
I was engaged.

Now I'm not.

Heartbreak is the worst.

It is.

If I die today, I might
even miss heartbreak.

Please try
not to die today.

Yeah, I'll do my best.

Oh, wait.
I need my purse.

- Right now?
- Yes, where is it?

Uh, it's downstairs
with your clothes.

I can get it
after we're done here.

Okay.

Hey, what happened?

Schmitt said her abdomen
is distended and she's tachy.

She's getting more hypotensive.

Okay, well, you two
need to go book an O.R.

I don't care if you have to
kick someone out to do it.

Tessa takes priority.

I don't get it.

She did this
for groceries?

Well, I don't think she
did it on purpose, Nick.

I think she probably lives alone
and is set in her ways,

and I'm sure it's a lot for her
to change and ask for help.

Hello?

We're here, Tessa.
Please stay very still.

I'm afraid.
This is all wrong.

I-I don't want to die.

I still have
something to say.

Tessa, you're not
going anywhere today.

We've got you.

She's bleeding out.

We're gonna need
some help in here.

We're gonna need
blood in the O.R.

Tessa, we're gonna
take you upstairs.

So on a scale
of one to better?

We're better. I think.
I think we're better.

But you're not sure?

I am sure that we
are both excited

about this partial heart
transplant on an infant,

which is a
stroke-of-genius idea

that we came up
with together.

And that is because in the
O.R., we're good together.

In our chosen field of study,
we are so good.

Are you rehearsing
a speech you plan on

- giving him later?
- Maybe a little.

So the two of you haven't
really spoken since the fire.

Oh, we said some things.

We needed
a cooling-off period.

It's best that we haven't
talked about it.

A-And, you know,
we'll talk again soon.

As soon as we change
medical history.

I have bad news.

Oh, no.
The baby?

No, he's stable.

But his mom's too scared.

She wants to call it off.

I can't talk her into it.
That would be unethical.

But you think she's got
this one wrong?

Without this surgery,
the baby has days to live.

She had a 30-hour labor
and she did it without any meds.

- Meaning?
- She's a warrior.

She's strong
in her convictions,

and she seems sure
of what she wants.

Let me talk to her.

You can't.

I'm not her doctor.

Let me talk to her.

You're a neurosurgeon,
so do you think Arlo needs--

No, no, no. No.

No, I'm not here as one
of Arlo's doctors.

I'm sorry, but if you're here
to try to talk me into--

I'm here
because I had a baby

who only lived
for 43 minutes.

He had a condition
called anencephaly,

which is when the baby's brain
does not develop typically,

and, uh, we discovered it
when I was 6 months pregnant.

We didn't know.

We didn't know
until he was born

that there
was anything wrong.

I gave birth
to Christopher

knowing that he would be
an organ donor,

uh, because there was nothing
that we could do.

There was no surgery
that we could try.

And, um, I think about
him a lot these days

because he has
a brother now, named Scout,

and as Scout grows up,

I cannot help
but think about

who Christopher
would have been.

And, um...

what I do know is

if there
had been a chance

that Christopher
could have lived,

if there had been
any hope,

if there had been
any surgery

and it meant
that he might live...

I would take the shot.

I knew it.

I knew we should have taken
her straight to the O.R.

We needed the CT to see
if we could operate--

My gut doesn't lie.

And I should have
fought for it.

We should have brought
her straight here.

Yeah,
I'm number one.

Ew, someone
likes himself.

No, my sample
is literally number one.

But yes,
I intend to win.

What is that face?
Is that good?

It is if you want
to go home early.

I knew I shouldn't have
practiced on bananas.

What about fruit says
"baby veins" to you?

This is all good work.

Number one's sutures
are particularly precise.

But with perfect
alignment and tension,

the winner
is number three.

That's me!

Guess we gotta call you
Red today, huh?

Hm.

Scalpel.

I thought
you would win.

Your stitches
are typically excellent.

I know.

Better than Yasuda's.

I tanked the contest

because babies scare
the crap out of me.

Didn't want to be
anywhere near that table.

Why are you
scared of babies?

Oh, no, no, no,
no, no, no, no.

You gotta tell me.
Come on.

Okay, but you
owe me one.

Owe you what?

Whatever I decide.

Fine.

When I was 5,
my dad took me into the backyard

where my mom had just
given birth to my brother

in a kiddie pool.

Now, you've done
an OB rotation.

You're acquainted with all
the blood and placenta

and the literal horror movie
that is human child birth.

And I'm sure it's all
very beautiful in its own way,

but I was 5.

And before I could fully
process what I was seeing,

my dad handed me
a pair of scissors

and told me to cut
the umbilical cord.

Wait, you were 5?

Yeah.

What, you think
this is funny?

This is trauma.

This is-- This
is crystal-loving,

weed-smoking, latter-day
hippie-style trauma.

Shh!

Sorry to shush you,
but my aunt

is making history
right now,

and I think we should
all be paying attention.

♪ I've had my heart
get swallowed ♪

♪ And dragged down
to the deep ♪

♪ But I made it to tomorrow

♪ So I believe

♪ After all these years
of trying ♪

♪ Weighing on these
tired bones ♪

♪ If there's something
I'll take with me ♪

Starting compressions.

♪ Let it be hope

Come on, Tessa.

♪ Yeah, let it be hope

♪ Yeah, let it be

♪ Let it be hope

♪ Let it be

Come on, Tessa. Fight.

Mer.

Meredith,
let Griffith take over.

♪ After all these years
of trying ♪

♪ Weighing on these
tired bones ♪

♪ If there's something
I'll take with me ♪

♪ Mm-mmm

♪ Let it be hope

♪ Yeah, let it be hope

♪ Yeah, let it be

♪ Let it be hope

♪ Yeah, let it be

♪ Yeah, let it be hope

Griffith,
it's time to stop.

♪ Let it be hope

♪ Let it be hope

Oh, God.

Oh, my God. No.

♪ Let it be hope

Time of death 12:21.

Chief Grey,
I'd like to close her up.

I'd like to pay her
that respect.

Can I help?
Yeah.

That was so
incredibly stupid.

That did not have
to end that way.

I hate this day.

I hate everything
about this day.

Me, too.

I-I'm a-- I-I'm
a transplant surgeon.

I-I wait.
I'm trained to wait.

I attach, I perfuse,
I wait for the organ to take.

For it not
to be rejected.

For it to pink up.
For blood to flow.

Because that's
how humans respond.

They're not machines
with an on/off switch.

And I'm a grown woman
with a big life

and a big career
and three kids.

And this move is what
my daughter needs.

I want you in my life
if you want to be in my life.

But if I have to choose,
I'm going to pick me.

I pick my kids, and I
pick what's best for us.

And I am not going to beg you
to love me.

I'm sorry
I was emotional earlier.

Be sorry when you stop feeling
the losses.

This was my last surgery here.

I thought for sure I was
going out on a high.

I know that
sounds shallow.

No, it's devastating,
on every level.

How's your grandmother?

Awful.
It's awful.

She exclusively calls me
by my mother's name now,

which I can handle.
I didn't know my mother.

But my sister,
she remembers my mother,

she remembers
that I killed her.

She was 6
when it happened and...

she's never
forgiven me for it.

And every time
my grandmother calls me

by my mother's name,
she hates me more,

and I don't know why I'm
telling you this, Chief Grey.

Well, because you know
I know.

And I don't work
here anymore,

so you can call me Meredith.

I have Tessa's book, Meredith.

- What?
- She wrote her last book.

She saved it
on a thumb drive,

and she brought it
here to the hospital,

which means after
she felt her pain,

the first thing she did

is go to her computer
and save her book.

She wanted me to give it
to her publisher in Boston,

and, um, I know you're--
you're going there today.

♪ Your color's fading

♪ 'Cause I kept you waiting

♪ It's a wild, wild world

I'm so happy she got
to write her last story.

♪ And you're a wild,
wild girl ♪

Chief Grey?
Meredith?

♪ Our sun's still shining

♪ But it seems half the size I'm sorry.

♪ And it's a wild, wild world

My mentor once
told me you worry

when you stop
feeling the losses.

♪ Before my time runs out
Let's go inside.

♪ What if I run away to Mars?

♪ Would you find me
in the stars? ♪

The heart is completely
pumping on its own.

♪ Would you miss me
in the end? ♪

It worked?

So far, yeah.
So far,
it worked, yeah.

♪ If I run out of oxygen

♪ When I run away

Amelia, thank you.

♪ To Mars

Echo looks great.
VSD is closed.

Outflow from the new arteries
looks good.

It sure feels like we
saved that baby's life.

Are you taking in
the miracle?

That is exactly
what I'm doing.

That was beyond
my wildest imagination

of what my day would be.

And not just this day,
which was awful

because my house-van got towed
with my whole life in it.

That was beyond
my wildest imagination

of what any day
of my life could be.

The way that you saved
that tiny baby heart.

I will never forget it.

Did you say house-van?

Yeah, you
sleep in a van?

Oh, well, I can't afford
to get it out of impound,

so not tonight.

Anyway, thank you.

♪ Mars

♪ Would you find me
in the stars? ♪

Aunt Amy,
how did you do it?

How did I do what?

How did you stop caring
what other people think?

My mom, your sisters,
they talk about you like--

like-- like you
don't give a flying crap

what anybody else thinks

and, like, they're
a little jealous of that.

And I want to know
how you did it.

Because I wanted to fight
for a patient today.

My gut told me everything
she needed and I didn't do it

because I was worried about
what other people would think.

I-I was worried about
getting in trouble.

You want to know
the truth?

The truth is I care deeply
what other people think.

And then I do what
I think is right anyway.

But I learned
that the hard way.

I had to live
a lot of life

before I became
the kind of person

I like and respect.

My patient died today.

I should have fought.

The good news is...

you let that pain
soak in...

...next time,
you will fight.

Did you ever find
a place to live, Shep?

Uh, yeah, I found a youth hostel
with a roach problem.

And please
don't call me Shep.

Then don't call me
Aunt Amy.

Is that it?

Straight from the oven
from the faraway bakery.

You are truly, madly,
deeply the best.

Wow, it's so much bigger
than I thought it would be.

I know. It barely
fit in my car.

Wait, what
do you mean bigger?

Did you check it?

I gave them your name,
they gave me a cake.

Well, there's no time
to take it back.

What do we do?

Oh, hey.

Oh.

- Top of my class.
- What?

I was top of my class at
an East Coast boarding school

where my classmates
were doing designer drugs

and cheating their way
to a passing grade.

I was top of my class.

And I didn't even drink
in high school.

Well, this is
sparkling cider.

Then I was second
in my class in undergrad,

but that's because I had
a brutal case of mono

my junior year,
which took me out for weeks,

but in med school,
I was back up to number one.

And I completed my
cardiothoracic fellowship

at the Mayo Clinic before
coming here

and training Cristina Yang
as a heart surgeon.

I have an inarguable pedigree
and I find it insulting

that you invite me to sit
on a panel to choose a chief

without stopping to consider
offering me the job.

Teddy, this hospital
just came out of a shutdown.

Dr. Bailey and Dr. Grey
both quit the job

that you're talking about,

and their pedigree
is quite similar to yours.

I didn't consider you
for the job

because it
is a flailing program

with a huge
amount of stress.

But by all means,
if you want it,

it's yours.

Really?
Is that a yes?

Can I think about it?

What is going on here?

Oh, crap. She's here.

Surprise!

Aw, Come on, people.
You can do better than this.

Okay, ready?

Surprise!

Well, this
is very thoughtful.

And ridiculous because
I'm only going to Boston,

and you know I'll probably
be here next week.

For God's sake, Grey,
will you just let us toast you?

To Meredith Grey!

♪ Been swimming
through shadows ♪

You know,
once upon a time...

♪ Moonrise

...you were the bane
of my existence.

But, no, you
grew up to become

one of my greatest
points of pride.

I'm...

♪ We keep run, run, running
from the cold ♪

To-- Wa--

♪ Keep my eyes wide open

Okay, go. Go.

Dr. Grey, what Dr. Bailey
is trying to say is...

this place won't be
the same without you.

♪ On my, my way

♪ Oh, you gotta keep on
feeding that fire ♪

♪ Oh, you gotta keep on
dancing through the night ♪

♪ Hey, let it fall

To Meredith Grey.

Hey. Hear, hear.

♪ Hey

Mom.
Yes?

- It was amazing.
- Was it?

Aunt Maggie
was amazing.

Of course
she's amazing.

I think I might
want to change

from neuro to cardio.

Will you be mad?

I will absolutely
not be mad.

Did you
talk to Nick?
I did.

We have
a plane to catch.

Should we go?

♪ Chasing the light

Dr. Marsh.

Helm.

Hey.

What are you
doing behind a bar?

Living my best life.

What are you
doing at the bar?

Uh, yeah, well, it was
a bit of a rough day,

so I decided
to call it early.

Actually, can I have
a whiskey rocks, please?

Thank you.
I don't get it.

Isn't Dr. Grey
leaving today?

Isn't her party,
like, right now?

Yeah.
Oh, my God.

You are such an idiot.

Wow.

I don't work
there anymore,

so I'm just gonna
tell you the truth

instead of pretending
to respect

your awful
decision making.

She's Meredith Grey.

She's impossible,
and she's perfect,

and she's brilliant,
and she cares.

And she can be mean sometimes,
but only when she needs to be,

and she can be
selfish sometimes

because she has
earned that right.

And for some stupid reason
she's into men

so she never fell
in love with me,

but she fell
in love with you.

And you're here?

How stupid are you?

He's still going strong.

I am in awe.

It really
is a miracle.

Yes.
Yeah.

It is-- It's a miracle
of science, Winston.

Specifically, it's a miracle
of cardiothoracic surgery.

We did a thing that no one
else has done today,

and-- and we
saved that baby's life.

And if it worked
like I think it did,

this miracle of science
is going to save

thousands of babies' lives.

That has to make you see
that you can't just change

your field of study at this
stage of your career.

You told me that you
didn't respect my choice--

you said you
didn't respect me.

- I didn't say that.
- And then there was a fire.

You know, it was a lot.

I gave you time,
and I gave you space,

but for two weeks now,
I've been waiting

for an apology
that hasn't come.

And now
you're doubling down?

You're-- There's no
apology coming

because you meant
what you said?

I think
you'll reconsider--

Yeah, changing my job
to protect my marriage.

It's not a job.

It's not a job.

It is a gift.

Alright.

And just like that
the feeling is mutual.

What feeling?

You told Kwan that
his strategy to disengage

emotionally from his patients
was smart.

What feeling?

All this time, I don't--
I don't know how I missed it.

Winston, what feeling?

The disrespect.

You're cold.

And I don't respect it.

Bailey,
w-w-where's Meredith?

She's one of a kind.

That's what I was trying to say.
She's one of a kind.

A firecracker.

- Yeah.
- Any words at all, really.

Look, she's, uh,
on her way to the airport.

But look, there's cake
if you need some.

You look like
you need some.

Well, fine.
More for me.

Woman over PA: This is the final
boarding call for Flight 623.

Any remaining passengers,

please proceed
to the gate at this time.

♪ Hold steady

♪ This heaviness

♪ Will break

Come on, come on, come on.

♪ Through the ground

♪ Take cover

♪ What's underneath

Oh, come on.

Oh, my God.

♪ Will find a way out

Alright.

Zola,
you can sit here.

Guys, we're gonna
sit here.

Go right in there.

♪ Living in the lost

I'm never gonna make it.

♪ Falling through the motions
like a sinking stone ♪

Okay.

♪ Living in the lost

♪ Seeking out the silence,
but you're never alone ♪

♪ Living in the lost

Who wants to read the new
Tessa book?

Oh, Zola, I know these are
a little young for you,

but this
is the last one ever.

That's the book?

Yes, I got
an advanced copy.

Hold on, guys.

Hi.
We're on the plane.

I love you.

I fell in love with you
the first day I met you.

I fell in love with you
the second day I met you.

And I have loved you
every minute of every day

that I have known you.

Meredith?

Um, I...

Meredith?

I can't quite
hear you.
Meredith?

We're about to take off,

so I'll call you
when we get settled.

Meredith...

Meredi--

"I've flown rockets
and slayed dragons,

I've saved lives
and I've had my life saved.

I've been through broken
bones and a broken home

and the death of people I love,
but I'm still here."

"I never chose
the safety of what was known

when there was the possibility
of more to be discovered."

Hey.

Could I stay
at your place tonight?

"I've had adventures that
most people only dream about."

♪ Nocturnal

"And I've had losses
that I still dream about."

♪ When the days and the nights
blend into one ♪

"And if there's one thing
I've learned

in all my adventures,
it's that there's no such thing

as a life lived
happily ever after.

Unless the happily means
simply that we're still alive.

That the sun is rising
on another day.

Because with every sunrise

comes the possibility
of happiness

and also the possibility
of heartache."

Uh, what are you doing here?

Grey gave me a key.

She said there's a hole
in the attic,

but if I don't mind overseeing
the repairs, I can stay here.

"And sometimes it's all
rolled up together."

Yeah, my Aunt Amelia
told me the same thing.

"I came to understand
as a very young child

that when the imagination
is limitless,

life's possibilities
are endless."

When I got kicked out
of my residency,

it also ended
my relationship.

Had my dream job,
was planning my dream life,

and then I didn't,
and I wasn't.

"But I learned that
the hard way."

It's not that
I don't feel things.

It's that
I don't want to put

you through
any kind of rebound.

♪ Keep reaching and seeing if
I can just break my way out ♪

I-I mean,

I could be down
for a rebound.

Did you really just say that?

Um, okay,
w-what I'm saying is,

you know, as long as
we call it what it is,

then no harm,
no foul, right?

Apparently
we live together

so that's
a really, uh...

...terrible idea.

Yeah.

♪ Oh

♪ Nocturnal

"I learned it through yearning
and frustration

and ache and longing

and sometimes desperation
for a life different

than the one I was living."

♪ Turned purple

♪ All the air that I had gone
from my lungs ♪

♪ Eyes are closing,
head spinning round ♪

"I learned to stretch
my imagination

and spread my wings,

and to allow for all
the options life had to offer."

♪ Oh

"Not only the ones
I could see with my eyes.

I stretch for the ones
I could feel with my heart."

♪ Lost or found,
who am I now? ♪

Wow.

This is amazing.

♪ Before I hit the ground

♪ Lost or found

♪ Who am I now?

What are
you doing here?

Uh, Dr. Pierce
gave me a key.

She said I could stay

if I fix up the hole
in the attic.

Same.
Same.

"As long as the sun rises
on your life..."

Then I guess we should have
brought sleeping bags.

"...there will be new
dragons to slay."

So, who wants pizza?

"So the end of my story is not
any kind of ever after.

Because I'm still alive.

I'm still here.

And the sun still
rises on my life."

♪ Break my way out

♪ Oh

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